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I see a creature, fierce and unbridled, A raging and dangerous fire

Still, I leaned closer to reach her flame.

The deep darkness, guiding me into her soul. Drawing me into her wasteland ... into her world.

I met Jackie in high school.

We weren't exactly friends.

She was popular, spontaneous,

but unstable.

I was weird

timid,

and retired.

We were both ... different,

we were not like the others.

AND...

that's what brought us together.

And eventually

it separated us.

Barren land

Users, the destination of this bus is San Diego, Calif.

We will arrive at 5:15 p.m.

The next stops are: Indio, San Bernardino and Los Angeles.

Hope you have a good day and thank you for traveling with us.

Saint Bernardine.

Next stop: San Bernardino.

Please have your bags ready.

Where are you headed?

The Angels.

From Arizona?

Yes. Tucson.

Are you excited?

I'm going to see an old friend.

In San Diego.

That's me,

and that's my friend Rose.

Lucky you!

Rose is very ill.

She is a very sad situation.

Life can be very ...

brutal.

Will you meet friends in L.A :?

A old.

Of the best kind?

I don't know what to say.

You don't seem to miss me that much.

5 years.

Wait, is that really you?

Is she a dream?

If I close my eyes, will you disappear?

How is everyone?

Still, nothing changes. You already know that.

Do you still think I'm crazy?

Yes.

Because you are crazy.

You know I hate it.

It's like a big black hole

that sucks you to him.

People are so negative.

And why stay there?

Why not move here ...

or somewhere else?

I am thinking of traveling ...

to Europe.

I know some guys

that travel around the world.

Something very crazy.

Maybe Australia.

When it's ready.

Or Thailand.

Thailand?

What ?!

You will end up turning into a disgusting whore.

forced to fuck with 10 guys and no teeth.

And you will have to swallow her cum and suck her penis.

Pinch Thailand!

Try to get out of there first.

I'm here right?

Yes, for a day.

You're leaving tomorrow right?

Make yourself at home.

This place is amazing.

I want a life like this.

How?

How is it.

Like you said before.

How?

I don't know.

It is difficult to explain.

Everything is so different.

The little details, it's different.

I want a Ferrari.

Is it all you want?

No.

There are other things too.

Really expensive.

Really?

Clear.

Stuff.

Stuff.

Is there anything else you want?

Apart from ... things.

What is there other than luxury?

That can't be a real question.

Of course it is.

There is love, empathy ... creativity.

Do you still want to act?

No.

If you remember, that was years ago.

You don't want to act anymore?

At least you tried?

It's not my thing.

I have changed.

You will see.

Just tell me if that's normal.

I'm going to get a massage

I was upside down with the face in a hole,

the asian girl,

She is on top of me with them massaging the back of my neck.

On the nape?

Yes, on the back of my neck.

Starts down my back

I had no clothes.

Okay. Then,

right when she hit my ass,

She was like ...

crying on my neck.

Seriously.

She keeps going all the way down my back and then

Was she like pumping your head?

It was so weird.

I felt very uncomfortable.

Sorry to tell you but, I don't think it's normal.

So how do they know each other?

We grew up together in Tucson, Arizona.

They must be very close.

She is visiting.

We haven't seen each other in 5 years.

Why so much?

It's complicated.

She is crazy.

Oh yeah?

You know what they say

They are always the most serious.

How old are you?

I have 40.

What about you?

You do not want to know.

Hey, what's up?

I'll be right back.

Health.

What do you think?

What?

What are you thinking about?

About what?

Didn't you hear what I just said?

Come on, we have to go.

Come on! Let's go!

I love your shoes!

Let's go home now.

Put your hands here.

Bring it on!

Do you have a ... 10?

Eat.

Do you have a ... 5?

Does not eat.

Do you have a ... 2?

Eat.

You got it.

Cheater!

What are you talking about?

Show me your hand.

Not you...

Show me your cards.

There you have them.

I knew it!

What ?!

Come on!

Open it!

Annotation!

I want one.

I want to do it.

Do it.

Right there, you'll have better aim.

Why?

Shit, it wasn't!

She was driving on the freeway

it was too small to be an airplane,

it was very close...

it was too close and quiet for a helicopter.

It was round, it floated and it moved with me.

It was a UFO, I know.

I came back to see it again.

Did you look for it?

Yes, I looked for it and it was gone.

It just ... disappeared.

As if she had imagined it.

No. It's more good to do at that point.

You see a UFO and what are you going to do? Call someone?

I just wanted to see it up close ... I just wanted to,

I would be: Wow! What am I going to do?

There is a UFO.

Now what?

I wouldn't know what to do.

I would just tell everyone.

I would tell you.

I miss you.

At first when you left ...

it was not what I expected.

I was so ... lost.

She drank like crazy and she listened to songs that will remind me of you.

He was embarrassing.

I don't think I knew but, I had lost my best friend

but...

then everything went back to normal.

You get used to it.

Distance sucks.

When I get here ...

I missed you too.

But I got over it!

After ... a few weeks,

turned a little ...

trivial.

Do not say that.

I am your friend, and always will be.

What is that supposed to mean?

It means that ...

no matter what, no matter ...

what you do or who you fuck.

I am the person you can call.

Forever.

I do not think so.

Words like "Always" come from these ...

innocent and passionate moments but ...

the "Always" is boring ...

lonely, painful, and terrifying.

The "always" is just unreal.

Ana.

Come on

Ana.

I told you I'm fine.

I know I can be a bit of a sucker.

Yes.

She forgot me.

Stop.

I'm fine.

Perfectly.

You are not well.

Stop!

What?

Shit!

Where are you going?

Now!

She knew from the beginning.

You were always the special one.

You were going to go to ... a school,

before law school.

You don't know how pressed you are

Until the pressure goes

I do not care...

Not anymore ... fuck it!

What happened at the bar,

I'm fine with that...

I had a frenzy ... in fact,

I enjoyed it.

Sometimes...

I think there is something wrong with me.

I can't forget that thought.

As i know ...

she was not a girl,

not a boy, as if ...

a rare species made for everyone else.

I like you just the way you are.

You don't understand, do you?

Of course I do.

Of course I do, Jackie.

We should ... do something.

No!

Let's stay here all night

to have sex and to sleep.

I want to do something, I'm anxious.

Oh my God!

Come on!

Jackie, he's terrific!

Every time I want to be with myself.

I come here.

Did you go out with someone after I left?

Let's go tell me.

Do you know Lee?

Clear.

Read "the idiot."

We dated together for a few months.

And what was it like?

Come on, tell me about Lee.

I just liked being out in the trailer.

His family treated me very well.

They were normal, nothing of what I used to.

They threw me a birthday party with balloons.

It was nice. I liked it.

How is your grandmother?

Old woman.

She can no longer see well and she is forgetting things.

Do you ever think of your parents?

I do not do it.

What about you?

My mother calls me often.

Every month ... or maybe every two.

She worries but

Just enough to make you feel like you're doing your part.

You know My parents don't really care.

They only deposit into my account,

They pay me like I'm a prostitute.

As if it's the only thing I want.

No.

It's too much.

Jackie!

You're a fucking immature!

You are exactly the same!

You can't know what it feels like!

You had it all, you lived with your grandmother!

I can't believe she's letting me go.

This is so stupid.

This was just a mistake.

This is a fucking mistake!

What are you talking about ?!

I remember now!

Yes ?!

I remember because only part of me was happy!

We're fine and you suddenly turn the moment to shit!

Especially when you're drinking!

Calm down, Jackie!

You don't have the fucking right to talk to me like that!

Who the fuck do you think you are ?!

We are not friends! We never spoke!

When I needed you, you were never there!

Do you understand ?!

Do you understand me ?!

HELL CLUB UNLEASH YOUR DESIRE

Are you awake?

Ana.

Awake.

Ana, are you awake?

I'm awake.

Do you remember when we saluted classes?

When did we go to the lake?

We spent all day in the hills

We smoked marijuana.

Everyone thought we were crazy.

It was so cool.

You used to walk among the rocks and ...

then we swam together,

in the lake.

And at night,

We flirted with the boys by the campfire.

I took care of you as if you were my little sister.

They wanted you so much!

I remember.

We dreamed of the future.

Where would we live,

the name of our children.

But the future is not as we imagine it.

Exact.

What?

Do you remember the camp when it was ...

Derek?

Yes, I remember.

Does anyone know a ghost story?

I know one.

Something like that.

Once in a church ...

I went because a friend cleaned it every Sunday.

Me in the center of the church and

and she was on the other shore.

Suddenly I heard behind me.

BOM, BOM, BOM, BOM, BOM!

Like running after me.

Jesus Christ was looking for you!

There was no one there!

He gave me a lot of death! Very scary!

That was an altar boy!

Or the holy wine!

I was strange dreams,

they always started with me in bed,

And then with children hitting the wall

then a black shape appeared moving.

I was starting to park up.

Then stop dreaming that for a while.

I was dreaming something similar!

One day, a quilt by the window started to ...

move. And me:

Mother whore! Whore mother!

It was moving! and suddenly ... my cat comes out.

And it never happened again.

Something happened to me once at my parents' house.

It does not compare with what happened to you. but...

He was lying on the bed and

I had my arm under the pillow ...

I was...

He was asleep and I wake up suddenly

I felt something under my pillow.

I realize what a hand was, and it was very cold.

It was my hand! It had her numb!

My father comes into my room screaming! Really!

My father comes into my room with a bat!

What fart ?! What is it ?!

And I: Nothing! Just ...

I was a spider, a spider I ...

a spider frightened me.

You are the heroine of today, did you know?

You are my heroine. Today you are my heroine.

Definitely.

You have something here.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

Not counting what messes you up with this.

My chocolate is useless!

For later, for later.

For when we go home.

It's already dark.

I had already heard that.

Does anyone want to howl at the moon?

What? No!

Why?

We men do. Right?

At 1, at 2, at 3.

By the moon!

It's way down, right?

I don't hang out with guys like you.

Oh yeah?

Am I the guy your mother warned you about?

Of course you are.

Because you are the one with me.

I'm not stopping you beer so you don't go.

I have beer in my face ... right here.

Let's see.

Ahh, it wasn't much beer, it would have been more.

We already know each other enough.

We can ... you know, you and me go.

We can go to the cabin, or something.

I do not do that.

Wait, where are you going?

Come on, what don't you do? What don't you do?

I don't know.

I do not want to do it. I'm going to pee.

You don't have to urinate. Look!

There are sheets and everything. We can be just you and me.

I'll be right back.

Come on!

Where is Derek?

What about Jackie?

They went up the hill.

They were gone, they just disappeared.

That was a long time ago.

I didn't know you had seen that.

I couldn't stop thinking about it.

I tried.

It hurt.

Every boy I liked, you took it from me.

Like Derek.

And it was all because, I didn't do what you did.

I didn't put them in my mouth.

I didn't even let them fuck me like a bitch.

Every time I thought of you it hurt.

But...

there is something else.

I had orgasms.

And not only come to me, but ...

that my whole body convulsed and trembled.

Those were the best orgasms of my life.

Just thinking of you.

Why did you come here?

Seriously, why did you come here?

To see you.

No.

I came to see you.

You are lying.

I'm not lying.

What did you come to?

I can't do this again.

Why did you come after 5 fucking years ?!

I'm so tired.

So tired ... of ... everything.

My grandmother is ... dying.

She has cancer.

Maybe she only has 3 months left.

Or maybe a year.

Anyway, she doesn't seem conscious.

When she dies ...

She will be alone ... all alone.

Sometimes I think about what happened.

In the fire.

She was only 3 years old.

My father fell asleep on the couch.

My room was on the first floor.

I got out of bed and walked into the garden.

I came back for my mother.

The only thing I remember is that ... He kissed me on the cheek and while crying.

I savored her tears.

I will never forget that taste.

When the police arrived ... they said ...

they had burned their hands trying to put it out.

When people ask me I say I don't remember anything.

Because I don't want to remember it.

But he knew what he had done.

I wanted to touch the flames.

I wanted them to burn me too.

I still want it.

They always told me that my parents saw me from heaven.

But I didn't feel it neither saw it nor heard it.

I was always alone.

Completely alone.

Not knowing where to go

AND...

I blame myself.

And the guilt never went away.

So...

a day at school ...

after many years ...

I talked to a girl she hated.

She was a cocky little bitch.

and ... one day he lent me a toy.

After that we talked about bands

We started going out and dressing the same.

We were going to eat together.

She was just like me.

She was different from the others.

She screwed up in some ways.

She had something that I didn't ...

She made him do crazy things!

We get high, we get drunk, we flirt with guys!

It was ... us against the world.

There is something that I have never lacked in my life ...

my grandmother.

When she dies I will be alone.

You're the only one I'm connected to, Jackie.

That's why I'm here.

You are the only one who has made me feel like a person,

and not a fucking zombie.

I work in a club.

What kind of club?

Company.

I attend to men.

You touch ...

their penises?

Wait 5 minutes and then find me. Ok?

Only you can understand.

Hello?

When did it happen?

Last night.

I can't believe she's dead.

I will go in the afternoon to fix everything.

Where is it going?

Union Station.