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- Previously on

"The Real Housewives

of Beverly Hills"...

- I let go of my marriage.

I let of everything.

I did not see

it ending this way.

I was gonna hold

that man's hand till he died.

- When you were married,

it was probably

more of what he wanted.

- That would be all of

what he wanted.

- And now you get to do

what you want.

- Right.

- You need to start thinking

about a bat mitzvah dress.

- Mom, no.

- You should be excited

about that, Portia.

- I don't even know

what to wear to a bat mitzvah.

- Portia's not socializing,

so it worries me,

as a mom, for her.

[traditional Italian music]

- It looks so cute, Harry.

It's Positano in Beverly Hills.

- Everything's kind of ready.

- Wow.

- Wow.

- Che bello.

- This is really good.

Wow.

- The word "violate"

is really crazy to me.

- Look up the word.

It is an abuse of privacy,

which is what you did to me.

- Why are you so defensive?

- You're upset

because you're jealous.

- Uh-uh. I'm out. I'm out.

(BLEEP) you, Crystal.

- What am I gonna say?

- Jealous of what?

Your ugly leather pants?

- Oh my God. Oh my God.

Oh my God.

- No, no, no, no, no, no.

Nope. Nope, nope, nope.

- She said "ugly leather pants.

Ugly leather pants."

- What am I jealous of?

Are you ----ing kidding me? No.

- Wait, wait, wait.

Sutton, come here for a second.

- Hold on. Hold on.

Don't leave.

- Listen to me.

- Please, sit down.

- Listen to me.

- I don't--

[sniffling]

- Listen to me.

- Sutton, what happened?

- Yes, I'm listening.

- Listen to me. Listen to me.

- [chuckles]

- Calm down, okay?

You're okay. And it's okay.

- Breathe.

- It's all right.

- Breathe. Breathe.

- It's all right.

- Breathe.

- Get you a drink?

- I'm good. I think maybe

someone else needs a drink.

- It's all right, okay?

- Okay.

- It's all right.

- Okay.

I didn't handle that well.

- It doesn't matter.

- It's okay.

- Sweetie, what happened?

- That's okay.

- You know,

that was wrong of me.

I think they were pleather.

Not leather pants, but.

- Garcelle, tell me what--

[laughs]

- [exhales]

- I'm a little shocked.

I don't--

- You were coming down

looking beautiful and smiling.

- I was like--

- And then it all blew up.

- Do you want me

to walk you out?

- No, no, no, I'm okay.

- Okay.

- Tell me what to do.

- I am always gonna be

100% honest with you.

- Yeah.

- The word "violation"

threw everybody for a loop.

- That's the word I used.

And if people don't like it,

they don't like it.

I'm not gonna take back

a word that I used,

actually, correctly,

and it means...

- Crossing the line.

- A violation of privacy.

Crossing the line.

She crossed the line.

- Girl, come on.

You got to bend a little bit.

"You know, hey,

maybe I went out of line,

but I also felt like you

did something."

At least acknowledge that.

It doesn't mean

you're not right.

- Can we just go sit down...

- Well, it's your home.

- And have a cocktail,

and we can talk a little bit

if we're uncomfortable?

Thank you.

- What does it take to get

a drink around this place?

- What can I say?

- You and your ugly

leather pants.

- I don't know what to do.

I don't know what to say.

- Nothing.

- What did she say?

- But you can't egg her on.

- What'd she say?

- Lisa wants everybody

just to sit down.

- Let's go.

- Okay, I will, I will.

But, like, tell me--

- Let's go.

You guys do that.

- No, no, baby, you're fine.

- Ooh, are those hot toddies?

- So whatever

you wanna do, honey.

I do not want you

to feel pressure.

If you feel

comfortable enough--

- Come sit next to me.

- Okay, I'm coming.

Crystal, I apologize for

talking badly about your pants.

I think they're very cute,

actually.

- Fashion--it's not

that important.

- No, I don't care about it.

- When you insult someone's

outfit, that is below the belt.

- Not everyone likes

what everyone wears.

Sutton's wore

some questionable sh--.

- I think the pants

are darling.

- I never had this.

- It's, like, a whiskey,

and it's really--

- But we all thought this was

done and finished

and we weren't gonna

talk about it again.

But Sutton was in tears

and wanted to leave.

She still feels uncomfortable.

- Did something I say

trigger it today?

- No, it's just your presence.

- My presence. Okay.

- Now, was that necessary?

- No-no--do you--y'all,

come on.

It's hard for me to, like,

be here and be with you,

'cause you made judgments

about me without knowing me.

- You know that line?

"When people show you

who they are, believe them"?

That's all.

- Why are you constantly mean?

[tense music]

- You're upset because

you want be to apologize

for something that you did.

I will not.

Let's be clear.

- No. Let's--

- I will not apologize...

- Get your fingers...

- For your actions.

- Out of the air.

- You're an inappropriate,

awkward person.

* *

Period.

And then you want to cry

and get empathy?

You're not gonna get it.

Trust me.

- Okay. One, I'm not crying

to get empathy.

I was crying

because I wanted to leave.

- Then leave!

It's obnoxious.

- Mm.

- I think we should put

on your big girl panties.

Tell her what you need.

- What do you want from her

so we can move on?

[dynamic music]

- You have hurt me.

In a lot of ways.

"Manic" is a little much.

- It is.

- I don't trust your reactions.

It feels, like, kind of manic.

- Kind of need that one

to be retracted.

- I'm not taking that back.

- Well, I think manic, because

she had confessed to you

that her father

had committed suicide.

- And he was manic.

- I don't judge you based

on your father's story.

- Right, but she just--

she's just telling you why

it's a sensitive subject.

- Sure. Okay.

- Why it particularly

stung like a bee.

- Okay, I take away

that you're manic,

and I'm sorry that you feel bad

that I said that,

and I won't say that again.

- But don't say that

unless you believe it.

- I said I won't say it--no,

no, I said I feel bad--

- Don't say it

unless you truly--

- Wait, Lisa.

- Don't say it.

- Did you hear what I said?

- Say it again.

Don't say it unless

you believe it.

- I said I feel bad

that I said it.

- Okay.

- And I won't say it again.

- Okay, good.

Hmm.

This is definitely going

in the non-apology

apology hall of fame.

- Okay, if you guys apologize

to each other.

We don't talk about it again.

- But we gotta make sure

that you're okay. Are you okay?

- I am more than happy

to move on from this.

- Awesome. Good.

- So let's be done.

- Let's forget about

being jealous.

Let's forget about whatever

ugly pants we're wearing.

This is me lowering

my expectations and moving on.

- We don't want to ever

feel like we're pushing

someone over the edge.

- That's right.

- That is mixed up.

- Messed up?

- Messed up, mixed up.

- You know what?

- No, but I'm serious.

- Here's the thing, guys,

stay true to yourselves,

take one day at a time,

and live in the moment.

Right?

That's all we can do.

- And lock your door.

- Right.

- And lock your damn door.

- Don't need to say that.

You don't need to say that.

- I did.

- You gotta stop.

- Shut up, Sutton.

[laughter]

Just zip it.

- I was making a joke.

Come on.

- I know.

- Too soon.

- I am drunk.

- Me too! Yay!

- Hi, Kyle.

- Oh, Kyle.

- You know I'm positive.

You got my text.

- [coughing]

- Yeah.

- Okay.

- Dorit has it also.

- Kathy, Dorit, and I have

all tested positive for COVID.

- How are you feeling?

'Cause you're in it.

- Yeah. I just feel--you know

when you, like, don't feel good

and you feel emotional?

I just feel, like, depressed.

- Oh.

- So now, the entire group

has to quarantine

for at least two weeks.

- It's scary.

[dramatic music]

- Coming up...

- We are here for you, Erika.

We know who you are.

[birds chirping]

- Have you been

on social media,

the news, anything at all?

Something broke today about her

and Tom being sued.

- Wow, this is on Fox News.

- It's everywhere.

It's everywhere.

- There's news reports

coming out that are alleging

that Tom embezzled this money

from victims

of this plane crash,

and to see Erika's name

involved in it is shocking.

- Seeing these headlines

makes you cringe.

Sone of these victims,

they're widows, orphans.

That's the punch in the gut.

- You just can't imagine this

is somebody you know

or you spend time with,

and this is possible.

[dramatic music]

- Is this the tip

of the iceberg? I don't know.

- I have no idea

if it's true or not.

But I have to be able

to keep an open mind

and say innocent

until proven guilty,

because I'm going based

on the person that I know.

- How are you?

- ----ing horrible.

How do you think I am?

This sucks so bad.

The things that are being said

are just wrong.

People are believing them,

and they're everywhere,

and it's terrible,

and I'm here by myself.

And what's being said is

just--I mean,

it's insane--that

my divorce is a sham.

But nobody cares

about the facts.

- So, when they say

it's a sham--

- They said my divorce

is a sham

so I can help hide assets.

The answer is no.

- How do you hide assets

in a divorce, though?

- I wouldn't ----ing know.

Divorce is very painful.

And then having it called

a sham is even more painful.

Took a lot of courage

to leave,

and it took two seconds

for some asshole

to say it was a sham,

and everybody to believe it.

When I filed this divorce,

I was a gold digger.

This week,

"you're a conspirator."

I mean, what the (BLEEP)?

And none--neither

one of them are true.

- Are you totally in the dark?

Like, what is the situation?

- Well, you have to-you

have to remember, it's the firm

that they're dragging in,

so they're suing the firm,

and I'm being attached to it.

- I can't answer that.

I don't know

what happens from here.

Some very bad things

could happen.

- That is the answer--

that is the question.

I don't know why

I would be named in a lawsuit

I have nothing to do with.

- Like, what is the worst?

- Criminal charges.

- Not for you, though.

- No.

- What does that mean exactly?

- It could be

a criminal investigation.

- Right.

You know, when you

allege sh-- like that...

- What does that mean?

I'm scared to even say it.

- Yeah.

It means a lot of things.

- Yeah.

- It's so ----ed up.

I've got more lawyers

than I can ----ing afford.

- Doesn't he have to take care

of that, since he's, you know?

- Not right now, you know.

Not right now.

Not with everything else

going on.

I think I'm the least

of his worries.

- Yeah.

- And he hasn't given me

one dime

since I've walked out

that door.

So this is all on me.

- Yep.

- To be out here on your own

and to have, like,

millions of dollars

worth of lawsuits

pointed out you is heavy.

And to know that the person

that got you here

has been like--

you know, like,

what the (BLEEP) am I gonna do?

I wake up every morning

and I think about

what I need to tackle

on a legal front every day.

- Oh, my God, Erika.

- It's just one

of those things.

I mean, I--

- How long could you

be dealing with this for?

- God. Well over a year.

- Oh, my God.

- You're strong, and you're

gonna get through this.

- It's a lot.

It's depressing.

- And being in this lockdown

doesn't help matters either.

- God, no.

- No, it gives me, like,

really high anxiety.

- You can literally call me

any time you want to talk

or you have anxiety.

You know that I know

how to deal with anxiety.

I can talk you through that

and be there to listen,

and I'm not going anywhere.

- Thank you.

- Me too. Me too.

We are here for you, Erika.

We know who you are.

You are a good person.

- [crying] I didn't do this.

- I know.

- I know that, Erika.

- We know you didn't

do it, Erika.

We know that this

is not who you are.

You would not do this.

- Didn't do this.

- I know, sweetie.

- Coming up...

- Makes you feel better

if the person that you had

put up on a pedestal--

- Is really a piece of sh--.

- Horrible allegations.

[bright music]

* *

- I feel like this is,

like, a never-ending

----ing [inaudible].

* *

- Hello, hello!

- Hi.

- Hello!

- Come on in.

- Hi.

- Is he getting on your nerves?

- Oh, are you kidding me?

- Stop leaning on everybody.

- Are you kidding?

I love-I love this.

- Do you want something?

May I get you

something to drink?

- Should we go outside?

- We can.

I just don't know where she is.

- Hi.

- Oh, there she is.

Oh, my God.

- Yes. There we go.

- How are you?

- Hi.

- Hi.

- You look adorable.

-

I have lots of liquid for you.

- Yay. Thank you.

Well, welcome to the unfinished

little bungalow.

This house is very small.

- It gives me the chills.

I love it.

Don't say it's small.

It's not small.

- Girl.

- Don't--

- Let me grab my purse.

- Okay, bring your purse,

and we'll go--

we'll sit outside.

- Oh, okay.

- Because the best part

of this house is outside.

Come on in here.

- Look at this cute pool.

I love this pool.

It's just a great backyard.

It's a great vibe.

- Champagne?

- I love it.

- Well, you know my new motto.

Why not?

- I know. Like, yesterday,

I was like, "It's 3:30.

Is it too soon

to have a cocktail?"

- The answer is no.

- It's not.

- I hold on so long, at the end

of the day, I'm like--

- Well, you've got little kids.

- Sometimes I just burst

into tears [inaudible].

- I'm sure you do.

- It's really bad.

- That's hard.

- Here's to bursting

into tears.

- [inaudible]

it's hard.

- [laughing]

- Bursting into my own

set of tears.

- Have you been

bursting into tears?

- Yeah, I have been.

[electronic music]

[line trilling]

- Hello?

- I am in front of your house.

Hello.

- How are you?

- I'm good. How are you?

- I'm better.

- Let's be safe.

- Walk along the side

of the house

and come to the backyard.

- Okay.

[playful music]

- Hello?

Hello?

Garcelle?

- Yeah? [laughs]

- Hi.

Oh, my God. I feel so--

- Rapunzel, Rapunzel,

let down your hair.

- I know.

My hair with the gray roots.

- Oh my God. Listen.

You look good, considering.

- I mean--let get my dog.

Get over here.

- Okay.

Well, while you do that,

I'm gonna put this down.

I'll put it on

your pedestal here, I guess.

Kyle and I have come

a long way.

- Then you came to

my charity event,

raised your paddle

to donate $5,000

to Children's Hospital

Los Angeles, and never paid.

- What? You better watch

what you're saying.

That is not true.

You saying I didn't pay,

that's why it hurt so much.

- I totally understand.

And for that, I apologize.

- Thank you.

I can't believe now

I'm Romeo to her Juliet.

Although, I'm not

drinking poison for her.

Uh-uh.

I still don't have my boys.

- Oh, my God.

- I spend by birthday alone.

- I still haven't seen

my family.

They-they hightailed it

out of here.

- They did go to the desert?

- My-my husband

was burning rubber.

He was like,

"I hope you're okay."

[imitates tire screech]

Like, I mean, done.

So ironic to me that on

"Little House on the Prairie,"

there was an episode called

"Quarantine,"

where I had scarlet fever

and was in isolation.

- No, papa. Hot.

- This is the drink

[indistinct].

It'll be good

for your throat and your mouth.

- No, papa. Hot water.

- This is one time

where I really did not

need life to imitate art.

So, they're gonna

come home tomorrow.

- Oh, that's good.

- So, now that I'm better,

Kathy's better,

Dorit is better,

we want to finally do

our girls' trip to La Quinta.

- What?

- Yes!

I want to come sneeze

on you, Garcelle.

- I'm not going anywhere--

you guys have cooties.

I'm not going

anywhere you're going.

- Kathy, Dorit, and I

are the safest people

to be around right now.

- Yeah, that's true.

I may have to call

Naomi Campbell

and get her hazmat suit.

- Yeah, exactly.

[laughter]

I'll send an email

to everybody.

- And Erika's coming.

- I'm assuming.

I'm gonna invite everyone.

- Okay.

- How are you, Erika?

- I'm not good.

I called my psychiatrist.

- Good.

- Important.

- It's too much pressure.

So painful when

you read things...

- I know.

- About that lawsuit that says

that my divorce is a sham

so I could hide assets.

Does this look--

- Doesn't look like

you're hiding any assets.

No.

- That has big implications,

and unfortunately

people want to believe that.

- Why? It's horrible.

- You know,

it makes you feel better

if all of a sudden the person

that you had

put up on a pedestal...

- Is really a piece of sh--,

really steals from widows

and orphans.

- But why do people want that?

- And then they go, "See?

I knew it."

- Because there's a sadistic

streak in everybody.

People think that Erika Jayne

brought down Tom Girardi.

Tom Girardi

brought down Tom Girardi.

I don't want his actions

to absolutely kill

what I have created.

I fear starting over.

The only thing I have

is my name,

and the hope that this is not

where this ends for me.

Those who know you know,

but if you've never had to deal

with anything like this,

then of course it's easy

to believe everything

that's put out there.

- Every day,

it's something more.

- With Erika.

- Yeah.

- I know.

- Horrible allegations.

To think that people

passed away--it's horrible.

Has she said anything

to anybody?

- I mean, I've spoken to her

a couple times,

and she just said

it's been really, really hard.

And she said,

"I didn't do these things.

I did not do these"--

- She actually said that.

- She said that.

- But, like, this stuff

that came--were

you--did you know?

Oh, wow.

- I ask myself

what else is coming?

- Do you have any idea?

- None.

It's not just Tom

going down with the ship.

He's taking us

all down with him.

- You seem like you have

a very good head

on your shoulders,

dealing with this.

This is-this would be

really intense. I mean--

- She's smart. You know.

- The people that stayed

with him,

the people that were loyal

to him,

he's brought it on them

as well,

through whatever he's done.

We don't even know

what he's done.

But he's made a mess

for all of us.

It's mile one of a marathon.

And that's really the truth.

- It's unbelievable.

You almost go, like,

"Is it the same person

we know?" Like--

- Just knowing her like I do,

I'm like,

"This just

is not ringing true."

- Yeah, you've known her

a lot longer than-

- Yeah.

- Than me, obviously. Horrible.

- Nightmare.

- Yeah.

- One of the reasons

I don't think this divorce

is a shame is maybe Erika,

once she found out

these lawsuits were coming,

decided, "I'm not

staying around for this,"

and decided,

"I'm gonna get out of here."

- Maybe Tom did these things.

But I don't think

Erika knew about it.

One thing that I do know is

that husbands can have secrets

that wives don't know about.

- But obviously, when you're

married and you trust someone

and you-you love them

and you've spent

that many years together...

- Yeah. Yeah.

- You know, you just trust.

- Blindly sometimes.

- I'm gonna give you a lesson

that I've learned.

When I entered my marriage,

I was 28 years old,

and the power balance

was like this. Right?

You see what's happening

to me today.

Please look

at your bank accounts.

- Yeah.

- You have to.

- I deal with all

the living stuff.

But, like, when it--like--like,

a bank account freaks me out.

- Please...

- Don't ignore it.

- Don't ignore it.

- Yes, I know.

- You need to know...

- Yes.

- Where your money is, what's

coming in, what's going out.

Like, you need

to know everything.

Most women don't know.

- Totally.

- A lot of these women

that I know don't really work

or make their own money.

But I'm the one

who pays the bills.

What if, God forbid,

one day, Rob's gone?

With Harry and I,

everything is joint,

except for we each have

our own personal account.

So I've always known

where the money is

and where the dead bodies

are hidden and buried.

[laughs]

- I think also, too, the more

money your husband makes,

the more they shut you out.

And then 22 years later,

it doesn't end up great.

- I don't know every detail

about our financial situation.

But I know Rob would be happy

to share it with me.

And if he didn't, that would be

a red flag for me.

- If you were to do it

differently,

now that you know

what you know,

and you're going through

what you're going through,

or don't--

- Or I don't know

what I don't know

- Exactly--what would

you do differently?

- Right.

[dramatic music]

- I don't know that

there's anything--

I could have done

anything differently,

'cause I kept asking, and

I was continuously shut out.

- Oh!

- Okay.

- Okay.

- Two years ago,

when I was named

in a lawsuit in Arizona,

I was like,

"I didn't do anything."

And then I went home

and I said, "What is this?"

And he said, "It's bullsh--.

Don't worry about it."

And when I pressed further,

"I don't want to

talk about it."

I pleaded, I begged,

I cried, I tried.

I pushed as hard as I could,

until I couldn't push anymore.

- Right.

- I know how mean

and how vicious and how utterly

dismissive Tom is.

Tom wins. You lose.

The end.

That's the way

it's always been.

* *

- Coming up...

- [imitates howling]

- [barking]

- Sue.

Awhoo!

[upbeat music]

* *

- Hi!

- Hi.

- Hi, guys.

- Hey.

- How are you?

- We're good.

- You guys are so cute.

Delilah has been dating

Eyal Booker

for over a year now.

Amelia watched "Love Island."

She saw Eyal, and she said,

"Eyal is a male version

of Delilah."

So Delilah slid into his DMs.

I know how these girls work.

- Be patient, always.

And, you know, half the time

they're on their period,

so you always

have to remember that.

He has started

a fitness business,

'cause if you've seen his body,

this is a creature

like no other.

I want to show you something

that I told you

that I still have.

It's so--

- It's so silly,

but it's here in the garage,

but I want to show it to you.

- You know what, I gotta-I

gotta deal with this situation.

I'm not kidding. All my good

dresses are down here.

It's even on a wire hanger.

Hang on.

How do I show you this?

I'm just gonna put it down

on the floor.

It's all right.

Look at this.

- Look how gorgeous it is.

- Well, I saved it for you.

Some parents pass along

gun collections,

stamp collections.

I pass along vintage dresses.

No one's ever asked me for them

and no one's ever said,

"I want to wear the"--

- Well, I can't do that.

You don't want those dresses

in your main closet,

'cause there was no room.

Well, at least not

in my main closet.

So, it is in the garage.

And it's not fancy.

And it's dirty.

And it's not cute.

This dress was $5,000

when we bought it,

so it's got to be worth

probably 20 now.

It's an original Herve Leger.

I mean, they don't even

make them anymore. It's done.

But they're all protected.

They're covered.

And they're fine.

And now I've great

locks and padlocks,

and things on those doors,

so don't think about

coming for my dresses.

They're locked away.

I have a Versace

that Gianni Versace made me

when I was pregnant with you.

- That one's yours.

- You can probably wear it

before you're pregnant, I bet.

Maybe after you

just have a burrito,

you'll probably be fine.

When we finally got the dress,

with my pregnancy,

I had gotten bigger,

and it didn't fit in the back.

I'm, like,

an organized hoarder.

I knew exactly where it was.

So Harry runs down

to the garage

and gets a pair of pliers,

and somehow is able to fix

the dress in the back

and make it fit, of course.

Excuse me

while I move the gas can.

This is a vintage

Tom Ford Gucci,

with the gold belt.

Like--

- You guys always thought

I was weird,

and now you all of a sudden

think I'm cool

because you realize

what good sh-- I have.

I worked hard

for these dresses.

I bought them myself.

And I'm an only child,

and I don't like to share.

So the fact that I've saved

these dresses

to share with the girls

is a big deal for me.

I'll show you--if you want

to come here,

I'll show you

my little private stash.

I really gotta get

this nice, though.

My expectations are not high.

I think it's gonna be

one Instagram shot

and forgotten about.

You can come and wear

anything you want.

- You want to know something?

- What?

- Amelia told me that she's

your favorite child.

So you can make it

up to me with--

- I don't have

a favorite child.

I love you both the same.

- Yeah, I'll be telling

my kids that too,

but I won't mean it.

- Ah!

- Oh, my God,

you guys--killing me.

[energetic music]

- Sue. Come here.

[imitates howling]

Awoo!

- [barks]

- Awoo.

- [barks]

- Ah-oo!

Arf.

Sue. Awoo!

- Hi.

- Hi, honey. How are you?

- I'm good.

I'm not hugging.

- Mwah, mwah, mwah,

mwah, mwah, mwah.

- Mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah.

Oh my God, these are so pretty.

- I have been working on these.

- I should be doing this.

- These are all my--

my new collection.

- I love them.

- Aren't they pretty?

- Look at this one,

with the creepy looking doll.

- The little girl.

- Oh, that doll is terrifying.

- No, look at--her eyes open.

- Demented.

- No.

She's a little vintage girl.

- Looks like "What

Happened to Baby Jane?" to me.

- Well, I'll let you know

I love that.

I always come up

with all my little fantasies.

I could see, you know, angels

or soldiers, teddy bears,

crystal fruit, vintage snowmen,

little miniature shoes,

an old Saks Fifth Avenue

receipt--absolutely beautiful.

- I'm having--not having

a good day.

- What's wrong?

- Just really depressed.

Really just--it's all

getting to me.

- You know what,

it's a very emotional thing,

getting COVID.

- For me,

it's the parenting thing.

I don't even feel like

I can do a good job right now.

I really don't.

It's like--

- You're the best.

- But I-I feel like

I can't do anything.

Portia's so little,

and she can't do anything.

She can't go anywhere.

She's just, like, home.

- I know, honey, it's hard.

- I've always prided myself

on being a really good mom.

That's, like, my thing,

you know?

It's my favorite thing.

What I'm best at.

So I don't like to see

my child not at her best.

Why have you missed

some of your classes, honey?

- The other day, I missed

my first two classes...

- It's 12:30.

My kid as asleep when I left.

What am I gonna do? Wake her?

There's nothing to do.

Just makes me feel like

I'm not doing a good job.

- Yeah, sure.

- If I had done things

in the past, I could have

kept up dancing for her,

have somebody come privately,

outside, or something,

but I can't even do that.

I hear so many people say,

"Oh, my kids are missing

their friends and missing

going and doing this,"

and my worry's actually

the opposite,

seeing Portia

being comfortable

not going to school,

not seeing people,

not leaving your home.

That is what worries me

as a mom.

I'm trying so hard

to keep her with kids her age.

- Right. That's important.

- And she's so mature as it is

that it's like,

I want her to be a kid.

- And not just be

with the older sisters.

- Exactly.

- 'Cause they're on

different pages.

- Well, you know I would

never normally allow her

to have those long nails.

What are your teachers

thinking about those nails?

- I'm like this.

They don't see my--

it only shows, like, here.

- How can you even type

with those nails?

- 'Cause I'm a queen.

- But she has nothing to do,

so she wants to play

with makeup at home

and put on these things

and take them out

and put--what?

I mean, am I gonna say no?

For what?

There, like, new rules,

even, anymore.

- You're not alone.

Everyone's feeling this.

- Really?

- Kyle and I were not

on good terms for a while.

- Since "American Woman,"

it's not like it was before.

We did everything together,

talked every single day,

ten times a day.

It's not like that.

- It feels wonderful to

be there for Kyle and for Kyle

to be there for me

if I need her.

- Just one of those days,

you know?

- You have to get it

off your chest.

- And I know it could be

so much worst.

I spoke to Erika, and--

- How is she doing?

- Not good.

She was just saying--just,

like, the headlines

and the things out there

about her that aren't true,

and she can't defend

or explain herself.

- Look, at the end of the day,

life is a poker game,

and everybody's got

to show their cards.

- Kathy, shut up.

[laughter]

- Coming up...

- [crying]

Kyle, this is so hard.

I could have never predicted

this-this ----ing sh--.

[electronic music]

* *

- Waylon. Waylon. Waylon.

[clapping]

Way. Way. Way. Mm-mm.

Are you stuck?

Come here. Come on, Way.

[knocking at door]

- Oh, my goodness. Oh!

- Oh, my goodness.

- Oh, my goodness. It's Waylon!

- Oh, my goodness.

- Hello, my gorgeous boy!

This is like having

a toddler with teeth.

- Don't tell Kyle, but we-we

may have eaten a little...

- Oh, well, I'm sure...

- Piece.

- You'll-you'll fix it.

- Yeah.

- I'm sure.

- The unmentionable.

- Little crown molding here

and there. Little molding.

- Porter's here.

- Hello.

- Hi, Porter.

- Hello.

- How are you?

- I'm good.

- It's nice to see you.

- It's nice to meet you again.

- Little faraway hug.

- Faraway hug.

- I know. You've met.

- We met, I think...

- We did--

- At the store.

- We met--

- That's right,

at the store opening.

- Yeah.

- We met briefly.

- I need to have the girls

over for brunch again.

- We need to do that.

- Now I'm a pescatarian.

But I'll eat.

- What!

- She likes fried fish, though.

- I like--yeah.

- Porter is my oldest.

She's a freshman

in college this year.

She's a girly girl, like me.

And she is very quiet,

unlike me.

- Well, grab a sandwich

or something if you want.

- Oh, yum.

- We can take these nuts out.

- She's double majoring

in history and French,

so she's very smart.

And she loves music.

She has a beautifully voice.

She plays the piano.

And she's, like,

a mother's dream.

- I miss everybody, you know?

- I do miss everybody.

- I do.

- I've been, like,

texting with Dorit.

- She just got cleared

in order to see us.

- To see-and to see her kids.

- To see people.

- I know.

- It's so bad.

- Well, not being able

to see the kids.

- Oh.

- I just kept thinking about

how torturous

that was for you or is for you.

- They didn't understand,

and "I don't care

if I'll get it, Mommy.

I don't care,"

screaming, crying.

"I'll get it, Mommy.

Please, let me get it."

- Oh!

So tell me about college.

- It was really, like, hard

to meet people,

I think, in the beginning.

And then I joined a sorority.

- Oh, good.

- And that helped a lot.

And so I met some friends--

- What sorority is it?

- Kappa Kappa Gamma.

- That's what I was.

- Really?

- Shut up!

- I was a Kappa Kappa Gamma

for five minutes.

I only went to college...

- Five minutes.

- For one term.

- We're sisters.

- So it doesn't really count,

but I was a Kappa Kappa Gamma!

- That is lovely.

- Whoo!

I missed out

on a lot of good keggers.

I should have stayed.

- It must be a very smart group

of women

that join Kappa Kappa Gamma.

- Right?

- We're called Kappa

Kappa Geniuses.

- Oh.

- Ooh!

- Oh! See? There you go.

You're a Kappa Kappa Genius.

- Yes.

- I'll take it.

At the time, I don't think

it was the nerd sorority.

150 years ago, it was actually

the "cool girl" sorority, okay?

- It's so nice

to have her home.

- What a beauty.

- Well, you have beauties.

And so you do kind of go...

- Wow.

- "Please, boys..."

- I know.

- "Just stay away."

- Was she strict?

Or is she strict?

- She was, like,

strict with me.

- Porter is not allowed

to have lip fillers.

And I'm strict

with how you dress.

Calling adults by "Mr."

and "Mrs."

"Please" and "thank yous."

Curfews. Boys.

I try to preserve

my kids being kids.

- You have the prettiest eyes.

- Thank you. You too.

- You're gorgeous.

- Wonder where she got those.

- Yeah, I wonder.

- They gon' stay little for

as long as they can.

And they're gonna play

Uno with me at home

on Saturday night.

And like it.

Porter is 18.

- Yes.

- And Amelia's 19.

- Correct.

- Yes.

- We need to, like,

have a little meetup sometime.

- Oh, yeah.

- I would love that.

- Not a playdate.

- A playdate.

- I was about to say

"a playdate."

I was like,

"Oh, we are adults now."

- I know, you are adults. God.

- When is your birthday?

- May 4.

- So, you are...

- A Taurus.

- A Taurus! Ah.

Okay, so she's a Gemini.

- Gemini.

- So.

- I think Tauruses and Gemini

get along.

- I'm sure.

- I think so.

- [chuckles] Yeah, I don't know

about that playdate.

I don't know about that.

[laughs]

All right, so what's going on

with Erika?

I have to ask.

- Well, I mean...

- It's grownup business,

as far as I'm concerned.

- Yeah. We don't even know what

we're dealing with, you know?

- I have no clue.

You know, I know a little bit,

but I don't know facts.

Divorce sucks, but this is,

like, worst divorce ever.

It's like one

of those milkshakes

that has a lot of things in it,

and they grind it up.

It's real messy.

I'm not gonna make any kind

of judgment

without knowing real facts.

- Well, why would you?

- I would never.

- Yeah.

- It's cold.

- It's cold out here.

You know, I've never been here.

- Virtual hugs.

- How are you?

- I'm happy to be outside.

- I'm happy you're better.

- Just being in my room

for so long

was making me a little crazy.

- Yeah. You go stir crazy.

Girl.

- How are you?

What's wrong?

- [chuckles softly]

- Oh, my God. I feel so bad.

I can't even give you

a hug right now.

- It's okay.

I'm just overwhelmed, and--

- Erika, I'm sorry.

- It's okay. It's okay, Kyle.

- What is going?

- Exactly. What is going on?

- Well, come talk to me

before we--sit down

for a minute before we walk.

Oh my God, Erika. I'm not used

to seeing you like this.

I'm sorry.

- Kyle, this is so hard to do.

This is so hard.

What's happening is so hard.

I've never been

this overwhelmed,

and in a place where my hands

are literally tied.

And I-I just--I mean,

I could have never predicted

this-this

----ing sh--.

[tense music]

- Oh, my God, Erika.

I'm not used to seeing you

like this.

I'm sorry.

- Kyle, this is so hard to do.

This is so hard.

What's happening is so hard.

It's just--I have

such a story to tell.

I can't tell it, 'cause

it--it's not the right time.

- I'm sorry.

- It's okay, honey.

Don't cry. It's okay.

- I know,

but I just feel so bad.

- I've never been

this overwhelmed,

and in a place where my hands

are literally tied.

And I-I just--I mean,

I could have never predicted

this-this ----ing sh--.

- Ever.

- Ever. Ever.

Ever predicted that

this would be what's happening.

I'm sorry. I know there's snot

coming out my nose.

I don't even care anymore.

- [sighs] Erika.

- [exhales deeply]

There's nothing I can do

except wait

to tell my side of the story.

And, you know, the feeling

of just not knowing,

and then these huge things

being alleged,

and just having

to defend yourself,

it's just a lonely,

lonely place to be,

because...

God, Kyle,

my divorce is not a sham.

- I know.

- It's just not.

I mean, nobody wants

to be in the position

I'm in right now.

It is really unenviable.

Being the possible target of a

federal criminal investigation

is, like, not cool.

To have all those things said

about you, which are not true,

and then to have everyone

basically question everything,

it's lonely, and it's quiet.

And you would be shocked at

how quickly people turn on you,

how quickly people distance

themselves from you.

Automatically,

they, you know, turn,

because they don't-they

don't want to be involved.

They were there

when it was good there.

- Yeah.

- Want to know

who your friends are?

Go broke. Want to know

who your friends are?

Go to jail. Want to know

who your friends are?

Ask them to help you

bury a body.

I don't know. You'll find out

who's there for you.

I just hope someone's checking

on Tom, because he's not good.

- What is happening with that?

- I don't know.

- Like, have you talked

to him at all?

- No. No.

No. No. No, no, no, no, no.

Not since the day I left him.

Tom is a proud man.

One of the reasons

that I filed for divorce

is the resistance to anything,

the resistance

to a conversation,

the resistance to,

"Hey, you know, I've noticed

that you can't see well."

"What are you talking about?

I'm fine."

"No, you can't see well.

You can't hear.

You're ----ing degrading

in front of me,

and you're ignoring it."

I am so sorry to unload

all of this all on you.

- Erika, listen, that is

what friends are for.

And we're not here for...

- This is just--

- To hang out and--

- I know, we're not here

for the good times,

then we're not here for just--

- We're talking about people

leaving for--you know,

when it's not a good time.

I'm not that friend.

- I know, I know, I know.

You're not.

- You can always call me,

middle of the night.

- I know, but you have

your own family.

- No.

- You're been sick with COVID.

- I don't care.

- I just feel bad.

- I don't care.

And you've been

checking on me every day

while I've been sick, you know?

And I've been really

worried about you.

I'm only asking you things that

are already out there anyway.

- Go ahead and ask me anything.

It doesn't matter.

I can't run from--

- I'm reading this headline

that he's now asking you

to pay his lawyer bills?

- Oh, yeah. That was great.

Well, you know,

that's just him being

a ----ing ass.

- That really shocked me,

because, first of all, I mean--

- First of all, how?

- A, I mean...

- How?

- You know, he's always

been providing for you. Yes.

- That's right.

- And then you did your job.

- Of course.

- But you--he was

your provider--

- He's always made more money

than I have.

- Well, he knows

you can't perform

right now, too,

with everything.

- He knows everything, honey.

But he's concerned

with himself first.

You know, it's him first.

God, I can't believe I'm gonna

----ing say this.

As much as Tom encouraged me,

I think he resented me

every step I took forward.

[soft dramatic music]

Around the time of "Chicago,"

Tom's view of me had changed.

Like, he was like,

"Who the (BLEEP) do you think

you are?"

I was like,

"What are you talking about?

You-you gave me the ball.

I ran into the endzone with it.

What the (BLEEP)

are you doing?"

- Well, he's also

angry you let, probably.

You know,

so it's your punishment too.

- Oh, he's down to punish

my ass

all the way to the ground.

* *

- He has not...

- He's not--

- Been an angel.

- No, he's not an angel.

My God.

it's--no, he's not an angel.

People don't know that.

They see this husband out there

who's, like,

campaigning for his wife,

and "she's so great"

and "she's so great."

[cheers and applause]

- My God.

- But at home,

it wasn't that great.

I didn't tell anybody

because I don't think anybody

would truly understand.

Because from the outside,

it looks one way.

I...

I'd go to hug him, and...

he wouldn't hug me back.

There was another life

happening.

The outside...

[clears throat]

Saw a lot of support.

But the inside was not.

There was a lot of conflict.

- You have to be scared

for your future.

Like, and then get a call--

- Scared for my future?

Hell, yeah.

I'm like--it's all I can do

just to wake up every day

and not, you know,

want to go back to sleep,

because it's just ----ed.

There's no other way to say it.

I mean, it's just a disaster.

- I know.

- Tom is in the place

that he's in,

which is his own personal hell,

and I cannot help him.

I cannot help him.

And--

- That must feel horrible.

- Oh my God, Kyle.

- I know.

I know.

I remember

you saying that you--

- I-I can't.

- You know, you always thought

you were gonna be there

for him until the end.

- Until the end.

Well, this is the end.

- I'm sorry.

- It's okay, babe.

- I feel so bad.

- It's okay.

- No, I mean-I mean--

- You know, it's not the end

that anyone ----ing wants.

Because it's torture to see

someone just ----ing melt.

- Next time on "The Real

Housewives of Beverly Hills":

- Hello!

- Welcome!

- I'm so happy to be here!

- Whoo!

- Yeah!

- Whoo-hoo!

- Whoo! This is so nice.

- Where are my 15 luggages?

- Do they have a man here

that can help us?

Some of it's heavy.

- I do not want

a big one like this.

I want a big one,

but I don't want it this big.

[laughter]

- Do we know how it went

with Tom today?

- The government froze

all of his assets.

- Does that mean

you can't touch your money?

- No, you can't.

- You can't touch it.

- No.

- It's not okay, and it's not

gonna be okay for a long time.

You've been married to somebody

for 20 years,

and you know

that he is not mentally well.

[sighs]

- He didn't come home,

and you're like,

"Where is he?"

So you went looking for him?

- I was just assuming

he was with some other woman.

[dramatic music]

- [gasps]

- What?

* *