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PHONE BEEPS

# Oh, let the pain

# Let the pain wash over you

# No way around it

# You gotta go straight through it

# On the other side On the other side

# You'll see.

# You'll see

# There's no way things are... #

GROANING

I've done the unpacking.

Oh, one of us needs to pop to the shop.

There's nothing to eat.

Back to the domestic grind with a bang.

Yeah, something like that.

You know. Uh, just thinking about last night...

Not right now. Sorry. I'm just tired from travelling.

DOORBELL

I saw you were back. Good trip? Yes.

Thanks for keeping an eye. Yeah, well,

no unwelcome visitors, and nothing to report.

Well, uh...

..apart from this, your picture's in the paper.

Is that what you were worried about?

I know it's none of my business, Mia, but is someone looking...?

Thanks. Night.

DOOR LOCKS

SAFE BEEPS

Fuck!

HE SNORES

SHE SIGHS

Sorry to interrupt your work.

Please, interrupt away. I'm being defeated by spreadsheets.

And...sorry to add to your work. Ouch.

I managed to get some financial docs from the foundation's lawyers.

Take a look at this.

Those staffing costs.

These aren't normal, are they?

And have a look at the small print.

Part of the foundation is being administered by

a holding company registered to Hari.

Well, that doesn't sound right. Why would he have done it?

I mean, no idea.

God, these are dull.

Jacob's feed is so Boomer. Can't take a photo to save his life.

No way.

What? Come here.

Is that Mia? It's not. It is? No.

Is it really? Morning. Morning.

What are you all looking at?

Your husband's holiday pics. God, you must be bored.

We were just saying...

This woman behind you looks just like Mia.

That's her. Right?

SHE SCOFFS

Well, obviously, it's not.

Right. See you in theatre.

See that reaction?

So if that was Mia, what was she doing in Antwerp?

IMAGINED WHISPERED VOICES

WHISPERED: Jacob and Mia and one other!

You can be honest with me.

My family can't accept it, but I'm ready, you know?

I don't blame you for wanting to die, Mr Pandian.

Hi.

Hi! Hello, Mr Pandian, it's nice to see you.

I need you in theatre, Miss Eldegard.

Sure.

All right? Hey. How are you doing? Good.

How's Alyssa? Young and full of energy.

Lust for life. Busting my balls.

Not in a good way? No, not in a good way.

You wanted to see me? I did. Can you close the door, please?

And have a seat.

So, um, we've begun an investigation into the

death of Mr Green, who, as you know, died on 28th in cardiac ICU. Right.

And we need to establish a timeline for that day.

So I was rather hoping that, um, that you might be able to, uh...

You want a bit of help on the down low? Exactly. Hmm.

You see, I just think if I start throwing my weight around,

people get nervous. They're going to start covering their tracks, and...

Well, we just, you know,

we won't get to the truth, so. Yeah. Uh,

just leave it with me. Really? Yeah. That'd be great.

Thank you. All right, well, I'll catch you in a bit. Sure.

Oh. How was your, um, romantic weekend away?

Do the trick?! Oh, yeah.

Have a valve tester, please.

And a 2-0 Ethibond suture.

MACHINE SUCTION

Pull the retractor so I can see the annulus of tricuspid.

I need suction in the right atrium, so I can see the leak.

Um, maybe we should use the bullet sucker,

Charlotte.

Could you please address me by my title in theatre, Nurse?

Sorry...Miss Roberts.

Hey.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so familiar in there.

It's just... We have enough people gossiping about us as it is.

And what were you doing in Mr Pandian's wardrobe?

He isn't a surgical case. I know Leo's important to you.

And I wanted to make sure his father was getting the right care.

My friendships have

no bearing on your nursing decisions.

And stay out of my way. Can we avoid each other at work?

I'll ask the rota team to keep us apart if at all possible.

If that's what you think is best. Yeah, I do.

For everyone's sake.

Well, perhaps I can... Stay away from me!

How are you this morning, Dr Roberts?

Oh, all the better for seeing you. Amber.

I, uh, I wonder if you could help me out on the sly?

Just cos it's you.

If I could see the ward rota for cardiac ICU,

Monday, 28th of October.

Sure.

PHONE RINGS

Hello, Leeds Royal hospital.

I can't tell you that information over the phone. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, but I can't help you. Hello?

Hello?

Who's that? Someone who keeps ringing for Mia.

You're a gem.

I thought it would be nice for us to have a chat.

Away from Dad and the hospital. Yeah.

No doubt you've invited me round

to offer the hand of fraternal friendship.

Just getting my head into the foundation.

How it all works. It's all Dad wants, really,

isn't it? Just for us to get along for five minutes.

Who are Grand Milan Holdings?

It's not a charitable organisation.

OK? It's, um, a smart financial way

to separate different parts of the foundation's work.

By setting up a holding company with you as sole director.

Dad asked me to run the foundation, yeah, in the best way I see fit.

Does that include threatening to pull funding from the new wing?

I wasn't being threatening.

We're just reassessing our priorities.

And that might mean making some difficult decisions.

This project is Dad's dying wish. It's his legacy.

Yes, but it has to make financial sense, Leo.

And right now, it doesn't.

I'm just trying to join the dots. But it's not easy.

Then join the dots! You can't do this to him.

You've been absent from Dad's life for most of the last two decades?

Yes? And every time you returned, you expected this,

this hero's welcome. And he gave you one,

didn't he? Every time, even though you didn't deserve it.

I put in the hard yards, mate.

So you don't get to tell me how to do this job.

You weren't here to do it. I'm here now.

Yeah? Too late.

You'll get your inheritance. OK? And then you can fuck off

back around the world, like everyone knows you will.

What? What?

You can go and bleat to Dad if you like.

And then you'll upset him for nothing.

Or you know what,

better still, piss off out of our lives, like you always do.

And let the grown-ups run things. Yeah?

Hi, Dr Roberts.

Hey. Excuse me. Could I borrow him for a sec?

See you later. Yeah.

Um, Charlotte's being pretty cold to me.

I guess she's just struggling with it all.

Yeah. So am I. So what do we do?

Have you had something like this happen before?

Do you think I go around Europe having threesomes?

I mean, I don't know, but, I mean,

you've probably got more experience than we do.

Look, in an ideal situation, what do you want to happen next?

Well, I want what Charlotte wants,

but we don't know what that is right now, so...

What about me? What ABOUT you?

I mean, Mia, we've had our moments... I mean,

there's nothing between us. Sorry.

So, what, was I just a way to get to her?

Oh, my God. Wounded male pride. Fuck you.

Fuck you! She's my wife.

Yeah, and I wonder

what your wife would make of your drug use at work?

So you're threatening me now? I'm protecting myself.

That sounds like the same thing. Maybe it is.

Got to go.

Hari came to see me.

That's good to hear.

He's a good lad at heart, isn't he?

Yeah.

HE GROANS

It was 100% Mia. So weird.

She's literally standing behind them in the photo.

And from what I just saw,

there's definitely something going on between her and Jacob.

Hey.

Gemma. Hey. How are you doing?

I haven't seen you in ages. Well, uh...

..let's see. I humiliated myself in front of the whole hospital,

and my best mate's barely checked on me since.

I'm really sorry. You know we were away?

I expected a bit more than a text.

I said I'm sorry!

What is up with you? Something is.

I have to go.

I'm sorry, OK? Let's have a drink soon.

OK. Um...

I heard Mr Arnold took a turn for the worse.

Uh, yeah. I'm afraid he passed away.

How are we doing today, Mr Ashley?

It's Mr Arnold. Mr Ashley's over there.

You could have OD'd a patient.

You need to get a grip. I'm trying... I'm just...

Are they doing an autopsy?

Well, there was no reason to do so. He was high risk.

Never gets any easier, does it?

He wasn't a very pleasant man.

I just think some people might find that quite an unusual reaction.

Colleagues are often affected by

the death of a patient, no matter how they behaved.

I did my job properly. I have clear conscience.

Do you have a second, Doctor? If you're heading this way.

We had a patient die on Monday - Mr Arnold.

He was pretty high risk.

So there's no talk of a postmortem. So, what's the problem?

Well, you were in the ward last week

when Mia Eldegard nearly gave

a morphine dose to the wrong patient.

Yeah, you intervened, I recall.

Well, that patient was Mr Arnold. Huh. I just...

Did you find Mia's behaviour odd that day?

Uh, I don't, I don't remember, honestly.

In what way? Well, like, perhaps she'd taken something.

I mean, I'm sure

she was just overworked and a bit stressed.

Honestly, I didn't notice anything. Yeah.

OK. Yeah, you're probably right.

There's just something about that girl, though, isn't there?

Well, I'll let you get to it, Doctor.

Have a good day.

Well, come on, then...

I saw them at the end of the

corridor, just flirting with each other. Him and Mia?

His wife gave her a right dressing down in theatre.

I think we can all guess why that is.

Have a good evening, Doctor.

Don't encourage him.

Nurses should stick together. I wasn't the one that slagged that

patient off after he died.

That's not what happened, Jaden. It bloody is.

Ask Matron what she thinks of her behaviour.

Do you want a coffee, babe? No, I'm good,

thanks, Yvonne.

You know, it's rude to stare.

Hey. Hi.

Listen, um,

I don't

feel like I've really seen you since I've been back.

I don't know if you fancy a drink sometime, or...?

Oh, yeah. Sure.

Actually, my neighbourhood's having a thing for Bonfire Night tomorrow.

And Jacob's on a late, unfortunately.

He wouldn't mind?

God, no.

Yeah. That'd be great. I'll, uh, I'll see you then.

OK.

I'd better go. Yeah.

Hey, babe. Hey. Wow. How about we go

out on the town? Uh...

..I would love to. I, um. I really would.

It's just I am nowhere near done. I'm so sorry.

I just came in especially to see you.

I know, and that was incredibly sweet of you,

but if, um, if you had just rung,

I would have told you not to waste your time.

"Nice outfit. Alyssa, you look gorgeous."

Come on. You do. Babe, you look amazing.

It's just that I'm... You can.

Another time? It's always another time.

Darling, what do you want me to tell you? I'm really sorry that I have

a really stressful job with stupidly long hours.

Forget it. I'm going to hang out with some friends.

You know, people my age, who still know how to have fun.

Alyssa, come on...

MUSIC BOX PLAYS

DOORBELL

I told you I'd come and visit sometime!

Come on in. Thank you.

Just some silly gossip. It'll blow over.

You don't have to put on a brave face for me.

What am I supposed to do, just sit here and sulk?

Um, there is one thing

that I've heard that I wanted to ask.

Yes? Did you go to Antwerp?

OK. You know what? I don't need to know.

It's your life.

But you do need to play the game, Mia.

Which means you can't

just say anything that comes into your head.

And you've got to be nice to Annette.

Oh, come on. She's had it in for me since day one.

She loves it.

Well, you do make it easy for her. You're a charming girl,

Mia. You could have charmed the socks off them.

All right, I'll try. Good. Challenge accepted.

There's a bonfire down the street. Do you want to come?

Please.

CHILDREN CHATTER

FIREWORKS BANG

On your own, Alan? Gloria.

I hope they're not having any of these blasted fireworks.

Well, it is Bonfire Night. It would seem quite likely.

Do you know how upset Mr Snuffles gets?

I can hardly imagine.

That's Rob, who organised it. Why don't you talk to him about it?

Oh, well,

my sister met her husband online,

which she never tires of telling me. Uh-huh.

I've been so disappointed.

So many men lie about their age.

I'm not an old woman.

I don't want to meet a pensioner. There are good ones out there.

Let me write the profile for you,

and I'll sell you as the gorgeous queen that you are.

I might just let you do that. Yeah, you should.

Who's that? That's my friend, Alan.

What, is he single?

Yeah. He is. He's been on his own since his wife left.

But, um...

Why did she leave?

It's...complicated.

Is he a murderer or a bank robber?

No, none of that.

Well, then, introduce me.

All right.

Hey, Alan. Hello, Mia. This is my work friend Yvonne.

She's a nurse, too. Nice to meet you,

Yvonne. Nice to meet you, Alan. Yvonne was saying she's

been trying online dating, but finds it very disappointing.

Well, now I know, you've saved me the bother.

Better meet someone

the old-fashioned way, in real life, wouldn't you say?

Yeah. Can I, um...

..can I get either of you anything? I'm good.

I wouldn't mind having another soup.

I'll be right back.

It's a nice neighbourhood you live in.

It's your idea of hell, isn't it?

I didn't say that. You didn't have to.

Miss that, you know.

What?

Your cutting sarcasm.

Well, you need cutting down. Or you did, back in the day.

Perhaps you're a more humble soul these days.

Come on. Lottie, you certainly cut me down to size.

So, how was your romantic weekend?

Why? What have you heard?

Just making conversation. It was...

..interesting.

God, you look lovely in the firelight.

Everyone looks lovely in the firelight, Leo.

LOUD BANGS

INAUDIBLE

What time do you finish today? After your bedtime.

PHONE RINGS

Leeds Royal Hospital, Amber speaking.

Uh, Mia's not here right now.

Do you want to leave a message? As I've told you before,

we cannot give out personal information.

Please, can you stop calling?

He's rung before?

We have a stab injury in left chest.

Patient's tachycardic and hypotensive.

Probably a cardiac injury. OK.

Hope Jacob doesn't mind me being here.

Well, he's not here, so it's not my problem, is it?

Cheers.

So, how is it, really, being back?

Really? Yeah. Well...

..I tried to get involved with my family's foundation,

because I thought it might impress you.

What? Yeah. What an idiot.

And then I got tangled

up and found out something that might break my dad's heart.

So, cheers. Sounds grim.

Why did you think it would impress me?

I don't know.

I've always cared far too much what you thought of me.

Anyway, I put on a front

and shook hands with a lot of very dull people,

so I hope it was worth it.

I've been doing that for the past 20 years.

What you do isn't a front. You're a brilliant heart surgeon.

What you do is real. No, but

being Dr Charlotte Roberts,

all the rest of it. Internal politics,

tedious sexism, expectation as to how I behave.

All of that takes such emotional energy.

I think I'm just realising it.

Kind of caught me having a bit of a midlife crisis, I think.

I'm a bit of a fucking mess right now.

Aren't we all?

Well, I didn't think so, until recently.

What changed?

It's kind of hard to explain.

My finger is on the right ventricular stab.

Give 3-0 prolene with pledget.

Quickly.

Suction. The heart's empty.

He's lost a lot of blood. We need six units O negative.

We have two units here now. We need six.

I know that - four are on the way.

I heard your wife had

a right go at your favourite nurse the other day.

Here you go.

Blood is here.

Did I touch a nerve?

All right?

Don't ever fucking speak to me like that again in theatre.

I'll smash your teeth in.

It's a joke.

The hell is wrong with you, nutter?

Jesus.

And then out of the blue.

there you are, reminding me of a simpler life.

When we were young and carefree. Oh, come on, Lottie.

We were a big old mess, too.

I'm sorry. You don't have to say it.

Yes, I do. I'm sorry.

I chose the sensible option.

And I've always wondered if it was the right one,

or whether we should have been together.

Please don't do this to me.

I've still got the ticket.

Oh, fuck off. I do.

I can't

imagine how hard it must have been to get on the plane without me.

I'm sorry I stood you up.

Can you forgive me?

Wait. Wait.

I need to know what's going on with you.

Oh, God. So you have heard things.

Is Jacob having an affair? I'm sorry.

Very personal question, but you deserve to be

with someone who's good enough for you.

And if... It's not that. It's...

There is someone else...

..that we've both...

I don't know, God. Um...

OK. Uh...

We had a threesome with Mia in Antwerp,

and I think it screwed everything up.

I swear, nothing like this has ever happened before.

I've never even been attracted to

a woman before, let alone kissed one, and...

..I think she's quite into me.

And I also think that she's crazy.

Jesus, listen to me. Wow!

I thought I was supposed to be the wild one!

I know.

How has it screwed things up? I don't know, I...

Suddenly Jacob's just not enough.

Like, I need more than that. Why? Why do I suddenly feel like this?

Hey, hey. Well, maybe you were bored and you needed to shake things up.

And...and that's what this has done. And now you're confused.

Yeah, that's it.

That's exactly it.

So...probably not

the best time to add me to the mix, eh?

No. So...

..friends?

Friends.

CAR APPROACHES

Oh, shit. That's him.

Do you want me to let myself out the back? Don't want to cause a scene.

Yeah. I'm sorry, yeah.

Take care, Lottie. Yeah.

Hey, how's the bonfire?

Yeah, it was fun. How was work? Don't ask.

Had guests?

Just briefly.

Mia?

If you must know, it was Leo. I invited him to the fireworks.

Was Mia there?

Why are you suddenly being weird about Mia?

I'm not. I'm just asking. I thought you were very much

in favour of Mia being part of our lives.

Is that what you want?

No. I think it was

a fucking stupid thing to do, and I massively regret it.

Or is it that you just want her all to yourself?

Is that the endgame?

I don't think it's me she's interested in.

I thought you were on shift today. I swapped with someone.

You're not avoiding coming into work,

are you? No, it's just some salad, cheese and bread.

Simple, really. Is that OK? Oh, thank you.

That's very kind.

DOORBELL

Excuse me.

Hi. Come in.

Hello, Yvonne.

I didn't know you were going to be here.

Sorry, I forgot to mention.

Guys, I got to pop out for ten minutes.

But why don't you just tuck in and I'll be right back?

I didn't know. either.

I think this is what you call a stitch-up.

Well, it would be a shame to let good food go to waste.

OK.

So, we didn't talk much at the bonfire.

What is it that you do?

I'm a book-keeper. Mm.

Pretty dull, really. Any hobbies? Um...

A bit of gardening. That sort of thing.

Mm-hm.

I'm not very exciting, I'm afraid. Sorry.

I'll be the judge of that.

Mia says that you've got quite a complicated past.

But you seem like such a gentle man. I can't imagine...

How did you get into nursing?

Is your secret that bad?

Look, I don't know what you want me to say, I didn't...

This wasn't my idea, I...

I think I should go. No, no. Please stay.

You've not even touched your salad. I don't like salads.

I don't actually believe anyone likes salad.

Do you like salad? I do.

Well, then, this was doomed from the start.

Hey, guys.

Look who I found. Henry! I think I got a little bit lost!

Hello, Henry, is it? Please sit down.

Oh. Are you feeling any dizziness, Henry?

Never felt better. Stop fussing.

PHONE VIBRATES

Mia.

Hi. I-I just found Henry wandering on his street.

He's absolutely fine. God, um...

Oh, Christ. I'm just about to go into another op.

Um, let me see if I can cancel it.

No, no, don't worry, he's fine.

Um, I'm here with Alan and Yvonne, and we can look after him.

We can take him back.

Tell Alan that's, that's really kind.

OK, so I'll just text you when we get him to the care home.

Thanks, Mia.

My pleasure.

Patient's ready, Miss Roberts.

Oh, Jacob. Jacob. I just wanted to ask.

I wanted to ask you how the investigation thing was going.

Uh, yeah, I don't want to alarm you, but I might have found something.

Something or someone?

Look, I've got to cross-reference

a few rotas, but I'll get back to you. OK. OK, great.

But sooner rather than later, yeah?

Yeah. Thanks.

Still here? A long day. Yeah, tell me about it.

Look, uh, 'fraid I need a new staffing rota.

Ward five? Monday the fourth?

SHE SIGHS

Thanks.

Look, while I'm here,

who is it that keeps ringing for Mia?

Oh, some guy from Norway. He's such a dick. He won't give up.

Give me his number. Let me deal with it.

No, I shouldn't. I'll handle it.

Great.

Hi.

I wanted to thank you for everything that you did for my dad today.

It's nothing.

No. The care home said that you were so kind to him.

Yeah, he's a really lovely man. He was fine.

He was just a bit confused.

I feel so guilty about it all.

Mum only died a year ago,

and now I'm losing Dad as well, so it's...

I know that feeling.

I lost both my parents.

I'm so sorry to hear that.

It's all right.

Would you like to come in?

WHISPERS: Yeah.

OK.

Hi, my name is Dr Jacob Roberts.

I believe you've been calling for Mia Eldegard.

Why? What's she done?

I should also apologise for how I talked to you,

at theatre. Because they're

all gossiping about us, huh?

They know that you were in Antwerp.

Which is why I need to keep my distance.

Sorry.

OK.

So, what about us? What do you mean, "us"?

What happened doesn't mean what you think it means.

I told you, I am a boring old married surgeon.

I don't believe you. What do you want from me?

I find you impossible to understand.

I don't know what you want.

I don't know why you feel the need to do the things that you do.

Sorry, I just feel like you're playing games. And I'm done with it.

I'm in love with you.

I'm scared.

Me too.

No, this isn't me. I don't do this.

Then why is this happening?

I don't know.

It's like you've possessed me.

I can't just blow up my life. But you want me.

You want me.

Don't do this to me.

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