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Hi.

Hi, I'm Sam. This is my voice mail.

Samantha, it's your mother.

I don't remember what time you get off,

but please come home right after.

I need to talk to you about something, okay?

Just make sure it's yours.

- Hey. - Hey.

- How are you doing? - Good.

How was your weekend?

Reaching Jackson Heights, Roosevelt Avenue.

Transfers available to 7 E and F...

Samantha?

Hey.

Listen, I need to talk to you about something.

- Come, sit. - What's it about?

Well, as you know,

Derek and I have been seeing each other for some time now.

Two months.

Well, actually, we're moving in together.

Here.

You can have the couch for as long as you need,

but eventually we think it's best for everyone,

especially you, if you found another place.

Derek had a son that's going through

exactly what you're going through and he thought it was...

What is it that I'm going through?

Well, some people just have a harder time finding their way.

You made me break my lease the last time I moved out.

That was different.

Derek is different.

And we both know you don't do well on your own.

I need to say something, and it's not because you're kicking me out.

- No one is kicking you out. - Okay, Derek is an asshole.

What about... what about what happened the last time?

Okay? He's taking advantage of you.

This is not what you think that it is.

Hi, sweetheart.

Are you outside?

Okay, I'll be right down.

♪ Hit me once for broke ♪

♪ Hit me two for the road ♪

♪ Well, Abilene was a scream And a curse ♪

♪ Tell another joke Before I go ♪

♪ For better or, baby, For worse ♪

♪ Well, back when high was high And low was low ♪

♪ And ten cent would buy you The matinee show ♪

♪ Give a damn who the star The theater was dark ♪

♪ And took you away With a glow ♪

♪ If I had a dollar For every wallet I stole ♪

♪ Oh, I'd buy this whole town ♪

♪ The judge and the pound ♪

♪ I'd let All them bad dogs go ♪

♪ But I don't So I'll spend... ♪

Attention in the terminal.

Flight 2647 to Portland now boarding.

We're going to start with those needing extra time to board.

♪ I took it spinning, love With the top down ♪

♪ Rode her three times Down the Highway Nine ♪

♪ May have broke a bone Oh, I don't know ♪

♪ Anyway, I'm still alive ♪

Hello?

Anybody here?

- Oh, my God. - Taylor?

Yeah.

Holy shit, you work here?

Yeah, part of the year.

You cut your hair.

Yeah... I did.

It looks good. You look good.

Thanks. You too.

Um, you're probably wondering where your dad is, right?

Oh... yeah.

Is he here?

Well, he's out running a few errands right now, but...

he should be back in a few.

I have the keys to his place if you want.

Yeah, that'd be great.

- Yeah? All right. - Thanks.

How is he?

He's good.

You know.

He'll be happy to see you.

How long has it been?

I don't know, like, eight years maybe?

Something like that.

It's really good to see you.

It's good to see you, too.

Hey, if you're maybe around later,

if you want to go away for a bit, um,

we should hang out maybe.

After I'm done here, of course.

Yeah, I'd like that.

Cool.

Okay, I'm going to go.

Yeah, I'll see you.

Hi, it's Diane. I can't get the phone right now.

Please leave a message and I'll get back to you.

Hi, Mom, it's me.

Um, I left my phone on the plane,

so if you need me, just call over here.

Um, I got extra food for Philly.

It's under the sink, and I also paid those bills.

They just need stamps, and they're underneath the mail thing.

Um, I think that's it.

Okay, bye.

Hey, kid.

Hi.

What are you doing here?

- I... - I mean, I'm glad you're here.

- I... I just didn't... - Um, I wanted to see you.

Oh, okay.

That's great.

Welcome.

You remember this little place well enough, I guess?

♪ Freaking' out on the interstate... ♪

Is that my dad's old bike?

Still remember how to ride?

I don't remember you knowing how to drive.

Didn't you fail your driver's permit, like, three times?

Fourth time's a charm.

♪ And I can feel them staring at me ♪

♪ Baby, do you think I'm doing something wrong? ♪

♪ And you got a lot On your mind ♪

♪ And your heart it looks just like mine ♪

♪ There's no use in wasting Your time, anymore ♪

♪ I'm sorry I haven't been myself ♪

♪ And something's Got me down... ♪

- I'm gonna introduce you to some friends. - Okay.

Sam, this is Vili. Vili, this is Sam.

- Hey, Sam. - Hi.

Vili is actually working on his own wine right now.

Yeah, it's not really ready, but you can try some if you wanna.

Please don't make her taste that shit, Vil.

- I'm sure it's great. - It's not.

Good things take time and effort,

which isn't something this guy knows anything about.

Sam, Matt Danger.

Matt, Sam.

Nice to meet you.

Who's this?

Oh, this is my friend, Sam.

- This is Allie over there. - Hi, Allie.

We're about to eat.

Oh, you're unbalanced, all right.

Oh, yeah. Yeah.

- Hey, Luna. - Hey.

This is Sam. This is our new friend.

Luna here grows, makes most of our food.

In general, just a great artist,

a great person like the rest of us.

Except for wino over there.

Hey, I'll take that as a compliment.

- It's great to meet you, Sam. - Yeah, it's great to meet you, too.

Sam's an old friend of mine. We grew up together here.

Oh, actually, I'm sorry, I don't drink.

Oh, it's okay.

- Yeah, is it yours? - No.

Mine won't be ready for a while.

All right, tonight we have a nice little pinot noir

from the upper elevation of Underwood Mountain.

We know where Ray's is.

The palate is decadent and refined,

medium body, medium tannins, dry.

Cheers.

Right?

Ah! Wow.

- What's everyone think? - I like it.

Tastes like wine.

Yeah, there's more to it than that.

Everything looks really great. Thank you.

Of course.

- You grew up here? - Yeah, till I was 15.

And then I moved back to Queens with my mom after my parents split up.

The Big Apple. That's what they call it, right?

Yeah.

I've always wanted to visit the Guggenheim.

Yeah, you should. The architecture is insane.

What brings you back here?

Um, I had a few days off

and I've been wanting to visit my dad.

♪ We parked in the back By the 18-wheelers ♪

♪ You had a joint rolled ♪

♪ I shoot a cigarette Out of the box ♪

♪ And as we stood there Spitting smoke back To the clouds ♪

♪ Then I had a thought ♪

♪ If we die here On this Canadian highway... ♪

This is quite a group you've assembled here.

Yeah, they're all right.

How long have you guys lived together?

A few years, most of them.

Luna showed up last year from Costa Rica.

We all work the harvest around the year,

and then Allie and Matt play in a band together,

and Vili does whatever he does now.

Eh, Samantha Rose!

You're gonna want a picture of this.

- Fucking Matt. - Whoo!

I don't think Allie likes me.

No, she's fine.

It does take her a little while, though, with new people.

How about you, though? How's New York?

It's good.

Um, I work in a photo studio there.

- Wow, you're really doing it. - Mm-hmm.

This is so nice now.

♪ If we die here On the old sewered highway ♪

I'm sorry I didn't keep in touch.

It's okay.

I always knew you'd come back someday.

♪ Do you know how much You mean to me? ♪

I should've called, though.

You guys just gonna watch or you gonna come in?

I don't have a suit.

Sam, you don't need one.

Oh, my God.

Come on!

I'm not kidding.

- Come here, boy. - No! Fuck, no!

♪ We fell fast 'cause We were lonely ♪

No, fuck that, man!

♪ I had arms, you had A hotspot, baby, to dance ♪

♪ And as we stood there Puffing smokes... ♪

Allie!

Ah!

- Hey. - No, don't do it.

- Don't do it, Al. - Come here.

Come here. Jump.

Hey, Vili.

It's shrinking. It's not little!

♪ ...highway ♪

♪ If we drink ourselves To death ♪

♪ But you know how much You mean to me ♪

♪ How much you mean To everyone ♪

♪ But especially me ♪

Here you go.

- Thank you. - You're welcome.

To you.

So, the shop looks good.

I saw Taylor is working with you.

Yeah, he's a good kid.

You drink iced tea now?

Hmm, yeah.

You know, it's not bad.

How long has it been?

I'd get my two-year chip next month.

Had a couple of false starts, as you know.

Didn't want to jinx anything by making a big deal about it this time.

I'm doing good, though.

Yeah, I... I got your letters.

What can I get for you, hon?

Um... you go first.

Um, I'll have burger, fries.

And for you?

- Um, do you have a veggie burger? - Yes, we do.

- Okay, I'll have that. - Perfect.

- Thank you. - You're welcome.

Are you okay?

This is strange, I know.

Look, I don't really want to talk about everything.

I just needed to get away for a few days.

- Is that okay? - Yeah, of course it is.

Mom has a new boyfriend moving in, so.

How's she doing?

She's okay.

Ups and downs.

It's been a rough couple of years.

Eight men.

We won't have any trouble handling them.

All right, men.

- Morning. - Hi.

- Got any plans right now? - What?

Today's the first day of the harvests.

We're gonna be picking at a few vineyards close by,

and I thought you'd like to come.

We're also gonna be staying the night.

- Yeah. - Yeah?

- Yeah, sure. - Cool.

- Just give me a minute. - Yeah, take your time.

♪ Even if we hated On your way ♪

♪ You kept complaining About my way ♪

♪ It was on you ♪

I'm just saying, you know.

You don't really get kind of... outside of a steamboat.

- You're wrong. - I don't care that I'm wrong.

It's about the two of them together, you know?

No, George Harrison forever.

Okay, guys, we're spending $35 total.

- That means total. - Got it.

We share most of what we make and Luna manages it.

Did she get elected town treasurer?

Self-appointed, actually, but she's probably

the least bad option we got, you know.

That's not even food.

Let's go!

Oh, real nice.

Honestly, there's not much to it, really.

Just pull from the back, make sure the berries are, you know, weighed evenly,

and the color is about the same.

- Wanna try? - Yeah.

- This one? - Yeah.

That's perfect.

Look at that. You're becoming a natural.

All the greats have had it, you know?

That thing that just reaches out and grabs you,

and says, "Fuck you, world, listen up."

Except wearing lipstick and shit on stage does not make you an icon.

It just makes you some other dude trying to channel Bowie.

Okay, A, don't hate the comparison.

We could all do a hell of lot worse than that.

And B, I'm just saying that that shit works, you know?

It's memorable.

Like, think about Kurt Cobain, you know,

that whole troubled mind thing.

Think about, like, KISS.

Yeah, but that's not stage craft for Kurt.

Yeah, and KISS just generally sucks.

Sucks to the tune of they're on pinball machines.

- It's not about that. - Have you played it?

- No, but I do love KISS. - Thank you.

Think about, like, The Doors, you know.

- Like, think about Jim Morrison. - Oh, God!

Do you think that that guy didn't understand the power of persona?

Are you seriously gonna put yourself in the same level as Jim Morrison?

I'm just saying that that shit works

because it's memorable, you know?

It cuts through the static or whatever, you know.

Like, straight up, no one even knew who I was in middle school

until I showed up to class in sixth grade wearing a bikini.

And that was polarizing.

God, I love that story.

Do you play with them?

Sometimes, when His Majesty let me

join in for a jam sesh.

- What do you play? - I play bass.

Fuck off, Allie.

So then, what do you do after the harvest season?

I teach coding to kids in France.

Wow, you speak French?

Oy, vey, Mr. Pretentious over here.

My grandparents made wine in the South of France.

Luna, you got plans tonight?

Yeah, I do.

- Uh, no, thanks. - All right.

Tomorrow, then.

Sorry, I'm just really not interested.

All right.

Don't pretend like you haven't been catching eyes with me, though.

- I think you have that backwards. - I just smiled.

- See? - She said no.

What about that don't you understand?

What about this conversation makes you think you're involved at all?

The part where you made my friend uncomfortable.

- S'up, y'all? - Do you know this dude?

Oh, yeah, he's Brad. He's a fucking creep.

- Guys, it's fine. It's fine. - I'm not a creep.

It's fine that you guys might not get paid tonight.

- Fuck off, Brad. - Please don't do that.

You gotta take it up with George next week.

That was not part of the arrangement.

Well, the arrangement changed.

Let me know when you change your mind.

You don't have to be slumming it with the help, not with a body like that.

Vili, help!

They like you.

What are their names?

This girl here is Bella and that one is Mack.

Yeah. Yeah. Hi.

I used to ride horses over in White Salmon when I was younger,

but I haven't seen one in years.

Hi. Hey.

I grew up on a cattle farm in Costa Rica,

so the smell of horse shit just reminds me

of being a kid, being free.

What made you leave?

I worked at an ad agency with my cousin,

and it was for sure a big step for my family at the time,

but I was miserable.

So, you just left?

Yeah.

I left, started over.

That's what I'm doing now...

tracing my steps back to the places that make me feel like myself again.

♪ Late afternoon's drifting ♪

♪ Some skin, some bones ♪

♪ He said it's the sexy part Of your torso ♪

♪ Blue jeans, white shirt Highlights ♪

♪ Whatever happened To slow dancing? ♪

♪ Whatever happened To slow dancing? ♪

♪ I'm gonna find That last tender place ♪

♪ And I'll sink my teeth Right in ♪

♪ Watch that golden light ♪

♪ Turn into a quiet night ♪

♪ Whatever happened To slow dancing? ♪

♪ Slow dancing ♪

♪ Whatever happened To slow dancing? ♪

♪ Slow dancing ♪

♪ Slow dancing ♪

- That was pretty nice. - Thanks.

Did you write that?

Yeah, it's something I've been working on.

- It's beautiful. - Thanks.

All right, Al, I'll play something.

- If you insist. - Damn, Matt.

The artist formally known as Matt Danger.

I don't really do barn performances.

- Well, this is your stage, so. - Guess so.

Um, this one's called "Nobody's Lonely."

♪ Nobody's lonely ♪

♪ Everybody's having fun ♪

♪ Except you ♪

♪ Nobody's lonely ♪

♪ Everyone knows Something cool to do ♪

♪ Somebody to talk to ♪

♪ Someone to ease their pain And make their brains Feel less askew ♪

♪ Everybody except you ♪

♪ Nobody's lonely ♪

♪ Everybody's hanging out At the barn ♪

♪ Without you Nobody's lonely ♪

♪ Everyone knows The coolest place to go ♪

♪ Everybody showed The coolest time blew All their minds ♪

♪ And they took Lots of photos ♪

♪ But you didn't know ♪

This is obviously about you.

♪ 'Cause nobody's lonely, Vili Except you ♪

♪ Nobody's lonely ♪

♪ Nobody's lonely except... ♪

App designers.

All right, that's the song.

It's not about you. It's about society.

- Oh, jeez. - Or you as, like, a microcosm of society.

Ah.

I didn't know you played.

Just a little.

Whatever you're doing is gonna beat the bass solo...

I can't believe you brought an acoustic bass to this.

- Who sits alone in their room playing an acoustic bass? - That is so you.

It's fun. It's a vibe.

Can you even hear that?

Every time you guys talk like this, it makes me

just want to buckle down and work on my app

so I can bust out of this liberal shit hole.

- You're working on an app? - Yeah.

Oh, God, kill me now.

It's a machine learning app that generates melodies

over chord progressions.

That defeats the whole concept of art as an original act of creation.

- And it will never work. - It already works, you know.

Rock and roll has been going on for 50 years,

and we're still trying to reinvent the wheel.

You know, technology is the future.

It's inevitable that we're gonna be using technology.

- You're in a barn. - What you're describing is so...

You truly believe that?

Nothing's original anymore?

Well, I mean, I can't speak for all art forms,

but music specifically works within a finite field

of notes, rhythms, and timbres.

And when you look at classic rock, for example,

you're hearing things that are reminiscent of Bach and Beethoven.

So when you look at... when you look at music

from more of a modeling standpoint, at least, I think...

What a terrible way to talk about something that's so...

But that's the point, you know.

We live in a world of algorithms, not symphonies.

And no matter what you say, all of us,

all of you, are trying to reinvent the wheel with rock and roll.

We're born a few generations too late.

Well, I'd rather die trying than live in the world that you're describing.

And I can respect that, truly.

What about people, though?

Aren't they original?

I think that deep inside, everyone has something pretty unique.

Like, when I look at you, for example,

I see something that I've never really quite seen before.

Bullshit.

What, like, you look at me and you see, like,

kind of, like, an old-school, classic-model type,

musician, rock and roll, or whatever.

I see a big, beautiful heart.

I see a fucking survivor.

A rare kindness.

You're just brilliant.

Thanks, Luna.

And I see somebody searching.

A sojourner.

Good morning.

Morning.

Hey...

tell Matt today is the day.

What?

Just do it.

Okay.

Matt.

Mm-hmm.

Matt.

Mmm?

Today is the day.

♪ Oh, Miss Misty Was a stone-skinned gal ♪

♪ She didn't stick around In one town for too long ♪

♪ "'Cause too long is too long" She said ♪

♪ She said "I'll be gone by morning ♪"

♪ Don't come looking after me ♪

♪ Got to get back to that place I've never been ♪

Hey, Vili, you watching?

♪ T-Bone City, up the 215 ♪

♪ She traded in her daddy's Old Packard Super Eight sedan ♪

- Ready? - ♪ For a Vincent Black Shadow Machine ♪

♪ Yeah, she opened him up Some 50 horses hot ♪

♪ Foaming at their mouths In a dust cloud headed south ♪

♪ On down the devil's backbone Down his crooked legs ♪

♪ "Fly Away Old Glory" Ringing in her head ♪

♪ I'll be gone... ♪

Wanna try it?

Come on, you'll love it.

Is it safe?

Trust me.

Okay.

One...

Two, three.

♪ The big magnolia Down by Bueller's pond ♪

♪ In a hand-me-down sun dress And roper boots ♪

♪ I could go on and on ♪

♪ With my bolt action .22 I'd knock the blossoms down ♪

♪ Misty'd catch them in her skirt before they hit The ground ♪

"♪" I'll be gone by morning ♪

♪ Don't come looking after me ♪

♪ Got to get back to that place I've never been ♪

"♪ Never been before" ♪

- Hello? - Samantha, thank God.

- Where have you been? - Hi, Mom. I'm...

I really don't appreciate you not returning my calls,

not to mention just up and leaving

without anything more than a note.

Sorry. Dad's been asking me to come out here for more than a year

and I just thought this was as good a time as any.

Well, it was very embarrassing for me with Derek,

not even knowing you had left until he saw your note.

It was very selfish.

I thought you'd want the place to yourself.

That doesn't mean you just fly across the country

without even telling me about it.

What if I needed you?

And how did you lose your phone on the plane?

And why didn't you realize it and go back?

I called the airline and they said that they're looking for it.

How's your father?

He seems good, you know, different.

Well, don't fall for the whole new person story.

No one ever really changes.

Anyway, we got this cheap wine, which made me look cheap,

so I had to go back to the store.

How are things going with Derek?

It's going very well,

as much as you probably don't wanna hear that.

Mom, I want you to be happy, you know that.

Well, you sure do have a strange way of communicating that.

I feel great, though.

- I think he's my soul mate. - Good. I'm glad.

Just... no matter how good you feel,

just remember to take your meds, okay?

You don't have to talk to me like that.

I'm not a child.

I'm not the one leaving phones on airplanes.

Mom, just promise me.

Okay, yes, I promise.

Jesus, enough already.

Something good comes along for me

and all you ever see is the other side.

So, what's the deal with Allie?

What do you mean?

- Like, have you two ever... - No.

She and I met a few years back through Matt, actually.

Um, and she scared me at first,

but she is a really good friend,

Sort of helped me through a pretty dark time in my life.

What made it such a dark time?

Well, my mom died.

- What? - Yeah.

I'm so sorry. I had no idea.

It's okay. I'm... I'm okay.

What happened, if you... I mean, you don't have to talk about it.

- I just... - No, I... I don't mind, honestly.

And don't feel bad.

But, yeah, um, the doctor said that she had a brain aneurysm.

And I came home one day on my senior year,

and she was just on the floor in the kitchen.

That day, that year...

Yeah, and I never thought something could hurt

so much for so long like that.

Yeah, it's been almost about five years

and it still feels like a couple of weeks ago.

But, like, what can you do?

I loved her so much.

Yeah, she really loved you too.

- Thanks. - Yeah.

- Okay, good night. - Good night.

Hey.

Maybe you wanna hang out tomorrow,

just the two of us?

Yeah, I'd like that.

Wear something nice, but not, like, too nice, all right?

- Bye! Have a good night, guys. - Good night.

You have to do this every day?

At least twice a day, ideally.

- Feels kind of great. - Right?

How many bottles will this make?

This should be about five cases,

and each case is 12 bottles.

So it's bad.

You have an awful lot of bad wine on your hands.

Yeah, except it's not gonna be bad, Matt.

Vil, tell her that thing that your grandma used to say.

Uh, my grandma used to say that when you bottle wine,

you're bottling a moment in time.

The sun, the smell, the grapes in the vineyard air

all go into that moment.

And when you open the bottle,

you have access to that moment.

- God, I fucking love that. - Right?

She was a great lady.

- She doesn't make it anymore? - Sadly, no.

Uh, but she stayed at it right up until the end.

She had me doing exactly what you're doing right now when I was eight or nine,

and the grapes came up so high on me that I could barely move.

I still have a bottle of hers that I'm saving for just the right moment.

I'm just glad that she didn't live long enough to actually taste that wine.

Pain might have killed her sooner.

God, Matt, you're such a dick.

I'm just kidding.

Looks like you're about ready to go.

Ah, two and a half minutes.

Ooh. You good?

- Yeah. - Okay.

- Come on, just tell me. - No.

Please?

Okay, I'll give you three chances,

and if you guess it, I'll tell you.

All right.

- Suzanne Whitman? - Fuck, no.

- Okay. - Not even close.

Beth Lyman?

Almost, but no.

She works on a cruise ship and she sends everyone postcards

like we're, you know, still in high school or something.

It's kind of weird.

Okay, okay.

Not Kelly Brennan?

No way.

Oh, my God!

- Wow! - Stop.

- Oh, my God. - Okay, all right.

- My choices weren't endless. - Yikes.

Who'd you go with, then?

Junior year I didn't go.

Why?

Um...

my mom had a really bad break-up in the morning,

so I had to stay home and take care of her,

and I canceled on a guy named, uh, Mike Murphy.

- Mike Murphy? - Yeah.

- That's a solid name. - Yeah.

Uh, he never spoke to me again, so.

And then senior year, I went with a guy

that I had just started seeing,

um, who was four years older than me.

His name was John Lansing.

What about you, Who did you go with senior year?

Dropped out because of my mom, you know.

Just needed to start working.

And your dad offered me a job, which I'm really grateful for

because I didn't know much at the time

and, you know, he showed me everything I needed to know.

It was just really giving me a hard time.

You didn't want to go back?

Didn't really saw the point.

I just needed to stay busy.

The crowd goes wild.

Come on.

Oh, shit.

Oh!

Come here. No.

♪ Everybody tries To make me dance ♪

♪ But I just want To sit still ♪

♪ And stare right at you ♪

♪ With my strongest gaze ♪

♪ It's an innocent Youthful thrill ♪

♪ And hold your hand On my front porch swing ♪

♪ When the summer night Sends a chill ♪

♪ And dream of driving Way up north ♪

♪ Though I know We'll never get our fill ♪

It's... all the rain and the spring,

it makes the soil super fertile.

Everything grows really easily.

So do these weeds.

This one is insane.

Thanks.

Um, they're mostly just concepts for paintings.

But I think that's what I like, when they're just potential.

Have you ever sold your work?

Actually, for the first time this year,

a gallery took a couple of my paintings.

One of them sold, and I couldn't believe it, really.

Oh, I could totally believe that.

My dream is to have an artist residency

on a property up in the mountains,

a place where artists can come, create, heal.

How do you know you could do it, like, be an artist?

I don't know.

I guess drawing and painting

just make it easier for me to live with myself.

- You don't know how to shuffle. - I don't... me?

You haven't even started yet.

- Two fives. - Bullshit.

- It was real, dude. - Really?

- Yikes. - All right, one, two.

- All right. - Bullshit.

- No, we're not. - Hey!

That sucks.

Like, when you've gotten so good at cards

that you've gone to, like, the World Series of Poker, or whatever the fuck,

I would pay to have the entire deck stacked against you,

just bad hand after bad hand after fucking bad hand.

- What's a rich-person prank? - Two fives.

It's like where if you had unlimited resources

to mess with somebody at your disposal.

Yeah, I had one where Matt's playing the biggest show of his life

and everyone in the audience is a paid actor,

so he plays this first song,

which is inevitably disappointing,

and everyone just starts filtering out one by one

until he's left playing to an empty room,

which, incidentally, perfect title for that memoir you've been working on.

All right, I got one...

where Vili here, when he gets to his fucking dream paradise,

when he's in, like, the startup whatever the hell he does...

- Don't doubt it. - Gets that dream house in Pasadena or a fucking Mars,

- wherever you go when you're rich. - One of the two.

Where you got your dream house

and I pay to have it completely leveled when you're gone,

rebuilt like at the end of Freddy Got Fingered,

upside down.

I've got one, but I'm not even going to tell you guys

because I'm probably gonna do it to one of you.

Okay, I'm actually scared.

But I do like the idea of cutting the brakes in the truck

right before Matt goes to drive.

- Whoa. - Okay.

Well, one, that's not a rich-person prank

because it doesn't cost any money.

And two, that's called murder, you fucking psycho.

Fuck it. It doesn't matter.

- It doesn't matter. - Just somebody go.

- Sam, tell us something interesting about you. - Bullshit.

- No, it's real. - Damn.

When I was younger, I used to sing opera.

Yeah, I had this lady come to my house every weekend.

Oh, fuck, dude, opera's fire.

- I love opera. - Word.

- No. - Oh.

Not me.

And I can balance anything on my head.

- Really? - Yeah.

Show us.

Oh, my God.

- Wow! - Wow.

- Wow. - That's pretty cool.

- That's a life skill. - I can hold...

Please don't drop that on me.

I can hold my breath so my body doesn't even move,

so I'd be perfect for, like, a crime show.

Like, the beginning scene when there's a dead body?

Whoa, so true.

One three, Uno out, bitches.

All right, second place, then?

I just don't care. I'm done.

Well, I can do a sick Australian accent.

- Really? Do it. - Let's hear it.

G'day, mate! Danger's me name.

Playing music's me game.

Please, next time you think to do that, spare us.

You sound like a fucking pirate.

I'm pretty good at masturbating.

- What, anywhere? - Oh, my God!

- Yeah. - In a room with four other people?

Wait, yeah, you're right next to my bed.

- I'm quiet. - Dang.

- Oh, my God. - You are a deep sleeper.

That's true, lots of wine.

That's another life skill, no doubt.

No boo, no boo, no boo.

Al, Al, Al.

Go ahead.

Nice.

So, what's my dad like these days?

You know...

pretty quiet, I guess, keeps to himself.

Likes the work.

Yeah, he seems really different.

People change.

It's been a long time.

Yeah, I guess.

He's happy to have you here, though.

That's for sure.

Does he say anything about me?

Little things here and there.

Like, he'll mention you as if you're still here, but...

I guess it helps.

I'm gonna go pay.

- Okay. - I'll be back.

I'll drive.

You remember how?

Taylor, I taught you how to drive.

Okay.

Just don't kill me.

It's so beautiful here.

I always pictured bringing you here.

Really? Why?

It's gonna sound strange, but remember those blanket forts

we used to make as kids at my mom's place?

Yeah, I do.

Every time I'm out here, I... I just think of that.

I don't know why.

Taylor, I lied to you.

I lied to you about New York.

I don't work at a photo studio.

I work a graveyard shift at a copy and print shop.

I'm afraid to show my photos.

I don't think they're any good.

And my life looks nothing like the one that I pictured.

I'm sorry that I lied to you, but...

Don't apologize for that.

None of that matters to me.

I think just being back here has made me realize

all the dreams that I've had that are slipping away

without me even realizing it.

Maybe that's why you're here now...

to find that.

What did that 15-year-old want with her life?

I wanted to be a photographer.

I wanted to shoot for magazines.

I wanted to travel the world.

I wanted to move to LA.

Why LA?

I had this book of Stephen Shore photographs from his LA series,

and I was just obsessed with it.

I would look at those photos

and I would just think, "I belong here."

Yeah?

You know when you're a kid and you think

you are the only person that has a dream like that?

I don't think anyone sees the world the way you do, Sam.

It's all just...

more complicated now.

You don't have to figure it all out tonight.

We can just pretend things are simple again.

♪ The waves got high Didn't they? ♪

♪ I know I tried But I lost the way ♪

♪ I didn't know which way To go, so I held on ♪

♪ I cannot lie I promise you ♪

♪ Through it all It was always you ♪

♪ I prayed that I could Stop loving you ♪

♪ Now we're staring At a shipwreck ♪

♪ Oh, my God, I never thought That we'd get lost at sea ♪

♪ How did we? ♪

♪ It takes two to keep going ♪

♪ It takes one to let go and ♪

♪ You're lost at sea ♪

♪ How did we? ♪

♪ When there's no anchor There's no safety ♪

♪ You started drifting I tried to save you ♪

♪ But you let go ♪

♪ Now we're staring At a shipwreck ♪

♪ Oh, my God I never thought that ♪

♪ We'd get lost at sea ♪

♪ How did we? ♪

♪ It takes two to keep going ♪

♪ It takes one to let go and ♪

♪ You're lost at sea ♪

♪ How did we? ♪

♪ How did we? How did we? ♪

And I'm glad for you.

It must be nice having your little vacation out there.

But what you need is a real plan.

Derek always says this thing that I just love.

A goal without a plan is a goal.

No, wait, that's not it.

It's a goal without a plan is a...

Oh, well, I forgot the last part.

But the point is you need to get serious about your life.

Remember, this is an opportunity for you.

A wish! That was it.

A goal without a plan is just a wish.

All right, just something I've been working on, you know.

It's not like a... like a solo project.

- It's more of, like, a side thing. - Okay.

Allie is going to hate it.

It's like when Lennon first heard "Yesterday,"

and he's like, "There's no way we're gonna release that as a single."

- "It's too soft." - Okay, just show me.

All right.

- And the guitar is not mixed at all. - Matt, just play it!

All right.

♪ What I need is ♪

- Thanks. - ♪ What I need is ♪

♪ What I need is ♪

- ♪ What I need is... ♪ - Ten bucks, best out of three?

- ♪ What I need is... ♪ - I got five.

- ♪ What I need is... ♪ - You shoot first.

That'll do.

Shit.

Can't see it.

Come...

All right.

♪ What I want is, want is ♪

♪ Want is you... ♪

- As if. - Pay up, motherfucker.

- This gun fucking sucks. - You suck.

- Pay me. - Double or nothing.

I'm like a hillbilly Lara Croft.

Shit!

I really, really like it.

Thanks.

Yeah, it's... it's really good.

Cool.

How can you not see there's something broken?

Yeah, but what are you even talking about, like, anti-capitalist?

That's like me saying I'm anti-oxygen.

I depend on it every day of my life.

We're actually a lot less dependent than you think.

Guys, this bread's not even expired.

This is what the system produces...

need and waste simultaneously.

It's fucked up on so many levels.

But there's always been need. That's intrinsic to humanity.

There's always going to be some kind of need.

You just think you're gonna make a fortune someday,

and maybe you will, but the rest of us probably won't.

I saw a documentary one time that said that, like...

um, that, like, half the food on Earth is wasted.

Matt, I seriously doubt that.

It was a pretty compelling documentary.

Yeah, well, so there's waste.

That's just a by-product of being able to produce

whatever you want, whenever you want.

That is some free-market bullshit and you know it.

It's not free market! I'm just being realistic.

I'm not gonna fucking sit here and have a conversation with you guys

about some utopia that's never gonna actually exist.

You sound like a fucking libertarian.

So what if I am a libertarian?

Libertarians are just hippies that grew up and bought guns.

Well, I'm glad you read your first Noam Chomsky book

and now you're an expert on oversimplified global economics.

Like, Jesus Christ, you and Matt should make

a really compelling documentary about it.

- That sounds cool. - I don't think it's naïve

to think that there could be something better.

Yeah, well, then show me system that actually exists, you know,

and we can sit here and have an intelligent conversation about it.

But until then, I'm gonna try to work within the system that actually exists.

What's your plan?

This.

No, like, your life plan.

What do you mean?

Like, if you could wake up in 10 years,

what would you be doing?

I'd be here with you.

- I'm serious. - So am I.

You never thought about going back to school?

- I knew that bothered you. - No, it doesn't.

I'm just wondering if you've ever thought

about doing something else.

Sam, I don't have what you have.

For me, there's no special gift or secret skill,

but I'm happy here

and I wanna share that with someone.

I don't understand why you can't just tell your partner your number.

They separate the numbers at the beginning

before she gets the first clue.

You could definitely make up signals, though, like...

Very subtle, though.

Wait.

Ew.

I got you some of that non-dairy ice cream in there

in case you want some.

- I didn't even know that was a thing. - Thank you.

- Hello? - Samantha, it's your mother.

- Hi, Mom. - I was just thinking about you

and wanted to see how you're doing.

I'm good. I'm actually in the middle of something right now.

Can I call you back later?

Oh, real quick while I have you.

What's the Wi-Fi password?

Derek is trying to log in with his laptop computer

and I don't know the password.

- It's on the back of the router. - No, I already looked.

It's not. Just give it to me.

- Okay, it's H-N-S-N... - Wait, hold on.

Sweetie, I have the password.

Okay, say it again.

H-N-S-N...

H-N-S-N.

- I-V-V-7. - I-V-V-7.

No, that didn't work. You must have said it wrong.

Okay, say it again. I'm going to write it down.

Okay, it's written on the back of the router, though.

Okay, I'm ready, go ahead.

Okay, it's H-N-S, "N" as in "Nancy,".

I-V, "V" as in "Victoria," 7.

Okay, here, try this.

Oh, good, he got the password off the back of the router.

When you're back, you should change it to something easier to remember.

Okay.

Oh, I did want to make sure

you're still helping with rent this month.

Derek's in between jobs, so that would really help.

Yeah, okay. I gotta go.

Oh, my God!

I can't believe you still have this.

She still runs good, too.

I can't believe you still have this.

It wasn't mine to give away.

Plus, I always kind of hope somehow you might have use for it one day.

Yeah, I still remember you picking me up from school in it.

Yeah, me too.

Can I ask you something?

Of course.

How do you know what the right thing to do is

when it isn't clear?

I'm the last person who should be offering

anyone advice, especially you.

I'm serious.

In the program, you know, we have that prayer thing.

Yeah.

"Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

courage to change the things I can,

and wisdom to know the difference."

It's a lot harder than it sounds.

But except that you can't save anyone,

or fix anyone, or change anyone.

That's where it all starts.

That's where you stop thinking you control that much

and start to realize how little you really do.

Yeah, well, that's easy for you to say.

You're not responsible for anybody.

Believe me, my whole life has been filled with mistakes,

things that I'm still trying to make amends for,

but I can't be responsible for anyone else's life,

just like you can't be responsible for your mom's.

- Somebody had to be. - When you take on the weight of someone else,

it holds you back, and it cripples them from growing themselves.

Is that what you think I'm doing, I'm crippling her?

I think you have a big heart

and you don't want her to feel pain.

But you can't do that forever.

Right now, you need to do what's best for you,

not her or anyone else, you.

So, is that what you did?

You just did what was best for you?

Because you weren't around when I was the one taking care of her

and trying to put myself through high school, okay.

So you don't get to write your letters,

you don't get to call me on my birthday,

and you don't get to tell me this bullshit 12-step speech, okay.

It's too fucking late.

All I know is a person's life is defined

by just a handful of choices.

Yeah, well, you really missed some of those, didn't you?

Hey, look, it's Ansel Adams.

- Cute pics here. - Give me those.

- Really edgy. - I'm serious, give them to me.

- What are you so upset about? - Hey.

Why does she have these?

Al, give those back.

- Fuck you! - Hey.

Hey, stop. What...

I... you left those in the back of my trunk and I thought it would be nice to...

I didn't ask you to do that.

I thought the whole point was for people to see anyways.

No, I don't need you to do shit for me, all right.

- I don't need you to fix me. - That's not what I'm doing.

Okay, so then what is it that you're doing?

What is this?

I love you, but you have to let me.

- It's not that simple. - Why?

Why does it have to be more complicated than that?

Because this isn't a life, okay?

It's cute, but it's also pathetic.

I'm fucked up, but at least I live in the real fucking world

where people don't grow up to be painters

and rock stars and drink wine all day.

I think you should go.

Hello?

Mom? Is that you?

- Is everything okay? - I'm okay.

- Mom, what's wrong? - He... he left.

- Who left? - Derek.

Derek left just now.

What do you mean he left? He just moved in.

He said I was weak

and that this just wasn't working out for him.

Then I got upset and he told me there was another woman,

Lisa, who he had ended things with a few months ago

but he said he loved her and wanted to be with her instead of me.

So he's gone, and I'm alone, and I need you to come back

- and take care of me, Samantha. - Mom...

Okay, just listen to me.

Just take a shower, get something to eat.

Okay? Breathe.

Everything's gonna be fine.

I need you here.

Thought you'd want to have these.

Sorry for being an asshole.

Thanks.

I was just playing around.

I know.

I'm just going through a lot,

and I definitely took it out on you.

This is just the first place that's ever felt like home,

so I got really protective.

Taylor is like a brother to me.

I just don't wanna hurt him, you know.

And I definitely did.

I think I'm just scared.

What are you scared of?

Relationships.

Getting close to somebody, them leaving.

I don't know, just all of it, I guess.

I think you're a good person and you'll figure it out.

But what the fuck do I know?

I'm not really into that type of stuff,

but those photos are pretty cool.

Thanks.

- Hey. - Hey.

What are you doing in the rain?

I don't mind it.

Just taking a break.

I'm sorry for everything that I said.

I didn't mean it.

Yeah, I know.

It's just that...

nobody's ever really looked at me

the way that you do.

Or cared about me the way that you do.

I do care.

I can't stay here.

Yeah, you made that pretty clear.

My mom wants me to come home.

What do you want?

I don't know.

♪ I step outside and make My way on from Carolina ♪

♪ Any way the weather blows Home is where I find ya ♪

♪ We ache inside To ride the mighty wind And nothing more ♪

♪ Oh, I just wanna See you there sleepin' On my floor ♪

♪ Well, I don't really like you I just wanna kiss you ♪

♪ I don't know how to love you But some days I miss you ♪

♪ I just wanna see you there Sleepin' on my floor ♪

♪ With the ache inside To ride the mighty wind And nothing more ♪

♪ And I'm calling On angels now ♪

♪ I want them to set me free ♪

♪ I hope that they're real Though sometimes it feels ♪

♪ Like nobody's listening ♪

♪ When I was only 12 years old And my parents went a-walkin' ♪

♪ I hate those wicked words They'd say when they Started talking

♪ He was headed For the open road ♪

♪ She turned And slammed the door ♪

♪ Learning love Ain't easy, child When all you see is war ♪

♪ And I'm calling On angels now ♪

♪ I want them to set me free ♪

♪ I hope that they're real Though sometimes it feels ♪

♪ Like nobody's listening ♪

Took her out this morning.

Running fine.

Put in new oil and topped out the fluids.

Steering was drifting a little to the left, but should be centered now.

I put some oil in the trunk.

It doesn't have a leak, but just in case...

Okay, I got it.

There's a map in the glove box.

It's prettier route if you take 26 down to 97.

Thank you.

You should stop and see San Francisco on the way down.

That's the farthest south I ever went.

Everything below that, you'll have to tell me about, okay?

No, I can't. That's too unpretty.

Guys, come on.

We're taking a photo.

I mean, weddings are open... weddings are open bar!

- I need to take another. - I wasn't even ready for that.

Yeah, I wasn't ready either.

- Samantha Rose, let us know, please. - Give us a countdown.

Okay, okay, okay, okay. Three, two, one.

Nice. That was fucking beautiful.

- Right, yeah. - All right, guys, wait.

I have a surprise for you. Follow me.

- What is it? - What is it?

- God. - Hmm, let's see.

Taking us into the woods?

- He's taking us to prom! - Oh, my God!

- It's time. - Oh, my God, Vil.

- No way. - Allie, for you, obviously.

- Thank you, sir. - Is this your wine?

You bet your ass.

- Matt. Lu. - Thank you.

- Water for Sam. - All jokes aside, pretty excited.

To friends, to family.

Cheers.

Remember... swish, smell, sip.

Ah.

That is rich.

- That is... that is terrible. - Tastes like fucking poison.

- It's the worst thing I've ever tasted. - Oh, my God.

My tongue is numb.

Sorry about that, guys.

But you're gonna get it next time.

- All jokes aside. - We'll see.

Sam, I drew this for you.

- Thanks. - Did you give a gift?

- I think it's brave what you're doing. - Yeah.

- Thanks. - I can't believe it was that bad.

It wasn't that bad.

Also, I didn't... I didn't realize that we were doing gifts.

She did. Eh, it doesn't matter.

But I'm happy to send you my new song when it's done.

I'd like that.

- It's gonna be rough now. - Probably will be.

Don't worry. Love you, kid.

Make better wine.

I'll try.

Yeah, we don't have to hug. It's okay.

Um, take care of them.

Yeah, I'll make sure there's no skanky bitches around here.

So, I heard they closed all the roads out of here.

Wow, all of them?

Yeah, they're saying it's gonna be a while.

Are you sure I can't change your mind?

I think I'm in love with you...

but I need to be sure.

And if I don't do this now, I... I won't.

Don't say that.

Some shit you say at the end of things, you know.

I promise I'll write.

I hope you found what you're looking for.

Hi, it's Diane.

I can't get the phone right now.

Please leave a message and I'll get back to you.

Hi, Mom, it's me.

Um...

I can't come back there right now.

For so long, I think I've been trying to save you

but you don't need any saving.

You're a good person and you're gonna be fine.

I just need to figure out what's next for me.

I'll get a new phone and I'll call you once I get there.

Don't forget to eat and to get outside.

And if Derek calls again, tell him to fuck off.

You deserve better than that.

I love you.

Okay.

It's like a dating app, except it's for finding friends.

How does it pick the people it matches you with?

You fill out a questionnaire and then they match you

with the people that you have the most shared interests with.

God, that sounds awful.

I miss you.

You're just lonely.

That's not the same thing.

No.

I miss you.

♪ August, honey Tasted sweeter with you ♪

♪ Sticky fingers From your old residue ♪

♪ Do you remember You used to breathe so loud ♪

♪ Do you remember The taste, the sound? ♪

♪ And it sounded So damn good ♪

♪ And it tasted Just like it should ♪

♪ We don't talk about it We don't have the time ♪

♪ We thought love was something We weren't meant to find ♪

♪ But now you're a stranger And I'm still July ♪

♪ But don't you remember August, honey, you were mine ♪

♪ Well, I've loved you From the start ♪

♪ And I've loved you From the start ♪

♪ We don't talk about it We don't have the time ♪

♪ We thought love was something We weren't meant to find ♪

♪ But now you're a stranger And I'm still July ♪

♪ But don't you remember August, honey, you were mine ♪

♪ We don't talk about it We don't have the time ♪

♪ We thought love was something We weren't meant to find ♪

♪ But now you're a stranger And I'm still July ♪

♪ But don't you remember August, honey, you were mine ♪