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♪This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine ♪

♪This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine♪

♪Let it shine, let it shine, let it shine♪

♪Oh Jesus is coming one fine day, one fine day♪

♪Oh Jesus is coming one fine day♪

♪And I love the Lord, this is something that is so♪

♪And I love Him so, yes, I know♪

I was having-- I was having the weirdest dream.

-What kind?

-It was about my mother.

-Mm.

What happened?

Was it a nightmare?

-Yeah.

No.

Is it raining?

-Mm-hm.

-Let's-- um...

Let's go to bed.

Hi, Maggie.

This is Jonathan Caouette again.

I'm, uh, just calling to get the status on my mother,

Renee LeBlanc.

Is she still not talking?

And they started the dialysis?

And do you know...

like, what the repercussions are of this?

'Cause I went on the internet earlier and it doesn't look too

hot.

Yeah.

Yeah, we could leave-- I could run a key over

to you before I have to go to the train station.

I feel like I'm gonna have an anxiety attack.

Yeah, I'm really-- I'm sick on top of it,

too.

I've got, like, a 102 fever.

I guess from all the stress.

Go placidly amidst the noise and hate and remember what

peace there may be in solace.

As far as possible without surrender,

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly.

Listen to others.

Even the dull and ignorant too have their story to tell.

Avoid and aggressive persons.

They are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,

you may become vain and bitter, for always there will be greater

and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as your.

Keep interested in your own career,

however humble.

real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your various affairs,

for the world is full of trickery.

But let this not blind you to what virtue there is.

Many persons strive for high ideals,

and everywhere life is full of heroism.

♪One little two little ♪

♪Three little indians♪

♪Four little five little six little indians♪

♪Seven little eight little nine little indians♪

♪10 little indian boys♪

Oh brother, I wonder how we're gonna sound on tape.

Horrible.

That'll put us on the Jonny Carson show,

don't you think, Mother?

Oh, yes.

I mean, wouldn't we really be a star attraction?

We sure would.

Yeah, it's still good.

What all do you wanna record on here?

Jonathan, say something to the tape recorder.

Say-- say "hello."

Talk in the tape recorder,

darling.

Record.

Are you gonna say your ABCs,

Jonathan?

Hm?

Sing your ♪A B C D E F G♪

♪Tell me what you think of me♪

♪A B C D E F G♪

♪Tell me what you...♪

♪A P P E E C ♪

♪No I C D E E C♪

Go on, do some more.

Anything you say now is being recorded,

Mother.

What do you want to say?

I have to.

Do you want me to?

That's a real wise decision.

Jonathan, what do you want to say,

baby?

A B...

Did you know that this was February the 24th,

1975 and this is a Monday?

Hello.

Hello.

Hello.

Hello.

Hello there, beautiful.

Hello.

Hello.

Hello there, beautiful.

Pattycake, pattycake, baker's man,

You have to do what, Mom?

I like your teeth, they look good.

With what?

You don't have any teeth there.

Is it loud, darling?

No?

Is it loud?

No.

Is it soft?

No.

Do I love you?

Love you.

Jonathan that man has pretty eyes.

Mommy has a boo-boo?

Where's mommy's boo-boo?

There.

Right there?

♪Oh baby, how are you doin'?♪

♪How are you, darling?♪

♪Don't touch my tape recorder♪

♪Don't touch my tape recorder♪

♪Baby, don't...♪

♪I do love you, baby♪

♪I don't want you to touch my tape recorder♪

Thank you.

This is a family being recorded.

Be nice, you're on tape recorder now.

-Am I on?

My name...

is Hillary...

Chapman Laura Lou Garia.

This is like a, um, testimony, isn't it?

Jimmy says when I wear too much makeup,

it makes me look like a whore, so...

sorry.

Hi.

Oh, I told you my name.

Um...

my testimony is about, um, me and my little baby...

Caroline.

I've b-- I've been through hell.

I'm kind of nervous here in front of you all.

What a year, you know?

1969.

Just... housewife for me.

Um, it all s-- started when, um...

Jim-- Jimmy was coming home late at night.

He was getting-- you know, getting into,

um, alcohol.

And I-- I was...pregnant with Caroline and...

still gaining the pounds.

She's only-- she's two years old now.

Healthy baby.

Um...

s-- she-- he used to beat me...

when he'd come home drunk at night.

He used to beat me.

And...

he used to, um...

he...kicked me in the stomach while I was pregnant.

And, um...

he'd tie me up...

when he was smoking that dope.

That's what got to him...in the brain there.

And, um...

This is really, um...

hard for me.

One night, he got out the gun.

I was tied up on the bed.

And he came and pointed it to my head.

He said, "I'll kill you, bitch.

I'll kill you!"

It was the other way around.

I-- I...

I got out the gun one night.

Blew his ass away.

That's it.

That's it.

Wake up now.

Wake up, angel.

Wake up.

Wake up.

Get up.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

Come now.

Wake up.

Wake up, angel.

Wake up.

Up you get.

That's it.

Up you get.

Up we get.

-Hi, camera.

I must look really gross.

TB.

I got T...

I got TB: tobacco and beer.

you show my pretty legs.

I think I have to get some new shoes...

you're being ornery.

Lompis, ompis, bompis.

I need something to comb my hair with.

I'm Charlie from the Chocolate Factory.

It's Charlie from the Chocolate Factory.

I'm Charlie from the Chocolate Factory.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Charlie from the Chocolate Factory.

I'm gonna get my hair colored one day.

colored.

What color should I make it?

Blonde.

I'm too old to be a blonde.

Nicotine and the heat from the cigarettes still get on their

lip no matter what side you put it on.

Isn't that right, Jon?

You make a testimony.

And I'll tell you that's the honest truth.

Hi,.

My name is Sharelle.

Have you ever just sat down?

You like my hair?

It's done.

It's done.

My secret is egg.

And my name is Sharelle.

And I bet you can tell...

uh, I'm fine now.

I'm-- I'm not using, so I'm not a doper.

I'm just...

I'm on...

♪Sunny day, sleeping the clouds away♪

♪On my way to where the air is sweet♪

I now have strep throat.

I can't remember my birth.

She was diagnosed schizophrenic.

it's official what her illness was.

She had a head trauma when she fell off the roof.

She did do LSD, PCP, and marijuana.

You know, she was a flower child,

a hippy back in the '60s.

I am emotionally disturbed right now,

even though I wasn't brought up in a very neat and perfect

environment.

freaked me out.

I had a in another dimension and then I

switched.

See, um, I got a little of a drug.

I'm not exactly sure what kind, but I believe it was either PCP

or LSD, and it depersonalized my mind.

Nobody else hears it, but I do.

And I've been-- I've-- I've been to Maryland.

I hope they don't die.

I am depersonalized and I think it is from the brain damage.

I feel like I'm in a dream all the time.

I forgot how it was to be normal,

you know?

Sometimes, it freaks me out.

And I think I'll-- I think that was the time I was talking about

her and her pussy and all that stuff.

I was making-- I don't usually talk dirty like that.

Oh, well.

Life is a trip.

It's like one big long dream.

No, no gay person came up to me and brainwashed me.

If anybody is listening, I am gay.

I've always been gay.

I don't know if it's from the molesting or not.

I'm just lusty for everything.

I don't-- I don't even like to suck on stuff like that.

I just have the feelings of doing it.

I don't like to do it.

Seriously, I don't.

I love my mother so much.

Can you take this anymore?

Little bit, yeah.

And...I don't want to die.

I'm not crazy.

And I'm not going home.

I'm staying here...

for the rest of my fucking life.

She kidnapped me, took me to Chicago,

Illinois.

She was raped in front of me.

They were talking about these tunnels...

these tunnels that were underground.

These skeletons that were discovered.

Nobody's supposed to know I'm gay.

But I sort of wanted it in a way,

because I do have gay feelings.

But I don't know why.

I guess I'm a silent faggot.

Look at me.

Do you think I'm crazy?

I'm not crazy, I'm just stupid.

I'm cracking up, I'm hearing things.

There was a very big, fucked up mistake.

There goes that noise.

What the hell is it?

He molested me.

I wanna die.

Ow, I just stubbed my toe.

I just stubbed my toe.

Oh God, it hurts.

-Hello!

You see my transplant?

I mean, my implants?

My transplants...

You know what, Jon?

You could have a hairstyle just like that boy had.

Long on one side.

And the other side they have cut short.

You ever seen that?

You certainly have emotional problems.

-Who the fuck is this?

Help!

I need...

I need teeth!

Help!

Help me!

Help me!

You're making a sinner out of me.

-You don't even have to l--

I see red.

What's the red?

-It's probably this.

Wh-- what do you mean, red?

It's in black and white.

I see a red light, Jon.

-That doesn't mean anything.

Turn on the air!

Grandma, you don't-- look.

Grandma, do you see it?

I don't want to!

Now watch this.

Hold it like this.

Hold it just like that and have this going up to my face.

Just put it in your lap and hold it.

Okay?

Like this?

-Yeah.

Hello?

Hi.

Hi.

-It's sore.

Ooh.

-The weather is clearing up now.

We're still having the rain.

Uh...

we will now return to our normal things again.

It is really amazing how the weather could change from-- from

a sun-shiny day to-- to stormy, uh, to a stormy day.

-I don't have any teeth at all.

And one thing we have to it has always been a

good baseball town.

Love baseball.

It's been the number one sport, especially for the old-timers.

I am Houston proud, and don't mess with Texas!

-I want to say something.

And if you don't go over there and sit down ,

I'm gonna blow your fucking brains out.

I got stuff to do, I want to be alone to do it.

I gotta make some resolutions about my stupid life.

I can't bite my fingernails, I can't do it.

I can't keep because I'm a person and I'm a nervous

person.

-When do you have to return the camera,

honey?

Okay.

Okay.

All right now?

Jonathan, I have to go to the bathroom.

You can't film me going to the bathroom.

That would be pornography.

That shade!

I told you to open it by the stick!

Now, let it down!

Let it down, Jonathan!

I told you to always open it by that stick!

Hello?

Talk into the video camera.

Hang on.

You ready?

Yeah.

Okay, go.

- Dr. says I'm doing a lot better.

All the therapy help and all the help.

He says I'm doing a lot better.

Okay, can you hear me in Houston?

Yeah.

Thank you.

Have a nice day.

I love you too.

Bye.

Bye.

Love you.

Love you.

Are we going now?

-She's awake, she sees.

-She don't see.

As long as she , she can't see nor hear.

She's like dead now, see.

She's awake, she sees.

She don't see.

As long as she , she can't see nor hear.

She's like dead now, see.

Typhoon!

Typhoon!

I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling well.

I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling well.

I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling well.

♪It's just a little bitty pissant country place ♪

♪Ain't nothing much to see♪

♪No drinking allowed♪

♪We get a nice quiet crowd♪

♪We're gonna zoom, zoom, zoom-a-zoom ♪

♪Come on and zoom-a-zoom-a-zoom-a-zoom♪

♪Well, I don't care if I'm pretty at all ♪

♪And I don't care if I never get tall ♪

-I don't wanna die!

I don't wanna die!

It's blood, Jessica.

It's blood.

Hit her!

Oh, my God!

I found a crab over there.

-I'm Timmy!

-Will you draw me a sheep?

Was their a message on their lips in their last

convulsive breaths?

Never should we sell our possessions and our very souls

to false prophets.

-Is that a way to bring up a boy?

He'll be a lesbian?

How can a son be a lesbian?

Those who do not remember the past are condemned to repeat

it.

-Everybody means everybody!

And that means you!

-That's not possible!

That's a mistake!

Ahh!

-I was quite the celebrity.

-Please help me!

kill you today.

Jon...

We're still.

That's what I like about Houston.

It gets cold here for a while but don't stay cold very long.

Just for a little while.

It's not a matter of for you,

is it?!

-Ahh!

-You're making a sinner out of me.

You're making a sinner out of me!

-Somewhere, my flower's up there!

-How do you get it with the face looking into the...

The camera lens or somewhere else?

Yeah, into the camera lens.

-I would like to display my earrings,

which are-- I bought them at Elizabeth Taylor's boutique in

California.

Yes, that's in San Francisco.

And she also has this boutique in Houston.

These are what she wore in her White Diamonds commercial.

And, um...

I've-- I've become, uh, overwhelmed by these earrings

because they are white diamonds.

And they are an authentic possession of-- that Elizabeth

Taylor once wore.

I gotta run over to my apartment in LA and pick up some items...

and bring them to my son, who is in Houston.

It makes no sense, but that's all I could think of.

Hey, momma's gotta go now.

I have a crush on this guy in theater arts that

looks just like Nick Drake.

He lives out in the woods and he's a great musician.

He carves and ZZ Top on his legs.

Tell me where you are.

I am Pazoozoo!

-That bitch.

That bitch.

Fuck off, bitch!

Fuck-- fuck the fuckers!

Fuck you, bitch!

♪Sometimes, the wind blows ♪

-Uh, what these kids are doing is, uh,

using Marianne Faithful as, uh, in regard to her relationship

with, uh, Mick Jagger as sort of a

quasi-metaphor for the Dorothy Valance character.

-You either rock out really crazily and get down--

Yeah.

-Or you could go very demure while everyone's rocking out

behind you and just be like...

you know, move your fingers, maybe hips,

and bopping a little shoulder here or there.

I dig that crazy beat.

Yeah.

Like, you're way out.

She's a beatnik.

Hey, sweetie!

Like, you're something else, you know?

See it?

Yeah.

Why do you keep that?

-Why I keep that?

I keep that for my protection.

Really?

-Yeah, too many people breaking in.

I love you, Dad.

-I love you too.

-Look at my new phone.

It's great.

-Isn't it great?

Mm-hm.

-Hello?

There's nobody on the line.

There's nobody on the line, but this is brand new.

-Hello.

-Here I am in beautiful, sunny--

Say something.

Say "Hello, how are you?"

How old are you, Jonathan?

-20.

When will you be 21, soon?

-Two months.

Two months?

How old are you, David?

13.

When will you be 14?

-In December.

Is that three months away?

-I guess.

-This is September 1993.

-Yeah, three months.

-And I'm still smoking.

My own private Idaho.

You wouldn't have a family if I die,

Jon.

You'll have no one.

That's not true.

-It is true.

I'm all you've ever had.

You never...

you never really appreciated me for what I was.

-Everybody has this mark right here.

But before a person is born, God shows them everything.

He shows them heaven and everything.

But when they're getting ready to be born,

God doesn't want them to remember any of that.

So an angel touches-- touches...

it touched me, it touches everybody before they're born.

And everybody has this little mark.

He says that's what it is.

It's that angel touches your child before they're born so

they won't remember.

Yeah, Rosemary ha-- had a stroke,

oh, uh, quite a few months ago.

And, uh, we, uh, have a lot of hope and confidence that,

uh, she will proceed in being well again.

Diet very carefully.

We think that's one of the keys to it.

We're giving her low sodium and we give her a lot of fresh

vegetables.

Well, we're saying about another 30 to 60 days that she will...

start and gradually get better and better.

Do your Bette Davis imitation,

Grandma.

See how pretty?

Pretty Grandma.

Grandma, say hello, start talking.

Look into the camera.

She's really, really tired.

Look right into the camera and start talking.

-What do you want me to say?

Just talk about stuff.

-I don't feel like it.

Take the wig off.

Pull it off, Grandma.

You can just pull it off.

You don't have to do it from the top.

Take it off.

From the side.

Maybe , one of the war songs that's stuck with me,

"Coming In On a Wing and a Prayer," and they have a

meaning to them, too.

Every one of them.

something to me that gives me hope.

-We were all sleeping and they just woke us up and banged on

our doors a couple of times and asked us to evacuate.

-I want you to know that I-- I-- I really believe in you.

And you have such good thoughts, such good deeds that you've

done...

that you've really impressed me and make me a happy guy.

-I'm gonna help myself to some coffee.

Sure, go ahead, please.

-Really?

What's your name?

-David.

You do not pay attention!

You're not listening.

Shiny?

♪Don't you forget the nest where you used to rest ♪

♪It wasn't the worst but among the best♪

-Would you like another donut?

-Mm, it's good.

Especially when we cause a riot, you know?

Oh, my goodness!

This is wonderful.

-We're gonna blow up now.

Happy new year!

Happy new year, baby!

-Happy new year!

...doing, David?

-Angel.

Now stand up.

Let's see what it looks like.

Wow.

Wow.

Looks like a-- a nuclear angel.

Where are we?

-Home.

Where is home?

-Where?

Where do we live?

-Greenpoint.

It's our New York apartment!

See how big it is?

-They say in one of my books that Elizabeth Taylor was

hamming it up for the camera at age three,

so I inherited that.

I was an extremely abused child.

It was a-- an ongoing thing.

There was no end to it.

I never knew from one minute to the next when I was gonna be hit

or slapped or drug by my hair...

by my-- the people who raised me.

Sick parents raise sick children.

My children are Jonathan and David,

and they are very special, wonderful children.

When I was a little girl, the mother who raised me...

would chase me through the house with a belt in her

hand, and I would run to my bed and lie on my stomach,

and she would whip me on my back.

Rosemary was the woman who raised me.

She was...

schizophrenic, she was very neurotic,

and she was very psychotic.

She would hit me on my back, she would...

hit me with her fist for no apparent reason.

I was extremely abused and, uh...

hopefully, I-- I didn't bring over any of the abuse to my

children.

I wanted to be the one to break the cycle.

Tell me about the accident.

What happened?

-Nothing.

I feel out the window.

What was the accident?

-I fell out....

What was your first memory of the first mental

hospital that you went to.

-Uh-uh--

Tell me!

-This is way too much.

No, tell me, tell me!

Because it's not your fault, Renee.

-No, it's not.

It's not your fault!

-No, it's not!

You have nothing to run away from!

I'm-- I'm sick, okay?

You're not sick!

Oh, yes, I am, now.

Will you just please help me with my stupid film?

My stomach can't take this.

Talk to me!

Mommy, this is the kind of shit that you talk to me about all

day.

You bring this up and you recycle these stories to me all

the time about Rosemary and Adolph and your doctors and how

fucked up they fucked you up.

-Your father i-- of course is Steve,

and he was a very good provider for us when he was married,

when I was married to him.

And, um, had a beautiful apartment home,

had the finest furniture and the best food.

And he was a good, loyal friend and husband to me for the length

of time that we were married.

Um...

How did you guys meet?

Oh, my God.

I've got enough problems, honey, without bringing up the past,

okay?!

My therapist told me I don't have to bring up the past!

-You know, I'd like to find out a few things about myself,

too.

We can talk, Jon.

We don't need it on film.

Hello, Jonathan.

Adolph's going to have me committed.

I can't take it anymore.

Adolph screams and yells at me every day.

I can't stand this.

Hello, honey?

Listen, please call your mom tonight.

It's-- it's definitely an emergency.

Jonathan, please call me!

I think Adolph's gonna put me in the hospital to make it look

like I'm the one that needs the help.

They'll come to my door and put handcuffs on me and put me

inside of a car and carry me to God-knows-where.

Let me tell you, Jonathan, there should be a law against this.

This is a call of desperation.

I take Lithium like a good girl, but there's nothing wrong with

me.

Let me tell you, Jonathan, I'm getting out of Texas,

and I'm...

I'm coming to live with you.

David or Jonathan, please call Renee.

David or Jonathan, please call Renee.

David or Jonathan, please call Renee...

-All great.

Everything's great.

-Walking around.

-I know.

-It's crazy.

Great, great, I-- and now, I know may never recover.

My apartment became very dirty.

Oh, I saw.

And I fell out.

How are you feeling?

-Fine.

Good.

You look beautiful.

-One, two, three, four, five,

six, seven and--

-Can't complain, everything is fine.

Yeah?

Okay.

Mamma.

Mamma!

Mamma, don't do it to me.

Fixed and fast.

Mommy loves you all the best.

Film Michael.

-Don't touch it.

Don't drop it.

Okay, I'm not doing nothing.

Stay back.

-You're shaking it, you're shaking it.

No, no.

-Okay, don't-- you have to-- you're shaking it.

You're gonna drop my camera.

It ain't my fault.

I talk funny 'cause, you know,.

Okay.

Oh, Lordy.

It's a pumpkin.

pumpkin.

pumpkin, baby.

I swear to God, this is a pumpkin.

Woohoo!

Smile, you're on candid camera today!

Ooh, smashing pumpkins.

I'm snowing.

snowing.

And it's...really stormy weather.

This is little pumpkin, short and stout.

Tip me over and pour me out.

I'm the little pumpkin, short and stout.

Tip me over and pour me out.

It's a pumpkin.

Do the pumpkin.

Do the pumpkin.

pumpkins.

Do the pumpkin.

I know!

I can get onstage and entertain.

Do the pumpkin.

Do the pumpkin.

Do the doll's head.

She's cute.

Do the doll's head.

Do the pumpkin.

It's mine.

This is all I have for dinner.

That's why I'm so...interested in pumpkins.

Let's go upstairs.

What prompted you and Grandma to start

administering shock treatments to her over and over again?

What-- who talked you into that?

-It was the doctors.

Didn't you think that electricity on the brain at

that time could have been harmful?

-No.

I'm wondering if Mommy would have never had the

shock treatments, if she would have been normal,

if she would have not had to deal with anything like this.

-Well, she-- she--

Any illnesses.

-She's normal, she gets depressed once in a while.

She gets delusional.

She tells me that you and Grandma used to lock her in

closets.

-No.

That you would just lock her in closets and abuse

her and...

she's even told me things like...

horrible things, Dad.

Like your mother used to molest her and touch her on her vagina.

And she thinks that you're not her real parents.

-Sometimes, she thinks Elizabeth Taylor was her mother.

That Elizabeth Taylor was?

Do you know what she also told me?

That she was born with four nipples.

And that she was also born a hermaphrodite.

A boy.

She either is delusional and she completely believes what she's

saying or there's maybe some truth to this.

-We've got a happy family and a wonderful family and we love

God.

I know things a little more deeper than-- than you do.

-Dad, the world is a hateful place.

-No...

-Yes, it is, Dad.

Do you think this family has been a government

experiment?

-Yes, it has been.

-I-- I-- I don't know what--

your fucking memory is shot to hell!

Now, honey--

-You can't remember shit in your own life--

-You're too pretty to talk like that.

-Fuck you!

Dad, did you ever lock Renee up in closets?

-No.

-Jonathan, don't bring that up, damn you!

-No, I--

-Adolph, don't bring that up.

Jonathan, damn you.

Stop it!

-I'm out of it.

Just-- I-- I--

Why are you so angry with me?

-The questions you ask me and all of that,

there's nothing the matter with-- with me.

You're trying to-- you're trying to scheme something on me.

I'm not trying to scheme anything on you!

-Just leave me alone and you tend to your business!

You understand?

I'm not trying to scheme anything on you.

-Well, just leave me alone!

Police department, please.

I'm on the phone.

-Adolph, are you insane?

-No, I want to call--

-Yes, you are!

I want to talk to.

You can come over to my house.

here is acting up and I want you to....

Take that away!

Take that away!

He's photographing--

-No, I don't want to be photographed by him!

-More like yourself.

-Can you see?

-Yeah.

Can I get my New York ID tomorrow?

-Yeah, what time do you need to get there?

-Okay.

You've gotta wake me up in the morning because I'm off my

sleeping schedule right now.

-What?

-Oh, I know.

-Filming on the toilet?

-It's like five in the morning and I wanted this scene to kind

of be in the dark like it was when I was younger with the

light and...

the sun's about to come up, so I have to hurry up and do this.

My mother's up right now.

She's-- she has insomnia.

She's-- she's off her sleeping schedule.

She's downstairs right now.

She's just...

turning the sink on, so I'm-- I'm really...

I'm scared of letting myself go to,

uh...

talk about anything right now.

I don't know...

if it's just because I'm a grown-up now, um...

that people tell me things like "Why do you look so

worried?"

Or...

"Why do you have such stress in your face?"

Or "How come you can't get a sentence out now?"

Or "What the hell is wrong with you?"

We sat through Neil Simon's Seems Like Old Times with

Goldie Hawn and Chevy Chase like three times in a row.

That was back in the days when like people could do that.

You could just like sit through a movie over and over again.

Oh, fucking shit.

I don't ever want to turn out like my mother.

And I'm scared 'cause...

um...

when I was little and she was my age that I am now,

which is 31, um...

she seemed a lot better than she does now.

I love my mother so much.

As fucked up as it is...

I can't escape her.

She lives inside me.

She's in my hair, she's behind my eyes.

She's under my skin.

She's...

downstairs.

Uh, I can't do this.

Here, sweetie.

Take this.

I love you.

...But do not distress yourself with imagining.

Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a discipline, be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the

stars.

You have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,

no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive him to be,

and whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy

confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.

With all its , drudgery,

and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.