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Just because Carl is going for full custody

does not mean he's gonna get it.

He's gonna use my psych hold against me.

I'm really glad to have you in my corner.

It means more than you know.

I'm seeing my attacker whenever I'm in my office.

In my experience, when you try to run away

from your demons, they chase you.

You never made it back to my place last night.

I'm worried you're trying to numb your grief.

- Watch where you're going! - Get out of my face.

That's right. Stay down.

Where's that smart mouth now?

Well, it sounds to me, anyway,

like you're feeling a lot closer to normal,

and that makes me happy.

Well, I don't know about normal,

but I now know the value of a good therapist.

Does that mean I'm gonna get a big, fat raise?

No.

Okay, well, I'm still happy you're feeling better, I guess.

Is that Jackie?

Hey, good morning. - Good morning, Jackie.

Ms. Goodwin, good morning. Good morning, Dr. Charles.

- How're you doing? - Good, good.

Ah, you know, this is gonna take forever.

I'm just gonna head back to the ED, I think.

Why don't you give us your order?

I'll bring it up. - Oh, no.

No, no, it's fine. - You sure?

Yeah, yeah, I'll see you in there.

What was that all about?

Oh, I don't know, man.

That was very... that was weird, wasn't it?

Okay.

What?

That looks good.

Where am I?

Martin, I told you, we're at the hospital.

Okay, so how did this happen?

Someone turned off the TV he was watching,

and he got mad and smashed a lamp.

He's been getting pretty worked up

over that kind of thing lately. - Got it.

Any history of bleeding disorder or, uh, diabetes?

I'm really not sure.

Okay. Any family we can contact?

Unfortunately, no.

All we know is that he was living alone

until he set his stovetop on fire.

CFD turned him over to the state,

and when a cognitive eval tagged dementia,

he ended up at our facility.

All right, I see bedsores, and he's pretty thin.

When's the last time he took a bath?

Look, there's only three of us

on the entire memory care floor

trying to rotate through all the rooms.

How long is this gonna take?

Martin's not my only patient.

I need to get back to the facility.

Well, you're gonna have to hang tight because Dr. Archer

wants occupational therapy to examine Martin's hand

before he's released.

Where am I?

You are right here with me, Martin.

- Uh... - What is it?

Uh, uh.

Okay.

Listen to me. We're gonna figure this out.

I'm gonna take good care of you, Martin.

You hear me? I promise.

What happened to your lip?

I'm fine.

You got in a fight last night, didn't you?

Yeah, let's not do this again.

You, uh... you made your feelings

perfectly clear last night.

Could use you in T6.

Patient's complaining of back pains,

but there's... there's no rush.

Okay, I'll be there in a moment.

Oh, Ms. Copeland, this is Dr. Asher.

You can call me Eva.

Hi, Eva.

I heard you've got some back pain.

Can you show me where it hurts?

Okay, any chance you could be pregnant?

- No. - Are you sexually active?

My fiancé and I, we've been saving ourselves for marriage.

Okay, so when did your back pain start?

When I woke up this morning.

I'm a bit of a wild sleeper.

Oh, I am the same way.

My poor fiancé has no idea what he's in for.

Ow! - Ooh.

All right, I'm gonna lie you back.

Okay?

Ow!

Okay, I am done torturing you, Eva.

Let's get a CBC and a BMP.

You got it.

We'll be right back.

- And an ultrasound? - And a pregnancy test.

Victor Tullman, 52 years old.

Was ejected when his motorcycle hit a retaining wall.

Got lodged in the fence line.

CFD extracted him at the scene.

Oh, it hurts so bad.

All right, we're gonna get you fixed up, Victor.

All right, come on. Put him in here.

You know, we're gonna keep this here for a moment, yeah?

All right, push one of Dilaudid and a tetanus shot.

Copy that.

It's embedded in the chest wall.

All right, and the other's anterior.

You stabilize while I dissect the barbs one by one.

Give me a heavy clamp and a pair of wire cutters, please.

- Careful. - Dilaudid's on board.

Tetanus is up next. - Okay, good. Let's clamp.

All right, let me get this out of the way first.

All right.

You in?

Yeah.

Got it. One down, one to go.

Irrigate to make sure there's no retained foreign bodies.

Now this one is deep.

Yeah. Yeah.

Okay. - All right.

It's out.

All right, good job.

All right, let's get him a...

Oh!

Is that what I think it is?

That is his lung.

Eviscerated lung. I've read about them.

Multiple rib fractures created instability

in the chest, allowed the lung

to herniate through the chest wall.

Pressure from his cough forced it through the opening.

So what's our plan of attack, Ms. Howard?

Immediate surgery to reduce the lung

and reconstruct the chest wall.

Yes.

And what else?

Um...

His EKG showed low-voltage conduction disturbances.

He has a weakened heart muscle.

Before he gets anesthesia,

it's a good idea to make sure it doesn't kill him.

Right, of course.

Let's page Dr. Hayes for a cardiothoracic consult

before surgery.

She's had enough hand-holding. - Oh, please, I get it.

Yeah, yeah, but what concerns me

is that you're getting into her head too much.

I hope I am.

Naomi has to learn not to buckle under pressure,

or she's gonna spend her entire career threading catheters.

Naomi's going to match very soon.

I want to make sure she's ready.

You finally getting that first cup of coffee?

Yep.

Hey, look, um...

I wanted to ask you or just, uh,

make sure that we're...

we're okay, I mean, after that... whatever happened,

or rather, didn't happen last night.

Yeah, of course.

It was just a weird moment, I think.

Yes, definitely.

Um, so you have your...

you got your... your custody hearing this afternoon.

How you doing with that?

Yeah, I'm gonna leave here in an hour.

I'm gonna go change and head over.

I gotta find a perfect outfit

that says I am capable of caring for my child.

Please don't do that to yourself.

How can I not?

Carl's lawyer, she's... she's going after me.

She's got a child psychologist.

She's got an expert in self-harm.

She's even got somebody from the psych ward coming in.

From here? From Gaffney?

Yeah, Dr. Nemic. Do you know him?

Yeah.

Good doc.

I mean, at least he'll... he'll play it straight, you know?

But can I just give you a little piece of advice,

if you'll allow me?

Just try and stay out of, oh, what are they gonna do?

What are they not gonna do, you know,

and focus on the stuff that you can control.

Yeah, well, that's the thing.

I don't feel like I can control anything.

Looks like he has an underlying

constrictive cardiomyopathy.

Thank you, Doris. - Thank you, Dr. Hayes.

Repairing his heart is my priority.

Let's get him upstairs ASAP.

Respectfully, I disagree.

Oh?

We have to repair the exposed lung first.

Every second we wait increases his risk of deadly infection.

I hear you, Dr. Lenox, but there's significant thickening

of the pericardium.

It's impeding perfusion.

A repaired lung is not gonna do much good if his heart

gives out on the table.

Well, what if we take a thoracoscopic approach,

fix the heart and lung simultaneously?

Bold but riskier approach.

But we could limit his time under anesthesia,

which minimizes the risk of a stroke and cardiac arrest

during surgery.

Interesting.

But we'd have to drop the left lung to reach the heart.

If there's an air leak on the right,

we won't be able to ventilate.

He dies on the table.

Well, I'm not concerned about that.

We can protect the eviscerated lung and secure the opening.

I'll have my team prep the OR.

Excellent idea, Ms. Howard.

Would you like to scrub in with us?

- That would be amazing. - Great.

See you both up there.

What you have is called an ectopic pregnancy.

I'm pregnant?

Not in the traditional sense.

See, your egg became fertilized in the fallopian tube,

which is normal, but it got stuck there,

and it never traveled to the uterus.

That's what's causing your abdomen and back pain.

But if the tube ruptured,

it could quickly turn life-threatening.

Well, what happens now?

Now we need to remove the pregnancy.

Fortunately, this is a routine laparoscopic procedure,

and you'll be back on your feet in a week.

Eva, your fiancé just checked into the waiting room.

Can I let him come in?

He can't know.

I can't tell him if you don't want me to,

but wouldn't he want to know?

It's not his.

Please. He'll leave me.

- Sharon? - Yeah?

- You got a minute? - Of course. What's up?

I got a patient that was brought in

from a state dementia care facility with a hand injury.

Nothing serious, but I've been slow playing his treatment.

So what's your concern?

He's underweight, hasn't bathed.

And I was checking out his medication history,

and it's all over the place.

They had him on statins and took him off.

And then they had him on levothyroxine,

and they discontinued that too.

So you think it's neglect?

Yes.

These facilities can be dumping grounds

for insurance companies.

Well, what about family, friends?

No family, and I checked out last-known address,

and no one's heard of Martin.

He must have been a bit of a shut-in.

So you want to know if we should report?

I don't want to sound the alarm unnecessarily,

but I can't help but feeling that Martin's trying to tell me

something important but can't.

You know, Bert exhales and groans a little

when he doesn't like something and can't find the words.

Dementia patients have small signs

that are language that we have to understand.

You need more time to know Martin's.

- All right, what have we got? - 34-year-old male.

GCS 12.

Hypotensive with an oxygen level of 90.

Came home drunk last night and passed out.

When his wife tried to wake him up this morning,

he could barely keep his eyes open.

- Oxygen's down to 88. - Please help him.

Did he take anything unusual?

A new medication that doesn't mix well with alcohol?

I don't know.

He went out last night to meet some friends.

He's got some bruising here on the ribs.

Did he say how that happened?

He mentioned falling down stairs, but...

You think he got into a fight?

I love him, but he's a hothead.

Stethoscope?

When did he start having difficulty breathing?

In the car on the way here.

Okay, let's intubate.

20 of etomidate, 100 of sux.

On it.

Where's that smart mouth now?

Meds are in.

Ripley? You cool?

Yeah.

All good.

Oxygen at 94 and climbing.

No free fluid in his abdomen.

No sign of any traumatic injury.

Maybe it's a retroperitoneal bleed.

His kidneys look normal in the ultrasound.

Yeah, but if he took a flank shot,

there's a possibility it could have opened a slow bleed

that wouldn't necessarily show up on a scan right away.

Fair call.

Graysen, let's order a CT

of his posterior abdomen and pelvis,

and then we'll go from there. - Copy.

Okay.

Thanks for the assist.

Yeah.

Keep me in the loop.

I can't believe you called protective services.

It's my job to ensure that all patients

are properly cared for.

Well, it's a colossal waste of time.

Well, I'm sorry I held you up.

Not this again. Martin, lift your feet.

Where did I go?

Come on, Martin, we gotta go home.

Wait, stop.

It's okay, Martin.

Why don't you come with me?

Where am I?

You don't see yourself.

Where did I go?

Bri, you said that Martin would get upset

every time you turned the TV off?

That's right. He'd freak out.

Didn't want to miss his game shows.

- What would he say? - Same thing as now.

Where am I? Where did I go? Over and over.

He wasn't upset you turned the TV off.

He was upset at his own reflection on the empty screen.

Okay, Martin.

Why don't you sit down?

Okay.

I am not discharging him.

Stay put.

You were right.

Slow bleed from the right kidney

that's leaking into the perinephric space.

I didn't want to be right.

I'm giving him a couple of units of blood.

I already spoke to trauma, and once an OR is available,

I'm gonna get him upstairs for surgery.

You want to remove his kidney?

Well, I'm afraid we have no choice.

Well, we could take him to angio and embolize the bleed.

I wish we could, but it looks like

the bleed's coming off the vena cava,

so kidney has to come out.

I'd go more conservative.

Look, this is a young guy who got in a fight.

I'd rather... I'd rather he didn't have to lose a kidney

over one bad decision.

So I'm just sort of surprised

that you want to embolize when he came in hypotensive.

We'd be risking his life for...

Neither of us want that, obviously.

But I'm surprised you jumped to such an extreme measure

when there are other options

that don't involve removing a kidney.

He'll still have another one,

and we're not talking about a lifetime on dialysis here.

Dude, are you okay?

Don't worry about me. Just cancel the OR.

Schedule the embolization.

Okay, so you're just pulling rank, then?

Yeah, I guess so.

I feel like you're angry with me.

I disagree with you. There's a difference.

You think I overstepped with Dr. Hayes?

I think you blurted out the first idea that came to mind

to impress a world-renowned cardiothoracic surgeon.

No, I actually believe in this approach.

But did you think it through first?

Because I see endless potential for error.

And when it comes to surgery,

you have to think three steps ahead.

You told me to find my voice, to speak my mind.

Now I have, and you're still unhappy?

So which is it? - It's both.

You have to pick your moments because everything

you do between now and match day

can have a significant impact on your career.

I'm sorry you're angry he preferred my idea to yours...

That's not what this is about.

Are you sure?

Yes.

Dr. Hayes liked your idea, and I know that feels good.

But if this surgery goes south,

the only thing he's going to remember is the failure.

And he won't punish himself for that.

He will punish you.

And all your match opportunities will vanish.

And then where will you be?

I'm a big girl.

OR is prepped. Is the patient ready?

What's up?

I think it might be best if I sit this out.

May I ask why?

I'm not on board with the surgical plan.

You still object to deflating the good lung

in order to reach the heart?

Yes.

And if he crumps, his trauma injuries

prevent us from administering heparin to put him on bypass.

I don't want my doubts to negatively impact the outcome.

Understood.

Ms. Howard and I will take it from here.

And to be clear,

you don't feel that Penny is safe with your wife?

No, I don't.

And why is that?

Jackie's been prone to depression for years,

and it got a lot worse leading up to her suicide attempt.

Look, I don't want to be here

trying to take custody away from my wife.

That's Penny's mother. This is killing me.

Then why are you doing it?

I don't feel I have a choice.

I've seen my wife go to a place

where she can't see anything else but her own pain.

And God forbid, if she chose to do something

to herself again and hurt Penny,

I'd never forgive myself.

Hi, Eva.

So I'd like to go over your procedure again with you.

I will make a small incision near your navel,

and from there, I will go in and remove

the ectopic pregnancy and the affected fallopian tube.

Okay, we're gonna give you a little bit of Versed

to take some of the edge off before going to the OR, okay?

Yeah. Okay.

Do you think I'm a horrible person?

No.

I love Caleb so much.

He helped get me on the path.

I just can't stand the thought of disappointing him.

My eyelids feel so heavy.

Yeah, that's the Versed kicking in.

I just...

I never meant for any of this to happen.

I told him. I told him not to.

I said no.

Please, no, no, no.

Please stop.

Don't do this.

It hurts.

I'm through the pleura.

Marty, can we drop the left lung, please?

On it.

Lung's deflated.

Vitals holding steady.

Perfect. You're doing fine, Ms. Howard.

Just keep holding that angle on the scope.

I'll cut the scar tissue away,

and then we can reduce the lung and reconstruct the chest wall.

Sound like a good plan to you?

Yes, Dr. Hayes.

You got benched?

I benched myself.

Why is that?

Dr. Hayes and I couldn't reach consensus

on a surgical approach,

so I thought it best to remove myself.

Sure.

I'm gonna go out on a limb and say

that the Caitlin Lenox that I've dealt with

would never just remove herself.

This is about Naomi.

A thoracoscopic dual repair seems like an impressive pull

for a med student, especially when it was

said medical student's idea.

Oh, and you're worried that it would backfire?

I tried to throw her a life jacket,

and she accused me of jealousy.

Oh, I see.

It was disrespectful and reckless.

Neither of us should throw stones

on that particular point.

But she stood up to you.

I would call that progress.

Med students take what you teach them

and eventually use it against you.

That's right, and they become the competition,

whether we want to admit that or not.

I hate this feeling.

I did too.

Did?

Yeah, well, I learned to love that feeling.

It means I've done my job as a mentor.

You know what?

Naomi's only in there right now because of you.

You should be proud of that.

Sats are falling.

What do you think?

Put him on bypass.

He'll bleed out from heparin.

You prepped the femorals.

I figured I'd have it ready

in case we needed central line access or to put him on bypass.

Impressive call.

You're thinking three steps ahead.

Well done.

She's a transgender woman.

Name is Loretta. Because of the dementia,

she didn't recognize her own reflection.

And you were right.

She was trying to tell you something.

Mm-hmm.

All the neighbors I contacted from her last known address

had no idea who Martin was.

So as a last Hail Mary, I sent them a photo.

If the name didn't ring a bell, maybe a face would.

Mm-hmm.

One of them sent me this photo

and said that Loretta was kind, warm, and gregarious.

Hmm.

She was getting hormone replacement therapy.

She must have fallen behind on her injections

when the dementia took hold.

Yeah, by the time the state took her in,

she was no longer presenting as a woman.

Mm-hmm.

And I know this is different, obviously,

but that pain in her eyes,

I recognized it.

Loretta deserves better than the care that she's getting.

Yeah, agreed. She needs the proper resources.

You know, there's a new LGBTQ+ memory care center

that recently opened a wing

dedicated to transgender patients.

The administrator owes me a favor.

Thanks, Sharon.

I'm sorry. You were right.

I should have taken the time to pay closer attention.

I just wish there was something I could do.

There is something.

- He's bradying down. - What's happening to him?

The embolization failed to stop the bleed.

Call the OR.

No, he won't make it up there.

His heart's bottoming out.

We need to open up his chest right here

and cross-clamp the aorta.

- I'll do it. - No, you've done enough.

What the hell are you doing?

He's hypotensive.

Heart rate's down to 32.

Please, somebody help him.

Trigger the MTP and hand me a scalpel.

I'm opening him up now.

Dr. Ripley, step aside.

I don't what's going on with you,

but you're out of line and out of control.

- I need to do this. - Step aside now.

- It has to be me. - Why?

Because I did this to him!

He's in asystole.

Oh, my God, do something!

Get out. You can't be here right now.

Get out. Prep.

Come on.

Scalpel.

Hold compressions.

Okay, give me an aortic clamp

and prep one milligram intracardiac epinephrine.

What is Adam O'Rourke's condition?

Right now, you should be

a little more concerned about yourself.

Please.

He's in surgery to repair the vena cava

and remove his kidney.

He's expected to make a full recovery.

- Good. - No, no.

Saving him does not save you.

His wife is planning to sue, one way or another.

I'm afraid your presence in the ED has become a liability.

Look, whatever you have to do,

I understand.

I'm suspending you without pay effective immediately

until further notice.

There will be a formal investigation,

hearing, and judgment.

I don't intend to fight you or the board,

to blame anyone else, or make excuses.

I... I brought this on myself.

I'm deeply sorry for the trouble

I have caused this hospital.

Full disclosure,

I'm recommending that the board terminate you.

I appreciate your honesty.

You have left me no choice, Dr. Ripley.

Just go home.

Hey, Eva.

You did so good.

How are you feeling?

Good. I'm a little tired.

Where's Caleb?

He'll be here soon.

I just...

I wanted to talk to you about something first.

Okay.

Eva, do you remember what you said

before you went into surgery,

right before you went under?

No, I don't remember anything.

Eva, did someone hurt you?

Please, can you get Caleb?

Nothing that we discuss in here

will ever leave this room, unless you want it to.

Um...

a few months ago,

I went to stay with my best friend, Athena,

and her family on the lake.

Caleb wasn't there.

He had to work.

So Athena broke out the champagne

to celebrate my engagement.

And we drank some wine.

Her cousin was there.

When I went to bed,

he, uh...

he came in my room, and...

I told him to stop, but he wouldn't.

And I was just so drunk that I went numb,

like I wasn't even in my body.

He raped you.

I think I'd been sending him mixed signals.

Like, I'd been really sweet to him all night.

Hey, hey, don't you think for a second

that being sweet justifies his behavior.

It doesn't.

This was not your fault.

You said no. End of discussion.

Yeah, I know.

I am so sorry that this happened to you, Eva.

And I am here to help you, however you want.

Do you think I should tell Caleb?

I think that that's up to you.

Can you be there when I tell him?

Of course, I will.

Ms. Embry, your next witness.

Actually, um, sorry, Your Honor.

We might want to adjust slightly.

We're still waiting on a representative from Gaffney,

Dr. Orson Nemic.

Um, Dr. Nemic, uh, had an emergency.

He asked me to step in. I'm Dan Charles.

I'm the, um, head of psychiatry at Gaffney.

You're familiar with Ms. Nelson's case?

I am, Your Honor.

I'm actually the doctor who committed her last year.

Okay.

I'm okay with it, so long as both sides agree.

It's fine with us.

Ms. Embry?

We're good, Your Honor.

Then please take the stand, Dr. Charles.

You placed Mrs. Nelson on a psychiatric hold

because you considered her a threat to herself, correct?

Yes.

That's actually a core criteria for placing somebody on a 5150.

And in a state like that, is someone capable

of properly considering the health and safety

of others around them? - No.

And let's be crystal clear about the state

Mrs. Nelson was in.

She was found bleeding on the bathroom floor

after cutting herself, correct?

That's correct.

And why do you think that happened?

Well, at that point, Mrs. Nelson

had been working in the burn unit for over 10 years.

And in my opinion, she was suffering from severe PTSD.

Isn't PTSD a chronic, difficult-to-treat condition?

Well, the biggest challenge in addressing PTSD

isn't treating it.

It's getting the sufferer to acknowledge

that they need help.

And once this crisis broke through Mrs. Nelson's denial,

she threw herself into her recovery.

She took a two-month leave of absence,

underwent intensive psychotherapy.

She's doing everything that you're supposed to do

to prevent a relapse, and in my opinion, anyway,

is no more of a threat to her child than I am to mine.

A moment, Your Honor?

Dr. Charles, how would you describe

the nature of your relationship with Mrs. Nelson now?

I'm sorry, I don't understand the question.

Well, you seem to know a lot about someone

who isn't under your direct care.

Well, we're... we're colleagues.

We work together.

Friends?

In a professional context, anyway.

And are you romantically involved with Jackie Nelson?

Objection.

Your Honor, this is wildly inappropriate.

Isn't this your witness, counselor?

This is a replacement for my witness,

and I believe he might have a certain bias.

Make it quick, Ms. Embry.

Dr. Charles, are you now

or have you ever been romantically involved

with Jackie Nelson? - Absolutely not.

And do you have romantic feelings for Mrs. Nelson?

No, I do not.

No more questions, Your Honor.

Ms. Howard just went downstairs,

if that's who you're looking for.

He seems to be recovering nicely.

In no small part thanks to Naomi.

As you can imagine,

I have worked with a lot of med students.

She is one of the best and brightest I've seen.

She speaks her mind.

And that's a testament to your mentorship.

I appreciate that.

I appreciated your honesty today

and how you removed yourself

from a procedure that you didn't agree with.

That is integrity.

Thank you, but you clearly had everything under control.

Did I?

We so often discuss and debate and consider

all possible options, but at some point,

you just got to take a leap of faith.

I don't agree.

I'm not surprised.

Faith is a roll of the dice, and life is random enough.

So I prefer to game out possible outcomes

and stress test the merits and dangers

and determine which is the strongest path.

I prefer solid ground under my feet.

Can I buy you dinner, Caitlin?

You haven't been listening.

I'll see you tomorrow, Dr. Hayes.

Good night, Dr. Lenox.

Tell me what?

I, um...

I wasn't being completely honest with you earlier

about my surgery.

Okay.

Well, be honest now.

Dr. Asher didn't remove a cyst.

She removed an ectopic pregnancy.

Pregnancy?

When I was up at Athena's cabin, her cousin, he...

he came into my bed that night.

And he raped me.

Caleb, please don't hate me.

I could never hate you.

I love you.

I love you too.

It's gonna be all right, Eva.

God is merciful. He forgives you.

And eventually,

I will too.

Eva has nothing to apologize for.

Excuse me?

She was assaulted.

She doesn't need your forgiveness.

She needs your support. - Dr. Asher.

There is only one judgment that matters to me,

and it is definitely not yours.

She didn't deserve for this to happen.

She said no and was forced against her will.

Eva?

I appreciate your support, Dr. Asher.

I really do.

But now this is between me, Caleb, and God.

Eva, you don't...

Okay.

And one more thing.

There you go.

It's me.

Beautiful.

Hello, Loretta.

Great news.

The memory care center has a bed available.

They can pick up Loretta tonight.

Thank you.

Prepping for your USLME exam?

I'm making my way through your checklist.

Good.

You did excellent work today.

Dr. Hayes was impressed with you.

And so was I.

Thank you.

Look, I'm... I'm sorry for the way I talked to you.

You were honest, and I would never fault anyone for that.

The first time I saw you, you diagnosed and reduced

a man's dislocated hip in under 20 seconds.

I instantly knew I wanted to learn from you.

And it definitely hasn't been easy.

But if it makes me the doctor you are,

I don't regret a second of it.

What you did today was also badass.

Thank you.

So let's get you prepped.

- Hey. - Hello, there.

I thought you'd like to know that the judge granted me

joint custody and full parental rights.

- Congratulations. - Thank you.

And, um, sorry it got so personal.

Hey, at least we got that stuff figured out this morning.

Yeah, except I lied.

- How do you mean? - I was embarrassed.

And, um,

I'm just not gonna pretend like there's not something here.

Yeah, me, neither.

But you know what?

I'm not so sure that this is a really good idea

for me right now.

Why not?

Nemic didn't have an emergency today.

I cooked up an excuse for him to stay at the hospital

and sped over to the courtroom

and jumped up on the stand and perjured myself.

I'm really worried that this is not starting out

in a very healthy place for me.

Daniel.

Look, something that I've come to realize is that

when it comes to the relationships

that really matter to me, I'm just not very good

at figuring out where, you know,

the shrink ends and I begin.

Wow.

You're so full of it, you know that?

It's not that you can't turn the shrink off.

It's that you don't want to because you like it

because it keeps you in control.

I'm not so sure you're right about that.

You know, Daniel,

you deserve to be happy.

- I know I do. - No, you don't.

But I sincerely hope someday you do.

Goodwin suspended you?

Hannah, I...

Don't.

I swear to you.

I wasn't looking for a fight. This guy, he just...

he wanted trouble.

And you just gave it to him?

If I'm trying to walk away and someone throws a punch,

I'm gonna defend myself, yeah.

Anyone would.

You don't...

you don't see the irony at all.

Irony?

What... what irony?

A few months ago, you were accused of assaulting Pavel.

- Falsely accused. - That's right.

And now you're back here again.

Except this time, you did it.

I think that's incredibly unfair...

You nearly killed a man.

But I... I helped save him. I fixed it.

Really? That's your takeaway? That's...

I don't even know what to say to you anymore.

Or why you are so hell bent on throwing this life away

that you fought so hard to have.