All language subtitles for The.End.2004.108p.WEB

I'M REALLY CONFUSED
BY YOU, PHIL.

ASK ANYBODY
THAT'S IN THIS ROOM,

IF THEY HAD TO BE 24 HOURS,
SEVEN DAYS A WEEK WITH YOU,

YOU ARE MADDENING.

EVERYTHING HAS
TO BE YOUR WAY.

YOU'RE MAKING ME WRONG.

AND YOU'RE NOT
MAKING ME WRONG ?

I HAVEN'T
MADE YOU WRONG.

OKAY, PHIL.

JOAN, YOU GOTTA
UNDERSTAND.

THIS IS ABOUT ME,
I NEED CALMNESS.

AND WHEN YOU
START GOING OFF,

I'M TELLING YOU,
MY BODY HURTS.

SO I DON'T GIVE
A FUCK HOW YOU FEEL.

I'M THE ONE
THAT'S FUCKING DYING.

HOW YOU FUCKING FEEL,
FUCK YOU.

( female )
DAD, THAT'S NOT FAIR.

I TALK THE WAY
I TALK.

I KNOW YOU WANNA...

DAD, I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING,
I DIDN'T TELL YOU HOW TO TALK.

I DON'T THINK THAT'S FAIR
WHAT YOU'RE SAYING, DAD.

WELL, MAYBE
YOU SHOULD LEAVE.

I'M NOT GONNA LEAVE.

YOU BOTH ARE MY PARENTS,
AND I DON'T FEEL IT'S FAIR.

WHO CARES
WHAT YOU FEEL ?

WELL, DAD.

ALENA, I WOULD REALLY LIKE
TO ASK YOU TO BE QUIET.

YOU'RE THE DAUGHTER.

SHUT THE FUCK UP
AND LET ME TALK, OR LEAVE.

NO, I WILL LEAVE,
AND YOU KNOW WHAT ?

I FORGIVE YOU.

I DON'T CARE IF
YOU FORGIVE ME OR NOT.

I DO, I FORGIVE YOU
AND MOM, I'M SORRY.

AND I'M NOT GOING TO STAND BY
WHILE YOU'RE BEING A JERK.

AND IT'S NOT
RUNNING AWAY, DAD.

AND YOU, WHAT YOU'RE DOING
IS YOU'RE GLOWING FROM THIS.

LEAVE OUT AND CLOSE THE DOOR
WHEN YOU'RE FATHER'S DYING !

I'M LEAVING, I'M TAKING
MY CAR AND I'M SPLITTING.

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FOUR WEEKS AGO IS WHEN
I FOUND OUT MY TIME IS LIMITED.

SO AT THIS PARTICULAR POINT
THE ONLY THING THAT CAN SAVE ME

WOULD BE AN OUT
AND OUT MIRACLE,

WHICH SO FAR THE PHYSICIANS
I HAVE TALKED TO

AND THE TEAM OF SPECIALISTS THAT
ARE WORKING ON ME FROM KAISER

IS THE BEST THERE IS,

AND MOST OF THEM HAVE BEEN
PRACTICING FOR 30 YEARS.

SO, ANYTHING THAT COULD SAVE ME
WOULD BE AN OUT AND OUT MIRACLE,

AND NONE OF THEM
HAVE SEEN A MIRACLE.

NOW, BECAUSE I'M...
SPIRITUAL

I HAVE HOPE THAT
I COULD BE THE ONE...

I COULD BE
THE MIRACLE.

IS THERE A WAY THAT

SOMEONE WHO'S
DOING RESEARCH,

LIKE JOHN WAYNE CENTER,
CAN FREEZE ME

FOR LIKE FIVE TO 10 YEARS
UNTIL THEY GET THE TECHNOLOGY ?

AND WHAT WOULD WE CALL THAT,
A PHIL FRANCICLE ?

OH, THAT'S VERY GOOD.

A "FRANCICLE".

HOW MANY PEOPLE
HAVE YOU SEEN DIE ?

WHAT KIND OF
QUESTION IS THAT ?

A LOT.

HOW DO THEY TAKE IT
TOWARD THE END ?

WHY ? BECAUSE I WANT TO KNOW
WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN.

I'M NOT HERE TO TELL YOU
THAT YOU'RE DYING TODAY

OR TOMORROW
OR NEXT WEEK.

I'M HERE TO DEAL WITH
WHAT'S SO TODAY.

TODAY... YOU'RE ALIVE.

YOU GET TO BE
WITH YOUR FAMILY.

IT'S NOT ENOUGH.

PHILIP WAS ALWAYS
GOOD, GOOD, GOOD.

IT WAS SICKENING.

HE WAS A GOOD CHILD AT SCHOOL,
HE WAS A GOOD CHILD AT HOME.

AS PHILIP GOT OLDER,

HE REALLY GOT CONSCIOUS
ABOUT BEING IMPORTANT,

ABOUT BEING RICH, AND HE WANTED
TO BE HOWARD HUGHES.

ALL HE WANTED TO DO WAS
BE RICH LIKE HOWARD HUGHES.

THAT WAS HIS AMBITION
IN LIFE.

HE GOT...

AS HE GOT OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL,
HE WENT TO COLLEGE FOR BUSINESS.

HE GOT HIS BUSINESS
DEGREE IN EVERYTHING.

HE GOT
A JANITORIAL SERVICE.

HE GOT CONTRACTS AT BUILDINGS
ALL OVER THE VALLEY.

PHILIP THEN...

( laughing )

GOT THE BIGGEST HOUSE,
THE BIGGEST CAR,

THE BIGGEST POOL,
THE BIGGEST DRIVEWAY.

EVERYTHING HE GOT, HE GOT
AHEAD OF ALL OF OUR FRIENDS.

AND HE LIVED LARGE.

HE HAD, IT WAS
LIKE A DEPRESSION.

HE RECESSED IT
A LITTLE,

BUT THEN HE GOT BACK
EVERYTHING HE HAD RECESSED.

SO HE DID WELL.

AND NOW HE HAS
A LARGE FAMILY.

HE HAS A BUNCH OF
DUMB KIDS RIGHT HERE.

( laughing )

NOBODY CAN BRING ME
DOWN AT THIS POINT.

NO MATTER WHAT
THEY TELL ME.

'CAUSE IT'S ME
IT'S HAPPENING TO.

IT'S DIRECTLY
HAPPENING TO YOU

AND INDIRECTLY HAPPENING

TO ALL OF THE REST OF US.

( Joan )
WE'RE ALL DEALING WITH HER
FATHER IN DIFFERENT WAYS, OKAY ?

AND EVERYBODY'S BEEN LIKE,

HOLDING UP FOR HIM
AND NOT CRYING AROUND HIM.

AND MY SITUATION SUCKS.

AND PHIL, WHO WAS
ALL UP YESTERDAY...

I DON'T MEAN TO CRY AND BE
PISSED IN FRONT OF YOU, DAD,

I CAN'T HELP IT.

IT'S OKAY TO BE CRYING
AND BE PISSED.

MY SITUATION
DEFINITELY SUCKS.

I'M JUST VERY LOW.

I'LL TELL YOU ONE THING,
I'D LIKE TO KNOW WHERE GOD IS.

I'D LIKE TO KNOW
WHERE THE TAO IS.

I'D LIKE TO KNOW
WHERE BUDDHISM IS.

AND I'M NOT READY
TO GO HOME.

OKAY, CAN WE DO
PROBLEM PATIENTS ?

WEST-SIDE.

PROBLEMS ON THE WEST ?

I HAVE ONE POINT.

A LOT OF PATIENTS ARE ANGRY
WHEN WE FIRST GO IN THERE

AND OPEN THE CASE,
THEY'RE ANGRY.

THEY TELL ME ALL THE TIME THAT
THEY FEEL THAT THEIR CONDITION

SHOULD HAVE BEEN CAUGHT
AT A CERTAIN TIME.

"IT'S BECAUSE OF KAISER,

IT'S BECAUSE OF THE DOCTORS
THAT I'M DYING."

YOU KNOW, "THEY SHOULD
HAVE CAUGHT IT.

I WENT TO THE DOCTOR."

AND THEY CARRY THAT ANGER
THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE PROCESS.

AND THEY DISPLACE
IT ON US.

SO NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO,
YOU CAN GIVE AN ARM AND A LEG,

AND I BELIEVE THAT
EVERYBODY IN HERE

CONTINUES TO GIVE
AN ARM AND A LEG, BUT...

YOU CAN ONLY
DO THAT TWICE.

YOU KNOW, FOUR TIMES,
TWO ARMS, TWO LEGS.

AND IT'S JUST NOT ENOUGH,
IT'S JUST NOT ENOUGH,

BECAUSE THEY'RE ANGRY.

I STILL CAN'T
BELIEVE THE NEWS.

THE NEWS IS
STILL SHOCKING.

( Alena )
BUT I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHY IT'S SHOCKING.

HE SAID TWO...

WE'VE ALREADY
ALWAYS KNOWN.

HE'S THE FIRST PERSON
WHO CAME UP WITH TWO MONTHS.

EVERYBODY ELSE
CAME UP WITH LIKE...

FOUR...
FOUR OR SO.

WHERE ARE YOU GOING ?

TO SEE WHAT THE LIVING
ROOM LOOKS LIKE.

THAT'S ENOUGH
TO MAKE YOU DIE
IN TWO HOURS.

AND HE SAYS
IT SO CALMLY.

JOAN, WHY IS THERE
NO LIGHTS IN HERE ?

( Joan )
TURN THEM ON !

I HAVE ASKED YOU FIVE
MOTHERFUCKIN' DEAD-ASS TIMES.

( female )
PHIL, SHE DOESN'T NEED
TO HEAR YOU TALKING LIKE THIS.

I DON'T UNDERSTAND
WHAT'S GOING ON.

YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HALF
THE THINGS I COME OUT WITH

AND IT COMES
OUT PERFECT.

YOU VERY SELDOM GET WHAT I DO
AND IT ALWAYS COMES OUT RIGHT.

I NEED YOU TO TURN
THE CAMERA OFF.

( male )
I KNOW THAT YOU WANT
TO DO IT YOUR WAY,

BUT YOUR WAY IS NOT
WORKING RIGHT NOW.

YOU MIGHT NEED TO GET
SOME MORE KNOWLEDGE.

YOU MIGHT NEED TO DO NOTHING SO
THAT YOU CAN GET THE STRENGTH

AND THE ENERGY
TO MOVE ON.

YOU KNOW, A LOT OF TIMES
IN FINANCIAL BUSINESS,

AND I KNOW YOU'RE
A WIZARD AT THAT,

YOU HAD TO STOP
AND TAKE HEED,

"WAIT A MINUTE,
LET ME CHECK THIS OUT."

IN THE FINANCIAL WORLD,
THEY SAY,

"WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW
WHERE TO GO, YOU STOP."

WOW.

THAT'S WHAT
AMANDA STEPS TAUGHT ME.

THERE YOU GO.

SO, AT THIS POINT IN TIME,
EVERYBODY'S CONCERNED,

AND THEY'RE
REALLY CONCERNED.

YOU NEED
TO LISTEN TO THAT.

OKAY.

I HATE
TO TELL YOU WHY.

I'M SCARED TO STOP.

I KNOW IT,
I KNOW THAT.

THAT'S WHY I'M TRYING
TO GIVE YOU SOME...

WELL, I KNOW YOU KNOW.

WE KNOW IT, DAD.

( other female )
DAD ! WE KNEW !

THAT'S WHAT I SAID,
"WHAT'S NEXT ?"
YOU DON'T THINK
WE KNEW THAT ?

I'M AFRAID THAT IF IT'S OUT OF
MY HANDS, THINGS MAY CHANGE.

TRUST US,
CAN YOU TRUST US ?

DAD... LETTING GO.

CAN YOU TRUST US ?

WELL, LET'S JUST
TAKE THINGS EASY.

LET'S EASY
DOES IT, OKAY ?

LET'S JUST DO A WEEK,
GET YOUR REPORTS,

AND IF YOU FEEL BETTER THEN YOU
MIGHT WANT TO BE MORE ACTIVE.

THEY ALWAYS WANT
TO HOLD MY HAND.

I HATE THIS.

( Joan )
DAD LIKES IT.

NO, I DON'T.

YES, HE DOES.

DO YOU FEEL
I SHOULD TAKE...

JESUS CHRIST.

DO YOU FEEL
I SHOULD TAKE...

NOW I'M WORRIED,
WHEN YOU DO...

LOOK, WE'RE
LOVING DADDY.

WHERE'S MOM ?

SHE DOESN'T LOVE ME.

YES, SHE DOES !

THE DRAMA.

NOBODY LOVES ME.

HEY, DAD, WE'LL BE HERE,
WE'LL BE HERE WITH YOU.

( coughing )

SHIT.

( male )
DO YOU NEED
SOME HELP ?

HERE, LET ME
HELP YOU.

DENNIS ?

HE HAD TWO MORPHINES.

( coughing )

WHAT'S GOING ON ?

WHAT DOES
THAT MEAN ?

WELL, I KNOW WHAT
IT MEANS TO DIE.

I MEAN,
WHAT IS IT...

YOU'RE SAYING YOU FEEL
LIKE YOU'RE DYING.

I'M LOOKING FOR SOME SYMPTOMS,
SOMETHING I CAN ADDRESS.

YOU KNOW, EVERY DAY
WE'RE DYING.

MY, UM...

MY, UM...

MY, UM...

DO YOU KNOW WHY I'M HERE AND WHY
I COME AND SEE YOU, RIGHT ?

YEAH.

I DON'T KNOW IF ANYBODY EVER
GETS PREPARED FOR DEATH.

WHAT I WANT YOU TO KNOW

IS THAT WHAT'S HAPPENING TO YOU
NOW IS NORMAL, IS NATURAL.

YOU'RE NOT DOING
ANYTHING WRONG.

THERE'S NOTHING ELSE
THAT YOU COULD DO,

EXCEPT BE COMFORTABLE,

BE WITH YOUR FAMILY.

LET THEM HELP YOU,
LET ME SERVE YOU.

THAT'S ALL.

SO, GIVEN WHERE
HE'S AT NOW ?

I MEAN, NOT TO PUT
A TIME LIMIT ON IT...

PEOPLE ALWAYS ASK ME THAT
AND I NEVER KNOW WHAT TO SAY.

GOD KNOWS
HOW MUCH TIME.

BUT I'VE GOT HIM
SCHEDULED FOR THURSDAY...

I EXPECT HE WILL
BE THERE ON THURSDAY,

BUT IF I CAME IN
AND HE WAS GONE,

I CAN'T TELL YOU I'D BE
TERRIBLY SURPRISED.

( crying )

OKAY, I'M RECORDING
THIS ALONE.

IT'S ABOUT 5:30
IN THE MORNING.

AND FROM THE DAYS
AND DAYS IN THE CAMERA

YOU'VE SEEN THAT MY HUSBAND HAS
GONE THROUGH A RAPID DECLINE,

FASTER THAN ANY OF US
EVER THOUGHT WAS POSSIBLE.

AND TO WATCH THIS MAN THAT
CAN NO LONGER CARE FOR HIMSELF

AND IS FIGHTING FOR HIS DIGNITY
EVERY STEP OF THE WAY.

HE'S REDUCED TO HAVING TO HAVE
PEOPLE TAKE CARE OF HIM,

WHICH HE DOESN'T WANT
TO DO AND HE RESENTS IT.

HE RESENTS ME HAVING
TO HELP HIM IN AND OUT OF BED.

TODAY I WATCHED HIM FOR
AN HOUR, STAYING UP THERE,

TRYING TO GET OUT OF BED, TRYING
TO GET TO THE BATHROOM IN TIME,

AND THEN HE PEED
ON HIMSELF.

AND I JUST WATCHED HIM
SO HUMILIATED.

THIS IS
A HORRIBLE DISEASE.

THIS IS A HORRIBLE WAY
TO END YOUR LIFE.

THIS IS MY HUSBAND.

THIS IS WHAT
HE'S REDUCED TO RIGHT NOW.

( female )
OK.

HERE'S PHILIP FRANCIS.

HE PASSED AWAY ABOUT
8:40, 8:50 THIS MORNING.

IT'S ABOUT
NINE-SOMETHING.

AND HE'S GONE AND MOVED ON
TO A BETTER PLACE.

AND I LOVE YOU, DADDY,
AND I'LL MISS YOU.

EVERYONE ELSE
MISSES YOU.

YOUR FUTURE GRANDCHILDREN
AND SONS-IN-LAW WILL MISS YOU.

AND I KNOW YOU'RE
IN A BETTER PLACE.

( sighing )

I LOVE YOU, DADDY.

( sighing )

GOING INTO THIS, YOU KNOW THAT
A PATIENT IS GONNA DIE.

GENERALLY SPEAKING,
THAT DOESN'T BOTHER ME

BECAUSE I KNOW
I MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

I KNOW
THEY DON'T SUFFER.

I SAY,
"GENERALLY SPEAKING,"

BECAUSE RECENTLY
I HAD A PATIENT,

SHE WAS 16 YEARS OLD...

AND SHE GOT TO ME.

I DID TAKE THAT HOME...

AND I WILL
NEVER FORGET HER.

IT JUST SEEMED LIKE SHE COULD
NEVER CATCH A BREAK.

AND I DIDN'T UNDER--

I COULDN'T PUT IT
IN ANY KIND OF A CONTEXT

THAT MADE IT
OKAY FOR ME.

IT BOTHERED ME.

ALRIGHT.

THESE ARE THE PEOPLE
WHO LEFT THIS LIFE WITH US

IN THIS PAST WEEK:

CINDY EDWARDS,
PHIL FRANCIS,

THOMPSON HIKE,
SEAN STEVEN,

MARTY MILLER,
MITCHELL AMAROY,

DESMOND MORSE,
AND LUCILLE HUGH.

CAN WE HAVE A MOMENT OF SILENCE
IN MEMORY OF THEIR LIVES

AND THEIR CONTRIBUTIONS
TO THIS WORLD ?

( ice cream truck music )

I'M DR. EMONT AND I WORK WITH
NANCY AND THE REST OF THE TEAM.

I HAD A CHANCE TO LOOK
THROUGH THE CHART TODAY,

GET A BETTER SENSE OF WHAT'S
BEEN GOING ON SINCE LAST YEAR.

A LOT OF WHAT WE DO ON THIS
PROGRAM HAS TO DO WITH

MAKING SURE THAT YOU'RE
FEELING AS WELL AS POSSIBLE.

ARE YOU FEELING
COMFORTABLE RIGHT NOW ?

NOT REALLY.

WHAT DOES
THAT MEAN ?

UM... I'M SLEEPY.

IS THAT BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT
SLEEPING THAT WELL AT NIGHTTIME,

OR IS IT JUST...

YOU FEEL LIKE THE MEDICINES
MIGHT BE DOING IT ?

YEAH, THE MEDICINES.

SHE WANTS
A HOSPITAL BED.

IN THE BEGINNING
SHE REFUSED IT BECAUSE...

JUST, I GUESS THE SENSE OF BEING
IN A HOSPITAL BED, YOU KNOW ?

BUT SHE NEEDS IT,
THOUGH.

I DON'T KNOW IF YOU'RE
THE PERSON TO TALK ABOUT IT.

I CERTAINLY
CAN DO THAT.

I THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING
TO ASK ME FOR SOMETHING HARD.

NO, THAT ONE'S EASY.

I CAN CALL
BEFORE I LEAVE

AND WE CAN MAKE SURE
TO GET THAT DELIVERED.

THANK YOU.

SO WE KNOW THAT IF WE HAVE
SOME TYPE OF EMERGENCY

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT,
WHAT WILL HAPPEN ?

WE WOULD ENCOURAGE YOU
TO CALL THE NUMBER.

NOW, WE ALWAYS ENCOURAGE YOU TO
USE THAT SPECIAL 24-HOUR NUMBER.

IT'S REALLY A HOTLINE
AND IT'S ONLY FOR OUR PATIENTS.

NOBODY ELSE
GETS THAT NUMBER.

OKAY.

SO THE CENTER OF THE CARE IS TO
SEE IF WE CAN MAKES THINGS WORK

IN THE HOME SETTING
BECAUSE WE KNOW THAT

PEOPLE GENERALLY FEEL BEST
WHEN THEY'RE AT HOME.

... GOOD GIRL.

ARE YOU A GOOD GIRL ?

I LEFT A NOTE
ON THAT FOLDER FOR SUSAN.

AND I LEFT
MY CARD THERE, TOO.

IF ANY QUESTIONS COME UP,
MR. GONZALEZ,

PLEASE CALL US, OKAY ?

ALRIGHT.

ANYTHING ELSE
I CAN ANSWER TODAY ?

NO, NOT REALLY,
I DON'T THINK SO.

ALRIGHT.

IT WAS VERY NICE
TO MEET YOU.

NICE TO MEET YOU.

SHE HAS A VERY UNCOMMON
KIND OF TUMOR,

IT'S ACTUALLY MORE
COMMON IN YOUNG PEOPLE,

CALLED E-WING'S,
OR EWING'S, SARCOMA.

AND WHEN IT
FIRST PRESENTED,

IT WAS ALREADY
IN THE NERVOUS SYSTEM.

AND WE MAY START SEEING
CHANGES MORE QUICKLY

THAN THEY'RE
PREPARED TO EXPECT.

( female )
HELLO, SENOR.

HI, HOW ARE YOU ?

HI, NICE TO SEE
YOU AGAIN.

THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME
BE HERE IN YOUR HOME...

NO, IT'S MY PLEASURE...

WITH YOUR WONDERFUL, WONDERFUL
WIFE AND LOVELY HOME, THANK YOU.

I KNOW THAT WE HAD
TALKED IN THE HOSPITAL

ABOUT 'NO PROLONGATION',

TUBES OR RESPIRATORS
OR THINGS LIKE THAT.

YEAH.

OKAY, NOW THIS FORM ADDRESSES
'NO RESUSCITATION'.

THAT MEANS THAT IF HER HEART
STOPS YOU DON'T WANT ANY

MEDICAL RESUSCITATION...
TAKING HER, INTUBATING HER,

PUTTING HER
ON THE RESPIRATOR.

YEAH.

YOU CAN SIGN HERE.

PUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP
AS FATHER, AND THE DATE.

DO I HAVE
TO SIGN, TOO ?

I KNOW THIS IS
VERY DIFFICULT.

GRANTED, I SEE
A LOT OF PEOPLE,

BUT I DON'T SEE A LOT
OF 19 YEAR OLDS

AND I DON'T SEE
A LOT OF FAMILIES...

IF I'M DIAGNOSED
RIGHT NOW WITH ANYTHING,

I WOULDN'T GIVE
A DAMN, REALLY.

I WOULD.

I WOULDN'T, NOT ME.

YOU KNOW,
LIFE AND I, WE'RE EVEN.

I WOULDN'T
BOTHER AT ALL.

BUT NOT MY KID.

WHY ?

I KNOW.

YOU KNOW, SUSIE NEVER
ASKED FOR ANYTHING.

SUSIE'S NOT THE KIND OF
GIRL THAT DEMANDS THINGS.

SUSIE NEVER ASKED
FOR ANYTHING.

THIS IS THE FIRST THING
SUSIE EVER ASKED ME FOR.

THIS.

WE WERE IN MEXICO AND SHE LOOKED
AT THAT PICTURE AND SHE SAY,

"DADDY, CAN YOU
BUY ME THIS PICTURE ?"

AND I SAY, "WHY ?
WHY DO YOU WANT THAT ?"

SHE SAID, "I WANT IT,"
AND I BOUGHT IT FOR HER.

I THINK SHE LIKED
THE EXPRESSION OR SOMETHING.

( male )
Sue !

Susie !

I got you.

SUSIE, IT'S DOUGLAS
FROM KAISER.

I'M GONNA TALK
WITH YOU, OKAY ?

WE WOKE YOU UP, HUH ?

ARE YOU ABLE
TO TALK TO YOUR MOM

AND YOUR DAD ABOUT
WHAT YOU'RE FEELING ?

NOT YOUR DAD, HUH ?

I'M SURE.

YOU KNOW ?

MMM-HMM.

WELL, WHAT I'M GONNA DO IS,
I'LL TRY TALKING TO YOUR DAD

A LITTLE BIT, OKAY ?

SHE WORRIES
ABOUT YOU A LOT.

YEAH, I KNOW.

SHE WAS TELLING ME
THAT SHE FEELS BAD

BECAUSE SHE'S
MAKING YOU SUFFER.

NO.

I KNOW, I KNOW.

I TALKED TO HER ABOUT
THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN

HER AND HER ILLNESS.

THAT YOU STILL LOVE HER
AND CARE FOR HER,

AND THAT'S
WHY YOU'RE SAD.

AND YOU JUST DON'T HAVE
ANY CONTROL OVER HER DISEASE.

YOU KNOW, THERE'S
NOTHING YOU CAN DO.

SHE ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT ME,
EVEN WHEN SHE WASN'T SICK.

ARE YOU ABLE
TO SIT DOWN WITH HER

AND TELL HER
HOW YOU'RE FEELING ?

YEAH, OH YEAH,
WE TALK A LOT.

IT'S JUST THAT
IT'S NOT EASY.

YOU GUYS DEAL WITH THIS
EVERY DAY, I DON'T.

NO, THAT DOESN'T MAKE IT
ANY EASIER FOR US, EITHER.

ALRIGHT, LET'S TALK
ABOUT SUSAN GONZALEZ

BECAUSE WHEN
I SAW HER ON MONDAY,

AND MY CONCERN WITH HER

IS THAT SHE IS MORE SICK
THAN HER FAMILY IS AWARE.

AND I THINK THAT
HER PROGNOSIS IS MUCH SHORTER,

MUCH, MUCH SHORTER,
THAN ANYONE ANTICIPATES.

MY BIGGEST FEAR IS THAT THEY'RE
STILL NOT AT THE MIND-SET...

( female )
DAD IS CRYING
ALL THE TIME.

HE WAS EXPRESSING
THE FEELING THAT

HE WAS A FAILURE
AS A FATHER

BECAUSE HE COULDN'T
OVERCOME HER DISEASE...

OH MY.

AND SO WE WERE TALKING ABOUT
WHAT HE HAD CONTROL OVER

AND WHAT HE DOESN'T
HAVE CONTROL OVER.

I THINK MAYBE WE SHOULD
HAVE A FAMILY MEETING

WITH THE PARENTS...

I'LL BE HAPPY
TO DO THAT...

TO TELL THEM THAT THEIR DAUGHTER
DOES NOT HAVE LONG TO LIVE.

IT'S GONNA
HAPPEN VERY SOON.

SO, I KNOW HOW
TO TALK TO PEOPLE

WHO HAVE LIVED THEIR LIFE,

BUT HOW DO YOU TALK TO A FATHER
ABOUT HIS OWN DAUGHTER ?

THE WORDS JUST DON'T COME.

ABOUT A 19-YEAR-OLD,
RIGHT ?

I KNOW.

THE WORDS JUST
DON'T COME.

I MEAN, THE BOTTOM-LINE IS,
SHE'S DYING...

AND IT'S NOT
SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.

AND IT'S NOT
SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN.

HI, GOOD MORNING,
HOW ARE YOU ?

WE HAVE DOUG HERE,
AND SUSAN.

YOUR MOM'S HERE,
YOUR GRANDMA'S HERE,
AND JENNIFER'S HERE.

WHAT I'M JUST GONNA
DO RIGHT NOW IS

TO TAKE A LISTEN TO
YOUR LUNGS AND HEART, OKAY ?

SO WE'LL BE
DOING THAT

AND THEN WE'LL BE
LETTING YOU KEEP SLEEPING,

JUST SO
YOU CAN REST.

AND THEN WE'LL BE ABLE
TO TALK A LITTLE BIT, OKAY ?

( male )
UM, SHE LOOKS VERY
COMFORTABLE RIGHT NOW,

BUT WE'RE AT THAT POINT
WHERE WE'RE STARTING TO SEE

THE CHANGES THAT WE SEE AS
A PERSON IS GETTING CLOSER

TO MOVING ON
TO THE NEXT WORLD.

HER BREATHING PATTERN
IS CHANGING

AND SHE'S NOT AS AWAKE
AS SHE WAS BEFORE.

AND WHAT I'VE LEARNED FROM
DOING THIS WORK FOR MANY YEARS

IS THAT I BELIEVE VERY STRONGLY
IN THE POWER OF THE MIND.

I BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE
LET GO WHEN THEY'RE READY.

YEAH.

IT'S LIKE NOW THEY CAN MOVE ON,
AND THEY'RE READY TO MOVE ON...

BECAUSE IT'S JUST
NOT AS MUCH FUN

TO WAKE UP
EVERY DAY ANYMORE.

AND AT SOME LEVEL,
THE ABILITY TO UNDERSTAND

THAT THIS IS SOMETHING
SHE'S ALLOWING TO HAPPEN.

( crying )

THIS IS YOUR TIME

TO MAKE SURE YOU'RE
TELLING HER EVERYTHING

YOU NEED TO TELL HER.

JUST KEEP LETTING HER KNOW
HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HER

AND HOW MUCH
SHE MEANS TO YOU.

THAT'S THE MEDICINE
SHE NEEDS.

WE WILL GIVE OUR MEDICINE
TO ASSURE THAT SHE CONTINUES

TO BE COMFORTABLE,

BUT AT SOME POINT SHE'S GONNA
LET GO WHEN SHE'S READY

BECAUSE IT'S HER CHOICE,
SHE'S READY TO MOVE ON.

DADDY.

DADDY.

MIJA.

WHAT HAPPENING ?

NOTHING.

HOW YOU DOING, HUH ?

YOU OKAY ?

OKAY.

THERE HAS BEEN A LOT
OF PEOPLE TODAY.

I MEAN, A LOT.

CLOSE TO 100
PEOPLE TODAY.

( praying in Spanish )

AS YOU CAN SEE, SHE HAS A LOT
OF FRIENDS THAT LOVED HER,

AND APPRECIATED HER
AND CARED FOR HER.

AND WE'RE WAITING
FOR THE CORONER'S

OR THE PEOPLE FROM HOSPICE
TO COME PREPARE HER

TO TAKE HER AWAY.

YEAH, I FEEL GOOD.

A RELIEF, HUH ?

YEAH, YESTERDAY...

I PUT MY ARM
UNDER HER HEAD...

IS THAT RIGHT ?

YEAH.

THAT WAS A GOOD EXPERIENCE
LAST NIGHT,

BEAUTIFUL.

ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL.

OKAY, DEATH SUMMARIES.

WE ARE HAVING SOME PROBLEMS
WITH DEATH SUMMARIES.

IT SEEMS THAT THEY
GET INTO THE CHART

WITHOUT THE SIGNATURE
OF THE PHYSICIAN
AND THE SOCIAL WORKER.

SO I THINK THE CASE MANAGER
WILL SIGN FIRST AND THEN

PASS IT ON TO THE SOCIAL WORKER
OR THE DOCTOR,

AND THE DOCTOR WILL
GIVE IT TO THE SOCIAL WORKER.

THAT WE AGREED
UPON THAT.

DID YOU ALL GET THAT ?

OKAY, ANNA.

WHEN I CAME IN MONDAY
AND HEARD SUSAN HAD DIED,

I ACTUALLY HAD TO TAKE
SOME TIME OUT TO GO

AND HAVE A BIT
OF A CRY.

AND WHEN I WAS
DOING THAT,

I WAS HORRIFIED TO REALIZE
THAT I'VE GOTTEN TO THE POINT

WHERE I'VE PRETTY MUCH
LOST MUCH SENSE AT ALL

THAT OUR PATIENTS ARE
HUMAN BEINGS AND WHEN THEY DIE,

THAT'S THE END
OF A LIFE.

AND I REALIZE THE JOB HAS
JUST SOMEHOW MORPHED INTO

NOTHING BUT IRRITATING
BITS OF PAPERWORK,

AND THAT REALLY
SADDENED ME

BECAUSE THIS IS SUCH AN
EXTRAORDINARY THING TO BE DOING.

THEY KNEW
I WAS GONNA DIE.

TO ME,
IT'S A BLESSING.

IT'S A REAL BLESSING.

IT ISN'T ANYTHING
TO RUN FROM.

THE THING ABOUT IT IS,

I THINK THAT PEOPLE
ARE SO AFRAID OF DYING,

IS THAT IT MAKES
YOU WANNA PUKE.

THE GREATEST THING THAT
YOU COULD POSSIBLY DO IS DIE.

THAT'S BEING
BORN AGAIN.

( buzzer )

( female on intercom )
Hello ?

HELLO, IT'S MICHAEL
WITH KAISER HOSPICE,

AT THE FRONT DOOR.

Oh, okay,
just a moment.

THANK YOU.

ALRIGHT, LET'S PUT
YOUR ARM...

DOWN HERE.

YOU SEEM A LOT
BETTER TODAY.

I SEEM TO BE
A LOT BRIGHTER.

WHAT'S GOING ON ?

YOU JUST ALL OF
A SUDDEN FELT BETTER ?

NO, JUST STRENGTH OR SOMETHING
IS STARTING TO COME BACK.

GREAT.

NOW, ARE YOU TAKING ANY OF YOUR
MORPHINE AND ATIVAN AT NIGHT ?

YES.

OKAY.

ANY SWELLING
GOING ON IN THE FEET ?

NOT AS FAR AS I KNOW.

HAVE YOU LOOKED AT
YOUR FEET LATELY ?

LET ME LOOK
AT YOUR FEET.

MY DAUGHTER,
SHE CHECKS THEM.

YOUR DAUGHTER'S GREAT,
SHE TAKES SUCH GOOD CARE OF YOU.

THESE LOOK GREAT.

I CAN'T FIND ANYTHING
WRONG WITH YOU TODAY, BOB.

YAY !

THAT'S AN A+.

THAT'S AN A+.

UM, I DIDN'T EXPECT HIM
TO COME BACK THIS WELL.

BUT PEOPLE DO KIND OF
HAVE THEIR UPS AND DOWNS.

THAT'S GREAT.

THAT'S WHY I WAS TELLING HIM,
"GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING.

"DO WHATEVER
YOUR HEART DESIRES,

BECAUSE YOU'RE
NOT GONNA HAVE,"

I DIDN'T TELL
HIM THIS, BUT,

"YOU'RE NOT GONNA HAVE ALL THE
TIME IN THE WORLD TO DO THAT."

( Robert )
THIS IS MY DAUGHTER.

MORNING, PAPA.

LOOK AT THAT.

NOTICE THAT
"GOOD MORNING" ?

WOW !

THAT'S A PLUS,
PLUS I HAVE.

SO, WE'RE READY
TO GO OUT.

SEE YOU IN A BIT.

( Robert )
SEE THAT RED DOT ?

THAT MEANS IT'S ON.

( Jacqui )
SO, WHAT STOP DO YOU
WANT TO DO FIRST ?

ROGER DUNN.

LOOK AT THOSE GOLF CLUBS
FOR MOM, HUH ?

YEAH.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING
TODAY, DAD ?

YOU ALRIGHT ?

I FEEL FINE.

IT'S JUST THIS GODDAMN
STUPID BREATHING.

IF I COULD BREATHE,
YOU KNOW ?

I'M BREATHING
A LITTLE BIT BETTER,

BUT I GET OUT OF
BREATH SO QUICK.

SURE.

WHOA !

WE'RE OFF
TO THE GOLF STORE

TO BUY A CHRISTMAS
PRESENT FOR MOM.

YOU'RE GOING WITHOUT
YOUR OXYGEN RIGHT NOW.

BEING A LITTLE
DARING, HUH ?

YOU TELL ME IF YOU NEED IT,
THOUGH, DAD, OKAY ?

NO, I'M FINE.

ALRIGHT, LET'S GO.

I THINK YOU BETTER
GO GET THAT TANK.

YEAH ?

MMM-HMM.

OKAY, I'LL GO GET IT.

I GUESS WE NEEDED
THE TANK AFTER ALL.

WELL, I GUESS WE FOUND
OUR CHRISTMAS PRESENT.

( laughing )

I'M SURE SHE'LL BE
VERY HAPPY ABOUT IT.

TODAY DADDY'S
COMING WITH ME

TO THE BUDDHIST CHURCH
THAT WE GO TO.

AND THIS IS
THE BUDDHIST CHURCH.

IT'S A VERY BEAUTIFUL,
SPIRITUAL PLACE.

IT'S THE ONLY PLACE
IN THE WORLD

WHERE I'VE EVER
FOUND ABSOLUTE,

TOTAL PEACE.

THIS IS THE BELL
THAT THEY RING

TO REMIND PEOPLE
OF THE CURRENT MOMENT

AND HOW SPECIAL
LIFE IS.

( bell ringing )

I'M SUPPOSED TO GO MAKE
FUNERAL ARRANGEMENTS,

WHICH I HAVEN'T BEEN
ABLE TO DO RIGHT NOW

BECAUSE I JUST EMOTIONALLY
HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE

TO GO DOWN THERE.

UM...

I TELL HIM EVERY DAY,
I LOVE HIM.

AND I TELL HIM EVERY DAY,
THERE'S MIRACLES.

AND I TELL HIM
NOT TO GIVE UP,

BUT I ALSO TELL HIM TO DO
WHAT'S COMFORTABLE FOR HIMSELF.

WE HAVE TALKED
SO MUCH ABOUT...

LEAVING EACH OTHER,

BUT I DON'T BELIEVE
LOVE EVER DIES.

I THINK THE PERSON'S
NOT THERE,

BUT THE LOVE...

( music )

( buzzer )

OKAY !

( Jacqui )
THIS IS MY MOTHER,
MARGIE PIERCE.

HEY, MOM,
HOW'S IT'S GOING ?

OKAY,
I'M ALL READY.

WE'VE BEEN
TO THE BUDDHIST CHURCH.

MY PARENTS ARE GOOD FRIENDS,
BUT THEY'RE NOT MARRIED ANYMORE.

I DON'T KNOW,
I GUESS THINGS HAPPEN.

FAMILY ENTRANCE !

SONOFABITCH, IF I GOTTA
ARGUE ALL THE TIME...

HE'LL TELL ME OFF.

C'MON, YOU GUYS,
CHILL !

YOU'RE NOT
EVEN MARRIED.

WHAT'S THAT GOT
TO DO WITH ANYTHING ?

YOU GET THE MILK FOR NOTHING,
SO WHY BUY THE COW ?

NO, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT ?
YOU'RE TOTALLY OUT OF LINE.

( Jacqui gasping )

THIS IS WHAT
YOU GET, OKAY ?

SO YOU JUST
THANK GOD.

SEE THAT LECTURE
I GET ?

THIS IS WHAT
THE FAMILY DOES

EVERY YEAR FOR
THE LAST 50 YEARS.

THEY GET TOGETHER,
GET HIGHER THAN A KITE,

AND DECORATE THE TREE.

( Jacqui )
YOUR PILLS MAKE YOU
FEEL BETTER, RIGHT ?

( male )
HE'S DOING
THE ATIVAN CHA-CHA.

OOOH, THE ATIVAN DANCE
BY ROBERT C. PIERCE.

( laughing )

NOT TALIBAN, ATIVAN.

( Jacqui )
GET IN THE VAN
WITH THE ATIVAN.

NOT TALIBAN, ATIVAN.

WE DON'T HAVE RULES
IN THIS HOUSE.

WE DO WHATEVER
WE FEEL LIKE.

( male )
WHAT'S GOING
ON THERE ?

DON'T I HAVE
COOL PARENTS ?

THEY'RE NECKING !

YOU'RE GONNA
KILL ME.

NO, I'M NOT,
NO, I'M NOT.

♪ WHEN MY DADDY
WAS A YOUNG BOY ♪

♪ HE WORKED SUCH
A LONG, LONG DAY ♪

♪ YOU NEVER HAD
MUCH MONEY ♪

♪ YOU NEVER HAD
TIME TO PLAY ♪

♪ THE CHOICES,
THEY WERE FEW ♪

♪ BUT WHAT HE WAS TO DO ♪

♪ LIFE WAS SO MUCH
SIMPLER THEN ♪

♪ BACK IN THE
GOOD OLD DAYS ♪

♪ BACK IN THE GOOD
OLD DAYS ♪

I WOKE UP ABOUT
THREE O'CLOCK IN THE MORNING,

WONDERING IF
THIS IS IT

AND WHETHER OR NOT
I SHOULD READY MYSELF.

SO, WHAT KIND OF THINGS
DO YOU GO THROUGH

WHEN YOU ARE GETTING
TO THAT EDGE, YOU KNOW ?

I THINK WHAT
MAY HAPPEN IS THAT

YOU'RE CANCER WILL
CONTINUE TO GROW

AND BECAUSE
OF WHERE IT'S AT

YOU WILL GET MORE
SHORT OF BREATH.

THE BASTARD WOULDN'T BE QUICK,
IT HAS TO BE SLOW.

WHO IN THE HELL EVER SAID
THAT DEATH WASN'T SLOW ?

I'LL BE GLAD
WHEN I'M OVER IT.

THAT'S ALL
I GOT TO SAY.

ROBERT PIERCE HAS LUNG CANCER,
HISTORY OF PNEUMONIA.

HE'S BECOMING INCREASINGLY
SHORT OF BREATH.

WE'RE UPPING THE MORPHINE,
WE'RE UPPING THE ATIVAN.

IT SEEMS TO HELP, AT LEAST
THAT'S WHAT HE TELLS ME

WHEN I VISIT HIM, BUT THEN
HE HAS THESE EPISODES

OF EXTREME ANXIETY,

PROBABLY BECAUSE
HE CAN'T BREATHE VERY WELL.

SO I WENT OUT THERE
AND EDUCATED THE DAUGHTER

AND EDUCATED
THE PATIENT ON,

"OKAY, YOU NEED TO GIVE
YOURSELF LARGE DOSES

WHEN YOU'RE FEELING
THAT ANXIOUS."

I WANT TO YOU
TO LIKE, TAKE THIS

AND BREATHE IT

LIKE YOU'RE
BREATHING AIR, GO...

ALRIGHT ?

IT'S TEMPTING FOR ME TO HAVE
SOME BUT I'M NOT GONNA.

OKAY, SO, JUST GO...

LIKE THAT.

AS BEST YOU CAN,
BREATHE IT IN, ALRIGHT ?

( music )

HOW ARE YOU
FEELING ?

WHAT'S THAT, BOB,
YOU FEEL HORRIBLE ?

NOW WHEN YOU SAY,
"THIS IS GREAT,"

WHAT I HEAR IS BOB PIERCE'S
SARCASTIC SENSE OF HUMOR.

AM I HEARING
YOU RIGHT ?

YEP.

IN OTHER WORDS,
THIS IS NOT GREAT.

RIGHT ?

YEP.

IT'S BEEN PRETTY PAINFUL,
I MEAN, FOR ME.

I'VE KINDA LIKE,

I'VE BEEN LIKE REALLY NERVOUS
AND I'VE BEEN DROPPING THINGS.

I'VE BEEN LIKE,
ON WARP SPEED

BECAUSE THE HOUSE HAS TURNED
INTO A HOSPITAL STATION,

YOU KNOW ?
BECAUSE WE'RE LIKE,

PEOPLE ARE COMING AND GOING
AND COMING AND GOING.

SO I'M A LITTLE BIT
STRESSED OUT.

BUT HE'S COMFORTABLE AND THAT'S
THE MAIN THING, SO I DON'T...

I JUST WANT HIM TO STAY
THE SAME, YOU KNOW.

HE MADE A BIG POINT
OF EMPHASIZING TO ME

THAT HE WAS NOT
HAVING PAIN.

IN FACT HE SAID TO ME,
"MICHAEL, I FEEL WONDERFUL."

JUST LIKE THAT.

AND I THINK WHAT
HE WAS TELLING ME IS,

HE DIDN'T WANT PEOPLE
TO WORRY ABOUT HIM.

WELL, YOU KNOW, BOB,

YOU CAN SEE BETTER
THAN ANYBODY

THAT THINGS HAVE
DEFINITELY CHANGED.

BIG-TIME.

I THINK THAT
YOUR BODY IS...

IS NOT WHERE
IT WAS BEFORE.

AND I THINK THAT...

I THINK THAT
YOU MAY BE...

YOU MAY BE DYING, BOB.

( Jacqui sighing )

( Jacqui )
IT'S VERY HARD FOR ME
TO SAY THIS, BUT...

MY FATHER PASSED AWAY
APRIL 1st AT 11:45.

AND THIS IS WHAT
IT'S LIKE NOW FOR ME,

WITHOUT HIM.

AND THIS IS THE BED
WHERE MY DAD DIED.

( male )
I'VE BECOME
ATTACHED TO BOB,

AND THERE'S A LITTLE BIT
OF A GRIEVING PROCESS,

AND THIS IS
WHAT I DO,

I HELP PEOPLE THROUGH
THE DYING PROCESS,

I HELP GUIDE THEM THROUGH
THE DYING PROCESS.

AND SO, WHATEVER
FEELINGS I HAVE,

THEY JUST COME
TO THE SURFACE

WHEN I CAN CLEARLY SEE THAT
THE PERSON IS ACTIVELY DYING.

THEN I JUST TRY TO LET
THAT ATTACHMENT GO.

I TRY TO LET IT GO.

I KNOW THAT
THE REST OF THE TEAM

HAS ACCEPTED THAT DEATH IS
INEVITABLE FOR ALL OF US,

BUT I'VE HAD VERY
FEW PEOPLE THAT SAY,

"YOU KNOW, I'VE HAD
A GREAT LIFE,

I'M READY TO GO."

AND IT DOESN'T MATTER
HOW MUCH IMMENSE SUFFERING

SOME OF THE PEOPLE HAVE,
HOW TREMENDOUS PAIN.

THEY DO NOT WANT TO DIE.

AND I SUSPECT I WILL WIND UP
ALSO IN THAT CATEGORY.

ONE THING I'VE
DEFINITELY LEARNED FROM

DEALING WITH THE DYING
IS THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE

IN A SPOT WHERE I'M SUFFERING
FOR MONTHS ON END.

I DO NOT WANT THAT.

AND I WOULD PUT MYSELF
TO DEATH BY MY OWN HAND,

AND I DON'T KNOW
IF ANYONE ELSE

BELIEVES IN THAT,
BUT I DO.

I WOULD PUT MYSELF
TO DEATH AT MY OWN HAND

IF I HAD
A TERMINAL DIAGNOSIS

AND I WAS STARTING
TO DETERIORATE AND SUFFER.

I THINK THERE'S
A CHALLENGE THOUGH,

TO FIND MEANINGFULNESS
IN SUFFERING.

THERE'S A MEANINGFULNESS
IN THAT EXPERIENCE.

AND THAT'S WHERE
I WOULD HOPE THAT MY...

CONSCIOUSNESS WOULD BE LEAD
IN MY OWN DYING PROCESS.

I'VE OFTEN
TOLD PEOPLE THAT...

FAMILY AND FRIENDS
THAT DYING OF CANCER

CAN BE A VERY
SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE

IN THAT IT WILL LEND
ITSELF TO HAVING FAMILIES

AND PATIENTS PREPARE
AND HAVE THAT TIME FOR CLOSURE,

FOR SAYING GOODBYE.

PERSONALLY, I DO BELIEVE
THAT I CAN HELP MY PATIENTS

AND THEIR FAMILIES
TO COME TO...

TO HAVE SOME SORT OF EMOTIONAL
GROWTH AT THE END OF LIFE,

TO TIE UP THE LOOSE ENDS,
EMOTIONALLY.

AND THAT'S A PART
OF WHAT I DO.

BUT SUFFERING,
PER SE ?

I DON'T SEE A WHOLE LOT OF
MEANING TO SUFFERING, PER SE.

ROSIE DOES TRAVEL.

I TELL YOU, I HAVE
TOO MANY THINGS TO DO TO BE...

COMPLETELY BED-RIDDEN
OR COMPLETELY

TAKEN DOWN
BY THIS DISEASE.

IT'S SO PAINFUL.

( Sonia )
I KNOW IT'S PAINFUL.

OH, IT'S PAINFUL,
YOU HAVE NO IDEA.

WELL, YOU'VE GOT
BARE TISSUE THERE

THAT'S BEING EXPOSED
TO ALL THE THINGS

GOING THROUGH
YOUR SYSTEM.

YOU KNOW, IT'S GOTTA
BURN AND HURT.

IT'S GOT TO.

THAT'S WHY I HAVE
TO STAY BUSY A LITTLE BIT,

BECAUSE I CAN'T
STAND THE PAIN.

I KNOW, I KNOW,
IT'S HORRIBLE.

OH MY GOD.

YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR INSIDES
ARE GONNA FALL OUT.

I KNOW.

WE GOTTA KEEP YOU BUSY SO YOU
THINK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE.

DON'T YOU HAVE ONE OF
THOSE AT HOME ALREADY ?

YOU GONNA GET THAT,
ROSALIE ?

( laughing )

OUI, OUI !

( Sonia )
I USED TO WORK AT
A CELLULAR STORE

AND ROSALIE
WAS MY CUSTOMER,

AND WE JUST BECAME
FRIENDS AFTER THAT.

AND THEN WHEN SHE FIRST
TOLD ME SHE HAD CANCER,

SHE TOLD ME OVER THE PHONE
AND WE WERE BOTH CRYING.

AND I TOLD HER,
"DON'T WORRY,

I'LL BE THERE
FOR YOU."

WHEN SHE FINALLY
TOLD ME,

"I NEED TO HAVE SOMEONE
WITH ME EVERY DAY."

SO I'M GLAD
THAT I'M HERE...

I DON'T COMPLAIN.

I JUST DO WHATEVER
SHE WANTS, YOU KNOW ?

AND BECAUSE
I DO LOVE HER,

SHE'S MY FRIEND AND I'M
VERY LOYAL TO MY FRIENDS.

OVER HERE, BABE.

HOW ARE YOU ?

MY DOCTOR IS HERE.

OKAY.

I'M STARTING TO FEEL
AN ACHE IN MY BACK.

OKAY.

NO, I'M JUST KIDDING.

THIS IS SONIA.

SHE'S GONNA BE
WITH ME EVERY DAY.

OH, I THOUGHT YOU GUYS
WERE TOGETHER.

SHE'S JUST NOW LEARNING
HOW TO USE A CAMERA.

WELL, NICE
MEETING YOU.

NICE TO MEET YOU.

OUR GOAL IS TO MAKE HER
VERY COMFORTABLE.

WE DON'T FORCE
ANYTHING.

IF SHE WANTS
TO EAT ANYTHING,

SHE CAN DO THAT.

IF SHE DOESN'T,
THAT'S FINE.

WE DON'T FORCE HER
BECAUSE SHE NEEDS TO BE HAPPY.

MMM-HMM,
YEAH, I KNOW.

OKAY, BECAUSE THAT'S
PART OF THE PHILOSOPHY.

SHE'S NOT TERMINAL,
THOUGH.

SHE IS TERMINAL.

OKAY.

SHE IS TERMINAL
SHE TOLD ME TO TALK TO YOU.

SHE'S TERMINAL.

ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN
FROM NOW ON.

THEREFORE, IT'S SO IMPORTANT
FOR US TO MAKE HER HAPPY,

AND DON'T
CONTRADICT ANYTHING.

YES, I'M HERE !

OKAY.

SHE'S IN FOR
A BIG SURPRISE.

SHE IS, SHE'S IN
FOR A BIG SURPRISE.

SHE'S NOT GONNA DIE.

I KNOW IT.

SHE HAS A DEEP FAITH IN GOD,
AND GOD PERFORMS MIRACLES.

WHAT I'M DOING HERE,
THIS IS HOLY WATER.

I PUT IT ON
HER FOREHEAD

AND OVER THE HEART.

NOW, AS I PUT MY HAND DOWN,
RUTH MY ANGEL'S HAND,

IN A LIGHT FORM,
SLIDES RIGHT UNDER MY HAND.

FROM THIS POINT ON,

RUTH HAS COMPLETE
CONTROL OVER MY HANDS

AND SHE WILL GUIDE ME
TO THE PARTS

THAT'S NEEDED
TO BE HEALED.

NOW ROSALIE HAS
A TUMOR IN HER COLON,

THAT WE'RE TRYING
TO MAKE DISAPPEAR.

ANGELS OF HEALING,

BRING WHOLENESS
AND HEALING TO ROSALIE.

DO I REALLY BELIEVE
THAT THERE'S A GOD,

THAT THERE ARE ANGELS
THAT EXIST

THAT CAN DO
MIRACULOUS THINGS ?

ABSOLUTELY,
ABSOLUTELY.

BECAUSE I'VE SEEN THEM.

I HAVE SEEN THEM,
ACTUALLY SEEN THEM.

I'VE SEEN
THEM OPERATE.

I'VE SEEN MIRACULOUS THINGS
HAPPEN IN MY LIFE.

AND I'VE TOTALLY GONE AGAINST
SO CALLED "MEDICAL ADVICE"

BECAUSE OF THIS DEEP,
DEEP BELIEF THAT I HAVE.

AND IT HAS CARRIED ME,
LITERALLY CARRIED ME, THROUGH.

WE THANK YOU, LORD GOD,

THAT YOU HAVE
BROUGHT US TO THIS HOUSE

TO GET MORE OF YOU.

THAT WE'LL LEAVE THIS PLACE
NOT LIKE WE CAME.

IN THE NAME OF JESUS,
COME NOW !

DON'T BE AFRAID.

YOU'RE RECEIVING
ALL OF IT !

YES, YOU'RE GETTING
ALL OF IT !

YOU'RE GETTING
EVERY BIT !

EVERY BIT !

WHOO !

IN THE NAME OF JESUS !

HALLELUJAH !

I HAVE THIS PAIN IN MY SIDE
AND STILL A LOT OF PAIN HERE,

SO WE'LL SEE HOW I FEEL
WHEN I LEAVE HERE.

( belching )

NOW SHE EXPLAINED TO ME THAT
WHAT SHE'S DOING RIGHT NOW,

IS SHE'S RELEASING...

YOU'RE RELEASING
AN ENERGY ?

YOUR STUCK ENERGY.

SHE'S RELEASING
MY STUCK ENERGY.

( Sonia )
THROUGH HER,
BY BURPING IT OUT.

RIGHT.

SO SHE'S NOT
TRYING TO BE RUDE.

OH, YEAH.

SO I WANT ANYONE
WHO WATCHES THIS

TO UNDERSTAND
WHAT SHE'S DOING.

BETTER THAN FARTING
AND THROWING UP.

RIGHT.

THAT'S WHAT
SHE ALSO TOLD ME.

DO YOU SELL THESE BEDS,
AS WELL ?

YEP, I SURE DO.

HOW MUCH ARE THEY ?

THEY RUN RIGHT
AROUND $3,300.

THEY'RE ON SALE
RIGHT NOW FOR $2,500.

WOW.

THAT'S BEAUTIFUL.

YOU KNOW, IF YOU
WANT GOD'S GIFTS,

WE'RE GONNA
CHARGE FOR THEM.

I'VE GOT SO MUCH
PAIN DOWN IN HERE.

YOU KNOW, I AM SO
ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED, GLENN,

FROM BEING UNDER
THIS FINANCIAL PRESSURE

THAT I AM JUST
BESIDE MYSELF.

I MEAN, I AM JUST
SO FED UP WITH IT.

I JUST TOLD GOD,
"YOU KNOW, GOD,

"YOU GOTTA DO SOMETHING
AND DO SOMETHING SOON

BECAUSE I CANNOT LIVE
LIKE THIS ANYMORE."

( Sonia )
ARE ANY OF
THESE GENERIC ?

BECAUSE SHE'S ALLERGIC
TO GENERIC.

IT SHOULD BE
ON HER RECORDS.

OH, YOU DON'T
WANT THE GENERIC ?

THE LAST TIME
WE WERE HERE

THEY SAID YOU ONLY CARRIED
BRAND NAME OF NORCO.

I WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM
DOCTOR AND HE GOES,

"OKAY, YOU HAVE NO REFILLS,"
BLAH BLAH BLAH.

AND I SAID, "YES, I DO,
I HAVE A REFILL ON THIS, OKAY ?"

HE SAYS, "NO, YOU DON'T,
NO, YOU DON'T."

HE SAYS,
"OKAY, MISS EVANS,

"LET'S JUST GET DOWN
TO THE FACTS HERE.

I'M GONNA ASK YOU
RIGHT OUT, DIRECT."

AND I SAID, "OKAY, FINE, ASK ME
WHATEVER YOU WANT TO ASK ME."

AND HE GOES,
"ARE YOU A DRUG ADDICT ?"

AND I SAID, "NO SIR,
I'M NOT A DRUG ADDICT,

"BUT IF I CONTINUE
ON THIS PROGRAM

"AND KEEP TAKING
ALL THIS MEDICATION,

I CAN'T PROMISE YOU
ANYTHING."

I SAID, "BUT RIGHT NOW IT'S
THE WORSE OF THE TWO EVILS

"BECAUSE WHEN YOU'RE IN PAIN,
YOU GOTTA TAKE MEDICINE,

SO WHAT
CAN YOU DO ?"

WHAT ABOUT THE MORPHINE ?
WHERE IS THE MORPHINE AT ?

HUH ?

THE MORPHINE THAT
WE ORDERED LAST TIME.

THE MORPHINE ?

EVERY TIME I GO THERE,
THE NORCO DISAPPEAR.

THERE WAS NO NORCOS
AT ALL.

WE HAD TO REORDER,
RIGHT, DOCTOR ?

FREQUENTLY.

FREQUENTLY.

SHE WOULD SAY THINGS
LIKE HER DAUGHTER

CLEANED UP
THE APARTMENT,

INCLUDING THROWING AWAY
OF HER MEDICATIONS.

SO, IT WAS JUST...

ONE THING
AFTER ANOTHER...

HER STORIES DIDN'T
MAKE A LOT OF SENSE

FOR SOMEONE WHO SHOULD BE A LOT
MORE RESPONSIBLE THAN THAT.

SO, TO HELP WITH
HER RESPONSIBILITY,

IT WAS FELT THAT
SWITCHING HER TO METHADONE

WOULD BE THE BEST CHOICE
SINCE IT DOESN'T REALLY HAVE

ANY ADDITIONAL VALUE
OUTSIDE OF THE HOME.

YEAH, THE DOCTOR SAY THAT
WE NEED TO HAVE A MEETING

REGARDING YOUR PAIN CONTROL
MEDICATION, AGAIN.

( Sonia )
SO WHAT'S SHE GOING
TO TAKE, MEANWHILE ?

MEANWHILE, SHE CAN
TAKE THE NORCO...

I MEAN,
THE METHADONE.

I CAN'T TAKE
THE METHADONE.

THAT'S FINE, BECAUSE WE'VE
NOW BEEN WORKING ALL THIS TIME

AND WE NEED TO HAVE A MEETING
AGAIN WITH THE SOCIAL WORKER,

WITH THE MEDICAL DIRECTOR,
WITH EVERYBODY AT WORK.

ROSALIE, WHAT DO YOU WANT
TO DO ABOUT THIS ?

WHAT AM I GONNA DO ?
WHAT AM I GONNA DO ?

I'M TOTALLY HELPLESS,
WHAT AM I GONNA DO ?

I CAN'T CALL IN
MEDICATION ?

DO YOU WANT TO STAY
WITH THIS HOSPICE PROGRAM

THAT'S HOLDING YOU HOSTAGE ?

HOW CAN I STAY
ON THIS MEDICINE ?

THIS IS RIDICULOUS.

I MEAN, I'M PAYING KAISER $400
A MONTH FOR MY MEDICAL CARE.

WHAT AM I
SUPPOSED TO DO ?

OKAY, ROSALIE,
I'M LEAVING.

THIS IS RIDICULOUS.

THE DOCTOR WANTS YOU TO
CONTINUE TRYING THE METHADONE.

OTHERWISE, I'LL CALL YOU
THIS AFTERNOON.

HOW CAN I STAY
ON THIS METHADONE ?

I KNOW, ROSALIE,
BUT THAT'S WHAT...

WHY DON'T YOU LET ME
TALK TO HIM ?

PATRICIA IS
TELLING ME NOW,

SHE FEELS INADEQUATE TO HANDLE
THIS PATIENT AND HER COHORT.

SHE THINKS THE CAREGIVER
IS VERY INTIMIDATING.

SHE'S TRYING TO BE
VERY INTIMIDATING TO HER,

WHEN SHE'S NOT AGREEING
WITH THE PATIENT.

AND SO I WAS THINKING OF
CHANGING THE CASE MANAGER,

THE RN CASE MANAGER.

WE HAVE DONE THAT
WITH OTHER CASES.

AND IF YOU'RE
FEELING INADEQUATE,

YOU'RE FEELING INTIMIDATED,

IT'S ABOUT TIME
I THINK WE GIVE SOMEBODY

WHO CAN SET THE BOUNDARY AND
SET THE LIMITS FOR THIS PATIENT.

THIS IS A DRUG ABUSER.

WELL, I'VE DECIDED
HOSPICE ISN'T FOR ME.

( laughing )

I CAN'T WAIT 'TIL THE DAY
ROSALIE IS COMPLETELY HEALED

AND WE CAN SHOW PATRICIA
HOW WRONG SHE IS.

WAIT'LL YOU SEE
THE REAL ME.

WE'LL JUST
HAVE LOTS OF FUN.

THAT'S ALL MY LIFE IS
FOR ME, JUST FUN, FUN, FUN.

NOW I'M PAYING FOR IT.

I GOT SO MANY THINGS
I WANT TO DO.

I ENJOY LIFE,
I LOVE LIFE.

NEVER THOUGHT I'D GO THROUGH
SOMETHING LIKE THIS.

( Rosalie )
I'M PUTTING GOD
TO THE TEST,

IF YOU'RE UP THERE AND
YOU EXIST AND YOU'RE REAL,

HERE I AM, I'VE PUT
MY LIFE IN YOUR HANDS.

YOU'RE MY CREATOR,
I'M YOUR CREATION.

THERE'S NOTHING
THEY CAN DO FOR ME.

WHAT ARE YOU
GONNA DO ?

( Sonia )
YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT WHAT
HAPPENED TODAY IN THE BATHROOM ?

THAT'S SOMETHING MAJOR.

WELL, I FEEL TODAY
THAT I, UH, THAT UH...

YOU WANT ME
TO SAY IT ?

THAT I'M PASSING PIECES
OF THIS TUMOR.

THAT'S I'VE PASSED...

BIG PIECES...

FAIRLY LARGE PIECES.

I MEAN, MEDICALLY SOMEBODY
WOULD HAVE TO SEE IT TO OKAY IT,

BUT FROM WHAT I SAW

AND WHAT I'VE BEEN TOLD
THAT IT LOOKS LIKE,

THAT'S WHAT I WOULD
CONFIRM IT AS.

JUST GOTTEN
TO ROSALIE'S HOUSE.

IT'S SEVEN-SOMETHING
IN THE MORNING

AND SHE SAID SHE'S NOT
HAVING A GOOD DAY.

I'M GONNA GO SEE
WHAT'S GOING ON.

( Sonia )
YOU IN THE BATHROOM ?

WHAT'S GOING ON ?

( crying )

ROSALIE IS GONE.

THAT MEANS SHE'S
LIVING IN GEORGIA NOW,

WITH HER DAUGHTER.

AND HER DAUGHTER'S GONNA
TAKE CARE OF HER THERE,

WHICH IS GOOD.

AND UM...

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S
GONNA HAPPEN NEXT,

BUT I AM VERY HURT
BY THE WAY IT HAPPENED.

AFTER SPENDING FIVE MONTHS
WITH YOUR FRIEND EVERY DAY,

THEN JUST
HAVE 'EM LEAVE.

I DON'T THINK
THAT'S RIGHT.

OKAY, LET'S
MOVE ALONG.

ALRIGHT.

TIME !

TIME, TIME,
TIME, TIME.

LET'S MOVE ALONG.

OKAY, LET'S DO IT.

SORRY I DIDN'T
PREPARE FOR THIS THING.

WE'RE JUST
INUNDATED HERE.

OKAY, LET'S PROCEED
WITH THE, UM...

HEY !

♪ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ♪

♪ HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO YOU ♪

♪ HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR... ♪

♪ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ♪

( cheering )

( male )
WE'RE GONNA
WALK INSIDE.

HELLO !

HOW YOU DOIN',
PAPA ?

OKAY.

YOUR NOSE
THING'S CROOKED.

STICK 'EM UP
YOUR NOSE, MISTER.

HOW YOU DOING, DADDY ?

STAN CEPIN...

THE MAN, THE MYTH,
THE LEGEND.

AND THIS IS
MY UGLY MUG.

SEE THE SCREEN, DAD ?

CAN YOU
SEE ME ON IT ?

MY NAME'S MIKE,
I'M STAN'S SON.

AND I THINK THIS IS
A WONDERFUL PROGRAM.

( coughing )

YOU ALRIGHT ?

ALRIGHT.

HERE, MAN THE CAMERA.

HOLD IT,
POINT IT TOWARDS ME.

HOLD IT UP,
CAN YOU SEE ME ?

( Stan )
YEP.

SEE ME NOW ?

YES.

HERE, THAT'S ENOUGH...

NOW YOU CAN'T
SEE ME, HUH ?

THAT'S ENOUGH
FOOLISHNESS FOR NOW.

YOU SURE ?

YEAH.

LEAVE YOU ALONE ?

LEAVE ME ALONE.

ALRIGHT.

UH, STANLEY CEPIN...

IS HE IMMINENT ?

NO, HE'S NOT IMMINENT.

THIS IS A VERY SLOW DISEASE
PROCESS WITH HIM...

IN FACT, ON MY LAST VISIT
HE SAID HE HAD A DREAM

WHERE HE COUGHED UP
HIS TUMOR AND IT CAME OUT,

SO HE ASKED ME,
HE ASKED ME,

"COULD IT BE THAT
I'LL GET OVER THIS ?"

I THINK I SAID,
"ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE,

BUT THE PROBABILITY IS THAT,
YOU KNOW, YOU WON'T."

( Mike )
IT'S 4:30 IN THE MORNING.

OKAY.

HAVING A LITTLE TROUBLE
COUGHING SOME CRAP UP, OR WHAT ?

YEAH, I'M HAVING
A LITTLE TROUBLE.

GOT SOME KLEENEX
THERE, SIR ?

YEAH, I GOT
PLENTY OF KLEENEX.

( coughing )

GOT NIGHT VISION;
STAN-CAM.

IT'S A FULL-TIME JOB
JUST GOING TO THE BATHROOM,

ISN'T IT, POPS ?

WHERE THE HELL IS
THERE A HOLE HERE ?

THERE IS NO HOLE.

SORRY, MAN, DON'T
MEAN TO CHUCKLE.

PULL 'EM DOWN,
DROP 'EM.

DROP YOUR DRAWERS.

BOOTY-CAM.

DO YOU LOVE ME ?

OH JESUS.

THERE ARE NO WORDS
IN THE DICTIONARY, MICHAEL.

( chuckling )
GOT IT OUT OF HIM.

HE STILL
DIDN'T SAY IT.

OUT OF THE SEVEN CHILDREN,
I'M NUMBER SEVEN.

I'M THE ONLY SON,

AND I WAS BORN SEVEN YEARS
AFTER MY YOUNGEST SISTER.

MY DAD WAS
MOSTLY WORKING.

HE WORKED
ALL THE TIME.

THAT'S WHAT HE DID.

I WOULDN'T SEE HIM
AS MUCH AS YOU WOULD

THINK YOU WOULD
SEE HIM, YOU KNOW ?

AND THAT'S REALLY ALL I EVER
WANTED WHEN I WAS A KID,

WAS TO SEE HIM,
YOU KNOW ?

AND I NEVER
REALLY KNEW WHY, SO...

INSTEAD OF ASKING WHY, I JUST
MADE UP ALL THESE REASONS.

MY SISTER ARRIVED
FROM THE AIRPORT.

( singing )
♪ HERE I AM ♪

YOU'VE MADE IT,
HOW ARE YOU, HONEY ?

COFFEE BEANS
FOR EVERY OCCASION.

THIS IS KATIE,
MY MIDDLE SISTER.

LOVE HER DEARLY.

SHE'S PREPARING A FRESH
GREEN SALAD FOR DAD.

GREEN FOOD, GREEN FOOD,
GREEN FOOD !

AND THIS IS THE WAY
IT WORKS AROUND HERE.

IT'S MY TURN.

SMILE FOR
THE CAMERA, PAPA.

ONE MORE TIME.

I'M SORRY, YOU HAVE
TO HOLD ON.

HERE, HOLD
MY HAND, DAD.

I'M HOLDING ON
TO MY OWN HAND.

I'M SORRY.

I'M GONNA GET YOU
SOME NUMB-ER STUFF, DAD.

I'M SORRY,
HOLD STILL, DAD.

IT'S ALMOST COMING.

OKAY, WE'RE DONE.

IT'S CLEAN,
IT'S CLEAN, MIKE !

COME AND SEE IT.

THAT CAME OUT OF
MY DAD'S BELLY.

LOOKS ALMOST LIKE
A HORSE'S HEAD.

OH MICHAEL,
GET OUTTA HERE.

WHERE DID YOU
FIND THIS GUY ?

LOOKS LIKE
A SEAHORSE.

WHERE'D YOU
FIND THIS GUY ?

I'M YOUR SON.

NO, YOU'RE NOT.

YOU'RE JUST, THE ALIENS
TOOK OUR REAL BROTHER

AND YOU'RE JUST SOMEBODY
THEY LEFT IN THEIR PLACE.

I CAME OUT OF
A MILK BOTTLE.

I WAS GONNA SAY
HE CAME OUT OF

THE THIRD PAINT PAIL
ON THE BEACH.

( laughing )

I GOTTA GO.

LOVE YOU.

THANKS FOR COMING.

YEP, I'LL BE BACK
IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS.

I'M GONNA MISS YOU.
I KNOW.

DON'T CRY, DON'T CRY,
YOU'LL MAKE ME CRY.

DON'T CRY, DADDY.

DON'T CRY, DADDY.

BYE, SIS !

IF MIKEY'S MEAN TO YOU,
YOU CAN JUST TELL ME.

I'LL TAKE HIM...

GET OVER IT, EVERYONE SAYS
I'M SO MEAN TO THE GUY.

BYE, KATIE.

BEHAVE, BABE.

I WILL.

ALRIGHT, I LOVE YOU.

LOVE YOU DEARLY.

WELL DADDY, KATIE'S GONE,
WHAT DO YOU SAY ?

I'M SORRY,
SHE'LL BE BACK.

I'LL MISS HER.

WE'LL MISS HER.

WE'LL GET SOME TIME
TO SPEND SOME TIME TOGETHER.

YOU DON'T MIND,
DO YOU ?

ARMS HERE.

LEAN IN,
DOWN IN THERE.

NO, WAY DOWN,
LIKE THAT.

LIKE WE'RE GONNA
WASH YOUR HAIR.

OKAY, YOU READY ?

HERE COMES THE WATER,
READY ?

BOOM.

KEEP YOUR EYES CLOSED.

OKAY, GOTTA LEAVE THAT
ON THERE FOR A MINUTE,

SO JUST STAY PUT.

ALMOST OVER, MAN.

OKAY, NOW WE'RE GONNA
DROP YOUR DRAWERS

AND CHANGE OUT
YOUR UNDIES.

HOW ABOUT SOME PINK
POLKA DOTTED ONES ?

I DON'T CARE.

RIGHT NOW
I'M IN CHARGE.

MY JOB'S
TO MAKE YOU...

I'D HATE TO HAVE YOU
FOR A FUCKIN' GENERAL...

PRESENTED...

PRESENTABLE FOR
INSPECTION OF GOD,

BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY PERSON
I HAVE TO ANSWER TO, DAD.

I WAS REALLY SUPER
CLOSE TO MY MOM.

I MEAN, SHE AND I
ALWAYS TALKED.

WE WERE CLOSE.

AND SO LIKE,
WHEN SHE DIED,

I DIDN'T HAVE ANYBODY
TO TALK TO ANYMORE.

THAT WAS WEIRD
BECAUSE MY MOM WAS LIKE,

I HATE TO SAY THERAPIST,
BUT SHE WAS JUST MY MOM.

SHE WAS LIKE THAT
ALL-ENCOMPASSING

FIGURE OF YOUR MOTHER.

WHEN THIS SITUATION AROSE, THEN
IT WAS JUST LIKE, "OH, JEEZ."

WHAT DO YOU DO WITH
ALL THE ISSUES INVOLVED

AND THE ANIMOSITY.

SO THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING
THROUGH WITH HIM RIGHT NOW.

( Mike )
SO WHAT'S GOING ON
IN THE WORLD TODAY.

I DON'T KNOW.

I'M TRYING
TO FIND OUT.

STAN, I THINK
A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO,

THE DOCTOR
INCREASED YOUR...

PROZAC, FOR
THE DEPRESSION.

HAS HE BEEN
TAKING MORE OF THAT ?

( Mike )
YOU KNOW,
I GAVE IT TO HIM,

AND HE WAS AWAKE FOR,
ALL NIGHT LONG...

AND SO I'VE JUST BEEN
GIVING HIM THE REGULAR DOSAGE.

WELL, YOU KNOW,
ONE OF THE SIDE EFFECTS

OF THE ANTIDEPRESSANTS
LIKE PROZAC IS THAT

THEY CAN AT LEAST
TEMPORARILY MAKE YOU AWAKE.

HOW COME YOU WANT
TO SLEEP SO MUCH ?

MAKES YOU
SLEEP FOREVER ?

WHAT ARE YOU SAYING, STAN,
YOU JUST WANT TO GO TO SLEEP

UNTIL YOU GO
INTO A FINAL SLEEP ?

WELL, I MEAN...

DID YOU EVER TRY TO
DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT ?

NO.

WELL, I'M EXCITED
BECAUSE

WE ARE GONNA TAKE DAD FOR A RIDE
OUTSIDE IN THE WHEELCHAIR,

AND IT'S
A BEAUTIFUL DAY...

OKAY, DADDY.

IT'S TOO COLD OUT THERE,
I WAS OUT THERE.

WHEN WERE
YOU OUT THERE ?

A LITTLE WHILE AGO.

YOU WERE NOT.

I WALKED DOWN THE STEPS
AND WALKED BACK UP AGAIN.

WHEN ?

EARLIER.

DON'T YOU LIE
TO ME LIKE THAT.

THAT'S NOT FAIR...

EARLIER.

THE ONLY FUCKING PLACE
YOU WALKED WAS FROM YOUR BED

TO THE FUCKIN' CHAIR.

I'VE BEEN HAWKIN' YOU
LIKE A HAWK.

I WOKE YOU UP...

I WOKE YOU UP AT TEN TO TWELVE
AND LOOK AT WHAT TIME IT IS.

YOU KNOW WHEN I TOLD YOU
I HAD TO GO TAKE A PEE ?

UH-HUH, AND I STOOD
RIGHT THERE.

I WAS OUTSIDE
ON THE FRONT PORCH

BUYING COOKIES
FROM THE GIRL SCOUTS.

WHEN YOU
CAME BACK IN.

SO HOW DID YOU WALK
DOWN THE STAIRS AND BACK ?

DAD, DON'T LIE TO ME.

YOU'RE BREAKING
MY HEART.

NOW YOU'RE JUST
BEING MEAN.

HELLO, EVERYBODY.

SAME PROBLEM.

YOU KEEP BUMPING ME
IN THE BACK.

A LITTLE CLOSE-UP
OF MY DAD'S NOSE.

HERE'S THE OLD MAN
CHECKING IT OUT.

SO, STANLEY CEPIN.

I TALKED WITH HIS SON,

WHO TELLS ME THAT
HE IS BASICALLY STABLE,

ALTHOUGH ONE THE SISTERS
HAD SAID THAT THEY WERE AFRAID

THAT HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO
TAKE CARE OF STANLEY PROPERLY.

I WAS OUT THERE
RIGHT AFTER YOUR VISIT,

AND MIKE IS DEFINITELY,
THE SON, GOING THROUGH

A BREAKTHROUGH
IN REALITY.

HE'S BEEN INTELLECTUALLY AWARE
THAT HIS FATHER IS DYING,

EVER SINCE DAY ONE
WHEN WE CAME IN,

BUT NOW IT'S HITTING HIM
ON AN EMOTIONAL LEVEL

AND I'M NOT SURE THAT THAT'S
GONNA CHANGE BEFORE HE DIES.

A COUPLE OF THINGS.

ONE:

YOU KNOW, I'M GONNA THROW A
MONKEY WRENCH INTO THIS, OKAY ?

I'M GONNA THROW OUT
THE OPTION THAT STAN

MAY BECOME TOO MUCH
FOR EVERYBODY HERE,

AND THAT WE MAY NEED
TO LET STAN

TEMPORARILY LIVE
AT A NURSING HOME

WHERE THEY HAVE NURSES
AROUND THE CLOCK WHO ARE AWAKE,

AND ACTUALLY WORK
NIGHT HOURS AND DAY HOURS

AND CAN ACTUALLY
TAKE CARE OF HIM.

MY PROBLEM WITH THAT,
I'M NOT GONNA SLEEP HERE,

OR ANYWHERE ELSE IF HE'S IN
A NURSING HOME FOR FIVE DAYS.

I WILL SLEEP AT
THE NURSING HOME

OR IN THE PARKING LOT
OF THE NURSING HOME...

WHY ?

OR SOME BIZARRE
THING LIKE THAT.

'CAUSE I DON'T
TRUST THEM.

I DON'T TRUST
NURSING HOMES.

I'VE WORKED ON THEM,
I'VE SEEN THEM.

I DON'T THINK THAT
THERE ARE VERY MANY THAT ARE...

I DON'T LIKE THEM,
OKAY ?

HEY, DAD !

ARE YOU WITH US ?

YEAH, I'M WITH YOU.

ALRIGHT.

I LOVE MY DAD.

AND I WOULD NEVER
LET HIM GO TO A NURSING HOME

UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE
WHATSOEVER,

AND THAT'S WHY
HE'S IN THE HOUSE

BEING TAKEN CARE OF BY ME.

( labored breathing )

POOR GUY.

LENS CAP.

UM, I EXPECT
THREE OR FOUR DAYS.

GOOD, HOW ABOUT
A $40 BET ?

I'M SORRY,
THAT'S MORBID.

( coughing )

WHO'S THE NUMBER-ONE SON ?

SORRY, DADDY,
DADDY, DADDY.

DADDY'S GURGLING.

HE'S JUST
GURGLING AWAY.

STAN PASSED AWAY
ON APRIL 14th,

8:45 IN THE EVENING.

HE LIVED LIFE
TO THE FULLEST.

HE LOVED PEOPLE,

AND HE WAS JUST A WONDERFUL,
LOVING, JOVIAL MAN,

AND HE WILL BE
SORELY MISSED.

THERE'S DAYS
WHEN I JUST DON'T KNOW

WHAT I'M GONNA DO
WITHOUT MY FATHER, YOU KNOW ?

( vehicle doors slamming )

( music )

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