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JONNY: 'So, last year was a bit full-on.

'That's why Mum thought we needed a fresh start.

'New town, new college, and I got myself a new hobby.

'And you know what, I think it might actually be going OK.'

Good work, Jonny boy, good work.

'I even got some new friends.' CAR HORN BEEPS

Let's go, Cobra Kai!

That's karate.

Well, whatever. We need to get a move on.

'They don't know all my secrets yet.'

Eh, scooch up in the back, Ella.

Er, no. Newbie's get middle seats.

Rules are rules, I guess.

'But, I'm pretty sure I don't know all of theirs.'

SQUEALS

What?! My God!

Guys, watch again, yeah? Watch the queen.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. We're watching.

Beat that, suckers!

Come on, then, come on.

Don't think the newbie is totally focused on the bowling.

Johnny. Just go and talk to her.

Ah, I'm playing the long game, Naish.

Does that include drooling over her at college?

Aww, it's sweet. You're new, she's new.

Aw, you can be socially awkward together.

Mm, isn't that basically how straight people date?

You do actually wanna go out with Shoe Girl?

Yeah. Definitely. It's just...

I haven't been out with anyone in a while, so... Why?

Did you get your heart-broken?

No. Did she leave you for someone else?

What? No. She moved to Canada.

Are you never gonna love again?

GIGGLING Yeah, I don.. I don't know.

So, go and talk to Shoe Girl.

Naish hasn't been in a relationship for about five minutes,

so she's living vicariously.

Can confirm. And you're living in my spare room.

So...

Do it, do it, do it...

ALL CHANT: Do it, do it, do it, do it, do it,

do it, do it, do it, do it.

'Come on, don't overthink it.'

'You'll be fine. Just walk up and say...'

Yes?

What?

My shoes don't fit.

They're a bit pinchy on my...

...pinky.

Rebecca will attend to you. N... er, yeah.

Nobody wants a pinchy pinky.

Next size up? Don't worry about it.

Sorry? It's fine.

What are you doing? Nothing.

Why are those people staring at us?

They sort of dared me to come speak to you.

Nice.

Not dared. Erm, encouraged.

Jonny, right? From college?

Yeah. I'm new.

Like you.

Can't really talk right now, so, erm...

I... I get a break in 20 minutes.

Brilliant.

Ah, unlucky darlin', come here.

If I was as cut up about my ex as you think I am,

I might find that PDA insensitive.

Er, I've seen you kiss lots of boys.

Well, I'm never doing that again.

That's what my mum said after her second husband.

Just don't tell her boyfriend.

Come on, Ells, your turn.

Yeah, someone needs to knock Naish down a peg or two,

d'you know what I mean?

MAN: 'God, is that her?' WOLF WHISTLES

LAUGHTER

Er... I need the bathroom.

What? Ugh!

In mid go.

Oh, erm, sorry.

Hi.

Are you OK?

Erm, just a bit hot.

Think the air-con might be down or...

I don't think so, but I'll get it checked.

Erm, you're here with that Jonny guy, right?

I'm Bex.

Ella.

You should try something.

TURNS TAP ON

Hold your wrists out.

Better?

A little. Thanks.

It's called a pulse point.

OK.

It's just... HAND DRYER BLOWS

See ya.

Woo! Yeah! Oh, my God!

Oh, Jonny missed my moment of triumph.

Oh, I think he's off, crashing and burning again.

Ugh, dating, I'm staying totally single, and totally happy,

just me and my squad. Mm-hm. Totally.

Are you staying over tonight, Tommy?

Nah, no.

You know, Mum and Dad are completely fine with it.

We all want Dyl to feel at home.

Yeah, no. That... That's... It's good to know.

I've just got work first thing, so...

Oh, that's a shame.

Well, I'd better go do my thing then, eh?

FAKE CHUCKLES

Fine with it? Like what? With me, us, or the concept of homosexuality?

She doesn't mean anything. Yeah, OK.

Naish has been a life-saver, Tommy. I know.

Guys, I need to go.

Oh, you can't! I haven't won yet.

What's wrong? Nothing.

Is it those guys? They say something to you?

No. Who are they?

I dunno, randoms. BOTH: Dicks.

Dyl, leave it.

Hey, arseholes. What's your problem?

Nothing, princess. What's yours?

Homophobic as well now, yeah? Pathetic!

MANAGER: Oi!

'OK, you've got this far,

'now dazzle her with your awesome chat.'

'Just pick a topic.'

'Literally any topic.'

How come you moved?

'Anything but that.'

Er, Mum's work. Oh, right.

You?

Erm... Same kinda thing.

I should pro... The other day at college,

I saw you wearing that shirt.

Oh, yeah.

Erm, on Mondays, I go straight to work cos it's usually pretty quiet

unless it's kids' birthday parties.

No, what I mean is... I know you worked here,

and when those guys were talking about going bowling,

I kinda wangled myself an invite.

Oh. Yeah.

That's nice.

DOOR OPENS Get out and stay out!

You're all barred.

Maybe bar creepy guys who harass women. Move.

And your break's over, as well.

What happened? Toxic masculinity happened.

Standard. Can we just leave? Please.

Sure, but we do all agree that I actually won, yeah?

Shut up.

It ain't what you do It's the way that you do it

And that's what gets results...

'Hang on, mate. Er, something's not right.'

Louis? DISTORTED SIGNAL

You froze again, mate. Yes, sorry,

the Wi-Fi's not great here.

Er, my mum said it's not a priority in the ashram.

They're too busy doing, er... God stuff.

Travelling's great, though. When you haven't got the shits.

You look good, though.

Thanks, er, so do you.

How... how's college?

Yeah, great.

I mean, I miss Parkway, you know what I mean?

What was that, mate?

So, anyway, I sort of met someone.

That's cool. What's her name?

Bex. Lex? Bex.

Thing is Lou, I'm worried I'm gonna mess it up

cos she doesn't know who I really am.

Do you have a photo?

What, no, I...

Look...

The thing is, I feel... I feel like I'm not me.

I'm not the real me, anyway.

Mostly cos of the meds.

But it's like, I'm out with these new people who definitely think

that I'm totally vanilla,

and I'm thinking even if it works out with Bex, she's...

she's gonna think so too, right? And...

Maybe it was just a waste of time.

Louis? Sorry.

Sorry, I lost you completely there, Jon.

Er, I asked if you had a photo of er, Lex. Bex.

DISTORTED SIGNAL Fuck... Sorry, Wi-Fi's shit.

There's a thread

You have a line to mine

Whether I care...

CORK POPS, LAUGHTER

Mum?

SHE LAUGHS

What's happening?

Cyrus has asked me to marry him. And she said yes.

SHE LAUGHS

Oh. Congratulations, that... That's great news.

Isn't it?!

Champagne.

Definitely.

Erm, hold that thought.

We can have some, then. Yes, we can.

See through stitches

Tying our dreams together

A glimpse of the dawn ahead

Still restless Watching the sun together

Elusive and tender

I immerse and forget it...

CAR HORN BLASTS

CAR HORN BLASTS

CAR HORN BLASTS

BRAKES SCREECH

SHE PANTS

'It was hard enough talking to my old doctor about my problems.

'And he was a bald old man.

'But my new doctor...'

Sorry, just getting your details up.

'..definitely not bald, old, or...'

OK, got you, Murphy J, formerly with Welwyn West Health.

How are you enjoying Hitchin?

Yeah, it's great.

You'll be at Brookwell, then?

Yeah. I went there.

I had an absolute ball.

Yeah, me too. So, it's great.

OK, three items on repeat prescription.

Any problems, side effects?

No bowel issues?

Loss of libido?

Not really.

Social anxiety?

No. God, no.

Everything is A-OK.

Amazing.

'Who even am I?'

'Am I gonna put up with another month of not being... me?'

'Of course I am.'

Shit!

Sorry. Newbie, come on.

You too, Shoe Girl.

I actually prefer Bex.

Cool, you're not gonna wanna miss this.

Seriously, it's not a big deal.

It IS a big deal.

Your mum's engagement parties are always a laugh.

This'll be my third. Second.

And you're sure it's OK to invite everyone?

She said I can bring friends...

That's so nice of you. Thanks.

Where is it? Cyrus's house.

Sunday afternoon.

His house? On a Sunday?

The last one was on a barge. This time's different.

Apparently, more grown-up.

Will there be free alcohol?

Shit loads. I'm sold.

So supportive. I think I might cry.

I'll see you Sunday, then?

Yeah, see you Sunday.

'Stop fucking doing that.'

Oomph, phoar! Nice back fist action, bro.

Cheers.

I do like coming in here now.

Use your jab, Charlotte. Come on!

Just sort of pumps me up, you know, like a natural high or whatever.

Brilliant. No, but it's better than drugs, man.

it's better than the medication I'm on, you know.

All the chemicals in your bloodstream.

I've no idea, but, hey, compared to the alternative?

Yeah, but I've gotta come off the medication at some point, so...

You, before you got treatment?

It was scary, Jonny.

You need those antidepressants.

Yeah. No, I know.

Whoa! Oh, hey.

Keep this up, you'll be better than me. Eh?

Oh, yeah, got you there.

Oh, ow. Ow, ow, ow, ow, ow.

Are you OK? Are you OK? Are you all right? Yeah.

D'you wanna stop?

Ra-arr! Whoa.

Hi, guys. Cyrus!

I'm so glad you could make it.

Oh, hello.

Ready for the tour?

Isn't it lovely?

It's so cool.

So, this is the kitchen.

Obviously. Wow.

Possibly my favourite space in the whole house. I love cooking.

Oh, Ella loves baking too, don't you?

It's OK, yeah.

What sort of things d'you like to make?

Cakes.

She's under-selling herself.

Her cupcakes are to die for. Just wait till it's your birthday.

Oh, something to look forward to.

BOUNCING ON SOFA Er, Abbie!

Erm, could you not bounce so much?

Sorry. Yeah, careful.

This is Cyrus's stuff.

Well, actually, erm... I want everyone to feel at home.

When can we go in the pool?

Yeah, we'll get to that.

Erm, let me show you upstairs first.

OK, this will be your sanctuary, Ella.

It's an office.

Yeah, but I plan on doing a lot less work and enjoying life a lot more.

You'll make it your own in no time.

Where's my room?

Far end of the landing. Come on, I'll show you.

What colour is it? Er...

Could you be a bit happier? I am happy.

Have you tried telling your face?

I do like Cyrus. He's great.

But I quite liked Mick and Curtis, even Stu, for a while.

I've told you, this is different, he's...

A grown-up. Yeah.

Exactly.

Are you, though?

Will you look around at the life that's being offered to you,

to all of us?

My room is awesome.

Let's have a look, then.

Coaster, coaster. OK, OK.

Things are a bit more chilled at mine.

"Oh, I'm Tommy. I'm 20, I'm so mature.

"My flat's like if I lived at Pride."

Getting jealousy...

Naisha's family are fine, and I'd have been screwed without them,

let's face it. Screwed?

17, spat out by the care system. You didn't know me then.

We could've moved in together.

Still could.

You ready, Dyl? Huh? Mum's waiting to go.

Oh, yeah, right. Yoga.

You, er, go to yoga a lot, then, yeah?

Mum and I find it incredibly relaxing.

Yeah.

I'll get my mat.

No, really, it's fine.

Don't get up. I wasn't gonna.

Not sporty, then?

Is Frisbee a sport?

Two seconds, let me check with the international Olympic Committee.

Don't go to any trouble.

Well, it's you who's asking the burning questions of our time.

MAN: Josh, what you doing? HE SIGHS

CHEERING

Not going back to your friends?

I was, but... you look lonely.

Maybe I just enjoy my own company.

Maybe.

I'm going home soon, anyway. Need a lift?

I'm parked just round there. Yeah.

I'm definitely gonna get in to a car with a random stranger.

I'm Josh.

Ella. Now we're not strangers.

Service is a bit slow here, but the food's OK.

You've been here before? Yeah, just a.. a couple of times

after work, you know, when it's been a bit much. Yeah.

Yeah, I get what "a bit much" feels like.

You doing OK, though?

Uh-huh. Settled in at college?

You got friends. You've got a party to go to.

Yeah. Yeah. It's... It's all good.

So, is work OK? Yeah, I'm getting there.

Pressure is that bad, is it?

It'll be fine once I've settled in properly.

Yeah.

Jonny, it's a tiny sacrifice to make.

You needed a fresh start.

After everything.

Everything is doing a lot of heavy lifting there, Mum.

I am so proud of how far you've come.

I wish they'd hurry up with our...

Chill. What?

Food'll come when it comes,

but you are not getting any of my fries.

SHE GIGGLES

So, this your pride and joy, then?

Something like that.

D'you live nearby?

For now.

Sorry? Never mind.

Too boring to talk about.

Tell me something interesting, then.

You first.

I missed the Frisbee earlier, cos I was already looking at you.

Yeah? Yeah.

MUSIC: 'Let Go' By Alewya

Hello. Good afternoon, we're with Ella.

Oh, yes. Of course, yeah, come in.

O-M-effing-G!

Guys, you made it.

Great.

Grab a drink, Bex knows the way.

She said from three. I've been here ages.

Hi, guys. You look nice.

BOTH: Hey, Debs.

It's OK them coming, isn't it?

Must mean you think there's something worth celebrating, eh?

Are you happy? Ecstatic.

MOBILE VIBRATES

Abbie!

Come look at this.

You don't want a drink drink?

Not really.

Yeah, I don't drink loads, but, erm,

when you're at a party where you don't really know anyone,

and there's no-one here under 50,

it's a good way to like... relax.

I'm relaxed.

D'you, like, never drink?

Um, yeah, I used to.

I was smashed, I was out of it.

Shit. Erm...

Are you a recovering alcoholic? No.

God, no. I... I don't know, do I?

Don't exactly give too much of yourself away, Jonny.

Suppose I am kind of mysterious.

SHE SCOFFS

Enigmatic. Yeah.

I'm gonna nip to the toilet, yeah.

We should totally do this. Yeah.

Yes, come on. A routine for three people, it's perfect for us.

And I need to try something new for my challenger.

I'm gonna find the loos, but you guys start without me.

HE CLEARS HIS THROAT

Is Tommy pissed off at me? No, no.

No. No.

Hold on.

Dyl, am I cock-blocking you? No, not at all.

Well, maybe a bit. Wow.

It's OK.

Whenever you break up with someone you kind of fall back on me,

and that's OK, I love us hanging out, but,

I'm living in your house now, seeing Tommy, and you're not seeing anyone.

I get it. And I guess you're not great at being single.

What? You saying I'm clingy?

No, I... No.

You're absolutely right about everything,

and I'm... I'm gonna give you and Tommy space. Starting now.

But you can't go, I... Actually, I can.

So, see you at home.

HE SIGHS

'So is this how every party's gonna be?

'Crash and burn, and then hide in the bathroom.

'Can I really do this for the rest of my life?'

Fess up. Sorry?

What you taking in there? Coke?

MDMA? What?!

Is it crystal meth?

Are you down a K hole, newbie?

Oh, I get it. I was having a piss, you're taking the piss.

Nah. I bet you always cut loose at parties.

It's a shame you didn't know me

when I fucked my cousin at my dad's funeral.

Second cousin.

LAUGHTER, GLASSES CHINK

Hi. Oh, my God.

You made it.

This is the house you don't like?

It's starting to grow on me.

I didn't realise it was a party.

Uh-huh. My mum's engagement.

Not gonna lie, Ella.

I... I wasn't expecting a meet-the-parents thing.

Sorry. Should I show you around a bit instead?

OK. That could be cool.

Let's grab a drink outside. That'd be cooler.

Where's Naish? She left.

Uh-oh.

You know, life could feel a lot easier for us all

if you just lived at my place.

Yeah.

Oh, I've mentioned the elephant in Naisha's spare room,

he's panicking.

I'm not, just... D'you think we're ready to live together?

Well, don't think of it as us living together.

Just think of it as crashing at mine for a bit.

That doesn't help.

We've been seeing each other for, like, six months.

Seven.

What if we split up and I'm just crashing at your place?

Right, so... so is it too big a deal,

or not a big enough deal moving in with me?

I don't know.

Shit, Dyl. That proves we're not ready.

Cos you're not ready.

What you doing? Leaving.

HE SIGHS Not you as well.

HE SIGHS

Bex, what kinda music d'you want?

Dunno, anything.

Thought you didn't drink?

DYL: Hang on a second,

are you hijacking the playlist?

Don't you think someone should?

This house is amazing.

What does Cyrus do?

Big time gangster, apparently. Seriously?

No. He owns flats.

Look, Naisha and Tommy have gone, so I'm off too.

Aw, Dylan.

It's just you and me then. Yep.

Ha-ha! You got me.

And this is gonna be my room, apparently.

It's nice.

I'm still kinda freaking out about it.

Change can be scary. Oh, my God, exactly.

I've moved around quite a bit.

So... Really?

Hey. What?

I can't. Not here.

Sure we can.

Josh... Come on. Come on, what?

You were fine with it yesterday.

My mum's downstairs, my little sister's downstairs. Don't be weird.

Maybe you prefer it in an alleyway.

You...

You've seen...

Why else d'you think I came up to you in the park?

Everyone knows you're a slag.

You're famous.

Ha-ha, miles away. Did it go in? Miles away.

I'm practising my technique. Mm, OK. Well, witness perfection.

HE LAUGHS

Come on! SHE LAUGHS

ELLA: Get away from me!

You could've killed me! Good.

Fuck off!

You left these in my car last night.

DOOR SLAMS

You know what was weird about that party?

No, what?

I was only there for about an hour,

and I managed to piss off my boyfriend and my bestie.

That's you, Dyl, centre of all drama.

Yeah. It's a curse.

I'll see you later.

Are you abandoning me as well now? As if.

OK? Hey.

What about you, newbie? Sorry?

Anything scandalous happen after I left yesterday?

No, nothing scandalous.

Hi. Oh.

Hi.

Can I...?

Sure.

Come and enjoy the view.

I'm only here

because in the last...

...year, or so...

...I lost my Dad...

...we lost our home,

and I... lost my fucking mind.

Yeah? Yep.

Are you OK, Ella?

Why wouldn't I be?

Well, you did kick that guy down the stairs.

He deserved it. I'm sure he did.

I just know what it's like to unravel... a little.

You can tell me to piss off if you want.

OK. Piss off.

I guess...

I've been making some really bad choices lately.

Sometimes it's like I'm outside of myself,

and I'm looking back,

and I dunno know who I am, like I'm not really me or... something.

I'm trying to get back to being the real me.

So I kinda get that. Is that the you that Bex likes?

Kinda. I don't know.

You don't need to go, I'll leave you in peace.

I've got stuff to do, so...

Thanks, for being honest.

See you, Jonny.

OK, see you.

It all works Just like the real thing

If only it tastes like The real thing too...

What do you feel like? Er, just tap water.

Seriously? What, didn't you hear?

Gen Z are supposed to stop buying snacks,

cancel Netflix, so they can get on the property ladder.

Don't mind getting you a drink, Dyl. You're so sweet.

And look, at the party, what I said was mean.

Yeah. Maybe a bit.

But you were right.

Oh, shit, was I?

I've never been dumped before, and I'm...

I'm not processing it.

Don't beat yourself up about that.

It's kinda pathetic, though.

Really, it isn't. Remember me after Kieran?

Oh, God, yeah. Basket case.

It's just all stuff everyone goes through.

Well, the only thing keeping me even a bit sane

is having you living in my house.

Yeah? I do love you.

You dick head.

I love you too.

Now, I'll get us the usuals, and you call Tommy

and sort out whatever he's pissed off with you about.

I've got one large dragon fruit with brown sugar pearls,

and one red jasmine with almond milk for Naisha.

That's me. Thanks.

That's definitely almond, not oat? Definitely.

Because last time, it was oat.

I wasn't working last time you were here.

How d'you know?

I would've remembered.

Mysterious moonlight Driving me crazy

I need something to hold onto

My body aches and my hands Are shaking

I'm through

With these sensations of cool.

Oh, God. It's the boy with the dodgy pinky.

How you doing?

Rebecca!

Fair enough.

Hey. Hey.

Erm... I've got something to tell you.

Yeah?

Yeah, it's like a deep, dark secret.

Go on.

Got a bowling shoe fetish.

And if you don't go out with me,

I'll be forced to feed my addiction on the streets.

You could try the dark web.

THEY CHUCKLE

Go out with you, huh?

And do I have time to consider this momentous...

Guess not.

Erm, I'm gonna need to get back to work now.

I'll speak to you in a bit, yeah?

Yeah.

Can you take me from the ghosts That reside in this house

They're wearing your clothes And they're starting to get loud

It's just...

'There's no crime in not being 100% honest

'with absolutely everyone.'

I feel it in my collarbone It's where I start to ache...

'Because it doesn't matter who I was.'

'It's who I'm gonna be.'

No-one's gonna miss you like I do

But it's too late to know now...

TYRES SCREECH, CAR HORN BLASTS

Why don't you look!

Of course.

Skank! Leave... me... alone!

Gladly.

I'm gonna get on with my day, forget I saw you.

I'm gonna forget you even exist.

DOOR SLAMS, TYRES SCREECH

I exist, you fucker.

I exist.

Exactly. What's your favourite utensil?

Not that. GIGGLING

Hi.

Hello.

I wanted to apologise for what happened at the party.

Go on.

That boy... I never should have invited him.

You think? It...

It was just a mistake.

This can't go on, Ella.

It won't. I promise.

What's that on your arm? What?

Oh, yeah, I spilled tea on it.

I don't want you to worry.

Let me see if I've got some cream.

Mothers worry, Ella.

It's up to you to give her less to worry about.

Yeah.

I'm having conversations Late in my bed

Bout what will happen to you After I'm dead

I should be chasing Cocktail parties instead

And casual sex with strangers

My head is a mess

I'm having the time of my life

Dancing the edge of the night

I'm having the time of my life Oh, yeah

My head is a mess

I'm having the time of my life Oh, yeah

Oh, what a wonderful life

I'm having the time

I'm having the time of my life.