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[distorted guitar ringing]

[feedback whining]

[gentle orchestral music]

[metal jingling]

- [muttering indistinctly]

Everything I have in here
you see is one of a kind

This stuff's all chiffon stuff

This stuff's my fancy stuff

I bought these in 1 967
and they're still brand-new

They got great big==
they're low hip-huggers right?

They come down here

And they got great big bells
on 'em man

These are nice leather ones
They're real soft

Feel the leather on those
They're soft

They feel good don't they?

I like a lot of paisley shit
you know

I still got a lot
of paisley shit

and it's all in
perfect condition

These are all
my stage clothes

and I only wore these like
once in a while

because when I used to play

I was saving them
for when I got big

And that never happened
so I saved 'em forever

- So what are his prospects?

Because he keeps giving me
these rosy scenarios

and I don't know
what to believe you know?

- What does he tell you
specifically?

- Well like one thing
I know is a delusion

is that he's going in
the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame

this year or next

[laughs]

I like him to have a dream
though you know?

If he didn't have a dream
he's liable to kill himself

- Are you really gonna do this
as a documentary?

I could go out and play

- I get nervous
You know what I mean?

- Hmm?
- I get nervous that

- Everybody does

He does

They're afraid I'm gonna die

That's okay
I won't

If you guys want me around
I'll stick around

- Please
- If you really do

I mean that in my heart

I mean if you want me around
I'll stick around

For just guys like you guys

* *

[birds chirping]

- I was at a record show
with my girlfriend

and um I found like this==
all this rare stuff

that I totally wanted

And then I was just looking
through one last bin

and I saw the original
Pentagram record

It was just a purple logo
against black

It kind of looks like garbage
on the front

You turn it around
and there's this like

scary-ass picture of the band

I was with my girlfriend
at the time

and we were just like
crazy record collectors

and just go blow all our money
on records and beer

and then just have like
Friday and Saturday night

listening to records

[hard rock music]

* *

Man as soon as we put that
on the turntable

that's like nothing
I'd heard before

Really I mean it was just
so fucking heavy

This was the only Pentagram
that was released

and the only one I knew of

I thought this was the beginning
of Pentagram

I was working
at an indie record label

and I was telling everybody
about it that I knew

and someone said
"Oh yeah man

"I get stuff no one's even
heard about before

from the '70s
heavy hard rock"

[music slows to a stop]

I was like
"Come on how can this be?"

I was obsessed with this band

So he brings in this CD-R

Here it is man

a record that literally
changed my life

I couldn't wait you know
just to get out of work

and go home and listen to it

At that point
I was riding a bike to work

and I remember just riding home
as fast as I could you know?

Just like a little kid
from school

I rolled a joint==
it was a special occasion

I rolled a big joint

[lively drumbeat]

* *

And that first song
Forever My Queen,

I mean
just fucking phenomenal

[heavy metal music]

- * I'm running away
with myself *

* I think I ran
a little too far *

* Your love is more than
a tease *

- I couldn't believe it

Some of the best hard rock
I've ever heard

I mean lyrically
his vocal delivery

Just the guitar in it
was out of control

I mean for the early '70s
I couldn't believe it

And mostly
not only was it brilliant

but aside from that why doesn't
everyone talk about it?

* *

What's the equivalent
of hearing something like this

for someone who's just obsessed
by music?

It's a profession and their
passion and their private life

It'sit's hard to explain

It's literally like being
a devout Christian

and walking down the street
one day and bumping into Jesus

and he knows your name
and shakes your hand

and asks you over for dinner
and drinks

[laughs]
You know?

And he calls you on the weekends
to go out

I mean
l==I can't explain it

My whole life I've just been
obsessed by music

It's all I wanted to do
with my life

And the only things
that made me truly happy

were finding
an awesome record

I was just completely driven
and obsessed

I mean I was completely
in love

and I just couldn't wait

to make other people
fall in love with this

- * Willing and we both
know how *

* Baby you're gonna be
my queen *

* A king always knows
what he means *

- It was the perfect time for
Bobby Liebling and Pentagram

to kind of==
to be rediscovered

I wouldn't even say
they were a cult band

They were kind of a secret
at that point

But then there was
all this interest

in early '70s hard rock

There was a big
stoner-rock thing

There were a lot of bands

that just wanted to get
that early '70s sound

and then get back to the basics
in metal

All of a sudden
there's this band

Oh you know
they have unlimited number

of unreleased recordings
from the 1 970s

and there hasn't been like
years and years

of over-merchandising
or marketing

or anything like that

It was just like
this caveman found you know

frozen in the Swiss Alps
somewhere

that you cut out the block
of ice and bring it out

and there's a specimen there
that still has active DNA

Bobby Liebling is still
that frozen guy

[song ends]

[birds chirping]

- If you see anything that says
Pentagram like

Liebling Pentagram
blah-blah-blah project

or any of that on the CDs

we will find find for you guys
'cause you must hear this

This is more important to me
than any other shit

That's why you must hear
the stuff

[heavy metal music]

# You are the highway star #

Hey world premiere!

VH1 in the trash heap

[scoffs]

* *

# Oh, take me away #

# I want to do it, baby #

Oh man I know I'll play again
I can't help it

Look I'm addicted

You know it's like heroin

I can get up there
and rock with the best of 'em

* *

Cool E right here

# Wrapping your soul out
on evil #

[guitar solo soars]

* *

[music continues in background]

* *

- I thought he was very good
when he was younger

I don't==you know I didn't go
to many of his shows

I didn't want to make him
uncomfortable

but he did have a==

Would you please get
[speaks indistinctly]

Thank you
Excuse me

No not just as a mother
I was very critical of him

But I thought he had a==

just a natural instinct
to perform

And you couldn't stop him
even if we wanted to you know?

It was sort of inborn

- Far superior than
some of these real big bands

that I've seen

Big guys
that are making millions

[heavy metal music]

- Have you ever done anything
else besides rock and roll?

- Nothin'

Yeah this==
drugs

Sex drugs
rock and roll

Well I mean look at me

You know I'm an old soldier
right?

I've been doing drugs
44 years

I've been addicted to heroin
for 39

I've been addicted to crack
for about 22

I've been in off-houses
detoxes

You know that's why I smile
and tell people

"I'm alive man"

I'm not supposed to be alive

Uh did you see where
the piece of crack went?

The big piece of crack?

Oh my God look there's==
oh no that's a Band-Aid

- No, I know
It fell down into

- You saw it?
I mean the place is a hellhole

It's a shit-hole

It's a sloth house
and I hate it

That's why I want to get out
man

I don't like dirt see?

- You want to get out?

- Believe it or not yeah

Fucking A
I'm gonna get out

Are you kidding?

That looks like rat poop
It's not==

[heavy metal music]

* *

# And these are gonna be
some of my last days here #

# I'm wasting away,
and time to #

- He's been close to death
ever since I've known him

I can't tell you
how many times

I get a message that he leaves
in the middle of the night

saying good-bye

- He didn't live a hard life

and then come back
and try and write love songs

He wrote songs from
the perspective of somebody

that was metaphysically
in the sub-basement

He's used that to make very
harrowing bone-chilling music

- Man I remember sitting
at the side of a train track

This was like where I lived
side of a train tracks

I found a boom box
in a dumpster

and the only tape I had
was Be Forewarned

He speaks truths that not many
people can see or know

It's pain
and it's empowerment

and it's just all these things
in one purely from the heart

It's almost like on a smaller
scale like my bible you know?

- The first time I ever saw
footage of Bobby

I never seen nothing like it

He definitely understood

the seductive powers
of rock and roll man

and he could just go from
this textbook rock-and-roll guy

and then all of a sudden just
crouch down like the devil

You know when you're a kid
man

that's about the fucking coolest
thing you can see

[laughs]
So

- There's something about
I guess the mystique of Bobby

He just has that persona
you know

and that charisma that people
just like latch on to

And then his drug addictions
and things like that

it's added to all that

but it's also a hell
for a lot of people

who've played in bands with him
over the years

I mean if you look on
the Pentagram Myspace site

on the left column

it's got all the prior members
of Pentagram

and it's you know==
it's like a list that long

- The potential's there
but you know

there's certain personal things
in his life

that are keeping him from
going all the way

[heavy metal music]

- Even though I talked to him

and seemed like
it was a dead end

the guy's got some kind of fight
in him

He's got a flame
that won't go out man

I wanted to start a fire
with it you know?

So today we're headed down to
uh see Bobby

Um
I have a toll coming up

Do you want to do this
after the toll?

[cars whooshing]

- Thank you
- Thanks

So today I'm gonna go down

I have notes and an outline

of what I think the plan
should be

And even if we get
a contract signed

and it takes us forever
to start recording

shit can fall apart man

So we really
got to fucking move on it

and move on it fast
and make it happen

You know what we're gonna get
a fucking record made

God damn it

[laughs] I hope

Practically speaking
the one thing I can do

for Pentagram and Bobby
is give 'em good direction

And something I mentioned
to him

like "Bobby you know what?

You're fucking almost dead man
Unfortunately it sucks"

He tells me this
all the time

"So you got one more shot to
really make another big mark"

And that's what I really want
to help Bobby do

It just has to happen

There's got to be a final
finale chapter

in the story
of Bobby Liebling

[birds chirping]

I really think that you guys
can do it

and come back together
and do a great record

I haven't even started

negotiating the contract yet
at all

It's just figuring out
if they're interested

figuring out what
they're willing to give

for an advance

We also have to figure out
Geof and Greg or whatever==

are willing to be
on the record

So part of the reason I want
to go with Housecore dude

is Philip is the contemporary
hard rock hero right?

You are the dude
from the past

He's gonna bring you
huge visibility

So what we need to do is
we're gonna lay out a budget

that we're all gonna
have to agree to

and we're all gonna
have to stick to

and I want to see this shit
happen

I have too much time
invested in it

to not even follow through
at this point

So what I'm gonna do is

I'm gonna record him
Backlash, Suffering,

and Everything's
Turning To Night

and hand it to him backstage
at the Down show

But the other thing is==
too is

it's my word
I'm giving to them you know?

Before all this happens

make sure that you're
1 00% into it and committed

and we're gonna go with it

So this what I'm handing you
is my final==

my final effort
to fucking help you

and try to fucking put a great
record on the history books

- You know what I want to do?
I want to live

I want to live a little man

- Well here's the thing

- I want to live
I don't want to die anymore

- We do this record bro right?

Hopefully it'll help you
get out of here

We're gonna figure out what
we're gonna get for percentages

what your royalties
are gonna be all that stuff

- I have to eat
I have to make a living

I can't==I can't do this

irresponsible little
crying child trick forever

I can't

I've been Peter Pan
my whole life man

There's times
you do something

I want me back

I'm tired of giving me out
and giving up and running away

I run away with you know

the old piece of glass
you know?

If I smoke any crack after
today you can have my records

How about that?

I'll put it on the camera

- "If Robert Liebling smokes
crack after today 1 0/1 2/07

"Demian Fenton
and Sean Pelletier

will own Robert Liebling's
entire record collection"

- Before you do it
it should say "1 B"

Possession should take place
only if and after 9 days==

90 days or whatever days
you know==

30 days 60 days 90 days

It's up to you
I don't care

- We're not gonna take
your records

We just want you to stop
smoking crack

- Yeah yeah
- Sign this

- No but you should put

- Do you want me to hold
the crack when you sign that?

- You know what I mean?

[heavy metal music]

- Throughout Pentagram's career

they've really come so close
to really making it

- Our manager at the time
Gordon Fletcher

one of the two managers

knew a lot of people
in the business

and he knew Gene and Paul
in KISS

So we had this set up for them

to come see
one of our rehearsals

- It was in a basement of
a house that I was living in

Wasn't really a heavy metal
studio let's say

- The day that KISS
was going to be arriving

Greg and Vincent had to work

and they were working
as janitors

- So unfortunately Vincent
a brilliant guitar player

and Greg heavier-than-hell
bass player

were off cleaning toilets

I don't know

If KISS was coming
to my house to watch my band

I would quit my fucking job

I wouldn't even go to==

never mind going to work
that day

- # All right #

* *

- So Gene and Paul show up

Toilet boys are still at work

Not only were they off
cleaning toilets that day

but they hitchhiked to work

- They didn't have a car

They had to hitchhike home

wearing some type
of janitor-type outfit

[car horn honks]

- I guess we got off work
Vince and I did

and we got to the house

We're all grubby
from being janitors

[laughs]

* *

- The landlord who I guess
lived in the house

started bitching and complaining
that it was too loud

and had to shut down

- Came running

"Man you guys
got to turn it down!"

And I'm like "God damn it man
KISS is here" you know?

- Fucking KISS is in the house
watching them play

You think they'd give
the landlord something

Some peanut butter sandwiches
and 25 bucks

to fucking go away
for the day

But you know so it was just==
I guess it was just horrible

From what I hear KISS

some of the things
they said are

"Well your name's Pentagram
There's only four of you

"The singer and the bass player
have bad skin

The drummer's too fat"

And they blew it

I mean should have taken
the day off from work

fucking did a month of aerobics

fucking got some Oxy pads
you know?

* *

[birds chirping]

- Should I pull 'em out?

Some Enchanted Evening

My son has the platinum
Some Enchanted Evening

I'm told that
the Johnny Winter is platinum

I'm told that Blue Oyster Cult's
first three records

have gone gold

but Sony is too cheap
to send me gold records

Uh this is

I had done at least a couple
of Blue Oyster Cult records

I was looking for the real thing
to follow Blue Oyster Cult

* *

Pentagram really seemed like
sort of a street Black Sabbath

That was just what I was
looking for you know?

I wanted the male-dominant
thrust of heavy metal

But it sort of had a "Fuck you
and the horse you rode in on"

kind of thing

Post-Page pre-Sex Pistols

It was almost as though
I'm sitting at a computer==

if there were such things then==

kind of generating this band
that was perfect for 1 97 4

I was ready to seriously
seriously commit to them

[heavy metal music]

- Here was our big break

Columbia records is paying for
us to go do a demo in New York

- And you know we're
on the train to New York

Man I'm seeing stars
in my eyes

- We went into the studio
and did three tracks

with Murray Krugman
producing it

- We get through
all the rhythm tracks

and Bobby's laying down
the vocals

- Bobby completed
a vocal track

and Murray said
"Okay that's fine

Come in and listen to it"

And Bobby says "I'd like to==
I'd like to redo that

There was a couple parts
I wasn't really happy with"

Murray says
"Don't worry about it

We'll fix it in postproduction
Just==it was fine"

- We could have corrected
that vocal

but there would have been
some other thing

where he's hearing a finished
$200000 record in his head

and can't understand why
an eight-hour demo

isn't gonna give that to him

- And Bobby got real upset
about it

and called Gordon
who was our manager

out into the singing booth

- "Gordon
can I see you a minute?"

Pain in the ass I was

Called him out in the main room

Made sure I was by a live mic

I said "What's this guy being
such a fucking asshole for?"

- Murray just got up

and as I recall
he didn't say a word

Vincent thought
he said we were

the most difficult band
to work with and walked out

I don't recall him saying
anything

I just recall him getting up
and walking out of the studio

without saying a word

And we never talked to him
again

- I felt like killing Bobby

- I've fantasized
many many times

if Bobby had just said
"No problem" you know

and walked in and we'd listened
back to the session

What would have happened
the rest of that day?

What would have happened
the rest of that week?

And what would have happened
with the rest of our career?

- We would have gotten a deal
through them

No question

Record deal national tour
fame and fortune

It would have happened

There
but for the grace of God

[announcer speaking indistinctly
over television]

- I used to say to him

"When I see you
on Saturday Night Live,

I'll know you made it"

And you know
I've seen some lousy acts

That shocks me

Bobby Pellet's here

- Hehe's here?

- Yeah
- Good lord

- Everybody in unison==

I mean total==

"Move him out of your house"

- Everybody everybody

I mean to this day

There's always tons of laundry
around here

I don't know

He can change three times a day

He's already changed twice
today

He keeps spilling his coffee

- Even now everything that
he has comes from us

- How much have you given
for Bobby?

- Financially?

- I have

- Financially
over $1 million

- Thanks appreciate it

- All right good

Brush your hair?

- There's Fig Newtons
aren't there?

Mom?

There's Fig Newtons
aren't there?

Yeah

- I've always been afraid

that he'd either go out
and steal

or knock somebody

You don't know
Addicts are crazy

- It's a very tough thing

They call us enablers

I said "Really?

"Did you ever see my son?

Do you know him?"

"No"

"And you're in
social services?

Where is your sensitivity
to people?"

His brilliance
in the music field

has never been to fruition
because of the problem

He has all this talent now

- Yes he still has talent

- He has it

- Do you guys think that Bobby
could stop doing drugs?

- [sighs]

- At this stage of the game
of anybody you know

it's a prognosis question

- Yes
if he were out of pain

He's in a lot of pain that
people don't realize that

And he also has truthfully
a delusion

that he has
a parasitic infection

Bobby's not insane but he can
act insane with the coke

- My fingers turn black
every night

There it's starting now

That's not from the coke

That's all parasites

See those dots that look
like dots embedded?

- Mm-hmm

- All of them

Did you see my lips?

They're not chapped

Come here

See the line
along the bottom?

- Mm-hmm
- That's all parasites

See all that black?

Those are all parasites

- Holy fuck man
- Yeah

- Never saw it huh?

1 5 years I've had to live
with that

- See when he starts
pulling his skin

he does what he thinks==
he calls "debriding"

He'll pull at it

and put it on
a piece of paper towel

and pull out
his magnifying glass

and he'll come==

"You never want to look
You never want to look"

I said "I've spent 1 0000 hours
looking Bobby

It's not bugs
It's dead skin"

If he didn't pick his arms

I know they'd heal

and I know
everything would be fine

- It's a fact

I have something unknown
that is parasitic

- Truth is that she said
you've been to the hospital

about 50 times
since you lived here

- Mm-hmm

- We're gonna be there for
eight hours in the waiting room

and they're gonna let you out

Unless you go there and say
you want to go to detox

and then they'll admit you

- They're not gonna treat me
for this in detox

- I've watched you smoke
a fuckload of crack right now

- Mm-hmm
- It's in your blood

- Mm-hmm
- They're gonna get you in

Then once you're in there
you're away from this

maybe you can heal more

- I want to go
to the hospital

not that I want to go
in rehab

I want to go to the hospital

because if I'm not treated
for this

I'm gonna die

[somber piano music]

* *

It makes me nasty

It makes me confused

Probably 'cause it's eating
my organs away

Probably 'cause it is eating
my brain

All I do is cry all night

and pray to God to die

* *

- I've taken Bobby here
a few times

I know he's intent on getting
his hands and arms addressed

and that rehab is
a secondary solution

And as far as what he was saying
30 minutes ago

suicide being
the third solution

I don't==I wish he wasn't
going through any of this

but there's nothing
that I can do

except just support him
you know?

You know Bobby would be
the first to tell you

years back

he kind of made that deal
with the devil right?

He kind of sold his soul

and he's fighting like hell
to steal it back

one piece at a time

- So what are they gonna do?

'Cause I feel comfortable
in these places

more than I do
in my own home

I like hospitals

That's sick
but I love hospitals

Pellet has been==
has been like a god to me

He's basically a godsend

I love him
I love all you guys

You know for coming here

Thank you very very much

[somber music]

- On Sundays we'd take him
to this little deli

and they had a jukebox

There he was only
a year and a half there

So he'd go over there
and bounce to it

and he'd turn around

* You load 1 6 tons
what do you get? *

He sang Tennessee Ernie Ford

And everybody "Look at that
little boy" you know?

He had quite a good childhood

- He had an excellent childhood

- Later teens he used to walk
in the door

He'd step in that door
right away

Before he even saw him
he'd yell out

"Did you cut your hair?"

That was I mean every night

That's when they kind of had
a little parting

because of his hair
and lifestyle and so forth

A lot of Bobby's problems
I believe subconsciously

is an innate competitive thing
with his father

- I think she's right
She's right in that

She's right in that

I worked for eight
secretaries of defense

Originally appointed by
President Johnson

kept on by Nixon
and by President Ford

Where the hell
did you find that?

I always looked up to people

who were in our society

Very very responsible

And I want my son
to have been like that

- Joe
but he's not

- I can't do anything
about it now

- What I want for Bobby
just for him to be happy

- Just for him to be==

- To find a good woman

- Two different categories

- Why?
He needs that Joe

- I just want him to be well

Within the range of normalcy

With that of course
goes then to societal things

that she's talking about

* *

[windshield wipers swishing]

- To play the next message,
press one

[electronic beep]

- Hey, Dem
It's Pellet

Listen, I'm just giving you
a quick call

I finally heard from Bobby

after weeks of him being
missing in action

He's been in Philadelphia,
of all places

Dude, he met some
young hot girl named Hallie,

and he's been up here
spending time with her

She supposedly is not
a drug addict

I'm not sure
what the whole deal is,

but I just thought
I'd tell you

It looks like there's gonna
be some forward motion,

'cause he's psyched
and really positive

Give me a call
when you get this, okay?

See ya

- This message will be saved

- The way he met her
from what I understand is

she was a fan

They were speaking on the phone
quite a bit

so she came one time
with her cousin

Then a couple of weeks later
she invited him to visit

And that's how it started

He's been going to Philly
nearly every weekend

Do you have an elevator
at 201 South 1 3th?

He got an apartment==we got him
an apartment I should say==

in Philadelphia
just a few blocks from her

So he'll have to come in
through the front?

Is it wide?
Because he has a very wide sofa

Apparently they're in love

Or whatever you know?

[laughs]

I don't know if it's==
I shouldn't say this==

in love or in lust
but

[laughs]

[heavy metal music]

* *

- Yeah I was very very Ionely
down here for a long time

but uh
I'm not Ionely anymore

because I have a==
very much a purpose you know?

Perfect time to meet Hallie

About time somebody loved Bob
for Bob again

There's been nobody a long time
who's loved Bob for Bob

Nobody loves me like Hallie
Nobody

I've never loved a woman
like Hallie in my life

Never in my life
and never will again

- He's got to take
winter boots

I don't care what he says

Are they that bad?

They're dorky he says

Just for the snow

Are they that dorky?

Huh?

* *

Tell him he needs some lamps

- I got everything like that

- You got the coconut oil

- Don't worry about that

- All right where is it?

[clattering]

[hissing]

[all coughing]

- You know that fire
that just started?

Right as the flames
hit the stove

this fell off Bob's neck

Now how fucking weird is that?

That's weird

'Cause you were here==

Them flames came out of nowhere
right?

Out of fucking nowhere

This popped right off his neck
right as the fire started

Do the math

One bad omen after another
dude

I don't know

I think Bobby
might just be back

I hope this girl is everything
he thinks man

I don't know her

Yeah I hope it works out

But between the cross breaking
and the fire the snow

fucking
I'm starting to wonder man

[door clattering]

- All right
I'll see you later

- Good luck
- Wish me luck

- Make it
- Yeah I'm gonna make it

There ain't no question
about that

- Are you boxed in?

- We'll see you again
all right?

- Drive careful
- Love you!

[somber piano music]

* *

- Oh boy

I just hope he's happy
that's all

Hope he's happy

[sniffles]

* *

- So today is Bobby's birthday

He loves carrot cake

He gets an annual carrot cake
every year

There's no room to write
"Happy birthday Bobby"

without interfering
with the carrot symmetry

so we're just gonna go with
a Pentagram

with maybe a 54 in the middle

I guess uh
I get a little leeway

since I'm not a decorator

- I think 54's not that old
- Huh?

- 54's not that old

- No I don't know is it?

- I mean it's old

- Get out of here!
[laughs]

- But it's not that old

At first glance when people see
me and Bobby

walking down the street
together

they either think
A he's my father

or B
he's my sugar daddy

or you know a pimp
or something like that

But he's an endearing person

and I'm certainly not in it
for the money

because he has none

And I just==
I enjoy his company

I feel very kindred to him
regardless of the age gap

My cousin and I had a theory
that he and his mother

were the same person

like an Anthony Perkins
like Psycho sort of thing

You're gonna have us like
locked in a closet

with your mother's corpse

I don't find that I have
anything in common

with guys my age

I've always liked
since I was young

in terms of looks

guys that have you know
goofy features

like caricature features

and I just have an odd taste
in men

That's just the way it is

- All right Bobby!

- Who bought the candles?

It has a freaking pentagram
on it

No wait hold on==

The change is pretty massive

To my understanding he was
smoking toxic amounts of crack

- Make a wish

- He went from that to this

and has smoked no crack
since he moved to Philly

- Whoo!

- He's been through
so much more life than me

But it's the kind of
like life

where you don't really grow
as a person

He's kind of remained
frozen in time a little bit

and I kind of like that
about him

I mean in his heart too

he'll always be young
I think

You look good in those pants

He looks pretty

- Long as she can say that
that's okay by me baby

I'm doing all right then

Now I'm still here

If I can have someone
as beautiful as this

say I'm pretty

something's happening here

- # Loving you #

* *

# Well, it takes away
the blues #

- And now it's so crazy
watching you know him

in this short amount of time

grow up
and make up for the time

where his growth was like
really stunted

Stuff where he would have
no clue what to do before

like his debit card
checking account

the social security card

he doesn't have a problem
with that stuff anymore

He's gotten the hang of it

- I don't miss him
I really don't

There's a nice sense of peace
now

- I do a great deal

- He misses him terribly

- A great deal

The fact that he is using
whatever strength he has left

to preserve whatever
self-confidence he has

is something
that I am proud of

He commented on the phone for
the first time today actually

"I love you Dad"

- It's amazing
the transformation in this guy

He looks good
He sounds good

It's the person I thought
or hoped I'd be dealing with

from the get-go

He's been jamming with
other musicians

He just seems kind of
more focused

and definitely more in touch
with music lately

- The Hallie situation

I hate to talk so much
about it

but it is really that integral
in my life

Hallie Liebling

I got mad love
for Hallie Liebling

Yep
She's gonna be my Liebling

She's my little Liebling

* *

- We're about three hours and
45 minutes from Los Angeles

Finally going to meet
the infamous Geof O'Keefe

after talking to him for==

gosh I don't know
7 1/2 years now?

When you're in a record store

and you pick up that record
man

you just almost don't know
what you're in for

Not only is it a journey
of the mind

but sometimes
it's a real exodus man

I fell in love with this band

and now I feel like I'm kind of
becoming part of the story

It's a friggin' honor

I wouldn't trade it
for anything in the world

Bobby makes my fucking hair
fall out

I'm telling you dude

But at the end of the day it's
gonna be worth it you know?

It really is

Fucking psyched

People are gonna be able to dig
a new record man

That's kick-ass enough for me

Geof is such an important part

of the formation
of this awesome band

I'm hoping we really get Geof
excited about it as well

and he's willing to
you know deal with Bobby

and forget about the past

or deal with some of the
bullshit for the greater good

which is gonna be an awesome
new Pentagram record

from the==with the original
members you know?

And new members too

[heavy metal music]

* *

* *

- "Pentagram has not only
developed

"a small but faithful following
in the Washington area

but major record companies
have also taken an interest"

Well
[laughs]

Think it was a bar of soap from
Ramada Inn New York City

when we did that
Columbia Records session

So I'm guessing

- Yeah it smells like failure

- [laughs]
Oh man

Bobby and my special project

The Douche Bags
by The Douche Bags

- "A friend told me he heard
from a connection

"that Bobby left and Pentagram
now has a female singer

"If this is true
I'm doomed

"It seems unlikely
but anything's possible

Christ I got to know"

- "These two talented musicians
make up

"one of the most successful
and popular bands today

"Between the two of them

"they play a wide range
of instruments:

bass lead guitar drums
female organ and leslies"

- [laughs]

"We'd like to wreak metal havoc
in Britain

"The only problem so far is

we can't get out
of Washington"

- "Pentagram closed the show
with a nightcap

"Any finesse got crushed
and pushed aside

by a boring tidal wave
of sound"

[laughter]

Well this just shows
where things had ended

December '7 6

"Singer wanted

"Former members of Pentagram

"require a singer
of professional caliber

"in the David Coverdale/
Paul Rodgers mold

We do not want a singer
with an ego problem"

I met Bobby Liebling
in probably 1 967 '68

I noticed that he was carrying
record albums with him

a lot of times
on the school bus

and I was just starting
to get into cool music

He was playing in a band at the
time called Shades of Darkness

He was doing stuff that I was
only dreaming about==

playing in bands and going out
with girls and all this stuff

So I really kind of idolized
this guy

Coming out of the psychedelic
hippie '60s

and going into the '70s

it was really a sense
of artistic freedom

like there were no boundaries

We could do what we wanted

wanting to make music
and make movies

We weren't conscious of being
in any type

of situation
or artistic environment

We just knew we wanted to do
what we wanted to do

* *

I have really good memories
of Bobby

from a certain period of time
to a certain period of time

And then bad things started
to happen

and there was a few years
of that

and eventually
I just decided

"I don't want any part
of this"

There was just
too much negativity to==

outweighing the positive
you know?

Things got so bad
with the relationship

between our managers
Skip and Tom

And the band wanted to know
what was going on

because they were still
our managers

so Skip said
"Well you can interview me

"but just you know
write down the questions

"and come out
with your tape recorder

and I'll record the answers
onto a tape recorder"

- One, two, three, four

- Skip basically didn't want
to be around Bobby

So we had to conduct
our band interview

with our own manager by tape

- How do you expect to promote
the single wholeheartedly

when you won't even meet with
the band you're producing?

Skip?

- First of all, I don't expect
to promote

- Bobby's very driven
with what==

and very passionate about
his music and that's good

But I have a feeling that
over the years

that's been you know==
one of Bobby's main problems is

the freedom of Bobby
doing nothing

except sex drugs
rock and roll

I mean that is it
to a tee

And I realize
some people say

from an artistic standpoint
"Bravo" you know?

"You've got your vision
You're sticking to it"

On the other hand
you know

everyone that's been with you
has walked away over the years

or fled in terror

because they realize you're not
ever gonna compromise

or you know cooperate

I haven't talked to Bobby
in over 20 years

It would be really cool
to go into the studio with Bobby

and do a real album
for the first time

rerecord some old stuff
write some new stuff

'Cause I'm proud of that stuff

And if 30 years later

people are finally discovering
that music

and you know posting things
online about

"Oh this band is so amazing

This drummer kicks ass"
and stuff like that

When I read stuff like that
it's like "Wow really?

Thank you"

On the other hand everyone who
tries to do this with Bobby

winds up getting crapped on

It winds up being a disaster
of mega proportions

because Bobby will do something
to screw it up

I don't want to go do something
that's a high publicity thing

and have it fall apart
and be a laughingstock

I don't want to do it

- She hasn't called me

You know
got 1 7 minutes left

I can't==
my phone's gonna run out

I got

- Your call cannot be
completed

- My call can't be completed
as dialed

Come on please answer
honey

The thing that people
don't realize

is that Mr Evil==
whoo!

Pentagram dih-dih-dih-dih
yadda yadda yadda

Man under this shell

and this put-on

all I want to do is eat

take care of my loving
other half

in a bed that's comfortable

next to a warm soul

that I can give my soul to

because I'm not a bad guy

I'm really not a bad guy
underneath

I don't mean to do the things
I do wrong

You know I pray every night
to God

to forgive me for the things
I've done wrong

Hallie why are you
calling me an asshole

and saying that I hurt you?

- Because you did

- All I called to==

Listen all I said==

Can I say anything?

Can I say anything ever?

- It was just overkill

Hallie Hallie
Hallie Hallie

And you know it's great to be
in a relationship

but you just need
a fucking break

He was talking about marriage

I mean from the get-go

the first thing Bobby told me
was

"I have a new girlfriend
and I'm gonna marry her"

And it's just all these things
like compounded

on this poor girl
and she's just bound to break

- Yeah well not dealing==

You said it
I didn't

She hung up on me again

[somber music]

It's over
There's nothing to live for

[phone line trilling]

- I can come over
and can listen to music dude

Music's a powerful drug

- What do you say?

- What Hallie said?

- Yeah

- No candy-coating

This isn't easy for me dude

And I don't==but I'll tell ya
I mean

Last night he didn't want
to see me

Today
he didn't want to see me

He doesn't want to see anybody

He's just really affected

He's fucking crushed

- Now that this Hallie thing's
coming down man

I could just sense Bobby
just trying to find

any excuse to fucking relapse

and go back and start
smoking crack

I can start feeling it happen

Bobby listen to me

It seemed like last time
we hung out

I just got a feeling that you
might have smoked crack

Did you smoke crack
since you've been here?

- No

- Philip's playing here in a
couple weeks with his band Down

He's got to be clean for that

Their hesitation
the business side of it

is giving money to
a drug addict man you know?

And he's got
to be fucking clean

to back up me telling them
that he's clean

and is gonna be able to do it
you know?

If he shows up fucked up
it's gonna fuck it up

[bluesy rock music]

* *

* *

- Being a person that has dealt
with his own demons and won

- That's the truth

- I just hope that one day

maybe he can do the same thing
you know?

It would be a beautiful thing
man

- Appreciate that

From the heart

- Wow

Can I eat anything I want?

Can I taste a piece
of pineapple?

- You sure?
- Get some

- Mmm

Well they got it all

The way it's supposed to be

- Man I got like so many
Pentagram t-shirts

It's an honor having you here
man

There's just so much respect

Personally I'm sick of hearing
people say it's too late

- Nah
- It's never too late

- Never never never

- You know there's a lot
of people you know

"Dude there's no way
he can come back"

- How many times have we been
written off?

- No I know man

- If we're gonna get straight
to the bone and shit

There is this wave
that I'm sure you're aware of==

young musicians that are
discovering Pentagram

That's a gift my brother

- Sure it is

- It's a fucking gift

- Sure it is

- And it's enough of a gift

for you to give yourself
a fucking break man

You've got your fucking health

- I'm giving myself a break

I kicked $300 of rock
six Xanax bars

1 05 milligrams of meth

and a 1 0-pack of dope==
cold turkey

- How's that throat feel?

- Fine

- You can sing

- Oh I can sing my ass off

- Really?
Are you ready?

- Yeah well you're the man
with the money

- Well you're the man with
the fucking record

that needs to kick fucking ass
too

- Believe me if you've heard
all my records

I ain't done no record in my
opinion that hadn't kicked ass

- You know what?

Robert I'd be proud
to fucking do this

I really would man

- We're coming now Phil

- Stand up

- They're on stage

- All right man
- I love you baby

- Me too buddy

- It's great great to meet you
man

- Yep I hope we can do
something brother

- Philip!
We got to go!

- Let's go brother

- Come on!

We're on the way

Have a good show bro

[cheers and applause]

[somber music]

- You know I take him up
to meet Phil Anselmo

and everything's pretty much
all set up

On the fucking way home

instead of focusing
on the positive

he's still focusing on Hallie

So as soon as we drop him off
he literally got out of the car

thanked me all of a sudden
his eyes start to tear up

and he says he doesn't want
to go home

to an empty apartment

He's just
he's at the end

Again

- I'm in the shower!
Five minutes!

- Can we come in?

- Uh yeah you can come in

You can step over this shit

Just stay out of here

I'm on record
at Jefferson Hospital

of being epidemically covered
in scabies

so is everything in
the whole goddamn place

You think I'm lying?
I can prove every bit of it

- Well let's talk

You don't have to prove it
to me

Just please get ready==

- No I have to prove it
to everybody

'cause it's cocaine cocaine
cocaine cocaine!

Buh-buh-buh-buh-buh!

- [sighs]

The only thing I see here
is a fucking syringe

- Yeah there is a syringe

There's a syringe crack pipes
all kinds of shit around here

I quit

A mega dose of methadone

Mega heroin
piggybacking it

Cocaine 75% or more

dropped in the course
of less than a month okay?

- I give you huge credit
for that

but there's still a 25% that's
keeping you from making music

- No it's not

- And keeping you from making
real friends that care

- Look I gave up 99 out of 1 00

I'm not Superman
What do you want me to do?

Conquer the world overnight?

You're asking too much of me
now

I'm on the verge
of a nervous breakdown

over all this drug shit

- You have so much talent

and you're smoking crack
on your couch

It's heartbreaking

- How much life do you think
I have left?

I think the damage is done

Far and above

[scoffs]

* *

- New message

[phone beeps]

- Hi, Demian
It's Diane

I haven't heard from Bobby
since Friday

Truthfully, I don't think
he's gonna last much longer

I just have a feeling

Either he's gonna overdose
or do something stupid

And he's hung up on that
Hallie thing like crazy, so

I can't kill myself anymore
over it,

and what will be, will be

- New message

[phone beeps]

- Hi, Demian
It's Diane

We still haven't heard
from Bobby,

and now we're really
extremely concerned

Please call me

[clears throat]
Thank you

Bye-bye

* *

- New message

[phone beeps]

- I found out where Bobby is

It's called CFCF,
under the prison system

They took him there
I don't know where it is

I don't know how he is

I'm sure he's suffering,
and we don't know what to do

So when you get a chance,
you call

Bye-bye

* *

[music ends]

- Philadelphia Prison Systems

"Curran-Fromhold
Correctional Facility

Philadelphia Pennsylvania"

Bobby's got a restraining order
on him

which clearly says you cannot
fucking call Hallie

He had fucking called Hallie

Hallie picked up the phone
and said

"That's it
Now you're going to jail"

Click

I mean this is a huge
reality check

What's harder than jail?

What's the next step?
Death?

Who the fuck else is gonna
fucking do this for him?

I hate to sound like a dick==

I feel like I've just been==

I'm getting grizzled
and pricky

through this whole
fucking process

He's completely surrounded
by chaos that he creates

but it sucks everybody up in it
that's around him

And maybe
I said this already

but this past two weeks

I was almost glad
that he was in jail==

just the fact that I know

he wasn't somewhere
hurting himself

and I could concentrate
on my life

and what I really needed
to get done

'Cause if I didn't get
this shit done

I can't do anything for him

So we'll see

See fucking work calls
right now

$260 of bail
$1 5 parking later

we're finally on our way

They told==
after bail went through

they told us we have
four to six hours

before he's released

so it's a total guessing game

No one can give us any kind
of straight answers

So we kind of cut the wait
in half

We're headed there now

It's dark

I'm sure Bobby is freaking
to get out

You know the one thing
he talks about that he wants

I'm sure more than anything
is a bacon pizza

which is all he eats
by the way

Anything bad for his heart
Bobby Liebling will do it

[laughs]

Love drugs bacon

His life
[laughing]

What's going on now is

every time I fucking come
to get him out

there's some other thing
going on

They told me
an hour and a half

We just went and waited
somewhere for over an hour

We come back

"Oh we've got no one
downstairs"

I'm like "Here's his name
He's been processed

We paid at 3:00 today"

"Well there's no one
downstairs

"I tell you what if he's
not out within 1 5 minutes

"he's gonna get out
on the next shift

which is uh
1 2:00"

So that probably means
the next shift starts at 1 2:00

so who knows
when he's gonna get out

So we got to park
across the street

which is like Mister==
at Mister Chubby's

which is fitting

'cause they're treating us
like fucking boners

So now we got to wait
and just watch

We got to watch across
the street

which you can hardly see

and we're gonna wait for him
to walk out of the gate

We can't wait here all fucking
night in the goddamn car

I skipped a whole day of work
today to bail him out

He's still not out

and now it's fucking up
my next day

So I don't know what to do

You know if we decide to leave
and come back in the morning

that's when he's gonna be
out here stranded probably

Know what I mean?

People keep asking me
you know

"Dude why are you even
hanging in there?"

I've grown to love him
as a friend

and I really believe in him
as a musician

I don't know

I'm really on the verge
of saying "Fuck it"

And just saying I tried

I really don't know
I keep going back and forth

But I keep feeling like

"Man don't fucking throw it all
away yet Pellet

because we're on the verge of
fucking something happening"

[somber music]

Cold in there?

- Huh buddy?

That's my buddy

[laughs]

There's my buddy see?

[all talking at once]

Had to hook you up right away

[all talking at once]

- How you doing, man?

- Uh doing like you know

- Is it all right?

- Here you go
"Help me"

I'm in prison again

* *

- Hey you want some waters?

It's good to see you out dude

- Jesus

- I'm nervous that you're out
I'll admit it

I didn't have to worry about you
in jail

I knew you weren't doing
something dumb

- I knew that
I

Do you even know
how many hours

- Bobby obviously goes through
the same patterns

It's always he does good
for a couple weeks

and then shit falls apart

Bobby is just

Robert Liebling

He's a human
and he's got incredible demons

that he has to battle
every fucking day

That sounds cheesy but I think
Bobby really is just doing

all this stuff
'cause he just needs love

* *

- There's nothing here

I have nobody I can call
that can try to help

I ain't got no relatives

I ain't got no brother
or sister right?

You know

Fuck it
I ain't got no kids

I can't deal with myself

I'm too immature

I can't handle it the pressure
you know what I mean?

I have nothing here

I thought I had a life here

I don't got nothing anymore

- I just got the new issue
of Rolling Stone

I found the perfect girl
for Bobby

She's fucking==
has no grip on==

they're in the same
reality space

but she's got money
and she's young and blonde

Fucking Britney dude

I'm making some fucking calls
right now

[laughs]

Bobby'd like her right?

[sighs]

You want some tea?

I started to realize
that Bobby and I

might not have had
the same goals

My goal was for him to focus
on the music

All I could get him
to focus to

when he was up here
was Hallie

Damn man it smells like
an old man's dirty pants

[coughs]

He got out of jail
Stuff just wasn't rolling

Phil Anselmo you know
caught wind of it

Bobby was kind of a mess
and in jail

And that's you know
totally put on hold

Bobby moved back home
with his mom

He did you know
typical Bobby kind of stuff

- Basement?

- Living in the sub-basement
You know?

But one good thing
that came out of it is

being back around
all that Maryland scene

there was people down there
who were just you know

willing to help him out

and got together
and got him psyched again

about playing music

[bass guitar melody]

I really think in a way

this is kind of
what he needed to do

He got a complete wake-up call
by going to jail

He got some love

As heartbroken as he is

I think he's got a little bit
of confidence from it

- Hey is this on?

Yes it is!
[echoes]

Okay

- Since he's had a full band

Bobby is just psyched
to play shows

We could definitely play DC
and probably do pretty well

But to make the biggest punch
to get the most out of press

and just to have
the biggest you know

appearance or profile
is gonna be New York City

[bluesy rock music]

* *

So we chose New York

They're at a top-notch venue

We demanded a lot of money
We're getting it

There's also again
a lot on the line

because in the contract
that I have to sign

it says if the band does not
show up for whatever reason

if stuff doesn't happen

it's my name on there
that I'm responsible for

So what I really need
Bobby to do

is just focus again
on the music

- [muffled singing]

* *

I'm just very confused
right now

There's this angel
I just wanted to talk to

while I was still
hanging around mortal

- Is that keeping you from
focusing on stuff or are you

- Ain't easy

Show must go on

But it ain't easy you know

Got to keep rocking
or I start crying

Sort of like that you know?

* *

Come on!

[music stops]

* *

- Every single thing you do
with Bobby Liebling has a risk

Whether it's a record
coming out

whether it's a show or whatever
it's a risk

I mean it definitely makes
shit exciting

But it's putting gray
in my beard you know?

- It surprises me people who
go out and buy advance tickets

for Pentagram shows sometimes

You know it's like man
I would just wait

until the night of the show
and go to the door

because why sink your money
into something

that you don't know is even
going to happen?

- It's kind of an uphill battle
right now

because the last couple shows
that Bobby played

are legendary==

a legendary mess

- Yeah there was this doom
metal festival or something

and this promoter guy goes

"Man I need you to play
this gig and headline this gig"

You know "You got to do it"

And I asked Bobby I said
"You think we can do it?"

[cheers and applause]

I went to play the gig
and it was packed with people

It's getting later and later
and Bobby doesn't show

Then Bobby doesn't show

And the club owner comes up
and goes "Man you got to play

They're gonna tear my club up"

I said "There's==I don't have
a singer here"

Unfortunately our singer
won't show up tonight

'cause he's just too
fucking cool for all of us

so let's give it a big
"Fuck you you asshole!"

Right?

- Fuck youl

- We're gonna play anyway

And I gave the microphone
to the audience

I say "It's Pentagram
karaoke night

Here you go"

[heavy metal music]

* *

Then Bobby showed up at the last
two measures of the last song

I kicked him in the leg
and then

and I think I had a cordless
guitar that night or something

but I was playing from
behind the speakers

where he couldn't rock out
with me you know?

That's how it happened

and that kind of broke us up
really

I said "Forget it man
I can't do that again

Not at my age"

You know==shit
I'm almost 20 now so

- Come on,
you fucking junkiel

- Playl

- Play a song
you fucking junkie!

You fucking dope-shooter!

You fucking rip-off!

Bullshit!

- He's got this Jim Morrison
thing going on now

or something where you just
never know what's gonna happen

[heavy metal music]

The last
[laughs]

the last time he played
was The Black Cat show in DC

- Oh okay
The Black Cat incident?

That's like the incident
at Roswell

2000 people
crammed in this place

and I'm going
"He's finally made it

Damn I'm glad I came tonight
You know this is great"

- People are fucking charged

You see the band
take the stage

Literally the guy next to me
is biting his lip

But there's something missing
Where's Bobby?

- Apparently he'd overdosed

And he fell asleep in my arms
like a baby

in the dressing room

Somebody knew
the rescue squad guy

They came and got him

and then they shot him up
with something

I don't know what

He goes "I'm ready to play"

- I see Bobby on the side
of the stage being propped up

Iooking like he's being
carried over to the stage

- Grabs a mic

and that was it

Stumbles backwards
falls on the drum riser

Crawls off the fucking stage

[audience catcalling]

- When he left it was in
the big freight elevator==

in a straitjacket

And there's orange lights

and instead of the doors
coming together like this

they shut like a mouth
a giant metallic mouth

and he was gone

I thought "That's it

That's the last time
I'll see him"

Man I'll remember that
the rest of my life

[somber music]

* *

- You know I monitor
Bobby's Myspace page

Soon as you announce these
shows dude this thing lit up

It was just amazing

Every time I come on there's
all these friend requests

I had 1 2 pages
of friend requests

This might be fake
but Bobby would like it

[laughs]

One of the best things for me
dude==

this is a total triumph

This one kid says to me

"I only heard Pentagram
two months ago

"but I can't believe
the influence

it's had on my life already"

You know this is from like
this 1 9-year-old kid

so in the middle of nowhere
USA

who must have picked up a First
Daze Here record or whatever

and it's just changed his life

and it's the same thing
it did to me

and it's exactly what I want
to do with Bobby

Oh right here

"Love love love your music

"Saw the opening band
at a Witchcraft gig

"cover a tune of yours

The place went crazy"

"Pentagram forever

"Many many thanks
for this great music

I love it and I need it
every day"

And again just people
just rooting for Bobby

Look at this
It's great

It goes on and on and on

Again I just get choked up

'cause I'm a freaking
sissy-hippie butt

I'm not a sissy but

[laughs]

At first I got involved
with Bobby

I wanted to have Bobby's music
heard

That was the main goal right?

It was just pretty much
all about Bobby

Now at this point
it's become about me too

My whole life has been in music

My greatest accomplishment
to me personally is Pentagram

If I can't make it happen

then I've got to fucking wake up
and grow up

like my parents keep telling me
to do

Cut my hair
and get a goddamn job

It's gonna suck
[laughs]

[crickets chirping]

Bobby Hallie and I
texted each other

and she sent me a couple
of lengthy messages

that I can read if you want

She's not gonna be
at either show

There's no way in hell

I do know what this means
to you==trust me I do

- One of the nights
You know what?

- Let me put it this way

I've got so much invested
in this

I've gone beyond the deposit

I've spent my own money
on this

I need these shows to happen

I'll do whatever it takes
to make these shows happen

If it means fucking lying
to Hallie

and telling her
she'll get a $1 million

if she shows up
I'll do it

But I just don't have
high hopes

and you got to get it out
of your head

that she's gonna show up or not

And I know that

- So what else am I supposed
to do?

She basically said
Bobby is==

you know
in not so many words==

off his rocker
doing cocaine again

You have to go down
to Germantown

get him out
of the sub-basement

and bring him to Philly

or he's not gonna play
these shows

So she knows

- Listen you got to leave
in ten hours

I don't know if she's wrong yet
or not

Your hair's not dyed
You should==

It's 1 0:30 at night

Your fucking clothes
aren't dry-cleaned

I should have went down
and got you

- [sighs] I hope so

- If you're doing what you said
you were gonna do

let's just do it

We're gonna get in an argument
we're gonna raise our voices

and your voice is gonna be
even

- I will promise you I will send
that text

Honestly Bobby I'm super
stressed out right now

and I'm just==

I'll send her that text

but I got to finish
this merch stuff

I got to do a bunch of shit
for the shows

- Please relax tonight
and take your bath and chill

and I'm gonna do

- Did you think this was
gonna go any other way?

- Yeah I did

because Bobby's been really
fucking focused lately

I mean he's been really
heartbroken over Hallie

and that you know
and any time

I need a ten-minute conversation
out of him

I figure it's gonna be an hour
'cause I got to==

50 minutes of Hallie
which is fine

He's my friend
It's cool

I know what it's like to suffer
that way and it's cool

But through it all he's really
getting kind of focused

and it's like he's focused
to prove this to her

I mean you know
I think he thinks

if he pulls these two shows off

and shows that he can really
do it

he'll be able to take care
of her

and make money and all that

[sighs]

He's doing these shows
just for her

And now that she's not there
he doesn't want to do 'em

but he can't back out

I mean it's not just me

who's got money and time
involved in this

It's a lot of people

[somber music]

* *

- # My final hour's
getting near #

# The time is getting close,
I fear #

# Footsteps at my door,
I hear #

# Time to pay for life
so dear #

# I want to flee,
but it's too late #

# My soul is in the grip
of fate #

# Close my eyes
and one last breath #

# Feel the cold, cold hands
of death #

- "Pentagarm"

"Pentagarm" it says

It does
It says g-a-r-m

That's all right

I live in hell anyway
What's the fucking difference?

- Check, uh

Uh-uh

Hey-hey-hey,
check-check-check

82

- Yeah there's my pants

That's all I'm wearing
for pants

It's just black tight pants

This I'm thinking is what people
like 'cause it's paisley

You know what I mean?

And it's very very old look

A '70 you know '60s whatever

It's hippie all right?

But
you can't out-flamboyant that

That's a motherfucker
isn't it?

I mean this is a true==

feel this thing

Feel how bizarre it feels

The first time that I started
using these clothes

did I think I'd be breaking
them out again?

I thought
I'd be throwing them out

but I don't know about
breaking them out

[laughs]

It's weird isn't it?

They're all my mom's

I just thank God above for
everything that has transpired

and the people have
phenomenally

astonished me
astounded me

with their devotion
and their mega support

And it's finally caught on
to the fact that

what goes
will always come back

- We came all the way from LA
for this

and it's a really important
night obviously

It's almost like Bobby's return
you know?

[poignant orchestral music]

* *

- Hey everybody
in the whole place man

God bless all of you

and I mean it from the bottom
of my heart thank you

I mean it

- Thank you
- Thank you Bobby

- I truly mean it
God bless all of you

- Bobby!

[cheers and applause]

The legend!

* *

[cheers and applause]

[crowd chanting]
Pentagram!

Pentagram! Pentagram!
Pentagram!

[cheers and applause]

- I love you

God bless all of you

[cheering and whistling]

I can't believe this is real

I mean I do

I want to thank you from
the bottom of my heart

and I mean this
deep down inside

[cheers and applause]

You came through

Without you I ain't

You get my message?

[heavy metal music]

* *

[muffled singing]

* *

* *

[heavy metal fades]

[poignant orchestral music]

* *

* *

[cheering fades in]

[strings fade out]

[heavy metal fades in]

* *

[cheers and applause]

Thank God for all of you!

[cheers and applause]

[indistinct chatter]

- Thank you
Thank you

- Made my fucking lifetime man

- Thanks Bobby
Thank you so much

I know you're tired
Thank you so much

- Bobby
that was fucking awesome

- That was great

- Thank you Bobby
That was awesome man

It was right on

- It was overpowering

I'm still feeling==
I'm getting choked up

I mean I went from laughing
like hysterically

to like crying

I just==I can't explain it

and for me
I just felt like a kid

To be on the side of the stage
and watching my favorite band

at their biggest show ever

and knowing I had something
to do with it I just==

it's like==it's a fucking
Christmas gift dude

You know?

It's fucking Hanukkah
Christmas and Kwanzaa

all in one

and Bobby Liebling delivering
the presents

It's fucking great

If it all falls apart now
I'm fucking happy as shit

If an arrow fucking comes
hits me in the head right now

I don't care;
I feel great

I'm just psyched dude

This is the best night
of my life really

- I'm alive

I'm alive
and that's something

that I would have never
expected

and three or four
hospital record books

say the same damn thing

But you know

who knows what
you got in the cards right?

You got to spin that wheel

[Southern accent] "Life is like
a box of chocolates

You never know
what you're gonna get"

[somber music]

[sizzling]

Okay

Come out and get your breakfast
baby

It's sausage and toast

Hallie?
Hal?

- Coming
- You want to come out and eat?

All right?

Here I'm gonna show them
half of the eggs

I had to scramble them
but they're==

Daddy makes a good breakfast

- After he played
the Webster Hall show

he started getting the ball
rolling again with his work

and had started like
at least trying

to get out of his parents'

and having something to do

rather than just sitting around
and destroying himself

I had always thought about him

He'd never left my mind

and I just called
to check on him

It progressed from there

From him coming back here
to visit and him being sober

we're just both really happy
and it's pretty harmonious

Like I like his intensity

because it's different from
what I am

and we meet like
somewhere in the middle

But it's not so outrageous
like how it was

It's a kind natural intensity
rather than craziness

It's really been incredible
to watch his metamorphosis

Bobby's like a miracle to me

I just have to kind of trust
my heart and my instincts

in this situation

I have had to a lot
like um

and just trust him
because he's more likely

to pan out the way
that I want him to

if I trust him sincerely

instead of you know
just half-ass

like
"Okay we'll see how it goes"

But like just having one foot
in the water

- [barks]

Here==I'm not supposed to do
this

but you can have one more piece
of toast

Here one more bite for you
is all

After the American tour we had
a very deep unified period

that I recall pretty well

of bonding with intent of

this is for eternity

* *

- We got married
the end of November

- Day before Thanksgiving

- Yeah it was the day before
Thanksgiving

- You know right there
That's it

It's for life

You know love is forever
and love is for two

- I got to put it on
his joke-shop finger too

the one with the knuckle
cut out

As his wedding finger

We were getting married
and I was like

"Aw I get to put it on
his little fucked-up finger"

[laughs]

- [laughs]

- The cute little finger

- Yeah my joke-shop finger

- Yeah it's like

- It's like it doesn't have
any knuckle

- Yeah there's no knuckle

- We've been through
an awful lot

in the two-plus years

that we've you know
known each other

and now we're on paper

and this is
Mrs Robert Liebling

- I looked at all of your labs

Everything looks great

- I am very ecstatically
happily married

and uh expecting

There's a bun in the oven

I don't know another way
to put it you know?

It's gonna be corny anyway
but it's not corny to me

It's my whole life

We're gonna have a baby

- Hold this?

- Do you have names picked out
for girls or boys?

- Yeah we agree on nothing

- You can lie down
- We agree on next to nothing

- [laughs]

Sounds about right

[gentle orchestral music]

[static crackling]

It's like coming in and out
of my little machine

- Mm-hmm

- What a troublemaker

[static and rumbling]

Come on Come back

There we go

[heartbeat thumping]

Sounds perfect

Perfect

Right where it should be

[thumping continues]

That's great

- That's something I never
dreamt would ever come about

And um
look out world

There's gonna be another me
[laughs]

* *

* My peace of mind
depends on you *

* My space in time is here
with you too *

* Drop all your dreams
in the palm of my hands *

* Step in the blue light
fulfill my plans *

* *

* Come with me now
the midnight calls *

* All are asleep
as the kingdom falls *

* Seeking our goals
as a life had planned *

* Walk in the blue light
you'll understand *

* *