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Anyway, you were so good today.

Like... unbelievable.

Will you watch out? My dad's calling.

Fuck.

Hello?

Hello?

- Can you hear me? - Yes, I can hear you.

Hello, Fernanda?

Yes, hello, I can hear you fine.

Hello, finally! I wanted to remind you I land tomorrow.

Yeah, I know - at 6.

I arrive at 6.

Yeah, I know!

I need your address.

No, I already told you. It's too far for a taxi.

I've never seen you drive before. Whose car is it?

Papa, don't worry, okay? Just let me handle it.

Look, it's later here, let me... um...

I gotta go.

I'll see you tomorrow.

Just wait for me by the exit gates. OK?

How am I gonna know what you look like?

I look like me!

Just wait for me at the exit gates, OK?

OK. Bye. Good night.

OK, bye, good night.

What's up, man?

Nice Spanglish.

I think it's really cool when people are like, you know...

Can I help you?

No dawg.

We're cool, we're cool.

Have a good night.

Yeah, "dawg."

You're welcome, "dawg."

What the fuck.

Yo.

How's your dad?

Oh, he's fine.

Awkward, honestly.

Yo, did you know that John is back in the city?

Yeah.

Why didn't you tell me?

You're not talking.

Dude, you're my homie, man.

Dude, I'm not taking sides.

Well, you should.

His mom's sick again, OK.

She's in the hospital, that's why I didn't tell you.

I'm sorry.

Well, I just saw him.

You sure?

Yeah, I just saw him outside.

- What did I miss? - John's here.

I fucking hope that he's not dating someone.

Is he dating someone?

Is he?

Oh my God.

All the way down the block.

He like totaled like 16 fucking cars.

Whoa.

Yeah.

Are you good?

What?

Are you good?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Okay, I'm gonna go get a beer, do you want one?

No, I'm good.

Hey.

You look good.

You look the same.

Yeah?

Mm-hmmm.

You look different.

Mm-hmmm.

Yeah.

I thought you hated dancing.

My cousin wanted to come.

That's cute.

I heard-um... I heard you were in Philly for a while.

Yeah, I was.

I just... I just came over to see how you're doing.

Okay.

So how are you?

I'm fine.

Good.

How are you?

I'm okay.

I'm good. I'm...

I'm better, you know?

Seriously.

I'm better, I'm not...

Yeah, good for you.

Is this too weird?

It's pretty weird.

You want me to like leave or...?

- John! - Yeah, kind of.

John, I got the coke.

Hi.

This is my cousin Jenny.

Jenny, this is Fernanda.

Feña.

Hey.

Feña, whoa.

What's up?

It's my birthday coke to share.

- Whatever, let's do it. - Okie.

- Come on, let's go. - Come on.

Oh.

I'm invited?

Yeah, you heard her.

Go. I'm invited?

This morning I was answering phones

at a waxing center in Jersey, and now I'm here.

This is probably like the coolest birthday

I've had so far.

How old are you turning?

- 22. - Today?

- Yep. - Wow.

Happy birthday.

Thanks.

So, I'm so curious.

Do you like have a dick now?

- Jenny! - Excuse me?

- Jesus. - Oh my God, it's OK.

John tells me everything. No, it's not OK.

And no, I don't.

And come on. What?

- You don't ask people that. - It's fine.

But I would like to know.

Do not ever ask that, but...

No. I don't have a dick.

Why? Don't you wanna be like a full man?

I don't need a dick for that.

Oh! That's cool.

Yeah.

Yeah?

Thank you.

Sorry.

You guys, stop making fun of me.

Okay, let's go.

- Excuse me. - Whoa, whoa, whoa.

- Back it up. - Whoa.

Who dis?

Yo...

So what do people call you now?

Feña.

Same.

Isn't "Feña" too feminine?

Uh, it's actually one of the few

gender neutral names in Chile.

Ah.

How's your mom?

She's not too good.

She's back in the hospital.

Sort of the reason why I'm back.

Fuck dude, I'm sorry.

She'll be okay.

Yeah, she will be... until she's not.

But she has to be.

Ooh.

What about yours?

I wouldn't know.

I am picking up my dad

from the airport tomorrow night, though.

Fun.

Good luck with that.

I'm...

I'm sorry for the way things ended.

Okay.

I just mean that I feel like,

I was watching myself do things and I wasn't really there.

You know, like,

we were both watching ourselves

become terrible people together.

What about your lesbian phase?

What?

I'm sorry, I don't know why... I...

I shouldn't be laugh...

It's not funny.

I don't wanna talk about this.

Come on.

Why are you so serious? We're drunk, man.

Because this is serious stuff.

Only if you make it.

It is serious. To me.

Okay.

I'm sorry, I was... I was just trying to apologize.

Could've just said that.

OK.

You just feel a drop?

Yeah.

Oh sh...

Oh shit, go, oh my God.

Come on, go, go, go.

Oh my God.

Why is this open?

Oh my God.

What the fuck was that?

Shit.

Oh my God.

Oh my God.

You're shivering.

- Am I? - Hold on.

Here.

- You don't want it? - No, I'm fine.

Come on. Thank you.

Yeah.

Do you mind?

I've seen you naked before.

Yeah, but...

not-

I can turn around if you want.

Yeah, could you?

Really?

Yes, please.

Oh my God. Sorry.

I wasn't looking. What the fuck?

It's OK.

No, it's not!

It's fine, I'm fine with it.

Yeah, well, I'm not.

Hey.

Feña?

What?

It's just me.

Is it?

Yeah.

What?

Can I see?

What?

I've just never seen anything...

I don't know, like... that.

Yeah. OK.

Whoa.

Did it hurt?

Yeah.

I was chopped up and had like,

tubes coming outta my sides

and couldn't really move my arms for a couple months, so...

Sounds really painful.

Yeah it was.

The scars were like really hard in the beginning.

I couldn't really feel anything.

Do you wanna feel?

For real?

I mean... we're already here, right?

Yeah.

Can you feel that?

Yeah.

I can feel it now.

Oh. Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck. You like that?

Yeah.

Fuck. Oh.

Shit.

Hey.

You heading out?

Yeah, I gotta go.

Me too.

What time is it?

Um...

It's eight.

Oh. Fuck.

Did I snore too much?

Not more than usual.

Umm...

I should-I should probably take some Plan B,

just to be safe, right?

You can get pregnant?

Yeah.

I just started T.

Let me know how much it is?

You're not coming with me?

I gotta go pick up my mom and I gotta help out Aidan.

Can we talk?

Yeah, I'll text you.

Good luck with your dad, OK.

OK.

Bye.

OK.

Good luck with your mom.

Thanks.

It wasn't that bad.

Look, exes are exes, for a reason.

What about Ken?

He's not my boyfriend.

OK, babe, I'm worried about you.

Can we try and, you know,

take things a little easy this time?

Like, don't get caught up in these momentary feelings.

OK. Yeah... yeah.

Promise?

I promise.

OK.

Hey Owen.

Yo, you working today?

No, I'm just picking up a check.

OK.

Are you all right?

Yeah, I'm good.

Feña?

Feña?

What?

There's a girl asking for you.

What?

Yeah, she-she says she's your sister.

She's waiting out front.

OK.

Hi.

Hey.

Did Lori send you?

You can call her mom, you know?

OK.

Did she tell you to come?

No.

Did she kick you out?

No.

- Did she hit you? - No.

- Did she? - No!

OK.

Can you just say something other than "no"?

It's nice to see you too.

I'm sorry, I...

I just don't know what she's told you about me.

She said you were a degenerate

and you left because you hate us.

She forced me out of your life.

Why?

It's complicated.

Is it?

You think I'm too stupid to understand?

I'm not saying that.

Do you know what being trans is?

Of course I do. One of my friends is trans.

That's cool.

Well,

I'm trans.

OK, great.

I'm still me.

So, who cares?

Why do people say stupid shit like that?

It doesn't mean anything.

I'm just trying to explain to you like...

Are you OK?

I need to go to the bathroom.

- Right now? - Yeah, right now.

OK...

Zoe.

Zoe?

Will you please open the door?

Are you crying?

Zoe, come on, do you need help?

Look, I'm sorry okay, I know it's a lot.

It's all over my pants.

What is?

Are you serious?

Are you talking about your period?

Yes.

Do you need like a pad or something?

Yes, yes.

Hey. Hi.

I got you this.

Ew, that shit is so thick.

I'm sorry.

I can get you another one at the pharmacy.

- OK. - Wait.

Is this your first period?

Obviously it is.

It's all over my fucking pants.

What?

Bro, come on.

Stop. OK. Alright. Come here.

I'm gonna put this around your waist.

And we'll just hide all the stains.

- Thanks. - Yeah.

It's my favorite shirt, just so you know.

You're welcome.

All right, I'll meet you outside, OK?

I'm gonna just pee.

Hey, it's Sophia, leave a message.

Oh my God, Sophia, you just texted me.

Will you please call me back?

I need the car to pick up my dad from Newark, OK?

I just... I'm not gonna be able to find another car.

Um, I need to go to the bank.

Why?

What do you mean, why? I need money.

Can we go to the pharmacy next?

Yes, yeah.

Doesn't the school call when you skip?

They don't care.

That's insane.

This is Ken, leave a message.

Hi, Ken, it's me, Feña.

I'm sorry to bother you on your trip.

Can you please just gimme a call back?

I need a favor.

Thank you, bye.

One second.

Hi. Hi.

How can I help you?

Yes, can I please cash this check?

Well, the name is wrong.

Oh.

You have to get a new check.

Yeah, no, I know. Um.

Normally I just use the machine to deposit it.

But for some reason today the machine was not working.

I'm a transgender person.

I'm a trans guy.

My boss just forgets to put my legal name on my check.

It's so similar, can you please just help me out?

Like I said, ma'am, you have to get a new check.

"Ma'am"?

There's nothing I can do.

Do I look like a "ma'am" to you?

I just explained that I'm trans.

Please can you step to the side?

I have to help the other guests.

You shouldn't have run away from school like that,

something could have happened to you.

I can take care of myself.

Yeah, then why'd you come to me?

I didn't know where to go.

What if you got kidnapped right now,

would you know what to do?

I'm 14, that's not gonna happen.

Yeah, how do you know?

Fucked up shit happens all the time.

You are a young and pretty girl.

You used to do it.

Yeah, we are very different people, OK?

Get off the street.

Hey, it's Sophia, leave a message.

Sophia, will you please call me back?

You can't just text me

and leave me high and dry like this OK.

You're being an asshole.

All right, we're gonna-

Zoe!

Dude, where are you going?

Fuck this, I don't need to be here.

Oh my God. We are going to Mom's right now,

come on. Oh my God, no.

She is gonna say I kidnapped you and get me arrested.

She wouldn't fucking do that.

Yes, she would. She treats me differently than you!

Well, you're acting like her!

I'm overwhelmed right now.

Yeah, obviously.

Can I just, like, hang out with you for the day?

No, I have so much shit to do.

Great, now I won't see you for another year.

What time do you usually get home from school?

4:30 pm.

OK, I'm gonna drop you off at four, OK?

- Really? - Yes.

Now, just please stay with me, listen to me.

Come on.

Gimme your hand. No.

Hey.

Oh my God, Ken, thank you so much for picking up.

Is everything OK?

I just got your voice message.

Sophia canceled on me.

Ah shit.

That sucks.

Do you need to borrow my car?

Would that be OK?

Yeah,

that's why I gave you the keys to the apartment.

Right, yeah.

Thank you, that's, it's very nice of you.

Of course, baby.

Maybe you can make it up to me later...

I've been reading about some things

we could try out. Right, yeah...

How's... How's your trip?

It's OK. Actually, I have to get back.

Oh, OK, yeah.

Well, I hope you have a great rest of your day.

Thanks, you too.

OK, bye.

Bye.

This OK?

Yeah. I like the color of these.

You want some gum, too?

Yeah.

All right.

You're bleeding me dry.

Hi, how are you?

I'm good, how are you?

Great, thank you.

Will there be anything else, sir?

Uh, yeah, um...

Could I have the morning after pill, please?

What?

Uh, the Plan B... Plan B pill.

Oh sure.

But you should be more careful, young man.

Thank you, yeah.

It's actually not for me.

I'm gay, so I'm just being a good friend.

Is this one new?

Yeah, you like it?

Yeah.

So did you get top surgery?

Yeah, I did.

That's cool.

It is.

Do you still get your period?

Right now, I do.

But the longer I'm on T, the less I'll get it.

You're lucky.

I am.

Are you serious?

Dude, chill, nobody cares.

Oh my God. Who's this?

Hi buddy.

- This is Jack. - You're so cute.

Do you want a belly rub?

Hi.

You want a strawberry?

I'm good, thanks.

Hi.

Whose house is this?

A friend's. Ken.

Hi Jack.

Hey Jack.

Oh my God.

Okay, I'm gonna nap.

Right now?

Yeah, yeah, just for a bit.

OK.

We gotta get up.

I'm gonna brush my teeth.

We gotta go.

Come on.

Oh my God. What happened?

- I'm sorry, I dunno. - Shit. Where's the fish?

I don't know.

Shit. Oh my God.

I'm sorry.

Fuck.

Bye, buddy. See you-

Wait, wait, don't-My stuff!

Ah, Fuck.

I'm sorry,

I thought we were leaving.

I'm sorry.

It's not your fault.

I have your jacket.

Thank you.

Do you have a credit card?

No.

Great.

It's OK.

Is he gonna be OK?

Yeah, he's gonna be fine.

Somebody's coming to pick him up later.

- Can we wait for them? - No.

All right.

Are you OK?

No, not really.

I have to pick up my dad from the airport.

And I don't have a fucking car, so...

You've got to be fucking kidding me.

Hi sorry, can you swipe us in?

Sorry, I'm all out.

See? I told you.

- Someone will swipe us in. - We should just jump

the turnstile. No!

- Come on. - We're gonna get a ticket.

Hi, excuse me, do you mind swiping us?

All right.

Excuse me, would you?

Excuse me, ma'am, could you please spare a swipe?

You're such a pretty girl,

you shouldn't be begging for money.

What the fuck did she just say?

All right, fuck this dude, we're doing my plan.

- No, you're gonna get a ticket. - Yes.

- Just go under and I'll jump. - No way.

Come on.

- Someone's... - Please just listen to me.

Ah! Fuck!

- Oh my God, what the fuck? - It's fine.

Just go. Are you OK?

Just go, just go.

Oh my God.

Fuck.

Are you OK?

What the fuck just happened?

I dunno, that's a lot of fucking blood.

Yeah.

I can't even feel it.

Aidan, let us in!

Yo, what-

the fuck happened?

I don't mean to judge...

but what is your sister doing here?

She ran away from school.

She's big.

I know, she's fucking tall.

OK.

You look tough.

I'm a mess.

Fuck, man.

I left everything inside that apartment.

My keys, money, everything.

I can give you cash,

pick him up on the train, no big deal.

That's so fucking lame.

It's like two hours away.

Dude, so what?

What's he, a big shot?

He can wait.

I just,

I don't want him to think I'm a fuck up.

You're not.

Dude, you're getting worked up

over someone who lives halfway across the world.

If he doesn't like you, fuck him.

Seriously.

Look at me.

Be proud.

And sit up straight.

Seriously. OK, fuck.

Hey, chicken head.

How are you feeling?

Oh, I mean, I look pretty tough, right?

That's not funny.

Hey, don't say that.

Funny's all we got sometimes.

Are you hungry, I'm starving?

Yeah, I'm hungry.

Wanna get some pizza?

I know this place that has killer slices

the size of your head.

And your head's huge.

Yours is bigger.

Yeah, sure, keep lying to yourself.

Yo, yo, can you gimme a hand?

Yeah.

John's outside with the rest of the boxes.

What?

John's outside with some boxes.

Will you hide this please?

And stay inside.

Why?

Please?

Hey.

Hey.

Holy shit!

What happened to you?

Nothing, it doesn't matter.

- Did someone hit you? - No.

You OK?

Yes, I'm fine.

I just, I fell, I don't wanna talk about it.

It's stupid, I'm stupid.

You fell?

I actually did.

Did you take it?

Yes. Of course.

Oh my God, is that all you fucking care about?

You're in the clear, OK. Jesus Christ.

How much was it?

60 bucks.

OK.

Is this your car?

Yeah, until I sell it.

I need to borrow it.

I need it for work tomorrow morning.

My dad is landing in Newark tonight, OK,

my ride fell through, I need it.

I'll return it, OK, I'll return it tonight,

I'll fill up your gas tank, please.

OK.

Really?

Yeah, really.

Thank you so much.

OK, but I'm leaving in five minutes.

- OK. OK, yeah. - OK.

Let me just grab my sister.

What?

♪ "Asphalt" by Half Lotus plays ♪

You remember me, Zoe?

Of course I do, you're my sister's boyfriend.

Was.

Shouldn't you be in school?

School's already over.

How old are you now?

Fourteen.

Already a teenager?

I guess so.

Man.

How old are you?

I'm 26. Yeah.

Nope, I lied.

I'm 27.

God, it's hard to keep track sometimes.

You know what I mean?

Not really.

Man, 14.

Girls rule, boys drool, am I right?

Girls are pretty stupid too.

You want to hear a joke?

Sure.

OK.

So, a grasshopper gets off work

and I mean, he's exhausted,

he just wants to take a load off.

He walks into a bar, sits down,

he asks the bartender for a beer.

And the bartender, I mean, he can't help himself.

He's like, "Oh my God, we have a drink named after you."

And the grasshopper goes,

"You have a drink named Steve?"

She does not know what a grasshopper is.

Yeah. But she still laughed.

I just pictured the grasshopper

talking with your voice.

What are you saying, my voice is funny?

That's not what I said.

See?

It's funny.

Joke's always funny.

It's a '92, so the brakes aren't great

and it's almost outta gas.

I'll fill it up.

Bye Zoe, good to see you.

Bye, John.

Try to get here before midnight.

Thanks.

I ran into him last night.

Literally. Where?

At this club.

We were celebrating my friend's, like, book thing

and he was just there.

I haven't seen him in a year and a half.

And then I run into him.

I feel like,

I don't know.

Are you happy you did?

Yeah.

Yeah, I think so, yeah.

I think so.

I'm gonna need that jacket back.

Only if I get to keep your shirt.

It's all yours.

It smells like weed.

"Thank you," is what you're supposed to say.

Mom smells like that all the time.

Yeah, maybe you should wash it.

Do you ever ask her to stop when you're around?

Last time I did, she grounded me

and I couldn't even go to school the next day.

She was like, "You can't tell me how to live my life."

She didn't stop yelling for like hours.

I hate it when she gets like that.

She's still doing shit like that, huh?

Yeah.

Maybe I could live with you?

Maybe.

Really?

Yeah, maybe.

I don't believe you.

What's up?

I wanna tell you something, can I?

Yeah.

Whatever happens, whatever she does,

whatever she says to you,

just remember that she can't control you, OK?

When she gets aggressive and starts yelling like that,

she's not talking to you,

she's talking to all the hatred and sadness

that's inside of her.

People like that are broken

and you can't do anything about them, OK?

So just ignore her.

Does she hit you?

No.

I swear she doesn't.

I just, I think it's important that you know,

you know, people can change and maybe she's better now, but,

I don't know, I just want you to know the whole picture, OK?

I want you to know that I didn't just disappear

for no reason.

I'm sorry.

Don't be. It doesn't matter anymore.

Just let me know if something happens, OK?

Promise?

Yeah.

OK.

You have to promise me something then.

What?

Don't disappear again.

I won't, OK.

I love you.

You don't love me back, you punk?

I don't know.

But there's a chance?

Maybe.

I can work with that.

Nice.

You can't tell mom about any of this.

Obviously.

Well, call me anytime.

Will do.

I'll wait in here while you go inside.

Thanks.

Bye.

Bye.

Hey Zoe.

Fernanda. Fernanda!

Hey, I'm sorry I'm late,

I've had a crazy day, OK.

I called you a million times. I was about to go to a hotel.

Yeah, I know, I'm sorry.

I-I had a car, I need-

I'm here now, OK?

What happened to your face?

Oh, I... I fell. Um...

Here, come on, come on. OK.

Hey, hey, wait, wait, wait a minute.

What, can we walk and talk?

I haven't seen you in two years.

Yeah, I know.

You hungry?

A little.

You want some American food or something?

I'm so tired. Can we just go straight to your house?

OK.

How was your flight?

OK.

Did you have to change anywhere or...?

Yeah, Miami.

That's a long trip.

Yeah.

My back is fucked up... Fourteen hours sitting on a plane...

You should take a bath when we get home.

I'm too tired. I'd rather go to sleep right away.

OK.

How's grandma?

So, so. Oh, she sent some money for you.

That's really nice of her.

Why don't you write her an email thanking her?

It's a lot of money for her.

Have you told her about me?

I really don't think it's the right time.

Maybe someday.

If you're waiting to see if this is a phase, it's not.

This is it.

I don't understand why you want to announce it to everyone now.

How can I, if I'm a fucking secret?

You liked men, you always liked men. You had boyfriends...

Liking men-

It's confusing. I'm confused!

Liking men does not make me a woman, OK?

But you were such a beautiful girl.

Oh my God. Can we not please, can we not?

And love? How are you going to find love?

Why the fuck do you care?

It's my fault.

Oh my God.

- Yeah. - Oh my God.

I should have been around more.

It wouldn't have made a fucking difference, OK?

Being a man is hard work.

Yes. Men have responsibilities women doesn't.

Yep, thank you.

It's really fucking stupid. I'm so worried.

Why did you choose this life?

Oh my God, please stop!

Why did you pick this fucking life?

Stop it, okay, we've been through this!

Jesus fucking Christ!

You don't think, I wish I wasn't trans sometimes?

Do you think this is easy?

I am so tired of people telling me

that it's a fucking choice I'm making,

like it's something I do for fun.

Like I woke up one day and I was like,

"Oh, you know what would be really fun?

Being trans!"

I am so,

I am so sick of people telling me how fucked up I am.

Okay, just fuck off!

I'm not saying that, Fernanda.

Oh, it is Feña!

Feña!

Can you do that?

Yeah.

You know what? If you don't wanna understand me,

that's fine, don't.

Do whatever the fuck you want.

But do not tell me not to be myself, OK.

I get enough of that shit from the rest of the world,

I don't need it from you.

Hey, hey.

What?

Let me pay for the gas, OK?

Yeah.

I'm just gonna get some water.

Do you want anything else?

I'm fine with this.

Do you want me to stay in a hotel?

Don't be ridiculous.

I came to see you.

No, you came to renew your Green Card.

No, that's an excuse!

You know, you don't have to be in my life.

'Cause I really can't have both you and mom

thinking I'm crazy.

No, I'm not like her!

Then don't act like her.

I'm sorry.

Wake up.

We're here.

We're at my house.

OK.

Hello, who is it?

Hey, it's me, can you let me in?

- Who are you? Feña? - I lost my-

- Where are your keys at? - I lost my keys.

OK, OK. I'm buzzing you up.

I'll take it from here.

No, no. I got it, I got it.

You're old, I'm young.

I'm old?

I'm not so old.

Coming, I'm coming, I'm coming.

What happened to your eye?

It's a long story.

- Oh. - Hi.

Goodnight.

How are you?

Oh, two of them!

I'm good.

This is my dad, Pablo.

This is my roommate, Fiona. Oh Yeah.

Nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you, Fiona.

And thank you for, for- how you say?

Letting me stay here?

Letting me stay here.

For letting me stay here.

My English is awful.

Oh no, of course, of course.

You're most welcome.

Can we come in?

Oh yeah, oh yeah.

Absolutely.

Twins. You look like twins.

That's what you gonna look like.

Over here.

Oh my God.

I didn't have time to clean.

Oh, that's OK.

You're gonna sleep here.

I'm gonna sleep on the couch.

I can sleep on the couch.

No, it's not necessary. I can sleep on the couch.

Fiona...

Yeah.

Sorry, I was-

- What is it with...? - Running out

this morning, so. OK, it's OK.

All right.

Shit, it's wrong.

I, um, I actually have to go.

I have to get ready, but...

Now?

Yeah, I can, um, help you.

Let me just...

Why?

Get my shit.

I, um...

Why are you leaving?

I borrowed the car from my friend and he needs it back,

so I have to return the car.

OK.

Yeah, but I can help you finish the bed.

No, no, no, no, no, no.

I got it.

I'll do it.

You sure?

Yeah, I'm sure.

Go, go. OK, yeah.

Let me just grab this and, um...

I'll see you tomorrow.

When's your appointment?

Monday.

OK.

Well, we'll have breakfast tomorrow together.

That will be nice.

OK.

All right. OK.

Good night. Good night.

Drive safe!

Yeah.

- Hey. - Hey.

Did I wake you? No, I was up.

Cool.

Is your mom...? Yeah, she's sleeping.

You didn't have to.

Was everything OK?

Yeah, it was great.

I parked on the corner.

OK.

Do you wanna come in for a glass before you head out?

Would that be OK?

Yeah, I just invited you.

You sure it's OK?

Yeah, she's sleeping.

Thanks for inviting me in.

No problem.

Come on.

Just be quiet.

OK.

It's weird being back.

I bet.

Are you gonna sit down?

What?

Do I look different to you?

No.

I mean, yeah, you look different.

Still you.

Just, like, another you.

How?

You look more comfortable.

Like the way you move.

You're not as tense.

People say I look happier.

You have this song?

Yeah.

What?

I'm not allowed to have this song?

No.

No, I'm glad you have it. It's a great song.

That was a really nice New Year's.

Yeah, it was.

Canadians do not fuck around.

Do you remember that guy?

Shawn?

Shawn!

Shawn.

Shawn...

Wow.

I can't believe we go all the way there

and they're just watching the ball drop.

It's the same fucking thing.

So disappointing.

At least we got to drink for free.

You never told me what she's saying.

Uh.

It's about a breakup.

OK.

She's...

saying that she misses her ex.

And...

She wishes she could touch her...

again and,

do it again.

You're fucking with me.

No, I'm not.

I swear.

Stop.

Whoa.

Sorry.

I can't.

Why not?

You already fucked me up enough.

It's a two-way street, you know?

Yeah, I know.

But I didn't come back here for you.

So...

So then...

why did we fuck last night?

I don't know.

I haven't seen you in a while.

I was fucked up.

And confused.

You didn't like it?

Yeah.

Yeah, I did.

- So did I. - Don't...

It was fucking complicated before.

And you've made it more complicated.

What does that even mean?

Do you think I wasn't trans when we were together?

I'm just saying it's a lot.

And you're always a lot. OK, all right.

I can finally be myself with you, now.

That's gonna help a lot.

This isn't gonna work.

You're just afraid of loving a trans guy.

What?

Yeah.

Listen to yourself.

You know what I think this is about?

- What? - Yeah.

I think this is another one of your whims.

Yeah, you wanna see if you can fuck me up as a man,

the same way you fucked me up as a woman.

Fuck you, John.

You have no idea what you're fucking talking about.

What, you're telling me all your feelings are real now?

That now we can actually make it work?

Like you're not gonna run off a week later

and change your mind, I don't think so. I don't...

Do you think that it was easy.

- I don't believe it. - Do you think it was easy

for me to be a girlfriend for you?

Right, 'cause that's what our relationship was.

Me forcing you to do things. I am not saying that.

I am just saying that it was hard for me.

Have you thought about that?

You're so self-centered.

Do you even care about how I feel?

What I'm going through right now?

Of course I do.

Then why am I the bad guy all the time?

You hurt me.

Okay, I'm sorry.

I am sorry. Bullshit.

What do you want, Feña?

I...

What are you doing here?

I don't even know.

I'm... I'm just trying to communicate to you

that everything informs everything else, OK?

Well, I'm so glad you're so fucking free

and can feel the deep connections in the universe.

All right, great, yeah cool.

You know what? People don't hate you 'cause you're trans,

they hate you 'cause you're a fucking asshole.

OK.

I didn't know that you hated me.

Thank you for the car, by the way.

Hey.

Fuck.

God.

Fuck, man.

What's wrong? You scared me.

Alright. Just go back to sleep, OK?

Are you crying?

No, it's raining...

I just, I needed some dry clothes,

I'm sorry for waking you.

You smell like cigarettes... Are you smoking?

No, my friend was smoking.

The friend that made you cry?

No.

Hey, look, that motherfucker...

I'm gonna kick his ass tomorrow.

I'm gonna break his face.

No! He can't mess with us, no?

No, Papá.

Look, he knows we're Latinos...

Huh? We're dangerous people.

We're dangerous people.

We're "animales."

Thanks, Dad, but it's okay.

Good night.

Go back to sleep okay?

Hey.

What?

Sit with me.

I'm soaking wet.

No, it doesn't matter... Come.

Do you remember when you were a little girl,

what you used to do when it rained at night?

No?

The rain would wake you up.

Then you'd quietly sneak into our room

so that you wouldn't wake up your mom.

And you'd wake me up.

And you'd say "Papa, let's go to the roof."

So, I'd wake up. I'd put on my shoes and we would go upstairs.

We'd stand by the door,

looking at the rain...

We'd listen to the rain.

The two of us.

Then you'd start to fall asleep,

I'd carry you in my arms back to your room

and you were such a small little thing...

So beautiful.

You were so tiny.

Forgive me.

For having left you alone all this time.

It doesn't matter.

It does matter.

Because I love you so much.

I love you so much.

I do too.

My guy.