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♪ no one's gonna tell me it's a trick of the light ♪

♪ may never come but I'm willing to wait ♪

♪ what can I say? I'm a man of the faith ♪

♪ and there's an ocean in my body ♪

♪ and there's a river in my soul ♪

♪ and I'm crying ♪

arrogant bitch!

that you, the said accused,

On the 7th of may...

How do you plead,

Guilty or not guilty?

My god, val,

You look beautiful.

You ready?

You got the weather for it.

for grace.

dearly beloved,

We are gathered here today

To join this man and this woman in holy matrimony.

Cheryl.

Thanks for making the trip, it means a lot.

Are you kidding, I wouldn't miss it for the world.

It's so good to see you.

You too.

- Caro. - Paul,

You're doing a great job

And you're even more handsome than how denis was on his day.

Gran!

I'm allowed to say.

Where's mam?

She's in her room, fixing her make-up.

I-- I'd give her a few minutes.

Of course.

You alright?

It's a lot.

Yeah.

Paul has worked a miracle for this family,

And no one is saying otherwise, it's just--

Just everyone's moving on...

And grace isn't.

Get it out.

Come on, it's me.

It's just everything's moving so fast, you know?

And it's hardly been a year.

When grace first left,

I'm ashamed to admit I was relieved

But now it's like it never stops in my head...

That could any of us have helped her?

You were a good sister.

Today's your day to be a good daughter.

I hate you.

I hate you more.

Come on.

We were hoping grace would be here,

That we'd see her today.

She responded to our summons a few days ago.

I believe she returned to london.

She left without even seeing us.

I need your signatures here please.

Perverting the course of justice

Is a serious offence.

You're lucky the dpp is letting you away with a caution.

What'll happen to elaine?

That'll be up to a judge.

I really don't wanna see you or your family in here again.

Just checking, are you okay?

Yeah.

I hope this isn't all too much for you?

Like, maybe we should have just had

Own ceremony, just the two of us.

No, I want to be here,

Where I can feel grace.

You know you can slip away anytime.

I'll pick up the slack.

The truth is,

I can't believe this is happening to me,

That you happen to me.

That's a two-way street, mrs.

I love you, paul madigan.

I think you might have saved my life.

Now, steady on.

Hey joe.

Haven't seen you in a while.

Yeah, well, I was on leave

From the job, so,

Back in action now.

Life goes on.

Joe, I have to ask.

Now that we've all had some time to think--

Jenny, don't.

Do you really believe that it was an accident?

That's what the report said.

Yeah, but d'you think that she might have been in

Some kind of a trouble that we didn't know about or...

She'd erm, cut herself off

From her entire family, from everything she knew.

I'd say that's trouble enough for anyone.

Wouldn't you?

D'you mind.

I saw you peeling off.

You know, when grace told me everything, I had no choice,

Jacob.

Can you get that?

It's my job.

They have to give a prison sentence for man slaughter but,

You know, really it was for the cover-up.

Mum wanted to tell the truth

About everything.

It was val who stopped her.

She was trying to protect you.

To protect calum.

They both were in their own way.

How is your mam anyway?

She'll be out soon.

We write, like, proper paper letters.

It's weird.

How does she sound in her letters?

Angry.

Honestly, I never thought that val would be able to top denis.

But you'll fill his shoes nicely.

I wouldn't say that would be my main intention in life, caro.

I would like to talk about a honeymoon

Or the lack of one.

And I told you, mair, we will, when the time is right.

I was thinking rome, maybe.

Then head down the amalfi coast.

Have you been paul?

I worked in rome for two years.

There

You have an insider's tour.

What's the next step, val?

Get you out of the house.

We never had a hen night.

I'll tell you what we do,

We have a girls night, in the hotel.

- How does that sound? - I'm in.

A, you'll be back in Spain, by then.

I can stay on for a hooley.

Just let me think about it.

There's no need to think.

It's already done.

So...

You gonna talk to mum when she gets out?

Let's not start all that.

I never want to see her again and that's the end of it.

Calum.

I wish she was dead.

Is that plain enough for you?

C'mon,

Let's have at least one day together without all that.

So, who's she, anyone I know?

Actually, you'll see her in a bit,

She's on her way.

I know--

I know this is usually the groom

But let's just put it down to my control issues.

I wasn't exactly looking for a husband

When I met paul on a hill walk, of all things.

And I--

I didn't mean to start talking about grace...

Just happened.

And then when paul told me about the losses in his life,

I thought,

Here is someone who understands.

I put everything on his shoulders and he didn't buckle.

So this bride would like to toast her groom...

For helping my family by helping me...

For your kindness and your strength...

And for helping me understand that there are things in life

You can't control...

No matter how hard you might wish.

So-- could we all just raise our glasses,

Please, to paul, my wonderful husband.

to paul.

I erm---

Well, I doubt I'm so wonderful,

But I am lucky and fortunate.

It feels so right to end up here, in county clare,

Where my mother was born.

But to end up here with val...

Well, someone up there likes me,

And I doubt there's a happier man on the planet,

Right this moment.

So, to my lovely wife, val.

to val.

- To val. - To val.

They let me out a week early

To-- avoid the press.

Well, there was a--

There was a lot of interest once--

Once grace opened up the skeleton closet.

I'm glad you're out elaine.

I just don't think today is--

I can take jacob to you tomorrow.

No, I told her to come.

If mum has to go, I'm going with her.

No, there is no need for that.

You know what you're-- you're welcome to stay elaine.

If you feel comfortable.

Thank you.

I brought my own drink.

So nothing could be slipped in it.

Keep your eye on your glass when anna's around paul.

Keep your eye on everything

Around this family if you know what's good for you.

Elaine, I know there's a lot of history

Between you, val, and the family.

But this is my wedding day, too.

And you're as welcome as any guest here,

Until you're not.

And that part of the equation is entirely up to you.

Do we understand one another?

go and see your brother.

I'm val's mother,

And I won't let anyone spoil her special day.

D'you follow me?

Well, val's mother can get me a nice big plate of food.

Her daughter owes me that much, at least.

Calum, please, please.

You just couldn't help herself, could you?

With this big grand entrance.

I want her here calum.

She's your mother.

You don't have to be such a dick.

It's okay, it's okay, jacob.

- It's okay. - No, it's not.

This stupid wedding.

Everyone's pretending like shit didn't happen.

Things will settle down after a while.

Does that mean you're staying then?

Where else would I be.

I used my savings to keep the cottage on and, you know,

Somebody, somewhere will give me a job, surely.

Maybe.

We should do this.

Do what?

Get married.

Is that what you're calling a proposal?

Yeah, I'm down on one knee.

We fight like cats and dogs anyway.

We might as well be married.

yeah, erm, can we just get through

One wedding at a time before I give you an answer?

Give me one good reason why we shouldn't?

Well--

A lot of people around here would actually be thinking

I'd be marrying my brother.

Except for that reason.

Yeah.

It was--

It was big of ya to invite me,

All things considered.

No one blames you for anything, joe.

How's cathy and noah?

He's-- he's fine, I think.

He sleeps with the mini hurl I got him.

I see him every weekend up in galway.

Cathy's met someone new.

She's-- happy for her.

We were never a match, really.

No.

You and grace were the match.

You know, I tried to grab my chance with grace.

Came right out and said it,

Told her I'd never stopped loving her.

When was this?

Did you see her donegal?

No, the night of the café lunch, I...

Shocked her.

Shocked myself, to be honest.

I think it was one of the reasons she left.

Well, maybe you are being honest with her made her want

To be open and honest about her own family, too.

Look where that got her.

Elaine will be on strict probation,

She probably shouldn't even be here.

Jacob told me she's angry.

If she gives you any trouble...

You call me.

I don't wanna hear it.

It's just that jacob told me you got the photography course

In dublin and, you're so talented.

I mean, your father would be so proud of you.

Can I say I'm proud?

You said it,

We're done.

I don't wanna listen to any more of your lies.

- Get out of my room. - Calum--

You looked me in the eyes

When I told you I thought my dad hadn't killed denis.

Yeah, I know,

And I regret that, I really do.

You're a coward and a liar,

And you killed a man.

Well, I'm not the only one who was involved in a cover-up.

Calum, this whole family were up to their necks in it.

Why d'you think I never want to come back here?

Well good, you should stay away

Because the ahern family, they are poisonous,

Especially val.

And you keep as far away from her as possible.

You leave her to me.

What d'you mean by that?

She gets away with everything,

You know that can't be right,

It can't be fair.

Calum, let me just say this...

I can't change the past, but I have paid the price.

You're my son,

And if one day you decide to move on

From this sulky, put upon, teenage routine,

I will be there for you, if you need me.

I was hoping for a dance with my favourite uncle.

Yeah, I had a, a few calls to make,

I couldn't hear myself inside.

Finn asked me to marry him earlier.

Ha, wow!

Well, that's great, isn't it?

I love him, there's no doubt about it

And nell thinks he's her dad.

I hear a "but" coming.

It's just, how do you know, you know?

Like, how d'you know that this is the person

That you want to spend the rest of your life with?

Maybe you don't know, for sure, at the beginning

And maybe you just--

You take the plunge and...

The knowing for sure comes with time.

Don't let finn slip through your fingers.

You might regret it for the rest of your life.

In those days, it was really something special.

Only the prettiest girls were picked by aer lingus.

I was promoted to first class on the boston route.

Movie stars, the kennedys,

You name it.

Nowadays, they're called cabin attendants.

Little more than being a waitress in a café.

Then I'd come home and val would slip on

My high heels and walk around the house

Wearing my uniform jacket

Which trailed behind her on the floor.

When you'd come home.

I told my girls over and over again.

Mammy has to find a man.

And you found plenty of them.

I just need to step out for some fresh air.

You know val...

Every visiting day, I waited for you come.

At the very least to bring jacob to see me.

I'd just lost my daughter, elaine, erm--

I lost my sons,

My job, my freedom

Because of your daughter.

I'm sorry, elaine.

I don't regret killing denis, you know, I'd do it again

But d'you know what I do regret val?

I regret telling you.

Okay, let's just be very clear here.

You told me after I'd found you out.

You used me and then you used rory.

I understand that you feel we got off lightly,

But let's not forget you killed a man, elaine.

Who was using me, too.

I think prison has messed with your--

Your head elaine.

It's the place your daughter put me.

And now you know what it's like to lose

What you love most in the world,

And I am sorry for your grief.

But I am not sorry for your pain.

I want to see you lose everything,

Everyone.

I want you to end up just like me, val.

Why would she put herself through this?

You lot ever saw the elaine I saw in the early days.

Rory said it was like jekyll and hyde when she drank.

It's water, if you wanna check.

Why would I want to do that?

Why would I want anything to do with you?

Look, there was a time you had plenty to do with me.

Like the time you almost killed jacob and calum,

And I can't be the only one who has trouble sleeping.

What possessed you to turn up here today?

You know, at least grace had the decency to apologise.

You saw her?

Right well, obviously she didn't wanna

Go anywhere near her own family.

But, yeah, she came to see me

After she signed the caution.

No, that's not true,

She went straight that holistic retreat in donegal.

She dropped by me on the way, why would lie?

Alright, well if she did apologise to you

Then what did you say?

I told her to fuck right off.

What do you think I said?

Elaine's gone.

You know she said that grace came to see her

Before she went to donegal.

But we'd know.

Not if grace didn't want us to, I suppose.

Something doesn't feel right.

- Thank you so much for coming. - Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you so much for coming, been lovely to see you.

Well, you held up, didn't you?

You said you would, and you did.

Looks like I married a trooper.

Yeah, well right now I just wanna troop straight into bed.

Can we leave the fireworks for another night.

- Yeah, of course. - You sure?

Of course.

Your sister looks happy.

I hope so.

She deserves a bit of happiness.

Are you close?

You know how the song goes.

Lord help the mister...

Who comes between me and my sister.

yeah.

Well, I don't think you'll get any trouble

From paul on that front.

No, he's great.

I'm heading up the coast for a few days...

But I could drop in and say goodbye before I leave.

That'd be nice.

See you then.

Alrighty.

Don't make me choose again mum,

Please.

You've been hurt enough.

I promise there'll be no more tug-of-war.

I love you both.

Can you understand that?

I do, I do understand that.

I won't pretend I wasn't a bit relieved

When she was out of the picture this last year.

We grew so close again.

The way we used to be.

But I trust that you love us both.

Because you're the kinda young man

That has that much love to give.

You need two mothers to carry all the pride we have in you.

I know, I know, never the hair.

Where are you going?

Just a breath of air

Now that we've cleared the air between us.

Hey, wakey, wakey.

Grace.

No!

grace.

God.

Jesus.

It's okay, it's alright.

How could I have missed her calls?

I've got you.

If I had just answered my phone.

We've been through this now, c'mon.

Every night,

Every night I see grace and I--

I see the water closing over her and just...

I just try, I try to get to her,

- And I just can't. - Listen, you,

You've got to stop torturing yourself like this.

Yeah, but did she let the water take her?

Is that what she wanted?

- Come on now. - No, I don't want any.

You have to sleep,

Come on, give me your hand.

Grace.

gracie.

Come here.

I just I want my baby, paul.

I just want my baby.

I-- I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Yeah, yeah, you don't need to be sorry.

We scratched each other's itch.

That's how it has to be sometimes.

It's no big deal.

I'm-- I'm gonna go.

You thinking about grace?

You know, she flew in from london the garda caution

And then went to donegal without a word to us.

She was at the retreat for a reason, jen.

She wanted isolation.

Yeah but elaine said that she stopped off

On the way to apologise.

Maybe she had meant to see you.

But then elaine rejecting her apology.

Is that what's bothering you?

That she went to donegal with the rejection

Playing on her mind.

Well, you'd be a fool not to consider it.

But what if elaine followed grace to donegal?

You'd be a fool not to consider that, too.

I'm sorry, I gave you another night from hell.

Stop.

You know, people think I got married

So fast to get over my grief.

It's not like that.

Sure, who cares what people think.

They don't understand, paul.

They don't know about the hours in the dark,

When there's nobody else there to...

To take a bit of it off your shoulders.

And that's what you've given me.

Thank you, paul.

I mean it.

Well, the clean-ups well underway.

Why don't you go back to sleep,

And I'll bring you some food in a while.

Stay a bit, please.

Calum, just a couple more days.

I'm sorry, mum.

I just can't hack the idea of bumping

Into her on the street or something.

Nothing more I can say?

Nothing.

You and jacob can visit me in dublin instead.

Come on, I gotta catch this bus.

Just be careful with elaine, mum.

She blames val for everything.

There's gonna be trouble.

fuck.

Bath is nearly run, love.

Is mairead here?

She doesn't think we're going on a walk today, does she?

Would you mind walking with me instead today?

Of course not.

I promise I will have a word

With the family about boundaries.

Okay. I didn't wanna say.

- that bear's got. - and me tuck you in.

- And you tuck it, yeah. - Time for the beach.

No, tell me I didn't promise?

Yep, this was the trade-off

For her not coming to the wedding.

How about we have pancakes instead?

And you can have as much syrup as you want.

Then we can curl up and we can watch "frozen 2",

Again, and I'll even sing along.

No, that was not the deal.

And mummy will come along too, right?

Fine.

But I need breakfast first.

With the mother of all carbs.

Thought I heard someone.

hey, paul I didn't want to bother anyone.

I just had to pick-up this file.

Yeah, what's that?

It's something I'm working on for val.

Would you mind waiting till val's here herself.

It's no big deal but, you know, everyone comes in and out,

You know, taking this and that and I'm

Just afraid that val's gonna lose track of things.

D-, d'you mind me saying that?

Yeah, no, no look, hey don't mind you saying that all.

No disrespect intended.

No, no, I mean, right back at you.

Also erm, this is really awkward, but

Have you ever told her?

Told who, what?

Val, that you're in love with her.

Erm, paul you, you've got this wrong.

I mean val is like my sister.

I mean, maybe, that's how it was once

But it's, it's kinda my job to see

Past the fronts that we all put up.

You've got this wrong.

Look, we can both keep this a secret,

And nothing has to change between you and me

Or you and val for that matter.

Yeah, but the thing is, like, you've said it now.

I mean even though this is in your imagination but it,

It's always gonna be there behind everything.

Look, alright, I'll erm, I'll do my best to, to stay away.

I just want what's best for val, for both of you.

Jesus christ, mam!

Jesus!

I was the best mother I knew how to be and that's

As much of an apology as you're getting.

I never asked for any apology.

Can I please just have my bath in peace now?

There's nothing wrong with putting up a front.

Just you'll surprise yourself one day,

With a genuine laugh out it'll pop,

And you'll wonder where the hell did that come from.

What are you on about?

There was a baby boy between you and mairead.

He lived for two hours and twenty-three minutes.

Does mairead know?

She was a toddler,

I barely discussed it with your father.

He was at the bookies when my waters broke.

Went to the hospital on my own,

I came home on my own with my hands empty.

Why did you never say?

That was my pain,

And now you have yours,

And I swear to christ I'd beat satan back

With my two fists if I could take it from you.

Thanks, mam.

So, how's your first day as a married man coming along?

pretty good, actually.

I didn't ever think it would really happen.

You didn't?

Well, you told me it wasn't that serious.

It's more of a friendship, remember?

No I don't remember that conversation.

It's done now, so.

Yeah, yeah it is.

And you're happy?

Well, are you?

I'm not gonna even dignify that with a response.

Come on.

Let's get that walk in.

Mum, any chance of a lift to elaine's?

er, sure.

- hey! - no!

Ready, you're gonna lift.

Gonna help me lift, ooh!

- yay! - yay!

look!

See you later, love.

Bye.

- hey, love. - hi.

- how are you. - good.

Give us a hug.

D'you wanna come in?

alright, mate.

finn, come on.

hey!

What's wrong?

hey baby girl.

aww.

Hey.

- it's okay. - hello.

aww. Hey, how are you?

listen, I know you're probably thinking

We can't even go to the beach.

I'm not thinking that at all.

I mean it's hardly a big place, you know.

Yeah, well I also know that everyone coming in and out

Of the house takes some getting used to.

But I will have words, several words.

some time together at the start would be good.

But, quite honestly, I knew what I was getting myself into.

You were up front from the beginning

You come with your family.

It's a package deal.

Well in that case, I'm gonna have to come clean.

Erm.

What?

Mam wants to stay on for a few weeks.

Is that okay with you?

Of course, she's your mother, what's one more.

Anna, you mean.

Look the whole family can stay, as far as I'm concerned.

What you want is all that matters to me.

Yeah.

So, would you wanna talk about it?

Prison.

No, I don't.

So erm, how are things with you?

What's been happening?

I got a job at the coast hotel, a manager.

But we're still staying in the house.

It's better for jacob.

The staff quarters aren't exactly child friendly.

He could always stay here.

I promised jacob we wouldn't go down that road again, elaine.

I didn't promise anything.

Well let's not in any case.

Can we just try and get on.

yeah, that's-- that's what I want too

And thank you that means a lot.

What means a lot?

it's great news jacob.

Anna's offered me a job at the hotel.

That's great.

jacob's with elaine?

She used him to trick me into finding her a job.

She's back one day and already she's causing chaos.

Well can we keep it out of this house, please?

It comes with the territory paul, better get used to it.

Good to know.

did you find it?

Yeah, got it jacob.

grace!

♪ and if I see a sign in the sky tonight ♪

♪ no one's gonna tell me it's a trick of the light ♪

♪ may never come but I'm willing to wait ♪

♪ what can I say? I'm a man of the faith ♪

♪ and there's an ocean in my body ♪

♪ and there's a river in my soul ♪

♪ and I'm crying ♪

♪ and we carry the sun ♪