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We're late.

Right.

J'j'j'

Silly.

Sillier.

You're funny, daddy.

- Thanks. - Thank you.

Em, em... milk.

Do you want cream?

It's how I take it.

Maybe you wanted to try something different.

You need directions?

- What? - Uh, directions.

Um, yeah sure, where do you need to go?

No, you just look like you need

oh no, no... I'm good. I'm good. Thank you.

Okay!

Um, just so you know, Vanderbilt... flatbush.

Thank you.

Hey Ethan, it's me. I'm just calling

to let you know that I'm stuck at work,

and I'm uh, I'm gonna be late tonight.

So, um, talk to you later. Bye.

Are you following me?

Guess I am following you.

You must be Amber.

Oh, you're... Logan.

Pierce, yes.

Realtor and local direction giver, at your service.

Well, it's nice to meet you, again.

You too. Right this way...

But if you are looking for something bigger,

I have another place

that I think your husband and you would love.

Oh no, no it... it's, just gonna be me and my daughter.

Sorry about that, I just saw the wedding band...

You know what? I love it. I'll take it.

Cool. Okay! Great.

Let's, uh, set up an appointment,

we can get all the paperwork done.

Perfect.

Ethan...

I know. She's, uh, taking a nap.

I need to talk to you.

Okay...

It's important.

Ethan, I'm leaving you.

What?

I'm sorry.

Stop.

Don't... uh..

Take another step towards me.

We should talk about this.

The logistics...

Emily.

Do not...

Do not take another step.

I'll be out by the end of the month.

J'j'j'

J'j'j'

These things happen, Gracie.

They happen all the time.

It'll be okay.

Okay?

For the better, I think.

Well in time, yes.

You got all your boxes, mommy?

I got all my boxes,

and I'm gonna take them to my new house,

which is going to be our new house.

Like we talked about.

With daddy.

No, no, not with daddy.

Daddy's gonna stay in our old house,

you're gonna have two homes now.

You're gonna have daddy's home and mommy's home.

I don't want two homes.

I know...

I'm sad about it too.

It's okay to have sad feelings about it.

I don't want you to go away.

I'm gonna miss you so much, baby girl.

But, when you're not with daddy you're gonna be with me,

four whole days a week.

Like a sleepover?

The best sleepovers ever.

I love you, mommy.

I love you too.

I'm gonna go now, okay?

- Here we go, em... - See you in a few days.

What do you say you come with grandpa

we'll go fix us up some lunch. Hmm?

We'll go over there, and you can help me. Come on.

Hey... oops.

Um, I'll call you tomorrow.

Good morning, Amber.

Hey sol, good to see you.

How was your weekend?

Yeah, it was...

Pretty uneventful.

Right...

I was told I could find Amber Evans here.

I'm Amber, yeah, how can I help you?

I am presenting you with a sumons

with a notice of divorce.

That's very kind of you.

Please sign here.

That was quick.

Sorry.

Divorce?

Can we not talk about it right now?

Of course.

Hey...

Come and find me when you are ready.

Can I get you anything else?

No, thank you.

J'j'j'

J'j'j'

I you were beautiful I

j' I was beautiful I

I we made something so I

J' your love shaped me I

j' even when my heart was breaking j“

J'nowlj'

r will try r

I to become j'

J“ I will be beautiful I

I you will be beautiful I

j“ we will be j“

J“ if we walk away now I

j'j'j'

Hey...

What are you doing here?

Aside from buying a stash of wine?

No, no, I mean in this neighborhood.

Oh! I live up the street.

Really?

Well yeah, for now.

So, are you settling in okay?

Slowly, yeah. Yeah.

Well, it was really great running into you.

- Yeah. - Yeah. Really great.

- Is that everything? - Yes, thank you.

I'd actually like to buy you a housewarming gift.

Oh no no, you don't have to do that.

Oh, I just did.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

But it wouldn't be much of a housewarming without people.

I suppose not.

You think you can make it?

Sure.

And by that I mean tonight, like now.

Well, I gotta check my schedule.

Great! Looks like I'm free.

Great.

She's asleep?

Yeah, she couldn't keep her eyes open.

Okay, let me get this for you.

- Thank you. - Thank you.

- All right, bye. - Bye.

Um, I'm just going to be one second.

Okay.

Love you.

Sorry that it's so dark, my ceiling lights are still out.

Oh, you know, I can call the guy for you.

Oh no no, no. That's not...

- Are you sure? - Yeah.

Okay.

Well, I love what you've done with the place.

Thanks! Yeah, I've got some, you know...

Okay, you're messing with me.

No I love it, the boxes add

this, like, je ne sias quoi diy chic

Work in progress, right?

Like me.

Like everyone.

So... what do you like to do?

What do you love?

.Um...

I don't feel like I've ever really...

You know, I went from being a kid to having a kid,

and then I, out of my parents house,

into Ethan's house.

I'm a mom, I work, you know I just...

I don't really...

Feel like I even know the answer to that.

That's okay.

It's kind of exciting, you know?

'Cause now you get to figure it out.

Here's to figuring it out.

Look, you know, I don't really know you.

And I don't, I don't know what happened but...

It sounds like it's something that you really needed to do.

And... not everybody does that.

I think it's brave.

Brave.

So what about you? I mean you're...

You're... you're a realtor,

you live temporarily in this neighborhood, and you know?

Well, I uh...

I don't have to just talk about it,

I can show you.

If you're free

on Thursday night,

you can meet me here.

I can do Thursday.

J“ I will be shatterproof j'

j“ 17! Stand up and spring back like you I

- hi. - Do you have a reservation?

No, um, Logan told me to stop by.

Oh, are you Amber Evans?

Yeah, yeah.

She has a table set aside for you right there.

- Okay, thank you. - Yeah, you're welcome!

I live on in me j“

J'inmej'

j'inmej'

j'inmej'

Thank you, guys.

Thanks for coming out tonight.

I'm taking requests.

Travellers!

Amazing day!

Um, you know what? Nevermind.

I got it, I know what I wanna do.

Uh, it's an old song,

but it'll be new to you and it's one of my favorites

and it's called "hold on."

J'j'j'

j'j'j'

j“ I know you're coming I

j' I can see down the road I

j“ I'm travelling but I'm not alone I

j' love is calling j“

j“ over the rolling hills I

I and I'm running I

I to get to you I

I as we 're standing j'

j' face to face I

j“ I long to hear you say I

J'igotyouj'

I you don't have to j'

I be so strong I

I you don't have to j'

I do this alone I

j“ I know you're coming I

j' I can see down the road I

j' I'm travelling j'

j“ but I'm not alone I

Thank you.

Looks like romance if I ever saw it.

No, I am just chatting with a friend.

How many years have I known you?

Hm. A friend. Huh.

I told you.

So good.

I know, right?

Can't come down here and not try it.

What are you writing?

Not writing.

Mm. Sure looks like you're writing though.

Not writing.

Can I use that, actually?

Shut up.

This is so good.

You're an artist.

In a former life, maybe.

Can I keep it?

It's all yours.

This gives me an idea.

Walk with me?

Alright well, this is my ride.

Why don't you hop on in?

J' she's filling my heart with beauty I

I like to coordinate everything with my hair.

Don't touch the car!

J“ making everything I do shine I

j' I can feel it pulsing through me I

I now I knowj'

Beautiful.

J“ I'm gonna be fine I

Yeah.

J“ breathe deep j'

j“ don't forget to count to five I

j“ is all I'm needing to survive j'

j“ my heart is like a humingbird j“

j“ everything else is turning blurry j'

j“ she's filling my heart with beauty j“

j“ making everything I do shine I

such a good day!

You're awesome.

I like you.

Me too.

- I should probably get going. - Okay.

- This was fun. - Yeah.

I really...

Wanna kiss you right now.

I'm sorry.

Right.

J'j'j'

"But you weren't... at all."

Hey Amber, I was gonna...

I can come back.

I'll come back.

You... no, I... be-

So I ended up in this hostile kitchen.

No, you didn't!

I love this song.

Oh yeah, this is a good one.

- You know this song? - Mm-hm..

I I've been alone I

j“ plenty of nights I

j' yeah it's alright j“

j'ican getbyj'

j' baby tonight I

sing to me.

J“ breaking me out I

j“ making me melt j'

ooh, I want to dance. Just a little bit.

I like I've never felt j“

j' sweet heat set me on firej'

oh my god, look at you go.

J' touch me feel my desire I

j“ everything you do I

j' is making me higherj'

wait... what... what is this...

Wait, I need to see this robot dance.

I can't, I don't dance.

J“ feeling the sweat sliding down slow j“

j“ there '3 nothing to hold j'

we're dancing at a bar like a bunch of hooligans.

J“ I won't let go I

there we go, there we go.

J' sweet heat, set me on fire I

j' touch me, feel my desire I here it comes.

J“ everything you do I

j' is making me higherj'

j' sweet heat I

j' sweet heat, set me on firej'

through the curtains.

Release me set me free.

J' touch me, feel my desire I

j“ everything you do I

j' is making me higherj'

j' sweet heat I

J'j'j'

When I was a little girl,

my mom and I used to come to the beach

and take these long walks to find rocks or stones

and then we would assign some sort of meaning to it.

An emotion or something.

Anger, sadness...

And then we would

throw it into the ocean

as this way of releasing things we didn't want.

I like that.

Did you ever do it for things that you did want?

Yes, occasionally we would make a wish.

But it was really special because my mom is just

so practical in so many ways.

So whenever we did that, it was...

It felt like something really magical might happen.

I didn't really have anything magical like that growing up.

I did have this disappearing mom though,

and this really cool key I wore around my neck.

If! Used it...

I could open my front door.

Magic rocks sound a lot nicer.

I could've used some of those when I was a kid.

Oh!

- Mommy! - Hello!

How you doing?

- Good. - Yeah?

There was a guy on the subway and he said "shit,"

and daddy told me never to say that.

Well, daddy's right.

So we're gonna go to the park and then

I'm going to make you your favorite.

So, this is my friend Logan,

and she's gonna hang out with us today.

Miss Emily, it is my pleasure to make your acquaintance.

I'm excited to go to the park, are you?

Do you like slides? 'Cause I love slides.

- No. - You like... you don't?

Nevermind, I don't love slides at all,

Uhh, who is this?

This is, uh, my friend, Logan. Logan, this is Ethan. Ethan...

- Hey. - Logan...

The pleasure's all mine.

Nice to meet you.

- Shall we? - Swings?

- Bye. - Bye.

What's that?

- Dessert. - Ooh.

May I? Oh.

You're job is to taste.

Okay.

Close your eyes.

Okay.

Open.

No. Don't cheat!

What, I'm not cheating, it was reflex!

I mean, open what? Eyes or mouth?

Okay, shh. You're gonna wake up Emily.

Sorry. God.

I forgive you. Here. Hang on.

What... is happening?

- Cheat proof. - Uh-huh.

Okay...

I see.

Okay.

- Is that okay? - Mm-hm..

Ready?

Okay. Open.

Open wider and bite.

It's like a chocolate...

Brandy?

Do I win? Do I win a prize?

Maybe. Okay.

- It's good. - Ready for the next one?

- Mm, can I say no? - Not really, no.

- Okay. - All right, hang on.

This is falling.

You ready?

I'm sorry.

We shouldn't do this.

Why not?

It's just, this is so...

Confusing.

Because I have all these feelings for you,

but I really value our friendship.

And I'm like, kind of attracted to you,

like really attracted to you,

and...

I don't know what to do with that.

So maybe it's better left untouched.

Okay,

slow down.

What I'm hearing is...

You like me.

You want me,

and there was this part about not touching but...

I think we can just strike that from the record.

I do like you,

I'm just,

overwhelmed by this feeling that I wanna get closer to you.

Closer.

I like that.

Can we just take it slow?

Of course.

You know I'm really concerned about this bill.

If this contractor doesn't come through, we...

I got it.

- You got it? - I got it.

Okay while you got that,

why don't you tell me who's the mystery texter?

What?

The flirtatious, smiley texts.

Oh, the flirtatious, smiley texts.

Oh come on, who's the lucky guy?

There is no guy.

Okay fine, if you insist.

Okay you got me, but only slightly.

Aww come on, details?

Come on, boss.

Oh, how convenient.

I'm your boss when you don't want to spill.

I'm happy for you. Who is it?

Okay? I have my reasons.

I was just talking about you.

Oh, that's just selfish.

I'm telling you, it's the g train.

Mom?

Excuse me?

You're in New York?

Uh, I think you've mistaken me with someone else.

Mistaken you for someone else?

Wow, you're incredible.

I don't know what you're talking about.

Yeah, right.

You wouldn't. You never did.

You're right.

This is us.

- I told you so. - Yeah.

Icant, lcant get on the train.

Okay.

I can't get on the train.

Okay.

I was a fucking kid, man.

How can she look at me like I'm not even here,

like I'm a fucking stranger?

Okay, all right, all right. Stop, stop, stop.

You're gonna hurt yourself. Okay, stop, stop.

Look at me, look at me.

You do exist.

Okay?

You matter.

And if she doesn't see that, then she doesn't deserve you.

She doesn't deserve you.

J'j'j'

J'j'j'

hey...

Hey.

Oh, don't stop.

I wanna watch you work.

J'j'j'

It's all about

the little. Unseen details.

But then,

sometimes you just gotta

sit back so you can

see it all come together.

You're so beautiful.

I can't stop myself from falling in love with you.

You okay?

I'm better than okay.

I don't know what I'm doing.

It's okay.

I think you got this.

J' morning till noon with you I

j“ making the brew j'

j“ I'll make the bed I

I we can be happy there I

I you could be happy anywhere I

I tell you the truth all we need I

j' is a roof over our heads I

I and I could be happy there I

j' I could be happy anywhere j“

J' baby I'm happy there I

j' I could be happy anywhere j“

Hey, how we doin' ladies?

Come talk to me?

Just ignore him.

C'mon we could make a baby, huh?

Hey, why don't you get rid of the redhead. We could talk?

All right, dude, that's enough. Back off.

Oh, oh. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

Hey, what you need is a dick.

Fucking dykes.

Hey...

You were so good up there.

Thank you.

You're welcome. High five.

Uh, that's my friend... Logan.

Oh hey, nice to meet you.

Well, a few of us are going to dinner,

would you like to join us?

Um, Ethan has Emily this weekend

so it would, um, just be me.

Perfect! Join us.

Okay... yeah.

Hey, uh...

I'm gonna go.

Yeah, um... uh... I'm not feeling so good.

Stay, please.

- .No.. - I... I want you to stay.

No, that's okay, um... I'm gonna go home.

Okay, I'll see you later, or...

Logan.

Please let me in, I know you're in there.

Can I come in?

I'm an asshole.

I'm sorry.

Talk to me.

Ethan was there...

There were parents there, there...

Teachers there, I... I..

I just I wasn't ready to...

Step into that kind of role today.

It's not a role.

It's just us.

I know, Logan, but it...

It is kind of a role, okay?

And it's not just us.

I wish it were that simple, but it's not.

I don't know, I just

sometimes I... I...

I wonder if I'm up for it.

For what?

For being with a woman.

I mean, bringing a new guy

around today would have been hard enough

but to look at everybody and say,

hey, I'm a big, fat lesbian now I mean I just... I...

Wow.

I hadn't though it through, okay?

I didn't expect you to do any of that.

I just prefer to be treated...

Like I exist.

You don't even do that to a friend.

I just...

How do you do it?

Love people?

I don't let anyone's opinions affect how I feel.

I understand...

This is a lot of change for you...

It's not easy.

- I get it, but... - But I hurt you.

And the last thing in the world I wanna do is hurt you.

Forgive me.

-I do.

Really forgive me.

J“ wrapping your head around me I

j“ I want forever to be I

you know, I'm just gonna go now.

Are you sure? I can go.

- You stay with Emily. - Nah, she's sound asleep.

It'll only take a minute.

- Okay. - You okay with that?

Okay. I'll be right back.

J“ all of the earth feels the same I

j' even the trees call your name I“

hey. You okay?

J' I think I'm crying I

I but it's only the rain j“

you couldn't sleep?

J“ all of the earth I

j' feels the same I

J“ I like the way you look I

- you got it? - No!

You can do it!

J“ [like the way your hair falls in your face I

j' maybe we could get I

j' something cookin' j“

j' maybe we could just try a taste I

I'm the king of the world.

J“ everybody wants the same thing baby I

I we 're all lookin' for a safe place I

j'heyj'

j“ this could be our day I

j'heyj'

j' baby won't you stay I

j'heyj'

j' I could be your safe place I

J' there '3 something in your eyes I

j' I just cant' fight it I

j“ when you pull me close and draw me near j'

j' no need to hide it I

j“ when we can push it into second gearj'

j“ everybody wants the same things baby I

I we 're all looking for a safe place I

j'heyj'

j“ this could be our day I

j'heyj'

j' baby won't you stay I

j'heyj'

j' I could be your safe place I

aw, yeah, do that again okay?

I safe place I

Do it again.

J' safe place I

oh, so pretty.

J' safe place I

I love watching you play.

Mmm, being away with you.

You know...

You could come on tour with me.

What?

It could be fun.

Travel around the country together.

Stay in these cute, little hotel rooms.

You could bring Emily.

Find time to paint.

Sounds amazing.

Come on. Can you just, like,

pretend to like the idea for a second?

Oh, come on. I love the idea.

It's just not practical I just can't quit my job.

Right. Your job, of course.

Yeah. My job, I love my job.

And you know, I love structure.

Yes, I know.

I have seen your color-coordinated sock drawer.

I love my sock drawer.

It does sound amazing though.

You know, I, um...

I never asked anyone to come on tour with me before.

I love you.

Can't believe I just said that, but...

I'm sorry, what'd you say?

I said, I love you.

- One more time. - I said, I love you.

I love you too.

So much.

Okay, everybody.

Find a partner.

I hate these things.

Maybe you should stop organizing them.

Next, we're gonna be asked to throw ourselves at each other.

Um, somebody your own size is good.

Sugar britches.

So just take a moment

be with your partner, take them in.

Remember, trust is a really important part

of every workplace relationship.

So you gonna tell me who's making you glow?

You have a way of saying things, sol.

Well, I know that sex glow when I see it.

Sex glow?

Okay, so, partner a, turn away from partner b.

Take one big step away.

- I don't know. - Try me.

- You know Logan? - Yeah, I know Logan.

I'm fucking her.

You know catching me was the entire purpose

of that exercise.

I know. But you gotta prepare an old woman

before you drop something big off in her lap.

You asked.

And you're not old.

Thank you.

This is why you've been so secretive?

'Cause I'm sleeping with a woman?

Yeah, it's just not something I ever saw myself doing.

It's just...

Just so much stuff that goes along with that, you know?

Like now I... Now I suddenly have a label.

Black, white, straight, gay.

There's nothing wrong with being gay.

I know that.

But you know, a lot of other people don't.

Girl, this is New York.

Yeah. Call my parents, they live in Brooklyn.

Besides, I'm not gay. I still... I still like men.

I do. I'm just... I don't know, um...

Once upon a time...

What feels like a lifetime ago...

I was in love with a white man.

And he loved me.

I wanted to spend my every waking hour with him.

To spend my life with him.

But back then where I was at,

it would have taken courage I didn't have,

support from family, friends, peers to walk down the street

hand in hand without having insults hurled at us.

So what happened?

I closed my heart to him.

To that entire part of my life.

I don't regret where I'm at,

my family, my choices for any second, but...

That is one regret that still hangs over me.

And living with regret...

Is only my doing.

I feel like when I close my eyes I keep thinking that...

If the world didn't care I wouldn't care.

If the world didn't care, I wouldn't care.

Life is a series of choices, Amber.

Every second, we choose our happiness

or our bitter remorse.

And we can only love who we love

and stand by that choice.

Times are changin', baby.

Times are changin'.

Step into your life...

Before it passes you by.

Oww.

Ah, Logan we are just so happy

that Amber has found a friend like you

during such a difficult time in her life.

And we really appreciate you being there for her.

It's my absolute pleasure.

She's wonderful.

Nice to finally meet you.

Nice to put a pretty face to someone

we've heard so much about.

Thank you. It's great to meet you both.

I actually have to get going, I have a client to meet.

I'm sorry. But please enjoy the rest of your day.

Um, I have to go to the restroom

- so I'll just walk you out. - Yes!

You met my parents.

I like them.

Well that's because you don't know them.

I like them.

And I love you.

What is this?

It's nothing.

You were leaving?

Amber?

Yup, I'm leaving.

- Logan. - Oh! Shit!

Logan, hey.

Logan, stop!

I'm sorry.

You're always sorry, Amber.

Hey look, I didn't expect you to waltz into the cafe

and just announce your love for me.

But when are you gonna be able to stand tall next to me?

I told you, I just need time.

How much time Amber?

I have never leapt like this before in my life

and I keep leaping into you...

And I keep falling on my fucking face.

I never asked you to do that.

You just did it on your own.

You jumped before I was ready,

I don't know how this is my fault?

Fault? Are you even listening?

Is everything all right?

Oh, god.

Mom, everything is fine.

Yeah, everything's fine.

Fuck.

- Amber. - Shut up, mom.

What just happened?

I'm sorry.

Please don't let me fuck this up.

What'd you say?

I said, I love you.

I love you too.

-Hey.

Only got a couple of minutes, so...

What'd you want to talk about?

- Hi, sweetie. - Hi.

What are you guys doing here?

Well, Ethan called and, uh...

Thought it was best that we sit down

and try to figure this thing out.

What's going on?

Well, we thought it best to convene.

- Convene? - Yeah.

You and Logan.

Are you kidding me?

Okay, honey, that's... That's not why we're here.

Wow.

They... They didn't say anything.

You did.

Right now.

Really, Amber?

Just explains a lot.

Okay, I am not having this conversation.

Okay, hold on. Whoa, whoa, whoa, hey.

C'mon, c'mon. Ethan...

- Can we try to focus please? - Yes, yeah okay.

I'll... cut to the chase. Sit down.

Great. Don't sit down.

I got a job offer out of state. I'm leaving in three weeks.

- You're leaving? - Yup.

It's a two year commitment, minimum.

What about Emily?

I took the job, Amber.

I'm not asking for your fucking permission.

- Ethan, relax. - Don't talk to her like that.

- What? - Can you stay focused

- on Emily here? - Hey, you have no idea.

Enough! Enough! Stop it!

Enough.

Mom, dad, I...

Can we just...

- All right c'mon. - You're right.

- Come on. - We'll be in the car, honey.

I don't know what to say.

I think that went well.

You know, I really did love you Ethan.

Part of that never goes away.

I know that you think that I pushed you away...

A long time ago, I... I pushed you away, but...

You didn't push me away, Amber...

You burned my life to the ground.

I know. Mine too.

And I'm sorry about that.

It's just that...

I still love you.

And I don't know how to do this.

I'm sorry that you're hurting.

Look, I... I know...

I was an asshole to you, a lot.

I regret that.

No, io... look at me.

Amber?

Tell me what to do.

You tell me what to do and I'll do it.

I was a kid, Ethan.

We were just kids. I... I...

You need to be able to see that, I mean...

Can you see that?

I didn't like the person I was becoming around you.

And I don't want to be her anymore.

I think that we both failed us.

And Emily.

But Emily can't live without you.

You're an amazing mother.

But you're her father.

And she's gonna miss you so much.

Why do you have to...

I have to.

He's leaving in three weeks.

Wow. Just like that.

Yup.

It's just a lot of changes coming my way.

I can help.

With Emily, I can help you.

But I gotta figure out everything with work and...

Just everything is going to be really different.

I don't think that you're listening to me.

I'm saying that I want to be a part of your life

and Emily's life in a bigger way.

I know and that's very sweet, but...

You're leaving for tour and...

Not forever. I'm here, we can figure it...

I know, I know! But it doesn't matter

because it's not the right time.

You're awfully quiet tonight.

Yeah, I guess.

Anything you wanna talk about?

There's just a lot going on right now.

You know? With you taking Emily on and...

A lot of...

A lot of things.

Yeah. I know it's gonna be a lot with work

but I'm actually really excited.

I miss her so much.

Hey.

What's going on?

I think we need to talk.

Okay.

The owners of the apartment

I'm taking care of are coming back early.

And, uh...

You know I'm going on tour for a few months.

And I'm not sure where my home base is gonna be

when I come back to New York.

Okay.

Is... that's all?

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I think we need to break up.

I'm sorry.

I just don't think this is working.

We just can' keep doing this.

What? I...

I don't understand.

Look, okay. I know that I said

that this isn't the right time...

But I think maybe once Emily settles in a little,

you know, you can... You can move in with us.

- With me. - Move in?

Yes, I think that I'm ready for that.

I mean it, Logan. I am ready for that.

That's what I...

You know, if this is about my parents, you know, I don't-

I don't care what they think.

Emily loves you.

She loves you.

I love you.

I love you.

I know that I keep letting you down, but...

I never loved anybody like I love you.

So why are you doing this?

Because, Amber...

I can't love you from such a vulnerable place.

You say yes to me, and my life is amazing

you say no, and I'm crushed,

and I can't love you from this place.

I... I really... I really...

I need you, okay? I need you.

I don't... I don't want to do this alone. I don't.

You have all these things

that you wanna do, you know?

And there's so much you have to focus on...

And it's not me.

You gotta figure out what you want.

I know what I want. I know what I want.

I want you.

I want you.

Please don't do this.

- Don't do this, okay? - Come here.

Please don't do this.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

So this is it, then?

That's all?

I need you to go.

Can I walk you home... at least?

No. You should just go.

Can... I can still walk you home...

Please go.

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J' soft beneath my feet I

please, just go.

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Sounds good on my end.

I'm not sure what you want me to do

with this information, Amber.

I don't think that lifestyle suits you or Emily.

It's for the best.

You don't think it suits me, mom?

It's not a dress that we're talking about.

You asked my opinion.

No, I didn't, mom.

You asked me how I was doing,

and I can't hide this, I'm sorry, I'm a mess.

Exactly why you need to turn the page.

Nothing good can ever come of this, darling.

Why not?

Because it's not who we are, Amber.

I'm your daughter, mom, I'm not you.

Of course not, but you're...

I love her. Emily loves her.

And she left you.

It's for the best.

Yeah maybe it is for you, mom, but it's not for me.

She made me happy.

She made me feel alive...

For the first time.

And she loves me, I know she still loves me.

It's not love.

It'll pass.

It'll pass. It'll pass?

Mom, this is heartache. Okay?

This is good, old-fashioned heartache.

And if you can't see that, if you can't see past

your shame, then I'm sorry,

but you don't get to be a part of this.

You don't get to be a part of my life.

You're gonna lose me.

You're gonna lose her. You will lose us.

C'mon, we're going. C'mon.

Grace.

You just need to let her be.

Okay?

She'll ruin her reputation.

This isn't easy for me, either.

Not in the same way as you, but...

Mostly because it's not easy for Amber.

I mean, I can see that.

She could just wait to meet the right man.

She was...

Happy. I mean, had you stopped to notice that?

Happy?

Put yourself in her shoes for a second.

I would never be in her shoes, Michael.

Maybe being with Logan surprised her,

maybe it was there all along.

In any case, she's 30 years old,

going through a divorce, and coming out to the world...

- As gay. - I... I... just look,

maybe she is, there's nothing we can do to change that.

And I'm not sure I'd want to.

Well, you're on your own then.

Grace. Don't do this.

She's still your daughter.

She's still the same Amber.

This is not something she'll buckle under to please you.

Don't push her away.

Well, should we get some lunch?

You know what restaurant's really close by?

- You okay? - Mm-hm..

Really? 'Cause it seems like maybe

you're upset about something.

Hey there little girl,

Why so glum?

I don't know.

Maybe we should do some silly rock puns?

To make her laugh?

No, no, no, she hates silly rock puns

well, my sediments exactly.

I was magma before I was cool.

That's stupid, you're stupid.

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

First of all, that's not okay.

Okay?

What's going on?

I don't know.

- What are you upset about? - I don't know.

You know what the feelings are, maybe?

I don't know. I said I don't know.

Okay. Okay.

I know it's been...

A big year, with a lot of changes.

A lot of feelings, big feelings.

Confusing feelings, and I... I...

It's hard for a grown up, you know, I'm... I'm feeling...

Feeling confused too.

Really?

But you need to know that when you're feeling this

when you're feeling confused, and angry, you can tell me.

There's nothing you can say that's gonna hurt my feelings.

Really?

Yeah, really.

I'm sorry.

No, I'm sorry.

Angry! Augh!

Everything's messed up!

That was a good plop.

Shall we get some pizza?

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oh, it's mine but, honey,

I think it's time to put it away.

Your mom will be here soon.

- Do we have to? - I'm sorry, love.

C'mon.

Can we play again tomorrow?

Yes, sure.

How about next week?

- Mm-hm.. - Next year?

What about when I'm big, like mommy?

Of course.

I will always be there for you.

Hey.

Hi, mommy.

I'm sorry.

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well thank you so much for coming, phill.

- Of course. - You're the best.

See you later.

Hey, um, tell so! I say hi.

-By the way I -ok! I

are you familiar with her work?

Uh, yeah.

What do you think?

Part of me loves it, and the other part of me is...

Terrified about what everybody else is thinking.

You're the artist.

Well, now it would seem insincere of me to say that

I think your work is exquisite.

Maybe a little.

Thank you.

I won't take up any more of your time.

Yeah, okay. It's nice to meet you.

- Uh, Tim. - Tim, I'm Amber.

Amber, um...

Do you drink coffee?

Just 'cause if you do, I could sit next to you

while you do that.

Would it be okay if I called you sometime?

There's...

My contact information's at the front desk.

Okay, well, then, I'm gonna go to the front desk.

- Congratulations. - Thank you.

- Enjoy your night. - Thanks.

Excuse me. Hi!

- Amber? - Yes!

Regina dey.

Yes... yes, I know who you are.

It's such a treat to meet you.

I'm just so honored

that you would come to my opening.

I wanna talk to you about your work.

I do... I have a few ideas.

That would be great.

- Thank you. - Yes.

Well, you have guests to entertain.

Yes, of course.

Do call me.

You can count on it. Thank you.

Yes!

We got Logan Pierce here performing live

at the caveat, downtown Toronto.

Could you turn that up, please?

Logan, it is such a treat

to have you in the studio.

Thank you so much for having me,

I'm so happy to be here.

Of course, your new single 'hold on'

is just climbing the charts.

Could you tell us a little bit about what inspired that song?

I don't know where to start.

Come on, girl, you can dig in there a little bit more.

You know, we're live.

So you want me to spill my guts for the world?

Well...

For you jojo, I will.

Well, you know, it's simple.

It's about...

Love...

You know, the kind of love you dream about when you're a kid.

When you're growing up and learning about everything,

and then you get older and you stop believing in it.

But, uh...

Turns out, it's real.

It's a thing.

Do tell.

It's, uh, in the past. Long story.

Aren't they all?

Okay...

Well, when I first wrote the song

it was kind of like...

I wrote it for someone I hadn't even met yet.

But, um...

When I played it for an audience for the first time

a friend of mine was in the room...

And all of the sudden it was really clear that...

Somehow, I had written it for her.

And that's the story.

You heard it here first on jb live Toronto.

Oh, my god.

Now what you have all been waiting for,

this is Logan Pierce with "hold on."

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j' I can see down the road I

j“ I'm travelling, but I'm not alone I

So when do you leave?

Should I go?

I mean, what if she was talking about someone else?

I".okay, fine. But what it doesn't mean

what I think that it means?

Tell me this.

When you're an old woman,

will you be okay and look back on your life not knowing?

Wondering what would have happened?

Your time is now.

Step in.

Don't hang back by the sidelines.

I love you.

Well, wouldn't that be a surprising turn of events.

Mm-hm. Yeah... shut up.

Okay, go.

Go get your woman!

Ahh...

Don't you have a flight to catch?

Yes! Okay, yes. Thank you.

Thank you. I love you.

I love you. I love you!

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Thank you, Toronto.

Have an amazing night.

- Oh, hey! - Hey!

- Great show tonight. - Thank you.

There's someone here to see you.

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Uh... How long have you been here?

The entire show.

You were incredible.

You, um...

I... I... uh, don't know what to say.

I feel like if I speak too loud or, uh,

move too fast you might just...

Disappear.

I'm not going anywhere.

I heard about your art show.

- Congratulations. - Thank you.

So, did you just come for the music or...?

I miss you.

You were right,

you know, I really needed to... see myself

before I could see myself in the world with you.

I was looking for approval from everyone.

But what I really needed was my own and I know that now.

And I know that...

My life...

Just isn't right without you.

I want you.

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I want you.

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j“ any day or night I

j“ I will love you completely I

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j' you're always holding j“

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j“ the words have flown away I

j“ and left us here just starin' j“

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I and suddenly the skies j'

j“ are opening around me I

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j“ I will always be near you I

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