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[ Music playing ]

CALEB: I'm at a really intense crossroad in my life.

I have a woman who I love and who I want to be my wife.

I just...

I just don't have the money to buy the ring

that I think she deserves.

I wanna-- I wanna prove to her,

and I guess myself, that I am the type of man

who can provide for her and for what

I hope will be our future family.

This job, I have some idea what to expect,

but I really don't know what I'm truly in for.

I just know that

there's nothing I wouldn't do for her.

The right thing does feel like to say, "you know what,

"I don't want to anymore.

"You know what, this is stupid.

This was a dumb idea."

But that's when I wanna look

myself in the mirror and look down into who I am and say,

"You know what, I'm here,

and I'm gonna see this through if it fucking kills me."

[ Music playing ]

Just washing the old hands.

Just got done with lunch,

trying to be healthy and workout,

and be as healthy as I can before I blast off

to Alaska here in two days.

Also trying to get in the gym as much as I can,

trying to stay healthy -- they have a lot of colds,

a lot of flu, stuff like that.

It's a mantra that I live by every morning and every night.

Repeat that.

We'll make a...

good first impression and wanna show up there

nice and...

nice and clean-shaven for my Alaskan adventure.

All right.

I've just been kind of in this weird limbo state

of kind of doing furniture delivery, but also really,

really trying to focus on getting some other things going,

some other business ventures started,

and have been largely unsuccessful.

Haven't really gotten anything else going,

and, you know, just like anything else,

when you kind of take focus off

your one thing that was making you money,

it tends to kind of dwindle and, like,

in my business it definitely has done that, unfortunately.

When I say "furniture delivery business",

I mean just that.

I mean, it's very, very quaint.

It's not like a company or a corporation

or like I have a fleet of trucks.

All right, bro. Thank you so much.

Mm-hmm.

Let me check the rear and see if there's anything.

Yeah, no problem.

All right. That is it.

One metal table to Pasadena.

Got to turn in the invoices to get paid.

That's the way that works.

I'm pulling up to my girlfriend's house.

She's been kind enough to drive me,

and, uh, man...

just within two hours, I'm gonna be on a flight

towards Anchorage, Alaska,

and then spend the night there,

wake up the next morning, go to St. Paul Island,

and the adventure begins.

Actually, the adventure is beginning right now.

I don't really, I don't think I have any real clue

what I'm jumping into head first here.

You're not gonna just be thrown to the wolves.

-CALEB: No. -A lot of training.

-CALEB: Yeah. -Great.

CALEB: Lots of on-the-job training.

And aren't you on, like, the best boat as far as...?

-CALEB: The newest, yeah. -The newest boat.

CALEB: The newest ship.

I find that just hysterical that, of course, the only--

the only way you would...

CALEB: Because I'm Hollywood, baby.

That's the way-- that's the way I roll.

Out to the Bering Sea

would have to be in style on some level.

CALEB: Absolutely. They knew I was coming.

The Alaskan Leader said that

they were doing, like, 14-day turnarounds at this point

so she's like boom, boom, boom,

which means they're catching lots of fish.

-That's good. -CALEB: Which would be good.

It'd be a good experience,

it'll be good work, and it'll be good money, honey.

Yeah. It'll go by quick.

I think because you're gonna do, just nonstop.

Oh, I didn't tell you I'm gonna be cocktailing them.

Be nice to meet you there on Saturday.

CALEB: Well, excellent.

Yeah, there's only-- I think there's only room

for, like, two or three cocktail waitresses.

WOMAN: Oh, shut up.

God.

[ Music playing ]

Hi, Hope.

I'm good. I just dropped Caleb off at the airport.

WOMAN: Aww, yeah.

Yeah.

I had no idea it was that intense.

I thought he'd be more in the boat or-- but he is, like,

on deck and, you know, going after fish with nets,

and people sometimes fall overboard and ships capsize,

and it's dangerous.

It's more intense than I thought it was gonna be,

or more than I-- I don't know.

I don't think I've been saying anything here about it

because I don't wanna make him feel more freaked out

than he needs to.

I'm sure he already knows, but...

Yeah, it's scary.

Just trying to, um...

keep moving, walk off the nervous energy.

Shared a room last night with another fisherman

for Alaskan Leader.

Really great guy named Steve.

He was able to fill me in a little bit

on kind of what to expect and how things might be going...

But, you know, he basically told me

what I-- what I've kind of been told before,

which is there's no real-- there's no real way

to explain what I'm about to be in for.

Here we go. Rock and roll.

We are off to St. Paul Island.

The show has begun.

Wow.

There's absolutely nothing in every direction

but cold everywhere.

[ Laughing ]

Makes you wanna just take everything off,

strip down to your underwear,

roll around in the snow,

do a naked snow angel.

[ Music playing ]

This is my first beer in Alaska.

We're stranded in a blizzard on St. Paul Island.

The boats are not here, or our boat is not here,

the Bering Leader.

We don't know how long we're gonna be staying here

in St. Paul until the boat comes in,

and we can get on the boat, head back out to fish.

This is the room.

This is, uh, my gear.

I've got...

my Grundens,

which is the brand name of the rubber suit,

fishing suit I'd be wearing.

Jacket.

This thing I'll pull up in my neck.

Some boots.

These are my extra-tough rubber boots

that will keep my feet nice and warm

and most importantly dry,

while I am fishing.

Hear that?

Oh, my God.

Cold.

This is damn cold.

This is, uh...

[ Laughing ]

That was fun.

Basically, just waiting on the call

from the skipper or Andrea,

or someone at Alaskan Leader to say,

"Hey, guys, the ships are in.

Get your butts to work."

10:00 a.m. here in St. Paul Harbor.

We didn't shut the door properly,

so now this is what happened last night,

because the door had been blowing,

and this is how much drift happened

in one night of a--

of a blizzard at St. Paul.

So now I was encouraged

by the chief engineer of the Bristol Leader

to grab a snow shovel and clean up the mess

that was made here.

Wow.

My very first...

snow shoveling experience.

Growing up in Texas,

never really had to deal with that.

Well, good to know that the Coast Guard

is alive and well.

God forbid, please, Lord,

God forbid if our boat goes down or if there's any complications

that we have to be evacuated at all.

That's what we'll be praying for.

This is by far one of the craziest things

I've ever done.

What's up, bro?

Coming down this way?

Yo, man. I'm Caleb.

-Caleb? Justin. -Yeah.

Nice to meet you, Justin.

Everything is so foreign to me.

I have no idea what anything does.

It all looks dangerous

and like it could potentially maim or kill me.

So this is it, man, this is home sweet home

for the next few weeks.

[ Yelling ]

MAN: If the patient has been struck by a swinging block.

MAN: This is my first trip. This is my first time offload.

-CALEB: How do you like it? -Oh, it's rough the first week.

-CALEB: Yeah. -Two weeks.

Once you get that, you get a routine every morning.

You wake up, do it.

It's just a lot of getting used to it.

You're not sleeping as much.

Yeah.

Just getting shanked real quickly.

Yeah.

Eight. Looks like we're at eight drums.

MAN: Roger.

Yeah, eight.

[ Laughing ]

My first job on a commercial fishing boat.

MAN: Do you speak Spanish or not?

No?

[ Conversing in Spanish ]

That's good, that's good.

Speak Spanish with me.

[ Speaks Spanish ]

[ Speaks Spanish ]

What do you have, like two or three more to go?

We just took our hatch off.

We've got a full freezer full of fish

and slowly over the next several hours,

that will dwindle down into an empty freezer.

[ Music playing ]

This is what we have to do until all of this is offloaded.

We'll probably get done around 6:00

tomorrow morning.

[ Music playing ]

Been down here for probably about--

I don't-- I don't even know. I think about 10 hours.

These guys are all super hardcore.

I've never worked this hard in my life.

Never.

You just keep working until it's done.

There's no stopping.

[ Music playing ]

-Last two? -Last two.

Slept through the night.

I woke up, I think, about like a half hour

before wake-up call, so that was good.

I actually feel a lot better than I thought I would.

My muscles are definitely sore.

I mean, my body's worked,

but I think if I keep pushing, I'll be fine.

CALEB: Couldn't get much better than this.

I wonder what time it is.

MAN: Oh, that doesn't matter anymore.

CALEB: It doesn't, does it?

Go ahead and grab that net,

pull it on out.

Stand further over that corner

so the captain can see what's going on.

-There you go. -Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah.

I've just never seen one before.

Fish.

Two.

Three.

Fish.

Second one.

Fish.

Let him go with it, yeah?

-Huh? -Let him give it a shot.

Go ahead and try.

All righty.

Let him miss a few.

He'll get it.

Fish.

Is everyone this bad when they first try this?

JOHN: Some guys pick it up faster than others,

but, yeah, most guys are pretty bad.

Fish.

Come on. Goddamn it.

So do you still live in Alabama when you're not fishing?

Yeah. I stay in Alabama.

What about you?

I live in LA.

JOHN: LA?

Oh, so you're used to the bitter cold, and the wind,

and the snow then, huh?

-Oh, yeah. -Oh, yeah.

Fish.

Fuck.

You see how Jeff did it?

How do I get it up, though?

How do I get it out of the net?

Hey, put your net in back down,

hand over hand,

and swing it in.

There you go.

JOHN: Good job, you're good.

Now we need them up here.

About 25 hooks went by,

it's 25 fish that could've floated off, you know?

You wanna knock them out that net

and get ready for the next one.

Fish.

Come on, you bastard.

Oh, fuck.

JOHN: Fish.

Come on.

JOHN: Fish.

Big money.

Fish.

Fish.

JOHN: You thought you're just gonna be dipping them out

-of the water, huh? -Yeah.

JOHN: I'll say you're just lucky you get to start

on a day like today.

You'll get a better idea for it before you start

getting hit by waves. Fish.

Hey, if you want to, stand on the other side of the net,

you might find it easier.

Fish.

Fish.

Come on.

Man.

Getting chilly?

A little bit.

My first try in pole grabbing, it's hard.

I missed a lot of fish.

Haven't been yelled at yet,

but I'm pretty sure that's coming

if I don't get better at this quick.

There's nothing worse than needing to be an expert

at something the first time you try it.

How cold-- how cold do you think it is?

Right now?

I don't know. Couldn't really guess.

With the wind and everything else, hard to tell.

It makes me a little nervous that John thinks tonight

is a really beautiful evening.

JOHN: Good shot.

Yeah!

Whoo! All right.

My first harpooned fish.

Whoo-hoo!

Hit that thing like a harpoon, and it landed right on it.

It was awesome.

Just for a start.

So we'll see.

He's eager enough and...

seems like he'll be able to handle it.

Good job.

Thank you, pal.

Whoo.

This is, basically, just break it down big,

making sure it's all nice and yellow boxes

and in orderly fashion.

Like everything pointing the same way.

And then...

once that's all done...

we get this...

get in there, get some more bait.

Trying to do things quickly and expediently.

Just trying to keep them good.

[ Indistinct ]

Trying to keep the pace with guys

that have been doing this for years.

But I'm trying.

I'm gonna get my sea legs underneath me.

Working 18-hour days...

not just kind of working, really.

I'm sure these guys could just go out and run

a marathon right now.

Hi, sweetie, how are you?

I'm good. I'm good.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Everything's fine.

Everything's fine.

I just-- I can't talk that long anyway.

I just wanna call and tell you that everything's great.

It's really, really intense.

Yeah. Yeah. I'm fine.

I feel like I'm holding my own.

I mean, I'm not nearly as good as, you know,

these guys that have been doing it for a while, but it's--

I think it's going okay.

These guys are like a military unit.

I mean, it's incredible.

I was awake for 48 hours when we started this,

and then, you know, 30 of that was intense, intense work.

Offloading these frozen fish bags

that were, like, 40 pounds each,

and we probably did,

man, I don't even know how many.

Would you mind to call mom--

call mom and dad and just let them know

everything's fine, that I'm all right?

I know. I know.

I know you-- I know you were, and I've been trying to get

a hold of you, but literally, I mean, there's no,

like, when I say working consist-- I mean,

there's like, you get time-- you get like a 20-minute meal break,

and then, you know,

obviously, you can go to the restroom

and get a cup of coffee any time you need to,

but it's not like, I mean, the main focus is to catch fish,

and make money, and let's get this--

let's do a good job.

I've never pushed myself to this degree,

mentally and physically.

And it's really amazing what you can accomplish.

But, anyway, sweetie, I got to get down

and grab a little breakfast, and then get back out to work.

So, I just wanted to call and...

I love you so much, honey, and I will--

I don't know when I'll be able to call again,

but just don't worry about me, and just know that...

you know, I'm in God's hands, and everything is going well.

Thank you.

Bye. Bye, sweetheart.

All right, we've been down on the freezer,

unloading the bait,

down there it gets really cold.

And that's been it for this morning,

nothing really too exciting.

And I've been assigned to gear position,

basically just means I'm gonna be baiting,

dealing with the ropes and the hooks,

and breaking up bait, stuff like that,

preparing the long line

to go out in the water and catch some fish.

There's a lot that can be learned

from fishing and...

dealing with adversity,

and dealing with the realities of adversity

to me is a big one.

You know, just doing simple tasks,

you know, is work.

Whether you realize it or not, you're down there standing,

your muscles are flexed, and every time the boat's

rolling back and forth,

and your body is exercising just the process of standing up.

It's not like you can quit

and go home to mommy, you know, you quit out here,

we're certainly not gonna take you to the beach.

Whoo-hoo, it's cold.

MAN: Fish.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: You got fish right there, Bubba.

Hey.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Right there.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Fish. Fish.

Fish. Right there.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Right there, man.

We caught that one.

MAN: Hey, get it out of the fucking net, dude.

Got it.

MAN: Give it some slack on the net, dude.

Try that.

MAN: Fish.

MAN: Turn around.

MAN: Come on, man, hurry up.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Fish.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Fish.

MAN: Dang it, man.

MAN: Fish, fish.

[ Music playing ]

You need to get back out here.

I'm very apprehensive about leaning too far over there,

in case a wave comes, I don't wanna get washed over.

In the same token,

I've got to get more aggressive with it,

pull gaff in order to do what I'm supposed

to be doing out there.

Frustrating morning.

Frustrating.

[ Music playing ]

I'm exhausted.

The whole pull-a-gaff experience

was a bit of a... a bit of a will breaker,

but, you know, you got to keep going.

No one-- there's no one to cry to,

no one's gonna care.

We've got another 13, 14 hours left in the day.

[ Music playing ]

I was just told I got to go back out there.

I guess--

I guess, keep pole gaffing.

Just try it again.

[ Music playing ]

These waves are fucking huge.

God.

Oh, Lord.

[ Music playing ]

The winds are increasing, the waves are getting enormous.

I'm looking at easily...

25 to 30 foot swells.

It is intimidating, that's for sure.

[ Music playing ]

Oh, man, I've never...

been this physically taxed in my life.

It's only gonna get harder from here.

And that right now seems impossible to withstand.

Yeah, still not quite awake yet,

as you can tell from the puffiness of my eyes.

My shoulder's real sore, my hip's sore,

I fell twice yesterday, really, really hard

down to the cooler, just because the ship--

we're in such intense waters now.

The ship is just not in control.

It's so difficult.

It's still difficult just to maneuver around,

much less work, you know,

moving 40 pound bags of cod,

or even 12-pound bags of bait.

If you're trying to get it up over your head,

the boat is rocking.

I mean, it makes for an intense--

an intense time.

This is the, uh, storage freezer.

This is where we keep all the bait,

and it is almost full.

Got pretty much full racks.

Some on this one and down here.

And once that's full,

we start stacking them...

five high here,

and we'll stack them here,

and then we'll put some right here,

just cram in as much bait as we can.

I mean, this is just...

flat out, falls out,

work until you drop...

sleep for six hours,

wake up, do it again,

work until you drop,

sleep for six hours,

wake up, do it again.

That's it, that's it.

That's the most frustrating thing.

It's not being able to keep your balance.

It's amazing what you can get--

you get used to.

[ Music playing ]

I've almost got this elevator loaded up.

I got to go back up top,

bring up the elevator and put that--

this stuff on the rack and take the old stuff down.

All right, one more to go.

In a shit like this when the--

what a perfect place to put that.

Awesome.

[ Music playing ]

[ Engine whirring ]

Lord, I pray for strength,

and I pray for focus, and I pray for the ability

to get through the rest of this day

and this task before you, God.

[ Music playing ]

[ Seabirds chirping ]

MAN: Got to go.

MAN: All right, buddy.

[ Gasping ]

I'm soaking wet...

and-- from the waist up.

To be quite honest, I'm a little--

I'm a little scared out here.

[ Music playing ]

Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name,

Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done

on Earth as it is in heaven.

Give us this day our daily bread...

I got--

I got rocked by a couple of waves.

Just back to back.

I was completely submerged

and then lifted off of the bottom of the ship,

where I was standing.

I thought I was gonna get washed-- washed out.

And it was one of the scariest things--

I think the scariest thing that ever has happened to me.

Good luck.

I'm gonna get them dry.

MAN: Watch it.

[ Indistinct ]

We'll have it right here.

I'm exhausted.

I'm losing spirit.

I think mainly just because my body has finally--

I mean, it's just, I've pushed, and pushed, and pushed,

and pushed now.

It just seems like everything I do,

I screw up or mess up,

or I'm not doing fast enough, or, I don't know...

I'm terrified of standing out there on the--

on the...

gaffer's alcove on the boat,

especially at night, especially with the big waves,

I'm terrified.

It scared me to death.

I didn't wanna fucking be out there.

I want this to be over with.

I really just wanna go home.

It's funny how the reality of this situation

has really just come crashing down on me.

[ Music playing ]

[ Music playing ]

Oh, man. Today...

Huh?

Supposed to be.

Just trying to keep warm.

I still can't feel my hands at all.

It's so difficult.

We better focus over here.

Use the line.

Proper way and the survival way.

So you assure yourself everything's going right.

Oh, God. God.

I just feel like I'm just barely surviving out here.

Nothing like a little freezing mist

to add to the excitement.

I pray for courage.

I pray for Your strength, Father.

I pray You keep me safe out here.

Having a wave pummel me and...

having the sensation

of actually swimming on the deck

and that created the fear of...

me being washed completely over.

If I was grabbing on to a staircase,

or if I was heading towards the door and it crashed,

it could snap my arm, it could slam me into the wall,

break my face, break my neck, it could break a man's back.

Try to remain positive.

Today is-- today is a bit of a low point in the day.

I'm finding that the day is full of ups and downs.

This is a bit of a down.

[ Machinery clacking ]

Okay.

Right now,

it's what's known as an ice party.

Everybody's up top busting ice off the ship.

MAN: Start anywhere, are there better places--

are there places that need to be cleaned off first?

-MAN: Whole deck. -Okay.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Help.

Help.

The water right now is...

32.2 degrees.

You see there on that,

it says Depth-- Temp. 32.2 degrees.

So, it's freezing. All right.

Seawater is probably gonna start,

you know, seawater will freeze, I-- I'm not sure,

probably 29, 30 degrees.

And it's definitely winter temperatures.

Having a good day today.

Finally feeling like

I'm getting a bit of a handle on all of this.

Still in pain,

blisters, back, wrists,

but the best thing is, this is more in tune.

And that's the key.

That's the trick.

For some reason, sea legs have finally come in,

and not too--

none too soon, either.

I was getting so tired of--

I was just draining so much of my energy,

just feeling, like,

this is getting my ass kicked all day

just from walking around.

Just from banging into stuff,

I'm bruised all over, my arms, my chest,

just from banging into things.

Maybe an eighth of the--

of the freezer's hold has been caught.

Maybe a little more than that.

It's difficult to-- I don't know.

Plus, I'm not good with fractions.

I don't-- I don't know.

But, anyway, it's a lot of fish.

They'll have cod all in here, all over there.

They'll have cod

all the way back in here, all of this.

Remember, we did the offload,

this was all full-- all full of fish.

I...

I'm so ready to talk to Kameron.

I can't even stand it.

But the last conversation I had with her...

I...

quite honestly barely remember.

I was so exhausted and so out of it

and discombobulated.

I've never gone this long without speaking to her...

in the year and a half that we've been dating.

And it's been a lot harder than I thought it would.

I honestly believe that this experience

on this fishing boat with these fishermen

is gonna inform...

this next period of my life.

I'm 29 years old.

And I...

I'm so thankful for this opportunity.

I know that sounds weird,

and there's been lots of times where I haven't been thankful.

There's been lots of times where I've wanted to quit

or stop or take a break or...

as a man,

to know that by God, I can get...

40 cases of frozen bait into an elevator

in a pretty manageable amount of time

feels good, as weird as that sounds.

And that's the kind of man I wanna be as a husband.

I wanna know that I can get it done.

I wanna know that I can be depended on.

Kameron deserves that.

MAN: Hey.

All right!

Favorite part of getting...

I've been assigned a new locker.

So, my things are, as you can see, strewn about,

but, you know,

it's okay.

No need to--

no cause for alarm.

It's all good.

It gets pretty rough

on the seas out here on the Bering,

they-- men have been really injured,

hurt really badly by being thrown out

of their bunks at night.

But I don't have to worry about that because I can--

first of all, I got the pole from this table.

And second of all, I've got this booth

from this same table.

So, you know, I can just wedge right in here,

and that's it.

I got my little...

card that Kam gave me

right before she left.

A picture of her and I at a Christmas party.

Here's a picture of Kona...

our little boy.

Tiny baby boy.

Keep that right here at the...

right where I can reach it when I need it.

And that's pretty much it.

This is the pad.

This is the bachelor pad.

You're seeing it firsthand.

MAN: Clear.

[ Seabirds chirping ]

[ Music playing ]

WOMAN: Please wait while your call is connected.

It's not working.

Let's try again.

WOMAN: You have 58 minutes and 40 seconds left

for this call.

Please wait while your call is connected.

Hey, baby. It's me.

I'm trying to get a hold of you.

I will--

I'm so-- I can't believe I missed you.

I'll try you at your house.

Okay. I love you. Bye.

[ Line trilling ]

-KAMERON: Hello. -Baby.

-Honey? -KAMERON: Yes.

How are you?

-Honey? -KAMERON: Hi.

-Yeah. -KAMERON: Hi, honey.

-How are you? -I'm good.

KAMERON: Oh, you freaked me out. I couldn't, I couldn't hear you.

I didn't know if someone was calling to tell me

that you weren't okay.

So, I was freaked out.

Yeah. Oh, yeah. Can you hear me okay?

KAMERON: Yes, I can now. I couldn't hear you before.

Okay. Okay. Oh, God.

It's so good to hear your voice.

KAMERON: I miss you so much.

Baby, you have no idea.

-You just have no idea. -KAMERON: ...be back?

We're still-- we're still going.

It's just taking a lot longer than they thought.

It's not gonna be like a--

like a 14-day turnaround or anything like that.

-KAMERON: Oh, no. -I know.

I know.

[ Indistinct ]

Baby, I miss you so much. I love you.

KAMERON: Honey, I love you so much, I love you.

[ Music playing ]

[ No audible dialogue ]

Oh, my God, never. Never ever again.

Ever. Ever.

-KAMERON: Hey... -I'm not gonna be--

I'm not gonna be away from you.

Ever.

Okay, sweet pea.

You take care of yourself, and don't worry about me.

I love you.

I love you.

Bye-bye, baby.

[ Sighs ]

That felt a lot better.

[ Seabirds chirping ]

If you can start the day off with a cup of Folger's coffee,

you know the day is gonna be okay.

Mmm.

That hurt. Come on.

[ Seabirds chirping ]

[ Music playing ]

MAN: Look out. Look out.

-MAN: It's... -MAN: There you go.

MAN: The hose, she don't feel-- I don't feel anything.

I think we're having...

[ Indistinct chatter ]

Is there anything that, like, we can--

that I need to know, like, we can

actually not to do that could fuck up

or mess the thing up or anything?

These are all set.

This one looks great.

That's about as big as it can be.

Okay.

And I'll be right here where these,

like, probably goes where it rolls,

get the red button.

just take the red button, all right?

Okay.

Hold this, brother.

I didn't even grab hold of it.

MAN: Try to tighten up.

Looked so easy when you were doing it.

MAN: When you're watching somebody else do it?

Yeah.

MAN: Isn't that like the roller fold in...?

Son of a bitch, this is hard.

All right.

You got to do this.

Watch again.

Good Lord.

If you got it, now don't grab it.

Don't try this one.

You got to glide it, there you go.

MAN: Okay.

Oh, shit.

Wake-up call.

Ready to go fish.

Break up some bait,

pull gaff.

This is gonna be great.

Batteries are still charged, my conversation with Kameron,

just hearing her voice, sharing her energy.

I just never knew relationships could be that--

this functional, it doesn't always have

to be something that...

you just have to work at and work at,

and try to make someone happy,

and try, try, try, try, try.

When you're with the right person, then it actually,

most of the time, it can be really, really easy

and functional, and good, and healthy,

and tell you, man,

if you're with-- if you're with the right woman,

she can lift you up.

[ Music playing ]

[ Seabirds chirping ]

[ Waves crashing ]

[ Engine humming ]

[ Thunder cracks ]

MAN: Okay.

Okay.

[ Music playing over radio ]

Last smoke of the day.

We're all going to bed.

That's a good one.

[ Seabirds chirping ]

JASON: It's wake-up call, gentlemen.

Hmm. Thanks, Jason.

JASON: You're welcome.

Last day of fishing.

Last day of having to do this.

Oh.

[ Music playing ]

Everything hurts in the morning.

I don't know, I'm a little shell-shocked.

I'm definitely reluctant to get too excited

because things change so frequently.

I mean, for all I know,

we could have another week of this

at any moment,

but there is definitely an energy,

a definite clear vibe

on the boat that people are excited,

people are saying, you know,

"Oh, finally, this is--

This is the last day of fishing."

So it's starting to become more and more a reality.

It's best we just fish the day out,

put the gear away, and then...

probably head to bed for a little while, and then...

I guess get up and start cleaning,

start organizing, preparing for the next trip.

I really don't know.

So there's still a lot of work to do.

Definitely no time to bring out the champagne

and caviar just yet,

but we can definitely put the champagne on ice.

I'm just so thankful,

truly thankful for this experience.

This is--

This is a life changer, that's for sure.

[ Music playing ]

[ Waves crashing ]

[ Music playing ]

CALEB: To have an experience like this that challenged me

and pushed me, physically, mentally,

spiritually further than I've ever gone before,

I'm thrilled that I was able to...

come up here and answer some questions

personally about myself.

[ Seabird chirping ]

CALEB: I just never knew

we could find beauty like this out in the middle of nowhere.

It's incredible.

We're about 45 minutes away from Dutch Harbor,

so...

we'll get there,

unload some trash,

and then begin offloading to a tramper

out in the harbor.

So it's just a few...

well, not a few, several

more hours of pretty grueling work,

but it'd be good.

It's just from working in boots and...

I don't know, I have no idea what that's from,

but it's pretty gnarly.

[ Engine humming ]

[ Indistinct radio chatter ]

[ Music playing ]

The offloading is just going amazingly well.

It's just so much more efficient,

everybody's working together,

everybody's working at a really good pace,

and it's just awesome.

I mean, it's night and day compared to the last offload,

that we've got so much done

in a relatively short amount of time,

it's incredible.

We're on, like, hour and maybe 13, 14, 15,

something like that.

[ Music playing ]

We're in the very end of offload.

[ Indistinct ]

Just probably about...

half hour left,

a few pieces of cod left to pack in.

MAN: Here you go!

And it feels great.

[ Speaking in Spanish ]

[ Music playing ]

Hey! [ Speaks Spanish ]

The last case. I feel like I'm holding the Winston Cup.

Why don't you put that one over there?

-Here we are. -[ Speaks Spanish ]

All right.

Job well done.

Anytime somebody in life,

you know, has to deal with adversity,

has to deal with something

that tests your character, you know.

MAN: Yeah. Yeah.

When you're standing out there,

and you're breaking, shivering your ass off,

you're cold and you're miserable,

and you're looking into the waves,

you know, the tenacity to put up with it,

to stick with it, and do it.

In situations like that,

it's not uncommon to find out that maybe you got more in you

than you thought you had before.

Boy, definitely.

My own impression, Moody turned out

to be a fisherman.

In my opinion, he'd be more than welcome

to stay in or come back.

Good kid.

[ Music playing ]

That feels nice.

It's all over with.

It was worth everything.

It was amazing.

[ Seabirds chirping ]

-Is this okay for you? -Oh, that looks great.

-Okay. -Thank you so much.

You're very welcome.

We are...

indeed out of here.

[ Indistinct chatter ]

I feel like a kid on Christmas.

WOMAN: And also in this card is a list of approved

electronic devices, which can be used

once we've reached a thousand feet.

[ Music playing ]

MAN: So, director,

what do you think

about this time we've had

together in this project?

I went through this last year, same time of year,

and I got my butt kicked, too,

and I had a hard time describing it to my family

and friends back home.

I had a feeling that...

television shows and stories

about what happens up here may have distorted

their perspective on what it's actually like

up here for me, so supposed of me

going home and saying, "Man, it really sucked."

This time, I get to go home and say,

"Look how it feels."

I really hope that anyone that sees this film

comes away with some sort of feeling,

not the feeling that they wanna go fishing,

that they should ever have to do something like this,

but just the feeling that if you face something

and challenge yourself

just to the grind

until you're-- until you're--

you feel way tapped out, and you just keep going,

that feeling of accomplishment

when you're forced to rely on some sort of supernatural,

call it God, call it whatever you need to call it,

the power of the sea,

I don't-- I don't really care,

I don't-- I'm not exactly sure even

what it is, but there is a power out there.

It was definitely the hardest thing

to just stay behind my camera

and watch my friend suffer.

Caleb didn't break down, man.

He held strong, and that's a testament

to his faith and love for his girl.

So, I think this is just a beautiful story

of what love and faith in God

can do for a man, and that's my story

of Caleb Moody on the Bering Sea in 2007.

I hope you like it.

You know, they say here in Dutch Harbor,

there's a pretty lady behind every tree.

If you look in the background,

I haven't found a single fucking tree.

Goddammit.

[ Music playing ]

Thank you, Lee.

Thank you for being there every time

that I needed some encouragement.

Thank you-- thank you for your faith,

and it's just a real pleasure to do this.

You make it a real pleasure to do this,

you make it very easy.

And seriously, buddy,

you're an amazing, amazing artist,

and a wonderful soul,

and a good man,

and it's a pleasure

to be the subject of your documentary,

and it's an honor to be your friend.

[ Music playing ]