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six, seven, eight, nine, ten.

Okay, and then one more time.

One, two, three, four, five,

six, seven, eight, nine, ten.

Okay, I'm gonna .

I did level this,
and it might have moved

- a little bit.
- Okay.

You wanna just tell me
what you're doing?

Before I--just to give me
a bit of a steer.

I know you have, very briefly,

but just tell me
what it is all about.

- Just so I can--
- The documentary?

Yes.

So tell me.

Because what I don't know is--

I mean, I haven't seen
or heard from Tony

in 40 years.

So, the last time I seen Tony,

must've been about 1981.

And I think it was 40...

42, 43 years ago.

It's just like he was wiped off
the face of the Earth.

He's always been secretive
about little things.

About little details
of his life.

Especially when it comes
to his family and his friends.

Well, how much
do you really know

about Tony's history?

Only that he moved here
from England in the '80s.

Well, I don't feel right
telling you

any of this on film, though.

He said he came for work.

Nah, there's more.

I don't look back.

And some of the things
that have probably happened,

I don't remember.

I put 'em out of my memory.

I don't wanna remember.

I've closed it out of my life.

Tony Powell--

I just shut down
whatever that might be.

But sometimes...

I get these flashes.

And that was a reward
for the defensive play

that earned him his first goal
for Norwich City

in his first game.

He kept going,
and off he went...

Is it okay if we come in?

Okay, that's for Monday.

Tuesday.

No, come here, come here.

Come, come here.

Come on.

I've been here
for over 20 years.

And I'm not sure how I got
to come here in the first place.

I'm old, I forget things.

Come on,
oh, yeah, look who's here?

Hi, Sam.

- Oh, she's getting so old.
- Yeah, she is.

When I took over as manager,
my best friend Erika,

she then became
the assistant manager.

There were some crazies,

like that one human trafficking
incident in 103.

Remember that guy
had all those hookers with him?

- Oh, yeah.
- And the cops came

and busted down the door?

I know he's older than me,
a lot older,

so I kind of found it
a little strange

that someone that old would
wanna be best friends with me.

But, through the years,
he's become more of, like,

a father figure, a protector.

You've been cooped up here
way too long, like,

you should travel and do stuff.

I do travel!

You have traveled.

I go down to the grocery store.

It could be your last vacation.

Oh, son of a bitch.

We've been friends
for over ten years.

He's a good person,
he's a very interesting person.

Like, there's not a lot
of people like him.

Get the fuck outta here!

Didn't people, like,
shoot up and die in here?

Yeah, no, they did.

Hi, Daddy Don
from West Hollywood.

I've been here about 34 years.

The Holloway Motel's
kind of iconic.

It's been here
since forever and a day

that I've been here.

Sometimes it was
a little bit known

as a tweaker hotel.

I mean, I've been here
for 18 years now,

and it's always been
a very pleasant,

cute-looking little motel
when you walk by.

I don't even look at it,
you know?

It's kind of old and run-down
and unkempt.

Come on, Sam.

Sam the dog.

Do some tricks.

Oh, wow, look at this one
dressed up.

I always see you out here.

You're always drinking a little
glass of wine or something.

So, what's the situation with
the individual on the balcony?

He's like a fixture.

He never moves.

But if there's any crime story,

that's--that's the guy,
for sure.

Yeah.

Is there
a secret crime story here?

Why, is he someone famous
or something?

His determination
to keep this game moving.

I've never talked about it
to other people, really.

It seemed a bit blasé,
as it goes.

Walk up to somebody, go, "I was
a professional soccer player."

You don't do that
when you meet someone.

So, you just meet someone,

and you know them
from that meeting point onwards.

You don't ever ask
what's in the past, usually.

You know?

Back when I was a kid,
I entered all these sports.

I was, like, winning everything,
I was captain of everything.

It was like...

And, of course, my mom and dad
were, like, so happy, and...

But I can't help it,
I was just doing what I loved.

And competing.

When I was a youngster,

you either wanted to be
a footballer,

or you wanted to be
a footballer.

It really was as simple as that.

I signed for
Norwich City in '75,

had the pleasure
of playing with Tony

for, I think he was here
seven years.

If you're talking about Tony
during that period on the field,

a long-haired yuppie

from bloody Bournemouth.

But Tony came in with
little profile and reputation.

So, Tony Powell now
with the Norwich throw.

So he had to earn his spurs.

On the goal line.

Up comes Powell.

Here's Sullivan.

Sullivan's still going.

And Powell,
a difficult one for him--

Powell, yes!

Tony Powell!

Well, they won't get
a luckier goal than that,

but they'll love it.

And that was a reward
for persistence

and good defensive play

that earned him his first goal
for Norwich City

in his first game.

It looked as if
he'd lost possession of that...

Off the field,
he was a gentle guy.

On the field, he was a monster.

What he had was heart,

and courage, and commitment.

You wouldn't wanna
be playing against him,

he was hard as nails.

He'd go through
a brick wall for you.

Nicely there for Tony Powell,

and, uh, two defenders
going for that...

He wasn't dirty,

but he had a way
of hitting people.

Tony Powell, who's had
such a good game for Norwich,

and surely he can't
get away with that.

Tony was very dependable,
very robust.

And he's helped to make
Norwich City a team to fear.

Would play game, after game,
after game, after game.

Norwich City got itself
one of those promotion places

to division one.

We got promoted
after Tony's first season,

and when he left,
we were still in the--

what is now the Premier League,
the old First Division.

So, we've got Peters and Powell,

with Matt Busby involved now,
Peters.

Over this side,
we've got Jones as well.

Peters' shot.

Oh, straight at the back
of the net!

Powell.

Powell again
getting much more involved,

Tony Powell,
in this second half.

And he became
Player of the Year 1978.

It's very rare for
a central defender to win that.

It's usually the goal scorer
that wins it.

He was, you know,
big personality he was.

And then,
he sort of went to America,

never heard from him anymore.

I mean, I'd--I'd, you know,
I'd heard...

...all sorts of rumors
about Tony.

I heard he was in New York,

there's not been
a paper talk about him

or anything more than that, no.

Holloway Motel?

We are closed down,
we're not open, sorry.

No, we're closed down
permanently.

Yeah, but now it--no, it's--

building's been sold.

It's no longer been a hotel.

The only remaining motel
along West Hollywood's Route 66

will become home
to community members

experiencing homelessness.

KTLA 5's Gayle Anderson
is there with more details

on the Holloway
Interim Housing Program.

It's not just a job for me.

I'm not just working here,
I'm living here.

This is how the Holloway Motel
looks right now.

Back in its heyday,

this was one
of the Route 66 places to be.

They were in Hollywood.

Well, this project,
this motel now,

will become interim housing

for people who are coping
with homelessness.

What were rooms with a view

will now be rooms
with a future.

Hello?

Tony, I'm sorry,
just missed your call.

Okay, I want a date
for when I have to move out.

I'm sorry?

The date for when
I have to move out of here?

Well, we're saying escrow's
gonna close on the 12th.

- That's our plan.
- Okay.

But the city's supposed to--

and I'll talk to Brian
about this, probably,

probably on Tuesday--

they're supposed to give you

an access agreement
for a few days

so that you can move out,
you know,

within a few days after that.

Okay, all right,
that's all I needed to find out.

- That's the plan.
- Okay, yep.

- Appreciate it, thank you.
- You're welcome, bye.

Take care.

So that's it.

Couple of plates, okay.

Oh, that's a few years ago now.

I can't remember when it was.

- This is amazing.
- What?

The photo of you!

You must be so young here.

I was probably early 20s.

Right there?

Before and after.

Say, what happened?

How does
a professional soccer player

end up as a motel manager?

I don't know.

I don't know, it's like--

you're a professional
soccer player for so long.

And then you're just
another guy on the street,

looking for a job.

Let me get some stuff out.

Bear with me.

This book came out,
it gives his birth,

birth of date of Bristol
on 11th of June 1947.

Tony was "Mr. Dependable."

Former city manager John Bond
made reference to Tony

in a long interview for their
local Norwich paper recently,

and despite his updated news,

I have been unable to find Tony
in his home in America.

His UK family
don't know where he is either.

So, they couldn't
track him down.

When I was growing up,

I had a great relationship
with my parents.

I had a really good relationship
with my mom and dad, you know.

When I packed up my suitcase
to move out,

my mom was really upset
that I was leaving.

My dad was going,
"Get out of here!

Come on, let's go!"

My dad just wanted me to become
the best soccer player I could.

I mean, I would never
have done anything as a kid

if I thought
it might upset my dad,

because he was...

He was too important to me.

I've dated girls,
back when I was younger.

One girl I'd gone out with
a couple of times,

her brother was, like,
he'd been out in his backyard,

and he come in, and he has
just a pair of shorts,

and he had no shirt on.

And I was thinking,

"Wow, my girlfriend's brother's
really cute."

You know?

Back then,
soccer was really, you know,

talk about being
a man's sport.

I mean, everyone
perceives an athlete,

professional soccer player
especially, probably, like,

tough guys and masculine
and, you know...

People think
every soccer player's straight.

Well, I've got news for them.

It's not true.

Powell away from Coppell.

Fashanu on to ,
nice play.

Justin Fashanu was here
when I was playing,

and he looked upon me
as a friend.

And it's sad
what happened to him.

You couldn't help liking him.

He had a great personality.

He's always joking
and playing around and...

And he was such a nice guy.

He was so much fun
in the locker room.

Everyone loved him.

He was a really cool guy.

He was a big, strong,

strapping physicality
of a center forward,

who was a very bright kid.

He was switched on.

Ryan, Fashanu--

Oh, oh, way to go!

Oh, that's a magnificent goal!

The goal sort of typified
what he could do,

which was,
he had striking athleticism.

Rapidly, he became
too good a talent

for Norwich to contain.

As far as Justin goes, I think,

if he's worth
two million pounds,

then he has to be paid the wage
of a two-million-pound player.

So, it doesn't really affect us.

And it's at that point
that Justin, I think,

was in the crossroads
in his mind,

because he was--he was
spotted in gay clubs.

Now, so what?

But when you're a footballer,

and nobody's come out
as being gay,

the police,
I believe, had heard that,

and warned them that,
"Get him out of there."

Justin Fashanu
was one of the first

million-pound footballers.

In 1990,
he stunned the football world

by declaring he was gay,

and his career suffered.

I think, arrogantly,

I thought that my position
and standing in football

was such that it would cause
a bit of a stir,

and people would have a bit
of a giggle about it,

but that would be it.

But I was...

uh, kind of rudely awakened

by the fact
that it really dug deep.

It's so messed up.

The 37-year-old
was found dead yesterday

at a lock-up garage
in East London.

It's believed he hanged himself.

Did you ever have fears
that you'd be outed

when you were playing?

I've never really
thought about it like that.

It was just--

I had a reputation,
I was kind of...

...kind of a tough guy
on the field.

I was torn, you know?

You're being somebody
you're not.

I was living in fear,
in lots of ways.

And the biggest fear, like,
my family,

"Oh, you're gay,
get the fuck out of here."

Today, if you're gay,

you can come out
to your parents, you know?

Back in the '50s, '60s?

Completely different.

And so,
just keep it to yourself,

and pretend to be
one of the boys.

He was married then.

His wife, Marilyn,

was a larger-than-life
character,

she was sweetheart.

She was gregarious.

Great personality.

I was married
at the time, but...

...it was kind of,
I don't know.

It was difficult.

It wasn't the best of marriages.

She didn't marry me because
she loved me that much.

She married me
because of the life I lived.

We'd get invited off to dinners
with different people,

and we'd go to parties
and do stuff.

So, you try
and hide everything,

and that's not easy.

Sometimes...

I'd be home by myself,
go home, and like,

"God.

Wish I could change this
or do it differently,"

or, like,
but you know you can't.

And then...

...and then,
the person I got married to...

became the person
I didn't want to be married to.

What about
after you were divorced?

Was there ever a boy
you had a relationship with?

What's he got to do with you?

Nosy bitch.

♪ There ain't no reason
why you let me wait ♪

♪ Just give me up and I will go,
let's set it straight ♪

♪ Let's set it straight ♪

♪ Got a right to who I am ♪

♪ And if I don't fit your plan ♪

♪ Then set me free ♪

♪ But you refuse
to set me free ♪

I just wanted to go somewhere
where I could be myself

and not run around
hiding from everyone.

Children who need to be taught

to respect
traditional moral values.

I got a right here!

DJ Larry Tee!

Are being taught that they have
an inalienable right to be gay.

We are coming outta the closet!

When are you
gonna come out of yours?

♪ Well, I ain't no superman ♪

What I'd done in England
is what I'd done in England.

Now I'm creating
a life here now.

♪ Just set me free ♪

♪ You get your fun
just hurting me ♪

♪ Is that how
you get your fun? ♪

♪ If this is how
it's going to be ♪

♪ Just set me free,
just set me free ♪

I honestly don't remember
when I met him.

It's probably going out
for a drink

at one of the bars
or something like that,

I must have met him there.

What was his name?

David.

♪ I place myself
in your hands to fall ♪

♪ But I'm not ♪

He was hilarious, like,

we'd go out to a club, like,

and, like, I'd be--

And he'd be
fucking flying around the floor.

So, he fucked me up there, so...

I had him with sports,

but he had me with dancing
and stuff like that.

He was completely different
from me in lots of ways.

If we went out anywhere,

everyone wanted
to be his friend.

He was happy all the time.

Like, I could slap him.

"Stop being happy
all the fucking time."

But he was so much fun
to be with.

♪ Give a damn ♪

♪ So, go find
some other man ♪

It was like a new life,
starting a new life with me.

I'm the odd one out
in these different places,

and now I'm just
one of thousands.

♪ Just turn your head
to hear my plea ♪

Maybe I should have come out
earlier and done this,

you know?

This is cool.

I love it.

It didn't last long enough.

♪ If this is how
it's going to be ♪

♪ Just set me free,
just set me free ♪

He got really sick.

And then,
you know the rest, so...

Those are some,

I think I probably have more,

but this is just
what I found yesterday.

And I thought this was cute.

All three of us at the fair.

He was my brother's partner.

He was my brother's protector,
his friend, lover.

He's actually
kind of his dad, too.

And this is where I wrote

"David and Tony were here"
in Hawaii.

And that's in '93, June of '93.

I miss Tony a lot,

and I'm not sure
the last time I talked to him.

Our last contact
was in the late '90s.

Just bring
all those pictures out.

No.

I can't, I can't.

- Why not?
- It hurts a lot.

He was an amazing person,

you wanna keep his story
out there, you wanna--

I know, but...

I can't.

Okay.

This is one.

This is David.

This is about six months
before he passed away.

I knew when I met him
he was HIV positive,

and it developed into AIDS.

They wanted to put him
into hospice, and I said no.

I kept him at home.

I remember it was like,
"Oh, we're gonna take this on."

Towards the end
it got really ugly, though,

pretty fast.

His parents came over,

his brother and sisters
came over, and...

...I was holding him
when he passed away.

Fuck.

Stop it, come on.

I mean,
it's a beautiful love story.

Yeah, it was pure love.

That's his story,
that's his life.

I'm still thinking about him.

Been a long time.

Getting old girl, ain't ya?

For however long
she lived after me,

she'd be miserable.

I'm pretty sure of that.

You have a bond with pets,
you know?

But you've not had pets,
have you? So...

But when you have one,

they're your little kids.

Did you ever
think about having kids?

Nah.

Not really.

I'm good like I am.

Is that someone at the door?

Yeah?

So, how's your job?

Good.

You gonna miss this place?

Yeah, I'm gonna miss it a lot.

Sitting outside with Sam
on the balcony every night.

To be honest, Tony doesn't
really have anybody.

It's been 21 years
I've been here.

So, I was thinking,
apartment's gonna be about 800.

He was my old manager.

Took care of me
when I needed help,

took me in.

Tony, I just kinda, like,

saw him more as, like,
a grandfather, I guess?

He's just a very caring guy.

But he doesn't judge,

I think that's the special thing
about Tony,

he doesn't give a fuck
about that.

Now it's three weeks.

I thought I was gonna get
a lot more time than that.

- This where we're doing it?
- Yeah.

Hi. Hi!

I'm Tony.

- Curtis, nice to meet you.
- Nice to meet you.

Mask is optional!

I've lived here
over 40 years...

and I've never once
been out of work.

So, paid lots of taxes,

so they should be
bloody giving me money.

Where am I gonna put
the sofa?

Right here!

That's too small.

I assume we're going this way.

Morning.

Hi.

Lots of cupboard space.

So, I have four chairs,

tall ones,
that'll fit right here.

That'd be good.

I can't wait to sit out here.

Sam's gonna love this.

I'm gonna miss this.

You're gonna miss this.

Oh, I am.

- Cheers.
- Cheers!

- Oh, wow.
- Okay.

Oh, you've got
a nice breakfast bar.

Look at the balcony,
that's only half of it.

It's the same size as yours.

No! That's only half of it.

Oh, this is nice.

And how much is this?

- Oh, it's cheap. $1700.
- $1750?

Yeah, that's what they are.

You gonna be able
to afford that?

You're gonna have to look
for another job or retire.

No, because the--

When I retire,

Social Security
will cover the rent.

Okay, yeah.

That's a really good deal, though.

All right, here.

What?

Chug it.

Wow, that's a big shot.

Okay, I'll do it from here.

Oh, that's not a shot!

No, you gave me
twice as much as that.

No, that's the same.

No, it's not.

¡Arriba, abajo,
al medio, adentro!

- Fuck you.
- Mm. Ugh.

- Fuck you, you cheat.
- I hate this shit.

- You've done half a shot.
- I hate it.

So, it's been a long time,
and it's over.

Six months from now
we're gonna walk past here,

after they turn this
into a homeless shelter,

and we're gonna be like,
"What the hell is going on?"

I have no intentions
of walking past here.

You will, though.

You won't think back
on this place?

You're just gonna
forget about it?

No, I mean, you can't forget
20 years of your life.

I moved from England here
for a different life.

If I can do that,
I can move from here

to somewhere else
a few miles away.

But you never
went back to England,

you forgot about it.

There was no reason
for me to go back, you know?

I made a new life here,
and it was good.

I mean, I've lived here now
longer than I lived in England.

So...

You're a good girl,
yes, you are.

There we go.

Ramiel, it's Tony.

I just got a phone call
from one of the apartments.

It's been approved,
I can move in on Friday.

So, thank you for all your help,

and give me a call, bitch.

All right, about time.

Come on, bitch!

Well, that's a big one.

What do you know about
Tony's family in England?

He's always been secretive
about little things,

about little details
of his life.

Especially when it comes
to his family and his friends.

Hello, welcome.

Hello!

What's up?

Good to see you.

Ready to move?

I know he has a big family.

Don't know much,

'cause he never talked
about 'em.

I don't think
he ever came out to them.

I think when he moved to LA,
to get away from England,

that's when he was able
to live his true self.

Look, Sammy, look.

Your new home.

He got a card or a letter
from his relatives...

in 2019,

and it had a photo of him
when he was younger

to prove that it was his sister.

And I, like, begged him
to, like, write back,

just 'cause that was
the first time

I even realized
he had any family.

And he wouldn't.

I don't know why.

All the way around.

And again. Stop.

Why do you think that is?

I don't know, something
must've happened, like...

...they must've judged him
for being gay,

it could be anything,
at this point.

♪ Fallen from the sky
with grace ♪

That's a heavy one.

Get in! Okay.

♪ Lucid lovers, me and you ♪

Erika and Chris
said your sister

wrote you a letter,
like, four years ago.

They did?

They said they reached out
to you with a letter

and they sent you, like,

the photographs
that you have...

...of you being a kid.

I don't remember.

And then he got
that feisty little thing...

♪ Who are you?
Who am I to you? ♪

♪ I am the Antichrist to you ♪

I'll be surprised
if they're still alive.

Yep, moving on.

The last chapter.

♪ Into your arms race ♪

♪ Who are you?
Who am I to you? ♪

♪ I am the Antichrist to you ♪

♪ Fallen from the sky
with grace ♪

♪ Into your arms race ♪

How did we know
he was in that motel?

You did phone it,
and then you phoned it again.

Yeah, the first time
I phoned and asked for him...

- He wasn't there.
- He wasn't there.

And the second time I rang,

and I know, I'm 100% sure
it was him that I spoke to,

because I said, and I mean,
I was trembling like a leaf,

"Can I speak
to Tony Powell please?"

And he said, "Who?"

I said "Tony Powell."

"No one here with that--

no one works here
with that name."

I think that's why
we decided to write.

Yeah, you're right.

Because we were
going to phone again,

and then we thought,
"No, let's write instead."

So, this is the last letter
that we sent.

So, we've put, "We have many
wonderful memories of you,

and have always wished you
the very best in everything.

We will close now,
lots of love."

We've put here,
it's 36 years now

since we last
had contact with him, yeah?

Yes, that's right.

And then you've put,
"We have enclosed

some copies of photos
which you may like to see."

Yeah.

And he must've seen that letter.

I'm going to take it in.

It was Dad that phoned
Tony's wife at the time,

Marilyn,

and he was then told
that they'd split up,

that Tony was gay.

And we never heard,
or saw, from Tony again.

You try and think,
"Where has he gone, then?"

We couldn't find him at all,

it was just like
he was wiped off

the face of the Earth.

Marilyn, one time
I had a message saying

she thought she'd heard he died?

Yes.

And Gene, Roy's wife,
said she'd heard that as well.

Clock, Great Britain.

It's just sad,
this is all I own?

It's all a big heap
in the fucking living room?

This is it?

Why's my...?

Stop.

So, your target heart rate
is 144,

you have to reach at least
85% of that number, okay?

I actually wanted one of you
to be in the photo.

I wanted both of you,
could be,

but why don't we be
in the photo too?

Kelly, could you, yeah, please?

Uh...

Maybe from here, try to get
as many of us as...

Why don't you
be in the photo here,

also, like,
looking at me from here.

You can come
a little bit further

so you can be in it.

- Okay.
- One, two, three.

So, why am I struggling
with breathing?

It could be various things,

and that's what
I'm trying to figure out,

what exactly that is.

When you came to me because
you have shortness of breath,

it suggested to me
that there is something

not right with the heart.

What do you think is the reason
that Tony disconnected?

'Cause he hadn't admitted
to anyone he was gay.

I think he thought
we'd be ashamed of him,

rather than still proud of him.

So, I presume that he just
wouldn't be able to take that.

I can't put myself
in Tony's shoes

to know what happened there,
or how it felt.

It's very personal to Tony.

I mean, I can't condone anyone
doing something like that.

Did something happen
that made you feel like

you couldn't
stay in touch with them?

Not really.

It was just that, like,

I was over here
playing soccer,

and I was, like,
traveling here quite a lot,

and they'd moved on.

You know, they'd moved on
and they got married,

and I didn't have a clue
where they were.

I had no telephone numbers
or anything to call them.

If I'd had a telephone number
I would've called,

but I didn't have anything.

And then my life
just went on and on and on,

and like, you just,
you even forget, you know?

Him walking away from us
is one thing,

but walking away
from his girls

is a totally different
ball game.

There was one day,
where, at the motel,

he got these weird phone calls

from some lady
claiming to be his daughter.

I asked Tony,
"Hey, do you have a kid?"

He didn't want
to talk about it.

Nah...

Tony's not the type
to mess with women.

I know he had been married,

and I had heard about a child,
or two children.

So, he's in touch
with his daughter?

You don't know? No, okay.

So, was there a disconnect
between him and his daughters?

For a long period of time?

I didn't even know the ages,
I didn't know the sexes,

nothing, he really
didn't wanna talk about it.

It's probably easy for people
to make judgements of me,

but you don't know
what it was like

to walk in my shoes
at the time.

I mean,
I'm not some evil bastard

that abandoned my kids,
you know?

Some people might
look at it like that.

That's not what happened.

When was the last time
you spoke to them,

do you think?

Oh, God.

Long since--

It's been a long time.

And I'm what, I'm 75 now?

That's like...

...probably
at least 35, 40 years.

What are their names?

Oh my God.

Fuck.

Oh my God, I've lost the names.

I can't fucking...

God, I can't remember
their names.

That is fucked up.

It's still going.

♪ Daydream, I fell asleep
amid the flowers ♪

♪ For a couple of hours
on a beautiful day ♪

I've lost a--

I seem like I've lost
a lot of weight recently,

I don't know why.

♪ I dreamed of you
amid the flowers ♪

I just got the medicine
from the doctor.

♪ For a couple of hours ♪

♪ Such a beautiful day ♪

♪ I dreamed of the places
I've been with you ♪

- Tony!
- No,

I haven't taken them today.

You haven't taken them
for the past three days.

Yes, I have.

No, Saturday night,

Sunday night, Sunday morning.

You haven't taken any of these.

I haven't?

No.

Fuck.

♪ Daydream, I fell asleep
amid the flowers ♪

♪ For a couple of hours
on a beautiful day ♪

♪ Daydream, come share
a dream amid the flowers ♪

Go on, go on.

Are you okay?

You okay?

Fuck, all right.

Fuck.

Hi, hi, it's...

It's Tony.

I have chest pains.

I think it's my heart.

Tony, if you're
having chest pains,

I feel like I should come
take you to the hospital.

All right.

It's right here.

It hurts.

You're feeling pain?

Yeah.

In 2002, I think,

was when the newspaper article
from Daily Mail,

about Norwich
having their centenary,

and they were
looking for players

they hadn't been able to find
that used to play for them.

One of which was Tony.

They asked me if I had any...

...any, uh...

Fuck, I'm fucked up.

They asked about family
and what...

Any family I had
back in England.

I remember
when the article came out

and Jane rang me about it,

and she was quite upset.

There was a photo of Tony
in fancy dress, with Dad,

and it was at a party,

and that was one of the photos

that appeared
in one of the papers,

accusing him
of being a cross-dresser.

Publishing somebody is gay,

then a cross-dresser,
a sex change,

I mean, shocking.

Absolutely shocking.

He hadn't harmed anyone,
he was just who he was.

And the awful sad thing,

when I think about this now,

is that the lie had to live
through...

...the front he put up.

It makes me feel sick.

It's supposed to be 60%.

So, every time the heart pumps,

it's supposed to send out
60% of the blood out.

- Okay.
- Okay?

Yours is currently sending
out 20%.

Wow.

Which is considered severe.

Wow.

So, what can be done about it?

Well, there's medications

that need to be given
for it to get better.

But it's not like,

"Here you go,
take these pills,"

and I call you in the morning
and you never show up.

These medications
are serious cardiac...

Mr. Powell?

I understand
you're being discharged.

Yes.

Wonderful, wonderful.

For good behavior.

Bless your heart.

So I can go?

Ah, you have to give me
a little bit of time...

Okay.

...to get your paperwork ready.

Okay.

But, technically, yes.

The exit, let's go.

Faster, get out of here.

Are you so excited?

What about?

I'm gonna see Sam.

Gonna make
a grand entrance, are ya?

Oh my God.

Hi, Sam.

Ah.

How you doing?

Oh, look, see,
see how grumpy she is?

Yeah.

That's how she's been all day.

- Hey?
- How she's been.

She's a grumpy little bitch.

Hi, Sammy, hi!

Are you happy to be home?

My little girl?

Fuck.

Fuck.

Sit down.

- I got you.
- No, no, I got it.

Fuck.

You got it.

Hi, Samantha.

I love you, Sammy.

I love you, little girl.

You're my best friend.

Yes, you are.

Hello. I have a problem,
and it's a horrible problem.

It's Sam, she...

She can't stand up and walk.

She just lies here.

I need to go to the vet,
I think.

You know,
the only thing you can do now

would be, like,
put your dog on IV fluids.

So, we'll put
a catheter in her,

keep her overnight.

I'm here tomorrow,

we'll touch base tomorrow.

Okay, so, I need
to call you first tomorrow?

You can call in,
but I can call you first.

As weird as it sounds, Sam...

Sam...

She's my daughter.

She is.

I'm not the only one like that,

other people
are like that with their dogs.

I think.

Can I put you on a brief hold?

Yeah, sure.

- Hi, Tony?
- Yes.

Hi, it's Dr. Kane.

Yeah, Dr. Todd, I know,
was taking care of little Sam.

Okay.

Yeah, at this point,
you know, Dr. Todd,

you know,
wanted me to bring up,

you know,
the other side of the coin

that, you know,
it may not get better.

You know, there are
no guarantees with this.

Okay, okay.

I, uh, I...

Hello?

One second, hang on.

Okay,
I don't want her to suffer.

Yeah, no--

Is it--is it--is it better

for me to have her put down?

I mean, is she...

I mean, from what Dr. Todd
was telling me last night

and from what I read
through in his notes,

that would not be,
you know, a wrong decision.

Oh...

Okay.

I'm sorry,
I'm so sorry to tell you...

I know, I mean,
I've been in this spot, too.

As much as it pains me to say,

I think we should let her go.

I don't want her
to suffer anymore.

I...okay, all right.

We can make that arrangement.

Do you want to come here?

Yes, I wanna be there with her.

What a good six months
this has been.

I've lost my job,
lost my home, now lose Sam.

It's fucked up.

I love you, Sammy.

Hi there, my name's Denise.

I believe
someone from this number

called my brother,
Roy Powell, yesterday,

with regard to Tony Powell.

Could you please give me
a call back on this number?

It's a mobile number
in the UK...

I don't think, you know--

I think you know me well enough

that if I said,
"No, I don't want to do it,"

that would be it.

Yeah.

You know, but I'm open

to making contact
with them, you know?

As a grownup, you know?

Growing up,
they're my little sisters,

I took care of them, you know?

Anyone would fuck with them
out on the street,

I was there.

I guess I want to talk to them.

Hello?

- Hi!
- Denise?

- Yeah.
- It's Tony.

Hello?

Hi, sorry, uh, um,
it's been rather...

You okay--are you okay?

Is it really you?

Yes, it's really me.

Are you sure it's you?
I just don't--

Of course, I'm sure it's me.

You're sure it's you.

So, how are you?

Besides, uh...

I'm sorry, I'm just...

You don't sound like you.

I suppose it's been
such a long time,

but you just
don't sound like you.

You don't sound like you either.

I'm 65.

Yeah, okay, and I'm 76.

Have you got a nice life now?

Have you got yourself sorted
and have a nice life?

Well, 'cause I lost--
just lost my job.

Oh no.

I was managing a motel,
I've done it for over 20 years.

So, especially,
I'm in a new apartment now.

It's nice,
it's nice and quiet here.

Have you got a dog?

Uh... uh...

She passed away last week.

Oh no.

Oh, I'm really sorry.

That must've been awful for you.

Yeah.

I had her for, like, 17 years.

She was old,
she was a little Chihuahua.

I was going to ask
about whether we could do,

like, a WhatsApp video call.

Yeah, we should.

- Hello.
- Hello!

Hi!

Oh, hi. I've got
to put my glasses on.

Have you got your glasses?

Hang on, hang on a minute.

Hang on.

Oh my goodness, look at you.

You look older
since I last saw you!

Well, thanks for that.

Well, the last time I saw you,
you were young.

Yeah, definitely.

I can't remember,
I don't know, I was 23?

The last time I saw you,
you were 23?

- Yeah.
- Okay.

That's a long time ago.

It is a long time ago, yeah.

Very long time ago.

But, um,
you just look like Dad.

Oh, really?

I look like Dad?

Yeah.

I tried looking for you
so many times, and Jane,

we tried to find you.

Yeah.

I mean, you were such...

such a lovely brother,
such a lovely brother.

And, um, we were just so sad
that we couldn't find you,

I can't tell you.

And do you remember
fighting with Roy?

I always fought with Roy.

We used to fight all the time.

And don't forget,
I'm the baby sister

all the time.

Yes, I know you're the baby.

God, you were
horrible little kids,

you were running around
all the time.

I was a goody two shoes,
I know that.

Yeah, you were, you were good.

Oh, Tony, I can't believe this.

No, nor can I,
it's been so long.

Wow.

This is so good to see you
and talk to you.

This is crazy.

I know.

Slowly, it was the eyes,
his eyes, that I thought,

"This--yeah, this is--
this could be him."

So, it's, um...

been very positive,
hasn't it?

Really positive.

We used to have a show,
didn't we?

This Is Your Life,
and there's a bit,

like, "You haven't seen
this person in 30 years.

Well, here they are now!"

It's, like, do I want
to go back and meet?

Like, I haven't seen 'em
for years.

You know, what if
they don't like me?

So, and I thought,

"It's never bothered you
in the past.

Fuck 'em
if they don't like you."

Our flight leaves
around 5:00 today.

Oh, wow.

I woke up this morning,
and I was like,

"Yes, I want to go,
I want to do it."

So, I kind of changed a lot.

Wow.

Would you believe that?

Okay, we're out.

Okay.

Thank you.

Bloody hell.

It's bloody cold.

What the hell
are we doing here?

Jeez!

I was inviting a stranger
into my house.

And that's how it felt,
and then, it got to the point,

"Well, what am I doing?

I wouldn't invite anybody else

who I didn't know
into the house."

We're here.

- Eh?
- We're here.

We're here?

They live out here
in the boonies?

La-di-da-di-da.

Could've washed the windows
while we're waiting.

What? There?

This is the house?

I feel like I'm about to meet
a king or something.

Go in slow motion,
we've done as much as we can.

I got my slippers,
is that all right?

Yes!

Yes!

Well, look at you.

Come here, come here.

You look so well.

Look at you!

It's so good to see you!

It is you, isn't it?

It is me, yes.

Hug again.

God, you could've brought
the nicer weather.

Ah.

And then, there were three.

- Thank you.
- Do you like it or not?

- What?
- Champagne?

- Yes, I'll drink anything.
- Great.

Right, well, here's to family
and the future.

- Cheers.
- New chapter.

Yes. Talking about being
in a chapter of your life now.

- Yes.
- This will be the final one.

The final chapter,
is that what you said?

Final chapter.

For all of us.

- We're all getting old.
- Yeah.

Jane and I kept saying,
"Well, what do we say?

What do we do?"

I miss that we could walk,
restaurants, bars, theater.

Okay, well, I was living
in West Hollywood.

- Which is the same.
- And it's like nightclubs and...

I'm gonna...

This will--I will find
some emotion.

I just don't know you yet.

But the fact that
you're my brother,

I'm going to give this
my best shot.

- So, um...
- So, who is Roy living with?

- He lives...
- Is Roy in a home or somewhere?

Yeah, like assisted living.

- Okay.
- So, he has carers just go in

to keep an eye on him
now and again.

Is he able to cook
or do anything?

He's never been able to cook.

No, yeah, no.
No, he was never a cook.

Jean did everything for him,
but, then--

He needed instructions
to open a can of beans.

Oh, let's give Cooper something
to stop him jumping.

Roy is too frail to have the dog
jumping up at him.

- Why did you ring the bell?
- Eh?

Why did you ring the bell?

You all right there, Roy?

Cooper.

Come on, here you go.

Glad you made it.

So glad you got here.

Hello, stranger.

Been a long time

Oh, that's Roy.
since I saw you.

When I lived with you and Jean.

He makes me feel young.

Go on then, come on, okay.

Hello!

So, this is your brother.

That's my brother.

What's up?

- How are you?
- Nice to see you.

Don't stand, you're all right,
you're okay.

- You okay?
- Yeah, yeah.

He was quite tall, wasn't he?

- Who?
- Huh?

- Who?
- Uncle Bill. Remember him?

- Yeah, he was...
- How do you feel, like,

Tony processes
difficult emotions?

I think he puts them in a box.

He goes quiet.

He is a Powell and...

...he's not very forthcoming

in wanting to talk about it.

He internalizes it.

And I'm not sure
we'd get anything out of him

if we hadn't have given him
a drink.

Oh, I could not do that.

Don't be like Dad.

Do you remember the dried peas?

Marrowfat.

Mom had put it in the pot
the night before so they soak.

Yeah, and, like,
if there was no dried peas,

he'd be like,
"Where's my bloody dried peas?

I don't want garden peas.

I want the dried peas."

I guess I don't understand
why you haven't let your family

be a part of your life
the past 40 years.

Well...

'Cause when I got to...

I mean, I started
my soccer career,

it started from then,
I left home at a young age.

- I was, like...
- You're starting way back.

- Fast-forward.
- Yeah,

but I'm consumed from then,

and that's when I lost contact.

You didn't lose contact, though.

They tried to find you.

You're living in LA
as a gay man,

and your family and your friends
cannot find you.

Is that a coincidence?

Maybe, or maybe
I was just scared.

Everything I'd done
all my life up until then,

like, I'd been accepted
by everyone, you know?

And, now, as I'm gay
and I come out,

like, it swung
all the way around,

and now I'm scared
of rejection

'cause of who I am.

And...

I lost contact...

...probably because of that,
I think.

Let's go this way.

- Kipper!
- Kipper, what are you eating?

He's eating grass, isn't he?

He'll follow us.

So, how did you get the job
at the motel?

How did I get the job
at the motel?

Yeah, can you remember?

Okay, okay, I think
when I stopped playing...

- Yeah.
- ...I wanted to get a job,

and I got a job at the motel.

Okay.

I wanted to say to him,

"Can you just tell us from--

what happened when you split up
with Marilyn?"

Because I was hoping
he would just tell the story.

Look over here.

That's a view and a half,
isn't it?

Yeah.

Don't you go falling down there.

- Let's go and have a look.
- No, I don't want to go. Stop.

He said, "There's no point
in looking at the past."

But, sometimes, you have to...

really come to terms
with the past.

I don't think
he will be able to

until he's...

sorted out things
with his daughters.

Kelly would be what there, eight?

Yeah.

And Danielle's hair was
so blonde and curly, isn't it?

- Yeah, it was, yeah.
- So, so curly.

Yeah.

Can you imagine
being in Danielle's shoes?

In Kelly's shoes?

Their father, who they believe

just walked out
and abandoned them.

I can't imagine how
just awful that must feel.

So, I mentioned that Kelly
has messaged Jane a few times

about, um, she hopes
this documentary

isn't going to--it wasn't
glorify him,

but it was something,
another similar word.

"But I hope
it's not going to be, um,

be glo--to glorify him.

Um, he was a good dad,
but then he just went.

And in my book,
there's no excuse for that."

Does that make sense?

Yeah.

Is reconnecting
with Kelly and Danielle

something that you think about?

Yeah, sometimes,
I think it'd be nice.

You know, but...

Whether that can happen,
who knows?

Could have done
a lot of things differently,

but it is what it is,
you can't change it.

Things have happened,
it's done.

So...

And we've moved on
with our lives.

Nice to meet you.

They might not have moved on
from it.

Cheers!

Well, it's been a long time.

I don't know.

Tell me, what was Denise like
when she was little?

Oh, what a pain in the butt.

No, she's wonderful.

- No, she's a great little...
- Keep going, keep going.

Did she change much? No.

She was a great little sister.

She was really great.

Take care, take care
of yourself, okay?

You look after yourself as well.

And you, you take care
of yourself.

- Want to see you again.
- You look after yourself.

No, you look after yourself.

No, you look after yourself!

It's been so good
to see you again.

- Yeah.
- It's been a long time. Okay?

So, take care of yourself,
I want to see you again, okay?

- Roy, I love you.
- I love you too.

I love you, man. Take care.

Huh?

Gonna make me cry now,
you know that.

- Huh?
- Making me cry.

I'm okay.

All right?

Bye.

It's like, I might
never see him again.

Um, I feel quite...

a responsibility now
towards him.

Um, he arrived on Sunday
a stranger.

But he's going a brother
is how I would put it.

When Tony Powell comes
onto the pitch on Saturday,

a lot of people went, "Wow,
I used to come and watch him."

So, you know, I think Tony's
probably the oldest person

we've had come back
because he's been away so long.

I don't remember anything.

It's completely changed.

It's like I've never
been here before.

'78, '79, fans voted you
Player of the Year.

So, you're on there somewhere.

There were some very scurrilous
rumors about Tony,

but nobody knew anything, really.

It's been 40 years.

But it's still
part of our history.

It all started from somewhere,

you know, and Tony
was part of that.

A little bit different
from the shirts we used to wear.

- Yeah.
- A bit lighter.

Yeah, wow.

I appreciate it,
thank you very much.

♪ One less care
to feel a bit more care-free ♪

♪ Still not sure
if I even lost or won ♪

♪ My heart was barely born ♪

I should've done this
a long time ago.

It's, like, in the past now,

but then, when you start
talking about it,

it becomes...

- ...real again.
- ♪ Something bitter

in a box of sweet memories ♪

I've always felt like,
"Shut the fuck up

and get on with your life,
and don't talk about it."

And that's what I've done
for most of my life.

And that's why I'm like I am.

I'm a bloody mess.

Tony Powell
was a great defender.

- Tough.
- Committed.

A great footballer.

Just a good brother.

Very good brother.

Remote.

- Cheers!
- Cheers.

♪ Trip around the sun ♪

I would say protector.

♪ The only way you notice time
is lines across your face ♪

Definitely protector,
and that's who Tony was to me.

Loyal.

Assertive, reliable.

Reliable.

Reliable, both as a person
and as a player.

♪ Shadow either way ♪

He was just dependable, reliable.

Probably words
he'd hate to hear, actually.

That's the one thing that feels

totally out of character
for Tony,

to not walk away
from a marriage,

but, certainly,
to walk away from the girls.

It doesn't make Tony
a bad person.

Tony is a good person
who made, maybe,

a bad decision,

a massively bad decision,
in fact, but...

And I'm hoping, for his sake
and for his daughters' sakes,

that they can find
a path forward.

"Hi, Danielle and Kelly.

I thought I would let you know
that, after 40 years,

we have received contact
from your dad.

I am sure this has come
as quite a shock for you

and raise
many difficult emotions.

Please rest assured
there is no pressure to reply

and you must do
what is best for you."

No, what's the answer?

"Thank you, Jane.

I would like to hear from him
if you could..."

"...pass that message along.

Can you give him my number
to him and only him?"

So, she's now given us
her phone number

to pass on to him,
which is great.

Which is great, I never thought
you'd get that.

- No.
- And I think, um,

Tony will be quite shocked
about that as well.

You've had some good news
about Danielle

wanting to chat to you,
haven't you?

- Yes.
- Yeah.

I guess you're feeling,
I don't know, nervous?

Okay.

Are you feeling nervous
about it?

Yeah, a little bit, yeah.

- Yeah.
- Yeah.

The goal of this conversation,
really,

is for you to have
a successful chat

with Danielle, isn't it?

Unfortunately, it's a hard one.

I don't know. All we know

is that you abandoned
your daughters and left them.

- Yeah?
- Yeah, okay, I get that.

That sounds a bit harsh,
doesn't it?

And I'm sorry
if it comes over that way,

um, but that is
the bottom line there.

Okay.

But it's gonna take
a lot of courage from Danielle.

Don't expect it
to be all joyful and...

It's gonna probably be
quite a tough call

for both of you.

Yes, I'm sure.

Well, first of all,
you don't call her a bitch

at any time.

So, the bottom line is,
isn't it,

we would like the conversation
to end with you saying,

"Can we please talk again?"

That was--that's the result,
isn't it?

- That would be a great result.
- Yeah.

That would be good, yeah.

What's the worst
that can happen?

You know?

I have no contact
with them now.

If they turn around and say,
"Fuck off,

no one wants to talk to you,"

nothing has changed.

We're gonna be able
to see one another?

No, it's just gonna be a call.

Okay, all right.

Don't want her to see me
like this.

- So, 7:00 p.m.?
- Huh?

- 7:00 p.m.?
- Yeah.

Yeah. Okay, yeah.

No, as long as it's not...

As long as she can't see me.

That's fucked up.

There's still a fear.

If I don't contact them,
I'll be okay.

But what if I try
to contact them and they--

and they turn me away
and don't want to know me?

I'm gonna feel twice as bad.

And then, I say to myself,
"Well, how do you know?

How do you know
if you don't try?"

All right, that's good.

All right, let's do it,
that's fine.

Fuck.

Hi, Danielle.

It's Tony.

How are you?

It's so good to hear from you.

What do you hope
the future holds for Tony?

Tony to have peace of mind,

that it's okay to be gay,

to be a footballer,
not to be a footballer.

Just to have peace

'cause life is moving on
quite fast, isn't it?

And not to feel regret that
the last 40 years has gone by.

Just another chapter.

A clean slate.

Kind of sad, really,
all the years I spent there,

you know, managing this place.

Wow.

Hope it doesn't get any rain.

Hopefully, he's in a good place

where he's accepting
wanting his--

some people that loved him
back in his life.

Um, so, I'm hoping he can
live out his best life

with no regrets.

Hey!

And hopefully,
I can be a part of it.

- Hi, old man.
- How are you?

We're doing this again.

I hope that he has
people around him

because he's going
to be living alone

for the rest of his life.

And that he does have
a relationship with the girls.

I'm not saying a full-on
they're around all the time,

but for them to sit down

and for Tony to answer
any questions

that they might have

that will enable them
to move on in life

and not
have this cloud over them

about what really happened.

So, whilst
we're on difficult subjects,

I know we're stood
in the middle of nowhere,

um, are you guys aware,
and is Tony aware

that he has a son?

It's a lot of shocks,
isn't it?

There's a guy called Tim

who's been looking
for his father,

and he contacted Jane.

One year, my husband bought me
a DNA testing kit.

So, Danielle did hers

and it showed I'm her aunt
and she's my niece.

And then, this other name
came up, Tim Lawrence.

He was adopted at birth.

Father name,
he wasn't mentioned

on the birth certificate.

And he came back with, "So,
do you know a Danielle Powell?"

And Jane said...

"Yes, she's my niece."

And he came back and said,
"Well, that's my half sister."

I went, "What?"

This is all breaking news
to all of us at the moment.

None so more
than it will be to Tony.

Who's Tim?

Who's Tim?

Tim is, um, uh, the--your son.

He's my son?

Who--with who?

Um, uh, he's not entirely sure
'cause he was adopted.

A woman who lived
in Bournemouth

who was a dental hygienist.

Wow.

Are you sure?

Are you sure
he's supposed to be my son?

Uh, Jane is sure.

Oh, really?

How does she know?

Uh, she, uh...

Basically, it's a DNA test,

and so he came up as
a half sibling for Danielle...

- Okay.
- ...and as a niece to Jane--

or as a nephew to Jane.

Okay.

Okay, so,
before we go back to--

any more running around
that I don't know about?

It's weird.

Does he want to meet?

Then, let's do it.