All language subtitles for S&X.S01E04.1080p.NF.WEB-DL.DUAL.DDP5.1.H.264-RUDR

I…

can't have sex.

Huh?

So I wanted you to know that
the problem was with me that night.

I like you.

Will you

go out with me?

Um…

I thought I'd pushed you away.

So I'm glad that's not it.

But…

Um…

When you say you can't do it…

Why is that?

That's…

Well…

If you don't tell me,

I don't know how to respond.

You're right.

It's just…

Are you Ichinose, the reporter?

Yes.

May I shake your hand?

I'm a fan of yours.

-Thank you.
-Excuse me.

Can I…

take some time to process this?

Sorry.

I'm sorry.

BE AWARE OR YOUR SURROUNDINGS!

NO MORE UPSKIRTING

How about "Japan's Top Ten
Face-in-Hole Boards"?

Hmm.

It'd be great if you could go
all over Japan for it, Miku.

Let's go with ramen to be safe.
"The Latest in Local Ramen."

Got it.

But we just did
"New Ramen Hotspots" last week.

Then beer.
"The Latest in Local Craft Beer."

-Beer?
-Let's do that.

-All right.
-Beer.

Excuse me.

Could we do a feature on upskirting?

It was down to either
ramen or beer in my mind.

Yes, but…

I thought those station posters
telling potential victims to be careful

had become less common.

But I saw one again today.

Even on trains or escalators,
women often wonder,

"Did someone just take a picture of me?"

So…

Is it really “women,” or just you
who feels that way because of your job?

What do you think, ladies?
Do you feel the same way?

What do you think?

Well…

I think it's a good idea.

We did a feature when the law
against photo voyeurism passed.

Maybe we could look at
what's changed since it was enacted,

and whether it's actually
had a deterrent effect.

Fine.

Mitarai, could you get started
on the interview and proposal for now?

Got it.

Thank you.

We'll move forward with it for now,
but let's keep the beer idea going too.

Right.

Thank you

for backing me up earlier.

I just thought it was
a feature worth covering.

Also,

I'm sorry for canceling
at the last minute the other day.

Don't sweat it.

You're having lunch with me now.

Refills are free. Please help yourself.

-Here.
-Thank you.

I've been meaning to sit down
and talk with you.

You know…

Back when I was your mentor,

I got to hear a lot
about what you wanted to do.

But now…

Ichinose, did you want to quit?

Huh?

The show.

Or being an reporter altogether.

So you noticed, huh?

That's why I was worried.

But after today's meeting,
I think you'll be okay.

You seem more like yourself again.

Yes.

I've ditched the diapers,
tightened myfundoshi,

and I'll forge ahead.

Glad to hear it.

Thank you for waiting.Xianglapork?

That's me.

Here you are.

Enjoy your meal.

But I'm glad

you cared that much for me.

Of course.

To me, you're an important…

You're important to me.

Today, until the sand runs out,

say whatever words come to mind,

regardless of their order or meaning.

-"Words"?
-Yes.

Putting fragments of your memories
into words helps you organize the trauma.

Then, eventually, you'll be able to talk
about what happened in your own words.

Once you can do that,
you may be able to stay calm

even in situations
where your body would usually react.

Smell.

Night.

Sound.

Bed.

Stop.

Laughter.

Fingertips.

Canned beer.

Cigarettes.

Shower.

Festival.

Lanterns.

My father's voice.

A house I don't know.

An arched window.

Skin.

Glass.

Hammer.

A voice saying, "Stop."

Scalpel.

Blood.

S&X

I'm Kanie, his attorney.

You were arrested for upskirting?

Yes.

The case was settled with the victim,
and the charges were dropped.

As part of the agreement,

he must undergo treatment
at a specialized clinic

to prevent reoffending.

I regret what I've done.

I'll never do it again.

Did you use your smartphone?

Yes.

I used this.

My wife smashed the camera

so I couldn't do it again.

For the sake of their son,
who knows nothing about this,

she's decided not to divorce him.

I want to get better
for the sake of my wife and son.

Doctor,

please help me!

What?

I don't understand it at all!

Why would he do that?

It makes no sense.

He's got a wife and a kid too.

No wonder he's so desperate to quit.

But I thought upskirters

were more like creepy guys
who can't get girls.

About half of upskirting offenders
have college degrees,

about half are company employees,

and about 40% are married.

Do you know what this means?

They sound just like ordinary people.

Right. They're typical Japanese men.

What's more, about 40%
don't use the material for themselves.

For themselves?

I mean, masturbation.

Some never even look at the photos.
They delete them right away.

I seriously don't get it.

It's the same with groping.

About half of offenders don't even
get an erection during the act.

In other words,
they're not groping or upskirting

for sexual gratification.

What?

Then what's the point of doing it?

Huh? I don't understand it at all!

Wait, are you copying me?

What are you doing
on your day off tomorrow, Saikawa?

Tomorrow?

Nothing much.

No way! You want me
to wear a skirt and get upskirted?

Of course not.

That would totally be harassment.

Absolutely.

-Then what is it?
-Of course.

What the heck is this?

I asked Natsume
to photograph a day in your life.

Come on. Why would you do that?

-Sorry.
-Sorry.

What?

No way. I had no idea!

What was it like doing it yourself?

It was really nerve-racking.

I kept worrying, "Can I get a good shot?
What if I get caught?"

When I managed to do it,
it was such a relief.

People get hooked on that cycle
of tension and relief,

not sexual desire.

Oh, I see.

I think I kind of get it now.

It reminded me of playing
hide-and-seek as a kid,

watching the seeker run around
while you stay hidden.

That thrill.

It's a desire for control.

The sense of superiority
from watching others at a safe distance.

So when I got this shot…

Hey! Stop that!

I was nice enough not to print it.

I'm serious. Delete it now.

Sorry.

Man, this feels terrible.

If someone photographed me like this,
I'd never want to go out.

That's how photo voyeurism
threatens your sense of safety

in everyday life.

To be honest,

I'd been taking it too lightly.

If this happened to my girlfriend?

That would be unacceptable.

The other day, Mr. Ikeuchi said
he wanted treatment for his family's sake.

And you agreed with him.

But the reason we provide treatment

is also to prevent more people
from becoming victims.

Whenever I try to get on a train,

I feel like I can't breathe.

So I transferred to a school
within walking distance.

I was worried that photos of me
might be online,

and I became afraid to go
on social media or browse the internet.

I started to hate
even looking at my phone.

Has it affected your daily life?

I can't

go outside anymore…

After interviewing them,
I felt this was a feature worth doing.

He said the victims' accounts
were too gloomy.

Well, that sounds like something
Producer Kujo would say.

But

the victims seemed downbeat
because of what the perpetrators did.

Of course they can't be cheerful.

So anyway,

I'm sorry.

We'll have to put
your commentator role on hold.

That's totally fine.

Let me know if your show pitch
gets approved.

I'll definitely get it approved.
No matter what.

What makes you so invested?

Well…

I was a victim myself,

but that's not the only reason.

Send it! Come on, now!

Dude, you're crazy!

-Send it.
-Idiot!

Got it!

Whoa.

Sorry.

I'm sorry.

Back then…

He didn't ask me anything.

He just stayed by my side.

Why couldn't I…

Why couldn't I wait until he was ready

to talk about it?

Do you remember the first time
you secretly photographed someone?

Yes.

It was in my first year of college.

I accidentally caught a glimpse
under someone's skirt.

It took my breath away.

It was like all the stress
from studying disappeared.

I wanted to see it again.

I thought it'd be a shame
to never get another chance.

So with the flip phone I had, I…

After that,

I started doing it
whenever I got stressed from studying.

The first time you got caught
was your senior year?

Yes.

That time, it was on an escalator.

A station staff caught me.

Since I was job hunting at the time,

my lawyer asked the victim
to take my future into consideration.

The settlement was paid,
and the case was dropped.

After that, I stopped for a while.

But with work stress

and smartphones making it easy
to take clear pictures…

How many times have you done it so far?

I've never really kept track.

Maybe two or three times a week.

Even with the breaks I've taken,
it's been about 15 years.

Two thousand one hundred sixty.

After doing it for all those years,

this is your second arrest.

Yes.

This time, I thought she wanted
to be photographed.

She came over
and stood right in front of me.

It seemed like she noticed
I was taking photos,

but she didn't seem to mind.

I figured she might be the type
who likes being photographed.

In your case,

it appears the station
is a trigger for you.

Can you adjust your daily routine
to avoid going near stations for now?

Maybe drive to work instead?

Yes. I can do that.

All right. Let's do that.

This is your homework until next time.

I'd like you to keep a record
of how you felt each day.

If you got through the day peacefully,
use a blue sticker.

If you couldn't stick to your routine
or felt upset, use a yellow sticker.

If you felt the urge to do it again,
use a red sticker.

Be honest when you record it.

Okay.

He thought she wanted to be photographed.

That's a classic cognitive distortion.

Yes.

It's the same with groping.

They see the victim freeze in fear

and interpret it as them wanting it
because they didn't resist.

How can he think that way?

He knows he has to stop, but he can't.

People can't live with that contradiction,
so they try to justify it.

Deep down, he may also hold
male-chauvinistic beliefs

that women should accept
men's sexual desires.

It's like he views women as objects.

He did say he only took photos
up their skirts, not their faces.

He chooses his targets
based on how they look from behind.

It's like he doesn't even
see them as people anymore.

What should we do?

First, we have to correct
his cognitive distortions,

or we can't even begin his treatment.

YUMI ICHINOSE

Hey. Shouldn't you take that?

It's fine. Our next client--

By the way, this is delicious.

Right?

How do you know so much about sweets?

Assuming old men don't know about sweets
is a cognitive distortion too.

Isn't that just prejudice?

It is.

But when you spend time
with younger students,

you naturally pick up on these things.

Wow. Which place has the best--

Actually, I'm going to call them back.

I'm sorry about the other day.

I shouldn't have pushed you to talk

about something you weren't
comfortable with.

Do you remember?

In middle school,

I was secretly photographed.

Back then,

you didn't ask me anything.

You just stayed by my side.

You said, "Talk to me when you're ready."

"Whether anything's happened or not,

I'll listen whenever you want to talk."

Those words really saved me.

So I'll wait too.

I'll wait until you're ready
to talk about it.

Thank you.

Actually,

I'm treating a client who's addicted
to photo voyeurism right now.

I was also

thinking about what happened back then.

I don't want anyone else to experience

what you went through.

But

he doesn't realize there are victims.

He doesn't feel like he's hurt anyone.

I don't know what to do.

Shimotori.

What if

he could hear from the people
who have been hurt?

FACT-FINDING RECORD ON STAFF CONDUCT

July 31st, Arakawa Station.

Were you arrested
for upskirting, Mr. Ikeuchi?

Huh?

Someone from the company
happened to witness it.

It's become the talk of the office.

Yes, I was.

We'd like you to stay home
while we decide on disciplinary action.

Thank you for calling me.

I…

I don't care anymore.

I don't even know why
I should keep getting treatment.

When I stop upskirting,

I feel like I've lost my reason to live.

That's what addiction is.

But

you were able to seek help on your own.

That's why I thanked you for calling me.

So you'll be okay.

Deep down, I know you want to quit.

Your prescription is ready.

This may be very difficult for you.

Are you ready for it?

Yes.

Please help me.

If you want to stop,
please tell me anytime.

Okay.

Thank you for agreeing
to this interview today.

Not at all.

Let's get started.

I see.

I've told my family
about what happened at work.

This time, I'm determined to quit.

That's why I'm…

You're undergoing treatment?

Yes. That's right.

Thank you.

Finally, would you like to watch
the footage we mentioned earlier?

Yes.

Please.

All right.

These are people
who heard about this interview

and wanted to share their own experiences.

We filmed them for today.

Just to confirm, may we show your face?

Yes.

Thank you.

May we show your face?

Yes.

Thank you.

You only need to answer
what you're comfortable sharing.

Could you tell us about what happened?

I was upskirted on a train.

Even now,

I'm too scared to take the train.

Going to crowded places,

or even just seeing a train,

makes me remember that time.

And I freeze up.

Last year,

I went to an outdoor hot spring
with my family.

I made eye contact with a man

who was filming me.

I thought, "Just because I'm a woman,

I still have to go through this
even at this age?"

I also felt sorry for my daughter.

I was secretly photographed
in the locker room and restroom at work.

The photos were posted online.

Whenever a man comes near me,
I'm afraid he might do the same thing,

or that he's seen those photos of me.

I couldn't even leave my house.

And now…

I'm seeing a doctor

and taking medication.

Is there anything you'd like to say
to those engaging in voyeurism

who are watching this now?

I'd like to ask them, "Why me?"

Did I do something wrong?

Am I to blame

for being a woman?

Actually, in the past, I…

In the past,

I was also secretly photographed.

That's crazy!

In middle school…

-Send it.
-Idiot!

…some boys in my class

took photos of me and shared them around.

That alone was shocking, but…

Teenage boys are idiots, you know?

But they've got entrance exams coming up.

Can you let this slide?

Come on.

Look on the bright side, Ichinose!

This just means you're prettier
than the other girls.

My homeroom teacher's words
deeply hurt me.

And isn't your skirt shorter
than the dress code?

It's like you're asking
for your picture to be taken.

That day…

I'll lecture them.

…my dignity and my voice

were taken from me at the same time.

Just like the women in this video.

Every single victim

has a face and a voice.

They are human beings
with their own will and identity.

Please don't ever

forget that.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

Do you think he'll be able to quit?

There's no complete cure for addiction.

What?

All you can do is face
the harm you've caused

and keep working to stay clean
for the rest of your life.

I see.

So you can never really say, "I've quit."

You just keep adding days
where you didn't do it.

And that's why we're here
to help them do that.

I realized something today.

My voice was taken from me twice.

The first time was in middle school.

The second time was
when I became a reporter

and was expected to play a certain role
as a weather presenter.

But I'm glad I got to speak up today

in my own voice and in my own words.

It reminded me that
this was the kind of reporter

I wanted to become.

All right.

I'm gonna get this feature approved!

About the other day…

Sorry.

I know I said I'd wait
until you were ready to talk about it.

Can I just ask you one thing?

Sure.

When you said you can't do it…

did you mean "not yet"?

I see.

I'm glad to hear that.

I…

I like you after all.

So

my answer is yes.

Thank you.

Then…

Looks like they're having fun.

Shit. Don't look this way, damn it!

Subtitle translation by: Yuki Asami