All language subtitles for Double.Lives.of.Suburban.Wives.S01E01.1080p.WEB.h264-EDITH

[Tammy] Cheers to girls' days
and getting out of the house

every once in a while.

-[gasps]
-Right in my eyeball.

[Tammy]
On the surface, it may look
like we are typical housewives,

but we're not.

Behind our perfect
suburban lives

are the secrets nobody sees.

♪ Now tell me,
how you gonna get ♪

[Tammy] I was a registered
veterinary technician.

[Megan] I was a teacher.
I was struggling.

[Bruce] Being on food stamps,
not having a place to live.

[Macy]
I was full time as a nanny.

I'd wake up before our son.

I would get back in the last
hour of his day.

[Drew] What can we do to make
the most money

that gives us the most time
with our families?

[Tammy] I don't know what
the right answer is.

I need your guys' help.

[Tammy]
Down the stairs, through the
basement, through the garage.

We do full-time adult spicy
content for work now.

Whoo!

She would shower and walk away
with four or five grand.

Jim and I have kind of been
keeping like a big secret.

-Is it a good secret?
-Adult content.

I'm known for being
the natural MILF.

[producer speaking]

Can you say that?

Let's get some new moms
in here.

Started as a fun social media
group that we have.

[Brianna] Women like having fun,
creating content.

That's the money shot.
Make love to the camera.

Thank you guys so much
for all your advice.

To living this life together.

One person found out,
then two people found out.

I lost my job.

I'm hiding such a huge part
of my life.

That's a lot for your kids
to take in.

Being a Christian,
I do struggle with that.

My dad has no idea.

It was a bit of a earthquake
through the family.

-You're still talking.
Shut the [bleep] up.
-You're right, I am, Jim.

I have no sex life
with my wife.

What?

I caught him for,
like, the second time.

Divorce is not off the table.

♪ This kind of thing ♪

Makes me wonder if we thought
it all the way through.

♪ How you gonna get ♪

-I manage the talent.
-Nobody can manage all this.

Hopefully we won't need it,
but safety first.

If anybody needs band aids
and stuff, we got it.

I'm Tammy.

I live in the suburbs with
my amazing husband, Drew,

and two great kids.

We're your pretty typical
suburban family,

for the most part.

-You guys ready to play?
-They'll be here soon.

Here you go.

I'm passionate about my faith,

involved in the church
community,

and I'm kind of the glue that

keeps this crazy bunch
of moms connected.

Bri and I go way back.

She's one of
my closest friends.

She always had an eye
for the little details.

If she's planning something,

you know she's gonna want it
just right.

[Brianna] Make sure
you're really good today.

You know that's hard for me.

[laughs]
Do I?

[Tammy] And that's Bri's
husband, Phil.

He's kind of a cutie,
not gonna lie.

-Oh!
-[Phil] Yeah, I wish
these weren't so pretty.

I was definitely
gonna be swiping them.

Thank you for bringing them.

[Tammy] And honestly,
they've always looked like

they've had it figured out.
-Hey, Phil!

-[Phil] Hi, you guys
look very pretty.
-How are you?

[Tammy] Miss Macy.
We call her Church Girl.

Faith and church are
the biggest parts of her life,

which is why we get along.

[Jim]
You want to help, little man?

[Tammy] Macy and Jim have
the most traditional marriage

in the group.
-Hello, buddy.

[Tammy] They are so close,
they even share one vehicle.

Where do you guys want this?

[Tammy] Not because
they can't afford it.

It's so they can spend
more time together.

[Macy] I got
all the healthy snacks.

[Heather]
Well, this is where they said
to go, but I don't see anybody.

-Stop turning it around.
-I don't know where to go.

Wasting gas.
Suck at driving.

[Tammy] Our girl, Heather,
she's a full-time working mom

with a really stressful
corporate job.

Help me.

[Tammy] She got pregnant
in high school,

had a ton of kids.

-Is this the right way?
-I think we go this way.

[Tammy]
And to be honest with you,
I don't think she's ever known

what an organized,
calm life is.

-Said she's at the dock?
-The dock across the lake?

-Oh, I see the dock.
-Heather!

-[Heather] There they are.
-Oh, I see them.

Other side.
Go way around.

Do you know if Megan's coming?

-[Tammy] She said she was
coming, so yeah.
-Got ya.

[Tammy]
And then there's Megan.

She was a high-school teacher,
and I've lost count

of how many college degrees
she has.

Interestingly, everyone
in her family,

including her husband Tyler,
work in the funeral business.

-How are you? Good.
-Good, how are you?

[Tammy] She's like a real-life
Morticia Addams.

Did you have any trouble
finding the place?

-I know it's kind of
off-the-beaten-path.
-A little bit, yeah.

-Yeah.
-I got lost, too, if it makes
you feel any better.

You guys want
to go play soccer?

[Tammy]
Bri and Megan used
to be attached to the hip.

It's right there, baby.

[Tammy]
But then, the two of them
went through something

that rocked our whole community.

-[thunder rumbles]
-Oh, I hear thunder.
Just move this over.

I'm checking the weather.

[Tammy]
And since then, there's been

this growing tension
between them.

But neither one of them
want to address it.

-Want me to grab you one?
-Sure, thank you.

I don't care which one.
I'm not picky.

-Wow, those are pretty.
-I know.

[Tammy]
Trust me when I tell you,

it has not been easy
on the rest of us.

-Do I have carrots in my teeth?
-Let me see.

-I don't see anything.
-All right, thanks.

-Do I?
-No, you're good.

So, kind of, what's the vibe
for Phil's hoedown?

Oh, it's like, what you would
wear to, like, a normal,

like, party we would go to,
but, like, imagine it being,

like, hoedown-style.
-[Macy] OK.

-[Tammy] Just turn it
up a little bit.
-[Brianna] Yeah.

Everybody's invited
to the party, so...

Yeah, I think
it'll be a good time.

[Tammy] Yeah.

-I need to go shopping, then.
-[Emily] Hi.

[Tammy]
Hey, Emily's here.

-Hi!
-Hey, oh, my gosh.

-Look at those flowers.
-That's pretty.

[Emily]
We come with gifts.

[Brianna] Oh, and they, like,
match the cupcakes.

-I can take this
for you, if you want.
-[Tammy] Let's find a spot.

[Tammy]
Emily is a wild card.

She's new to us and still kind
of the outsider of the group.

Guys, this is Emily,
for those of you guys

that haven't met her.

-Megan, Heather, Bri, Macy.
-Nice to meet you.

[Emily] Let me
bug spray you guys.

[Tammy]
I thought Emily and her husband
Nathan were really fun.

You didn't get my arm.

[Tammy]
But not everybody is on board

with letting just anyone
into the group.

[Emily]
Those are the most beautiful
cupcakes I've ever seen.

Seriously?
Aren't they really?

All right, ladies,
we should break out

my little surprise.
-Oh boy!

Cheers to girls' days
and getting out of the house

every once in a while.
-Oh!

What?
[gasps]

OK, here, here.

It went right in my eyeball.

You know, from the outside,
we probably look like

every other family
in the neighborhood.

Cheers!

-Cheers!
-Cheers to wine!

Brooklynn, get out of here.

We're moms, we're wives,
we're friends.

[thunder rumbles]

-Guys, it's raining!
-Everybody got their kids?

[Tammy] But the truth is,
you never really know

what's going on
in somebody else's life.

[Heather]
I see no pavilion.

[Tammy]
Everybody's hiding something.

Jesus, I pray right now that
you would take away the rain

so we continue to have fun
in the sun.

-Amen.
-Amen.

[Tammy]
Funny thing about secrets.

They never stay buried forever.

[singer vocalizing]

[Tammy]
Good morning, Rekishi.

Looking good, Monty.

Why am I so obsessed
with plants?

Uh, I'm a nurturer.

I know all the genealogy
and family history of all of

my plants.
Like, they have names.

I know where I got them from.

I know everything
about my plant babies.

[singer vocalizing]

[cat meows]

I am a huge cat lover
and plant enthusiast.

[Drew]
She spends all of her money
on coffee and plants.

No, no, no, I don't.

Oh, gosh -- I have no idea
how many plants I have.

It's over 100.

I have several rooms
full of plants.

But, like, I bought
my shirt online for $20.

Him and I
are completely different

when it comes to money.

No one can tell
the difference, but this shirt,

I think, was 98 bucks.

-You're ridiculous.
-Well --

This is why I have to be
cheap, because...

Drew and I met in college.

I was an RA,
resident assistant.

I had to go round up all of
the students to go to

some kind of orientation.

I knocked on these girls' door,
and this cute little face

looks up at me,
wearing just her little nightie.

And I knew right then, like,
"That's the one I want."

♪ I know where I belong ♪

And we've been together now
for almost 15 years.

[Brooklynn]
That's a car?

That's a -- that's a wheel.

-[farting]
-[giggling]

-[Tammy] Who farted?
-Not me.

You all have your own brand.
You can smell.

I can tell whoever did it
by the smell.

-Nasty.
-I didn't!

-I think the lady
doth protest too much.
-[Tammy] I don't know!

-[grunting] Shut up!
-[laughing]

[Tammy] We have two kids,
Brooklynn and Cohen.

I had just dreamed I wanted
to grow up and get married

and have kids and just have
this, like, super,

like, domestic life.
And I love that.

-[Brooklynn] Look
at the rainbow!
-[Tammy] Aw, look!

[Drew] You guys know
what the rainbow means?

-[Brooklynn] That
you'll be lucky?
-No.

-Oh.
-The rainbow is a mark of
the covenant so that the Lord

promises never to flood
the earth again.

I deeply believe in faith,
family, God.

My parents always had Christian
values, so to be able to show

that to my kids
is really special,

and I take that
really seriously.

Five minutes, we got
to leave for the bus.

-[Brooklynn] I'm already ready.
-OK. Look at you go.

I am always doing mom stuff,

getting the kids
ready for school.

Let's get to the bus stop.

I'm always involved in
extracurricular activities with

the kids and scheduling
family time.

-You have cheer and jiu-jitsu
today, girl.
-OK.

My previous career was

as a registered
veterinary technician.

I did that for 20 years.

I absolutely loved it.

But then I did experience
a miscarriage between Brooklynn

and Cohen, and that was
really hard.

Like, it's hard losing a child,
no matter how old they are.

Look both ways.
Good.

After my miscarriage,
it actually took a while for me

to get pregnant
the second time.

When I finally found out
I was pregnant with Cohen,

we were told that
it was high risk,

and I was working really
long hours.

I was on my feet a lot,
and I already experienced

a pregnancy loss, I didn't want
to potentially do something

that could contribute
to that happening again.

So I quit my job.

[Drew]
I really felt like

she should have quit
her RVT job...

-Oh yeah.
-...so long before
she actually did.

However, after that,
all the financial burden

was on me, which was fine
for me at the time,

because I used to work in sales,
and I was approaching

six figures a year.

But COVID happened, and I got
laid off from my job.

Then we had to decide what
we were gonna do after that.

So I decided to get back
to work.

For the last couple of years,
I've been doing something

a little unconventional.

I'm not exactly hiding it,

but some people
might judge me for it.

Yeah, I have a double life.

I am known as Tammy
to a lot of my friends, family,

but a lot of people
in our online space

know me as Erika Swingz.

♪ I'm that -- I'm that bitch
Yeah ♪

♪ I'm that -- I'm that bitch ♪

And I make adult content.

Erika Swingz is the name that
I go by online for my content.

Adult content creation is
anything from texting with fans

to, like, selling pictures

to selling worn clothing items.

To making more explicit videos.

OK, Diary Cam.

I'm sure it's gonna be
a great time.

It wasn't until doing
adult content

that I really came
into my confidence.

♪ Mwah ♪

When I met Drew,
I was very, very shy.

I definitely was very
self-conscious about my body.

I did not consider myself
attractive at all.

[Drew]
She had no self-confidence.

She kept telling me,"
No, I don't want to wear that

because I don't feel like I
could pull that off, whatever."

-Yeah.
-And I said, "Babe,
you, you are so hot."

And I said, "You know what?

I'm gonna post
a picture of you online."

And she like,
"Really?"

And I was like,
"If you're OK with it."

And I was like, "No face.
It'd just be like your butt."

And so I posted that online

and it just blew up.

That was the start of
her coming out of her shell

and getting a little
more confidence.

And it got a ton of attention
right off the bat,

and people wanted
to see more of her.

Pictures, videos,
audio messages.

So I thought maybe I could
make money by doing this,

but that was a huge struggle,
especially with my faith.

Thank you.

The Bible is a record of us
getting to know God better.

Being a Christian and being
in the adult content world,

it's just as it sounds.

It is very clashing,
so I do struggle with that.

Like, yeah, I'm...

I'm contributing
to somebody lusting.

-Thank you.
-Thank you, appreciate it.

Sometimes I wrestle with God
and think about how my job

and my lifestyle
could cost me a normal life.

But I'm not the only one
carrying something

that could change everything.

There are secrets in this group,

and once everything comes out,

nobody's lives
will be the same.

I think that somebody over
there is taking our picture.

[Tammy]
Are you for real?

-[Macy] I'll be right back.
-[Tammy] OK.

I can get a little nervous
because I don't know if someone

might recognize Tammy and think

that I do the same stuff
that she does.

I mean, my feelings
still are pretty hurt.

Bri did something that
I'm still trying to get over.

[singer vocalizing]

-Hey.
-Hey.

Think it's safe to cross?

-[Tammy] I think it's OK.
-[laughs]

-How are you?
-Good -- how are you?

Macy is one
of my best friends.

We're both natural,
like, nurturers

and peacemakers
and women of faith.

[Macy] OK, this is --
this is you, girl.

-You gotta get that.
-The cat one.

-Feeling frisky.
-OK, everything that I see

with a cat is a yes.
-I love it.

Tammy is my friend.

I'm aware and I accept that
she's an adult content creator,

but at the same time,

I come from a very
conservative background.

All my family and friends
are very religious.

Oh, actually,
I really like those.

Jim got me this necklace
for my birthday one year.

And I used to be
really bad about losing jewelry.

-Why am I not surprised?
-Especially the stuff
that he gets me.

I know.

-You're like, "Where is
my -- I don't know."
-[Macy] I know.

Sometimes I think I'd lose
my head if it wasn't attached

to my body, you know.

Jim and I have been married
almost six years.

[Jim]
I saw her from across the room
at a restaurant one time

with some friends.
I asked my buddy, "Who is that?"

And they said,
"Oh, that's Macy."

I'm like, "Oh, I'm gonna
talk to her."

And I went straight up to her,
and she told me to go to church.

[Macy laughs]

That is really pretty.

I wanted to know that
he loved Jesus and had

a good relationship with God.

But then he kept consistently
coming back to church,

and we built a good friendship.
We were friends for a while.

That's not what happened.

So I had lost a lot of weight

before Macy took me seriously.
-[Macy] Oh my gosh.

-And, no, I'm playing kind of.
-I mean, no, that is true.

I'm glad you were persistent.

I saw some girls at church
checking you out or, like,

talking about how cute
you were and stuff.

They were, like, 60.

This is exactly
what I need at my house.

Ooh, what about these?
I love these.

-Those, uh, those are hibiscus.
-OK.

These are about, like,
the size I need for my monstera

that, um, Jim gave me.
-Yeah.

Um...hey.

-Hm?
-I think that somebody over
there is taking our picture.

Are they for real?

Do people, like, recognize
you around here, or...?

I mean, it's possible
that somebody recognized me

as Erika Swingz,
but, like, out here like this?

-[Macy] I'll be right back.
-[Tammy] OK.

[Macy]
I grew up in church my whole
life, so when I first heard

about adult content,

I didn't even know
what it was, honestly.

I was so sheltered,

whenever my mom gave me
the sex talk,

she, like, handed me
the purity ring

and explained to me, like,
to save myself for marriage.

Crap, I don't have it.

So, sometimes when Tammy
and I are out in public,

I can get a little nervous
because I don't know

if someone might recognize her
and think that I do

the same stuff that she does.

So, I typically will always
just bring my wig

because then I am in disguise.

-I think he went into one
of those stores, so...
-Really?

-But just to be safe, 'cause...
-OK, yeah.

Do you want to go in
the boutique

and see what else
we can get?
-Yeah.

I know -- I think we need
to get something

for Bri and Phil's party, right?

The first time that you showed
up to my house with all of it,

it took me some getting
used to.

-Yeah.
-Yeah.

I just want to see
her regular hair,

but I know who's
underneath the wig.

That's funny.

If it has the right ones --
I can't see, crap.

-Literally can't see anything.
-[Tammy] You want mine?

They're not as, like --
you might be able to see

through them and they're not
so restrictive.
-Yeah.

Yeah, yeah,

-I know.
-[Tammy] Are you...

Is that better?

-Yeah, that's -- that's
a lot better.
-OK.

Are you going to wear
that to the party?

Yeah, that's my plan,
because I feel like it's going

to be a lot of content creators,
you know what I mean?

Yeah.

So, I'd like to be able to
finally, like, just come out

and be honest with everyone

that I'm Julie, also known as
Church Girl.

♪ I'm hot, hey♪

♪ Yeah, what you know about it♪

[Macy] I've been undercover
as an adult content creator

for three years now.

I am called Church Girl
because I really do love Jesus.

And no one in my normal life
knows that I do this.

Whenever I'm not in disguise,

I am...

Oh, God.

Ow!

This is not smooth.
[bleep].

Macy.

♪ What about it
Want to come over Friday night ♪

♪ So if that's all --
that's all right ♪

♪ Lets ride ♪

Hey, bud.

Did you have a good nap?

-No.
-No?

You wanted to sleep longer?

When we got pregnant with Leo,
we were not planning

on having kids at that point.
-[Macy] No.

I think a lot of people are
like, "Oh, we need to have

"all of our ducks in a row

and everything like that,"
and...

-We had no ducks.
-No.

Take those for me, bud.

I don't like these.

[Macy] I know.

I was working full-time
as a nanny when Jim

had his sales job.

He was working,
like, 60 hours a week.

I would work all day long.
I'd wake up before our son.

I would get back in the last
hour of his day.

-I didn't even get to see him.
-[Macy] Yeah.

It made my wheels start
to turn in my head of, like,

what other ways can we have,
like, the money but still

have our time?

And then he heard
about content.

The first time I recommended
posting her nudes online,

the look on her face
was like...

[Macy] Yeah, exactly.
Like, is this a test?

-You know? Yeah.
-Yeah.

There you go.
Five more.

Fast, fast, fast, fast.

Doing adult content wasn't
something that I just decided

to do overnight.

It was a lot of, like, internal
kind of struggles that

I had to wrestle with and kind
of some sleepless nights.

And a lot of conversations
between me and Jim.

That was awesome, dude.

What it came down to is
time is priceless.

I wanted Jim to have
that time back with me,

but more importantly, with Leo.

Good night, bud.

-[Jim] Hey, babe.
-[Macy] Hey.

-That's really cringey.
-Yeah, that's super cringe.

I'm taking that one out.

So I posted, like,
just a little nip slip,

and I was just mind-blown
at the reaction that I got.

The compliments she was getting,

she just like fell in love.

Then it just kind of
took off from there.

She was doing what they call
shower stream.

She would not even
make it sexy.

She would shower and walk away
with four or five grand

just by taking a shower.

That guy bought three pairs
of panties from this next week.

Absolutely no one in my family
or my community knows

that I do adult content.

These -- we need to mail
these out.

[Jim] They think that
Macy's a stay-at-home mom.

-Yeah.
-And I do day trading.

[Macy] Did I tell you that
Tammy got recognized with me?

I was like, "What
the [bleep] is happening?"

I'm sorry.

And having to accept that
with us, like, coming out,

that that is probably
going to happen to me,

just kind of feel like...

-[Jim] Are you scared?
-Yeah, I'm scared.

It's really only a matter
of time that people

put two and two together,

that I do adult content.

And we would rather it come out
with us being able to tell

our side of the story
and control the narrative.

My sin, quote unquote,
is out there in public,

but then they're just
doing it behind closed doors.

Publicly, it's talked
down upon.

Why is that OK, though?

Oh gosh.

I am most worried about my dad.

We are, like,
super, super close.

And I feel like he's gonna
be disappointed in me.

People that we've been hiding,
like, this huge secret from,

that because they're probably
not going to agree, that just,

I don't know, it hurts.
-[Jim] I get it.

I've pretty much accepted
that I'm losing all my friends.

We live in a small town.

Your reputation and your name
carries a lot of weight.

So what makes this very
difficult and complicated is

that my dad is a pastor,
and he has no idea

that I do adult content.

I'm really scared.

Hearing that from you
is like a huge lie,

and that's like
a slap in the face to me.

I hope it doesn't, you know,
boil into something

that it doesn't need to be.
-Are we still friends?

[Tammy]
Today, Bri and I are out
shopping for her husband

Phil's big hoedown
for his 37th birthday.

-Hey.
-Hi.

Sorry I'm late.
How are you?

Oh, my gosh.
Hi.

Bri is very sweet
and kind-hearted.

People think she's, like,
stuck up, and I know that

she is not, but we kind of get
each other on that level of

maybe being
a little misunderstood.

And I was rushing to get
out of the gym, so...

[Brianna] Oh, shoot.

I found way too much
cute stuff already.

My name's Brianna,
but I go by Bri.

-Hey, Sade.
-Hi.

Hi, Mom.

[Brianna] I am married to
my husband, Phillip.

Our daughter, Blakely, is five.

It's gonna look like
the Easter Bunny came.

I thought the Easter Bunny
was a boy.

-[Blakely] No, it's a girl.
-[Brianna] Oh.

-Do bunnies lay eggs?
-No, they fill eggs with candy.

Ah!

[Brianna] Phillip and I are
from the same hometown,

so we knew of each other.
-Yeah.

And one day I was just
scrolling Facebook and I saw

this really sexy picture of you
at work and I was like, "Oh...

that hard-working
blue-collar man."

Thank you Jesus for this day.
Thank you for my family.

In Jesus' name we pray, amen.
-[Brianna & Phil] Amen.

[Brianna]
I used to be a high school
English teacher.

Being a teacher was always
a really big part of my life.

Got my master's degree,
after my daughter was born,

my career was
very important to me.

-Blow it up.
-[imitates explosion]

But, um, you were laid off
from work.

Yes, whenever we get laid off,

there's no money coming
in, so...

Yeah.

My salary wasn't enough
to support our family.

We have a toddler.

We were a couple months
behind on rent.

We were struggling
with bills at the time.

We didn't know
where to turn or what to do.

We're gonna go
get some ice cream.

Yay!

[Brianna]
I did try to get another job,

but being a teacher,

it's not just a nine-to-five.

You're working at home
after hours, grading papers.

I had 120 students.

I needed a job that, like,
allowed me to work from home

on my time,

when I was finished
with my other work.

The first time I even came
across content creation,

I was scrolling
on social media,

and I came across
Erika's post.

It was PG, though,
'cause it was social media.

And I was like
I followed the rabbit hole.

I was like,
"What the [bleep] is this?"

And I sent her a message.

That's how I met Tammy.

And when she told me how much
money that was coming in,

I was like,
it was unbelievable.

So I just decided
to give it a try.

-And look at us now.
-[laughs] Yeah.

♪ Still gonna be me
I don't mean to be like that ♪

♪ All them boys say
I'm a little salty ♪

♪ But they kind of like it
when I get a little ♪

♪ Get a little, whoa ♪

Making the account
and making my very first post

was just out of a need
to pay the bills

and provide for my family.

[Phil]
I felt kind of jealous
at first, 'cause I was like,

I was like,
"That's a video that I've always

wanted her to send to me."

But yeah, it was all good.

It was hot.

[Brianna] But after
we released those videos,

my life completely
flipped upside down.

I lost my teaching job,
and my face was everywhere.

[reporter]
Scandal rocks a small town

as a Missouri woman is fired
from her teaching job.

Our lives completely changed,
and then it kind of spread

like wildfire from there.
The media was going wild.

My page was going wild.

My subscribers went from,
like, 500 to 40,000 subscribers

in a matter of days.

I didn't want to...
get fired.

It wasn't my goal
to be found out.

But I went from making a couple
thousand dollars a month,

to a couple
hundred-thousand dollars a month

and I mean, within three months,
we were at, like, $1.5 million.

How does it look?

[gasps] Oh, yes.

-Is this better?
-Yeah.

I like this a whole lot better
than the other one.

Yeah.

[Tammy] OK, before
I take this off, though,

we have to have a selfie?

-Yeah, we have to take
some pictures.
-OK.

'Cause I posted that we were
going to be together today,

so everyone's probably, like...

-Me too.
-...waiting.

Like, everywhere we go,
we try to make it

a content opportunity.
-All right, three, two, one.

[Tammy]
I think that's why they pay.

Like, you could watch any,
like, rehearsed thing,

like, online, right?

But, like, our stuff,
like, this is our daily life.

This is really what
we're doing.

And so, like, people want to
know, what are you guys up to?

Yeah.

OK, let's take
some spicy ones.

-We got to go in
the dressing room.
-OK. all right.

A lot of content creators
use social media to

gain a following.
They get views on social media.

They follow the links,
and it will eventually

lead them to the spicy side.

Pay range is definitely...

a couple hundred dollars
a month to millions in a year.

It really just depends
on followers.

Socials are huge.

So what's the deal
with this party anyway?

Who is coming?

[Brianna]
Oh, I probably invited
too many people, to be honest.

How many people have
confirmed, though?

Um, I think Megan and Tyler
are coming.

Yeah.

Which makes me nervous,
to be honest.

Why?

Um, I mean, I don't really
consider us friends anymore,

to be honest.
-Really?

Megan and I taught together.

We were friends
for several years.

We shared our secrets.

We shared just a bond
that was really irreplaceable,

but now the relationship just
seems kind of off and distant.

What happened?
I -- I really have no idea.

I don't know, like, how much
you have, like, heard

or know or...

Megan, at one point,
had expressed that she felt

like you guys had, like,
grown apart over time.

I mean, I reached out to her,
like, literally saying,

"Hey, are we still friends?

Like, 'cause I feel
like something's up."

And she's like, "No,
I'll always consider you

one of my best friends."
So hearing that from
you is, like,

a huge lie, and that's,
like, a slap in the face to me.

Megan was one of my best
friends, and being told that

we aren't close anymore
by somebody else,

I think it's bothering me
because she has not had

this conversation
with me at all.

It would be good for you guys
just to, like...

-Hash it out.
-...hash it out.

Whatever that comes to,
but I hope it doesn't,

you know, boil into something

that it doesn't need to be.

♪ Ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

[waitress]
Hey, guys, how you doing?

Hi, you guys can
follow me this way.

-Thank you.
-OK.

Tonight, Jim, Leo, and I are
getting dinner with my dad,

Bruce, my stepmom, Stacey,

and my mother-in-law, Divina.
-Hey, guys.

-How you doing?
-Sorry we're late.

-Hey, Mace.
-[indistinct]

Good to see you.

We've gotten to be,
like, a pretty close-knit

family, which I feel like
it's really rare nowadays.

-You sit by dad.
-Yep.

[producer speaking]

I told Bruce that this show
was about moms in St. Louis.

But we have
a very friendly town here.

-[Macy] We do.
-People are like family.

We'll go to Walmart,
or we'll go to any store

over here, and Macy will
run into, like, ten people

she's seen from high school.

-Well, it's a small
town, you know?
-Yeah.

I mean, that's just the way
it works.

We run into people that
we know all the time,

anytime we go out.

Um, so that's obviously
a big reason why we have been

undercover, um...

Because it's a very
conservative mindset

that people have around here.

So what have you guys been
up to?

Um, just kind of hanging out.

Oh, yeah, we went to the rally
races the other day.

You're talking about bicycles.

No, I'm talking
about rally racing.

[Bruce] Oh, yeah.
We got...

our vehicles twelve years ago...
-[Macy] Did I show you
any videos

of going to the rally races?
-[Divina] No.

Oh, I'll have to show you.

-It was pretty cool.
-Can't get your guys'--

[Macy] Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Hold on, oh, I -- no.

I looked at my phone
and quickly had to, like,

pull it back so that
she couldn't see,

because I realized
that I had

all these nudes
that I hadn't hid yet.

If my mother-in-law would
have seen some of my nudes,

she might have had a heart
attack,

then I probably would
have passed out.

We have some Southwest
egg rolls.

That's so sweet of you.

[Bruce]
Hey, let me pray real quick.

Let me pray real quick.

Thank you, Jesus, for this food
and all of your blessings.

-Amen.
-Amen.

[Macy]
My dad is a pastor.

I remember, like,
accepting Jesus into my heart

at a really young age.
I was in church choir.

I would spend my summers
going to church camps,

going to church festivals,
like anything church related,

I was pretty much there.

Macy has many
wonderful attributes.

Her heart is her...

is my favorite thing
about Macy.

-You make me cry.
-And your love for Jesus, yeah.

-Thanks.
-[Stacey speaking]

But whenever they --

At the mall
she's walking around there...

[Bruce] Yeah.
And in today's culture,

being a mother doesn't hold

the value it did,
like, in the '60s.

But basically, they have
the benefit of Jim with what

he does, that she can,
yeah, just be

a committed mother and wife.

That's her job,
and she's dedicated to it.

-Give me five.
-So thank you for that, Dad.

[Bruce] Yeah.

So are we getting together
tomorrow night for ping pong?

-Right after Bible study.
-Oh, after Bible study.

Yeah.
Yeah.

I want to be able to come out
the way that I want to,

but the Macy that
my family knows,

they definitely won't ever see

this coming that I do
adult content.

And that's why
it's really scary, because...

it's gonna
throw them a curve ball

and I don't know
how they're gonna respond.

-Love you, Dad.
-Love you, sweetie.

Thank you for all
the kind words.

Oh, thank you.
Thank you, sweetie.

Love you very much.

-Whoo!
-Happy birthday!

Do you want to go talk?

At this point,
the tensions are very high.

-Like, you never talk to me.
-Uh...

[Brianna] I'm done
with the conversation.

[bleep] pointless.

♪ The big cities
ain't looking pretty ♪

♪ From the farm on the hill ♪

[Tammy] Is this open?

-[Drew] Maybe.
-Oh, no, it slides.

-Nice to see you.
-Hi.

Do you want
a hot dog or hamburger?

-Hey, what's up?
-Hey!

Did you copy me?

[Jim] I did.

Phillip is about to come in,

so if we all circle around,
that would be sweet.

[cheering]

Happy birthday to you!

-What's up, cousin?
-Hey.

-Happy birthday.
-Thank you.

Yeah, I might.

So you had a secret name
all this time.

-Yep.
-[Tammy] Oh, yeah.

I guess I haven't really talked

to you guys that much.
-They kept saying that.

I created that name because
I was like, I've never met

an ugly Erika in my life.

-[laughs]
-Yeah.

When we get together, this is
a community where we feel safe

and we can be ourselves
and not be judged.

I have, like, my studio
downstairs in our basement,

and we have, like,
this special, like,

lock on it.
-Yeah.

And I, like, the other day,
my sister asked me.

She's like,
"What's in that room?"

And I was like,
"Oh, it's just extra storage.

We just don't want anybody
to get into it."

I just don't understand
all of this.

[Jim] Hey, you got the Lord
on your ass, you know?

We found out watching
the local news that Bri was

doing spicy, naughty things
and it was a bit of

a earthquake
through the family.

It's interesting, Phil.
You live an interesting life.

Thank you.
Yes.

I am not the only person
in my house doing spicy content.

My husband does it as well.

Untie my top,
and I'll be like,

-"Oh, no...
-Oh, yeah.

...to see more, watch later."

-Or something like that, yeah.
-Mm-hmm, yeah.

Whenever your page started
blowing up,

we decided to do
content together.

Very naughty things.

I do think it turns out better
as a team effort, like.

Oh, yeah.

[indistinct chatter]

-Hi!
-Megan and Tyler are here.

-Hello!
-Hi!

[Tammy]
Our friend group is very tight,
so it would be really hard

if things with Bri
and Megan were not resolved.

I don't want to have
to feel like people have

to choose sides.

Do you want a hot
dog or hamburger?

-How are you?
-Good.

-How are you?
-Which one do you want?

Let's just do a hot dog.
That'll be easier.
Hot dog.

So it turned out really,
really nice.

-Thank you.
-Yeah.

[Megan] I was nervous
coming to the party

because things aren't the same.

At this point, the tensions are
very high between Bri and I.

[Tammy] Don't get
between me and my food.

It's gonna get ugly.
I'm just saying.

[Megan]
Bri and I were friends.

You know, she taught just
a few doors down from me.

So, like, we grew
close very quickly.

But there was a moment that
I realized Bri and I weren't

as close as we once were.

-Do you want to go talk?
-Yeah.

But at the same time, I really
value this friend group.

I don't want to not be invited
or go to these events just

because there's some tension
with Bri and I.

The heater's getting better.
I'm gonna cover up.

-[Megan] You have a blankie,
can I get under?
-Yeah.

-How have you been?
-Not too bad.

-Yeah?
-It's been a long time.

I know, I feel like I haven't
talked to you in forever.

I know.

[exhales heavily]
Um...

I feel like I have this,
like, weird...

frustration.

I was talking with Tammy,
and then she was just

mentioning that,
like, you had said,

we're not really, like,
friends anymore,

and we just grew apart,
and I was like,

that's weird.
Like, it's news to me.

I mean, I said those things
out of a place of hurt,

um, mainly because I felt like
I was a part of the group,

and then it felt like I was
being excluded from the group

because I wasn't invited to

some of the get-togethers
and parties.

It, like, really hurt
my feelings that, like,

everybody else was invited,

but I wasn't
even invited to that.

But do you understand
why I wouldn't invite you?

Like, I had been, like,
reaching out to you and,

like, texting and, like...

like, you never talked to me
if I didn't message you or,

like, talk to you.

It's just hard, and it's,
like, awkward, and, like,

I don't know, like --
like, it sucks.

Like, I lost, like, a huge,
like, person in my life.

[Megan]
I do understand why Bri's
confused about the friendship.

There is a lot that hasn't been
said between Bri and I,

but I'm not sure that

I am ready to have
that conversation.

I feel like we're repeating
what we're saying.

OK, I need
a drink or something.

I'll see you downstairs.

I was definitely
expecting a little more

from the conversation.

I just don't have clarity
on where the distance came from.

I think I'm done
with the conversation.

In the back of my mind,
there is that nagging feeling

that Bri did something that
I'm still trying to get over.

I can't say it.
I just can't.

-What the [bleep]?
-I don't know.

There's a guy over there
watching us.

It's like, somebody found out.

[singer vocalizing]

-Oh, we're all good.
-Oh, I'm just kidding.

Yeah, there we go.

I love this gym because
they have the kids club,

so you can literally bring
your kids, drop them off,

and you have two hours where
you can do whatever you want.
-Right.

The wig and sunglasses is not
on standby at the gym.

So, I'm kind of nervous.

I think I'm still trying
to recover from Phil's party.

Oh, yeah, I was gonna say,
that was a lot,

but it was a good party.
-Oh yeah.

The barn looked amazing.
I was like...

I know.
It was like drab to fab.

-Mm-hmm.
-What the heck?

[Tammy]
So, did you and Megan get
a chance to talk last night?

So, yeah, Megan said
some things about the fact that

we had that get-together
at your house, and she was

offended because
she didn't get an invite.

I didn't know that.

-[Brianna] Yeah.
-[Tammy] I'm sorry.

We really enjoy being together
and just having fun.

I don't want to have
separate get-togethers.

You know, I want to see
the group together as a whole.

I was going to ask you guys,
'cause it's been a while since

we've actually been able
to get together.

Like, it's been, what, at least
a year since we've done,

like, a MILF House meeting?
-For MILF House, yeah.

MILF House is a fun little
social media group that we have

that is Bri and Megan
and Macy and myself.

Are you guys still
wanting to do MILF House?

[Brianna] We have a lot
of fun when we do it.

-Yeah, we do.
-I do.

It's really fun.

Outside of, like,
content, you know?

Like, it's just, like,
being playful with each other

and, you know.
-Yeah.

The chicken banana one
is my favorite.

Chicken banana.

MILF House is, like,
a more domesticated,

down version of what we do
as adult content creators,

and it just attempts to kind
of, like, show people that

we can be fun and, like,
wild on the weekends and that,

like, we're moms, too.

There's a guy over there
watching us.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, my God, please.

Have you always felt,
like, safe here?

Yeah.

Had anyone approached you, like,

in a weird way or anything?

Yeah, no, I've never had
anybody be odd about it.

You never know.
You're always gonna
run into odd people at the gym,

'cause there's just
so many people.

But, no, most people
here are very nice.

Maybe they're just intimidated
to, like, talk to you.

I'm sure that's what that is.

You guys want to get
our waters and head over

to the treadmills?
-Yeah.

-All right, let's go.
-I packed a protein bar.

Hey, girl.
Are you at 175 yet?

54.

Keep going.

We have plenty of space
for you to put your stuff.

I'm going to take off
my glasses,

because if I start sweating
with these things on...

-I'm taking it easy today.
-You can adjust this.

What are you putting
your speed at?

-I'll go 3.5.
-Girl, oh my gosh.

-I'm like 1.5.
-I'm gonna get my steps in.

-Honestly.
-How about two?

There we go.

No, but I was, like, wondering

how you're feeling,
like, being out and, like,

you don't have
your disguise on?

Are you, like, struggling
with coming out, you think?

Or, like...

I feel like I'm ready,
'cause I've been undercover

for, like, three years.
-That takes so much strength.

Yeah.

[Brianna] I was undercover
for three months.

-I mean, not very long.
-Maybe.

You know, like, your thing, Bri,
like, you didn't have a choice.

Like, somebody found out

and then leaked
that everywhere.

But I didn't wear a wig.

-Right.
-I didn't...

-What the [bleep].
-I don't know.

[Tammy]
What is happening right now?

-Guys.
-Yes.

They're kicking us out.

-What?
-They Googled Brianna.

Are you serious?

-We weren't taking
naughty pictures.
-Right.

We weren't handing out
business cards.

-We weren't advertising
what we do.
-[Macy] Yeah.

This is really freaking scary
that I am getting kicked out of

something that's just
part of my normal life.

[producer]
They want no part of this.

-Are you serious?
-That sucks.

So, let's walk out
and get out of here.

Dude.

Getting kicked out of the gym
is making me realize that

coming out isn't just
about telling the truth.

What the [bleep].
Can they legally do that?

It's about knowing that
I'm probably gonna be judged

and treated like I'm not human,

and I don't know
if I'm ready for that yet.

[producer] Let's go.

This season on "Double Lives
of Suburban Wives."

This will be like
a moms gone wild trip.

Whoo!

♪ Just feeling so...♪

-Whoo!
-[screams]

-Cheers.
-Cheers.

-Right?
-Yes.

None of my kids know
that I make adult content.

I haven't wanted to face it.

Once the kids go to school is
when the adult content creating

starts around here.

You have all these new toys.

You have the new Corvette.

[indistinct]

In my mind, I'm like,
"Are they secret drug dealers?"

[Macy] Growing up in the church,
coming out to my dad

really terrifies me.

I want to think that they will
still want a relationship

with me,
but I don't really know.

[Brianna]
I always knew the life
I chose could have consequences,

but I never thought
that those consequences

would affect my friends.

It's so uncomfortable
with Megan here.

Did you guys talk at all?

Megan acting like she doesn't
even know me is ridiculous.

I feel like you're almost
kind of talking like,

you're close with us,
but you're not.

This group isn't
just friendship to me.

I don't want
Emily to ruin that.

I don't trust my husband.

We just face issues
with content creation.

Don't put it off on,
I haven't pursued you.

-I feel so miserable right now.
-I'm just gonna say it.

Mom, we have something
we need to tell you.

No, no, no.

I hate Jim.
He's a piece of [bleep].

You're still [bleep] talking.

-Shut the [bleep] up!
-You're right, I am, Jim.

-Our problems are our problems.
-I see both sides of the story.

Do you know things
that I don't know?

What the [bleep]?

Being honest without
any empathy at all

is just being rude.

I was looking for girlfriends,

but I'm not gonna
kiss asses to get there.

These girls all have secrets,
and I'm ready

for everyone to know.

I just wouldn't be able
to forgive that.

Maybe she's not
telling the truth.

I want a divorce.

Like, I don't want
to be married.

You shut the [bleep] up!

-Shut me, shut me up.
-OK?

Shut me up!

I don't think it's ever
gonna be the same.