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Your demeanor turns gray,
and you look older,

as if you're carrying a load.

Your homework is to think every morning

about what Tom wants to do for himself.

It doesn't matter what it is,
big or small.

Karin sees me. That feels really nice.

She says, "Tom,
you have to do something for yourself."

It will be hard for you at first.

I'm talented…

…in many different ways.

I like trying new stuff.

- What's it for?
- It makes you pretty.

And that's the result? It's not worth it.

But, so far,
none of the hobbies have stuck.

Hey! Are you good?

- Yes, you?
- Very good.

- Are you excited?
- Yeah, kind of.

Well, I don't really like photo shoots.

Karin would say,
"What makes you light up?"

"What excites you?"

Finally, it's all about you.
I think that's great.

"What gives you a real high?"

Cheers.

KAA DOS is my baby. I'm the one
who's most passionate about it.

So I thought, "Come on,
be your own brand ambassador

and do a shoot for KAA DOS."

Let's do a few warm-up shots
where you're not smiling.

- A bit more serious.
- A bit more serious.

- It has to be a little serious overall.
- Okay.

I would have liked to use a model
who really channels…

We don't have the budget for that.

You'll do
until we can afford someone else.

Right. That's what I thought.

To the photo shoot. You'll be great.

- Have fun. Good luck.
- Thanks.

Maybe you could sit on the bar.

Do something a bit more fun.

One photo with Daniel.

I'm more of a dollar store model,
and this is high end.

- The discount store.
- The cheap version, right?

- Let's do one for the discount store.
- Okay, good.

Daniel kept on joking

that it looks high end when I'm in,
but it gives discount store when it's him.

What do discount models do? This?

More lascivious.

- Yes, like that. Exactly.
- Yes, sexy.

- Hot.
- Like this. And I…

- Great.
- I go like this.

I like it. Sexy first. Let's do sexy.

- Really sexy.
- I'm always sexy.

Hot.

Oh, now you're an attention-grabber.

What? I'm being commercial.

It won't work in discount stores.
KAA DOS is expensive.

Exactly, very relaxed.
Just lean against the bar.

Wow.

Solid. Really good.

You're almost better than the queen.

Yes, you're a pro.

Bill and Heidi can do that stuff.
But I'm not like that…

They never feel awkward.

I feel awkward
when it's quiet in the room,

and they say, "Okay. Now smile."

And then I'm like…

When you're doing it, it's okay,

but I always think, "Take lots of photos,
one of them is bound to turn out good."

Yes, that's good. Go for it!

I can see your ass in my…

Get out of my picture!

- Wow.
- There are some great photos in there.

Yeah, right?
Okay, let's take a quick look.

Nailed it.

I like the one with the tats
on the fingers and the glass.

- It has cozy vibes.
- That's really good.

You won't believe me,

but there's not a single photo
where I think, "Wow, you look hot."

Solid.

Yeah, but you can tell my age.

Sometimes I don't even recognize myself.

I think, "Wow, what are those bags
under my eyes?"

It's starting to happen now.

No, that comes later.

It would suck if this was my midlife.

If 36 is the middle of my life…
No, I'd like to get older first.

I hope midlife comes at least in my

mid-40s or so.

I'd like to live past 100.
That would be great.

Bill doesn't want that.

Which I don't understand at all because…
Who doesn't want to grow old?

If you grow old in good health,
it's awesome.

Obviously, you don't want to suffer, but…

You can still have a lot of fun at 70.

- Tom!
- Very good.

- Thank you so much. This was a lot of fun.
- Thank you. A lot.

My back hurts. I can feel it in my back.

And this shoulder here, it's shot.

Do you feel it in your joints too?

- Yes.
- Yes?

In my shoulder. I feel it in my shoulder.

I feel like our bodies are falling apart.

- I can feel every bone.
- We have lived like…

- Yes, exactly.
- Like wild mice.

Since we were 12, I'd say.

I feel like we're at an age now
where we can say,

"Okay, time to make some changes."
You know?

But look around. I mean…
We did everything right.

No, but it's just getting by.

I think I'm getting by.

Maybe we should go to the doctor
more often, get an MRI, blood work…

With our lifestyle,
we should get a check-up once a year.

We've never had any treatment.
We haven't been to the doctor in years.

That's why I'm a little worried.

My first instinct was to get an MRI,
a full check-up.

Before we get a full check-up,
there's the pre-screening.

- I'll put down my cluster headaches.
- Yes.

Should I put down my reflux?

- Yes, you should.
- Yes?

What is it called again?

Bill's been taking heartburn medication
his whole life

for his reflux.

He gives his body a beating every day.

And sometimes you do wonder

how long can he keep it up, right?

My chest hurts when I breathe in.

- Yes.
- What kind of pain?

I had chest pain here.
Really strong chest pain.

We really went full throttle.

Some people can keep it up
well into old age,

and Bill says that's how it is with us.
I just hope he's right.

- That took an hour.
- Done. I hope we're healthy.

- We have two sets of kidneys.
- Here, knock on wood.

We're doing the questionnaire to see
where there might be issues.

Now we're getting an MRI.

And if the MRI looks good,
then we can go full throttle again.

- I'm wearing my hospital look.
- I'm in a hospital look too.

And I…
I instantly start feeling uncomfortable.

- I'm already scared.
- Me too.

I'm scared of MRIs.

I immediately start thinking about
how life would change.

What happens if you get really sick?

You'd have stop working.

What about the family?
Would you need care?

Oh, yeah. Look.

Tom is very sensitive,
and he worries about everything.

His health is more important to me
than my own.

Because I… I know I can handle anything.

If something happens,
I'd rather it happens to me than him.

If they said,
"One of you has a really bad tumor,"

I'd say, "Better me than him." Yeah.

I knew MRIs were awful.

But lying there, going in there,

and holding still for over two hours
is a real nightmare for me.

If you're claustrophobic,
you'll have a really hard time in there.

It's super loud.

It makes all kinds of noises.
Like a saw or more like…

Like really bad techno music.

It goes like…

That's how loud it is in there.

It's like pure torture.

It was also ungodly early in the day.

You're in this little tube,
and all you see is this white ceiling,

and you keep falling asleep.

Then it takes even longer
because they have to do the scan again.

"We have to scan again
because you moved your head."

It's a never-ending loop.

It felt like a hundred trillion hours.

- How long was that?
- Hey… It took so long.

Bill and I are not good at waiting.

Neither of us are good "waiters."

They're looking at something.

- Yeah?
- Yeah.

He's sitting in front of this thing, like…

I'm sure it won't be anything bad.

When you sit in the waiting room too long,

you start feeling uneasy.

Because you start thinking,

"They must be trying to figure out
how to break the bad news."

- It didn't sound like it.
- No.

I am convinced
that the most important thing is

that your mind is healthy
and you feel good mentally.

And that carries over
to the rest of the body.

That's why I assume

they're not going to find
anything wrong with me.

Oh, here's the filler.

That was a little uncomfortable for Bill.

Excuse me? How did those get there?

I know I have fillers in my face.

As long as I like how it looks on me,
I stand by it.

But it's ridiculous
for a doctor to point it out like that.

But look how much uglier your chin is.

Look. Look at your chin. So ugly.

He has filler everywhere.
Here, here, here, lips.

He might even have filler in his willy.

For me, the best news was
that I have a bigger penis than Tom.

I just think it's nice
that Tom got a slap in the face.

It didn't shock me.
It just made me question him.

Let's put it this way. I knew.

I know how much that bugs him.

It's probably the worst thing
that could've happened.

Bill's member
is a little bigger than Tom's.

Well, God… I mean, my wife is happy.

Ew, that was gross.

And it stinks.

That was my salmon taco.

Yes, I can smell the fish.

I want to die before Tom anyway.

If I live a few years less than Tom,
that's fine with me.

But what do you do that's so different?

- I go to the gym. That's it.
- You don't. When?

Bill, I do my exercises every day.
At home too.

At least I try to find a balance.

Bill has no balance at all.

He's proud of it.

He also thinks he eats better than I do,
but I think that's nonsense.

Very good. We can keep drinking.

Bill never takes a diagnosis seriously.

He's still on time to turn it around.

But if things stay the way they are,
it's not gonna end well.

Well. That went as we expected.

Yes. The expectation was here.

If Bill reads a doctor's report,
he's only able to focus

on the positive parts of the diagnosis.

Look, there's a little more fat.

But he didn't say
it was anything of concern.

Perfectly healthy.

And he'll say,
"Oh, everything's fine. Great."

Dear children,
do as Bill and Tom have done.

I'm gonna treat myself to a nice bottle
of champagne at home.

How many calories are in champagne?

A hundred.

A hundred? My God,
then I can drink a few more glasses.

The only way would be
if he got a diagnosis that said,

"Change this immediately

or things will go downhill,
and you won't live much longer."

Then he'd think about it.

We had an MRI, Daniel.
It took four hours total.

- It was so bad.
- Each.

Yeah. He said I'm obese.

- That's not quite right, but…
- He said I won't live very long.

But I'll live longer,
the way things are looking. Right?

- Longe… Long… What's the word? Longevity.
- Yes.

Bill's excessive body fat
affects his longevity.

Where?

Around the organs and everywhere.
Because he eats too much crap.

Yeah, I already knew that.
Just look in the freezer. I mean…

There's so much crap in there. Seriously.

So now we should take better care of him.

We don't want to…
Seriously, I don't want to outlive you.

You should always eat a lot
of what you like to eat.

For example, I love eating pizza.

So tasty. So good.

Bill should start paying attention
to what he eats

so he doesn't keep stuffing himself
with so much crap.

Fast food and candy all day long.

That's basically Bill's diet.

All these rules annoy me endlessly.

It's so over the top.

Oh, Alfia, what are we gonna buy
from now on? Huh?

I eat what I like,
and that's good for my head.

Yeah, your head is fine.
Now your body needs to catch up.

We'll go running and do strength training.

- No.
- Yes.

- No. No!
- Yes.

- Shall we get some ice cream?
- Nah. You're not getting ice cream.

No more ice cream.

- No pizza, no ice cream.
- Are there any Magnum left?

- No. No more.
- Yes, we do.

- Just get me a little Magnum.
- No.

- I want ice cream.
- No.

- Ice cream.
- No.

The word "no" doesn't exist.

- "No" definitely exists.
- No.

- You can't say yes to everything.
- You can.

Show them what we can do.

I don't want to change everything,
but we could make a few small changes.

Big changes.
If you're gonna do it, do it right.

What changes?

We're registered.

We're running a marathon.

You're crazy.
We're not running a marathon.

Nonsense.

It's just a 5K.

What's a 5K?

A 5K is five kilometers.
It's a small marathon.

Oh, I really don't want to do that, Tom.
5K sounds like a lot.

You're crazy. I can't do that.

We can do it. It's good for here…

For this little guy here.

Yeah, but I have zero motivation.
Running just isn't for me.

If we do that,
then we can party some more.

Sporty Sara always says
she's this top tennis ace.

She invited us to play tennis today
to get ready for our marathon.

You can't call it a marathon
unless it's actually 42 kilometers.

So we're not running a marathon?

- No.
- We are.

A marathon is almost ten times that far.

Well, we're doing a kids' marathon.

But we won't tell anyone.

It has little gemstones in it. Cute.

"My return to tennis."

- Again.
- Again.

It won't be easy.

Tom, unsurprisingly,
once more feels like he's an absolute pro.

And that he missed out on a career

that passed him by.

- They must land inside the court.
- Yes, I got that.

Bill thinks we're on the same level.

Which isn't true.

Yeah, I always let him win
in moments like these.

I let him have that.

It's important for his ego,
for his masculinity.

Yeah.

Salute, amore.

Salute, salute.

We've earned this.

- Salute.
- Salute.

What's going on here?

- Hi.
- I have the test results from the doctor.

- I hope you're ready.
- Which test results?

Well, from the imaging.

But everything was okay.

I requested the MRI results again

because I'm taking them
to the family doctor

so he can take a look
to make sure everything's okay.

- He wanted to say you have fillers.
- Yes, what… Yes, well… Duh!

- Yeah.
- Good morning!

- Thanks for saying it again.
- Okay, moving on. What else?

- What?
- Prostate?

- That's a swollen prostate.
- "Prostate…"

- You have a swollen dick.
- It says "prostatitis."

Isn't that down there?

The prostate is
what you always get massaged.

- Yeah.
- What kind of massage do you get?

Yeah, the prostate massage.

Yes, but where is the prostate?

- Well, in the ass.
- In the asshole.

- Inside the ass?
- Yes.

How do you know that?

Yeah, yours is very irritated,
I can tell you that right now.

- We can get a prostate check together.
- Is your prostate enlarged?

No, that's a mix-up.

That's me, I can tell by the chin.

- Yes.
- Yeah, because I don't have a chin.

Really? I hadn't noticed.
Don't you both have the same chin?

No, I have a nicer chin.

- He has a nicer chin.
- Mine has better definition.

There's my big penis!

Well, it doesn't look very big there.

- He said yours is bigger.
- I have the bigger penis, yes.

Look, now he writes here…
He writes, "prominent visceral fat."

Look, here.

- You have fat too.
- Look.

He wrote, "normal liver size,
normal kidney size" about me.

Nothing in this report makes sense.

I think he mixed us up.

Here he writes,
"prominent visceral fat" again. Look.

- It's because it's you, Tom
- I think so too.

You have the fat.

They're all completely mixed up.
Nothing makes sense.

So who's who?

Or is it all the same person,
only one just has a bigger penis?

- So there's nothing in your report?
- No, nothing.

Otherwise, everything's normal.
I don't have any fat, see?

- He says it here about me.
- You have the fat, thank God.

- We're not gonna be happy about that.
- I'm the normal one.

If I'm the person with the fatty organs,

I'll turn my life upside down.

- I have the feeling you have the fat.
- No.

That's typical. Tom, the hypochondriac.

He thinks, "Shit, if it could be me,

then we must do things differently and…

turn our lives upside down."

We don't know. Was it a mix-up or not?

I think you're less healthy.

- Not less healthy than you, Mouse.
- You have the fatty liver.

Now we both have to hit the brakes

just because one of us has fatty organs.

We can also say,

"We're not hitting the brakes,
we're going full throttle."

Toward a healthier life.

We're taking charge of our lives.

That doesn't sound like much fun to me.

- You have to make it fun.
- Mm-hmm.

- Woo-hoo!
- We'll do it together.

We have to change our whole lives, Alfi.
We have fatty organs.

Look, Alfi and I already prepared
a healthy plate of vegetables.

Yeah, we should eat that. That's good.

All you have in the fridge is alcohol.
And sliced cheese.

Packaged.

Sausages, salami.

And here's all the candy.

It looks like kids live here, Mouse.

- We can't do this anymore.
- Yes, we can. I love all of this.

We must eat healthier.
We must do a number of things.

We must eat healthier.

Cook soup instead of eating pasta.

Yeah, Bill is not interested at all.

I mean, I don't feel like it either,
but we must do it.

I think we have to peel these. Shit.

I don't even want soup.

Use the scissors.

Man, cutting everything up
is so much work.

I want to live a long life.
That's why we need to make changes.

The doctor said
we can still change things.

If we let it get worse,
it will be too late.

- Is that celery?
- Yes.

Yeah, celery.
I put it in juices. I like it.

- I like celery too.
- I love celery juice.

- Um… Ah. No.
- No, it's not very good.

Here, do you want a Snickers?
They are still good.

- Wait…
- They are still good. Take one.

Can you… Hang on.

That won't taste good.

It tastes good, but don't make it again.

It can't hurt.

But it doesn't bring me joy.

Yeah, me neither. Me neither.

- Is the Snickers still good? Looks a bit…
- No, it's good. It's delicious.

Yeah?

- It's good, right?
- Mm-hmm.

It sucks that we're at an age
where we have to pay attention to this.

I need it too. I need carbs.
I need something to chew on.

If you only eat soup,
your teeth will fall out.

This is what I'm having today.
Here, pizza snacks.

They're going in the oven soon.

The most important thing,
and the doctor said this too,

is that you're happy mentally.

And forcing yourself to do things
is not good for you.

I've noticed, for example,
that exercise isn't good for me.

- Oh, wow.
- Oh, wow.

I'm getting a side stitch
just by looking at the track.

Come on, let's warm up first.

Running is the very last thing

on my list of things I want to do in life.

First, 40 push-ups.

I'll just do this for now.

- How many laps will we manage today?
- One, it's the first time.

One? I think we should…
We should probably start with five.

Five? I think five is pretty ambitious.

- Slowly.
- We'll give it a try.

I'm already out of breath.

- That's too fast.
- A little faster.

We'll get a Snickers as a reward.

It's not good for me.

That feeling other people have
when they say,

"I can feel my body again.
I've accomplished something,"

I don't have that.

Very good, Alfi.

A little faster,
and we'll catch up with them.

She's really athletic.

- Anyone got a poop bag?
- Nope.

I have Alfia's poop bags if you need one.

- I meant for Alfia.
- No, Tom wanted to take a little poop.

I'll clean up after you.

The important thing is to keep going.

Because when I really want something,
I can do it.

Oh, three laps on the first day. My God.

But I'm not interested in exercise.
That's the problem.

We'll find the right balance.

Yeah. That means
exercising twice a week at least.

If I had more really good sex,

my organs would be in better shape.

Sex is a workout.
But it doesn't seem to do much.

I have an above-average amount
of sex with my wife.

It's the truth. I'd say, a lot of hours.

And there's a lot of movement involved.
I won't show you, but…

So you'd think
that would get rid of the belly fat.

I read that it's good for the heart.
Really good for the heart.

- Really?
- And for all the muscles.

Well, apparently, perfect sex,
on average, lasts 12 minutes.

Nonsense!

- Sure!
- Twelve minutes?

Could somebody please look that up?

On average,
how long does sex last in Germany?

- Including foreplay and afterplay.
- How does that work?

My wife would kill me. After 12 minutes…

Yeah, because you're crazy.
But 12 minutes is normal.

- And?
- Seven to thirteen.

- Ha! I told you.
- Seven to thirteen.

See? I'm the normal one.
You're sick in the head.

Listen to the fervor in your voice.

Because you say, "No, Bill has a boring…"

Yeah, you like it for two minutes.

- No. I think eight minutes is good.
- Yes.

Here, a little cool-down.

We're in prime condition.
Marathon, here we come.

What have we gotten ourselves into?
We must do it.

Yeah, we already announced it.

Go big or go home.

We're launching our tequila.
Come by if you'd like to try it.

I have a good feeling.

Tom is really looking forward
to the event.

Because this is his baby
and because he's the brand ambassador.

Tonight, I can sit back and relax.
This is your event.

Tonight is my event.

Tonight is all about Tom.

We can finally showcase
your beautiful photos on a large scale.

The new model, Tom Kaulitz.

It doesn't have to be on a large scale.
Better on beer coasters or something.

It's all about you.

Let's show off our new brand ambassador.

Hello! Hi!

Hello, hello, hi!

Tom, we have a little surprise for you.

Aha, what is it?

Tom thinks there might be little cards
or something with pictures of him.

But that's not how we roll.
We have a better surprise.

We wanted it to be very prominent

because you did such a great job.

So we wanted to show off
our brand ambassador.

- That looks great.
- My God!

That's what's gonna sell it.

You pulled out
the bedroom eyes and everything.

- The German George Clooney.
- Who picked the photo?

Well, not me.
I just noticed it looks a little orange.

It's not retouched.

They should've spent
another five bucks on retouching.

My shirt is wrinkled,
my beer belly is spilling over…

Well, that says it all.

I'm on the big billboards of the world.

I'm on the covers.

Tom is on a little cardboard sign.

- You have to step out of my shadow first.
- Yes.

I have to step aside
so the shadow disappears.

- Well, it's a big shadow.
- It is a big shadow.

Welcome! Thank you for being here.

KAA DOS is our tequila.
This is a real passion project.

He did it, and I think that's great.

It's good for him to get out of his shell
and leave his comfort zone.

It's great. Keep it up, Tom.

And we're super proud, super happy
to share this with you today.

Cheers, guys.

You figure out what you need in life.
There's a season for everything.

And right now,
I feel like it's happening more for me.

- And then nothing.
- Then nothing.

Then I'll deal with the other stuff.
But for now, it's me.

- To KAA DOS.
- To KAA DOS.

Mice, I'm really proud.

- Me too.
- To me.

Hear! Hear!

Hear! Hear! Cheers!

While you set your sights low,
I'll show you how it's done.

I'm shooting the biggest cover
in fashion industry.

The Vogue cover.

Come on, Alfi,
We're gonna show you Magdeburg.

Alfia, now you can see
where your daddy comes from.

Thank God we have security.

It's like time just stood still.

Nothing's changed.
It's still the same streetcar.

I used to run from the…
What are they called?

Ticket inspector. I never had a ticket.

- I never stamped mine.
- I always got chased.

BILL & TOM'S BEST FRIEND

I ran away
and got beaten up by the seniors.

Oh, we used to come here too.
Tom used to skateboard here.

This is the Petri-Platz.

I have a complicated relationship
with my hometown.

There are a lot of bad memories there.

A lot of painful stuff.

- I'm a little scared.
- There's no one here.

Look, there's no one here at all.
It's like a ghost town.

Wow. Oh, my God.
I haven't been here in 20 years.

- We used to sit here.
- Yeah, we sat here.

But didn't we use to sit on a slope?

Yes, it slopes down over there.

We used to call it "Sto-fi."

I only just found out
that Sto-fi stands for "stoners' field."

I never realized that.

We were so young. We were 12 or 13.

When I think about 12- and 13-year-olds
doing that today…

Out-of-control teenagers.

We were wild, of course.

Tom and I only hung out
with older guys, had girlfriends…

I was already in a love triangle
with my buddy.

Yeah, it was wild.
Because there was nothing to do.

There was nothing for us to do
except mess around and do drugs.

But I think it would be nice
if people could remember

that Bill and Tom
used to smoke weed in that field.

- Yeah.
- Right here.

The people who lived there
weren't exactly keen about the field.

They called the cops on us a few times.
We ran when they showed up.

And I'm not the fastest runner.

I was always the one who got caught.

Looking back now, as an adult, I think,

"My God, I was way too young
to be doing that."

It wasn't me!

LOITSCHE, NEAR MAGDEBURG

MUNICIPALITY OF LOITSCHE-HEINRICHSBERG

I'm actually really surprised

about how nice
it is to be back in Loitsche.

- Great. You're welcome.
- Good. Thank you.

I was really moved
by the way everybody reacted.

Oh, thank you. You guys are great.

Well, give her my best.

My God. Oh! I'm so excited.

Today's the day. A big day.
We're shooting on the potash mountain.

They asked me first, but I declined
so my brother could fulfill his dream.

And so I wouldn't have to go to Loitsche.

Hello, Magdeburg.

I'm back!

When I was a kid, I always read Vogue

and dreamed about
what it would be like to be on the cover.

But it felt completely out of my reach.

I hadn't realized
there has never been a man alone

on the cover of German Vogue.

- It's about time.
- Yes.

Why isn't Charlotte here, Inés?

- She can't make it, right?
- She says she can't make it.

Because she won't come down here?

- She says it's just not good for her.
- Oh, really?

We lived in an area where there
were a lot of right-wing extremists.

BILL AND TOM'S MOTHER

And my children were very colorful,

and they were constantly attacked.

It happened a few times,

and that really scared me.

I need to take a quick break.

Guys, this is still part of the village.
These are the last five houses.

- We need to slow down now.
- We need to drive really slowly now.

I want to show the team
where we come from.

- I'm kind of proud of it.
- That's great.

I mean, it's not nice. It's…

Yeah. Parts of it
are pretty ugly and rough.

That's our neighbor.

And our house, the one my stepdad built,

is the one right next to it.

We practically lived in the shadow
of the potash mountain.

Is the gate open?
Oh, yeah, we can peek inside.

There. Right there.

There. That's our house,
the little white one.

See? With the window there?

My stepdad inherited it
for one euro back then.

People had been squatting there.
It was a total mess.

Everything was covered in shit.

It was basically condemned.
You couldn't live in it.

Rain came in through the roof.
There were feces everywhere.

Animal, human, who knows.
The whole place was totally run-down.

There were rats and animals everywhere.
We had to…

We had to shovel everything out.

The trash piled up this high. This high.

It was so disgusting. Yuck.
As a kid, I thought it was so gross.

Our parents took us in there and said,
"This is the house we're inheriting."

Mom and Gordon basically renovated
the whole thing themselves.

And we helped
as much as eight- or nine-year-olds can.

We had very little money.

It was like… We had to share bath water.

Once a week we got chips,

and they had to last the whole month.

Once in a while,
if our report cards were good,

we went out for pizza.

We lived on the bare minimum.

We had to get by on the bare minimum.

Mom was always very open about it.

She said we were living
like creative artists,

and we didn't have nine-to-five jobs.

Instead, there was a lot of love
and no boundaries.

It was the opposite
of a conventional, middle-class home.

Do you know who's there now?

I think my stepdad lives there now
with his new wife. Yeah.

If he knew you were out here…

Gordon had a hard time at first,

because Bill and I
were the men of the house.

We said, "Mom, you don't need
another man in your life."

But then he did something really smart.

He brought us a guitar
and hung it up in our room.

He said,
"I need somewhere to store my guitars,

so I put one in your room."

"You can mess around with it if you want."

That's where it all started.

Without Gordon,

we probably never would've found
our way into the band.

But you haven't seen him
in a long time, right?

Right. When was the last time I saw him?

Are you sad you're no longer in touch?

Yeah, I think it's sad.

My stepdad wasn't a replacement
for our dad,

but he was a great man
who gave us a lot as kids

and taught us a lot too.

And that's the bus stop.

I stood here every morning at 5:30 a.m.

- Oh, right here? Crazy.
- Yes.

Yeah, I'm being brave.
I'm facing the ghosts of the past.

Yeah. The ghosts that called you.
I think it's great.

It's hard to imagine

there was nothing more than a bus stop.

People think we're exaggerating.

That school bus was war, people. War.

LOITSCHE HOUSING DEVELOPMENT

The bus was always packed

with kids from all the schools
and the children's home.

There were hardcore right-wing extremists
and Nazis on the bus.

They threatened us constantly

and said they'd beat us up
and piss on us and…

It got so bad that we were
genuinely scared to go to school.

Some people said
they were going to kill both of us.

- Oh, God, I can't even listen to this.
- It was intense.

One of the biggest Nazis in the village
lived two houses down from us.

When he was waiting for us
at the bus stop in the morning,

we were obviously scared.

Yeah.

Instead of retreating
and keeping our heads down,

in typical Kaulitz fashion…

I don't know why that is, by the way.
We got even louder.

Tom wore a "Nazis Out" t-shirt
and Che Guevara t-shirts.

- Bill dyed his hair in bright colors.
- Makeup…

I went to protests.

Here, this is where Gühne and I met.

- There, there on the wall.
- What was there?

- That's where I approached you.
- Really? Cool.

Somehow, there's something…

Yeah, it's somehow healing
to be back here.

Somehow, I'm really surprised how…

Yeah, how wholesome it feels.

What was it again? The village sluts.

- We were so lucky.
- You made a lot out of little talent.

That was always our thing.
We always made a lot out of very little.

- We made a lot out of it.
- Yes.

I've never been up there.

This is my first time up there.
It's not open to the public.

- "No entry. Risk of death."
- Exactly.

- What do they mine here? Salt?
- Salt.

They mine salt underground for fertilizer.

And what comes out up here
is the waste material they can't use.

It gets bigger and bigger over time,
and mountains form all around it.

The stuff turns so hard
that you can walk on it.

But I think it can cave in too.

So you were not allowed up here.

For me, this is a dream come true
and a little "fuck you" moment.

Suck in the belly.
The mortadella sandwich from this morning…

This is a little "fuck you"
to everyone who laughed at me.

Who said I'd never amount to anything

and that I'm not a fashion icon.

This feels
like a full-circle moment for me.

Twenty years later,
high above my hometown,

on a mountain you're not allowed to climb.

- Yes.
- Into the warmth.

The princess of the mountain.

Shooting a cover for Vogue
is a huge honor.

Easily, one of the best moments
of my career.

The fact that I can get on a plane

and fly into another life

is probably why I feel so good now.

- Hello.
- Come on in.

Because I know I don't have to stay there.

And I live life on my own terms

where I decide what I wear,
where I fly to, who I talk to.

It's my own world.

We say goodbye forever to Magdeburg.
Back to the jet set.

I think that's why
I can make peace with it so easily.

Okay, we've spent enough time
in Loitsche. Back to the jet set.

Off to Arizona, to the billionaires.

I knew the Barrett-Jackson car auction
was in Arizona.

I lost a stupid bet and thought,
who do I know in Arizona?

That's where
my dear friend David Warkentin lives.

I wanted to be the cool stepdad
who brought something to the table.

I made a bet with Henry.

I said, "If I beat you at Mario Kart,

you won't play video games
for three years. None at all."

"You can read, ride your bike outside…"

So he thought,
"No video games? Oh, my God."

And he took the bet.

I was in the lead the whole time, but
they took me out before the finish line.

I'll keep my word. I haven't forgotten.

I can't forget
because Henry reminds me every day.

Having kids
was never part of my life plan.

I never thought about having kids.

And then suddenly,
from one day to the next,

I had four stepkids.

Now it's one of the things
I love the most.

But those feelings grow
because you want them to.

I only had a stepdad.

He was kind of a mix

between a father figure
and a good friend, you know?

Now that I'm a father, a stepfather,
I really understand my stepdad now.

A lot of the things he used to say
that made me roll my eyes,

now I think, "Yeah, I get it."

I thought, if I have to buy a Ferrari,

I might as well drive it for a year first.

- Nice garage, huh?
- Yeah.

David owns a bunch of businesses
and is also a doctor.

That was so nice.

Arizona has a crazy high density
of billionaires.

We're invited to this party.
Everyone's stinking rich.

It's moments like these where I feel
like the teenager from Magdeburg.

Oh, nice.

The little scruffy rocker boy.

Like that.

That's how I still feel. Yeah.

You want to play down the fact
that you're the poor mouse from Magdeburg.

I quickly got the feeling
that I didn't really belong there.

Awesome.

- I don't feel like I belong there.
- Me neither.

We have to put some money on the table
so they know who they're dealing with.

Or you say,
"Fuck it, we don't belong here, period."

- Nah. No.
- Nah?

BARRETT JACKSON CAR AUCTION

- I love these events.
- Yeah, you do.

Yeah, awesome.

You can hang out there all day,
drink beer, look at cars.

- It's just awesome.
- Well, this is too straight for me.

Look at the nice cars over there. Cool.

That one's cool, dude, look.

- We'll take that one and go get a drink.
- That's not the one we want.

I always feel completely out of place
at events like this.

All these super straight guys
talking about cars.

I feel out of place,
like I don't really fit in.

I'm very easily tempted to buy things.

Bill has this habit of adapting
to the situation.

He starts thinking,
"I'm a billionaire too."

I think that's the trick.

No matter where you go,
you must act as you belong there.

You have to keep reminding yourself.

You don't have a garage.

Don't be such a party pooper.
I want that one.

I'm a bit scared
because I see the bank account shrinking.

It's easy to sell stuff to Bill.

I'm only here because I need to find
a Ferrari for Henry.

Here's a Ferrari, look.

I think that one's cool. That's cool.

- He's gonna freak out.
- Yeah, definitely.

- It looks awesome, man.
- Yeah, it's awesome.

We found a Ferrari that I really like.

I'd be very happy
if we bought a nice car like that.

Scottsdale's a little dangerous

because you start wanting
to keep up with the lifestyle.

We're only here for one car,
we're not gonna get tempted.

Our friend David
gave us a very clear limit.

He said not to go over this price,

because you can get an equally awesome car
elsewhere for less.

Help, Tom.
I don't even know how any of this works.

I thought it'd be much smaller
and much quieter.

You think, "What's going on?"
I didn't understand a word.

I'm so nervous. My hands are sweating.

- Really?
- Yeah.

If we don't get the Ferrari,

this whole trip
will feel kind of pointless to me.

Here we go. Help.

I'm a little worried.
All it takes is one little nod.

And suddenly
you've spent another 5,000 euros.

It's hard to understand the guy up there.

To me, it just sounds like English numbers
and then…

- It's going up. Wait.
- Tom, you have to get in.

You can't understand a word.

You go crazy in there.

I've got a clear limit in my head.
140, 150 max.

One twenty.

- It's jumping fast.
- Shit, we're already out.

No, not yet. Up to 150.

You can't even blink at the wrong moment.

The woman's in front of you going…

Up to 150.

Up to 150, max.

It's 152.

The Ferrari's too expensive.

Well, I hope we don't make
a stupid mistake here.

Yeah, a rookie mistake.

Subtitle translation by: Diana Renker