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(bird chirping) Jess?

JESS: Yeah.

(whispering): Oh, my God.

(dog whimpering)

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

(crying): God.

Oh, my...

What are you doing here? Oh, I was looking for you.

I looked for you everywhere.

Everywhere.

(sniffles)

(grunts)

Is this, like, Josiah's new front or something?

Um...

No, it's...

it's just a regular...

a regular pet store.

What are you doing here, then?

Working. I-- I work here.

How did-- how did you find me? What?

Back up. You-- you... Y...

Y... You just have a job?

What's going on?

What's going on, Jess? Jess? I'm... I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. What? What is it?

What? About what? For what? I'm sorry.

(whispers): I'm so sorry.

(whispers): What's going on?

I-- I don't get what's happening.

Just tell me what you're doing here.

Jess. (exhales)

What? I...

(exhales)

What? Just tell me. I needed to-- to start over.

You needed to start over?

Are you kidding me?

♪ ♪

You just ran away?

I didn't run away.

What do you call this? What is this?

Uh, what... Tell me what happened.

Tell me how you got out of the fire.

Tell me how your blood ended up all over the hospital room.

All of it! Explain it to me.

Tell me what happened, because you have

no idea what it's been like living in here. Okay.

Okay.

(fire crackling)

I just assumed

that the fire was how Josiah was planning to kill me.

Anyone! (grunts)

Hello?

(coughing)

I guess I passed out.

Apparently, Alex, this girl who worked

at the arcade, broke a window and dragged me out.

The next thing I know, I'm...

in the hospital.

I couldn't believe that I was alive.

When I woke up, Darnell told me what happened.

About how you made a deal with Josh to get me out

and it all went up in flames.

Literally.

I was terrified.

I was so scared

that Josiah was gonna find me,

and then just the thought of prison

and just...

I mean, I never asked for this, you know?

I can't do this anymore.

I... (coughs) I just...

How did you get out?

I didn't.

Clearly.

(scoffs) I probably never will.

At least, I don't see a way out.

JESS: I couldn't sleep.

I kept thinking about what Darnell said

and all the things I missed about my old life.

Helping animals.

Going to the grocery store.

(chuckles softly) Making toast.

I just wanted to...

wake up, read my phone and make some stupid toast

because that's what I would do every morning.

Every morning until you...

introduced us to Nia.

And in that moment, I-- I just wished

that I would've died in that fire.

And then I realized

that if I did go to Canada with you guys,

it-- it wouldn't be over.

It'll never be over.

(chuckles): Because the only way out...

The only way out is when you die.

So that's what I did.

(inhales sharply)

(exhales)

♪ ♪

And I knew that when Felix saw that room,

he would know that Josiah found me

and finished the job.

And I thought you would believe it, eventually.

(Pretzel whines) MURPHY: Shh! Pretzel.

I'm trying to sleep.

JESS: I tried calling you, and then...

I don't know.

MURPHY: Jess.

(Jess inhales) Jess.

JESS: The second I heard your voice, I chickened out.

I didn't even know what to say.

I took the first bus out of Chicago,

and I made it here, and I got a place,

and I found a job, and I just...

prayed...

that you would just move on.

Why didn't you just tell me you didn't want to go to Canada?

Come on.

You would have just sucked me back in.

We both know

that you would never let me just go.

So I...

Faked your death?

(chuckles softly)

Yeah.

Apparently not very well.

(whispers): Oh, my God.

Yeah, I-- I'm...

I'm sorry.

I should...

Don't touch me!

(gasps, coughs)

(panting)

(coughs)

Don't touch me.

(exhales) Okay, yeah, yeah, I...

I get that you're mad.

I'm not even mad. I don't know

what this is. I honestly thought

that you would think that Josiah...

that Josiah got to me. And then what?

You think I would just accept that you were dead?

Well, yeah, I hoped.

You clearly don't know me at all.

What? You don't think I know you?

(laughs): Come on. Apparently not.

Because if you did, you would know

that I would never stop looking for you! Ever!

Like I said, I thought Felix

would have convinced you eventually.

I mean, you listen to everything he says anyway.

Yeah, I listen to everything Felix says. Yeah.

Let's just go down this road. Let's just...

go down this road

and pretend I did believe him.

You were okay with me living the rest of my life

thinking you died?

Yeah.

(exhales)

What?

Wow.

You have no idea what I've been through.

Oh, spare me the sob story, Jess.

What? Are you kid... "The sob story"? Spare me.

Oh, my God. I don't want to hear it.

I killed someone. Yep.

And then I almost died.

Yeah, got kidnapped,

got a new identity, blah, blah, blah.

(laughs) Why?

Why do I continue to believe

that you would ever have one ounce of compassion for me?

You cannot see it from my side

for one second.

You want me to see this from your side? Please.

From your side?

Yeah. You bailed!

You bailed. You abandoned me.

This might come as a shock to you,

but not everything is about you.

I needed things, too. Yeah? You did?

Yes.

You needed to clean up guinea pig poop in a pet store?

Oh, my God. (laughs)

Congratulations, dude. Looks like all your dreams

came true. You always do this.

What?

What do I always do? What do I do?

Treat my feelings like they're an inconvenience. Yeah. Right now, they are.

Look, I get that you've gone through a lot, Jess, but...

(exhales)

I have, too.

God, I should be in Canada right now.

But in--

instead, I got arrested.

I lost...

literally all my friends.

Everyone. I thought I was going insane. I-- I...

I was imagining you. I was talking to myself.

It does... it doesn't matter.

It was all for nothing.

For nothing.

(chuckles)

Can you now spare me the sob story?

Whatever. I'm not... I'm not doing-- Let's just...

We can talk about this later. Let's just go.

Go where? To... Back to Canada.

Yeah, because that turned out so well the first time.

This isn't gonna be like the first time.

I'm not gonna leave your side.

(sighs)

I don't-- Murphy... Now, our ride's waiting. Let's go. Jess!

We don't have time for this.

We can deal with this another time.

Let's go, Jess.

Get up

and let's go.

I...

Jess, get up!

Come on, we'll talk about this later. All right. Okay.

(sighs)

I'm just gonna use the bathroom, and then I'm gonna...

I'll lock up and then we can go.

Hurry up.

(screams)

(grunting)

(squeaks)

Here, buddy.

I don't have any money.

Hi.

That took forever. Let's go.

I'm not going anywhere with you.

Our friendship

is the most toxic thing in the entire world.

And I'm done.

Yes, Jess.

I get that we have our issues, okay?

But I'm not leaving here without you.

So...

Then we have a real situation.

What's going on?

Uh, j... I just...

I-- I... I just have... I just have to convince her

to come. I-- I just need a few more minutes.

What do you mean, convince her?

You said this was gonna take five minutes.

I need to get home to Jenny. I... I...

Yeah, she's coming, I promise. She's coming.

Hey.

This wasn't part of the plan.

I just need... I just need a bit more time.

Please.

Fine.

Hurry. Okay.

Find inside.

JESS: I don't feel good around you.

I haven't for a while.

I can change.

No.

Yes, I can. No, you can't change, Murphy.

I've been saying the same thing to you

over and over again,

even before this,

and you never change.

I didn't realize being my friend was such a burden.

Do you see that?

This is what you do.

You turn yourself into the victim

until I'm the one making you feel better.

Do you see that?

And you know what? I'm not doing it anymore.

Please don't do this. Not you, too.

You can't leave me, too.

You can't. You do realize

that that's not normal?

People leaving you.

That's a symptom of a bigger problem. I know.

I know. I'm messed up. I...

I-- I know, but...

Come on, Jess, just tell me what to do,

and I'll do it.

Just tell me what to do.

I'm not gonna tell you how to love me.

I'm trying. I'm trying.

God, just meet me halfway.

Just help me. No.

I'm done helping you.

You've ruined my life.

You ruin everyone's life.

That's why you don't have anyone left.

♪ ♪

Well, uh, thank you for...

Thank you for meeting me.

Yeah, no problem.

So, uh, no Christmas Eve plans?

Mm.

I'm not exactly in the holiday spirit.

Oh, my God, this is... The best thing ever?

Mmm! (chuckles): Yeah, I know.

(chuckles) My nana made it.

I actually regret

giving you my leftovers. Yeah, well, it's too late.

(both chuckle)

Mmm. So, what's going on?

My department found out that I had Murphy

and chose to save my job instead of turning her in.

(exhales) I'm so sorry.

This is on me.

Yeah, well, you can help me fix it.

What?

Do you have any idea where Murphy is?

I honestly don't.

Can you find out?

I have to make this right.

I have to. I became a cop to catch people like her,

and I just... I just let her go.

She is not what you think.

Oh, come on, Darnell.

She trafficked millions of dollars' worth of heroin.

Kidnapped me, killed your sister.

I'm pretty sure she's what I think.

(scoffs)

Why are you still protecting her?

Because...

Because I'm the reason

she got involved with Josiah in the first place.

And that's when everything...

(sighs)

Hey, Darnell, look at me.

Look at me.

Your sister did not die because of you.

She died because of Murphy.

Look, you really don't want any more blood on your hands?

Help me stop Murphy.

She's not well,

and we don't know what she will do next.

How many lives does she have to destroy

before this is all over?

Okay.

(sighs)

(sniffles)

Yeah.

(line rings)

MURPHY: Hey, Darnell. Hey.

I can't-- I can't really talk right now.

Why not?

Where are you?

Felix made bail, but I think his charges are gonna stick.

Hi. Hey.

You're not supposed to be here. SARAH: I know, I know.

And I would've waited, but time is of the essence here.

I... Just please hear me out.

Okay. What's up?

I found Murphy.

What?

She's at Big John's Pet Shop

in Greencastle, Indiana.

Are you joking?

Merry Christmas.

Wait a minute, how did-- how did you find this out?

Darnell's not as bad as you think he is.

Hang on. Greencastle's,

like, hours away from here.

I have access to choppers.

(chuckles): Yeah, man. (chuckles)

Why are you just standing there? Come on.

How long have you felt like this?

A long time.

I've always lived in your shadow.

And you don't know what that's like

because you've never lived in anyone's shadow.

You're like a force.

I mean, that's how we all got here.

People will do anything for you. Look at me.

I would do anything for you, too. Look at me.

Don't you get it?

This is still all about you.

'Cause I'm your...

like, comfort blanket.

You can't live without me.

So can you please stop pretending

that this is about me? Because it's not.

It's about you.

Everything is.

Always has been.

Please, Murphy. I just want to go back to my apartment.

No. I told you, I'm not leaving here without you. Oh, come...

Murphy, my God. There's just... There's nothing else to say.

It's over. It's done.

It's done.

I know that this is hard,

but I... I really am done.

I'm sorry.

And there's nothing... there's nothing more

that you can say or do

that-- that will, you know, that will make me

want to walk out those doors with you.

(knock on door)

I... Hang on, it's some guy. Dude, we're closed.

Actually, it's...

probably my ride.

Oh. Cool.

Hi. Sorry. Uh, is there a bathroom I could use?

Oh, yeah. Yeah, come on in. Thanks. Great.

You guys almost ready?

I really have to go.

Almost.

Yeah, uh, the-- the bathroom's

just in the back through those doors.

Thank you. Mm-hmm.

Are you happy?

Is all this making you happy?

I wouldn't say that I'm happy, but...

I think I could be soon.

(chuckles softly)

(sirens wailing)

Oh, my God.

GENE: Murphy! Come out with your hands up!

What do we do? Nothing, just let me think.

Okay, just don't-- don't move, because they can't see us.

(sirens wailing outside)

(breathing heavily)

You said no cops. Oh, my God.

I didn't... You set me up!

(grunts) Ow! Ow! I... Oh, my God!

I didn't call them. GENE: We know you're in there.

I'm telling you... There's no way out of this,

come out with your hands up.

MURPHY: They want me.

It has nothing to do with you. I swear. Come on.

I swear. I'm telling you, I prom... Shut up!

They're gonna find Jenny and they're gonna take her away.

Listen to me, please.

I told you that if you called the cops...

I'd kill you.

(gun cocks) No.

No, they want me. I'm a man of my word.

(gunshot)

You okay?

Yeah. Okay.

JOSH: Where is she? I don't know. I can't see her.

She must be trying to crawl out of there.

(door rattles) GENE: Murphy!

Jess. JESS: Yeah.

Jess. I'm here. I'm here.

I'm here.

(grunts)

(both panting)

Go. What?

Go. You were right. What are you talking about?

You were so right.

Look what just happened. I risked your life again.

No. They don't even know that you're here, and they think

that I killed Nia anyway, so...

I mean, I sort of did, but this whole thing is my fault.

Just go out the back. No.

I-- I can't. Yes, you can.

Yes, you can. (door rattling)

GENE: Murphy!

Come out with your hands up!

Hold on! I-- I'm finding the door!

I'll distract them.

(crying) Go live your life.

Make some toast.

No. I can't.

Jess, I get it. I get it.

I promise I get it. You deserve so much better than this.

GENE: Murphy, move it! We don't have much time.

Are you gonna be okay?

I always am. You don't have

to worry about me anymore.

Murphy, I do love you.

I love you too.

I love you so much.

I'm sorry.

Go out the back after I leave.

Okay.

(door opens)

Come on, Pretzel.

♪ When I was just... ♪

GENE: There she is. Stay alert.

(indistinct chatter)

♪ What will I be? ♪

♪ Will I be pretty? ♪

♪ Will I be rich? ♪

♪ Here's what she said to me ♪

♪ Que será, será... ♪

Murphy, you're under arrest.

You have the right to remain silent.

Anything you say can and will be used against you

in a court of law.

♪ Will be... ♪

There's no getting away from it this time, Murphy.

I know.

Hey. I'll deal with all this here

and meet you back at the station. All right.

MURPHY: Is that Sarah?

Yeah.

Jennifer Walker's alive.

She's in that Redford dude's basement.

(engine starts)

♪ Que será ♪

♪ Será Que será ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Whatever or whoever will be ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Que será ♪

♪ Que será, que será. ♪

GENE: All right, I got an officer on his way

to take you to processing,

but we are not letting you out of our sight

until that happens.

That's fair.

What about my dog? I need him.

He can't go with you.

(sighs)

Can you at least take him to my mom's?

I know you know the address.

Yeah. That's not a problem.

Can you give us a second?

Yeah, all right.

There anything you want to tell me

before they take you in?

No. (chuckles)

Okay.

I'm sorry.

You're sorry?

That's it?

That's it.

I don't know what else you want me to say.

You of all people should know what it's like

when someone uses your disability against you. Mm-hmm.

And that's exactly what you did to me.

There's a special place in hell for you, Murphy.

(footsteps approaching)

Okay. Thank you.

She's all yours, Officer.

(sighs)

Come here, buddy. Come here.

(sniffles)

I love you.

You're a good boy.

Good boy.

I love you. (sniffles)

Stay.

(whining)

(door opens)

Hey. Hey.

So, Murphy was right, huh?

Yeah.

Jennifer's been in that basement for years.

Redford really messed her up.

Good work today.

Thanks.

Was that your first?

Yeah.

How you feeling?

I don't think it's hit me yet.

You know, we have people you can talk to and stuff if you need.

Yeah, I know. Thanks.

S... So, uh...

We're good?

Yeah. Yeah, look... (exhales)

I know this might be a weird time to bring this up,

given everything that's happened today, but...

I just want to let you know, you know,

you can date whoever you want.

Just...

don't let it affect your job again.

Okay.

Okay.

Night.

Night.

♪ ♪

Hey, I thought you were leaving.

Uh, I am.

Yeah, that's exactly what this looks like. (chuckles)

Come on, man. It's officially Christmas.

You... Go celebrate.

Well, all my family are back in Barnes.

You can come to my mom's.

Thanks, mate. I'll think about it.

What's up, man?

I just thought it would feel different.

You know?

I just thought that, when I finally caught Murphy,

I'd be jumping up and down or whatever.

You know, there's a... an old saying.

"Expectation is the root of all heartache."

(short chuckle)

Anyway, maybe you don't hate her as much as you think, man.

Yeah, I just...

I trusted her, you know?

(chuckles softly) Yeah, well,

good news is we got a long trial

for you to sort out all those unresolved feelings.

(both chuckle)

Oh, shut up.

(chuckles) Thank you.

Merry Christmas, Josh.

You, too, mate.

I'll text you my mom's address,

if you feel like being around family. Sounds good.

♪ ♪

(locks buzzes)

Hey.

It's me.

Hi.

I, um...

(exhales)

This sucks.

I'm sorry.

What are you doing here?

Um...

Well, this entire time, I didn't...

think you deserved closure or whatever.

But...

turns out I actually might need it.

Right when I thought this Christmas

couldn't get any worse. (exhales)

Look, it's not that I don't love you.

Okay?

I think we both know that I do.

Maybe too much.

But I just have to figure out a way to stop.

I just have to.

Why?

Well, because...

I really want...

something stable.

I just...

I've never had that before.

In my entire life.

I want that for you, too.

And, clearly, it's not me.

Look, Murphy...

I'll probably never love anyone the way that I love you.

But...

I don't know, maybe that's a good thing.

I mean, look where we're at.

Yeah.

Maybe you're right.

Looks like you have another visitor.

Who?

It's Felix.

I should go anyway.

Yeah.

Goodbye, Murphy.

Bye.

Hey.

Don't worry. I won't tell my sister you're here.

It's cool. She knows.

Oh. Okay.

See you back at Lesley's.

Yeah.

Hey.

Felix.

I thought, um... (stammers)

Gene-- Gene told me you got arrested.

I made bail.

Well, my stupid sister made bail, but...

Hi.

(crying)

Hey.

Shh, shh.

It's okay.

Hey, it's okay.

(sniffles) Okay?

I'm here.

I'm not going anywhere. (sniffling)

All right?

No, you should go. I...

(exhales, sniffles)

I ruined your life.

I ruined everyone's life. Hey.

I-- I'm not Jess.

(sniffling) Okay?

What? She...

We talked.

I'm sorry.

You have to know I would never do that.

So please don't ever say you ruined my life again, okay?

It's quite the opposite,

actually.

(sniffles)

That's because you didn't have a life to ruin.

(laughing)

(chuckles, sniffles)

I promise I'm gonna help get you out of this.

Keep in mind you weren't the one who pulled the trigger.

Good luck.

How-- How's it going? I mean...

Is-- is it safe?

Yeah, I'm fine.

(sniffles) I'm okay.

And, for what it's worth,

I just want to say I'm-- I'm really sorry for...

you know, getting all weird and stuff.

Like, I don't-- I don't know what I was thinking. I...

You're my best friend, okay?

And that's it.

You're my best friend, too.

(chuckles softly)

Well, I know that's only by default, but...

(chuckles) ♪ Of a white ♪

♪ Christmas ♪

♪ With every Christmas card ♪

♪ I write ♪

♪ May your days ♪

♪ Be merry ♪

♪ And bright ♪

♪ And may all ♪

♪ Your Christmases ♪

♪ Be white ♪

♪ I'm dreaming ♪

♪ Of a white ♪

♪ Christmas... ♪

(door clangs in distance)

♪ With every Christmas card ♪

(keys jangling) ♪ I write... ♪

(door clanks, creaks open) Hello?

♪ May your days ♪

♪ Be merry... ♪

Hello?

(door closes)

Hi, Murphy.

♪ Your Christmases ♪

♪ Be white ♪