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1 I remember the first time

I heard Robin play.

It was really quite extraordinary.

- Ciao. - Ciao.

- Sì, um... - Very informal.

A friend of mine from admissions would like to hear Robin play.

Oh! When?

Uh, she has a small window tomorrow afternoon.

Robin can leave my class earlier.

- That's good. - Oh, there she is!

You were so wonderful!

No, no. It's the best I've ever heard you play.

Hey. Really proud of you, sweetheart.

Well done tonight, Robin.

Well done.

So...

Pizza to celebrate, huh?

I love pizza!

Uh, Claire, you're more than welcome

to come with us, if you...

Oh, no, no. I'm gonna go home.

Sure.

Oh, she's saying she has an algebra test.

Yeah, I... I got it. Come on, sweetheart.

I won't keep you up late. Promise.

Of course! Go, go. Go have fun. Go.

I'm so proud of you.

Ciao.

It's okay.

Give yourself a break, Claire.

You don't have to pretend for him.

It must be exhausting.

You're here. It's more than his own son ever does.

Thank you.

Robin?

Why is your bike in the hallway?

Hmm.

Audition? Hmm.

Is that what Signor Sagravas said?

He said it was an audition?

Yeah, he did tell me it was very informal.

Conservatory. That's a big step!

I know. It's just all happening so fast.

Hmm.

Buongiorno, Signora Marino. Buongiorno, Maya.

Still don't know how you can take it.

Your mom's okay as a teacher,

but I would seriously suffocate if my mom was everywhere I was.

"A mourner walked Among the children"

"I notwithstanding went about As one bemoaning a dominion"

"Itself the only prince Cast out"

"Elder, today, a session wiser And fainter, too"

"As wiseness is"

"I find myself Still softly searching"

"For my delinquent palaces"

"And a suspicion Like a finger"

"Touches my forehead Now and then"

"That I am looking oppositely"

"For the sight Of the Kingdom of Heaven"

Beautiful.

So, a lot has been written

about the underlying melancholy of this poem.

What do we think Emily Dickinson is so sad about?

- She lost something. - Yeah.

What do you think she's referring to when she says,

"Still softly searching for my delinquent palaces?"

She's looking for the life she had.

Yeah. She's looking for the... the mystery

and the enchantment

of a world that's no longer available to her.

Okay. So,

your poems are due on Friday.

Please, keep working on them, enjoy the process.

If anybody has anything you'd like me to read

in advance, you can pass it in.

Good luck.

Did he show up with the jail-bait wife?

Of course he did.

Still look like you?

Of course she does.

When I was a teenager!

Some men are such pigs!

Especially the ex-husband variety. Hey!

- Wait! Wait!

Wait!

Claire!

Claire.

No, no, no!

But I think my daughter...

No, no, no, no...

You can't stay here! Go!

God, please don't take her from me.

Claire...

Claire, I'm so sorry.

Her finger moved.

Her hand moved.

Claire!

Robin.

She was clinically dead for 20 minutes.

The likelihood of brain damage is probable.

It's a question of to what degree.

We won't know until she wakes up.

And when will that be?

It's hard to say.

I'll leave you alone.

You should...

I'll just take them home and come back, okay?

Claire.

I'm sorry, but I...

It's okay.

Okay. I'll see you soon.

Oh, my God!

You're awake.

Hi, Mamma.

Your voice.

Yeah.

You're speaking.

You're back.

Yeah.

I'm back.

This is highly unusual.

Robin appears to be functioning within

a completely normal range in all aspects.

Other than scars and bruises, at the moment,

she seems to be walking away unscathed.

- Hmm. - Right.

Since you say she was verbal ten years ago,

the best I can surmise is that the trauma to her brain

simply caused her to forget she didn't want to speak.

I'll let her go home today, but she needs to take it slow.

It can take time for the damage to show.

Okay.

Here, I'll take those. I can put them in the kitchen.

Want me to take your coat, honey?

Oh, okay.

Um...

Should I put on some coffee or...

No, I'll...

I should go. Thank you.

Thank you very much. Thanks.

I'll call you tomorrow, sweetheart, okay?

Okay. Bye, Dad.

Bye. Ciao.

Ciao. Grazie.

Holy Mary, mother of God,

pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death.

Hail Mary, full of grace...

Rob, what are you doing?

I want to go to school tomorrow.

Oh, the doctor says you need to stay at home and rest--

Can you stop that, please?

I want to go to school tomorrow.

Robin. Robin.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow...

Honey, okay. Let's...

Let's see how you're feeling in the morning.

Thank you.

I saw it fly through the window.

Its neck is probably broken.

It's only stunned.

Stop! You're holding it too tight! You're killing it.

I know a secret.

What do you mean?

I'll show you.

What's happening?

Robin? What is it?

Please, make her let it go, Signora Marino.

Sweetheart, put the bird down. Birds can carry diseases.

Are you worried I'll catch something?

And die?

Robin, put the bird down.

It's dead.

Come on, girls! Move along.

Come here.

Excuse me. Robin! Robin!

Claire! Claire! Walk with me. No. Hey--

Walk with me. No.

Please.

I spoke to Robin this morning,

and she seemed more confident than before the accident.

I told her that my friend from admission

could come here specifically to hear her play.

Robin really wants to do it. No, no, no, no.

She's not ready for that. I...

I don't want her under that kind of pressure.

No pressure at all!

Listen. I would only have her do the pieces

she could play in her sleep.

Ludovica is also aware of what Robin's been through.

Giacomo. No! Think about it!

Hello! Earth to Claire!

Sorry.

Where are you? Hmm.

I had such a strange morning with Robin.

She's been through an ordeal. You both have.

She just seems like a different person.

Teenage girls are a mess, no matter how you spin it.

One minute sweethearts, the next, le monstre.

All the surging hormones! It's totally normal, Claire.

Mm.

You didn't grow up Catholic?

- Hmm. - Well, I did. And listen...

a Catholic girl's inner devil

has to rear her ugly head at some point.

I was Robin. And look at me now.

I turned out all right, okay?

Hey!

Give her time to process all this.

Do you think maybe you're looking

for something to be wrong

because it's just so hard to believe she could be okay?

Don't do that.

Don't do that!

Oh, shit!

Oh, my God! I can't believe you've done all this!

Morning!

You're wearing your uniform.

I wanted to do something nice for you.

Oh, it's so beautiful.

Here.

Oh... Sit.

Thanks, honey.

Were you in the storage room last night?

Which storage room?

The one up on the terrace, where we keep our things. I...

The door was open when I had to go in and wash the sheets.

It wasn't me.

I thought, because you were up...

You know, when you came in my room--

I wasn't in your room.

Oh, you don't remember?

Did you have a nightmare?

Honey?

Why... Why don't you come sit and talk to me?

We'll be late for school.

No, you don't have school today. It's Saturday.

So talk.

Oh, uh...

Well, I just feel like you've been through so much and...

now that we can talk to each other,

I wondered what it was like for you.

What what was like?

You know, sometimes they say you can see a bright light or...

I don't remember.

Or you can look down at yourself and it's peaceful, or... No?

I told you...

that I don't...

fucking remember.

Robin!

Signora Marino? Sì?

Um, I...

Could you come back at lunch time,

and we can talk about this?

Grazie. Yes.

Ludovica! I'm terribly sorry, Ludovica!

I've never seen her behave that way.

Giacomo. What's going on?

I told you, she's not ready.

Um...

Ludovica was in the building dropping off some music, so...

I thought it'd be okay if she listened to Robin play.

It wasn't. I pushed that too fast.

Yes, maybe.

This was a bit premature. Yes.

Ludovica!

Ah!

Got a minute?

Jesus! What happened?

Nothing. I just... I scraped it.

- You okay? - Yeah. Yeah.

What do you need?

Claire, maybe she wasn't ready to come back so soon.

Of course she wasn't ready, Viv.

This isn't perfectly normal teenage behavior.

Whoa! I'm not the enemy here.

I'm sorry, I'm just... I'm...

It's okay.

I'll take him to bed.

Claire.

They're getting him ready for the night.

Dr. Romano is such a comfort to her

and other residents.

Dealing with trauma,

or loss of loved ones. Grazie.

Robin!

Robin!

Robin!

Robin? Rob!

Rob! I'm coming in.

Robin?

Honey. Oh, my God! What are you doing?

Ah!

That's boiling water, honey. Get out. You have to get out.

Come on. You gotta get out. Come on!

Out, out, out! Right now. Oh!

Oh, my God!

Oh, my God! Why was the water so hot?

I don't know, Mom.

What's going on?

Robin.

You're so needy, it's pathetic.

Loser.

Coward.

Quiet!

Pass forward your poems,

and turn to Whitman in your anthologies.

My God!

Signora Marino.

Everything okay?

No.

Why would you...

What is it?

How dare you?

I don't understand.

They are just poems.

What? No, they...

No, they-- I... No, they had written terrible...

Signora Marino!

Claire!

Signora Marino!

Robin!

What's wrong?

Robin, you have to tell me what's wrong--

Shut up!

Robin!

It's not Robin.

Very good, Robin.

Something's wrong with her.

She's getting better every day.

No, no, no, no. I mean...

Maybe... Maybe physically, but... but...

her behavior is... is not normal.

Normalcy will take time.

We talked about it.

But you said that...

that the damage might show up later.

It's... It's showing.

I know you're worried about Robin,

but don't forget to take care of yourself.

I could prescribe an anxiolytic.

Wanna swing by Giolitti's and get some...

gelato?

Robin, what's wrong?

Robin.

Robin, can you please try

to help me understand what's happening?

Ever since the accident...

How come you didn't ask if I saw her?

She seemed fine to me when I was with her.

You're not listening to me.

She's changed. There's... There's something...

different since the accident.

Well, she-- And...

- she mentioned her today. - Oh.

It makes sense, Claire.

What she's just been through, of course she'd think of her.

Doctors always say she doesn't remember.

Uh...

Um... Claire, why don't Adriana and I

take Robin for a week, hmm?

- Just to give you a break. - I don't need a break.

I need my daughter back. I really gotta go. Sorry.

I'll call you back, all right?

I gotta go. Ciao. Ciao.

Everything okay, Mamma?

Yeah. Everything's fine.

What's going on in there?

What's the matter, honey? What happened?

What's going on? She was choking me.

Robin...

I was only trying to show her that death isn't the end.

Robin.

What Robin's been through,

it must have been very difficult, for both of you.

But, Claire, I think even you can agree that her behavior

is beyond the normal scope of readjustment.

There's something wrong with her.

I'm not saying that.

I am.

There's something desperately wrong with my daughter.

I'm going to recommend...

that you get Robin some help readjusting.

Until then, Claire, I think it's best

if she doesn't come to school.

You're expelling her.

That's a harsh way to put it.

Come on.

Let's go.

Oh, no.

Father, please help her? Cara. What's the problem?

What's trouble? Oh my God! Oh my God!

Claire, do you understand

what you're saying? Yes, I do.

Have you spoken to Luca? Luca doesn't listen.

Luca can't help. Doctors can't help.

Only God can help.

Only the Church. That's why I'm here.

That's why I came to you. You don't understand.

I can't lose her. Father, please. Okay, okay, okay. Don't worry.

Go inside and stay with her.

I'll try to find someone.

Luca?

Father!

- Claire. - He's her father.

I felt he needed to be included in this conversation.

An exorcism? Really?

Come on, sweetheart, let's go to my place.

Luca, stop.

You don't know what's going on. Please, let Father Sergio help.

I can't help her, Claire. Not the way you want me to.

So you're not even gonna try? You'll shrug it off

and put her to bed and hope she's better in the morning?

That's not going to happen.

There's something wrong with her.

And it's getting worse.

Claire, we've all been through hell.

- I get it. - No.

No, you're not getting it. You're not getting it.

Our daughter is not herself. She's not right.

And whose fault is that?

She's been with you night and day.

Come on, sweetheart. Come on.

I... I think you both...

need some space.

Claire, right? Yes.

Listen, I haven't eaten all day.

I'm heading across the street for a pasta. Join me.

I was really moved by the man

who talked about the hereafter

as very freeing and, um...

peaceful. Omar.

A year ago, up in Livigno,

he was hiking around Lago Vago with his grandsons

and found a baby deer stranded on the frozen lake.

He went out to push it to the shoreline,

but not before the ice broke.

His grandsons called 1-1-2,

but it was 45 minutes before rescuers could get there

and break through to pull out his body.

But paramedics still performed CPR

while getting him to the hospital.

And they were able to bring him back.

How is that even possible?

When someone drowns in freezing water,

they may appear clinically dead,

but in rare instances they can be revived

with little to no neurological defect.

The body attempts to thwart the cold

and preserve blood flow to the brain and the heart.

The doctors were able to slowly warm him

and bring him back once he was at the hospital.

That's unbelievable.

One of the many fascinating mysteries of the human body.

You mentioned...

your daughter's experience on the other side was difficult.

Yeah.

I've heard many near death stories over the years.

And in the less peaceful ones, what comes up, time and again,

if someone dies with unresolved issues, the journey becomes...

- more challenging. - And the journey...

What is that? Where do they go?

There's a place beyond this one.

At least according to those who've been there and back.

Is there anything...

your daughter has been through that she may have internalized?

It is usually some sort of emotional trauma

that's been repressed.

A loss.

A trespass. Something... Something difficult to discuss.

Claire?

Can you tell me...

about this place?

This place they go, what it's like?

- There is no simple answer. - Is it...

loving and peaceful?

For some.

What are you looking for, Claire?

But where are you going? Stop!

What?

How many times have I told you?

What are you doing Claire?

Claire, please...

Claire, stop!

Claire!

Claire, where are you going?

I did everything to make this family happen.

There's no way you deserve us.

Claire!

♪ Jingle Bells! Jingle Bells! ♪

♪ Jingle all the way! ♪

♪ Oh, what fun It is to ride... ♪

♪ All the way. Hey! ♪

A mourner walked among The children

Ah!

Ciao.

Jesus Christ, Claire!

You were drowning six inches from the edge of the pool?

What the hell is going on?

She was trying to kill me.

Who?

Nobody's here, Claire.

Nobody's here.

I think you need to talk to someone.

I can't find my keys.

Are you going to pick that up?

Luca, it's Viv.

Yes, Claire is here with me. But...

What?

Since when?

What?

Robin's gone missing.

Luca?

Claire, let me drive with you.

I don't think you should be alone.

Claire, wait!

Maybe you should've given a shit and learned sign language.

Look, I'm doing my best, okay?

She was scaring Marco. I stopped her and she ran off.

But you're right.

She isn't herself. No. No, she's not.

I don't know who she is.

Luca. Luca!

Luca!

Mamma, are we going to hell?

I don't know what's happening anymore.

Do you believe in hell?

I'm not a religious man.

I don't see it in terms of heaven and hell.

But I do believe we make choices in life that might...

follow us.

But you've... you've talked about unresolved issues.

And...

if love can become tangible in the afterlife,

could that be true for other emotions?

I'm not sure I understand.

Well, I'm wondering if that can happen

for other emotions, like guilt.

Because...

Can guilt...

You know, if you've...

Can your past sins become demons?

I don't believe in sins and demons.

But...

But guilt...

I've known it to take on a...

life of its own.

My daughter brought someone...

back with her.

From the other side.

I think I know who it is.

Beautiful Robin!

It's not mine! I'm Rose!

Oh! You're Rose! Oh, my God! I made a mistake!

Oh, this is for Robin!

Robins for Robin!

And roses for Rose!

Papa!

They were in vitro.

Seven years of miscarriages and false starts.

We lost all our savings and...

ended up moving back to Luca's...

childhood home to take care of his father here in Italy.

Luca didn't want to...

keep trying to get pregnant, but I did, I needed it, I...

I needed those girls, I needed that.

Our marriage needed it.

I really hoped that...

you know, that would fix all the problems.

But where are you going in the middle of the night

with the girls?

They were five when it happened.

The girls.

And Robin's twin?

Rose.

She died.

The doctors all said Robin...

was dealing with the trauma of losing her twin

in her way, you know.

So, talking, or not talking, is...

a way to control something.

So we moved to the city, we moved to Rome.

We buried everything about our life.

Robin found her voice through the piano.

I found...

nothing, really.

Everybody kept saying, "You have to move on," but...

I don't know how to do that. How do you do that?

And...

And so I just started to fake it.

Because it just makes it more comfortable for everybody.

You have to make it more comfortable,

so people don't feel awkward over cocktails.

So, that's what I do. I fake it.

And we never speak of Rose.

Ever.

Ever.

♪ ...what she could See, see, see... ♪

♪ But all that she could See, see, see... ♪

♪ Was the bottom Of the deep blue sea, sea, sea ♪

Please, stop, Rose! Please!

Please, stop!

I want Papa! I don't want you!

I need to get your seat belt. Give me your arm, please.

Oh! Okay, come on.

- Come to Mommy! - Mom! Mom!

Come on, Rosie! Rosie, we gotta get you out of here!

Please, stop! Rosie! Rosie! Rosie!

I got this!

Rose! Please stop it! Oh, my God!

Rosie! Come on!

Rosie! Please, Rose!

You need to pull your arms out! Pull your arms out!

Please, pull your arms out!

I couldn't save her.

I'm so sorry.

I've never told Luca.

I told him I... I couldn't remember the details.

But of course I remember everything.

It's with me all the time.

The last words I said...

to my daughter...

I've done so much damage to my girls.

Claire...

No brain activity.

She's not in there anymore.

You have a difficult decision to make. I'm sorry.

♪ A sailor went Down to sea, sea, sea ♪

♪ To see what she could See, see, see ♪

♪ But all that she could See, see, see ♪

♪ Was the deep blue Sea, sea, sea ♪

I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!

Stop it, Rose!

Forgive me.

Claire.

Claire!

Claire! Claire, come back.

Claire, can you hear me?

Ready!

Beautiful!

Okay.