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[cars racing, tires screeching] [video game beeping]

[controller clicking]

[video game sounds continue]

- Get to 60 MPH. Let's go, yep.

Go. Jump! [beeping]

[tires squeal] [muttering]

[roaring] Go, go, g--

[crash] Ah, fuck you!

Fuck you!

- You should've won. That was such bullshit.

- Okay, let's keep this door open for fresh air.

Anyone want peanut butter on celery?

- Thank you, Mrs. Russo. Thanks. MRS. RUSSO: Caleb?

Okay, what's this game?

- Mom, can you leave? What are you--

Leave. - Okay.

Just-- [sighs]

CALEB: It's straight. It's good. Can-Can--

- Enjoy the game! - This looks delicious.

Thank, thank you so much.

[slam] - God, she stresses me out.

Just walkin' into my room. - What's she so worried about?

[sighs]

[birds chirping]

- She's probably worried I'll do this.

♪

Or this.

Wanna touch it?

- Okay.

[belt rattling]

[sharp inhale]

[rubbing]

Uh, like this? [sighs]

- Yeah, um. Yeah, uh.

[sigh] - Am I doing something wrong?

- No, no, uh, its-- - It's, it's supposed to--

It's supposed to get hard. I-It's-- Right? It's--

- It's just-- Yeah, I don't know. It's just too much, like, pressure.

It's, like, ah. - Oh. Oh, God. I'm sorry.

[Beth laughing] - N-N-Not that kind of pressure. Um.

Uh, maybe if you put your hair down. You-You look prettier like that.

- Okay.

♪

- Yeah.

[vomiting]

[bag rustling]

- Okay. Sorry.

[puts down bag]

I'm sorry about that. - It's fine.

Do I look okay?

- Yeah, you look fine. Why?

- Maybe I should put some bronzer on?

[soft laugh]

- You wanna get a cat eye for the clinic? [sighs]

- Just, just-- I just want them to respect me in there.

- Yeah, you, you look great, babe.

- I want a blowout. Can we stop?

- Yeah. [turn signal clicking]

Yeah, of course. - Yeah, I want a blowout.

[sighs]

[driver door shuts]

[birds chirping]

This is it? - Yes.

We always wanted to be pregnant at the same time.

- Mm. We did it.

- Hi. [footsteps]

I'm having a geriatric pregnancy, you're having a geriatric abortion.

- How could you kill your unborn child?!

- It's a sin! You're a sinner!

- Nobody will ever love you!

- That one hurt. [sighs]

- Thank you for taking the heat.

- Jesus will never forgive you! BETH: It's supposed to be your day.

Sorry to steal your thunder. - Don't do it! Don't do it!

- Anyone see the new Ted Lasso? - So good.

[phone ringing]

- Hi! - Hi.

♪ soft music playing ♪

- Do you already have an insurance card on file?

- What? No. I-I-I've never been here before.

Not that it would be bad to be here before. I just--

I have two kids.

- Many people who come in here have kids. I'll just need your card.

Great. You can take a seat. I'll come get you when we're ready.

[sighs]

- How you feeling?

- I just wanna get it over with.

I don't know why I'm shaking. I'm not scared.

- It's a lot.

- Mm, yeah. Well,

I am sure it will be better than childbirth.

Thirty hours of agony ending in a C-section.

Oh, okay, but I'm sure yours is gonna be a breeze.

- Yeah. [sighs] - How are you guys?

- Mm. - That bad?

- [sighs] It's just, like,

we have to work so hard on everything all the time.

- Mm, that's forever.

At least you and John talk.

Bryan doesn't even know I'm alive.

Unless it's to talk about our mortgage

or how to fix pinkeye.

[scoff] [door opens]

RECEPTIONIST: Jess? We're ready for you.

- [murmurs] Just watch my stuff.

- I'll be right here. Okay?

[door shuts] [clears throat]

♪

♪ dramatic crescendo ♪

[car racing by on TV]

[TV chatter]

[bottle sloshing]

[puts down bottle] [sloshing]

[TV chatter continues]

- My mom won't be home until tomorrow,

so if you wanna... sleep over.

- Yeah, right.

Nah, my mom would kill me. She thinks I'm at Tim's right now, so.

[TV chatter continues]

♪ crescendo ♪

[car noises continue]

[truck horn on TV]

[chatter continues]

[quiet laugh]

- Finished my 40. Should I keep drinking?

- I don't know. Sure, if you want.

[sniff]

[clinic chatter] [quiet phones ringing]

[phone buzz]

[phone buzz]

- Hey. JOHN [over phone]: Hey.

Where are you?

Said you'd come back this morning, and you're not here.

- I'm at an abortion clinic.

- That's not funny. - No. [laughs]

For Jess. Jess is having an abortion.

I'm not. I'm gonna keep ours.

- Well, that's good news. - Yeah.

- Beth, I'm sorry about last night.

I shouldn't have gotten so worked up.

But you'll see when you come home, the house is much better now.

BETH [over phone]: I know, I just

feel like we're at a standstill.

- Yeah, I know. I mean, I'm trying. - I know.

[sighs] I just-- I need some time. I-I,

I'll, I'll see you later, okay?

- Okay. - Bye.

[hangs up]

[tools thudding]

♪ soft music playing on speaker ♪

♪

[door opens]

- Sorry to keep you waiting. I'm Dr. Sabri.

I'll be performing your procedure today.

And, uh, your vitals look good.

So, I'll just be doing a quick examination,

and then we're gonna do your ultrasound.

- Ultrasound? Is this a trick?

You show me my baby and I change my mind? Because you can't make me keep it.

I already have two kids and I don't like either of them, much.

- Mrs.? - Jess. Just Jess.

- Jess, I can assure you, this is not one of those clinics.

- [sighing] Okay. I just--

I got worried that I might've accidentally booked

one of those religious places 'cause--

Just, like--

- Oh. [clears throat]

Yes, I, um, understand that my hijab can be confusing.

I believe in a woman's right to choose.

What she would like to wear and whether she would like to be pregnant.

- Wow.

I just-- I-I, I never really met someone like you before.

- You've never met a Muslim before?

There are, like, two billion of us in the world.

- Not where I'm from. [laughs]

Sorry! I-I'm so thrown by your headscarf.

It's kind of like seeing a celebrity,

but somewhere you don't expect.

Like, Emily Blunt in a Duane Reade.

- Mm. Muslims, they're just like us.

[weak laugh] Let's go over the procedure.

- Okay, yeah, let's.

- So, we're gonna give you some meds. You're gonna be partially sedated.

And don't worry, you're not gonna feel a thing,

and you're not gonna remember any of it.

- Okay.

Can you give me something like that for the last few months of my life?

[sniffles] Sorry. [laughs]

Years, actually.

Honestly, this would've never happened

if my friend hadn't wheeled away while I was peeing in the alley--

- Let's return to the procedure. - Okay.

- So, it's gonna take less than 15 minutes,

and then you're gonna have a bit of time to rest before you go home.

Do you have any questions? - No, but here's some advice.

Don't get married.

You'll never have sex again. And when you do, it will be like a chore

you have to schedule on the family calendar,

like a dental cleaning.

You'll never feel wanted or desired in the same way.

[sighs]

- [sighs] I mean,

most men think I'm a nun.

They act like I'm wearing an invisibility cloak.

It's like I'm not there.

- If it makes you feel any better, that also happens when you turn 40.

- It doesn't.

♪ pensive music playing ♪

[sighs]

[scribbling]

[crunching]

DR. SABRI: Have you ever had any kind of anesthesia or sedation before?

- Um, just once. My wisdom teeth in high school.

My mom said I was slurring and asking why there's no Mr. America.

[laughs] Obviously, there's no Mr. America.

Mr. America is just, like, the president.

Women have to be in a goddamn swimsuit competition our whole lives.

- Are you ready?

You're gonna do great. We're gonna take great care of you.

♪ easy listening cover of Toxic playing ♪

[both inhale]

[relaxed exhale] [sputtering exhale]

Okay.

We're gonna get those meds started now,

and they're gonna relax you, [Jess breathes laboriously]

and you'll be all done before you know it.

- It's just like taking a nap, right?

- Exactly.

[shudder]

♪ song continues ♪

[sings along] ♪ There's no escape, I can't wait ♪

♪ I need a hit, baby, give me it ♪

♪ You're dangerous, I'm lovin' it ♪

BOTH [singing along]: ♪ Too high, can't come down ♪

♪ song continues ♪

♪ 'Round ♪

♪ Can you feel me now? ♪

♪ With a taste of your lips ♪

♪ I'm on a ride ♪

♪ You're toxic, I'm slippin' under ♪

♪ With a taste of your poison paradise ♪

♪ I'm addicted to you ♪

♪ Don't you know that you're toxic? ♪

♪ acoustic guitar playing loudly ♪

♪ singer vocalizing ♪

♪ song ends ♪

♪ new song playing on radio ♪

- How do you feel?

- Better.

- Should we go and get fucking completely hammered somewhere and just

kinda, like, eat each other out?

- I was hoping you would ask! - We should. I feel like this is

a good time. [laughs] - Let's eat each other out.

Make a left.

[Jess giggles]

♪ Every Time the Sun Comes Up by Sharon Van Etten playing ♪

[shifts into park] [sighs]

♪ Every time the sun comes up ♪

♪ I'm in trouble ♪

- Hey! You're home early.

- Yeah. Hi. They, um,

they, uh, canceled my last day of seminars,

so I came home. I just--

I really wanted to be home. - Yeah, I'm sure.

You've really been running around a lot.

[puts down can] [sighs]

Hair looks nice.

- [giggles] Thank you.

- But, Jess, [sighs]

there's something we need to talk about.

- Okay.

- No more secrets.

- Uh-huh.

[birds chirping outside]

[sighs]

- I extended the lease on the Chrysler Pacifica.

I know I should've talked to you about it first,

I shouldn't have gone behind your back. Just-- [sighs]

I didn't wanna have the whole Kia Sedona discussion all over again, and [sighs]

I'm sorry.

♪

[sighs]

♪ pensive music playing ♪

[footsteps] - Hey!

[TV chatter] - Hey.

[bottles rattling]

♪

- You guys are drinking more?

- Yeah. - You should just come out here,

and we can watch this movie together.

This girl just made a bikini out of whipped cream.

- Caleb and I actually just wanna be alone together.

You wouldn't understand. [weak laugh]

You should go to sleep in Mom's room, okay? It's getting late.

♪

[can hissing]

[TV chatter]

[car engines roaring]

Got another 40.

- You look, uh, you look tired.

- I do? Okay.

[TV sounds continue]

I'm not. I'm so awake.

Uh, should we

try again?

- Yeah.

[kissing]

[belt clicks, pants unzip]

[kissing continues]

- [inhale] I don't know. I don't really feel like it.

[sighs]

- [sighs] Um.

Sh-- Uh, should I be doing something different?

You want my hair different?

- N-N-No, um, it's just, eh, it's just a little stressful.

I think, um, maybe I just-- I drank too much, ya know?

[sighs]

- You can touch me.

[TV continues]

[kissing]

- Whoa.

You're totally wet. - Is that bad?

- No, that's-- - Should I clean it up?

- No, that's, that's good, that's good. - Okay.

[kissing] [TV continues]

- Just forget it. [sighs]

[Beth sighs]

Um.

- Um.

[gulps, gags]

[sighing] Hoo.

Alright.

[sighs]

♪ somber music playing ♪

[bed creaking]

♪ dramatic sting ♪

Caleb? [panting]

[heavy breathing]

- I-I thought you knew.

Fuck. I'm so fucked.

[both panting]

[Caleb sobs]

[crying]

- No, uh, it's, it's okay. It's okay. It's--

Here, look, it's, it's almost like-- [shushes]

It's okay, it's okay. - [crying] I fucked up! It's so fucked up!

[crying] - It's okay.

- Beth, are you okay? - Hey!

Go back to the living room!

[Caleb crying]

[heavy breathing]

♪

♪

[shutter snaps]

[camera winding]

[muffled chatter]

♪

JANE: Oh, big smile!

CALEB'S MOM: Caleb, Beth, over here. Big, big smile.

[voices become distorted]

♪ crescendo ♪

[car honks outside] [sighs]

- It's good to see you, Beth. BETH: Thank you. You too.

I'm glad I'm here. I really want this to work.

- Yeah, well, it's up to you and John

to choose to be in this marriage,

to show up for each other every single day.

I mean, that's all life is, Beth.

Just choices. BETH: Yeah,

and I'm trying to remind myself that he's not the

other men who have been in my life. DR. MORRIS: Yes.

That's the name of the game for everyone.

But when it comes to John and who he is,

do you feel like he's there for you?

- Yeah. Yeah, totally. He--

Even when he doesn't really know how to be there, he's-- he

shows up for me.

- That's good. BETH: Yeah. I mean,

sometimes, he gets really fixated on things, and

that makes me feel unsafe and,

like, abandoned?

- Right, because that's what you're used to.

- Yeah.

- John, do you hear what Beth is saying?

- Yeah.

She needs to feel safe 'cause she never has.

DR. MORRIS: Hm. And it-it sounds like

your home environment is a little triggering for her right now.

- Mm-hm. And when she doesn't believe in me,

that's triggering for me.

- Well, these are all really excellent observations.

- And, actually, our home is very nearly done, so.

But I hear what she's-- what you're saying.

BETH: Well, I wanted to bring up

that we have this opportunity

where Cole, my employer,

they have the keys

to this house upstate,

and we could totally go stay there.

It's, like, just sitting there,

and I really wanna do that

while-while they finish our house.

- And does that feel safe to you, John?

[sighs]

- Let's go upstate.

[Beth sighs]

[Beth groans] So, who owns it?

- Uh, the house? - Yeah.

- Yeah, it's just, like, a friend of Cole's.

They're gone, like, half the year.

Yeah, we can stay 'til, like, ya know, after the birth.

Ya know? Yeah.

- Cool. - Yeah.

- Good. Alright. - Mm-hm.

- Well, the first 40 days are the most important.

I'm gonna keep you full of bone broth.

- You're cute. That's really sweet.

- And, hey, so listen, Cesar's sister gave birth up here.

- Oh, really? - Yeah, and she hooked us up

with this amazing doula

and birthing center.

♪ rock music playing ♪

- Are you kidding me?

You are, like, meeting my needs so fucking hard right now.

- Well, good. Yeah, I thought you'd like that.

- No, I'm, like, really turned on, actually.

- You are? - Yeah.

- By the doula thing? - Yeah! Just I-I'm, like-- I don't know.

Can you, like, pull over? I'm, like-- I, like, want you.

- Right now? - Yeah. Like, I, like,

need you right now. - Really?

- Yeah. - Is that illegal? Or--

Should I pretend to be a firefighter or something?

- No, just-- I don't know. Wh-What, just-- - Just, just be me?

- Just be you. Can you, can you, like, pull over or?

- Yeah. Lemme just go around this bend.

- Yeah, no, 'cause I'm, like-- Yeah. - Okay.

I know. I just don't wanna be right here on the road.

- Yeah. Okay. - Okay, hang on. Okay.

Don't lose it! Don't buckle up. - Okay. No, I'm not gonna lose it.

I've got it. I've got it, okay. - Okay. We're pulling over in 24 seconds.

- Okay, here we go. - A-As soon as I get around the curve.

- There's, like, no turn-off. - I see a spot. No, here we go.

♪ The Next Messiah by Jenny Lewis playing ♪

♪ I want to tell you I love you ♪

♪ Woo ♪

♪

♪ He's the next messiah ♪

- It's so easy.