All language subtitles for Shaun.White.The.Last.Run.S01E02.1080p.WEB.h264-EDITH

[opening theme music playing]

[crowd cheering]

[Shaun] I didn't realize...

the full aftermath
that was gonna happen.

It's a different type of fame.

Going to the grocery store,

going to get gas.

I remember pulling up
and a whole bus-full
of kids jumped out

and just... It was wild.

[Jesse] What Shaun was able
to do was not only make
snowboarding mainstream,

which, you know,
for most parents it's like,

"Man, if you're gonna become
an athlete, let's hope
at least you make some money."

Um, but also brought,
like, a level of respect
for the sport.

[Cathy] It was
really crazy times.

There was just so much media

and that's when,
you know, everybody
really knew his name.

[news caster] Were you showing
people on the airplane,
were people asking to see it?

[Shaun] The stewardess
had all seen the, the games

and, and they were so excited
to see me. They were like,
"You have the gold?"

And after that
I was getting drinks

-and I--
-Wait a minute, drinks?
You're 19 years old.

Yeah, I'm talking
about Mountain Dews, baby.

-Oh... [laughs]
-All right.

[news caster]
He called me baby.

[Kari] He actually,
like, did this.

Like, it wasn't just
this childhood fantasy

it was like, we,
like, we got there.

[Shaun] I did this all
for not only myself
but for the family.

From a young age, it was like
all of us together
in a van every single day.

And it's always been, kind of,
like us against the world,

us against the community
that doesn't understand,

us against the teachers
that say that I'm gonna
grow up without an education,

then I'm gonna become nothing

because who'd believe
in the sport
that means nothing?

[opening theme song playing]

* Every day is just
A little white lie *

* Telling myself
I'm gettin' by *

* I just stay
In this room and cry *

* The snow it covers up
The ground *

* I'm the king
Of a one horse town *

* I'm the king
Of a one horse town *

* And I barely pull
My weight around *

[Shaun] After the giant
Olympic media tour

and photoshoots
and press interviews,

all these things
had finally ended,
I got home

and I just couldn't understand
why I wasn't happy.

I'd built it up
so much in my mind,

that if I won the Olympics,
that it would just
fix everything, you know?

My mom won't
have to work again,

my dad wouldn't have
to go, you know,
dig ditches in the city,

I would get that fame
and that recognition
and the success

that we, as a family,
had dreamt of, you know?

I thought winning
equaled happiness.

[man] Get ready, go!

[Shaun] All of my friends
had either gone to college
or had normal jobs.

So, I was pretty much alone
at the house with my mom
and my dad and the dog.

At one point or another,

I mean, every family member
of mine has, you know,
worked for me, you know?

My mom was doing
all the flights and accounting
all these things,

my dad was, uh,
technically our handyman,
he was doing stuff

and, um, and my brother,

you know, my brother
was doing all the design work,
all the creative

for all the sponsors
that I had.

How to do this?

So, it was just family unit.

-Jeez.
-Yeah, I...
It's a lot, dude.

I know, I'm about to pass out.

It's not a healthy
title to it or whatever, but

we were basically
co-dependent on each other.

He has never
come to me about it,

I didn't realize
what a hard time he had.

[Cathy] You know, like,
when he started,

so we... I don't wanna
get into that, i don't wanna
talk about, well, money.

[laughs]

[chuckles]

-[Shaun] I'm tired, it's cold.
-He's working harder
than you right now.

-How did that work?
-[man laughing]

Didn't I do it right?

You know, it's a lot
to have everybody involved
in a certain way,

you know,
Mom's no longer just Mom.

[Cathy] I was so insistent
on never letting money
come between our family

and that was my biggest fear

up to a point where,
where I wouldn't let Shaun
even spend any money,

I was so strict with it.

I just saw
that money ruins families

and I just didn't want that
to ever be an issue.

But, I think, I held
the reins a little too tight.

There was always this,
sort of, pressure, unease
about spending money

because we didn't
have a lot of it

and I remember [chuckles]
at one point
just saying, "Fuck it."

I was a 19-year-old
Olympic gold medalist
and I was making crazy money.

Lamborghini.

-Lamborghini.
-Wow.

My mom's
terrified of this car.

-[man 1] Lamborghini is not
a car that mothers like.
-[Shaun laughs]

[man 2] This is actually
Shaun's second Lamborghini,
the first...

[chuckling] I crashed it.

[laughing] Oh, God,
I hated that thing,

oh, I was so mad
when they gave
him another one.

[Shaun] It was just
that perfect storm,

snowboarding had hit
new heights,

you know, I had
this long hair, this,
this recognizable look

and things just blew up.

[reporter]
He was recently named
by Bloomberg Businessweek

as the second-most
marketable athlete
in the world.

If you think about it, Shaun,
it's one of the most popular
things on television...

-[Shaun] Yeah, it is.
-...when the Olympics
have snowboarding.

-There were 30 million
viewers, the last time.
-Yeah.

-That was heavy.
-Thirty million.

It is amazing, Chuck, I mean,
my son can
only name one Olympian,

and that is Shaun White.

-[man 1] Shaun White.
-[man 2] Shaun White.

-Ladies and gentlemen,
Shaun White!
-[audience cheering]

-Your neighbor is Tony Hawk.
-Uh, yeah.

[Shaun] I mean,
I called him once
and I was like,

-"I got a video game
too, man."
-[all laughing]

"What's up now?"
You know?

[Kari] Shaun came in
and changed the game

and changed the way
that people look at it

and it brought snowboarding
into so many more
people's, like, homes.

It became more like
of a mainstream thing.

The sport's grown
into more than a sport,
it's a culture.

It's, it's, it's a style
of clothing,
it's a style of music,

it's, it's, like,
open-mindedness
to try a sport like this.

[commentator] Oh!

[male anchor] Put your hands
together for Shaun White.

[Cathy] Okay, now we're
this corporation

and I didn't know anything
about what I was doing,

so, I'd sit in these meetings
with bankers and go,
"What's a fund?

I don't know what a fund is.
You wanna tell me
what that is?" [laughs]

[Kari] I hate describing
him as, like, a business

but, like, the minute
that it's your
bread and butter,

you kinda have to perform

and you kinda have to,
like, think about,
"What is my brand becoming?"

and "Who am I and what am I?"

[Shaun] I love rock and roll
music, so I was like,
"I'll be a rockstar."

They've got fast cars,
they're partying every night.

-[woman 1] What's he doing?
-[woman 2] I don't know.

It's only ten stories!
What are you waiting for?

Come on, let's go!

And the people around me,

maybe not my mom,

but everyone else was like,
"Yeah, go, go have fun."

I mean, he made it big,
he did it big.

We're talking millions.

I mean, to go from...

from a van to beach houses.

In Malibu, we're not talking,
like, any beach.

[Shaun] The hard part for me

is I felt like everybody
started treating
me differently.

They were afraid I was gonna,
you know, go off the rails

and by them
holding on so much,
it pushed me off the rails.

That's when
I just started to party,
I started drinking.

I'm flying around the world,
I'm all over the place.

And, so, once I got
pushback from my parents,
I snapped.

I was like, "Well,
what do we do this for?

Didn't I earn this?

Didn't I deserve it? Did...
Is this what we were
all working toward?"

My parents are trying to,
you know, keep a hold on me,
to keep, keep me in the house

and I own the house
[laughs] that we live in,
so, got a little convoluted.

[crowd cheering]

And tensions began to grow
and it got difficult.

My whole world
was built off like,

all right, well,
if this doesn't work,

let's move the pieces
to where it does work and go.

Like, [stutters]
find the solution, win.

And it's just work,
it's just business
at this point almost.

You know, and,
and at that time, I didn't
really feel for other people,

I, I, I'd say, I mean,
I kinda hardened as a person.

I was like, "Okay, cool,
I love you, Mom, but sorry."

I kinda had a meltdown when,
uh, Shaun didn't want
me involved anymore.

He kinda made me step aside
and I kind of had
a real hard time with that

in the beginning.

My mom took it
as, "I'm fired."

And she went, "Okay,
well, if I'm fired,
then here, take it."

We're really all or nothing
in my family.

It's like my mom built
this huge company
from the ground up

and right as it's taking off,

you know, we're handing it off
to someone else to run
and she's supposed to be Mom.

But it's not a company,
it's her son.

I mean, looking back,
I know now that she was
the most hurt by it all.

But, I think, through
all of it, you know,
we remained a family.

And now I'm so grateful
that it happened
because I got my life back.

I just go and watch him
and enjoy what he did.

[Shaun] The wildest
part about all of this

is that I just assumed again,
if I could win the Olympics,
everything would be fine.

So I turned my focus back
to snowboarding and thought,
"Well, this must not be it."

There must be more, there...
I thought this was the top.
This must be the top.

So, I just raised the bar.

It dawned on me,
what if we had
a private halfpipe?

What if we built
our own halfpipe?

And then once that idea
started circulating,

the clincher came through
and it was the, the best idea,

it was like, "Hey,
why don't we build
a foam pit?"

So, I can try tricks
into the foam pit

and do what they're doing
in gymnastics, do what
they're doing in motocross.

And, uh, that started what
was now deemed Red Bull's
Project X.

I got this private
halfpipe built,
there's a big ol' foam pit,

we're gonna reinvent
the sport.
It's gonna be crazy.

[Frank] You know,
being a, a builder
and a former rider,

I, all I care about
is what the riders want.

You know, knowing Shaun
since he was so young,
I can watch him ride

and just see how
the board reacts,

see how his knees move,
how his body's reacting

and know is the pipe
too verty,

is it not vert enough,
you know, things like that.

They built that amazing
halfpipe with Frank Wells
and he took advantage of it.

He elevated his game.

[Shaun] All of a sudden,
word's spreading
through the community.

There is Google Earth images
coming out of the halfpipe
tucked away in the mountains,

like, it was a very, you know,
now, well-known secret.

And it started to stir up
some drama within the sport.

People were like, "Oh, well,
Shaun has an advantage.

Shaun has this setup
that no one else has."

I'm like, all right, well,
yeah, I have it, but...

I thought of it.

I was at home,
sitting there thinking,

"I gotta win this next
Olympics, like, how am I
gonna do that?"

[all whooping]

[Jack] As soon as we heard
about it, we were just like,

"Oh, great." Like,
as if he wasn't good enough.

[JJ] Oh, yeah, at the time
it was this group
called the Frends crew.

Which was this really
awesome group of kids,

we're talking, Danny Davis,
Luke Mitrani, Jack Mitrani,

Scotty Lago, Mason Aguirre...

Come on, Kevin,
you're so rad!

[Luke] Yeah!

[JJ] I mean,
these kids were good.

And it was, kind of,
them versus Shaun.

Pretty much
just trying to keep
snowboarding to the core,

I think, is what it is.

-Oh, God.
-Uh-oh.

We're... too late for that.

I've known Kevin Pearce
and a lot
of these snowboarders

for as long
as I can remember.

I remember thinking,
I'm gonna be a part
of the crew one day.

They're gonna [laughs]
come ask me
to be part of this group

and no one ever did.

And, yeah, I laugh
about it now,
but back then like...

-that was awful.
-[crowd cheering]

[Shaun] It really fueled
my snowboarding

and every single time
I would win,

it was just kind of like
a hit to that group.

[Jack] Competing against
Shaun is basically
competing against a robot.

It's like playing chess
on the computer
and setting it to "Expert,"

you know, you'll never win.

And he proved that
by winning every single
contest the Olympic year.

And then the following year,
at the Nippon Open,
a miracle happened...

[female announcer]
Kevin Pearce from
the United States on board.

[audience whooping]

When I head Kevin beat Shaun,
I was just like,

"Wow, did Shaun fall?"

It was like, "No, Shaun
landed his run and Kevin
landed a better run."

I was just like,
"Wow, that's insane."

[Kevin] Heavy drop
then after Shaun, he did
that front 12,

so I knew I had to step it up
and it worked out.

[Shaun] All the competitors
of mine had, now,
reached my age.

Where I was the young guy,
now everybody
was around my age,

we were all gunning
for the same thing.

It was great. [laughs]

You know, uh,
competitively speaking,

I don't think,
for my mental wellness,
it was great

but at the time, just to have
like a blatant, like,
"We're going to war."

[crowd cheering]

[man] You know what, though,
we were so gonna beat you,
man, so gonna beat you.

-Hey, I beat him last week.
That's not good enough for ya?
-[man] I know.

-I want you
to beat him next week...
-Come on,

-he's good!
-...and the week after!

I'm working on it.

[JJ] Kevin was like, "Well,
now we need to go
learn all these tricks

if we wanna even, you know,
be on the same level."

So, Shaun got his pipe

and then they went
to their sponsors and said,
"Can you make us a pipe?"

They made one in Mammoth
a couple weeks later.

And, uh, it kinda created
this little battle,
but it progressed the sport.

Kevin was the first person
to bring the airbag
to snowboarding.

What I was imagining
is we just cut it,
cut that right there...

-[man] Mmm-hmm.
-...and just set the bag
there, so these are 22...

[Shaun] Nike built
them a halfpipe

and they went out
and got an airbag
instead of the foam pit.

Which was interesting to me
because I was like, "Oh, wow,

I didn't even think to do
an airbag. That was probably
easier." [laughs]

[Danny] It just opened a whole
new spectrum of tricks.

'Cause the trick me and Kev
were trying to really dial
down was that cab double cork.

[Kevin] I've been trying
those double corks,

they've just been giving me
the hardest time.

I don't feel
that confident yet,

so, uh, that's kind of been
a battle for me.

We were just nervous,
you know,

it's always scary to do
the first double cork,
you know?

So, me and Kevin do,
like, a little rock, paper,
scissor, shoot.

And Kevin lost,
so, he dropped in...

[Scotty] Kevin
tried the trick...

Came very close...

I happened to look up
and I'm just like,

"Oh, my God,
that was so bad."

[Shaun] I spotted
Mason Aguirre

and he comes up to me
and he's like, "Oh, man,
did you hear about Kevin?"

I'm thinking, oh, okay, like,
he probably broke something,

or, you know, like,
what happened?

And he's... He kind of went
like, like, like, "No, it's...

He had a bad crash."

[Brian Williams] American
snowboarder, Kevin Pearce,

remains in critical,
but stable, condition tonight

after a training accident
yesterday in Park City, Utah.

[Shaun] Okay, all right.

Bye.

I'd had some
pretty bad crashes,
I'd been knocked down,

I'd had a couple of things
happen, but nothing
to this degree.

He, he was in a coma
for I, I don't even know
how long.

It was scary.

I'm 24 years old right now
and I've broken,
you know, 23 bones.

Couple years ago,
I broke my back
and shattered my pelvis.

[therapist] Push up,
extend, extend, extend...

Last night, there was
a heart-stopping moment

when America's snowboarding
superstar, Shaun White,

endured a scary crash,
coming up frighteningly short.

[Shaun] I know
my own process for doing
something intimidating

and the endless pursuit of,
you know, um, progression.

Either need to get with it
or it's over.

The goal of Project X
was to invent new tricks,

something that had
never been done before.

And in my mind,
I had one trick
that I really wanted to get.

It was called the frontside
double cork 1080

and I ended up leaving
with three to four
double corks.

I remember throwing
the 1080 a couple times
and being terrified

and then just throwing
it really hard and...

thinking, like, maybe
it should just go to 12.

I threw it really hard
and it just,
like, landed itself.

And I felt this,
like... [exhales]

Like, uh-oh. [laughs]

-Uh-oh.
-[male announcer 1]
...double cork 1080.

[male announcer 2]
That's what I'm talking about.

[Shaun] And that's how
the Double McTwist
was invented.

[male announcer]
Back and... there it is!

[Shaun] And I'm like,
"Oh, my God,
I cracked the code."

2010, the sport
did a quantum leap

and I was an older dog,
I just caught up with the old
cork spinning stuff,

and I was like, "Oh,
I caught up!"
And then double corks.

And then I saw Shaun
do a backside double cork
1260 McTwist

and I just said,
"I'm never gonna do that.
I'm outta here."

At some point,
you gotta make that decision
as you get older,

do you wanna chase
these guys

or do you wanna protect
your livelihood and
the rest of your life.

[crowd cheering]

[male announcer] 2010...

Vancouver!

[crowd cheering]

[male announcer] Only in four
short years, he has become
a global phenomenon.

Past season,
locks himself up in secrecy,

works on tricks that, really,
no one else was working on,

Shaun White,
on his first of two runs.

[Shaun] You ever
play GoldenEye?

[male announcer] Shaun's moves
right now are so much higher
than the other riders.

[Shaun] And get the
Licence to Kill.

[male announcer] This
is unbelievable!

It's like, the one shot,
game over,

like, it's just so far beyond
what anyone else
is capable of.

[crowd cheering]

[Shaun] And they know it,

so, you're showing up
and they're
already thinking, "Well...

[clicks tongue]

Second would be great today.

[male announcer]
Leading the way

for the pioneering
and the progression
of the sport,

-with 46.8...
-[Shaun whooping]

[male announcer] Shaun White
jumps on top
in gold metal position.

[Shaun] The score hit

and it was...
it was massive.

I'm... I'm waiting
at the top,

I'm trying
not to celebrate too soon

in case I gotta do
something crazy.

And no one had
beaten my score.

[commentator] Shaun White
has secured the gold.

Deliberate
in his dedication...

[both cheering]

...he persevered,
and what a payoff.

You know, it was
like a déjà vu.

I'm standing there again
with the victory lap.

But this time, I wasn't
going for the celebratory lap.

I was like, "I'm gonna
make a statement."

[commentator 1] The move
that everyone has
been talking about.

The move that some had called
the big Mac, the big McTwist.

[commentator 2]
I call it insane.
You gotta look for it,

the last hit of his run.

So I drop in, and do
my double 1080, double 1080,

540, and I just
willed it to happen.

[commentator 1] All eyes
to this hit.

Oh!

And there it is!

On a victory lap.

[Shaun] I have to say it was
more about leaving my mark,

like, this wasn't a fluke
from the last Olympics.

I'm here
and I've stayed on top

and look where I'm at now.

Yeah, baby!

-You like the down bit?
-[man] I loved it.

[commentator] And that is what
the fans have wanted to see.

Shaun White double gold.

Boy, does he deliver!

It's athletes like Shaun White
that make you think

the impossible is possible.

[crowd cheering]

[Shaun] Everyone's
trying to catch up
to this trick that I have.

I just need
to continue to progress.

As long as I can keep
ahead of everyone.

And that was really
my strategy for,

I don't know, over 20 years.

I was just trying
to just be so far out
in front of the pack

that it just didn't
really matter.

[exhales]

[commentator] The stakes
are high here

at the Winter Dew Tour.

The world's best snowboarders
have gathered

today in Copper Mountain,
Colorado,

to compete in the Superpipe,

an event with US Olympic
qualifying on the line.

A strong group of Americans
are on a quest for the podium

and they are led
by the greatest pipe rider

in the sport's history,
Shaun White.

[crowd cheering]

This is gonna be
heavy out here.

There's some tricks,
new tricks,

never been done tricks
in competition

that some of these
athletes have.

We got a great contest
coming your way, guys.

What's the run, boss?

[Shaun] Third 14,

cab double 10.

Soft up to front five,
pump, double Mcee.

Stick it like a front end 12.

All day, dude.

[commentator] Big power pump,
straight into a gigantic 45,

1440 from Shaun.

And washes.

So drama.

Broke my binding.

[commentator 1]
Double trouble.

[commentator 2] Three-time
Olympic gold medalist,

Shaun White, gonna
right the ship
right here on run two.

[commentator 1] Shaun White
needs to go massive
to take down that top score.

Front 14... Oh!
And slips out.

Little bit of a stinger there.

[commentator 2] It comes down
to one run for Shaun.

He's also looking
for podiums

because he has not secured
his spot on team USA yet.

Trying to make that
fifth Olympic team.

[reporter] The broken binding.

You go back up,
you gotta drop in,

walk us through what happened
in your process.

Uh, I broke a binding
in half on my second hit
in the takeoff.

I mean, that run was
so perfect. I'm so upset.

Um, but we got one more.

I'm gonna dig deep
and try to get it
done. [laughs]

[reporter] Yeah, you've
been in these positions
before though

where you leave it
to the third run.

I really don't like it,
but I have been here before.

[laughing] So let's see
what happens.

-[reporter] Thanks, Shaun.
-Thank you.

[JJ] Yeah, tough position
to be in right now.

But he's been here before
and he's gotta lay it down.

It's kinda do or die.

[Taylor] If there's anything
I've learned from being
part of this process,

it's that
nothing's guaranteed.

I don't feel safe.

I don't think anybody
should... should feel safe

until they're there.

[commentator 2] One
of the four Americans

to make the final,
Taylor Gold.

[commentator 1] Here we go,
straight into it.

Giant McTwist.

[commentator 2] Chomps it out.
Will he bring
the switch McTwist?

He does! This is the one
we've been waiting to see

from Taylor Gold.

[commentator 1] And he will
go to the top
of the leaderboard,

the first man to go
into the nineties.

[Shaun] Taylor Gold
lands his run.

He's all but set
in the contention
to make the team.

[commentator 2] As Taylor Gold
sits on top right now

with a 92, Jan Scherrer
sits in second,

and Ayumu Hirano of Japan
sitting in third

with Shaun White currently
in seventh place.

[Shaun] I'm sitting there
thinking, "Oh, my God,

I got one more run
to figure this out."

[JJ] We all right.

You want a 10-10
and just put it in square?

What do you think?

[Shaun] I'm talking with JJ
at the top and, you know,

he wants me to push harder,
you know,

to do this big trick
at the top.

I think you got that 14
if you want it, all day.

-It's a two, just like...
-It looks so good.

Dude, that one, you were
just super slow,

like, remember,
it's a rip off the top.

[Shaun] At this point,
I just wanna land a run.

But he wants me
to push it so that

if I could just hit
the podium, we've
locked up the spot

because we don't
wanna spend any more
time qualifying.

We wanna go train, we wanna
get ready for the Olympics.

[woman] Hey, Shaun,
you're good to go.

-Yeah, boss.
-[crowd cheering]

[Shaun] I'm like,
"That's bad."

[commentator] Well,
Shaun White delivering
after run number three.

The question is,
"Will it be enough?"

[Shaun] In the end, I--
I decided to play it safe.

I just wanted
to put down a run.

I got to the bottom,
the score came in,

it wasn't what I wanted.

[commentator] Eighty-two
for him, so White moves up

to seventh place.

[Shaun] And I felt like
we'd wasted a competition.

You know,
I could've gone for it.

[commentator 1] It all
comes down to maybe
one of the most creative

and stylish riders
in the halfpipe, Ayumu Hirano.

He is a two-time
silver medalist

finishing in second place
to Shaun White in Pyeongchang.

He's gonna need
better than that 95

to win the Dew Tour.

[commentator 2] There he goes!

There he goes,
ladies and gentlemen.

-[commentator 1] A triple.
-[commentator 2] Oh!

[commentator 1] A triple
in a halfpipe competition.

[commentator 2] Oh, my word.

He was feeling it.

-Triple.
-Did he?

-Yeah.
-No.

-[crowd cheering]
-[commentator 1] I think
people are still kind of like,

-"Did he just--"
-[commentator 2] Yeah,

I-- I need to see it,
I need to see it.

Here we go.

Hit number one. One,

two,

triple cork.

-[commentator 2 exclaims]
-[commentator 1] That is it,
ladies and gentlemen.

[commentator 2] I can't
believe he just did that.

[commentator 1] I gotta
say this right now,

-halfpipe snowboarding
has just changed.
-[commentator 2] Yep.

[commentator 1] Ayumu Hirano
just changed the competition

landscape
for halfpipe snowboarding.

The triple cork has
now been presented

in a format of competition.

-First triple in comp.
-Yeah.

[commentator 1] ...on his
third and final run.

He could've played it safe,
he did not.

He went for it,
landed the triple.

Everyone's gonna remember
the first time they saw

the triple in a competition.

[commentator 1] That
was incredible.

[commentator 2] Anyone
that has any desires
of being on the podium

in Beijing is gonna
have to go through team Japan.

[commentator 1] Yeah,
without a doubt.

-[JJ] Hey.
-Give me ten.

All good. We're building,
it's okay, it's okay.

Everyone's getting worked up,
we're just one day at a time,

one event at a time.

We're not going crazy here.

Shaun's in a different spot
in his career.

He doesn't need to win
every event like he used to.

The sport's different.
He's older, he's wiser.

Just gonna be a little
different for him,
but he'll be all right.

[Shaun] The goal is to win

and I'm running into these,
like, little injuries, um...

Let me start over.
I feel like... [clears throat]

I would say that... that
on this last trip to Austria,

some, just, new thoughts
came to light and...

I realized, I was like,
"Look, it's... it's time.
It's time to retire.

I think realizing that
it's okay to...

[scoffs] say I'm tired
and I'm human

and... and it's
gotten harder.

I don't flip as fast
as I used to,

and just to even be
in the mix at this age

and this amount of time
being in the sport

is something to be, you know,

thought about by me. [laughs]

You know, 'cause I never
think about it.

I was like, "Oh, you know,
whatever. I have to win.

I have to do this,
I have to do that."

And just to-- to sit and go,
"Wow," like, just the fact

that I'm-- that the sport
hadn't-- hadn't just
passed me by years ago.

The tricks that
I invented years ago

are still holding up
in contests today.

Like, those are things
to be proud of

and I never stopped
to think about it.

And a whole entire
career of being

looked at as, you know,
superhuman. [laughing]

You know, like, and to finally
admit that I'm human

is-- and to myself is hard.
It's really hard.

[sucks air through teeth
and exhales]

Yeah. [laughs]

Oof, these are bright.

-When does this air?
-Airs during games.

Oh, yeah, that's fine.
Okay, cool.

Is that better?

Okay. Three, two, one.

Legacy, you know,
it's my legacy.

It's like, this is...
This is what I wanna
leave behind, like...

And this... this will
be my last time.

So, um... [clears throat]

[exhales sharply] Sorry.
I've maybe
said this, like, three times.

So... [chuckles and sighs]

It's a lot
to talk about, um...

[clicks tongue] You know,
um, this isn't sad.

This is happy. [laughs]

And you've been the face
of snowboarding

-for almost 20 years.
-Yeah, yeah.

-And you're gonna
walk away from it.
-Mmm-hmm.

[interviewer] And you're
okay with it? You've
made peace with it?

You know, knowing I'm...
I'm not gonna compete
anymore after this

is kinda like knowing,
you know, school's
coming to an end.

I don't ever have to be
on time to class anymore.

No more homework.
No more, you know, showing up

to class on time,
you know, like...

And for me, it's...

it's a wild concept.

That may be very,

you know, um, normal
to hear from other people

but this has been my life
since I can remember.

This other life is waiting
for me just around the corner
a couple months away.

You know, maybe...
Maybe a family.

Maybe, you know, all these
other things coming my way.

-You sort of bring a whole
new type of energy, right?
-[Shaun laughs]

-Yeah.
-Like, you've never had
that type of energy

-before an Olympics, right?
-[Shaun] No,
it's completely different.

-So let's see
where it gets me.
-Let's see if it works.

-Yeah, for sure.
-[both laugh]

You know, I think people
forget. They start seeing

the ads coming on NBC,
like... [laughs]

They're like, "Oh, cool, cool,
Shaun White at the Olympics."

You know, like...
Oh, I... [inhales] still
have to qualify, so...

-[both laugh]
-No pressure there,
you know, but...

You're not worried about
not making the team.

-I mean, we...
we wouldn't be here...
-[laughing] Yeah, no.

...if there was concern
you weren't going
to make the team.

[Esther] This
feels kinda like...

-[Shaun groaning] Oh, my God.
-[Esther] Sorry,

-I'm trying to go on the--
-[moans]

[Shaun exhales sharply]

Did you talk about, like,
this being your last sitting?

I... I kinda mentioned it,
yeah. I was like...

'Cause they're running
through all the Olympics,

like, what do they
mean to you?
And I was like, "Well,

this is important
'cause it was my first,
and the second was like...

-[Esther] Yeah.
-You know, these reasons.

And now, I'm going fifth
and I'm...

-Um--
-So what's fifth?

It's extra special
'cause it's the last,

-um, you know.
-[Esther] Yeah.

I'm not... not going
for this again.

Which was... Yeah,
it was so bizarre.

-But the more I talk about it,
the easier it's gonna, like...
-[Esther] Yeah.

And the more it's...

I guess, becoming real.

-Yeah.
-[Shaun] Anyways, so...

-I don't know.
-[Esther] Hmm.

[phone ringing]

[dog whines]

[phone ringing]

[both laugh]

Just booty.

-What happened?
-[phone chimes]

-Hi.
-[Cathy] Hi.

[exclaiming] Look at that.

Hi, baby Charlie.

-[Cathy kisses]
-Aw, miss you guys so much.

[Cathy] The next one
is this weekend?

Qualifying's tomorrow,
so I'm just, like,
gearing up for that.

-But--
-[Cathy] I know, I feel like

you gonna have, like,
no friends, like,

no girlfriends. You gonna get
in that, like, misery, like,

-all I have is winning.
- [laughs]

[Cathy] I feel like,
it's like so down.

-Back to that place?
-[Cathy] And you're
just like...

-[laughs]
-Yeah.

[Cathy] Like, when they
meet their only friend.

[Esther] The true champions
of every sport,

they're kind of have this
different mentality.

To us, they're, like,
always winning.

But to them,
they don't see it that way.

They don't think about
how much they've won.

They think about how much
more they need to win.

It's never enough.

For me, I had... I had
really reached the top
in snowboarding.

I had gold medals,
I had left my mark.

I mean, I probably wanted
to be a pro skateboarder

more than I wanted
all the success I had
in snowboarding.

[screams] No!

You know, it's just,
the grass was greener.

I wanted what I didn't
have the most.

And my obsession became
how do I became the best

in winter and summer
simultaneously?

[upbeat music playing]

[Shaun] I really loved
living in LA,

but there were
no vert ramps around.

So, I remember
Tony Hawk having

a portable skate ramp.
So I... I bought one of those

and I would assemble it
in, you know,

studio parking lots and, like,
abandoned building lots...

[chuckles] ...inside
studio spaces, and I would
get my training.

And it recreated
what I was doing

at Project X,
but now on the vert ramp.

* They say a guitar... *

It wasn't easy.

It's definitely frustrating
to be number one
in snowboarding

and then go into skating
to be, like, at the bottom

of the barrel trying
to work your way up.

When I was younger,
I basically would

finish the winter season,
pick up my skateboard

and get after it.

You know, meanwhile,
my competitors
in skateboarding

are skateboarding
year around.

So I not only, you know,
have to relearn the tricks

that I learned
the previous season,

but I also need to work
on all my new tricks.

[Jesse] You'd only have
a really small time
to learn tricks

to skate, and then to...
to kinda get, like,

riled by, like,
the other pro skaters.

[Shaun] My first
X Games was pretty funny.

I remember dropping
into the ramp
for a warm-up run,

and right when I hit
my first air, I felt
something come loose.

My truck had actually
broken off my board

and flown across the ramp.

You have bushings and bearings
and these little pieces

and they... they scattered
all over the ramp.

And all of the vert pros
are there

and they're just heckling me.

They're like, "Oh, must've
been slushy on that wall."

Like, "Oh, what... what kind
of wax did you use?"

[laughing] Like,
all these things.

I'm pretty frustrated
if I lose at anything.

But, man, did I find
my drive.

You, like, you just need
that conflict sometimes,

and they just gave it to me.
They just handed it
to me on a platter.

[commentator] Shaun White,
a kid that once people thought

was a novelty
to have skating here.

Is this the year that
Shaun White gets a medal
at X Games?

[Jesse] When he finally
got strong enough

and big enough
and competitive enough

to be a threat when he'd
show up on his skateboard,

he went huge.

[Shaun] I... I got so good.

It was just trick
after trick after trick

and every single time I would
learn someone's best trick,

I'd just kinda stand there
and look at 'em.

And then I got to the point
where I learned

everybody's best tricks
so I started

to invent my own tricks.

[commentator] Let's get
rowdy for Shaun!

Shaun White, he was
our leader,
top of round one.

[Jesse] You know,
the dream, obviously,
in vert skateboarding

was to win the X Games.

[crowd cheering]

[commentator 1] That's it.

[commentator 2] Wow!
Unbelievable.

It meant the world
to get that win.

[commentator 1] Shaun White,
third and final run

-just pulling it out.
-[commentator 1] That's
the way he likes it.

I'm telling you,
that's what he needs.

-He's through like that.
-[commentator 1] He craves
the pressure.

You've done this
in the Olympics,

you have
an Olympic gold medal,

X Games medals,
but all in snowboarding.

To be able to win an X Games
medal in skateboarding,

-what does this mean?
-[Shaun] Oh, I mean...

Once you taste that
first win, it's just like...

Once you know that you can
win, it's like, I don't know.

That itself is
its own, uh...

addiction. [chuckles]

Hold a little long,
feet in, settled.

Just keep the feet on,
no matter what.
No matter what.

You got it.

You know, there was a time
when Shaun, uh,
was literally the best

at skateboarding vert
and at snowboarding.

He just wants
to leave that mark.

[exhales sharply]

[commentator] Shaun White,
who was sitting in the lead

with four minutes to go.

Inside, thinking...
No, 720.

[Jesse] Shaun was going
head to head with PLG.

Like a jam format,
so it's as many runs

as you can get in.

And he's falling,
he's falling, and finally,

you know, he's...
he's coming around the ramp
and we see each other.

I just reminded him
why he's up here.

This is who you are.

Like, you are here
because you love to compete.

This is what
you were born to do.

Like, get up there and let go.

[commentator] Sixteen,
720, he's got it.

This could be the run
he wants right here.

Oh! Grail,
by grail.

[continues indistinctly]

That's the best run
we've seen.

Standing ovation
inside the Nokia.

The judges give
Shaun White that 93.

[Tony] The fact that he won
the winter X Games

and the summer X Games,
halfpipe events, like,

is unparalleled.
No one else has done it.

-Are you done?
-[Shaun laughs]

[Jesse] One of the little
magical elements that
make Shaun Shaun,

is that he wants it all.

He wants that medal
and he wants to be the best.

-Nice job, Shaun.
-Yeah, thanks!

[interviewer] Um,
I'm gonna ask you
about your longevity now.

Um, you continue
to get better with age,

-constantly setting
new standard for tricks.
-Mmm-hmm.

[interviewer] Speak on
how comfortable you are

with that role, and, um,

what has allowed you
to do it for so long?

Um, yeah...

I think a lot of people
ask me

what my
greatest accomplishment is.

It's like,
winning the Olympics

or winning the X Games
or doing something like that.

And I always answer,
my greatest accomplishment

is to be
at the top end of a sport

that's ever changing.

I mean, the jumps get bigger,
the tricks get harder.

I mean, I'm inventing stuff.

I have to make up new moves.

I just know that
the longevity of my career

it's based off inspiration.

You can't go out there
and force it.

Sport doesn't
work like that.

You can't win in the gym.

[Shaun whoops]

Yeah, buddy.

[grunts]

The triple...

There...

there.

[Bud] This is
probably future stuff

-although, I mean,
it's conceivable...
-[Shaun] Yeah.

...that you could
throw it next week.

You know me. My goal's here.

-Yeah. Yeah.
-It's not...

-It's not X Games.
It's not The Open,
-Right. Right.

It's not the European X Games,

-It's here.
-Exactly.

Seven, eight, nine, ten. Sit.

Seven, eight, nine. 60.

[interviewer] What are your
thoughts on the addition
of slopestyle in Olympics?

[Shaun] It's so important
because I think

the sport is more
than just halfpipe.

Can I do well in a...
in a sport that's brand-new,

uh, in the Olympics?

Unlike the halfpipe,

the slopestyle event

which is a series of jumps

hasn't been done before.

And... and for me
to have a first, you know,

it's always nice
to get these firsts.

You know, the first time
this event was won

or the first time, you know,
the highest air...

something, you know,
to set these records.

[interviewer] What do
you think, um,
the money trick will be

- for both slopestyle,
and, um, halfpipe?
-Mmm-hmm.

Um, I think triple corks...

in both.

-[man 1] Whoo!
-[man 2] Yeah!

[man clapping]

That's a stop right there.

Look, dude, here's the thing.

He... If he tries to trip
on the snow,

-he's gonna get it.
It's right there every time.
-Oh, I know he is. I...

-I pushed him to do it.
-He's just so sick

-of nailing the bag.
-I know.

-[man] Such
an impact every time.
-[Bud] I know.

-He gets one good one,
I'm fucking sending him over.
-[man] Yeah.

[man] Thing
about doing it on the snow

versus into the bag is that

you're going to land, so...

Because there's
a lot more motivation

to land on your feet

when you're doing it
in reality.

The bag, you can just lay in
on your back,

you know, so, uh,

just raises
the level of seriousness

and the... and therefore
the success levels.

[Shaun] It's hard, I mean,
it's intimidating

to put yourself in that place
where you're like,

"Okay, I'm doing this."

Whether I make it or not,

whether I'm gonna
be really injured

or I'm gonna,
you know, land this,
or, you know...

And that's
a really heavy thing to do.

It's like trying to walk
into a room going,

"Okay, Mike Tyson's gonna
punch me in the face.

I'm just gonna
walk right into it."

You know what I mean?

People would be, like,
"How could you not hesitate?

How could you not flinch?"

You're going over a...

a 90 foot jump.

You have to flip three times,

you know what I mean?
You have to do a...

a triple cork, uh, 1440.

[man 1] Oh!

[men whooping
and cheering]

Yeah!

[all cheering]

Yeah, baby! Whoo!

-Bring it back there...
Awesome, man.
-Hey...

Awesome.

-You got that one down.
-Dude, I'm like...

-[chuckling]
-Oh, yeah. All right.

-Mystery--
-I'm glad too, man.

-Mystery's over now.
-Mystery is shattered.

-Yeah.
-Everybody's tripping
'cause I'm doing pipe

and slopestyle in the Olympics

but... I see it as
it's only helping me

'cause I just got comfortable
with triple here.

So now we just take it
to the pipe.

it's so mellow.

You know, like that fear,
is just [whooshes]
out the window.

[Frank] To think
that it could go to triples

is, uh, I think
it's inevitable.

That's where it's gonna go

and, uh, chances are
Shaun's gonna lead

the charge there
just like he did
with the doubles.

All right, come on, Shaun.

Pop one, pop one.

-Money.
-[woman] Yeah!

-Money.
-[man] Yeah!

[man] That was it.
Just gotta come in.

-Dude, that was, like,
three feet inside.
-[woman indistinct]

[man 1] Hell, yeah.

[man 2] That's a good one.

[man 1] Oh, shit.

-Could be code red soon.
-[woman indistinct]

So a couple...
a couple things

I would say...
about the triple.

Shaun was the first to try.

Straight up.

Brutal. Like,
just a brutal fall.

The physics of that trick

and how Shaun snowboards

are at conflict.

[man] He's too slow.

[Shaun] Fuck.

It's a tough trick
for how Shaun's built.

He's got a wider stance

so his rotational axis
isn't the same

as some of
the other snowboarders

who are
a little bit smaller

and, uh, their feet are
a little bit closer.

I'm like, my stomach's
nervous for him.

He's gonna do
another one
in the bag, I think.

Yeah, he called himself off.

[Shaun] I just got this, like,
weird block, man.

I can't describe it,
it's like,
I'm just intimidated.

I hate to admit it, but...

-Yeah, shit happens, dude.
It's gnarly.
-You know? Yeah.

[man] Just as good.

-[Shaun groans]
-[man] That was just as good.

And then you just
had the fact

that it's
a fucking crazy trick.

And there's a big blind spot.

[groans] Just gotta
man up, man.

When you fully come
in to the back, you're
on your feet every time.

-You know you can
fucking do this.
-This...

You know
you can fucking do this.

-[man 1] That's right.
-[man 2] Fuck you.

I mean,
he's basically landing at...
The thing is is that...

It's so deep in his head

that we just watch him land it

over and over and over again
to the bag

but if he doesn't
put it to snow right...

Like, that's his season.
That's his Olympics.

[man claps] Good work, today.
Good work.

-[man 1] It's a big one.
-[man 2] Don't sweat it, dude.
If we don't get it this week,

- we'll get it next week.
-[man1] You got it.

-All right?
-[Shaun] Yeah.

-You got it.
-[Shaun] Fuck.
I want it so bad.

[man] Three more minutes.

[man] Yeah, Shaun!

-[man 1] Yeah, baby.
-[Shaun] Come on!

Fuckin' through it.

[shouting] Fuck you,
you fucking asshole!

Fuck.

[exhales]

Just having trouble
psyching myself into it.

-[exhales] Fuck.
-[speaking indistinctly]

[Shaun] I know.

[man] Just stay away
from the bag.

You don't need
the bag anymore.

You need to stop resetting.

Just fucking get in there

and fucking get crazy.

[Shaun] Fuck.

Like I drop in going,
"I'm not gonna do it."

You know what I mean?
I can't get out of my head.

I'll give anything
to turn it off right now.

Anything.

Fuck, it's so cold.

[man] It's a big challenge

because, uh, it basically
doubled his workload.

I mean, now he has
to practice for slopestyle,

practice for halfpipe, rest,

practice for slopestyle
practice for halfpipe,

rest, qualify for slopestyle,

qualify of halfpipe.

It changes everything.

[man 1] Double 14,
double 14, triple.

[man 2] That's right.

-Fucking double gold,
motherfucker.
-[man 1] Yup.

-[lively music playing]
-Thirty six, thirty seven.

Gold in Sochi.

Gold in Sochi.

Gold in Sochi.

[chuckles]

Forty. Next.

[man] You know,
going into Sochi,

Shaun was absolutely
favored to win.

I mean, he
was winning forever.

Ten years at this point,

like, that's just,
that's a lot.

-[reporter] So, Shaun...
-Yeah.

...do you think
it's quite possible

to be three times
halfpipe champion

-in the first ever slopestyle?
-Mmm-hmm.

I hope so.

I think over a time,
like, he... he hit a point

where he's like,
I can do everything.

[Shaun groans]

It had been months of me
trying to work up

the courage to do this trick.

I was just beating my head
against the wall

and all I can think inside
was, "If I could
just do this trick,

I could win the next Olympics

and I could retire
and I'll be happy."

I was still thinking

that the winning
would produce this happiness

that I needed.

[man] What do you think
of the jumps, Cathy?

I think they're
a little too big.

Oh, come on, man.

[Shaun grunts]

Oh, heck.

Fucking fuck.

[exhales]

I wonder if I should work
on the cab.

You gotta rest
your head sometimes too
or whatever.

You don't tend
to chill very much.

You know what I mean?

[grunts]

[groans]

Fuck!

[commentator] And a big
welcome to everybody here.

Sprint U.S. Grand Prix
of Snowboarding.

It's all about a slopestyle
under the sunny skies here

in Mammoth.

Can't ask for a better day
for slopestyle, can we?

[interviewer]
Talk about the burden
of expectation, you know?

It's, uh...
There's an expectation

that every time
you go out there, um,

you not only have to beat
everyone in the field,

but you've really gotta
beat yourself

'cause, um, everyone expects
a performance
better than your last.

-Uh-huh.
-[interviewer] How do you
deal with that?

I love it.

I love the expectation.

It's what... It's what helps
get me there.

[man 1] Yeah, Shaun.

[man 2] All right,
we're all clear for 33.

[commentator 1] In the race
to represent the US himself,

here comes Shaun White.

Snowboard slopestyle
qualifier number four.

Now at the jumps,
backside spin, backside,

and he... looks back...
I'm sorry--

[commentator 2] Whoa, oh!

[commentator 1]
And Shaun is down.

[commentator 2]
That's not good.

-This isn't--
-[commentator 1] Oh, man.

He caught
that toe edge there.

That was a brutal,
brutal crash.

-Coming up to...
-[commentator 2] We're gonna
send patrol down to you.

If you're within earshot,
we're gonna check
you out here.

We wanna make sure...

You know, if you are hurt,
that you don't move...

or, um...

[commentator 1] He is
sitting up right now.

[commentator 2] That was like
a 50 foot air,

right? Just to
your face, so...

[commentator 1]
Yeah. Yeah, not good.

So he will have a second run

if he's even able
to take it today.

Now patrol heading down
to Shaun right there in there.

That was a huge digger.

And you do it in a...
on a slopestyle,

very hard course.
It's not forgiving.

And, uh,
here's another look at it.

Turn away if you're squeamish.

[man] Is he okay, bud?

I hope.

Checking him out now.

Okay, call me.
I'll be down. Bye.

[man] Just checking
on him.

Get on the table and relax.

-Just gonna get...
-[man] You take two, uh,

Tylenol before.

-I was gonna give him
to Advil as well.
-Okay.

[Shaun] Hmm. Okay.

How about there?

[grunts]

[groans]

[Esther] And where
does that hurt?
In the front or the top?

-In the back.
-[Esther] Back?

I hate these jumps.

I can't believe
I didn't make that first run.

So stupid...

and so perfect.

[exhales]

[man] How you feeling?

Um, just a little beat up.

-[man] Shoulder killing yet?
-Bit dizzy.

You guys know
how much time we got?

[man] He's gotta
run pretty soon.

We have to be out of here
in time.

Just do your best, man.

-[exhales]
-You knew the slope road
wasn't gonna be

-a easy one.
-Yeah, I know.

I just didn't
see that slam coming.

It rocked me.

Are you gonna
change your socks?

Yeah, I'm gonna
change my socks.

[exhales] Oh, how am I
gonna do this?

[exhales]

[man] You can do it, man.

Yeah, all right.

[Esther] You got it.

[Shaun] So who's locked in?

Who got second and third?

[man 2] I don't know
if anybody was locked in.

[commentator 1] Shaun White
a little bit gun-shy probably

- after that, uh, first run--
-[commentator 2] Man, that was

- one the most brutal
crashes I've seen.
-[commentator 1 chuckles]

Like, 50 feet to face.

Here he is.
This is Shaun White.

[commentator 2]
Nice front flip.

And a switch back ten
double core.

-And then there's a cab 12
double core.
-[commentator 2] Whoa...

[commentator 2 speaks Spanish]

-[commentator 1]
And a backside--
- [commentator 2] Oh!

-[crowd cheering]
-[commentators
continue indistinctly]

[commentator 1] That was...

Wow, that was...

-Done it now. You've done it.
-[commentator 2] Did it.

[commentator 1]
That was what you needed.
You did it.

- [commentator 2] Whoo! Wow!
-[commentator 1] 95.2...

First place!

That's our highest
score today.

[commentator 2]
That could put him
in the driver seat

- to finally make
the US slopestyle team.
-[commentator 1] Yeah.

[announcer over PA]
The winner, Shaun... White!

[all cheering and applauding]

[crowd chanting]
USA! USA! USA!

[Shaun] Mom! Mom.

Yeah, we're going to Russia.

We're going to Sochi.

I love you... Thank you.

[both laughing and cheering]

-[woman] You're going
to Sochi.
-[Shaun] Going to Sochi.

-[woman] Who's going to Sochi?
-[Shaun] Oh, man.

I had a few moments
where I was...

wondered if I wasn't.

-[phone rings]
-[woman] All right.

-Yeah?
-Yeah.

[woman] You want a cup of tea?

Please.

-[woman] You okay?
-Yeah, I'm just freezing.

[sighs]

As time went on, I think Sochi
was that benchmark

where I realized
that I'd been drawing

from the same pool
of motivation

and that had just
kind of run dry.

[interviewer] In Tokyo,
as you know, Simone Biles

uh, started a very, um,

powerful conversation

about, uh, mental health
in athletes

and the games themselves.

[man] Nice. Boom.

[man] Whoa!

-You okay?
-[Shaun] Mmm-hmm.

As an athlete,
you're supposed
to be, just, like...

you're strong,
you're never wavering.

You're, you know,

the clutch performer

when it's all on the line

you know,
you have to be that way.

Like I kinda admitted
when we first started talking,

you know, I'm human. It's...

And it's hard
to admit that sometimes.

So I was... I was... I was...

you know, um...

I was in
a very similar situation,

um, at the Russia Olympics.

I'd taken crazy, you know,
crashes and all these things

to earn that spot,

and I got to the Olympics
and remember

just standing there going,
"This course
is just, like... terrifying."

Watching people
crash left and right,
getting knocked out,

don't even remember
flying there,
like, all these...

things and I just went,
"This... this isn't worth it."

I pulled out of that event.

And I got a lot of backlash

from fellow, you know,
competitors and people,
and, um...

[news anchor 1] Some
of his competitors really
hammering Shaun white.

"Mr. White, it's easy
to find excuses

- to pull out of a contest
when you think you can't win."
-[news anchor 2] Oh!

[news anchor 1] MaxParrot.

"Shaun knows he won't be able
to win the slopes

that's why he pulled out,
he's scared."

White will still compete
an halfpipe event.

He's trying to become
the first American male

to win a gold medal

in three consecutive
winter Olympics.

[Shaun] At this point
in my life,

I'd pretty much pushed
everything away.

Friends, family,
relationships.

Anything that would
kind of distract from...

snowboarding
and from being the best.

-[commentator narrating]
-[man] Yeah, Shaun. Whoo!

-Yeah, Shaun!
-[crowd whistling
and cheering]

[commentator narrating]

...in 2010...

[Shaun] I feel like
it was mine to win.

Felt like I had the tricks.
I had the winning run.

[crowd gasping]

[Shaun] And I blew it...

on the main stage.

[woman] Shaun White's
quest to win

his third straight gold medal

in men's halfpipe
falling short today,

instead finishing in
a disappointing fourth place.

[Shaun] I had never been
to an Olympics and lost.

Um, you know,
all of a sudden
the record stopped turning.

[announcer speaking Russian]

[Shaun] It was
a difficult time

because it felt like

everything before that
was erased.

He didn't win this time
so he's no longer Shaun White.

I was finally
at that breaking point

and, um...

and that just kind of
pushed me deeper
into this hole.

I think in my heart of hearts
I was ready to retire.

I was ready
to do something new.

And it all...
it all kind of came
crashing down

and I was left

with this, sort of,
"What's next?"