All language subtitles for Jeremiah S02E05 - Rites of Passage

Previously on jeremiah...

What's the deal with that
anyway?

Letters to my dad.

How long you plan
on keeping that up?

Someday,
i'll put 'em in the fire,

and they won't burn.

I looked for you
for 15 years,

not knowing
whether you were
alive or dead.

I finally find you,
and you don't...

Even say hello?

ezekiel's dead.

You know how ezekiel
got his name?

He wasn't born with it.

He took it on...

After his real father died.

I lost michael.

I lost your mother.

I can't lose
anybody else, I...

I wondered
where you'd gotten off to.

I saw you with your dad.

Did you finally
get the answers

you were looking for?

Oh, libby, erin...

Just the two
i wanted to see.

Sorry, that line
didn't work last time.

I don't think it'll work
this time either.

Not without flowers.

Mm, anyway.

Listen, you know
i'm giving kurdy some space,

so we can figure out
what's going on,

so I don't know exactly
where i'm supposed
to be staying, here.

I was wondering
if you and markus

had a chance to figure out
where I would stay
when I wasn't in milhaven.

Not yet.
So many people have been
moving in lately,

we're packed
pretty tight.

He's been having to do
some creative bed swapping.

We're still looking
for a place for theo
as it is.

Yeah, i'll tell you what.

I wouldn't use the words
"bed swapping" and "theo"

in the same sentence
if I were you.

Anyway, we're
working on it.

I should have an answer
for you tomorrow.

'kay.

Hey, tomorrow's
a big day.

Are you excited
about your dad coming?

Yeah. Yeah, I, uh...

You know, we talked,

but we haven't really
had a chance to talk-talk.

It's a great reward
after all these years.

In one fell swoop,
you found your father

and the answers
you were looking for.

What's the first thing
you're going to ask him?

Probably the same thing
you would

if you were in my shoes.

What happened to my mom?

It's been 15 years

since a strange disease
wiped out all of the adults

and left us kids
to fend for ourselves.

Now i'm moving ahead,

through the past.

* I can't let go

* i'm holding hope so tight

* it's hard to breathe
when the whole world falls *

* i'm gonna put the stars back
back up in the sky *

* let them all just shine down
i'm gonna try *

* I believe we'll find
the world together *

* through your eyes

* that's all I can see

* I believe
we're looking at forever *

* in a world
where we can be free *

* I believe *

devon...

markus.

Welcome
to thunder mountain.
How was your trip?

It was, uh...
It was rough, but i'm here,

and i'm glad I am.

From what i've heard
about this place,

i'm looking forward to
taking the tour.

We can do that.

Hey...

libby.

What's up?

Did you get my stuff?

I brought so much
of your damn stuff,

I didn't have
any room for my own.

You don't travel
light, huh?

Well, i'm a girl.
That's what we do.

A woman needs her things.

You keeping
her busy?

We've been putting
the com system
back together again,

so that we can link all
the members of our
new alliance

into one system.

She's been doing a great job
of finessing the details.

You taught her well.

Good. i'm glad.

Start chasing balls around,

you never know where
it's going to end, huh?

Mom!

Sorry about that.

We usually don't get
anybody older than...

Well, older--

from the outside world
walking around in here.

No one's seen anybody
older than...

markus, it's all right.

See she gets this?

Of course.

It was a rough trip,
so if you've got
someplace I can...

Right this way, sir.

This place sucks!

Hey!

You call this a room?

It's the best we've got.

In case you hadn't heard,
we're short on space.

I thought you were supposed
to be building

some great new alliance,

a force to be reckoned with.

You think
maybe you could start

with a little
interior decorating?

theo, get real.

You know
what our situation is here.

We gave you your own room,

because we thought
in your condition

we'd spare you,
and everyone else,

from having to share.

So what's with the hissy-fit?

Hello...

i'm pregnant!

I have mood swings.

I have a whole
mood playground,
swings, jungle gym,

one of them things you get on
and spin round and round on.

Okay, you're moody.

What's up?

It's personal...

And if I have anything
to say to you,

I will have it
tattooed on my ass,

so you can read it
when i'm leaving

this sorry excuse
for a hole in the ground.

Now, is this or is this not
the best you can give me?

This is about it.

Then i'm done.

You can go now.

Hey.

jeremiah.

i've missed you.

Yeah, me, too. I...

i've missed you.

You, uh...

You look good.

You look rested.

Nice shirt.

You look healthy.

You know, better than
the last time I saw you.

You know, getting
some sun on my face
actually helps.

Have a seat.

It's a hell of
an opportunity.

I mean, I can only imagine
what i'd say to my dad.

Well, that's one thing

the big death
gave us all in common.

We all lost our parents
around the same age,

and we all grew up
wondering what it'd be like
if they were around.

Well, it raises
an interesting question.

If you could see your folks
one more time,

what would you say to them?

I guess i'd just say,
"i love you."

Everything else--

I missed you,
i thought about you,
i looked for you--

it all gets
wrapped up in that.

Kurdy, what about you?

I think i'd say...

I hope I turned out
the way you expected.

I don't know.

i'd let them know
that i'm alive.

You know,
not to worry about me.

i've got friends.

Of course,
none here at the mountain.

What about you, markus?

Anything left unsaid
between you and your dad?

No.

I got to say
everything I needed to say.

I was lucky.

So's jeremiah.

Still, you can't help
but envy him a little.

So how was your--
your trip?

I was excited

at the thought of having
some time with you.

Yeah.

Yeah, any time.

Yeah.

Yeah, the last time
we saw each other,

there was so much going on,

we didn't have any actual
time to talk...

And so we've got a lot
of catching up to do.

So, how are you?

i'm good.

i'm good, and you?

( Door opening )

Oh, i'm sorry.

jeremiah, I didn't know
you were here.

libby, what's...

Well, we're testing
the com system downstairs,

and we have this
feedback loop,

I said if anyone
could fix it,
you could, so...

Later would be better.

Well, yeah, but, um...

Yeah, everyone's waiting,

and markus is going
to be by later,
and I want it to be perfect.

If you have to...

You know...

I should.

Let's get it
over with.

i'll see you in a while.

libby...

Thank you.

( Knocking )

Yeah?

Hey, uh, what's up?

That's kind of what
i was going to ask you.

What was that
about in there?

What was what all about?

You knew we had the room
set aside to catch up.

Now, whatever was wrong
with the com system
could've waited,

but you came in deliberately
and broke it up.

I want to know why.

I was busy looking
for something, okay?

For something?

Well, what are you
looking for

that's so important
you've got to interrupt

the time that i'm spending
in there with my dad?

That.

Your dad gave me that
a long time ago.

Told me to give it to you

if anything
ever happened to him.

So you'd...

Know everything.

Well, he's--he's right here,
and he's alive,

so if I need to know anything
from him--

look, you said the first thing
that you'd ask your dad about

is what happened to your mom.

I mean, of course you would,
it's...

I just think you need
to read that letter

before you talk
to your father.

It's been opened.

Did you read it?

They came through valhalla

looking for anything that
they didn't want you to have.

I made it a point
to memorize it all,

so if something happened
to the letter,

I could be
his letter to you.

jeremiah,
if you're reading this letter,

then you know that I am dead.

i'm sorry
that I didn't get a chance

to see your face again.

I would like to have met you,

not as the child
that I remember, but...

As the man you've become.

I...

I have so much to say,
so much to tell you.

I love you,
and that i've missed you,

and I have so much
to apologize for,

but most of all, jeremiah,

I don't want to leave you
with any unanswered questions

I know you must have.

When you've finished
reading this letter...

jeremiah,

I hope you can find it
in your heart
to forgive me,

because it was my...

My fault that...

Your mother died.

( Knocking )

Yo.

The dinner for your dad's
about to start.

You coming?

Yeah, i'll be there.

All right.

( Laughter )

And I remember
one other time,

I guess jeremiah must've been
about six months old,

i'd been invited
to a convention in paris.

We--we got to the hotel,
we checked in,

and we found
a nice little restaurant
just around the corner.

So we went there,
we had our meal,
paid our bill.

We left.

jeremiah was such a quiet
and good little boy,

that we didn't even realize
he was there

until we got back
to the hotel

and we noticed
that we'd left him

back at the restaurant

under the table
in his bassinet.

So what happened?

Well, we went back there,
and he was still there

under the table
in his bassinet

having dinner
with another couple.

This is why
i have abandonment issues.

It was hilarious.

The only person
who wasn't laughing...

Was jeremiah.

mary used to call him grandpa,

because he was
so damn serious,

but i'll tell you something,
jeremiah,

it was--it was those moments,

it was those little things,

those little embarrassing
funny moments,

that got me
through all that.

I used to play them
over and over in my head,

until the day I found out
that you were still alive...

And now, I just want to hear
all the other stories

I wasn't around for.

You're on.

Well, ladies,
gentlemen, kurdy.

Hey.

It's late,
and i'm going to bed.

Of course,
i'm not telling you
what to do,

but the sun comes up
pretty early around here.

Yeah, we're half a mile deep
inside a mountain.

Details.

The last day
we saw each other, jeremiah,

do you remember that day?

Back in less than an hour.

But why can't we come?

You can't come, son.
It's too dangerous.

Half the roads are blocked,
the lab's under armed guard,

so you keep the lights off,
and the door locked.
Do you understand?

Okay, sweetheart,
i love you.

You look after your little
brother for us, okay?

Come on, honey,
we've got go.

I know.

We're going to
grab the files

and get out before anyone
knows we've been there,

so you be ready to go
the minute we pull up.

Mommy's got to go,
okay?

max has found an airstrip
just outside of town.

There's one last plane
leaving for valhalla sector,

so we've got to be on it,

or it'll be too late.

I promise,
we'll be back

in less than
an hour, okay?

Everyone was in a panic.

Riots breaking out
all over the place.

The things I saw that day,

I don't ever
want to see again.

The files containing the truth
about the virus

paul and i
had been researching
had gotten out.

We had to get them.

I have never been
as scared in my life

as I was on the road
that day--

not afraid for myself,

afraid that if something
happened to me,

the truth would fall
through the cracks,

the truth
that was in those files,

the truth about
how the big death got out.

It seems so silly now,

that papers, files, and disks
would make everything okay.

None of it would change
what was coming.

i'd been barred from my office
by the military,

who wanted control
of the virus,

but the doors
only stay closed

when the guards stay
to keep them closed,

and in the panic
of those days,

very few people
were reporting to work.

I told your mother
to keep the engine going

and be ready
the second I came out.

I never made it that far.

Doing any better?

No.

Want to talk about it?

No.

Okay.

What, that's it?
You just gonna go?

I thought you had
some spine.

I do.

I just have
this little rule

that I don't go
where i'm not wanted.

i'm trying to
make a decision, okay?

And it's just hard,
that's all.

I mean, I know what I said.

I know what I told markus,

and that whole
stupid council,

about being
behind the alliance

and wanting to bring
my baby up
in a better world, and all,

but...

But what?

i'm having second thoughts.

About the alliance?

About my baby.

I don't know
if I want to have it.

You don't mean that, theo.

No?

Look at the world, erin.

Is this the kind of place
you want to bring up a baby?

We're not talking about me.

We're talking about you.

Yeah, we're talking about me.

I ran clarefield, erin.

I got to see people
bringing babies into the world

left, right, and center.

When you don't have tv
or the internet,

you spend a lot of time
making babies,

and I got to see them
come into the world,

and it was like...

It was like they had
this look in their eye

when they became people.

They'd look around like,

"this wasn't the world
i was supposed to get."

They look in your eyes,
and you want to cry.

i've always thought
tears were good for the soul.

A baby has got to have hope.

I thought that's what
we were trying to do here,

build a world based on hope.

You're trying, sure.

Done it?
Not by a long shot.

Not by a long freaking shot.

Now, I remember
when I was a little girl--

stop it.

Stop what?

Stop looking backward.

It seems to me that everybody
is spending far too much time

looking backward

and not nearly enough time
looking forward.

You're having a baby, theo.

That means you look forward,

because that's
what babies are for,

to help us
think about tomorrow.

Look, erin--

it's always been hard.

Every generation
has contemplated

whether they should bring
the next generation
on board the planet.

I know that,
but i'm just trying--

but what?

i'm trying to say
that's not the point.

Okay,
then what is the point?

'Cause i'm sitting right here.

Talk to me.

Okay, fine.

When you feel
like talking about it,

you know where to find me.

What happened,
happened, theo,

and i'm, like,
the last person in the world

who should be telling you
to get over it, but...

Get over it,

because getting bogged down
in the past

never did anything
for anybody.

Hey, jeremiah,

we were talking earlier

about what we'd say
to our parents

if we ever got a chance
to see them again.

Yeah.

And for us,
it's just a dream,

but you got
the real deal, my man.

i'm happy for you.

A little jealous...

But i'm also pissed at the way
things worked out, jeremiah.

I know at this point,

very little of it
has to do with you.

We've had our ups and downs
lately, but...

I want you to know
that me and you are cool.

I just have some things
i need to work out.

Must be cool
with you and your dad, though.

Yeah...

It's--it's great.

When I awoke,
after they captured me,

I was in valhalla sector.

We were all there together,
in the belly of the beast.

Did you find
a way out?

Now they've got
everyone inside,

they've set the doors
on a time-lock.

They won't open again
for six months.

They're 10 feet thick,
hardened steel,
concrete, lead--

and after six months?

My guess is they won't
allow anyone out on foot.

Maybe a couple of choppers
will go out and reconnoiter,

but they won't land,

and they need me here,
so they'll never let me out.

Well, maybe
they'll let me out.

They might,

but they'd never
let you back in again.

I don't care.

At least we could find out
about the boys.

I--i--i could get word
back to you somehow.

mary, it's 3,000 miles away.

You'd have to walk.

You don't know
what's out there
waiting for you.

It'd be suicide.

There has to be something
we can do.

We can't just give up, devon.

We won't.

We'll never stop looking
for them.

We'll never stop.

We weren't the only ones

there against our will.

Along with us was paul weill,

the creator of the virus,

and the man responsible
for the big death.

paul was my friend,

and he was ezekiel's father,
and he was a good man.

For paul,
everything was academic.

Formulas to be cracked,
dna to be decoded,

the kind of guy
who resequences
ribonucleic acid

in his head
for fun.

A certified genius...

But there's a fine line
between genius and madness.

As the days passed,

and the big death finished
the last of its rampage
outside,

the narrow confines
of valhalla sector

were only slightly more narrow

than the walls
of his conscience...

Closing in.

Morning, paul.

How you feeling?
Did you sleep all right?

No, I...

I don't sleep anymore.

Any word from the outside?

No.

Nothing.

It looks like
we're on our own,

at least for
the foreseeable future.

The foreseeable future.

Isn't that a wonderful phrase,
huh, devon?

We always fool ourselves

into thinking that we can
actually see past the horizon,

but it's always been a lie,

because if we actually did
see past it,

we would see that there is
no future.

Not after what I did.

paul, you've got
to stop this.

You can't let yourself drown
in self-pity.

You give these people
an opening,

they will walk right in
and take what they want,
and we can't have that.

No--

and we can't give them
the key to the virus.

What's done is done.

If we give it to them,
it'll just...

It'll just keep coming back
again and again.

You've got to keep fighting,
paul.

You've got to be strong,

if not for yourself,

then at least
for simon.

simon...

Yeah.

Did you know
that I read to him
every night from the bible?

We just started
the book of ezekiel.

I think he likes it.

He thinks
it's a bedtime story.

And then he asks me
when we can go
outside and play.

What do I tell him...

When he asks me that...

devon?

What remarkable lie
could I possibly say

to comfort him?

And me...

Ahem.

You really shouldn't
keep your door open.

You, uh...

You don't know
who could come
walking in here.

Yeah, we can't have that,
now, can we?

Why'd you give me
that letter?

Because I wanted you
to be able to choose

which way to go.

It was for your sake,
but mostly for devon's.

He's had to carry around
this-- this burden

for a really long time,

and like you,
he has to move forward,

but he can't do that

unless you let him.

erin tells me you used to
write letters to your dad.

Why?

To tell him things
that I thought he...

Would want to know.

It kept him alive.

Then you burned them...

For closure.

What's your point?

Do you still
write letters to your dad

and burn them?

There's no reason to.

I didn't ask you
if there was a reason,

I asked you if you were
still doing it.

Sometimes.

Why?

He's alive.

He's here.

Why write him a letter
and burn it?

It's easier.

I...

I know we have
to talk about it
eventually.

When you're ready.

When i'm ready.

So now that
you know the truth,

I guess you have to decide
whether or not to wait...

To let come to you
and talk to you
when he's ready.

What are you
going to do?

I don't know yet.

I don't know.

You owe me an apology.

For what?

For being a witch.

Sorry, truth hurts.

What are you
afraid of?

i'm not afraid
of anything, okay?

i'm not afraid of the world,
i'm not afraid of the future.

Then what are you afraid of?

i'm afraid I might make
a rotten mother.

Okay?

I don't know
how to be a mother.

i'm a warrior.

I was out there kicking ass
and taking names

and making a way for myself

while you were sitting in here
sippin' on tea for 16 years.

You're a fighter.

All the way,

because I hate to fail.

And now, you're afraid
you're going to fail at this,
is that it?

I don't want
o raise somebody

that's going to come out
as screwed up as I am,

okay?

And I don't know any other way
to raise a kid, erin.

All I have to offer
is what I am, and what I got,

and I just don't know
if that's going to be enough.

It is, theo.

Yes, you're afraid.

It's natural to be afraid.

It just means
you're going
to try damned hard

not to screw up.

i'm a warrior.

So am I,

and we're both
survivors,

but what are we
surviving for?

Can't you see?

We're shaping the world
for the future,

but the future we're
building is here.

It's not behind
the barrel of a gun.

It's not the result
of one man keeping
another man down.

It's not the politics.

This is the future.

Whatever you decide to do,
you don't have to do it alone.

Over the months that followed,

they kept after us,
grinding us down,

trying to get
the information that we had.

We held out as best we could,
but we paid the price...

paul, me, your mother.

Any news
from the latest search party?

No. Nothing.

devon?

They sent out some drones
to do aerial surveillance

over various parts
of the country.

I saw the house.

I saw the backyard,

where the swing set is.

I saw the front porch
where michael fell over

and chipped his tooth.

I saw everything,

but I didn't see the boys.

They could be anywhere

if they're even still--

they're alive, devon.

How can you be sure?

Because I can feel it.

The same way
every mother can feel it.

We know, devon.
I know.

The same way I know
that we will
see our boys again.

Okay?

Yeah.

Hey.

We will.

Now, get some sleep.

We held out as best we could,

but in the end,
is it any wonder

that paul began
to fray at the edges?

I should have seen it coming.

I should have seen it coming.

We've got to do
something, paul.

We've got to find
some way out of here.

In another
couple of weeks,

they're going to
open up the doors,

there's going to be
recon teams out there.
It's our last chance.

How? You think
they're going to let

the man who created
the virus

and the only other man
who understands it

just walk out
the front door?

They're having trouble
with the number five
recycling system.

The only way to get to it
is through an air shaft

that leads straight
to the surface.

They've had it sealed
up until now.

They'll seal it again
after they've fixed it.

It's too risky.

We've got to try!

If both of us
try a move like that,
we will get caught.

And we'll never
get out of here.

At least, not all of us.

What are you talking about?

You go.

No.

devon, listen to me.

Absolutely not.

I can create a diversion,

make time for you and mary
both to make it out of here,

but you have to promise me
that you'll take simon
with you when you go.

I can't stand the idea of him
growing up inside this place.

i'm not leaving you here
on your own.

Have you any idea
what they will do to you?

No, devon...

It's already been done.

For years,
scientists had done studies

on the stress created
by living in close quarters,

underground,
for prolonged periods,

but no one had
ever been tested

under circumstances
like this,

not with the added burden
paul was carrying,

what he'd done,

what we were planning.

It was supposed to be
a diversion,

nothing more.

What's going on?

Weill's killed
five officers,

and closed himself off
with three more,
all wounded!

That wasn't
what we agreed to.

devon, we have to go back
and try to stop him--

there isn't time!
We have to go now.

It's our only chance
to get out of here.

Come on, dr. weill,
put down the gun down.
You don't want to do this.

You'd be surprised.

Just put the gun down.

Stay back.

I mean it!

Where's my dad?

Shh.

You shouldn't be down here.

Oh, hey, we got
turned around somewhere--

we have a blip
in shaft five.

Repeat,
blip in shaft five.

Moving to intercept.

Don't know if we can
get there in time.

We need back up.

Someone get down
here now.

You thought you'd won,

but you lose.

I killed the world, man.

I killed
the whole freaking world!

You think i'm going to worry
about you?

simon, drop the book.

Just forget the book!

Now, what I...

What I know ends here.

What I discovered

cannot be used
to terrorize mankind again.

You thought
i couldn't stop you,

but I can!

I...

I have...

No one left.

No one left but me.

No!

Keep going, simon,
just keep going.

Keep going!

simon, don't look down.

Stop where you are!

I will fire!

devon!

devon, I can't hold on!

Hang on, hang on.

I can't hold--

devon!

It won't open.

It won't open!

When paul was gone,

they concentrated
their efforts on me,

because I was their last hope.

What they did to me, I...

I can't describe.

After a while,

they realized I wasn't going
to give them anything.

Didn't stop them from trying,

but they had nothing
to hold over me.

Not you, not mary.

Nothing.

paul was right.

You were right.

I am afraid,

but not just of the future.

The right future,

the one that
we have to build,

is one where the...

Where the big death
is no longer
something to fear,

a memory.

That's what I had
to make sure of,

that it was a memory.

For you, for her,

for all the unborn children.

Her death is on my hands.

My baby's life is in my hands.

If I had been stronger,

if I hadn't let go,

if i'd tried another way...

i'm ashamed of what I did.

i'm afraid of what I might do.

The children of the world
deserve a future without fear.

What do I do if I screw up?

All we can do is get on
with the business of living,

bury our dead,
raise our children,

hope for a better world.

I just don't know

if I can give my baby
the world...

That he deserves.

Well...

All we can do is try,

and I hope you can try
to forgive me, jeremiah.

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry...

Hi.

Hi.

I, uh, i've been looking
all over for you.

I couldn't find you.

You okay?

Yeah, i'm good.

We, uh...

We have some time.

Mm-hmm.

All the time in the world.

It's been
a long time, jeremiah.

16 years.

A lot's happened to you,

and me...

And...Everybody.

You must have some questions.

No.

jeremiah, I don't mind--

i'm going to quit
looking back,

because when you look back,
you lose the moments,

and that's all we have,
really...

Is moments.

i'm happy
that you're alive,

that you're here...

Today.

Right now.

I got something
to say to you.

Will wonders never cease.

leo or cleo?

What?

leo or cleo?

i'm thinking leo
if it's a boy,

and cleo
if it's a girl.

It's gonna be
theo and leo

or theo and cleo,

and where we walk,
mountains will tremble.

Hell, i'm trembling
just at the thought of it.

Of course
it could be worse.
It could be twins.

theo, leo, and cleo?

So you got
all your stuff?

I think so.

i've been in contact
with some people.

We're going to get
valhalla sector back on line

along with some other
abandoned bases,

make it a clearing house
for information.

I think it'll be a big help
to what's going on here.

You finally had
some time with jeremiah.

Yes, I did,

and it was...

It was good.

I don't know what it is,

but maybe hanging out
with people your age,

I feel younger,

like a great weight's
been taken off my shoulders.

That's good.

You'd better call.

I will.

Goodbye, libby.

Bye, devon.

Take care.

You too.

libby...

A long time ago,

I gave you a letter
that I wrote to jeremiah.

Do you still--

no.

I think it got lost
in the evacuation.

It's probably
long gone by now.

I could take a look
around for you--

no, no, it's good.

Safe journey.

Thanks for having me.

Be good.

Let's go.

I wondered
where you'd gotten off to.

I saw you with your dad.

Did you finally
get the answers
you were looking for?

( mary ):
I love you, jeremiah.

I love you too, mom.