All language subtitles for SkyMed S03E02 1080p WEBRip x264-BAE_track3_[eng]

- So you must be my new
first officer, tj.

- Reporting for duty, cap.
- Are you marianne,

The new chief nurse?
(chopper): I know that we didn't

Exactly plan to run
into each other again.

None of this has to be awkward.

(marianne): As far as anyone
here needs to know,

We're just two colleagues
meeting for the first time.

(nowak): I've been
stalling birch wing while
I've been recovering.

- I won't let you hurt yourself
for me. Take the job, nowak.

(crystal): It is possible that I
still have feelings for jeremy.

(hayley): Well, why don't you
tell him? How do you know

He still doesn't feel
the same way?

(wheezer): It's jeremy.
I'm so sorry, crystal.

(crystal): The sacred fire
in north house

Will send jeremy on his journey
back to the creator.

For four days and four nights,

We'll sit up with him
in the fire.

We'll never let it go out.

We'll grieve.

We'll share stories.

And on the fourth day,

We'll say goodbye.

But until then,

This fire is for us,

His skymed family.

(somber music)

- That kid, he never
stopped moving.

Fidgeting, laughing, singing.

You know, uh, when I first
moved to north house,

I was a skinny, white kid.

I was just trying to be
a new father, a new husband,

A new part of lynn's community.

Jeremy, he was just a kid.

You both were.

- We were teenagers. Barely.

- This one day,
I got home at 4 a.M.

I'd been working
24 hours straight.

6 a.M., we wake up
to the smell of coffee

And someone singing
in the kitchen.

And there's jeremy, big smile.

He was waiting for me to wake up
so I could help him

Fix his dirt bike.

But as soon as you
get your tools out,

Everyone who needs anything
fixed starts coming around.

So, suddenly I'm getting dragged
from house to house.

I'm fixing wobbly chairs,
leaky taps, a clogged stovepipe.

And you know, if you fix
something for someone,

Then you gotta stick around
for fry bread and soup, right?

The whole deal.

And there's jeremy. He's just...

Following me around,
handing me tools,

Lining up the next person.

I can't remember now. Um...

What did we help
your kookoo with?

- Isabelle's front step.

- Right. Yes.

- We all kinda thought
you were a weenuk

Until you came around
to help out.

- Yeah, I figured that out
when I got home,

Took a look at jeremy's bike
and realized

That it wasn't broken.

He just wanted me to get out
and meet people.

Man, he got a kick out
of caleb, too.

Playing with him.

Taking him canoeing,
teaching him about the bush.

He was like a big brother.

Jeremy, he, um...

He was my brother, too.

(door opens)

(chopper): Doesn't feel real.

I keep thinking that
I'll look up and see jeremy

With his bag of marshmallows
while he distracts me

With his joke
and he steals my beer.

(exhales)

- He pulled that one
on me a couple times, too.

- It all feels so pointless,
you know?

Such a senseless and dumb thing.

(marianne): No, I understand.
We're all short-staffed up here

Right now. Okay. Thank you.

(sighs)
I can't find a medic

To cover jeremy's shifts.

Tch doesn't have anyone
to spare.

- I'll do it. I'm registered
in manitoba now.

I can do jeremy's shifts
and mine.

- You just got off.
You need to rest.

- No, I'm fine. I'm good to go.

Anything you got,
just send it my way.

- Well, that's one covered.

Skymed doesn't have enough
nurses as it is.

Now I've lost
jeremy and crystal,

So now I'm two bodies down.

- Is that all we are to you?

Crystal's grieving.
We just lost one of our own.

- That's not what I meant.
It was a poor choice of words.

(pagers beeping)

(sighs)

Nice move, feriera.

(inhales and exhales deeply)

(hal): You ever barf so hard it
feels like your whole stomach

Is gonna come out?

Can that happen?
Can your stomach just fall out?

- Organs can prolapse,

But not usually
with food poisoning.

- This isn't food poisoning.

Leprosy, rabies, typhus.

I drank the whole bag.
There I was,

Putting it in coffee,
in my cereal.

Drinking entire glasses.

(gasping)
I didn't see it until the bag

Was almost empty. And then...

- You'd think these
things would float.

- It was just lurking
at the bottom.

And the whole time,
I was drinking it!

Oh, god.
(gagging)

- There you go.

(gagging)

All right, nausea, vomiting.
Do you have any other symptoms?

You were in thompson
a few times

In the last couple of months
for uh, rashes?

- That first time
I'm sure was shingles.

But last December, I thought
that could've been a lupus rash.

- And uh, the headaches
that you were having

A couple of months ago,
those went away?

- I was worried that
it was an aneurysm,

But they cleared up.
Until last night, of course.

When I started feeling awful,
headache, chills, vomiting.

I read online those
are all symptoms

Of the bubonic plague.
And rats carry the plague!

- Rats don't carry the plague.

Fleas on rats carry it.

That, that is a mouse.

- Mice have fleas too,
don't they?

- What's this?
- Oh uh,

I got new orthotics.
They're supposed to help

With my sciatica,
but all they did

Was give me that stupid blister.

- I've never seen
the plague, hal,

But I don't think this is it.

We'll take you to thompson.
Get you a full workup.

- You sure about this guy?

We're already down two crews.

What if something more,
I don't know, serious, happens

And then we're stuck here
medevac-ing a hypochondriac

Who drank cheap milk?
I don't know.

- I'm gonna get an iv started,

Get you some dimenhydrinate
for the nausea,

And then we'll get
on the plane, okay?

- I brought my flight bag.

My inhalers, cpap,
an inflatable vest.

I like to be prepared.

- I guess this makes this
a mouse evac, huh?

(chuckles)

- This kinda thing
never bothered me before.

But today, it all just kinda
feels like a waste of time,

You know?

Like we should be out there
helping real patients

With real emergencies.

Our friend died helping someone
in a car accident

And we're just,
we're here flying somebody

With a tummy ache
and some... Some neuroses?

- I feel hot.
I think it's my sinuses.

(snorting)

Could you get my dristan?
It's in my bag.

- You can have the dristan,
but I also wanna

Give you some aspirin.
Oh, shoot! I'm sorry.

Do you have anything breakable
in there?

- Um...

(gas hissing)
- oh, god! Ah!

- Hey, what's that noise
back there?

Is something leaking?

(hissing)

Bear spray. Bear spray!
Mask! Mask! Mask!

(choking)

(choking and gasping)

(marianne): I've locked
it in the cooler!

(chopper): No! No, no, no!
That won't hold it!

- This stuff's like tear gas.
It's an oil.

It's already on our skin,
even with the masks.

- Get some water.
Flush your eyes. I'll fly.

Hey, what do we have
back there that can help?

(marianne): I have some wipes
in here somewhere!

(coughing)
(chopper): Dumping the cabin.

(tj): It's already on our skin,
our clothes.

All over everything.

I have control.
- Here, use these.

- Cap, we can't fly like this.

We're blind,
we can barely breathe.

(chopper): We'll land
at prospect river.

It's the closest strip.

- That's still
a few minutes out.

My eyes are on fire.

- We can make it.
We'll take shifts.

I have control.

(airplane roars)

- Ha! Woo!

Burning and freezing.

Goddamn.

That's being alive, cap.
- Hey, call dispatch.

Tell them to get a medevac
for the patient.

- Yeah.
- Some rampies for 922 as well.

It's gonna need a deep clean
before anybody's

Ready to fly in it.
- Copy that.

(gasping)

- What, what about the mouse?

Will it be too contaminated
for testing?

- Hal, buddy, right now I care
a lot less about the mouse

Than about what the hell you
were doing bringing bear spray

On an airplane?
Do you have any idea

How lucky we are to be so close
to a safe airstrip, huh?

And what, you just forgot
to mention to me

That you had noxious gas on you?
- I like to be prepared.

- Hal, you are not running
into a bear at 20,000 feet.

Just like you don't have
the plague,

Or, or, or an aneurysm,
or the shingles. All right?

And now we have
a whole plane here

That is out of service

When there are actual hurt
people out there who need us!

(marianne): Captain chopra!

A minute?

(panting)
hey.

I understand
that you are grieving,

But that is never an excuse
to talk to a patient that way.

You're right, the bear spray
could have been a catastrophe.

That's on me. Next time,
I'll make sure to check

My patients' bags.
But however ridiculous

You might think this man is,

He has a high fever,
a badly infected blister,

And he's vomiting.
It might not have anything

To do with that mouse,
but he is sick

And he does need
to see a doctor.

He has a pretty
serious infection.

He needs antibiotics.

I do care, you know.

About your friend.

And I am so sorry for your loss.

But skymed
still has a job to do.

There are still people out there
that are counting on us.

- Did you use any
of your wipes on yourself?

- We only had a few.
I wanted to prioritize

The patient and pilots.
- Here.

(marianne exhales)
let me.

I uh, I thought a spy
like lady jaguar

Would have carried
an antidote for poison.

- Well, maybe she did. But...
(sniffles)

Marianne just keeps
making mistakes

Like letting a patient
bear spray us.

- It's not your fault.
Well, not all of it, at least.

(marianne chuckles)

I should have checked
his bag, too.

The north is full of characters,

Which is why I'm wondering
why you're up here.

What made you leave a fancy job
in toronto

To come fly in mouse-evacs
with us?

(soft music)

- I got it now. Thanks.

- Thanks.

- I keep thinking about this
story that jeremy told me.

About a fox he accidentally
caught in a trap.

And it made him realize
he wanted to be a paramedic.

- Apiscimakesisis.

That's what kookoo called him
when he was a little kid.

"little fox."

(lexi): You know there are
something like 60 species

Of animals that have some
version of laughter?

But foxes, they actually sound
like they're laughing.

They even giggle...

Apiscimakesisis.

It suits him.

(caleb): Yo, yo, yo, tansi.
Text like a normal person.

(voicemail beeps)
- hey, bud. It's um, it's dad.

Listen, I know you don't like
talking on the phone,

But I just...

I just, I really
wanna hear your voice, okay?

So, call me back.

(call beeps off)

(sobs)

(pagers beeping)

- You and I,

We don't always like
to show our emotions.

That doesn't mean
we're not feeling.

Sometimes it just means that...

We're feeling too much to show.

(soft music)

- Hey.

It's late. You're on call.
You should get some sleep.

- We are not gonna leave
jeremy alone tonight.

We take care of our own.

(sighs)

- Wait, what?
Jeremy built a trebuchet?

How do I not know this story?

- It was before
I moved to north house,

But jer's dad said he was
eight or nine years old

And the entire community
lived in fear

Of accidentally getting hit
by a water balloon

Or a rotten squash
from this giant catapult.

(chuckles)

You remember that story,
right, cryssy?

You were there.
You should tell it.

- Uh...

- No? Okay.

- Hi.
(wheezer): Hi.

- Um...

I didn't know if...

If it was okay to, um...

You all knew him
a lot longer, so...

- I don't think this type
of thing has a time limit.

- Thanks.

- This feels wrong.
- Feels hella wrong.

I mean...

I am excited for you
to be chief pilot nowak.

And you're gonna get to fly
with reese again at birch wing.

- Feels like the wrong time.

Feels like I'm leaving
things unfinished.

- Come here, man. Bring it in.

- You already packed.
- Cadet training dies hard.

- I'm...

I'm gonna go find stef.

See if I can get her
to sit at the fire.

- My flight to saskatoon
leaves tomorrow night.

Will you come say goodbye?

- No more flight suits
for you, huh?

Well, if you're gonna be
a chief pilot,

You're gonna need a tie.

- That, uh...
That's a sandwich?

- Yeah, it's a ham
and cheese sandwich.

I know you have a hard time
making friends

And we both know
you can get hangry.

I just figured if you ever
got lonely, or grumpy,

Or were just having a hard time,
this would help you remind you

To just eat a damn sandwich.

(scoffs)

I, uh...

I have a sched evac, so...

(inhales and exhales deeply)

(timer dings)

(exhales)

(tense music)

(breathes deeply)

- Wow, what's all this?

What are you goin' for,
a flavors of the world theme

Or just cookin'
to feed the world?

(sighs)

- I wanna make sure
crystal is eating.

But I know she doesn't
feel like it.

I just, I don't know,
I keep thinking if I can find

The right thing to tempt her,
maybe she will.

I don't know.

- So, what was jeremy
really like?

I mean, from the stories,
it just seems like

He was larger than life.

- He kinda was. Honestly.

Jeremy was... Jeremy.

He had this big, huge heart,
and he was funny.

For a while, we all kinda
thought he was a screw up,

But we were wrong.

He grew up, he changed his life,

And he was proof
of what a second chance

Can do to someone, you know?

And for a while,
I thought he was gonna have

A second chance at love, too.

I thought him and crystal
both would.

- I thought, uh, I thought
rosie was the girlfriend?

- Rosie was the girlfriend.

But crystal is his widow.

(rosie): Been trying to learn
a lot about jeremy's culture.

He told me one time how powerful
eagles are in cree culture.

Acting as messengers between
the nehiyawak and the creator.

Helping to carry prayers.

Just thought
that was so beautiful.

I was talking to an elder
the other day at the fair

And she mentioned
how powerful it was

To see an eagle at a funeral.

- Some people think it means
the person that... Died

Will have a good journey.

- She said some people think
it means the eagle's

Accompanying that person
on their journey.

Yeah, I like that.

The idea that
they're not going alone.

You know, when I first met him,
I was feeling really alone.

But he made me feel like
somebody cared about me.

That no matter how I felt,
I wasn't alone.

He connected so many people.

He brought so many
people together.

So, um...

I don't know, I guess
I'm just really hoping

That I see an eagle.

So I know he's not alone.

(sad chuckle)

- One large coffee, black.

Couple shots of whatever
you've got back there

That counts as espresso.
You want your uzhe?

- No.
- Okay.

- Maybe we should go home.

Wait for the next call there.
You've been working nonstop.

You could take a break,
get some sleep.

Or maybe sit by the fire
with everyone else.

- Nah, I gotta caffeinate.
Head back to the hangar.

I volunteered to restock
all the flight bags.

- Is there a reason you don't
wanna be at the fire?

I mean, I'm not judging,
I just feel like

You've been avoiding it.

Is there something going on?
(man chokes)

Something you wanna talk about?
- Hey, are you okay?

(choking)

Hey, are you choking?
I'm a paramedic.

- He's allergic to nuts.
I was supposed to check

About the barbecue sauce,
but my friend called me

And I forgot. Oh, my god.

(stef): Hang on, hang on.
I gotcha. Hang in there.

(gasping)
hang on.

Okay, 0.3 milligrams epi I.M.

(choking)

Breathe. There you go.

- Is he gonna be okay?
I, I am so sorry.

- What the hell is wrong
with you? He could have died.

It is your job to watch out
for things like this.

And what, you were too busy
doing something else

To save his life?
- Stef, she's just a kid.

It was an accident.

- Call, call an ambulance.

- Are we ever gonna talk
about what all that was?

Because whatever that was,
was not you.

I know you've been working
a lot, and you're tired,

And we're all upset about
what happened to jeremy,

But that was--
- jeremy was my fault.

- What?

(ominous music)

(breathing frantically)

- Look, I was...

I was supposed to do
a ride-along with jeremy.

I was supposed to be
there with him.

(exhales)

But instead,

I let myself get distracted
by a patient.

The, the snowboarder, the one
we found buried in the snow.

I, I got her to the hospital,

But she had to go for imaging,
and she was upset.

I broke my own rule.
I got attached.

And because of that,
I wasn't there for jeremy.

How am I supposed
to face crystal

Knowing that I'm the reason
that he's dead?

- Hey. Hey.

This is not your fault.

What happened to jeremy
wasn't anybody's fault, okay?

It was, it was bad timing.

Bad roads, bad... Bad luck.

And you will make yourself crazy
thinking about all the ifs.

Hey.

I love you, stef.

And this was not your fault.

(fire crackling)

- Jeremy did ems
with his whole heart.

He didn't hold back.

I told him on
one of his first days

Not to get so attached.

That was a lesson I had
to learn the hard way.

Because with the kinda stuff
that we see,

If you get attached, if you open
that door just a little bit,

It feels like your whole chest
will just crack open

From having to care so much.

All the time. About all of it.

Like you could just
lose yourself

In this giant hole
of your own cracked open chest.

(sniffling)

Jeremy didn't listen to me.

- That's jeremy.

He's always gonna
do things his own way.

(soft music)

- I...
(sniffles)

I lost someone important once.

And I never understood
why people kept saying,

"I'm sorry."

Like, how does you being sorry
help with all of this pain?

But I, I get it now.

It's because they can see
how much you're hurting.

And they know there's nothing
they can do.

But they want to.

I would do anything to make
this awful hurting go away.

To take away your grief.

That's why...
(sniffles)

I am so sorry, crystal.

(sobs)

- Hey, do me a favor.
Check the runway lights

For me, will ya?

Prism lake,
it's a seasonal strip

For a cottage community.
They pretty much just lock up

The terminal and abandon
the airstrip in the off season.

- Uh... I don't see them
comin' up.

If it's off season,
how are there patients up here?

- Well, this is the north.
There's always people

Where they shouldn't be.

- It sounds like
a pretty bad fall, wheezer.

We have to go get him.
- All right, we got a couple

Hours of daylight left.
If we move fast,

We can collect the patient
and we can take off

Before it gets dark.
Will you check the lights

While we're gone?
See if there's a fix?

- Copy that.
- All right, my man.

(exhales deeply)

- So, this was you guys
movin' fast, huh?

- The patient fell off his roof.

We have to move slow and be
careful with spinal injuries.

- How'd you make out
with the lights?

- Well, the good news,
it's just some broken bulbs.

Looks like some kids
or something went on

A little vandalism streak.
Bad news, I radioed dispatch.

Airfield maintenance
won't have replacement bulbs

Until tomorrow, so...

- And the sun
is already setting.

By the time we get
the patient loaded up

And the plane fired up.
How is he? Is he stable?

- He's stable for now. Why?

- Well, unfortunately,
there wasn't much

In the terminal trailer.
But I did see a propane heater

In the shed out back.
Looked like the tank was full.

I can grab it.
- Yeah, there's food and water

In the commissary bucket
on the plane.

- Okay.
- Why do we need food and water?

- We're not gonna be able
to see the runway in the dark.

Without lights,
we can't take off.

- But what about the patient?

Can't they just send
another plane for us?

- Well, if we can't see
to take off,

Then they can't see to land.
And if he's stable,

Then it's safest
if we just wait.

But we can take off
as soon as the sun comes up.

- No, I told crystal
that I would be back for her.

I told her that
she wouldn't be alone.

We have to get back.
We have to keep the fire going.

- Hayley, I don't like it either
but I'll radio dispatch.

I'll let 'em know
the plan, okay?

(engine turns over)

- Tj's bringing
a heater soon, okay?

- This is all my fault.

- No.

We have to be extra careful
moving spinal injuries

And that just takes time, so...

- What about this uh, fire?

I heard you talking
to the pilots

And something about a fire

That you all
are supposed to be at?

- One of our coworkers
passed away.

So...

There's a fire tonight
for people to talk

And share stories about him.

(door opens)

Any luck?

- There's no signal here.
Nowak's leaving tonight

And I told him I'd be there.
Now I can't even let him know.

- I'm gonna go see
if there's extra

Sleeping bags in the plane.

- Okay.

- Hey. Hey, russ.

- I'm sorry, man.
I'm sorry I'm putting you

Through all this.
My luck and my timing,

I've always been
the frigging worst.

You know that cabin
that I was working at?

That cabin's been in my family
for decades.

Or it had been in my family
for decades.

Until my parents died
about 10 years ago.

Three generations
of memories in that place,

And I'm the one who blew it
for everyone.

(grunts)
- okay, just, just relax, russ.

Take it easy, okay?
- So, when, when it came back

Up on the market,
I had to get it.

It just needed so much
goddamn work.

I just wanted so badly
to get it ready

For christmas for the family.

But I screwed that up, too.

I missed my window.

- Yeah.

I've been thinking
about that a lot.

Lately I've been wondering...

How many chances do we have?

Our uh, friend who died,
he left some things unresolved

With someone who mattered
the most to him.

And yeah, like,
you could see it.

All the fights
they couldn't get over,

All the reasons
they couldn't make up.

Every single time they had
a chance to let things go

And be together.

But I, I can't help but wonder
how things might have changed

For them if they just
used that one chance

That they had to fix things.

But I guess...

We never know when our last
chance might be, you know?

(woman over pa): Poplar air
flight 616 to saskatoon

Is now boarding.

(indistinct chatter)

(tense emotional music)

(exhales)

(dispatch): Keep us posted, ca.

We'll expect an update
first thing tomorrow.

- Affirmed, thanks.

(door creaks shut)

Hayley? Hey. Are you okay?

- Where are all
the extra sleeping bags?

- I know it sucks
not being able

To get back for crystal.

- Did someone take them
out of here? Ouch! Dammit.

- Where, let me help--
- no, it's fine.

There's not enough room
back here for both us.

And why is it so freaking cold?

- Because we're in a metal tube

At night
in the middle of winter?

(hayley sighs)
crystal will understand.

Look, I'm not saying
that it's okay

Being stuck out here when
we both wanna be there for her,

But she will understand.

- Nights are the hardest.

You have too much time
to think, alone.

Crystal's been there for me
through everything.

And I just really
wanna be there for her.

That night that you came home
with the news, um...

When crystal finally
fell asleep...

I thought about using.

It was just too much.

What I was feeling,
what crystal was feeling.

And just seeing her in pain
and feeling so...

Helpless.

Like there was nothing
that I could do

But just watch her hurt.

(gentle music)

(sniffles then exhales)

But I didn't, I didn't use.

And I still haven't.

I'm just trying to take it
one day at a time.

I'm just trying to put
one foot in front of the other.

I think that's what
sobriety might be.

I think it's...

It's not counting the days,
but knowing that, that...

Things like this
are gonna happen

And I'm not gonna take
an easy way out.

(wheezer exhales)

I'm not gonna be able
to avoid feeling it.

(blows out breath)

If crystal has to feel
all of this,

Then the least I can do
is feel all of it with her.

- Hayley.

(gentle music)

Are you sure?

- I just wanna feel
all of this, too.

(birds chirping)

(airplane roars)

(hayley): We made it, russ.
Let's get you to the hospital.

(tristan): Nowak's gone?

I thought...

I mean, it was stupid
and selfish, but...

I thought he'd be here.

I, I really thought
he would wait for me.

He left.

He's really gone.

(hopeful music)

Nowak. I was wrong.

I told you to go
and I was wrong.

I know we have a lot
to figure out

And I know we both screwed up.
And I need to let the past go,

But I still cold ham cheese you,
milosz and--

- Shhh... Ut up.

(emotional music)

(birds chirping)

- Okay, thank you.
I will let her know.

(call beeps off)

That was the funeral home.

They said that jeremy...
Will be ready tomorrow.

Are you okay?

- That's, uh...

So soon.

- Has anyone seen tristan?

Just got a call for a patient

Missing in north house
with dementia.

She does speak english,
but her first language

Is nêhiyawêwin and I know
that tristan's been learning.

- I'll go.
- Are you sure?

- Jeremy would want me to.

- Barb loves to hike.

She knows this bush.

But these days,
it's so hard to know

What she'll remember
if she got lost or hurt.

(in nêhiyawêwin)

- She grew up speaking
nêhiyawêwin as a kid.

The more her
dementia progresses,

She's forgotten most
of her adult life.

She hardly speaks
english anymore.

But in case you find her,
this is my barb.

(hayley): You've taken really
good care of her, glen.

(glen): It's been hard
for both of us.

(in nêhiyawêwin)

- We'll go this way.

(hayley): Hey, you remember
the first time we came

To north house together?
Jeremy was the volunteer

Who picked us up,

And I was already terrified
of you. I was convinced

That I had made a huge mistake
coming up here.

But that whole drive,
jeremy kept saying shit

To piss you off, and you kept
letting him have it.

And then, when you went inside
to get the patient,

Jeremy helped me get gear
from the back of the truck.

And he gives me this look,
this wink,

Like he knew exactly what
he was doing the whole time.

And he says, "see? Ah,

Her bark's way worse
than her bite."

- You never told me that.

- Well, we weren't
friends back then.

Everyone else has shared
stories about jer, crys,

But you haven't.

I'm not trying to rush you.

You take as much time
as you need.

But if you wanna talk about him

Or if you just need
anything at all, I'm here.

(branches crack)

(crystal): Barb?

60-year-old woman
with a history of dementia.

Hypothermic.

(in nêhiyawêwin)

- I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry, my love.

- It's okay, my love.

Me and you, right?
That was the deal.

(chuckles softly)

(sobbing)

(emotional music)

- Everyone...

Keeps telling their
jeremy stories, but...

I can't.

I don't have just one
jeremy story.

I have hundreds.

I have thousands.

All of my stories
are about jeremy.

He...

He was my story.

We were supposed
to be together. I knew that.

I've always known that.

Even if we weren't together
now, it...

But I was wrong.

I don't get any more
stories with him.

And all the things

I just knew were gonna happen.

What if...

What if jeremy died not knowing
that I love him?

(sniffles)

(serene music)

(birds chirping)

(eagle piping)

- Crystal?

I understand that
you're supposed to be starting

A semester of classwork
in winnipeg,

And medical school
doesn't allow grief leave

For anyone who isn't
a parent or a spouse.

An official spouse, anyway.

But I understand,
from what everyone's told me

About you and jeremy that...

(exhales)

...If med school
won't give you the time,

Skymed will,
for as long as you need.

We will be here
when you're ready.

- Thank you.

(shaky exhale)

- 911 is loaded.

He's ready to go.

- I wanted to bring his stuff
up to north house, but um...

- The chief paramedic
said there wasn't much

In his locker either.

But the patient that he was with
when the accident happened

Sent this.

And he said that jeremy
was wearing it

And jeremy told him
that it brought him good luck

And kept him safe,
so he let the patient borrow it

When he was scared.

(sniffles)
- uh, this is my stethoscope.

I gave it to him
when he graduated.

- Crystal, he knew.

He knew how you felt about him

And I think he felt the same.

(sniffles)

(soft music)

- Let's take him home, crys.

(shaky breathing)

(exhales deeply)

(theme music)

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