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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:01,813 --> 00:00:09,048 !!!Greetings!!! Encoded By nItRo www.300mbfilms.com & 300mbfilms.org == When there's a poisonous snae When we smell smoke, we run. 2 00:00:09,073 --> 00:00:13,243 When faced with danger, fear takes over, and we reac, 3 00:00:13,277 --> 00:00:15,946 - desperate to feel safe. - Jo! 4 00:00:15,980 --> 00:00:17,914 You left while I was in the shower. 5 00:00:17,949 --> 00:00:19,750 - What, are you avoiding me? - Yes. 6 00:00:19,784 --> 00:00:21,118 Wait, not on purpose, no. 7 00:00:21,152 --> 00:00:22,986 Sorry. Hi. I just... 8 00:00:23,021 --> 00:00:24,554 [INHALES DEEPLY] Bailey's back to being chief tomorrow, 9 00:00:24,589 --> 00:00:26,256 so I have one last shot at her full attention 10 00:00:26,290 --> 00:00:27,758 about a new grant for my fellowship, 11 00:00:27,792 --> 00:00:29,793 and I just... I figured that you would want to sleep in. 12 00:00:29,827 --> 00:00:31,928 - Yeah, but I was in the shower. - Right. 13 00:00:31,963 --> 00:00:33,497 Jo, it's me. 14 00:00:33,531 --> 00:00:35,499 How long are we gonna do this? 15 00:00:35,533 --> 00:00:37,334 Whatever happened with your birth mom, you can tell me. 16 00:00:37,368 --> 00:00:38,468 Do you know what the funding limits are 17 00:00:38,503 --> 00:00:40,837 on an R90 or R15 grant? 18 00:00:40,872 --> 00:00:42,305 No. Jo... 19 00:00:42,340 --> 00:00:44,241 Okay, I got to figure that out before Bailey gets here. 20 00:00:44,275 --> 00:00:45,909 I'm... sorry. 21 00:00:45,943 --> 00:00:48,530 - It's biological... primal. - [SIGHS] 22 00:00:49,947 --> 00:00:52,369 But for someone who suffers from trauma, 23 00:00:52,884 --> 00:00:55,118 it's the everyday things... 24 00:00:55,153 --> 00:00:58,989 a song in a coffee shop, the smell of rubbing alcohol.. 25 00:00:59,023 --> 00:01:00,052 [BICYCLE BELL DINGS] 26 00:01:00,086 --> 00:01:03,460 ...seemingly random, common things 27 00:01:03,494 --> 00:01:06,674 convincing your brain and boy you're in danger... 28 00:01:06,708 --> 00:01:07,798 [DOG BARKS] 29 00:01:07,832 --> 00:01:09,299 ...and there is no way out. 30 00:01:11,703 --> 00:01:13,470 - [DOORBELL RINGS] - [BREATHES DEEPLY] 31 00:01:16,562 --> 00:01:17,708 [DOOR CREAKS LIGHTLY] 32 00:01:17,742 --> 00:01:19,342 Hi. What can I do for you? 33 00:01:22,246 --> 00:01:24,281 I'm Dr. Karev. 34 00:01:24,315 --> 00:01:26,349 Josephine. Jo. 35 00:01:26,384 --> 00:01:28,318 - Um... - JOSH: Mom, I can't find my shoes! 36 00:01:28,352 --> 00:01:30,187 ALEXANDRA: They're in the kitchen, and they smell! 37 00:01:30,221 --> 00:01:31,621 Who ate all the cereal? 38 00:01:31,656 --> 00:01:34,224 Honey, there's more in the pantry. Y... 39 00:01:34,258 --> 00:01:35,826 [DOG BARKING] 40 00:01:35,860 --> 00:01:39,062 Well, apparently, my kids forgot that they were old enough 41 00:01:39,097 --> 00:01:41,732 to feed and clothe themselves today. 42 00:01:41,766 --> 00:01:43,504 You have kids. 43 00:01:43,668 --> 00:01:47,337 Um, listen, if you're... if you're selling magazines or... 44 00:01:47,371 --> 00:01:49,339 or religion, we're good on both, so... 45 00:01:49,373 --> 00:01:50,340 But thank you so much. 46 00:01:50,374 --> 00:01:52,346 No, no. E-Emerson Hospital. 47 00:01:52,910 --> 00:01:54,044 Oh, right, okay. 48 00:01:54,078 --> 00:01:56,313 Well, if you just go here, and you take Willowbrook... 49 00:01:56,347 --> 00:01:57,681 - No, no, I-I was... - ...and then you're gonna... 50 00:01:57,715 --> 00:01:59,937 I was born at Emerson Hospital, 51 00:02:00,752 --> 00:02:05,088 and soon after, I was left at the fire station on 47th Street. 52 00:02:05,123 --> 00:02:07,224 I think that you're the person who left me. 53 00:02:09,727 --> 00:02:11,695 I think you're my mother. 54 00:02:20,605 --> 00:02:21,938 [ENGINES RUMBLING] 55 00:02:21,973 --> 00:02:23,406 [HORN HONKS] 56 00:02:23,441 --> 00:02:25,675 You have your chemistry report? 57 00:02:25,710 --> 00:02:27,277 - [CELLPHONE CLICKING] - It's a paper, Mom. 58 00:02:27,311 --> 00:02:28,445 Yeah, as long as it's done, 59 00:02:28,479 --> 00:02:30,380 you can call it whatever you like. 60 00:02:30,414 --> 00:02:33,016 Hey, um, I'm thinking about Cal's Burgers tonight. 61 00:02:33,050 --> 00:02:34,351 Celebrate your last day of sabbatical. 62 00:02:34,385 --> 00:02:35,919 - [CELLPHONE BUTTONS CLICKING] - Can't. 63 00:02:35,953 --> 00:02:37,854 - I have a thing tonight. - [CELLPHONE CHIMES] 64 00:02:37,889 --> 00:02:39,422 With who? 65 00:02:39,457 --> 00:02:41,124 [SIGHS] With Kelly. 66 00:02:41,159 --> 00:02:43,093 - There's a Kelly? - Define "thing." 67 00:02:43,127 --> 00:02:45,295 We're just talking, is all. 68 00:02:45,329 --> 00:02:48,131 So, you can't come have burgers with us, 69 00:02:48,166 --> 00:02:50,901 because you're talking to Kelly. 70 00:02:50,935 --> 00:02:53,436 - At a thing. - Here's fine. 71 00:02:53,471 --> 00:02:54,542 [HORN HONKS] 72 00:02:54,576 --> 00:02:56,606 We're nowhere near the school. What? 73 00:02:56,641 --> 00:02:57,941 It's fine. 74 00:02:57,975 --> 00:02:59,609 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 75 00:02:59,644 --> 00:03:01,578 - Bye, love you! - Good luck with your re... 76 00:03:01,612 --> 00:03:03,213 report! 77 00:03:03,247 --> 00:03:06,249 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 78 00:03:06,284 --> 00:03:07,784 It's a paper. 79 00:03:07,819 --> 00:03:09,186 I know. 80 00:03:11,948 --> 00:03:14,183 - Did he just put his arm around... - He put his hand... 81 00:03:14,208 --> 00:03:15,742 WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Pannell to Plastics. 82 00:03:15,767 --> 00:03:18,168 Dr. Pannell to Plastics. 83 00:03:18,193 --> 00:03:19,994 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 84 00:03:20,198 --> 00:03:21,565 [TELEPHONE RINGING IN DISTANCE] 85 00:03:21,599 --> 00:03:23,967 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS ECHOING] 86 00:03:24,001 --> 00:03:26,303 [ECHOING] Oh, my God! Sorry. Sorry. 87 00:03:26,337 --> 00:03:27,466 [GASPS] 88 00:03:27,500 --> 00:03:29,573 Hey, you... you have a... you have, um, a... 89 00:03:29,607 --> 00:03:31,274 [NORMAL VOICE] A-A crap sense of direction 90 00:03:31,309 --> 00:03:33,243 and can't find my way to the ER. 91 00:03:33,277 --> 00:03:34,845 It's one floor down, and then, if... 92 00:03:34,879 --> 00:03:36,847 [TELEPHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE] 93 00:03:36,881 --> 00:03:38,452 You know, why don't I take you? 94 00:03:40,184 --> 00:03:42,185 You ever have just a garbage sort of day? 95 00:03:42,220 --> 00:03:43,687 [SCOFFS] 96 00:03:43,721 --> 00:03:45,667 More times than I can count. 97 00:03:46,624 --> 00:03:48,491 This way. 98 00:03:48,526 --> 00:03:51,027 [TELEPHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE] 99 00:03:51,062 --> 00:03:53,129 [ECHOING] You'll need stitches. 100 00:03:53,164 --> 00:03:55,832 I'll have a nurse bring you a blanket. 101 00:03:55,867 --> 00:03:57,596 [NORMAL VOICE] I feel so stupid. 102 00:03:58,636 --> 00:04:01,371 I was putting away dishes and just... 103 00:04:01,405 --> 00:04:03,273 smacked myself in the face with the cabinet. 104 00:04:03,307 --> 00:04:04,774 Such an idiot. 105 00:04:04,809 --> 00:04:06,309 [ECHOING] That cut looks pretty deep, 106 00:04:06,344 --> 00:04:08,879 so Dr. Qadri will have to numb it before we can clean it. 107 00:04:08,913 --> 00:04:10,447 When did this happen? 108 00:04:10,481 --> 00:04:12,349 [NORMAL VOICE] Last night. 109 00:04:12,383 --> 00:04:14,784 I thought it would be fine, but it just keeps bleeding. 110 00:04:14,819 --> 00:04:16,353 [ECHOING] Dr. Qadri and I can help with that. 111 00:04:16,387 --> 00:04:18,955 I'm just gonna put a little Betadine around the area, 112 00:04:18,990 --> 00:04:20,390 and you're just gonna feel a little stick and a burn. 113 00:04:20,424 --> 00:04:21,458 Are you hurting anywhere else? 114 00:04:21,492 --> 00:04:23,560 DELUCA: Hey. Dr. Bailey's been looking for you... 115 00:04:23,594 --> 00:04:25,795 - something about a grant deadline? - Oh, okay. 116 00:04:25,830 --> 00:04:27,664 Um, I'm gonna be right... 117 00:04:27,698 --> 00:04:32,335 [BREATHING QUICKLY] 118 00:04:32,370 --> 00:04:34,204 [HEARTBEAT PULSING] 119 00:04:36,908 --> 00:04:40,410 [NORMAL VOICE] My patient here, Abby, she... 120 00:04:40,444 --> 00:04:43,179 hit her face on a cabinet. 121 00:04:43,214 --> 00:04:44,547 So if you could give us some room, please, 122 00:04:44,582 --> 00:04:45,916 so I can suture her facial lac? 123 00:04:45,950 --> 00:04:48,351 And tell Dr. Bailey that I will be a while. 124 00:04:48,386 --> 00:04:50,353 Thank you. 125 00:04:54,625 --> 00:04:57,027 Hey, why don't you sit up, okay? 126 00:04:57,061 --> 00:04:58,561 We'll sit you up. Okay. 127 00:04:58,596 --> 00:05:00,363 [WHIMPERS] 128 00:05:00,398 --> 00:05:01,598 Is your belly hurting? 129 00:05:01,632 --> 00:05:04,334 No, it's just the cheek. 130 00:05:04,368 --> 00:05:07,570 You can fix it now, right? So I can go. 131 00:05:07,605 --> 00:05:11,274 Dr. Qadri, um, can you go get me some 4-0 MONOCRYL, 132 00:05:11,309 --> 00:05:13,343 and can we please close those? 133 00:05:13,377 --> 00:05:14,611 Thank you. 134 00:05:14,645 --> 00:05:15,679 [BREATHING DEEPLY] 135 00:05:21,786 --> 00:05:24,641 [QUIETLY] Abby, it's just you and me. 136 00:05:25,756 --> 00:05:27,557 You're hurt. 137 00:05:27,591 --> 00:05:29,225 I am here to help. 138 00:05:31,495 --> 00:05:34,568 [SHUDDERING BREATHING] 139 00:05:35,833 --> 00:05:37,734 - Okay. - [WHISPERING] Okay. 140 00:05:37,768 --> 00:05:39,269 [EXHALES SHARPLY] 141 00:05:41,138 --> 00:05:43,073 [SNIFFLES] 142 00:05:53,317 --> 00:05:54,951 Okay. Okay. 143 00:05:56,787 --> 00:05:59,756 [INHALES SHARPLY, WHIMPERS] 144 00:05:59,790 --> 00:06:03,493 [BREATHING SHAKILY] 145 00:06:03,527 --> 00:06:05,261 I got you, Abby. 146 00:06:05,296 --> 00:06:06,963 I'm not going anywhere. 147 00:06:09,433 --> 00:06:11,434 [BREATHING SHAKILY] 148 00:06:11,469 --> 00:06:14,304 [DOOR CREAKING] 149 00:06:14,338 --> 00:06:16,239 [BREATHING DEEPLY] 150 00:06:16,273 --> 00:06:17,907 [QUIETLY] Look, I don't know what you're after, 151 00:06:17,942 --> 00:06:18,942 but you can't be here. 152 00:06:18,976 --> 00:06:20,310 I'm not after anything. 153 00:06:20,344 --> 00:06:21,907 I just want to talk. 154 00:06:22,646 --> 00:06:24,414 You cannot be here. 155 00:06:24,448 --> 00:06:26,349 - [DOG BARKS] - DANIEL: Chip! [CLAPS HANDS] 156 00:06:26,384 --> 00:06:28,318 Hey, Chip. Come here. 157 00:06:28,352 --> 00:06:29,786 Hey, buddy. [CHUCKLES] 158 00:06:29,820 --> 00:06:32,355 I'll, uh, put him out back and drop the kids at school. 159 00:06:32,390 --> 00:06:34,324 - [CHIP GROANS] - Is everything okay? 160 00:06:34,358 --> 00:06:35,558 Yeah, yeah, yeah, I was just saying 161 00:06:35,593 --> 00:06:38,528 that we're already familiar with the Book of Mormon, so... 162 00:06:38,562 --> 00:06:40,864 Ah, saw the original cast. Loved it. 163 00:06:40,898 --> 00:06:44,034 Not a big fan of the book, though, so... we're all set. 164 00:06:44,068 --> 00:06:45,602 [CHIP BARKS] 165 00:06:45,636 --> 00:06:47,637 [BIRDS CHIRPING] 166 00:06:52,176 --> 00:06:53,343 [CLEARS THROAT] 167 00:06:53,377 --> 00:06:54,844 [DOOR CLOSES] 168 00:06:54,879 --> 00:06:58,214 There's a diner... a few miles up. 169 00:06:58,249 --> 00:06:59,682 Weird green roof? 170 00:06:59,717 --> 00:07:01,238 Ira's? 171 00:07:02,153 --> 00:07:04,154 One conversation. 172 00:07:04,188 --> 00:07:06,122 And you will never hear from me again. 173 00:07:06,157 --> 00:07:10,660 ♪ 174 00:07:10,694 --> 00:07:12,128 [DOOR CREAKING] 175 00:07:12,163 --> 00:07:13,363 [DOOR SLAMS SHUT] 176 00:07:13,397 --> 00:07:15,432 ♪ 177 00:07:18,142 --> 00:07:20,133 [HORN HONKING] 178 00:07:20,134 --> 00:07:21,868 [BIRDS CHIRPING] 179 00:07:21,902 --> 00:07:23,636 [LIQUID POURING] 180 00:07:23,671 --> 00:07:25,538 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 181 00:07:25,573 --> 00:07:27,173 [CLOCK TICKING] 182 00:07:27,208 --> 00:07:28,441 [BELL JINGLES] 183 00:07:28,476 --> 00:07:29,642 [ECHOING] Just one. 184 00:07:29,677 --> 00:07:30,710 [ECHOING] Oh, right this way. 185 00:07:30,745 --> 00:07:33,880 [TICKING CLOCK ECHOES] 186 00:07:33,914 --> 00:07:35,782 [BELL JINGLES] 187 00:07:35,816 --> 00:07:37,684 [TICKING QUICKENS] 188 00:07:37,718 --> 00:07:39,019 [SILVERWARE CLATTERS LIGHTLY] 189 00:07:39,053 --> 00:07:41,388 [TICKING QUICKENS] 190 00:07:41,422 --> 00:07:42,522 [BELL JINGLES] 191 00:07:42,556 --> 00:07:45,525 [TICKING STOPS] 192 00:07:45,559 --> 00:07:48,128 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 193 00:07:52,500 --> 00:07:54,834 MAN: Can I get you a warm-up? 194 00:07:57,571 --> 00:08:00,173 [CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE] 195 00:08:00,207 --> 00:08:01,608 [SIGHS] 196 00:08:09,450 --> 00:08:11,484 The coffee here sucks. 197 00:08:11,519 --> 00:08:12,886 I've noticed. 198 00:08:14,549 --> 00:08:16,249 I'm late for work. Um... 199 00:08:19,887 --> 00:08:21,722 I work in the mayor's office. 200 00:08:21,756 --> 00:08:24,324 Try to create jobs for under-served communities. 201 00:08:24,359 --> 00:08:27,327 [DINNERWARE CLATTERING LIGHTLY] 202 00:08:27,362 --> 00:08:28,862 I'm sorry. You knocked on my door. 203 00:08:28,896 --> 00:08:30,297 - I don't... - You have a house... 204 00:08:30,331 --> 00:08:32,499 a really beautiful house. 205 00:08:32,533 --> 00:08:33,622 Thank you...? 206 00:08:33,657 --> 00:08:36,703 And kids and a husband and a dog 207 00:08:36,738 --> 00:08:38,705 and crown frickin' moldings. 208 00:08:38,740 --> 00:08:39,889 Do you need money? If this is about money... 209 00:08:39,924 --> 00:08:41,308 I don't need your damn money. 210 00:08:45,613 --> 00:08:47,093 Thank you. 211 00:08:48,015 --> 00:08:49,816 Look, I'm not quite sure what you expected... 212 00:08:49,851 --> 00:08:53,854 In my head, you worked at a diner half as nice as this. 213 00:08:53,888 --> 00:08:55,555 And you didn't graduate high school, 214 00:08:55,590 --> 00:08:57,090 or maybe you did but a year or two late 215 00:08:57,125 --> 00:08:59,593 'cause they don't let pregnant girls finish high school. 216 00:08:59,627 --> 00:09:02,429 And you scraped by somehow on... 217 00:09:02,463 --> 00:09:04,264 hard work and the kindness of strangers, 218 00:09:04,298 --> 00:09:05,732 but you had no one. 219 00:09:05,767 --> 00:09:07,100 You had nothing. 220 00:09:07,135 --> 00:09:09,282 That would make it okay that I left you? 221 00:09:11,939 --> 00:09:14,941 I wanted you to have a better life than I could give you... 222 00:09:14,976 --> 00:09:17,444 Now, that part I heard in my head. 223 00:09:17,478 --> 00:09:19,846 I think it came from a made-for-TV movie. 224 00:09:19,881 --> 00:09:20,881 No, I-I-I realized it 225 00:09:20,915 --> 00:09:23,850 the minute it came out of my mouth, yes, um... 226 00:09:25,753 --> 00:09:27,220 But it's true. 227 00:09:28,956 --> 00:09:30,791 I really thought that you'd be better off... 228 00:09:30,825 --> 00:09:31,892 What are their names? 229 00:09:31,926 --> 00:09:33,794 - I'm sorry? - Your kids. 230 00:09:33,828 --> 00:09:37,030 My brother and sister eating cereal in your perfect kitchen. 231 00:09:37,064 --> 00:09:38,532 What are their names? 232 00:09:38,566 --> 00:09:41,368 Alexandra is a senior in high school, 233 00:09:41,402 --> 00:09:44,204 and, uh, Josh is in 10th. 234 00:09:45,807 --> 00:09:49,776 And your husband, the, what, the... accountant? 235 00:09:49,811 --> 00:09:51,545 Lawyer. 236 00:09:51,579 --> 00:09:53,547 Is he my father? 237 00:09:53,581 --> 00:09:54,981 No. 238 00:09:55,016 --> 00:09:57,417 No, he is nothing like... no. 239 00:09:57,452 --> 00:09:59,152 No, I met my husband in grad school. 240 00:09:59,187 --> 00:10:00,887 Um... 241 00:10:00,922 --> 00:10:02,062 His name is Daniel. 242 00:10:02,097 --> 00:10:03,253 Daniel. 243 00:10:04,025 --> 00:10:06,460 That's nice. 244 00:10:06,494 --> 00:10:07,961 That's really nice. 245 00:10:07,995 --> 00:10:10,464 You know, I-I... I appreciate a girl 246 00:10:10,498 --> 00:10:11,582 with fire in her belly, but... 247 00:10:11,616 --> 00:10:14,568 I didn't have a better life. 248 00:10:14,602 --> 00:10:17,100 I wasn't better off. 249 00:10:17,972 --> 00:10:19,773 No one found me adoring parents 250 00:10:19,807 --> 00:10:22,576 who were dying for a newborn of their own to love. 251 00:10:22,610 --> 00:10:24,845 I lived in foster homes so bad, 252 00:10:24,879 --> 00:10:27,247 it was better to live in my car. 253 00:10:27,281 --> 00:10:29,850 And when a man finally told me that he loved me, 254 00:10:29,884 --> 00:10:31,698 I believed him, 255 00:10:32,520 --> 00:10:36,911 even when he beat the crap out of me so bad I couldn't see. 256 00:10:37,558 --> 00:10:39,860 So whatever life you had, 257 00:10:39,894 --> 00:10:42,963 tell me it wasn't better than mine. 258 00:10:42,997 --> 00:10:45,999 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 259 00:10:49,036 --> 00:10:50,404 I should go. 260 00:10:50,439 --> 00:10:52,806 At least you're consistent. [CLEARS THROAT] 261 00:10:53,341 --> 00:10:55,342 [BREATHING DEEPLY] 262 00:10:59,013 --> 00:11:00,847 Did you honestly come here to punish me? 263 00:11:00,882 --> 00:11:02,082 Consider it done. 264 00:11:02,116 --> 00:11:04,050 I came because I don't know anything about where I'm from, 265 00:11:04,085 --> 00:11:06,107 and I want to know. 266 00:11:08,422 --> 00:11:11,324 [DINNERWARE CLINKING] 267 00:11:16,864 --> 00:11:18,453 Um... 268 00:11:18,933 --> 00:11:20,914 My, um... 269 00:11:21,903 --> 00:11:23,637 father's side is pure Irish. 270 00:11:23,671 --> 00:11:26,573 My... My... My mother is Russian Jew and Italian. 271 00:11:26,607 --> 00:11:28,475 I got all that from spitting in a tube. 272 00:11:28,509 --> 00:11:30,544 My mother's parents... 273 00:11:30,578 --> 00:11:31,978 died when she was young... 274 00:11:32,013 --> 00:11:33,246 heart disease and cancer. 275 00:11:33,281 --> 00:11:35,382 So I'm afraid that's in the mix. 276 00:11:35,416 --> 00:11:38,718 Uh, there's no history of mental illness that I'm aware... 277 00:11:38,753 --> 00:11:41,539 - That's not what I'm asking. - Then what do you want to know? 278 00:11:41,574 --> 00:11:43,561 Something I can't get from spitting in a tube! 279 00:11:45,126 --> 00:11:46,726 Ah. 280 00:11:46,761 --> 00:11:49,996 I, um... I grew up on a farm in Kansas. 281 00:11:50,031 --> 00:11:52,432 My childhood is a blur of chickens 282 00:11:52,466 --> 00:11:54,434 and singing songs out in the field 283 00:11:54,468 --> 00:11:55,869 when I should've been helping my mother. 284 00:11:55,903 --> 00:11:58,338 I was spelling bee champion for four years in a row. 285 00:11:58,372 --> 00:12:00,607 I love the smell of rosemary. I'm terrible at math. 286 00:12:00,641 --> 00:12:02,008 Does that help? Does that help you at all? 287 00:12:02,043 --> 00:12:04,444 - Do you know who you are now? - Forget it. 288 00:12:04,478 --> 00:12:07,180 Just tell me who my father is, and I will try and find him. 289 00:12:07,214 --> 00:12:09,182 You can't. 290 00:12:09,216 --> 00:12:10,319 He's dead. 291 00:12:10,353 --> 00:12:11,952 Geez, lady. 292 00:12:11,986 --> 00:12:13,920 [EXHALES SHARPLY] 293 00:12:13,955 --> 00:12:16,523 You don't want to, I don't know, soften it a little? 294 00:12:16,557 --> 00:12:19,092 Well, I'm sorry, but that son of a bitch who hurt me 295 00:12:19,126 --> 00:12:22,596 more than any other human being ever has... 296 00:12:22,630 --> 00:12:25,198 died in a motorcycle accident 10 years ago. 297 00:12:25,232 --> 00:12:26,366 Not the way that I would've hoped. 298 00:12:26,400 --> 00:12:28,935 I would've preferred that he had been eaten by fire ants 299 00:12:28,970 --> 00:12:30,370 or pulled apart limb from limb, but... 300 00:12:30,404 --> 00:12:32,372 Wow. 301 00:12:32,406 --> 00:12:35,071 You're just a monster, huh? 302 00:12:35,977 --> 00:12:36,977 [CLEARS THROAT] 303 00:12:37,011 --> 00:12:39,112 - Please sit down. - Abandoning me wasn't enough, 304 00:12:39,146 --> 00:12:41,019 you just have to spread the pain around a little bit? 305 00:12:41,054 --> 00:12:42,075 Sit down. 306 00:12:42,100 --> 00:12:43,488 That's my father that you're talking about. 307 00:12:43,522 --> 00:12:45,885 - No, it's not. He hurt me... - I'm so sorry 308 00:12:45,920 --> 00:12:48,154 that your childhood sweetheart didn't pan out. 309 00:12:48,189 --> 00:12:50,128 - So sorry. - He hurt me. 310 00:12:55,529 --> 00:12:58,198 [QUIETLY] Please sit down, okay? 311 00:13:00,201 --> 00:13:01,501 Please sit down. 312 00:13:01,535 --> 00:13:03,637 [CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE IN DISTANCE] 313 00:13:09,310 --> 00:13:12,946 [EXHALES DEEPLY] 314 00:13:12,980 --> 00:13:14,381 He was a TA... 315 00:13:17,652 --> 00:13:21,087 ...when I was a freshman in undergrad. 316 00:13:21,122 --> 00:13:23,957 He chased after me for weeks for a date. 317 00:13:23,991 --> 00:13:27,127 He, um, sent me flowers and proclamations 318 00:13:27,161 --> 00:13:28,995 until, finally, I said yes. 319 00:13:29,030 --> 00:13:30,130 [EXHALES SHARPLY] 320 00:13:30,164 --> 00:13:33,600 I said... I said yes to that date. 321 00:13:33,634 --> 00:13:36,936 I said... yes to going... 322 00:13:36,971 --> 00:13:39,539 to Braden's Point to watch the sunset. 323 00:13:39,573 --> 00:13:41,207 And... 324 00:13:41,242 --> 00:13:42,942 [INHALES DEEPLY] 325 00:13:45,146 --> 00:13:48,815 Then he started kissing me and touching me. 326 00:13:48,849 --> 00:13:50,116 And I said no. 327 00:13:50,151 --> 00:13:51,851 And I continued to say no. 328 00:13:51,886 --> 00:13:53,219 And I fought him. 329 00:13:53,254 --> 00:13:54,521 I fought as hard as I could, 330 00:13:54,555 --> 00:13:56,723 but he would not take no for an answer. 331 00:13:56,757 --> 00:13:58,458 So... 332 00:13:58,492 --> 00:14:01,194 nine months later, I had a baby. 333 00:14:01,228 --> 00:14:03,659 I had you, and then... 334 00:14:04,365 --> 00:14:06,499 five days later, I didn't. 335 00:14:06,534 --> 00:14:08,168 [SNIFFLES] 336 00:14:08,202 --> 00:14:11,171 ♪ 337 00:14:11,173 --> 00:14:13,352 ♪ 338 00:14:17,554 --> 00:14:18,888 [RUSTLING CLOTHES ECHO] 339 00:14:18,922 --> 00:14:26,279 ♪ 340 00:14:26,306 --> 00:14:27,540 [ECHOING] JO: Qadri, let's get her 341 00:14:27,580 --> 00:14:28,914 IM Toradol for the pain 342 00:14:28,942 --> 00:14:30,743 and keep her NPO for now. 343 00:14:30,777 --> 00:14:32,578 DAHLIA: Is there someone that we can call? 344 00:14:32,612 --> 00:14:35,614 Family member or a friend? 345 00:14:35,649 --> 00:14:38,484 [NORMAL VOICE] My husband's in Portland on a business trip. 346 00:14:38,518 --> 00:14:41,587 I don't want to... bother him. 347 00:14:41,621 --> 00:14:42,721 - [KNOCK ON DOOR] - [GASPS] 348 00:14:42,756 --> 00:14:44,290 It's okay. I called her here to help. 349 00:14:44,324 --> 00:14:45,758 - Hi. - Hi. 350 00:14:45,792 --> 00:14:46,929 Why do I need another doctor? 351 00:14:46,964 --> 00:14:48,227 - Can't I just keep you two? - [DOOR CLOSES] 352 00:14:48,261 --> 00:14:49,795 TEDDY: It's Abby, right? Hi. 353 00:14:49,829 --> 00:14:52,831 Dr. Karev and Dr. Qadri will still be your doctors, 354 00:14:52,866 --> 00:14:54,967 but would it be okay if I helped? 355 00:14:55,001 --> 00:14:57,937 May I do an ultrasound just to check for internal injuries? 356 00:14:57,971 --> 00:14:59,805 - Okay. Great. - All right, here we go. 357 00:14:59,839 --> 00:15:01,473 Let's lie you back. 358 00:15:01,508 --> 00:15:02,608 I got you. 359 00:15:02,642 --> 00:15:03,609 [WHIMPERS] - That's it, I got you. 360 00:15:03,643 --> 00:15:05,130 - Okay, you're almost there. - [INHALES SHARPLY] 361 00:15:05,164 --> 00:15:06,257 - Okay. - All right. 362 00:15:06,291 --> 00:15:07,313 Okay. 363 00:15:07,347 --> 00:15:09,381 Just gonna open your robe. 364 00:15:13,520 --> 00:15:15,454 ABBY: [BREATHING SHAKILY] 365 00:15:15,488 --> 00:15:17,289 Now a little gel. 366 00:15:17,324 --> 00:15:19,291 [GEL SQUELCHING] 367 00:15:21,127 --> 00:15:23,596 All right, you'll feel just a little pressure. 368 00:15:23,630 --> 00:15:25,831 - There we go. Good job. - [HEARTBEAT PULSES] 369 00:15:29,803 --> 00:15:32,838 All right, Abby, you do have a tear in your diaphragm, 370 00:15:32,872 --> 00:15:35,341 and it's caused your abdominal organs 371 00:15:35,375 --> 00:15:37,109 to move up into your chest. 372 00:15:37,143 --> 00:15:39,144 - [KEYBOARD CLICKS] - You're gonna need a surgery. 373 00:15:39,179 --> 00:15:40,278 Fine. 374 00:15:40,312 --> 00:15:42,681 Whatever you need to do so I can go home. 375 00:15:42,716 --> 00:15:44,950 All right, Dr. Karev, can I talk to you outside for a minute? 376 00:15:44,985 --> 00:15:47,853 - No, no, can you stay? - I'll just be right outside. 377 00:15:47,887 --> 00:15:49,272 I won't be more than a couple minutes... 378 00:15:49,297 --> 00:15:50,752 Y-You can't... You can't leave, please? 379 00:15:50,786 --> 00:15:52,691 Just do the surgery, and then I can go home, 380 00:15:52,726 --> 00:15:54,860 - and then it'll be over. - All right. 381 00:15:54,894 --> 00:15:56,981 We'll let them know to prep the OR. 382 00:15:58,231 --> 00:15:59,231 [CLEARS THROAT SOFTLY] 383 00:15:59,266 --> 00:16:00,879 Qadri, come with me. Thanks. 384 00:16:00,913 --> 00:16:02,401 WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Yates to Pediatrics. 385 00:16:02,435 --> 00:16:05,170 Dr. Yates to Pediatrics. 386 00:16:05,205 --> 00:16:08,641 Book an OR, but do not let the nurses or anyone else 387 00:16:08,675 --> 00:16:10,709 do an antibiotic prep. 388 00:16:10,744 --> 00:16:12,096 So we're not operating on her? 389 00:16:12,130 --> 00:16:13,379 Abby's wounds are consistent 390 00:16:13,413 --> 00:16:14,747 with someone who's been sexually assaulted, 391 00:16:14,781 --> 00:16:15,848 and if that's true, 392 00:16:15,882 --> 00:16:18,984 when the nurses prep her with an antibiotic solution, 393 00:16:19,019 --> 00:16:21,186 evidence will be erased. 394 00:16:21,221 --> 00:16:22,391 So we wait. 395 00:16:22,425 --> 00:16:24,356 We wait and give Abby the chance to talk 396 00:16:24,391 --> 00:16:26,859 without taking more of the agency than she's already lost. 397 00:16:26,893 --> 00:16:29,096 Go book the OR and come straight back. 398 00:16:31,698 --> 00:16:34,133 [SIGHS SHAKILY, INHALES DEEPLY] 399 00:16:34,968 --> 00:16:36,902 Okay. 400 00:16:37,771 --> 00:16:38,804 [DOOR CLOSES] 401 00:16:38,838 --> 00:16:42,485 Hey. Are you sure there isn't someone we can call? 402 00:16:44,644 --> 00:16:46,545 Can we ask you how you got hurt? 403 00:16:47,947 --> 00:16:49,615 Does it matter? 404 00:16:49,649 --> 00:16:50,916 You said you can fix it, right? 405 00:16:50,950 --> 00:16:52,117 Abby, I want you to know 406 00:16:52,152 --> 00:16:54,019 that you don't have to tell us anything. 407 00:16:54,054 --> 00:16:56,689 We can bring a counselor down for you to talk to. 408 00:16:56,723 --> 00:16:59,191 No. No more doctors. 409 00:16:59,225 --> 00:17:01,593 I have enough doctors, and I don't need a shrink. 410 00:17:01,628 --> 00:17:05,431 I just... need my stomach to stop hurting is all. 411 00:17:05,465 --> 00:17:06,732 Okay. 412 00:17:08,001 --> 00:17:10,035 How did you get that? 413 00:17:10,070 --> 00:17:12,805 My neighbor's kids like to play street hockey, 414 00:17:12,839 --> 00:17:14,066 and I'm crap at it. 415 00:17:14,100 --> 00:17:16,742 - I don't think that's true. - Dr. Karev. 416 00:17:16,776 --> 00:17:18,610 [SIGHS] 417 00:17:18,645 --> 00:17:21,046 You keep looking at each other, but I'm right here, 418 00:17:21,081 --> 00:17:23,982 so one of you say whatever the hell it is 419 00:17:24,017 --> 00:17:25,551 you're trying so hard not to say. 420 00:17:25,585 --> 00:17:26,819 - Abby... - I'm worried your husband hurt you, 421 00:17:26,853 --> 00:17:28,053 and from the marks on your legs, 422 00:17:28,088 --> 00:17:29,822 possibly sexually assaulted you. 423 00:17:29,856 --> 00:17:31,323 Dr. Karev, hallway. Now. 424 00:17:31,358 --> 00:17:34,259 Jack would never. He's never raised his voice. 425 00:17:34,294 --> 00:17:35,761 - He's calm. - Then someone else did... 426 00:17:35,795 --> 00:17:38,163 [STRAINING] Isn't the OR ready by now? 427 00:17:38,198 --> 00:17:39,331 'Cause this hurts like a... 428 00:17:39,366 --> 00:17:40,799 Abby, if we take you to the OR, 429 00:17:40,834 --> 00:17:42,217 we have to make you sterile, 430 00:17:42,252 --> 00:17:43,936 so everything that happened to you, all the evidence, 431 00:17:43,970 --> 00:17:45,504 it all goes away. 432 00:17:45,538 --> 00:17:47,142 You can still report it. 433 00:17:47,177 --> 00:17:50,275 I'm not reporting anything. There's nothing to report. 434 00:17:50,310 --> 00:17:52,978 That is your choice. It is all your choice. 435 00:17:53,012 --> 00:17:55,247 But if something happened... if it did... 436 00:17:55,281 --> 00:17:57,683 we could gather the evidence and seal it away 437 00:17:57,717 --> 00:18:00,062 until you are ready to do something about it. 438 00:18:02,856 --> 00:18:06,024 [VOICE BREAKING] We all know if I do that kit... 439 00:18:06,059 --> 00:18:08,794 it ends up in the back of some police station, 440 00:18:08,828 --> 00:18:11,130 ignored for years, 441 00:18:11,164 --> 00:18:14,133 while I sit there wondering when the bomb will go off, 442 00:18:14,167 --> 00:18:17,202 waiting to see if a jury of my peers will believe... 443 00:18:17,227 --> 00:18:19,772 [BREATHING QUICKLY] 444 00:18:19,806 --> 00:18:21,140 ...believe a woman 445 00:18:21,174 --> 00:18:24,128 who wore a skirt a few inches too short, 446 00:18:24,844 --> 00:18:27,613 who had a few cocktails too many at a bar last night 447 00:18:27,647 --> 00:18:29,815 after having a fight 448 00:18:29,849 --> 00:18:33,819 about laundry with her husband. 449 00:18:33,853 --> 00:18:34,953 [CRYING] 450 00:18:34,988 --> 00:18:38,357 And you know the tequila I drank will make it my fault, 451 00:18:38,391 --> 00:18:40,893 and whoever did this to me, whatever he drank... 452 00:18:40,927 --> 00:18:43,061 that'll be his excuse! 453 00:18:43,096 --> 00:18:45,497 [CRYING, WHEEZING] 454 00:18:48,835 --> 00:18:52,971 Is your kit gonna convince them I wasn't flirting at the bar? 455 00:18:53,006 --> 00:18:56,875 If I give them my story and my underwear, 456 00:18:56,910 --> 00:19:00,179 will it prove to them... or to my husband... 457 00:19:00,213 --> 00:19:03,048 that I didn't cheat on him and make up some story 458 00:19:03,082 --> 00:19:05,050 just to save my own ass? 459 00:19:05,084 --> 00:19:07,052 - [QUIETLY] Okay... - [RESPIRATOR HISSING] 460 00:19:07,086 --> 00:19:08,987 Will your kit do that?! 461 00:19:09,022 --> 00:19:10,322 [HYPERVENTILATING] 462 00:19:10,356 --> 00:19:13,225 O... All... All right, deep breath. 463 00:19:13,259 --> 00:19:15,027 That's it. 464 00:19:15,061 --> 00:19:17,223 Slow deep breath. 465 00:19:18,064 --> 00:19:21,099 [BREATHING DEEPLY] 466 00:19:21,134 --> 00:19:23,669 My ex-husband, he hurt me. 467 00:19:23,703 --> 00:19:25,904 Not in the way that you were hurt, but he hit me... 468 00:19:25,939 --> 00:19:28,006 he hurt me, for years. 469 00:19:28,041 --> 00:19:31,677 And I was so, so terrified. 470 00:19:31,711 --> 00:19:33,846 And so convinced that no one would believe me, 471 00:19:33,880 --> 00:19:36,515 and I was so, so alone... 472 00:19:36,549 --> 00:19:39,184 I never had the chance or the choice 473 00:19:39,219 --> 00:19:41,086 to hold him responsible. 474 00:19:41,120 --> 00:19:42,241 [WHISPERING] I can't imagine 475 00:19:42,276 --> 00:19:43,622 how you are feeling right now. 476 00:19:43,656 --> 00:19:45,524 I can't. 477 00:19:45,558 --> 00:19:49,294 But, one day, you might feel differently. 478 00:19:49,329 --> 00:19:50,929 You might want justice, 479 00:19:50,964 --> 00:19:55,594 and I want you to have everything you need to do that. 480 00:19:59,639 --> 00:20:00,806 [RESPIRATOR HISSING] 481 00:20:00,840 --> 00:20:04,076 [SNIFFLES, CRYING] 482 00:20:04,110 --> 00:20:07,546 My husband... he can never know. 483 00:20:07,580 --> 00:20:09,081 He won't have to. 484 00:20:13,653 --> 00:20:15,120 [CRYING] 485 00:20:15,154 --> 00:20:16,989 Do it. 486 00:20:17,023 --> 00:20:19,391 Just do the damn kit. 487 00:20:19,425 --> 00:20:20,726 Okay. Okay. 488 00:20:20,760 --> 00:20:21,927 [SNIFFLES, SIGHS] 489 00:20:21,961 --> 00:20:23,095 That's it. There you go. 490 00:20:23,129 --> 00:20:24,129 There you go. 491 00:20:24,163 --> 00:20:27,399 ♪ Pull me ♪ 492 00:20:27,433 --> 00:20:30,102 [CRYING] 493 00:20:30,136 --> 00:20:33,105 ♪ Under ♪ 494 00:20:33,139 --> 00:20:34,506 Are you ready? 495 00:20:34,541 --> 00:20:36,008 ♪ 496 00:20:36,042 --> 00:20:37,576 You have to say it. 497 00:20:37,610 --> 00:20:38,977 - It's the law. - ♪ Feels like ♪ 498 00:20:39,012 --> 00:20:41,179 You say yes, we go to the next step. 499 00:20:41,214 --> 00:20:43,950 You say no at any time, we stop. 500 00:20:43,985 --> 00:20:45,584 ♪ Thunder ♪ 501 00:20:45,618 --> 00:20:47,019 - Okay. - Okay. 502 00:20:47,053 --> 00:20:49,821 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 503 00:20:49,856 --> 00:20:50,589 Yes. 504 00:20:50,623 --> 00:20:53,025 ♪ Here, there ♪ 505 00:20:53,059 --> 00:20:54,526 ♪ 506 00:20:54,561 --> 00:20:57,029 ♪ Everywhere ♪ 507 00:20:57,063 --> 00:20:59,031 - ♪ Ghosts hide ♪ - Are you ready? 508 00:20:59,065 --> 00:21:01,133 Yes. 509 00:21:01,167 --> 00:21:02,834 ♪ In my head ♪ 510 00:21:02,869 --> 00:21:03,936 [CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKING] 511 00:21:03,970 --> 00:21:07,839 ♪ We fall ♪ 512 00:21:07,874 --> 00:21:09,274 ♪ Up above ♪ 513 00:21:09,309 --> 00:21:12,711 ♪ So long ♪ 514 00:21:12,745 --> 00:21:16,014 ♪ As I ♪ 515 00:21:16,049 --> 00:21:19,184 ♪ Don't sleep ♪ 516 00:21:19,218 --> 00:21:22,387 ♪ 517 00:21:22,422 --> 00:21:24,323 ♪ Somebody ♪ 518 00:21:24,357 --> 00:21:26,358 Are you ready? 519 00:21:26,392 --> 00:21:27,626 Yes. 520 00:21:27,660 --> 00:21:29,628 ♪ 521 00:21:29,662 --> 00:21:33,198 ♪ Save me ♪ 522 00:21:33,232 --> 00:21:36,301 ♪ 523 00:21:36,336 --> 00:21:40,505 - ♪ It doesn't matter ♪ - [CLIPPERS SNIP] 524 00:21:40,540 --> 00:21:42,207 Are you ready? 525 00:21:42,241 --> 00:21:46,812 - ♪ What the craving is ♪ - Yes. 526 00:21:46,846 --> 00:21:49,648 [WHIMPERS] 527 00:21:49,682 --> 00:21:53,752 ♪ Here, there ♪ 528 00:21:53,786 --> 00:21:56,088 ♪ Everywhere ♪ 529 00:21:56,122 --> 00:21:58,323 ♪ Ghosts hide ♪ 530 00:21:58,358 --> 00:22:00,759 Are you ready? 531 00:22:00,793 --> 00:22:03,061 - Yes. - ♪ In my head ♪ 532 00:22:03,096 --> 00:22:05,664 - Yes. - ♪ We fall ♪ 533 00:22:05,698 --> 00:22:06,999 Yes. 534 00:22:07,033 --> 00:22:08,500 ♪ Up above ♪ 535 00:22:08,534 --> 00:22:13,238 ♪ Don't leave me ♪ 536 00:22:13,272 --> 00:22:17,653 - ♪ Alone ♪ - Abby, we're done. 537 00:22:19,145 --> 00:22:21,079 ♪ Somebody ♪ 538 00:22:21,114 --> 00:22:22,848 I'm here, okay. 539 00:22:22,882 --> 00:22:24,116 - [CRYING] - I'm right here. 540 00:22:24,150 --> 00:22:25,584 You're okay. 541 00:22:25,618 --> 00:22:27,185 Abby, you're okay. 542 00:22:27,220 --> 00:22:31,141 - ♪ Save me ♪ - [CRYING] 543 00:22:32,137 --> 00:22:34,304 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 544 00:22:35,312 --> 00:22:37,089 You never told anyone. 545 00:22:39,460 --> 00:22:41,094 The police, your parents... 546 00:22:41,129 --> 00:22:44,264 I convinced the few people who noticed 547 00:22:44,299 --> 00:22:46,099 that it was just the freshman 15, 548 00:22:46,134 --> 00:22:50,304 and I was able to dodge Christmas break 549 00:22:50,338 --> 00:22:55,108 by lying about... finals and work studies. 550 00:22:55,143 --> 00:22:56,877 You didn't tell anyone you were pregnant? 551 00:22:56,911 --> 00:22:58,277 No, no. 552 00:22:59,580 --> 00:23:00,614 I mean, it... 553 00:23:00,648 --> 00:23:04,217 it wasn't until years after it happened that... 554 00:23:04,252 --> 00:23:05,585 After I happened. 555 00:23:05,620 --> 00:23:07,354 After the rape happened. 556 00:23:09,257 --> 00:23:10,957 After I was raped. 557 00:23:12,527 --> 00:23:14,728 I eventually found my way to therapy, 558 00:23:14,762 --> 00:23:16,096 and I did all the work, 559 00:23:16,130 --> 00:23:18,298 and I wrote in journals, 560 00:23:18,333 --> 00:23:20,434 and I learned all the PTSD triggers. 561 00:23:20,468 --> 00:23:22,269 I-I actually had to work through 562 00:23:22,303 --> 00:23:23,637 calling it "rape" to begin with. 563 00:23:23,671 --> 00:23:26,139 Because I did say yes to that date, 564 00:23:26,174 --> 00:23:29,976 and I did say yes to getting in that car, and... 565 00:23:30,011 --> 00:23:32,346 Someone somewhere along the way... 566 00:23:32,380 --> 00:23:33,380 a man, most likely... 567 00:23:33,414 --> 00:23:35,682 decided they wanted to qualify this word, "rape." 568 00:23:35,717 --> 00:23:38,251 You know, date rape, [SNIFFLES] a-acquaintance rape. 569 00:23:38,286 --> 00:23:41,288 Somehow, it... it... it... it's... it's not as real 570 00:23:41,322 --> 00:23:42,823 unless it happens to a woman 571 00:23:42,857 --> 00:23:46,693 who's running through the park at night or... 572 00:23:46,728 --> 00:23:50,364 or walking down a dark alley. 573 00:23:50,398 --> 00:23:53,300 As somehow, because I knew him, 574 00:23:53,334 --> 00:23:55,202 what he took from me didn't matter. 575 00:23:55,236 --> 00:23:56,703 But it did matter. 576 00:23:56,738 --> 00:23:59,606 I found a way to hear that. 577 00:23:59,640 --> 00:24:01,924 I found a way to believe that. 578 00:24:02,744 --> 00:24:04,718 And I... 579 00:24:05,880 --> 00:24:08,048 I found a way to move forward. 580 00:24:08,082 --> 00:24:09,916 You got therapy. 581 00:24:11,085 --> 00:24:12,219 Yeah. 582 00:24:12,253 --> 00:24:14,154 You moved forward. 583 00:24:16,257 --> 00:24:17,924 Mm-hmm. 584 00:24:19,060 --> 00:24:21,528 And you didn't once try and find me? 585 00:24:25,366 --> 00:24:27,934 I was petrified. 586 00:24:30,405 --> 00:24:34,541 I was petrified every single moment of my pregnancy. 587 00:24:34,575 --> 00:24:37,511 I mean, it was bad enough that I had to see his face 588 00:24:37,545 --> 00:24:39,379 every day in class. 589 00:24:39,414 --> 00:24:41,463 I was so terrified... 590 00:24:42,383 --> 00:24:46,927 imagining that you'd be a boy 591 00:24:47,755 --> 00:24:51,591 and that you'd have his face and his voice. 592 00:24:51,626 --> 00:24:55,695 And every day, every kick, every movement, 593 00:24:55,730 --> 00:24:58,480 it just reminded me where you came from. 594 00:25:00,968 --> 00:25:04,738 But, you know, movies and books and... and magazines, 595 00:25:04,772 --> 00:25:07,698 they just kept talking about this... 596 00:25:09,076 --> 00:25:13,947 love that you feel the minute your baby is born. 597 00:25:13,981 --> 00:25:15,582 How instantaneous it is 598 00:25:15,616 --> 00:25:19,052 and how, um, your heart just cracks wide open, and... 599 00:25:19,086 --> 00:25:20,454 [SNIFFLES] 600 00:25:20,488 --> 00:25:23,590 And I remember, I kept telling myself 601 00:25:23,624 --> 00:25:25,392 that as soon as I had you in my arms 602 00:25:25,426 --> 00:25:27,342 that I could do that 603 00:25:28,095 --> 00:25:29,930 and that I would do that. 604 00:25:29,964 --> 00:25:34,801 Other women did it, so why couldn't I? 605 00:25:34,836 --> 00:25:38,038 So I gave the hospital a fake name. 606 00:25:38,072 --> 00:25:42,375 I left with you... the day you were born. 607 00:25:42,410 --> 00:25:43,577 I remember they wanted me to stay, 608 00:25:43,611 --> 00:25:45,545 and they wanted me to rest, but I just wanted to get out. 609 00:25:45,580 --> 00:25:48,448 I just wanted to get out of there, and I just wanted... 610 00:25:52,086 --> 00:25:53,487 [VOICE BREAKING] I just wanted to be alone with you, 611 00:25:53,521 --> 00:25:56,389 and I just wanted it to be the two of us, and... 612 00:25:56,424 --> 00:25:59,092 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 613 00:25:59,126 --> 00:26:01,428 ...and I wanted to stare at you and hold you... 614 00:26:05,099 --> 00:26:07,033 ...'til that love came. 615 00:26:08,703 --> 00:26:11,304 But it never did. 616 00:26:11,339 --> 00:26:13,440 No, it did. 617 00:26:15,031 --> 00:26:16,076 It did. 618 00:26:16,110 --> 00:26:18,727 Everything they said was absolutely right. 619 00:26:19,947 --> 00:26:22,682 My heart cracked wide open. 620 00:26:23,273 --> 00:26:25,085 [CRYING] 621 00:26:26,888 --> 00:26:28,488 It was never just us, 622 00:26:28,523 --> 00:26:31,198 no matter how hard I tried, no matter what I did. 623 00:26:32,360 --> 00:26:34,952 I was just a reminder of him. 624 00:26:35,530 --> 00:26:38,098 I resented you so much for it. 625 00:26:41,135 --> 00:26:43,460 I spent most of my life... 626 00:26:44,572 --> 00:26:48,048 doubting everyone I ever met, 627 00:26:49,010 --> 00:26:51,677 leaving them before they could leave me. 628 00:26:52,847 --> 00:26:54,174 I am a grown woman 629 00:26:54,199 --> 00:26:56,316 [SIGHS] 630 00:26:56,350 --> 00:26:59,986 With a job that I love and friends I love 631 00:27:00,021 --> 00:27:01,788 and a husband who loves me, 632 00:27:01,822 --> 00:27:03,564 and still... 633 00:27:04,759 --> 00:27:06,066 still... 634 00:27:07,094 --> 00:27:11,405 I was walking around, uh, waiting, 635 00:27:12,934 --> 00:27:15,302 wondering if you would ever find me. 636 00:27:15,336 --> 00:27:16,903 [SNIFFLES] 637 00:27:16,938 --> 00:27:19,372 If you would ever say that you're sorry. 638 00:27:23,344 --> 00:27:24,477 I did the best I could. 639 00:27:24,512 --> 00:27:26,913 The best you could would've been to find an adoption agency 640 00:27:26,948 --> 00:27:29,583 and make sure I had a home and someone to love me, 641 00:27:29,617 --> 00:27:31,518 not toss me away like garbage. 642 00:27:32,620 --> 00:27:35,555 It is so easy to look at me now 643 00:27:35,590 --> 00:27:36,623 and think of all the ways 644 00:27:36,657 --> 00:27:41,428 that I could've been kinder, better, or smarter, 645 00:27:41,462 --> 00:27:42,561 but... 646 00:27:44,699 --> 00:27:46,866 ...I was not the person I am today. 647 00:27:46,901 --> 00:27:48,668 I was not in my right mind. 648 00:27:48,703 --> 00:27:51,338 I wasn't in my mind at all. 649 00:27:53,474 --> 00:27:59,369 That night that... that he held me down, screaming. 650 00:28:00,314 --> 00:28:03,416 That night that he had his hands around my throat 651 00:28:03,451 --> 00:28:05,619 until I stopped screaming, 652 00:28:05,653 --> 00:28:07,587 when I was hovering over my own body 653 00:28:07,622 --> 00:28:10,223 while he was tearing away at me, 654 00:28:10,257 --> 00:28:12,959 that night that he smiled 655 00:28:12,994 --> 00:28:17,471 and he forced me to say that I liked it, 656 00:28:18,299 --> 00:28:20,900 when he laughed and... 657 00:28:22,169 --> 00:28:25,705 ...promised that we could do it any time that I wanted to... 658 00:28:28,576 --> 00:28:32,846 ...that was the night that I lost my right mind. 659 00:28:33,814 --> 00:28:36,750 He stole it from me, and for nine months... 660 00:28:36,784 --> 00:28:39,786 for nine months, I pretended I was fine. 661 00:28:39,820 --> 00:28:42,255 I pretended that I wasn't a zombie, 662 00:28:42,289 --> 00:28:45,207 that I wasn't numb or dead inside. 663 00:28:45,826 --> 00:28:47,927 And then, the day that you were born, 664 00:28:47,962 --> 00:28:51,231 I held you, and I looked at your face, 665 00:28:51,265 --> 00:28:52,666 and I... 666 00:28:52,700 --> 00:28:55,168 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 667 00:28:55,202 --> 00:28:57,570 ...I could feel again for the first time, 668 00:28:57,605 --> 00:28:59,606 but... 669 00:29:02,176 --> 00:29:03,610 [BREATHES SHARPLY] 670 00:29:03,644 --> 00:29:05,545 ...my mind... 671 00:29:07,148 --> 00:29:08,682 ...that took years to come back. 672 00:29:08,716 --> 00:29:11,651 In fact, I'm... Part of it never did. 673 00:29:14,689 --> 00:29:17,257 Of course you deserved better. 674 00:29:20,561 --> 00:29:21,594 [BREATHES SHARPLY] 675 00:29:21,629 --> 00:29:24,064 I didn't have better to give you. 676 00:29:32,740 --> 00:29:34,641 I was seven weeks pregnant 677 00:29:34,675 --> 00:29:36,609 when my ex-husband cracked my ribs 678 00:29:36,644 --> 00:29:38,945 and threw me across the living room floor. 679 00:29:41,148 --> 00:29:42,682 He didn't know that I was pregnant, 680 00:29:42,717 --> 00:29:47,120 and I decided in that moment that he could never know. 681 00:29:49,056 --> 00:29:52,441 I couldn't... I couldn't see a way out. 682 00:29:52,993 --> 00:29:54,394 Not then, at least. 683 00:29:54,428 --> 00:29:56,296 [BREATHING SHAKILY] 684 00:29:56,330 --> 00:29:57,530 I knew that, if I tried to leave, 685 00:29:57,565 --> 00:29:59,232 he would kill me. 686 00:29:59,266 --> 00:30:02,702 But I also knew that I couldn't raise a kid 687 00:30:02,737 --> 00:30:06,439 in that... fear, and in that danger. 688 00:30:07,775 --> 00:30:09,708 You had an abortion. 689 00:30:10,377 --> 00:30:12,377 I've never told anyone that. 690 00:30:13,681 --> 00:30:15,582 I don't know why. I'm not ashamed of it. 691 00:30:15,616 --> 00:30:16,666 I... 692 00:30:16,691 --> 00:30:18,718 [SIGHS] 693 00:30:18,753 --> 00:30:21,421 I did what I had to do. 694 00:30:21,455 --> 00:30:22,922 [CRYING] 695 00:30:22,957 --> 00:30:25,658 [VEHICLES PASSING IN DISTANCE] 696 00:30:25,693 --> 00:30:27,260 [DINNERWARE CLATTERING LIGHTLY IN DISTANCE] 697 00:30:27,294 --> 00:30:29,129 [SNIFFLES] 698 00:30:34,568 --> 00:30:36,569 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 699 00:30:36,604 --> 00:30:38,204 [SNIFFLES] 700 00:30:40,941 --> 00:30:42,742 Do I look like him? 701 00:30:48,749 --> 00:30:51,124 You have my father's eyes... 702 00:30:52,873 --> 00:30:54,507 but the hair is all mine. 703 00:30:57,057 --> 00:30:59,559 And maybe the fire in the belly. 704 00:31:03,063 --> 00:31:05,465 [VOICE BREAKING] I did the best I could, 705 00:31:05,499 --> 00:31:06,766 and I'm still... 706 00:31:10,137 --> 00:31:12,705 I'm sorry. I'm still just doing the best I can. 707 00:31:18,646 --> 00:31:20,780 [CHAIR SCRAPES LIGHTLY] 708 00:31:20,815 --> 00:31:22,615 [EXHALES SHARPLY] 709 00:31:22,650 --> 00:31:31,457 ♪ 710 00:31:31,492 --> 00:31:33,126 [FOOTSTEPS DEPART] 711 00:31:33,160 --> 00:31:37,730 ♪ 712 00:31:38,876 --> 00:31:39,957 [DOOR CLOSES] 713 00:31:41,622 --> 00:31:44,319 She's becoming increasingly tachypneic. 714 00:31:44,395 --> 00:31:46,529 Let OR 1 know that we're on our way. 715 00:31:46,554 --> 00:31:48,522 Abby, it's time. 716 00:31:48,556 --> 00:31:49,571 We have to go up now. 717 00:31:49,606 --> 00:31:50,924 No. I'm not... I'm not ready. I'm... 718 00:31:50,959 --> 00:31:52,859 [ECHOING] Abby, I know you're scared. 719 00:31:52,894 --> 00:31:53,994 No, you're gonna... you're gonna... 720 00:31:54,028 --> 00:31:57,097 you're gonna take me out and knock me out where I... 721 00:31:57,131 --> 00:31:59,449 the last time I was out, h-he knocked me out. 722 00:31:59,484 --> 00:32:00,734 [ECHOING] Abby. Abby, listen to me. 723 00:32:00,768 --> 00:32:03,036 If we don't do this surgery now, it could kill you. 724 00:32:03,071 --> 00:32:05,405 [CRYING] I can't. 725 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:08,375 I can't leave here, this room. 726 00:32:08,409 --> 00:32:10,777 Everyone has his face, every man. 727 00:32:10,812 --> 00:32:12,412 It's all I see. 728 00:32:12,447 --> 00:32:14,548 Even when I close my eyes... 729 00:32:14,582 --> 00:32:16,550 [ECHOING] Please. I can't see his face. 730 00:32:16,584 --> 00:32:18,452 Please don't I... make me see his face, please. 731 00:32:18,486 --> 00:32:20,373 [NORMAL VOICE] You don't have to, Abby. 732 00:32:20,408 --> 00:32:21,521 - [HEARTBEAT PULSING] - You don't have to. 733 00:32:21,556 --> 00:32:24,458 [WHIMPERING] 734 00:32:24,492 --> 00:32:25,652 Okay. 735 00:32:25,686 --> 00:32:29,696 Tuck says they're talking. What is that? Talking? 736 00:32:29,731 --> 00:32:31,431 I think they're dating. 737 00:32:31,466 --> 00:32:33,867 Mnh. Why do they do that? 738 00:32:33,901 --> 00:32:35,569 Why do they insist on coming up with new words 739 00:32:35,603 --> 00:32:37,604 when the old words were just fine? 740 00:32:37,638 --> 00:32:39,473 [CHUCKLES] 741 00:32:39,507 --> 00:32:41,575 It's not funny. 742 00:32:41,609 --> 00:32:43,977 Well, you... you do sound a little, you know, 743 00:32:44,012 --> 00:32:45,379 "Get off my lawn!" 744 00:32:45,413 --> 00:32:46,480 No. 745 00:32:46,514 --> 00:32:49,249 I want him to be happy. 746 00:32:49,283 --> 00:32:50,283 I want him to, you know, 747 00:32:50,318 --> 00:32:52,652 have the butterflies and first love and all that. 748 00:32:52,687 --> 00:32:54,821 Mm-hmm. Yeah, just not so soon. 749 00:32:54,856 --> 00:32:56,923 [SIGHS] 750 00:32:56,958 --> 00:32:58,925 We're gonna have to sit his butt down 751 00:32:58,960 --> 00:33:01,561 and teach him about respect... 752 00:33:03,031 --> 00:33:05,899 ...empathy, consent. 753 00:33:05,933 --> 00:33:07,267 Condoms... Oh, dear Lord. 754 00:33:07,301 --> 00:33:08,935 I have to talk to my son about condoms. 755 00:33:08,970 --> 00:33:11,004 - 100%. - [SIGHS] 756 00:33:11,039 --> 00:33:12,349 Or... 757 00:33:13,708 --> 00:33:15,644 I could sit down with him. 758 00:33:16,377 --> 00:33:18,146 It can be on you. 759 00:33:19,380 --> 00:33:23,818 But my dad gave me this talk, and it worked. 760 00:33:24,819 --> 00:33:26,820 [CELLPHONE VIBRATES, CHIMES] 761 00:33:26,854 --> 00:33:28,588 Mm, I gotta go. 762 00:33:28,623 --> 00:33:32,692 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 763 00:33:32,727 --> 00:33:33,775 Oh, I'm sorry, sir. 764 00:33:33,809 --> 00:33:35,595 You, uh... You can't go through there. 765 00:33:35,630 --> 00:33:36,630 Well, why not? 766 00:33:36,664 --> 00:33:38,799 Because I've been asked to see that you don't. 767 00:33:38,833 --> 00:33:39,876 Wha... 768 00:33:40,735 --> 00:33:41,868 [DOOR OPENS, CLOSES] 769 00:33:41,903 --> 00:33:43,537 Well, but she can go? 770 00:33:43,571 --> 00:33:44,604 Yes, sir. 771 00:33:46,374 --> 00:33:48,642 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 772 00:33:52,747 --> 00:33:54,981 Dr. Karev asked us to all stand here? 773 00:33:55,016 --> 00:33:56,116 Do we know why? 774 00:33:56,150 --> 00:33:59,686 Just... that a patient needs us. 775 00:33:59,720 --> 00:34:01,231 She needs all of us. 776 00:34:02,490 --> 00:34:03,690 Okay. 777 00:34:03,715 --> 00:34:06,450 [CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE] 778 00:34:06,661 --> 00:34:08,795 FEMALE NURSE: Okay, ladies, we need you all to line up 779 00:34:08,830 --> 00:34:10,664 either on the right side or left. 780 00:34:10,698 --> 00:34:12,993 Please keep this middle aisle clear. 781 00:34:14,735 --> 00:34:16,670 Are you ready? 782 00:34:16,704 --> 00:34:18,872 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 783 00:34:23,044 --> 00:34:26,847 ♪ Standin' on the platform ♪ 784 00:34:26,881 --> 00:34:29,749 ♪ Watching you go ♪ 785 00:34:29,784 --> 00:34:31,318 ♪ 786 00:34:31,352 --> 00:34:32,929 Yes. 787 00:34:33,621 --> 00:34:36,723 ♪ It's like no other pain ♪ 788 00:34:36,757 --> 00:34:40,694 ♪ I've ever known ♪ 789 00:34:40,728 --> 00:34:43,396 ♪ 790 00:34:43,431 --> 00:34:46,533 ♪ To love someone so much ♪ 791 00:34:46,567 --> 00:34:50,504 ♪ To have no control ♪ 792 00:34:50,538 --> 00:34:53,273 ♪ 793 00:34:53,307 --> 00:34:56,743 ♪ You said, "I wanna see the world" ♪ 794 00:34:56,777 --> 00:35:00,614 ♪ And I said, "Go" ♪ 795 00:35:00,648 --> 00:35:05,585 ♪ 796 00:35:05,620 --> 00:35:12,125 ♪ But I think I'm lost without you ♪ 797 00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:16,530 ♪ 798 00:35:16,564 --> 00:35:21,701 ♪ Strangers rushin' past, just tryna get home ♪ 799 00:35:21,736 --> 00:35:26,139 ♪ 800 00:35:26,174 --> 00:35:31,745 ♪ You were the only safehaven that I've known ♪ 801 00:35:31,779 --> 00:35:36,149 ♪ 802 00:35:36,184 --> 00:35:38,618 ♪ Hits me at full speed ♪ 803 00:35:38,653 --> 00:35:42,455 ♪ Feel like I can't breathe ♪ 804 00:35:42,490 --> 00:35:46,593 ♪ And nobody knows ♪ 805 00:35:46,627 --> 00:35:51,765 ♪ I think I'm lost without you ♪ 806 00:35:51,799 --> 00:35:52,999 Ready? 807 00:35:53,034 --> 00:35:56,970 ♪ You ♪ 808 00:35:57,004 --> 00:35:58,305 ♪ I just feel crushed... ♪ 809 00:35:58,339 --> 00:36:00,140 I'm staying right here. 810 00:36:00,174 --> 00:36:04,678 ♪ ...without you ♪ 811 00:36:04,712 --> 00:36:06,780 ♪ 'Cause I've been strong for so long ♪ 812 00:36:06,814 --> 00:36:09,916 - [RESPIRATOR HISSING] - ♪ That I never thought ♪ 813 00:36:09,951 --> 00:36:16,623 ♪ How much I love you ♪ 814 00:36:16,657 --> 00:36:18,024 TEDDY: I've seen soldiers like this. 815 00:36:18,059 --> 00:36:20,126 ♪ Standin' on the platform, watching you go ♪ 816 00:36:20,161 --> 00:36:21,461 Young women and young men, brutalized, 817 00:36:21,495 --> 00:36:23,830 with no idea how to talk about it. 818 00:36:23,864 --> 00:36:24,931 [MONITOR BEEPING] 819 00:36:24,966 --> 00:36:27,934 What you did today with Abby, that was not protocol... 820 00:36:27,969 --> 00:36:30,270 - ♪ You said, "I wanna see the world" ♪ - I know, I know, and I'm sorry. 821 00:36:30,304 --> 00:36:33,273 I'm saying it should be. 822 00:36:33,307 --> 00:36:37,712 ♪ And I said, "Go" ♪ 823 00:36:40,020 --> 00:36:42,521 [MONITOR BEEPING] 824 00:36:43,935 --> 00:36:45,602 TEDDY: Abby, hi. 825 00:36:46,938 --> 00:36:49,139 We were able to repair your diaphragm. 826 00:36:49,173 --> 00:36:51,374 We had to place in a chest tube for drainage, 827 00:36:51,409 --> 00:36:53,611 but that'll probably come out in a few days. 828 00:36:54,445 --> 00:36:58,348 And your kit will stay here, if you decide to report it. 829 00:36:58,382 --> 00:36:59,983 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 830 00:37:00,017 --> 00:37:01,918 You think I should do it, don't you? 831 00:37:01,953 --> 00:37:04,205 That is not our call to make. 832 00:37:05,857 --> 00:37:09,092 But we do think that you should talk to someone. 833 00:37:09,127 --> 00:37:10,837 Doesn't have to be your husband. 834 00:37:11,562 --> 00:37:13,006 But someone. 835 00:37:14,031 --> 00:37:16,467 I keep going over it in my head. 836 00:37:17,969 --> 00:37:20,930 If I hadn't been so distracted by my phone. 837 00:37:21,873 --> 00:37:23,607 If I had just trusted my gut 838 00:37:23,641 --> 00:37:26,387 and not gone down that street with the broken lamplights. 839 00:37:26,421 --> 00:37:28,187 Abby. 840 00:37:29,247 --> 00:37:32,817 This was not your fault. 841 00:37:33,785 --> 00:37:35,653 You didn't ask for this. 842 00:37:36,754 --> 00:37:40,190 There is nothing you did to deserve this. 843 00:37:40,224 --> 00:37:42,626 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 844 00:37:42,660 --> 00:37:44,027 I can't. 845 00:37:44,061 --> 00:37:45,262 I just can't... 846 00:37:45,296 --> 00:37:47,030 Okay, that's okay. 847 00:37:48,065 --> 00:37:49,902 I'll check in on you in a little bit, all right? 848 00:37:49,937 --> 00:37:51,142 Try to get some rest. 849 00:37:51,177 --> 00:37:52,236 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 850 00:37:52,270 --> 00:37:53,757 WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Felix to the ER. 851 00:37:53,792 --> 00:37:55,602 Dr. Felix to the ER. 852 00:37:55,637 --> 00:37:59,776 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 853 00:37:59,811 --> 00:38:01,344 Jack... 854 00:38:04,448 --> 00:38:07,818 He's gonna look at me and see this broken person. 855 00:38:07,852 --> 00:38:10,320 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 856 00:38:10,354 --> 00:38:14,391 If I tell him this, it's all he'll ever see. 857 00:38:14,425 --> 00:38:15,725 Abby, look at me. 858 00:38:17,328 --> 00:38:19,229 This doesn't define you. 859 00:38:19,263 --> 00:38:21,765 And whether you tell your husband or you report it 860 00:38:21,799 --> 00:38:24,835 or you don't tell another soul, you're a survivor. 861 00:38:24,869 --> 00:38:26,621 You survived. 862 00:38:27,505 --> 00:38:29,472 I still feel nauseous when I see 863 00:38:29,507 --> 00:38:32,609 men in expensive shoes with the points of the toes, 864 00:38:32,643 --> 00:38:34,978 because that's how my ex-husband made my kidney bleed. 865 00:38:35,012 --> 00:38:37,814 For years, I thought I got what I deserved, 866 00:38:37,849 --> 00:38:40,717 that I was responsible, that maybe, 867 00:38:40,751 --> 00:38:45,388 just maybe if I had said or done one thing differently... 868 00:38:45,423 --> 00:38:47,290 But none of that was your fault. 869 00:38:47,325 --> 00:38:48,658 No. 870 00:38:48,693 --> 00:38:51,528 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 871 00:38:53,724 --> 00:38:55,859 It's not your fault. 872 00:38:55,884 --> 00:38:58,018 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 873 00:38:58,043 --> 00:39:01,712 [BREATHES SHARPLY] 874 00:39:01,737 --> 00:39:03,804 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 875 00:39:04,241 --> 00:39:06,175 [SNIFFLES] 876 00:39:07,945 --> 00:39:10,780 Do you have a phone I can use? 877 00:39:10,815 --> 00:39:11,999 Yes. 878 00:39:12,550 --> 00:39:15,318 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 879 00:39:16,687 --> 00:39:18,755 [BREATHES SHARPLY] Will you stay? 880 00:39:18,789 --> 00:39:21,291 As long as you need. 881 00:39:22,860 --> 00:39:29,766 ♪ 882 00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:31,868 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 883 00:39:31,903 --> 00:39:33,336 [SNIFFLES] 884 00:39:33,371 --> 00:39:35,772 [CELLPHONE BUTTONS CLICKING] 885 00:39:35,806 --> 00:39:37,474 ♪ Slow down ♪ 886 00:39:37,508 --> 00:39:38,842 ♪ 887 00:39:38,876 --> 00:39:40,176 [LINE RINGING] 888 00:39:40,211 --> 00:39:41,978 ♪ Try to breathe in deep ♪ 889 00:39:42,013 --> 00:39:43,313 - [SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE] - ♪ Listen ♪ 890 00:39:43,347 --> 00:39:45,282 [INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS] 891 00:39:45,316 --> 00:39:46,283 ♪ To the words I speak ♪ 892 00:39:46,317 --> 00:39:48,518 Any game we watch on TV... right? they... 893 00:39:48,552 --> 00:39:53,790 they run, toss, wrestle, chase, until someone gets hurt. 894 00:39:53,824 --> 00:39:57,494 Or until someone calls "time out." 895 00:39:57,528 --> 00:39:59,029 Then the game stops. 896 00:39:59,063 --> 00:40:01,197 And no matter how much fun they're having, 897 00:40:01,232 --> 00:40:02,866 everything stops. 898 00:40:02,900 --> 00:40:04,734 ♪ Calling out for help, out for help ♪ 899 00:40:04,769 --> 00:40:06,179 That's consent. 900 00:40:07,338 --> 00:40:08,972 I thought we were just having burgers. 901 00:40:09,006 --> 00:40:11,408 Yeah, well, I thought talking was just talking, 902 00:40:11,442 --> 00:40:13,209 but you and I both know that's not the same thing anymore, 903 00:40:13,244 --> 00:40:14,711 so... 904 00:40:14,745 --> 00:40:17,213 ♪ Waiting to save yourself from falling into deep ♪ 905 00:40:17,248 --> 00:40:20,650 You pay attention to the girl you're with, all right? 906 00:40:20,685 --> 00:40:22,719 You... You... You need to care about her feelings, 907 00:40:22,753 --> 00:40:23,753 her... her joy, 908 00:40:23,788 --> 00:40:26,056 at... at least as much as you care about your own. 909 00:40:26,090 --> 00:40:27,657 - Okay, okay. - ♪ I won't let you down, my friend ♪ 910 00:40:27,692 --> 00:40:29,926 And she gets to change her mind. At any time. 911 00:40:29,961 --> 00:40:32,662 I mean, if she says "stop," or if she stops having fun, you... 912 00:40:32,697 --> 00:40:34,998 - you just plain stop. - ♪ I won't let you fight alone ♪ 913 00:40:35,032 --> 00:40:36,733 Time out. 914 00:40:36,767 --> 00:40:37,767 Game over. 915 00:40:37,802 --> 00:40:38,802 I know. 916 00:40:38,836 --> 00:40:41,771 ♪ I won't leave you in the cold on your own ♪ 917 00:40:41,806 --> 00:40:44,574 Being with someone you like is... 918 00:40:44,608 --> 00:40:45,842 ♪ I won't let you down, my friend ♪ 919 00:40:45,876 --> 00:40:48,678 There's nothing like it, and I want you to be safe and happy, 920 00:40:48,713 --> 00:40:52,415 but that only happens if she is, too. 921 00:40:52,450 --> 00:40:53,750 Okay. 922 00:40:53,784 --> 00:40:54,851 Say it. 923 00:40:54,885 --> 00:40:56,853 ♪ Come and sit with me down ♪ 924 00:40:56,887 --> 00:40:58,788 Say it. [SLURPS] 925 00:40:58,823 --> 00:41:01,458 ♪ Pour out whatever's weighing you down ♪ 926 00:41:01,492 --> 00:41:05,628 If she stops having fun, just plain stop. 927 00:41:05,663 --> 00:41:06,763 Time out. Game over. 928 00:41:06,797 --> 00:41:08,324 Always. 929 00:41:08,933 --> 00:41:12,769 Now, pass those fries and tell me what this Kelly is like. 930 00:41:12,803 --> 00:41:14,804 ♪ Calm down, calm down ♪ 931 00:41:14,839 --> 00:41:16,207 Yeah. 932 00:41:16,807 --> 00:41:19,042 Too often, trauma gets dismissed 933 00:41:19,076 --> 00:41:21,778 as "just in our head." 934 00:41:21,812 --> 00:41:23,392 But the pain is real. 935 00:41:23,427 --> 00:41:25,066 ♪ Waiting to save yourself ♪ 936 00:41:25,100 --> 00:41:26,634 We feel it... 937 00:41:27,284 --> 00:41:30,820 in our muscles, our cells, 938 00:41:30,855 --> 00:41:33,923 our hearts, our heads. 939 00:41:33,958 --> 00:41:37,761 ♪ Stop running, stop hiding ♪ 940 00:41:37,795 --> 00:41:40,230 And while there's no magic fix... 941 00:41:40,264 --> 00:41:41,731 ♪ I won't let you down, my friend ♪ 942 00:41:41,766 --> 00:41:44,068 ...no pill to make it disappear, 943 00:41:45,603 --> 00:41:46,970 we can ask for help. 944 00:41:47,004 --> 00:41:50,573 ♪ I won't let you fight alone ♪ 945 00:41:50,608 --> 00:41:53,443 Hey, I'm officially no longer the interim chief, 946 00:41:53,477 --> 00:41:55,011 and officially starving. 947 00:41:55,046 --> 00:41:56,846 Can I take you out to celebrate? 948 00:41:56,881 --> 00:41:58,014 I've had a rough day. 949 00:41:58,049 --> 00:41:59,783 I don't really feel like celebrating. 950 00:41:59,817 --> 00:42:01,484 Yeah, well, we can just talk. 951 00:42:01,519 --> 00:42:03,853 I just want to go home and crawl into bed. 952 00:42:03,888 --> 00:42:04,966 All right, well, we can do that. 953 00:42:05,000 --> 00:42:06,156 Alex, I'm tired. 954 00:42:06,190 --> 00:42:08,992 Can you just go celebrate with Meredith? 955 00:42:09,026 --> 00:42:11,127 Jo, it's me. You can talk to me. 956 00:42:11,162 --> 00:42:12,662 What... you think with all my family crap 957 00:42:12,696 --> 00:42:13,764 that I'm gonna judge you? 958 00:42:14,166 --> 00:42:16,027 I'm not going to judge. 959 00:42:16,027 --> 00:42:18,769 Just, I just want you talk to me. 960 00:42:19,233 --> 00:42:21,233 I don't want to talk about it. 961 00:42:21,250 --> 00:42:23,250 Alex, I... 962 00:42:24,316 --> 00:42:26,029 I can't talk about it. 963 00:42:26,029 --> 00:42:28,029 I just want to go home. 964 00:42:28,095 --> 00:42:30,095 I want to go home alone. 965 00:42:30,163 --> 00:42:32,325 I want to go home and sleep. 966 00:42:32,522 --> 00:42:34,327 Please. 967 00:42:37,842 --> 00:42:39,752 It wont change tell our truth. 968 00:42:39,753 --> 00:42:42,039 ♪ You in the cold, on your own ♪ 969 00:42:42,090 --> 00:42:54,090 Whenever we are ready. = Encoded By nItRo www.300mbfilms.com & 300mbfilms.org 970 00:42:44,107 --> 00:42:47,590 ♪ I wont let you down my friend ♪ 67341