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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 3 00:00:31,235 --> 00:00:34,562 ♪ Tell me your story ♪ 4 00:00:34,563 --> 00:00:37,905 ♪ Show me your pain ♪ 5 00:00:37,906 --> 00:00:42,906 ♪ Teach me how to find the healing river again ♪ 6 00:00:44,921 --> 00:00:49,921 ♪ Where is the water that first made me whole ♪ 7 00:00:51,727 --> 00:00:56,727 ♪ Where is the potter that can remake my soul ♪ 8 00:00:58,865 --> 00:01:03,865 ♪ Oh ♪ 9 00:01:04,418 --> 00:01:07,134 ♪ Oh ♪ 10 00:01:12,498 --> 00:01:14,248 ♪ Oh ♪ 11 00:01:32,020 --> 00:01:34,289 - The canal was right out there. 12 00:01:34,290 --> 00:01:35,409 Gone now. 13 00:01:35,410 --> 00:01:36,899 They paved over it. 14 00:01:36,900 --> 00:01:39,059 So, no more water. 15 00:01:39,060 --> 00:01:43,779 Now, we brew coffee, the best in Cincinnati. 16 00:01:43,780 --> 00:01:46,557 Notice how it says "Hebrews". 17 00:01:47,470 --> 00:01:50,331 Or, in this case "she-brews". 18 00:01:51,165 --> 00:01:52,165 Ah-dit-dit! 19 00:01:55,918 --> 00:01:57,501 - Hey, Mama! 20 00:02:00,510 --> 00:02:01,360 - Taylor! 21 00:02:01,361 --> 00:02:03,784 Are you looking for sex or love? 22 00:02:03,785 --> 00:02:04,618 - Um... 23 00:02:04,619 --> 00:02:05,889 Both? 24 00:02:05,890 --> 00:02:07,469 - Get the order right, honey! 25 00:02:07,470 --> 00:02:10,566 There's an extra pair of pants in the locker. 26 00:02:10,567 --> 00:02:11,567 - Okay. 27 00:02:17,088 --> 00:02:18,088 - Oh, d... 28 00:02:26,070 --> 00:02:27,932 - Is she your mom? 29 00:02:27,933 --> 00:02:28,780 - No. 30 00:02:28,781 --> 00:02:30,449 - Is she her mom? 31 00:02:30,450 --> 00:02:31,689 - No. 32 00:02:31,690 --> 00:02:33,243 But don't tell her that. 33 00:02:36,780 --> 00:02:38,413 - Frittatas up, Mama Bear. 34 00:02:52,020 --> 00:02:53,009 - Blessings til it hurts. 35 00:02:53,010 --> 00:02:56,183 - Forgive me, father, for I have sinned. 36 00:02:56,184 --> 00:02:57,409 - What now? 37 00:02:57,410 --> 00:03:00,149 - I told Michael he had to close up tonight 38 00:03:00,150 --> 00:03:02,919 because I needed to make more mugs. 39 00:03:02,920 --> 00:03:03,880 I lied. 40 00:03:03,881 --> 00:03:06,209 We don't need no stinkin' mugs. 41 00:03:06,210 --> 00:03:08,404 - And you lied because... 42 00:03:08,405 --> 00:03:11,439 - Because he wants to move out, Peter! 43 00:03:11,440 --> 00:03:13,869 He was gonna go look at apartments! 44 00:03:13,870 --> 00:03:16,209 I mean, he just graduate, for Pete's... 45 00:03:16,210 --> 00:03:17,809 For your sake. 46 00:03:17,810 --> 00:03:19,029 What's the rush? 47 00:03:19,030 --> 00:03:20,693 - Life. 48 00:03:20,694 --> 00:03:21,610 He's 18, Ingrid. 49 00:03:21,611 --> 00:03:23,319 You moved out when you were 18. 50 00:03:23,320 --> 00:03:24,979 - Yeah, and look how I turned out. 51 00:03:24,980 --> 00:03:26,849 - You turned out great! 52 00:03:26,850 --> 00:03:28,609 And so has Michael. 53 00:03:28,610 --> 00:03:29,999 He's my favorite nephew. 54 00:03:30,000 --> 00:03:31,539 - He's your only nephew. 55 00:03:31,540 --> 00:03:33,959 - Nothing is gonna happen to him. 56 00:03:33,960 --> 00:03:36,265 - Who died and made you God? 57 00:03:36,266 --> 00:03:37,709 You can't promise that. 58 00:03:38,544 --> 00:03:39,579 - Look, I've got vespers. 59 00:03:39,580 --> 00:03:40,659 Talk to you tomorrow? 60 00:03:40,660 --> 00:03:42,469 - You're my well, Peter. 61 00:03:42,470 --> 00:03:43,549 - Yeah, well... 62 00:03:43,550 --> 00:03:45,993 the well has to refill sometimes. 63 00:03:48,240 --> 00:03:51,103 When did you become so cautious, Ing? 64 00:03:51,104 --> 00:03:52,010 I mean, you used to adopt everything 65 00:03:52,011 --> 00:03:54,363 that came through the door, and... 66 00:03:54,364 --> 00:03:56,164 Now it's just Michael and your cubs. 67 00:03:57,060 --> 00:03:58,699 What about the rest of the world? 68 00:03:58,700 --> 00:04:01,332 - Have you seen the rest of the world lately? 69 00:04:38,005 --> 00:04:38,838 - Is it heroin? 70 00:04:38,839 --> 00:04:41,088 - Try it out. 71 00:04:43,487 --> 00:04:44,829 - Goodnight Rose. 72 00:04:44,830 --> 00:04:45,663 Goodnight Michael. 73 00:04:45,664 --> 00:04:46,679 Hey, good luck in college. 74 00:04:46,680 --> 00:04:47,680 - Hey, thanks! 75 00:04:53,067 --> 00:04:53,950 - You sure? 76 00:04:53,951 --> 00:04:55,509 - We got it, Nadine. 77 00:04:55,510 --> 00:04:57,569 - Rose, you know that grill needs a good cleaning. 78 00:04:57,570 --> 00:04:59,170 - I know how to clean the grill. 79 00:05:02,656 --> 00:05:03,656 - Hm! 80 00:05:38,990 --> 00:05:40,199 - Hey. 81 00:05:40,200 --> 00:05:42,749 So, I'm the brash but charming singer 82 00:05:42,750 --> 00:05:43,989 you're all gonna fall in love with 83 00:05:43,990 --> 00:05:47,361 so they actually pay me to play this time. 84 00:05:55,140 --> 00:05:56,140 Hey! 85 00:05:57,240 --> 00:06:00,543 So, my dad was this really pissed off Irish guy, right? 86 00:06:01,860 --> 00:06:03,849 Liked to smash things up. 87 00:06:03,850 --> 00:06:05,883 So I wrote this song about him. 88 00:06:09,508 --> 00:06:13,275 ♪ Well the sun comes up and the moon goes down ♪ 89 00:06:13,276 --> 00:06:14,109 ♪ And we work all day for barely a crown ♪ 90 00:06:14,110 --> 00:06:18,880 ♪ And the time comes along ♪ 91 00:06:18,881 --> 00:06:20,821 ♪ And the time goes away ♪ 92 00:06:20,822 --> 00:06:25,153 ♪ And we spend our lives with nothing to say ♪ 93 00:06:25,154 --> 00:06:27,394 ♪ So give me a gun ♪ 94 00:06:27,395 --> 00:06:29,212 ♪ Give me a knife ♪ 95 00:06:29,213 --> 00:06:33,002 ♪ Give me a reason to not take your life ♪ 96 00:06:33,003 --> 00:06:36,787 ♪ You killed my friends and my brothers as well ♪ 97 00:06:36,788 --> 00:06:40,392 ♪ You may kill me but we'll both go to hell ♪ 98 00:06:40,393 --> 00:06:44,027 ♪ La da die die da da die die die die die die ♪ 99 00:06:44,028 --> 00:06:47,822 ♪ La da die da die die die die die die ♪ 100 00:06:47,823 --> 00:06:52,127 ♪ La da die die da da die die da die die die ♪ 101 00:06:52,128 --> 00:06:55,334 ♪ Lie da die die da die die ♪ 102 00:06:55,335 --> 00:06:59,423 ♪ La da die die da da die die da die die die ♪ 103 00:06:59,424 --> 00:07:04,091 ♪ And the rain will be coming down fast ♪ 104 00:07:31,546 --> 00:07:34,296 - You gotta try mine too. 105 00:07:35,395 --> 00:07:36,228 - Hey, cute ladies. 106 00:07:36,229 --> 00:07:37,719 - Ooh! 107 00:07:37,720 --> 00:07:38,560 What's up, big guy? 108 00:07:38,561 --> 00:07:39,639 - How old are you, kid? 109 00:07:39,640 --> 00:07:40,490 - I'm older than I look. 110 00:07:40,491 --> 00:07:41,567 - Yeah, right. 111 00:07:41,568 --> 00:07:42,401 So am I! 112 00:07:42,402 --> 00:07:44,483 And so's my license, which I'd like to keep! 113 00:08:00,984 --> 00:08:01,817 ♪ There's a paradox to livin' ♪ 114 00:08:01,818 --> 00:08:06,817 ♪ 'Cause the way to get is just by givin' ♪ 115 00:08:06,904 --> 00:08:10,685 ♪ 'Cause the way to live is just by dying ♪ 116 00:08:10,686 --> 00:08:15,664 ♪ And the way to find love stop trying and just ♪ 117 00:08:15,665 --> 00:08:18,370 ♪ Love ♪ 118 00:08:20,401 --> 00:08:22,154 - I use a hairbrush. 119 00:08:22,155 --> 00:08:23,286 - Hey, girl! 120 00:08:59,990 --> 00:09:02,319 - This it totally not what my mom is paying us for. 121 00:09:02,320 --> 00:09:03,339 - I know. 122 00:09:03,340 --> 00:09:06,029 Totally irresponsible, Michael. 123 00:09:11,060 --> 00:09:11,893 - Dang. 124 00:09:11,894 --> 00:09:13,454 I'm supposed to be the responsible one. 125 00:09:14,260 --> 00:09:16,719 You're still in high school, but I... 126 00:09:16,720 --> 00:09:18,999 - I have to go study for my SATs, 127 00:09:19,000 --> 00:09:21,489 since I'm still in high school! 128 00:09:21,490 --> 00:09:22,323 - Joke. 129 00:09:22,323 --> 00:09:23,156 Hey, joke. 130 00:09:23,156 --> 00:09:24,080 Joke. 131 00:09:24,081 --> 00:09:27,329 You're 10 times as responsible as I am, and... 132 00:09:27,330 --> 00:09:28,463 way hotter, too. 133 00:09:31,100 --> 00:09:31,933 What? 134 00:09:31,934 --> 00:09:33,069 - You're leaving. 135 00:09:33,070 --> 00:09:34,189 - Three and a half miles. 136 00:09:34,190 --> 00:09:35,177 Xavier University is three and a half miles away. 137 00:09:35,178 --> 00:09:37,833 - It's another world. 138 00:09:39,860 --> 00:09:41,099 - I'm not goin' anywhere. 139 00:09:41,100 --> 00:09:42,100 I swear. 140 00:09:48,396 --> 00:09:50,146 - I still have to go. 141 00:10:37,340 --> 00:10:38,340 - Evening. 142 00:11:00,507 --> 00:11:02,759 - May the Lord who frees you from sin 143 00:11:02,760 --> 00:11:04,060 save you and raise you up. 144 00:11:06,630 --> 00:11:07,463 - I'm sorry, Father. 145 00:11:07,464 --> 00:11:09,009 Can you... 146 00:11:09,010 --> 00:11:10,027 This one's DOA. 147 00:11:10,028 --> 00:11:12,506 - Yeah, that's fine. 148 00:11:28,410 --> 00:11:29,400 - Michael? 149 00:11:29,400 --> 00:11:30,233 - Ma'am. 150 00:11:30,233 --> 00:11:31,120 Mrs. Ambelin? 151 00:11:31,121 --> 00:11:32,236 - Yes, I'm trying to find my son! 152 00:11:32,237 --> 00:11:33,511 - You were supposed to check in 153 00:11:33,512 --> 00:11:34,345 at the... - No, no, no. 154 00:11:34,345 --> 00:11:35,178 I'm looking for Michael. 155 00:11:35,178 --> 00:11:36,011 I'm Mrs. Ambelin! 156 00:11:36,011 --> 00:11:36,844 I'm looking for my son! 157 00:11:36,844 --> 00:11:37,720 Peter, where's Michael? 158 00:11:37,720 --> 00:11:38,720 Why can't I see Michael? 159 00:11:38,720 --> 00:11:39,720 What's going on? 160 00:11:40,450 --> 00:11:41,283 Peter! 161 00:11:41,283 --> 00:11:42,116 - Ingrid. 162 00:11:42,117 --> 00:11:43,214 - I need to see Michael! 163 00:11:43,215 --> 00:11:44,349 Just... - Mrs. Ambelin? 164 00:11:44,350 --> 00:11:45,350 Your son was DO... 165 00:11:46,780 --> 00:11:47,879 He passed. 166 00:11:47,880 --> 00:11:48,850 25 minutes ago. 167 00:11:48,851 --> 00:11:50,309 - There must be some mistake. 168 00:11:50,310 --> 00:11:51,143 No. 169 00:11:51,143 --> 00:11:51,976 Please, I just need to see him. 170 00:11:51,976 --> 00:11:52,820 You have to let me see him. 171 00:11:52,820 --> 00:11:53,740 Peter, please tell her. 172 00:11:53,741 --> 00:11:55,480 Please tell her that I need to see my son. 173 00:11:55,481 --> 00:11:58,259 - Another young man's car jumped a curb and... 174 00:11:58,260 --> 00:11:59,484 He didn't suffer. 175 00:12:03,613 --> 00:12:05,165 - It can't... 176 00:12:05,166 --> 00:12:06,166 be. 177 00:12:09,737 --> 00:12:10,593 Is that him? 178 00:12:10,594 --> 00:12:12,239 Ma'am, you can't go in there. 179 00:12:12,240 --> 00:12:15,469 - Is that who murdered my son? 180 00:12:15,470 --> 00:12:17,259 And he gets to live? 181 00:12:17,260 --> 00:12:18,093 He! 182 00:12:18,094 --> 00:12:19,939 He gets to live! 183 00:12:19,940 --> 00:12:21,820 Why does he get to live? 184 00:12:21,821 --> 00:12:23,536 Why does he get to live? 185 00:13:50,490 --> 00:13:52,663 - Hey, Mom, there was a total mix-up. 186 00:13:58,503 --> 00:14:01,786 ♪ Tell me your story ♪ 187 00:14:01,787 --> 00:14:05,137 ♪ Show me your pain ♪ 188 00:14:05,138 --> 00:14:10,138 ♪ Teach me how to find that healing river again ♪ 189 00:14:11,994 --> 00:14:16,994 ♪ Where is the water that first made me whole ♪ 190 00:14:18,540 --> 00:14:23,540 ♪ Where is the potter that can remake my soul ♪ 191 00:14:25,726 --> 00:14:30,726 ♪ Oh ♪ 192 00:14:31,584 --> 00:14:36,584 ♪ Oh ♪ 193 00:14:38,994 --> 00:14:43,994 ♪ Oh ♪ 194 00:14:44,506 --> 00:14:45,823 ♪ Oh ♪ 195 00:14:45,824 --> 00:14:47,907 - Why do you get to live? 196 00:14:52,391 --> 00:14:55,351 ♪ Lord I've been drifting ♪ 197 00:14:55,352 --> 00:14:58,755 ♪ And I don't know why ♪ 198 00:14:58,756 --> 00:15:03,756 ♪ When did this world get so barren and dry ♪ 199 00:15:05,540 --> 00:15:06,893 ♪ Where is the water ♪ 200 00:15:08,799 --> 00:15:11,997 ♪ That first made me whole ♪ 201 00:15:11,998 --> 00:15:12,831 - Ha! 202 00:15:12,832 --> 00:15:14,976 Match that Papa Pete! ♪ Where is the potter ♪ 203 00:15:14,977 --> 00:15:19,086 ♪ That can remake my soul ♪ 204 00:15:19,087 --> 00:15:24,087 ♪ Oh ♪ 205 00:15:25,549 --> 00:15:30,549 ♪ Oh ♪ 206 00:15:32,610 --> 00:15:34,720 ♪ Oh ♪ 207 00:15:36,887 --> 00:15:38,545 - No problem. 208 00:15:38,546 --> 00:15:43,546 ♪ Oh ♪ 209 00:15:46,343 --> 00:15:48,093 ♪ Oh ♪ 210 00:15:57,953 --> 00:16:00,003 - Anything at all, just call me. 211 00:16:01,570 --> 00:16:03,041 - Love you. 212 00:16:04,590 --> 00:16:05,590 Bye, sweetie. 213 00:16:08,017 --> 00:16:09,017 Thanks. 214 00:16:14,820 --> 00:16:16,569 You see this? 215 00:16:16,570 --> 00:16:18,195 - I saw the obituary. 216 00:16:18,196 --> 00:16:19,029 - No. 217 00:16:19,029 --> 00:16:19,862 No, no, no. 218 00:16:19,863 --> 00:16:21,359 The local section, Peter! 219 00:16:21,360 --> 00:16:24,309 They put them together like they were... 220 00:16:24,310 --> 00:16:25,889 brothers or something! 221 00:16:25,890 --> 00:16:26,939 We have gotta make sure 222 00:16:26,940 --> 00:16:28,723 that he never hurts anyone again! 223 00:16:36,440 --> 00:16:37,669 - Mr. Longerman. 224 00:16:37,670 --> 00:16:39,323 - Dave. 225 00:16:39,324 --> 00:16:40,324 Do we... 226 00:16:41,230 --> 00:16:42,140 - Thank you for doing this. 227 00:16:42,141 --> 00:16:43,839 I know prosecutors have long hours. 228 00:16:43,840 --> 00:16:45,619 - And short lives. 229 00:16:45,620 --> 00:16:47,989 - My sister, Ingrid Ambelin. 230 00:16:47,990 --> 00:16:50,119 - Mrs. Ambelin, I'm so sorry. 231 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:51,120 - So am I! 232 00:16:57,860 --> 00:16:59,360 Is there any chance for death? 233 00:17:00,310 --> 00:17:01,579 - Uh, no. 234 00:17:01,580 --> 00:17:02,647 It's vehicular homicide, Mrs. Ambelin, so... 235 00:17:02,648 --> 00:17:05,879 - He was stoned out of his mind! 236 00:17:05,880 --> 00:17:08,069 - Yes, and that will be in the charges. 237 00:17:08,070 --> 00:17:10,589 A DUI and driving under a suspended license 238 00:17:10,590 --> 00:17:11,709 is aggravated vehicular. 239 00:17:11,710 --> 00:17:13,959 Plus, if he has any other priors, 240 00:17:13,960 --> 00:17:15,819 normally I'd go for up to 20 years. 241 00:17:15,820 --> 00:17:16,800 - Normally? 242 00:17:16,801 --> 00:17:18,559 - The defendant is a juvenile. 243 00:17:18,560 --> 00:17:20,496 Well, he's 17. 244 00:17:20,497 --> 00:17:21,849 - So, what, it's a prank? 245 00:17:21,850 --> 00:17:22,710 Kids'll be kids? 246 00:17:22,710 --> 00:17:23,543 - No. 247 00:17:23,544 --> 00:17:24,669 But it will be handled differently. 248 00:17:24,670 --> 00:17:26,059 The CPS is involved. 249 00:17:26,060 --> 00:17:29,619 Plus, the defendant, Alec McCortland, is a foster child. 250 00:17:29,620 --> 00:17:30,621 So, Job and Family Services is involved. 251 00:17:30,622 --> 00:17:34,049 They've already assigned him a Guardian Ad Litem. 252 00:17:34,050 --> 00:17:36,229 - So, where's he now, at a party? 253 00:17:36,230 --> 00:17:37,090 - Ingrid. 254 00:17:37,091 --> 00:17:38,759 - No, it's okay. 255 00:17:38,760 --> 00:17:39,734 He's being booked into 50/50. 256 00:17:39,735 --> 00:17:44,029 It's juvenile detention at 5050 Reynolds Avenue. 257 00:17:44,030 --> 00:17:45,619 - Kid jail? 258 00:17:45,620 --> 00:17:46,600 - Basically, yeah. 259 00:17:46,601 --> 00:17:47,779 - Then what? 260 00:17:47,780 --> 00:17:49,699 - He'll stay there through his trial and sentencing. 261 00:17:49,700 --> 00:17:51,439 - Then what? 262 00:17:51,440 --> 00:17:52,360 - Look. 263 00:17:52,361 --> 00:17:54,119 He's not jut a foster kid. 264 00:17:54,120 --> 00:17:56,219 He's a bad egg. 265 00:17:56,220 --> 00:17:57,409 He bailed on his last family, 266 00:17:57,410 --> 00:17:59,279 stole all of their prescription painkillers, 267 00:17:59,280 --> 00:18:01,279 and just disappeared about a month ago. 268 00:18:01,280 --> 00:18:04,659 Stopped going to school, has a history of substance abuse. 269 00:18:04,660 --> 00:18:06,619 Rehab didn't stick. 270 00:18:06,620 --> 00:18:08,179 - Surprise, surprise! 271 00:18:08,180 --> 00:18:10,729 - If all they do is detox, all they do is retox. 272 00:18:10,730 --> 00:18:12,039 - So... 273 00:18:12,040 --> 00:18:13,549 What happens now? 274 00:18:13,550 --> 00:18:14,750 - I get him tried as an adult. 275 00:18:21,307 --> 00:18:22,466 McCortland agreed to waive his right 276 00:18:22,467 --> 00:18:23,300 to an amenability hearing, 277 00:18:23,301 --> 00:18:26,737 so this should be pure... 278 00:18:33,620 --> 00:18:35,129 - All rise. 279 00:18:35,130 --> 00:18:37,699 Hamilton County Youth Court is now in session. 280 00:18:37,700 --> 00:18:40,483 The Honorable Judge Hua-Ling Graham presiding. 281 00:18:43,920 --> 00:18:44,840 - Good morning. 282 00:18:44,841 --> 00:18:47,379 This bindover hearing is now in session. 283 00:18:47,380 --> 00:18:48,589 This is a closed hearing. 284 00:18:48,590 --> 00:18:50,409 The only persons allowed in the courtroom 285 00:18:50,410 --> 00:18:53,009 are those directly involved in the case. 286 00:18:53,010 --> 00:18:54,010 Please be seated. 287 00:18:57,700 --> 00:19:00,119 There are three criteria in determining 288 00:19:00,120 --> 00:19:02,149 whether the defendant, Alec McCortland, 289 00:19:02,150 --> 00:19:06,759 is to be tried as an adult: age, seriousness of offense, 290 00:19:06,760 --> 00:19:11,523 and prior record, which it seems I have almost nothing on. 291 00:19:13,190 --> 00:19:15,043 Councils, please approach the bench. 292 00:19:21,070 --> 00:19:23,109 Council Longerman, how did we get here 293 00:19:23,110 --> 00:19:25,149 without an amenability hearing? 294 00:19:25,150 --> 00:19:28,349 - I have a signed waiver for the accused, Your Honor. 295 00:19:28,350 --> 00:19:30,049 - And why wasn't this expressly stated 296 00:19:30,050 --> 00:19:30,966 in the record beforehand? 297 00:19:30,967 --> 00:19:33,729 Council Gitdmeier, I'm sorry, 298 00:19:33,730 --> 00:19:35,539 do you have someplace else you'd rather be? 299 00:19:35,540 --> 00:19:36,373 - No, Your Honor. 300 00:19:36,374 --> 00:19:38,846 It's just that Mr. McCortland... 301 00:19:38,847 --> 00:19:41,209 he signed the waiver against my council. 302 00:19:41,210 --> 00:19:43,899 - Rule Three of the Ohio Rules of Juvenile Procedures 303 00:19:43,900 --> 00:19:45,829 says that the accused may relinquish his rights 304 00:19:45,830 --> 00:19:48,749 to be tried as a juvenile only with permission of the court 305 00:19:48,750 --> 00:19:51,179 after we have determined that the juvenile 306 00:19:51,180 --> 00:19:53,519 understands the consequences of that action! 307 00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:56,122 That's what amenability hearings are for, gentlemen! 308 00:19:56,123 --> 00:19:59,319 - I know, Your Honor, but it isn't required if... 309 00:19:59,320 --> 00:20:00,153 Look. 310 00:20:00,154 --> 00:20:01,219 McCortland understands. 311 00:20:01,220 --> 00:20:02,499 Trust me. 312 00:20:02,500 --> 00:20:04,069 I mean, he may be a smart a... 313 00:20:04,070 --> 00:20:05,149 He's not stupid. 314 00:20:05,150 --> 00:20:05,983 - Well, gosh. 315 00:20:05,983 --> 00:20:06,816 We have your testimony. 316 00:20:06,817 --> 00:20:07,973 What else do we need? 317 00:20:09,910 --> 00:20:11,099 And there's no legal guardian. 318 00:20:11,100 --> 00:20:12,289 Is that correct? 319 00:20:12,290 --> 00:20:13,230 - No, Your Honor. 320 00:20:13,231 --> 00:20:16,173 There is a Guardian ad Litem from Job and Family Services. 321 00:20:19,230 --> 00:20:20,220 - Excuse me! 322 00:20:20,220 --> 00:20:21,053 You! 323 00:20:21,053 --> 00:20:21,886 Guardian! 324 00:20:21,887 --> 00:20:24,219 Lose the phone now! 325 00:20:24,220 --> 00:20:25,217 - Why does the kid have to agree? 326 00:20:25,218 --> 00:20:28,169 Why don't they just put a robe on him? 327 00:20:28,170 --> 00:20:30,339 - Defense respectfully requests that Your Honor 328 00:20:30,340 --> 00:20:32,229 overrule Mr. McCortland's waiver, 329 00:20:32,230 --> 00:20:34,499 in so much as the defendant's psych eval 330 00:20:34,500 --> 00:20:36,339 shows that he suffers from ADD 331 00:20:36,340 --> 00:20:38,329 with comorbid symptoms of OCD. 332 00:20:38,330 --> 00:20:40,749 - Just because he watches birds and washes his hands a lot 333 00:20:40,750 --> 00:20:42,136 doesn't mean that he's a... 334 00:20:42,137 --> 00:20:42,970 - Stop! 335 00:20:42,970 --> 00:20:43,803 Just stop. 336 00:20:43,804 --> 00:20:45,809 You both have done shotty work here, gentlemen, 337 00:20:45,810 --> 00:20:47,959 just plain shotty! 338 00:20:47,960 --> 00:20:48,960 Sit down! 339 00:20:49,740 --> 00:20:50,740 Now! 340 00:20:55,540 --> 00:20:57,069 I am enjoined by juvenile law 341 00:20:57,070 --> 00:20:58,539 to determine whether this young man 342 00:20:58,540 --> 00:21:01,039 knowingly, voluntarily, and intelligently 343 00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:03,119 waived his right to an amenability hearing. 344 00:21:03,120 --> 00:21:04,819 I do not find the facts compelling. 345 00:21:04,820 --> 00:21:06,019 - Not compelling? 346 00:21:06,020 --> 00:21:07,789 He murdered my son! 347 00:21:07,790 --> 00:21:08,623 - Ingrid, Ingrid... 348 00:21:08,624 --> 00:21:11,449 - Alec McCortland will be tried as a juvenile. 349 00:21:11,450 --> 00:21:13,639 - You said he would be tried as an adult! 350 00:21:13,640 --> 00:21:14,929 - I said maybe. 351 00:21:14,930 --> 00:21:15,763 - No! 352 00:21:15,764 --> 00:21:17,019 You said that you could do it! 353 00:21:17,020 --> 00:21:18,069 - What does this mean now, Dave? 354 00:21:18,070 --> 00:21:21,791 - Well, at worst he'll be sent to DYS until he's 21. 355 00:21:21,792 --> 00:21:22,625 - What? 356 00:21:22,625 --> 00:21:23,458 Four years of summer camp? 357 00:21:23,459 --> 00:21:25,269 - Actually, they only send the most serious... 358 00:21:25,270 --> 00:21:26,679 - Mr. Longerman. 359 00:21:26,680 --> 00:21:28,019 Do you need a timeout? 360 00:21:28,020 --> 00:21:29,759 - My apologies, Your Honor. 361 00:21:29,760 --> 00:21:33,029 - Are there any adults in this room? 362 00:21:33,030 --> 00:21:35,222 Trial is set for one month from today. 363 00:21:43,670 --> 00:21:44,503 - Hello? 364 00:21:44,503 --> 00:21:45,444 - Hi, can you hear me okay? 365 00:21:45,445 --> 00:21:46,899 - Who is this? - Great! 366 00:21:46,900 --> 00:21:49,393 This is Chad from cardholder services. 367 00:22:21,890 --> 00:22:24,509 - Everything you make is so beautiful. 368 00:22:24,510 --> 00:22:26,209 The pottery. 369 00:22:26,210 --> 00:22:27,210 This place. 370 00:22:28,420 --> 00:22:29,429 That. 371 00:22:29,430 --> 00:22:30,709 - Oh, sweetie. 372 00:22:30,710 --> 00:22:32,729 It's not art, it's just a stencil. 373 00:22:32,730 --> 00:22:34,829 - That you made. 374 00:22:34,830 --> 00:22:37,333 Everything, the pottery, the food, Michael. 375 00:22:38,794 --> 00:22:40,893 - I did have a little help making Michael. 376 00:22:48,694 --> 00:22:50,027 You know, he... 377 00:22:51,401 --> 00:22:53,763 He talked about you all the time. 378 00:22:56,010 --> 00:22:57,810 - I don't know how to let go of him. 379 00:23:00,580 --> 00:23:01,580 - Neither do I. 380 00:23:29,020 --> 00:23:31,279 - Need you... 381 00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:32,363 to... 382 00:23:33,290 --> 00:23:35,723 light up my life. 383 00:23:36,720 --> 00:23:38,129 Nah, nah. 384 00:23:38,130 --> 00:23:39,139 Total crap. 385 00:23:39,140 --> 00:23:40,140 Crap cliche. 386 00:23:42,140 --> 00:23:43,143 Need you to... 387 00:23:45,592 --> 00:23:46,624 What? 388 00:23:46,625 --> 00:23:47,939 Need you to what? 389 00:23:47,940 --> 00:23:48,973 - All rise. 390 00:23:54,630 --> 00:23:58,139 - Alec McCortland, considering the grave circumstances 391 00:23:58,140 --> 00:24:02,519 of your offense, prior unsuccessful rehabilitation efforts, 392 00:24:02,520 --> 00:24:04,529 and your failure to respect the rules 393 00:24:04,530 --> 00:24:07,169 of the Hamilton County foster care system, 394 00:24:07,170 --> 00:24:11,649 but weighing these against time already served in detention, 395 00:24:11,650 --> 00:24:13,279 your abandonment as a child, 396 00:24:13,280 --> 00:24:16,219 and the circumstances surrounding that incident, 397 00:24:16,220 --> 00:24:19,529 the court is ordering a suspended sentence 398 00:24:19,530 --> 00:24:23,129 and treatment in lieu of incarceration. 399 00:24:23,130 --> 00:24:26,349 This means that your guilty plea will be suspended 400 00:24:26,350 --> 00:24:28,319 during your six-to-12 months residence 401 00:24:28,320 --> 00:24:30,453 at the Merskin Juvenile Treatment Center. 402 00:24:31,440 --> 00:24:34,069 If you successfully complete the program, 403 00:24:34,070 --> 00:24:37,059 your case will then be dismissed as not guilty. 404 00:24:37,060 --> 00:24:41,079 However, if you fail to complete the program, 405 00:24:41,080 --> 00:24:43,709 your case will be reopened, and I will recommend 406 00:24:43,710 --> 00:24:46,639 that, at such time, you be remanded to the Department 407 00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:49,949 of Youth Services for extended incarceration 408 00:24:49,950 --> 00:24:51,323 until the age of 25. 409 00:24:55,542 --> 00:24:58,589 - Well, Judge Graham crackers and milk strikes again. 410 00:24:58,590 --> 00:25:00,369 - So, he's the victim now! 411 00:25:00,370 --> 00:25:03,779 So, he gets treated for his unfortunate condition, 412 00:25:03,780 --> 00:25:05,049 and all is forgiven! 413 00:25:05,050 --> 00:25:05,883 He... 414 00:25:05,884 --> 00:25:09,389 He gets dismissed as not guilty! 415 00:25:09,390 --> 00:25:10,739 What the hell is that? 416 00:25:10,740 --> 00:25:12,299 - There's gotta be something else, Dave! 417 00:25:12,300 --> 00:25:14,749 - If there was something I could do, Mrs. Ambelin. 418 00:25:14,750 --> 00:25:16,829 There were facts in the probation investigation 419 00:25:16,830 --> 00:25:18,709 that the defense completely mis-characterized. 420 00:25:18,710 --> 00:25:20,059 It make McCortland seem almost like... 421 00:25:20,060 --> 00:25:20,893 - A victim! 422 00:25:20,893 --> 00:25:21,726 - Yes. 423 00:25:21,727 --> 00:25:23,129 And he's not. 424 00:25:23,130 --> 00:25:25,909 He's just a slick little criminal. 425 00:25:25,910 --> 00:25:27,418 I'm sorry. 426 00:25:27,419 --> 00:25:28,609 - What, that's it? 427 00:25:28,610 --> 00:25:29,853 Everyone else is done? 428 00:25:30,750 --> 00:25:31,750 - Except us. 429 00:25:32,920 --> 00:25:34,919 We don't get to be done! 430 00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:36,289 Ever! 431 00:25:36,290 --> 00:25:38,509 - Look, I'm telling you, he is a runner. 432 00:25:38,510 --> 00:25:40,019 And that security at Merskin's? 433 00:25:40,020 --> 00:25:41,469 What security? 434 00:25:41,470 --> 00:25:43,373 He'll be out in about two seconds. 435 00:25:56,268 --> 00:25:57,768 - The well is dry. 436 00:26:01,740 --> 00:26:02,813 And I'm dry. 437 00:26:09,060 --> 00:26:10,540 How can I give... 438 00:26:12,062 --> 00:26:14,229 what I don't have to give? 439 00:27:43,150 --> 00:27:44,150 Okay. 440 00:27:56,930 --> 00:27:58,113 Long time, Ray. 441 00:28:00,260 --> 00:28:01,260 - Father... 442 00:28:04,260 --> 00:28:05,260 I... 443 00:28:09,347 --> 00:28:12,269 I fell into the gutter again, Father. 444 00:28:12,270 --> 00:28:13,270 And I... 445 00:28:14,750 --> 00:28:16,483 drug Alisha and the kids with me. 446 00:28:18,816 --> 00:28:19,816 I... 447 00:28:21,740 --> 00:28:26,702 I hit Gray when he poured out my booze, 448 00:28:26,703 --> 00:28:28,069 'cause I'm a worthless piece of shit. 449 00:28:28,070 --> 00:28:29,259 - No! 450 00:28:29,260 --> 00:28:31,273 What you did was wrong, Ray. 451 00:28:32,630 --> 00:28:36,479 But you have to remember who you are. 452 00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:39,083 Remember whose you are. 453 00:28:47,660 --> 00:28:48,673 We both do. 454 00:28:51,530 --> 00:28:53,473 - Gray said he'd forgive me, but... 455 00:28:55,298 --> 00:28:56,643 that just makes it worse. 456 00:28:59,510 --> 00:29:01,073 I'm unfixable, Father. 457 00:29:02,240 --> 00:29:03,519 Why do you even... 458 00:29:03,520 --> 00:29:05,079 - No, you're not, Ray. 459 00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:07,649 God hasn't given up on you, and neither have I. 460 00:29:07,650 --> 00:29:09,183 - But I can't do it. 461 00:29:10,620 --> 00:29:12,139 I ain't got it in me. 462 00:29:12,140 --> 00:29:14,473 - Then let Him do it in you. 463 00:29:19,340 --> 00:29:22,201 Tomorrow night, in the parish center. 464 00:29:22,202 --> 00:29:23,202 Go on. 465 00:29:24,490 --> 00:29:26,580 Alisha can attend Al-Anon at the same time. 466 00:29:27,414 --> 00:29:28,247 - Nah, nah. 467 00:29:28,247 --> 00:29:29,247 She ggve up on me. 468 00:29:30,610 --> 00:29:31,860 - What's the number, Ray? 469 00:29:32,890 --> 00:29:33,967 I'll call her. 470 00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:46,993 You do know you're crazy, right? 471 00:29:49,648 --> 00:29:51,179 That... 472 00:29:51,180 --> 00:29:52,923 That is crazy. 473 00:29:57,690 --> 00:29:59,773 But I wouldn't be here if you weren't. 474 00:30:01,090 --> 00:30:02,613 So whatever you're doing... 475 00:30:04,550 --> 00:30:05,550 I'm in. 476 00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:13,139 Ingrid? 477 00:30:13,140 --> 00:30:14,579 I tried to call you five times! 478 00:30:14,580 --> 00:30:15,550 Why didn't you call me... 479 00:30:15,551 --> 00:30:17,479 - I'm not the enemy here, Peter. 480 00:30:17,480 --> 00:30:18,686 Why should I die? 481 00:30:20,640 --> 00:30:21,879 - Who said you were gonna die? 482 00:30:21,880 --> 00:30:24,119 - No one is gonna fix us! 483 00:30:24,120 --> 00:30:26,484 We have got to fix ourselves! 484 00:30:26,485 --> 00:30:28,514 - Now, what are you talking about? 485 00:30:28,515 --> 00:30:29,373 Who's "we"? 486 00:30:29,374 --> 00:30:32,099 - You and me, and the survivor support group 487 00:30:32,100 --> 00:30:35,319 that we are gonna start at Our Lady of Grace. 488 00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,729 Next week, Tuesday, Wednesday, take your pick. 489 00:30:37,730 --> 00:30:38,769 - Ingrid. 490 00:30:38,770 --> 00:30:40,209 I don't think that would be appropriate. 491 00:30:40,210 --> 00:30:42,399 - Peter, please. 492 00:30:42,400 --> 00:30:43,499 We need to do something! 493 00:30:43,500 --> 00:30:46,039 I mean, I need to do something! 494 00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:47,040 Please! 495 00:30:50,000 --> 00:30:52,069 - I prayed my family wouldn't show up. 496 00:30:52,070 --> 00:30:53,599 - Exactly, Arjun. 497 00:30:53,600 --> 00:30:56,729 I mean, your restaurant, it's not just a building. 498 00:30:56,730 --> 00:30:58,969 It's a part of you. 499 00:30:58,970 --> 00:30:59,860 Breaking and entering? 500 00:30:59,861 --> 00:31:01,459 I mean, hell, try rape! 501 00:31:01,460 --> 00:31:02,460 - I agree. 502 00:31:04,620 --> 00:31:07,320 - This is Rose Harken, everyone. 503 00:31:08,330 --> 00:31:09,649 Now, Rose is... 504 00:31:09,650 --> 00:31:10,650 - Family. 505 00:31:11,470 --> 00:31:14,219 Now, honey, I don't mean to put you on the spot, 506 00:31:14,220 --> 00:31:17,449 but he was sentenced as a juvenile. 507 00:31:17,450 --> 00:31:18,809 You're a juvenile. 508 00:31:18,810 --> 00:31:21,739 What do you think should have happened to Michael's killer? 509 00:31:21,740 --> 00:31:22,573 - Perhaps we should focus on... 510 00:31:22,574 --> 00:31:24,439 - I think Michael should still be alive, 511 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:25,719 and he should be dead! 512 00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:26,839 But he's not! 513 00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:29,209 So I think he should be made to regret what he did 514 00:31:29,210 --> 00:31:30,889 for the rest of his life! 515 00:31:30,890 --> 00:31:32,846 That's the only way I'm ever gonna sleep again! 516 00:31:36,270 --> 00:31:37,270 - Sorry, guys. 517 00:31:40,260 --> 00:31:41,429 What the hell, Peter? 518 00:31:41,430 --> 00:31:43,689 You said we were gonna go until 8:30! 519 00:31:43,690 --> 00:31:46,829 - You said survivor support group, Ingrid. 520 00:31:46,830 --> 00:31:47,830 Support group! 521 00:31:47,830 --> 00:31:48,700 - Exactly! 522 00:31:48,701 --> 00:31:49,899 - That's not what this was! 523 00:31:49,900 --> 00:31:50,900 This was... 524 00:31:51,740 --> 00:31:54,256 You don't heal wounds by poking them. 525 00:31:54,257 --> 00:31:56,999 - Oh, so Catholic denial, that's your solution? 526 00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:59,197 - Just Us, justice, is that what you want? 527 00:31:59,198 --> 00:32:00,031 - Yes! 528 00:32:00,032 --> 00:32:03,099 - Justice without mercy is revenge! 529 00:32:03,100 --> 00:32:04,202 God doesn't want that! 530 00:32:04,203 --> 00:32:05,036 - That... 531 00:32:05,036 --> 00:32:05,920 - Well it's what I want! 532 00:32:05,921 --> 00:32:08,439 It's what I want, Peter! 533 00:32:08,440 --> 00:32:11,339 And it's what a hell of a lot of people want, too! 534 00:32:11,340 --> 00:32:12,769 It's what I need! 535 00:32:12,770 --> 00:32:13,939 I need to do something! 536 00:32:13,940 --> 00:32:15,439 I need to take action! 537 00:32:15,440 --> 00:32:17,649 Do you know, last week, I almost... 538 00:32:17,650 --> 00:32:19,817 - Honey, honey, it's okay. 539 00:32:22,850 --> 00:32:25,339 It's not taking action 540 00:32:25,340 --> 00:32:28,313 to rage over something you cannot change. 541 00:32:30,030 --> 00:32:32,983 Michael isn't coming back. 542 00:32:33,960 --> 00:32:37,649 We have to focus on what we can change 543 00:32:37,650 --> 00:32:39,303 and who we can change. 544 00:32:41,160 --> 00:32:43,173 Ingrid, go home. 545 00:32:44,710 --> 00:32:45,710 Pray. 546 00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:00,550 - Look, I'm telling you, he is a runner. 547 00:33:29,573 --> 00:33:31,963 - Lookin' for love that... 548 00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:35,553 Love that... 549 00:33:37,430 --> 00:33:38,350 No! 550 00:33:38,351 --> 00:33:40,809 No freakin' lookin' for love crap, 551 00:33:40,810 --> 00:33:42,167 you brain-dead piece of... 552 00:33:44,672 --> 00:33:45,968 - What is he doing? 553 00:33:45,969 --> 00:33:48,299 - That's the new guy, isn't it? 554 00:33:56,864 --> 00:33:58,592 - He's not bad. 555 00:33:58,593 --> 00:33:59,426 - He's pretty good. 556 00:33:59,427 --> 00:34:00,676 - That's right. 557 00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:13,780 - Man, don't touch me! 558 00:34:14,840 --> 00:34:17,759 It was just a kiddie piece of crap starter guitar! 559 00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,179 I put it out of its misery, man! 560 00:34:19,180 --> 00:34:20,429 Man, I had a guitar! 561 00:34:20,430 --> 00:34:21,350 - The one in your car? 562 00:34:21,351 --> 00:34:23,739 The one that you trashed? 563 00:34:23,740 --> 00:34:25,903 You're confined til group session tomorrow! 564 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:51,713 - Actually, I was thinking 565 00:35:51,714 --> 00:35:54,293 maybe we could schedule it for June the 14th? 566 00:35:55,320 --> 00:35:56,153 Okay, yeah. 567 00:35:56,154 --> 00:35:57,159 And is there any other paperwork 568 00:35:57,160 --> 00:35:58,893 I need to bring besides the ID? 569 00:35:59,850 --> 00:36:01,677 Okay, I have to make a copy of the ID? 570 00:36:01,678 --> 00:36:02,936 Okay. 571 00:36:02,937 --> 00:36:04,742 And social security as well? 572 00:37:33,034 --> 00:37:34,034 - Get in! 573 00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:47,600 Would you like to die like that? 574 00:37:49,430 --> 00:37:50,430 - Yes. 575 00:37:53,670 --> 00:37:56,199 - Ingrid nailed him on a VCO! 576 00:37:56,200 --> 00:37:57,849 - Violation of court order. 577 00:37:57,850 --> 00:38:00,125 - He'll be locked up until he's 25. 578 00:38:01,510 --> 00:38:02,573 - Sorry I'm late. 579 00:38:03,680 --> 00:38:04,929 May I? 580 00:38:04,930 --> 00:38:07,759 This is a list of victim's rights groups 581 00:38:07,760 --> 00:38:09,959 and their locations. 582 00:38:09,960 --> 00:38:11,559 You're all familiar with MADD, 583 00:38:11,560 --> 00:38:13,999 Mothers Against Drunk Driving. 584 00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:18,149 Some of you may genuinely benefit from what these groups do. 585 00:38:18,150 --> 00:38:19,140 - Peter, why are you... 586 00:38:19,141 --> 00:38:20,543 - But that's not what we do. 587 00:38:21,700 --> 00:38:24,559 This is the last meeting of Just Us. 588 00:38:24,560 --> 00:38:26,089 Now, as a connection, 589 00:38:26,090 --> 00:38:28,289 I'm inviting you to join our Mercy Teens. 590 00:38:28,290 --> 00:38:32,129 There will be sacraments and counseling and listening. 591 00:38:32,130 --> 00:38:35,179 It's at the juvenile center at 5050 Reynolds Avenue. 592 00:38:35,180 --> 00:38:36,449 - That's where he's at! 593 00:38:36,450 --> 00:38:37,739 - Yes, it is. 594 00:38:37,740 --> 00:38:40,499 All the information is on the list. 595 00:38:40,500 --> 00:38:41,500 Call me. 596 00:38:43,750 --> 00:38:46,421 - Michael was like a son to you! 597 00:38:57,160 --> 00:38:59,610 Why does it feel like you left when Michael left? 598 00:39:05,128 --> 00:39:06,239 Or... 599 00:39:06,240 --> 00:39:07,240 before. 600 00:39:11,230 --> 00:39:12,230 I can't breathe. 601 00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:15,160 I can't... 602 00:39:19,940 --> 00:39:21,279 Please. 603 00:39:21,280 --> 00:39:22,280 Just... 604 00:39:22,988 --> 00:39:24,876 let me see him in my dreams. 605 00:39:24,877 --> 00:39:27,703 Just let me see Michael in my dream. 606 00:39:35,730 --> 00:39:37,319 - The body of Christ. 607 00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:38,320 - Amen. 608 00:39:44,640 --> 00:39:45,610 - The body of Christ. 609 00:39:45,610 --> 00:39:46,610 - Amen. 610 00:39:49,240 --> 00:39:50,579 - Attention. 611 00:39:50,580 --> 00:39:52,929 All juvenile facility visitors 612 00:39:52,930 --> 00:39:55,193 must vacate the premises by 4:30. 613 00:40:02,300 --> 00:40:03,300 - Hello? 614 00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:06,593 Father Peter Wexler, Our Lady of Grace Parish. 615 00:40:07,690 --> 00:40:09,959 The database said that you were Catholic. 616 00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:13,019 Or rather, it actually said ex-Cath, 617 00:40:13,020 --> 00:40:15,239 which seems kind of high-tech to me, 618 00:40:15,240 --> 00:40:16,479 so I thought that I would... 619 00:40:16,480 --> 00:40:18,312 - Ex-Catholic. 620 00:40:18,313 --> 00:40:19,879 I don't believe that crap anymore. 621 00:40:19,880 --> 00:40:22,069 - Put away childish things. 622 00:40:22,070 --> 00:40:23,349 - Exactly. 623 00:40:23,350 --> 00:40:24,350 - Good. 624 00:40:26,270 --> 00:40:27,270 Me too. 625 00:40:28,750 --> 00:40:30,999 Saint Paul said when he was older 626 00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:33,889 that he put away childish things. 627 00:40:33,890 --> 00:40:36,699 He was talking about growing closer to God. 628 00:40:36,700 --> 00:40:40,479 Childish faith just isn't enough anymore, is it? 629 00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:42,629 - Nothing's enough anymore. 630 00:40:42,630 --> 00:40:43,849 - Not when you're carrying around 631 00:40:43,850 --> 00:40:45,463 a 1,000-pound backpack. 632 00:40:47,270 --> 00:40:48,559 - Don't need any more guilt. 633 00:40:48,560 --> 00:40:49,894 - I can see that. 634 00:40:49,895 --> 00:40:51,195 You've got enough already. 635 00:40:52,570 --> 00:40:55,320 Why don't you make confession and unload that backpack? 636 00:40:59,500 --> 00:41:02,193 No God, no guilt, right? 637 00:41:03,320 --> 00:41:04,320 - How could you... 638 00:41:06,270 --> 00:41:07,103 No. 639 00:41:07,103 --> 00:41:07,936 No, whatever. 640 00:41:07,937 --> 00:41:09,140 I told you, I don't believe. 641 00:41:10,020 --> 00:41:12,679 - You know how you can't actually fly 642 00:41:12,680 --> 00:41:14,759 in a picture of an airplane? 643 00:41:14,760 --> 00:41:15,593 - What? 644 00:41:15,594 --> 00:41:19,849 - Real forgiveness is a plane you can fly in. 645 00:41:19,850 --> 00:41:21,419 It's so much better than pretending 646 00:41:21,420 --> 00:41:23,183 that you don't need to be forgiven. 647 00:41:23,184 --> 00:41:24,209 - Ah. 648 00:41:24,210 --> 00:41:25,393 So you forgive me? 649 00:41:26,770 --> 00:41:27,770 - Yes. 650 00:41:28,560 --> 00:41:30,539 - That's what you're supposed to say. 651 00:41:30,540 --> 00:41:31,699 - True. 652 00:41:31,700 --> 00:41:32,800 - You know what I did? 653 00:41:34,490 --> 00:41:35,490 - Yes. 654 00:41:37,550 --> 00:41:39,089 - Wait a minute. 655 00:41:39,090 --> 00:41:41,053 Wait a minute, you were in the courtroom. 656 00:41:42,750 --> 00:41:43,583 You're the... 657 00:41:43,584 --> 00:41:44,689 - Uncle... 658 00:41:44,690 --> 00:41:46,040 of the boy that you killed. 659 00:41:48,970 --> 00:41:50,209 - Jesus! 660 00:41:50,210 --> 00:41:52,049 - Not really, but I'm trying. 661 00:41:52,050 --> 00:41:54,309 - I told you I didn't believe! 662 00:41:54,310 --> 00:41:55,969 You knew what the stupid "ex" meant! 663 00:41:55,970 --> 00:41:56,910 Even if I did believe, 664 00:41:56,911 --> 00:41:59,689 I wouldn't listen to some psycho priest like you! 665 00:41:59,690 --> 00:42:00,979 - All I want... - No! 666 00:42:00,980 --> 00:42:01,813 No. 667 00:42:01,813 --> 00:42:02,650 Get out. 668 00:42:02,651 --> 00:42:04,546 Get outta here! 669 00:42:10,613 --> 00:42:12,599 - In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. 670 00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:13,433 - Bless me, Father. 671 00:42:13,434 --> 00:42:15,720 It's been two months since my last confession. 672 00:42:16,840 --> 00:42:17,840 - Three. 673 00:42:18,860 --> 00:42:20,023 - These are my sins. 674 00:42:23,656 --> 00:42:25,729 - There's gotta be somethin'. 675 00:42:25,730 --> 00:42:27,109 You use the Lord's name in vain. 676 00:42:27,110 --> 00:42:28,024 - I do not! 677 00:42:28,024 --> 00:42:28,857 - Yes, you do. 678 00:42:28,857 --> 00:42:29,690 You say "oh my God". 679 00:42:29,690 --> 00:42:30,523 - That's not... 680 00:42:30,523 --> 00:42:31,356 - Yes, it is. 681 00:42:31,357 --> 00:42:33,170 - God isn't his name, it's his title. 682 00:42:37,895 --> 00:42:38,728 I've never... 683 00:42:38,729 --> 00:42:40,633 felt anything like this before, Peter. 684 00:42:41,811 --> 00:42:42,811 I mean... 685 00:42:43,700 --> 00:42:45,413 even Evan's death... 686 00:42:47,630 --> 00:42:49,999 that was... 687 00:42:50,000 --> 00:42:51,000 clean. 688 00:42:54,970 --> 00:42:59,239 It's an ache that'll always be there, it'll never go away. 689 00:42:59,240 --> 00:43:00,240 But this... 690 00:43:01,320 --> 00:43:05,109 I would rather be hit by a car myself 691 00:43:05,110 --> 00:43:07,959 every day for the rest of my life. 692 00:43:07,960 --> 00:43:08,793 Why? 693 00:43:08,793 --> 00:43:09,626 Why? 694 00:43:09,627 --> 00:43:11,033 Why would God let that happen? 695 00:43:12,900 --> 00:43:16,049 What is the purpose of an 18-year-old boy 696 00:43:16,050 --> 00:43:21,050 who has his whole life ahead of him be crushed? 697 00:43:21,790 --> 00:43:24,319 So what possible purpose could that serve? 698 00:43:24,320 --> 00:43:26,909 - Our families in Syria being beheaded 699 00:43:26,910 --> 00:43:29,883 or our girls in east India buses being raped? 700 00:43:31,300 --> 00:43:33,749 I don't know why God allows what He allows 701 00:43:33,750 --> 00:43:35,173 or does what He does. 702 00:43:37,140 --> 00:43:39,863 I just know that He tells me what He wants me to do. 703 00:43:40,960 --> 00:43:42,003 And I trust Him. 704 00:43:43,000 --> 00:43:45,466 - Well that's pretty frickin' one-sided, isn't it? 705 00:43:45,467 --> 00:43:46,749 And you're okay with that? 706 00:43:46,750 --> 00:43:48,159 - He doesn't ask my permission. 707 00:43:48,160 --> 00:43:50,009 - Well I am not okay with that, Peter. 708 00:43:50,010 --> 00:43:51,639 I am not okay with that. 709 00:43:51,640 --> 00:43:53,899 - Are you here to confess your sins or God's? 710 00:43:53,900 --> 00:43:57,884 - I'm here because... 711 00:43:57,885 --> 00:43:58,885 because... 712 00:44:00,330 --> 00:44:01,423 I'm drowning. 713 00:44:03,770 --> 00:44:04,939 And... 714 00:44:04,940 --> 00:44:07,789 Okay, yeah, maybe I don't know. 715 00:44:07,790 --> 00:44:11,999 Maybe somewhere in here are my sins. 716 00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:15,123 But God is not coming to rescue me. 717 00:44:17,113 --> 00:44:19,273 I don't even want Him to rescue me. 718 00:44:20,960 --> 00:44:22,029 I want... 719 00:44:22,030 --> 00:44:23,499 him. 720 00:44:23,500 --> 00:44:28,163 Peter, I don't know how to get to him. 721 00:44:29,290 --> 00:44:30,959 I hate him for what he's done, 722 00:44:30,960 --> 00:44:32,760 but nothing makes sense without him. 723 00:44:35,470 --> 00:44:36,739 - And you're here because... 724 00:44:36,740 --> 00:44:38,229 - Because... 725 00:44:38,230 --> 00:44:41,219 you said the other night... 726 00:44:41,220 --> 00:44:42,220 You said that... 727 00:44:45,360 --> 00:44:48,829 my rage won't bring Michael back. 728 00:44:48,830 --> 00:44:49,929 And you're right. 729 00:44:49,930 --> 00:44:50,930 Of course. 730 00:44:51,752 --> 00:44:53,477 Of course you are, but... 731 00:44:55,480 --> 00:44:56,613 my rage... 732 00:44:58,100 --> 00:44:59,573 that was all I had. 733 00:45:01,688 --> 00:45:03,593 And now I don't even have that. 734 00:45:05,080 --> 00:45:06,119 - Well if... 735 00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:08,143 - You also said that... 736 00:45:08,144 --> 00:45:11,199 That you and I, we should start to focus on 737 00:45:11,200 --> 00:45:14,369 what we can change and who we can change. 738 00:45:14,370 --> 00:45:15,370 What did you mean? 739 00:45:17,346 --> 00:45:18,763 - You heard that? 740 00:45:20,530 --> 00:45:21,530 Well... 741 00:45:22,840 --> 00:45:25,909 I know that I said that God doesn't tell me 742 00:45:25,910 --> 00:45:28,259 why He does what He does. 743 00:45:28,260 --> 00:45:30,483 Sometimes I get a glimmer. 744 00:45:32,230 --> 00:45:33,599 Are you sure you wanna hear this? 745 00:45:33,600 --> 00:45:34,470 - No. 746 00:45:34,470 --> 00:45:35,470 But go on. 747 00:45:45,370 --> 00:45:48,423 - Michael was never yours. 748 00:45:50,587 --> 00:45:54,399 I think God is reminding you... 749 00:45:54,400 --> 00:45:57,059 us, all of us... 750 00:45:57,060 --> 00:46:01,483 that God is teaching us to love what He loves, 751 00:46:02,350 --> 00:46:07,023 who He loves, even if that means loving outsiders. 752 00:46:08,780 --> 00:46:11,463 And, yeah, forgiving them, 753 00:46:13,300 --> 00:46:14,959 the awful ones, 754 00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:17,699 that ones that we would never let in if it was up to you. 755 00:46:17,700 --> 00:46:19,346 - Oh my God! 756 00:46:19,347 --> 00:46:21,249 You're talking about him? 757 00:46:21,250 --> 00:46:24,749 That kid who killed Michael? 758 00:46:24,750 --> 00:46:25,939 How could you? 759 00:46:25,940 --> 00:46:27,669 How could He... 760 00:46:27,670 --> 00:46:28,719 No. 761 00:46:28,720 --> 00:46:29,969 No! 762 00:46:29,970 --> 00:46:34,109 No, I was willing to try to move forward if I could 763 00:46:34,110 --> 00:46:36,989 or put it behind me, but that, 764 00:46:36,990 --> 00:46:39,349 that is going backwards! 765 00:46:39,350 --> 00:46:42,945 He is the gun that killed Michael. 766 00:47:15,357 --> 00:47:16,357 Hello? 767 00:47:18,124 --> 00:47:23,049 Peter! 768 00:47:23,050 --> 00:47:24,050 Peter? 769 00:47:26,355 --> 00:47:27,355 Peter? 770 00:47:54,340 --> 00:47:55,649 So, God killed your son. 771 00:47:55,650 --> 00:47:56,823 How'd you get past it? 772 00:48:01,590 --> 00:48:03,543 I used to want to be exactly like you. 773 00:48:04,670 --> 00:48:05,938 Of course, you know that, 774 00:48:05,939 --> 00:48:08,179 'cause you are the original mama bear. 775 00:48:08,180 --> 00:48:11,833 Actually, at first, I wanted to be a nun really bad. 776 00:48:15,540 --> 00:48:17,493 I wanted to be you. 777 00:48:19,220 --> 00:48:21,033 But then, you know, boys. 778 00:48:21,920 --> 00:48:22,850 Evan. 779 00:48:22,850 --> 00:48:23,850 And then a kid. 780 00:48:25,470 --> 00:48:28,903 So now I've got what you've got: dead son. 781 00:48:32,302 --> 00:48:33,839 I mean... 782 00:48:33,840 --> 00:48:36,509 He forgave everyone because He's God. 783 00:48:36,510 --> 00:48:39,229 But you... 784 00:48:39,230 --> 00:48:41,293 didn't have to forgive. 785 00:48:42,506 --> 00:48:43,339 And you did. 786 00:48:43,340 --> 00:48:45,799 I mean, duh, of course, I know you did, but... 787 00:48:45,800 --> 00:48:46,800 But how? 788 00:48:48,250 --> 00:48:49,649 And Peter! 789 00:48:49,650 --> 00:48:51,329 Not my Peter, your Peter. 790 00:48:51,330 --> 00:48:54,349 He betrayed your son, they all did. 791 00:48:54,350 --> 00:48:56,649 Didn't you hate them for that? 792 00:48:56,650 --> 00:48:57,703 You must have. 793 00:49:03,813 --> 00:49:05,896 But you stayed with them. 794 00:49:07,188 --> 00:49:08,238 And you forgave them. 795 00:49:09,970 --> 00:49:10,970 How? 796 00:49:12,800 --> 00:49:14,341 How? 797 00:49:42,170 --> 00:49:43,293 One visit. 798 00:49:55,130 --> 00:49:56,439 - Yeah? 799 00:49:56,440 --> 00:49:58,790 - I'm here to see Alec McCortland. 800 00:50:00,150 --> 00:50:01,659 - Your name? 801 00:50:01,660 --> 00:50:02,493 - Oh, I... 802 00:50:02,494 --> 00:50:04,180 I don't think I'm actually on the list. 803 00:50:07,579 --> 00:50:08,412 Ambelin. 804 00:50:08,413 --> 00:50:09,510 Ingrid Ambelin. 805 00:50:10,580 --> 00:50:12,129 - Huh. 806 00:50:12,130 --> 00:50:13,759 Aren't the... 807 00:50:13,760 --> 00:50:14,760 What's her name? 808 00:50:15,500 --> 00:50:18,099 The king with all the wives wife. 809 00:50:18,100 --> 00:50:19,060 - Henry VIII? 810 00:50:19,060 --> 00:50:19,930 - Yeah. 811 00:50:19,930 --> 00:50:20,763 - No. 812 00:50:20,763 --> 00:50:21,596 Oh. 813 00:50:21,597 --> 00:50:23,249 Not Anne Boleyn. 814 00:50:23,250 --> 00:50:24,110 Ambelin. 815 00:50:24,111 --> 00:50:26,983 A-M-B-E-L-I-N. 816 00:50:29,270 --> 00:50:30,150 - Sorry. 817 00:50:30,150 --> 00:50:31,150 I don't see it. 818 00:50:31,851 --> 00:50:33,648 If you're not on the PL, I can't let you through. 819 00:50:33,649 --> 00:50:34,969 - The... 820 00:50:34,970 --> 00:50:36,103 - Permitted list. 821 00:50:39,239 --> 00:50:41,760 Unless of course the PD's already updated it. 822 00:50:42,710 --> 00:50:44,059 - The... 823 00:50:44,060 --> 00:50:45,060 - Public defender. 824 00:50:48,540 --> 00:50:51,913 - Well, do you think you could call the PD about the PL? 825 00:50:54,650 --> 00:50:55,650 Sorry. 826 00:50:58,060 --> 00:50:59,060 I'm family. 827 00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:09,293 - Yeah, Mr. Gitmeier, please. 828 00:51:10,150 --> 00:51:13,489 Yeah, this is Sergeant Early over at 50/50. 829 00:51:13,490 --> 00:51:14,490 Thank you. 830 00:51:15,400 --> 00:51:16,390 Mr. Gitmeier. 831 00:51:16,391 --> 00:51:18,129 Yeah, this is Early over at Juvenile. 832 00:51:18,130 --> 00:51:21,123 Got somebody that wants to visit with Alec McCortland. 833 00:51:22,740 --> 00:51:24,023 No, she'd be the first. 834 00:51:25,380 --> 00:51:27,199 Yeah, Anne Boleyn. 835 00:51:27,200 --> 00:51:28,713 Ingrid Anne Boleyn. 836 00:51:31,020 --> 00:51:32,020 Really? 837 00:51:33,210 --> 00:51:34,829 From the victim's family? 838 00:51:34,830 --> 00:51:36,767 'Cause we don't have her... 839 00:51:38,379 --> 00:51:39,409 Are you sure? 840 00:51:39,410 --> 00:51:40,810 Because I don't think that... 841 00:51:42,446 --> 00:51:43,717 All right. 842 00:51:43,718 --> 00:51:44,718 Thank you. 843 00:51:58,227 --> 00:52:00,433 Didn't say you were from that family. 844 00:52:01,930 --> 00:52:04,399 But Mr. Gitmeier's approved it, so I guess it's all right. 845 00:52:04,400 --> 00:52:05,473 I gotta tell you... 846 00:52:06,750 --> 00:52:08,779 we don't do this. 847 00:52:08,780 --> 00:52:09,630 Ever. 848 00:52:09,631 --> 00:52:11,929 So, I'm gonna need you to promise me 849 00:52:11,930 --> 00:52:14,699 that, when you get in there, you're not gonna... 850 00:52:14,700 --> 00:52:15,700 - Lose my head? 851 00:52:18,300 --> 00:52:19,300 I promise. 852 00:52:39,040 --> 00:52:40,040 It's coffee. 853 00:52:41,340 --> 00:52:42,173 From the lobby. 854 00:52:42,174 --> 00:52:43,193 I had to beg. 855 00:52:44,620 --> 00:52:46,939 They fished around there with a pencil, 856 00:52:46,940 --> 00:52:48,940 make sure there wasn't anything in them. 857 00:52:50,090 --> 00:52:51,759 I mean, it's what I do. 858 00:52:51,760 --> 00:52:52,925 Coffee. 859 00:52:56,620 --> 00:52:57,829 God. 860 00:52:57,830 --> 00:52:59,743 Only I use actually coffee beans. 861 00:53:04,630 --> 00:53:05,818 You know, it's the least you could do 862 00:53:05,819 --> 00:53:07,379 to make eye... - I didn't do it on purpose! 863 00:53:07,380 --> 00:53:08,539 - What? 864 00:53:08,540 --> 00:53:10,799 Oh my God, this isn't a time out! 865 00:53:10,800 --> 00:53:12,279 What was I thinking? 866 00:53:12,280 --> 00:53:13,879 - I don't even know what he looked like. 867 00:53:13,880 --> 00:53:14,713 - What? 868 00:53:14,713 --> 00:53:15,546 - Your son. 869 00:53:15,546 --> 00:53:16,546 - He's... 870 00:53:17,330 --> 00:53:18,719 He was... 871 00:53:18,720 --> 00:53:22,209 taller than you, like his dad. 872 00:53:22,210 --> 00:53:23,299 - Is he... 873 00:53:23,300 --> 00:53:24,133 - Dead too? 874 00:53:24,134 --> 00:53:25,839 Yes, 51, brain hemorrhage. 875 00:53:25,840 --> 00:53:27,590 Why the hell am I telling you this? 876 00:53:29,160 --> 00:53:30,789 - I'm sorry. 877 00:53:30,790 --> 00:53:31,790 About your husband. 878 00:53:36,060 --> 00:53:37,749 Yeah, that coffee seriously sucks. 879 00:53:37,750 --> 00:53:39,099 - You're sorry? 880 00:53:39,100 --> 00:53:40,429 About my husband? 881 00:53:40,430 --> 00:53:42,039 You're sorry about my husband 882 00:53:42,040 --> 00:53:43,489 when you can't even say that you're sorry... 883 00:53:43,490 --> 00:53:45,119 - It just doesn't feel like I did it! 884 00:53:45,120 --> 00:53:46,239 I don't remember anything. 885 00:53:46,240 --> 00:53:47,449 It's totally surreal to me. 886 00:53:47,450 --> 00:53:48,869 It's just like a bad dream. - Oh it's real! 887 00:53:48,870 --> 00:53:50,159 It is real! 888 00:53:50,160 --> 00:53:53,509 I wake up every morning to how real it is! 889 00:53:53,510 --> 00:53:57,199 And just because you don't feel like it's real 890 00:53:57,200 --> 00:54:00,649 doesn't change reality one shred, one shred! 891 00:54:00,650 --> 00:54:01,893 - There was alcohol! 892 00:54:02,910 --> 00:54:03,830 And other stuff. 893 00:54:03,831 --> 00:54:05,169 And my car was messed up, 894 00:54:05,170 --> 00:54:07,589 but I couldn't afford to... - I'm supposed to hate them 895 00:54:07,590 --> 00:54:10,619 for crushing the life out of Michael? 896 00:54:10,620 --> 00:54:13,559 I'm supposed to blame the alcohol 897 00:54:13,560 --> 00:54:15,659 and your messed up car and the other stuff 898 00:54:15,660 --> 00:54:18,553 for killing my son, for murdering him? 899 00:54:20,360 --> 00:54:21,193 God! 900 00:54:21,194 --> 00:54:26,193 If you can't say you're sorry, at least admit it! 901 00:54:26,411 --> 00:54:27,411 Admit it! 902 00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:32,863 Hell was I thinking? 903 00:54:37,035 --> 00:54:38,849 You know, the record said you're smart, 904 00:54:38,850 --> 00:54:40,550 but you talk like a five-year-old. 905 00:54:41,690 --> 00:54:42,690 - You read about me? 906 00:54:47,640 --> 00:54:52,199 My foster parents were quite erudite, actually, 907 00:54:52,200 --> 00:54:55,159 whetting my young mind with their succinct reasoning 908 00:54:55,160 --> 00:54:57,209 and engaging me in spirited discussions 909 00:54:57,210 --> 00:54:58,110 about the way... 910 00:54:58,111 --> 00:54:59,419 - You... 911 00:54:59,420 --> 00:55:02,996 do not have the right to be sarcastic with me! 912 00:55:02,997 --> 00:55:05,043 You don't have the right to be anything to me! 913 00:55:08,555 --> 00:55:10,222 What was I thinking? 914 00:55:28,180 --> 00:55:29,180 - I did it. 915 00:55:39,460 --> 00:55:40,460 - Michael! 916 00:55:43,700 --> 00:55:44,853 That's obscene! 917 00:55:47,740 --> 00:55:48,740 Thanks, Ben. 918 00:55:48,740 --> 00:55:49,740 Goodnight. 919 00:55:52,560 --> 00:55:53,969 - Spill. 920 00:55:53,970 --> 00:55:55,509 - Spill what? 921 00:55:55,510 --> 00:55:56,889 - Ingrid? 922 00:55:56,890 --> 00:55:57,969 It's me. 923 00:55:57,970 --> 00:55:58,970 - Oh really? 924 00:56:08,640 --> 00:56:10,099 I went to see him. 925 00:56:10,100 --> 00:56:11,101 - Who? 926 00:56:11,102 --> 00:56:12,349 - McCortland! 927 00:56:12,350 --> 00:56:14,990 That kid who killed Michael. 928 00:56:14,991 --> 00:56:16,569 - Damn! 929 00:56:16,570 --> 00:56:17,570 Why? 930 00:56:20,380 --> 00:56:22,093 - Closure, maybe. 931 00:56:23,570 --> 00:56:24,570 Something. 932 00:56:25,563 --> 00:56:27,039 - You get it? 933 00:56:27,040 --> 00:56:28,040 - Not yet. 934 00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:29,920 Maybe never. 935 00:56:31,250 --> 00:56:32,343 It was torture. 936 00:56:33,250 --> 00:56:35,239 - You don't seem any worse. 937 00:56:35,240 --> 00:56:36,290 - Or better. 938 00:56:37,880 --> 00:56:38,830 - You still hate him? 939 00:56:38,831 --> 00:56:39,863 - Yes. 940 00:56:40,890 --> 00:56:43,049 Maybe not so much. 941 00:56:43,050 --> 00:56:44,500 Oh stop it with the eyebrows. 942 00:56:46,360 --> 00:56:47,200 - You gonna go back? 943 00:56:47,200 --> 00:56:48,200 - No! 944 00:56:51,378 --> 00:56:53,399 - When I was a little girl, 945 00:56:53,400 --> 00:56:55,409 I remember hearing this story about how, 946 00:56:55,410 --> 00:56:57,719 when an oyster got a grain of sand in them, 947 00:56:57,720 --> 00:57:00,209 it hurts so much it makes them wanna cry. 948 00:57:00,210 --> 00:57:01,043 - Wow. 949 00:57:01,044 --> 00:57:02,059 That's really comforting. 950 00:57:02,060 --> 00:57:03,060 - Not done yet. 951 00:57:04,320 --> 00:57:05,509 - Sorry. 952 00:57:05,510 --> 00:57:06,609 Check. 953 00:57:06,610 --> 00:57:07,443 Sand. 954 00:57:07,443 --> 00:57:08,350 Continue. 955 00:57:08,351 --> 00:57:10,659 - So then after a while, the piece of sand 956 00:57:10,660 --> 00:57:12,819 gets all coated with their tears, 957 00:57:12,820 --> 00:57:14,929 until finally it doesn't hurt them anymore. 958 00:57:14,930 --> 00:57:19,399 Plus, the sand is now a beautiful... 959 00:57:19,400 --> 00:57:21,119 - Pearl. 960 00:57:21,120 --> 00:57:22,239 Nadine! 961 00:57:22,240 --> 00:57:24,949 That is the corniest story! 962 00:57:24,950 --> 00:57:26,409 But... 963 00:57:26,410 --> 00:57:28,869 it's also kind of beautiful. 964 00:57:28,870 --> 00:57:30,133 - Oh, you mushy old lady. 965 00:57:32,290 --> 00:57:33,123 - Hey! 966 00:57:33,123 --> 00:57:33,956 - Sorry. 967 00:57:33,957 --> 00:57:35,169 - School go late? 968 00:57:35,170 --> 00:57:36,170 - Honors club. 969 00:57:37,380 --> 00:57:38,933 - Rose, honey, are you okay? 970 00:57:39,810 --> 00:57:40,643 - Yeah. 971 00:57:40,643 --> 00:57:41,643 I'm fine, Mama. 972 00:57:43,060 --> 00:57:45,923 I just feel him when I'm here, you know? 973 00:57:59,440 --> 00:58:00,440 - Sand. 974 00:58:16,300 --> 00:58:17,303 No Alec. 975 00:58:20,399 --> 00:58:21,809 Ooh. 976 00:58:21,810 --> 00:58:23,860 The apple doesn't fall far from the tree. 977 00:58:29,463 --> 00:58:30,796 Holy 40 to life! 978 00:58:34,067 --> 00:58:35,650 What didn't you do? 979 00:58:49,810 --> 00:58:50,810 Stop it! 980 00:58:52,363 --> 00:58:54,099 - Why are you here? 981 00:58:54,100 --> 00:58:55,237 - I forgive you. 982 00:58:55,238 --> 00:58:56,071 - What? 983 00:58:56,071 --> 00:58:56,904 No! 984 00:58:56,904 --> 00:58:57,737 - Look, I get it. 985 00:58:57,738 --> 00:58:59,759 Your father was a crazy, violent animal. 986 00:58:59,760 --> 00:59:00,829 He killed your mother. 987 00:59:00,830 --> 00:59:02,139 You were 12. 988 00:59:02,140 --> 00:59:05,599 So you started taking drugs and drinking 989 00:59:05,600 --> 00:59:09,009 and doing God knows what to get it outta your head, right? 990 00:59:09,010 --> 00:59:10,509 Burning through foster families. 991 00:59:10,510 --> 00:59:11,659 So I get it. 992 00:59:11,660 --> 00:59:12,520 You're forgiven. 993 00:59:12,521 --> 00:59:13,746 I forgive you, end of story. 994 00:59:13,747 --> 00:59:14,580 - No! - What? 995 00:59:14,580 --> 00:59:15,413 I thought that's what you wanted? 996 00:59:15,413 --> 00:59:16,246 - No! 997 00:59:16,247 --> 00:59:17,407 - Well then what do you want? 998 00:59:19,860 --> 00:59:21,160 I'll tell you what I want. 999 00:59:24,190 --> 00:59:25,399 I want to... 1000 00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:27,119 breathe again. 1001 00:59:27,120 --> 00:59:28,289 I want to... 1002 00:59:28,290 --> 00:59:31,926 not wake up every morning and say, "Shit! 1003 00:59:31,927 --> 00:59:33,207 "I'm still alive." 1004 00:59:35,380 --> 00:59:36,380 So I forgive you. 1005 00:59:37,790 --> 00:59:38,690 You are forgiven. 1006 00:59:38,690 --> 00:59:39,680 I just wanna be done. 1007 00:59:39,681 --> 00:59:40,789 I wanna be done with this. 1008 00:59:40,790 --> 00:59:41,959 I wanna be done with you. 1009 00:59:41,960 --> 00:59:44,209 I wanna be done with everything. 1010 00:59:44,210 --> 00:59:46,619 - I always tell people he's from Ireland, 1011 00:59:46,620 --> 00:59:48,229 'cause it sounds cooler. 1012 00:59:48,230 --> 00:59:50,929 But he's really from Boston. 1013 00:59:50,930 --> 00:59:52,009 And he doesn't get pissed 1014 00:59:52,010 --> 00:59:54,429 because of some noble protest-y crap. 1015 00:59:54,430 --> 00:59:56,859 He gets pissed when people don't do what he wants. 1016 00:59:56,860 --> 00:59:58,209 - Pissed off or pissed drunk? 1017 00:59:58,210 --> 00:59:59,160 - Both. 1018 00:59:59,161 --> 01:00:00,489 He wants what he wants. 1019 01:00:00,490 --> 01:00:01,323 That's it. 1020 01:00:01,323 --> 01:00:02,309 His whole deal. 1021 01:00:02,310 --> 01:00:03,949 He wants what he wants. 1022 01:00:03,950 --> 01:00:05,376 You never knew when he'd be there. 1023 01:00:05,377 --> 01:00:07,479 But when he was, he brought 1024 01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:10,759 all kinds of video games and iPhones. 1025 01:00:10,760 --> 01:00:12,339 He said it was for us. 1026 01:00:12,340 --> 01:00:14,411 My mom didn't buy it, 'cause she didn't drink. 1027 01:00:14,412 --> 01:00:15,959 - Wait, your mom didn't drink? 1028 01:00:15,960 --> 01:00:18,107 - Well, maybe when I was little 1029 01:00:18,108 --> 01:00:19,349 and Dez was around all the time. 1030 01:00:19,350 --> 01:00:21,393 But by the time Neecie arrived... 1031 01:00:23,060 --> 01:00:24,289 She's not what you think. 1032 01:00:24,290 --> 01:00:26,299 She worked her ass off! 1033 01:00:26,300 --> 01:00:29,719 She volunteered all the time at the St. Tobias food pantry. 1034 01:00:29,720 --> 01:00:32,229 Man, if she isn't in heaven, there isn't one. 1035 01:00:32,230 --> 01:00:33,180 - Catholic. 1036 01:00:33,181 --> 01:00:35,629 - Was there more than one? 1037 01:00:35,630 --> 01:00:36,793 - No, I meant that... 1038 01:00:37,950 --> 01:00:40,599 - She hated the way Dez lied. 1039 01:00:40,600 --> 01:00:43,089 He'd stack all this stuff up in the corner 1040 01:00:43,090 --> 01:00:44,209 and say it was for us, 1041 01:00:44,210 --> 01:00:45,839 but then these douche bags would come over, 1042 01:00:45,840 --> 01:00:48,460 get high, and leave with everything. 1043 01:00:48,461 --> 01:00:50,961 And Dez would be like, "Well, you didn't want it." 1044 01:00:52,170 --> 01:00:54,169 But when he was high... 1045 01:00:54,170 --> 01:00:57,459 Oh, when he was high, he was awesome! 1046 01:00:57,460 --> 01:01:01,709 He was like this skinny R-rated Santa Clause. 1047 01:01:01,710 --> 01:01:03,409 - Did she love him? 1048 01:01:03,410 --> 01:01:04,410 - Maybe once. 1049 01:01:05,380 --> 01:01:07,849 But Neecie's dad is who she really loved. 1050 01:01:07,850 --> 01:01:09,459 - So your sister has a different dad? 1051 01:01:09,460 --> 01:01:10,739 - Yeah. 1052 01:01:10,740 --> 01:01:13,599 Only mom couldn't marry him because of God. 1053 01:01:13,600 --> 01:01:14,503 - But she had a child with him. 1054 01:01:14,504 --> 01:01:16,873 - Is that a problem for Catholic heaven? 1055 01:01:19,450 --> 01:01:21,474 I started using before she died. 1056 01:01:21,475 --> 01:01:22,308 - What? 1057 01:01:22,309 --> 01:01:24,019 - He'd been gone for like a year, 1058 01:01:24,020 --> 01:01:25,829 and all a sudden he's back, 1059 01:01:25,830 --> 01:01:28,749 and he's got game boxes and TVs, 1060 01:01:28,750 --> 01:01:31,519 and a guitar, my first guitar! 1061 01:01:31,520 --> 01:01:34,239 An actual legit Taylor. 1062 01:01:34,240 --> 01:01:39,069 I just wanted him to stay and be R-rated Santa all the time. 1063 01:01:39,070 --> 01:01:40,573 So I asked him for a hit. 1064 01:01:41,600 --> 01:01:43,133 And he rolled one just for me. 1065 01:01:44,250 --> 01:01:45,687 At first, nothin'. 1066 01:01:46,530 --> 01:01:49,369 But then, all of a sudden, it's like bam! 1067 01:01:51,828 --> 01:01:54,783 And we're like eating everything in sight and laughing. 1068 01:01:55,620 --> 01:01:58,129 Oh, and he pours me a shot of leprechaun juice. 1069 01:01:58,130 --> 01:01:59,269 God, I thought it was... 1070 01:01:59,270 --> 01:02:01,119 I thought it was real magic. 1071 01:02:01,120 --> 01:02:04,539 'Cause for the first time, I just didn't feel scared. 1072 01:02:04,540 --> 01:02:06,239 I felt like a normal person, you know? 1073 01:02:06,240 --> 01:02:07,889 I felt like everyone else feels. 1074 01:02:07,890 --> 01:02:09,109 - Nobody... 1075 01:02:09,110 --> 01:02:10,100 feels normal. 1076 01:02:10,101 --> 01:02:12,373 Everyone just thinks everybody else does. 1077 01:02:13,850 --> 01:02:14,893 - So it was me? 1078 01:02:16,570 --> 01:02:17,490 I did it. 1079 01:02:17,491 --> 01:02:19,349 Just like I did your son. 1080 01:02:19,350 --> 01:02:23,239 I ain't goin' to Catholic heaven or any other one, so... 1081 01:02:23,240 --> 01:02:24,789 So don't forgive me. 1082 01:02:24,790 --> 01:02:25,839 Don't you forgive me! 1083 01:02:25,840 --> 01:02:26,979 - What happened? 1084 01:02:26,980 --> 01:02:28,490 - You don't wanna know. 1085 01:02:28,491 --> 01:02:29,514 - No! 1086 01:02:29,515 --> 01:02:30,515 I don't! 1087 01:02:33,999 --> 01:02:34,953 But I... 1088 01:02:34,954 --> 01:02:35,963 I think I need to. 1089 01:02:36,928 --> 01:02:37,917 - I liked it, you know? 1090 01:02:37,918 --> 01:02:39,159 I just liked it. 1091 01:02:39,160 --> 01:02:40,889 I liked... 1092 01:02:40,890 --> 01:02:42,779 drinkin' booze and holdin' a joint. 1093 01:02:42,780 --> 01:02:45,579 I don't know, it just made me feel kinda grown up, in a way. 1094 01:02:45,580 --> 01:02:46,869 - Oh God, it's ironic. 1095 01:02:46,870 --> 01:02:47,703 - What? 1096 01:02:47,703 --> 01:02:48,536 - Nothing! 1097 01:02:48,536 --> 01:02:49,369 - Yeah, I know what ironic mean! 1098 01:02:49,370 --> 01:02:50,743 - I know you do! 1099 01:02:53,590 --> 01:02:54,590 - Anyway... 1100 01:02:57,590 --> 01:02:59,853 Me and Dez, Dez and I... 1101 01:03:00,810 --> 01:03:01,790 get high. 1102 01:03:01,791 --> 01:03:04,619 Sometimes he'd give me guitar lessons. 1103 01:03:04,620 --> 01:03:06,717 Only Neecie... 1104 01:03:06,718 --> 01:03:08,033 God, he hated her. 1105 01:03:09,400 --> 01:03:10,999 'Cause of Marcus, Marcus Rowland. 1106 01:03:11,000 --> 01:03:12,000 That was her dad. 1107 01:03:13,180 --> 01:03:14,873 Dez would call Neecie a wigger. 1108 01:03:16,250 --> 01:03:19,073 But Mom and Marcus would call her their golden child. 1109 01:03:20,410 --> 01:03:21,863 I always wanted to be golden. 1110 01:03:25,510 --> 01:03:27,207 - What happened to Neecie? 1111 01:03:28,230 --> 01:03:29,383 - They split us up. 1112 01:03:30,660 --> 01:03:31,823 The foster people. 1113 01:03:34,048 --> 01:03:36,629 We didn't have the same dad, and our mom was dead. 1114 01:03:36,630 --> 01:03:37,669 - Did you ever see her? 1115 01:03:37,670 --> 01:03:38,969 - Once. 1116 01:03:38,970 --> 01:03:41,253 After they first took us away. 1117 01:03:43,140 --> 01:03:45,789 And I got to talk to her on the phone two years ago. 1118 01:03:45,790 --> 01:03:49,189 Marcus was trying to get custody, but I was in re-bad, 1119 01:03:49,190 --> 01:03:51,959 so I didn't get to talk to her very long. 1120 01:03:51,960 --> 01:03:52,960 - What happened? 1121 01:03:54,360 --> 01:03:55,360 - I told you. 1122 01:03:56,090 --> 01:03:57,090 I killed her. 1123 01:03:57,960 --> 01:04:00,559 I was afraid she was gonna make him leave! 1124 01:04:00,560 --> 01:04:03,513 And then I was afraid she was gonna kill him. 1125 01:04:03,514 --> 01:04:04,639 I just, I didn't care. 1126 01:04:04,640 --> 01:04:06,119 I didn't care about either of them. 1127 01:04:06,120 --> 01:04:07,624 I just... 1128 01:04:07,625 --> 01:04:08,639 I just cared about me! 1129 01:04:08,640 --> 01:04:10,129 I mean, I wanted... 1130 01:04:10,130 --> 01:04:10,963 - What? 1131 01:04:10,964 --> 01:04:12,089 What? 1132 01:04:12,090 --> 01:04:13,569 - I wanted what I wanted. 1133 01:04:13,570 --> 01:04:16,583 Just like him, I want what I want, that's it. 1134 01:04:17,750 --> 01:04:19,803 And when she picked up that knife... 1135 01:04:20,980 --> 01:04:21,989 I was pissed, you know? 1136 01:04:21,990 --> 01:04:23,763 She was ruining everything! 1137 01:04:24,840 --> 01:04:26,999 And then all a sudden Neecie came in. 1138 01:04:27,000 --> 01:04:27,930 - And then what happened? 1139 01:04:27,930 --> 01:04:28,840 - I took it from her! 1140 01:04:28,841 --> 01:04:30,329 I took the knife from her and I gave it to him! 1141 01:04:30,330 --> 01:04:31,989 - You couldn't have known... 1142 01:04:31,990 --> 01:04:33,889 - No, I knew, and I gave it to him anyway! 1143 01:04:33,890 --> 01:04:35,749 - Well then what happened next? 1144 01:04:35,750 --> 01:04:37,139 - I locked Neecie in her room. 1145 01:04:37,140 --> 01:04:38,118 - And then what? 1146 01:04:38,118 --> 01:04:38,951 - What do you want me to say? 1147 01:04:38,951 --> 01:04:39,784 I tried to stop him? 1148 01:04:39,784 --> 01:04:40,784 I did it, I did it! 1149 01:04:43,286 --> 01:04:44,659 I smashed up the guitar instead. 1150 01:04:44,660 --> 01:04:48,437 I smashed up the Taylor, 'cause I was pissed. 1151 01:04:57,010 --> 01:04:58,090 I killed her, I killed her. 1152 01:04:59,210 --> 01:05:00,210 - No. 1153 01:05:01,620 --> 01:05:03,386 You didn't. 1154 01:05:03,387 --> 01:05:04,287 He did. 1155 01:05:04,288 --> 01:05:06,004 - I let him! 1156 01:05:10,110 --> 01:05:12,034 - You were 12 years old, Alec. 1157 01:05:22,130 --> 01:05:23,233 So do you sleep? 1158 01:05:32,290 --> 01:05:33,339 - Niacin. 1159 01:05:33,340 --> 01:05:34,250 - Huh? 1160 01:05:34,251 --> 01:05:35,713 - He needs niacin. 1161 01:05:37,880 --> 01:05:39,029 - You a doctor? 1162 01:05:39,030 --> 01:05:40,439 - No. 1163 01:05:40,440 --> 01:05:41,440 - Then nope. 1164 01:05:43,200 --> 01:05:44,200 Why? 1165 01:05:44,920 --> 01:05:45,890 - Anxiety. 1166 01:05:45,891 --> 01:05:47,089 I take them too. 1167 01:05:47,090 --> 01:05:49,309 It's just a vitamin. 1168 01:05:49,310 --> 01:05:51,839 - And you care because... 1169 01:05:51,840 --> 01:05:55,413 - Is there a doctor you could call to approve this? 1170 01:05:56,510 --> 01:05:57,683 - Dr. Hasigawa. 1171 01:06:04,400 --> 01:06:07,369 'Cause he chopped off her head, right? 1172 01:06:07,370 --> 01:06:08,889 - What? 1173 01:06:08,890 --> 01:06:09,890 - Anne Boleyn. 1174 01:06:10,861 --> 01:06:13,411 You said you weren't gonna lose your head in there. 1175 01:06:19,230 --> 01:06:20,669 - I mean, even our names. 1176 01:06:20,670 --> 01:06:22,489 Peter, rock. 1177 01:06:22,490 --> 01:06:25,359 Then I come along, and it's Ingrid, 1178 01:06:25,360 --> 01:06:26,941 beautiful fertility goddess. 1179 01:06:27,776 --> 01:06:29,979 What the heck, Mom? 1180 01:06:29,980 --> 01:06:30,813 - Now, what a minute. 1181 01:06:30,813 --> 01:06:31,646 Wait, wait, wait. 1182 01:06:31,647 --> 01:06:34,019 There was a St. Ingrid, wasn't there? 1183 01:06:34,020 --> 01:06:37,029 - Some dicey, discredited pseudo saint, maybe. 1184 01:06:37,030 --> 01:06:40,169 But compare to you, Saint-frickin'-Peter? 1185 01:06:40,170 --> 01:06:41,429 - Please, Ingrid. 1186 01:06:41,430 --> 01:06:44,199 You were still little when I went to seminary. 1187 01:06:44,200 --> 01:06:46,809 You have no idea what I was like beforehand. 1188 01:06:46,810 --> 01:06:48,339 - Ooh, so tell. 1189 01:06:48,340 --> 01:06:49,593 - Never, little sister. 1190 01:06:51,020 --> 01:06:52,020 - Tell me. 1191 01:06:54,010 --> 01:06:55,010 - All right. 1192 01:06:57,520 --> 01:06:59,899 When Judy broke up with me, I went crazy. 1193 01:06:59,900 --> 01:07:01,239 I mean, completely crazy. 1194 01:07:01,240 --> 01:07:02,329 - Yeah, Judy Franken! 1195 01:07:02,330 --> 01:07:03,369 I thought you were gonna marry her. 1196 01:07:03,370 --> 01:07:04,203 - So did I. 1197 01:07:04,204 --> 01:07:05,609 And the things that I smoke, 1198 01:07:05,610 --> 01:07:06,906 and the things that I drank, and then the girls... 1199 01:07:06,907 --> 01:07:07,840 - No, no, no! 1200 01:07:07,841 --> 01:07:08,969 No! 1201 01:07:08,970 --> 01:07:10,959 I don't wanna see that in my head. 1202 01:07:10,960 --> 01:07:12,389 - Neither do I. 1203 01:07:12,390 --> 01:07:14,029 But I do. 1204 01:07:14,030 --> 01:07:17,153 And every time some wreck of a human walks in the door... 1205 01:07:18,897 --> 01:07:20,713 it reminds me that that could be me. 1206 01:07:21,670 --> 01:07:23,893 - So that's why you're mister grace? 1207 01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:27,653 - To whom much is forgiven. 1208 01:07:28,990 --> 01:07:30,689 See, I'm no better than Alec McCortland. 1209 01:07:30,690 --> 01:07:31,530 I'm... 1210 01:07:31,530 --> 01:07:32,530 just luckier. 1211 01:07:35,540 --> 01:07:36,540 - What is that? 1212 01:07:37,730 --> 01:07:39,633 - Longerman's file on Alec McCortland. 1213 01:07:42,190 --> 01:07:44,649 You still think he's the gun that killed Michael? 1214 01:07:44,650 --> 01:07:45,650 - No. 1215 01:07:46,680 --> 01:07:48,533 Wreck of a human, maybe. 1216 01:07:49,445 --> 01:07:50,902 That kid. 1217 01:07:50,903 --> 01:07:53,133 He's drowning in his own guilt. 1218 01:07:54,625 --> 01:07:55,458 - I know. 1219 01:07:55,459 --> 01:07:59,069 And he won't let anyone take it away from him, and so... 1220 01:07:59,070 --> 01:08:01,329 I'm praying that you can. 1221 01:08:01,330 --> 01:08:02,163 - Save him? 1222 01:08:02,163 --> 01:08:03,110 Oh, no. 1223 01:08:03,111 --> 01:08:06,609 No, I am not in the business of saving Alec McCortland. 1224 01:08:06,610 --> 01:08:07,929 That's your job. 1225 01:08:07,930 --> 01:08:11,449 I'm just working on trying to not hate him. 1226 01:08:11,450 --> 01:08:13,653 - But what if you're the only one who can? 1227 01:08:15,530 --> 01:08:16,363 - Rose! 1228 01:08:16,363 --> 01:08:17,363 Honey! 1229 01:08:20,224 --> 01:08:25,185 ♪ I remember when my life was over ♪ 1230 01:08:25,186 --> 01:08:29,744 ♪ And I remember when it all began again ♪ 1231 01:08:29,745 --> 01:08:33,225 ♪ The old man still a smolder ♪ 1232 01:08:33,226 --> 01:08:38,226 ♪ The new man just a kindling wind ♪ 1233 01:08:40,057 --> 01:08:43,706 ♪ Oh I remember love every day ♪ 1234 01:08:43,707 --> 01:08:47,169 ♪ When happiness and hope on display ♪ 1235 01:08:47,170 --> 01:08:51,117 ♪ And I remember wanting to play ♪ 1236 01:08:51,118 --> 01:08:53,126 ♪ Where the world was so ♪ 1237 01:08:53,127 --> 01:08:56,423 ♪ So far away ♪ 1238 01:08:56,424 --> 01:08:58,821 ♪ Hey ♪ 1239 01:08:58,822 --> 01:09:01,031 ♪ But there's a paradox to living ♪ 1240 01:09:01,032 --> 01:09:04,504 ♪ And the way to get is just by giving ♪ 1241 01:09:04,505 --> 01:09:08,491 ♪ And the way to live is just by dying ♪ 1242 01:09:08,492 --> 01:09:12,338 ♪ And the way to find love is to stop trying ♪ 1243 01:09:12,339 --> 01:09:15,006 ♪ And just love ♪ 1244 01:09:22,360 --> 01:09:23,360 Weapon-free. 1245 01:09:28,860 --> 01:09:29,860 Ew. - Ew. 1246 01:09:33,150 --> 01:09:35,689 I can't believe you came back. 1247 01:09:35,690 --> 01:09:36,690 - I didn't plan to. 1248 01:09:41,150 --> 01:09:41,983 Did you... 1249 01:09:41,984 --> 01:09:43,669 Did you get nia... - Niacin! 1250 01:09:43,670 --> 01:09:44,503 Yes! 1251 01:09:44,504 --> 01:09:46,359 Yeah, it made me itchy. 1252 01:09:46,360 --> 01:09:47,230 - Oh. 1253 01:09:47,231 --> 01:09:48,299 Niacin flush. 1254 01:09:48,300 --> 01:09:49,476 It does that. 1255 01:09:49,477 --> 01:09:51,019 - Yeah, I read about it. 1256 01:09:51,020 --> 01:09:52,399 - Researching? 1257 01:09:52,400 --> 01:09:54,356 To make sure that I wasn't poisoning you? 1258 01:09:55,920 --> 01:09:56,920 - I fell asleep. 1259 01:09:58,780 --> 01:10:00,503 For the first time since the... 1260 01:10:03,230 --> 01:10:04,230 - Well, good. 1261 01:10:06,560 --> 01:10:10,729 I take it, too, for ADD and probably OCD. 1262 01:10:10,730 --> 01:10:13,118 My teacher's called it poor citizenship. 1263 01:10:13,953 --> 01:10:15,899 Even now, when I see "citizenship" on a form, 1264 01:10:15,900 --> 01:10:18,038 I feel like I should write "needs improvement". 1265 01:10:19,940 --> 01:10:20,940 - Yes! 1266 01:10:22,090 --> 01:10:24,609 Oh, I can never, I can never stop the... 1267 01:10:24,610 --> 01:10:25,443 - The what? 1268 01:10:25,444 --> 01:10:26,959 The racing thoughts, the distractions? 1269 01:10:26,960 --> 01:10:27,793 - Oh, crap yeah! 1270 01:10:27,794 --> 01:10:30,599 I mean, sometimes I just feel trapped with... 1271 01:10:30,600 --> 01:10:32,393 - With what, with your thoughts? 1272 01:10:33,880 --> 01:10:34,880 - Are you my friend? 1273 01:10:35,740 --> 01:10:36,829 - Don't push it. 1274 01:10:36,830 --> 01:10:37,953 I'm... 1275 01:10:39,520 --> 01:10:40,490 just here. 1276 01:10:40,491 --> 01:10:42,309 - So I've gotta be religious? 1277 01:10:42,310 --> 01:10:43,923 - You do whatever you want. 1278 01:10:44,840 --> 01:10:46,179 - Before I quit school, 1279 01:10:46,180 --> 01:10:48,749 I used to argue with the religious geeks. 1280 01:10:48,750 --> 01:10:52,979 If God is all-powerful, can he build a football field 1281 01:10:52,980 --> 01:10:56,029 so big even He can't kick a field goal? 1282 01:10:56,030 --> 01:10:57,379 Just to mess with them. 1283 01:10:57,380 --> 01:11:02,380 I used to say, "Man makes God in his image." 1284 01:11:02,908 --> 01:11:04,169 Oh, I thought I was so deep. 1285 01:11:04,170 --> 01:11:05,699 I thought I made that up. 1286 01:11:05,700 --> 01:11:06,533 - You didn't. 1287 01:11:06,534 --> 01:11:07,803 - Yeah, I know. 1288 01:11:09,120 --> 01:11:12,284 I really thought I didn't believe in God anymore. 1289 01:11:12,285 --> 01:11:13,335 It'd be a lot easier. 1290 01:11:14,540 --> 01:11:15,540 - What? 1291 01:11:17,490 --> 01:11:18,490 - Are you my friend? 1292 01:11:24,860 --> 01:11:26,073 I feel trapped with me. 1293 01:11:29,550 --> 01:11:31,029 - You said that... 1294 01:11:31,030 --> 01:11:32,199 you didn't believe? 1295 01:11:32,200 --> 01:11:34,289 But then... 1296 01:11:34,290 --> 01:11:35,623 - Then you came back. 1297 01:11:37,392 --> 01:11:39,892 And there's just no way you'd be here without God. 1298 01:12:15,130 --> 01:12:15,963 - We... 1299 01:12:15,964 --> 01:12:17,599 received communion. 1300 01:12:17,600 --> 01:12:19,379 - I didn't realize you were one of 1301 01:12:19,380 --> 01:12:21,703 Father what's-his-name's little group. 1302 01:12:23,400 --> 01:12:24,639 - I'm not. 1303 01:12:24,640 --> 01:12:28,763 But my brother is Father Wexler, so... 1304 01:12:30,000 --> 01:12:31,969 - Well, I'm glad you're here. 1305 01:12:31,970 --> 01:12:32,803 - There's... 1306 01:12:32,804 --> 01:12:34,779 There's someone else I want you to meet. 1307 01:12:34,780 --> 01:12:35,780 Rose. 1308 01:12:40,580 --> 01:12:42,019 This is Rose. 1309 01:12:42,020 --> 01:12:42,853 She's my... 1310 01:12:42,853 --> 01:12:43,853 - Employee. 1311 01:12:45,080 --> 01:12:47,593 - I was going to say she's like a daughter to me. 1312 01:12:50,980 --> 01:12:52,919 Rose sings. 1313 01:12:52,920 --> 01:12:53,920 - A little. 1314 01:12:54,690 --> 01:12:56,749 - And she is ridiculously smart. 1315 01:12:56,750 --> 01:12:59,583 You know, she's gonna go to UC, pre-law. 1316 01:13:00,490 --> 01:13:01,490 - Cool. 1317 01:13:03,670 --> 01:13:06,119 - Alec wants to major in music. 1318 01:13:06,120 --> 01:13:07,120 Someday. 1319 01:13:09,557 --> 01:13:11,033 - So, why law? 1320 01:13:12,090 --> 01:13:15,319 - A friend of mine was killed, and... 1321 01:13:15,320 --> 01:13:17,329 - And Rose wants to help people. 1322 01:13:17,330 --> 01:13:18,503 - Mama, I can't. 1323 01:13:19,620 --> 01:13:23,109 - She also tutors third graders at Merksen Elementary, 1324 01:13:23,110 --> 01:13:24,189 and all the kids really... 1325 01:13:24,190 --> 01:13:26,389 - He was my boyfriend, actually. 1326 01:13:26,390 --> 01:13:27,223 - Rose, don't! 1327 01:13:27,224 --> 01:13:29,269 - Do you know who I'm talking about? 1328 01:13:29,270 --> 01:13:30,103 - No, no. 1329 01:13:30,104 --> 01:13:31,591 No, I don't. 1330 01:13:34,130 --> 01:13:34,963 Do you mean... 1331 01:13:34,964 --> 01:13:36,039 - Yes! 1332 01:13:36,040 --> 01:13:36,873 Funny. 1333 01:13:36,874 --> 01:13:39,089 He promised me he wouldn't go anywhere, 1334 01:13:39,090 --> 01:13:40,129 that he wouldn't leave me, 1335 01:13:40,130 --> 01:13:42,308 right before I saw him for the last time! 1336 01:13:42,309 --> 01:13:43,142 - What is this? 1337 01:13:43,143 --> 01:13:44,699 - I felt the same way about you, Alec, 1338 01:13:44,700 --> 01:13:46,159 until I met you, and so I thought 1339 01:13:46,160 --> 01:13:48,059 if Rose met you... - But you fixed things, 1340 01:13:48,060 --> 01:13:48,893 didn't you? 1341 01:13:48,894 --> 01:13:50,829 You made sure I'd never see him again! 1342 01:13:50,830 --> 01:13:51,663 - Rose! 1343 01:13:51,664 --> 01:13:54,329 - And now, you're taking her away from me? 1344 01:13:54,330 --> 01:13:55,859 You're like some black hole 1345 01:13:55,860 --> 01:13:57,859 that sucks everything down into it! 1346 01:13:57,860 --> 01:13:58,889 Why law? 1347 01:13:58,890 --> 01:14:01,459 So I can send people like you where they belong! 1348 01:14:01,460 --> 01:14:02,390 - No! 1349 01:14:02,390 --> 01:14:03,223 - What? 1350 01:14:03,224 --> 01:14:04,919 You're gonna hurt me, too? 1351 01:14:04,920 --> 01:14:07,399 Well, guess what, you already have! 1352 01:14:07,400 --> 01:14:08,400 - Rose! 1353 01:14:11,960 --> 01:14:12,793 Rose? 1354 01:14:12,794 --> 01:14:14,529 I'm sorry! 1355 01:14:14,530 --> 01:14:15,800 I thought... 1356 01:14:15,801 --> 01:14:16,634 Honey, listen. 1357 01:14:16,635 --> 01:14:18,362 Just wait a second. 1358 01:14:20,823 --> 01:14:22,309 - It's okay, officer. 1359 01:14:22,310 --> 01:14:23,260 He knows me. 1360 01:14:23,261 --> 01:14:24,516 Can I talk to him? 1361 01:14:24,517 --> 01:14:25,350 Would that be okay? 1362 01:14:25,350 --> 01:14:26,350 - Five minutes! 1363 01:14:31,120 --> 01:14:32,090 - You break that bad enough, 1364 01:14:32,091 --> 01:14:33,940 you won't be able to play the guitar. 1365 01:14:35,980 --> 01:14:38,389 Penance, of course! 1366 01:14:38,390 --> 01:14:40,039 - What? 1367 01:14:40,040 --> 01:14:40,940 - You give up. 1368 01:14:40,941 --> 01:14:42,799 The only thing that you have, and maybe God was... 1369 01:14:42,800 --> 01:14:44,633 - No, I was just pissed! 1370 01:14:47,450 --> 01:14:50,449 - Real penance isn't a knife to cut. 1371 01:14:50,450 --> 01:14:51,973 It's medicine to heal. 1372 01:14:55,080 --> 01:14:56,459 - Whatever. 1373 01:14:56,460 --> 01:14:57,949 Doesn't matter. 1374 01:14:57,950 --> 01:14:59,333 I'm walkin' dead anyway. 1375 01:15:05,460 --> 01:15:06,460 - Me too. 1376 01:15:07,440 --> 01:15:08,440 - What? 1377 01:15:09,520 --> 01:15:11,049 - Walking dead. 1378 01:15:11,050 --> 01:15:12,143 Zombies. 1379 01:15:13,010 --> 01:15:14,769 We all are. 1380 01:15:14,770 --> 01:15:16,453 - Psycho priest. 1381 01:15:17,900 --> 01:15:20,059 - Did you ever see I Am Legend? 1382 01:15:20,060 --> 01:15:21,309 - What, the movie? 1383 01:15:21,310 --> 01:15:22,310 - With Will Smith. 1384 01:15:23,380 --> 01:15:24,213 - I don't know. 1385 01:15:24,214 --> 01:15:25,839 Maybe. 1386 01:15:25,840 --> 01:15:27,549 - The book was better. 1387 01:15:27,550 --> 01:15:29,523 But it's a great theology text. 1388 01:15:30,920 --> 01:15:34,959 See, there's this man, the Will Smith character. 1389 01:15:34,960 --> 01:15:37,799 And he hunts zombies, right? 1390 01:15:37,800 --> 01:15:41,120 In the end, they capture him, and he finds out 1391 01:15:42,345 --> 01:15:44,319 that some of them are still alive. 1392 01:15:44,320 --> 01:15:47,079 Some of the ones that he's been killing. 1393 01:15:47,080 --> 01:15:49,429 - Living walking dead? 1394 01:15:49,430 --> 01:15:50,829 - The book is great! 1395 01:15:50,830 --> 01:15:51,899 Seriously. 1396 01:15:51,900 --> 01:15:54,759 It turns out they have these pills, 1397 01:15:54,760 --> 01:15:58,279 this medicine, that keeps them alive. 1398 01:15:58,280 --> 01:16:00,263 So, even thought they're zombies, 1399 01:16:01,270 --> 01:16:05,019 they don't eat people like the dead dead ones do. 1400 01:16:05,020 --> 01:16:06,209 They watch out for each other, 1401 01:16:06,210 --> 01:16:07,760 and they keep each other alive. 1402 01:16:08,790 --> 01:16:10,199 - You're a total geek. 1403 01:16:10,200 --> 01:16:12,779 - The geeks shall inherit the earth. 1404 01:16:12,780 --> 01:16:13,899 - Isn't that the meek? 1405 01:16:13,900 --> 01:16:14,919 - Ha! 1406 01:16:14,920 --> 01:16:16,753 You do know your bible! 1407 01:16:18,720 --> 01:16:20,309 See... 1408 01:16:20,310 --> 01:16:21,513 we have the pill. 1409 01:16:23,020 --> 01:16:24,020 - What? 1410 01:16:25,130 --> 01:16:26,939 - Jesus... 1411 01:16:26,940 --> 01:16:28,619 is our pill. 1412 01:16:28,620 --> 01:16:29,853 He keeps us alive. 1413 01:16:31,640 --> 01:16:35,970 We breathe out the disease that makes us walking dead 1414 01:16:37,140 --> 01:16:42,140 when we confess our sins and take in his life and his blood. 1415 01:16:44,340 --> 01:16:48,993 The ability to be alive, even though we were dead. 1416 01:17:18,070 --> 01:17:19,679 - Look, I'm so sorry. 1417 01:17:19,680 --> 01:17:21,309 No, I'm sorry. 1418 01:17:21,310 --> 01:17:22,180 - I brought someone. 1419 01:17:22,181 --> 01:17:24,700 - No, no, no, no, no, no, please! 1420 01:19:04,333 --> 01:19:06,199 - It's okay, Mom. 1421 01:19:06,200 --> 01:19:07,050 - Michael, I... 1422 01:19:07,051 --> 01:19:08,599 - I know. 1423 01:19:08,600 --> 01:19:09,600 I love you. 1424 01:19:15,803 --> 01:19:17,183 - I love you too, Michael. 1425 01:19:24,410 --> 01:19:27,089 - Michael was like, maybe, 13. 1426 01:19:27,090 --> 01:19:30,169 And after mass one Sunday, he goes up, 1427 01:19:30,170 --> 01:19:31,556 in the middle of everyone, and says, 1428 01:19:31,557 --> 01:19:34,207 "Papa Peter, how do I get girls?" 1429 01:19:37,036 --> 01:19:39,209 He had this mischievous innocence. 1430 01:19:39,210 --> 01:19:40,769 - Oh, I wish I'd known him. 1431 01:19:40,770 --> 01:19:42,320 - Oh, you would have loved him. 1432 01:19:43,970 --> 01:19:47,816 So anyway, Peter looks at my son and says, 1433 01:19:47,817 --> 01:19:49,869 "There are three things that girls like." 1434 01:19:49,870 --> 01:19:52,349 And then, he notices that, right there, 1435 01:19:52,350 --> 01:19:53,989 there's this group of little old ladies, 1436 01:19:53,990 --> 01:19:56,459 and they are standing there with their mouths hanging open. 1437 01:19:56,460 --> 01:19:58,336 And he looks at 'em, and he goes, "What? 1438 01:19:58,337 --> 01:19:59,985 "I wasn't born a priest." 1439 01:20:01,954 --> 01:20:03,189 Crazy! 1440 01:20:03,190 --> 01:20:04,479 - He's kinda demented, you know? 1441 01:20:04,480 --> 01:20:05,380 - Yes. 1442 01:20:05,381 --> 01:20:08,339 - Massively into Star Trek and zombies? 1443 01:20:08,340 --> 01:20:09,173 - Oh! 1444 01:20:09,174 --> 01:20:11,089 And don't even get him started on The Beatles. 1445 01:20:11,090 --> 01:20:13,939 Saint John, Saint Paul, Saint George, Saint Ringo! 1446 01:20:13,940 --> 01:20:14,773 - Seriously? 1447 01:20:14,773 --> 01:20:15,606 - Oh yeah. 1448 01:20:15,607 --> 01:20:17,839 - Well, they only reinvented music. 1449 01:20:17,840 --> 01:20:20,919 Backtracking, phase shifting, multi-tracking, 1450 01:20:20,920 --> 01:20:23,649 and their chord progressions are totally sick! 1451 01:20:23,650 --> 01:20:27,329 - You know, one Sunday he did an entire homily 1452 01:20:27,330 --> 01:20:29,206 on the lyrics of "Blackbird". 1453 01:20:29,207 --> 01:20:32,176 "Take these sunken eyes and learn to see." 1454 01:20:32,177 --> 01:20:33,386 - "All your life. 1455 01:20:33,387 --> 01:20:34,426 "You were only waiting..." 1456 01:20:34,427 --> 01:20:36,759 - "For this moment to be free." 1457 01:20:36,760 --> 01:20:37,760 Whew. 1458 01:20:39,600 --> 01:20:41,563 - So, I finished that song. 1459 01:20:43,982 --> 01:20:44,943 - Wh... 1460 01:20:44,944 --> 01:20:46,229 The one that you couldn't... 1461 01:20:46,230 --> 01:20:47,230 - Yeah. 1462 01:20:48,060 --> 01:20:49,193 - Well... - I just... 1463 01:20:50,150 --> 01:20:53,279 Finally figure out that it wasn't about a girl. 1464 01:20:53,280 --> 01:20:54,513 - Well sing it to me. 1465 01:21:02,388 --> 01:21:05,160 ♪ Been looking for love ♪ 1466 01:21:05,161 --> 01:21:08,300 ♪ That can never be broken ♪ 1467 01:21:08,301 --> 01:21:10,892 ♪ Impossible love ♪ 1468 01:21:10,893 --> 01:21:13,593 ♪ That couldn't exist ♪ 1469 01:21:13,594 --> 01:21:16,357 ♪ A love that can hear me ♪ 1470 01:21:16,358 --> 01:21:19,704 ♪ When words are not spoken ♪ 1471 01:21:19,705 --> 01:21:23,717 ♪ But even my unfaithful heart ♪ 1472 01:21:23,718 --> 01:21:27,418 ♪ Can't resist ♪ 1473 01:21:27,419 --> 01:21:30,266 ♪ Maybe I'll never know ♪ 1474 01:21:30,267 --> 01:21:33,676 ♪ If I can find you ♪ 1475 01:21:33,677 --> 01:21:38,514 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1476 01:21:38,515 --> 01:21:40,983 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1477 01:21:40,984 --> 01:21:45,143 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ 1478 01:21:45,144 --> 01:21:50,144 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1479 01:21:50,373 --> 01:21:55,042 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1480 01:21:55,043 --> 01:22:00,043 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1481 01:22:00,743 --> 01:22:05,743 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1482 01:22:06,115 --> 01:22:11,115 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1483 01:22:11,736 --> 01:22:14,912 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1484 01:22:14,913 --> 01:22:19,913 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1485 01:22:20,972 --> 01:22:24,461 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1486 01:22:24,462 --> 01:22:27,962 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1487 01:22:32,831 --> 01:22:34,933 - Not just your song, Alec. 1488 01:22:36,810 --> 01:22:37,859 - I'm... 1489 01:22:37,860 --> 01:22:40,069 pretty freaked out about going back to court. 1490 01:22:40,070 --> 01:22:41,070 - I know. 1491 01:22:42,550 --> 01:22:44,059 - Would... 1492 01:22:44,060 --> 01:22:45,809 Could you pray for me? 1493 01:22:45,810 --> 01:22:46,643 - Sure! 1494 01:22:46,644 --> 01:22:48,442 We'll pray together. - No! 1495 01:22:48,443 --> 01:22:49,443 Just you. 1496 01:22:55,980 --> 01:22:57,639 - Lord... 1497 01:22:57,640 --> 01:22:59,823 bless this young man tomorrow. 1498 01:23:00,870 --> 01:23:01,703 Be with him... 1499 01:23:01,704 --> 01:23:03,059 - We have heard well-prepared presentation 1500 01:23:03,060 --> 01:23:05,429 by councils Longerman and Gitmeier, 1501 01:23:05,430 --> 01:23:08,359 and I see no reason not to rule at this time. 1502 01:23:08,360 --> 01:23:10,619 Alec McCortland, this court has shown 1503 01:23:10,620 --> 01:23:13,889 tremendous leniency on your behalf. 1504 01:23:13,890 --> 01:23:15,939 It is the very real intent 1505 01:23:15,940 --> 01:23:18,029 of the Hamilton County Juvenile System 1506 01:23:18,030 --> 01:23:21,953 to rehabilitate young people, not throw them away. 1507 01:23:22,860 --> 01:23:25,169 But when every effort fails, 1508 01:23:25,170 --> 01:23:27,159 your almost immediate violation 1509 01:23:27,160 --> 01:23:29,139 of court order, Mr. McCortland, 1510 01:23:29,140 --> 01:23:32,219 coupled with the clear warning I gave you previously, 1511 01:23:32,220 --> 01:23:35,753 speak loudly of your need for harsher discipline. 1512 01:23:37,040 --> 01:23:40,959 Yes, defense has made a dramatic case. 1513 01:23:40,960 --> 01:23:44,049 It is extraordinary that Mrs. Ambelin would visit 1514 01:23:44,050 --> 01:23:47,773 or even be allowed to visit Mr. McCortland in lockup. 1515 01:23:48,640 --> 01:23:50,899 However, such circumstances say more 1516 01:23:50,900 --> 01:23:54,509 about Mrs. Ambelin's character than yours. 1517 01:23:54,510 --> 01:23:57,159 You have shown no willingness to change. 1518 01:23:57,160 --> 01:23:59,459 Hence, I am inclined to sentence you 1519 01:23:59,460 --> 01:24:02,119 to extended incarceration at DYS 1520 01:24:02,120 --> 01:24:05,309 until the age of 25, at which time... 1521 01:24:05,310 --> 01:24:06,923 - He has changed, Your Honor. 1522 01:24:11,290 --> 01:24:13,979 - Mrs. Ambelin, this hearing is concluding. 1523 01:24:13,980 --> 01:24:16,129 There are procedures for testifying. 1524 01:24:16,130 --> 01:24:18,399 Mr. McCortland's defense did not submit any... 1525 01:24:18,400 --> 01:24:20,319 - He doesn't know anything about this. 1526 01:24:20,320 --> 01:24:22,809 I'm sorry, Your Honor, it's just... 1527 01:24:22,810 --> 01:24:25,819 Would it change the outcome if Alec... 1528 01:24:25,820 --> 01:24:28,503 If Mr. McCortland had a legal guardian? 1529 01:24:31,640 --> 01:24:32,999 - It might. 1530 01:24:33,000 --> 01:24:35,729 But Mrs. Ambeline, CPS has documented the fact 1531 01:24:35,730 --> 01:24:38,999 that Mr. McCortland does not have a legal guardian. 1532 01:24:39,000 --> 01:24:42,170 - I have applied for legal guardianship of Alec McCortland. 1533 01:25:30,610 --> 01:25:31,695 - We do it this time, 1534 01:25:31,696 --> 01:25:32,529 my way! - Let's do it. 1535 01:25:32,529 --> 01:25:33,362 - All right? 1536 01:25:33,363 --> 01:25:34,389 Let's go! - Let's go? 1537 01:25:34,390 --> 01:25:35,250 - We're done! 1538 01:25:35,251 --> 01:25:37,463 Let's go. - All right, let's go. 1539 01:25:38,940 --> 01:25:40,029 - I'm very sorry, but I don't... 1540 01:25:40,030 --> 01:25:40,863 - You're sorry? 1541 01:25:40,864 --> 01:25:41,903 How do you lose a child? 1542 01:25:41,904 --> 01:25:42,760 - I didn't lose a child. 1543 01:25:42,760 --> 01:25:43,593 - He's not even 18! 1544 01:25:43,593 --> 01:25:44,470 - Can I help you? 1545 01:25:44,471 --> 01:25:45,479 - Yes. 1546 01:25:45,480 --> 01:25:46,470 My... 1547 01:25:46,471 --> 01:25:49,099 Alec McCortland was supposed to be brought here 1548 01:25:49,100 --> 01:25:51,169 half an hour ago by Detective Carny. 1549 01:25:51,170 --> 01:25:52,441 - We're aware of that Mrs... 1550 01:25:52,442 --> 01:25:53,496 - Ambelin! 1551 01:25:53,497 --> 01:25:54,330 It's Mrs. Ambelin! 1552 01:25:54,330 --> 01:25:55,163 - Carny's car was here... 1553 01:25:55,164 --> 01:25:57,099 - Did you call Detective Carny? 1554 01:25:57,100 --> 01:25:58,719 - Yes, but he never answered. 1555 01:25:58,720 --> 01:26:01,459 When the car ex-officers are on duty, they usually... 1556 01:26:01,460 --> 01:26:04,049 - We really should wait until we hear from Carny. 1557 01:26:04,050 --> 01:26:04,883 - What? 1558 01:26:04,884 --> 01:26:07,189 Wait til he gets off of work a couple hours from now? 1559 01:26:07,190 --> 01:26:09,509 Alec could be dead by then. 1560 01:26:09,510 --> 01:26:10,370 - What if you find him? 1561 01:26:10,371 --> 01:26:12,389 I mean, what are you gonna do? 1562 01:26:12,390 --> 01:26:13,859 - I don't know, Peter. 1563 01:26:13,860 --> 01:26:16,160 But I just can't sit here and not do anything. 1564 01:26:17,888 --> 01:26:18,888 - Ingrid! 1565 01:26:28,560 --> 01:26:29,560 - What up H? 1566 01:26:45,220 --> 01:26:46,849 So... 1567 01:26:46,850 --> 01:26:47,850 Listen, dude. 1568 01:26:48,700 --> 01:26:50,569 I got some contacts in the burbs. 1569 01:26:50,570 --> 01:26:51,470 - What are you sayin'? 1570 01:26:51,471 --> 01:26:54,220 - You know rich white kids, just itchin' for this shit. 1571 01:26:59,860 --> 01:27:01,310 - Where did he get the money? 1572 01:27:02,237 --> 01:27:03,853 And why is he still there? 1573 01:27:05,630 --> 01:27:06,669 - We can't handle this ourselves. 1574 01:27:06,670 --> 01:27:07,670 I'm callin' Carny. 1575 01:27:11,407 --> 01:27:12,484 - You Daymond? 1576 01:27:12,485 --> 01:27:13,318 - What's up? 1577 01:27:13,319 --> 01:27:15,910 - Daymond, I got a way for us to make some money. 1578 01:27:15,911 --> 01:27:18,241 - Ingrid, no! 1579 01:27:18,242 --> 01:27:19,625 - Alec! 1580 01:27:19,626 --> 01:27:20,939 - Who the hell's this? 1581 01:27:20,940 --> 01:27:21,940 Who is she? 1582 01:27:22,992 --> 01:27:24,152 - No, no, no, no, no, no, no! 1583 01:27:34,755 --> 01:27:37,831 - Stay with me. - No, no, no, no, no, no, no. 1584 01:27:37,832 --> 01:27:39,210 You're okay. 1585 01:27:39,211 --> 01:27:40,639 You're okay, you're okay, you're okay. 1586 01:27:40,640 --> 01:27:41,849 - Police, stop! 1587 01:27:41,850 --> 01:27:45,349 - Through this holy oil and His great mercy, 1588 01:27:45,350 --> 01:27:46,968 may God forgive you for any sins 1589 01:27:46,969 --> 01:27:49,723 that you may have committed. 1590 01:27:49,724 --> 01:27:53,057 - You're okay, you're okay, you're okay. 1591 01:28:12,311 --> 01:28:13,728 - It was a sting. 1592 01:28:16,745 --> 01:28:18,196 - What? 1593 01:28:18,197 --> 01:28:20,153 - You think I just happened to show up? 1594 01:28:21,130 --> 01:28:22,379 Look, it was his idea. 1595 01:28:22,380 --> 01:28:24,679 He said he would do it with or without us. 1596 01:28:24,680 --> 01:28:25,903 So I said... 1597 01:28:27,830 --> 01:28:29,672 Look, it wasn't supposed to go down like that. 1598 01:28:29,673 --> 01:28:30,949 - He's 17! 1599 01:28:30,950 --> 01:28:33,042 - We've been trying to nail this guy for months! 1600 01:28:33,043 --> 01:28:33,920 - I don't care what you've been trying! 1601 01:28:33,921 --> 01:28:35,679 You don't put a kid at risk! 1602 01:28:35,680 --> 01:28:36,660 And my sister! 1603 01:28:36,660 --> 01:28:37,660 - I heard. 1604 01:28:40,571 --> 01:28:41,571 - Go. 1605 01:28:45,470 --> 01:28:47,593 - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 1606 01:28:48,630 --> 01:28:50,579 - Look, I know I screwed up. 1607 01:28:50,580 --> 01:28:52,049 And Judge Graham knows it, too. 1608 01:28:52,050 --> 01:28:52,883 Trust me. 1609 01:28:52,884 --> 01:28:54,613 She set me straight on procedure. 1610 01:28:55,780 --> 01:28:58,759 But the shooter and the kingpin are down for the count. 1611 01:28:58,760 --> 01:29:00,469 Look, the guy's phone list is golden. 1612 01:29:00,470 --> 01:29:02,223 All kinds of NTs are on there. 1613 01:29:03,920 --> 01:29:05,169 Anyway... 1614 01:29:05,170 --> 01:29:07,459 the kid's be readmitted to Merskin. 1615 01:29:07,460 --> 01:29:08,649 You're authorized to pick him up 1616 01:29:08,650 --> 01:29:10,219 and bring him back at any time. 1617 01:29:10,220 --> 01:29:11,370 The hours are on there. 1618 01:29:14,000 --> 01:29:15,000 - Thanks. 1619 01:29:19,360 --> 01:29:20,600 - I'm sorry, Father. 1620 01:29:46,360 --> 01:29:47,560 - For when you're ready. 1621 01:30:05,094 --> 01:30:08,320 ♪ Life is just a game we play ♪ 1622 01:30:08,321 --> 01:30:12,938 ♪ To pass away the years ♪ 1623 01:30:12,939 --> 01:30:16,114 ♪ Yeah that's what I used to say ♪ 1624 01:30:16,115 --> 01:30:20,109 ♪ But it never stopped one tear ♪ 1625 01:30:20,110 --> 01:30:24,270 ♪ And a tear is just a drop you see ♪ 1626 01:30:24,271 --> 01:30:28,064 ♪ In an ocean of regrets ♪ 1627 01:30:28,065 --> 01:30:32,414 ♪ And a sea of grief could never free ♪ 1628 01:30:32,415 --> 01:30:36,211 ♪ A heart so far in debt ♪ 1629 01:30:36,212 --> 01:30:41,212 ♪ In debt ♪ 1630 01:30:44,194 --> 01:30:48,102 ♪ Even though I know I'm not enough ♪ 1631 01:30:48,103 --> 01:30:52,035 ♪ I keep trying anyway ♪ 1632 01:30:52,036 --> 01:30:56,096 ♪ I keep thinking when I'm up to snuff ♪ 1633 01:30:56,097 --> 01:31:00,403 ♪ I could blow this fog away ♪ 1634 01:31:00,404 --> 01:31:04,365 ♪ But if I had a million years ♪ 1635 01:31:04,366 --> 01:31:08,140 ♪ And all my Sundays too ♪ 1636 01:31:08,141 --> 01:31:12,073 ♪ I could never set the balance straight ♪ 1637 01:31:12,074 --> 01:31:15,372 ♪ For the things I didn't do ♪ 1638 01:31:15,373 --> 01:31:20,373 ♪ Didn't do ♪ 1639 01:31:25,005 --> 01:31:29,156 ♪ Some day I'll know ♪ 1640 01:31:29,157 --> 01:31:31,557 ♪ And I'll never forget ♪ 1641 01:31:31,558 --> 01:31:33,133 ♪ No no no ♪ 1642 01:31:33,134 --> 01:31:36,381 ♪ What I do in the end's what matters ♪ 1643 01:31:36,382 --> 01:31:40,965 ♪ So I won't fall in love with regrets ♪ 1644 01:31:47,410 --> 01:31:49,490 ♪ No regrets ♪ 1645 01:31:49,491 --> 01:31:53,089 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1646 01:31:53,090 --> 01:31:57,075 ♪ Da da da da ♪ 1647 01:31:57,076 --> 01:32:01,062 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1648 01:32:01,063 --> 01:32:03,497 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1649 01:32:03,498 --> 01:32:05,261 ♪ No regrets ♪ 1650 01:32:05,262 --> 01:32:08,998 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1651 01:32:08,999 --> 01:32:13,061 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1652 01:32:13,062 --> 01:32:16,836 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1653 01:32:16,837 --> 01:32:21,074 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1654 01:32:21,075 --> 01:32:25,142 ♪ Da da da da da ♪ 1655 01:32:25,143 --> 01:32:27,393 ♪ Da da da ♪ 1656 01:32:29,100 --> 01:32:32,219 You can see the difference even while she's sleeping. 1657 01:32:32,220 --> 01:32:34,419 Now, had we argued, she would've woke up 1658 01:32:34,420 --> 01:32:35,970 and told us we were both wrong. 1659 01:32:37,750 --> 01:32:38,839 I'll pick you up first tomorrow, 1660 01:32:38,840 --> 01:32:40,949 and you can help me bring her home. 1661 01:32:40,950 --> 01:32:41,783 - I should go. 1662 01:32:41,783 --> 01:32:42,616 - Why, Alec? 1663 01:32:42,616 --> 01:32:43,449 You belong here! 1664 01:32:43,449 --> 01:32:44,282 - No, no, I can't. 1665 01:32:44,283 --> 01:32:45,709 - It was your prayers. 1666 01:32:45,710 --> 01:32:46,543 - I put her here! 1667 01:32:46,544 --> 01:32:48,019 Don't you get that? 1668 01:32:48,020 --> 01:32:49,359 - No, stop it! 1669 01:32:49,360 --> 01:32:50,360 Stop it! 1670 01:32:53,182 --> 01:32:54,015 - What? 1671 01:32:54,016 --> 01:32:56,169 - You are not the center of the universe, Alec! 1672 01:32:56,170 --> 01:32:58,569 Things don't happen just because of you! 1673 01:32:58,570 --> 01:33:00,246 You think God gets up every morning and says, 1674 01:33:00,247 --> 01:33:02,166 "Boy, I'd like to do a lot of terrific stuff today, 1675 01:33:02,167 --> 01:33:04,406 "but I just can't, because Alec's gonna screw it up"? 1676 01:33:04,407 --> 01:33:05,519 - How can you say that? 1677 01:33:05,520 --> 01:33:06,353 - Say what? 1678 01:33:06,354 --> 01:33:07,729 Talk like I'm a regular person? 1679 01:33:07,730 --> 01:33:10,279 Because I am a regular person, Alec. 1680 01:33:10,280 --> 01:33:13,039 I eat, I sleep, I poop, I have stupid ideas 1681 01:33:13,040 --> 01:33:15,059 that can be more simple than you might think. 1682 01:33:15,060 --> 01:33:17,479 But that's when God invades me again! 1683 01:33:17,480 --> 01:33:19,439 Because that's what He does! 1684 01:33:19,440 --> 01:33:21,129 He is my medicine for stupid! 1685 01:33:21,130 --> 01:33:22,266 He's the pill that keeps me alive! 1686 01:33:22,267 --> 01:33:23,969 - No, I can't let him inside! 1687 01:33:23,970 --> 01:33:25,909 Don't you get that, you psycho? 1688 01:33:25,910 --> 01:33:27,029 It's full of shit in here! 1689 01:33:27,030 --> 01:33:29,469 Full of shit and darkness and hell, 1690 01:33:29,470 --> 01:33:30,939 and I just fucking can't! 1691 01:33:30,940 --> 01:33:32,859 - He's already inside! 1692 01:33:32,860 --> 01:33:33,974 Let him finish what he started! 1693 01:33:33,975 --> 01:33:35,623 - No, no, I can't. 1694 01:33:37,141 --> 01:33:38,131 Let go of me. 1695 01:33:38,132 --> 01:33:39,298 Get off of me! 1696 01:33:44,499 --> 01:33:46,120 Just get off. 1697 01:33:46,121 --> 01:33:47,204 Just get off! 1698 01:33:48,220 --> 01:33:49,053 No! 1699 01:33:49,053 --> 01:33:49,886 No, no. 1700 01:33:49,886 --> 01:33:50,719 Just let me go. 1701 01:33:50,720 --> 01:33:54,009 - It is time for you to stop thinking about yourself! 1702 01:33:54,010 --> 01:33:57,079 That woman over there, that crazy, wonderful, 1703 01:33:57,080 --> 01:33:58,766 caffeinated Madonna needs your love! 1704 01:33:58,767 --> 01:34:00,299 - No, no, I don't deserve it. 1705 01:34:00,300 --> 01:34:01,559 - Of course you don't! 1706 01:34:01,560 --> 01:34:02,599 None of us do! 1707 01:34:02,600 --> 01:34:04,250 Haven't you figured that out yet? 1708 01:34:05,240 --> 01:34:07,410 You're her son. 1709 01:34:07,411 --> 01:34:08,290 - No. 1710 01:34:08,290 --> 01:34:09,150 No, I'm the one 1711 01:34:09,150 --> 01:34:10,030 who killed her son. - Tell God. 1712 01:34:10,031 --> 01:34:11,959 He's the one who made the arrangement. 1713 01:34:11,960 --> 01:34:12,880 I'm merely an observer. 1714 01:34:12,881 --> 01:34:14,439 - No, no, it was me. 1715 01:34:14,440 --> 01:34:16,113 I killed her son. 1716 01:34:17,844 --> 01:34:20,139 And I killed my mother, and I almost killed her. 1717 01:34:20,140 --> 01:34:21,790 - And you're leaving someone out. 1718 01:34:23,420 --> 01:34:24,753 Who put him there? 1719 01:34:32,374 --> 01:34:33,596 - I did. 1720 01:34:33,597 --> 01:34:34,597 - I did. 1721 01:34:36,757 --> 01:34:37,823 - And so did I. 1722 01:34:40,763 --> 01:34:42,129 - No. 1723 01:34:42,130 --> 01:34:42,963 No, no, no. 1724 01:34:42,964 --> 01:34:44,243 After what I did to you? 1725 01:34:45,370 --> 01:34:46,370 The bullet? 1726 01:34:48,240 --> 01:34:50,223 - I chose that bullet, Alec. 1727 01:34:51,321 --> 01:34:52,321 And he chose that. 1728 01:34:56,110 --> 01:34:57,473 - You saved my life. 1729 01:34:59,470 --> 01:35:00,470 Twice. 1730 01:35:02,390 --> 01:35:04,149 - No choice. 1731 01:35:04,150 --> 01:35:05,163 You're my pearl. 1732 01:35:07,780 --> 01:35:08,780 It's a long story. 1733 01:35:23,110 --> 01:35:25,310 - I think I'm ready to go to confession now. 1734 01:35:35,803 --> 01:35:38,259 ♪ Been looking for love ♪ 1735 01:35:38,260 --> 01:35:40,718 ♪ That can never be broken ♪ 1736 01:35:40,719 --> 01:35:43,088 ♪ Impossible love ♪ 1737 01:35:43,089 --> 01:35:45,562 ♪ That couldn't exist ♪ 1738 01:35:45,563 --> 01:35:48,075 ♪ A love that can hear me ♪ 1739 01:35:48,076 --> 01:35:50,598 ♪ When words are not spoken ♪ 1740 01:35:50,599 --> 01:35:54,757 ♪ That even my unfaithful heart ♪ 1741 01:35:54,758 --> 01:35:59,758 ♪ Can't resist ♪ 1742 01:36:00,390 --> 01:36:02,730 ♪ Maybe I'll never know ♪ 1743 01:36:02,731 --> 01:36:05,388 ♪ If I can find you ♪ 1744 01:36:05,389 --> 01:36:10,066 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1745 01:36:10,067 --> 01:36:12,484 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1746 01:36:12,485 --> 01:36:15,109 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ 1747 01:36:15,110 --> 01:36:20,110 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1748 01:36:22,119 --> 01:36:27,119 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1749 01:36:27,133 --> 01:36:32,133 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1750 01:36:32,579 --> 01:36:36,706 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1751 01:36:36,707 --> 01:36:41,707 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1752 01:36:42,284 --> 01:36:45,529 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1753 01:36:45,530 --> 01:36:50,530 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1754 01:36:52,336 --> 01:36:55,666 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1755 01:36:55,667 --> 01:36:59,167 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1756 01:37:08,768 --> 01:37:13,768 ♪ Well I heard of a man who vanished completely ♪ 1757 01:37:13,825 --> 01:37:18,717 ♪ Had riches and power like an old king of Spain ♪ 1758 01:37:18,718 --> 01:37:23,617 ♪ But nobody whispered or spoke his name sweetly ♪ 1759 01:37:23,618 --> 01:37:28,618 ♪ In the end he was only a stain on the world ♪ 1760 01:37:33,419 --> 01:37:38,407 ♪ Maybe I'll never know if I can find you ♪ 1761 01:37:38,408 --> 01:37:43,161 ♪ Or if you are even alive ♪ 1762 01:37:43,162 --> 01:37:45,572 ♪ But you are the one ♪ 1763 01:37:45,573 --> 01:37:48,147 ♪ Thing that I bind to ♪ - Is that your mom? 1764 01:37:48,148 --> 01:37:52,450 ♪ The reason that I can survive ♪ 1765 01:37:52,451 --> 01:37:53,451 - Yup. 1766 01:37:55,442 --> 01:38:00,005 ♪ I need you to light up ♪ 1767 01:38:00,006 --> 01:38:05,006 ♪ These dark lonely halls ♪ 1768 01:38:05,344 --> 01:38:09,651 ♪ Need to know you know ♪ 1769 01:38:09,652 --> 01:38:14,652 ♪ My innermost walls ♪ 1770 01:38:15,331 --> 01:38:18,719 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1771 01:38:18,720 --> 01:38:23,720 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1772 01:38:25,077 --> 01:38:28,499 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1773 01:38:28,500 --> 01:38:33,500 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1774 01:38:34,891 --> 01:38:38,248 ♪ Need you to live ♪ 1775 01:38:38,249 --> 01:38:43,249 ♪ Where I've wandered alone ♪ 1776 01:38:44,518 --> 01:38:47,904 ♪ Need you to make ♪ 1777 01:38:47,905 --> 01:38:51,405 ♪ My heart into your home ♪ 1778 01:39:15,755 --> 01:39:18,682 ♪ Father I'm on fire ♪ 1779 01:39:18,683 --> 01:39:22,086 ♪ And I'm burning up for you ♪ 1780 01:39:22,087 --> 01:39:25,546 ♪ 'Cause it's filled me with desire ♪ 1781 01:39:25,547 --> 01:39:30,547 ♪ To know what's really truly in your will for me ♪ 1782 01:39:31,475 --> 01:39:35,415 ♪ I know that you will show me ♪ 1783 01:39:35,416 --> 01:39:40,416 ♪ 'Cause you answer every knock on your door ♪ 1784 01:39:42,500 --> 01:39:45,412 ♪ Lord I'm just a baby ♪ 1785 01:39:45,413 --> 01:39:48,785 ♪ But I'm learning how to crawl ♪ 1786 01:39:48,786 --> 01:39:52,478 ♪ And I hope that someday maybe ♪ 1787 01:39:52,479 --> 01:39:57,479 ♪ I can grow up taller than I stood before ♪ 1788 01:39:58,524 --> 01:40:02,087 ♪ And I know you'll use me more ♪ 1789 01:40:02,088 --> 01:40:07,088 ♪ 'Cause you answer every knock on your door ♪ 1790 01:40:08,957 --> 01:40:12,184 ♪ And I'd like to sing this song out loud ♪ 1791 01:40:12,185 --> 01:40:15,593 ♪ So everyone can hear ♪ 1792 01:40:15,594 --> 01:40:18,896 ♪ And if there's someone in the crowd ♪ 1793 01:40:18,897 --> 01:40:23,897 ♪ That's longing to get nearer to thee ♪ 1794 01:40:24,798 --> 01:40:28,701 ♪ Then Father work through me ♪ 1795 01:40:28,702 --> 01:40:30,715 ♪ 'Cause you changed my life ♪ 1796 01:40:30,716 --> 01:40:34,216 ♪ It's you I'm living for ♪ 111694