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You made the call to 911?

Yes. I found him.

I don't know how long he'd been lying there.

If your father was under the care

of a physician, we'll need the name.

I don't know that information.

Dr. Bruce Abrams.

Um, he treated him for his stroke two years ago.

I can get you the number.

Oh.

I'm sorry for your loss.

It's okay. I'll call information for Dr. Abrams' number.

Did you hear anything before you came in the room?

I was making fun of the tie he picked out for dinner.

I went to the bathroom to get ready.

I turned on the water for a second,

but if he would have called out to me,

I definitely would have heard him.

What happens now?

If the physician will sign off on cause of death,

you can contact a mortuary.

Dr. Abrams' service is paging him.

From all indications,

your father suffered a stroke.

Oh, no... here. It's my mom.

Donna, what's happening? What?

Mommy, they think Daddy had a stroke.

How is he?!

No!

No, Mom, please, you don't want to go in there. Mom...

Why is everybody just standing around? Do something!

I want to see my husband!

♪♪

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♪♪

♪ Tonight the sky ♪

♪ It looks dark and empty ♪

♪ It's been stood up by the moon ♪

♪ Maybe I'm being pessimistic ♪

♪ Simply ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm so tired waiting round for you ♪

♪ For one love, I've been walking in your shoes ♪

♪ And now I know ♪

♪ We're too far past the point of no return ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ Three long nights, I've laid awake ♪

♪ Tryin' to let the feelings go... ♪

How you doing, Noah?

Okay.

I don't remember smashing the windshield at all.

Look, I know this isn't the best time

to tell you guys this, but, uh...

Donna's dad died last night.

He had a stroke.

Gina was there.

She saw her father die?

Yeah, I guess she did.

How's Donna?

Well, Janet went to see her.

I came to tell you guys.

All set.

What'd you do, hit a tree limb?

No.

Cut an angry housewife off at the pass?

That happened to me once.

Two thugs dragged me out of my car,

handcuffed me, stuck a gun in my face for two days.

Noah, come on.

Got any more questions?

Listen, tell Donna something.

I'm not going to be able to make it.

Don't worry about that.

Don't tell her about Shane and Josie.

- I don't want her to worry. - All right.

Come on, I'll give you a ride home.

All right.

See you guys later.

How's your mom?

In a state of shock, I think.

I told her I'd be back by 10:00, but um,

there's so much to take care of.

I just figured it was better to make phone calls from here.

So how do you plan a funeral?

Well, why don't we get you straightened out first.

I have to go by the office anyway,

so, do you want me to put a sign up

saying you're closed for the week?

I talked to Camille.

She said she'd take care of the store,

if that's all right with you.

Yeah, that'd be great. Thanks.

It's kind of weird.

Yesterday he was fine, and...

and now he's gone.

Was he supposed to exercise?

Meaning...?

I was just wondering what the physician said, that's all.

They don't know what brought about the stroke.

I'm gonna get some air.

I feel like I'm invisible.

Donna's just dealing with a lot of responsibilities right now.

I feel like I'm not even allowed to be sad.

A man died and you were there.

It may be totally irrational,

but some people are just wondering

if maybe something else could have been done.

A man died.

He was my father.

And the people who are wondering are Felice and Kelly

and everyone else who thinks that I'm to blame for his death.

No one said they blamed you.

In this group, no one has to.

Do you need a license to be a personal trainer?

- Kelly... - I'm just asking.

I know what you're asking.

And you're not making anything easier for Donna by asking it.

Donna made it possible for Gina

to even have a relationship with Dr. Martin.

She pushed for it.

So, tell me about this job offer of yours.

It's a potential job. It's a good one.

You said it came through that annoying woman

you hired to promote the store?

Pia is with a big P.R. agency now.

They have accounts ranging from high-tech to public interest.

I mean, I'd get an overview

of a lot of different industries.

It's good money and, certainly, Pia is charming.

Wait a minute. This is my space.

There are 14 minutes left on this meter here.

Oh, no, someone stole your car?

- A little green sports car? - Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I tried to stop them.

Stop who? Did you call the cops?

You got hit by the repo man.

The same thing happened to my little brother.

Struggling painter.

He's not very talented.

Hey, listen, I am an attorney, pal.

I spent three years and about 100 grand on law school...

For this.

Are you sure you don't want to call the police

and make sure it wasn't stolen?

No, I got a call from a creditor last week.

I thought we talked about the finance issue.

We agreed to be up-front about it.

You know I'm out of work.

I mean, do I have to give you a daily reminder of it?

Or maybe this did the trick.

Hey. Um, Donna's at her mom's

and I just offered to stay here and, you know, watch the phone

in case any of the family calls or anything.

I mean, she said that she'd leave her cell phone

on the outgoing machine, but I just figured,

you know, people really want to...

I'm sorry about your dad.

I screwed up.

I don't believe it. Do you?

I don't know, I checked his pulse.

I always tried to make sure

he wasn't overexerting himself, but...

Aw, come on. He was a doctor.

If he didn't know it was going to happen,

there is no way that you could have.

Yeah, but I knew he didn't want to work out.

He just wanted to spend time with me.

Because you walked into his life and said,

"Hey, I'm your daughter.

And I forgive you."

Do you have any idea what that must have meant to him?

Sweetheart, you should eat something.

I think there's some quiche in the fridge.

No, thanks. I'm fine.

Did you find his life insurance?

'Cause the funeral director said it usually covers expenses.

No, no I didn't.

It's okay, I'll look.

Are you sure Dad never mentioned what unit of the army he was in?

That was right out of high school,

before we met in college.

We need it to get the flag from the V.A. for his coffin.

His coffin.

I can't even look at his side of the bed.

What about his date book... There's people we should call.

I don't know.

Donna, I don't know.

I don't know if the mortgage has been paid.

I don't know where his checkbook is.

I-I don't know anything!

Mommy...

It's okay. We can do this.

No, we can't.

We have to.

I'll get it.

Hi.

Donna, I'm sorry.

Thanks.

Delivery guy just dropped this off.

Thanks.

It's from Nat.

He took Joanie on a cruise, and he's offering to fly back.

Everyone's been so nice.

You know, I'm always surprised

people think you want to eat in this situation.

Yeah, the weird thing is, you do.

You suffer this huge loss,

but everything just kinda stays the same.

I sit in traffic,

I... I heard my favorite song on your show.

Thank you for that.

You're welcome.

Mmm.

He's gonna be buried in two days.

I'll help you get through this, okay?

And then what?

You guys have your own lives.

This was my family.

Without my dad, I don't know what we are anymore.

You're still a family, Donna.

That doesn't change.

Doesn't it?

My mom, she's...

she's freaking out about day-to-day things

that my dad took care of.

But what he took care of best was her.

And I tried.

I tell her we're gonna be fine, we're gonna get through this.

But it just feels like such a pathetic lie.

I hate talking about money.

I noticed.

Here's the thing:

I want you to trust that I'm in control of my finances.

The hard part is, because of the suspension,

I'm basically starting at ground zero with clients.

I have money from my share of the store.

If you need any...

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

Please do not finish that sentence.

I love you so much,

but you have no idea how guys define themselves.

I had a good job at a big firm.

Which you hated.

But maybe that's what we need to feel secure.

We're getting married.

And starting a life together.

A life you'll want to live, a job you'll want to go to.

And the same applies to you.

I don't want you to take

this P.R. job because you think you need to hold me up.

It hasn't been offered yet, but it is interesting.

I believe in you.

We're gonna be fine.

Are you okay?

No.

It's not the answer you were hoping for, is it?

I'm so sorry.

Did you know that when John was in high school

he was, uh... an usher at the Orpheum Theater downtown?

No, I didn't know that.

I read it in his obituary.

Guess a reporter had called his brother,

and he mentioned it.

To find out something about your husband

after all these years...

I thought the article was really nice.

Yeah.

I wish...

Well, it's just that they said

he was survived by his wife and his one daughter.

For heaven's sake, Gina,

what difference does it make now?

Well, he was my father.

Well, he was my life.

What, do you want to destroy his reputation

now that he's not here to explain to everyone

what a stupid, thoughtless mistake he made?

He didn't see it that way.

He didn't, he didn't see me that way.

Well, damn it, Gina, this is not about you!

Don't you see

how one careless moment can destroy everything?

I mean, did you check his blood pressure?!

Please don't do this.

Did you think at all?!

Did you think?!

Hey, how's it going, Noah?

Where's Madeline tonight?

She's staying with my mom and dad.

We just came here to unwind.

And to see if you wanted to come over

for dinner sometime.

Yeah, how about tomorrow night?

I appreciate what you're doing,

but you don't have to worry about me, you know?

What happened was pretty weird, but, uh...

- But what? - Look at it, you know?

I mean, this former child star abducts me at gunpoint, right?

I was thinking about it.

I mean, can I actually die like this?

After all was said and done, I mean, yeah...

I could've died like that.

It's a pretty good way to go, right?

Tell me something.

Do you get a rush out of testing yourself,

or is it just a test for your friends,

keep us on our toes?

Yeah, that's right, 'cause it's all about you.

I-I'd like to know what it is, risking everything

so you can feel something.

Look, just for the record,

I didn't volunteer to go out playing Russian roulette, okay?

I was sitting home watching the tip-off of the Laker game

when Noah got kidnapped.

- What? - So I laid down a lot of cash,

and incidentally, risked my life to try to get him back.

And you know what? It wasn't fun,

it wasn't sexy; I wouldn't try it at home, kids.

Dylan, I had no idea.

Oh, that's okay.

The, uh, real bright spot was,

as my life flashed before my eyes,

your lectures went by a lot quicker.

I'm sorry I called you so late.

Mmm, I'm not.

How much sleep did you get last night?

Two, three hours?

So, did you try a hot bath?

Hot bath, chamomile tea...

Nothing... so I just finally got up.

You set up camp, huh?

Yeah.

You know, when I was a kid,

I would climb into my parents' bed

with my favorite book, Charlotte's Web.

And my dad, he would, he would turn the pages, but...

I swear he knew every word by heart.

Well, that's unconditional love.

Your mom hates spiders.

Yeah.

He kept reading.

She never complained.

Then I'd lean against him.

She'd stroke my hair till I fell asleep.

Hey, what's up?

Nothing new. How about you?

Well...

I saw Felice tonight.

Hm.

She blames me for her husband's death.

Your father, you mean.

Gina, the man was still your father.

Felice is just a little out of her head right now.

Yeah, well, even in her weakest hour,

that woman can make me hate myself.

Don't buy into it.

I don't know what it is about this town, you know?

Doesn't matter how hard you try,

eventually, you just are what people say you are.

I tasted that myself this evening,

and, uh, I didn't like it much.

Got me to thinking we should, uh, go somewhere else.

Where would you like to live?

You mean for good?

That's the plan.

Count me in.

That's it for salary.

We'll review medical and pension when you start.

So, it's official.

And long overdue.

Welcome to the world of P.R.

Thank you.

Wow, it happened so quickly.

Well, you're creative and talented.

And I've seen the energy

you put behind things you're committed to.

I'm glad to hear you say that, because believing in

what I'm working on is very important to me.

Not that I'm worried or anything.

I've seen your company's client list.

I know that you guys are great.

But, um, still I'm curious

what my first assignment's going to be.

Helping to pass a ballot initiative.

A ballot initiative.

So that's something that people in California are going

to be voting on in the next election?

Yeah. We've been hired as campaign consultants.

Oh, interesting. What's the issue?

Gay student clubs in public high schools.

It's an issue of funding and personal rights,

morality versus freedom... You get the drill.

How do you feel about that?

I feel very passionately about it.

That's the perfect place to start.

Oh! Gotta run.

I'll messenger you the campaign details

and then we'll talk.

- Okay. - Okay.

- Great. Bye. - Bye-bye.

That's my new boss.

She just hired me to work at her P.R. firm.

Mm, P.R. firm.

I knew you were looking for something.

I hope this is it.

Yeah.

Listen, about last night, I... said you were reckless;

and if I had known what had happened,

I would have never said that.

Whatever. I just wanted to let you know that

after the funeral, I'm going to be leaving.

I'm trying to say I'm sorry.

Did you hear what I said?

After the funeral, I'm gonna leave.

See, I've been looking for something, too.

And you don't think it's here?

Not anymore.

Thanks for coming back this morning.

The funeral home's on Third and Montana.

You sure you don't mind doing this?

Course not.

Thanks.

I hope you know how much I appreciate

you being here for me.

It's perfect timing.

You can hang out here with Donna while I, uh, take off.

I gotta...

Actually, if you have a second,

I want to talk to both of you.

What's up?

Well, I've decided to leave L.A.

Now?

After the funeral, of course.

You've been really great to me the last few months,

and so has Dad,

and I just wanted to say thank you for that.

I just wish I could say the same for everyone else.

You can.

Well, you did say I killed my father.

I said people wondered

if everything that could've been done was done.

- It was. - Fine, Gina. End of story.

Not for Felice.

And maybe not for you, either.

Just trying to get through this right now.

Well, so am I, you know,

and it's really hard knowing that people

could actually be suspicious of me.

I'm sure it is.

That's really not the answer that I was looking for.

Well, I'm sorry, Gina,

but, right now, I really can't comfort...

Well, I'm sorry, but he was my father, too.

And if you hadn't found that out, maybe he'd still be alive.

So you do think it's my fault.

I don't know whose fault it is,

and, right now, I really don't care.

If you are going to leave

then I don't want our bitching and moaning

or the ridiculous amount of pain that we inflict on each other

to obscure the fact that you're one of my best friends.

And I'm going to miss you.

There, I said it.

- Now where are you going? - We were thinking South America.

Hear it's really pretty this time of year.

We?

Yeah, me and Gina.

Huh! She didn't grieve long.

Hey, don't do that.

What were you saying, just a minute ago,

about, uh, inflicting pain?

I want to be happy for you.

If I felt like you were running toward something

instead of running away from something.

Or could it be that me leaving narrows your options?

By the way, how is Matt?

Go to hell.

Oh, believe me, it's on the itinerary.

Noah, what are you doing?

Noah?

Hey.

Hey.

Why don't we just try talking instead?

This little piggy went to the liquor store.

And this little piggy right here, well, he stayed home.

And this little piggy right here had a scotch and water.

Let me guess, this little piggy right here had none.

And this little piggy right here...

Let me tell you about him.

See, he got to actually hear

his father blow his brains right out.

Well, that little piggy right there... it's not the answer.

One shot.

Pop.

I hope I'm that good when my time comes.

Stop.

All right, Noah, just stop.

Here it is... this right here is your turn,

and yay, Noah, you're killing yourself.

You have any idea what you're talking about?

It's like some kind of curse.

The whole family's...

I do, Noah. I know exactly

what you're talking about.

And you know what? You have a choice.

The problem is, you don't find that out until the end.

It's not a curse.

If you want to do it.

If you want to jump or...

pull the trigger...

Well...

that responsibility's all on you.

Hi.

Hey.

Is it true you're leaving?

That's why I, uh, came.

I wanted a chance to say good-bye.

I don't think I can deal with that right now.

You know how, when you're in one place for a long time,

it's kind of hard to notice the change?

But if you go away and you come back,

you can see how different things are.

I guess.

Yeah, well, when I left, you were this...

incredibly shy, sweet, decent kid.

When I came back, you'd become

this capable, confident, successful person.

You're ready for this.

I don't know.

Right before you got here, I was in a complete panic

about what I was going to say in church.

No, I mean for the responsibilities

that will come afterward.

You're a lot more prepared than I was when my dad died.

How'd you deal with it?

I ran from the responsibilities.

I ran from commitment.

I'm still running.

I don't know why.

Of course you don't.

And that is why you are gonna do great.

This is my home.

It's where I gather what little strength I have.

Don't you feel that way?

Yeah, I... I-I do.

It's just with me it's...

it's more of a love-hate kind of thing.

Well, I'm not telling you not to go.

But you should stop taking what you have for granted.

'Cause the more responsibilities we have,

the more help we're gonna need.

All set?

Yeah.

I took the P.R. job.

Huh.

Well, I'm glad you did.

Because as hard as it is

for me to admit, I, uh, I need your help.

Okay.

Does this say what I think it says?

What's this?

Pia said we would be working on a ballot initiative

regarding gay students' rights

to form their own clubs in public high schools.

She asked me how I felt about it,

and what did I say?

I said I felt passionately about it.

I meant that I felt passionately in favor

of kids' rights to express themselves.

Well, that's a problem.

Because you've been hired to stop them.

That's what I thought.

Uh, isn't the first row for immediate family?

Felice asked me to seat you here.

We cannot leave soon enough.

Um...

when I was a little girl,

my friends would all tease me about being a daddy's girl.

But I didn't mind...

Because I was.

And I still am.

My dad would always say...

that when I would come to him and...

and look up at him

with my big brown eyes and bat my eyelashes at him

that it was hard for him not to smile,

or to say no to anything I might ask for at the time.

But it was hard for me

to be with him

and not feel unbelievably loved,

or seemingly perfect in his eyes no matter what.

He was, and always will be,

the most important man in my life.

My dad is my hero.

He gave his heart

and his patience...

to everyone that came into his life.

A life

which he was completely grateful for.

"I have been given this incredible gift."

He wrote me this letter two years ago

while he was recovering from a stroke that he had had.

"A resurrection which I cannot be more unworthy to receive.

"A chance...

"to... to see what truly matters in life.

"Faith which can bring you peace.

"Love which can bring you joy.

"And a family...

"a family which can bring you meaning

and purpose."

I'm sorry.

"A family..."

Do you want me to finish?

"And a family

"which can bring you meaning and purpose...

"and unexpected wonder.

"I have been blessed with all three,

"and will do my best to honor these blessings

"every minute of every day that God allows.

All my love, Dad."

That was beautiful.

Gina.

Will you sit with us?

♪♪

What you said was so beautiful.

What you both said.

Thanks.

We were thinking of going to the beach apartment later.

If it, uh, sounds good to you.

Yeah, I'll, uh, meet you guys there.

I'm gonna take my mom home and get her settled

with her friends.

Tell Donna I'll catch up with her, okay?

You sure about that?

Yeah. Thanks.

Hey.

Hi. It was nice in there, what happened.

Yeah, it was.

It's the kind of thing that could

change somebody's mind about, uh, running away.

What somebody would that be?

You're in the front row now.

It's where you always wanted to be.

Yeah, I wanted closure.

Now I've got it.

Maybe you don't.

You heard the man...

Life's about love, faith, family.

I don't have any of those.

So we'll find them together.

I wish I believed that.

I gotta stay.

Yeah.

What?

It's just, uh, you've been

really great this weekend. I appreciate it.

Well, remember what I said about

not having to do any of those

incredible, cute guy things for a few days?

No.

Yeah, vaguely.

Wasn't it, uh, something about, uh...

turning it on full blast or...?

Yeah.

Now would be a good time to start.

I'm sorry. I thought you guys were back at Donna's.

Yeah, we were just going back now.

We thought we'd come by and pick up some stuff.

Good thing you shopped.

We raided the place.

Yeah, yeah, it's a good thing.

You know, why don't we just hang out here?

That'd be fun.

We could keep you company.

I passed inspection?

You sure you won't come?

Maybe later. Thanks.

Hey.

I was just saying good-bye to Felice,

and she told me you were in here, so...

I don't even know where you're going.

I'm just gonna drive cross country and...

figure it out on the way.

Well, I think that's very brave of you

to do that on your own.

It's nothing new for me to be on my own.

We used to be so fascinated with this room, remember?

Yeah, we would sneak up to that door

and we'd listen to dad talk

to his patients on the phone, right?

Yeah. When we'd get too loud, he'd start yelling,

"Felice, can't you do something about those kids?!"

Didn't you get stuck under this desktop once?

Yes! Because you locked me in!

Oh, yeah, that's right.

Knowing your mom would pick you up,

I always wished you could stay.

I still do.

Well...

Well, I'll see ya.

See ya.

I'll be right back.

About us being in this really weird place?

I don't want that.

Neither do I.

Think we can get out of it?

I hope so.

It's one of the reasons I stayed.

Are you...

okay?

No.

No.

It's life, huh?

Losing a family member is never easy.

I found that out when my grandfather died.

I remember.

I remember that you...

were there for me.

I hope you know that we are... here for you.

We always will be.

♪ As long as there is a place to call my own ♪

♪ Strange places, foreign faces ♪

♪ Nothing here is familiar to me now. ♪