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What are you doing girl?

Mom, I am going to warm water on the stove to take a bath.

Don't. The drain got clogged this morning. Don't put it on.

Urgggh, why does the drain have to get clogged now?

Stop complaining. This is a village house.

You can't have everything on demand.

I keep saying that we shouldn't come here.

Yet, year after year we do. I am fed up.

Don't start! I am tired; don't nag me.

Come on, fetch a container so we can put these in it.

I am talking to you!

Alright, alright.

I'm exhausted, fetch those!

Is that why you didn't come earlier?

I told you, my father didn't send us.

I wasn't too upset, there's nothing to do here.

I get it. But why?

I don't know. It's a bit complicated.

Traitor. I desperately awaited your arrival!

Really?

Of course.

Actually there is something I want to tell you.

What is it? Go on, tell me.

Let's go inside. I'll tell you later.

You're never short of gossip.

What gossip?!

Girls, what's all that giggling for?

Come on aunt Melahat. Since when did laughing become a crime?

Girls, there are biscuits in the cupboard, get some for the tea.

Reyhan's become a young woman mashallah!

Hatije, has she had her period yet?

Ah, no.

If she resembles me then she'll have hers at 15.

15? I had mine really early.

I went running to my mother when I had my first period.

She gave me a hard slap.

I had no clue why.

I wondered what my offense was.

I know, we all got that slap.

If only that slap would signal our final offense.

Exactly.

Girls, you are probably unaware of this.

Make sure to perform your full-body ablution once your period ends.

Don't fill the house with djinns, I tell you.

I'm warning you girls, djinns might curse you.

What are they raving about? What's all this about djinns and being cursed?

Cut out such talk.

Why?

Just don't.

You know Semanur from the other side of the village.

Aunt Nigar's daughter.

Yeah. It happened to her as well.

What happened to her?

They attacked her during the night. She couldn't talk.

No way!

Seriously. She doesn't go out much now.

She was behaving strangely.

Strange how?

I don't know, like unhinged!

The lengths you will go to just to scare a person..

I swear! Her mouth seemed crooked.

That can't be.

I'm telling the truth.

He turned out to be useless.

He doesn't even come home.

I tell him to find a job but to no avail!

Why do you even believe such things?

It's just...

Nevermind that.

There's something more important that I want to tell you.

Go on, tell me.

Let's serve the tea first.

So what were you going to tell me?

How can I put this?

Swear on the Koran that you won't say a word to anyone.

Get out of here!

I'll be ruined if anyone hears about it.

Who would I tell?

Why are you talking to me if you don't trust me?

I trust you. I'm just scared.

I don't even have any other friends in the village.

My period is late. Late by two weeks!

Really?

I swear, Reyhan. It's late.

Why?

I don't know.

I was with Ismail...

Girl...

I fear the worst! Why don't you get it?

Wow, no way! Are you crazy Shukran?

Such things happen. Don't ask me any more questions.

You know they have pregnancy test kits at pharmacies.

Great. They have come again too. Muradiye, my eldest uncle's daughter?

Her children are a real nuisance.

What are you going on about?

There'll be no quiet and peace now. They annoy me.

Aren't you listening to me? I am trying to tell you something.

Okay I'm listening but...

So...

Did you see that Semanur again?

No I didn't see her.

I told you she doesn't come out much anymore.

Anyway, forget all this.

I need to get a pregnancy test kit from the pharmacy.

Fine.

What fine! What if someone I know sees me?

I can't go and buy one by myself.

It's driving me crazy.

I'm having nightmares about it.

Tell Ismail to buy you one.

I told you, he is away doing his military service.

Oh...

So, what do you plan to do then?

How about we go together?

To town?

That might be difficult. My grandma won't let me. You know that.

Yes, but...

I will let you know if I can get permission. Don't hold your breath though!

This stays between us, alright? Don't say a word to anyone.

Here you go again. Who am I going to tell?

Reyhan!

Reyhan!

Reyhan, my girl!

Yes, grandma?

Come, put this Koran back in its place.

Here.

Girl, you can't hold the Koran like that, it's a sin.

- Hold it properly. - Okay, grandma.

Grandma, I want to ask you something.

Go ahead.

They say djinns haunt you when you don't have a full-body ablution.

That your face becomes deformed. Is it true?

It's not right to go around in an impure state. It's a sin.

Why did you ask about this?

Nothing. I just heard the women talking.

Can't they find anything else to talk about?

Of course when they have nothing to do. They gossip all day long.

Grandma!

Grandma, you are like the Black Widow I swear.

What's that, girl?

Nothing grandma. It's a movie.

All you ever do is watch movies.

Aren't you afraid of bees, grandma? What if it stung your hand?

Oh, my girl..

Even bees ignore these wrinkled hands.

Reyhan! Where are you going, girl?

Sit down let's talk.

Come on.

- So, tell me. - Tell you what?

How are your studies?

Fine.

Good, good.

Anyways, study but hopefully you'll find a good husband.

Don't end up like that aunt of yours - a dried prune.

I saw your friends from the Koran class the other day.

Sema and Hiranur.

They both cover their hair now.

They looked beautiful, Mashallah.

It really suited both of them.

So? Does it suit me as well?

Do I look beautiful as well?

Oh come on. Get out of here.

Someone's at the door. Go see who it is.

You got off easy again grandma!

Hurry up! Don't keep them waiting.

Ah Reyhan, welcome girl!

Thank you.

Go in child, go on.

Come on.

Welcome Muradiye, come sit.

Thank you. They kept me awake all night. Come on boy, come on.

We were at a wedding yesterday.

Whose wedding?

Hamdi, our neighbor in the apartment in town.

His son's wedding.

Who knows, someone might have cast an evil eye on them there.

Oh, girl..

Why did you take them to a wedding in the first place.?

What can I do aunt? There was no one to leave them with.

Say a prayer for them and we'll go.

Aunty, you're just like my father.

You're both waiting for the afterlife.

You still have children to marry off. Come on boy, get up.

Get up. Leave the toys.

They're not our toys. Come on, we are leaving.

Up, up, up. Come on, we're leaving.

Come on, come on. Move it.

Reyhan!

Reyhan!

Can't have a moment of peace here!

Sis, what happened?

Nothing. Go back to sleep.

But you were screaming.

I said it's nothing. Go to sleep, come on.

Were you scared?

I just had a dream. Go to sleep.

Will you read to me?

Again?

Years have passed dear Manuel Valdares.

I'm now 48 years old and sometimes overcome with such longing...

that I feel like a child again.

It feels like you will suddenly turn up and bring me...

cards of film stars or perhaps marbles.

You were the one who taught me about the compassionate side of life, dear Portuga.

Now it is me who tries to distribute film star cards and marbles to children.

Because without compassion, life is worth nothing.

Showing compassion...

Still no water?

Put on some clothes. Someone might see.

Come on, mom. Who is going to see me inside the house?

Stop complaining. There is no running water as it is.

Mom, what if I go take a bath at Shukran's place?

Don't say crazy things. What business do you have in other people's houses?

And with her brother and father there.

I swear I stink, mom.

Be patient. Your father will arrive soon.

Where is Mehmet?

Son, Mehmet!

Come on, breakfast is ready.

What's all this commotion so early in the morning?

Fight about the bath.

I told the water guy Niyazi. But no one has come.

Don't mind her, mom. She's just talking.

My knees caused me another sleepless night.

Mehmet!

Son, come on!

What happened?

Nothing.

Did you ask them?

Ask what?

We were supposed to go to town. To the pharmacy.

No, I haven't figured out what to say yet. It is on my mind though.

Mom!

Shukran and me are going for a walk.

Okay, don't be late, Reyhan.

- Should we go toward the stream? - Sure.

What were you and my mom talking about?

Nothing, I just asked how she was doing.

Nevermind that, did you watch the video I sent you?

Yeah! It was awesome!

- So ridiculous. - Yeah!

It tastes like iron!

Iron? Have you even tasted iron before?

Shukran!

Are you stupid?

Haven't you tired of these water jokes yet?

Nope.

Get lost!

I haven't been able to take a bath since arriving anyway.

The bath is broken and there is no running water.

Should I push you into the stream?

That would be great actually!

What if I bathed here?

Don't talk rubbish. In all that mud?

Why is the village so empty today?

Everyone's gone to the market, that's why. The village is ours!

You know, this used to be a bean field.

Let me tell you something that I just remembered.

I was small and my mom was picking beans in this field.

I needed to pee badly.

I took off my pants and started peeing.

Really?

At that very moment, one of my dad's relatives saw me.

He said, 'Aren't you ashamed exposing all your parts like this?

I will tell your father.'

Who was it?

But I guess he didn't after all. It's uncle Bekir.

I still don't leave the room whenever he visits.

No way!

I don't know. I feel ashamed.

I feel like it gets easier when one marries.

How so?

Not sure. When I see married women, old women.

They just seem to be more comfortable.

Don't be ridiculous!

What is Istanbul like?

What do you want to know? It's alright.

How is school there?

Normal, it's going alright.

There is a TV show called 'Sadakatsiz, ' have you seen it?

It's set in Istanbul I think.

No.

I'm really curious about Istanbul.

- Reyhan! - Busted.

I'm off.

Welcome, come on over here!

Hello Hodja.

Will you come to the Koran recitals this year?

You've grown.

- Ummu Hodja's granddaughter. - Mashallah, mashallah.

Hodja, you made an announcement but we couldn't hear it.

The village headman has rationed irrigation water. I announced that.

As you know, there is no water in the village.

That river, back in the day...

It was always overflowing. Now it's all dried up.

They divert that water to the city as well.

Everyone is overcome by greed.

They plant crops to sell and then purchase an apartment in the city.

They say you too purchased an apartment in the city, Hodja.

Yes, I have.

I hope you don't become like the previous Hodja.

He opened a hardware shop in town and would only show up for Friday prayers.

Of course not, Yusuf.

You will attend, right Reyhan? You didn't say anything.

I don't know Hodja, let me ask my mom.

Okay, talk to her and come, okay?

From whom did you buy the apartment?

From the state, TOKI, the state-run developer.

For how much?

I made a down payment.

Let me renew my ablutions. It's almost time for prayers.

Aunt, why don't you just buy a washing machine?

What for? How much dirty laundry can one person create?

Don't worry about these things. How is school?

Fine, aunt. I passed and will start 8th grade next year.

You arrived late this year.

- Yes. - Why?

I don't know.

Come sit here.

How is your mother? I haven't seen her yet.

Fine I guess.

You've changed.

Your breasts are bigger, you've grown.

Come on, auntie!

So, do you have a boyfriend?

Of course I do, as friends I mean.

Don't trust men too much.

Pfft Auntie, not you too?

What pffft auntie! What of it?

There is a saying around here that a son resembles

his maternal uncle and a daughter her maternal aunt.

Aunt, isn't the saying 'like son like maternal

uncle, like daughter like paternal aunt.'

Well you don't have a paternal aunt, so...

Anyway I hope your fate doesn't resemble mine.

Nothing wrong with your fate. No one to interfere in your life.

Forget it.

It's a long story, Reyhan.

Grow up a bit more, then we'll share our troubled stories.

Nevermind now. Live your life, you're at the most wonderful age.

Yeah, if you say so, auntie.

It's true. I wish I was your age.

Auntie.

Yeah?

Auntie, our bath is broken. Do you mind if I take a shower here?

Good God. The gas cylinder has run out.

I'll get one tomorrow, can you come back later?

Really?

Never mind my girl. This is a village.

So what if you smell. Don't worry about it.

Anyways, I should go. The people at home are probably waiting for me.

Visit again soon.

- Okay. - Reyhan.

Make sure your grandmother doesn't find out you were here.

- Say hi to your mother. - Sure auntie.

Mom, I want to ask you something.

Why did grandma called my aunt a dried prune?

Nevermind, it's just the way it is.

Don't mention this anywhere.

Mom, why did my aunt never marry?

I'm curious. Tell me.

What's there to be curious about?

I'm exhausted under this hot sun, and am just trying to finish my work.

You see this, sis?

What?

There's a giant hole. It must be a nest.

It might be a snake's nest.

What?

For sure, it's a snake. It'll bite you!

What did I do?

You follow me everywhere like a tail!

So what?

Forget it, it's not a snake's nest anyways.

Or maybe it is a snake nest after all.

Or maybe not. I don't know.

Let's race.

I'm faster than you.

Get out of my way.

You're so slow!

Hatije! Welcome!

Thank you.

Did you just arrive?

Yeah, we just arrived. 2 days ago.

- What? - 2 days, 2 days.

Good good. Welcome welcome.

Thank you, take it easy.

Reyhan! Reyhan come on girl!

Reyhan, come on girl, get up.

Get up girl, make some tea.

It stinks in here.

There's no fresh air.

Pfff, mom!

Son, get up, don't go back to sleep.

Come on, let's have our breakfast. Tea is ready.

Girl get up! Wake your brother too!

- Okay mom! - Mother!

They are chanting the dirge for the dead.

Yes.

Remember Fadime?

She was bedridden for so long.

She is gone. Free at last.

They called me to do the ablution.

May Allah bless her soul.

Grandma, you wash the dead?

Of course, girl. We give them a full-body ablution.

For the dead as well?

Yes, of course.

Mehmet, get up!

Mehmet, get up already!

Oh God, oh God!

Grant us prosperity in this world and the hereafter.

Oh God, please grant forgiveness to your servant, the late Fadime Kahraman.

For the strength to attain all that is righteous.

For Allah's servant, the deceased Fadime Kahraman.

For Allah's grace, let's say a prayer!

Reyhan!

What are you doing?

- Waiting for Mehmet. - Say hello to your mother.

Mehmet, come on!

It just won't rain. The water is always cut off.

Walk a bit faster, will you?

- Sis? - What?

Why did that old lady say that?

Say what?

She asked if I got scared?

Forget it, let's go home.

Can you imagine?

I wish he would take his mother with him too!

Sis?

What happened to that old lady?

What were they doing to her?

She died. They were washing her.

What happens after you die?

You just die, Mehmet.

Where do they go?

Mehmet, they die. Where are they supposed to go?

Sis?

- What? - How does death happen?

Well, let's see...

Think of a very long sleep, okay.

But a really long one.

They go to sleep and don't wake up again. Something like that.

- They don't wake up? - Never.

What about when they become hungry?

They are not alive any longer. They don't get hungry.

Why are they not alive?

Pfff Mehmet.

- Sis? - What?

Look...

When one gets old, sick, I don't know, accidents and such...

People don't live anymore and die. Get it?

So, that woman?

She was old.

So does everyone grow old and die then?

Yes, everyone.

That is a very bad thing. Nobody should die sis.

It's not up to us.

I don't want to die sis. You don't die either.

My mother shouldn't die too. My father as well.

Okay, enough.

Reyhan!

Reyhan!

Shukran.

We are here, come on over.

What are you two doing here?

Nothing, what can we do? Come.

Mehmet saw auntie Fadime.

He is now pestering me with questions about death.

And?

He is asking about death when we haven't even learned about living yet.

What's there to learn. We live, that's it.

What?

What, what?

Shift over a bit. Shift.

Come on move over!

No, you move over.

It's a big field, you move over.

- Mehmet, you move over at least. - There are bugs here!

- It's only a bug! - I'm scared sis!

It's a big field, a bug won't hurt you.

I can't sit.

We won't get reaped right?

I don't know, they do it everyday. They might reap us.

They'll reap Mehmet especially!

You're too small! They won't even see you.

The bathroom still isn't fixed.

Mom, how do you manage to live here?

The water's out, how many times am I supposed to tell you?

You make it sound like you're the cleanest person ever.

Go tidy your room then.

Whatever.

Your uncle and his family are coming over for tea in a bit. Don't go anywhere.

And wear something decent.

Fine.

You become just like them as soon as you arrive in the village.

Don't talk back so much and go change your clothes.

I am not like you. I am who I am.

Sure, sure.

We shall see about that.

Stop it, Mehmet!

Leave my grandson alone. Let him stir as much as he wants.

Mom, I am going to town after breakfast.

I can just take the bus.

What business do you have there?

My phone battery is broken. It won't charge.

- What is she saying? - You can't go by yourself.

Why not? I said I need to.

What's wrong with the phone?

It is in your hands all day long. Use it a bit less.

Are you going to start a rumor..

..about Ummu's granddaughter wandering everywhere by herself?

It's okay mother. She won't go.

Girls her age run an entire house.

Food, dishes, laundry.

And all she does is play with her phone.

She's useless!

Acting up all day!

Can I come with you sis?

- Can't you see that we can't even go? - Reyhan.

There is a saying around here.

"Those who wander too much get shit on their shoes."

You are really polite grandma.

Hello Shukran.

Yeah.

Nothing, I'm just sitting.

What will we do at Ayten's place Shukran?

Fine, whatever. I will come if I manage to get permission.

Okay, see you.

Come Reyhan.

- Take one with the other filter. - Let me see.

How is this?

That one's nice. I agree.

Girls, Ergun left the show too.

Reyhan.

How are things with you?

What do you mean?

She is asking if you have had your period yet.

No.

Don't mention periods. She's clueless about such things.

The other day they were talking at her house.

Djinns haunted a girl who didn't perform her ablutions.

She got so scared. She became so pale, it was like she saw a ghost!

She won't be able to get a period ever now.

She will become menopausal at her age!

Stop talking like an idiot!

I am leaving. They are expecting me at home.

Hold on girl! Where are you going?

All you ever talk about is TV soaps and marriage.

You don't know anything else!

- What else do you want us to do? - Whatever, we'll talk later.

What are you doing, Reyhan? What's all this?

Can't you see? I am going to bathe.

Do you miss being a baby? Or have you lost your mind?

You people made me lose it.

Remove all this for God's sake. I told you the bath will be fixed.

Come on.

You have been saying the same thing for days now.

Your grandma will get mad. Put these away!

I am sick of all of you.

I am sick of you too. You don't listen to anything.

You resemble a bandit. Clean up all this mess.

Son! I told you to feed it outside. Take it outside!

- Mom, let me play with it for a while. - Take it outside! Out! Out!

Feed it outside!

Son, don't let that dog inside. It's a sin!

Pfft grandma!!!

They don't even know what's a sin or not.

Don't you have any shame?

You're being unfair. It's our turn now!

It's not unfair!

It is turn-based now. The headman said so!

Shame on you. You're pissing me off!

Do you want to get hit by my shovel?

Drop the shovel Don't you two have any shame?

He blocked my water access!

It's in turns now!

Quit fighting!

- Fools! - Shame on you!

Son of a pimp, he cut off my water access!

Grandma, what does son of a pimp mean?

Good God.

Ignore those vagrants.

Mom, I am going to my uncle's place.

Mom!

Did you hear me? I am going to my uncle's place.

To your uncle's? What will you do there?

I will hang out with the girls.

Since when did you start liking the girls?

- I am bored at home. - Alright, go.

Wear something decent so your uncle doesn't comment.

- Don't be late. - Okay okay.

Shukran, what took you so long?

I wasn't expecting to go.

You were upset at me last time. I had to rush and get ready.

What's that got to do with anything?

You think it is easy to leave the house?

My mother thinks I am at your place.

Mine thinks I am at my uncle's house.

Look at the state of us.

Having to tell a thousand lies just to go somewhere.

I hope we don't come across someone who knows us.

Shukran, do you know this woman? She has been staring at us forever.

No.

Where are you going girls? Whose daughters are you?

You wouldn't know auntie.

Why wouldn't I? I am from this village. I know everyone.

Woman stop pressuring them. Doesn't matter whose girls they are.

Alright then.

Wow, this place is so beautiful.

Yes it is. I really liked it the first time I saw it.

So colorful, it opens up your soul, right?

That's right. Like a rainbow.

Like you can breathe more easily.

Breathe? What's that got to do with anything?

That's what I felt.

Welcome.

May I help you?

Shukran, just go in.

Can you do it for me?

Why should I enter? You do it.

Let's find another pharmacy.

Come on Shukran, just buy it from here.

Reyhan, there are too many men here. I feel embarrassed.

It was a woman in the previous one. Why didn't you buy it there then?

Anyway, let's go girl.

Shukran, I am exhausted. We have been all over town.

What can I do?

You know, Reyhan...

I won't forget your kindness. You lied at home for me.

Actually, I have something to do here too.

What?

What come on, tell me.

I thought we could perhaps go to the public bath as well.

What public bath?

Just simply a public bath, Shukran.

Aren't there any big stores here?

I don't know. I think they're all very nice.

Hang on, I want to ask you something.

Why are we going to a bathhouse?

The bath at our place is broken. I couldn't take a bath.

Why didn't you come to my house?

Yeah, like my mom would allow it..

Tell me the truth, why are we going?

I had my period. I couldn't perform a full-body ablution.

Why didn't you just say so? I thought it was something bad.

I'm gripped by fear at nights.

I have nightmares.

Girl, what are you afraid of?

Didn't you tell me the djinns would haunt me like Semanur?

I wasn't making it up. You never said anything though!

You should have told your mom.

She would find a solution.

I don't know, I couldn't say anything.

She doesn't even notice me, buried in chores.

So, what did you do?

I didn't have any sanitary pads. So I cut up my old t-shirts.

Was it your first time?

It started just before we came to the village.

Was there a lot of pain?

A bit.

I have a lot of pain. I struggle to get out of bed.

Really?

But the pain becomes less with time. That's what they say.

Don't know. I never heard that.

Oh look Shukran, they have a bowling alley here.

So what?

Should we play a bit?

Where did this come from?

It's a lot of fun. What's the harm if we play a bit?

Just 5 minutes, let's not be late for the bathhouse.

Sure no problem. Like I said, just two minutes.

Let's put these on here.

These shoes are pretty.

Do you like them?

Sure I do.

Perfect for the village too.

Should I take them?

What are you doing Shukran? This is not like choosing a watermelon.

Check the weight. Take the one you are comfortable with.

How am I supposed to know?

Not like that.

Look.

Here, try this one.

How do I hold it?

Here, put your fingers in there.

Yep, exactly.

It's your turn. Start.

Look, my name is on the TV screen!

It says Shukran.

It's for the points. Roll it low and down the middle.

Shukran, you have to roll it along the floor.

Look like this. Okay?

I don't get it.

It's your turn again. Roll another ball.

Which one was mine?

Hmm, yeah.

Was it like this?

Bend and roll it along the ground. Roll it.

Shukran!

You hold the ball like this to your right and roll it.

It's easier this way.

Let's see you do it.

Koran classes for the 2021-2022 year have started.

Please apply to religious officials

if you want to enroll.'

Shukran, we are lost.

I am confused too.

- We should ask someone. - How can you not know these parts?

Why should I know? As if I come to the bathhouse every week.

Ask that lady.

Ma'am, how do we go to the bathhouse?

Go back the way you just came from.

You will see the headman Bayram Ergan there. You can ask him.

Thanks ma'am.

- We were going the wrong way. - I told you so.

Hello.

Hello, daughter.

How can we get to the bathhouse?

Down that street. Then turn right 10 meters further down.

Okay, thank you.

You're welcome. Goodbye.

"I get the giggles when I try to be proper."

We've found it at last.

Is it closed?

Just our luck.

What now?

Actually I am lucky. See, I found Ismail.

That's what you consider to be good luck?

You are an idiot. Why are you getting married at such a young age?

What can I do? Would it be that bad?

The house is like hell.

Two ignorant brothers, their wives, kids...

Work never ends at the house.

And everyday they all demand something.

I keep running around the house all day.

Not that it is very different at our place.

Seriously?

They interfere with everything. My clothes, even the music I listen to.

Not 2 minutes go by without an order or instruction.

The other day my mother was telling me off for wearing shorts inside the house!

At least you live in the city.

Whatever.

What if you're pregnant?

I don't know. We will get married in any case.

Perhaps it's nothing. You tend to exaggerate everything.

All I want is to deal with this situation, nothing else.

Otherwise I will develop a reputation like your aunt Munevver.

Everyone's talking about my aunt Munevver. What has she done to you?

I didn't mean it like that.

It's just the rumors about her at the village. Not because I meant any ill.

Anyways, get up. Let's find a pharmacy.

Ah Shukran. Let's go inside if you want to take a look.

Very funny Reyhan!

Won't you need one soon anyway?

Keep it down. Someone might see us.

Are you mad?

You can be so dull at times.

I am hungry.

There is a doner kebab shop further ahead. Let's eat there.

This way.

Girl, why are you sitting on the sidewalk?

- Are you okay? - Shukran!

- What? - Get up, don't sit there.

Remember I used to have a rag doll?

It got lost and we searched for days?

Doll?

Aah you mean Midik!

Yes, Midik. I remember now. We bought her from this shop.

Really?

Yeah. I had developed a fever when I was small.

My mother brought me to a doctor right here.

Then I saw Midik in the shop window and liked her a lot.

And because I was ill, my mother bought Midik for me.

I became so happy that I even forgot I was ill.

We had looked for days and could not find it.

I grew so attached to it. It happens. I was a child after all.

So that's why you just sat here now.

I thought there was something wrong with you.

We can ask inside and buy you a new Midik if you like.

What will I do with it now? Plus there can be only one Midik.

If I go home now with a doll,

my mother will really start treating me like a child.

Aren't you a child in any case?

A child? Where do you see any childhood left in us?

Look at us.

You are looking for a test kit and me for a public bath.

Keep it down with the test business!

But you are right. Sometimes I wish I was a man.

Why should we want to be men?

Men.. Should we become jerks?

You know something Shukran. Actually this guilt is all our own fault.

What are we afraid of?

Come on, give me the money.

What for?

Just give it to me.

- What will you do? - Just hand it to me, Shukran.

Fine. Here.

Hang on. I will be right back.

Where are you going?

I saw you enter the pharmacy. Did you buy it?

I sure did.

- Is this it? - This is it.

You are a lioness I swear. How did you manage to buy it?

The man looked at me. I said it is for my mother. He didn't say anything.

Hang on, here is your change.

Thanks.

And this is my gift to you.

- Are you serious? - Yeah.

Very pretty.

- Come on. The Doner kebab is on me. - Thanks.

- Thank you. - Enjoy.

- Thank you. - Enjoy.

I swear I'm starving!

Yeah!

- Shukran we didn't miss the bus right? - No no, we didn't.

It's just up there, come.

Here it is. Come.

- The window seat is mine. - No Shukran. That's mine.

I feel sick otherwise.

What can I do?

What should we cook with the beans tonight?

I'll make some rice, mother. Tell me if you want anything else.

Hello Shukran.

Did you manage to do it?

You aren't even replying to my texts.

When I get my pension, let's buy some snacks for the kids.

Ermm okay. Let me know.

- They'd like snacks. - Alright.

Okay, bye bye.

- What is she going to let you know? - Mehmet, you keep playing.

It has been on my mind but I couldn't ask.

What happened?

Are things back to normal between the two of you?

We manage.

Is he done with that woman?

I don't know. He says it's over but...

If he says it's over then it's over.

I raised him amid such hardship.

By myself.

Without leaving him reliant on anyone else.

Not a single unearned bite of food went into his mouth.

He was brought up piously and righteously.

He'll come around, don't worry.

I don't know.

I asked him about it over the phone last summer.

He got angry at me for interfering.

He didn't tell me anything. I don't know.

He didn't visit either.

And he didn't send you until now.

Have a little patience.

Look, he doesn't leave you hungry.

Do you know what kind of men are out there?

Ones who beat their wives and bring

nothing but misfortune upon their homes.

Do you remember Esma? The Kadir family's bride.

Yes.

They lived in Istanbul.

Her husband is also into gambling and women.

Really?

Really.

The villagers were talking about it.

I don't know if it's true or not.

I hadn't heard about this. It is sad.

She took her 3 children and has returned to her father's house.

Her situation is even worse here.

The family's daughter-in-law doesn't give her any peace.

Her parents are also constantly criticizing her.

Dear Allah.

Where could she possibly go?

She has nothing to her name.

If her husband were to come and say 'we are leaving, '

She would agree in a heartbeat.

I'm really sad for Esma. I hadn't heard.

Do you want something else, mother?

Don't make the rice too oily.

It raises my blood pressure.

Okay mother.

What happened? Have you felt a sudden surge of love for me?

Yes I have.

Where is Mehmet?

Inside, playing.

Come on let's head inside. It's getting late.

Your grandmother will start shouting.

Yeah, her voice is really irritating.

There is no telling what you'll do.

Just don't say this to her face.

You're such a victim sometimes mom.

She treats you so bad. Uses you like a servant.

You don't say a word.

I will see how you act when you marry.

First of all, I won't marry. So I will never have a mother-in-law.

Sure, sure.

You are like a tomboy. No one will take you anyways.

Mom, what does "take" even mean? Take what?

Come on. You are never at a loss for words.

The call to prayer will sound soon.

Come on.

From my lips to God's ears.

Here you go. May it bring you health.

Amin.

Bless you.

- Welcome, Nigar. - Thank you. Welcome to you too.

Did your cow get sick again?

She's fallen ill, stopped producing milk.

I've come to get Ummu's blessings.

How is Semanur? I heard she's sick.

She developed a tumor on her neck.

We took her to many Hodjas, thinking djinns have haunted her.

I have a nephew who's a doctor in Ankara.

Turns out, there's a tumor on her neck.

Thank God, it's non-malignant.

I hope she'll recover.

Amin, Amin.

Nigar.

Don't say things like it's a tumor. Don't let the villagers hear such things.

She'll get labeled as damaged.

The villagers have already heard all about it.

Can't hide anything in this village. Everyone heard.

Isn't it simple? How did you not manage to do it?

I don't know. I heard a noise, panicked and threw it away.

It's probably nothing anyway. You're panicking for nothing.

I don't know what it feels like.

Maybe there's another problem. Maybe it's stress.

What stress? What is even stress?

You think are Pollyanna but it's not true. They suffocate you here.

Reyhan!

Here we go.

Yes mom?

Go to your uncle's place. Your grandma has asked for spinach seeds. Go get them.

What the hell is spinach seeds?

Come on, I will come with you.

Okay, I am going.

I wish you could have taken a bath at my place.

Should we try at least?

Shukran, it won't happen, I know.

Anyways, I'm heading home. Talk to you later.

Okay.

Is my uncle at home?

He just left. Come on in. He will be back soon.

Mom asked my uncle for spinach seeds.

He didn't leave anything. I don't know. Perhaps it is with him.

He went to your aunt's house.

Okay thanks.

Why don't you sit for a while?

My mom's waiting. I will visit later.

Fine.

- Say hello to the folks. - Will do.

What are you complaining about?

Wasn't it enough to become the gossip of the village?

No brother it wasn't enough!

For years you left no insult unsaid...

for not marrying that maniac you had me engaged to!

We just want what's good for you.

You know that psycho well!

Yet you still say the same thing!

God give me patience.

I'm saying this for your own good!

So is Hatije's situation good now?

I haven't been able to see my sister even once since she arrived. Not even once!

What does it have to do with Hatije?

Shut it, shut it!

What is your obsession with getting me married?

It has been 20 years and you still insist on a husband.

Yes 20 years passed but do you have any idea how they passed?

You literally buried my mother and father alive.

They couldn't even look at other people out of shame.

They died because of you!

You buried them yourself and you still say I can't comprehend!

It's you who doesn't understand, it's you!

Because of your stubbornness...

It looks like the weather is going to turn. Throw on some more wood.

- Won't the bottom stick, mom? - No it won't. I am stirring it.

Perhaps we should add some citric acid or it might crystallize.

There is none left in the house.

Girl! Girl, Mehmet's sleeping. Sit down!

Reyhan, come here my girl. We're making jam, you should learn too.

Let me go check if there's any citric acid.

You are quiet.

What do you want me to say grandma?

What's the matter? Are you ill?

I am fine.

I saw Hajer's daughters the other day.

Covered in jewelry.

Their hair is covered but their faces dripping with makeup.

I asked if their parents didn't object to the state of them.

That obnoxious elder one, that microbe with pig's eyes replied back...

'Go look at your own granddaughter first.'

I told them what's wrong with my granddaughter.

My granddaughter will cover her hair much better than you.

That is what I told them.

Great job, grandma.

Did I say something bad? Do you think I want what is bad for you?

You don't wish any ill on anyone grandma. Anyone!

You're such an angel, mashallah!

What are you saying? What kind of talk is this?

I wonder what you would do if you wished ill upon someone!

Shut up you shameless insolent microbe!

Shame this shame that!

You ruin people's lives talking about shame!

O Allah give me strength. Dear Allah give me patience.

What have I done, girl?

I'm not a kid anymore. I can see and understand everything!

Get out of here, get out of my sight!

You take up after your aunt!

My aunt this, my aunt that. What did that woman ever do to you?

What did she do?

Grown adults interfering with other people's lives!

Dear Allah, what is this girl saying?

Good God!

What's it to you? What's it to you?

Just leave people alone. Stop this!

Reyhan. What's the matter, daughter? Reyhan!