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[music]

[sniffles]

It's okay, you're safe now, okay?

Okay, please lock the door.

-Lock it. -It's locked.

Okay.

-C'mon -Where's, where's James?

He's parking the car.

He's gonna be right in, okay?

You're okay.

[door bangs]

[frightened]

It's okay, it's okay.

[crying]

[Cassie] It's okay, it's okay

You scared her.

I'm sorry.

Hey, hey.

Try to not hear it.

That was me.

That was me, okay?

-You're still here, right? -Everything's fine

Everything's fine.

-It is. -Okay?

-You're safe, you're safe. -He's never gonna lay a hand on you again.

No, you're safe here. You're safe with us.

[sobbing]

All right?

Come on.

-Let's get her on the couch, come on. -Let's get her off the floor.

Come on.

Here you go.

Nice and slow.

Okay.

Thank you.

Hey.

Hey.

It's all right.

[crying]

You're gonna be okay.

[Cassie] You're safe here.

Okay.

The door's locked.

No one's coming in here.

We got a room ready for you.

Whatever you need, we're here for you.

[James] You're gonna be fine.

[crying]

[Cassie] Hey, James, I'm leaving for work now.

What are you doing?

-Oh, hi. -You don't need to clean.

Oh, girl, it's the least I can do.

Look at you, you have a crutch.

You can't be sweeping.

It's fine. I really want to pay you guys back for

-being so good -You don't have to.

You don't have to.

You're my friend, we're taking care of you, okay?

-All right. -You should just relax.

James is off work today.

He's gonna clean. Just sit down and relax.

-Okay? -Okay.

How's your neck feeling?

Oh, it's, it's feeling better.

It's just... you know,

I've, I've grown accustomed to wearing the scarf so much that...

It might take me a while till I feel...

completely comfortable to take them off.

I understand.

Well, take as much time as you need and

you can stay here as long as you want.

Thank you so much.

-[laughs] -[Cassie] You're welcome.

Well, I need to go to work but I'll see you tonight.

Okay, have a good day at work.

[Cassie] Thank you.

[grunts]

[loud exhale]

[piano music]

[coughs]

[deep breathing]

[deep breath]

[moaning softly]

[moaning]

[moaning and gasping]

Oh, my god!

[moaning]

[laboured breathing]

[moaning]

[erratic breathing]

[moaning]

[erratic breathing]

[erratic breathing]

[Sarah] Yes, yes, yes.

[deep inhale]

[choking]

Oh, I'm cumming.

[ragged breathing]

[loud exhale]

[knocking]

Come in.

[James] Hey, Sarah.

[Sarah] Oh, hi, James.

Okay, I just made some food

and I was wondering if you were hungry?

Actually, can we...

talk real quick?

Yeah, of course.

Thanks.

What's on your mind?

Well...

first of all, you're a therapist,

so you can't repeat anything I say, right?

True.

But being you're not my patient,

that kind of, there's no doctor-patient

confidentially between us.

So, but yes, whatever...

[James] You can talk to me, of course.

[loud exhale]

Okay, well.

I mean, this all starts because...

[exhales]

so hard to get out.

[James] Take your time.

My boyfriend...

was only affectionate to me...

when he was his roughest. Like...

he literally...

used to choke me out while telling me he loves me.

And...

It's just so fucked up.

Come on, Sarah.

A lot of my patients have been victims of trauma.

[James] So, I just want to reassure you that...

[James] I'm ready to hear whatever you say, and...

[James] This is a safe place.

[James] Okay?

Okay, well...

I literally just discovered that...

the only way I can get off...

or get any sort of sexual pleasure is...

if I choke myself.

Hey, hey.

I just want you to know that...

it's not abnormal to do that.

A lot of people who have dealt with serious trauma...

and the way to get over it,

they have to put himself back in that situation

where in order for them to control it.

And he took

your control away, he took your... he gave only fear.

[Sarah] Yeah.

So, when...

you relive that situation and those feelings...

it's just, it's just part of getting over it

and knowing that you're not in it anymore

and you have control of it.

So...

that's not...

It's not,

it's not as bad as you think it is.

You're working through it and that's the best thing...

you can only do.

Well...

Then, I want it to be on my terms.

I want to take it back.

And I want my pleasure...

to not be wrapped up

in all this abuse and bullshit he put me through.

I want to move past that,

put that in the past and get pleasure on

my own fucking terms.

As you should.

-Yeah. -Yeah!

So...

So...

I was thinking, you know, since you're a therapist and all that.

Look, I don't know what I'm doing.

I don't want to hurt myself.

I tried it once, but

I, I don't want to injure myself.

And I...

I thought because you're a therapist, maybe...

you could help me through it and you could

choke me and help me through this and help me get past it...

like a therapist would.

Sarah, that's a...

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I need a second.

[Sarah] Look,

I know, I...

I feel awful about Cassie, and...

I know she wouldn't understand, and...

I do, I feel really bad about that, but...

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

But you're a therapist and you said

to work things out in a safe environment.

And you said I'm safe here.

So I just thought...

I wouldn't...

Look, first and foremost, I would....

I would feel guilty if you went out...

and some stranger to try to work this out

and you just end up getting in a worse

situation or hurt even more.

[Sarah] Yeah, yeah.

It's, it's...

It's not a normal thing, but...

But you said earlier that this is--

I did, I... yeah.

I would have to ask.

You'd...

never bring it up...

[Sarah] Oh!

-...to Cassie, if, if- -Of course.

Of course, this would just be...

just you helping me as a friend.

As a therapist.

-Like, like a one time. -Of course, I would never.

-It's, um... -Yeah!

[stuttering]

I mean, you guys have been so helpful but

I just feel like this would be so helpful.

I mean, you could change the rest of my life.

Okay.

Yeah, okay.

-[Sarah] Yeah? -Yeah.

Okay.

It's getting a little hot.

[chuckles]

What, how...?

How would you...?

[Sarah] Well, I mean, I've really

never done this before, but...

Well, I, I think this would help.

Okay.

And...

Think of it as a therapy session and you're helping me.

[James] Let me know if I'm...

Of course, I will.

Yeah!

Take the other hand.

Mm-hmm.

[James] Like that?

Mm-hmm.

Sorry.

Whoa, whoa, okay.

Wait, where are you going?

I feel like we were really...

getting there, but...

-[James] Sarah, that-- -We weren't there yet.

Are you, are you, are you sure...

this is helping?

I need this.

You're a really good friend of mine

and I appreciate all the help you've done for me.

But this will help me more than anything you could ever do for me.

You were getting close.

[James] Okay.

I want it.

I need this.

Okay.

Please.

Just try again.

Yes!

[James] There?

-[James] Like that? -Yes.

Why?

I, I just did.

The fear of hurting you, and the...

Okay. Can I show you how he used to do it?

You do this.

[James] Okay.

Like that. You feel that?

[James] Here?

Yeah, this is what I want and that's what I need.

[James] Okay.

Don't be scared, give it to me.

[James] Okay.

Okay.

[whispers] Don't stop, don't stop!

[James] Yeah!

-[whispers] Don't stop! -Okay.

[moaning softly]

[Sarah] Yes!

[moaning]

Oh, yes, yes!

[choking]

Yes!

Yes, yes, yes.

[moaning]

Oh, my god!

[ragged breathing]

Yes!

[Sarah] Oh, doctor.

[Sarah] This is exactly what I needed.

[moaning]

That was a really good start.

I think I'm really starting to work through this.

Can we do some more?

It was, that was really good.

It was exactly what I needed.

Okay.

Why don't you sit up?

Okay.

You just put me where you want me.

Come here.

Right here?

-Right there? -Turn.

Okay.

This is very helpful to me.

Okay.

This is exactly what I needed.

I wanna help you too.

Thank you.

Thank you, James, thank you.

[deep inhale]

[bed creaking]

[bed creaking]

[choked moaning]

[moaning]

[bed creaking]

[chokes and coughs]

[gasping]

[moaning]

Oh, fuck!

Oh, doctor...

This is exactly what I needed.

Yes!

Oh, my god!

Yes! Do it again, please.

[bed squeaking]

Okay.

-Please, please, please. -Okay.

Okay.

[moaning]

Yeah!

[rugged breathing]

[chuckles]

I really think this is helping.

Are you enjoying this?

It seems like it.

I've heard these stories so many times, I...

I thought...

Tell me, tell me.

I've often wondered...

what it would...

be like to do that and it's just, I...

It seemed like it would go against anything to try to do that.

-But did it feel wrong or right? -Just to...

You enjoyed it like I did?

I... yeah.

You're helping me.

So I don't think you should feel bad.

I don't think there's anything for you to feel bad about.

I asked you to help me.

And you're helping me.

Oh, fuck!

[moaning]

Oh, James!

Oh, f...!

[moaning]

[chuckles]

[Sarah] Oh, my god!

[moaning]

Oh, my god! That feels so good.

[moaning]

Oh, my god!

Oh, yeah!

Oh, James!

Oh, James, fuck!

[moaning and gasping]

[moaning]

Oh, I feel so good.

Oh, James!

[moaning]

I'm gonna cum if you don't stop.

I'm gonna cum.

[choking]

[ragged breathing]

Fuck! I'm cumming.

Oh, my god!

[moaning]

Oh, fuck!

Oh, my god!

Oh, yeah!

[slurping]

[Sarah] Oh, James!

[gasping]

[Sarah[ Yeah!

[moaning]

Oh, my goodness!

[moaning]

Yeah!

Fuck!

Oh, James!

Yes!

Yes!

[choking]

[gasping and groaning]

[Sarah] Oh, wow!

[moaning]

[erratic breathing]

[moaning]

Oh, that's so good.

[chuckles]

[choking]

[gasping]

Oh, my god!

[moaning]

[Sarah] Wow!

Oh, my god! That feels so fucking good.

[moaning, groaning]

Oh, James!

Oh, my god!

[moaning and gasping]

[slurping]

[moaning, groaning]

[shaky breath]

[moaning]

Fuck!

[moaning]

Oh, that feels so good.

[moaning]

Fuck!

Oh, James!

[Sarah] We're not done yet.

Are we?

No.

We are not done.

-[James] Is that okay. -Yes!

Yes, yes.

[choking]

[gagging]

[gagging]

[deep inhale]

Yeah!

Yeah!

[gagging]

[sucking and slurping]

[deep inhale]

[coughs]

Yes!

Yes!

Do you want more?

Yes, please.

[James] Good, lie down.

Do you want more?

[James] Yeah.

Where do you want me?

Move up, just like that.

Yeah!

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[Sarah] Oh, my god!

[shaky breath]

[James] Fuck!

[chuckles]

[Sarah] Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes!

[moaning]

[gasping]

-[James] Oh, my god! -Oh, yes!

Oh, James!

Oh, James!

Oh, I feel so good.

Yes, pull it tighter, pull it tighter.

Yes, yes.

[choked moan]

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, yeah! Give me more.

[Sarah] Give me more, give me more.

[Sarah] Oh, James! Oh, James!

-[James] Oh, my god! -[moaning]

[James] Fuck!

[Sarah] Yeah!

[moaning]

[Sarah] Yes, yes, yes, yes.

[moaning]

Yes!

-[James] Is that good? -Yes!

Yes!

[choking]

[gasping]

Oh, my god! I'm gonna cum.

I'm gonna cum, I'm gonna cum, pull it tight again, pull it tight again.

Pull that belt around my neck.

[bed squeaking]

[gasping]

I am cumming, I am cumming.

[moaning]

[James] Oh, fuck!

Yes!

-[James] Fuck! That feels so good. -Yeah!

It does, doesn't it?

[Sarah] I knew you could help me with this.

[Sarah] I knew you could help me with this.

[erratic breathing]

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, yes!

[moaning]

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

Oh, give me more.

Give me more. My pussy's so wet.

[James] So fucking... Oh, my god!

So wet.

[chuckles]

I know.

I love this.

[moaning]

[screaming]

[gasping]

Oh, my god!

[ragged breathing]

Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

Fuck my pussy.

[gasping]

[Sarah] Yes, yes, do it again.

[Sarah] Do it again, do it again.

[Sarah] Please, please, please.

[Sarah] I need it, I need it.

-[James] Okay, okay, okay. -[Sarah] Yeah! Yes!

-[James] Okay. -Yes!

Yes, yes.

Give it to me.

[choking]

[choking]

[chuckles]

Oh, my goodness!

That was really good.

That was really good.

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It was really fucking good.

Feels so good.

Yes, yes.

Give me more, give me more.

[James] Just like that?

Yes, Yes, right there, right there.

[choking]

[gasping]

[chuckles]

Yes!

[Sarah] Oh, it's so good.

[Sarah] Fuck!

[gasping]

[Sarah] Oh, yes!

[Sarah] Oh, my god!

[chuckles]

Yeah!

Oh, damn!

[Sarah] Oh, my god! That feels so good.

Fuck!

James!

Oh, James!

Oh, I needed this so bad.

Yes!

Oh, my god!

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

[screaming]

Oh, fuck!

Fuck!

Fuck!

Oh, shit.

Oh, fuck!

Oh, fuck!

Yes!

Yes!

[Sarah] Yes!

[Sarah] Perfect.

[chuckles]

[Sarah] Yes, fuck me.

Oh, my god!

[Sarah] Yes, don't stop.

[Sarah] Yes, please, please do it again.

[Sarah] Do it again, do it again.

Oh, yes, baby!

Yes, yes, yes.

Yes!

[chokes and coughs]

[Sarah] Don't stop, don't stop.

[coughs]

Don't stop.

Sorry.

[coughs]

-It's alright? Are you okay? -I felt so good though.

-Yeah. -Good, good.

Yeah!

[James] Want to use this?

[coughs]

I sure do.

[James] Okay.

[James] Yeah, you can keep control

and we could do all.

-Yeah! -[James] Just keep going.

Yeah!

[James] Okay.

Yeah?

[James] Do you want to pull one end?

Sure.

Oh, then we both have control.

[moaning]

Oh, yeah!

Look at that.

That's so fucking hot.

-[moaning] -[James] Oh, my god!

-[James] Fuck! -Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

[coughs]

Yes!

Yes, please.

Yes, please.

Please, please, please.

Please, please.

[coughs]

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

Oh, my god!

Oh, please.

Choke, please, please, please, please, please, please.

[James] Oh, my god!

[ragged breathing]

[Sarah] Oh, my god!

[ragged breathing]

-Just like that. -Oh, just like that.

[Sarah] Yes!

This is helping me even way more than I thought it would.

[moaning]

Fuck!

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, yes!

Yes, pull it.

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

[ragged breathing]

[Sarah] Oh, fuck!

[Sarah] Oh, it's so good.

[Sarah] Oh, fuck!

[moaning]

Oh, James, this is just what I needed.

-Yes, yes, give me that cock. -[James] Oh, my god!

Give me that cock.

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, yes!

[Sarah] Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

[Sarah] Fuck my pussy, fuck my pussy.

-[moaning] -[James] Oh, fuck!

[Sarah] Yeah!

[Sarah] Yeah!

[Sarah] Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

[Sarah] Yes!

[Sarah] Yes, that's so...

Yes!

[coughs]

Yes!

Yeah!

Oh, that's so good.

So good.

You're so good.

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, right there.

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

[Sarah] Oh, James!

[moaning]

[Sarah] Oh, fuck me.

[James] Oh, my god!

-[Sarah] Oh, my god! -[James] Fuck!

[Sarah] Oh, yes, yes, yes.

[Sarah] Choke me out.

[Sarah] Choke me the fuck out.

[choked mumbling]

[coughs]

Oh, my god! That was so good.

[coughs]

Oh, yes!

Yes!

I know it sounds intense but I need it and it feels so good.

So good.

[Sarah] Why don't you get on top?

Okay.

[chuckles]

Oh, my god!

Oh, my god!

Yeah!

[Sarah] Oh, god!

[moaning]

[Sarah] Yes!

Yes, yes, yes.

[James] Lift your hair.

[James] Yeah!

[James] Put it around.

Yes, doctor.

Yeah!

[Sarah] Yes!

Oh, yes!

Oh, pull it tight, tight, tight, tight.

[Sarah] Oh, my god!

[coughs]

[Sarah] Oh, yes!

[Sarah] It's so fucking good.

[coughs]

[Sarah] Yes, pull it.

[coughs]

[Sarah] Yes, yes.

[coughs]

Grind on that fucking cock.

Yeah!

What are some of the things he would say to you?

He would tell me I was a fucking whore.

Is that what you want to hear?

Yeah, tell me I'm a whore.

Tell me I'm a dirty whore.

Tell me.

You're a filthy fucking whore, Sarah.

Yes!

-You're a filthy fucking whore. -Yes!

Tell me more.

You're a filthy fucking whore.

-[James] And this is all you deserve. -[Sarah] Yeah!

[Sarah] Tell me, tell me I'm a piece of shit.

[James] You're a piece of shit.

[James] You're horrible fucking person.

[Sarah] Yes!

[James] You only need to be fucking used and tossed out

[James] because you're a fucking whore.

Yes!

And I don't deserve to breathe.

You don't deserve to breathe.

The free air is too good for you.

-Yes! -[James] You're just the worst

...fucking waste of fucking human space.

-Yes! -[James] Because you're sad.

[James] You're fucking...

Yes!

Oh, my god!

[coughs]

Yes!

Yes, fuck!

-Oh, my...! -[coughing]

Hell yeah!

Goddamn!

Oh, I've had a feeling you have really good dick.

-You did? -Yes!

Yes!

[James] You love it?

-Yes, I love your-- -You love that fucking cock?

Yes, I love that cock.

Yeah!

I love it.

-You only love dick? -Yeah.

You haven't learned to love anything else?

Yes.

-Come here. -Yes!

-Give me that. -Yes!

-Hands on me. -Yes!

[James] Hands on me.

[Sarah] Yeah!

[Sarah] Fuck!

[moaning]

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

Yes!

[coughs]

Yes, please, don't stop.

[moaning]

[James] Oh, my god!

[James] Fuck!

Can you, can you suck it?

[Sarah] Yes.

-Yeah? -[Sarah] Yes!

[Sarah] Yes!

[Sarah] Yeah!

I thought you'd never ask.

You taste like my pussy.

[gagging]

[James moaning]

Oh, my god!

[slurping]

Oh, my god!

Oh, my god!

[gagging]

[catches breath]

Oh, fucking shit.

[Sarah] More?

[Sarah] More.

Yeah!

[Sarah] Oh, yeah!

[Sarah] Yeah, pull it tight.

[Sarah] Pull it tight.

-[gasping] -[moaning]

Oh, fuck!

Yes!

Yes!

Oh, my god! You're so wet.

Don't stop, don't stop.

Yeah!

[heavy breathing]

[groaning]

[choked moaning]

[ragged breathing]

Yes!

Oh, my god!

[moaning]

Fuck! That feels so good.

Fuck!

Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.

Fuck!

-Oh, James! -Oh, my god!

James!

-James! -Yeah!

I want your cum.

Really?

Yeah.

You've helped me so much.

Yes, yes, yes, yes.

Oh, my god! You're so fucking wet.

Yeah!

Yes!

Yes!

Oh, my god! I'm gonna cum.

Yes, give me your cum.

Yeah!

Oh, yeah!

Come on.

Cum all over me.

-Cum all over me. -[James] Yeah?

[James] Oh, you want my cum?

Yes!

Oh, yes, James!

[James] Oh, my god, yes!

Make me all messy.

-[James] Oh, my god! Fuck! -[Sarah] Yes, baby!

[moaning]

[James] Oh, fuck!

[spits]

Get it all over me.

Yeah!

There it is.

-[James grunting] -Oh, yeah!

[groaning]

[James] Oh, my god! Fuck!

Oh, it's still cumming

All over me.

Sarah!

Yes, James.

I have to...

I have to go.

This, this...Oh, my god!

Are, are you okay?

No, no, I'm not.

I'm...

I'm really glad I helped you, but I love...

-Your wife? -I love my wife.

I know, I know.

Look, if you...

-if you, if you... -I'll never tell her.

She'll never find out.

Okay, I can't, I can't do this again.

I'm sorry, that...

If you need help to find a safe

place to do that, I'll give you that.

But...

Okay.

I, I need some time.

Okay, I understand.

Thank you so much for helping me.

[stuttering]

Yeah!

You're welcome.

I really needed that.

[door opens]

[door shuts]

[lively music]