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I'm going to Lebanon. It's just something I need to do.

Doctor Curtis, I didn't know that you were...

working, this morning.

She's picking my brain about Western.

We're looking to open up our own trauma OR and could use her.

I used to cut myself.

Speaking of things that can't be fixed,

I'd like you to help me die.

Percy tried self-immolating on the steps of Parliament

during a climate summit.

Antiseptic, bandages, blood pressure cuff...

- Thanks for checking in. - This kind of bruising

is often evident of a sexual assault.

Identify my husband, you mean?

- Oh my God, it's Claire! - Out of the way!

Out of the way! Out of the way!

I take responsibility for what happened, Claire.

I stand by my decision to close the doors.

Do you stand behind me? - Based on what you heard,

do you think there's a problem with the valve?

You can talk to me. Only I can't.

I got used to my life being bigger. And now...

What about you? Are you finding what you are looking for?

You must need to hear this to move on!

I knew there would still be some valve dysfunction,

but I didn't think it would be that bad.

A residual leak is steadily getting worse.

Dr. Fisher seemed to think I was bouncing back.

Dr. Fisher should've listened more closely.

Your heart is dilating and ejection fraction is decreasing.

If we don't deal with it eventually we're on the road to heart failure.

Are you about to tell me that I need a heart transplant?

Am I even a candidate for that?

There's a case to be made, yes.

The surgery would put you out of commission for at least a year,

but it's the only permanent solution.

What if I don't want that?

Well then we take a management approach.

I stay on top of your monitoring and you do your best

to prioritize your energy and your exertion levels.

Prioritizing, meaning do less.

I'd reframe it as do things differently.

Okay, except how? Because I've tried that before,

and I keep getting pulled back to baseline.

Then maybe it isn't sustainable.

What, my job?

Are you telling me to quit?

Look, I'd never say that, Mags.

But if you keep going the way you're going, you're gonna die.

Like what am I supposed to do with that?

Take some time. Talk it over with your support system.

You held your own in there this morning.

I could've done a better job avoiding the epigastric vessels.

No, no. Something to practice,

unless you're planning another trip?

- No. - Good.

I'd hate to see you getting distracted

now that they've finally agreed to count your Trauma OR hours.

Must feel good. You're gonna be surgeon again.

To be honest Dr. Singh, I've never let myself believe

that would actually happen.

Does that mean I can't trust you to handle

post-op with this patient? - No, that's not...

I just meant...

She had pneumonia six weeks ago.

We thought we'd weathered it but the coughing flared back up,

then she was up all night with this fever.

At least you had each other to spell off.

We're not together, Dr. Hunter.

This was Mike's week.

Uh, Theo. Um, so Kira was a preemie?

Yeah. Born at 28 weeks.

They had to give steroids to help her lungs along.

The hope was there wouldn't be any residual complications, but...

Every little bug hits her so hard.

Doesn't matter how careful we are, we're powerless against exposure.

Do you think the pneumonia is back?

You don't have to pull punches. It's better if we know.

Let's just...

I think Kira has bronchiolitis obliterans.

It's a very serious inflammatory response in the lungs.

There's gotta be something you can do.

For now, bronchodilators, high flow O2,

fluids and close observation.

She'll bounce back.

We're gonna do everything we can to help her try.

But sounds like Kira is a fighter.

Yeah...

Any pain?

Won't really matter in a few minutes, will it?

I mean, I guess not. But I can make you more comfortable.

What'd I say about fanfare?

- Right. - Do your job.

Run down next steps.

You asked for an injection,

so I'll administer the medication through your line.

The first one will put you into a deep sleep.

And you won't feel a thing while the medication does its work.

Protocol requires me to ask you one more time.

Do I have your full and willing consent?

- You do. - And you don't want a witness?

Okay.

Is there anything else you want to say?

Thanks, Curtis.

Yeah.

We're covered for tonight?

I talked a few residents into swapping shifts.

Smooth otherwise. - Great!

I was surprised to see we're back to uh...

wait time monitoring?

With IT's help to display it on screens this time.

Nurses only have to update the system once an hour.

Admin's way of playing ball after what happened to Claire?

They had no choice but to admit some changes needed to be made.

So um, does this mean that things have settled between you and Olsen?

Right.

Meredith, there's fluid compressing your lungs,

making it hard for you to breathe.

I thought it was a panic attack.

No, um, this is called a Pectus Bar or a Nuss Bar.

It's a steel rod used to treat chest wall deformation.

I have a metal bar in my chest?

It's usually implanted in kids then removed a few years later.

Do you remember getting it?

How long has it been hurting?

I guess a while, but lately,

I've been feeling different.

Sort of like something shifted...

Well it almost certainly has.

I'm going to have to put in a chest tube to drain the fluid

but it would help knowing why it was never removed,

so can you ask your parents or...?

- No. I can't do that. - Well, if it's okay with you,

could you give me access to your medical records

so I can get the full story myself?

I don't even know my real name.

Well, you can talk to me. Or we have people here that's...

Three days ago,

I walked away from the man who calls himself my father.

He also happens to be the man who abducted me when I was a child.

Wait, are you saying he stole you?

I don't know if he had that bar put in

or if my real parents did or...

I thought my life was normal.

But I've always had these nightmares.

Once I acknowledged they might be real, I couldn't unsee them.

Then one day I just...

I took the emergency money he keeps in the drawer and...

left.

Have you tried calling the police? Or telling someone?

No.

You can't either.

Kid in Exam 3, what's the story there?

Uh, popcorn lung, as much monitoring as we can handle.

Did you want me to show the parents the family room?

Yeah but when it comes to making decisions,

they're not actually together so it could get a little messy.

So then it gets messy, Theo.

- Welcome back. - Hey! You too.

Are you back? - Part time, admin duties only.

Checking labs, playing traffic cop,

oh and babysitting the wait time monitor.

Claire, I was so sorry to hear about what happened.

- Bash, uh Meredith Watson. - Yeah, um,

are you keeping an eye on her drain?

Fluid's still yellow. Uh...

But she says it feels that her body is rejecting that bar.

Yeah, because it's been in there five years too long.

An adult with a chest stabilizer?

Yeah, her explanation was uh...

Can you see if she needs more pain relief?

Yup.

Hey hey! The prodigal returns.

Ah. Three weeks late. We were getting worried about you.

Speak for yourself. Cholera outbreak under control?

Uh it's improving, but they still need more help.

Well that's never not true.

There's always a few that stick in your brain, at least for me.

Yeah. There was the woman with endocarditis I wrote you about.

She's in Amman post-op. And a young couple

who went through an ectopic pregnancy that asked me to help them try again.

Discharge in A needs your sign-off.

Thanks.

That's gotta be weird. Leaving home just to come back home?

Yeah it's...

Oh Percy!

What?

His father texted from City hall, nothing.

You said he's tried this before?

Yeah once, on Parliament Hill. But the news said something

about the Environment Minister being there for meetings.

And you've been helping him outside of the system?

Yeah, with expired meds, and supplies that are damaged,

things we would have thrown out anyway.

Percy!

No! - No! Theo don't.

Don't! Let me go! Let me go!

Theo, don't!

It's too late.

- Amira, hi. - Hey, uh...

Am I allowed to wait here? All the chairs in reception are--

Full of sick people? No, let's go invade the on-call room.

You know, I couldn't sleep last night

and I tried your soufflé recipe like three times

and mine keep collapsing. I'm like...

Oh sounds like you didn't let the eggs come to room temperature first.

Ah Mags, good. Novak's looking for you.

Something, something, car door lady.

Okay uh. Can you help Amira find her brother?

I think I can handle that.

Hi!

- What do you need? - Hi.

- Hi. - Yeah, I jus--

I just wanted to say hi.

"Car door lady?" Oh good, both of you.

Uh Beatrice here caught her finger

in some kind of late model SUV,

never check your texts when slamming your--

Hey Beatrice can you tell me your pain level?

Or is it just the blood?

- Don't touch me! - Don't have an MI now, Leblanc.

At least not before she calms down.

Okay. Let's get her into trauma.

Every patient can hear this.

So wait, what did you want us here for?

Emotional pandas? You know what, I haven't even started.

- Why haven't you sedated her? - Kind of a bad look, no?

Male doctor sedating a hysterical woman?

Maybe don't say hysterical.

Sedate her, Mark.

The EMT guys wanted to take him right to the morgue.

Are you sure you want to see this?

I need to. I need to...

I'm so sorry, Ren.

Oh, Percy would remind us this was what he wanted.

I have to try to see it that way, Theo.

Hey Bash! Your sister's looking for you.

Doctor Hamed!

What are you doing out of your room?

- I saw him! - What-- Saw who?

- My dad. At the nurse desk. - Are you sure it was him?

I don't know how he found me, but what if someone told him what room I'm in?

I can't stay here. - Okay, you need to try to steady your breath.

Okay? - Bashir!

Habibti! Hey!

Hey, um, I'll be right back. Okay? Here, come with me.

- Is that your daughter? - That's my sister.

We've uh... We've been apart.

Uh, this man, can you tell me what he looks like?

Tall. Brown hair. Green jacket.

- Okay. I'll find out. - Thinking I could just walk away...

That he wouldn't come looking for me.

Alright, uh...

Don't leave here until I come back.

Who's that girl afraid of?

- It's complicated. - Okay but you said you had to tell me something?

- Yes, I do but I-- - I can keep watch!

- Amira. - I'll sit right there,

use my phone camera. I can help Bashir.

Okay. If anybody comes or goes you don't approach them,

you don't talk to them. You just text me immediately?

Okay? Immediately. - I'm on it!

Claire?

Hey. Have you seen a man, with a green jacket, brown hair,

he'd be looking for his daughter Meredith...

There's been like 50 guys looking for 50 patients

in the last half hour alone. - Okay...

Well, if you do see him, don't give him any information alright?

Why? Is he some kind of threat?

Bash you need to call security!

Wait, wait um...

That green jacket guy? He was asking for ice chips for his mom.

He's been with her all morning.

Okay, I guess my patient made a mistake.

Yeah, obviously she did!

Claire, I'm so sorry, of course this is upsetting uh...

Are you okay? - No, yeah. I'm...

I'm fine.

Bash?

- Hi. - Hey.

Um...

Did you catch up on your sleep?

My jet lag is somewhere over Portugal right now.

Um actually can we walk? I have a severed finger situation.

How was the appointment with the cardiologist?

It was difficult. Um, did you find Amira?

Yeah, I actually deputized her. Difficult how?

I hated being apart.

I mean... - I missed you.

I didn't mean that as like...

- Can we talk later? - Okay.

- Nobody's gone in or out. - Okay.

Just give me 10 more minutes, alright?

Okay.

I think you grew again.

Ugh, I'm taller than all my friends.

Hey! Did you get my note about removing a Pectus Bar in Trauma OR?

I need your sign-off, June. - Yeah. I just...

I just need a minute.

Hi. Uh, this message is for Joel.

I, uh need to talk to you. It's about your father.

Six-O nylon? I'll get them to Novak.

Here are the sutures you asked for.

Oh thank you. Just put them besides the tray, please. Thank you.

Shouldn't we be waiting for the microsurgeon at this point?

Devi said he only needed 15. - In 2011,

I spent six months implanting digits for a plastics guy at Saint B's.

I can help repair the extensor tendon, I've done it before.

Oh! Yeah, okay uh... What the hell.

They're pushing her out, you know.

Your BFF, Devi.

Seems like her little escapade of closing the ED doors

was just too bold for their delicate procedural sensibilities.

But it was the right call to make.

- Am I dead again? - Someone's gotta wear the systemic problems.

- What do you mean "dead again?" - Since she's been here to fix 'em.

Dr. Novak maybe you could go get us a surgical microscope?

Ah! Okay. I guess I'm going to get a surgical microscope.

Patient sedated and finger's almost reattached.

Thank you, Mark.

But I looked right at him.

The man you saw was tending to his elderly mother.

Okay? I saw it with my own eyes.

Meredith?

Is this what it's going to be like now for me?

How am I supposed to move on if I'm haunted?

Here.

Um, what do you know about your life before?

Not much, flashes mostly.

It's not like he kept me chained up.

I had a life.

Maybe it wasn't the right life but I made the choice to run

without really thinking the consequences through.

And I now can't go back and I don't want to go back but...

maybe somehow I also do?

Why am I so warm?

I think you're fighting a chest infection, pneumonia.

That bar has to come out. - Good. I want it gone!

Hey um, prosthetics like these usually have a serial number

and we can use that to find out about your history and maybe your family?

No! No, no, no, no.

I'm not-- I'm not ready for that!

- But without them you're alone. - I said no!

Meredith?

Meredith, are you okay? Can you hear me?

Arnold. Can you stay with her while I page on-call psych?

Yup.

Theo?

I just thought if I made a connection it would...

Hey. If his own father couldn't do it...

I brought you along so that you could help me stop him.

I thought you were supposed to be the guy who runs towards the fire?

But...

Maybe Ren's right about this not being a tragedy.

How can you say that?

Look. Finding that kind of passion and purpose?

It's hard not to respect.

Yeah.. is?

I'm Joel.

William's son?

Hi. I... thought you'd call.

Well, I had to see the face of the person who killed my father!

Look, I know...

the news was a shock, but William was out of options,

he made an informed decision. - One that involved dying

without so much as a phone call? Who-who does that?

Who helps someone do that?! - Somebody who understands that's what he needed.

If you even bent a rule here, I'm suing you and everyone you know!

Joel, he was perfectly aware of the fact that going out like that was selfish!

You knew him for a whole minute and you're defending him.

I'm not defending him. There's just things about your father

he'd accepted that he'd never change.

That's honestly what you're taking away from this?

He was okay being a cold selfish prick, so I should be too?

- No... - The two of you deserved each other.

Leeches? Are you insane!

Yeah! I know it seems weird but I promise it's a recognized treatment,

they prevent unnecessary blood loss and help your veins repair.

See the swelling on your finger?

Well, edema this soon suggests a condition called venous congestion.

Basically blood isn't flowing properly

and it can lead to tissue death

or thrombosis which means blood clots.

That's why you want to bleed me like we're in the Middle Ages?

Leeches have an anti-clotting saliva,

without which your wound would not be able to heal.

So either I get an insect's saliva in my body

or I lose my finger?

And that's the best so-called medical science can offer?

They're actually parasitic worms.

Can you give us a second, Carmen?

You take your parasites with you, please.

I know it looks like two bad choices here. But Beatrice--

Look, no offence you seem nice. And weird.

But I can't trust you.

When you were sedated, you said something about being "dead again"

and then mentioned a surgery about a deviated septum a couple years ago.

- I told you about that? - Yeah.

Did something go wrong?

I woke up to them shocking me back to life.

I was legally dead. They said it would be routine.

Then I had a reaction to the medication.

You went through a medical trauma.

It makes sense that you don't trust us,

but Beatrice, the reality is you need treatment.

No. Sorry, but I just can't.

She seems to be in a state of catatonic dissociation.

You said she thought she saw her captor?

She was scared but cogent until I told her

I could find out who she was before he took her.

And she panicked. - And that surprises you?

After everything you've learned about trauma?

She was second-guessing. I thought maybe reintegrating

her with her past might be exactly what she needed to move forward.

She's likely repressed her history as a defence mechanism.

Her sense of identity shattered.

And because she doesn't have the luxury of memory,

she'd have to build it all from scratch.

The fluid in her lungs is getting worse,

we're going to have to take out the bar in her chest.

Good. Medical help is the best thing we can give her right now.

You stopped coming to group.

I mean, you knew I went to Lebanon.

I didn't think it was that big a deal because I never spoke in there to begin with.

Everyone made the same commitment. To show up.

Karim...

I've never really thought of memory as a luxury.

Percy's on his way to the funeral home now.

You can take your time getting there.

The police keep calling. I guess what Percy did,

it's a crime? - Ren,

why don't you let me take care of the police alright?

Isn't Lucy supposed to be with Children's Aid?

I guarantee the one job doesn't pay enough.

Are we really back to collecting patient survey comment cards?

Devi's trying again with all the changes?

Not sure why if they're pushing her out.

Novak told me.

Better go down swinging.

Novak? Really?

You know he only shares that kind of information

for a reason right? - Yeah, to troll me.

No, he wants you to try and stop it.

Why would he want to do that? Doesn't he have

a huge power struggle with Devi?

He probably just decided he doesn't want to have

new power struggle with whoever replaces her.

Plus, weirdly, I think he respects her.

Well I don't know what he thinks I can do about it.

I'd be the one person spitting on a dumpster fire.

Okay! It unsettles me to see you cynical.

And it unsettles me to see you not.

Anyway I thought her touchy feely brand of optimism repulsed you.

It does. But she's also had my back so.

Which you repaid by helping Novak undermine her.

Yes, Mags. Both those things can be true.

Besides don't you love-slash-need Devi?

Normally you'd be rallying the troops. - Yeah. I'm kind of busy

dealing with the fact that my cardiologist told me I had to quit my job

because doing what I love is killing me.

- That's-- Mags! - I can't take this on right now.

Hamed.

If your fancy hospital needs a field consultant,

I'm very busy and important.

How's the uh cholera situation?

What do you really want to know, Hamed?

Fatima and Hakeem. Has she stopped bleeding,

has there been any movement on the specialized ultrasound?

- Hold up. You don't want this. - Why, is it bad news?

Because I've been thinking about how--

Don't think. You don't want any news.

You're not here, so don't be.

- How long's she been down? - 12 minutes.

Her parents pressed the button, she stopped breathing.

- Still a shockable rhythm? - We're giving it everything we have.

48 joules.

- Ready. - Clear!

- No sinus. - Carmen, resume compressions.

Shock again, Rhoda. This is my patient Liz, I'd like to run this.

- Charged! - Everyone clear!

No sinus.

I told the parents she was a fighter.

Theo, Fighter or not, I don't think we have a say on where this is headed.

Theo?

Don't stop until I tell you, understand?

- Carmen, if you get tired-- - I'm good.

- Charge again, Rhoda. - Charged.

Clear!

Thanks Winnie, I didn't want to remove this chest bar without thoracics.

It didn't put up much of a fight.

I would have liked to get all the wires out but with all this scar tissue...

Probably would've caused more harm than good.

I can, uh...

I can close too if you need to.

Pressure's down to 70 over 50. - She's in V-fib!

Start compressions. Get the pads!

- Did we tear something? - We didn't do anything wrong.

Bashir.

Doctor Hamed!

Clear!

No change. Resume Compressions.

Temp's high! Septic shock.

The pneumonia was under control.

No bleed or obvious infection.

I've heard of the stabilizer wires fragmenting

and causing abscesses. - Then they could be anywhere.

We need to get her stable and regroup.

Charge to 200 joules - Bashir.

Dr. Hamed, we're losing her!

Clear!

Sinus rhythm. Okay.

Let's close her up and get her to ICU.

Oh God.

So here's where we are.

Kira is no longer breathing on her own

and her heart has stopped beating.

We've shocked multiple times, with no response.

Okay...

I'm so sorry...

Our team has done everything in our power.

And I want you to be prepared for what happens next.

Now, you can stay here or you can come with me in the room.

We have time now for me to answer any of your questions.

Mike, Sepi, in a moment, we will stop doing CPR.

When we do, we'll declare a time of death,

remove any tubes and wires,

then you'll be able to have some time alone with Kira.

Okay.

I can take over compressions, Carmen.

All life-saving measures have been exhausted.

Time of death, 5:18 PM.

Let's take a moment to acknowledge the loss of a life,

the family, and our team's efforts today.

The bar code did have a serial number.

And with one phone call I could...

find out about the life that was stolen from you,

so you could rebuild it.

But, you don't want that.

Beatrice? You said yes to the--

Don't say the word.

We're pretending they're not there.

Okay. Fair enough.

What made you change your mind?

Well, Lucy talked me through it all.

Then, the guy who did the surgery...

he said the same thing as you but,

having a buffer who wasn't a doctor helped. Sorry.

No, hey, that's great. Thanks Lucy.

Mm-hmm.

Well, Beatrice if you need anything, uh...

Oof. Just to figure out

how to get through the next two days without looking at my hand.

Alright.

Doctor Leblanc. Hey, um...

Wasn't trying to step on any toes.

- No, you didn't. - Because Dr. Devi asked

if I would take on some patient advocacy work.

Thought it might ease the burden,

seeing as your staff is stretched thin.

Yeah. We are.

Hey uh, are you okay?

Yeah, I just...

I heard about Percy.

What you did for those parents.

And our student, protecting her from trauma

of being the last one?

- It was just my job. - It was so much more than that.

You wanted to see me?

Come in Theo, close the door behind you.

I got a call from Patient Services.

There's been a complaint about some...

extracurricular activity of yours.

For Percy Campbell? All I did was getting him expired meds

and things we were going to toss away anyways.

Well, news to us, but this isn't about him.

It's about a patient named Crystal Vincent.

She says you told the police her husband sexually assaulted her.

I mean, he did.

She's denying it. Says you misinterpreted.

I didn't. I examined her after it happened.

She wanted to think about what to do next.

Did you get her consent to report?

Oh Theo!

Reporting an assault is a very personal decision,

trauma-informed care means taking cues from the patient, you know this.

She was heading back to a dangerous situation!

And not to mention their four kids. I had a responsibility.

Without her corroboration it's a violation of privacy.

- Is that how you see it? - And so will the College of Physicians and Surgeons...

- Are they-- - ...who supposedly she informed as well.

- Will this affect my license? - Most definitely.

They could suspend your license, or take it away.

And until that's resolved Theo,

I'm sorry but we're revoking your privileges.

- Uh so, what-what do I do? - Go home.

Wait for the College to formally notify you.

And get a lawyer.

That was not an easy call to make.

I wasn't sure if you'd have my back.

You should know several people on your team spoke up on your behalf.

It was hard, because good leaders care.

And that's why they respect you.

so much infection. a mes,

We would have got the fragments out before she coded.

Give me image...

It's crazy how some tiny wires can wreak such havoc.

Her heart rate is holding steady is remarkable

considering the severity of the infection.

Though, I'm worried she won't remain stable for long.

There's still more fragments.

But none of those are surrounded by infected tissue.

- Can I get the ultrasound? - If there are abscesses,

they can track laterally away from the wire.

True...

Maybe if we combine clinical observation, skin changes,

palpation with ultrasound...

and cross reference with the wire fragments on the X-ray...

We have a better shot at sourcing infectious material.

Yeah. Here it is. See?

The fluid here is actually below the wire fragment that the X-ray caught.

Scalpel.

What?

You're just really good at this.

Alright Hamed, Benny finally called back.

He's on my phone at the trauma desk.

Now? - Uh, he's a hard man to track down, so yeah now.

He says he's got about six minutes to spare.

But with public health worriers like him, it's how it is.

I'll cover you.

- Can we try an LPO image? - You and I need to chat.

You wanna do this now?

I just heard from our no-longer-erstwhile chief.

So this morning...

Devi's head is on the chopping block,

and now that I hear you proposed a reshuffle

in which you report to her instead of me?

You're the one who told me to build a relationship with her,

and earn capital. - Yeah. On behalf of Trauma OR, not to spend on yourself!

And how did you get Olsen to go along with the idea?

A friend of mine taught me about leverage.

Look, Olsen saw my point okay?

Checks and balances keep Trauma OR progressive.

Oh, I thought we had a good thing going here, June.

Yeah, but only if you're in control.

That's a job description I earned!

Yeah true, I like working with you. Okay? I respect you.

I just can't keep tying my self-worth to your opinion.

Oh well, just in time,

because I'm don't know if I like you anymore.

Are you going to clear the tissue or should I call someone else?

She's been having difficult periods

and since ectopic pregnancies can be associated with inflammation.

You're Syrian. You do public health with Novak in the camps there?

No I work with him in Toronto. But this couple,

they won't be held back by their circumstances.

They want a new life, they want a family.

Text me the info. I have a contact who'll do specialized care

but I don't speak NGO so when it comes to the battle for resourcing...

I've been trying to learn that language.

You left during the war? How'd you manage to get out?

Sorry crap, gimme a minute.

Mags? Are you off?

Yeah, I just finished with my last patient.

And you're sitting here because?

Um...

Because, I'm totally paralyzed

about the massive decision I have to make.

What-What if I can't live with either choice?

Well, I spoke to Olsen and...

told him he was gonna have retention problems if Devi left.

And it does seem like she's staying.

I mean, I doubt that's the only reason but...

I'm sorry.

I don't know if this is helping or complicating your decision.

You did that for me?

And for me.

It probably cost me my relationship with Novak.

Thank you.

Have you told anyone else?

Well...

Don't let it build up too much.

Hey.

Can we talk? And walk? I have a thing.

Yeah.

I wanted to apologize for...

unloading my grief on you and...

Say thanks for letting me do it.

Yeah.

You know, I'm sorry that you lost him.

It seems...

he wanted you to have this.

You sound different.

What do you mean you have a thing?

Uh, I told Amira that she can go to art school.

Uh, that was an earlier thing but uh...

- Why? - The weight I carry,

it... it isn't hers.

Is that what you wanted to tell me?

- Actually I wanted to talk to you about uh... - Us?

Well, that too, but also another thing.

Another decision I'm making. I sound different how?

Amira must be thrilled.

She is.

Dr. Viri, you said that was difficult.

Is everything okay? - I think we should end this.

You and me. For good. - What?

I mean it's become clear to me that it isn't what either of us needs.

Mags.

Lighter.

You sound lighter.

You know, when you call a meeting,

you should be there first.

Yeah, sorry. I just, um...

Anyway, thank you for making the time.

Everything okay, Dr. Hamed?

Yeah uh, I've decided not to become a surgeon.

Didn't you spend the better part of a year fighting for the opportunity?

And I'm grateful for it, sir, it's just...

Thanks but no thanks?

All we can do is show 'em the path.

You were right when you said...

there are other skills I need to be focussing on.

Look at me, not gloating.

She said coming out of the anesthetic

was like coming back into to her body.

And you? Coming back home again,

are you back in yours?

When she is ready to do more than survive,

she'll want the serial number.

You're at the beginning of something, Bashir.

Don't look away.

Hey, about Percy, I know you two made a connection.

Yeah. And even knowing the outcome, I'd do it all again.

Alright. See you tomorrow?

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