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As a Canadian citizen...

I'm moving back home, okay?

- I need a doctor - It's okay. I am a doctor.

- No, get off me. - Ah!

You know, I do feel things Mags, more that I want to.

Remember that night the group of us went out?

I was a first-year resident. You were a 4th...

And you wound up in my place, you were married but

was leaving what you really wanted?

Every time we get somewhere, you reset.

- Look, I'm trying. - You're hiding yourself again,

which you know makes me need to chase you.

Then don't! Just stop.

What if I'm not capable of separating damaged from good.

I've decided to go to Lebanon to a refugee camp

that needs doctors. - That's what we worked so hard

to get away from. - I know it is.

- Hamed? - Yes.

Bash. Bashir. - Denise Garneau.

We could've used you yesterday when you were supposed to be here.

A GI bug ran through a cluster of families,

and I've been on call every night.

Are they okay? I'm sorry. My connecting flight got cancelled.

It took us a while but we got them hydrated.

Munich or Frankfurt? - Frankfurt.

Oh the gate chairs suck for sleeping there,

you done a stint like this before?

Where'd you say you were coming from?

Toronto. And no, not exactly like this.

Well, it's pretty straightforward.

We have one medical tent, some staff, like me, stay put,

others go between camps.

The unofficial ones, which this is, have less resources.

We have about 2500 displaced residents, give or take,

mostly Syrian, some from other parts of the region.

The government curbed registration

meaning they can't access social services.

We have two physicians, six nurses rotating in pairs.

We see a lot of mental health issues, NCDs like diabetes,

hypertension, family planning.

You can stop me if you already know all this.

No, no, this is good.

Good you speak the language,

though it's afternoon now.

Toronto via where?

Syria. Just over the border a few hours from here.

Ah, that's a story I'd like to hear.

Here's your tent.

If there's something you need, we...

probably don't have it.

Hamed, you with me?

Hmm?

Yeah, it's just the uh...

The travel it has a way of taking away your bearings.

Hmm. Get some sleep.

Come find me when you remember who you are.

What's that?

Ah. It reads data from my pacemaker.

Cardiologists use them to keep logs of rhythms, and vitals

and it's supposed to automatically upload to my tablet

but it's just-- - Shouldn't that be going to your cardiologist?

Yes, it will be, once I find one.

- You still haven't? - Why do you look so nice?

Oh, um, I have a meeting.

Remember about a month ago, there was this--

What do you mean, you can't sync?!

- ...woman who pushed me. - Like what do you mean?

A little game on our way to our morning classes.

Elie.

Bashir.

Hi, Mr. Spurling?

I'm a nurse calling from York Memorial emergency department.

You registered yesterday with abdominal pain

but left before seeing a doctor?

Hey! When are we going to get helped?

Yes, no, I'm aware the waits were very long...

No, it's just as busy today. I'm trying to make sure

that you're in a position to receive care elsewhere.

Yeah, you were telling us that you--

Yeah. Where are the labs for Mr. Rusinsky?

Because what came up is urinalysis not chem 7--

Okay, well I can give you the number for a walk-in clinic.

Oh! Or you can hang up on me.

Oh, sorry what? Wrong labs?

I have been here five minutes. How is there an already

"impossible to get to everything" pile of patients?

Okay no, you do not get to be cranky yet,

I have been trying to take a single bite of this protein bar for hours,

every time I go to unwrap it-- - Does anybody actually work here?

I know you've been waiting, sir.

We have the results of your EKG

but the doctor hasn't had a chance to look at them yet,

but I'll check again. - Okay, thanks but I think they need help.

Right. Stomach pain lady, who's been in agony by the way,

finally puked, and then this lady here tried to help

clean up the mess but something's wrong with her knee

so she can't get up. - Hey, what's your name?

Lenore Callahan. Audrey here is really burning up.

Please, just call me a taxi.

I'll be better off at home than here.

Audrey, I'm sorry we can't let you go by yourself,

but I will change your fluids and I will try calling your sister again.

And Miss Callahan, you need to stay on your gurney, okay?

Are you okay?

Yeah, you don't need to worry about me.

Um, I know the waits are long,

but everybody has been triaged according to how acute

their situation is and you will all get seen,

we're just asking for some patience.

So, feel more like yourself?

Yeah.

You been in a camp like this before?

Yeah and practiced there.

And in your Canadian hospital?

Uh, emergency medicine and trauma surgery residence.

Right. So why'd you come back?

Um, I got a passport and I can travel again so,

the timing seemed right.

So you don't really know.

Westerners come for all sorts of reasons.

Adrenaline. Conviction. Curiosity. Being on the lam.

Not sure I qualify as a westerner.

- Hm. - And what about you?

Neurology in Lyon and hated it.

Got married to an internist and hated that too.

Met someone in an airport five years ago who got me into this.

And you've been doing it ever since?

Well, it's easier when nothing ties you home.

Don't forget to hydrate.

So, I know that uh, coming forward wasn't easy.

Did Doctor Devi explain why I wanted to... to sit with you?

Yes, she said so that I would know the surgical department...

has my back. - As does hospital admin.

We take prejudicial behaviour directed at our staff

very seriously. The instigator has been suspended without pay.

Uh, I mean I didn't mean for her to lose her job,

I really just want to move on and put this behind me.

Oh well, we didn't fire her but we told her very clearly

that she will not be getting a second chance.

- Okay. - June,

you did not deserve to be treated that way.

- Thank you. - Uh, sorry. I have to ask,

are you, um, satisfied with the action that we have taken on this matter?

I'm sorry are you asking me for like a star rating or...?

Fair enough.

So while we have you here, there is another piece of business.

Mark, could you um...

Yes! Well, in light of your recent work

in this novel specialized residency,

we have created a title, Acute Care Surgical Response Fellow.

And it comes with a bursary - 6,400 $ to be precise.

Uh, sorry. I'm still a resident.

Just for a few more months. We're jump-starting next steps.

Let's just consider it an investment in keeping you on.

Um...

Ah, pelvic fracture.

Just saved me tracking down the on-call orthopedic surgeon.

With me, June.

EMT says you fell off your roof?

Trying to adjust my uh TV antenna to pick up the ballgame.

You know the cable company could solve that problem for you, right?

I'm just gonna lower your trousers a little bit here, okay?

June? - FAST shows an enlarged spleen.

Let's get sharper eyes.

- Get me up to speed, Mark. - Abdomen and pelvic pain,

lower extremity numbness and tingling.

Major ecchymosis visible. No hypovolemia, fluids at the scene.

What'd the neuro say? Is Babinski up or down?

June?

Okay, open book fracture with retroperitoneal bleeding.

External fixation?

Was thinking open reduction with internal fixation,

am I set up? - I would want to fix that bleed first.

Obviously.

Uh, June can you rewrap that sling?

Hi. Babinski's negative.

Uh, but about the spleen, I do think it's a concern.

One that's way down our list of priorities.

I disagree, sir.

- Okay. - Which has been noted, June.

Well how about, you let us do our thing

and we will have you ambulatory, uh,

that means walking again faster.

If that's okay with Dr. Curtis, of course?

I yield to your obvious expertise.

Fantastic. 5mg of midazolam please.

I cross-checked results from 50 labs we sent out

in the last few hours and 35 are wrong.

- Wrong how? - Wrong test, wrong patient.

Sometimes it's obvious who got whose but even then...

So they all need to be redone?

Claire, could you look after Mr. Maxwell?

He just got out of Trauma OR. - Notes are on the chart.

Doctor Devi, you look different?

I was at a concert when Claire called about this system glitch.

Doctor Olsen, have you had any reports from other departments?

No must be ED specific,

you better hope that one of the tech guys answers the phone.

Um, but before you call.

Can you walk with me?

Province is releasing data on ED waiting times

and ours are... frankly embarrassing.

One of the reasons we brought you in Neeta was to...

help us with this exact issue. So...

I'd like to see comps from other hospitals,

I bet they're similar. - And irrelevant.

We are a level one trauma centre with a reputation to uphold,

so I am going to need you to do better.

There's a nationwide shortage of both funding and staff

that's been 10 years in the making.

So it's not the free healthcare utopia that you expected, is it?

Well the one saving grace is Trauma OR,

it's proving to be the cutting-edge tool

that Jed Bishop said it would be so, Nice work Mark.

- Thanks, Neil. - What concert?

What? Oh, it's this punk band that I--

Oh. Then I won't know them.

Fever's high.

What's your protocol on IV hydration?

If they can drink, we try to conserve saline.

I think it's chicken pox.

Yeah, you see it from time to time. Have you had it?

Mm-hmm.

Basil? What happened?

Okay.

Put him here.

Okay guys, we'll take it from here.

Tourniquets?

Trauma bag, behind you.

Okay.

- Get me the bone saw. - No, no, no,

we can do a vascular shunt.

You have cannula? - No, we're not set up for that.

It needs to come off.

But, if we reconstruct the brachial artery,

then we can save at least some function.

And cause him to bleed out?

We have three units of O-neg at best!

So we'll cycle his back through.

What about a sterile field?

We sacrifice sterility for efficacy when necessary.

But he would need one to one monitoring.

We could save his arm!

Maybe you forgot how it works in a camp.

We need to save his life. Bone saw.

My house, my call.

Assistant teacher.

But next week I start university to become a real one.

In Beirut.

You're leaving this place.

I'm Bashir. - Bayan.

Do you have a medical question, Bayan?

Yes, but not for me.

Talia.

I don't know, but she gets nauseous and dizzy a lot.

And she can't walk five minutes without needing to sit down.

I told her that I wanted to ask you questions

about getting to Canada,

so she's not suspicious that I'm worried.

I thought maybe this way you could observe her?

I'd be happy to. Give me one minute, please.

I came to see you. I have your wedding gift.

We were best friends at 16.

You know, to go from that to lovers to everything else.

Anyway, we just, we made plans so young.

Lovers is not a word you should ever be using.

What about you and Jonathan?

Where did things go wrong there?

Let's not talk about our ex-lovers.

Oh, so you get to say.

I get to say whatever I want.

Don't take it too close. I like it scruffy.

Now would it be the worst thing in the world

if I got back from work and you were still here?

I-I know that when we started this up we said we'd just...

But I... We should be more.

- Theo - I'm serious.

Theo, you're the first to admit you haven't exactly been

making level choices recently.

Yeah, but this is not what this is.

And with you, there is clarity.

Or you've had one 20-year relationship and then me.

And you're more comfortable as a serial monogamist.

Okay.

Well, I will be back in the morning.

And if you're here, then I'll know.

And for the record, you do not get a say in my beard

until I get an answer.

Antivirals. Are those for us?

She's uh, she's resigned to my convictions.

Hey. Tell her that's the toll of knowing you.

Maybe it's for the best, Saleh.

Starting over isn't easy. - I know that,

but... - Shoot.

The teacher here.

Um. I've been invited for a house call pretending to be tea.

Want company?

More like an accomplice.

Turn around. Seriously.

Run as fast as you can away from this place.

Who are you and what have you done with Mags?

Hey! Hey! He just got here! How come she's seeing him?

- I'm a doctor, sir. - Oh, well then stop flirting

and help me! If I can't get a break from my pain

why should you? Hey. You said you'd get me something!

Hold on. Miss Porchnick? Is there a Miss Porchnick here?

It's malware, also called ransomware.

Meaning they want money so we can access our system?

Who'd do that? - They said it's always cross-border.

So, untraceable. It's a new epidemic.

Now joke's on them, we clearly can't afford to pay.

Yeah, IT says it started down here

so they want to sever us off and contain the damage.

Our entire department has a virus.

Which means we revert to paper.

Ugh. Flying blind with labs and imaging

is only going to add to our already insane wait times.

Can we just call in more staff?

For a last-minute night shift? Good luck.

On the bright side, fax still works.

Did one of you call for a list of cardiologists

accepting new patients at the big five?

- Yeah. That's me. - Well, hopefully

your patient is patient because each one of them

has a six-month waiting list.

Okay, she just called a lady who got here way after me!

If y'all don't start getting your asses in gear,

I'm gonna-- - Sir!

I understand that you're frustrated but one more threat like that

and you'll have to leave, understood?

What you're gonna herd me like a common criminal? Fine!

It's you, isn't it?

The patient who needs a cardiologist?

One of them is on mat leave.

Two others are not taking any referrals.

So what are you going to do?

Handle it on my own apparently,

because as evidenced by tonight, our entire system collapses

if we don't put everything in our lives second.

Well, hang in there?

Sorry about the wait Miss Callahan.

The sickest go first. If you think I should come back another day.

You are here for arthritic knee pain, right? May I?

I've been on the elective surgery list 18 months,

only I fell and I twisted it,

and the nurse on the hotline said to come in.

Okay, yeah. It is pretty swollen.

Were you alone when you fell?

- Well, my husband was with me. - Okay.

Is he here now? Because he may want to hear this.

He is. Though not how you mean.

I'm in a committed relationship with the Lord.

Ah, with the-- Okay. Open your mouth for me, please.

Thank you.

I'm sure it sounds ridiculous to a woman of science,

but it just means that I've chosen to centre my life

according to doing good works. - Yeah. Well I gotta tell you,

the line for imaging is long and even if it wasn't,

getting a radiologist to actually look

at a non-acute X-ray during a night shift is...

Not a priority. I see resource crunches every day in our church mission.

Well, you are running a bit of a fever, which can happen

when arthritic fluid gets infected.

I'm just lightheaded. I guess I haven't eaten since I got here.

Yeah... Not even from the vending machine?

Oh, I was afraid I'd miss my turn and then,

I'd just add to the chaos you're already dealing with, so.

Yeah, I shouldn't have said that about no one reading your X-ray.

If you are willing to wait a little bit longer,

I will make it happen. And in the meantime,

we will also get you something to eat.

- Oh thanks, that's very kind. - Of course.

- English please, doctor. - Auntie, my English is fine.

Because we practice, practice, practice.

She needs it for university.

Do you still have family in Aleppo, Bashir?

Only a brother from another mother.

Um, my parents, they uh,

they were doctors there before the war.

I didn't realize you two lived together.

My husband and I never had children.

When he passed, the war was slowing

and I thought I would go live with my sister in Douma,

but then Bayan came and she needed to learn English.

You came alone? How old were you?

I was 10, and Talia took me in.

We hoped to get an apartment in the city but,

the jobs don't pay enough. - And the children here need us!

You're going to be a success story. No more living in tents.

Are you parents?

My wife and I are waiting

until we can build a life somewhere else.

And you?

You built a new life but where's the family to show for it?

My hands are full with my sister.

Uh, does she like Toronto?

In some ways, I think she feels more at home there than I do.

Almost time for afternoon class.

Auntie, stay, we will get it.

There is a wash station down the path.

Whatever you think is wrong with me,

you need to lie to her.

I don't want anything to get in the way of her chance

to make her own life. - Ah.

Have you been experiencing any joints pain?

So your pelvis has been reduced

and your internal bleeding is under control.

And the gods among men don't even show up to allow us

to bask in their reflected glory?

Seeing your enlarged spleen I was actually able to get labs

which trust me, tonight is a miracle.

- Hah. - Turns out you have thrombocytopenia,

which means a low platelet count.

You should also know that it's been associated

with some other underlying conditions.

Like Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.

- Yeah. Do you-- - Stage 4.

I'd chalk the blood disorder up to my recent chemo which failed,

and by the sounds of it caused my platelets to throw a party in my spleen?

That would make sense.

Yeah. It also means you were right earlier.

I'm impressed you got there, it's the kind of differential

that can get lost in the noise.

- Are you a doctor? - Oncologist.

20 years at Western. And before you ask,

no friends or family you should be calling.

You didn't want to go to your own hospital?

Why'd you back down in there whatever your name is?

- June Curtis. - Hm.

You know how this works. I'm a resident.

Promise me you won't go looking for self-worth

in their opinions, Curtis. You won't find it.

I never really helped any of my patients,

at least let me help you.

I don't mean to be rude, but I don't even know you.

Yeah, but I know you. And a hundred other residents like you,

ones I ground down just like those onanistic clowns

that call themselves your bosses.

Is that really how you view your life's work?

You didn't help anyone? - When I look back,

all I did was tell people they were dying

or saddled with terrible options.

Transfusions,

that could get you strong enough for another round of treatment.

I cancelled my cable because I thought watching TV

was the wrong thing to do with my remaining time.

Turns out ballgames and movies are all I want.

You can't save me Curtis. So don't waste your energy.

Maybe, but at least I can buy you some time.

I said no.

Any idea what's wrong with Talia?

Fever, crackling lungs, low pulse.

She's bradycardic, it could be endocarditis.

I'd want to do an ECG but I'm worried about heart block.

Talia's heart is blocked? From what?

We don't know anything for sure.

But she didn't tell me anything.

- Because I didn't tell her. - Because you can't help her?

We can give her antibiotics for an infection.

But we don't have a pacemaker to keep her heart--

Okay, so get one. You can call your fancy hospital, right?

Bayan, it doesn't work like that.

Well it should! You have to do something!

I promise we'll find a way to help, okay?

What?

It doesn't work like that?

You won't even try asking your colleagues?

I can't just make a pacemaker fall off the supply shelf,

I'm still only a resident. - With a direct line you've used for me more than once.

- It's not the right solution. - What's going on, Bashir?

What's wrong? Why are you really here?

I...

I just don't want to get their hopes up.

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Hi, I'm Doctor Hunter.

Um, I know you've been waiting a while sir.

Look, all I know is a million hours ago,

they said they were waiting for a doctor to read me my tests.

It's been hectic with the system glitches but fortunately,

I was able to track down your results manually.

So you can tell me why my heart was racing?

My co-workers forced me to take an ambulance,

saying I looked so pale and nauseous.

They also said anything heart-related gets seen first,

but that's clearly not true.

Well, our neurologist looked over your EEG

and your blood work and concluded that you have epilepsy.

Epilepsy?

Oh, my God. - I know it may seem frightening

but many people do live with the disease, it is manageable.

Wait, doesn't that mean seizures?

What does that have to do with my heart?

Right, well uh,

heart palpitations can be a marker of uh...

Do you have somewhere else better to be?

Uh no, sorry. I'm sorry, Mister Bertrand.

What we'll do is refer you to a specialist.

Braunstein. Bertrand's my first name.

Your name isn't uh... Shaun Bertrand?

No, man. My name's Bertrand Braunstein.

Did you just read me the wrong results?!

Ah, you... You got an EKG. Not an EEG.

- What's the difference? - I mean the good news would be

that your brain is fine. And uh, and your EKG's normal as well.

I'm very sorry about this the mix-up.

It's just, it's been a day.

W-wait that's it?! I sat around here all night

for you to tell me nothing happened? I felt something!

Okay, but your blood work doesn't show any signs of an MI,

so unless anything concrete showed up during the EKG,

which it didn't, all we can do is recommend

that you follow up with your GP. - And I just go home praying

that I don't die in my sleep?

You really expect me to live with that uncertainty?

So the teacher has endocarditis?

Roth spots, Janeway lesions? - Classic presentation.

I'd have to confirm with echo but she could need pacing.

I was wondering what the odds are--

Slim to nil.

There's no way an NGO could get their hands on a pacemaker?

Well, maybe if you applied the right pressure, kept it up for weeks

and gave up something else they don't have funding for?

What about a hospital in Beirut?

One might take her but only if an NGO foots the bill.

So, same dance.

How the hell did anyone keep track of patients before computers?

Yeah, speaking of chaos, what would you say if I asked

to borrow the C-Arm in Trauma OR for a non-acute injury?

I'd say I just let you move in and you're already trying to get me fired?

I know you were trying to tell me about this big meeting earlier and I just wasn't--

Turns out it wasn't a meeting. Just a piece of performance art.

Come on, Mags.

What?

I know she doesn't want to speak with me right now.

Then why are you bothering her?

I need advice, heart patient. Seriously?

You just bailed on her to fly halfway around the world

and she takes it in stride to create some distance

and now you can't even let her have that?

Call someone else.

Yeah, that's not what I meant.

Look. A 60-year-old woman with endocarditis,

it could be causing a heart block. We have broad spectrum antibiotics

but I can't get my hands on a pacemaker.

It's a 30,000 $-piece of equipment.

I was thinking I could stop gap with external pacing

until it gets here. - What?

Externally pacing for more than 12 hours risks electrical burns.

On the other hand, the body will view

the intravenous pacer as a foreign object

and it'll collect infection just like the heart valve.

She probably needs surgical valve repair not pacing.

Did you get that?

Yeah. Yeah. I did. Thanks.

How is she? - Just don't do anything stupid over there.

Hey I was trying to freeze him out for you!

You could've held the line.

Yeah, I can't let a stranger suffer, I'm just incapable of that.

- You're allowed to feel upset. - Yeah and I am!

I'm sad and hurt and confused. But it's not just all about him.

Okay, so how do you process these feelings?

Uh, lately? By talking it out with him.

But since I can't do that, I guess...

I'm right back at pouring it all into this place.

Why, how do you...?

Oh I just push it all down until it rears up

in destructive ways. Like letting you use the C-arm.

I need help here!

She's not breathing. - Okay.

Maybe she aspirated? Help me turn her.

Yeah. One, two.

Okay, I'll get something to suction.

Did anybody see her choking?

Alright.

Hold on, I think I--

Says she was supposed to be sent to OR.

Did we lose track of her? - We have no way of knowing that.

Doctor Devi, if it keeps on like this, someone is gonna die.

Hey.

Can I have your attention, please?

Due to a systems failure beyond our control,

effective immediately unless you're a patient

requiring level one care, this department is closed.

Our triage nurses will be going through who can stay,

who should go, and they'll be handing out lists

of the closest available EDs and clinics.

Are we really closing to new patients?

And sending less acute to other hospitals until our systems are back?

IT is saying it could take all night to get our systems back online,

call the other EDs let them know we're diverting.

We're supposed to call them before we close.

I'll do my best but, we're not the only ones with a bed shortage.

Yet according to Olsen, this massive structural problem is on me.

Are you even allowed to do what you just did?

Claire can you do another EKG on the guy in Exam room D?

And if it's clear go ahead and discharge, I'll sign off later.

I'm not saying that she should be doing my job for me, it's just that--

- No, you trust her judgment. - And why should he wait hours for me

when you can get him out sooner. Oh and it's Bertrand Braunstein.

Not Shaun Bertrand. - Okay.

- He might have a point. - About my judgment?

Claire, um how comfortable are you with the C-arm in Trauma OR?

Because June says I can use it for Miss Callahan's knee

but all the techs are busy and I'm like...

If no help is coming, we help ourselves.

Please.

Bayan, I was wrong. Talia needs surgery.

One that she can't get here.

It has to be in a proper hospital.

I'll advocate for resources to get her there.

Until then... - Good thing I'm not leaving.

You should undo that.

Hey, there are others who can help.

Who? You? You will leave eventually.

And if I don't stay, she could die.

Okay...

- It might take a minute. - Quick pinch.

One, two, three.

It's not right, skipping the line,

I can still hear Audrey crying for help when I close my eyes.

You need help too. The colour of the fluid does suggest infection.

- Mags! - Yeah?

I think you should...

Lenore, you don't drink alcohol, do you? Or overuse painkillers?

No alcohol. And I only use pain pills the way my doctor says, why?

Well, there is scarring on your liver.

My liver? I thought you were looking at my knee.

Yeah, we checked a wider area given your lightheadedness and jaundice.

Cirrhosis primarily comes from toxins but it can also come

from the kind of mission work that you do.

I'm not sure I follow.

Well, we see hepatitis in unhoused communities,

it is transmissible and it can cause loss of appetite,

bruising and eventually liver injury.

Can you treat it?

Well, we'll need to do typing once our labs are up.

But Lenore, for your liver to get this bad,

it would have taken a long time. You doctor didn't notice anything?

I mentioned some tiredness and bloating

and she just told me to slow down but, you know it's not my--

Incoming! Parking cop!

Some guy snapped and ran him over on purpose.

Hello? - Doctor Novak, my patient needed an imaging

and everything was backed up. We'll get out of your way.

- Forget it, no time! - Trauma Bay's open.

Thought we weaned you off this kind of excess, Leblanc.

Will that man be okay?

Your doctor should have caught this! You should file a complaint.

She's busy and I didn't press it--

Well you should start since you can't rely on her.

- I don't need to, I have God. - Lenore,

isn't that kind of thinking what landed you here?

- Mags! - I've devoted my whole life to Him

and I trust Him to take care of me too.

Yeah, except what if a life of service isn't enough anymore?

Mags! I think you made your point.

What happened to you either waiting at my place

or going home to yours.

I'm still married Theo.

As like, you're still legally married?

Because plenty of couples let that linger.

No.

I mean, according to Jonathan we're still together.

Six months ago, you were telling people he moved out.

Six months ago he did. And then he moved back,

ostensibly because the cost of two households was bleeding us dry.

But, full transparency, he also thinks we're working on it.

Full transparency?

Well he thinks you're working on it because you are or--

We sleep in separate rooms. We've been on a few dates

Liz, you guys have a kid, okay?

I can't be the one who comes between that.

Theo, I haven't done anything wrong here

and neither have you.

Does this change what you said earlier?

Do you want to fix things with him?

I don't know!

You paged me up here why?

I couldn't take him to Trauma OR

because of a woman with knee problems.

And that is an act of compassion I understand that you sanctioned?

Yeah, well your guy was stabilized and rushed into surgery, so?

Okay, that's not my point.

Then what is your point, that you get to use your gut and I don't?

You do understand that we bill O-HIP like

5,000 $ a minute for Trauma OR, right?

So maybe you should use my bursary blood to money to pay for that!

Yeah, I'll even write you a check for the balance!

Okay, June, I see that you are upset.

And uh, to be honest I wasn't expecting it--

You guys cooked up this fake position to try to pacify me

and you made me feel like I shouldn't have even reported the stupid incident.

Our timing was justifiably terrible,

but Olsen approached me months ago about it and I wanted to wait

until I was sure you liked working with me.

Why can't you see this for what it is?

It's a reflection of your ability.

You're taking Talia home, to Douma?

Yeah. As a Syrian, the hospitals will treat her.

And she has a sister there.

That area is regime controlled.

I wouldn't even risk going there.

I know that's why I'm asking to borrow your truck, I'll go--

You could be arrested! If we try to help everybody, we help nobody.

Look, I made a mess, this is the only way I know to fix it.

Can't you just once stop taking everything on yourself!

You say you're here for me? Why?

To talk me out of leaving because you're worried

that I can't make my own life? - No, no, it's not--

Look, you don't know what it's like...

Being the one that left.

Whatever part of you is missing,

it's not in Douma, Bashir.

You told me not to seek validation in their opinion of me

but this is how this entire ecosystem is built.

- Then you have to resist it. - Except every time I try,

it's the same garbage cycle. Either people end up hating me

or they tell me not to help them! - So give up.

Enough already, right?

Right, like that's why you were on your roof.

You don't care what happens to you, anymore?

You know what? You wanna die so badly, fine!

You know, we're not so different.

I used to think the problem was everyone else,

but the problem is me...

Hating myself.

Listen, I do not...

It's not that I want to die. But I am.

So if you really want to help me,

you can distract me from that.

Hm?

Asthma attack admitted and stable.

And the kid with the glass in his eye

is waiting for ophthalmology who still insists he's on his way.

Uh, sorry.

You know anything about curtain five? Can't find the intake.

Um. Give me five seconds. I'm just gonna change an infusion in E first.

Well, looks like we weathered the storm.

You're going to take heat for closing those doors though.

I am aware.

But hey, Olsen was out of line before.

Ah, the cavalry arrives after the battle is lost.

Arnold you said five, right?

Yes, Claire. It's five.

- How's Mother Theresa? - She has hepatitis

which wasn't caught for who knows how long.

I hope we didn't screw you up with our little stunt thing.

No. Actually, they tried to promote me.

What? - Help! Help! She's bleeding!

Someone! Someone help!

- Oh my God, it's Claire! It's Claire! - Call a code blue!

Pulse is faint. Multiple stab wounds!

Gauze! Gauze! Gauze! - Now, Arnold!

We need her in trauma OR now!

- Move! - Did anybody see who did this?

- Claire, can you hear us? - Got the board!

Board roll on three. One, two, three.

Lift on three. One, two, three.

Out of the way, out of the way, out of the way.

- We've got you, Claire. - Clear! Clear the way!

I told her if she didn't leave, I won't accept any treatment.

I'm not going to let her stay for me.

Okay look, when I left home...

I left with this weight, to live for those who couldn't.

And if you make Bayan do the same, she'll have to carry it too.

Doctor Garneau. Will you introduce me to the NGO reps?

Talia needs resources and a trip to the hospital.

They're coming to test the water chlorination.

Those gastroenteritis cases I mentioned?

They're looking more like cholera.

An outbreak? Are you sure?

I sent samples to the lab in Beirut.

If I'm right, we'll know in a few days.

There's a lot of fluid, likely organ perforation.

- Which one? - C-arm.

Heart rate's rising. She's showing signs of shock.

BP's on rapid decline. MTP?

Yeah, let's hang as many units as we can.

One gram TXA, we really need to figure out what organ got hit.

Imaging confirms free fluid, spleen and right kidney.

I need more gauze, I can't get a handle on this bleed.

- What about her left? - She doesn't have one.

No left kidney? Claire only has one?

Does anyone know why?

No. She doesn't really talk about personal stuff like that.

- V-tach! - She's hemodynamically unstable.

Rhoda, crash cart! - We gotta to open her now, source the damage.

Yeah, I'm going to start a central line.

V-fib. She's in v-fib, we need to shock.

Charge 200.

Clear!

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