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I just walked, through the woods. Nine days, that's it.

I don't know how to feel.

I want us rethinking our entire approach to patient interaction.

I'm sorry, Bashir, but for you, that means not training as a surgeon.

Is this gonna be a problem? This desire you have to go all in.

You better put distance between yourself and that circus.

We're one of only a handful of trauma OR in all of North America.

You'd be getting in on the ground floor. I don't know.

I thought maybe you'd be down for some chaos. - Maybe I am.

I'm here for you, Amira. Always.

When you were sent to live with the cousins,

it was only because of how much Mama and Papa loved you.

Hey, are you okay?

Yes, no, if they drive you home...

No, I'm on tomorrow, too.

I'm sorry!

Amira is... staying at a friend's.

Ah... So, does that mean you can stay here tonight?

All this mess for an omelette?

I don't mind the mess...

- You said kidney stones run in the family, Mr. Cook? - Andy.

Yeah, my dad would go into the basement, sweat 'em out

until they passed

then come back up a new man.

I tried to do that but... - They can be pretty painful.

Any discomfort when you're urinating?

Nah. Just a bit of blood, but that's nothing new.

Nothing new... meaning this been going on for how long?

Every few weeks for years.

And you never told your family doctor?

It's a lot, so... no.

Okay, well, I'll need to run some tests. Okay, I'll be back.

My dad used to say, "Tell a doctor you sneezed and he's gonna find cancer."

Don't go proving him right!

Hey, Arnold, somebody called up for a cardiology consult?

Yes. Thank you, Mags.

Patient in 4 is 16 weeks pregnant.

Too early for OB but rate's up and rhythm's off. - Okay.

I know this might not be your speed but...

My parents are in town and they'd like to meet you.

I know it's way too fast, but my mom and I don't really keep secrets

and she was like, You're seeing someone and I was like, Yeah...

- I don't know... - Really, you don't have to, it's okay.

You okay, June?

Yeah, I have a headache. I don't usually get them...

You blew up your entire five-year plan for a speciality with Novak of all people?

Bet it's a migraine. You need sumatriptan?

I'll be fine, thank you, Mags.

Let me know about... the thing.

How does she do that?

Just tell you how you're doing, a tiny emotional conqueror.

Trauma work still hectic?

Novak and structure don't exactly mix,

but I figure if I survive this, I can write my own ticket.

You know, we all think it's a mistake, Devi keeping you out.

She knows you want trauma surgery, right? - It's fine, June-

You could march back in there, convince her to reconsider...

Or you could keep your head down and let the work speak for itself?

So what were you doing when your heart started racing?

I was delivering nachos and I lost my breath;

I couldn't hold on to the tray and the customers ended up covered in jalapeños and cheese.

My manager only let me off the hook when he found out I'm pregnant.

That's one way to share the news.

I hoped to keep it quiet longer; I didn't want them cutting my shifts.

Isn't that illegal?

You've obviously never worked at a restaurant...

- Okay... - My baby looks okay?

- Yeah. Nice and strong. - We were freaked at first,

but when we started talking about how to make it work we realized we were also excited.

So I picked up shifts and Trevor's on the road pulling extra hours.

Is there someone else I could call to be here with you?

Our parents don't know about the baby yet.

Trevor wanted to tell right away but I made him wait until we had some kind of plan.

Does anyone in your family have a heart condition?

No. Not that I know of... Why?

Your atria is quivering, not pumping.

Rare congenital malformations can cause something called Mitral Valve Stenosis.

It's the valve that allows blood into the main pumping chamber of your heart,

well, yours is narrowed.

Wouldn't I have noticed something like that?

It can be dormant or even feel like normal stress until aggravated.

Sometimes by pregnancy.

Usually it doesn't ramp up until later in the second trimester

but considering your symptoms, I'd like to admit you,

start bisoprolol and see how you react to the meds.

I'm not going back to work today?

- Well, I'm not sure you'll be able to go back at all. - But I have to!

Our plan has me working until my 8th month! - Nice slow breaths.

I know this is a lot,

but it's important for you to know that...

if you decide to stay pregnant, you'll need to be on bed rest...

Decide?

Are you saying I shouldn't keep the baby?

I need you to understand... the reality of the situation

is that women with your condition are generally advised to not become pregnant.

I... I need to call Trevor.

I'm gonna check you into cardiology so we can monitor you overnight.

And in the meantime, if there is anything at all, just text me.

Okay...

Blue's for radiology, pink's for gas men,

and neurology and orthopedics are both green for some reason?

It's your staffing calendar; shouldn't you know the reason?

There's a complex matrix that goes into deciding

who does what into Trauma OR but trust me when I say the math checks out.

I do trust you Mark, but for my own education I'd benefit from seeing your calculations?

If it helps I'll make orthopedics yellow.

Oh! Crap, that was my fault. No. Did it get on you?

Just the sleeve.

Never happens at the end of the day when you don't have to look good...

If you need an extra lab coat, they're in the locker room if you can't get that out.

Thanks. Oh, while I have you, Dr. Hunter, the schedule...

No gaps today, coverage is solid.

I connected with admitting and they said occupancy's good this morning.

I meant your shifts. You... you have a lot of them.

Don't get me wrong. It's been a real asset

you stepping into emerg as a supervising doctor while still balancing pedes.

I just want to make sure it's not too much too soon.

My therapist says the more normal the better.

I don't get to see my girls for a bit, so work's a good outlet.

I know that balancing act well...

You have kids? How are they dealing with being uprooted?

A son. My partner's turn to take sabbatical.

Find a sub for Tuesday and at least half of Friday?

- Sure. - Great.

Hi, again, Andy.

Are we talking chickpea or golf ball sized?

I need to know if I'm a hero or a wuss.

Huh, actually, it's not kidney stones.

Oh, my God... It is cancer?

No. Andy, you have ovarian cysts.

That's funny.

To have ovarian cysts, wouldn't I have to have...

- Ovaries. - Yeah.

- And a uterus - And that.

Which explains the bleeding you've been experiencing every few weeks...

A... period?

You're saying I'm a woman on the inside?

Because I have plumbing that says otherwise!

I fathered a kid! She has my ears!

No, that's not what I'm saying.

You have a rare condition called Persistent Mullerian duct syndrome.

It causes someone with both XY chromosomes

to have a male-presenting body

but to also have internal reproductive organs

like ovaries and, in some cases, a uterus.

I know this is a lot to take in.

I'm a man, Dr. Hamed.

A man who apparently can't handle menstrual cramps--

No, it's likely your cysts causing you that pain,

but cramps can be severely debilitating.

Yeah, my daughter has those.

She'd use them as an excuse to skip school during her time of the month-

It can run in families.

The good news is that these cysts often resolve themselves.

I can give you Toradol

which is an anti-inflammatory that can help you deal with the pain--

Great, then I can go?

Um, no, I've asked a surgeon and an endocrinologist

to come speak to you-- - I'd rather not.

Andy, you have to make sure your hormones are under control

so you can decide how to manage this moving forward--

Buddy, I don't want anyone else knowing about this.

Just get me what I need to go home.

Looks like triage gave you the VIP bling.

When I said it was a raccoon bite they just rushed me back here,

which has just been kind of freaking me out; I was just trying to help the little guy.

Most people in this city have far less empathy for raccoons...

I guess I was a little naive...

He was stuck under my porch and I was just moving a few bricks to,

you know, help him get out. And then, as soon as he saw me

he just lunged and I felt his teeth sink in.

That sounds horrifying.

Animal control said that he was probably sick or something so, you know,

but we don't know with what because he just ran off, so...

Are you going to have to give me rabies post-exposure prophylaxis?

You're a nurse?

No, I just googled it while I was waiting.

Is it really 21 needles in the stomach?

No, that was years ago. Now it's one shot at the site,

and then a paltry four more over the next two weeks.

Um, okay, I'm...

I'm really afraid of needles.

I mean the last shot I got was my HPV vaccine back in eighth grade

even then, it took three tries and my mom holding my hand and singing so,

we hoped I'd grow out of it but...

It's a totally normal phobia and very common in adults.

Still, letting rabies go untreated isn't an option.

Once the virus sets in it's too late,

so we're going to have to start your treatment tonight.

Inactive files live here,

each numbered with a priority scale you'll need to memorize.

And here's one more for the top of the pile.

Hi, Dr. Hunter, this is Nancy.

She's doing her placement with us.

Oh, a nursing student?

You're indeed familiar with IVs and--

Oh! Have you checked in at triage, sir?

Don't think I can walk much further.

- Whoa, okay! - Nancy, go find Dr. Novak.

I think I'm going to be sick.

- Okay, I'll find him. - Can I get some help here?

And she's so young and underwater financially,

she'll be lucky if she even carries to term.

I have to leave my phone on. - You always take it home, Magalie.

I worry about what that does to you.

I know.

Oh, it's bitter and a bit astringent.

And not at all how you described it.

- You're in town for a client? - Legal aid conference.

Yeah, your father was jealous I'd get to see you without him so he tagged along.

You remember the rule, right? You have to be happy with the next one...

Sorry. Dance lesson carpool crisis.

How old's your sister, Bashir?

Fourteen.

God, Magalie and her sister were both tornadoes at that age.

Constant talking. Never got a word in.

I still don't, you see?

Were you sponsored by a family when you came over?

Well, I do a lot of work with non-profits...

I was just curious.

It's fine, that was a government sponsorship.

Oh, I'm sure that wasn't easy.

At my firm, if a couple junior copywriters start-up,

they're supposed to disclose it.

It's not like that for residents,

especially one's working on different floors.

And don't have a tyrant for a boss?

Do you like old-world wine, Bashir?

No, he's not much of a drinker actually.

I bet he's considering it though. Just to get through the evening?

You know what? It's healthier never to touch it.

Okay...

Let's see what other secrets we can dig up.

Hmm?

but this has got a certain flair to it.

Like I was betrayed by Iago, except it was my dishwasher.

Say what?

I'm a props master.

We're striking a run of Othello

and I brought the knives home to clean 'em.

They're dulled but I guess blades up was still a rookie move.

By the way... Ow! - Sorry, Otto.

Rebound tenderness.

Ultrasound is showing blood in the abdomen. I think we should open,

repair the bowel and source the bleed.

Positive shake test and distention; both signs of peritonitis.

He's gonna need an ileostomy. - I don't think so.

Knives went in clean so we should be able to repair.

If that doesn't work and we waste time,

we're not going to be able to stop the other bleed or curb the infection-

He's hemodynamically stable which means the bleed is small,

so I think we should try to save his bowel.

We both know that the priority is to avoid sepsis.

- I don't think you're hearing me. - I hear you.

Just disagreeing with you. - Excuse me?

Which one of you is the decider?

That would be me. Otto, your bowel is severed.

Now we're going to confirm that when we go in,

but odds are we're going to have to attach part of it to the outside of your body

temporarily, just until it heals,

and we're going to go in there later, and try to revert, okay?

- Okay... - Alright.

June'll walk you through it

and I'll come back when we are ready to start.

You two aren't on the same page?

Oh no, it's just...

he invites pushback, he wants me to join him.

We'll get you prepped. - That's good.

So, Bashir. How's it been having my daughter boss you around?

She's brilliant.

Bashir actually has more experience than me,

and most other residents.

Did you always know you wanted to be a doctor?

Hum...

Both my parents were doctors, so...

I'll never forget the day Magalie decided.

She had just spent her 11th birthday at a hospital-

We don't know if she's even told him about that.

She was a very difficult patient.

- Though I'll assume by now he's seen your scar... - Wow!

- Challenged the staff at every turn. - Papa!

Claimed since she knew more than her doctors anyway,

she might as well become one.

Okay, he doesn't need to hear this.

Our daughter is a force of nature.

Not everyone can keep up with that. - That's so true.

Okay, enough! Both of you, seriously!

Forgive us, Bashir, we're just excited to meet you.

That's fine. Mags tells me that you're in advertising?

Mm-hmm.

Sylvain?

He's choking. Does he need it?

Yeah, you do it, you're taller.

Are you okay? Can you breathe?

Go ahead, Nancy.

Is this going to numb the pain?

- Yes. - Okay.

Ready to get this over with?

Hi Dr. Hunter. No, I'm really, really not.

Doesn't that needle seem a little big?

Exactly the size it needs to be to supply the antibodies

that your body needs to get up to speed and produce its own,

which you will, in response to the vaccine regimen you start tomorrow. Okay?

In two seconds, you'll be done.

Not to brag, but I am very good at this and you won't feel a thing.

Okay, okay.

Close your eyes and tell me about a place that you'd love to go and why.

Iceland. To see the sheepdogs.

Stop!

I will choose not to take offence of that.

I'm sorry, no, I really can't.

Isn't there some kind of pill I can take

or can't we just rub it in or something?

Unfortunately, no. Look, I know this sucks,

but it's the only way.

And you were doing great, okay?

I've got you, I promise. - Okay.

No, no, no, no, wait!

All done. You didn't even bleed.

Roberta? Are you okay?

Hey, I know it was scary but you did great!

You just take it easy today,

and come by tomorrow around lunch for round two.

I'll drop whatever I'm doing and make sure we get you out of here quickly, okay?

Thank you.

Can we get you something to drink? Some water?

Okay.

Okay, so what happens if the food won't come out?

Well, let's get him into a room and see.

We're almost there, Dad. - Okay, Mags.

I'm just going to see who's on tonight.

Bashir, come on, I need my whole team, okay?

- I think he needs a scope. - I think a scope's overkill.

You want to stick a camera down my throat?

Are you feeling dizzy, Mr. Leblanc?

Um, no.

- Say, "Ah." - Ah.

- Okay, close. - So?

I don't think he needs a scope.

To make sure he didn't aspirate into his lungs!

Open. I know you're worried,

but there are less invasive ways to do that. - Where does it feel stuck, Dad?

- My chest. - Aspiration. That can happen?

Yeah, and it can lead to serious inflammation and pneumonia.

Okay, breathe.

No elevated temperature and his chest sounds clear.

I think the best course of action is likely--

Shot of glucagon? I don't know if that's enough.

Would you like to check for yourself?

No, but one X-ray, just to be safe.

Mags, these are your parents. You're not allowed to treat them.

- But they're my parents. - I know, I just said that.

- That's why-- - You want me to do imaging? - Yes.

I'll do imaging first then back to the hotel.

Okay, I take it back: you can handle her.

Why don't you come to Montreal for Easter dinner, Bashir?

And we'll all promise to chew our food slowly.

- Maman! - I've just never been-- Ow!

I heard we may need an IV in here, Mr... Leblanc?

Mags, are these your parents? - Yes.

- Hi! - Hi!

Night at a restaurant gone awry.

Hi, Bash.

Hey, Arnold.

Okay.

- Hey. - Hey.

Uh...

Yeah...

It was a bit of a shock

to wake up to a bag attached to me.

- Right. - But you said it was coming so...

How long am I going to have it for?

Uh, probably about six months,

but these things can be permanent.

I'm sorry, I'm not usually a crier...

Oh, it's fine. You know when the anesthesia wears off,

patients have all kinds of emotions.

It's just that I sleep on my stomach!

And the nurse says that I have to drain it multiple times a day?

It's just not something you put that on your Tinder bio.

Or maybe you do...

I don't know?

Hey, huh, you don't want to irritate that while it's healing.

It's already irritated. Is it supposed to be this itchy?

- Do you mind if I just? - Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Oh, huh...

Yesterday when I asked you if you were allergic to latex, I thought you said no.

I didn't know I was, so, uh...

What the hell happens now?

Dr. Hunter? The lab called looking for you.

A sample you sent yesterday didn't have the right authorization.

Because it's my own.

I kept checking the status and all it said was pending

because self-exams need sign-off from someone else on staff...

Are you okay?

I think so?

My hands have been feeling numb on and off, ever since the forest.

Could be my head, I just figure I'd stay vigilant.

As an NP, I can order labs?

Thanks, Claire.

Hey.

That's it? Hey?

Dude. You and Mags?

Am I that out of it?

Oh, no. It's just...

It's new and we hadn't told anyone.

Are you upset?

Because two of my favourite people in the world

are together?

Dude, it's like Christmas on my birthday!

No, I'm just... I'm really happy for you.

Thanks...

Dr. Hamed?

When Doctor Hamed gets here, we'll have a chance to...

Oh, you're the one who sent him home?

You should be ashamed of yourself.

He tried to get me to stay. It was me who wanted--

No, no, it's his job to at least try to protect you from yourself.

Meet my daughter, Dr. Hamed.

I know how little the EI cares about women's pain...

so I guess I should commend you on your equal opportunity dismissal.

Alyssa's dealt with ruptured cysts before

and has had challenges being heard

so she wants to make sure her father is.

I'm sorry I'm just catching up. Andy what happened last night?

He calls out of the blue, begging me to come over,

which is weird, because we haven't spoken since Christmas

before that my birthday and he would never call my mom about this

or admit that he needs help. So when he called me, I--

Okay, kid, they don't need the whole novel--

And lo and behold the man who told me to walk it off when my cysts ruptured

is clutching the toilet, vomiting from the pain,

convinced he was dying of his own pain.

I was just trying to make sure it wasn't an emergency.

Translation? Yeah, he's embarrassed.

I know you're not used to dealing with it, Dad,

but trust me if you want their help, you're gonna have to get loud.

I don't...

want to deal with it.

I just want it all out of me.

Andy, we're going to do what we can--

We'll formulate a game plan and we'll be right back with you-

I promised her extensive imaging and a surgical consult.

We do see ovarian cysts pretty regularly

and standard treatment is to just let them resolve themselves.

Why, even if Andy was a standard case,

Alyssa's experiences are proof that our standards have room to evolve.

Okay, I-I'll order another ultrasound?

MRI's proven to be a sharper diagnostic tool for cysts.

I'll call OB. I'd like you to keep Alyssa involved.

She knows the system and she's vocal,

which he clearly needs right now.

Uh, I'm not sure Andy's comfortable with that level of attention.

Then it's your job to show him why he needs it.

I don't know how long...

We'll figure it out together...

No, stay on your route.

Here's the doctor, I'll call you back.

All night, this thing's been beeping...

Okay. Let's have a listen.

Okay...

Okay, let's get her on supplemental O2.

That's the same look all the nurses have when they come in here.

Lola, you have fluid in your lungs.

I thought the problem was my heart.

Well, when it struggles to circulate blood, fluid collects in the sacs of your lungs.

You're not responding to the beta blockers,

which means we need to consider surgical options.

What kind of surgery?

Um, gold standard is valve replacement, but...

you're at a critical decision-making juncture.

Open heart surgery while pregnant is extremely risky...

I know, I know, I heard what you said yesterday, but...

I'm keeping it.

I used to roll my eyes at this stuff but now,

I don't know, it's like... I just feel connected to it.

Like it belongs to me.

And Trevor does too; we talked,

and we'll do whatever it takes to have our baby.

Okay. Well, in that case, valvotomy is the best option.

We'd put a balloon in your damaged valve and blow it up to increase blood flow.

- Will it fix me? - No.

It'll take some pressure off, but you'll still need to be on bed rest afterward,

and it means an involved regimen of medications...

some of which are expensive.

Do you have prescription drug insurance?

We'll figure it out. We always do.

Okay. I can call Trevor and relay this if you want?

- Oh, that's okay, I'll do it. - You sure?

'Cause I'm pretty good at speaking stressed out loved ones...

Oh, I'm sure. Thanks.

I'll call when he hits a rest stop so he can absorb it all.

Okay.

Dr. Curtis! Is the do-over ostomy our mistake?

No. Uh, no, he was unaware of his latex allergy, so.

And you can't just replace the bag with a latex-free version?

Not this time, he used a latex drain internally

so he really does needs a whole second surgery.

You and Novak talked him through?

Half of us did...

You know he was obviously, you know, upset at first, but he's on board now, so...

How do you feel about taking on that kind of emotional labour?

Part of the job for any resident.

As long as that's not the only part.

I can't get a clear picture of resourcing across our emergency department

without a better sense of how things happen in Trauma OR.

Uh, quickly and decisively; that's what the patients who come through there need.

But if it also means Doctor Novak does what he wants and you wear it?

I may not be a surgeon but I can be an ally.

Let me know before you open up your patient again?

That's a cool endometrioma...

but the anatomy doesn't make sense.

- Because it belongs to a man. - Huh!

That's a long story. How's your father?

He threw up three times from the glucagon, but uh,

he woke up this morning with his throat clear

and they decided to celebrate with brunch, so he's fine.

That's good.

And I know that last night was kind of like pfft!

but it was a real success with my parents. Like, they really liked you.

Yeah, I liked them too. A lot.

- Yeah? - Mm-hmm.

You don't seem too happy that it went well.

No, it... it was good.

Okay, well it's just that family's really important to me so, um...

Mags, of course, it's... it's very important to me too. It's...

I know you want me to tell Amira

and it's, it's... - No, I didn't...

It's just... she'll get invested and...

She's already lost so much. I'm just, like...

Well, are you already planning for us to not work out or...?

No, no.

I just, I'm...

Just forget it. Okay.

I'm sorry. - Okay.

Welcome back!

How's it feeling today?

And, uh, sorry if you've been waiting around long,

somehow your chart didn't get on my pile.

- Uh, the nurse said they were sending another doctor. - Who, Claire? Ah, no need.

Roberta, I promised you I'd make you a priority

and since you're a pro now we can get this done--

No, no, no, I said no!!

What's going on?

You assaulted me, Doctor Hunter!

You pinned me down and you assaulted me with that needle.

And I-I-I... I don't want you treating me.

- Allô, maman. - Allô, Magalie.

- Is Dad doing okay? - He's completely fine.

I put him on the early flight back. - You didn't go home with him?

A little time to myself is healthy. How's Bashir after... everything?

Mm. He's good. He's good.

So you liked him? - Very much.

So did your father. - Yeah?

But Magalie... are you sure you know what you're getting into?

What does that mean, getting into?

Only that... a boy with a past like his...

I know how much you take on. - Mom, please don't.

You can't even go to dinner without leaving your phone on for a patient;

I just want you to be smart.

Okay, first, I'm not taking him on, I want to be with him.

And second, I don't want you to worry.

Never gonna happen, ma chérie.

Okay, I gotta go, I have a patient.

I love you. - I love you too.

Hey. - Hey.

I just offered a resident my parking spot

in exchange for a latex-free catheter he's been hoarding.

You? - Meeting with the social worker.

One of my patients can't afford her post-op meds

but somehow isn't unwell enough to qualify for disability?

That's because healthcare is only free if you can afford to get sick.

I guess you heard about Bash and I?

Ah, actually, it's about time...

- Yeah? - Mm-hmm.

Uh, okay, so he's not loving the idea of everybody knowing you guys are uh...

Ah, it's more than that.

I-I-I think I pushed him too fast to meet with my parents

and now like, the more I dig... The man's like a fortress, and I'm...

Okay, so just give him some space.

Let him figure it out, you know.

Before you storm the fortress.

Um, who are you?

What've you done with June? - Okay. Quiet.

When the bed pans and the kidney bowls are stacked lower than this line,

you drop everything and you call for more.

Once we were running low and a cluster of norovirus patients came in...

Oh, my God. Fluid nightmare.

Roberta Matheson asked for a different doctor?

Uh, yeah and you were busy anyway

so I figured I'd just handle it...

Well, I didn't know that, so I went in and she ambushed me.

I assaulted her by putting my hand on her shoulder?

Look, I mean, she's worked-up because of her fear of needles.

Or because a man in a position of power used physical force

to make her do something she didn't want to do. - Nancy!

Is that how you really see it?

Could you give her the shot, Claire?

Mm-hmm.

Accusations like that are a big deal.

So then he just gets away with it?

You will say and come to see that most of us

can't go a few hours without a patient yelling at us about something.

That doesn't mean that Roberta's wrong.

He could've just taken more time with her but--

Instead he made a judgement call.

Which is not an easy position but it's what we do.

And Roberta is welcome to file a complaint,

if that's what she'd like.

Does she know that?

Nancy, you're new. I'm trying to help, I promise,

but your life will be much harder if doctors are not on your side.

Latex-free drain's ready to go.

Is there something that you need, Doctor Devi?

- Just pretend I'm not here. - I invited her to watch.

Actually, we did our friend a favor.

I think that we can reattach his bowel instead.

What? No.

Oh, I changed my mind so you are too?

We should sell popcorn.

You told me to tell him that this could be permanent.

That was yesterday.

He's more stable today so we have the time,

there's less edema so I've a way better view.

An ostomy reversal isn't even usually attempted for months--

Usually we don't get a second look so soon.

- You're the decider. - I like it when you agree with me.

Am I supposed to lie to you?

I like you to take a look for yourself.

Can I get a light, please? And uh, retractors, please.

Thank you.

Alright. Tell me when you see it...

It's pink. Healthy.

But will the anastomosis hold after such a short time?

- I can make it. - What about the latex?

New drains are polyurethane. So hopefully no reaction,

and reversingly it will actually reduce the risk of dehydration.

Aaah, I think she likes it!

Does this mean you agree?

Oh, I can walk you through if you want.

I'll leave you to it.

Okay.

Latex-free for all,

let's get him in and out so Curtis can give him the good news!

Okay, so all of a sudden, you're a doctor?

And you're not even listening to me!

- You need to calm down! - I can't take this fishbowl!

She has every doctor in here running tests!

I get you hate the attention but Dad, it took me going septic

to get even an ultrasound, okay? I'm just trying to get you the help that you need.

By talking my surgeons out of the fix I wanted?

Hysterectomy's off the table?

I raised our family history with adhesions and they agree

there's no easy fix and rushing into surgery might only make things worse.

You actually are running a fever. Andy, are you feeling okay?

I'm actually kind of dizzy.

I was dizzy when my cyst ruptured; could that be it?

It's, uh... it's possible.

I mean, a fever could suggest inflammation or infection.

Has the pain gotten any worse? - Yeah.

Okay, we'll do another ultrasound just to be sure,

but if we're right, we'll have to get you into surgery immediately.

If you're going in anyway, why can't you take everything out?

I-I-I-I know hysterectomy is not the right thing for you,

you still need your uterus.

You haven't had kids yet.

- Yet? - Yeah.

You have no idea how I feel about that!

The system won't let me remove mine in case I regret it.

So you resent me and you're punishing me? Is that it?

You think that I would wish this pain on anyone?

I would never.

Which you'd know if you had ever bothered to talk to me about it!

Maybe I didn't because I couldn't stand seeing you in pain?

Well, maybe I needed you to!

But all you ever did was retreat!

Now you have all the options I don't and you still won't talk to me!

This isn't the same thing!

This uterus isn't even functional! Right, Doctor Hamed?

Could you get pregnant? It's highly unlikely.

- Oh. Unlikely? - Good!

Your unborn children thank you!

Okay. Alright.

I'll get the surgeon back but um...

Alyssa, maybe it's best that Andy speak to him on his own this time.

Is that really what you want, Dad?

Don't worry.

These are happy tears.

But I don't understand;

you said it'd be months before you could reverse it.

Yeah, I mean, normally, it would be months.

But Doctor Novak... found a way.

Hah!

I would like to thank him.

Oh. No.

No, he's not good at uh, like...

personal, like...

- Stuff. - Yeah.

Okay.

Well, in that case,

being as you're the face of the operation, you get the honour.

Thank you, Doctor Curtis.

Thank you.

Really.

Yeah, you're welcome.

Doctor Devi?

Andy is getting the hysterectomy.

His daughter left. She's very upset.

After I specifically asked you to keep her involved.

Andy wanted her to go.

Look, Alyssa has every right to her anger.

Which our system created by ignoring her.

Yes, but her way of helping was to amplify that anger.

Look, you told me to make sure Andy had a voice;

I made sure it didn't get drowned out!

Okay.

Okay as in... you agree?

As in... you make a fair point.

I know you're disappointed that I took away your chance to be a trauma surgeon...

I'm a fan of honesty, Doctor Hamed.

You made a judgment call about me without really knowing me.

I did. And I was hired for my judgement.

So our relationship is gonna have to halt your disappointment.

Baby looks good so far.

I feel like I got hit by a bus.

Yeah, that's normal.

But the balloon placed easily and your rhythm is stable.

So now it's up to me to stay off my feet and manage this?

I rounded up some medical samples to get you started

and printed off the paperwork you'll need to apply for assistance.

Okay... thanks. You can leave the forms.

I just want to show you, since there are some big hurdles...

But uh, public disability insurance is the best option,

but there's a lot of hoops to jump through in order to keep it from clawing back

your mat leave hours so you might want to--

Doctor Leblanc, stop, okay?

All I need to know is if I'm allowed to hope that my baby's going to make it now...?

Yes, you are, Lola.

Okay.

Trevor and I are going to call our parents now.

Everything else, we can figure out together.

Okay. I'll leave this here for you then.

I didn't even realize I was holding her down...

I did wonder about that.

It's just like... everything feels so heightened lately.

I'm either completely numb or I...

I get these hits of adrenaline...

Like there's danger around every corner.

For yourself and your patients.

Your tingling hands...

You were right. There's nothing physically wrong.

Not sure if that makes me feel better or worse.

Well, at least you know and can adjust?

How about you? How have you been adjusting these days?

I mean, with Bishop gone, it must be...

Yeah. It is.

Your new nurse, she's um...

direct.

And a bit naive. She'll toughen up.

But they said they'd take it out...

They tried.

They got the cyst and one ovary,

but the uterus and the other ovary were fused to tissue.

Well, can they go back in and finish the job?

Every time they go in, they risk creating more scar tissue.

You're saying I'm keeping the uterus?

Which means... more cysts?

We'll uh... we'll suppress the menstruation hormonally

and you'll see a specialized endocrinologist

to see what you can do down the road.

- My daughter was right. - Andy, I'm sorry.

She thinks I don't care, um, it's just...

I'm horrible at talking about all this stuff, how I feel, how she feels.

But then when I called, she came...

willing to put all that stuff behind us.

All I had to do...

was open up and admit

that I'm scared of what all this means but I couldn't.

- I didn't sign up to be your emotional buffer. - Then why are you?

Keep learning like this, hopefully it's worth it.

Since I'm a giver not a taker, you wanna buy me a drink?

I always need one before flying.

You're getting on a plane?

Uh, yeah.

Tomorrow, to Turkey.

I-I owe some time to Doctors Without Borders.

Huh?

It's okay, it's just for a couple weeks, champ.

What's gonna happen while you're gone?

Rotating attendings to cover, and then, you figure all the rest.

You know I gave up a much saner future for this!

I didn't ask you to do that.

Actually, you did, you did ask me to do that.

I don't mind you politicking with Devi by the way.

'Cause that might buy us some time before she chases me off for good.

Or you could just play ball?

The drinks thing wouldn't be a date, if you were worried.

I wasn't. Worried.

Thanks. But I... No thanks.

Suit yourself.

Don't burn the place down while I'm gone.

Hey.

Look, I know I kind of um...

like, I drag people over lines that they're afraid to cross.

And I'll try to stop doing that, okay?

Don't.

I'm not going anywhere.

Uh, did you buy extra firm?

Yah. But it came out mushy, not crispy and...

what did you call mama's tofu bites, Bowie?

Disgusting!

Did you use corn starch?

You didn't say to do that.

Read my text. Corn starch, light soy, olive oil.

Forty minutes at 450.

Bowie, don't put your hands there.

Where are you right now?

Ah, feeling like it's been over a month

and I need to start showing some results?

Okay, but do you need to show tonight?

Because I was really hoping to go for a run.

What if I made us move here and I end up failing?

Come on. I'll order something non-disgusting.

Amira.

I know, keep it swirling or it'll burn.

I haven't seen you all weekend. How were your sleepovers?

Fun.

Did you want to watch West Side Story with me?

The old one.

It's just musicals with you these days, huh?

- They make me happy... - I see you made dinner too.

Yeah. Yours is in the fridge.

It was so clean when I got back; felt like you hadn't been home once all weekend.

Why don't you get the movie started? I'll clean up in here.

Forget the mess or you'll miss the best parts.

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