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(Characters, places, organizations, and events in this show are fictional.)

(Ten years ago, Win might have wanted me.)

(But now, he might be able to live without me.)

(I think you should ask your own heart)

(how you)

(actually feel about him.)

(Recent - Dr. Win)

- Hello? Yeah? - (I want to meet Prim.)

If I go back, I want to be clear with myself.

I feel guilty for blaming her too much.

You know where she lives, right?

In the same building as Shoan.

Professor Prapas' condo.

Should I send you the location?

Oh? Uncle Prapas'.

I know that place.

Yeah. At least, you need to hear it from her.

It's not right to break up this way.

Okay. Thank you.

Bye.

May.

(Dr. Prapas: Shoan is staying here. Don't worry)

- Shoan is at Professor Prapas'. - Just follow her!

How is it? Is that alright?

It's alright, just a bit salty.

You usually eat salty food, Professor.

Yeah. I guess you're right.

I heard Win took you to Professor Sicha.

How did it go?

It's not good. I don't like it.

Listen to me, Shoan.

The treatment of any illness

is difficult at the beginning.

Especially when it comes to mental illness.

Be patient, but believe me, in the end,

it will be good for you.

You know what?

Let's play a game.

- Let's do it. - Okay.

This is a game of imagination.

Imagine yourself operating on a patient.

You know the patient has a tumor on their thalamus.

You know the fiber pathway.

You know the neurovascular structures.

If you know they can be saved, even if it's difficult,

you won't give up on them, right?

So that means

if you look,

you will see the problem.

In the end, we will...

Remove the tumor.

The patient will recover.

That's it. You got it now.

That's how we cure the brain, Professor.

Is that how you cure the mind too?

I've lived for 60 years, I know a thing or two.

Oh yeah. I'm going to a plant nursery tomorrow. Do you want to come?

- I do. - Good.

That little one got a huge fruit.

This looks good.

Leaf...

Shoan?

Oh?

Why don't you have a pet, Uncle Prapas?

I don't have the time, and I live alone. Nobody will be with it.

Do you want to have a rabbit again?

I do.

But I'm just like you.

I don't have time, and I don't have someone to watch over it.

So that means if I have someone to watch over it

and I don't live alone,

I can have a bunny.

Hey.

Do you mean you want a girlfriend?

No.

I mean,

I will hire someone to watch it.

But if I have a girlfriend,

I won't live alone,

and I will have someone to watch over the bunny.

(Episode 11: Rabbit)

This is your plant, isn't it?

Yes.

Professor, good afternoon.

Oh, hi!

You didn't come home last night, did you?

Did you bother our professor too much?

It's fine. Okay, see you tomorrow.

Okay.

- Goodbye. - Goodbye. Here's another one.

- Goodbye, Professor. - Goodbye.

- Have you eaten? - Not yet.

I'm going to cook. Want something?

I do, but can you cook?

You know nothing.

This dish is too bland.

I made healthy food.

Clean food, you know?

Try this.

It's too salty.

Just eat it with rice to balance it out.

This one is too hot.

You're picky, aren't you?

You said you wanted a comment.

If you can't eat any of this, I'll order something.

I can eat them.

This is okay.

I'm sorry.

I ran away.

It wasn't right to do so.

It's okay.

I understand.

I had to see Dr. Sicha once.

It was difficult for me too.

You have to sit there and say things you don't want to say.

You have to

tell her something you don't even want to remember.

It's normal.

Everyone has fears.

I get it.

You need to apologize to Professor Win, though.

He has been looking for you all over.

One day, you'll know how it feels

when you make an appointment with a patient, but they don't come.

I want you to pat my head,

but I was at fault. I don't deserve a reward.

It's good you know that.

Okay.

Now is the time

for the chef to eat.

Let me remove my retainer.

The X-ray shows she broke her arm.

When it's swollen, it could push the nerves.

There might be some numbness in her hand.

I would like her to stay for a day or two to keep watch on her condition.

There's a skate competition in America late this month. Will she make it?

I'll need to consult our orthopedist on that.

I'll keep you posted.

Excuse me.

It's okay, Mom.

I'll wear a cast to school for my friends to draw on. It's cute.

Still joking?

You were too playful and forgot your safety. Do you want to compete or not?

I do, Mom.

She doesn't have appendicitis.

How could it not be appendicitis, Doctor?

I've read on the internet. The symptoms match.

You're just a doctor in training. You're inexperienced.

I don't think you know what you're doing.

This is not a symptom of appendicitis.

She has Henoch–Schönlein purpura.

What does she have? Can you use human language?

It's an inflammation of the blood vessels.

Whoa! What are you talking about? Is there any doctor that speaks human?

What's the matter?

My daughter has appendicitis.

This doctor won't let her get surgery.

What should I do with this hospital?

The patient has a palpable purpura.

I think it's Henoch–Schönlein purpura.

Let's do this, ma'am.

We'll send her in for an MRI to find out what she has.

Okay. Do whatever you have to.

What's wrong with this hospital's doctors?

I told them you have appendicitis and they won't believe me!

Does it hurt so much, sweetie?

Dr. Shoan

will explain her MRI results.

The cause of the pain in her abdomen

is the inflammation and swelling of blood vessels around her intestine.

It's not appendicitis.

She can recover by taking medicine.

Surgery is not required.

Okay.

I'll forward this case to our pediatrician.

Come in.

Sit down.

You know what you did, right?

I know.

I ran away from therapy

because I was afraid.

However...

However what?

If I'm afraid, I can't be a surgeon.

I won't run from therapy again.

In that case,

meet me in the simulation room after your shift.

Yes.

Prim, let me ask you something.

Are you seeing someone?

I see patients, their families, and you guys.

That's not what I mean.

Did anyone ask you out?

No.

I don't have time to meet guys, man.

All I do is work. I don't even have my meals regularly.

That's what I thought. You're a meanie.

And you want to go live on a mountain.

What kind of men can be with you?

Nick.

Pleum, can you believe this? In college,

no boy ever dared to ask her out. She never had a boyfriend.

Really?

You spent years there.

Pleum.

Sorry.

She's really a meanie.

I'm just kidding.

Here.

I'm not eating that.

Shoan.

Yes?

Do you think she's mean?

She's not.

You're giving him that look.

Would he dare say the truth?

Dr. Prim is the opposite of mean.

She is kind and lovely.

How?

But...

Sometimes, she can be really mean.

I'm going to punch you.

Prim.

This is my friend, Art.

I went to high school with him.

He owns a resort in Mae Taeng.

He texted me and asked for your number a few times.

I haven't given it to him yet. I'm asking for your permission.

Why didn't you?

I need your permission first, right?

Pleum.

What do you think? Should I give him my number?

I think you should. I want to see you with a boyfriend.

Okay, fine.

At least I'll have a friend when I move to Chiang Rai.

If this goes well, you'll satisfy your mom twice over.

Your career and your relationship, right?

It's not like he's my boyfriend, right? I don't even know him yet.

I said that just in case.

I hate you.

Is it 1 pm already?

I have to go. Throw away the trash for me.

- Leave it there. - See you later.

Your bag.

Boss.

Someone's here to see you.

She said her name was Primlada.

Tell her I'm busy and send her away.

Of course.

May.

There was really nothing between us.

Shoan ran away. I just went there to wait for him.

Win.

I think what's happening to us right now

has nothing to do with Prim.

I'm just not sure if I want us to get back.

Why is that, May?

What made you unsure?

You can tell me.

I think it's because of these past ten years.

Ten years made us used to having each other.

It made us neglect each other.

It used to be all about our love,

but that's not it anymore.

We have work. We have families.

Anything can make us fall out.

I'm sorry, I

didn't know you'd been feeling that way the whole time.

Win.

We should end this.

I have to go.

I'm sorry

for running away.

I understand you're getting used to this.

Let's start our session, okay?

Win said you froze,

and you were scared

during an operation?

Can you tell me

how you felt or what you saw at that moment?

I didn't know what I felt,

but I saw...

You don't know?

My dad hit me.

He didn't like my bunny.

This thing is irritating!

You love it so much, huh?

Shin stopped Dad, so Dad hit him.

I heard the bunny cry.

Dad hit Mom. Dad hurt everyone.

- Dad hurt everyone. Dad hit me. - Shoan.

Shoan.

Breathe in.

Take a deep breath. Breathe in.

Take a deep breath.

And exhale slowly.

That day, I came home from school.

I saw Dad looking for something.

He turned to me.

His expression looked scary.

He walked toward me.

He asked where Mom kept her cash.

I didn't know.

I said I didn't know.

Dad grabbed me by the collar.

Shin stopped him, so he slapped Shin. Dad hit Shin.

Dad...

Dad picks up the bunny cage.

Dad throws the cage against the wall.

(This scene depicts violence. Please use your discretion.)

The cage fell to the ground. The bunny lay there belly up.

I picked the bunny up.

The bunny was dead.

My friend was dead.

My friend was dead.

Shoan.

If it's too much, you can take a break.

Take a break.

I'm fine. I'm going to fight this.

Well done.

Well done, my Shoan.

So, do you have a good memory of your father?

Please explore your thoughts thoroughly.

Look at every detail.

There might be something

that you forgot.

There could be a good feeling hidden in there somewhere.

Look carefully.

Look thoroughly.

Take it easy.

You like it, huh?

You like it, huh?

You like rabbits?

You like rabbits?

You like them so much, huh?

When Dad dies,

will he go to heaven?

I don't want him to go to heaven.

I don't want him to meet Shin there.

I'm sorry

that I couldn't protect Shin.

I couldn't protect you either.

It's okay.

Professor Irin said

being good parents is not easy.

So I think

it was too hard for the two of you.

Shoan.

I'm here to replace his saline bag.

Are you here to see me? Come in.

Good morning.

My name is Minnie.

I sneaked out to get your autograph.

I watch every video of yours. You're so cool.

Oh.

I guess you can't sign an autograph.

Your arm is in a cast.

Does it hurt?

It's done.

Being kids is great.

It doesn't take long to make friends.

- My handwriting is bad. - What are you doing, kids?

- Good morning. - Good morning.

(Nurse Counter)

So how many days do I have to stay, Doctor?

If there's no complication, you can go home tomorrow.

It's really hard being a doctor, right?

I think it's harder than being a skater.

It's hard,

but I've never skated, so I don't know which is harder.

So, if you're not a doctor,

what would you want to be?

As a kid, I wanted to be a tennis player,

but I realized being an athlete doesn't suit me.

You have to train really hard.

What about you, Dr. Shoan?

Nothing.

I've always wanted to be a doctor, never anything else.

That's just like me. I've never wanted to be anything else.

My mom wants me to be the best skater.

In first grade, I wanted to be either a princess or a doctor.

But after seeing my mom getting mad at you, I don't want to be a doctor.

Thank you.

What's that?

That's nice.

Maple, what's wrong?

Me?

I'm feeling a little dizzy.

- Look. - I think she needs to wear the cast for two weeks.

We won't have enough time left for training.

I understand that the competition is important.

But a broken bone

takes about three to four weeks to recover.

She can train in the cast.

She can't. That's extremely dangerous.

Then, find a way for her to train.

- I... - She can't train.

Professor, she also feels dizzy.

Isn't it normal to be stressed before a big competition?

I don't know. Please find a way for her to train.

Get well soon, Maple.

I'll be on my way.

- Goodbye. - Goodbye.

Maple, what's wrong?

Nothing, why?

What's wrong with me, Doctor?

Shoan, where is Professor Irin?

- She left. - Maple isn't looking good.

Just now, she had a spasm unknowingly. Her muscles seem weak.

We did confirm she didn't suffer head injuries.

Losing balance?

Insidious onset and ataxia

localized in the cerebellum.

This is bad, Dr. Mummim.

We need to consult Professor Prapas.

Shoan.

Is that Maple?

- Are you Maple? - Please teach me how to skate.

Yeah. We're your followers.

You look cool in your videos.

I can't now. Look at my arm. My doctor will get mad.

- Come on. - Please.

Please.

That's amazing.

You're so cool!

You're not doing it right.

You need safety equipment to play.

You need to skate in the right place too.

Look at me. Even with safety, I still got hurt.

Of course.

- Maple? - Maple, are you okay?

Hey, get a doctor here.

- Hey! - Maple?

Maple has a cerebellar tumor.

Water is clogged in her brain because the tumor is blocking it.

I recommend immediate surgery.

Otherwise, she could be in danger.

It could be fatal

due to high pressure in the brain.

Maple?

Why did you let yourself get so sick?

Why didn't you take care of yourself?

This tumor has nothing to do with self-care.

Maple probably has been having headaches for a long time.

If we had found this tumor sooner,

it wouldn't have grown this big.

You should make a decision soon

whether to allow her to go into surgery.

If you leave it be, she could be in danger.

Do I need surgery, Mom?

Professor, how is she doing?

She needs surgery.

Will she be able to skate again after surgery?

Ma'am, with her tumor at this stage,

she needs constant checkups even after surgery.

The thing with this type of tumor is it can regrow.

We will try our best to save her, though.

Think of this year

as a recovery year for her.

She can still compete next year.

A year?

We don't have that much time.

What are you thinking about, Maple?

I'm scared. I don't want to get surgery.

Why?

I'm scared I can't skateboard again.

If I can't, Mom will be sad.

Why would she be sad?

You're the one who competes, not your mom.

My mom quit her job to drive me around. If I can't skate,

she will be very sad.

Maple is afraid of surgery.

She's afraid she can't skate.

She's afraid her mom would be sad.

She won't compete.

You're not the only one disappointed. Me too.

We put so much effort into this.

The doctors said it depends on her follow-up.

Just tell me when you book the flight.

Doctor.

What is it, ma'am?

(Why would she be sad?)

(My mom quit her job to drive me around.)

(If I can't skate, she will be very sad.)

What are you crying for?

You're good for nothing!

A kid like you?

What pet can you keep?

You can't even take care of yourself!

(My mom quit her job to drive me around.)

(If I can't skate, she will be very sad.)

What is it?

Are you here to add insult to my injury?

No.

I have a question.

Why did you kill my bunny?

What are you talking about?

My little bunny.

Why did you kill it?

It was decades ago.

I can't remember that.

You bought it for me,

and you killed it.

Sometimes, you were nice to me.

Sometimes, you were cruel.

I don't understand.

I was drunk.

I don't remember anything.

What do you want from me?

Do you want me to apologize?

No. I don't want your apology.

That's how you are.

Why can't you be like other kids?

All you did was play with the bunny.

The neighbors said that you

were retarded.

You became that way because of me?

Because of me? You hit Shin.

You hit Mom. You killed my bunny. You hit me too.

Was that all because of me?

If that's the case,

I can't change myself.

I can never be cured.

I can never be cured, Dad.

I just want to tell you that

what you did was very wrong.

It was very wrong.

Professor Sicha said

I should think of good things about you.

Think about the nice things you did for me.

I can think of some.

(Do you like rabbits?)

You like rabbits?

You want this one?

You like rabbits, right?

Take good care of it. It's not cheap, you know.

You were nice

when you weren't drunk.

You were very nice.

It is a cerebellar tumor.

The tumor is pressing against her cerebellum.

It's pressing against the nerves.

It's pressing blood vessels around it.

Start operation. Open skin. Aponeurosis.

Periosteum. Skull.

Dura mater. Arachnoid.

- And then... - Why are you waiting here?

We're friends.

Are you upset that I requested that you not attend the operation?

No, ma'am.

So why are you staying close to my daughter?

Maple needs a friend.

She's afraid of surgery.

You were with her when she was skating

because you didn't want her to be scared, right?

Maple is afraid of three things.

One,

she's afraid of surgery.

Two,

she's afraid she can't skate again.

And three,

she's afraid you'll be sad.

Ma'am.

For the patient's sake,

I can't grant your request.

Dr. Shoan was the first one to find out what she had.

Therefore,

he has earned the right to attend this operation.

Good. I get it now.

Come on, Shoan.

Thank you.

Okay, Shoan. Evaluate her condition. Tell us if you notice anything.

Yes.

Okay.

All right. We're making an incision.

Blade.

Metzenbaum.

Heart rate 75.

Heart rate 80.

Heart rate 90.

Dr. Shoan, keep your voice down.

You could distract Professor Prapas.

Sorry.

Bipolar forceps.

BP is dropping.

Sorry.

Things to consider when BP drops.

Number one

is her response to anesthetics.

Two,

the amount of blood.

Third,

whether the tools press against blood vessels.

If we open her dura mater when the patient

has increased intracranial pressure,

there is a chance her BP could drop.

That's why we always inform the anesthetist before we open a dura mater.

If her BP drops,

give her an IV fluid load right away.

- Yes. - Yes.

Hi, I heard your operation was a success.

Why are you sitting here depressed alone?

Can you keep a secret, Dr. Pleum?

Pleum means trustworthy.

I'm having the same symptoms again.

But this time it's different

because

I don't feel good when I see her.

The same one from the karaoke?

I won't tell you that.

I only trust you 50%.

You feel bad when you see her, so you don't want to see her?

Sometimes I do.

Sometimes I don't.

You're so complicated, Shoan.

There must be reasons, like...

Why do you want to see her? Why do you not want to see her?

What changed in the situation?

For example,

the person you see her with.

If it's the same person as last time,

that's called being jealous.

I know jealousy.

Jealousy is when you don't like

a person of the opposite sex getting close to your partner.

So,

who are you talking about, Dr. Shoan?

I won't tell you, Dr. Pleum. You don't look trustworthy.

It's me, Shoan.

You can trust me 100%.

Here we go! My friend is finally getting with someone!

Look at this.

See?

Art

rode big bikes with his pals up the mountain

to give children up there some free gifts.

It's cute. Look.

You're clicking with him, aren't you?

Well...

I don't know.

But we do get along, and it's...

It's no pressure. It's just chill.

- It's like... - Riding a bike like that is dangerous.

If the bike is not in good condition,

it could also contribute to pollution.

It also hurts wild animals.

What are you doing, Shoan?

Good afternoon, Professor.

I'm trying to read a book in a quiet place.

Good. Carry on. I'm just leaving.

Aren't you leaving, Professor?

What are you reading?

With that brain of yours,

is there any book you don't understand?

There is none.

But what I don't understand

lies outside the books.

Some people are harder to read than a medical study.

If I specialize in psychology,

will I understand more?

Even a psychiatrist can't help me now.

So now,

will you continue reading?

I have to.

It's the only way

that we can understand.

Is that a new TV?

Yes.

Oh! We need to

welcome your new TV, right?

Today is not a good time.

(...preyed amongst by every predator in the UK)

(is the ability to breed constantly and readily.)

(This is an art the rabbits have mastered.)

(...bobbing their tails is not indigenous species.)

(Rabbits populate and breed...)

Pleum, where's everyone?

Nobody's here yet.

Shoan's gone to round the morning ward.

Let me ask you something.

Lately,

has there been anything wrong with Shoan?

Like...

I think Shoan seems strange.

How is he strange?

Like, he avoids me. He doesn't want to see and talk to me.

And

when we run into each other,

he walks away, just like that.

Is that strange?

When I tell you this, don't tell anyone.

I think Shoan has a crush on someone.

Shoan?

Really?

Yes.

What's wrong? Actually, I think Shoan is cute. Like...

He's worth protecting.

No. I mean, he can have a crush.

He can have a crush on anyone, but why would he be strange to me?

- Why are you getting mad at me? - I'm not. I just don't understand.

It's frustrating.

You know what? You think he acts strange with you,

but did you act strange with him first?

- I did? - Yes.

When did I act strange with Shoan?

I can't deal with it anymore.

I want to regain my focus.

I tried, but I can't.

Why did you have to avoid her that much?

It's because...

Who do you mean?

Did you find out?

It's so obvious.

It's Dr. Prim, right?

Yes.

I tried testing myself.

I saw Dr. Sicha.

But

I keep thinking of Dr. Prim in here.

At this point, you have two options.

Either confess to her or

stop thinking of her.

Can you do that?

You know what? Either way,

you need to use this.

Not this.

I mean, you need to use your feelings.

Understand?

Yes.

I will try that.

Dr. Pleum.

How many girlfriends have you had?

- I haven't had one. - Oh?

I understand. I need to listen to you less.

You know what?

It's fine if you don't listen to me.

All you need to listen to is yourself.

(Dr. Prim makes me uncomfortable.)

(Sometimes I don't like it. I can't focus)

Can we talk?

I'll say it anyway.

I like you, Dr. Prim.

Are you sad it turned out this way?

I need to talk to you, Dr. Prim.

No. I can't talk now.

It must be now. This cannot wait.

Hematoma! Upper airway obstruction. Remove the stitches.

- What a sloppy place! - Take the lump of blood out.

I'll sue the doctors and the hospital. Get that doctor here!

Then I'm sorry

for making you uncomfortable.

From now on, we only talk about work.

Are you retarded? Let's mess him up!

(The victim is autistic.)

(We offer our condolences to the victim's family.)

No!