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You

Yes, I realize the deadlines tonight

Of course I'm on schedule. When am I ever not on schedule?

No problem

What?

You need stats on Georgian, Oregon prisons too?

Okay fine. No problem

Megan's what how come you're not dressed yet? The bus is gonna be here any minute

Can't come with purple jeans. Well put something else on come on

I don't have time to drive you to school today. I don't want to put something nice, please

Morning grandpa morning Megan

Morning, Julie. Good morning, dad. Oh, this is I'm gonna be late tonight

So I need you to pick Megan up at the bus stop also. I made chicken all you've got to do is stick it in the microwave

Update with Sam today

How's been in life belong together? I am only going to be working late

Megan

You work too hard heard you typing at two o'clock in the morning

Got a deadline people were counting on me

Gotta get the stats on overcrowding prisons in 12 out in the hole like that 14 states

Yeah enough to worry about you didn't have to move in here to take care of me. I'm just fine on my own

I didn't move in here to take care of you dad

I moved in here because I don't like being all along late at night

Again, come on

Get to jacket you're gonna miss your bus

I

Already did right? Come on. I'll drive you

On the table eight o'clock

See you tomorrow night, Julie

What are you doing here? I'm leaving for Washington in an hour. Can I take Megan next weekend instead fine?

Julie, I think we should talk I really don't have time for an argument

Why do you always assume we're gonna have a argue not the one who spent a cozy weekend with my editor secretary?

All right, I messed up big time, but it's been three months. Excuse me. Hey, Nancy

Yeah, I think I'm not better hello, sir

I'm late. I have to be at the state house by 330 still every minute accounted for don't you?

That's right. I forgot about that. You're perfect. You don't make mistakes. I'm stupid

It must be exhausting being you and you have no idea how exhausting it is trying to keep up with you

You

Oh god

Oh

Oh

Sorry

Thank god you're okay

It's going on. Oh

My god, did I hit anyone? No, they all jumped out of the way

Where's Megan? By the time the hospital reached she was asleep

Mrs. Morelli from next time

She said it with her

No, god that it was awful

I was driving along and sending the music and all of a sudden everything got really blurry and then

My head felt like it was gonna burst

Nothing

We've worked too hard. I told you that a hundred times

Tried to do too much

I tried to read Sam, but I got the machines. I don't don't call Sam

I'm gonna use your husband

I'm gonna be out of here in no time. I don't want to worry. I think you'd like to know

He's out of town till Friday

Hi

I'm dr. Fowler

Last time I saw you you were looking pretty groggy

You don't remember

I know now we have a few things to talk over. I'm her father

She's gonna be all right. Yes. Well, I like to go with the positive

She drove into a bus shelter now. She's awake and talking. It's a good sign

Dad, maybe you should get back in case Megan wakes up

I'll bring her tomorrow. Bye

Bye-bye

You didn't exactly answer his question, did you?

Well, I like to know what's going on before I start passing out reassurances

Well, I was thinking that this has to have something to do with all the pressure I've been under lately

Nothing like this has ever happened to me before

Well, we're gonna run a few tests and get to the bottom of it. Okay?

I

I

Mommy

Are you okay? Can I give you a hug? Of course you can. I know me. Oh

I brought you something

What what what what no serious injuries as car takes out shelter

My class thinks it's really cool too. None of the other moms have been in the paper before

Great. This is just what I needed. When dad sees this, he'll freak then he'll be home for good

Honey, I don't

Would all visitors please leave now?

I just got here

My fault. I hid every red light in town

It's okay

Megan come on. Let's let you mother get some red. No, I want to stay I'm making her a bracelet

I'll get you some ice

You know, I'm a legit knock. Well, we'll get some donuts instead

It's okay, honey. I'm gonna be home real soon. Okay. Okay. I love you

Tada

Bye

We'll take good care of each other. I know you will

I better get gone

Your tests show that you have an inflammation of the arteries of the brain

In other words, something blocked the blood supply and that's why you blacked out

But I came to again. So the blockage stopped, right?

Right

My concern is that it not happened again

Because the next time the blockage could be far more dangerous

Possibly life threatening

The most effective thing to do would be surgery

I would go in and bypass the blocked artery take a clear channel and move the blood through that

Like a heart bypass. Mm-hmm exactly

Okay

When do you want to do this?

I'd like to book you in next week

That soon

I'll be frank with you jewelry. You could walk out of here and this might not happen again for a few months or even a few years

On the other hand, you could be driving your child to school next week and it could happen again

Okay, let's do it

Good

All I need is some family history if there's any hereditary tendency towards stroke. I can't operate

No, no one in my family's had a stroke that I know of

Great. You simply have to find out

I'd be happy to call your father and check it out if you like

No, you can't just call him and tell him something like this

Listen, I'm feeling a lot better. Can I just get out of here and go tell him myself?

Okay, but take it easy

No driving

You

You're home

The doctors let you out of the hospital. You're going to be fine. Yes

Sure

I wanted to get home before making up back. I was so worried

You know how my mind works into your mother. I thought maybe it was cancer some sort of tumor. No dad. It's not cancer

Uh the hospital doesn't need to know a few things about the family. What sort of things? Oh, you know just medical stuff for the records

Records, that's how they make their living filling out forms

Well, the doctor needs to know if anyone in the family ever had a stroke. I must have filled out a million forms for your mother

It's a bit more complicated than that. I I need an operation

What what you want?

It's just a minor procedure, but you know how they are they just need to know a little family medical history, you know, easy stuff like

Well, what did my maternal and paternal grandparents die? I don't know

What what do you mean? That's your mother and father. How could you not know that?

Okay, okay. Look, let's just break this down. Um

I how old were you when my grandmother your mother died? Let's just start there

I know they're damn business

Daddy

If I don't find this out and I don't have this operation

I couldn't die

You said it wasn't serious. You said it was nothing. I know

I didn't want to worry you

I

Joliet I wish I had some answers that I could help you

But I can't

Why not

You better sit down

I don't want to sit down

Come on, you're scaring me

We your mother and I couldn't have children doors couldn't carry

So finally went there were no more chances

We adopted you

All these years any of you never told me

We thought it was for the best easier for all of us

We loved you as if you were home, I don't believe it

We were frightened that your real parents would someday show up

Take your way. How could you do this to me?

How could you lie to me all these years?

You used to say that my hair was just like your sister's mom said that I look like an

Ethel remember around the eyes?

Around the eyes you look inside

So when were you gonna tell me when was it gonna be all right?

Tomorrow was the best answer I could come up

Well that was the wrong answer

I know

It doesn't change anything you're still hungry

It doesn't change anything I had a right to know

Julia I don't know who your real parents are we never knew their names

All the years I spent frightened that you'd find your real parents

Now I'm terrified that you won't

I'm sorry

Is this my real birth certificate?

Yes they put our names in his parents but that's the time and place that you were born

Hmm that's like that's something to do

How did you get me so young I couldn't have been more than a few hours old here

By the time we decided to adopt we couldn't qualify

So we had to look for other ways

So I wasn't legal

We had a lawyer draw up the adoption but he wouldn't tell us anything about your mother

And you didn't bother to ask?

We didn't press on it because we were afraid that it would become through

So my um mother and father could have been anyone

I wish mom was here so do I

Just to sing me to sleep every night the same song

Let me call you sweetheart

What was his lawyer's name? Where was his practice?

Bill Curtis right here in Seattle

There was nobody out there

Yes I'm um between secretaries

Um do we have an appointment?

Actually uh I think I'm looking for mr. Curtis senior

My father passed away two years ago

Um can I help you?

I hate to say it but this stuff might not show up

Until for the last two hours we've been looking for a file that doesn't even exist

Maybe

And maybe not

What do you think in the world?

Dad was scared of with the IRS

What we have here is a receipt for five months bed and board at Kendall's rooming house

The bill was paid on behalf of mrs. Francis Thompson of cloverton british columbia

dated august in 1965

It was born on august 24th 1965

Funds dispersed from loss and payment

Dad must have paid for this woman's lodgings with funds from the adoptive parents

Look at this

Hospital bills paid from the same source

He paid her bills while she was waiting to have her baby

me

Francis Thompson cloverton british columbia in Canada

Megan wanted to surprise you

Did you find out anything?

I have to take a trip to a place called cloverton. I think my birth mother might live up there

A trip now Julie. I don't know. I have to go dad

I already called work and told her might be gone for a few days. Let me go for you

No, I have to do this. This isn't just about medical records anymore. It's about me who I am

I don't think this is a very I need you to take care of Megan

Of course, okay. I'm gonna go tuck her in

I

Mom hi

Where were you?

I had to do a couple of things

Listen, I have to be away for a little while. No, I have some business that I gotta take care of

Everything's gonna be fine

Why don't you roll over and try and go back to sleep?

I can't sleep now

Sure you can

Hey, look

Smokey's already snoring

Don't go to let me sleep

Of course I won't

Come on, we'll love her

Can we sing?

Let me call you sweetheart

I'm in love with you

Let me hear you whisper

Let you love me to

Keep the love like glowing

In your eyes so true

Let me call you sweetheart

I'm in love with you

I

I

I

Thanks, uh, you need a taxi miss yeah, I do you got any luggage the green bag, okay?

Thanks

Well, what strands you're in cloverton visiting your relative, maybe maybe

Can't think of any other reason to come here any exactly Vegas say

So, uh who you visiting?

Mrs. Francis Thompson

Used to be a school teacher that Francis Thompson

I had her for three years

Were you a close to her? What do you mean where?

Hmm she passed away last October

I'm sorry

If it's any consolation they didn't know what hit him

It was a bunch of kids drinking speed and they

Jumped the light and told the car I killed him both right away. Oh, that's horrible

Yeah, well her husband was killed too

Their daughter is the only one left in the family

Hmm daughter, what's her name? Beth Beth Thompson. She runs Beth's beauty place

And how old is she?

Hard to tell somewhere over 40

And Mrs. Thompson the one that was killed. Oh that I know that was in the papers 75 on the nose

It was the daughter

So

Oh

Thanks

See you in three weeks then have fun. Bye-bye

Hi, hi, are you Beth Thompson, that's me what can I do for you

You have great hair

What's so special about it?

So thick, healthy

I've always had the kind of hair that just sort of hangs there

Oh, oh sorry

It's always doing that one of these years. I'm gonna have to get it fixed

There

Okay, so where are you from?

Seattle

Have you ever been there?

No, I've never been anywhere

Born here, raised here. Be very here. I expect

Want some coffee? Yeah sure

Do you have any kids? No, not me. No husband, no kids

Milk? No thanks I'm allergic

This way

Now I've told you all about me

What about you?

Do you have any kids?

Oh, yeah, one, my daughter Megan, she's eight. Oh, it's sweet age

I do a lot of kids hair

Always makes me so happy when I get one that age

They love to pretend they're all grown up

They can't wait to get a lollipop

So what brings you here?

All right, um

A few days ago I found out that I'm

Hey dad

Hey

Things are looking hot

You got a new customer? Oh, soon

Do you have time for a quick shampoo?

I gotta be at the restaurant soon

We always get you here done on Thursdays

Well this week I'm gonna be different

So can you do it?

Sure

I'm just about finished here

Well, what do you think?

It's great. Thanks

Your hair looks real pretty

Thank you

Bye

Bye

That'll be 1250

Thank you

Oh keep the change

Oh that won't be necessary

I'm the owner here

Thank you

Well

Goodbye

Bye-bye

Hello

Hello

Megan

Just the daughter I wanted to talk to

Have I told you that I love you today?

No

Mom

Can I have a puppy?

Jackie's dog had eight

Absolutely not. I don't care how many puppies Jackie's dog had

But no end of a subject

Now do you have anything else you want to tell me?

I got an A plus on my story about your accident

Mom, why are you coming home?

I just got here

I don't care

Granddad says it's my bedtime

I told him I have never in my life gone to bed this early

Megan listened to him a little okay

But he argues about everything

I do mom

Do too

Now give me the phone, let me talk to your mother

Only if you let me stay up

Thank you

Megan

Okay, I love you mom

Julie

Did you find anything?

Not much

You know I think it'd be a good idea

Listen dad I really need to get some sleep okay

I gotta go

Good night sweetheart

Good night

Good night

Gosh I don't know

She's more of a sort that gets postcards

Not the kind that sends them

Are you sure?

Could she have taken a holiday and you didn't know?

How come you're asking me all this?

Why don't you just ask Beth?

Order up

I'll leave the pot here in case you want some more

I'll leave the pot here

1965

Richard Richard

Ross

Schmidt

Smith

Wilson

Thompson

Mm

Beth Thompson's going to be back in our hair again fresh from the graduating class of the Marvell school of beauty

in Seattle

I

I've figured you'd be back

Sue tells me you've been asking questions about me

Who are you?

My name is Julie Lawson

And I'm sick

I need to have an operation

But they can't do it until I find out if there's a history of strokes in my family

I'm very sorry to hear about that

What does it have to do with me?

I think you can help me

I don't see how

I was born in Seattle in 1965

I think I'm your daughter

I don't have a daughter

I've never been married. I don't have any children. I told you that I know

You also said that you've never been to Seattle

But I know that you were there in 1965

Oh, well, I don't count that

I was there for a while to meet in school

As soon as that was over I came right back

I spoke with a lawyer named Bill Curtis who said that his father arranged everything

I've never heard of any Bill Curtis

I

Don't want to upset you

Believe me. I would not have come here if I didn't have to but I have no choice

I have a daughter and she needs her mother

If I don't have the operation

I may die

I'm sorry

I'd like to help you

I've been to Seattle, but I've never had a child

I was just about to close up here

I

I

They took the baby away so fast. I never knew if I had a boy or a girl

I just heard you cry

No one in my family has ever had a stroke wait wait

I

Made you decide to tell me

I'm sorry. I don't mean to stare at you. It's just so new to me

I was just trying to see if I look like you

Me too over the years I've wondered

I

What about my father? Who is he?

Please

As soon as I find out I'll go I don't want to disrupt his life

I don't want anything from him except a little bit of information

That I have to know I'm so sorry I can't tell you that

Wait

I can't tell you who your father is because I don't know

I was raped

You found out a lot about me. I'm a researcher. It's what I do for a living

They're good at it

Did you take ballet lessons? What?

I know it's a silly question. It's just that I thought if I ever had a little girl

I'd get her some ballet lessons

Actually, I did study ballet when I was small

But um, I wasn't very coordinated

Who are they? We were all in the same class

Can you tell me about them?

This is Tim Webster. He was always the class clown

The teacher is all hated. He was smart and rude

This is Jake Gibson. He's dead now. He was married to Sue. She's always been my best friend

And this is Del Smith. He had this look all through high school

As if he was really depressed never smiled

And Matthew Saunders

He came from some farm somewhere. He stayed in town boarded

Everyone was so excited about the big dance

Can you tell me about that night? I looked forward to it all year

When I walked in it was magic. The gym was perfect

I felt like Cinderella

Come on

Everybody was dancing except for me. I didn't have a date

Jake and Sue had been going steady all year. Everybody knew they could have

Sue was always my best friend. She noticed me standing there alone

I

Tim and Jake had their own idea of fun

Matt was the only one in the 60s we really got to

He didn't bother with drinking. He was into drugs

I

Del was alone

Del had brought a flask and all the boys started drinking

I

Took a sip it burned my tongue

It's the worst thing I ever tasted in my life. That was enough for me

And then the principal spotted us and we were out of the dance

I was so embarrassed

I

We ended up at the roadhouse

I was having the best night of my life

Just going to a place like that was a big deal to me

I felt pretty

The guys got the barman to refill their flask

Everybody was getting kind of rowdy

I told Dale to keep his hands to himself. Tim got so angry

I

Sue and Jake headed off

The rest of the gang said they'd walked me home but I just wanted to get back fast

To be alone with my memories of the night

Dale wouldn't stop apologizing

I

And I remembered Tim saying he wouldn't let me go without a good night kiss

Someone called my name

I

Knew it was one of the boys, but I couldn't see him properly

Each time I catch a glimpse of him in vanish

I thought maybe he was playing some kind of game

Whatever it was I didn't like it

I

No

No

That's all I remember

I

Have to go

Beth you have nothing to be ashamed of it wasn't your fault

I'm sorry

I'm sorry. I can't remember anymore. I don't think I ever will please you have to try

I've got to find these guys talk to them

Somebody's got to remember something now. I know that Jake is dead

Matt damn. Dale. Where are they?

Matt disappeared Tim moved away never came back

If it had been up to me I would have kept you

I

I

Research search good morning. Hi, it's Julie for Nancy

Hello, nance. I need a favor. I need it fast. Okay

Is a guy from here Matt Saunders moved to Portland in the 60s hasn't been heard from since I need a current address

Right, not only fast also impossible. I'm faxing you his high school yearbook photo

You'll be fast

You got it. Thanks, dance. Bye. Bye. Bye

Okay, Matt Saunders missing

Jake Gibson was married to Sue dead

Tim Webster need to locate

Dale Smith

Lots of people want to buy a sensible car

I tell they don't need a sensible car cars aren't sensible. They burn fossil fuels are dangerous

It's far more sensible to walk or take the train

What do people say when you tell them that?

Nothing

People don't listen. I just talked to hear myself

Why are you so nervous?

Pretty little girl like you shouldn't have a care in the world. I had an accident last week. I told him I jeep

Don't kid

So how come you came to clover to buy a new car?

I told you I'm here in vacation

People on vacation never buy new cars too far away from home

not sensible

Besides no one on vacation ever came to clover

So

Why are you here?

Okay, I'll tell you

I'm a researcher and I'm gathering information for an article about what happens to people after they graduate from high school

Beth Thompson suggested I talk to you

Beth

Beth hasn't said booed me in 25 years

Now she said to you here to ask me questions

Tell you what

High school seems so long ago

Why don't we just pull over the side of the road here take them to trip down memory lane?

What are you doing?

Nothing yet. I just want to get to know you a little better. That's all

Hey, where you going?

I

I

I

I

You all right? I just need to sit down

Dell came on to me what and then he just dumped me in the middle of nowhere

My mother used to brush my hair when I was little every night she counted a hundred strokes

She passed away a year ago

I'm sorry

Sometimes the smallest thing will happen and I run to the phone to tell her

And I remember

Did you

Never think about me

Every year at the same time I get this feeling something was missing

And then August the 24th, I'd know why

My birthday I didn't know where you were or who you'd be

But I knew it was birthday

Hello is Julie Cooper there please yes she is just a second

It's for you. It's a little girl. Oh, it's making. I left us. She likes to call me after school. Hi, baby

Mommy. I miss you so much

Honey don't cry. I'll be home soon

That's what you said last time and you're still not oh

Well, I still have some things to find out. It's important

Nothing's that important. I need you

Megan are you listening to me?

Okay, I'm gonna tell you something because I need you to help me while I'm here

Help what for?

When I saw the doctor

She told me that I need to have an operation

No one told me that

I didn't want to upset you now. Here's what I need you to do

I need you to try and be a brave girl. Can you do that? I have a brave girl

I know

And I want you to talk to granddad

I don't want to upset him

When I was little and I get real sad

You know who could always make me smile

Red dead

That's right

He won't mind if you cry

Okay

Now let me talk to granddad

Dad

Oh my christma

Thanks dad

Hi, bye

I

Show right

Come on, let's get out of here

I

When it all gets to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I have to walk it helps

How about you?

Is it all getting to you now?

Getting to both of us I'd say

I'm gonna see Tim Webster talk to him

You walk like Megan. I can't keep up with her either

We've got to keep looking for Matt too

I

When I came back from Seattle, I did a lot of walking

I'd come out here

Look over the water and dream about other places

I'd stop here

They'll pretend the road didn't go any further

I

What's the matter nothing ball

Damn it

Come on. Tell me

So do you remember that night after the dance?

What dance?

The homecoming dance our senior year

You're asking me to think back that far

I can't remember what I was doing last week

The big homecoming dance

The one we were thrown out of because of Del's flask

Yeah, yeah, I remember

You and Jake went on ahead

Yeah, I stayed behind with the rest of the gang at the beach

And Jake proposed the very next morning

Something happened that night

Mama said I should forget it ever happened

She usually got her way that woman

Do you realize that if Julie hadn't come here you would have gone to your grave with this

Oh, I'm so sorry

Oh, I wish I would have been there and I wish I could have done something

You don't have any idea who it was

Try try

I can't remember

I thought

Maybe you might have noticed something

Or maybe Tim will

Julie went to see him

All I can remember is that you wanted me to stay and I didn't

Oh, jeez

You've been through so much

Maybe you've suffered enough. Maybe you should just let it all go

I can't

Not now

But it was such a long time ago

So

So Tim Beth tells me you didn't like school

Like it

I hated it

I haven't been to a reunion yet

You want to put this in your article? I believe

That a terrible school can help a man succeed. Want some more tea? Yes, please

Oh

Oh, it's easy see if it had been all that good

Teachers would have understood me. I probably would have been one of the teachers pets

And I would have achieved all that I wanted to in school so that after school

Would have been nothing left to prove

Here's a good quote for you. I hated that school with all my heart

If

You hated it so nice and not come you have all these pictures. Oh

Beth, wasn't she beautiful?

Yeah, kind of had a crush on her

And I thought she looked my way a couple of times too

But then she changed I see

What do you mean?

Well, I don't know

Used to be Beth felt something you could read it all over her face like a billboard and she changed

Boys boys

No hockey playing in the house get out of here. Go on

Your son looks just like you the elder one. Oh, you think so? Yeah, everybody says

There are my wife's kids from a previous marriage. We didn't have any kids

Why not

Well, I couldn't I had mumps when I was 13. You know what that can do to guys

Not that I can't no I can't just can't make kids

I'm sorry. Oh, hell. I don't care my boys know I'm their daddy

Uh, you're gonna see Beth when you go back

Well, you tell her

That uh Tim Webster says hi

I will

I'll walk from here

Thanks a lot

I

Okay, let's get this over with I know why you're here

You do

How much does she want?

Jennifer how much what are you talking about you're gonna make me work for this, right?

I knew you were hiding something

So I figured it was the letter

She sent a letter to my wife if I hadn't seen it. Tell Dell

That's not why I'm here

I am here for my own reasons

I need to ask you some questions

About your homecoming dance in 1964

1964 homecoming are you serious?

Yes

Well, I'm sorry, but uh

I don't really remember anything

Except puking my guts out

And my old man finding me and beating me until all I could do was crawl into a corner

Every time he raised his hand he'd say you're nothing Dell nothing

It's your father still alive nope

What did he die of?

Stroke real quick. It's too good for the bastard if he asked me

Is that shock you sweetheart?

Don't go around asking questions if you don't want to hear the answers

Beth there's no one in a room

Are you sure? I'm not gonna look again. I've got better things to do. She should be back

I

I'm coming out of the cold

What happened?

Dell, I was on my way to my motel. He stopped me

He's the one I don't have a chance

His father died from a stroke. I'm not gonna be able to have the operation. I'm not gonna be able to come see that. Well, I'm fine

Fine

Julie Julie

You got to keep looking Nancy try outside of Portland. It's gonna take a while. Give me more time. No, there isn't any more time

Okay, thanks. Bye

What did she find out?

Nothing

No one has seen Matt Saunders since he left cloverton. No one's ever gonna see him

What did the doctor say?

Just what you'd expect. She wants me home now

But I can't leave until I'm sure if it's Dell

Do you feel up to a visitor?

visitor

Excuse me

What are you doing here?

Earl told me everything. Are you okay?

So why what have you found out?

Maybe nothing maybe a lot if

I

Call him

My biological father is who I think it is

It's not good

Okay, well, uh, I'm here. So so tell me what can I do?

You can go home and help take care of Megan. She needs you and you don't

Julia never said it

Well, I'm sorry for everything

So when I uh, I'm just supposed to

Fall into your arms and pretend that everything's okay

I'm not

Asking you to pretend anything. I'm asking you to forgive me

And I made a mistake. I mean it just happened. No

A one-night stand just happens

An office party affair just happens

But when two people plan a weekend and sneak off together and lie about it

It doesn't just happen. You lied to me Sam

Everybody I love has lied to me

I am trying

Tone on to everything and it's all just falling away

Okay

Okay, so maybe for the first time in your life you're not in complete control

Maybe you actually need me

I'm afraid to trust you. Oh for God's sake Julie you're sick and I am your husband

Go home, please

Look, I'm not I don't mean we go back to the way we were

you know

We start small like this right now we

I

Know I'm I looking for something that that isn't there anymore

What happened

We always end up arguing no matter how we start out

It's over

It's nowhere to go

I

I

You scared me. I'm sorry. I heard the music and I followed it. It's beautiful

My father gave it to me for my 16th birthday. I didn't have much jewelry just some costume stuff

I kept it all in here

I think everything this family ever owned is stored up here

I'm sorry. I woke you. It's okay

Mama burned my new dress

I hurt

It was blood

But I knew mama would be waiting

I

Told me I had to forget

She started to run a bath

When I was in the water she said thank God your father's not home

Didn't know mama said I would kill him

He never found out

No one did

To pull me she said they blame me

And then she scrubbed me until my skin lit

I

Later she sprinkled perfume on me

I lay there in those white sheets and I never felt so dirty in all my life

I

Rook these letters home while I was waiting for you in Seattle your mother didn't stay with you

No

Things were supposed to be normal

I

Mama got me a wedding ring and told me to wear it

Everything was a lie

In Seattle I pretended I was Mrs

I'd look at that ring and I'd pretend it never happened

Before that night I hardly ever told a lie

After that night I hardly ever told the truth

I love Seattle I hated it there I'm making some friends in my class

I couldn't have friends

Bath over the flu home once more

That's what she called you the flu

I've heard other women talk about giving birth

Some of you didn't say that Beth you're lucky you never had to feel that kind of pain

I could tell them the truth

I'd tell them this was pain and childbirth

I

Everything's gonna be all right

I never opened my hand

I never

Mama

scrub me

And I kept my hand closed

Why

I

Before I hit my hand I can remember

grabbing at a sleeve a door I was trying to fight

But all I could do was rip and tear

This button belonged to him

After I knew if I let her see what I was holding she'd burn it

So I held tight

This

This cloth is green can you remember who was wearing a green jacket

I can't

This is where we went I took the shortcut home

I haven't been here since

I

I

I

I

So

So had a camera she gave it to the waitress to take a picture

Do

Do you have the picture no that's it would

Do

Well when Jake and Sue used to go away I wadded their plants

So

So

Nothing

Nothing

Is this it

Oh

My god it was Jake

What was Jake what are you doing here anyway

You weren't home there was something we had to see

What?

Let us go we'll talk about it later show me don't

You said Jake was with you that night he was

Sue it was him

You're crazy I tore this button from the jacket if the person who raped me

Have kept it all these years he was with me all the time

We had a fight and then he left but he went home I know he went home no

I would have known I would have sensed that something was different

So

Oh my god oh my god

You could have the operation if you want

No one in his family ever had a stroke

I better go now

Thank you

Okay

Hey, where you going

Why don't you come I can't you could start over

I'll keep in touch with the hospital, but I'm not going anywhere. I can't

I'll wait in the car. Hey

I'm gonna miss you. Oh

I'd like Megan to have that picture. I know she's already had a wonderful grandma, but I thought she might be curious

I'll tell her all about you

Come with me

Even through the anesthetic I heard you

All these years I remembered your cry

Even though you didn't know it I loved you

You

You

Can I have a couple of minutes? Yeah

I

The time you were gone I was wondering what I'd have to do to get my little girl back from the left town Dan. I didn't leave you

I was I was very angry when I went to clover to

I was full of questions. I needed answers

Anything is

They were all right here

Things you taught me dreams you gave me

Beth Thompson gave me life

You gave me love

I was growing three mothers things and I came across this book

I found it by her bedside and and every time I pick it up it opens up at the same place

Must have been a favorite poem

I

Neither flesh of my flesh nor bone of my bone

But miraculously my own

Never forget for a single minute

That you

Did not grow under my heart

But in it

I loved her so much

Excuse me, but we need to take you now

I

Me

Hi, baby. Are you all right now?

I'm gonna be fine

I finished your race

Hmm

Please stay I think it's him

I need to ask you something

I

What is it?

I just wonder if we could do something

Sure

I was wondering if maybe we could

Start small like you said

To see what happens from there

I

Excuse me I'm here to see Julie Lawson what room is she in please?

Uh, 405, but only families allowed to visit.

I'm her mother.

Second door.

Dog.

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