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And my publisher,
he won't return my calls, so...

..I had to check in with you.

Well, is it doing all right? Um...

Over there, is it selling at all,
or...?

'Uh... No, it's not, Lenny.

'I'm sure that's why
they're not returning your calls.'

I talked to Mike at the agency,

and he said
that McClelland & Stewart,

they will not publish your book
in the US.

'It's their loss.

'They don't even
have the balls down there

'to publish a provocative novel.'

Yeah, you have to be very charitable
with these people,

they haven't read anything.

They wouldn't know Joyce
if he crawled up inside of their ass

and laid an egg, you know?

Fuck 'em, right?

So, it's really not selling at all?
Really, it's not...?

I thought maybe
in some kind of a...

fringe PhD section of Montreal,
at least, it would, um...

I mean, I really
rely on this book, and, um...

'Hey, Lenny, Lenny.
Come on, listen to me.'

Might be a slow burner, you know?
It'll pick up.

So, you don't feel
I'm a bad writer, right?

'No, I'm telling you the truth.'

I believe in you. I believe in us.

It's just hard, you know.
This game is very, um...

It's... It's...

'Lenny...'
It's brutal. You know? It's brutal.

Lenny, just stay sane
and continue writing, all right?

Morning.

Good morning.
Morning.

Axel, they're putting up
phone wires.

Maybe if my book sells any copies,

we could afford to have our own.

Our own phone! That would be cool.

Very grown-up.
Yeah.

Play something.

For my audience of two?

Mm-hm. Your biggest fans.

My only fans.

? I'm a bird

? On the wire

? The men were working on
Telephone wires... ?

? And now you're tired
Of this song. ?

Whoo!

We want more.

More songs.
It's really... It's all I have.

Well, it was beautiful.

I should really get to work.

Oh, why don't you write in here,
and we can go out?

It's much easier for me
to write outside.

Just remember to drink water.

Lots of water.
OK, Marianne. OK.

And put a hat on, please,

because you were out there
12 hours yesterday.

Hello. Hello.
You out shopping?

Yeah, I just picked up
some groceries.

I'm just about to walk to Kamini,
if you wanna join me.

We can maybe go for a swim
or something after?

Yeah, sure.
Yeah.

What are you going to Kamini for?

I'm going to go and see a man
about a cargo boat.

We're leaving.

What? Wh-When? Why?

You know, because
we're slowly dying here.

Because we both know how easily
we can wound and hurt each other,

and I guess
we always try to avoid that.

George is leaving in a month,

and when he's found a place to stay,
we'll join him.

When I first got here,

I mean, it was like
the first time in my life

that I didn't feel like an...
an outsider.

I'd managed to build a life

and find the time
to care for my family and write.

And we were pretty much
the first foreigners on the island.

Fifteen years later,
they're everywhere.

I'm starting to feel like
an exile myself.

And all these new ones,
none of them, they...

they don't want us here.

No, you don't mean that.

Y-You and George,
you ARE this island.

You hold the whole community
together.

Oh, God, we barely
hold ourselves together, dear.

I grew up like this.

We lived kind of remotely
and were pretty poor,

but we had the... we had the beach,

and it was this kind of
combined nursery and playground.

Did you always know
that you wanted to write?

My mother wrote poetry. Erm...

She used to tear it up
and throw it in the fire.

But I guess I get my particular...

..meaning from her.

What did you wanna do?

Actress.

I can see that.

Well, it's too late now, though.

No, nothing's too late.
You should do it.

How is Leonard?
I haven't seen him for a long time.

Well, he's writing most of the time,
so...

'Cunt. Fuck. There's nothing there.

'I was lost on the road to Larissa

'The straight road
Between the cedars

'You thought I was a man of roads

'And you loved me
For being such a man

'But I was not such a man
I was not such a man, I was lost

'I was lost on the road to Larissa

'I was lost on the road to Larissa

'I was lost, I was not such a man
I've never been a man.'

'Cunt, cunt, fuck, fuck.'

I feel like
I shouldn't be saying this, but I...

..I think he's obsessed.
H-He doesn't eat, he doesn't sleep.

I try, but, you know,
I can't get through to him.

And he works early in the morning,

and then he just comes home
late at night, and he's just...

I don't know.

Well, how long
has that been going on?

A month? Longer?

A little longer, it might be. Yeah.

How's your son? Where is he?

He's with our neighbour. She...

She looks after him one day a week,
which is my day off.

Oh, yes. It's one day off.

It's OK.

Careful not to lose your identity,
Marianne.

What do you mean? I'm...

I'm me.

I'm just saying, don't buy into
what society feeds you,

which is to...

You know,
that a woman's job is in the home.

I don't know,
I've spent my life, you know,

bound by my three little children

and George just working, working,
writing, writing, writing non-stop.

And, you know, I find time
to do a minute of writing, or...

something creative here,
in amongst the bloody breakfast

and lunch and dinner and cooking
and laundry and cleaning, and...

and I just...

I just think
it's death to any woman with...

..ambition or talent.

Well, what do you think
you would've done, or would it...

have been very different
if you didn't have children?

Yes.

I love them, but, erm...

I don't know. I think most women are
lying when they say they enjoy it.

I think they just...

they just say that because
that's what's expected of them.

And I'm a better writer than George.

But I-I've managed
to create nothing.

I mean, maybe the idea of
this Australian female novelist,

the idea of Charmian Clift,

but, erm, really,
it's just a bloody joke.

And so...

now that you're going back
to Australia,

what do you wanna do? What...?

I think I'd like
to try writing for, erm...

for television and film.

What do you want to do?
Um...

Just recently, this...

There's a clothing brand in Athens,

and they asked me
if I wanted to model for them.

So they're gonna do the photo shoot
here on the island,

and I'm gonna...

..be a model.

Well, that's exciting.
Mm.

? Four o'clock in the afternoon

? And I didn't feel like very much

? I said to myself

? Where are you, golden boy?

? Where is your famous golden touch?

? I thought you knew

? Where all of
The elephants lie down

? I thought you were
The crown prince

? Of all the wheels in Ivory Town

? Just take a look
At your body now... ?

Leonard.

? And a bitter voice
In the mirror cries

? Hey, Prince, you need a shave

? And if you can manage to get
Your trembling fingers to behave

? Why not unwrapping

? A stainless-steel razor blade

? That's right
It's come to this... ?

Hi.
Hi!

? Yeah, it's come to this

? And wasn't it a long way down?

? It's just the dress rehearsal rag

? It's the dress rehearsal rag. ?

Why do you hate my blood?

Why?!

Why do you hate my blood?

You fuck.

Leonard?

Anyone home?

How's it going? You all right?

It's looking a lot of, er...
a lot of writing there you're doing.

I've been working on this scene,

and I realised punctuation's
some kind of prison.

So I'm going and going...

I hear you. I hear you.

What?

That's bullshit.

That's bullshit!

You think I wanna do that?

You think I wanna eat your friend?
Fuck you.

Fuck you, you fucking bitch!
Fuck you!

Which one's...?

I thought we had an understanding,
you fucker! You fucker!

Which one's the, er... the problem?
They're all the fucking problem.

Here we go. Let's get rid
of the daisies. These fuckers!

Yes.

Let me...
These fuckers!

Let me take charge.

Fucking got 'em!
Fuckers.

Fuckers!

So you've given up on
the three-page-a-day routine, eh?

I haven't given up,
I do more than three pages a day.

Yeah? Yeah, yeah.
What are you on? Seventeen.

Seventeen? Yeah, 17.
Jeez. That's a lot of material.

Yeah.

In a day.

You using anything for that?

If you must know, the flowers
still feed me little lines,

but we all benefit from the earth.

I mean, besides the flowers,
are you using anything?

Why would you ask me that?

Cos I'm your friend.

I mean, I couldn't do
a page count like that.

Well, you know I'm Captain Mandrax.
Mm.

So I like Mandrax. I always have.

Why don't you come inside with me
for a bit, eh?

The energy will come back, Leonard.
You're on a roll, mate.

Mm.
Come on. It's too hot for me.

Come on, mate.

Let's go.

You know, er...

What I'm trying to say to you,
Leonard...

..is don't kill yourself, mate,
because it's just a book.

I know, I know.

Thank you.

I'm officially no longer promising,

and I do promise a lot.

So, you know, I don't know.

You're talking to a man...

..who's been writing books
he doesn't care about

for the last 20 bloody years.

And would you do it differently,

really, if you'd do it again?

Oh, I don't know.

I got to be a writer.

I've been pretty lucky
with the family.

There's Charm and the kids,
despite everything.

The war saw me travelling.

I was in 64 countries
as a newspaper man.

Went to China, Gobi Desert.

Worked in the States, England.
Ended up here.

Nah, I don't think I'd change much.

You know, when we came here,
me and Charm...

..we had a dream, and, er...

Yeah, for a while,
things were pretty good.

But, er, now I'm...

married to a full-blown alcoholic,

and I'm sure
she'd say the same of me.

I'm gonna try to write that book.

Bestseller. Important one.

Give it one last crack and...

..finish it here.

Go home and polish it.

What's it, uh... What's it about?

Sort of a personal examination.

Starting with my childhood.

I'm gonna place myself
in the narrative,

you know, see where it leads.

All those faceless young men

coming home from
the First World War, trying to...

trying to make sense of it as a kid.

That's what it's about.

Yours?

Mine's really a sexual exploration.

It's a love triangle
where there's no love.

You know, I'm hoping that
the reader falls into the pages.

So, it's really
a relationship of four.

There's lots of sex,
there's lots of thoughts about God.

It's my examination of myself.

So, you're going the, er...

crass commercial route, then,
are you?

It's OK. Just give us a moment.
Yeah, yeah.

Now, this is important.

As writers,
it's our duty to the reader

to give them a happy ending,

because life
doesn't bloody have one.

It's fucking sickness, regret,

decay, a few pleasant memories
if you're lucky.

And that's it.

So, it's up to us to give the reader
a happy ending once in a while.

Can you do that for me?

I'll have to have an ending first.

Well, yes, but...

do it for me, Leonard, please.

Come here.

I just wish you wouldn't leave.
Come here.

I'll tell you what...

I'll stick around for another month

if you promise to try not
to kill yourself, all right?

Because it's only a bloody book.

Do you understand me?

All right.

Now, you drink some water,
and you get some shade.

Thanks for the water.

? I stepped into an avalanche

? It covered up my soul

? When I am not this hunchback
That you see

? I sleep beneath the golden hill

? You who wish to conquer pain

? You must learn

? Learn to serve me well

? You strike my side by accident

? As you go down for your gold... ?

Leonardo!

You know where to send?

My friend, are you...?

See his eyes.

Yellow and bloodshot.
Mm.

Symptoms of kidney failure.

Move him, he'll die.

I'll try to restore
all the electrolytes he has lost.

I've given him water salt.

So he's going to be OK?

Don't know.

'Nothing left to do

'When you know
That you've been taken

'Nothing left to do
When you're begging for a crumb

'Nothing left to do
When you've got to go on waiting

'And waiting for the miracle to come

'I dreamed about you, baby

'It was just the other night

'Most of you was naked

'Ah, but some of you was light

'And the sands of time were falling

'from your fingers and your thumb

'And you were waiting for
The miracle

'You were waiting for
The miracle to come.'

There's some feeling I'm chasing.
I'm not sure what it is.

But I've tried recreating it
hundreds of thousands of times.

I figured one more journey
around these painted walls,

and I'll get there.

When will you know? I mean...

..The Favourite Game,

they said that you would
get the numbers soon, right?

I mean, come on,
you can't lose with those reviews.

'Leonard?'

Hi!

You look beautiful.

You don't look so beautiful
at the moment, but hi.

Leonard. Hi.

Welcome back to the living.

I am Dr Popolis.

How do you feel?

Oh, terrific.

I've been worse.

I doubt that.

Welcome back.

Your friend is gonna be OK.

Yeah?

Just keep him off drugs
and out of the sun.

Or maybe just buy him a hat.

Yeah.
I think the latter would be easiest.

Thank you.

Where's, um... Where's Micro?

He's at the neighbour's.

They said
that he could stay there until...

until we knew.

Until we knew what?

Until we knew if you would...
get better.

It was that bad, huh?

Doctor said 50-50.

I wanted him to say
I had 4% chance of living...

..but I rose up.

Mm. Well, maybe we should,
you know...

..talk about the things
that comes before death.

Because at least I'm happy
you're not dead.

So, what do you wanna do?

What's on your bucket list?
You have a life.

What's... You know?

I'd like to write something
that sells some copies.

That's it.

What about you?

I wanna...

stay here and have a family with you

and see them grow up on the island.

Will you speak in my funeral?

I mean it.

I think we've established
I'm not going to outlive you.

It's not going to happen.

You never know.
Oh, I know.

Mm-hm.
You should get some more rest.

Leonard, be careful.

I will go and get Junior,
and we can just...

I'm really OK. I'm really OK.

Don't get out of bed. Stay there.

You know, I wrote a poem about you
before I even met you.

Before anything here.

Well, do I get to...

..hear the poem?

Whenever I happen to see her

I forget for a while

That I feel ugly in my own eyes
For not winning her

I wanted you to choose me

Over all the other men
That you know

Because I feel destroyed
In their company

I have often prayed
For you like this

Let me have her.

Well, you have me.

Do I?

I love you.

Really?
Mm-hm.

Young love.
Hello, George.

Now that's something
to write about.

You don't know
what you're talking about.

I really, really, really wish
that you wouldn't do this.

I'm afraid we have to, love.
We've, er...

kind of reached the point
where we need to go back,

sort of become the people
we used to be.

Oh, yeah, we're having a...

a bit of a "farewell drinks" party.

Well, not really a party,
probably more like a wake.

But Saturday at Douskos,
if you're around.

It'd be nice to see you there.

We will try to be there,

but Leonard really needs to rest,
so we'll see.

All right. Rest up, mate.

Hey, you look great, man.

You're a liar,
but a charming one, Leonard.

Wait.

Leonard.

Telephone.
OK.

It's...

All right.
..there.

Hello?
'Hey, Lenny? Hey, it's me.'

Oh, hi, Irving. How you doing?

'I read your book.'

Oh, man, just throw it out,
you know, set it on fire.

I-It was really...
'No, no, no, Lenny.'

It's the best writing
you've done so far.

I never told you
because I always thought your suits

were better than your prose,
but this is...

'It's fucking authentic.
It's so real. It's like life.

'Really, really good.'
Really?

'Yeah, yeah.'
It's not just entirely indulgent?

Well, if it's indulgent,

it's the most indulgent
piece of crap I ever read,

but I do love it.

'You know, Louise loved it,
Morton loved it.'

And my wife,
she's fucking into your book, man.

She had her first orgasm
on page six.

Oh, she's never had any good taste,
so...

'Because you never had sex with me,
Lenny.'

You didn't have sex with Mr Zeus,
did you?

'Hey, we need you
to come back to Montreal

'as soon as you can.'

Irving, you're, uh...

you're really the only opinion ever
that I've ever cared about.

'Oh, you're just flattering me now.'

I wouldn't have told you all this
if I didn't believe in you.

And I'm an honest guy.

I shoot straight
from my hairy balls.

'I've written poetry
that will stand time,

'it will survive together

'with the best of Shakespeare,
Keats and Wordsworth.'

But honestly, I have never written
anything like this, Lenny.

I wish I had.

I can't tell you
how happy this makes me.

'Congratulations.'
Really, I'm just...

But you need to come back here,
and we have to promote it.

Yeah, um...
'As soon as you can.'

All right. So long.
'All right.'

I'll see you very soon.

'Well, I'll be waiting
with a few beers.'

OK.

'That was a very nice phone call.'

Yeah?
Yeah, it was from Mr Irving Layton.

He quite enjoyed my manuscript.
He did? Yeah.

That's incredible!
Leonard!

Well, he doesn't like anything.
Of course he liked it.

I told you.
I told you he would like it!

Well, let's celebrate.
I'll get some drinks.

I'm so proud of you.

I guess some people enjoyed it,
you know?

No.

Well, I think he said now
that I should return to Montreal,

and we can try and sell it.

He thinks, uh...
He thinks it's a commercial work.

I'm not sure I agree,
but he seems to have faith in it.

And Dudek, as well,
and Aviva liked it, too.

And Aviva's a tough judge, as well.
She is, but...

..when...

when would you wanna go to Montreal?

Well, I don't know, you know,
as soon as possible.

You... What do you mean?

The doctor... I mean, you need...

Your body needs rest.
Y-You can't just...

You think that
you're gonna go on a plane now,

in the condition you're in,
and go do some big show? I mean...

You know, I don't really...
I don't enjoy being yelled at

after I've gotten
the first good news

I've gotten in quite a long time.
I'm not yelling at you, I'm just...

Oh, yes, you are. You're raising
your voice at me for no reason.

You nearly died.

Well, if the book doesn't sell,
then I nearly died for nothing.

We're not coming with you, so if
you wanna kill yourself, go ahead.

Oh, terrific.
Mm.

Congratulations.

What's wrong?

George?
Yep?

I think we should do
the rest of the packing tomorrow

because we're supposed to be
at Douskos in half an hour.

What?
Are you dressed?

What?

I think we should leave that
and do the rest of it tomorrow

because we're supposed to be
at Douskos in half an hour.

Sorry?

Yeah. Er, well...

well, how about
a little coffee first, Charm?

You might want a coffee first
before we go?

Oh, for God's sake, George.

Has it ever occurred to you
that maybe you're the one

who needs another drink?

You look beautiful.

I think we look beautiful together.

When are you leaving?

Um...

Maybe on Monday.

Hm.

Was that a straight question?

You're interested
in my travel plans?

You know,
if you'd like to come with me,

that's absolutely up to you.

You know that I cannot
come back with you there

because I am not one of... you.

Well, I don't know what that means.

I have to sell the book
because we don't have any money.

Oh, OK, so you think
that this is about money?

Of course it's about money.

It's all about money,
this is what I do.

I'm a writer. That's
how I'm supposed to make money.

What I do is who I am.

Ugh.

Mm.

What? W-What are these theatrics?

These sounds
you're making towards me, what?

It's just funny, it's just that
Axel used to say the exact same...

Well, I'm not fucking Axel!

I'm not Axel. I'm not...
Right now you are!

What, do I have to get a contract?

Got to show you
my fucking birth certificate?

I'm not Axel.
There's a key difference. I am here.

Your son calls me "Dad".
Don't drag my son into this.

Please don't drag my son into this.
He's in it! He is already in it!

If we don't get money,

then he has no food,
we have no electricity.

We'll have to sell everything.
We'll have to sell the house.

Why don't you try
living in the real world,

not this fantasy fucking...

You're like a tourist
in your own life.

Oh, OK, OK! So, what? So you'd
rather be a tourist in Montreal,

where all the girls,
they just throw themselves at,

"Oh, Leonard, the god, the genius,
the writer, the poet!"

I don't fucking even know, OK?
I have nothing to do there.

Don't denigrate what I do

because you've never
done anything with your life.

Hm. Yeah.

Erm, I made a child.

Actually, I made two,
but luckily for you and your mom,

one of them died,
so there's that, you know?

OK, splendid.

Splendid. Ugh.

Well, I'm going to Douskos, so...

Yeah.
..if you'd like to come,

you know, be my fucking guest.

I'm not her favourite person
right now.

She should have learned by now.

Will you keep an eye on her
when I'm gone?

Stop by the house
and, you know, check in,

make sure she's...

I don't know,
not smashing the furniture.

Yeah. All right.
Of course.

You think I'm doing the right thing,
right?

Yeah.

It's work.

Can I sit beside you?

Yeah, please.
OK.

We did have some good times, too.

Yeah, it's really...
They were all good times.

..good.
All good times. Yeah.

I was always
just a bit too old for you.

I always thought
you were too young for me.

You've always been so kind.

And everybody else here
just hates me.

And I...

I helped every one of them
when they got here.

You're crying at a party.
No.

Yeah, you are.
Leonard... No, no, no.

Now you'll really be crying.

You do me...
You do me one last favour.

You sing me a song.

I'm not dying, dear.
Please.

Just going away for a little while.

Just one song.

What's the matter?

I don't know, I just...

I just don't want things to change,
and I just want them to...

I just want everything
to be the way it was, you know? Mm.

Never is.

That's life, it's change.

That's why it's precious,

because it has a finite ending,
you know?

You just gotta pick your battles.

You can't bloody win.

I wish...

But, you know,
you just gotta give it a good go.

Mm-hm.

Don't cry, darling.

You're gonna be all right.
Mm-hm.

You think so?
Yes, I know so.

Look at me and old Charm.
If we can make it, you can.

You keep an eye on her
while I'm gone.

? Like a bird

? On the wire

? Like a drunk in a midnight choir

? I have tried, in my way

? To be free

? Like a worm on a hook

? Like a knight
In some old-fashioned book

? I have saved

? All my ribbons

? For thee... ?

You all right, love?

? And if I

? If I had been unkind

? I hope that you

? Can just let it go by

? And if I

? If I have been untrue

? Know it was never to you

? Like a baby, stillborn

? Like a beast with his horn

? I have torn... ?

Come on, everyone.

? All my lovers... ?

OK. Goodbye, then.

? Who reached out for me

Bye.

? But I swear by this song

? And all that I've done wrong

? I will try to make it up

? To thee

? I saw a beggar

? Leaning on his wooden crutch

? He said to me

? You must not ask for so much

? A pretty woman

? Leaning on her darkened door

? She cried to me

? Hey, why not ask for more? ?

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