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SATURDAY 05:05

Hannes?

Hannes? Do you know how late it is?

Hannes?

Open the door. Dad and Leon are asleep.

Mum, don't worry, okay?

I am worried. And that's why you'll open the door now.

I am not leaving until you open the door.

I got eight new grey hairs tonight.

Now open the door.

Okay, wait.

-Goodness, what happened to you? -I am okay.

I just fell from the scooter.

I rented a scooter, there was no bus. It's fine.

We have to go to the hospital.

No, it's fine.

-I'm going to wake dad. -No. It doesn't hurt at all.

-It looks bad. -It doesn't hurt at all, Mum. Really.

Just go to bed, okay?

-What happened? -I'll deal with it.

-Did you hit something? -I'll deal with it. Okay?

-Did someone drive into you? -Don't worry.

Just tell me what happened to you.

-Yes. -Did you have an accident?

No. I just fell over.

I just fell over, okay?

Just go to bed, okay.

-Sweetie, are you sure? -Yes.

Yes?

-You'll tell me if you need help? -Yes.

-You can wake me any time! -Yes. Thanks.

-If it hurts, we'll go to the hospital. -Yes. Okay.

Everything is fine. Don't worry.

-Be more careful. -Okay.

I love you. Sleep well.

Dude, why are you ghosting me?

Just get in touch with me. Did I do something?

I don't get it.

You listen to my voicemails, you read my messages.

You don't answer your phone.

I'll be at the lake in an hour.

Maybe you'll come.

I miss you.

Philipp, I love you.

SATURDAY 14:25

What are you doing here?

I love you, Philipp.

I'm happy to see you too.

What happened to your face?

Did you get into a fight?

I fell from a scooter.

And what really happened?

What do you want to hear?

What really happened.

Okay, then...

I got into a fight. You are right.

Who was it?

I was joking, dude.

May I?

What happened last night?

Did anything happen after I left?

Fee puked on the dance floor.

I saw Philipp when I left.

He recognized you?

Yes, he did.

How did he react?

How did he react?

He said nothing. Did he say anything to you?

No. Why?

Just because.

-Do you have coke? -Yes, in the fridge.

Where did he hit you?

Don't start again with this.

Hannes, I saw the blood under his nails when he got back.

He said he cut himself. Such bullshit.

I don't know what you saw.

Why are you lying to me?

Didn't you want to get a soda?

Why are you so scared?

Okay.

I'll ask you again...

I'm your best friend, you can tell me.

Where did he hit you?

Where else?

Fuck.

What a bastard.

I am so sorry.

I...

I'll get us some soda.

This will pass.

-Wait, wait. -Okay?

Yes.

It's poking into my hand.

-Hang on, guys... -Turn around, then I can...

-Like this. -Not so fast.

We don't have the whole day.

-We're coming. -This cushion is very heavy.

Right!

-Watch your hands now. -Okay, okay.

Hannes?

I think there is...

I think there is only one solution.

You have to go to the police.

-Report him. -No way, Laura.

I don't want this.

My parents must not find out.

You just want him to get away with this?

Laura is right, we can't pretend nothing happened.

I just want to forget about it.

And if we get him to go to the police himself?

How are we supposed to do that?

No idea. Torment him, torture, put out cigarettes on his face.

And nobody saw how him beating you up?

You know the area.

And nobody heard it either?

-It doesn't matter. -What is this?

How far is the bus stop?

-100, 200 meters? -Dude.

-Sina! -At least the bouncers

-should've heard it. -Show your belly.

-You don't believe him? -Look at him!

What do you think happened? Bike crash?

Sure, I believe him.

Why are you asking then?

Philipp doesn't do stuff like this?

When I got back from the cloakroom,

something had happened, right?

-That doesn't matter. -Thanks, who cares!

-It's between them. -Just answer me.

Doesn't matter what it was. It doesn't justify...

-Just let him talk... -You...

-What happened? -Are you saying he provoked him?

It doesn't matter. Just answer me.

-It does matter. -You don't believe me?

You can't just go around and accuse people.

Why would he make it up?

He wouldn't just go and beat up Hannes.

All of you. Everyone against one.

And you just think...

-Just look at him. -You don't even question.

What's there to question?

It's obvious, dude!

-Go fuck yourself. -What was that?

This didn't just happen, right?

MONDAY 16.22

Thank you for coming.

Thank you for getting in touch.

Why didn't you say anything?

I was ashamed.

Why can't I be like everyone else.

Look at me.

Look at me.

Please, look at me.

You are good the way you are.

Look at me. Take me seriously.

You have come so far, you mustn't give up.

Really.

As Hannes, I never got beaten up.

But you are not Hannes.

Not anymore.

Ariel, just look at me.

What?

Do you know how often I was attacked? Or called a faggot?

And that's okay?

It's not okay with me.

Heard of the "cycle of assholes"? Just stop a moment.

The "cycle of assholes"?

-Don't talk shit now. -It's real.

An asshole will always be an asshole.

When one asshole dies, a new one is born.

-Sounds like the jackpot for me. -Dude.

The only thing we can do against it, is to be the person we are meant to be.

Hey. Listen to me.

What do you think I am saying here.

Are you going to run away?

-What's your plan? -What do you want from me?

I want you to decide.

I am done with this shit.

I want to be with you.

-Go to the movies? Hold hands? -Yes.

Yes!

Fee is my girlfriend.

That's not true.

Tell me, it's not true.

-Tell me. -My parents meet her tomorrow.

It's over.

You're shitting me, right?

Just go then.

Just go.

Go and fit in.

Have fun with Fee. Must be heavenly.

Don't let the assholes win.

It's open.

May I come in?

Sure.

Mum made this for you.

Thanks.

Does it hurt a lot?

Our family does not know pain, right?

Don't you want it?

A spot became available yesterday.

Think about it.

What do you think?

Sport is not my thing anymore.

Not your thing?

You can only achieve something

if you push yourself.

What is your thing?

What's this?

You have to shake it and then ask a question.

And then?

And then it tells you the truth.

Just ask yes and no questions.

Will you become a member of the rowing team again?

"My sources say no."

See!

The ball never lies.

Is Fee your big love?

"Wouldn't put a wager on it."

Was this an accident on Saturday?

The ball says no.

I thought it does not lie.

Come here.

If you don't want to report the asshole then at least we can hurt him a bit?

Yes, that's right.

Guys, come over here.

OUR OLI IS NOT FORGOTTEN!

Sorry!

Did you do that?

Mira didn't know about it.

What is this shit about?

Didn't you do enough?

I know I went too far, Laura.

But I was angry.

My brother is dead.

And I feel like

you've just forgotten about him.

You don't get it, right?

I haven't forgotten about Oli! And I will never forget him.

Not tomorrow, or the day after. And not in 30 years.

Dude, I lost him, too.

And yes, you're right, I go on living.

Because otherwise, it would tear me apart.

And I no longer feel guilty that I am still alive.

Laura, wait.

I found this in Oli's room.

It's for you.

Why are you doing this?

Because Oli wanted you to have it. Because it's yours.

I never believed that Oli loved you.

But he was so happy with you.

I don't want to be the reason that you cannot be happy.

You really

have enough reasons to hate me.

What's the matter?

Never seen a dick before?

Come on, open the door.

Come on, I know you are in there.

You're a little pussy, dude.

Just look at you. Do you want me to drag you out?

Why? Why are you doing this?

Just hit me!

-Why are you doing this? -Hit me.

Why are you doing this? Fucking hell.

If I hadn't done it,

then someone else would have beaten you up.

And he wouldn't have shown you mercy.

What is your problem? Do you hate yourself so much that you have to punish me?

Just hit me.

-Say you're sorry, okay? -Hit me.

-Dude. -Say you're sorry!

Just hit me.

Just hit me, dude.

Did you ever wish

to wake up as someone else?

Are you shitting me right now?

Then you know what it feels like!

What it feels like to not be able to breathe.

To feel suffocated.

I just want to wake up from this fucking nightmare.

If even one person finds out...

that I am gay...

I'm finished.

Why are you doing this? Fucking hell.

If I hadn't done it,

then someone else would have beaten you up.

And he wouldn't have shown you mercy.

What is your problem? Do you hate yourself so much that you have to punish me?

For steak, you must remember one thing.

One minute for one side, one minute 20 seconds on the other side.

-I hope the weather holds. -You sure I can't help?

Sure, you could mop the floors inside.

Okay, maybe later.

Do you want to a drink?

What are your parents doing for a job?

My parents, they...

My mother works at the checkout.

I haven't seen my dad in three years.

What did he do three years ago?

Got a blowjob from his secretary?

Just let it be for a couple of minutes.

Do your parents like their future daughter-in-law?

Hold this for a second.

I'll show you how this works.

You do it like this.

Who is texting you all the time?

Nobody!

Yes, that's sweet. Stay like this. I want to take a photo.

-So cute! -Go on, kiss!

-How do you like your steak? Rare? -I'm vegetarian!

-For real? -Seriously?

It's fine, this potato salad will do.

Of course, but...

-Why didn't you say anything? -I forgot, okay!

We have some halloumi!

That's your cue.

Go up there now and get the halloumi for our guest.

Hurry up now. Quickly.

-We're really sorry. -No worries.

That's why Hannes has to talk about that billiard ball.

-Please don't. -Why not?

What billiard ball?

My son has a billiard ball and you can ask it questions and it tells the truth.

And what did you ask?

If you are my son's true love!

And what did it say?

Oh, no, it's starting to rain.

-Get everything now. -Quickly.

Take care of the meat.

Shit.

Saved it!

We can get comfy in here now.

-All of us. -Right.

Okay, back to the billiard ball story.

I asked it if you're his true love.

And it answered with a "Yes."

It did?

-So cute. -Darling.

You are really...

Really...

How did you guys meet?

Us?

Hannes, that's not grape juice. Stop it.

Hannes, everything okay?

Are you okay?

Put the mobile phone away.

What's up? What do you want?

This is my dad, Rene, my mother, Pauline and my brother, Leon.

This is Ariel.

-Ariel wants to be with me. -What does he want?

He loves me and I love him.

Are you joking now?

I don't want to hide anymore. From anyone.

I am trans.

And I want to be called Hailey from now.

Want some more potato salad?

I am proud of you.

Somehow, I always knew it.

Something is missing here.

-The whole time. -The wine.

The wine. I'll get another bottle.

Dad?

-It's okay. The ball does not lie. -Dad, wait.

Mum.

You're my child.

It's okay.

Everything is fine.

What was the name again?

Hailey.

Hailey.

It's nice.

THURSDAY 15:37

It's warm, why don't you go in.

It was right to tell your parents.

Why doesn't it feel that way then?

Hold still.

You can make a wish.

You have no idea how cute you are.

You don't want to go in?

I'm warning you.

I'm warning you.

Now.

-Get him! -No!

No!

I don't want to go into the water.

One, two...

three.

THURSDAY 18:57

Hannes!

Hannes, wait for me.

What's up?

I just broke up with Philipp.

How did he react?

How did he react? He didn't care. Just wait for a second.

Hannes, I am sorry.

Can you give me a ride?

Do you remember when I borrowed your favorite top in 8th grade?

What? What top?

The red one. Your favorite top.

Yeah. You stretched it a lot.

I think we're even now.

We're here.

What are you doing here?

Getting my life back.

What's the plan?

We're breaking this open.

Don't be so obvious.

What are you doing?

What are you doing there? That's unbelievable.

-That's for other people! -Come on. Hurry up.

Wait. Wait for me.

How is the rib?

Good.

You have to be more careful.

-I don't want you to get hurt again. -Okay, I promise.

Pass me the ball.

Just pass the ball, dude.

Can you please give me the ball.

The bastard won't ever leave you alone?

You wanted to show me something?

Yes.

This is a bit shit.

You never told me that you sketched.

-I'm a embarrassed about it. -Embarrassed?

Daniel...

I don't know what to say.

I tried...

-...looks a bit like Saw. -It's so cool.

Thank you.

Daniel, they are great.

And...

-And here... -What?

I drew you as well. Well, tried to.

A scribble.

Wow.

So beautiful.

Thank you.

Well, then.

Why did you not fall for me?

I'm a sketcher!

Artist!

Daniel Dürüm.

You're not my type.

You should become an actor, Daniel!

Seriously?

I'm a princess.

Okay.

Get lost.

This was my wish.

At the lake.

What did you wish for?

When you gave me my eyelash, I wished for this.

You mustn't say that out loud.

It already came true.

I didn't know you thought about me.

Sure, I did.

Can you remember when you told me about Hailey?

That you are scared that I would not love you.

As your girlfriend?

Yes.

I thought about it.

Why I don't have to think about it. If you are Hailey or Hannes.

I just love who you are.

Whether you are a boy

or a girl.

Or...

Or...

a Fischer's lovebird parrot.

-No. That's a bit sick. -You said it.

The poor parrot.

You thought that.

-I didn't think that. -You said it.

I didn't think it.

Can you imagine how long I waited for this?

For this moment.

To finally

stop hiding.

More than seven years.

That's 84 months, dude.

That's such a long time.

84 months.

Okay.

That's...

365 weeks.

2555 days.

-You worked that out fast. -I'm very good at math.

-Check it. -Okay.

-Sixty-one thousand... -Don't lie.

...five hundred forty-three hours.

Promise me something?

What?

Promise me that no more seconds are added.

I have to think about it.

MONDAY 06:11

Do you like that, you fucking tranny?

I could puke when I see you! Do us all a favor and kill yourself!

They used to gas people like you!

You are going to have a shock at school tomorrow.

Hannes is a faggot.

Hannes?

Hello?

-Hannes, say something. I'm worried. -Yes.

Philipp got hold of your cellphone photos...

The whole school knows now.

What's your plan?

Hannes?

MONDAY 07:15

Where are you going?

I am going to school. Why?

I don't think that is such a good idea.

It's who I am. "Not such a good idea."

-I didn't mean it like that. -What did you mean?

When I was your age, I had a phase when...

This is not a phase, Dad.

Dad look at me.

What do you see?

How long have you known?

For two years.

Actually for seven years.

What does this mean now?

That I'm still your child.

Dad...

You didn't do anything wrong.

Quite the contrary.

It's all okay. It's fine.

Wait.

I'll drive you.

Don't let them get to you.

Thanks, Dad.

Hey!

What's up?

Wow, you look great.

What do you want?

We'll meet at the police station, asshole.

That's all?

Do you have something to say?

That's it.

Have a good day.

Translated by Melanie Martin