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You can still come back.

Thank you for being there today.

It meant a lot to me that you were with me.

Hey, anytime. And just so you know, I am in love with you.

One week earlier

-Where would you like to go? -Anywhere.

Tuvalu.

-What? -Don't you know it?

- It's a small island. -Nobody knows that.

Tova... Tuvalu.

Or Madagascar.

Why Madagascar?

Do you know Fischer's lovebird?

Dude!

-What? Do you know them? -No, what are they?

They're parrots. They live there. People call them lovebirds.

The pairs stay together for as long as they live.

Totally monogamous.

What about two males?

They meet in the jungle darkroom.

Will it always be like this?

What do you mean?

Hiding from your parents and friends?

I need some more time, okay?

I don't know if... I don't know...

I feel like I am 15 again, you know?

Afraid to be discovered at any moment.

-It's not just about you. -Then you should know how hard it is.

Yes, it's hard. It's really hard. Fucking hard.

It's the hardest thing you'll ever experience.

But you know what?

It's worth it.

Why didn't you say that Hannah's back?

Why didn't you say that you like boys?

You need to tell Laura the truth.

-Mira? -Sing something, so you can't hear.

-Mira, I'm serious. You promised. -Yes, I'll do it.

Hannes, will you sing something? Hannes? Please?

-Yes. -Come on.

Hello?

Hannes, I can't hear you over here.

Louder!

No, but...

Can you just...

I really like Hannah. I don't want to lose her.

-Do you understand? -Yes.

But if you keep lying to Laura, you'll lose her.

Why does everything always have to be this complicated?

May I?

I wanted to tell you, Laura. Really.

I'm sorry, okay?

Please talk to me, Laura. I want to explain.

What exactly are you sorry for?

That everyone thinks I'm a slut because of you or that you lied to me?

Well, everything.

-I thought we were friends. -Well, of course, we're friends.

-What are you saying? -Friends don't do stuff like this.

But how was I supposed to tell you?

"Listen, my new girlfriend is the same person

"you have a beef with, and she's back from Australia."

Mira, I don't get it.

There are millions of girls in this city,

and you fall for the one who's giving me hell.

You can't choose love!

Dude, you should know this better than anyone.

Guys, can we calm down?

-Shut up! -Shut up!

Laura, did you ever ask me how I felt

when Hannah went to Australia and I thought I'd never see her again?

I'm sorry I didn't have time to ponder your little affair.

If you remember, my boyfriend had just died.

Oli was also my friend! How am I supposed to forget that?

What does this mean?

Damn, Laura...

Everything is always about you.

It was like that for Oli, for Daniel, for Zoe...

There's always some drama. How can we ever compete with that?

We're invisible. You steal the spotlight.

If I'm such a shitty person, and if I've never noticed you...

Why are you even friends with me?

Honestly, right now, I'm not sure.

Shit!

Okay, and how do you say, "Your shoes look super cool,"

in Hungarian?

Catch!

My friend will have a crisis if I don't declutter my shoe cabinet.

Really?

-A gift? -Yes!

-You have to try this. -Thank you.

And?

Like a second skin, I'd say.

Go on. Your catwalk is waiting.

-What? -Yes! Come on!

-But? -Yes! You have to start. Yes!

-You want me to walk here? -Yeah.

Okay.

-How did it feel? -What do you mean?

Well, the operation.

So how did it feel

knowing that you could finally be yourself?

Do you know how it feels to have 11 fingers,

and to wish for nothing more than to get rid of the extra finger?

So you can... I don't know.

So you can finally feel right.

As if for the first time you are a proper human.

How did your folks react?

I'm really lucky. My parents love me the way I am.

And my friends are super cool.

What?

"Let me get into your head."

That's what my boyfriend always says when I'm lost in thought.

You don't know if Ariel will still like you,

when you tell him about this, right?

Yes.

Do you want to know how I told my boyfriend?

I waited until he fell asleep.

I didn't have the courage to do so before.

And was it easier then when he woke up?

There was no need, since he'd heard me.

And Ariel will also hear you. Trust me.

Dad even laughed.

Mom was totally against it, like always.

And said that in the end, they'd even get married.

And what did you say?

That it doesn't mean that he doesn't still like guys.

And your mother?

She asked me why I was so sure, and so I told her.

Superman can fly. Spider-Man can climb walls.

And I know when someone likes men.

And what about me?

What do you see in me?

That you also like men. That's obvious.

No, I'm serious.

Could you tell if I was someone else?

-Daniel? -It's fine, I'll go around.

Shit!

I totally forgot that Daniel and I agreed to study together.

So I have to leave?

No, no, stay.

Hello.

Hi.

The grapes are gone.

Really.

-Hello. -Hi.

-Daniel. Hi. -This is Ariel.

He is...

-...a friend. -Exactly.

-A friend. I brought snacks. -Yes.

You cooked.

Okay, I'd better be off.

-It was a pleasure. -You have to go?

Yes. Bye.

-Have fun. -Okay.

So, some basil?

Put some on there.

Have you ever faked an orgasm?

No. Isn't that what women do?

Philipp did.

He thought I wouldn't notice.

Maybe he did not want to hurt you.

Three times?

-He faked it three times? -Dude?

Can you talk even louder?

What if I'm not good enough?

What if you're too good for him?

You know, yesterday when I was with him...

I looked at his phone.

I know it's wrong. You don't want to know what I found.

What?

And not just one. Twenty or more.

The phone was full of them.

What kind of guy has that on his phone?

Maybe he has some hang-ups.

Hang-ups?

Yes, well...

Hang-ups about his penis.

What if it's me?

What's up guys?

LOL, you're cycling?

There is no help for you. Check this out.

It's so cool. Look at this.

So cool. Monkey man.

I will make you famous!

-So cool. -You film him, but not me.

-Hey, Sina. -Did you post that?

Yes.

So cool!

-I am in a bad mood now. -So many likes already.

-Sina. -Sina, we've got eight minutes left.

-Sina! -I'm going to shower.

-What's the matter? -I reek of sweat.

Do you want to do something later?

-I have plans. -With who?

Mira.

Mira. So you decided in favor of Mira, instead of Laura.

I didn't choose anyone.

Whatever you say. Whatever you say, Hannes.

Dude. Fuck.

Shit.

It feels like it just won't come off.

Did you talk to her again?

No, she's ignoring me.

THURSDAY 13:15

She hasn't been at school.

And you?

Yes, I was texting her earlier.

It was fine. Luckily, she only hates you.

Did you really mean it?

No, dude. I don't know.

When I moved here, Laura was just the first who just talked to me.

To the others, I was just the freak who likes girls, has colorful nails...

But Laura...

Laura just got me. It's a bit cheesy.

Do you have plans for Friday?

No, why? Want to do something?

We could go to Rumors.

Okay.

You and Hannah. Ariel and me.

-Double date or what? -And Laura.

Why would Laura come?

I'll come up with something.

Okay.

Hang on. I just can't get this shit off.

OLI HAS NOT BEEN FORGOTTEN!

What do you want? What will it be?

Do you have something that'll turn me into a top model?

THURSDAY 17: 25

Totally. Look, we have this bronzing powder here.

We have to try it.

The pencil next to it is for the diva look.

Okay.

Did you talk to your parents again?

-Because of Wednesday? -Yes.

Yes, sorry, but...

They really insist on it.

I can't do it.

I can't even be a real girlfriend.

Why else would my ex cheat on me?

Because he is an idiot?

Okay, for one hour. At the most.

-Four hours. -Four!

Two!

-Five. -Five!

What did I do to deserve this? What did I do?

What can I say, you're the best fake girlfriend a guy could ask for.

That's the nicest thing you've ever said to me.

It's just that one dinner. Promise.

They will hopefully be happy and won't ask me

-to bring a girlfriend home. -Sure.

I can already see us dancing at our fake wedding.

Fake wedding!

Yes, that's a good color.

That's really cool.

-What do you think? -Looks great.

-How much do you want for it? -Nothing, our treat.

We must stick together.

-You are the best. Thank you. -My pleasure.

-What about you? -Yes?

-What about me? -Don't you want to try something?

-Sit down! -No, I am not into makeup.

Lots of men want to look good today. We'll do something soft.

Don't worry. We'll start very gentle. Okay?

Are you brave?

Yes.

If so, then look at this.

I have this for you.

This'll make you look like Timothée Chalamet.

And if I'm braver?

Braver than Timothée Chalamet?

And now...

you may open your eyes.

And? What do you think?

Are you also brave enough to keep it on?

Don't be sad. You can always come back.

-How's your friend? -Which one?

Don't be like this. You know exactly who!

To be honest, he doesn't want to see me right now.

What did you do?

I was hiding.

From him or...

From myself.

Do you remember your promise?

Not to be scared to be yourself.

Don't be afraid to be yourself.

Okay?

I'm in love with him.

You know, when I was 11,

I had...

a lot of things that I wanted, and I wrote them on a list.

With...

lots of cars and LEGO and Playmobil.

Just boy stuff.

And...

I just got everything, you know?

But do you think I was happy?

I have a little box...

in the back of my closet.

It holds, among other things, the wish list with the things

that I secretly wished for.

Dolls and clothes.

Just girly stuff.

Since my 11th birthday,

every birthday and every Christmas is the same.

It feels wrong.

Simply not right.

Because like every year,

I couldn't have what I actually wanted.

I couldn't be the person I actually want to be.

A totally normal girl.

That sounds exhausting.

Guys.

Please.

And what about Ariel?

He doesn't reply anymore.

Well, then write him again.

-You think so? -May I?

May I? Well...

Do you have plans tonight? My house. 8:00 p.m.

What are you writing?

Trust me. I know what works.

"My name is Hitch. Date doctor."

Has he replied?

He will.

-Shit. Let me write again. -Wait. He's writing.

Cool. See you later.

What did I say?

You can learn a lot from me.

Grab him!

FRIDAY 21:10

I am really tired.

Let me.

Thanks again for coming.

Thanks for texting me.

Actually, it was Daniel who did. I wasn't brave enough.

You're cute.

I have to tell you something.

Well I have...

Wow.

I like this.

The feeling when we kiss?

I like the...

feeling when you're with me.

So you're not sick of me yet?

I have to tell you something.

Such feelings.

This,

what I feel for you, I didn't...

know that until now.

And that's why I'm so afraid of losing you.

When you know who I really am.

I just hope that...

it feels right with me.

With me as your girlfriend.

I see you.

All good, I'll meet you in the cloakroom.

Here you go.

FRIDAY 23:45

You look fabulous!

So brilliant.

Wow.

Wow.

You look fantastic.

-Hannes, you look radiant. -Thank you.

I am so happy for you.

To Hannes.

May he rest in peace!

That is a sad funeral.

Do you have a new name?

How about Luisa?

No, not Luisa.

Luise.

-Hazel. -Not Luise.

Hazel! Come on!

That's even worse...

How about Heike?

That's...

-My mother is called Heike, okay! -But Heike is...

-Heike is cool. -That won't do.

My name is Hailey!

-Hailey is good. -Hailey is nice.

To Hailey!

Coco? Coco can you get me a gin tonic and a vodka Coke?

-Gin tonic and... -Vodka Coke!

-Yes, coming right up. -Thank you.

Hannes?

Wow!

-You look great. -So beautiful.

Great!

My name is Hailey now.

Hailey, that's a cool name. It suits you.

I am happy for you.

Is Laura here?

Are you ready Hannah?

Please, you promised me! Come on.

What do you want?

You have to ask Mira.

We wanted to apologize to you.

I should have told you the truth from the start.

And the stuff at school won't happen again. Right, Hannah?

Hannah?

If you admit that you are a slut.

What did you say?

If you admit that you're a slut!

Slut!

What was that about?

Hello?

Why can't you leave her alone?

I tried.

-Well... -I can't do it.

You have to choose, Mira.

Don't do this.

Just say something.

Fuck you.

You did the right thing.

Doesn't feel like it.

She can't ask that of you.

I'm going outside.

Hey, everything okay?

No, I don't think so.

Okay, let's change that right now.

-Both of them. Yes. -All the drinks.

You two look so cute together.

Don't start crying, Hailey.

Hailey.

I'll take back what I said!

I hate you.

I hate you too!

What's the matter?

Can you help me? My arm...

He has a heavy head, right.

My arm is totally asleep.

Very carefully.

Very carefully.

Okay. One, two...

Good morning!

Did I fall asleep?

Why didn't you wake me?

Your grunting was so cute.

Should I get a beer?

More, more.

No, I'm leaving now.

-What? Why? -It's been great, but I'm super tired.

-But you can stay a bit longer. -Well, thank you.

Thanks for the permission, boss.

I'm staying. You bet.

Will you be annoyed if I stay?

Call me when you get home.

Why?

Because I get worried.

You're worse than my mother.

-Don't go, please! -Yes.

So cheesy.

I am proud of you!

I'm also proud of you.

-Get home safe. -Have fun.

Hey, wait.

Hey, cool!

You came.

Hannes?

Then I am not the only one who's brave today.

What are you trying to say?

Nothing. Just...

It's cool you came. I won't tell Sina that you're gay.

Hey!

Oh, shit, you look so great!

Oh, my God. Did you recognize him immediately?

Yes.

Are you guys okay?

Sure. Why?

-I'm just super tired. -No, no.

-You're not tired. -I am.

Let's dance now.

-I just arrived. -Sorry.

-And you look so great. -I am so tired.

I have to leave.

-Tell her we have to dance. -Let him leave.

I'll see you tomorrow, okay?

-Promise that we'll party together soon. -Promise.

Get home safe.

Are you home yet?

I'm not even at the bus stop.

You can still come back.

Thank you for being there today.

It means a lot to me.

And now have some fun.

Hey, anytime.

And just so you know, I am in love with you.

I'll kill you!

Fuck you!

You fucking fairy! I'll kill you.

And keep your fucking mouth shut!

Translated by Melanie Martin