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Oli!

Oli!

Oli!

Oli, please...

please pick up.

Let's talk about it.

Insult me and shout at me all you want,

but please, let's talk about it.

I can explain everything.

I love you.

You made out with his best friend.

Oli!

So?

Don't you think I'd undo it if I could?

But I can't.

SUNDAY 07:14

Still nothing?

No, still nothing.

What about you?

I've tried to reach him, but...

his voicemail is full.

He's not called me either.

Perhaps we should just call the police.

What should we tell them?

"Oli took his car, we don't know where"?

If something bad had happened they'd be here.

Do Julia and Mira know about the kiss?

Mira was far too drunk.

And Julia fell asleep in the taxi.

Thanks for bringing her home.

Shall I kick the others out?

They're only here for the leftovers.

Hannah's been asleep hours

What about you guys? I can stay here

and let you know as soon as Oli comes.

-I'm staying. -I can't sleep.

Has anyone found Timon?

He must've left straight after sending the photos.

Didn't you see?

Oli kicked him in the balls.

He couldn't walk

He got carried home.

Good morning.

We would like to speak to Mr. and Mrs. Asta.

Is it about Oli?

Who are you?

His girlfriend.

-And you? -His brother.

Please, step outside with us.

Come along.

Hear anything?

Do not drive a vehicle now.

Daniel, what did they say?

Daniel.

Oli... he...

he had a...

bad car accident.

His condition...

is critical.

Very critical.

It's all right.

My parents are on the way.

How did they react?

As always...

calm.

Even now.

When I was young I thought my parents loved Oli more than me.

Once we took the bus together.

I said I'd be right back

and got off at the next stop and didn't come back.

I just wanted him to disappear.

But at the end the bus driver just...

called my parents, everything was fine.

Even so, my dad has never yelled at me again like he did then.

Don't know why I'm saying this.

I was so young.

Sorry, I never cry.

What I just don't get...

Yes, Oli can be a complete idiot but he's not dumb enough to drive drunk.

Something must have happened.

Did you guys argue...

about anything?

We didn't argue.

Did you guys notice anything?

-Do you want a coffee? -Yeah.

I'll go too.

I'm sorry.

I didn't want you to have to lie for me.

Why do it then?

Can we get a coffee?

If you like, you can get a coffee from here.

Thanks.

What should I do?

Tell her the truth? Now?

Zoe...

Oh, God. No.

I once saw a film,

I can't remember its name.

In it a woman said that some people

need a whole lifetime to be happy for five minutes.

What if our five minutes is now?

You don't get it.

Explain it to me.

I'm scared shitless.

What we have. You and I.

How freaking happy I am.

Promise...

What if there's nothing else?

There will be.

We'll have lots of moments like this.

Do you promise?

I don't have to.

Promise me.

I can't.

Promise me these five minutes will last long.

These five minutes.

I promise.

SUNDAY 14:04

Promise me that these five minutes will last long.

I promise.

Dinner's nearly ready, sweetheart!

-What if our five minutes... -Thanks, Mom.

-Later. -You don't get it.

Explain it to me.

I'm scared shitless.

TUESDAY 09:55

I remember, how I...

couldn't stand Oli at first.

His whole demeanor.

Yes?

Laura.

Great that you made it.

Come in.

Zoe was just telling us about Oli.

We want to think about him together.

Want to continue, Zoe?

-Can I start again? -Sure thing.

I couldn't stand Oli to begin with.

His whole demeanor,

he found everything easy

whereas I found everything so hard.

That's why I hate people who...

Oh, fuck.

That's why I hate people who judge others on first impressions.

I'm not much better.

Truth is, he's not like that.

Self-confident, arrogant.

Conceited.

He was just keeping his distance to hide who he really is.

I think we all have our protective shields. That was his.

What I hate most about him is...

that at some point he showed me who he really is.

And so I took him into my heart...

and...

And now I'm going to miss him forever.

Thank you.

I can imagine how hard this is. Do you want to say something too?

I only want to listen.

Anyone else want to share?

-Can I leave? -Sure.

Take as much time as you need.

Okay...

Has anyone asked about me today? Or about the leaked photos?

TUESDAY 12:41

She didn't seriously just ask that?

No, honey. Since Oli died you're only topic number two.

Laura...

we just wanted to say how sorry we are.

Yeah, if you need someone to talk to, we're here.

You two were so cute together.

Yes, you were.

Thanks.

They were bitching about you before.

About you being here today and not even in black.

Mira isn't either.

No... in Asia white is the color of mourning.

I don't know if I have anything black.

Maybe some jogging pants or some underwear.

Even if I did, I'm not going to let anyone

tell me how to mourn or what to wear.

You know these documentaries that are always on?

One was on a British biologist who observed elephants mourning.

A female elephant died and...

the other elephants came back to the same spot every day.

Even if they'd travelled many miles, they'd come back.

I somehow found it quite cool.

Why are you here anyway?

We would've understood if you'd stayed home.

Because I've been in bed since Sunday.

I can't sleep 'cause I'm scared I'll see Oli.

But I can't cry either.

I just feel empty.

Of course you feel empty. Your boyfriend just died.

What do you mean?

It's not just you, Laura.

We've also lost Oli.

So I should behave like everybody else?

You owe it to him to behave this way.

What do you mean by that?

Zoe.

Don't worry about it. It'll be all right, okay?

Shall we go in?

TUESDAY 16:34

Why are we meeting here?

Oli always loved it here.

Yes, but you didn't.

Do you think his death is our fault?

Why though?

Zoe kind of hinted at it today.

She said if we hadn't kissed...

Oli chose to get into the car and drive off.

And he knew that he was drunk, okay? We were all drunk.

I actually wanted to go away with him.

On his birthday.

And Oli?

He was scared about... his party.

He wouldn't leave the others alone.

Why did you want to leave?

'Cause I wanted to be alone with him.

Why didn't I tell him how important it is to me?

Why didn't I just persuade him,

-then it would... -Laura.

Don't think like that, okay?

Hey...

Listen to me.

Laura, look at me!

Hey, look at me now.

You mustn't think like that, okay? Never!

Did you share about him too?

In class... No.

I wanted to... but I couldn't.

Do you want to tell me what you wanted to share?

That since his death, everyone asks me how I am.

And it's a dumb question.

How are you?

That's exactly it.

That's exactly it. Every time I try to put

into words how I'm feeling, I get this this awful feeling

that no words could ever express exactly how I'm feeling.

I don't know. Do you get what I mean?

Do you remember, when I broke my leg?

Or when I had my first heartbreak?

Or when my lousy father cut contact with me?

That's all nothing compared to this.

What if I can never forgive myself?

If I... I can't do this anymore?

What do you mean?

Seeing you.

And what if I don't want to?

You'd throw it all away?

-You don't get it do you? -What?

All this shit.

All this is to blame.

The fact that this is over, damn it!

Laura!

What if I don't regret the kiss?

And even all this other shit.

-No. -Laura!

Fuck!

WEDNESDAY 13:32

Hey.

-Hey. -I saw you out the window.

Want to come in?

If that's okay. It'd be nice to see his room one last time.

Okay, it was a stupid idea.

Did you and Oli fight?

Is that why he got into the car?

-You asked in the hospital... -Now I'm asking you again.

Did you fight?

No, we didn't.

Oli... please pick up. Let's talk, I can explain everything.

You can shout at me all you want

and insult me, please--

If you didn't fight, why were you so scared for him?

You didn't know he'd gone to the gas station.

Why are you apologizing so much?

Why do you say you can explain everything?

What is all that?

Laura!

Okay, I knew that he had taken the car.

But I didn't know where he'd gone.

We didn't have a fight, please believe me.

How am I meant to believe you now?

I'm sorry, I didn't want to lie to you.

Hey.

WEDNESDAY 19:51

#so sad - #We miss you so much #I can still hear your laughter

#we'll always think of you #Death is the end of life, not of love.

Hey.

Hey, did you hear about Daniel?

What?

Zoe said he came to school with a black eye and split lip.

What happened?

No idea, he wouldn't say. Can you ask him?

We're not speaking, you know that.

Yes, but what if he's in trouble and had a fight.

Daniel doesn't get beaten up, he...

he hates violence.

Please speak to him, for you.

I've got to go.

Mom's calling me.

Laura, please.

Ciao.

Dear Oli, I want to tell you that

WEDNESDAY 21:45

Here.

Daniel?

I didn't think we were meeting outside of school.

What happened?

Nothing.

I got in a fight. Happy?

With who?

No one you know.

Give me a name.

Anton. The guy was called Anton. Can I go now?

Last name?

Watch out! What's up with you?

Fogel.

-Anton Fogel. -Yes.

Is that the best name you can think of?

My dad is back.

-He's drinking again. -Never quit.

-Daniel... -Wait...

I don't need sympathy. Okay?

Can we talk quickly?

-Please. -Yeah.

I've never understood what's so bad if parents are separated or divorced.

For me...

it's like a holiday.

Wait.

Okay.

Neighbors wanted to call the cops 'cause Dad had another turn.

You know what Mom did?

She apologized for the noise and said everything's okay.

Then she was ashamed all night.

Not because her husband had beaten me,

but 'cause the neighbors knew about it.

I have to go. Mom's made dinner.

Get in touch if it gets worse.

THURSDAY 10:07

Train didn't come.

Okay.

Does anyone know where we got to last time?

"It's unlucky, Wilhelm,

"my active forces are...

"too restless..."

"It's unlucky, Wilhelm, my active forces are..."

Yasin, you okay? "It's unlucky..."

"It's unlucky, Wilhelm,

"my active forces are tuned to restless unconcern."

"I can't be modest and can't do anything.

"I don't trust in nature."

-"I have no imagination." -What?

"I have no imagination, no feel for nature, books disgust me."

Can you at least look?

I have to learn it for an audition.

Yasin, we're not at an audition here, okay?

Open your book.

"I have no imagination,

"no feel for nature, and books disgust me."

"If we miss ourselves, we lack everything."

Can I continue?

Yasin is nearly done.

I can't work like this.

Okay.

Dear Oli,

I have so much more to tell you.

That you were right,

and red peppers really are tastier than green ones.

And I thought of that song...

that reminds me of our time

at the Baltic Sea.

And that I'm sorry,

that Julia had to remind me

what I thought after our first date

and what I felt.

How happy I was then.

I want to tell you so much more...

but I can't.

Since you've been gone,

my bed feels so big.

I have no idea what to do with the right side.

I'm so scared...

scared of this freaking phantom pain.

I would give anything to talk to you again.

To be able to fall asleep on your chest.

But I can't.

But I can promise you this,

I will never forget you

and I will always miss you.

Forever and always.

Thank you.

THURSDAY 12:31

-Can I copy your bio homework? -I've not done it either.

Hey, you're hurting me.

You're hurting me!

You can copy my biology.

-I thought you hadn't done it either. -I lied.

-Why are you avoiding me? -Am I?

You're not answering my texts, didn't want to go the movies.

I replied. I didn't have time.

Why is Rike of all people sitting next to you?

Thought you weren't coming. Chill out.

Do you blame me for Oli?

I never said that, you know that.

How should I when you don't talk to me?

I'm your best friend and wouldn't think that.

Why do I feel that something's come between us?

I don't know.

Write it in a letter and read it out. Maybe then you'll work it out.

Can I have a quick word?

Sorry, that was shitty.

I thought it was really brave of you reading that letter to Oli.

I can't imagine what it must've been like to write it.

Thanks.

Why do you hate me so much?

-I don't hate you. -But you don't like me?

Is there something halfway?

There was never anything between me and Oli, if that's what you think.

I need to go to the bathroom.

Laura, people talk but 98% of it is bullshit.

If someone, somewhere, told you there was something going on

then give me their name, I'll get my brothers to sort it.

If I had brothers, that is.

Do you know the four phases of mourning?

No.

Phase one, being in denial.

Phase two, releasing emotions,

like grief, anger and all that. Hey, where you going?

-Bathroom. -What about the other phases?

THURSDAY 23:22

Did Mira tell you that when someone close to you dies

you feel like you're slowly dying too?

You don't take part in life

because you feel that life is pointless now.

Is that why she wanted to do this?

No.

She wanted to show you you're alive.

No thanks.

Why?

I'm pregnant.

You can't be pregnant.

I was there when you took the morning after pill.

Did you not take it?

When I had the pill in my hand it just felt wrong.

We're told by everyone what we can't do and what we can do better.

What if this is something the one thing, that I can do?

You're serious?

Yeah, I think so.

And he's the father, there?

Poor little worm can't help it.

Also it's not 100% sure yet.

Maybe I'm pregnant, maybe not.

I'm just leaving it be.

I don't know what to say.

You can be happy for me.

Mommy Julia.

It sounds funny. But also really dumb.

My mom kept her pregnancy test.

I used to think that was the ultimate token of love.

Now I find it completely abnormal to keep the test with 17 year old piss.

Really disgusting

Are you going to go to the funeral?

I have a ton to do.

The funeral is in two days.

You need to decide soon.

I'm afraid.

You know we're here for you.

I know.

But I am so afraid.

It's so bad that the thought of it makes me pee my pants.

What are you doing?

Good question.

Starting. Mira.

-Are you already there? -Yeah.

I want to come! If I sneak out I'd be there in 20.

You're with us now.

-Let's go! -Okay.

Look out.

There's the scooter.

That's the house.

Julia is running over.

And spraying on the wall.

I have to hang up now. Bye.

How do you open this thing?

Crap.

The vodka.

One, two,

three.

Shit.

Fuck! Shit!

Mom! It's on fire!

Who did this shit?

SATURDAY 15:43

Can I ask something?

Sure.

Why are you all so fucking complicated?

By "all" do you mean women?

Women. Girls.

Grandma. Aunt. Women.

Last month my girlfriend broke up with me just to get back together again.

-What did she do last night? -Broke up with you?

'Cause she wouldn't accept there's nothing going on with her best mate.

Is anything going on with her?

Yeah, of course.

Sometimes you love someone so much

and you hate something too.

And then you meet someone else

and there's nothing to hate.

Do you get me?

I only really wanted to...

well, not only.

You know what I mean?

I was always scared Oli would cheat on me.

Oli, no, he'd never do that, really.

He's not like me.

Fortunately.

Maybe I am though.

You?

Did you screw someone else?

I kissed his best friend.

Did you tell him?

He saw it himself.

Okay, fuck.

But it was just a kiss?

And you were confused.

And you thought he was cheating on you.

I'm sure he'll forgive you.

He loves you too much.

Far too much.

You don't know do you?

-What? -I thought we were skateboarding!

Yeah. Chill.

Nothing.

Hey... just tell him

that you love him.

Then he'll forgive you.

Tell him it's time we saw him.

The jerk owes me a kebab.

You can come too.

But you look more like a falafel girl.

SUNDAY 10:01

UNKNOWN: Laura is responsible for Oli's death.

The slut made out with Daniel, Oli's best friend.

It's Laura's fault Oli got into his car and died. F.O.A.D.