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That was really fun.

Except for the fact that you kept cheating at mini-golf.

I did not! I just happened to cough

every time you were about to putt.

So, um...

would you want to come up?

Uh, do I want to? Absolutely.

But, I don't think we should.

Really? Mr. Hookup doesn't wanna hang out?

Okay. It's hard to believe,

but, um, I want to take things slow this time.

When do I get to see you again?

Well, um, I'm free basically the whole week.

Except for, um, the Winter Carnival.

Oh, cute.

Are you gonna drink some hot chocolate and ride the Ferris Wheel?

You couldn't get more adorable if you tried.

- So, um... - Yeah.

Are you sure you don't want to come up?

I'll see you soon, Victor.

- Bye. - Bye.

- There he is! - Ah!

Hey. Uh, wh-what's going on?

Uh, what's going on is that a little bird told me

that someone is getting a very big honor

at the awards ceremony before the Winter Carnival.

Wait, am I getting MVP?

No. Um...

But, this award is equally important.

I mean, maybe even more important

because you, my friend, are winning the Bravery Award!

The... the Bravery Award?

Right! You know,

for being so brave and open

a-about, you know, being...

I'm...

getting an award for being gay?

Yes! I mean,

"yass, queen".

You know, you're getting it for slaying.

Look, Victor, you coming out

made us a-a better and more inclusive team,

and we all just really want to celebrate that, okay?

Um, look, can I get back to you tomorrow

about whether I want to accept the award or not?

I didn't realize it would take any thinking, but, um...

Okay, yeah, sure.

I've already paid the 3D printer for the award,

so I really hope the answer's yes.

There's nothing else to say.

I'm not going to beg you to stay with me.

Goodbye, Stuart.

Mom?

Oh God!

Sorry. I'm sorry. I-I didn't see you there.

Um, e-everything okay?

Uh, Stuart...

thinks that our relationship journey has run its course.

Okay.

Hey. Hey, look at me.

Any guy who cannot see how great you are...

- Aw. - ... or uses the phrase

- "relationship journey... " - I know.

Total idiot.

Yeah.

Do you want me to stay home from school?

We can write mean Yelp reviews for his meditation video.

No, no. I'm...

I'm fine.

I will be fine.

I want you to walk

that gorgeous girlfriend of yours to school,

- so... - Yeah. Um, Pilar and I are...

are walking separately.

Hey, I love you.

- I'll be home soon. Okay? - Okay.

The Bravery Award?

Seriously? Like, what have I been brave about?

You walked out of the house in that pajamas-and-hoodie combo.

That takes balls.

I mean, you don't see people winning awards

for being a straight athlete.

Yeah, you do. Literally every other award.

A... and then the thing is-is, like,

why do I always have to be "Gay Victor"?

Why can't I just be Victor?

Okay, but this is a chance for you

to stand up in front of our entire school,

and say you're out and proud, so maybe just take it.

But, I feel like I am out and proud.

I-I don't need to prove that to anyone.

You know what I mean? And if anyone

deserves a gay award, it's you.

I mean, picking up a hot waiter

while you're at dinner with your family? Come on.

I know, right?

And Connor's actually really great.

We've been texting nonstop, and...

his emoji game is fire.

Like, none of that heart-eyes bullshit.

We're talking Draculas, we're talking flamenco dancers,

- even tornadoes. - Sounds like you really like him.

We're actually meeting up for the first time tonight

in real life. I'm a little nervous.

Do you think maybe you and Nick want to come?

Yeah! Yeah. Let me... Let me shoot him a text.

That sounds like something he'd be into.

- Okay, cool. Let me know. - Yeah.

Morning.

- What's wrong? - What? How do you know something's wrong?

We were lovers, Lake,

and I know what you're gonna say. "Ew, Felix, don't say lovers".

It's nothing.

Actually, it's not nothing. It's everything,

and, usually, I would talk to Mia about it,

but she had to go meet her stupid baby brother.

Okay, hit me. I could be Mia for you.

For once, I'd actually feel good about my legs.

Okay, fine.

Lucy told me that she's graduating early and moving to Portland,

which means our relationship has an expiration date.

No, no, no. I don't believe in expiration dates.

That's just a myth big grocery invented to sell more soup.

Sorry. Go on.

Well, I invited her over tonight to talk,

but I have no idea what I'm going to say.

This is usually where Mia would give me, like, really sage advice.

Oh, oh, sorry. Um... Yeah, no, uh...

You know, I'm not really much of a... relationship expert.

I mean...

- Pilar dumped me and... - Wait, Felix. I'm so sorry.

Thanks. Um... Okay, listen.

You still have a few months before Lucy leaves, right?

So, instead of stressing about the future,

why don't you just have a blast with her while you can?

Okay, that's pretty good advice.

Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Right? Suck it, Mia! Who's your bestie now?

Mm, still not you.

Wait, you guys still haven't decided on a name?

Okay, okay.

Through the entire pregnancy,

I wanted Camden, he wanted Noah.

Everybody said just wait till he comes out, and you'll know.

Well, he came out, and he looks like a Camden.

Camden is a city in New Jersey.

Andrew, come on. Talk to me. You gotta weigh in here. Hm?

No, no, no, no. I'm here

just to score some boyfriend points,

not make enemies.

- Smart. - Yes. Very smart.

Oh.

Excuse me.

Coach, I know this was a very important opportunity,

but this trip meant a lot to Mia.

There will be college recruiters at other games.

Yes, yes. I will be back in time for the awards assembly.

Hey, Andrew, I was about to go pick up some takeout.

You wanna come with?

- Yeah. - All right.

Hey.

Is everything okay?

Uh...

Yeah, I guess. I don't know. I...

I just spoke to Coach Ford this morning...

You know what? Actually, don't worry about it. It's all good.

Hey-hey, Victor.

I know I said we can't hang out,

but I didn't mean we can't have a conversation.

Benji.

There's nothing I'd rather do

than tell you what's going on with me.

It's already killing me that we're not hanging out,

but now, you're sending me all these mixed messages,

and I'm just confused.

Yeah, y-you're right.

I-I'm sorry. Just forget it.

Thanks for taking me shopping, and for standing outside the store.

Well, a little retail therapy is good

for a broken heart sometimes.

But if you ever cut any of these new shirts into crop tops,

- I will ground you again. - You know me too well.

Oh! Hey, Isabel. Pilar, oh.

Look at you. Stunning as always.

Thanks, Ms. Weston. Um,

I'm just gonna put all this stuff down.

- Good to see you. - Oh. Um...

Sorry about that.

- No, I... Did I... - No.

I think anything that reminds her of Felix is hard right now.

W-what do you mean? Why?

Because they broke up.

Oh...

- Felix didn't tell you. - No.

No, he did not.

Hey.

Hey, hot stuff.

What is all this?

I was thinking we could make a pie

from Dua Lipa's new cookbook, Dua Lipa's Doin' Pizza.

Oh, that sounds fun.

I just...

I kind of thought you invited me over

to talk about the whole Portland thing.

Mm, I mean,

you moving is future us's problem.

I want to live in the now.

Savor every moment we've got.

- You know? - Yeah.

I mean, I guess so.

Great.

Now, come savor the epic mess I'm about to make.

Man, I love eating in straight restaurants.

We're the cutest people here.

We're the cutest ones everywhere.

This is true.

Oh! Hey!

- Uh, Nick, this is my friend Rahim. - Hi.

And you must be Connor! It's so nice to meet you.

- I've heard so much about you. - Really?

Um, actually, he's heard a totally chill amount about you.

- Almost nothing at all. - Mm-hmm?

Stalker much?

- Look at this jacket! - Oh...

this old thing?

I convinced the Poshmark seller that I was dying

and wanted to get buried in it,

so she gave it to me at a discounted price. Shh.

So, Connor, where you from?

- So, how long you been out here for? - Like, four years.

- Okay, cool. - Nice.

Dad came here for a job.

- Came with him. - Hey. Sorry, guys. Um...

Is it cool if we sit at the patio? Those guys are not the vibe.

- All right, what? Sorry. Go on. - It's fine. Just ignore them.

- Okay. - So, um, what were you saying?

- Uh, guac for the table? - Yeah. Can we get some calamari, too?

So I'm sure you probably have guessed that I really didn't need

any help picking up any food.

Harold, you are the most impressive person I know.

You do not need my help carrying a bag of...

shrimp enchiladas.

Look, I, uh,

I just happened to overhear you on the phone with your coach.

Sounds like you skipped out on a big opportunity to be here.

Yeah.

I missed a game

while we were traveling,

and there were recruiters from Northwestern at it.

Mia didn't understand how important that would be for you?

Actually, I didn't tell her.

All right, look, Andrew.

I love how devoted you are to my daughter.

I just...

just want to make sure

that devotion doesn't get in the way of your future.

You know, Mia wouldn't want that.

Mia is my future.

Everything else comes second.

All right. Welcome, everyone.

As a reminder, this is a safe space.

All right, who'd like to start us off?

I'll go.

I... talked to my ex-boyfriend today.

And it made me...

really sad.

So sad that I wanted to drink,

but I didn't.

And I came here instead.

He's staying away from me right now because I asked him to.

But...

I'm not even sure if that's the right thing to do.

See, my parents, they think he's a trigger.

That the stress of our relationship made me start drinking again.

They even suggested I go to boarding school

for a fresh start.

I told them that was a little extreme.

I don't know if they're right about Victor.

I mean, we were fighting a lot

before we broke up, and...

Yeah, that-that made me want to drink.

But, he also made me

happier than anyone else in the world.

He was the first person that ever made me feel safe...

and loved.

And I am torturing myself,

staying away from my favorite person

when I'm not even sure it's the right thing to do.

- Wow. A Gay Bravery Award? - Yeah.

That sounds even more made up than the award my mom used to give me,

which was, um, "Best Recycling Buddy in Atlanta".

Yeah, I know. It... it's ridiculous.

What's so wrong about the school

actually wanting to celebrate Victor's queerness?

I don't understand why you're so pressed about this.

It's just, if I win an award,

I want it to be for my talent,

not my sexuality.

I'm not pressed.

- Um, shall we? - Yeah. Let's get going.

- I'm gonna go hit the bathroom. - Me, too.

- We'll see you guys outside? - Yeah.

Hey, a-are you okay? Y-you just seem upset.

- I'm fine. - What are you looking at?

Yeah, you wish, fag.

I wish?

I wish what exactly?

You know.

Come on.

You really think that I would go for someone like you?

'Cause look at me and then look at yourself.

Your face is so busted, your hairline's literally running away from it,

and I am a Persian Clark Kent.

I am tall. I am fashion-forward. I am the moment.

You are sad. You're ignorant.

You're yesterday.

So, I think you and your little backup dancer

should probably get going.

You might be late to your micro-dick meeting.

Whoa, is there a problem here?

It's not worth it, man. Let's get out of here.

Holy shit. Are you guys okay?

Yeah. That was intense.

- How did you come up with that on the spot? - I didn't.

The second I saw those guys, I was thinking about

what I was gonna say if they bothered us.

I'm constantly in situations like this,

so when there are guys laughing at me,

I can't just ignore them. Not like you.

I really don't want to do this right now.

Wanna go to Brasstown,

get a latte or something, just the two of us?

Yeah. For sure.

It was great meeting you, Nick.

Yeah.

Good night, Victor.

Not going to lie. This whole

1950s housewife role-play is surprisingly hot.

Are you okay?

Mm-hmm. Easy breezy.

- Lake, we need to talk. - No, I don't want to. Okay?

I am keeping things fun and light.

Just Felix and his stupid not-Mia advice.

I just...

I can't live in the now, Lucy.

I just don't understand why you have to go.

Lake, I've been sad for a really long time.

Like, since I was 9.

When your mom died?

My step-mom can't stand me.

My dad gets depressed when he looks at me

because I'm the spitting image of my mom,

so he just pretty much never looks at me.

I need a fresh start.

I get it now.

I just can't keep falling more and more in love with you

until you leave me.

What are you saying? You want to break up?

No, no, not at all.

But, I think we have to.

They do say

the best revenge for an almost gay hate crime

is to be really...

really gay.

You're thinking about Rahim, aren't you?

Yeah, a little bit.

Give you a ride to Brasstown?

- Thank you. - I'm doing it for me.

You're gonna be much more fun once you talk to your friend.

That was...

the best 20-minute nap of my life.

- Bless you. - Are you kidding? It was my pleasure.

Hm.

It's harder than I thought. Being away.

Yeah, I can tell.

I fought so hard to stay at Creekwood.

I was sure it was what I wanted,

and, a lot of the time, it is.

It's just joking around with you and my dad today...

being with the baby...

It's like I finally have a family.

You want to know what I said to your dad after our first date?

I don't know. Do I?

We didn't get to that stuff till after our third date.

- Veronica. - Hey.

After our first date,

I said, "You seem great,

but I am not looking for anything serious right now".

And I meant it.

But, I agreed to a second date.

And by the time he dropped me off,

I could not imagine my life

without your driven, passionate,

terrible dancer of a father.

Mm. He's really bad.

Mia, sometimes we think we know what we want

with every fiber of our being, and then...

life happens.

But...

Andrew.

It would... it would break him.

Andrew loves you.

I think he would understand.

Yeah. Maybe.

What about Zahair?

For his name.

It means shining bright.

Zahair.

Zahair.

Hello, movie star.

Did you, uh, do something different with your hair?

'Cause you are looking like a young Angela Lansbury.

And I got you your favorite beef stroganoff.

We are going to get over this breakup in no time.

Okay. Well...

we're going to do that another time.

I want you to come with me. Come on.

Huh.

What's with the root beer floats and Millionaire?

I ran into Isabel, and...

she told me about your breakup.

Okay.

Look, I'm fine.

You're fine. I know you're fine.

You have been putting

my emotions before yours for so long

that you have gotten really good

at pretending to be fine, at least in front of me.

- Okay, that's not true. - It is.

And, Felix, that's done.

You're my son, I'm your mother,

and I am finally well enough

that I can act like it.

So tonight,

we're going to have root beer floats

because you love them.

We're going to watch Millionaire because Kimmel?

I mean, right? He soothes.

And then, you're going to tell me

how horrible you feel

because I can handle it.

Okay?

- Come on. - D...

I really do miss Pilar.

I know you do.

I know.

- Does that help? - Mm. Yeah.

- Hey. - Hey. Coffee?

Oh, sure.

Oh, fair warning.

Those donuts are so old, they're basically bagels.

Hey. W-what you were saying earlier about wondering

if you're doing the right thing?

Yeah.

Only you can answer that question, Benji.

You have to do what's right for you.

Hey, what's going on? Wait. Where's Connor? Did he...

- He's just peeing. Chill. - Okay.

- We kissed on the walk over here. - Really?

Yeah. It was perfect, if you must know.

Not all bitey and slobbery like the last guy I kissed.

I'm really glad.

Uh, look, I don't want to take up too much of your time,

but I just wanted to say sorry

about saying the wrong thing about those guys.

It's fine, Victor. It's just...

You're telling me you don't want the team to give you an award

because you're tired of always being Gay Victor.

Well some of us can't hide it.

You...

You say you're out and proud,

but you're out and proud on your own terms.

When you're in the mood.

And I just can't believe you're not in the mood

to stand in front of our school and say, "This is who I am".

I don't know, it just...

It feels personal.

I'm...

I'm going to accept the award.

- Don't do it for me. - I'm not doing it for you.

I'm doing it for me.

Okay, great. Now, get lost.

You better call me later and tell me all about this magical kiss.

Okay. Bye-bye.

There you are.

Your dad is ecstatic.

He has said the name Zahair

maybe 500 times in the past five minutes.

- I need to... - Andrew, I wanted...

You first.

There was a recruiter

from Northwestern at the game I missed.

W-why did nobody tell you in advance?

They did, but I wanted to be here with you.

- Andrew. - No. Don't "Andrew" me.

Nothing is more important to me than being there for you.

I don't like keeping things from you, so I just wanted to tell you.

Right. Your turn.

What did you want to talk about?

I just wanted to thank you.

Uh, you-you've been incredible these last few months.

Okay.

I'm so sorry.

I didn't know where else to go.

- Uh... - Lucy and I broke up.

Y-you're going to be okay.

Thanks for being so cool about tonight.

Things kind of went off the rails there for a second.

Victor, when I came out of the restaurant today,

and I saw those guys messing with you,

I just wanted to protect you.

I guess scary shit finds a way

of making you realize what's important to you.

Yeah. It does.

Yeah.

I thought I heard you come in.

Did you have a good night?

No, not really.

Hey, you know how...

you and Dad wanted me to think about boarding school?

Yeah, why?

Because I want to go.

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