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Why do you call your mom CJ?

Uh, she lost the privilege of being called mom.

Stephen fucking DeMarco.

Macy, how are you?

You guys know each other?

We're both from Bayville.

- Who was calling you yesterday? - My mom.

She did something really fucked up,

and... I, I can't really forgive her for it.

I've tried.

My mom's difficult, too.

I don't even talk to my dad.

He left when I was six.

This one won't die.

Just shit with Stephen.

Like, I'm being so stupid, I don't even feel like myself.

There are other people out there.

What about that guy that we met?

Max.

You still wanna grab dinner sometime?

- Here you go. - Thank you.

Only the best coffee for you.

My favorite.

Hmm. Yum.

Oh shit.

- What? - I, uh, I gotta go pack.

My mom's about to be here.

Let me know if you need rescuing.

Thank you.

And if I don't talk to you?

Because phones don't exist?

Merry Christmas, just in case.

Alright.

Merry Christmas, weirdo.

Are you the brutal heart

Are you the brutal heart that I've been looking for

'Cause if you're looking for love

You can look for that door

Hi.

Didn't realize you weren't home.

Weren't you leaving last night?

Delaying the inevitable.

- Hi. - Hi.

Come in.

So use

Late night?

Yeah, some of the girls and I got pretty hammered.

Just mentally preparing to be with my mom for two weeks.

Come here.

I don't mind at all

- Did you smell me? - Mm-hmm.

You just smell so much like you.

Like more than you normally smell like you.

Probably my sweatshirt.

Hearts

And hearts that break the night in two

And arms that can't hold

Oh my god, sorry.

Just take it.

Hi, what is it?

Hi, I just pulled onto campus.

Okay, I'll, I'll be down in a minute.

Okay, bye.

Bitter hearts

I'm sorry, she wasn't supposed to be here for another hour.

Maybe we can finish this over break?

It's gonna be weird not seeing you

when we're only like a half hour from each other.

Yeah, for sure.

- Yeah? - Mm-hmm.

Cool, what, what day do you think?

Uh... what's good for you, what works?

Day after Christmas is a pretty great black hole of a day.

- Okay. - Okay.

Alright, I gotta go.

Okay.

- Bye. - Bye.

This night from black to blue

So use me

Use me

- Hey. - Hey.

Are you allowed to drive on your own?

With a licensed driver in the car.

Oh, so you only broke the law on the way here.

Exactly.

So... how are spirits?

Well, she loves the holidays, so

weirdly kinda high.

Yeah.

Hey. She's got a migraine.

She's lying down in her room, so I told her we'd keep everything quiet.

Good to see you.

You too.

How was the trip?

Fine, you know.

How long has she been out for?

Like an hour.

Are you sure we shouldn't go say hi?

She specifically said not to wake her up.

Okay.

Is there anything to eat, food?

There's some frozen...

Just wait, the microwave is so loud.

Is that Stephen?

Is he home?

Yeah, Mom.

Sorry about the noise.

Hey, Mom.

- Oh... - Happy holidays.

Why didn't you come say hi to me?

I'm sorry, I should have.

Vince said you have a migraine.

It's okay.

Come here.

Hi. Hi.

Just come say hi to me next time.

Sorry.

You're forgiven.

- Morning. - Hey.

Hey, you're up.

- Yeah. - Um, something came for you.

Ooh.

It's a memorial for Macy,

on the 27th, at her house in Bayville.

Oh, I'm sorry.

You should go.

- Oh my god! - What?

I, I got into the advanced writing seminar.

- I knew you would. - Wait, what seminar?

It's, it's a next semester thing.

They don't even accept a lot of freshmen.

That's so great!

Hey, um, so, do you think that I'll get to meet

this guy that you're seeing?

- What? - The one from Bayville?

- Georgia. - Mom!

I just said that you were kinda hanging out with someone,

and I specifically told her that she was not allowed

to clarify what hanging out meant.

There you go.

Oh, just give me something.

What, I don't know. He goes to my school.

Mm-hmm. Wants to be a lawyer.

Lawyer, I like that.

I'm sure you do.

I'm so happy you're home.

I'll get that.

Gus, shh.

Hey, Lucy.

It's been a while.

Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas, James.

How're you liking Baird?

It's, yeah, it's good. It's fine.

Oh, James, hi. What are you doing here?

I'm sorry, I should've called first.

No, don't be silly, come in.

Are you gonna let him freeze on the front doorstep?

- It's fine. - I'll have those.

- How've you been? - Just came to drop that off.

That was very sweet of you.

Hey. Hi.

What on earth was that?

What was what?

You, you were acting very cold.

Does he come by here a lot?

Well, I don't know what you consider a lot, um, but why?

Lucy.

Why did you put up Dad's stocking?

Because your grandparents came by this week

to drop off the presents.

So you put it up for them?

I thought that that would be nice for them. They're his parents.

We haven't put it up in three years.

It's a stocking. What's the issue?

I just don't understand putting it up for appearances.

What are you worried about, that they don't think you're sad enough?

Wow.

Where'd you find it?

Him.

He was out by the garage.

I checked with the neighbors, but he's not any of theirs.

He smells, and his litter smells.

I'm not keeping him for long,

just until we can find him a home.

Yeah, well, he'd probably find a home on his own

if you'd stop feeding him so much.

Cats are smart like that.

You look really pretty today, Mom.

- You do. - Mm-hmm.

Says the boy who doesn't come say hi to me.

So, did Vince tell you his big news?

I'm moving back to Bayville.

What? What about your job?

That's a silly question.

He can be an accountant anywhere.

I got offered a job at a firm in Long Beach.

Oh, so you just decided you didn't like the city anymore?

I do, but Mom's here.

How does the pay compare to the city?

Okay, Stephen, grocery store.

Let's go.

Thanks for helping out, Stephen.

You know, I was thinking,

what if I took us all out for a fancy meal on Christmas Eve?

We never go out.

We can't afford it.

Oh, it's a holiday.

I was thinking of maybe, maybe Basil Leaf.

Basil Leaf is good.

What about Louie's?

Everyone says that's the best.

I've heard that, yeah, Louie's.

So, Louie's is what you'd prefer?

Sure, yeah.

Louie's.

Great.

Let's, uh, stop at the flower shop on the way home,

the one in Glen Head.

There's a closer one.

Yeah, that one's shit.

Take the cart back.

What kind do you want?

Uh, well...

what are holiday colors?

Red, green, red and green?

Okay.

I'll get some red roses. Okay.

- Merry Christmas. - You too.

Do you come in here a lot?

- Here? - Mm-hmm.

Yeah, I've been here a few times.

Does that woman know you or something?

These are nice.

Yeah.

They're not roses.

Take 'em up to the counter for me.

- You want these? Okay. - Mm-hmm.

How have you been doing lately?

- Me? I'm good. - Mm-hmm.

I'm happy your brother's moving home.

It's nice how much he cares.

Who was the woman?

Which woman?

The flower shop, behind the counter.

Oh, she was a flower shop employee.

Do you know her?

She looked like she recognized you or something.

- Did she? - Mm-hmm.

She was pretty.

I didn't really look at her.

You looked at her enough to observe her behavior.

Certainly, you looked at her long enough

to know if you thought she was pretty.

Did, did you think she was pretty?

I'm asking if you did.

No, no, I didn't, not really.

I don't know how you could think that she wasn't pretty.

Mom, if there's something going on with that woman

or anything, you can tell me.

I just want to make sure everything's okay.

Of course, everything's okay.

- Alright, I'm just checking. - I mean,

why won't you just admit that she's pretty?

I can handle another woman being pretty.

I'm not that insecure.

No. Mom, I'm not saying you're insecure.

I didn't think you were insecure. That's not what I was saying.

If a woman is objectively pretty,

why don't you just say it?

I didn't think she was pretty, Mom.

That's, that's what I'm saying. Stephen!

- Okay, okay. - Why... Please stop doing this.

Okay, she's pretty.

She was pretty. Okay?

Alright?

Stephen?

Hey.

Mom went on a walk with Vince.

You don't have to hide out here.

I'm not hiding. I'm avoiding.

I fucking hate it here.

You'll be in college soon enough.

Two years.

Hm? If I did it, you can do it.

For my birthday last month,

I asked her if I could have a party with some of my friends

instead of staying home with her,

she barely spoke to me for, like, a week.

Yeah, should've seen that coming.

I just thought maybe she'd get better one day.

Yeah, people like her don't get better.

She is who she is.

I've been looking at brochures for boarding schools.

Why, to remind yourself that you're poor?

A lot of them have financial aid.

There's one in Jersey I'm pretty sure I could get into.

My guidance counselor says I could.

It's gonna get really ugly, you know that, right?

I can't be here anymore, Stephen.

You can't tell her you talked to me about it.

She'll feel like we were...

plotting against her, and then she'll freak.

But... if you think you can get in,

apply.

She'll never forgive you, though.

I need a parent's signature for the application.

Fill 'em out.

Give 'em to me.

I'll figure something out.

Just for you.

I forgot how perfect your joints are.

So dainty and ladylike.

Nobody at school appreciates them.

Fucking ungrateful monsters.

I'll kill 'em.

- I miss you so much. - I miss you.

Do your parents ever see my mom out, like, socially?

Why?

I'm just wondering who she's been spending time with.

Hey, Lucy.

Hey, Rob.

Hey, can I take some of the whiskey from your dad's bar?

Just not the expensive stuff.

Sweet. Hey, Lucy.

You look good. Looks like you avoided freshman 15.

- I'm sorry. - Wow.

He overcompensates because he thinks that you hate him.

I don't hate him. Your mom hates him.

Can't believe you guys stayed together a whole semester. Crazy.

We visited each other a lot.

Yeah.

I hate that he goes to the same school as Laura,

but he swears that nothing's happened between them, so.

I wish that you'd invited Stephen.

We're not really at that place yet.

We're keeping it casual, and it's fine.

You told me about him, like, week two of school.

What are you talking about?

You look fancy.

Don't sound so surprised.

Okay, guys, let's go.

Here you go, server will be right with you.

Thank you.

Merry Christmas.

Thank you.

Very nice.

I thought we might, uh, start

with a nice bottle of white for the table.

What do you think, Vince? Yeah, sounds good.

Should we let Stephen use his fake?

I'm not supposed to know anything about that.

Light jazz music playing

Mom?

Oh god, why is Dad here?

What are you doing?

Why is he here? How would I know?

It's a coincidence.

Jesus Christ.

Merry Christmas.

May I take your drink orders?

- Uh, yes, we'd like... - Should we leave?

Uh, we would like a bottle of Sauvignon Blanc,

whichever you recommend,

and waters for the table.

You told me you didn't know that woman.

Who is she?

The woman.

I think we should just leave.

- Yeah. - Why don't we just go home?

No, we are not going anywhere.

You've gotta stop this. The fuck is wrong with you?

Excuse me?

I'm here having a nice lunch with my children.

You're the one making a scene.

Uh, just go ahead and pour the glass, thank you.

Abby told me you came to her work.

Uh, we'll, we'll order our food in just a minute, thank you.

I feel sorry for you.

And for you three.

That you have to watch her do this.

Oh my god!

Why do you do this?

Do what?

This isn't my fault.

That woman was pregnant.

Well, maybe it's better that you know.

So, I guess I just let you all down, I get it.

Buy you lunch I can barely afford,

but I am a terrible, worthless mother.

No one thinks that, Mom.

Yeah, then why are you treating me that way?

I try to do something nice for you and you're punishing me.

No one is punishing you. I think we're just a little upset.

Yeah, what about me?

What about me?

How do you think I feel?

I didn't plan today.

And besides...

who cares if we ruined his lunch?

Shouldn't he have to be accountable?

He should have to see what he's missing.

So you just didn't know he was gonna be there?

No.

No, honey. I...

I had no idea.

Besides,

I wasn't even the one who chose that restaurant.

Stephen did.

This is bullshit.

You know you chose that restaurant.

Ooh, that's nice.

Is it new?

- Wow, who gave you that? - Huh?

- Who gave you the necklace? - Oh, um, uh, my...

my friend.

One night to be confused

One night to speed up truth

We had a promise made

Hey, merry Christmas.

Hi. Merry Christmas.

- Wanna know what I'm wearing? - Okay.

Yeah, what are you wearing?

Your sweatshirt.

You left it in my room.

I really like that visual. I hope you're naked underneath it.

How's your Christmas?

Um, it's not the best.

My family's... you know, uh,

they're hard.

Oh my god, you have no idea.

Everyone here is so dysfunctional.

Oh, I'd probably get it more than you think.

There is no way your mom is as bad as mine.

Yeah.

Probably not.

Um...

well, I just wanted to say hi.

Oh, okay.

Um... are we still on for tomorrow?

Shit, um, I don't think I can do that anymore.

Really? I, I just, just... scheduled things around that.

It's just, this family stuff is really stressing me out.

Well, maybe I can be your distraction.

Yeah, we can

talk tomorrow

and figure it out.

Um, I should go open presents.

Okay, I'll, I'll call you later.

Okay, bye.

To lean on

Wouldn't be good enough

And you

You knew the hand of the devil

Hi, Max.

Thank you, Mom.

Sadie, you wanna open one?

In one night

To call for hands of above

- Hey. - Hi.

- What's the bag for? - I'm gonna go to Lydia's.

What?

It's Christmas, I rented "The Holiday."

Yeah, but the day's over and, you know, she's having guy troubles, so...

You know what, just go to Lydia's.

Okay.

Look, your mom's always gonna be your mom.

Did you send in those internship applications I found?

My dad says they're legit.

I sent them before I left campus.

Good. See?

Things will get better.

You're not okay.

Why don't I come out to Bayville?

You don't want to be in this house.

But you want me to come.

I should go

before my mom comes looking for me.

If you don't want me to come, then tell me now.

Uh, okay, I'm gonna call you later.

Okay. Bye.

Hello.

I can't believe you booty called me on Christmas.

Come on.

Thank you. Oh, can we have extra syrup, too?

A-and whipped cream?

Okay, thank you.

So, I think I ordered food for six of us.

Just six?

They've bounced back after a bad season

for a game record,

and right now they're already seeking season two

and looking to hold it.

Yeah, nobody saw that coming,

and after last season, they've both got to...

Surprise!

- Hi. - Hi.

You didn't tell me not to come.

I feel bad.

If I had known you actually liked your family,

I wouldn't have made you ditch them on Christmas.

I guess it's my fault.

I always come when you call.

Well, thank you for coming.

I really needed an escape from my mom.

It sounds like she's just lonely.

What is it about her that bugs you so much?

It's not a very good story.

I don't need it to be.

Um...

my dad died when I was 15.

Ah, man.

I'm so sorry.

Thanks. He was...

he was sick for a really long time, and...

at one point, we thought he was gonna get better,

but then... it became clear that he wasn't.

So we took him home for the last couple months and

took care of him ourselves.

And there was this friend of my dad,

a guy he worked with for years, James.

And he started... really helping out.

Helping my mom with stuff,

like prepping the business for when my dad was gone.

My dad loved this guy.

Okay.

Uh, and then one time, I was alone

with my dad.

My mom had some appointment in the city.

I don't remember what she said, hair or some shit, I don't know.

But I was alone with him.

And he just started to crash.

The thing that sucks is, like,

I know a lot of people who are dying

make peace with it.

But my dad really didn't wanna die.

He was, like...

not ready.

And when he started to crash, he knew.

And I knew, and I started to panic.

He kept asking for my mom, and I kept calling her,

and she wasn't answering.

And then he just died.

Alone, with me.

And it wasn't till three hours later

my mom actually got the calls.

Fuck.

I'm so sorry.

That's awful.

Yeah, and there, there was no,

there was no appointment.

I found out later my mom had been out fucking that guy James.

Sleeping with him the entire time my dad was dying.

Jesus.

Does she know you know? No.

I think she's... seeing him again.

It's so fucking gross.

That's a lot.

I used to be a happier person.

Wasn't so in my head all the time.

Now I feel like the things that do excite me,

do get me out of my head,

I don't even know if they're... good for me.

Do you think maybe you're... depressed?

Um...

No?

No, I think I'm sad.

I think it's normal to be sad, my dad died.

I'm not saying it's not normal, I'm just saying it could explain a lot.

- Explain what? - Just stuff.

I've noticed, like,

how you go MIA a lot.

Okay.

Look, I'm just saying,

I knew a lot of guys who had depression.

I just feel like putting a label on it

kind of invalidates it.

It doesn't invalidate it. That's an insane way to look at it.

I'm not saying you're insane,

I'm just saying, it's insane to think about it that way.

I feel like I just shouldn't have told you,

because you're just judging me now.

No, I'm not.

I'm glad you told me.

We don't know each other that well.

Really?

I mean, yeah.

We haven't... been doing this that long, so...

Doing what, exactly?

You think I don't know what's going on

when I go weeks at a time without hearing from you?

I'm not an idiot.

Honestly, I think you should just

be with someone nicer than me.

So, do you want me to leave?

You're nice, Lucy.

You're just

really fucking immature.

It's too much.

Sorry you had to come

all the way up here.

I know you hate it here.

We're gonna get you something in the city for the summer.

I promise.

Why are you so good to me?

Hey.

Partially because I like a challenge.

And the other part?

Because I know deep down,

you really fuckin' need it.

Hi, Lydia.

Rob and I had a fight,

and then I just heard that he's at Laura's party,

and, like, three different people saw them making out.

What? Where, where are you right now?

I'm sorry, I do hate him.

I've fucking hated him ever since the eighth grade.

I hated him in eighth grade.

Sure.

Your floors are really uncomfortable,

I just don't wanna sit on your sex sheets.

- Cheers. - Cheers.

Oh my god, it's disgusting.

Well, I'm really glad that you got to see Stephen, though.

I know you like him.

Yeah.

Yeah, it was really good to see him.

Hey, what can I do to make you feel better?

I don't know.

Should we, like, take the little thingy off the top of the car,

like his little thing, and, like, shove it up his butt?

I just wish someone would punch him in the face.

Would you like me to punch him?

Maybe we shouldn't do this.

- Do you not want me to? - No, I do. I do.

Okay.

Okay.

Hey, Parker, hi.

Uh, merry Christmas.

Is Rob inside?

- Yeah? - Cool, can you tell him to come out?

What are you doing?

Just tell Rob I'm calling the cops on the party

if he doesn't come outside.

Yeah.

Hey, guys. Hey.

Oh my god.

Muffled hip-hop music

Hey. What do you want, Lucy?

You here with Laura?

- Yeah, I am. - Yeah, yeah?

And?

- Ooh! - Ow.

Fuck!

- Fuck! - Oh my god, that was amazing.

Thanks!

Oh.

You think she's gonna smell this?

Yeah, probably.

Why is that freshman calling you?

Hey, this is Stephen, leave a message.

Hey.

Um, I haven't heard from you.

Um, I just wanted to call and let you know

that I'm gonna be in Bayville today, actually.

There's a memorial for Macy that I'm gonna go to,

so, um... yeah, let me know if, you know, you're around.

I, I still have your sweatshirt,

so guess you have to meet me.

Okay, I'll... Okay bye.

Think she has a crush on me.

- Hmm. - Wrigley keeps bringing her around.

To make his girlfriend happy.

- Such a new side of Wrigley. - Yeah.

But I guess he's fucked every girl on campus,

so why not settle down?

Oh my god.

What?

Just... Wrigley.

It's so embarrassing.

What?

I might've accidentally hooked up with him

Welcome Week, freshman year.

Are you serious?

Oh, it was before I even met you.

It was honestly so bad it was funny.

Oh my god.

Were you drunk?

Of course. It was Welcome Week.

This was before we met.

Yeah.

Hmm.

Wrigley?

Forget I said anything.

I'm sorry. I'm so high.

I'm an idiot.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

I'm fine.

Hi.

Hi.

- How was Lydia's? - It was good.

I'm gonna go to Macy's thing.

Oh, good.

I'm glad.

Have you figured out your trip to India for the summer?

No, not yet.

'Cause I was, um, thinking that maybe the three of us

could go and do something beachy.

I've been on beachy trips.

I wanna do the trip Dad always talked about.

You know that when I suggest something fun,

it's not because I don't get it.

And for the record, no,

I have never wondered

if people think that I'm sad enough,

because I know that I am.

It's too bad you can never really

make it work out with Diana.

She certainly checks off all the boxes.

Freddy?

Freddy?

The cat, I can't find him.

I let him outside.

You what?

I put him outside.

You found him outside.

I don't know what the big deal is.

It's freezing out there.

He'll be fine, he's an outside cat.

What?

So you wanna yell at me now?

Yeah, I do.

But I won't.

Because I know part of you will enjoy it.

Enjoy being yelled at by my son?

Yeah, you prefer it to me not giving a shit about you.

- I need the cream. - Okay.

Oh shit, Stephen!

You made me burn myself. Mom, you okay?

- Ow. - Sorry, sorry.

Ah. Ow. Ow.

That really hurts.

- I'm sorry. - Ow.

Okay, that's better, yeah. Is that-

- Ooh.

You're good.

Thank you.

It means a lot to us.

- Stephen. - Hi, Dad.

- Did your mom send you here? - No.

Look, about the other day,

my girlfriend, her name's Abby...

Dad, it's okay.

I don't care.

I'm here because I need a favor.

I need you to... sign this.

It's for Sadie.

Kings of Leon's On Call playing

She said call me now, baby

And I'd come a-runnin'

She said call me now, baby

And I'd come a-runnin'

If you'd call me now, baby

I'd come a-runnin'

I'm on call

To be there

One and all

To be there

And when I fall

To pieces

Lord, you know

I'll be there waiting

To be there

To be there

I'm on call

To be there

One and all

To be there

And when I fall

To pieces

Lord, you know

I'll be there waiting

I'm on call

To be there

I'm on call