Original subtitles

♪We are both dim light♪

♪Will time erase us?♪

♪Those who fade away in the shadows silently♪

♪Also crave a life under the bright sun openly♪

♪How can I break free from the chains of fate?♪

♪Who whispers in my ear♪

♪That I'm bound to fall?♪

♪Then burn me♪

♪Burn my stubbornness♪

♪The surging bitterness♪

♪The hot tears♪

♪Nobody knows♪

♪Entangling in the past♪

♪Silence in the darkness♪

♪The dim light finally turns♪

[Kill Me Love Me]

♪Into the fire of rebirth♪

[Episode 19]

How come Your Highness arrived first?

Your Highness.

I heard Concubine Yan is ill

and got anxious...

I see.

I was inspecting the patrol

and arrived just in time to welcome you.

Thank you for welcoming me in person.

Please enter the city with me.

There will be people welcoming the envoy.

We must show up in front of everyone

so that all the officials will know I'm back alive.

This way,

the Crown Prince can't kill me

for impersonating a prince.

Yue Qin

should recognize me by the Qingzhou Knot.

He can help us get into the city.

But

I'm worried about your safety.

I'll protect myself well.

Like you said,

only by staying alive can you take revenge.

By the way,

Whatever he says,

don't listen

or promise him anything.

I...

I mean

I'll repay Yue Qin's favor.

You don't need to worry

or make any promises to him.

I don't want you constantly thinking about him.

Got it.

Your memorial on the border trade

has been submitted.

The details of the deliberations

will be considered by my father.

His Majesty is busy with official duties.

No rush.

With your current status,

you need not remain in this small Court of State Ceremonial.

You may move to the Xiaoxiang Courtyard I've prepared for you.

It's more spacious

and elegant.

You don't have to worry about this.

I'm used to staying in the Court of State Ceremonial.

I didn't expect

everything here

remained the same.

Since you left,

no external guests have been received here.

By the way,

I have

obtained a token from my father for you,

allowing you to enter and leave Fanghua Palace freely.

This will make it easier for you to meet Concubine Yan.

Thank you to His Majesty

and Your Highness.

I have heard your care for Fanghua Palace.

I am very grateful.

I have prepared some gifts

to congratulate Your Highness and General Yin on your wedding.

You are too kind.

I like your farewell gift very much.

I'm just returning the favor.

Besides,

you and I

are on the same boat now.

Upon arriving in Great Yan,

I heard of Prince Jing's passing.

Now, Your Highness stands alone at the pinnacle,

no longer sharing the boat.

As the Prince Heir of Xiyan,

I shall not meddle

in Great Yan's affairs.

I took your boat

for the peace of our realms.

Peace between our realms?

This is the desire of the Great Yan Emperor as well.

Fine.

So you only take the Emperor's boat.

The Crown Prince is the future Emperor.

Don't Your Highness have confidence in yourself?

Prince Jing has passed away.

I stand alone at the top.

I will remember

what you said today.

Her Highness is ill.

I feel worried.

So I misspoke.

Please forgive me, Your Highness.

You've had a long and tiring journey.

I won't disturb you further.

Your Highness, it's been traced back.

This is Tianjing Grass from Yongtai Pharmacy.

As we entered the city,

their caravan was also arriving.

Your Highness,

should I send people

to look for Miss Mei Lin outside the city?

The Crown Prince tried hard to win me over.

Could

Prince Jing still be alive?

She should be safe for now.

We've just entered Great Yan,

and we're drawing attention.

Sending someone

could endanger her.

I'll visit Zigu at the palace.

Get a prescription for me from Yongtai Pharmacy.

Yes.

[Zhaojing]

[At the hour of Shen, the lake pavilion]

[Fanghua Palace]

Welcome, Your Highness.

Where is the princess?

You may leave.

Yes.

Zigu,

I'm back.

Qin,

I'm sorry.

I promised you to look after Mei Lin.

I didn't expect...

She is fine.

Really?

You...

You are comforting me, right?

Of course not.

I assure you

Mei Lin is alive.

You've seen her, haven't you?

Why don't you bring her back?

Qin, I know

you want to keep me out of this,

but I've grown up

and can handle it.

Mei Lin is now

in a safe place.

When the time is right,

she will return.

Don't tell anyone.

Besides,

it's about Great Yan's internal affairs,

and your involvement

could implicate you.

I believe you.

As long as Mei Lin is fine.

Mr. Yue Qin.

Mei Lin.

I didn't expect you back so soon.

You're the Prince Heir now.

Congratulations, Your Highness.

But I feel it took too long.

Did you see the princess after returning?

Zigu misses you very much.

She feels she hasn't protected you well.

I couldn't bear her sadness,

so I told her you are alive.

Rest assured, I instructed her

not to tell anyone.

I trust the princess.

The princess treats me well.

It's my sincerity that lacks.

Mei Lin,

you always think of others.

You didn't tell Zigu to avoid involving her.

I'm glad

you sought my help

this time.

I've heard about what happened with you and Prince Jing.

But I guess

Prince Jing isn't dead.

If you had truly killed him,

you wouldn't have come to me,

and the Crown Prince wouldn't enforce strict security

at the city gates against you.

The city

is filled with the Crown Prince's informants.

It's hard to guard against enemies,

even with your skills.

Mei Lin...

Don't worry, Your Highness.

I won't risk my life recklessly.

I know.

Tomorrow,

I'll gift the Crown Prince a Hequ Horse.

This horse responds to the Xiyan horse-taming tune

when you whistle.

I'll teach you the whistle to control the horse and create chaos,

giving you the opportunity to enter the city.

I thought you would...

That I would stop you again?

Since you refused

to return to Xiyan with me last time,

I've realized

you won't leave Zhaojing

until your revenge is accomplished.

I took pains to become the Prince Heir of Xiyan

to assist,

not obstruct, you.

Thank you, Your Highness.

Please teach me to whistle the horse-taming tune.

If a single note is wrong,

the horse won't obey the command.

I can learn it.

Come on.

Your Highness,

This Nanhai coral tree is from the Prince of Nan'an,

along with ten hu of East Sea pearls. [*Ancient Chinese unit of volume]

The Gongcheng Marquis's Mansion

sent 100 bolts of pearl silk

and 100 bolts of tribute silk brocade.

Alright.

Luomei doesn't like these items.

The Armor Workshop just made such trash?

Mr. He,

are you being dismissive of His Highness?

I don't dare.

Your Highness,

this batch of fish-scale armor

was forged with the latest techniques at the Armor Workshop.

Even

the Imperial Guards haven't received it yet.

What about the Red Forge Armor?

Your Highness's urgent request

has the craftsmen working day and night.

but...

Rest assured, Your Highness.

I won't delay Your Highness's important matters.

I'll take my leave.

Your Highness,

Though the Emperor has approved your marriage to General Yin,

it is still within the mourning period for Prince Jing.

Wouldn't such an ostentatious betrothal gift

displease the Emperor?

The Emperor's approval of our marriage has already caused him displeasure.

Why should I be cautious and let Luomei suffer?

I believe my father will understand my feelings.

He must take care

and not become angry.

Your Majesty,

The Crown Prince is a bit impulsive.

Should I

go and talk to him?

As to the matter concerning Luomei,

he won't even listen to me.

How can he listen to you?

His Highness is truly devoted.

Forget it.

He must shoulder the burden of Great Yan,

facing many compromises and choices ahead.

Without a close companion by his side,

the days of ruling alone

will be difficult.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty,

how about letting Concubine Yan come to serve Your Majesty?

Well?

Do you want to slack off?

Please pardon me, Your Majesty.

I have served Your Majesty for many years

and have never seen you bestow

such favor on any consort,

not even the late Empress Dejia.

This level of blessing for Concubine Yan,

for her and for Xiyan, is a good thing.

But

I don't understand.

Why

Your Majesty recently

has withdrawn this favor?

Feathers of the sky, when tamed by humans,

are easily perished.

If she is a free bird,

this palace

is her cage.

It will confine her and diminish her spirit.

I'm much older than her.

I will inevitably pass before her.

If she has a child,

she'll have to stay in this cage

for the rest of her life.

Your Majesty means...

After I pass away,

send her back to Xiyan.

Her Highness is the peace-making marriage princess.

If so...

The peace-making marriage princess is just a symbol.

True peace between the two countries lies here.

In this border trade governance memorandum

written by Yue Qin.

If this initiative succeeds,

it will benefit generations to come.

Your Majesty is worried about His Highness,

Her Highness,

and the country,

but not yourself.

I'm old now.

I worry there isn't enough time.

Your Majesty, you are in your prime.

May you live forever and enjoy boundless blessings.

Enough.

No emperor can live forever.

I do wish for a legacy

that lasts for millennia.

Pass my order.

Cancel tomorrow's court session.

I will discuss political matters

with the Prince Heir of Xiyan.

[Zhaojing] Come and take a look.

We have spun threads in various colors.

Come and take a look.

So this is Xiyan's Hequ Horse?

So gorgeous.

This is a select Hequ Horse from Xiyan,

intended as a wedding gift for the Crown Prince of Great Yan.

Here are the documents for your verification.

Please let it pass.

The horse is startled.

Control the horse!

Make way!

Those over there,

guard the city gate!

Disperse!

[General's Mansion]

Please come in.

Please come in.

Please.

Please come in.

[General's Mansion]

Mr. Wang is here.

Welcome him.

Well,

His Highness has truly spared no expense this time.

Work hard.

Each of you

will get a set.

Thank you.

The Crown Prince is here.

Greetings, Your Highness.

Today is the day of my betrothal.

There is no need for formalities.

Congratulations, Your Highness.

The high-quality fish-scale armor can be used

to reward military commanders of Duwei rank and above.

Thank you, Your Highness.

On your big day,

you still worry about such trivial matters.

Your Highness,

Luomei's concern for military affairs

is vital for Great Yan's protection,

just as my concern for General Yin

is important for the Crown Prince.

You spoil her too much.

Your Highness,

if our general becomes Crown Princess,

will she ignore us?

Right.

Will she ignore us?

How dare you

be impolite to His Highness?

She won't.

How could she?

When Luomei dons her armor,

she leads the Pingnan Army of 30,000 as a general.

When she removes her armor,

she leads me alone as the Crown Princess.

Bravo!

Bravo!

I heard Your Highness ordered the Armor Workshop

to make a Red Forge Armor for the general.

May I have the chance

to see it?

Yeah.

Let us broaden our horizons.

Right.

Lu Neng,

that's a betrothal gift.

It's up to the general.

Luomei,

tell us your attitude.

The Red Forge Armor.

How dare you?

Who is using my armor?

General Yin,

long time no see.

I've heard

there is an imposter

pretending to be me in Zhaojing.

The Crown Prince and I share a deep bond as brothers.

He won't mistake anyone else for me.

Xuanlie,

I'm back.

Jinghe?

What happened on earth?

My father planned to separate me from Mei.

I wanted to leave with Mei

to live a reclusive life,

but

without my father's protection,

malicious people always threatened us with swords.

I couldn't bear that hardship,

so I came back.

Our father has issued a decree granting the marriage.

You touched the betrothal gifts

without my agreement.

How dare you!

I haven't worn armor in years,

and I wanted to try it on when I saw it.

Forgive me, General Yin.

Mei.

I will go to Yanming Palace to plead my case to my father.

I won't

disturb you two anymore.

Jinghe.

General.

Murong Jinghe.

General.

Your Highness.

[Prince Jing's Mansion]

It's my fault to disturb you and the Crown Prince

on the day of your betrothal.

I believe you and Miss Mei are truly in love,

but I don't believe you have eloped.

Why did you disappear?

Was it because of the Crown Prince?

Don't you

know it all along?

Your Highness,

I think you have misunderstood.

Prince Jing had an accident during the Lushan Hunt

due to my failure to provide proper protection.

Sending Prince Jing back to his mansion today

was out of concern for a comrade.

In truth, I've chosen you in my heart

long ago.

♪Love is a spring flower, easily crushed♪

♪We spend our entire lives♪

♪To seek in vain♪

♪We seek and lose, leaving only a sigh♪

♪A sigh for the fleeting nature of time♪

♪Love is an unbreakable bond♪

♪Even exhausting deep feelings end in loneliness♪

♪Destiny wrongly arranges love, hate, joy, and sorrow♪

From now on,

stay by my side.

Don't abandon me again.

Today,

it was my fault.

[Prince Jing's Mansion]

My Lord.

You are back!

It's him.

You are back!

My Lord.

My Lord.

My Lord.

You are back.

Gods bless you.

You are really back.

Miss Mei Lin is back, too.

From now on, everyone in my mansion

should regard Mei Lin as they regard me.

Yes.

Remove all the white banners immediately.

They are ominous.

Yes.

Lianxiu,

take good care of Mei Lin.

Go over there.

Please come with me

to see your accommodations in the mansion.

Go ahead.

My Lord, the Emperor canceled today's court session

to discuss border trade with the Prince Heir of Xiyan.

No rush.

Let's meet Li Qing first.

You deserve to be General Weibei.

You actually stood up again.

A servant kneeling for long

will certainly find it strange to stand upright.

Servant?

Murong Jinghe,

you want to kill me,

but you can't.

I could make Murong Xuanlie the Crown Prince.

I can also drag him down to hell.

Aren't you imperial nobles

manipulated by a servant?

You plotted the Qingzhou fire

for the Crown Prince?

Yes.

The whole plan was perfect, wasn't it?

First, I convinced the Xiyan garrison commander

to plant spies among the civilians

during the evacuation, causing chaos.

Then, I spread the rumor that General Weibei ordered

to keep the land but not its people to root out traitors.

Afterwards,

I provoked Zhang Yin's Momai Warriors to set fires

and pledged allegiance to Murong Xuanlie.

Why?

Murong Xuanlie wanted to destroy you

and the Weibei Army,

and I only want

to destroy your royal Murong family.

Fight it out.

Hopefully, it leads to the Murong family losing their throne.

You are from the Yuwen family of the previous dynasty?

Well?

Didn't expect the servant in your eyes

was from a former royal family, huh?

The people of Qingzhou were once your subjects.

Do you feel no remorse

for killing tens of thousands with underhanded tactics?

Commoners barely surviving

find life harder than death.

Wasn't it a mercy

to bring them to heaven sooner?

No wonder your Yuwen family

couldn't hold onto power.

Don't go.

Don't you want to take revenge?

Don't you want to clear the Weibei Army's name?

Write down your crimes clearly.

My Lord,

this is Li Qing's confession.

I didn't expect him to confess so quickly.

The Qingzhou fire was caused by the succession struggle.

He believes revealing the truth

would use public opinion

to undermine our Great Yan's foundation.

So you mean...

Since it was a man-made disaster, he must confess.

Tomorrow in the court,

I will make Li Qing's confession public.

Afterward, have him executed by the fish-scale flaying method,

ensuring he suffers in life and death.

Yes.

You are still thinking about Prince Jing and the Crown Prince?

Their struggle for succession

has become intensely hostile.

The imperial edict for the arranged marriage has been issued.

Even if you intend to remain neutral,

officials see the General's Mansion

as siding with the Eastern Palace.

Regardless of who wins or loses,

I hope they spare each other's lives

out of consideration

for their childhood bond.

[Shuanglin Courtyard]

Ever since the Beauties were bestowed during the marriage alliance,

Prince Jing personally supervised

the preparation of Shuanglin Courtyard.

He has clearly chosen you.

Shuanglin Courtyard was originally prepared for you.

The red robes in his painting

were embroidered by the late Empress as wedding attire

for him and Princess Jing.

Stand properly.

Don't move, Your Highness.

A wedding robe that's too short is considered inauspicious.

If you dare move again,

I'll take away your Zhanyun Sword.

Mother, a true man should aspire for the battlefield,

not be held back by love and affection.

No rush to find me a princess.

You've been granted a title and established a mansion.

Naturally, there should be a princess in it.

This wedding robe is strikingly red and garish.

I don't see anything special about it.

The robe is nothing special,

but the person will be.

Once you marry the woman you truly love,

you'll see what it means to be utterly captivated.

I definitely won't.

The way of a general begins with governing the heart.

A peaceful mind leads to success.

I will never allow anyone

to disrupt my state of mind.

Tomorrow, when I attend court,

I will bring Li Qing to meet my father.

Everything

will be over then.

♪My heart is actually your♪

What were you thinking just now?

You look so happy.

I'm thinking

about where to plant

the seeds of the Red Fruits.

♪Heartless is the wind♪

♪Why are we destined to be together?♪

♪It's you♪

♪Who will jump into the deepest abyss♪

♪Stick together through thick and thin♪

Look, what's this?

This is...

Some soil from Laowozi Village.

Only with this soil

can we grow the Red Fruits you love.

Wei said

these Red Fruit seeds can only sprout

after their skins are removed.

♪I am still♪

♪Wandering in your eyes♪

♪March flowers scent the hem of my dress♪

♪My worries fall like dust♪

♪Drifting toward a sea of longing♪

♪How I look forward♪

♪To the future with you♪

♪I am still♪

I'm sweating again.

I feel this year

is much hotter than before.

My Lord,

the wandering healer is here.

The wandering healer

was a former field medic for the Weibei Army.

Given your injuries from this trip,

it would be reassuring

to have him examine you.

How is she?

The lady is easily fatigued and shows signs

of night sweats from a fever,

indicating the early onset of Momai poison.

Fortunately,

we have found a source

for the essential and irreplaceable ingredient

in the prescription:

Snow Dragon Whisker.

Where is it?

Two years ago, someone traded

a Snow Dragon Whisker seed on the black market.

I've learned this person is in Zhaojing.

Seed?

Snow Dragon Whisker grows in extremely cold highlands.

In the Central Plains,

it can only be preserved as seeds.

With an ice cellar,

it can bloom

within a month,

which should be timely for detoxifying the lady.

Obtain it

at all costs.

Yes.

Border trade integration is a plan for the centuries.

In my view,

the top priority

is to solidify the truce and marital alliance

between Great Yan and Xiyan.

Once the larger situation stabilizes,

commerce will naturally flow.

I have no princesses

to marry the King of Xiyan.

But the Prince Heir of Xiyan can marry a woman from Great Yan

as the Princess Heir.

Can your father agree?

Xiyan worships gods.

The High Priest has revealed

that the Princess Heir

is the reincarnation of the celestial deity Moon Kunlun,

reborn in Great Yan.

Your Majesty should know

how I became the Prince Heir.

My father believes in gods.

He had to agree.

So this is the purpose behind your manipulation

of the deity's reincarnation.

You are also from Xiyan.

Yet you don't believe in gods.

I believe more

in the power of men.

Good.

If you find your Princess Heir,

I will ensure she is sent off with the honor befitting a princess.

Wishing you

a harmonious

and long-lasting union.

Thank you, Your Majesty.

You are in your prime

with strategic insight.

Your Majesty,

do you need to summon the imperial physician?

No need.

Recent events

have been troubling,

and I've been somewhat unsettled.

It's truly regrettable

that Prince Jing passed away so young.

May Your Majesty find solace.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

Your Majesty.

So flustered.

Without demeanor.

Please take care.

I will

take my leave.

Your Majesty,

Prince Jing is back!

What?

Prince Jing is still alive.

Alive?

He's still alive.

Your Majesty.

Prince Jing is still alive.

My Lord,

His Majesty knows you have returned

and has summoned you to the palace immediately.

Concubine Yan wants Miss Mei Lin to accompany you.

She also said

if you confine her,

she would visit you in person.

Got it.

[Fanghua Palace]

Why hasn't Mei Lin returned yet?

Is Prince Jing confining her?

Chagu,

shall I request permission to leave the palace

and fetch Mei Lin personally?

Don't worry, Your Highness.

Mei Lin was assigned to Fanghua Palace

by the Emperor's decree.

Prince Jing wouldn't dare defy the Emperor's orders.

It's dark now.

The Noble Consort won't allow us to leave the palace.

What should we do?

Your Highness.

Mei Lin,

it's great you're back.

I apologize

for making you worry about me for so long.

It's okay.

I'm just glad you're back.

Look at you.

You've lost weight.

You need to take care of yourself. Understand?

Oh, right.

My brother has brought me a lot of bamboo brew.

You can drink as much as you can.

Thank you, Your Highness.

Sit down.

Mei Lin,

people in the palace say you eloped with Prince Jing.

But my brother said

this concern both Prince Jing and the Crown Prince.

What exactly happened?

Your Highness,

it's been so long

and there are many things I should have been honest about.

However...

It's okay.

Just tell me when you want to.

Anyway,

you belong to Fanghua Palace.

No matter what happens,

my brother and I will protect you.

There is something I need to tell you.

Prince Jing and I are engaged.

Well, you...

You and Prince Jing...

You...

Well, you...

Sit down, please.

Listen to me.

In the past,

I only saw him as my companion.

It's only during this time

that I've truly understood his character,

and I've come to understand my own feelings.

Well,

my mother said true feelings need to be tested by time.

Mei Lin,

Prince Jing is very good at pretending.

You haven't spent much time with him,

so how do you know if you truly like him?

I know.

If you like him,

you want to understand his past,

empathize with his experiences,

and wish to be with him in the future.

Wish to be with him in the future?

Jinghe,

I know you are dissatisfied with me,

but when we meet our father,

please consider his health.

Isn't it too late for you

to consider his health now?

Your Majesty,

the two princes are both here.

Tell them to leave.

Kneel down!

Father.

Kneel down!

You rascals!

If you want to fight,

wait until I'm dead!

Father.

Father.

Kneel properly.

Don't say you are wronged.

I am fully aware of all your thoughts.

You.

Those who plot against the monarch

first plot against the realm.

Those who seek quick gains and harm the people

are unfit to rule.

You.

Those who conspire against the monarch

must set aside personal grudges.

Those who misuse public power for personal gain

and harm their kin

are unfit to govern.

Father,

I admit my mistake.

Father,

I made no mistake.

If I wanted to compete

for the position of Crown Prince,

I wouldn't have waited until now.

Jinghe,

our father is unwell.

Could we please

postpone our discussion?

Let him say it.

The chaos in Qingzhou back then

was actually a man-made disaster.

Our father said

the matter of Qingzhou shall never be spoken of again.

You've just returned to the capital

and disregard our father's health,

and now you wish to defy the imperial decree!

The true culprit of the Qingzhou chaos

is none other than the Crown Prince,

Murong Xuanlie.

What did you just say?

♪The wind scatters the spring flowers♪

♪The dream was filled with sorrow for the entire night♪

♪Troubled thoughts shatter into a sky full of stars♪

♪If fate is too unbearable♪

♪I am mired in the mud♪

♪Love is helpless, falling into the abyss♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪If life is a predetermined sorrow♪

♪Love is an endless wandering♪

♪A place in the heart from which there is no return♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪

♪It's a vain hope, it's in imagination♪

♪It's the distinguished light♪