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Hmph! And it's far too late.

Dad?

Dad?

Dad!

Come away! Dad!

Come away, come away, come away!

Ohh! Oh, thank God!

Oh, my God!

Come on...

Here...

Hold on. Hold on to me. Hold on to me.

Dad, this is... This is disgusting.

Come on, let's take... Let's take this, come on.

Oh, my God.

Are you OK? Yeah.

OK?

I fell asleep.

Dad, you scared me.

What day is it, Maxi?

Tuesday.

Tue...?

8.30. 8.30?

8.30 in the morning.

Look. See? Daylight.

I'm going to get you some water, OK? Leave you to get dressed.

Dad... Mmm...

Come, sit up. Sit up. I'm coming back.

If you need me, just shout, OK?

OK?

I never got to tell Papi how I felt.

It's OK, Carm.

Don't beat yourself up.

I spent my whole life

trying to get away from Papi.

I hate him.

I do.

For what he did to Mummy.

For what he's made me.

Be cool, Carm.

The only person you're hurting is yourself.

Barry not coming?

I did ask him, but...

I hope you don't mind me saying, Carm, this, but...

..I know you're grieving.

You're looking tired.

Years of marriage to that man has taken its toll on you.

What you need, woman...

..is some TLC.

Who going ever love me?

You are.

You are.

So, why the bender, then?

No, come on. Something's got to be up for it to be this bad.

For you to not answer your phone.

And I've been ringing and ringing.

And Donna has, too.

Yeah!

Donna is back, and she's going to want to know where her son is,

cos, like you, he hasn't answered his phone or any texts in days.

He not here.

OK. So where is he, then?

Me not know.

What do you mean, you don't know?

No.

No, no, no, no, no.

Try again.

What happened?

Look at what you've done!

Hey! How dare you!

Find your things and fuck off... - ..and fuck off...

I don't know. That's not good enough.

That is nowhere near good enough.

Let's try again.

What happened?

Cocksucker!

Come burn me cos I suck cock!

Cock!

SHE SIGHS Maxine...

Hold on.

Where you going?

I can't help you if you're going to be no help to me whatsoever.

I told you - he just pick up and gone.

Have you even checked properly?

Like in here?

Wait, wait, wait.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God!

Dad...

What the actual...

..fuck? Fuck!

Look who it is!

Welcome home, sis.

Where's Daniel? Where's my son?

I don't know. I only just arrived.

And Dad doesn't know either.

Well, what happened to him?

What the hell happened in here?

Um...

Your son disrespected me.

Disrespected your mother. All her things.

He disrespected this house.

So I put him out.

You did what?!

I-I told him to leave.

Margot, it's Donna Walker, Daniel's mum.

Random question. I don't suppose Dan's been staying with you, has he?

Is that Benedict?

Eddie, hi.

It's... Oh, OK, Jonah.

Do you have this Ash's number?

Hi, Ash. Um...

He is?

Oh. Could you just put him on for me, please?

Donna, I think it's best if...

Oh, my baby.

I've been so worried.

No, no, no, no, no, no, it's not your fault, baby cakes.

Uh-huh?

Really?

He did what?

Just give me a call when you want.

OK? All right, darling. OK.

That was Daniel.

And he explained everything.

Everything?

Yes.

So he got a bit tipsy.

Silly boy.

But we all made mistakes at his age.

He's so young and understandably very upset by your drunk

and, judging by the state of you, overreaction.

Oh, God, I'm shattered.

Oh, Max, stick the kettle on. I'm dying for a cup of coffee.

Ohh...

Oh, and maybe a sandwich, if you can find anything edible in there.

I'm sorry. Sorry... Mrs Walker, I'm sorry.

Would you like me to stop?

It's like there's so much tension in your body.

Sorry.

Carry on. Carry on.

Right, I'm off to get some essentials. Won't be long.

Are you still feeling rough, Daddy?

I think I have never felt rougher.

Well, let this be a warning, then.

Lay off the booze. You're way too old to be caning it.

That's not what I'm talking about.

OK, well, what ARE you talking about?

I don't know why he didn't...

Why Daniel never...

Why...

To his...

Dad, what...

What actually happened here?

Because you were absolutely petrified

when Donna was on the phone. I saw you.

Something is up. I mean,

it's not like Uncle Morris not to be nipping at your ankles, either.

Where is he? And why haven't you mentioned him?

He wouldn't have let you go off the rails like this.

You could have killed yourself.

Come on. Donna will be home with the shopping soon.

So tell me what I need to know before she does.

No, no, no. You get going, Maxine, and leave me be.

No. What is it?

Dad.

Talk to me.

I, uh...

I told you.

Daniel and his friends come in here, and they, um...

They were...

..trashing the place,

blasting their homophobic music

and disrespecting my...

Disrespecting my house.

Your mother's home.

And d... disrespecting me.

Me.

Who I am.

Who I am.

Always been.

Homosexual.

Gay, whatever they call it.

I've been in love with your Uncle Morris.

And him in love with me for...

..I feel like my... my entire life.

Dad, this is huge.

How... How are you feeling?

I am...

..petrified. Yeah.

Scared. Yeah.

Have you... Have you... Have you told anyone else?

No.

I mean...

..how can I?

Maxi, how could I ever say this to your mother?

She will never forgive me...

..and she will never understand.

Yeah, probably not.

But...

And I know you're going to find this hard to believe.

..putting yourself first is what's best.

For you and for Mum.

I thought you would hate me.

No.

All of my lies...

..and hurt to so many people.

OK. Yeah, yeah.

Yes, you have been dishonest.

But, Dad, you've also denied yourself for over five decades.

That's too long.

And we live to see another day. Hmm.

Thank you.

I'm so proud of you. Hmm!

Ah! You leaving? Well, yes, cos all the tidying has been done,

and I have places to go and people to see.

Nephews to lose.

I'm joking.

Look, I've bought Chinese.

Oh, wow!

Yeah. Trans fat, MSG, heart attack and blocked arteries.

Thank you, but not really my thing. Suit yourself.

You're welcome, for all the help tidying, by the way.

No?

Honestly, can you believe her?

Bye, Dad.

Um...

I'm sorry.

Sorry for what?

Kicking off earlier about Daniel.

What I mean is, I went a bit overboard and I was just...

A bit rude.

I was just panicking about Daniel, and I lost it.

I shouldn't have spoken to you like that, because I'm well aware

that Daniel can be a little bit of a prick when he wants to,

but he's all I've got.

When he goes off to uni, that's it.

Still, every cloud, as they say.

What I mean is, it frees you up, you know,

to find that nice, kind fella that you deserve.

Somebody to treat you good.

Yeah. It's just so hard to find a good-looking man with a good job

and his own house and no baggage,

and who - let's face it - is even into black women.

But, Donna, darling, you don't think that maybe you're just...

..I don't know, being a bit too fussy?

Too fussy?

I wasn't fussy enough with Frankie, was I?

I don't believe it. You just don't get it, do you?

Get what? That it's YOU.

You're to blame.

I can't trust men because of the pain you caused Mum

her whole married life.

Donna, listen... No, no, don't even try and deny it,

because I saw you that night.

At the cemetery.

♪ No moneyman can win my love

♪ It's sweetness that I'm thinking of... ♪

I saw you with my own eyes.

I saw you, my dad, with that whore.

I couldn't tell Mum because it would have broken her.

And I couldn't destroy Maxine's fantasy version of you.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, don't go anywhere. I haven't finished.

Donna...

That...

Yeah.

Excuse me.

Run away, like you always do.

You coward!

Come on, let me in.

Come on, you have to let me in!

Hello? Hello. Hello, Morris?

You see me? It's me. I'm... INTERCOM CLICKS

No, no, don't...

Don't...

Please don't hang up, OK?

Don't hang up. Just hear me out.

Will you, please, just...

I, um...

I...

I WAS listening to you.

Listening to you and everything you have to say.

I was listening about, um...

..about, um, George Michael and the boy Fashanu,

and how brave they were

and why you revered them for their bravery.

I don't know, Morris.

I...

I was wrong.

I was wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong about a whole heap of things.

I was wrong.

I am a...

..a stubborn old fool.

But I want to be brave, you know?

I want to be brave...

..for you.

I want to be brave for us.

Morris?

Morris?

OK.

You hurt me, Barry.

I know. Mm-hm.

I've been meaning to call you and apologise

and everything, but it's...

Morris, you know...

..I don't say this often enough.

I need you.

I really do.

I need my spa.

Well, it doesn't mean you can keep hurting me this way.

That's right, that's right. You is right,

because a man as special and as loyal and as loving

and as kind as you deserves more.

You know, far... far more.

And I am...

..sorry.

I'm sorry, Morris, because you are my anchor.

Always have been - you,

and without you, I am...

Well...

Truth is...

..I need you, too.

I do.

♪ Each step is moving

♪ It's moving me up

♪ Moving

♪ It's moving me up

♪ Every step is moving me up

♪ Ah-ah, moving me up

♪ Moving me up

♪ One tiny, tiny, tiny move

♪ Ooh, it's all I need

♪ And I jump over

♪ Every step is moving me up

♪ Each step is moving

♪ Moving me up

♪ Moving me up... ♪

I love you, too.

Hmm?

Mm-hm. I love you.

♪ This is how we walk on the moon

♪ This is how we walk on the moon... ♪

You know, Morris,

you could pass for one of those buff, middle-aged men

pumping iron down at the gym.

Easy.

Very funny.

No, for true, man. You is buff.

You know, even if you wasn't, I would still want you.

This love still going strong here.

Love still going strong.

Man, you should have seen the place.

Trashed. Five ways to shit.

And them just standing there smirking.

You know the way them rich, privileged white boys does do?

Mm-hm. So I just fess up, fess up and tell them.

For true, man. I am a cocksucker.

Ah, you said that? Shouted it. In front of Daniel?

Lord, Barry! You don't want to end up like me, Barry.

Uh-uh. Broke.

No access to your children and your grandchildren.

Like I said, I wasn't thinking.

But, subsequently, I've been thinking about George and Justin

and everything you said about them -

how they didn't run, you know, after they were outed.

How they took control of their own narrative and their own destiny.

So, you see me?

I am unashamed.

Are you saying what I think you're saying?

It's not enough that I divorced Carmel.

Before somebody else can, I HAVE to tell her the truth.

I have to tell her my truth.

That so?

♪ Build your dreams

♪ To the stars above

♪ But when you need

♪ Someone true to love

♪ Don't go to strangers

♪ My darling

♪ Come to me

♪ Play with fire

♪ Get your fingers burn

♪ And when there's nowhere for you to turn

♪ Don't go to strangers

♪ My darling

♪ Come home to me. ♪

Carmel, that was amazing. Amazing.

Fantastic work. Fantastic.

That was sensational.

I mean, truly sensational.

Oh, it felt so good.

Can I get you another drink?

Same again.

Oh, can I get you... Oh, it's all right. Thanks. All right.

Mm-hm. There she is.

The Carmelita I remember.

Odette!

I can't thank you enough.

No need.

Just promise me you'll allow her

to continue to grow radiant and strong

before letting anybody else pluck her again for them garden.

Need I remind you -

I'm a married woman?

Happily?

It's complicated.

Listen, Carm.

There's no easy way to say this.

But there's something I need to tell you. What?

It's about your husband.

♪ And if he asks if you're all alone

♪ Can he take you home?

♪ You must tell him no

♪ Cos don't forget who's taking you home

♪ And in whose arms you're gonna be

♪ Oh, darling, save the last dance for me... ♪