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ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

DID YOU HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND?

HOW ARE THINGS GOING AT HOME?

ME AND STACY WENT SHOPPING.

HOW ARE THINGS GOING WITH YOUR MOM?

BOUGHT JEANS.

THAT SOUNDS FUN.

HOW'S EVERYTHING GOING IN CLASS?

ARE YOU LEARNING ANYTHING NEW?

ANYTHING THAT YOU LIKE?

READING "CATCHER IN THE RYE."

THAT WAS A GOOD BOOK.

DO YOU LIKE IT?

WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT IT?

IS THERE ANYTHING YOU WANTED TO TALK ABOUT?

ASHLEY?

NOTHING ON YOUR MIND WE CAN DISCUSS?

WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAND?

IS THAT A CIGARETTE BURN?

DID YOU DO THAT TO YOURSELF?

OR... OR DID SOMEBODY DO THAT TO YOU?

ASHLEY, DO YOU SMOKE?

DOES YOUR MOTHER SMOKE?

OKAY, GUYS, WE'RE GOING TO BE

TALKING ABOUT HOLDEN'S CHARACTER BREAKDOWN TODAY, WHICH EVERYONE

WAS SUPPOSED TO DO LAST NIGHT FOR THEIR HOMEWORK.

SO, HOPEFULLY, YOU ALL DID IT.

UM, LET'S ALL TURN TO PAGE 75, PLEASE.

75... IF EVERYONE DOESN'T HAVE A BOOK, JUST LOOK ON TO THE PERSON

NEXT TO YOU...

♪ NEVER FELL LIKE THIS BEFORE ♪

♪ I CAN FEEL IT, HUMANOID ♪ LOOKING OUT ACROSS THE WAVES,

I ENVISION I AM STRONG ♪ ♪ DEEP INSIDE A WAVE,

I STILL FEEL YOU IN MY BASE ♪ ♪ OH-OH

♪ DON'T...

ALL RIGHT, GUYS.

MAKE SURE YOU FINISH CHAPTER 14 FOR TOMORROW.

WE'RE GONNA TALK ABOUT IT, SO KNOW IT.

THANK YOU.

HAVE A GREAT AFTERNOON.

DON'T FORGET YOUR WORK TOMORROW.

HEY, ASH?

ASH?

HOW'S EVERYTHING?

GOOD.

UM... SEE YA AROUND?

SEE YOU LATER.

WHO AREYOU?

SORRY.

I SEE YOU ALL THE TIME.

WHAT'S YOUR NAME?

ASH...

WHAT?

ASH...

HUH?

Ashley.

I SEE YOU LOOKING AT ME.

IT'S JUST KIND OF WEIRD.

I GOT TO GO.

ALL RIGHT, WELCOME TO "COOKING WITH DAD."

I'M YOUR HOST, MANNY.

TODAY, WE'RE GONNA BE COOKING A TRADITIONAL PORTUGUESE MEAL,

ALONG WITH MY DAUGHTER JACQUELINE.

ASHLEY, GET IN HERE!

PORTUGUESE RECIPES...

GOING THROUGH MY SHIT AGAIN,

HUH?

HAVE YOU?

YOU'RE 17 YEARS OLD.

JUST GET YOUR OWN SHIT!

YOU FUCKING LISTENING TO ME?

THAT SHRINK OF YOURS CALLED FROM

SCHOOL.

WHAT DID YOU DO NOW, YOU LITTLE BITCH, HUH?

WANTS ME TO TAKE YOU DOWNTOWN TO SOME GROUP-THERAPY THING AT A

HOSPITAL.

DO YOU HEAR ME?

DOES HE THINK YOU'RE CRAZY?

Oh! LOOK AT ME!

I CAN'T DO THIS.

I CAN'T TAKE THIS SHIT!

DO YOU WANT TO DO...

HE SAYS YOU GOT SOME BURN ON YOUR ARM.

A LITTLE PORT WINE HERE.

DID YOU DO THAT?

TOOK MY LIGHTER, DIDN'T YOU?

YOU KNOW WHO GAVE ME THAT?

YOU KNOW WHO GAVE ME THAT?!

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

I ASKED YOU IF YOU WERE GONNA PARTICIPATE?

YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY.

NO.

YOU KNOW, IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA PARTICIPATE, THERE'S REALLY NO

POINT IN YOU COMING.

DIDN'T CHOOSE TO BE HERE.

HOW DO YOU EXPECT TO WORK ON YOUR PROBLEMS IF YOU'RE NOT

GONNA TALK ABOUT THEM?

HMM?

LAY OFF HER.

I MEAN, THAT'S ALL YOU DO.

YOU JUST PUSH US, PUSH US.

I MEAN, MAYBE SOME OF US AIN'T GOT SHIT TO SAY.

I RECALL YOU HAVING PLENTY TO SAY, JAMES.

THAT'S FUNNY.

YEAH, WELL, MAYBE SHE DOESN'T.

IT'S NOT YOUR TURN TO TALK.

IT'S ASHLEY'S TURN.

ASHLEY, WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL US SOMETHING ABOUT YOURSELF.

IT'S OKAY... SAFE HERE.

COME ON.

ANYTHING.

SHE DOESN'T WANT TO FUCKING TALK!

OKAY, CAN WE PLEASE CUT THE SWEARING?

"WE"?

I'M THE ONLY ONE FUCKING SWEARING!

SHIT, BALLS.

NO, IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA COOPERATE...

THIS IS BULLSHIT!

THIS IS FUCKING BULLSHIT!

SIT BACK DOWN NOW.

FUCK YOU!

OKAY, THAT'S IT.

FUCK YOU, YOU FUCKING BITCH!

GET OFF ME!

DON'T FUCK... OH!

YOU'RE OUT OF HERE.

OH, FUCK!

PLEASE STAY HERE.

DO NOT LEAVE HERE.

DON'T WORRY.

IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME.

WHY DON'T YOU TALK?

COME ON.

WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF?

I WON'T BITE YOU...

UNLESS YOU WANT ME TO.

THAT'S BETTER.

THAT'S A NICE LIGHTER.

WHAT?

I SAID, THAT'S A NICE LIGHTER.

DAD GAVE IT TO ME.

YOUR DAD GAVE YOU A LIGHTER?

CAN I SIT?

YEAH.

I'M VICKY.

ASHLEY.

CAN I GET A LIGHT, ASHLEY?

NICE.

IS IT REAL?

I DON'T KNOW.

SCRATCH IT.

WHAT?

YOU KNOW, LIKE THEY DO IN THE MOVIES.

THEY SCRATCH GOLD TO SEE IF IT'S REAL OR WHATEVER, WITH, LIKE, A

KNIFE.

SO COOL.

YOUR DAD GIVE YOU THIS, TOO?

I BOUGHT IT.

KICK-ASS.

I LIKE IT.

YOU, UH, GO TO SCHOOL AROUND HERE?

I'M HOME-SCHOOLED.

MY PARENTS ARE AWAY RIGHT NOW.

WANT TO COME OVER?

YOU WANT TO?

HUH?

COME ON.

COME ON!

COME ON!

♪ I'M MUCH BRIGHTER

THAN I USED TO BE ♪ ♪ A SHINING STAR, BABY

♪ I FEEL THE AIR UNDERNEATH MY FEET ♪

♪ I FEEL IT COMING OVER ME ♪ AND I'M ABOUT TO FACE MONDAY

♪ IT'S KINDA SCARY, BUT I'M ALL RIGHT ♪

♪ I'M GONNA GIVE IT EVERYTHING THIS TIME ♪

♪ I'M GONNA PUT MYSELF ON THE LINE ♪

♪ AND WHOA, WHOA, WHOA ♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA ♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER?

WE CAN TALK ONLINE.

MY SCREEN NAME'S "SAPPHO GIRL 13."

SAPPHO...

GIRL 13, YEAH.

♪ I'M A LOT HAPPIER NOW ♪ THANK YOU FOR SHOWING ME HOW

♪ HOW TO BE ME AND HOW TO STAY STRONG ♪

♪ HOW TO GET MYSELF OFF THE GROUND ♪

♪ AND I DON'T KNOW... SO...

YOU...

DID THIS TO YOURSELF?

KIND OF.

KIND OF?

♪ I'M A SHINING STAR I MEAN, NO ONE DID THAT TO

YOU, RIGHT?

WOW.

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA WHO DID...

ARE YOU OKAY?

YOU WANT ME TO DO IT AGAIN?

♪ I'M MUCH BRIGHTER THAN I USED TO BE ♪

♪ A SHINING STAR, BABY DOES IT...

♪ I FEEL THE AIR... DOESN'T IT HURT?

♪ I FEEL IT COMING OVER ME YEAH.

♪ AND WHOA, WHOA, WHOA ♪ I'M A SHINING STAR

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA ♪ I'M A HERO

♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA ♪ WHOA, WHOA, WHOA

♪ AND I'M OKAY TO FADE AWAY

♪ AND I'M OKAY TO FADE AWAY I-I CAN'T.

WHY NOT?

I'M SORRY.

YOU SHOULD GO.

PLEASE.

GO!

♪ WHO AM I, WHEN I THINK I'M SOMETHING I'M NOT? ♪

♪ IS IT RIGHT THAT I GAVE IT ALL BUT NOTHING GOT? ♪

♪ AND I'M SCARED, BUT I'M SCARED OF GIVING UP ♪

♪ WELL, TIME SEEMS SO LONG WITHOUT YOU ♪

♪ I PUT MYSELF WRAPPED UP ♪ AND EVERYTHING SEEMS SO

♪ BUT I GIVE IT ALL, GIVE IT ALL TO YOU ♪

♪ I'M WAITING FOR SOMETHING MORE THAN A SIP OF THE LIFE ♪

♪ I'M WAITING FOR SOMETHING REAL ♪

♪ SO SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET ♪ TELL ME I'M ALIVE

♪ THROW ME UP HIGH ♪ CATCH ME

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪ HEY, HEY

♪ I AM ALIVE ♪ HEY, HEY

♪ I WANT IT MORE THAN I'VE EVER WANTED BEFORE ♪

♪ AND I'M TIRED OF GIVING UP, GIVING UP ♪

♪ AND I'M SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THE NIGHTS

WHERE WE LAID IN BED AND GAVE UP THE FIGHT ♪

♪ I'M THINKING ABOUT YOU, WHERE WE WOULD BE ♪

♪ I'D GIVE NOTHING MORE THAN TO BE ♪

♪ WAITING FOR SOMETHING MORE THAN A SIP OF THE LIFE ♪

♪ I'M WAITING FOR SOMETHING REAL ♪

♪ SOMETHING TO HOLD ONTO ♪ I'M WAITING FOR SOMETHING MORE

THAN A SIP OF THE LIFE ♪ ♪ I'M WAITING FOR

SOMETHING REAL ♪ ♪ SO SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET

♪ TELL ME I'M ALIVE ♪ THROW ME UP HIGH

♪ CATCH ME ♪ OH, I AM ALIVE

♪ I AM ALIVE YES, BUT I DON'T SEE WHY

THAT'S NEEDED.

WELL, THAT'S WHAT I'M ASKING.

SO, SHE'LL BE COMING HERE.

FINE.

Asshole!

YOUR SCHOOL THERAPIST.

SO NOW, BECAUSE OF YOU AND THAT BURN MARK ON YOUR ARM, WE'RE

GONNA BE VISITED BY A SOCIAL WORKER.

FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THAT MEANS?

God! You...

YOU DO NOTHING TO HELP ME!

NOTHING!

LISTEN TO ME, YOU LITTLE BITCH.

YOU DON'T START RESPONDING TO ME, I'M GONNA TAKE YOUR PRECIOUS

COMPUTER OUT OF HERE.

AND THEN YOU GOT NOTHING!

PLEASE! DON'T TAKE IT!

I'M SORRY, MOM.

THAT'S MORE LIKE IT.

HAVE THIS ROOM CLEANED UP BY THE TIME I GET BACK.

AND I DON'T WANT TO HEAR FROM THE FUCKING COUNSELOR AGAIN.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I CAN'T SLEEP.

[ STRING INSTRUMENTS PLAYING MID

[ STRING INSTRUMENTS PLAYING MID

HEY, DRINK.

ALL RIGHT.

HERE, I'LL HELP.

HO-HO!

CRAZY BITCHES.

I LOVE IT.

OF COURSE YOU DO, RANDALL.

HEY.

NOW TRY IT ON YOUR OWN FROM THE BOTTLE, GIRL, AND I'LL GIVE YOU

ANOTHER LITTLE KISS.

OH, THERE YOU GO!

SMOOTH, HUH?

THIS IS GONNA BE GOOD.

WHO IS THIS GIRL, ANYWAY?

SHUT UP!

KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD.

YOU WANT ME.

I KNOW IT.

I SEE HOW YOU LOOK AT ME.

MM-HMM.

OW! OW!

OW! YOU'RE... YOU'RE HURTING ME!

OW!

FUCK!

YOU REALLY ARE SOME KIND OF FREAK.

NO, NO, DON'T STOP.

WHY'D YOU STOP?

BECAUSE ASHLEY HERE IS A FREAK WHO FUCKING PULLED MY

HAIR.

DRIVE HER BACK TO THE PARK!

WH... I SAID, DO IT!

THIS IS GETTING GOOD!

JUST DO IT!

FINE, FINE.

JUST CHILL OUT.

Ow.

[ STRING INSTRUMENTS PLAY MID

[ WOMAN SINGING

[ IN FOREIGN LANGUAGE ] ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?!

HELP ME BRUSH MY HAIR?

DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT.

JUST HELP ME.

Gentle!

CAREFUL.

THAT'S NICE.

THAT'S GOOD.

YOUR HAIR IS MESSY.

I USED TO BRUSH YOUR HAIR ALL THE TIME WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE.

I USED TO BRUSH YOUR HAIR ALL THE TIME WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE.

HERE. SEE?

YOU CAN GO NOW.

HI.

NAME'S CHICO.

YOU KNOW, LIKE THE MARX BROTHERS?

YOU KNOW, LIKE GROUCHO AND HARPO AND ZEPPO AND CHICO.

YOU KNOW GUMMO?

HE'S THE FIFTH MARX BROTHER.

HE LEFT BEFORE THEY HIT BIG.

I SEE YOU ON THE BUS A LOT.

AND I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU LOOKED COOL.

I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU.

AGAINST PHILADELPHIA.

AND COLORADO, A VICTORY...

WILL BE A GAME 7.

WE'LL SEE WHETHER OR NOT THAT HOLDS UP HERE IN THIS GAME 7.

HELLO.

SAY HELLO TO BILL, ASHLEY.

HI.

HI.

HERE COMES SHANAHAN.

YOUR MOM DIDN'T TELL ME YOU HAD HER GOOD LOOKS.

SAY THANK YOU, ASHLEY.

THANK YOU.

SAY THANK YOU, ASHLEY.

THANK YOU.

YOU'RE WELCOME.

GONNA HAVE DINNER WITH US?

LISTEN.

I HOPE WE'RE GONNA HAVE DINNER SOON, 'CAUSE I'M STARVING.

IT'S ALMOST READY.

ALL RIGHT.

WHAT A BLAST DOWN THE CHUTE!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF HIM?

PLEASE.

CAN WE JUST HAVE A NORMAL CONVERSATION FOR ONCE IN OUR

LIVES?

YOU SAYING ANYTHING WOULD BE GREAT.

I DON'T LIKE HIM.

OF COURSE YOU DON'T.

JUST DON'T SCREW THIS UP FOR ME AGAIN WITH YOUR CHARMING

PERSONALITY.

JUST FUCKING FORGET IT.

LET'S GET DINNER ON THE TABLE.

I HOPE EVERYONE'S READY FOR A DELICIOUS MEAL OF VEAL AND

ASPARAGUS.

I LIKE YOUR DREAM COME TRUE, STACY.

YOU'RE GONNA MAKE ME BLUSH, MISTER.

YEAH, WELL, IT'S MY JOB.

ASHLEY...

YOU KNOW WHAT VEAL IS?

IT'S BABY COW.

MM-HMM.

YEAH.

YOUNG, TENDER, JUICY.

I'M A LITTLE CONCERNED ABOUT HER

APPETITE, NOT EATING A DAMN THING.

ASHLEY, EAT.

I'M NOT HUNGRY.

EAT YOUR FOOD.

YOU KNOW, I REALLY LOVE WHAT YOU DID WITH THE PLACE.

IT'S REALLY NICE.

YOU THINK?

YEAH, YEAH.

I ESPECIALLY LIKE THIS WHOLE INVERTED-WINE-GLASS THING.

VERY CLEVER.

SURE.

YOU'VE DONE A REALLY NICE JOB.

THANK YOU.

YEAH.

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY NOW ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY ♪ ♪ CAN'T YOU SEE... ♪

♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY NOW ♪ ♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY

TO EVERYONE ♪ ♪ DON'T GIVE IT AWAY NOW ♪

♪ CAN'T YOU SEE... ♪

HELLO?

HomeStarch?

YEAH.

Hi.

HI.

You have a name?

YEAH.

Are you gonna tell me it?

ASHLEY.

Hello, Ashley.

SO, YOU'RE CANDICE.

Yeah.

What's the matter, shy?

That's cute.

I'm usually the shy one.

YOU ARE?

Yeah.

HMM.

So, you sound like a nice girl.

What are you doing talking to strangers online and giving them

your number?

Oh, the horror.

I DON'T KNOW.

I was just kidding, Ashley.

SO, YOU TALK TO A LOT OF GIRLS?

I do...

but not like this.

They don't have sweet voices.

God, that sounded cheeseball.

Crack a smile?

You did, didn't you?

MAYBE.

Hey, you may be shy, but you got a lot of guts, letting a

complete stranger call you.

I'm glad you let me.

Gets lonely sometimes.

MM-HMM.

YOU DON'T HAVE A JOB?

Um, not really, no.

I inherited a ton of money when my parents passed away.

So, I really don't have to worry about anything.

Money-related, that is.

COOL.

SORRY ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.

Thanks, Ashley.

You know what?

You made my day.

You're different than the others.

What usually happens in these chat thingies is, half the time

they start talking dirty, get off, and that's it.

The other half of the time, they're men, as if they can fool

me.

Are you still there?

Yeah, I can hear you breathing.

I'm not boring you, am I?

NO.

So, what do you do, Ashley?

I'M A STUDENT, HIGH SCHOOL.

What do you do for fun?

Do you have any hobbies?

I LIKE TO PAINT.

Nice! Really?

I actually consider myself an artist.

I paint, too.

KICK-ASS.

You're cute.

Would you mind if I called you again?

Or I can give you my number, and you can call me.

Either way, I'd love to talk again.

OKAY.

Really

THE NUMBER'S ON MY PHONE.

Oh, yeah, right.

You have to go?

NO. GUESS NOT.

Cool.

OKAY, LET'S BEGIN WITH YOUR BACKGROUND, MS. COLLINS.

MY BACKGROUND?

YES.

I THINK THAT'S IRRELEVANT.

YOU DON'T WANT TO TELL ME ABOUT IT?

OKAY, LET'S TRY SOMETHING ELSE.

WHAT DO YOU DO FOR A LIVING?

I'M A WAITRESS.

OKAY.

PAYS THE BILLS.

AND ARE YOU CURRENTLY IN ANY RELATIONSHIPS?

NO, NOT REALLY.

NOT REALLY?

I JUST STARTED SEEING SOMEONE, BUT IT'S EARLY.

WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING?

AND ASHLEY IS 17, CORRECT?

YES.

AND SHE'S THE ONLY CHILD?

YES.

MAY I ASK WHY YOU NEED TO KNOW ALL THIS?

I JUST WOULD LIKE TO UNDERSTAND ALL ASPECTS OF

ASHLEY'S HOME LIFE SO I CAN BETTER ASSESS THE SITUATION.

"ASSESS THE SITUATION"?

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

IF THIS ENVIRONMENT ISN'T SAFE...

I PROVIDE FOR MY CHILD.

THERE'S MORE TO PROVIDING THAN PAYING THE BILLS.

WHAT IF I TOLD YOU TO LEAVE MY HOUSE?

THAT WOULDN'T BE THE BEST COURSE OF ACTION.

GET OUT.

MS. COLLINS.

NOW.

IF MY REPORT SAYS THAT THIS IS AN UNSAFE ENVIRONMENT FOR

ASHLEY, THE STATE WILL TAKE HER FROM YOU.

DO YOU WANT THAT TO HAPPEN?

OKAY.

TALK ABOUT YOUR BACKGROUND.

♪ I WAKE UP AND YOU'RE GONE

♪ TV'S STILL ON ♪ AND I SIT,

AND I WATCH ANOTHER RERUN ♪ ♪ SHE IS LEFT ALL ALONE

♪ HER LOVER'S GONE TO SEA ♪ AND I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL

SHE IS JUST LIKE ME ♪ ♪ AND I GAVE ALL I COULD,

BUT IT WASN'T... ♪ WHY?

WHY?!

I LIKE GIRLS.

WHAT?

I DON'T LIKE BOYS.

♪ I DON'T KNOW WHY... YOU LI...

♪ MY HEART STILL BEATS WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL...

♪ WHY I CAN'T FEEL ANYTHING ♪

♪ BUT I GAVE ALL I COULD ♪ BUT IT WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH

♪ AND YOU SAY YOU WOULD BE HERE BEFORE I WOKE UP ♪

I'D LIKE TO TRY AN EXERCISE TODAY.

ASHLEY?

WOULD YOU TRY THIS FOR ME, PLEASE?

OKAY.

I WANT YOU TO PICTURE YOURSELF LYING ON A BEACH.

THE SUN IS PERFECTLY WARM, AND YOU HEAR THE WAVES CRASHING INTO

THE SAND.

AND I WANT YOU TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH IN AND HOLD IT.

NOW RELEASE IT.

GOOD.

AND I'D LIKE YOU TO DO THAT TWO MORE TIMES, SLOWLY.

NOW PICTURE YOURSELF WALKING INTO A BUILDING.

AND A STRONG-ARMED SECURITY GUARD CONFRONTS YOU.

BUT HE SEES YOU, AND HE KNOWS YOU.

HE SMILES.

HE PLACES HIS ARM AROUND YOU, AND YOU FEEL SAFE, SECURE.

AS YOU MOVE ON FROM THERE...

ASHLEY?

IS EVERYTHING OKAY?

ASHLEY, WHAT'S WRONG?

ASHLEY?

IS IT SOMETHING IN THE MEDITATION?

WHICH PART?

THE MAN!

THE MAN WHO PUT HIS ARM AROUND YOU?

YOU THOUGHT OF YOUR FATHER, PASSED AWAY.

SO SORRY.

WHEN HE WAS ALIVE, DID HE GIVE YOU THIS FEELING OF SECURITY?

SOMETIMES.

ONLY SOMETIMES?

WHY DIDN'T HE MAKE YOU FEEL SECURE ALL THE TIME?

DID HE HURT YOU?

HOW?

HE...

HE...

WAIT.

ASHLEY, LOOK.

YOUR FATHER BETRAYED YOUR TRUST IN HIM, BUT YOU DON'T HAVE TO

FEEL ASHAMED.

THERE ARE GOOD PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO WANT TO HELP YOU, OKAY?

OKAY, GUYS.

SO, WHAT DID WE LEARN ABOUT THIS ONE?

YES.

HE WAS REALLY ANNOYING.

OKAY.

I GUESS I CAN GIVE YOU THAT ONE.

GUYS, HOLDEN REFLECTED ON HOW HE FELT EVERYBODY WAS PHONY.

BUT WHAT DID WE LEARN ABOUT HIM AT THE END OF THE BOOK?

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

WHAT DID WE LEARN AT THE END OF THE BOOK ABOUT HOLDEN?

ASH?

I, UH, YOU KNOW ME, RIGHT?

NO.

NO?

NOT REALLY.

YOU KNOW MY NAME?

STEVE?

YEAH, THAT'S IT.

I WAS WONDERING, YOU WANT TO KICK IT SOMETIME?

I DON'T KNOW.

YOU DON'T KNOW?

NO.

ALL RIGHT.

CATCH YOU LATER.

OH, SHIT.

LOSE SOMETHING?

I CAN'T FIND MY DEBIT CARD.

MAYBE YOU LEFT IT AT THE MARKET.

I HAVE TO GO BACK.

I'LL GO BACK FOR YOU.

I'LL GET IT.

IT'S OKAY. I'LL GET IT.

YOU SURE?

YEAH, I'LL HANDLE IT.

OKAY.

SEE YOU LATER.

HEY.

WHAT'S NEW, PUSSYCAT?

YOUR MOM WENT BACK TO THE STORE.

I THINK SHE LEFT SOMETHING THERE.

YOU MIND IF I WATCH TV?

HMM?

OH, THANKS.

IF YOU'RE COOKING WITH US AT

HOME, AND YOU'RE USING MEDIUM-HIGH HEAT, YOU, TOO, CAN

TURN THE PAN DOWN IF IT LOOKS LIKE IT'S GETTING A LITTLE TOO

HOT...

IT'S YOUR MOM'S FAVORITE SHOW.

OVER MEDIUM-HIGH HEAT THE WHOLE TEAM.

SHE'S CRAZY ABOUT THAT SHIT.

BY NOW YOU'D THINK SHE'D BE A BETTER COOK.

INCIDENTALLY, WE WANTED TO

GIVE A HUGE SHOUT-OUT TO OUR FRIEND...

SO...

HOW'S EVERYTHING AT SCHOOL?

LOTS OF GREAT STUFF AND LOTS OF FABULOUS CLOTHES AND

LITTLE ACCESSORIES, BUT MANY OF THE STORES ALSO HAVE...

I'M KIND OF WORRIED ABOUT YOU, YOU KNOW?

YOU...

AND THEY HOOKED US UP TODAY...

NOT TOO MUCH TO SAY.

HUGE, BIG SHOUT-OUT TO TARGET.

ALL RIGHT.

DRAWING PICTURES, HUH?

WE'RE GONNA DO A COUPLE OF Q&As.

I'D SAY YOU LIKE SKIN AND BONES.

WE GOT A COUPLE OF MINUTES HERE WHILE WE'RE...

WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR HAND?

YOU KNOW, THAT BURN THERE.

"DO YOU HAVE ANY ADVICE FOR ME?"

AH, IF THE CHICKEN IS STICKING TO THE PAN IT'S BECAUSE THE PAN

IS NOT HOT ENOUGH, OR YOU HAVEN'T ALLOWED IT...

LET ME SEE THAT.

SO, DON'T FORCE THE CHICKEN.

LET IT GET REALLY BROWN, AND AS IT STARTS TO PULL AWAY...

WHAT IS ALL THAT?

MY GOODNESS.

DON'T FORCE IT AND MAKE SURE THE PAN'S VERY HOT BEFORE YOU

ADD THE CHICKEN TO IT.

ARE YOU DOING THAT TO YOURSELF?

WHAT HAPPENED THERE?

NICE, DRY MEAT BEFORE IT GOES INTO THE HOT OIL, OKAY?

SURE. NO PROBLEM.

DO YOU HAVE A QUESTION FOR US FROM OUT IN L.A.?

I GOT A WONDERFUL QUESTION HERE FROM COREY.

FIRE AWAY, COREY.

HI, COREY.

JUST WONDERING ABOUT THE SHALLOTS HERE ON THE TRAIN, AND

I WAS WONDERING WHY WE'RE USING THOSE AND WHAT THE BENEFIT IS.

OKAY.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

NOTHING.

GET AWAY FROM HER!

I WASN'T DOING ANYTHING.

GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!

GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW.

STOP BEING UPSET.

I WASN'T DOING NOTHING.

WHAT WERE YOU DOING ONHER?

I WASN'T ON HER.

YOU WERE TOUCHING HER!

IT'S MY DAUGHTER!

OKAY!

GET OUT!

GET THE FUCK OUT!

WHAT WERE YOU DOING?!

WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!

Fuck! ANSWER ME!

ANSWER ME!!

GO TO YOUR FUCKING ROOM!

Hello?

Is this Ashley?

HI.

HOW ARE YOU?

WELL, I'M GLAD YOU CALLED.

I'M LONELY.

YOU ARE?

I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT YOU.

REALLY?

Not in a weird way.

IT WAS FUN WHEN WE TALKED.

YEAH.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I THINK IT'S REALLY COOL THAT YOU'RE AN ARTIST, TOO.

I'M ALWAYS ATTRACTED TO ARTISTS,

FOR SOME REASON.

HEY, ASHLEY, CAN I ASK YOU A QUESTION?

YES.

DID YOU COME ONLINE TO MEET SOMEONE TO JUST... JUST CHAT?

CHAT.

OR HAVE YOU EVER...

I TOUCH MYSELF.

YOU DO?

DO YOU WANT TO NOW?

YES.

ARE YOU?

YES.

CAN I TOUCH MYSELF, TOO?

YES.

I want to touch you.

ME TOO.

YES.

Can we do it together?

Ashley?

Did you...

YES.

Yes.

HEY, ASHLEY.

WHAT'S UP?

MIND IF I SIT DOWN?

IT'S ME, CARLY.

CARLY, SAMMY, AND SUMMER.

REMEMBER?

REALLY?

I LIKE YOUR SHIRT.

OH, YEAH. NICE.

HOW ABOUT DITCHING NEXT CLASS WITH US?

MEET YOU OUT BACK NEXT PERIOD.

SO, YOU LIKE GIRLS, HUH?

FUCKING FREAK.

COME ON.

I'M SORRY, YOU KNOW?

I DON'T MEAN TO DO THINGS.

YOU KNOW, MY BROTHER LIKES GUYS.

YOU KNOW, HOW YOU LIKE GIRLS?

HE TOLD MY MOM AND DAD ON HIS BIRTHDAY.

MY MOM AND DAD KICKED HIM OUT.

HE CALLS ONCE IN A WHILE, AND WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO ANSWER.

NO ONE TALKS ABOUT HIM ANYMORE.

I REALLY MISS HIM, YOU KNOW, GAY OR NOT.

YOUR MOM AND DAD KNOW YOU LIKE GIRLS?

NO.

WELL, DON'T TELL THEM ON YOUR BIRTHDAY.

HEY.

STAYING AFTER SCHOOL TODAY, I SEE.

I'M IN DETENTION.

WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE?

STUDYING.

COOL.

I WAS WONDERING IF WE COULD, UH...

Shit.

SOMETHING WRONG?

God damn.

AAH!

I JUST NEED TO VALIDATE THAT ASHLEY IS LIVING IN A SAFE

ENVIRONMENT AND DOESN'T REQUIRE THE STATE'S INTERVENTION TO

PROTECT HER.

SHE'S THE ONE WITH THE PROBLEMS, NOT ME.

HOW LONG HAS ASHLEY BEEN

THIS WITHDRAWN?

SINCE MICHAEL PASSED AWAY, HER FATHER...

MY HUSBAND.

AND HOW WAS ASHLEY'S RELATIONSHIP WITH HER FATHER?

IT WAS VERY GOOD.

HE LOVED HER.

HE WAS A GOOD MAN.

AND THAT'S ALL?

MS. COLLINS?

He, uh...

MS. COLLINS?

I THINK HE WAS...

SEXUALLY...

YOU THINK THAT HE WAS OR...

I KNOW HE WAS.

AAH!

FUCKING BITCH! YOU CUT ME!

BITCH!

ASHLEY?

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

COME... COME IN.

SORRY. COME IN.

GOT TO CLOSE THE DOOR, YEAH.

THANKS.

ACTUALLY, LET ME TAKE THAT FOR YOU.

IT'S KIND OF HEAVY.

DID YOU WANT ME TO TAKE YOUR

JACKET?

OH, SORRY.

Got it.

I'LL JUST SET IT RIGHT HERE.

ARE YOU THIRSTY?

DID YOU WANT SOMETHING TO DRINK?

SORRY ABOUT THE MESS, TOO.

IT'S...

IT'S MY ROOMMATE'S ACTUALLY, MY ROOMMATE.

AM I WHAT YOU EXPECTED?

YOU'RE A LOVELY, YOUNG LADY, ASHLEY.

YEAH, SIT DOWN. SORRY.

HERE, LET ME TAKE THAT.

ARE YOU SURE YOU'RE NOT THIRSTY?

YEAH.

I MEAN, I HAVE LEMONADE, DIET ROOT BEER, WATER.

NO? OKAY.

CRACK A SMILE?

THAT'S... THAT'S CASSIDY.

SHE'S AN OLD FRIEND OF MINE.

SHE WAS SICK.

SHE PASSED AWAY.

YOU HAVE HER SMILE.

YOU ARE SO PRETTY.

DO YOU KNOW THAT?

DO YOU LIKE THAT?

YOU'RE SOFT.

I HAVE AN IDEA.

WHY DON'T I TAKE YOU OUT?

OKAY?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MONEY OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.

SOUND GOOD?

OKAY.

OKAY.

IT'S COOL.

OH, I WANTED TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING.

IT'S IN MY ROOM.

BUT IT'LL JUST TAKE A SECOND.

DON'T BE SHY. SIT.

SO, DO YOU MIND IF I GIVE YOU SOMETHING OF MINE TO WEAR FOR

DINNER?

OKAY.

AWESOME.

LET'S SEE WHAT I GOT.

HERE WE GO.

HERE'S A SHIRT.

IT'LL LOOK GREAT ON YOU.

I SHOULD PROBABLY CHANGE, TOO, I GUESS.

I SHOULD PROBABLY CHANGE, TOO, I GUESS.

BEAT YOU.

THAT LOOKS GREAT.

IT LOOKS GOOD.

HOW ABOUT MINE?

OKAY?

GOOD.

THANKS.

AND A JACKET.

GOT IT?

PERFECTION.

YOU READY? LET'S GO.

I LOVE THIS PLACE.

I USUALLY COME HERE ALONE TO THINK, BUT I'VE NEVER ACTUALLY

BROUGHT ANYONE HERE, THOUGH.

I LIKE YOUR SMILE.

DO YOU LIKE MY SMILE?

HOW ABOUT THIS ONE?

ARE YOU GONNA LAUGH?

COME ON.

IT'S GOOD FOR THE SOUL.

SEE WHAT I'M SAYING?

♪ AND IF YOU LEAD HIM TO THE VALLEY ♪

WHAT'S THE MATTER?

YOU DON'T LIKE SWEETS?

NO WORRIES.

♪ WHEN THE WEATHER VANE IS MOVING ♪

IT'S SO GOOD, RIGHT?

I LOVE THIS PLACE.

WHAT?

DO I HAVE SOMETHING ON MY FACE?

OH, REALLY? HUH.

JUST GET THAT OFF HERE REAL QUICK.

THERE. IS THAT BETTER?

IS THAT BETTER?

I DIDN'T GET IT ALL, DID I?

YEAH, YOU HAVE JUST A LITTLE BIT OF STUFF ON YOUR FACE.

MAY I?

YOU LOOK DIVINE.

YOU TOO.

OKAY.

SO AWESOME.

HEY, THERE YOU ARE.

OH, HEY.

GEE.

WHO'S THIS?

A FRIEND, ASHLEY.

WELL, HELLO, ASHLEY.

I'M CLAIR.

SHE'S CUTE.

WHERE'D YOU MEET HER?

MY LITTLE SECRET.

ROBING THE CRADLE?

SHUT UP.

ASHLEY, IT'S WONDERFUL TO MEET

YOU.

HEY, LAURA, COME SAY HI TO ASHLEY.

OH, HELLO.

LOVELY TO MEET YOU.

HI.

SORRY ABOUT THE PHOTO SHOOT.

YEAH, WHAT IS GOING ON OVER HERE?

OH, MY GOD.

OH, THAT IS SO GROSS.

YOU'RE BLOCKING MY LIGHT.

I'M MAKING A STATEMENT.

WHICH IS?

I'M LEAVING IT UP TO THE OBSERVER TO INTERPRET.

THERE'S TOO MANY MEANINGS.

INTERESTING.

INTERESTING.

CAN I GET YOUR FRIEND ANYTHING TO DRINK?

WE JUST CAME FROM SALVADOR'S.

OH.

YOU GUYS ARE SCREWING UP MY LIGHT.

HEY, WHY DON'T YOU TAKE A BREAK?

WE HAVE GUESTS.

YOU WANT TO STOP FOR A MINUTE?

LAURA, LAURA?

YEAH, OKAY.

ARE YOU SURE YOU DON'T WANT A DRINK?

YOU HAVE A LOVELY FACE.

SHE HAS A LOVELY FACE.

I KNOW.

MAY I TAKE YOUR PHOTOGRAPH?

WOULD YOU MIND?

Go for it.

HOLD THIS, BABE.

CAN I GET YOU TO STAND OVER HERE?

STAND RIGHT HERE.

THAT'S BEAUTIFUL.

NO, HERE.

OH. OH, WHAT DID I DO?

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOUR ARM?

HEY.

IT'S OKAY.

WE DON'T JUDGE HERE.

OKAY?

WOW.

IT'S BEAUTIFUL.

MAY I?

IT'S AMAZING.

THANK YOU.

YOU OKAY?

DON'T WORRY, OKAY?

WE DON'T JUDGE.

ASHLEY?

I USED TO BE A CUTTER, TOO.

OH.

GOOD MORNING.

MORNING.

DID YOU SLEEP GOOD?

ME TOO.

OH, SHIT, YOU'RE PROBABLY GONNA BE LATE FOR YOUR TRAIN.

HEY, HEY.

DON'T BE SAD.

HEY.

I DON'T WANT THIS TO BE A ONE

I LIKE THIS.

BUT YOU SHOULD PROBABLY GO HOME.

OKAY?

Yeah.

SO, WHAT DO YOU THINK?

AM I GONNA SEE YOU AGAIN?

YEAH.

HEY, YOU SHOULD WEAR WHAT I GAVE YOU.

IT LOOKS FANTASTIC ON YOU.

HERE.

TAKE THIS, TOO.

OKAY.

DO YOU LIKE IT?

Yeah.

PERFECTION.

YOU'RE GETTING REALLY GOOD AT

THIS SMILING STUFF.

HEY?

WHAT'S THE MATTER?

What's wrong?

IT'S OKAY, ASHLEY.

ALL RIGHT?

It's okay.

I JUST DON'T WANT TO HURT MYSELF AGAIN.

I KNOW.

I KNOW THAT.

I JUST REALLY DON'T.

I KNOW, SWEETIE.

Shh!

Shh-shh-shh.

YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

ASHLEY, WHAT...

You know what?

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME?

I WAS AT A FRIEND'S.

A

WHO?

CANDICE.

IS SHE NICE?

Yes.

SHE GIVE YOU THAT OUTFIT?

YES.

YOU LOOK REALLY PRETTY...

REALLY PRETTY.

I...

I JUST THOUGHT SOMETHING HAPPENED.

I'M OKAY, MOM.

ASHLEY?

ASHLEY?

WAKE UP.

WE HAVE TO FIND MICHAEL.

I TOLD HIM NOT TO LEAVE US.

IT'S OKAY.

MOM...

EVERYTHING'S OKAY.

HELLO, ASHLEY.

HELLO, VINCENT.

WOW!

WELL, THAT WAS A FIRST.

OKAY.

HOW HAVE THINGS BEEN GOING IN

CLASS?

GOOD.

YEAH?

FINISHED "THE CATCHER IN THE RYE."

OH, YEAH

THAT'S HOW I FELT... "EH."

YOU KNOW, LIKE, WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL?

I LIKE YOUR HAIR.

DID YOU... DID YOU JUST SAY YOU LIKE MY HAIR?

OH, MY, I CAN... I CAN'T BREATHE!

GEEK.

THANK YOU, ASHLEY.

THANK YOU FOR THE COMPLIMENT.

HEY.

HEY, CHICO.

HOW'S IT BEEN GOING?

THINGS ARE GOOD.

YEAH.

WELL, SOMETIMES THINGS ARE GOOD.

I SAW A MARX BROTHERS' MOVIE

ONCE.

REALLY?

YEAH.

WHICH ONE?

UM... THEY WERE FIGHTING A WAR.

"DUCK SOUP."

YEAH, THAT'S ONE OF MY FAVORITES.

DID YOU SEE THE PART WHERE THE BULLET GOES THROUGH THE WINDOW?

I DON'T REMEMBER.

OH, OKAY.

WELL, THAT'S OKAY.

DO YOU MAYBE WANT TO BE MY FRIEND?

YEAH.

YEAH.

YEAH.

CLOSE FRIEND?

JUST FRIENDS.

OKAY.

OKAY, THAT'S... THAT'S COOL.

THAT'S REALLY COOL.

♪ SO, YOU WAITED A LONG TIME

AND NOW YOU ARE READY TO FACE THE WORLD ♪

♪ BUT IT PASSED YOU BY ♪ DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT

♪ IT'S JUST A MISTAKE YOU'VE MADE ♪

♪ YOU KNOW THERE'S MORE TO LIFE THAN JUST SURVIVING ♪

♪ YOU HAVE WASTED ALL THESE YEARS

BEING CONTROLLED BY OUR FEARS ♪ ♪ THERE'S NO ONE

WHO CAN TAKE YOUR HAND AND SHOW YOU HOW TO UNDERSTAND ♪

WHO CAN TAKE YOUR HAND AND SHOW YOU HOW TO UNDERSTAND ♪

♪ SO, YOU WAITED A LONG TIME AND NOW YOU ARE READY

TO FACE THE WORLD ♪ ♪ BUT IT PASSED YOU BY

♪ DON'T WORRY ABOUT IT ♪ IT'S JUST A MISTAKE

YOU'VE MADE ♪ ♪ YOU KNOW THERE'S MORE TO LIFE

THAN JUST SURVIVING ♪ ♪ BUT YOU HAVE WASTED

ALL THESE YEARS ♪♪

♪ GIVE ME A REASON TO FALL IN LOVE ♪

♪ TAKE MY HAND AND LET'S DANCE ♪ GIVE ME A REASON

TO MAKE ME SMILE, 'CAUSE I THINK I FORGOT HOW ♪

♪ I WANT TO FALL ASLEEP WITH YOU TONIGHT ♪

♪ I WANT TO KNOW THAT I AM SAFE WHEN YOU HOLD ME TIGHT ♪

♪ I WANT TO FEEL HOW I WANT TO FEEL FOREVER ♪

♪ GIRLS NEED ATTENTION, AND BOYS NEED US ♪

♪ SO LET'S MAKE EVERYBODY GLAD ♪ THEY HAD EACH OTHER, AND...