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How are you?

Grayson!

Josh!

It's so good to see you.

You really did join the priesthood?

Yeah, I thought Dad told you that.

He did, but I...

You didn't believe him?

I don't know why.

I'm a little bit shocked.

I haven't seen you since
you were a little boy.

Oh, well, a lot's changed.

Oh my gosh.

So how have you been, Mom?

Well, it's been getting by.

Did your father explain
everything to you as you grew up?

That we divorced, it was very
messy, and he took you, and I

wasn't allowed to see you, he
didn't approve of my lifestyle?

Well, of course, I find a lot out for myself,
but with the help of the Lord, I was able to come

to my own answers, and I obviously forgive Dad,
and I forgive you for everything that's happened.

Oh my gosh. This is just a dream
come true to finally have you back.

Well, it's good to see you too, Mom.

He didn't tell me where you were, I had no
idea, I had no way to find you. I just, I didn't

know, I didn't know for sure. I thought he said
that just so that I would think you were gone.

No, it really happened,
Mom, and my life is so

much more rich now
that I've found the Lord.

Well, good for you. I'm happy for you.

It's good to see you.

So you forgive me?

Of course, Mother, of course.

For not being there for you if you
were growing up and everything?

Of course, Mom.

The church took good care of you?

Absolutely.

Oh, gosh, I'm so emotional.

Oh, there, there, Mom.

Oh my gosh, I never
thought I would see you again.

Well, Mom, I, I, the Lord gave me
the chance to come and find you and

here we are again. It's so good to
see you. You look amazing, Mom.

You look great.

Thank you.

I'm so proud of you.

Well, it's good to be home.

Oh, wow, wow. Well, are you staying?
Are you just visiting? Can you stay?

I can stay for a little while, of course.

Really? Can you stay?

I'd love to spend time with you, Mom.

Are you on like a break
or whatever they call it?

A siderical?

Yeah.

You know what it is?

Yes, I am.

No, I don't go to church that much.

But now I'll stay.

Well, you should. You better.

I will.

We'll have to get up Sunday morning and go.

Okay, I can do that.

Okay.

Yeah, maybe. I'll stop reading this
book. It's not good. It's trashy stuff.

Oh, Mom. You didn't know
I was coming, though, so.

No, I didn't. I didn't.

Well, that's okay.

Well, okay. Well, go get your
things and I'll make some lemonade.

All right, sounds good, Mom.

Okay.

Those thoughts again. She's a priest!

Cussing around and I'm having those
thoughts. Oh my gosh what am I gonna do?

He looks so good.

Brent is gone.

Bryson is here.

Dreams have come true.

I gotta stop thinking about...

I gotta stop thinking...

Stop thinking about that.

Oh, no. No, no, no, no. Stop.
Don't think like that. Stop.

Pleasure myself, I won't think about it.

Yeah, that's it, I'll do it.

God!

Oh, yeah.

Oh god.

Oh my god.

It's so good to be home and see Mom again.

Oh, look at your mom.

She has a Bible for her.

Nice to see that her soul is still pure.

Although, it's got some dust on
it. I wonder if she even still reads it.

What else does she have up here?

And some taboo stories
and the secrets of insanity

Oh dear lord, oh my goodness

What is this?

Oh my, oh my heavens

I can't believe my mom's
reading stuff like this

Oh dear lord

Goodness, I need to
pray for her immediately

Hi.

Hey, Mom.

How was your day?

It was good.

How was yours?

Long and tiring, but that's
the nature of work, right?

It's good to see you.

Good to see you, too.

Did you have a nice, relaxing afternoon?

I did, yes.

I definitely did have a
nice, relaxing afternoon.

Did you sleep good last night?

Oh, I slept excellent.

Because I left before you woke
up, so I didn't want to wake you up.

No.

And I appreciate you leaving the
towels outside the door for me, too.

Yeah, well, I was bringing new towels, and
I thought you probably might be changing,

so I just, um...

Yeah, no, of course.

Of course, I appreciate it.

I just left them there on the floor.

Yeah, no, I appreciate it, Mom.

Thank you.

I appreciate the hospitality.

So, you have...

They must have a little
gym there at the church?

Well, I mean, not at the church, but, I
mean, I still stay very active, of course.

I still work out.

They allow you to have tattoos?

Well, Mom, I had them
before I entered the priesthood.

Oh, that's right.

So, Mom, just because
I'm, you know, involved

in the church doesn't
mean I don't live a

normal life.

Well, that's true.

You know, I still do the same
things that everyone else does.

Yep, and you look really good.

Thanks, Mom.

You really, really look like
you're keeping in shape.

Really, really handsome.

Well, thank you, Mom.

And you know what, Mom?

I did notice something.

I noticed that you keep
a Bible lying around.

I do.

Do you?

Does it get a lot of views?

Well, not as much as I probably should.

I didn't think so.

I had to blow the dust off of it.

Oh, well, it's been a little while
since I read the Bible, I have to admit.

Well, you know, maybe you
should start reading it again.

Yeah, I will.

Yeah, we could maybe
study it together sometime.

Oh, of course.

And I have to admit,
while I was over there

just kind of browsing
your collection, I noticed

something else, Mom.

What?

My trashy book about the love stuff?

Uh, yeah.

Yeah, exactly.

I mean, I couldn't even look at
it, but the title of it, Incest, Mom?

What?

Oh, Lord.

What is that all about?

I'm sorry, I'm not
supposed to say that, right?

What is that all about, Mom?

Um...

I mean, I had to drop to
my knees and pray for you.

Please tell me it was just curiosity.

Oh, Grayson, I'm so
sorry you had to see that.

Uh, that book, that's an old, old book.

I thought it was gone.

I sure hope so.

I thought Brent took that.

That was Brent's book?

No, it was...

Oh, boy.

This is so difficult.

Well, I mean, Mom,
you can tell me anything.

Consider this a confession right now.

But you're my son.

Well, and I'm also a priest.

That's true.

Well, one of the reasons your father took
you from me and sent you away was because

I told you you didn't improve my lifestyle.

Well, yeah, I know, and Dad told me, you
know, a little bit about it, but, you know.

Well...

And I forgive you, and I
forgive Dad for taking me away.

I completely forgive you.

Okay, well, Brent stayed with me.

He stayed living with me.

Okay.

He was older, so he stayed.

No, I knew that.

And, um, Brent and I were
here alone the entire time.

I didn't see anyone
date anyone or anything.

Okay, I can understand that.

Then, Brent is also a very big, strong,
healthy, good-looking young man.

Well, I mean, he's your son.

He's my brother.

He comes in the family, Mom.

We have good genes.

Well, this is the part that
there's a problem, I think.

Um, I started having thoughts
for your brother sexually.

Impure thoughts, Mother?

Very impure.

Oh, my goodness.

Yeah, and, um, well, uh, he was
having the same thoughts, too.

So, one afternoon, things happened.

Oh, please don't tell me this
is going where I think it's going.

We started talking, and,
um, just to get it out, I

might as well just tell you,
we had sexual relations.

Oh, my goodness.

Your brother and I.

For two or three years.

Mom!

Two or three years?

Mom, that incest, that, oh, my gosh.

And, uh, he actually got me pregnant.

I, I, I can't, oh, please, Lord, help me.

I can't believe I'm hearing this.

I, it felt natural.

It felt right.

Both of us loved each other.

We loved each other so deeply.

Mom, but the, oh, that love
is, that love is impure, Mother.

It didn't feel impure to us.

It felt right, and it felt good,
and I never loved, and I

still don't love anyone else,
except for you, of course.

Well, okay, but.

I can't love anyone else,
since I've loved my son like that.

And we don't look
at it, I don't know,

incest is a bad word,
we look at it as true.

Mom, it is, Mom, it's immoral.

It's immoral.

I don't know.

Some people say,
maybe in the Bible it is,

maybe that's why the
Bible's dusty up there.

But, that's the way it is,
and that's my confession.

And, um.

Well, I, I.

We did have sex.

Oh, my goodness.

Well, I appreciate you being honest
with me, but, that's just a lot for me to.

Are you getting turned on by the.

No, no, no, Mom, no,
Mom, no, of course not.

Bryson.

Mom, wait, wait, stop, stop, we need
to get back to you and your impurities.

I think I told you everything.

I know, but.

I gave the baby up for adoption.

Oh, okay, this story gets worse and worse.

Bryson, you're, you're having an
erection, you're turned on by the.

No, no, no, I'm not, Mom, no, I'm not.

Did you ever have sex before
you went into the priesthood?

No, Mom, and I, I, I
took a vow to the Lord.

So, you're saying you're a morn?

Yes, of course.

And, now you're feeling
thoughts, aren't you?

No, no, no, no, no, no, not.

I think it's time for you to
confess to me what's going on.

Mom, nothing's going on.

It's not like you grew
up with me or anything.

I know.

So.

Well, of course, you're beautiful, Mother,
but I can't be having these thoughts.

I mean, can't you see us.

Mom, what are you doing?

Loving each other the
same way that Brent and I did.

I don't, I don't know if
we should do this, Mother.

I can see that you're
being affected by this.

No, I'm not, it's, it's, it's, I don't
know, I don't know what it is.

It's perfectly normal, considering
you haven't had sex with a female.

This is, this is impure, this is immoral.

Well, why don't we just do this once,
and then you can at least experience it,

and then you go back to the priesthood.

I don't know if we should, Mom.

I can see that you want to, I can
see the frustration in your eyes.

I saw you in the bedroom.

You did? You were smiling?

I saw your body.

I watched you sleep last night.

You did, Mom?

The covers were off.

I could see it.

You had an erection.

Well, I was sleeping. I can't control that.

Well, you should have to control them.

They're young and your life has
been controlled way too much.

I don't know if this is a good idea, Mom.

I just touch you.

Does that feel good?

It does.

Yeah?

I don't know if this is what he meant.

Pleasure.

Feeling guilt all the time is
not going to make you happy.

That's not so bad, is it?

No, it's not that bad, Mom.

Do you want to take your shorts off?

Ah, do you think that's a good idea?

Be shy.

Hi.

I know, I know.

So I think the first should be me.

It's my dream to have both my boys.

You deserve this, son.

I'm the person who gave
it to you. I'm your mother.

Fight it.

That's it.

Just let me take care of you.

I'll do everything for you.

That feels good, Mom.

I know I shouldn't be
giving in, but it feels too bad.

Yeah, just give in.

Don't be nervous.

No one's ever done this before, Mom.

Just relax.

Do you know what I'm going to do, Bryson?

I have no idea.

Have people confessed about doing this?

All the time.

It doesn't have to be
dirty and nasty, you know.

It can be fun, slow, sensual.

Thank you.

Oh, I know this is wrong,
but it feels so good.

Uh huh.

Oh, oh, oh, oh my god.

Do you ever masturbate?

Oh no mom, I can't do that. It's forbidden.

Then I'll do it for you.

I shouldn't.

Oh, but it feels so good.

Here we are.

There's nothing to be afraid of.

It feels so good mom.

No.

Don't worry honey, I'll
take it nice and slow.

Yeah.

I've never done this before.

I know.

Gosh man.

Wow.

Wow, you really are kind
of hungry for this, aren't you?

She said it's my first time.

I know, honey. What are you worried about?

I've never even seen a
woman up close naked before.

Ever?

Ever, Mom.

I'm gonna fix that.

Why don't you lay down?

I'm not even sure I know what to do, Mom.

Don't worry, dear.

I've been having those
impure thoughts about you.

First I was fantasizing about your brother,

and then I started thinking about you.

I feel so good, Mom.

Now we're gonna make it happen.

Yeah.

Boom.

It feels so good, mom.

Still okay with all this?

I think so.

Don't you want to try it?

Try it, you probably
thought about it before.

I don't know how long.

You can tell me now. Have
you had impure thoughts too?

I have, Mother. I've had
so many impure thoughts.

Confess to me.

Oh yeah.

Oh, that feels so good.

Is this something you've
been wanting to do?

I have, Mom, I must admit.

There, yeah, that feels so good.

Let's see, if there's
nothing wrong with this.

Such a good boy.

Come here.

Are you okay?

I am, Mom.

Have you ever kissed a woman like this?

I haven't.

It does.

Put that in the other one.

Oh, no, no.

I know you know what
position you want to do.

I just want to be on top of you mom.

Oh, I see.

Okay.

Yeah.

Like that?

Oh yeah, that feels so good mom.

Good?

Yeah.

Just let it all out.

Yeah.

Oh yeah.

Uh huh.

God, that feels so good mom.

Yeah.

Oh baby.

Yeah.

I know I dreamed about the both of you.

Uh huh.

Yeah.

Uh huh.

Are you gonna come on?

Are you mom?

Oh yeah.

Oh yeah.

Uh huh.

Uh huh.

Oh yeah.

Oh, it feels so good.

Yeah, it does.

Yeah.

You deserve this.

Yeah, keep fucking me.

You're gonna come soon, you know.

You just go ahead and come.

Can I take the condom off mom?

Yeah, yes.

You know I can't have kids as a priest.

No you can't.

So what are you saying?

I'm saying I want to impregnate you mom.

You can have my child.

Yes.

You're gonna do that?

Yeah.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Oh my god, yes baby.

Give it to me.

I'm gonna keep you hard.

Oh yeah.

Oh my god.

That's good.

Oh my god.

Yeah.

It's still hard.

I know.

You wanna do more?

Yeah.

This time you can come more if you want to.

Oh yeah.

Do you want me to suck your cock some more?

If you want to mom.

I'm sorry to use that language.

This is what it's all about honey.

Yeah.

Oh, that's so good, Mom.

Oh, honey.

I want to taste that cum.

Will you make me cum soon again, Mom?

Yes, baby.

Oh, yeah.

Yeah, there'll be full of cum.

Oh, yeah.

I've never done this before.

I've been saving it my whole life.

Oh, you soon?

Oh, yeah.

I'll be pregnant with your child.

I'm gonna come soon, Mom.

Okay.

I'm gonna come.

Good baby.

Mom, I can't believe you just did that.

I wanted to taste you.

Ugh.

And now, I have you deep inside my womb.

Ugh.

I don't know if the Lord is
ever going to forgive us for this.

That will be our little
secret then, I guess.

It's going to be a huge secret.

I can't explain this baby to Bryce.

Nope, to Brent.

Well, we don't have
to worry about that one.

Now, don't you feel better?

I do, Mom.

You'll be sleepy now, won't you?

I'm very tired, Mom.

Why don't you take a nap in my bed?

And I will...

Thank you so much, and
don't you feel guilty about this.

It'll break my heart if I
think that you feel guilty.

The Lord will forgive us both.

Really?

He will.

We'll crack the Bible open tonight.

We'll have to pray together.

We will.