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It was my brother who first taught
me how to draw hearts.

He said the world had more people than

hearts and maybe we could
make up the difference.

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He said we would always be
protected because the

kingdom of joy was guarded from
all evil by red doors.

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And if I ever became Miss
America, he said I

shouldn't wish for world peace
Just peace in our family

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-Ah!
-You listen to me when I talk!

-Hey, stop it!
-Stop it!

Stop it!

No, stop!

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-Give me the money!
-No, no, stop!

Good, get out of the way!
Stop it, stop, stop!

Let go of me, I'll shoot you!

Stop it!

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My mother always told us not to cry.

Because heaven would weep for us all.

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Still, I found myself thinking, this
can't be what God intended.

Hey!

Rapunzel!

Julia.

Julia?

What are you doing here?

Hey, let me in before I get mugged.

I can't buzz you in.

It's broke.

Heads up!

Oh, God.

Bye.

God damn, like there's
so much to protect.

What is it this time?

Your virginity?

Your millions?

Your art?

I can never understand why you don't show
in a gallery like other people.

What?

Is it those little pieces
of cute cheese you

miss so much or all those
interesting people?

I'll take the red unwashed, thank you.

Sad thing is, you mean it.

Hey, that's Michael Goldfarb.

You're the only woman I know who
has a crush on her voice.

You're hopeless.

Yeah, you're the one who's always telling
me to have relationships.

Yeah, with a real human being.

So, are you still printing for
Keller to make a rent?

You're so much more talented than she

is, but she has showings
in real galleries.

I would not love to discuss
economics with you.

Well, I would like to discuss
economics with you,

considering the fact that I
get 10% of what you make.

I got you a job.

Two days, 20 grand.

European market.

Not bad.

Where?

This campaign will run in
every major European

fashion magazine, Bazaar, Vogue,
Paris Match, Elle...

And?

It's in Broston.

Oh!

Here we go.

Shut up.

Here, put some in there.

It's fine.

It's a scratch.

Look.

You need the money.

You need the exposure.

I don't need anything that badly.

Couldn't you just pretend
it's in Cleveland?

No one does cold, dark, and mysterious
better than you.

Look at your wardrobe. You got black,
black, then you got more black.

God, I'd rather shoot a wedding.

Oh, there's such a demand for those cold,
dark, and mysterious wedding photos.

I need this.

Look, it's not gonna kill you.

I won't miss

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It's Natalie.

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Can we give you a hand with that?

-Uh, no.
-Thanks.

Got it.

Okay, great.

Good afternoon, Bovassange.

May I help you?

Hello, I'm Michelle.

Can I help you? You're supposed
to be the photographer.

I'll take care of that.

He's already been asking, I told you.

One of the models is missing,
and this thing

screwed up the application
on the first take.

You're idea was a joke.

Well, let's hope so.

Wait here a moment, please.

Come on, everybody, hurry.

No, no, no.

I do not have time for this.

There are many, many, many, many
wrong ways, and one right way.

The reason why I'm successful
is because

I know that right way,
and this is not it.

This would be fine if we were
making a comic book.

Are you so independently wealthy
you don't need this job?

Now, watch me,

like that, OK?

Hi, I'm George, your assistant.

Hi, George.

Hi, George.

Oh, God.

You're not leaving, are you?

Please.

It's just that he's an artist,
a genius, a perfectionist.

I know, he just seems like an asshole.

That's my brother, all right?

Say hi for me, will you?

Hey, how's it going?

The thrill is gone, and so am I.

How long has it been since
you've seen each other?

-What did you expect?
-From him?

Exactly this.

That's why it's been so
long, but from you.

What?

Hey, what can I say?

Your look was perfect
for the material.

I didn't find out till afterwards
he was your brother.

And then I thought, you know,
maybe it's like karma.

-You know what I mean?
-Karma?
-Karma?

I must have done something real bad.

Shit!

God damn it.

Are you all so independently wealthy
you don't need the fare?

When are you gonna grow up?

We had a deal.

Fuck that.

You set me up.

I did not commit to this.

You committed to me.

When are you gonna realize you're
a professional artist?

This was supposed to be business.

You're the one who's being
unprofessional, not me.

Oh, yeah, that's obvious.

That's obvious.

I'm on a fucking radio call, ladies.

Fuck you!

And fuck you, too!

See?

Fuck me!

Or fuck you!

Well, only 25 minutes late,
or should I say 10 years.

Do you mind if we get started now?

Come on, everybody, let's go!

Nice to see you too, Roy.

Turn your face towards the light.

Bring your chin down a bit.

Yeah.

Bring your eyes down a little.

She should be looking up.

Turn your head and bring
your shoulders back.

Christ, she looks like
a football player.

Michelle!

Look at me.

Let's let our photographer do what
she's getting paid for, shall we?

Gorgeous.

Perfect.

Shouldn't I be the judge of that?

Of course What do you think
you're running off to know

where that's right nowhere jerk
hurry up before dad gets

home and gets both killed I'm not
a jerk What did you call me?

What?

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Yes, it's perfect.

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Where are you running off to?

I'm staying with a friend.

I'll be back in the morning
to look over the proofs.

And then I got to get
back to New York.

A friend, here.

You have to visit friends to keep
them as friends, Natalie.

Fortunately, brothers
are always brothers.

Now, unless it's a man, of course.

It is a man.

Really?

I'm so happy for you.

What's his name?

That's not a man

Good evening, Mr. Haddad.

Good evening, Carl.

Do you see my sister's come all the way
from New York just to visit me?

I got it.

Thanks. Natalie, let the gentleman
carry your things.

That's what he gets paid to do.

-Thank you.
-Is little one over the flu?

We've moved on to mumps now, sir.

Oh, dear.

-Eddie!
-Evening, Mr. Haddad.

This is my sister.

She's a very successful photographer
from New York.

People pay her big bucks just
to take their picture.

Is that so?

Could you take these for us?

Consider it done, sir.

Your table is ready, Mr. Haddad.

-For two, yes?
-Oui, merci, Henri.

Alan's not joining us for dinner?

Who?

Alan. The man you were gonna spend the
rest of your life with, remember?

Alan left over a year ago,
and I would appreciate it

if you would not bring his name
up again in my presence.

Well, at least through Julia,
I knew you were still alive.

Ah.

Excuse me.

I ordered medium-rare.

That was medium-rare, sir.

Yes, before you overcooked it.

Medium-rare means that there
is pink in the meat.

Do you see pink in the meat?

Roy, why don't you take mine?

No, that's not the point.

You're absolutely right, sir.

Yes, I should say so.

Now, where was I?

Right.

Tomorrow, I am having a party for me.

Oh, that's nice.

It is my birthday.

Most sisters would want to be there.

Oh, Roy, I'm sorry.

I can't. I've got to be
back in New York.

A job? Fine. I'll pay
you double your fee.

You can hire someone else.

-They'll shoot it.
-You pay them half.

-Everyone will be happy.
-So?

I can't do that, Roy, because
it's a personal project.

It is my birthday if you
catch my drift and

my project is important to
me if you catch mine

I am asking you to attend my
birthday party, Natalie.

I am asking.

All right, Roy, fine, but I have to
leave the next morning, okay?

You remember where my house is?

Yes, I do.

Because you won't be late, will you?

No, I won't.

You'll really remember
where my house is.

Cool.

I'm stu-

What am I doing, what am I doing, what
am I doing, what am I doing?

Oh, it's you.

Oh, come in.

After all, this is your
brother's house.

I'm so glad you're here.

You know, Roy and I worked together
at Chanel for five years.

But they just couldn't accept
a strong woman there.

So I left, so I could join him
when he started his company.

Roy's one of the few who truly appreciates
a woman of strength.

You know, I could have had a
career in photography, too.

But my talent lies much
more in creating

the image in front of
the lens, you know?

Getting it just right, so
that someone like you

can just come along and just
snap it, you know?

This time next year, everybody at the

party is going to be held
on the Champs-Elysees.

And whoever got me that,
cannot come back.

To Paris!

To Paris.

-To Paris.
-He's in a good mood.

I'll be praised.

This is wonderful.

I feel just like a kid again.

We had such a wonderful childhood,
didn't we Natalie?

-Um...
-Yep, we sure did.

This is my sister Natalie, everyone.

She has decided to grace us with
her presence on my birthday.

She doesn't come cheap, and
she doesn't come on time.

Come, come, give your brother
a kiss like a good sister.

After all, you didn't even bring
me a birthday present.

My fee for the job is my present.

No charge.

Oh, and we all know how
much I need the money.

Wait, Dad. I have to
get my things now.

I can't come back from New York again.

You should have called
first. But I did.

I did call. I told you
that I was coming.

Can't I just borrow your key?

-No!
-This is my house now.

You want to go to a house,
go to your sissy boy

brother with the big fancy
house, the big shack.

You're my-in-law.

You don't want your father to be late
for his own wedding, do you?

Eh?

Aren't you going to congratulate me?

Heh!

It didn't take you long!

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Natalie, I want to talk to you.

Why?

You got your commission, right?

It's not what this is about.

Look, I'm caught in the middle here.

I've got two friends.

One is a client that has
all the money in the

world, and the other is an
artist who needs money.

You should have let things be, Julia.

We need to talk about this.

There's nothing to talk about.

Yes, there is. I think
that you should.

You think what you like, but just
stop thinking for me, all right?

You suck.

Breakfast in five minutes.

I'm not hungry, thanks.

Hey, another beauty, huh?

What?

-Today.
-Another beautiful day.

Yeah.

Yeah, it is.

Maybe you don't remember me.

Of course she does.

Sonny, the boy next door,
remember Natalie?

How are you, darling?

Thank you very much.

Sonny made the place livable
when I moved in.

Carpenter's hands.

He really wants me.

Sonny, why don't you join
us for breakfast?

Um, uh...

No thanks, Roy, maybe some
other time, okay?

Well, that was very rude of you.

I thought he moved to the city.

-He did.
-How many can you eat?

There, set the table.

His father died about
a year ago, I think.

His mother passed just
this last spring.

Came down to sell the house
and never left.

I think he's remodeling it.

Roy, listen, I can't stay.

I've got a ferry to catch
in, like, ten minutes.

Of course you can't.

What kind of a brother would
I be if I didn't

send my sister off with a
good, healthy breakfast?

What would your mother say?

Let alone your father.

Roy, thanks a lot, but I just...

Would you just get the plates, please?

Look, would it kill you to have
one breakfast with me?

Just one lousy fucking breakfast

with your brother.

Could we please now try and enjoy our breakfast,
it's such a beautiful day.

Nothing like the first cup
of coffee or a cigarette.

I'm sick.

I have been for some time now.

I have a doctor's appointment
on Monday and I

would greatly appreciate
it if you could take

some time from your precious photography
to come with me.

So, Alan didn't leave you, it

wasn't like you said.

One year and two days
ago, the day before

my birthday, I scattered
his ashes out there.

Only you know.

None of your friends?

No one.

No one at work?

Especially at work.

Just you.

You think you should be smoking?

There's one thing I know
for sure, darling,

and that is that smoking is
not going to kill me.

I'm willing to do anything you
want, except stay here.

I'm in the middle of a major advertising
campaign, and I can't.

After we see how your system reacts,
I'll know a lot more.

Meanwhile, the anemia's bad enough for

you to need a transfusion
right away, Roy.

Overnight, they'd better have Kegel.

Roy, this is much more complicated
than simple anemia.

It's caused by your medication.

They're expecting you upstairs.

-Excuse me, will you?
-Wait a minute.

I've got a question.

Don't you think that Roy
should stop smoking?

Do you want to stop smoking, Roy?

Absolutely not.

Fine. I'll come by later.

What kind of a doctor is that?

Apparently a good one.

Hi, I'll be your nurse Connie.

I've got some forms for you to fill out and
a gown for you to put on Thank you.

Someone will be by to get you for
some tests later Natalie You

please fill out these forms Well,
I can't fill out these forms up.

Just do the best you can please

Fine

Influenza, no idea, whoops.

He has to take some tests.

It'll take two hours.

I have you sign the consent form.

Roy, you need to sign this.

Natalie, what I need is for you to deliver
those photo proofs to the office.

I need my Gucci kit, my Armani robe.

And I need you to tell them
I'll be in tomorrow.

And do not tell them why.

We can go now.

Can't Arthur do it?

No, only you, just you.

Roy, all right, one question.

Who do I contact in case
of an emergency?

You, you, you.

Roy, I live in New York.

Your application's there.

I'm unfamiliar with your problems.

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Don't you talk back to me!

-Hey, stop!
-Get out!
-Stop!

You're making me sick with you!

Stop it! He's becoming
a little mommy's boy!

You listen to me when I talk!

-Hey, stop it!
-Huh?
-Stop it!

He's making you a little...

-No, he's not!
-Get out!
-Go on!
-Stop!

-Don't you make me...
-Please, stop.

Please, stop.

Please, please.

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Shit.

Come on, come on.

-Can I help you?
-Um, look at him.

He's sweating.

-That's normal.
-Take his temperature.

All done.

103.

He's spiking again.

Again?

I'll get some cold cloths.

Well, can't you just
give him something?

We just did 30 minutes ago.

I'm afraid if this continues, the doctor
won't let him go home tomorrow.

Well, then when?

We'll have to wait and see.

-Ow!
-Ow!

Ow! Ow! Ow!

-Ow!
-Ow!
-I'm sorry if I'm hurting you.

I know you didn't mean it.

No, thank you.

He'll take his temperature
again, yeah.

Oh, good.

It's coming down.

The pills must be working.

I'll get some water.

I'll be right back.

Okay.

Oh God, I'm freezing, I have the blankets,
please give me the blankets.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

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They all eat your fairy.

You had a high fever,
but it came down.

Good So How about a cigarette?

Well, you can't smoke in the hospital.

Oh, please I'd pay enough
for this room

-Natalie.
-What?

Do you think God is punishing me?

No, Roy.

If you were the only one
to get this thing...

Hmm.

If you could, would you want to know
when you are going to die?

No.

yeah

I don't know.

Maybe...

Not knowing is a luxury.

I used to think I was going to live long
enough that I would hate getting old.

Oh, fuck.

Blew that one.

Chronic fatigue, sometimes.

Weight loss, I wish.

Anemia, yes.

Bruise easily, yes.

-Diabetes.
-No.

What the hell is that?

Dance with your body.

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Oh, there's no place like home,
there's no place like home.

Speaking of home, Roy...

Can I please enjoy the moment?

Thank you.

No,

no, no, no, no, no!

For Christ's sakes, do I have to
do everything my fucking self?

What is it, boy?

Have a look for yourself.

Oh, can't be that bad.

Do you mind hanging your jacket
in the closet, please?

Don't forget my medicines.

You sure the person who did
this has motor skills?

Oh, it can't be that bad, Roy.

Michelle, you didn't tell me your graphics
person needed a seeing-eye dog.

Have you seen what he's done?

Well, darling, then you need one, too.

Are you sleeping with him, at least?

Oh, good.

Well, at least someone's getting
something out of this.

Darling, it'll be fine.

It'll be fine. I'll be in
first thing tomorrow.

We'll take care of it. Okay.

Kiss, kiss.

Bye-bye.

Your appetizers leave something
to be desired.

Is this all of them?

Yes.

Are you sure?

Yes.

Did you count them?

-Yes.
-I'm positive.

Well, so am I. Where's
my little white one?

You don't get that one yet.

Bring me the bag.

I want to see for myself.

Bring me the bag.

And why are you still
wearing your jacket?

For a quick getaway?

Oh, God, what am I doing here?

This can't be happening.

This can't.

No.

No.

Oh, God, he's right.

Shit, he won't be right.

You were right.

Here's the white one.

Thank you.

Maybe now you'll learn to take
more care with my medicine.

I'm sure the nurse you hire will be.

Why would I need one of those
when I've got you?

But you don't have me, Roy.

I told you I have to go.

This is your home.

You belong here.

One day of work, then your birthday,
then the doctor,

then the hospital, and now I'm
supposed to be your nurse?

This whole thing was a trap to
get me here and keep me here.

Don't be ridiculous.

We're family. That is
exactly my point.

Well, I'm not Mom, and I'm not
gonna do what she did.

I don't need anyone to
take care of me.

Is that what you think?

Is that why your life is so full of men
and relationships so successful?

Yeah, everything with you
comes down to success.

You think that my biggest problem is

not knowing Armani from
The Salvation Army.

Well, it's the truth, and you
are afraid of the truth.

What are you talking about?

He did it.

Stop it.

He did it, and you know
it, and the sooner you

can face that fact, the better
off we'll all be.

You have to stop running, Natalie.

You don't know, Roy.

Nobody knows.

Everybody knows, even you.

How can you be so sure?

Natalie, how can you not be?

You've always blamed me.

-I didn't say that.
-I didn't say that.

Look, I'm sorry I even brought it up.

You can work here, I'll pay you.

Is it so bad here?

Am I so bad?

It's how you do it, Roy.

It's always been about that.

I'm trying to finish my work.

You can see what I'm up
against here, Natalie.

With you here, for Christ's sakes, I'm

asking you for three months
of your fucking life!

You're not asking.

You're demanding, as usual.

You'll have to forgive me.

It was my upbringing.

That's right.

You learn from the best.

How dare you talk to me like that,
you selfish fucking bitch!

Now it feels like home.

You're just like him.

Go! Get out of here!

Go! Go!

I made a complete daily schedule.

Here are the times, the
days, and the dosages.

It's very efficient.

Would you mind dispensing them for me?

Sure.

Of course.

Alan insisted that we have
people to look after him.

We could afford it, he said.

He wanted me to keep working.

And he didn't want me to watch him go.

Then I realized that.

A parade of strangers watched him go.

This is a one-time time, you know.

That's all.

I'll be leaving in the morning.

**coughing**

I'm so cold.

Oh, shit.

Oh, God.

Oh, my God.

Oh,

where are you going?

One, two, three, shit!

Okay, Roy, you have to
take this, okay?

You gotta take it now.

Okay.

Okay.

I'm sorry.

Okay.

Okay, good.

Relax.

I'm freezing.

Please, get me a blanket.

Just one second.

Hello, I need to talk to Dr. Goldberg.

This is Natalie Haddad,
Roy Haddad's sister.

I need him to call me.

Yes, it's an emergency.

He's still cold.

Are you still cold?

But he's winning.

He's winning.

Hello?

Dr. Goldberg?

Hi, this is, um, this is Natalie.

He's got 103, and he's freezing.

Um, I gave him his Bactrim and AZT.

A reaction to what?

Well, what should I do?

All right, but he's freezing.

All right.

Thank you.

Roy, I'm so sorry.

I have to.

I have to.

-I have to.
-I'm sorry.

You're having a reaction
to the Bactrim.

It's okay.

It's gonna be fine.

It's gonna be fine.

It's coming down.

It's coming down, Roy,
just a little, just

a little, little bit, but
it's coming down.

It's definitely coming down.

Okay.

Yeah, okay, let me just
get you a sheet.

Just a sheet, just a sheet, it's okay.

Roy?

Roy, are you awake?

Listen, I'm leaving now.

-I-I left a message for Dr. Goldberg,
I wrote that down.

And I left one for Michelle,
so I wrote that down, too.

Oh, sorry, I just...

Bye.

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How did it happen?

Nobody knows.

Nobody saw it happen.

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Hey.

Hey.

So, I stopped by Cassie's Deli
on my way out of the city.

I thought a little pastrami,
chicken soup.

Always good for what ails you.

You knew, didn't you?

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

How is he?

He's Roy with a temperature.

It seemed so unfair, that's all.

I mean, if I have to do
this family thing,

shouldn't I get to experience
some of the good stuff, too?

Who says the family thing
has any rules?

Wasn't it you who said happy families are
always happy in the same way, and...

Every unhappy family sucks
in a different way.

No.

I was told so.

-Yeah.
-Gotta love those Russians.

I should stay.

Yeah, stay.

I don't know if I have
the guts for this.

Having guts has never
been your problem.

I'll come out every weekend
until you're sick of me.

Yeah, I definitely don't deserve that.

You probably do.

I'm late

I'm going to die.

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Gone for a few days and they start applying
makeup like it's spackle.

Could you get me that towel, please?

-Yes.
-What about the layups?

Well, I fired the alleged
graphic designer.

Maybe you need to not push so hard.

Why is the cutting board in the trash?

I got a new one.

Marble.

Less porous, safer.

Yes, Michelle.

Have you found somebody else?

Good.

Are you sleeping with this one?

Darling, I'm not trying to
inquire about her gender.

I just want to know.

No, tomorrow.

Fine, then put Arthur on the phone.

What is that annoying noise?

A-the-art pill container.

It beeps, and a baby speak.

Now you won't have to yell.

Maybe not if you...

Arthur!

Let me explain this to you.

There is FedEx, and then there is
FedEx, and then there is FedEx!

Get it there for me now!

I'll write you a check
for all this later.

Well, that's not necessary.

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Come on, I've got to get
this smile right.

Smile like Ma used to.

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Roy, have you ever seen a wedding
picture of Mom and Dad?

No.

You don't mean they've been living
in sin all this time.

Why, have you?

No, I can't remember.

Well, that figures.

Oh, look, we look happy there.

Oh, my God, Roy, you're
soaked through.

Darling, please don't take
the Lord's name in vain.

I need all the friends I can get.

Here are your pills.

Do you need anything else?

Perhaps another life.

No, thank you.

I'm just going to lie
down for a while.

Roy, maybe you should stop working.

I mean, so hard.

You know, it's not good for you.

Natalie, there's no discussion.

I've lost three designers
in less than two weeks.

I'm right back where I started.

I'm going to finish this
thing if it kills me.

Then let me do it.

You're doing enough, more than enough.

Well, then I think we should talk
to Dr. Goldberg about this.

I think maybe you should mind your
own business, thank you.

Oh, don't get it, Roy.

-I'll get it.
-Okay.

Yes.

Well, give it to me straight, Doc.

Can I start buying cigarettes by the carton,
or should I stick to the packs?

I think you might be working too hard.

And I think you might want to consider
taking some time off.

Yes, well, I might look
like a million bucks.

But the truth is, all my
money is tied up in my

advertising campaign, and I cannot
afford to take a month off.

The medications alone can't do it.

You need more rest.

Well, I hope you're not
considering sending

me back to that wretched
place with no VCR.

No.

But you do need the visiting nurse
to come regularly now.

Above all, you need to
avoid so much stress.

Damn, just when I was considering
becoming a postal worker.

It's not funny.

Hey, how is your brother?

I haven't seen him in a long time.

Business good?

Is he married yet?

Oh, he's fine, thank you, Uncle.

But no, he's not married yet.

Too fussy, maybe, eh?

Oh, that's okay.

Uncle Ernest, Aunt Enid told me...

Oh, how is your Aunt Enid?

Does she still have her teeth?

As far as I can tell, yes.

Uncle, have you ever seen a wedding photograph
of my mother and father?

Auntie Mamie, God bless her soul,
she could have told you.

Anyway, God will be his judge.

But you, Uncle, what do you believe?

Well, I believe we all need to make
peace with it in our own way.

I wasn't there.

I was in New York.

What's your name?

Where were you born?

Were you in Boston when your
mother was murdered?

I think you might want to consider
getting a line put in it'll

save you from getting jabbed with
a needle by me every visit

Yes, but then I'd have one of those IV
thingamajigs hanging off my arm.

Do they come in gold? No, I
don't think so Natalie I'd

like to introduce you to Anna
aka Florence nightingale.

She's very good She got the needle in
the first try and this is my sister.

Oh your sister.

How nice for you. Hello, Natalie
Nice to meet you.

Yes.

Well, she's very efficient but
not very affectionate.

Thank you

Oh, we've been off seeing
the family, have we?

And this is all you got?

No old world leftovers?

Anna, thank you very, very much.

Oh, don't mention it.

I'll be back to see you next week.

And, oh, the doctor gave
me these for you.

Just some nutritional information.

Now, they'll be by to drop off the
IV medication on Thursday.

If not, Friday for sure.

Now, I think that you really should
get that line put in,

because it's not gold, but it will
definitely give you something.

Mmm basil for dinner my favorite.

There's nothing in the pan Natalie

Just let me do this, Roy, okay?

Sure.

Just so long as we're not having
memories in a box for dinner.

It's so passing.

Get it?

No, I don't get it.

Any of it.

Everybody else gets it.

So let them make your damn dinner.

How can you live in the
same town with him?

How could I live anywhere else?

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Why don't I feel like you
can ever hear me?

I would give everything I
considered important.

My house, my money...

Wait, well, I guess you
don't really need it.

-So...
-A-anyway...

I would give it all just to have
had a father who once said...

Son...

I love you.

Okay, okay, I'm pushing it.

But if I knew you were up there,
and that there were some homos

or just one female impersonator
up there

with you, I would give.

I would give you everything.

Ow, ow.

Are you okay?

Sure.

I was just having a conversation
with the man upstairs.

Oh my God, Roy, you're burning up.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

I think it's broken.

105.

Impressive.

That's a record.

All right.

I'm gonna take a nice bath.

Bye.

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Good job, Roy.

Oh, no.

Natalie, leave me something, please.

You're being silly, Roy.

I'm being Roy silly.

Okay. Ready?

You got it?

Okay.

We are family, my sister and me.

We're gonna take a bath and
I hope I don't pee.

-Sorry.
-Okay.

Oh, okay.

Try to not look too cold.

Oh, my God.

Oh, it's cold.

Is it cold?

Oh, for Christ's sake, are
you trying to kill me?

Is it one and one family enough?

Don't say that, Roy.

For God's sakes, even kidding.

Who's kidding?

Oh, you scared me.

102.

Now may I please have a towel?

Yes, you may.

On one condition.

What?

That you promise that I have
to help you at work.

I'm going to come in tomorrow
for half a day.

You think you can blackmail me now?

I think I can take those
panties off if I want.

You wouldn't dare.

Oh.

Now leave.

Hey, hey Wow future housewife

bays of America

These women think all Picasso
ever did was make perfume.

Oh, are we bitchy?

I bet they know he designed
placements, too Now here's

my idea of romance Yeah, my parents
never look like that.

At least not till after they
had me It's weird.

I can't even find one of mine

What I Think this is some of your best
work Dare I use the word intimate?

You gotta show them, right?

I'm gonna go check on Roy.

You're gonna show them, right?

What's your name?

And, uh, when were you born?

Were you in Boston when your
mother was murdered?

I wasn't there.

I was in New York.

What were you doing in New York?

Detective Kinzer.

Uh, I'll call you back.

Hi, Detective.

I'm Natalie Haddad.

Did you remember me?

We're not allowed to show it to you.

But it was such a long time ago.

I need to understand what happened.

Remember what I said.

That's what we were hoping, that
you'd remember something.

-No, I don't.
-That's the whole point.

And I want to.

I have to.

If I could just read it for myself.

I'm sorry.

There's nothing I can do.

My brother is dying, Detective.

And all I have is this piece of paper.

If I could just read
my mother's files.

I'm sorry, Miss Haddad.

I-I can't.

You all right?

What are you doing?

Smelling the roses, remember?

You've got grass cluppings
up your nose.

Been a while for grass, too.

How'd it go with Honor today?

Not as well as if you'd been there.

Though I did come to a few decisions.

What?

Well, first I decided that I needed
to take a few days off.

That's good.

Great idea.

So I then got...

a permanent line.

Isn't it lovely?

It's not permanent, but it's lovely.

Was it painful?

Not with the morphine.

Finally, a drumroll, please.

I decided that what I really needed was
to take an extended leave of absence.

I notified them today.

I was hoping maybe you and I could
take a trip down to Boys Town.

Might be just what I need.

Do you want me to take over for you?

I would pay you.

Well, of course.

You're just like your mother.

You can handle anything.

You'd have to learn to flush the port,
hook up the IV, are you up to it?

Yeah, I don't know what he showed me.

Roy, don't you think it's time
that you tell your friends?

Do you think I should?

Yes, I do.

I don't think that you should
go through this alone.

-Why?
-Are you going somewhere?

No.

Now.

That's a weed, you know.

Does it matter?

I'm sorry you have to
wait up for this.

I wouldn't miss it though.

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Have you ever seen it
snow on the ocean?

I don't think so.

It's the sound of the snow, really.

It's as if each individual
flake has its own voice.

A hiss as it hits the water.

And then this whisper that
tames the ocean's roar...

peacefully.

It's my favorite Christmas thing.

Is that my sweater you have on?

No, Roy, it's my sweater.

I think I would know my
own sweater, Natalie.

It's polyester, Roy.

Definitely not my sweater.

Do you remember when I taught
you how to draw hearts?

No.

Mom almost killed me.

We started drawing them everywhere.

You were always so good
at all that stuff.

Drawing and painting and everything.

Why'd you stop?

I never had enough imagination
or talent.

That's not true.

I saw an unfinished picture
of me in the closet.

It was beautiful.

It was supposed to be
a portrait of Ma.

Oh.

I used to always be afraid I'd
forget what she looked like.

I wonder what she would have thought
if she'd known I was gay.

Do you think God will let
me into his kingdom?

I'd let him into mine if he asked.

I think God has a bigger
heart than most.

You know, it's funny.

You were the only one in the entire

family that ever had a real
loving relationship.

From your mouth to God's
ears, what about you?

Nothing like with you and Alan.

Why not?

I don't know.

I prefer to be alone, I guess.

Sometimes I think you're the only woman
waiting to come out as a heterosexual.

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No one prefers to be alone, Natalie.

No one.

The first step is

scary

But it's worth it.

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at home on the range Where the

queer and the antelope play Where

never is heard a discouraging
word And the

skies are not cloudy all day

There.

Who moves it who money with a queer
and the antelope all done, right?

Thank you, sonny.

Hey It's nice to see that red again.

I always liked it like that Kingdom of

joy is protected from all
evil by red doors.

Hello ladies

Same as that one?

Please, Sonny, it's the
least we can do.

Uh, no, no, thanks.

Uh, can I help you with those?

Say, yes, Sonny, okay.

Yes, Sonny, okay.

Thank you.

Sonny likes the color.

So do I.

Oh, I'm sorry.

Didn't you see the sign?

No. Well, if it was any bigger,
it would be the door.

Michelle is here.

With accessories.

And a man with flowers.

Hi, Michelle.

Roy, how's my bouboula doing?

Good, darling.

La couleur dans votre vie.

What?

La couleur.

The slogan, silly, for the
French advertisement.

Thank God it's not a radio ad.

Come outside and have a cigarette
with me, darling.

I want to talk to you about something.

You're so skinny.

Somebody's not feeding you enough.

I'm fine.

I'm okay.

I'll follow you anywhere, mon Roy.

That's French for king, you know.

That's why Roy was named Roy.

I'm just gonna put these in some water

Say what you want. She
makes them laugh.

In fact, I should do it on purpose.

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Hello.

I'm glad I'm not walking a beat anymore,
though this could change all that.

I have to tell you, I was shocked
to get your call.

Yes, I know.

Well, I figured we didn't do much for you
or your family the first time around.

So, you know, with all the
unsolved cases, you

need a warehouse to hold them
all, like your mom's.

I got the file.

Oh, thank you.

Three things.

First, my advice to you is
to walk away right now.

If he did it, he's gotten
away with it.

There's no proof.

Second, I have to stay with the file.

I'm sorry, but it's my neck.

Last, if you go ahead, if
you find something,

anything at all that changes the
situation, you let me know.

You okay, Mr. Death?

This stain, this is where
you found her?

Yeah.

But in his statement, he
said that he found

her on the other side of
the room, on his chair.

He'll swear to that to this day.

But why?

I mean, if he did it, why say something
so obviously wrong?

Once they tell their story,
they stick to it.

It says here that he failed
his lie detector test.

Why didn't he go to trial?

It's not enough Without hard evidence.

We had no case If we had
the tools we have

today, maybe there was
nothing on the chair.

-No blood.
-No prints.

No dust We figure that's what she
was cleaning just before she

His chair, I know it moved

you said that before

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-What are you doing?
-Give me that.

Thank you.

I'm sorry if you didn't find what you
were looking for, Miss Sinead.

Me too.

What do you think?

Looks great.

I think I want to get one of these
in every color that they have.

My gosh was I beeping mm-hmm.

I'm sorry. I didn't hear it.

I know it's okay

I'll get to seven.

Okay.

Oh, God, this town's going to remember
us, the couple that went beep.

-Thank you.
-You're welcome.

I'm so tired of being sick.

I'm tired.

We should go home.

Okay.

I'm hungry.

All right I'll get the car
you wait here, okay

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Now, darling, this sauce
is like a waltz.

With the spatula, lift the
cream in a splendid

scallop so it's spilt and fluffed
around layers of chocolate.

Voila, monsieur.

Your dinner this evening.

Lamb au jus.

Let's see.

Medium rare.

-Uh-huh.
-Pink.

You're mocking me.

Oh, I'm just playing with you, Roy.

You need anything else?

No, thank you.

Okay.

Now, there's a woman who can cook.

We will only obey.

Four tablespoons of red wine.

Half a stick of butter.

And half a stick of butter.

And a quart of cream.

Up yours.

This rice is not cooked.

It's as hard as a rock.
Here, you eat it.

And that doesn't go there.

It goes under there.

What's your problem now, besides the
fact that you can't cook rice?

And don't give me one of your looks.

I'm not.

Don't tell me you're not!

Who the hell do you think you are?

I am still Mr. Roy Haddad, remember?

Can you remember that?

Can you remember fucking anything?

You think you know everything,
Natalie.

Well, let me tell you, I am here to

tell you different, and
don't you forget it!

Damn son of a bitch!

Fuck you!

Yeah!

Fuck you! I wasn't sure you could
talk in complete sentences.

You definitely can.

Very eloquently.

I was afraid someone was being killed.

Not yet, but it's coming.

God, I don't mean that.

Things probably seem awfully
unfair to Roy right now.

He's just spreading it
around a little.

I can't believe we had a food fight.

About rice!

God!

How was I thinking coming here?

How was I thinking?

I can't do this.

God, what am I doing making
a difference not to him?

I'm not that's not true
without you His

whole life is about being
sick with you.

His whole life is about making me sick

-What?
-I'm serious!

Oh, what the hell.

At least I'm a distraction, huh?

At least.

At the very least.

Sometimes I'm afraid he's going to die
and sometimes I'm afraid he won't.

Awful, isn't it?

No, it's normal.

We all want things to be clear,
one way or another.

You're doing fine.

Just hang in there.

Huh.

Oh, well.

Live and learn, huh?

Next time, we'll get the
five-minute rice.

Natalie, Natalie, I think I'm
done, it's coming back up.

Oh my God, Roy.

Oh my God, I'm so sorry.

I must have fallen asleep.

What should we do?

I guess I better flush out the port.

-What?
-Oh, God, the board exploded.

You didn't get any blood
on you, did you?

-You!
-Get out of my chair!

I was just saying... You listen
to me when I'm talking!

Hey, stop fighting!

You're making me a little jealous!

You can't do nothing right!

Stop fighting!

Stop fighting!

It makes me sick!

You want to be a man?

-No, stop!
-Get out of my face!

-Stop it!
-Stop!
-I'll show you how!

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I don't know what to do.

It's okay, darling.

-It's okay.
-I'm so sorry, Roy.

What a stupid thing to do.

You do a lot of smart things, too.

No, Dr. Goldberg, I'm okay.

No, no, no punctures.

There's nothing in my eyes.

I don't have any cuts.

Oh, all right.

Yeah, I will.

Um, and Roy's hearing thing,
will it get any worse?

It's just a side effect of...

Right.

Well, thank God he doesn't
like opera, huh?

Yeah.

-All right.
-Thank you.
-Good night.

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Roy, don't you want to come in?

It's freezing.

In a while, if that's okay.

Okay.

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I didn't hear on his car

I asked her to come tomorrow.

It's such a beautiful day today.

Dinner's in five minutes, okay?

Could we wait until the sun sets?

Okay.

Hi.

Hi, why don't you come and have coffee
with me in here this morning?

How are you?

I'm okay.

How are you?

I've come to a decision.

What?

I decided to stop taking
my medication.

Listen to me, Natalie.

I hate to be selfish, but...

That's not true.

I love to be selfish.

But this is different.

I need to do this for you.

Take them now, please.

Natalie...

if I can leave now with what I have
on my own terms, I would be happy.

Please, Ryan.

-Not now.
-We just...

don't run out on me now, please.

Oh, sweetheart.

I can hardly walk.

We have so much to look forward
to Christmas is

coming and I told an India that
we had really listened.

I was gonna get tickets Roy to
Paris There's gonna be a

huge billboard on the Chandelier
say and we have to see it

I know you're afraid.

But I have to do this for me.

No!

No, no, no!

No.

Oh, God.

I'm sorry I wasn't there
when Mom died.

I'm sorry.

It's gonna be fine.

You don't have to be sorry for him.

But he was my father, Roy,
and I loved him, and I...

Don't do that.

You don't do that.

God!

I'm gonna miss you so much.

I know.

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Your son is dying.

Well, look who it is, my
daughter, Nathalie.

So, after 10 years, you've come
to pay your father a visit.

It's been 15, actually.

Oh, it's been 15.

Excuse me.

How are you?

No call, no letter.

But she shows up and
says, how are you?

What do you think of that?

There you are, my friend.

Ah, okay.

-Come again, huh?
-Okay.

So, what do you think?

-Huh?
-For an old man.

Smaller than I remember.

Very funny.

Always with the jokes.

I think that you should know that
your only son is dying.

And doesn't want you to know.

I don't have no son.

And if that's the way you want it,
I don't have no daughter either.

What?

What?

♪

Did you kill my mother?

You talk nonsense.

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-What are you doing?
-Give me that.

Read it up.

Look what you made me do.

I know.

You know what?

I know that you told the truth about
her falling on the chair.

And then you moved it, and you

coined it, your precious
goddamn throne.

So, everybody and his brother knows.

You don't know nothing!

Get out of here!

Go on, go on!

Go!

Look what I got from downtown.

They've been on the newsstands in
Europe for 24 hours already.

It's more than I could
ever have hoped for.

But what?

But I would still rather
just look at you.

I would rather just talk to you.

I used to always think that this would
make me feel like somebody.

that I could rub his face in it.

Bye.

I saw him today.

I wanted him to know that I know.

Do you?

Does he?

Yes.

Poor, miserable son of a bitch.

Did he run?

Yes.

Good.

Better him than us for a change,
don't you think?

Yes.

I love you dearly, Natalie.

-Hey!
-Where is everybody?

Champagne's getting warm!

Me too, Roy.

Roy?

You want breakfast in here?

Are you gonna grace me with your...

Roy?

Are you alright?

Are you alright?

All my strength just went away.

When?

I'm holding it up.

Midnight.

Yes, midnight.

It's morning, Mom.

Are you?

Done.

Oh, God, I hope so.

I've got you.

We're going to need to-the-clock
care from now on.

Okay.

And, uh, it's pretty well just
a matter of time now.

Okay.

Thank you.

You need a nap.

No, I need a walk.

Will you cover for me?

-Sure.
-Thanks.

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I don't want you to worry about me.

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anymore.

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Fine.

I'll be fine

So were you.

range

We're the queers.

Where seldom is heard

a discouraging word.

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Oh, my God, Roy.

The light is beautiful.

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Well, Roy, this is it, my
last ride in the Jag.

I think it's safe to tell
you the truth now, Roy.

Mom didn't name you after
any French kings.

She named you after Roy Rogers,
King of the Cowboys.

Remember him?

Sorry, Roy.

Gucci doesn't make plastic bags.

I checked.

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Ah!

Goodbye.

♪

Another beautiful day, huh?

Sure is.

See ya.

Okay.

Hey, um...

I just put some coffee on.

Maybe after your walk, you wanna...

Ah, great.

I'll see you later, then.

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Even after death, he was my teacher.

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I learned that the temperature
at which a body will burn is

not enough, because the heart, with
all its muscle, will remain.

So the temperature of cremation is
determined by the human heart.

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And after all the rituals of death
were over, I discovered he

taught me that, though the kingdom
of joy is guarded by red

doors keeping the evil spirits out,
it keeps the good spirits in.

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A red door that stays forever closed
is worse than no door at all.

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