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Would you like to inspect the original subtitles? These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:30,417 --> 00:00:37,417 This is my story as I remember it 2 00:00:39,417 --> 00:00:44,667 HOPE 3 00:01:57,958 --> 00:02:00,042 Thank you. 4 00:02:03,208 --> 00:02:05,583 - Bye. - Goodbye. 5 00:02:22,250 --> 00:02:24,708 Hi! 6 00:02:31,125 --> 00:02:34,000 - We're making a gingerbread castle! - I can tell. 7 00:02:34,125 --> 00:02:37,042 - Look at this. - Oops. 8 00:02:42,250 --> 00:02:45,625 - Hello? - Hello! 9 00:02:45,750 --> 00:02:47,792 Hi. 10 00:02:47,917 --> 00:02:50,250 Hi, dear. 11 00:02:50,375 --> 00:02:53,708 - Hi. - Good to see you. 12 00:03:06,417 --> 00:03:08,333 Wow! Look at this! 13 00:03:08,458 --> 00:03:11,958 Hi! How's it gone here? 14 00:03:12,083 --> 00:03:15,375 - Henrik and Ada took care of us. - What about me? 15 00:03:15,500 --> 00:03:19,125 Haven't I taken care of you? And made dinner? 16 00:03:19,250 --> 00:03:23,167 - Hi. - Yes, twice in four weeks. 17 00:03:23,292 --> 00:03:27,500 If you're that ungrateful, I don't mind. I'm leaving. 18 00:03:27,625 --> 00:03:32,708 - I'm going out with some friends. - Okay. Bye. See you. 19 00:03:33,792 --> 00:03:35,792 Where's Dad? 20 00:03:35,917 --> 00:03:40,208 - He's working late. - As usual. 21 00:03:40,333 --> 00:03:42,333 Bye! 22 00:03:42,458 --> 00:03:45,792 Will you help decorate the tree tomorrow? 23 00:03:47,167 --> 00:03:51,042 - When are we going to buy the tree? - Tomorrow. 24 00:03:52,833 --> 00:03:55,917 How are you doing? 25 00:03:56,042 --> 00:03:57,833 Okay. 26 00:03:57,958 --> 00:04:00,583 - Okay? - Yes. 27 00:04:03,958 --> 00:04:06,625 Her heart is broken. 28 00:04:06,750 --> 00:04:11,333 - I heard her tell Dad. - Were you spying again? 29 00:04:11,458 --> 00:04:14,625 How else am I supposed to find out anything? 30 00:04:14,750 --> 00:04:16,875 Hey... 31 00:04:26,000 --> 00:04:28,417 What's going on here? 32 00:04:53,500 --> 00:04:55,583 But hey... 33 00:04:55,708 --> 00:05:01,083 We agreed that you wouldn't work evenings. I never do when you're away. 34 00:05:01,208 --> 00:05:04,667 Take it easy. Everything went fine. 35 00:05:04,792 --> 00:05:07,125 I took care of it my way. 36 00:05:07,250 --> 00:05:10,583 Using the older kids as babysitters? 37 00:05:14,542 --> 00:05:17,250 Seen any reviews? 38 00:05:18,917 --> 00:05:22,250 Yes, there have been a couple. 39 00:05:22,375 --> 00:05:26,667 - And? - They were pretty short. But favorable. 40 00:05:28,458 --> 00:05:31,667 Not like in theatre, where they're neither? 41 00:05:41,375 --> 00:05:44,250 Could you turn off the light? 42 00:05:44,375 --> 00:05:48,083 - You want me to go to the study? - Not really. 43 00:05:48,208 --> 00:05:51,333 I can't seem to get rid of this headache. 44 00:05:51,458 --> 00:05:55,875 It's just as bad in the morning as when I go to bed at night. 45 00:05:56,000 --> 00:05:58,875 Right, lousy hotel beds. 46 00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:01,083 And stress. 47 00:06:09,583 --> 00:06:13,958 The day before Christmas Eve 48 00:06:14,708 --> 00:06:18,208 I got these after an optical checkup. 49 00:06:22,375 --> 00:06:25,542 - Right, reading glasses? - Yes. 50 00:06:25,667 --> 00:06:28,792 Custom-made prism lenses. 51 00:06:28,917 --> 00:06:33,750 - But I still can't read. I just get dizzy. - I see. 52 00:06:41,958 --> 00:06:45,250 I want you to take an MRI scan. 53 00:06:47,250 --> 00:06:51,042 - When? - Now. Before they close for Christmas. 54 00:07:18,125 --> 00:07:24,000 I read a review of your latest performance. 55 00:07:24,125 --> 00:07:27,292 You did? Where? 56 00:07:27,417 --> 00:07:32,208 In a newspaper in the living room. A foreign newspaper. 57 00:07:32,333 --> 00:07:36,375 That was just a write-up, Dad. Not a review. 58 00:07:36,500 --> 00:07:38,917 Write-up or review, 59 00:07:39,042 --> 00:07:43,458 it's still your first production abroad. 60 00:07:43,583 --> 00:07:46,500 It's a huge deal. Really. 61 00:07:47,125 --> 00:07:49,250 Was Tomas there? 62 00:07:49,375 --> 00:07:54,458 - Was Tomas there? - He stayed home to look after the kids. 63 00:07:54,583 --> 00:07:58,042 Yes, I understand. But... 64 00:07:58,167 --> 00:08:02,750 - It's good to be here. - Just a moment, Dad. Hello? 65 00:08:11,833 --> 00:08:13,917 I'm coming. 66 00:08:21,292 --> 00:08:25,000 It's me. How quickly can you get to our physician? 67 00:08:25,500 --> 00:08:28,333 Don't ask. Come as soon as you can. 68 00:08:32,542 --> 00:08:35,167 - Hi. - Hi, Tomas. 69 00:08:40,458 --> 00:08:44,167 I'm afraid I have bad news. Anja's diagnosis, 70 00:08:44,292 --> 00:08:49,958 her lung cancer operation a year ago, evolved the way I feared. 71 00:08:50,083 --> 00:08:56,958 The MRI images reveal a major tumor surrounded by a large amount of fluid. 72 00:09:00,500 --> 00:09:02,375 An edema. 73 00:09:02,500 --> 00:09:07,750 It's most likely a secondary tumor, a metastatic growth. 74 00:09:10,458 --> 00:09:16,250 It's not unusual for lung cancer to spread to the brain like that. 75 00:09:20,250 --> 00:09:22,458 It's incurable. 76 00:09:32,708 --> 00:09:35,792 No words can express how sorry I am. 77 00:09:40,667 --> 00:09:43,958 Feels like I've known it for ages. 78 00:09:45,667 --> 00:09:49,583 You often have some premonition. 79 00:09:54,708 --> 00:09:59,750 Before you came, I spoke to the oncologist on call at the Cancer Center at Ullevål. 80 00:09:59,875 --> 00:10:03,458 She's waiting for you with more information. 81 00:10:16,250 --> 00:10:18,667 Where did you park? 82 00:10:23,625 --> 00:10:25,833 I don't know. 83 00:10:30,125 --> 00:10:35,208 How long have you felt something was wrong without saying anything? 84 00:10:35,333 --> 00:10:37,500 I don't know. 85 00:10:39,458 --> 00:10:42,167 A couple of months, maybe. 86 00:10:47,917 --> 00:10:53,875 Why didn't the doctors realize something was wrong? 87 00:10:54,000 --> 00:10:59,333 - Why didn't they say anything? - You never came to the control checkups. 88 00:10:59,458 --> 00:11:02,500 You didn't want me to come. 89 00:11:04,958 --> 00:11:07,917 Said you could handle it yourself. 90 00:11:34,792 --> 00:11:39,333 - Was it the kids? - I don't know. I can't read. 91 00:11:40,333 --> 00:11:42,792 You can't read? 92 00:11:43,792 --> 00:11:48,958 So you have a cohabitant, three children and three stepchildren? 93 00:11:57,000 --> 00:12:00,417 Could you say anything about my prognosis? 94 00:12:03,750 --> 00:12:06,208 Don't you want to sit? 95 00:12:14,083 --> 00:12:16,792 It's too early for any prognosis. 96 00:12:16,917 --> 00:12:21,167 The specialists are on vacation for the next four days. 97 00:12:21,292 --> 00:12:26,917 But the tumor might be in a favorable location in terms of surgery. 98 00:12:27,042 --> 00:12:33,250 We don't know if it's a primary tumor, or if it spread from your lungs. 99 00:12:33,375 --> 00:12:36,667 But how much time do I have if it's spread? 100 00:12:36,792 --> 00:12:39,625 I can't give you an answer. 101 00:12:41,292 --> 00:12:46,958 Initially you'll receive medication. The edema, the fluid around the tumor, 102 00:12:47,083 --> 00:12:52,917 is so large that you'll need high doses of steroids to avoid brain death. 103 00:12:53,042 --> 00:12:58,917 The medication, Medrol, will relieve the swelling and the pressure. 104 00:12:59,042 --> 00:13:05,000 But if your headache, nausea or visual impairment increases, 105 00:13:05,125 --> 00:13:07,792 you'll have to be admitted. 106 00:13:07,917 --> 00:13:11,375 I want to stay home. I was in hospital last Christmas. 107 00:13:11,500 --> 00:13:15,250 - Don't want my kids to hate the holidays. - I understand. 108 00:13:15,375 --> 00:13:19,417 But if it gets too difficult, you need to call us. 109 00:13:20,208 --> 00:13:24,417 I don't advise you to read about the side effects. 110 00:13:24,542 --> 00:13:29,708 Just remember that some people experience a kind of high with lots of energy. 111 00:13:29,833 --> 00:13:35,333 While others get irritable and impatient. It varies from person to person. 112 00:13:35,458 --> 00:13:37,458 Excuse me. 113 00:13:40,125 --> 00:13:42,042 Julie. 114 00:13:44,708 --> 00:13:46,583 Hi. 115 00:13:47,625 --> 00:13:50,042 We're just shopping. 116 00:13:52,458 --> 00:13:57,292 Could you make sure Grandpa gets something to eat? Yes. 117 00:13:57,417 --> 00:14:02,750 And could you empty the laundry and put in a new load? 118 00:14:04,083 --> 00:14:07,333 Yes. Okay. Thanks. See you. 119 00:14:09,583 --> 00:14:12,167 - What is it? - Nothing. 120 00:14:12,292 --> 00:14:17,042 Excuse me? I recommend that you take the first dose right away. 121 00:14:19,375 --> 00:14:21,958 And here's your medication. 122 00:14:33,708 --> 00:14:38,000 - What do we tell the kids? - Nothing. 123 00:14:40,292 --> 00:14:45,208 Not until we have some answers, know more about what to expect. 124 00:14:47,667 --> 00:14:50,125 What about your father? 125 00:15:19,375 --> 00:15:21,833 - Mom? Mom? - Yes? 126 00:15:21,958 --> 00:15:24,833 - Did you find it? - Yes. 127 00:15:27,208 --> 00:15:29,958 - Here. - Thank you. 128 00:15:30,083 --> 00:15:33,583 Alright? Ready? 129 00:15:33,708 --> 00:15:35,917 Can you reach it? 130 00:15:36,042 --> 00:15:38,083 There! 131 00:15:38,208 --> 00:15:40,875 Oops! 132 00:15:42,458 --> 00:15:44,958 - Toddy. - Great! 133 00:15:48,208 --> 00:15:50,667 - I'll have one. - Nice! 134 00:15:50,792 --> 00:15:54,250 - No. Not for you, young lady. - I'm sixteen. 135 00:15:54,375 --> 00:15:57,292 - Exactly. Here you go. - Fine. 136 00:16:01,500 --> 00:16:05,792 How old is that Belgian girl who's coming? 137 00:16:05,917 --> 00:16:10,792 She's a little older than you. Maybe eleven. Isn't that exciting? 138 00:16:12,167 --> 00:16:15,750 I've invited a Belgian producer and his daughter. 139 00:16:15,875 --> 00:16:18,208 Have you lost your mind? 140 00:16:18,333 --> 00:16:23,583 - We always have an open door at Christmas. - You could have asked. 141 00:16:25,250 --> 00:16:27,667 You were away. 142 00:16:39,292 --> 00:16:43,542 - Extra toddy for the kitchen assistant? - Thank you. 143 00:16:49,625 --> 00:16:55,167 Don't you understand? I'm not ready to meet new people right now. 144 00:16:57,250 --> 00:16:59,292 Okay. 145 00:17:10,208 --> 00:17:12,542 When I'm gone... 146 00:17:16,542 --> 00:17:18,792 What? 147 00:17:20,625 --> 00:17:24,458 When I'm gone, I want you to find someone new. 148 00:17:26,792 --> 00:17:28,917 I mean it. 149 00:17:30,250 --> 00:17:34,167 I don't think the kids will make it with you alone. 150 00:17:36,583 --> 00:17:39,708 Just promise me you'll find someone. 151 00:18:32,333 --> 00:18:35,708 Christmas Eve 152 00:19:01,458 --> 00:19:05,875 - Haven't you slept at all? - No. I'm too nauseous. 153 00:19:09,708 --> 00:19:13,292 My entire body's tingling. It's awful. 154 00:19:15,875 --> 00:19:20,708 - Do you want to call the hospital? - What? No. 155 00:19:23,500 --> 00:19:29,458 I thought I'd buy those last presents and get some groceries. You should rest. 156 00:19:30,375 --> 00:19:34,625 I want us to have a real Christmas. I'm not tired. 157 00:19:50,875 --> 00:19:53,708 Has everyone tidied their rooms? 158 00:20:14,833 --> 00:20:17,250 Have you tidied up? 159 00:20:35,250 --> 00:20:40,625 I hate it! Can you please pull yourself together? 160 00:20:42,208 --> 00:20:47,458 - You never do any housework! - Erlend and I have to do everything! 161 00:20:47,583 --> 00:20:52,417 - Can you stop that and help me instead? - He never does his share! 162 00:20:52,542 --> 00:20:56,333 - Come on, you guys. It's Christmas Eve. - Jesus! 163 00:20:56,458 --> 00:21:01,500 Isak doesn't do anything, Mom! He's turning into a spoiled brat. 164 00:21:01,625 --> 00:21:04,542 He isn't three anymore. He's nine. 165 00:21:04,667 --> 00:21:07,250 I'm ten. 166 00:21:07,375 --> 00:21:12,167 Okay, I'll try to shape up. Now could you please tidy your rooms? 167 00:21:16,042 --> 00:21:19,250 God, I can't wait to move out. 168 00:21:20,792 --> 00:21:22,875 Mom... 169 00:21:24,500 --> 00:21:27,042 Mom! 170 00:21:27,167 --> 00:21:32,667 Promise me you'll never start smoking. I won't let you. Promise me. 171 00:21:32,792 --> 00:21:36,750 - Okay? Don't lie to me! - I don't. You don't get it. 172 00:21:36,875 --> 00:21:39,042 Stop lying! 173 00:21:39,167 --> 00:21:42,625 I was a damn fool. You don't have to be. 174 00:21:58,667 --> 00:22:01,500 You're a godsend, Isak. 175 00:22:02,625 --> 00:22:05,083 Did you know that? 176 00:22:08,125 --> 00:22:12,667 - How many wine glasses do you need? - For everyone. Nine. 177 00:22:16,458 --> 00:22:21,167 - Aren't those Belgians coming after all? - No. 178 00:22:21,292 --> 00:22:24,583 - They aren't coming? - Where are they going? 179 00:22:24,708 --> 00:22:28,292 - To Dag and Eline, I think. - Who's that? 180 00:22:28,417 --> 00:22:32,292 - The theater manager. - I see. 181 00:22:33,667 --> 00:22:38,667 - But they don't have kids. - And they're dull as hell. 182 00:22:38,792 --> 00:22:43,125 Yes, why couldn't they come to us? 183 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:46,917 Well, I don't know. 184 00:22:47,042 --> 00:22:49,792 Maybe... 185 00:22:49,917 --> 00:22:53,458 Maybe it's too much for them. Many new faces. 186 00:22:53,583 --> 00:22:57,542 Your dad doesn't know them that well either. 187 00:22:58,500 --> 00:23:01,375 Did you say they couldn't come? 188 00:23:03,583 --> 00:23:05,958 That's really mean. 189 00:23:25,750 --> 00:23:27,833 Mom? 190 00:23:31,375 --> 00:23:33,583 Mom? 191 00:24:13,042 --> 00:24:15,208 Anja! 192 00:24:16,792 --> 00:24:19,292 Are you there? 193 00:24:25,833 --> 00:24:28,250 May I come in? 194 00:24:29,417 --> 00:24:31,500 Please? 195 00:24:42,208 --> 00:24:44,708 I can't keep it a secret. 196 00:24:47,833 --> 00:24:53,958 You don't have to love me just because I'm dying. But I need to know you'll help me. 197 00:25:09,208 --> 00:25:12,625 We're useless at sticking together. 198 00:25:12,750 --> 00:25:15,125 We always have been. 199 00:25:20,833 --> 00:25:24,833 We couldn't even stick together when times were good. 200 00:25:32,458 --> 00:25:37,083 I don't want the kids to remember us like this when I'm gone. 201 00:25:38,333 --> 00:25:42,125 Like I remember my parents, and you remember yours. 202 00:25:43,292 --> 00:25:47,208 I want to give them something else to believe in. 203 00:26:01,333 --> 00:26:05,792 I can't do it on my own. You have to help me. 204 00:26:12,083 --> 00:26:16,250 - Get out! - We just need a breather. 205 00:26:16,375 --> 00:26:20,208 - Get out of the couch, I said! - Do we have to? 206 00:26:20,333 --> 00:26:23,042 Yes, Julie. For once in your life. 207 00:26:24,333 --> 00:26:29,833 My god, we've never been to church on Christmas Eve before. What about Simon? 208 00:26:29,958 --> 00:26:33,917 - He's an atheist. You can't force him. - Atheist or not. 209 00:26:34,042 --> 00:26:37,250 Get out if you want dinner later. 210 00:26:37,375 --> 00:26:40,208 - Grandpa's waiting. - Okay. 211 00:26:46,750 --> 00:26:52,167 Am I speaking with the oncologist on duty? Yes, I'm a patient. 212 00:26:52,292 --> 00:26:54,875 Anja Richter. 213 00:26:59,667 --> 00:27:04,500 I'm afraid. My head feels like it's about to explode. 214 00:27:06,375 --> 00:27:09,542 No, I've never had anxiety like this. 215 00:27:12,625 --> 00:27:15,875 I'm nauseous absolutely all the time. 216 00:27:16,417 --> 00:27:19,833 I've got relentless stomach cramps. 217 00:27:20,917 --> 00:27:24,167 And I can't sleep at all. 218 00:27:26,458 --> 00:27:29,042 No, I don't want to go to hospital. 219 00:27:29,167 --> 00:27:32,958 But I don't know how long I can go on pretending. 220 00:27:33,083 --> 00:27:39,667 Is there anyone there in the meantime who can help me break it to the children? 221 00:27:39,792 --> 00:27:42,042 Yes? 222 00:28:01,333 --> 00:28:03,958 - How do you feel? - Blind. 223 00:28:17,292 --> 00:28:19,792 - You look nice. - Thanks. 224 00:28:41,458 --> 00:28:44,875 No, no, no. Put it away. 225 00:28:45,000 --> 00:28:49,250 Wait. Take the starters. It'll be ready in a moment. 226 00:28:49,375 --> 00:28:53,750 I just need a tiny piece of ham. It's just decor, right? 227 00:28:53,875 --> 00:28:57,542 - Dad? - Grandpa? 228 00:28:57,667 --> 00:29:02,000 - So tell me, how was church? - The sermon was ridiculous. 229 00:29:02,125 --> 00:29:05,375 So farfetched it was almost funny. 230 00:29:05,500 --> 00:29:11,250 - I just recruited an atheist! Any others? - Poor preacher. She was so nervous. 231 00:29:11,375 --> 00:29:15,167 No wonder, with that bowl haircut. 232 00:29:17,167 --> 00:29:22,125 - I don't think it'll become a tradition. - Probably not. 233 00:29:22,250 --> 00:29:25,333 Here's to Christmas... and Grandpa! 234 00:29:25,458 --> 00:29:28,583 Cheers! 235 00:29:28,708 --> 00:29:31,250 Merry Christmas! 236 00:29:33,500 --> 00:29:36,042 And here's to Anja. 237 00:29:38,292 --> 00:29:41,250 Back in great shape. Cheers. 238 00:29:42,125 --> 00:29:45,500 - Cheers! - Cheers, Mom! 239 00:29:55,750 --> 00:30:00,125 - We want everyone in the picture. - Make room for Grandpa. 240 00:30:01,708 --> 00:30:06,083 - Come here. - Mom will sit there. Just move over there. 241 00:30:07,083 --> 00:30:09,958 - Sit down as well, Tomas. - No. 242 00:30:10,083 --> 00:30:14,000 You sit in the middle. I'll take care of it. 243 00:30:14,125 --> 00:30:16,667 Sit in the middle. 244 00:30:18,917 --> 00:30:21,792 Looks great. Let me see... 245 00:30:22,875 --> 00:30:26,667 - A, F, E... - May I? 246 00:30:26,792 --> 00:30:31,000 - You sure are bossy, Martin. - True enough. 247 00:30:31,125 --> 00:30:34,250 Sit next to Anja, okay? 248 00:30:38,125 --> 00:30:40,375 Everyone ready? 249 00:30:41,667 --> 00:30:44,750 Five, four, two, three! 250 00:30:45,542 --> 00:30:48,167 One! 251 00:30:48,292 --> 00:30:50,375 Smile. 252 00:30:58,625 --> 00:31:02,417 Well, there's one last present. No card. 253 00:31:02,542 --> 00:31:04,708 It's for Mom. 254 00:31:08,833 --> 00:31:11,208 - Can I open it? - Sure. 255 00:31:24,708 --> 00:31:27,125 "India"? 256 00:31:32,417 --> 00:31:35,000 It says you're getting 257 00:31:35,125 --> 00:31:37,958 a trip to India. 258 00:31:38,083 --> 00:31:40,375 - From Dad. - Wow. 259 00:31:40,500 --> 00:31:45,167 - Haven't you always wanted to go there? - Yes. 260 00:31:45,292 --> 00:31:49,458 - Can I come with you? As your Sherpa? - Nice move, Erlend. 261 00:31:49,583 --> 00:31:52,083 So it'll be you and Mom? 262 00:31:52,208 --> 00:31:55,417 Are you going together, or...? 263 00:31:55,542 --> 00:31:58,417 Well, that's up to her. 264 00:31:58,542 --> 00:32:01,250 What's a Sherpa? 265 00:32:01,375 --> 00:32:04,000 It's like a tour guide. 266 00:32:06,833 --> 00:32:09,250 Are you coming? 267 00:32:15,583 --> 00:32:17,458 Dad? My turn. 268 00:32:17,583 --> 00:32:19,792 No, no, no! 269 00:32:26,000 --> 00:32:28,792 You're nuts! No! 270 00:32:28,917 --> 00:32:32,375 - Come on, Mom! - Mom, come! 271 00:32:32,500 --> 00:32:35,333 - No, Mom! - No! 272 00:32:38,292 --> 00:32:40,667 I'll throw up! 273 00:32:40,792 --> 00:32:44,542 - Hey, come on, Grandpa! - Nope. 274 00:33:01,042 --> 00:33:03,042 Here. 275 00:33:03,167 --> 00:33:06,333 Do you have everything you need? 276 00:33:06,458 --> 00:33:12,250 - Was your evening as good as mine? - It was a lovely Christmas Eve. 277 00:33:12,375 --> 00:33:15,667 - But... - Goodnight, Dad. 278 00:33:15,792 --> 00:33:18,917 Are the two of you struggling? 279 00:33:19,042 --> 00:33:23,750 I do wish that you and Tomas 280 00:33:23,875 --> 00:33:26,583 were happier together. 281 00:33:31,708 --> 00:33:35,958 We do what we like. What we do best. We work. 282 00:33:36,083 --> 00:33:38,625 At least I try to work. 283 00:33:40,042 --> 00:33:43,000 I guess we're as happy as we deserve. 284 00:33:43,125 --> 00:33:45,417 Well, Anja... 285 00:33:46,583 --> 00:33:51,625 You choose the life you get to a great degree. 286 00:33:57,125 --> 00:34:00,500 I'll never be able to go to India. 287 00:34:02,833 --> 00:34:05,583 You don't know that yet. 288 00:34:05,708 --> 00:34:08,833 I can't even read about India. 289 00:34:10,333 --> 00:34:12,750 I can read for you. 290 00:34:15,708 --> 00:34:18,375 I had this great-aunt. 291 00:34:20,375 --> 00:34:22,750 She used to tell her husband: 292 00:34:22,875 --> 00:34:27,250 "When one of us dies, I'm going to travel the world!" 293 00:34:37,750 --> 00:34:43,375 Have you never imagined I could die before you? 294 00:34:48,958 --> 00:34:51,083 Of course I have. 295 00:34:55,875 --> 00:34:59,250 Christmas Day 296 00:35:23,125 --> 00:35:27,250 Yes, I'm excited. It'll be fun. 297 00:35:28,958 --> 00:35:33,542 No, me first. It's my turn! 298 00:35:36,125 --> 00:35:38,792 Isak! Come in! Ready to party? 299 00:35:38,917 --> 00:35:42,667 Hi, Erlend. Hi, Leif Martin. 300 00:35:42,792 --> 00:35:47,083 We followed the sound of Christmas carols. 301 00:35:48,208 --> 00:35:50,417 Thanks. Hi. 302 00:35:50,542 --> 00:35:53,167 - Survived Christmas? - Yes. Did you? 303 00:35:53,292 --> 00:35:56,500 I'm okay, but Arthur and Christmas... 304 00:35:56,625 --> 00:35:59,333 I love Christmas. 305 00:35:59,458 --> 00:36:03,917 You can hang it there. Congratulations on the great reviews! 306 00:36:10,917 --> 00:36:14,667 We won't stay if it's too much for you. 307 00:36:14,792 --> 00:36:19,000 If it gets tough, we'll stick together. 308 00:36:19,125 --> 00:36:23,250 - Okay. Go on in. I need to take my Medrol. - Are you sure? 309 00:36:23,375 --> 00:36:26,458 Yes, I won't be long. 310 00:36:49,583 --> 00:36:51,958 They're dying of thirst. 311 00:36:54,542 --> 00:36:57,083 Did you see the doctor? 312 00:36:57,208 --> 00:37:01,625 - Should I be worried? Everything okay? - Yes. 313 00:37:01,750 --> 00:37:05,583 That's great. You see? Hey... 314 00:37:05,708 --> 00:37:08,458 Your father is so proud of you. 315 00:37:08,583 --> 00:37:12,792 Really. But you haven't told him anything about the show. 316 00:37:12,917 --> 00:37:18,417 Not Tomas either. I told him everything. About the festival invitations. 317 00:37:18,542 --> 00:37:24,708 The grant for the new project. They're so proud of you, both of them. 318 00:37:24,833 --> 00:37:27,917 Why haven't you told them? Huh? 319 00:37:32,167 --> 00:37:34,667 Thanks. 320 00:37:34,792 --> 00:37:37,792 - Come on. Vera's waiting. - I'm coming. 321 00:37:55,125 --> 00:37:58,333 - Anja! - Hi. 322 00:37:58,458 --> 00:38:03,125 Oh gosh. What is it about me that turns Pollock on? 323 00:38:03,250 --> 00:38:05,292 You're in heat. 324 00:38:05,417 --> 00:38:10,250 You're embarrassing me. Stop it! 325 00:38:10,375 --> 00:38:13,333 - How was Amsterdam? - Great. 326 00:38:13,458 --> 00:38:15,625 Let's go outside. Come. 327 00:38:24,917 --> 00:38:26,917 Oh my god! 328 00:38:27,042 --> 00:38:31,042 If only that mutt Pollock had been human, 329 00:38:31,167 --> 00:38:33,375 there'd be hope for me too. 330 00:38:33,500 --> 00:38:37,292 I can't find anyone who's single. 331 00:38:37,417 --> 00:38:41,417 They're either married, gay or minors. 332 00:38:43,625 --> 00:38:47,167 Enough about me. Tell me about Amsterdam. 333 00:38:51,500 --> 00:38:53,583 It's spread. 334 00:38:57,042 --> 00:38:59,583 To the brain. It's incurable. 335 00:39:03,208 --> 00:39:07,792 My doctor says I should pray for a miracle. No one survives. 336 00:39:10,458 --> 00:39:13,375 We'll know more in a couple of days. 337 00:39:17,417 --> 00:39:20,042 - Can't they do anything? - No. 338 00:39:24,125 --> 00:39:26,750 You sure? 339 00:39:26,875 --> 00:39:28,708 Pretty much. 340 00:39:28,833 --> 00:39:34,750 They just don't dare say so until all the specialists have examined the images. 341 00:39:49,417 --> 00:39:51,375 Jesus Christ. 342 00:39:51,500 --> 00:39:54,083 It's so unfair. 343 00:39:55,458 --> 00:39:58,583 If it had only... been me. 344 00:39:59,958 --> 00:40:02,333 Or Arthur or Tomas. 345 00:40:03,917 --> 00:40:06,500 I don't have kids. 346 00:40:08,583 --> 00:40:12,750 You've been alone with everything. Tomas, he... 347 00:40:14,750 --> 00:40:18,208 - The kids need you more than him. - Don't say that. 348 00:40:18,333 --> 00:40:22,333 - Just when it's your turn to... - Stop it, Vera. 349 00:40:38,917 --> 00:40:41,333 What can I do? 350 00:40:42,708 --> 00:40:45,750 For you? For all of you? 351 00:40:51,458 --> 00:40:53,833 I don't know. 352 00:40:53,958 --> 00:40:57,417 I don't even know how to tell the kids. 353 00:41:00,333 --> 00:41:03,083 Only you and Tomas know. 354 00:41:03,208 --> 00:41:07,542 What does he say? How's he taking it? 355 00:41:08,917 --> 00:41:10,750 I don't know. 356 00:41:16,167 --> 00:41:18,875 I haven't asked. 357 00:41:29,833 --> 00:41:34,083 I thought it was supposed to be a secret? 358 00:41:35,333 --> 00:41:38,125 Does Arthur know as well? 359 00:41:39,833 --> 00:41:41,667 No. 360 00:41:41,792 --> 00:41:45,333 It isn't always easy to help you, Anja. 361 00:44:10,958 --> 00:44:13,000 Anja... 362 00:44:14,083 --> 00:44:16,083 Anja. 363 00:44:16,208 --> 00:44:19,917 Anja! Anja! 364 00:44:20,042 --> 00:44:22,083 Anja! 365 00:44:49,708 --> 00:44:51,792 There. 366 00:44:59,625 --> 00:45:03,500 Second day of Christmas 367 00:45:04,708 --> 00:45:08,417 - Thanks for now. - Let me take your suitcase. 368 00:45:08,542 --> 00:45:10,792 I can cope. 369 00:45:11,875 --> 00:45:15,958 I'm no use if I can't even carry my own suitcase. 370 00:45:16,083 --> 00:45:18,167 No. 371 00:45:31,125 --> 00:45:36,833 - Thanks. I'm going to the airport express. - I'll get the door for you. 372 00:45:36,958 --> 00:45:39,667 - Have a nice trip! - Thank you. 373 00:46:08,167 --> 00:46:10,708 What are you doing? 374 00:46:12,458 --> 00:46:17,833 - Are the boys asleep? - Yes, in front of a bad Christmas movie. 375 00:46:22,875 --> 00:46:25,083 You can go to bed. 376 00:46:25,208 --> 00:46:28,250 I'll stay up until Julie comes home. 377 00:46:29,250 --> 00:46:33,167 No, I can't sleep anyway. I can stay up. 378 00:46:34,250 --> 00:46:37,125 Oh, I hate Medrol! 379 00:46:37,250 --> 00:46:41,333 I feel so high. Like I'll never come back down. 380 00:46:50,042 --> 00:46:53,208 - It's so weird. - What is? 381 00:46:53,333 --> 00:46:57,083 Before, if I tried to describe my life... 382 00:46:58,583 --> 00:47:02,792 My memories were never in the right order, like... 383 00:47:02,917 --> 00:47:08,875 They were always tied to places I'd lived, boyfriends I'd had, dance projects, 384 00:47:09,000 --> 00:47:12,250 journeys, childbirths, deaths. 385 00:47:16,208 --> 00:47:19,167 But I never remembered what the years were. 386 00:47:19,292 --> 00:47:23,250 But now, when I see the end... 387 00:47:23,375 --> 00:47:26,792 My life's laid out in chronological order. 388 00:47:28,708 --> 00:47:31,000 Almost like... 389 00:47:31,125 --> 00:47:36,833 A PowerPoint presentation with a graphic timeline. 390 00:47:36,958 --> 00:47:40,292 Where the middle of my life is like... 391 00:47:40,417 --> 00:47:46,000 It looks like this thick gray graph 392 00:47:46,125 --> 00:47:48,708 of postpartum apathy. 393 00:47:55,333 --> 00:47:59,125 So how do I feature in the graphics? 394 00:48:01,125 --> 00:48:04,667 - Like a dot? - No. 395 00:48:06,583 --> 00:48:09,292 Like many dots. 396 00:48:09,417 --> 00:48:12,250 Coming and going on the timeline. 397 00:48:16,833 --> 00:48:19,625 Right. Uplifting. 398 00:48:24,167 --> 00:48:27,667 Julie? Hi. 399 00:48:27,792 --> 00:48:29,708 Hi. 400 00:48:30,458 --> 00:48:33,125 Are you okay? 401 00:48:33,250 --> 00:48:35,250 Sure. 402 00:48:35,375 --> 00:48:38,125 What are you doing here? 403 00:48:40,917 --> 00:48:46,417 Hi. Why are you home so early? Wasn't it any fun? 404 00:48:46,542 --> 00:48:50,083 Oh, sure. It was fun. 405 00:48:52,833 --> 00:48:55,583 I really have to pee. 406 00:49:07,875 --> 00:49:11,125 - It's not the first time. - Oh, hush. 407 00:49:11,250 --> 00:49:13,708 She's adventurous. 408 00:49:14,958 --> 00:49:17,625 Lusts for life. Like you. 409 00:49:20,000 --> 00:49:23,417 She's got you under her thumb. 410 00:49:23,542 --> 00:49:25,542 Yes. 411 00:49:26,667 --> 00:49:29,833 Promise me you'll take good care of her. 412 00:49:33,208 --> 00:49:35,167 I will. 413 00:49:35,292 --> 00:49:37,458 December 27 414 00:49:37,583 --> 00:49:40,625 I'll be there as soon as I can. Okay, bye. 415 00:49:40,750 --> 00:49:43,417 - Yes? - The images from Aleris. 416 00:49:43,542 --> 00:49:48,208 Thank you. The team will review them tomorrow morning. 417 00:49:48,333 --> 00:49:54,708 We need some advice about what to tell the children. We need to prepare them. 418 00:49:54,833 --> 00:49:59,167 Yes, it says so in your medical record. It's not a good time. 419 00:49:59,292 --> 00:50:03,042 The specialist nurse won't be back until January. 420 00:50:03,167 --> 00:50:06,083 Titles aren't that important. 421 00:50:08,208 --> 00:50:13,125 Yes? I'm on my way. I see. Like I said, I'm sorry. 422 00:50:13,250 --> 00:50:17,958 - Is there no one here with experience? - Not during the holidays. 423 00:50:18,083 --> 00:50:22,708 Don't people die during the holidays? Do you ask them to wait? 424 00:50:22,833 --> 00:50:27,625 I'm sure you see the challenge, with so many children involved. 425 00:50:27,750 --> 00:50:32,667 Not getting any certainty, no help. Someone must be qualified. 426 00:50:32,792 --> 00:50:36,625 - Not like that. We're specialized. - But you are human? 427 00:50:36,750 --> 00:50:40,625 Don't you have any experience with next of kin? 428 00:50:40,750 --> 00:50:45,250 I realize this is difficult. We've made out a prescription 429 00:50:45,375 --> 00:50:48,542 for sleeping pills and a sedative. 430 00:50:48,667 --> 00:50:52,375 It'll help you relax. Okay? I'm sorry. 431 00:51:00,500 --> 00:51:06,208 Hi. Welcome to Hospice Lovisenberg. My name is Bente, I'm a nurse. 432 00:51:06,333 --> 00:51:10,458 - Hi. - Hi. Welcome. Let's go in there. 433 00:51:17,375 --> 00:51:22,000 Well, my advice is to not shield the children from the truth. 434 00:51:22,125 --> 00:51:27,583 But try to convey it to them according to their age and maturity. 435 00:51:27,708 --> 00:51:33,167 Your children won't be as vulnerable as the children you have together. 436 00:51:33,292 --> 00:51:36,458 Because they'll still have a mother. 437 00:51:36,583 --> 00:51:41,167 Anja has taken responsibility for my three oldest children too. 438 00:51:41,292 --> 00:51:44,667 She's a key part of their lives, it's... 439 00:51:44,792 --> 00:51:50,042 Tomas. That's not how it works. The youngest kids will lose their mother. 440 00:51:50,167 --> 00:51:55,000 They're all I think about and care about protecting right now. 441 00:51:55,125 --> 00:52:00,792 You always expected me to feel and act the same way to your kids as to our kids. 442 00:52:00,917 --> 00:52:05,500 Not just treat them equally, but feel equally about all of them. 443 00:52:05,625 --> 00:52:11,500 I always thought it was the natural thing, that I was unnatural and heartless. 444 00:52:11,625 --> 00:52:16,083 It's never been clearer to me how misguided I was. 445 00:52:16,208 --> 00:52:19,042 I've always loved my own more. 446 00:52:58,458 --> 00:53:02,750 It's like we're at work together. In a whole new field. 447 00:53:05,750 --> 00:53:10,958 - This doesn't look like a hospital. - That's what you said last Christmas. 448 00:53:11,083 --> 00:53:17,042 I often say you should give children 10 % more hope than you have yourself. 449 00:53:18,083 --> 00:53:23,875 Not matter what age, you should never take their hope away. 450 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:28,750 - But I haven't been given any hope. - We don't know that for sure. 451 00:53:28,875 --> 00:53:32,083 They say it's probably a metastatic tumor. 452 00:53:32,208 --> 00:53:36,125 It's incurable, but they hope it's operable. 453 00:53:36,250 --> 00:53:38,333 Okay. Good. 454 00:53:38,458 --> 00:53:43,917 And they have highly competent neurosurgeons at Ullevål. 455 00:53:44,042 --> 00:53:49,042 And all statistics should be read with caution. 456 00:53:49,167 --> 00:53:50,875 Meaning? 457 00:53:51,000 --> 00:53:54,542 A patient with lung cancer and brain metastasis 458 00:53:54,667 --> 00:53:59,333 has little chance of survival in statistical terms. 459 00:53:59,458 --> 00:54:03,708 But in my three decades in the field, I've seen patients 460 00:54:03,833 --> 00:54:07,458 who have survived brain metastases. 461 00:54:07,583 --> 00:54:12,625 They're just too few to show up in the cancer statistics. 462 00:54:12,750 --> 00:54:15,333 How many? 463 00:54:16,167 --> 00:54:19,208 I can count them on one hand. 464 00:54:31,250 --> 00:54:34,333 Can I really just call him at home? 465 00:54:36,333 --> 00:54:39,958 Wouldn't I be jumping in line? 466 00:54:41,500 --> 00:54:45,333 This isn't a good time to be politically correct. 467 00:54:53,375 --> 00:54:56,708 - Do you want me to call him? - No. 468 00:54:56,833 --> 00:54:59,667 That wouldn't be right. 469 00:54:59,792 --> 00:55:02,458 I've made a few calls, asked around. 470 00:55:02,583 --> 00:55:08,125 He's said to be the best neurosurgeon, not just at Ullevål, but in Norway. 471 00:55:14,042 --> 00:55:17,750 - Okay, I'll do it. But I want to be alone. - Okay. 472 00:55:17,875 --> 00:55:20,375 I'll wait outside. 473 00:55:20,500 --> 00:55:23,083 Can I borrow your eyes first? 474 00:55:33,375 --> 00:55:35,333 Good luck. 475 00:55:48,208 --> 00:55:50,917 Hi. 476 00:55:51,042 --> 00:55:55,875 You don't know who I am. My name is Anja Richter. 477 00:55:57,000 --> 00:55:59,667 Am I interrupting anything? 478 00:55:59,792 --> 00:56:02,250 Right. Okay. 479 00:56:02,375 --> 00:56:05,917 I'm a patient at Ullevål in a difficult situation. 480 00:56:33,875 --> 00:56:39,167 He was at a Christmas party, but will perform the surgery if it's possible. 481 00:56:57,708 --> 00:57:00,833 I mean it. That's enough. 482 00:57:02,750 --> 00:57:05,250 There. Stay down. 483 00:57:08,375 --> 00:57:10,583 They're waiting for us. 484 00:57:11,833 --> 00:57:15,750 Dad, Mom's tired of us always being late, and... 485 00:57:15,875 --> 00:57:19,625 Everyone has to be here. Just tell her 486 00:57:19,750 --> 00:57:22,917 that it's a family crisis. 487 00:57:27,042 --> 00:57:30,583 - You're breaking up? - No. 488 00:57:31,625 --> 00:57:34,750 No, Ada. We're not breaking up. 489 00:57:52,583 --> 00:57:55,625 - Who should start? - I'll do it. 490 00:57:55,750 --> 00:57:57,833 Okay. 491 00:57:59,167 --> 00:58:01,250 Good. 492 00:58:10,417 --> 00:58:12,833 Gather around the couch. 493 00:58:23,667 --> 00:58:26,250 Right, Anja... 494 00:58:27,667 --> 00:58:32,208 - Are we having a family council? - Sort of. 495 00:58:36,625 --> 00:58:42,458 I've been informed that I have a tumor in my brain. 496 00:58:45,458 --> 00:58:50,000 It's most likely spread from my lungs. 497 00:58:52,958 --> 00:58:59,167 The good news is that the tumor is seated where they think it might be operable. 498 00:59:02,792 --> 00:59:06,542 Well, they say it's serious, but... 499 00:59:06,667 --> 00:59:10,167 We still don't know what the outcome will be. 500 00:59:10,292 --> 00:59:14,292 We'll find out more at the hospital tomorrow. 501 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:23,250 They're going to operate on your head? 502 00:59:30,042 --> 00:59:32,875 Inside your brain? 503 00:59:33,000 --> 00:59:35,833 Yes, maybe. 504 00:59:35,958 --> 00:59:42,542 The good news is that if they do operate, I'll have the best surgeon in the country. 505 00:59:45,167 --> 00:59:47,542 But... 506 00:59:47,667 --> 00:59:52,083 Last Christmas you told us that everything would be okay. 507 00:59:54,042 --> 00:59:57,500 Everyone thought so. The doctors as well. 508 00:59:57,625 --> 01:00:01,250 But despite that, this happened. 509 01:00:02,417 --> 01:00:07,917 We spoke to a doctor today who knew of several similar cases 510 01:00:08,042 --> 01:00:10,833 that had gone well. 511 01:00:10,958 --> 01:00:14,708 - Were there many? - Quite a few. 512 01:00:22,125 --> 01:00:24,833 The milk. 513 01:00:56,708 --> 01:00:59,583 - Bye. - Goodbye. 514 01:01:01,917 --> 01:01:04,000 Bye. 515 01:01:42,667 --> 01:01:45,083 I'm sorry. 516 01:01:47,333 --> 01:01:49,667 Sorry for what? 517 01:01:51,292 --> 01:01:53,792 Sorry for being so mean. 518 01:01:56,500 --> 01:01:59,875 You have nothing to apologize for. 519 01:02:01,167 --> 01:02:04,000 - I do. - No. 520 01:02:08,875 --> 01:02:10,958 Sure? 521 01:02:12,250 --> 01:02:14,625 Absolutely sure. 522 01:02:26,250 --> 01:02:30,208 - I'll never forgive myself. - For what? 523 01:02:31,583 --> 01:02:35,167 - For being a smoker. - Don't say that. 524 01:02:38,375 --> 01:02:41,417 No one knows that that's the reason. 525 01:02:41,542 --> 01:02:45,750 - But I know. - Stop torturing yourself. 526 01:02:51,583 --> 01:02:54,042 What are you taking? 527 01:02:55,458 --> 01:02:58,958 Vival and Imovane... 528 01:03:05,208 --> 01:03:08,583 December 28 529 01:03:08,708 --> 01:03:13,583 I brought some extra clothes just in case. 530 01:03:13,708 --> 01:03:18,375 And some proper coffee. I don't really like that instant stuff. 531 01:03:18,500 --> 01:03:22,583 - Where are the kids? - They're still sleeping. 532 01:03:42,208 --> 01:03:47,458 - Nothing eases the nausea except food. - It's the medication, steroids. 533 01:03:47,583 --> 01:03:52,333 - The same stuff they give to anorectics. - How do you know? 534 01:03:52,458 --> 01:03:55,667 My new online friend, PubMed.com. 535 01:03:55,792 --> 01:03:58,375 Good morning. 536 01:03:58,500 --> 01:04:00,458 Hi. 537 01:04:01,458 --> 01:04:03,792 Good morning. 538 01:04:07,083 --> 01:04:09,458 Good morning. 539 01:04:09,583 --> 01:04:14,333 We're going to the hospital. Vera will stay here with you. 540 01:04:15,208 --> 01:04:18,083 Hi. Good morning. 541 01:04:30,042 --> 01:04:32,250 Knut Åsdam? 542 01:04:36,750 --> 01:04:40,708 Hi. I'm Dr. Thea Falkentorp. Please come with me. 543 01:04:50,583 --> 01:04:55,875 I realize that you're anxious, so I'll get straight to the point. 544 01:04:56,000 --> 01:05:02,583 The specialists have held a meeting and studied your MRI images. 545 01:05:02,708 --> 01:05:09,542 We've given your brain surgery top priority and scheduled it on 2 January. 546 01:05:09,667 --> 01:05:12,500 In five days. 547 01:05:12,625 --> 01:05:17,042 I understand you've contacted a surgeon here at the hospital, 548 01:05:17,167 --> 01:05:20,875 and that he's agreed to perform the surgery. 549 01:05:24,250 --> 01:05:28,292 The images also show that the tumor 550 01:05:28,417 --> 01:05:33,083 is a metastasis from the lungs. 551 01:05:34,167 --> 01:05:36,917 That makes it incurable. 552 01:05:49,292 --> 01:05:52,417 So how much time do I have left? 553 01:05:53,875 --> 01:05:59,458 It's very hard to determine. Cancer is like peeling an onion. 554 01:05:59,583 --> 01:06:01,667 - An onion? - Yes. 555 01:06:01,792 --> 01:06:07,625 The picture is complicated. It depends on the outcome of the surgery. 556 01:06:07,750 --> 01:06:11,167 The result of the CAT scan of your lungs today 557 01:06:11,292 --> 01:06:16,542 will reveal whether it's spread to other organs in the body. 558 01:06:16,667 --> 01:06:20,792 They'll determine your treatment moving forward. 559 01:06:23,667 --> 01:06:28,167 Could you be more specific? This isn't just about me. 560 01:06:29,792 --> 01:06:32,750 I need to... 561 01:06:32,875 --> 01:06:38,750 I need to know the worst possible outcome to find out how to prepare the children. 562 01:06:39,875 --> 01:06:42,042 Anja... 563 01:06:42,167 --> 01:06:45,625 All cancer patients are different. 564 01:06:45,750 --> 01:06:51,625 There are some who refuse to face reality. It's too exhausting. 565 01:06:51,750 --> 01:06:56,375 Fine, but I want to know. How much time do I have left? 566 01:06:59,292 --> 01:07:03,083 In the worst case, I'd say three months. 567 01:07:03,208 --> 01:07:07,917 But we hope the operation will give you more than that. 568 01:07:17,250 --> 01:07:20,250 Is the operation itself dangerous? 569 01:07:20,375 --> 01:07:25,250 All operations involve a certain risk, brain surgery in particular. 570 01:07:25,375 --> 01:07:30,167 The surgeon is more qualified to answer that question. 571 01:07:34,708 --> 01:07:38,208 Can you get married before the surgery? 572 01:07:40,792 --> 01:07:43,083 Married? Well, yes. 573 01:07:43,208 --> 01:07:49,042 We do have a hospital chaplain who can perform weddings. 574 01:07:49,167 --> 01:07:54,417 Normally, with all the paperwork, I'm not sure it would be possible. 575 01:07:54,542 --> 01:07:57,458 But there's room for exceptions. 576 01:08:01,833 --> 01:08:04,625 Was that a proposal? 577 01:08:09,083 --> 01:08:12,583 I don't understand why you want to do it now. 578 01:08:12,708 --> 01:08:15,417 I thought you wanted to. 579 01:08:15,542 --> 01:08:18,667 Years ago, sure. But why now? 580 01:08:25,458 --> 01:08:27,667 It just feels... 581 01:08:28,750 --> 01:08:32,167 Like signing a death warrant. 582 01:08:36,000 --> 01:08:40,625 Otherwise we could have waited until after the operation. 583 01:08:42,792 --> 01:08:47,542 It just feels right. It's the only thing that feels right. 584 01:08:52,125 --> 01:08:54,875 If we're going to get married... 585 01:08:55,000 --> 01:08:58,208 We both have to love each other. 586 01:09:14,125 --> 01:09:16,875 The dentist. 587 01:09:18,667 --> 01:09:21,292 Hello? 588 01:09:22,750 --> 01:09:25,000 Right. 589 01:09:25,125 --> 01:09:29,042 No, I don't need an appointment. My teeth don't matter. 590 01:09:29,167 --> 01:09:31,708 I have terminal cancer. 591 01:09:31,833 --> 01:09:35,417 You can just delete me from your list. 592 01:09:41,708 --> 01:09:43,708 Breathe in. 593 01:09:43,833 --> 01:09:46,458 Hold your breath. 594 01:09:48,125 --> 01:09:50,042 Breathe normally. 595 01:09:50,958 --> 01:09:55,958 - Can you breathe? - It's like a burning claw around my chest. 596 01:09:56,083 --> 01:09:59,667 Try to breathe calmly and deeply. 597 01:09:59,792 --> 01:10:03,208 Breathe with your belly. 598 01:10:03,333 --> 01:10:07,125 Are you more relaxed now? Breathe with your belly. 599 01:10:08,750 --> 01:10:13,208 It'll be fine. You can do it. You'll get the answers you need. 600 01:10:13,333 --> 01:10:17,375 We'll roll you in and start. 601 01:10:27,333 --> 01:10:29,750 I don't know. 602 01:10:29,875 --> 01:10:36,292 I don't know what's the medication, what's her fear of dying, and what's just Anja. 603 01:10:36,417 --> 01:10:41,000 She's so volatile and intense. 604 01:10:41,125 --> 01:10:46,958 As if she didn't have enough energy to begin with. I don't know. 605 01:10:48,458 --> 01:10:52,292 Yes, she's here now. I have to go. 606 01:10:52,417 --> 01:10:54,958 I will. Bye. 607 01:10:57,042 --> 01:10:59,167 How did it go? 608 01:11:01,417 --> 01:11:04,583 Not too good? 609 01:11:04,708 --> 01:11:06,625 Who was that? 610 01:11:06,750 --> 01:11:11,167 I'm calling friends and family. Like we agreed. 611 01:11:11,292 --> 01:11:13,375 That was Frans. 612 01:11:15,208 --> 01:11:18,042 What about Dad? 613 01:11:18,167 --> 01:11:22,417 He's the only one I think you have to call yourself. 614 01:11:22,542 --> 01:11:24,625 I can't do it. 615 01:11:26,333 --> 01:11:28,708 Okay. 616 01:11:28,833 --> 01:11:31,625 What are people saying? 617 01:11:32,625 --> 01:11:36,208 Well, that they don't know what to say. 618 01:11:36,333 --> 01:11:39,625 They feel sorry for you and the kids. 619 01:11:40,250 --> 01:11:43,625 Frans told me to say he's thinking of you. 620 01:11:44,625 --> 01:11:49,542 - Was that all he had to say? - No. 621 01:11:49,667 --> 01:11:55,875 He said he's sorry for me too, having to take care of all the kids alone. 622 01:12:38,792 --> 01:12:40,917 It wasn't a problem. 623 01:12:41,042 --> 01:12:45,083 I managed to postpone the production indefinitely. 624 01:12:47,208 --> 01:12:49,500 Hey... 625 01:12:49,625 --> 01:12:53,542 I need to know. Have you been faithful? 626 01:12:56,750 --> 01:13:01,500 I'd like to know if there have been others while we have... 627 01:13:01,625 --> 01:13:06,000 It wouldn't be a big deal, so don't be afraid to tell me. 628 01:13:08,667 --> 01:13:12,667 Think of it as my last wish. A truthful exchange. 629 01:13:12,792 --> 01:13:16,542 - Is this a good idea? - Does it have to be? 630 01:13:25,542 --> 01:13:28,250 I had a flirt. A fling. 631 01:13:28,375 --> 01:13:31,375 Completely idiotic and meaningless. 632 01:13:31,500 --> 01:13:35,833 Quickly done and quickly forgotten. Many years ago. 633 01:13:35,958 --> 01:13:38,458 During a job in Germany. 634 01:13:41,958 --> 01:13:44,042 I remember. 635 01:13:45,792 --> 01:13:49,208 Your fling sent you a present, right? 636 01:13:50,375 --> 01:13:55,000 The ugliest leather jacket ever. 637 01:13:55,125 --> 01:13:57,542 Stone-washed. 638 01:13:57,667 --> 01:14:00,208 She'd designed it herself. 639 01:14:03,500 --> 01:14:06,167 I didn't know you knew. 640 01:14:06,292 --> 01:14:09,708 The funny thing was, I wasn't jealous at all. 641 01:14:10,625 --> 01:14:15,042 I was immersed in Julie, my baby. 642 01:14:17,583 --> 01:14:21,042 But what really drove me crazy with jealously, 643 01:14:21,167 --> 01:14:26,792 was your work and your endless need for acknowledgement. 644 01:14:26,917 --> 01:14:30,125 It's been my greatest rival. 645 01:14:30,250 --> 01:14:37,000 I thought it was unfair you got to work so much, kept producing all the time. 646 01:14:38,958 --> 01:14:41,542 But it's no longer important. 647 01:14:44,917 --> 01:14:47,000 Any more? 648 01:14:47,125 --> 01:14:50,042 - Anything else to confess? - No. 649 01:14:52,417 --> 01:14:55,042 Aren't you curious about me? 650 01:15:05,000 --> 01:15:08,083 I'm not sure I want to know. 651 01:15:09,167 --> 01:15:11,583 You can relax. 652 01:15:11,708 --> 01:15:15,292 I've been so faithful it's ridiculous. 653 01:15:15,417 --> 01:15:18,500 All I've kissed is our kids' necks. 654 01:15:22,000 --> 01:15:25,625 But I've seen something much more dangerous. 655 01:15:25,750 --> 01:15:28,542 I fell truly in love. 656 01:15:30,083 --> 01:15:34,458 If I'd followed my heart, I wouldn't have been here now. 657 01:15:42,167 --> 01:15:44,583 Do you regret it? 658 01:15:47,083 --> 01:15:48,667 No. 659 01:15:48,792 --> 01:15:51,708 He wouldn't have been worth it. 660 01:15:56,500 --> 01:15:59,417 Should we get home to the kids? 661 01:16:01,000 --> 01:16:03,083 Yes. 662 01:16:05,625 --> 01:16:08,042 One more thing. 663 01:16:09,125 --> 01:16:13,458 I take back what I said about you finding someone else. 664 01:16:30,917 --> 01:16:33,208 Hello! 665 01:16:33,333 --> 01:16:36,125 Hi. Sorry we're late. 666 01:16:37,833 --> 01:16:43,083 - Help yourselves to some pasta. - It was delicious. 667 01:16:44,167 --> 01:16:46,458 - Really. - Thanks. 668 01:16:51,167 --> 01:16:53,250 How did it go? 669 01:16:54,333 --> 01:16:56,792 We're getting married. 670 01:16:59,083 --> 01:17:01,167 What happened? 671 01:17:02,250 --> 01:17:06,333 Anja is going to have the tumor removed on 2 January. 672 01:17:06,458 --> 01:17:09,375 We have to do it before that. 673 01:17:09,500 --> 01:17:11,625 When? 674 01:17:11,750 --> 01:17:15,250 - New Year's Eve. - Right. 675 01:17:17,667 --> 01:17:20,167 In three days? 676 01:17:20,292 --> 01:17:23,542 But that's your birthday, Mom. 677 01:17:23,625 --> 01:17:28,208 So it's your birthday, wedding and New Year's Eve all in one? 678 01:17:28,833 --> 01:17:31,417 - That'll be great. - But... 679 01:17:31,542 --> 01:17:34,250 Where will you get married? 680 01:17:34,375 --> 01:17:37,000 We have a hospital chaplain. 681 01:17:37,125 --> 01:17:42,167 But we're not sure whether we can find a church on such short notice. 682 01:17:42,292 --> 01:17:47,542 - Do you have to get married in church? - Either that, or the hospital chapel. 683 01:17:47,667 --> 01:17:52,542 It has to be done by a hospital chaplain to cut through the red tape. 684 01:17:52,667 --> 01:17:56,375 We're not getting married in a hospital. 685 01:17:56,500 --> 01:18:00,208 - No. - But we're going to have a party? 686 01:18:00,333 --> 01:18:02,708 Of course we'll have a party. 687 01:18:02,833 --> 01:18:07,708 - I don't think we'll be that many. - Just your hundred closest friends. 688 01:18:07,833 --> 01:18:10,125 I know how to party. 689 01:18:10,250 --> 01:18:14,375 But I'm not a great organizer, so we'll need help. 690 01:18:14,500 --> 01:18:18,042 December 29 691 01:18:24,667 --> 01:18:26,792 Hi. 692 01:18:29,583 --> 01:18:32,500 - You didn't get any sleep. - No. 693 01:18:33,792 --> 01:18:35,875 Tomas! 694 01:18:38,917 --> 01:18:43,042 We're meeting a researcher at the Radium Hospital. 695 01:18:43,167 --> 01:18:48,208 He's only given us 20 min. Tomas has googled treatments in the US. 696 01:18:48,333 --> 01:18:52,667 We need to know what the researcher thinks. Tomas! 697 01:18:52,792 --> 01:18:56,000 He's so slow it drives me crazy. 698 01:18:59,042 --> 01:19:03,792 Are you sure this isn't too much for you? I mean... 699 01:19:03,917 --> 01:19:08,417 Do you have to get married now? Just before the operation? 700 01:19:09,625 --> 01:19:12,375 When should I otherwise do it? 701 01:19:12,500 --> 01:19:17,083 What do you think? With my wedding and birthday on the same day, 702 01:19:17,208 --> 01:19:20,875 you'll only have to remember me once a year. 703 01:19:22,208 --> 01:19:25,250 And you'll get fireworks too. 704 01:19:36,333 --> 01:19:38,417 We have to leave. 705 01:19:57,333 --> 01:20:00,167 We're fifteen minutes early. 706 01:20:12,250 --> 01:20:17,042 I have to admit that you're an interesting case, with complex issues. 707 01:20:17,167 --> 01:20:21,542 Whether and how to treat someone with your diagnosis. 708 01:20:21,667 --> 01:20:26,125 Most lung cancer patients these days are truck drivers. 709 01:20:26,250 --> 01:20:30,292 Except for the odd trial lawyer, right? 710 01:20:30,417 --> 01:20:35,292 Let's sit down over there. It's too far to go back to my office. 711 01:20:37,708 --> 01:20:42,167 As I'm sure you already know, there's no cure in your case. 712 01:20:42,833 --> 01:20:47,208 All we know for sure is that you will die from this cancer. 713 01:20:47,333 --> 01:20:52,292 My advice is not to waste time searching for miracle cures abroad. 714 01:20:52,417 --> 01:20:57,292 They don't exist. Or alternative treatment with no proven effect. 715 01:20:57,417 --> 01:21:02,458 Or brutal life-extending treatment that will reduce the quality 716 01:21:02,583 --> 01:21:05,042 of the life you have left. 717 01:21:05,167 --> 01:21:09,042 I think all my international colleagues would agree. 718 01:21:13,708 --> 01:21:16,875 What would you have done if it were you? 719 01:21:19,875 --> 01:21:24,708 I guess it's easy to say when you're not in this situation. 720 01:21:24,833 --> 01:21:29,125 I don't think I'd put up a fight. I'd try to enjoy life, 721 01:21:29,250 --> 01:21:32,167 with wine, good food. 722 01:21:32,292 --> 01:21:37,958 Be with my family. The children, the four weeks or so that are left. 723 01:21:38,083 --> 01:21:44,875 Instead of four months alone in painful life-extending treatment at a US hospital. 724 01:21:45,000 --> 01:21:47,958 That's what I'd do. 725 01:21:55,083 --> 01:21:57,833 That was a pretty clear message. 726 01:21:57,958 --> 01:22:01,375 No use searching for a miracle cure. 727 01:22:02,167 --> 01:22:06,292 You didn't have to ask that fool what he would've done. 728 01:22:12,000 --> 01:22:17,500 - You wanted to know everything. - You're not dying. You don't get to ask. 729 01:22:26,250 --> 01:22:28,417 This one's available. 730 01:22:31,292 --> 01:22:35,917 We've actually proposed to each other several times. 731 01:22:36,917 --> 01:22:41,833 But Tomas was still married the first time. Then he got separated. 732 01:22:41,958 --> 01:22:46,167 We wanted to have children. Then we moved. 733 01:22:46,292 --> 01:22:48,917 And had more children. 734 01:22:49,042 --> 01:22:54,125 And work, lots of work. And sick parents. 735 01:22:55,208 --> 01:22:59,917 Then there was a time when we both wanted to get married. 736 01:23:00,042 --> 01:23:05,208 But Tomas wanted a big wedding, and I wanted a small one. 737 01:23:05,333 --> 01:23:11,583 So we never managed to agree. Or rather, we did set a date many years ago. 738 01:23:11,708 --> 01:23:15,083 Then Tomas got a job on some project. 739 01:23:16,792 --> 01:23:20,083 Well, I can't remember. 740 01:23:20,208 --> 01:23:26,042 There's always been something. Someone's needs always got in the way. 741 01:23:26,167 --> 01:23:32,125 Before everything turned sour, and we no longer knew if we wanted each other. 742 01:23:32,250 --> 01:23:37,917 But we decided to try a little longer. That was last Christmas. Then I fell ill. 743 01:23:38,042 --> 01:23:41,917 Then I recovered, then relapsed. And here we are. 744 01:23:50,667 --> 01:23:56,250 - Could we get married in church? - On New Year's Eve? That won't be easy. 745 01:23:56,375 --> 01:24:01,083 Because I don't think Anja wants to get married in a hospital. 746 01:24:01,208 --> 01:24:03,833 Maybe we could find a chapel? 747 01:24:03,958 --> 01:24:07,792 We won't be that many. Maybe thirty people. 748 01:24:07,917 --> 01:24:13,000 I'll try to pull some strings. But I can't promise anything. 749 01:24:13,125 --> 01:24:16,458 I'll get back to you when I know more. 750 01:24:16,583 --> 01:24:20,708 - I'll call you as soon as I can. - Thank you. 751 01:24:30,667 --> 01:24:36,125 How crazy was that? He didn't ask one single question about who we are. 752 01:24:36,250 --> 01:24:39,500 Maybe he didn't get the chance. 753 01:24:41,667 --> 01:24:47,167 He doesn't need to know all the details of our lives to perform a wedding ceremony. 754 01:24:47,292 --> 01:24:50,667 - Details? - Maybe it doesn't matter. 755 01:24:52,458 --> 01:24:56,708 I think you describe us in a shabby way. 756 01:24:56,833 --> 01:25:02,958 You paint our life like a complete grind. That's not how I remember it. 757 01:25:05,500 --> 01:25:08,208 Then how do you remember it? 758 01:25:08,333 --> 01:25:12,625 I don't know what you see, Tomas. Give me some new images. 759 01:25:14,667 --> 01:25:19,333 - Don't do this to us. - We haven't lived the same life. 760 01:25:19,458 --> 01:25:22,875 Life's not... It's not perfect. 761 01:25:29,958 --> 01:25:35,500 All the times you talked about leaving. But I never wanted to leave you. 762 01:25:35,625 --> 01:25:39,458 It's not easy being where you are now. 763 01:25:39,583 --> 01:25:42,583 But right now you're just ruthless. 764 01:26:01,208 --> 01:26:04,583 December 30 765 01:26:05,125 --> 01:26:07,375 - Pancake? - Yes please. 766 01:26:10,250 --> 01:26:13,625 - That's your third one. - No, it's my second. 767 01:26:13,750 --> 01:26:17,250 - Are you sure? - I had one, then this one. 768 01:26:17,375 --> 01:26:20,292 Relax, I'll make some more. 769 01:26:26,500 --> 01:26:30,208 Vera? Would you be my maid of honor, with Arthur? 770 01:26:33,458 --> 01:26:35,667 I'd love to. 771 01:26:40,292 --> 01:26:43,500 But what do I have to do? 772 01:26:45,042 --> 01:26:48,000 Walk behind you and hold your veil? 773 01:26:49,625 --> 01:26:51,708 I wouldn't know. 774 01:27:00,292 --> 01:27:02,958 But you'll wear a white dress? 775 01:27:08,500 --> 01:27:10,333 Good. 776 01:27:28,333 --> 01:27:32,792 This is what it looks like, the key to the house of God. 777 01:27:46,125 --> 01:27:48,458 What do you think? 778 01:27:48,583 --> 01:27:51,000 It's freezing cold in here. 779 01:27:51,125 --> 01:27:53,458 Too big. Lacks soul. 780 01:27:56,000 --> 01:27:58,500 It's all that's on offer. 781 01:28:00,042 --> 01:28:03,542 I'd rather get married outside in the cemetery. 782 01:28:06,000 --> 01:28:12,250 It's simpler than it looks on the hanger. It's beautiful. You have to try it on. 783 01:28:17,625 --> 01:28:20,292 You can try it. 784 01:28:24,333 --> 01:28:30,125 There's a mirror here. You can step up on this box and see. 785 01:29:08,167 --> 01:29:10,792 Are you feeling sick? 786 01:29:10,917 --> 01:29:13,000 Yes. 787 01:29:16,500 --> 01:29:19,333 Maybe you should take a Vival? 788 01:29:24,417 --> 01:29:26,708 I left them at home. 789 01:29:43,708 --> 01:29:48,167 - Anja? What are you doing here? - Hi. 790 01:29:49,250 --> 01:29:51,583 Hi. 791 01:29:51,708 --> 01:29:55,250 Hi. I got your message. 792 01:29:55,375 --> 01:29:59,125 - I'm all yours tomorrow. - Are you home already? 793 01:29:59,250 --> 01:30:04,125 I just have to fetch something. Tomas is waiting in the car. Hi, Frans. 794 01:30:06,333 --> 01:30:11,167 I can't even imagine what it's like to be you right now. 795 01:30:11,292 --> 01:30:15,875 - Hi, boys. I just have to fetch something. - Don't peek into my room. 796 01:30:16,000 --> 01:30:18,417 It's a secret! 797 01:30:18,542 --> 01:30:22,458 Mom? What are you doing at home? 798 01:30:22,583 --> 01:30:27,333 I just had to take care of something before we go to the hospital. 799 01:30:30,083 --> 01:30:35,250 - Why aren't you out there with the others? - They're fussing about. 800 01:30:35,375 --> 01:30:38,875 Like it's a perfectly ordinary wedding. 801 01:30:44,500 --> 01:30:47,333 But you're my mom. 802 01:30:47,458 --> 01:30:51,667 I have to run, Julie. We'll be getting the results. 803 01:30:51,792 --> 01:30:54,542 Can't I come with you? 804 01:30:54,667 --> 01:30:57,083 I'm afraid not. 805 01:31:08,542 --> 01:31:10,667 Hi. 806 01:31:14,667 --> 01:31:17,375 Anja... 807 01:31:17,500 --> 01:31:22,000 Your CT scans are clean. No metastases in your lungs. 808 01:31:26,208 --> 01:31:28,542 Anja? 809 01:31:28,667 --> 01:31:32,083 Let's see. I think... 810 01:31:32,208 --> 01:31:35,917 Take hold of her. Come over here. 811 01:31:36,667 --> 01:31:41,292 Take a deep breath. Okay? Take my hand. Breathe. 812 01:31:41,417 --> 01:31:46,083 The surgeon was supposed to tell you, but I just couldn't wait. 813 01:31:56,083 --> 01:31:58,333 Yes. 814 01:31:58,458 --> 01:32:00,708 No, no. 815 01:32:00,833 --> 01:32:04,667 He's older than me, but I'm the one who's ill. 816 01:32:06,417 --> 01:32:08,500 We're getting married. 817 01:32:29,333 --> 01:32:33,833 Hey, I no longer want to know how much time they think I have left. 818 01:32:33,958 --> 01:32:37,667 So I'm not going to ask. 819 01:32:38,458 --> 01:32:42,750 You can sit here. There's room for you on the bench. 820 01:32:45,875 --> 01:32:50,167 Sorry I called you at home during the holidays. 821 01:32:50,292 --> 01:32:56,458 Don't worry about that. It's not hard to understand in your situation. Alright. 822 01:32:56,583 --> 01:33:00,750 I assume you aren't well, but how is your headache now? 823 01:33:00,875 --> 01:33:04,000 Is it better or worse than before? 824 01:33:04,125 --> 01:33:06,542 - It's better. - Good. 825 01:33:06,667 --> 01:33:12,875 What I'm going to do now, is explain what'll happen during the operation. 826 01:33:13,000 --> 01:33:17,208 So you won't have to speculate. So you'll both know. 827 01:33:19,542 --> 01:33:25,458 Here are the MRI images from December 23. 828 01:33:25,583 --> 01:33:30,417 And this is where the metastasis is located. 829 01:33:30,542 --> 01:33:36,583 It's to the right in the image, but it's in the back of your left hemisphere. 830 01:33:36,708 --> 01:33:38,708 And... May I touch you? 831 01:33:38,833 --> 01:33:45,125 We'll enter through a 20 cm incision in the back of your head, 832 01:33:45,250 --> 01:33:50,292 up to about here, to remove the metastasis. 833 01:33:50,417 --> 01:33:55,458 The grayish, dark area around here, that's the edema, the fluid. 834 01:33:55,583 --> 01:34:02,042 It should be substantially smaller now as a result of the Medrol treatment. 835 01:34:02,167 --> 01:34:08,208 If the operation is a success, the results of the CAT scan of your lungs 836 01:34:08,333 --> 01:34:12,000 might give us a reason to perform a PET scan 837 01:34:12,125 --> 01:34:16,750 to see if it's spread to any other areas in your body. 838 01:34:17,583 --> 01:34:20,208 But it all depends on the operation. 839 01:34:21,292 --> 01:34:24,792 May I ask a question? 840 01:34:24,917 --> 01:34:26,625 Yes. 841 01:34:26,750 --> 01:34:31,917 What's the risk involved in the surgery besides the metastasis itself? 842 01:34:32,042 --> 01:34:36,500 At worst, the operation may damage the visual cortex 843 01:34:36,625 --> 01:34:41,833 and your peripheral vision permanently. You won't be able to drive. 844 01:34:41,958 --> 01:34:46,708 I don't need to. But I don't want to be a zombie bride. I must sleep. 845 01:34:46,833 --> 01:34:53,083 I want to be myself. All I want now is to sleep one whole night through! 846 01:34:53,208 --> 01:34:56,708 Can I please get off the Medrol? 847 01:34:56,833 --> 01:35:03,375 You can't go to zero, but if you halve the Medrol dose, you'll sleep better. 848 01:35:04,458 --> 01:35:09,042 - Thank you. - The reduction may lead to depression. 849 01:35:09,167 --> 01:35:14,750 So make sure she doesn't start talking nonsense before the operation. 850 01:35:14,875 --> 01:35:17,917 - "Nonsense"? - It probably won't happen. 851 01:35:18,042 --> 01:35:24,292 But high doses can trigger a psychosis. Based on what I see and hear now, 852 01:35:24,417 --> 01:35:28,375 she should halve her dose immediately. 853 01:35:36,208 --> 01:35:39,583 This was my mom's wedding dress. 854 01:35:45,667 --> 01:35:47,500 I've kept it. 855 01:35:50,417 --> 01:35:53,083 Thanks, Vera, but no. 856 01:35:56,583 --> 01:36:00,333 I want to wear my own dress. The dark green one. 857 01:36:02,000 --> 01:36:04,625 It's too somber. 858 01:36:04,750 --> 01:36:07,208 No. 859 01:36:07,333 --> 01:36:10,417 It's dark, not black like in a funeral. 860 01:36:29,833 --> 01:36:32,750 Vera... 861 01:36:32,875 --> 01:36:34,708 I'm sorry. 862 01:36:36,750 --> 01:36:41,125 You're not the one who's supposed to comfort me. 863 01:36:56,625 --> 01:37:00,375 Did you halve your dose of Medrol? 864 01:37:03,500 --> 01:37:06,708 - And took a sleeping pill? - Yes. 865 01:37:09,333 --> 01:37:12,583 You need to sleep now. 866 01:37:13,958 --> 01:37:17,750 You need to sleep for tomorrow to be a good day. 867 01:37:24,167 --> 01:37:27,500 New Year's Eve 868 01:37:50,958 --> 01:37:54,125 Hurray, hurray, hurray! 869 01:37:54,250 --> 01:37:57,208 Happy birthday! 870 01:38:00,500 --> 01:38:02,500 Happy birthday, Mom. 871 01:38:05,833 --> 01:38:09,417 What would you like, Anja? French toast, yoghurt? 872 01:38:09,542 --> 01:38:12,208 I'm not that hungry, but thanks. 873 01:38:12,750 --> 01:38:16,625 But you do want a cup of Vera's fancy coffee? 874 01:38:16,750 --> 01:38:19,083 Thank you. 875 01:38:19,833 --> 01:38:21,917 Happy birthday. 876 01:38:26,542 --> 01:38:30,375 You slept the whole night through. Like a log. 877 01:38:30,500 --> 01:38:34,375 - Really? - You look rested. 878 01:38:37,250 --> 01:38:40,458 My batteries are dead. 879 01:38:42,875 --> 01:38:44,875 Anja, I have to leave now. 880 01:38:45,000 --> 01:38:48,417 Arthur will pick you up here in two hours. 881 01:38:49,708 --> 01:38:51,833 Where's Mom going? 882 01:38:53,167 --> 01:38:58,458 - We've got secret plans for Mom. - I hate secrets. 883 01:38:58,583 --> 01:39:00,667 I can imagine. 884 01:39:19,458 --> 01:39:25,667 It won't be a white dress, Julie. I tried to get one, but it didn't work out. 885 01:39:27,417 --> 01:39:29,875 It's not that important. 886 01:39:30,958 --> 01:39:33,042 It's not. 887 01:39:35,083 --> 01:39:38,500 - Are you disappointed? - Aren't you? 888 01:39:38,625 --> 01:39:40,958 No. 889 01:39:41,083 --> 01:39:44,125 Maybe it's not that kind of wedding. 890 01:39:45,167 --> 01:39:48,375 I'm not saying it's a shotgun wedding. 891 01:39:48,500 --> 01:39:50,500 Just... 892 01:39:56,542 --> 01:40:01,000 - Are you nervous? - Anja? Phone call. 893 01:40:05,667 --> 01:40:09,042 - Is it Arthur? - No, unknown number. 894 01:40:11,042 --> 01:40:13,125 Hello? 895 01:40:17,500 --> 01:40:21,042 I don't think we've spoken earlier. 896 01:40:22,083 --> 01:40:25,833 Maybe you should speak to Tomas yourself? Tomas! 897 01:40:27,292 --> 01:40:29,083 I see. 898 01:40:35,750 --> 01:40:41,375 Thank you, but that's enough. I've already agreed a date with the operating surgeon. 899 01:40:43,375 --> 01:40:46,042 This is about my life, not yours. 900 01:40:52,333 --> 01:40:57,792 Do you have some sort of agreement with a crazy surgeon called Ulseth? 901 01:40:57,917 --> 01:41:01,625 He says you agreed he'd perform the operation. 902 01:41:01,750 --> 01:41:06,042 We spoke informally via phone while I was doing research. 903 01:41:06,167 --> 01:41:12,292 - It was before I knew it was operable. - He chewed me out for jumping in line. 904 01:41:12,417 --> 01:41:15,917 Said the timing didn't matter because there's no hope. 905 01:41:16,042 --> 01:41:19,625 My god, how can he say that? 906 01:41:19,750 --> 01:41:24,917 Anja, I haven't agreed anything with that humiliated surgeon. 907 01:41:31,000 --> 01:41:33,125 I've got the jitters. 908 01:41:36,208 --> 01:41:39,083 Vera and I know nothing about weddings. 909 01:41:39,208 --> 01:41:43,833 - You're the only one with any experience. - It's been a while. 910 01:41:46,500 --> 01:41:50,375 I was four years old the last time Tomas got married. 911 01:41:52,333 --> 01:41:55,750 - Shall we go? - Yes. 912 01:41:55,875 --> 01:42:01,042 Google says the groom shouldn't see the bride until she comes up the aisle. 913 01:42:01,167 --> 01:42:03,458 We'll take care of her. 914 01:42:03,583 --> 01:42:06,667 - You take care of yourself. - Thanks. 915 01:42:25,083 --> 01:42:28,292 Have you thought about how you want it? 916 01:42:31,875 --> 01:42:34,458 You really have wonderful hair. 917 01:42:36,583 --> 01:42:40,000 Hi. I finally found something white for you. 918 01:42:40,125 --> 01:42:43,417 Or rather for Julie. 919 01:42:43,542 --> 01:42:46,667 The shop wasn't really open. Look! 920 01:42:46,792 --> 01:42:49,875 - Isn't it beautiful? - Very. Thanks. 921 01:42:51,167 --> 01:42:56,917 Tomas is downstairs with Frans, who wants to say hi. Didn't know he was best man. 922 01:42:57,042 --> 01:42:59,250 - Are they here now? - Yes. 923 01:43:01,208 --> 01:43:05,917 Yes. Tomas... He wanted a haircut. 924 01:43:07,375 --> 01:43:13,875 All the other hairdressers are closed, so I got an appointment for both of you. 925 01:43:14,000 --> 01:43:17,625 - It's on the house. - Thank you. 926 01:43:17,750 --> 01:43:20,583 Hi. How's the bride doing? 927 01:43:36,000 --> 01:43:37,833 Anja... 928 01:43:38,833 --> 01:43:45,542 Didn't you hear what Arthur said? You're supposed to leave me alone until church. 929 01:43:45,667 --> 01:43:50,875 Can't you see that all this is too late, this whole ridiculous setup? 930 01:43:51,000 --> 01:43:55,292 Did it take a death sentence for you to forget about yourself, 931 01:43:55,417 --> 01:43:59,083 and suddenly do everything right? 932 01:43:59,208 --> 01:44:02,000 Now that it's all over anyway? 933 01:44:03,542 --> 01:44:08,708 How can I walk down the aisle without thinking it's my own funeral? 934 01:44:12,083 --> 01:44:16,375 I've been such a coward. I should've left you ages ago. 935 01:44:16,500 --> 01:44:19,250 But I've been too exhausted. 936 01:44:19,375 --> 01:44:24,542 I've been eaten alive by you and the kids. 937 01:44:25,083 --> 01:44:29,750 And now I'm stuck here, feeling like an ungrateful fool. 938 01:44:29,875 --> 01:44:32,958 Unable to accept anything from you. 939 01:44:48,875 --> 01:44:51,292 You don't want to? 940 01:46:34,708 --> 01:46:37,000 Anja... 941 01:46:37,125 --> 01:46:39,125 Yes. 942 01:47:55,083 --> 01:48:02,042 Grace be unto you, and peace, from God our Father, and the Lord Jesus Christ. 943 01:48:02,667 --> 01:48:08,292 Dear Anja and Tomas. You have come here to enter into matrimony. 944 01:48:08,417 --> 01:48:11,542 We have gathered to celebrate with... 945 01:48:55,750 --> 01:49:01,000 ...to have and to hold, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, 946 01:49:01,125 --> 01:49:03,375 until death do you part? 947 01:49:03,500 --> 01:49:05,583 I do. 948 01:50:14,750 --> 01:50:19,083 Thank you. Thank you so much, everyone. 949 01:50:19,208 --> 01:50:21,292 Shit! 950 01:50:29,833 --> 01:50:31,917 Hi, Isak. 951 01:50:51,042 --> 01:50:58,000 About twenty years ago, I saw two people fall in love. 952 01:50:59,000 --> 01:51:03,583 Something both those involved denied. 953 01:51:05,333 --> 01:51:11,042 But I was convinced they were having an affair. 954 01:51:11,167 --> 01:51:16,458 Though I was also certain it would soon blow over. 955 01:51:16,583 --> 01:51:19,500 I wasn't the only one who thought so. 956 01:51:25,208 --> 01:51:29,583 Their love seemed impossible. And I... 957 01:51:29,708 --> 01:51:32,875 I seem to remember that you, Anja... 958 01:51:34,542 --> 01:51:39,208 You were furious that you'd fallen in love with Tomas. 959 01:51:39,333 --> 01:51:42,375 It didn't suit your plans at all. 960 01:51:43,333 --> 01:51:48,792 But it's never been more evident that you're meant for each other. 961 01:51:55,000 --> 01:51:57,083 No, what the...? 962 01:51:59,250 --> 01:52:01,333 Darn it. Right. 963 01:52:01,458 --> 01:52:03,708 Let's take it from the top. 964 01:52:03,833 --> 01:52:06,917 This is my gift to you. 965 01:52:09,583 --> 01:52:11,917 You can start it now. 966 01:52:21,917 --> 01:52:26,250 My ruminations and sad songs are gone 967 01:52:26,375 --> 01:52:30,625 They never helped me get nothing done 968 01:52:34,375 --> 01:52:38,375 All the good will and love in the world 969 01:52:38,500 --> 01:52:42,708 Is what it takes for my little girl 970 01:52:44,833 --> 01:52:49,583 Should I just cry out? Would it help? 971 01:52:49,708 --> 01:52:54,458 When I close my eyes, I see myself 972 01:52:57,708 --> 01:53:02,125 In acrobatic, euphoric high 973 01:53:02,250 --> 01:53:05,583 Heading to see my 974 01:53:05,708 --> 01:53:07,750 Cutie pie 975 01:53:15,708 --> 01:53:20,000 You'll never miss the good old lies 976 01:53:20,125 --> 01:53:24,500 We're gonna kiss till Jesus cries 977 01:53:28,000 --> 01:53:32,000 You're afraid that it's too far to go 978 01:53:32,125 --> 01:53:36,292 How fast I'll run, you'll never know 979 01:53:38,708 --> 01:53:43,333 If you would give me right of way 980 01:53:43,458 --> 01:53:47,792 I'd grant you access every day 981 01:53:47,917 --> 01:53:53,458 And I can smile Beat up myself 982 01:53:53,583 --> 01:53:56,917 I've got theatrics 983 01:53:57,042 --> 01:53:59,875 If nothing else 984 01:54:00,917 --> 01:54:05,625 When you bring me all of you 985 01:54:05,750 --> 01:54:08,500 Unbearable, for still 986 01:54:10,583 --> 01:54:13,042 My heart is split in two 987 01:54:15,125 --> 01:54:17,625 Romance makes me ill 988 01:54:31,958 --> 01:54:36,083 - I don't know what to say. - What about "Happy New Year"? 989 01:54:37,083 --> 01:54:42,125 I have to say it. I hope for the best. But I'll be here if I'm needed. 990 01:54:42,250 --> 01:54:45,167 Ready to take care of the kids. 991 01:54:54,833 --> 01:54:59,833 I shouldn't have said that. But I can't stop thinking about it. 992 01:55:01,500 --> 01:55:05,458 Thank you, Vera, but the kids have a father. 993 01:55:42,958 --> 01:55:45,042 Julie? 994 01:55:57,042 --> 01:55:59,875 I didn't know you existed. 995 01:56:09,625 --> 01:56:13,708 I wish I could take you with me in the afterlife. 996 01:56:15,583 --> 01:56:18,958 New Year's Day 997 01:56:23,917 --> 01:56:27,542 I'm trying to imagine who you were. 998 01:56:29,708 --> 01:56:34,042 Why haven't you told us about any of this before? 999 01:56:34,167 --> 01:56:37,583 There's so much I didn't know. 1000 01:56:38,583 --> 01:56:42,417 All those secrets before I was born. 1001 01:56:46,083 --> 01:56:49,083 All the grown-ups were so different. 1002 01:56:52,625 --> 01:56:55,875 More direct than I've ever seen before. 1003 01:57:02,000 --> 01:57:03,875 At least you two. 1004 01:57:07,500 --> 01:57:09,583 Different how? 1005 01:57:11,000 --> 01:57:15,375 I didn't know you could be so loving to each other. 1006 01:57:16,833 --> 01:57:21,042 Like I've never seen before. I mean... 1007 01:57:21,167 --> 01:57:24,083 Maybe once, one summer, ages ago. 1008 01:57:30,000 --> 01:57:32,542 Just like two kids. 1009 01:57:34,250 --> 01:57:37,625 January 2 1010 01:58:18,750 --> 01:58:21,083 Just a moment. 1011 01:58:23,250 --> 01:58:27,583 There. I'm afraid you can't enter the operating theatre. 1012 01:58:28,667 --> 01:58:31,500 I'll be here when you wake up. 1013 02:04:55,125 --> 02:04:57,708 Subtitles: Erik Grønvold 77508

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