All language subtitles for Greys Anatomy - S21E02 - Take Me to Church.en

The brain stores a single memory

in millions of neurons.

♪ Another day ♪ another
hill to climb ♪ feel the rush

♪ in the morning
rise ♪ my, oh, my

♪ my, oh, my

ohh.

Oh, this has got to
stop. I'm losing my mind.

How are you
sleeping through this?

Kwanie? Kwan-kwan!

♪ Keep up hi. So
sorry. Who are you?

There's a neuron
that holds the smell

of your prom date's Cologne.

Another neuron
contains the sound

of your dress being zipped up.

And one for your favorite
song you danced to that night.

Are you going to work?
It's 3:00 in the morning.

Tell that to Griffith.

Hey, who's that girl
in your room? No one.

Why are you down
here? Does she snore?

I'm going back to sleep.

To remember the whole evening,

you need all of these neurons
to communicate with each other

to make a complete picture.

But when the brain
experiences trauma,

these neurons can be
starved of oxygen and die.

Ugh, they forgot to place
a supply order last week.

We're down to the
last case of 4x4.

- Can we steal from cardio?
- If we can borrow a nurse for clinic.

Yeah. How did this place
survive a week without us?

Beyond me. Hey, do
you know a Nora young?

Yeah, she grew up
down the street from me.

She was one of my
sister's friends. Why?

Well, Megan's sending her here.

She has a perfed esophagus
from a nissen procedure.

They tried to repair
it, but it still has a leak.

You know, I haven't
seen Nora in years.

She was kind of a pain.
Very bossy and tightly wound.

I mean assertive
and goal-oriented.

Instead of complete memories,
you're left with glimpses.

Good morning.

I hope you are ready
to hit the ground running.

I've got some new
ideas for genetic targets.

Is that a new pcr machine?

Where'd that come from?

Dr. Ridgeson got an nih Grant.

Kate ridgeson?

Why's she putting her
equipment in my lab?

It's her lab now.

♪ Get gone, gravity right. ♪
You ain't got control on me

of course. No
sense letting a lab

sit idle for one whole week.

I will check in with operations
and, uh, see what's available.

♪ Keep up a smell,
a taste, a feeling.

Morning.

And once you start
losing bits of memory...

Guess I'll take the stairs.

...there's no way
to get them back.

There is supposed to be a
ding before the doors open.

- Where was the ding?
- Okay. Let's take a step back.

She's seen plenty
of people kiss.

She's our boss, one
of our many bosses...

Exactly. She has way
more important things

to worry about today.

We are gonna go out there,
like the badasses we are,

like nothing happened,
and all will be well.

Have you seen Catherine?

Uh, she should be here soon.

Excuse you. I was here first.

Well, this can't wait.

Uh, didn't you get fired?

I wouldn't use those words.

Dr. Fox, do you have a minute?

Okay, I know we've
had our differences,

but I would like to talk to you

about coming back
as residency director.

We had an appointment
to discuss my research.

Didn't we, Dr. Fox?

Call my assistant

and make an appointment,
Dr. Bailey, please.

D... oh.

Put on heels for this.

Sit.

You've got some nerve.

How about, "thank you

for flying all the way across
the country to check on me

'cause no one knows
I'm being treated

for budd-chiari syndrome"?

Do you have a butterfly?

Go easy, now.

Or what? You'll fire me?

Over there. Okay, thanks.

Okay, but if she's his cousin,

then why wouldn't
he just say that, right?

Kwan has some
mystery woman visiting.

Good for him. I don't care.

You know what's gonna be fun?

July, when you're
an intern again

- and we're all your bosses.
- Ha-ha.

Hi. Hello. Hi.
- Good morning. - Morning.

- Where's kwan?
- Here. I'm here.

Okay, for a second there,
I thought you were sick,

which is a great reminder.

If you're feeling under the
weather, do not get together,

because I-I really... I cannot
have you dropping like flies.

I'm going to bring
up the schedule now.

What's she doing here?

She wanted me
to tell her about us.

At the hospital?

Yeah. She refused to leave.

Guess the amnesia didn't
erase her stubborn streak.

Okay, so, Griffith,
you're with Altman.

Yasuda, you're with beltran.

Uh, Shepherd is back,

so, millin, you'll be
with her in neuro.

Kwan, you're with
hunt. Oh, and, Adams,

it looks like you are all set to
help me with progress notes.

Although Ndugu did
request you, so it's your call.

Uh, maybe I should just
see what Ndugu wants.

Oh, yeah. Great idea.

Ooh, so if anybody
wants to do a switcheroo,

I have a spot open with me.

So... and we... Sure. No. Okay.

Yeah.

Go, team!

If you take down a
dressing to look at a wound,

you have to redo it.

I have my own job, okay?

I can't follow you around all
day cleaning up your messes.

She does not hold
back, does she?

She does not.

And yesterday I
would've thrown down.

But today I am
trying something new.

Oh, yeah? What's that?

Professional detachment.

I know I'm not getting
the peds fellowship.

I saw the list of
ranked applicants.

Somebody left it at
the nurses' station.

I'm sorry. I-I
wanted to tell you.

It's okay.

I-I knew my absite
wasn't competitive enough,

and I don't have the
research experience.

I will find something else.

No question.

Alright, let's go round.

Did you know that there are
more than 200 frozen dead people

- on mount Everest?
- That's nothing.

Ever hear of a little
boat called the Titanic?

Elvis died on the toilet.

Not that you know who that is.

Heart attack, not constipation.

Common misconception.

- Lovely.
- I'm the cool chaplain.

Ever since Cal's mom died,

he's, uh, been a little
obsessed with death.

Oh, I was obsessed with
embalming when I was your age,

so I get it.

- Yasuda?
- Cal huang, 15.

Diagnosed eight years ago
with li-fraumeni syndrome,

a genetic disorder associated

with an increased
likelihood of cancer.

He's in remission for an
adrenocortical carcinoma

treated two years ago.

Admitted from
clinic for a work-up

of his increasing mid-back pain.

He hasn't been able to
sleep, barely has an appetite.

It's another tumor, isn't it?

Let's not get
ahead of ourselves.

We need to run some more tests

to get to the
bottom of this pain.

But your labs have
come back normal so far.

Yeah, Dr. Schmitt's
right. One step at a time.

Dr. Yasuda will take
you to get your ct scan,

and I'll come check on you
when we have the results.

Is now a good time to talk about

getting the funding for
my research project back?

Do you want my
clot to just blow?

Meredith.

Why didn't you tell me you
were coming back to town?

D-Did you change your mind?

Are you back at
the fox foundation?

- I'm working out the details.
- What does that mean?

What's happening with
the research funding?

- Did Catherine say something?
- Now's not really a good time.

Why won't you give
me a straight answer?

Can we talk about this later?
I'm checking on a patient.

Your scans are up. Liver cancer?

What?

That liver's covered in tumors.

Dr. Ndugu?

I was told you requested me.

Yeah, I did.

Dr. Pierce said you
declined her offer in Chicago.

Yeah, it was a
great opportunity,

but I'm happy where I am.

Well, we have some great
opportunities here, too.

How about you join us
today in the skills lab?

Yeah, we're setting up a
vascular anastomosis lab

for the residents.

Dr. Webber, I've
been looking for you.

I wanted to thank you
for holding down the fort

while I was gone.

I was overlooking
the or schedule,

and it is a mess without Bailey,

so I hope it's okay,
but I took the Liberty

of filling up your schedule
for the next two weeks.

And don't worry.
It's not all hernias.

Who said you should do that?

Well, it's the chief's job
to oversee the schedule.

You're not the chief.

Well, Catherine said
that I had my job back.

You are employed as a
cardiothoracic surgeon.

Now, when you can do that
job without breaking the rules

or without stealing any money,
then we'll see about chief.

I see.

Okay. Thank you.

We've been at this a while.

What do you say we,
uh, get out of here,

- take a break?
- That's not necessary.

Maybe not for you.

I haven't left the
hospital in 36 hours.

You golf, right?

You too, Adams.

So, are you going
to tell me who she is,

or am I going to have
to pry it out of you?

- Hey. Welcome back.
- Thanks.

Let's go.

Nora young, 46, female.

Status post nissen
fundoplication,

complicated by an
esophageal perforation,

post primary repair with
ongoing leak and infection.

Rooster, look at
you, all grown up.

Hi, Nora. Is she talking to you?

Afraid so. Ah.

Owen... Uh, sorry, Dr. Hunt.

God, that sounds weird.

Dr. Hunt played rooster

in taft middle school's
nineteen eighty...

Oh, the year doesn't
matter... Production of "Annie."

You're a theater kid?

Listen, I did one
play for extra credit.

He wore suspenders,
and his little voice cracked.

Okay, uh, this is my
wife, Dr. Teddy Altman.

She's gonna be
taking care of you.

- Welcome to grey-Sloan.
- Thank you so much.

I know you're busy.
Megan said you're the boss.

Yeah. Well, I'm glad to help.

Any friend of Megan's
is a friend of ours.

Alright, we'll upload those
scans from the last hospital

- and take it from there.
- Thank you.

Let's go.

Hey, hey. Um... You
okay? Yeah, yeah. I'm fine.

Hey, uh, I have to do a baptism.

Could you give this to Cal?

A coffin catalog?

Yeah, he... he
really wanted camo,

but the closest I could
find was army green.

He's 15.

He has a genetic disorder
that predisposes him to cancer.

Okay, you don't need to explain

my patient's pathology to me.

If you want to give this to him,
which I highly advise against,

you'll have to do it yourself.

Are you at peace
with mortality, doctor?

Father, with all due respect...

It's reverend. But you
can call me James.

Great. Now, if you'll excuse
me, I have to get back to work.

Is that a coffin catalog?

So, good news is it looks
like a benign schwannoma

of the thoracic
group, but it's huge.

Can we resect it?

I don't see how. It's
so close to the spine.

Look at all of the consults that
haven't yet scheduled procedures

and try to get some
of those on the books.

Dr. Shepherd, I didn't
know you were back.

Oh, well, yeah, just
trying to ease back in.

Well, sorry to
mess up your plans,

but could you
take a look at this?

I can't figure out
the right approach.

- Wow, that is a puzzle.
- Yeah.

Do you think you could
squeeze in a consult?

He's in a lot of pain.

I think I can probably
shuffle some things around.

Let's schedule an mri

and a spinal 3-d
reconstruction on these scans.

So this is it.
This is how I die.

We don't know that.

I know my primary
cancer, Meredith.

The scan tells me it's
mets or new cancer.

Neither is a good option.

We won't know that for sure
until we get further testing.

Don't placate me.

Fine. You don't want
me to placate you.

You need to tell Richard. No.

He can help you
through this. No, Meredith.

He would want to help you.

Do you know how many
complications I have every year?

Low neutrophils,
pain in my back,

pain in my chest,
pain in my ass.

I don't want Richard
panicking every month,

every week, putting
his life on hold,

waiting to see if
I'm going to die.

It's not over. This
is not the end.

Maybe not for
you, but it is for me.

This is gonna sound weird
given where I am right now,

but I feel like a movie star.

You're right. That
does sound weird.

I have four kids.

My life is laundry
and making lunches.

And today I was
whisked away in a plane,

and you're giving me
blankets I didn't even wash.

Probably sounds so sad to you.

Are you kidding? I don't
know how moms do it.

Ssris and wine.

At least that's how I do it.

Do you always want a big family?

I wanted to be a
white house reporter.

Then I met my husband.

His family has a sugar
beet farm in the country.

And it's this big operation.

Every farmer needs his wife.

Needed. We're at the
finish line of a long divorce.

I'm sorry. I'm not.

After this, we'll check
on your labs and ct,

and then Dr. Altman will be
back to discuss next steps.

How did she end
up on this floor?

Are you hooking up with
a patient's granddaughter?

No.

Hey, you shouldn't
be here in the icu.

Um, I brought you a bagel.

I saw you didn't eat
anything this morning.

I never eat breakfast.

And that used to
drive you crazy.

Well, it's the most
important meal of the day.

Coffee is the most
important meal of the day.

If we were engaged, why could
I only find one photo of you?

I don't know.

How did we meet?

At a Halloween party.

You were dressed up
as a giant disco ball.

It was so big that you couldn't

fit in through the
bathroom door.

I was waiting to go next,

and then you asked me
if I could hug the costume

so you could squeeze in.

We looked so dumb, and
we couldn't stop laughing.

And I saw your reflection

on the tiny little
mirrors on the costume.

And I remember thinking...

There's no view of
this person I didn't like.

Well, that must have been
nice, to be loved like that.

Why did we break up?

It was complicated.

What does that mean?

Code blue!

Code blue, fourth floor...

I need a crash cart in here now!

Code blue, fourth
floor, surgical icu.

There.

Ahh.

Okay, northeasterly breeze.

Show you fellas
how this is done.

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh. No.

Isn't the hole over there?

Maybe the sun got in his eyes.

Alright, I'm a little
rusty. That's okay.

- Adams, you any good?
- I'm alright.

Okay.

That was just alright?

Well, compared to the
guys I normally play with.

I think this young man
just insulted us, Dr. Ndugu.

Hey, you saw where my ball went.

Well, let's see
if I still got it.

Whew! That's a
beauty right there.

You're going down.

Alright, bring me up to speed.

She vomited over
a liter of blood.

We can't get a read
on her BP anymore.

- She's about to code.
- Alright, with this much bleeding,

it could be an upper gi or
an aorto-esophageal fistula.

Griffith, you're gonna help
me place a Minnesota tube.

I need kerlix, an
iv bag, and X-ray.

I'm in. - Color change noted.
- Great.

Griffith, have you ever
placed a balloon tamponade?

You're gonna take this.
It is just like an og tube.

You are gonna place a catheter

down the throat
behind the et tube.

Yep.

I think I'm in the stomach.

Inflate the gastric balloon.

Alright, let me take a look.

Perfect. Alright, let's
get X-ray out of here.

We need to engage traction.

Alright, kwan, hook up
suction to the esophageal port.

Good, good, good.

You're right. Bleeding must
be coming from the esophagus.

Alright, inflate the
esophageal balloon.

We have seconds
before she codes.

- Should we hang another unit?
- Yes. Where are we, Griffith?

Esophageal balloon is inflated.

Great job, everyone.
What's the plan?

Tevar and stent
to cover the fistula?

Excellent. Alright,
kwan, book and ir suite.

Bleeding has stopped.

Dr. Bailey.

Dr. Bailey, I need a consult.

Oh, go ask someone
on the payroll.

If this is about this
morning, I'm sorry.

Are you?

Well, you didn't seem
sorry when you brazenly

got in the way of me
trying to get my job back.

And you don't seem sorry
at all that Sydney heron

is still bossing
my interns around.

Wait. Sydney heron's back?

Yeah, in all her perky,
passive-aggressive glory.

So you need a consult, page her.

I'm not paging Sydney heron.

Well, call Webber.

I can't. And why not?

Because the patient
doesn't want him to know.

Alright, what are we looking at?

The schwannoma has
invaded this spinal column,

and now it is
compressing the cord.

Well, it's incredible
that he made it this long

without becoming symptomatic.

Yeah, well, he spent his
life in and out of hospitals.

At this point, his pain
tolerance is very high.

Can't imagine being 15,
knowing that every moment,

your cells could be
mutating into cancer,

and still have to
take a geometry final.

If we do an anterior approach,

we won't be able to assess
the posterior margins.

And if we go in posteriorly,

we can't access the
thoracic component.

Can we just turn him
over during surgery?

Well, we wouldn't have
to if he's on his side.

Dr. Beltran, you
could open his chest

and work from front to back,

and then I could open his
back and work my way forward.

You think that's too risky?

I think risky is all Cal has.

Let's go talk to
him and his dad.

Um, Cal's not in his room.

Where is he? The chaplain said

that he was taking him
somewhere and not to worry.

What?

He's part of the care team.

Nora has an
aorto-esophageal fistula,

and I can't find anyone to
help me repair her esophagus.

Why is no one answering or six?

I'm sure we can
find someone to help.

Are you magic? Can you just
pull someone out of thin air?

Because Bailey
works across the street,

Richard has taken the day off,

and Sydney heron's in an
emergency debridement.

- Who's Sydney heron?
- She's the new Bailey.

And she's an acquired
taste which I will never have.

Pretty sure Richard wouldn't
mind coming in for an emergency.

I don't think - that's a good idea.
- Why not?

He could do an esophageal
stent in his sleep.

Richard is not stepping
down from chief.

He said that he
doesn't trust me.

So I don't think that he and I
should be operating together.

Could you finish
up in here, please?

Thanks.

What do you mean he
said he doesn't trust you?

What did you say to that?

Nothing. His mind is made up.

Alright, you know
what I'm gonna do?

I am gonna call in Richard,

and I'll just replace myself.

Beckman can do it.

No, Nora came all
this way to see you.

I'll do it. I'll stent
the esophagus.

Tis is your first day
back in the trauma room.

And you are the best damn ct
surgeon in this whole hospital.

Let me help. Thank you. Okay.

I'll see you in the or.

She doesn't want any
type of intervention.

I practically had to hold
her down for her blood draw.

I don't blame her.
She's been through a lot.

I didn't think you and Catherine

were exactly on good
terms these days.

Are you on good terms
with all of your patients?

She's a trailblazer.
I respect her.

She paved the way, showed
me what was possible.

I owe her my career, even
if I'm sidelined right now.

Although, in fairness,
that was my decision.

Okay, look, see, these masses

look like they've been
growing for a while.

By now, wouldn't you
think there'd be mets

in other places, too?

It could be a different
primary cancer.

What if it isn't cancer at all?

Maybe hemangiomas or other
fatty changes from ischemia.

The odds of that are
almost nonexistent.

It's Catherine fox.
Anything's possible.

Hey, what are you
doing out here?

Just planning my
funeral in case I croak.

You're not dying.

What you have is a benign tumor

that we are going
to remove today.

Yasuda, will you please
take Cal up to his room?

Alright. Train's leaving.

He wanted to plan his funeral.

I know that he'll likely
get more cancers,

and I know that one of them
will probably take his life.

But I can't think
about that right now,

because I have to focus
on removing the gigantic one

that's impinging on his spine.

That's quite the god
complex you have there.

- I'm doing my job.
- Screw your job.

Be a person.

His whole obsession with death,

the facts, the
jokes... He's scared.

He's telling you he is scared.

He has an incurable
genetic disease.

I can't fix that for him. I
can't make that go away.

And if I can't, there's sure
as hell nothing you can do.

Look, you might have
more schooling than me.

You might get more respect.

You don't have all the
answers and you do?

I don't have any answers.

All I can do is listen.

You should try it.

Found it!

Oh, no. It's a rock.

Your uncle and I
had a standing game

every week in the summer.

Yeah, he was obnoxiously
good at everything.

Not golf.

All the way he
shanked that ball.

How'd you get to be so good?

Oh, my dad pushed me to learn.

Said it'd helped me socialize
with my colleagues one day.

I guess he had a point.

Yeah, sometimes I forget.

It's nice to get out of the
hospital with your colleagues.

Actually, now
that I think about it,

your uncle and I used to
play with Phil kopelman.

He's an ent, but now he runs
the outreach over at the acgme.

Wouldn't hurt to
give him a call.

You think he could do
something about my remediation?

He's a fair guy.

I mean, if he doesn't feel that
the punishment fits the crime,

I'm sure he'll do what he can.

But, um, don't tell
Catherine I said that.

Yeah, we don't talk that much.

Here it is. Look at that.
Not too far from the green.

You're still in
the rough, Ndugu.

This is not a good time.

We just need two minutes.

I am not in the mood

to debate anybody's
employment status.

We're here to
discuss your health.

My health is fine. Thank you.

- She's seen the scans.
- Damn it, grey.

You can believe that I'm gonna
sue you for breaking hipaa.

Your lawyers know
where to find me.

I needed a consult.

Can't you give me the
dignity of just dying in private?

But what if it isn't cancer?

You saw the scans.

I did, and while
they are concerning,

there's a chance that the
lesions are a benign finding

of your subacute
budd-chiari syndrome.

And we could do
a biopsy to find out.

My liver is teeming
with lesions.

A biopsy could cause
bleeding, a stroke.

It's dangerous. It's absurd.

Why would you even
recommend that?

Because it's what
Richard taught me to do.

And I think it's
what he would want.

Mm.

Richard's ears are burning.

Um, what's happening?

I don't know.

Is she having the stroke now?

Well, come on.
Y'all want to talk?

- Let's go talk.
- Okay, okay.

Dr. Cunningham to the or.

Dr. Nyema Cunningham to the or.

How's your patient doing?

I have to take her up to
surgery in a few minutes.

Oh, does that mean
you have a minute to talk?

I really should
head back upstairs.

I can't leave here until
I know our whole story.

I swear, I'm not trying
to take advantage.

I know your time is valuable.

Does it really matter
what happened?

You seem happy.

That doesn't mean I
don't want answers.

I mean, until Dave,

this was the most significant
relationship in my entire life.

I have no idea why it ended.

I mean, wouldn't
you want to know?

You don't have
any pictures of me

because you deleted them all.

I came home one night,

and you were
crying on the floor.

You had found out that
I had cheated on you.

We... we were young.

The wedding was getting
closer, and I kept thinking about

how my mom wasn't
gonna be there.

And it was a stupid,
drunk mistake

that I have regretted
every single day since.

I'm sure it was
devastating at the time,

but I'm okay now.

You don't have
anything to regret.

I haven't even told
you the worst part.

After we fought,
you got in the car.

And an hour later,

I got a call that you
had been in a wreck.

The accident?

Yeah, well, that
was nobody's fault.

No, but if you hadn't
been so upset, then i...

I stopped thinking that
way a long time ago.

I'm at peace with it.

I got to start over.

More suction, please.

Alright, how's it
going over there?

Making my final cut.

Great. Millin, more traction.

Alright, someone
get a basin ready.

I'm going to remove
the last piece.

We got the whole tumor?

Well, path will confirm,

but to my eye, the
margins look good.

No, no, no, no, no,
no. He's bleeding.

Where? I can't see.

Do you have
anything on your side?

- No, nothing.
- Lap pads.

Could it be bleeding from
the vessel feeding the tumor?

It seems to be coming
from normal tissue.

Ah, found it.
Dr. Schmitt is correct.

It's coming from
an intercostal artery.

Millin, I'm gonna
have you tie it off.

Right angle and
silk tie, please.

Thank you.

You got it?

Alright. Like this?

Yeah. Good.

Make sure the knot is square.

- That's great.
- Okay. What now?

Now we celebrate.

Great job, everybody.

Dr. Schmitt, after we
take him to post-op,

would you like to tell
his dad the good news?

On it.

Deploying the stent.

She didn't seem bossy to me.

Nora and Megan used to make
me pitch batting practice to them,

and they would heckle me,

in very colorful
language, I might add.

Bet she didn't expect to
put her life in your hands.

Okay, let's get ready
to inject the dye.

Okay.

Damn it. Get me a
balloon for dilation.

- Griffith, what do you see?
- Blood is coming from the stent.

Correct. Kwan, next steps?

You dilate the balloon to push
the stent into the aortic wall

- to stop the leak.
- Good job.

Alright. Inserting the balloon.

Alright, balloon is in.
Inflating the balloon.

Good.

Alright, inject the dye.

Leak is fixed.

- Great work, everyone.
- Let's remove the sheath

so Dr. Hunt can place
the esophageal stent.

The surgery couldn't
have gone better.

Thank you. Cal's a great kid.

When he wakes up, I found
a killer death fact for him.

Oh. That was
actually unintentional.

Get me lorazepam.

- What's happening?
- Page beltran and Shepherd.

- On it.
- Okay. You're okay. I'm here.

Now, that's what
you call a birdie.

I'd just like to state
that if we played football,

I would have wiped
the floor with both of you.

I wouldn't be so sure.

Why don't you
go return the cart?

Well, we still got
some daylight.

You want to go hit some
on the driving range?

What?

You don't see
how ridiculous it is

that you're worried about losing
steam in the operating room?

You've got more focus
and stamina than an intern.

Look, golf is different.

It's not that different.

Both take endurance
and concentration,

that fire in your belly.

Look, I made a mistake.

Yeah, we all make mistakes.

Not everybody is over 65.

Yeah, I don't buy it.
Don't get me wrong.

It's good that
you're taking stock.

It'd be irresponsible not to.

But from where I stand,
you're still going strong.

Why do they have to have
peanut shells on the floor?

Uh, do you want to
go someplace else?

There's a nice, um, Sushi
restaurant across the street.

No, this is the one place

Richard won't
think to look for me.

Would you like to
discuss your options?

I understand my pros and cons.

What I don't know is if I
have the fortitude, the energy.

My body is tired.

And what you're
asking, more surgery,

another treatment...
Unless it's benign.

We know the odds
of that are minuscule.

But they're not nothing.

Catherine fox, well, I
expected more from you.

You have shattered every
glass ceiling, beaten every odd.

- Right?
- Why are you giving up?

You better watch your tone

if you want your
job back, Dr. Bailey.

Look, I'll find another
job if I need to,

but come on, you
have so much to live for.

Why won't you try?

Do you think I'm
just sitting back,

waiting for death to
come and snuff me out?

Most days I feel like the
same young woman I was

with the world at my feet.

But I don't believe in
miracles. I believe in science.

And the science
is not on my side.

Maybe. Or maybe not.

But we won't know unless
you let us do the biopsy.

How many of your patients
have beaten the odds?

Why them and not you?

Fine. Do the damn biopsy.

But one of you
pay for the drinks.

I'm glad you called
Megan when you did.

You were a lot sicker
than anyone realized.

We almost lost you.

Yeah, but now you're
gonna make a full recovery.

Thank you, all of you.

- Our pleasure.
- It's Megan.

Are you okay if I
give her the update?

Please. I owe her my life.

Okay, let's order
some post-op labs.

- Mm-hmm.
- Thanks.

You really grew up
to look like your dad.

I can't believe
you remember him.

I mean, you must have
been 6 or 7 when he died.

He put me on his shoulders once

so I could reach
the monkey bars.

I never forgot it.

It was good seeing you.

I got here as fast as
I could. What are...

Oh, my god.

Diffuse intrinsic
pontine glioma.

With satellite lesions.

But he gets yearly
full-body scans.

This was just missed?

It could have been too
small to catch on his last one.

I mean, this is a rapid-growing
malignant brain tumor.

Soon it is gonna start affecting
all of his vital functions...

Breathing, blood
pressure, heart.

Isn't there anything
we can do for him?

Radiation, chemo?

I mean, we could put
him through radiation,

but it'll give him maybe
two agonizing months.

So it's a death sentence.

I'll go talk to Cal and his dad.

I'll do it. I'll tell them.

It's nurse Karen's birthday.

We tried a dozen different
cakes for our wedding.

And you wanted lemon.

I think that was
actually our biggest fight.

It never gets less weird.

I mean, I just met you,

but we also fought about
cake fight years ago.

You've broken the
space-time continuum.

♪ How to know
the storm is close ♪

Yeah.

♪ And not to fear it
I see why I liked you.

Yeah?

Mm-hmm.

You're funny and you're smart.

You know, and when you
smile, your eyes do this...

This sparkly thing.

No, no, no.

♪ ...to the end

see? Funny.

You know, and you bring me cake,

even when you've spent all
day saving other people's lives.

I don't have feelings about
the memories that I've lost,

because, I mean, you
can't miss something

that you didn't know
happened in the first place.

But I wish I remembered you.

♪ Every little drop
of rain mm. I... wow.

I am... I'm so, so sorry.

It's fine. No, no, it's, uh...

It's fine. No, no, no,
it's... it's been a long day.

There's a lot going
on in my mind.

You're good. It's okay.

Um, I should... I
should get back inside.

♪ With the grand
design but if...

If you ever need
anything, you...

I know where to find you.

♪ Dance me to the end
♪ back to where it all began

♪ sing me home, sing me home ♪

How long do I have?

♪ Sing me home uh, it could be

anywhere from weeks to months.

That's it?

I'm so sorry.

Do you... do you have that
feeling when school's over

and you're outside
playing with all your friends

and it feels like summer
could last forever?

It's because our
perception of time isn't fixed.

Two months could
feel like 10 years,

and 10 years can go
by in a blink of an eye.

Hey. Hey, hey.

We... we can cram a
lot into a few months.

♪ Sing me home
I don't want to die.

Um... ♪ Oh, sing me home
what do you want to do...

...before you die?

You've always wanted
to go to space camp.

Okay. That's a good one.

What else?

I want to go see mount McKinley.

And reread "lord of the rings."

That is... that is literally
one of my favorites, too.

Oh, you come in
under par? It's okay.

Ndugu told me that
you guys hit the links.

I did fine. Must be nice.

- Sorry?
- Oh, I've just never had friends in high places.

That's not why I'm here, if
that's what you're implying.

I got the highest
absite score in my class.

Oh, is that... Is
that how it works?

Get the highest score, and
then they take your golfing?

Guess I should
have studied more.

I have to hand it to Megan.

She knew something was wrong,
and she pushed to make it right.

Megan made a few phone
calls. You saved a life.

I'll be right back. Yeah.

Dr. Webber.

I want chief back.

Okay.

I have a whole speech
about why I deserve it.

Take the win, Altman.

♪ Give me something
real to long for ♪

I'm gonna stay a little later.

Go do what you need to do.

♪ Every time I feel
safe ♪ I find a trapdoor

♪ if I'm down today can suck it.

♪ At least I know the
score that poor kid. Mm-hmm.

In less depressing news,

I caught two interns
kissing in the elevator.

Oh, nice.

Remember when we were interns

and our futures felt so bright?

Everything was possible.

Now I'm pretty sure Meredith
is hiding something from me.

And my department
reassigned all of my cases

while I was gone.

I don't know what to do next.

I do.

- Hi.
- Hi. I'd say welcome back, but I've been gone, too.

Uh, we're not back.

We need your help.

We're doing a
procedure in the clinic.

Can we have a scrub nurse?

A scrub nurse in the clinic?

Okay, who's the attending?

Oh, come on.

I just got my job back.

I know, and I also know
that I'm the one responsible

for you losing it, and
I would never ask you

if this wasn't a matter
of life and death.

Okay. Don't make me regret it.

Hey.

That was rough. You okay?

I thought, uh, that if
I walled off the pain...

That it wouldn't hurt.

But... I was wrong.

♪ Sail there are some memories

we probably
wouldn't mind losing.

The deaths, the
breakups, the hard times.

You heading out soon?

I'm catching up on
heron's progress notes.

What is gonna happen when
you're repeating intern year,

doing notes, changing
bandages, and I get to operate?

♪ The sound is hypnotizing
this isn't about you.

I don't want to be bailed out.

That's what my family does.

But I don't want
to be that person.

I want to take responsibility
for my mistakes.

♪ Time but it is a
little about me, right?

♪ Here freedom comes

but memories, like neurons,

work together to
make you who you are.

♪ Release the
weight I'm carrying ♪

♪ and join with the horizon

What?

- Back out!
- Take cover!

♪ Watch me fly hey. You okay?

♪ Sail if all we remembered
were the good times...

Alright. Prepare
to be vanquished.

Oh, I am going to destroy you.

...our friendships
wouldn't be as strong...

Jules, what are you
doing? Get out of the corner!

Yep, listen to her.

You okay?

I'm fine, baby.

...and our loves
wouldn't be as sweet.

♪ Oh, my love ♪ oh, my love ♪

♪ a thousand kisses from you
♪ a thousand kisses from you ♪

♪ and it's never too much
♪ and it's never too much ♪

♪ and I just don't want to stop
♪♪ and I just don't want to stop ♪

♪ oh, my love ♪

Come on. I love
it when you sing.

♪ A million days in your arms
♪ a million days in your arms ♪

♪ and it's never too much
♪ and it's never too much ♪

♪ never too much, never
too much, never too much ♪

♪ and I just don't
want to stop ♪

♪ never too much, never
too much, never too much ♪

So cling to the bad
along with the good.

One day you'll be glad you did.

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