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[Grey] On average, a healthy person
can hold their breath for up to a minute.

I could have all of you replaced
by tomorrow.

What about me? Can you replace me?

After that, carbon dioxide in your blood
starts to dramatically rise.

Do you know how many doctors
I have replaced in my career?

Your rejects can stay,

but your salary will pay for the lawyers
who will fix their mistakes.

You're done here, Dr. Bailey. Goodbye.

- No.
- Get out of my office.

I refuse to allow my job
to be taken by someone

who only operates on spite and greed.

You don't see faces. You see dollars.

That's because this hospital
and your leadership is costing me money.

This profession is a calling,
not a business.

When was the last time
you actually stepped into an OR?

Saved a human life with your hands?

I was doing penis transplants
while you were knee-deep in the sandbox.

Ah. You strut around
and straighten Richard's tie

while the rest of us do the work.

No, I do the work. They do the work.

You don't get to fire me.
You don't deserve to fire me.

You think you're God's gift
to this hospital? Please.

It won't even notice the second you walk
out that door. You're just another doctor.

- Eventually, a reflex is triggered.
- [Bailey gasps]

And if you resist the urge
to let it all out...

You had the dream again?

...you pass out...

- What happened this time?
- I slapped her.

...and you don't know all the damage
you could have caused.

[protestors] Save our planet!
Pollution'snosolution!

Save our planet! Pollution's no solution!

Save our planet! Pollution's no solution!
Save our planet! Pollution's no solution!

Yeah, we're gonna be here a while.

They shut down the whole bridge
for the protesters.

- You okay?
- Yeah, I'm fine.

You sure? You look weird.

Thanks?

So...

I spy or murder podcast?

Actually, there is something
that I should talk to you about. So, um...

Is that trash?

Yeah! Stop polluting, start living!

What? They're saving the planet.

By throwing trash
and risking their lives bungee jumping?

These events always attract
a few rogue players,

but it's the overall message
that's important.

Just do your thing already.

Do you know what global warming has done
to the insect disease vectors?

The tick population has exploded.
Do you want Lyme disease, Jo?

The ten hottest years have happened
in the last decade.

Well, we're late in eight minutes.

- Who are you stalking now?
- No one.

Adams has to give his decision today.
About Chicago.

Oh, Dr. Fox didn't change her mind
about him. Why wouldn't he go?

Because Griffith.

You know, at this point,
we should just fire ourselves.

- Uh, Griffith tried that already.
- Uh, Griffith's right here.

Just... If you told him how you feel,
he would change his mind.

She staged a coup on his behalf.
How does that not say how she...

Still here.

Because it's Adams.

Okay. You know what? Yeah.

Hi. Hi. Yeah, we compost.
Can you let us through?

We love trees.

Where is Simms Memorial?

Spokane, I think.

Why?

Mmm. Recruiter says
they're interested in me.

It's in Eugene, Oregon.

That is far,
but a job's a job. I will commute.

I just wish you didn't have to look.

Dr. Meredith Grey?

- Check the third floor.
- Your picture's in the hall.

Not for long.

It's an injunction
from the Fox Foundation.

If you don't respond, you could be held
in contempt of the court.

- Okay. Do you want to go to jail?
- [phone chimes]

- Because I really, really don't.
- [Grey gasps]

Oh.

- What?
- NYU pulled their funding.

Fox Foundation sent a cease and desist.

Well, that's the second institution
that has dropped us in a week.

Mm-hmm.

- What are we gonna do?
- We're gonna keep packing.

I still don't have any notes for Thursday.

I swear to God, if somebody doesn't
find my damn cell phone...

- Hi, baby.
- Hey, Mama.

[Avery] Oh! Coffee, Ingrid.

All right. How was London?

When you texted me about Meredith,

you failed to mention you fired Hunt
and Altman, Mom.

Don't forget about Shepherd and Bailey.

Really?

Oh, come on. I kept the interns.

Richard reminded me that if I didn't,

we'd lose our government funding
for the programs.

And Lord knows we can't stand
to lose another dime.

These are top surgeons
we're talking about.

If they can't respect the Foundation, then
they shouldn't work for it. End of story.

What about Meredith? You at least try
to talk to her since she quit?

I wouldn't talk
to that entitled fire starter

if we were the last two remaining people
on this earth

and it was the only way
to save civilization.

Okay. Did you read their abstract
at least?

Of course I did.

Okay. Data seems pretty incredible.

Yeah. That's why we're not gonna stop
until we get it all back.

Mm-hmm.

- Mrs. Nevins needs an updated... Thank you.
- Prescription. I got you.

I know volunteering at the clinic
isn't exactly what you had in mind

when you left SFD.

I am helping people and you.

But it might not be for much longer.

Residency director at Seattle Pres can
squeeze me in for an interview next week.

Um, what about Grey-Sloan?

I'm not applying to any Fox hospitals.

Your loyalty isn't necessary.

Catherine let you go. You.

I don't trust her. And you wanted
to slap her. You know, and then...

What?

I heard a rumor that
the new residency director starts today.

Oh. Well, good.

- You're okay?
- [scoffs] I'm in my clinic.

I've got more time for the kids,
opportunities to pursue research.

Never been better. I wish the
new person best of luck. They'll need it.

Mm-hmm.

- Whoa. Sorry.
- It's all good.

- Nervous? About the new boss.
- Right. No.

[Griffith] Yasuda said today's
the deadline.

Yeah. End of day.

I haven't decided.

Both places have their pros and cons.

[doctor] The energy's so warm in here
it reminds me of a mother's womb.

[laughs] Not that I remember
being in one, but...

Hi. I am Sydney Heron.
I am your new fearless leader. [chuckles]

I mean, not new-new. You know,
I did my residency here.

So think of me as one of you guys, okay?

Who's ready to heal with love?

- Shouldn't we be getting our assignments?
- While moving quickly?

Uh, no. The better I know you,
the better surgeon I can make you.

So, name, nickname,
novel you've always wanted to write.

Who wants to go first, huh? [laughs]

Hey, you two. Congratulations
on making it to work through the traffic.

- You drive electric, Schmitt?
- I ride a bike.

Even better. Hey, you're with me today.
Meet me downstairs in 20.

Okay.

I keep trying to tell him.

And then everyone got fired, and it felt
weird to celebrate something.

I'm scared of how he's gonna react.

And I'm scared of how I'll react
to how he reacts. And...

[sighs] Okay.

What? I don't make fun of your fears.

That's literally what
our entire friendship is based on.

Well, whatever.

He thinks the world
is gonna end tomorrow anyway

from melting ice caps,
so maybe none of this matters.

Maybe it doesn't matter
if you don't have a baby

because I won't be a peds surgeon
that can take care of it.

- Why does my baby need surgery?
- That was a hypothetical.

No, your peds fellowship
is a hypothetical. I'm actually pregnant.

And you don't think that
that is minimizing my fears?

I have to throw up.

You can't just use that as an excuse
to not answer the...

Ndugu,

I saw that you put my name on the board
for the Ivor Lewis this afternoon.

You need to find someone else.

I need help upstairs.

Thanks to your wife, my department's down
Altman, and I'm running Owen's service.

And I'm the interim chief.

Are you avoiding the OR
after what happened with Garrett?

Once his aneurysm ruptured, he had a
high mortality rate no matter what we did.

Yes, it was a bad outcome, but that's just
what it was, not a sign of anything else.

I didn't ask your opinion. I'm not
scrubbing in on complex procedures...

[tires screech]

[driver] No, no, no, don't. Oh...

Is he dead? Is he dead?

Is this simple enough for you?

Jackson. Hey. I read your article
on salvaging compromised flaps.

Uh-huh.

- I don't know how you have time to... Uh.
- Where is she?

Welcome back.

You know, you're supposed to respond
to these, Mer. You have a lawyer?

- Can you recommend one?
- Meredith...

Can you tell Catherine to stop
sending cease and desist letters

to everyone who's interested
in a potential Alzheimer's cure?

Your abstract broke the field.
What do you expect?

Right, and now a lot of people
wanna work with us.

Those people aware
of your misuse of funds,

breach of contract, a signed noncompete?

I'm not here
to make things easier for you.

I was also the source of those letters.

Something you would know if you
answered any of my calls or texts.

Look, I need a crash cart and a C-collar.

Adams, fire department's on the way.
Can you feel a pulse?

Yeah, I'm trying, but he looks pretty...
Yeah, th-there's a pulse.

All right.
Diminished breath sounds bilaterally,

abrasions, no apparent deep lacerations.

- I'm Dr. Adams. Can you tell me your name?
- Charlie.

Charlie, we're gonna get you out of here.

I think you're gonna be okay,
but we need to get you inside.

- I'm gonna be in so much trouble.
- It was an accident.

I don't have my license yet.

I snuck out with the car to get boba,
and then I was...

Somehow I was in the wrong lane.
Then I was on the freeway.

There was a couple guys
hanging from the bridge,

and suddenly one fell into my dad's car.

What in the hell happened?

Bungee jumper off a bridge.
His cord snapped.

- [vomits]
- [doctor] Damn it.

[Ndugu] Hold up. Nobody touch the car
till we can secure his airway.

- Is he gonna be okay?
- Kwan, get the kid inside.

We need to protect his airway. He'll be
impossible to intubate in this position.

Here. Insert this all the way
to the back of his mouth.

All right. How do I know
when it's all the way in?

You'll feel resistance.

- Okay.
- Good.

How's she doing?

She's okay.

[Griffith] Wanda Gallagher, 67,
history of DVT.

Currently on warfarin.

Sustained blunt trauma to the neck

- after being struck with an object.
- A police baton.

I wasn't struck with it.
I kind of ran into it.

[Lacey] Because you were resisting arrest
from the Seattle police.

She was protesting

even though she promised me
she was done with all that

after I bailed her out last year
for vandalism.

I wasn't resisting arrest.

I was trying to separate myself
from the disrupters.

They ruin it for the rest of us.
Also, last year was a misunderstanding.

Mm-hmm. Passion.
So important in one's life.

- [Heron] Dr. Yasuda, plan?
- Mm-hmm.

I don't see any hard signs
of vascular injury,

but we should run labs to check her INR
and do a cervical CT angio

since she is at high risk for bleeding
because of her blood thinners.

Bleeding? Mom, this sounds serious.

You know what's also serious?

The effect of wildfire particles
on a young person's respiratory system.

Might as well have 'em start smoking
in elementary school.

I'm fighting for my grandchild,
which is more than their mother's doing.

I'm growing it.

And where was this concern
when I was growing up?

You worked for one
of the biggest oil companies in the world.

I need to go call Michael
and tell him what happened.

Excuse me. Unreal.

Bailey. You back?

Shh. Shh.

And no.

- Then what are you doing?
- None of your business.

Okay, wait. I heard
the new residency director started.

Have you seen them?

[grunts]

What?

You remind me of myself
when I was an intern, Dr. Miller.

It's Millin.

Inquisitive, direct, air of mystery.

Always important to...

to keep that sense of wonder and awe.
[gasps]

Miranda Bailey. Come here!

- Mmm. Sydney.
- Oh. Oh.

Isn't this fun?

I mean, a new generation of lady doctors

alongside our generation of lady doctors
all working together

to make the world a better pla...

Oh, Dr. Bailey and I
were co-residents back in the day.

And quite competitive, am I right?

We had our moments. Uh...

Oh, look at that. 911 at the clinic.
I better get back.

Clinic. Look at you doing
the clinic thing again.

Good for you. Now, I cannot imagine
being out of the OR,

but, hey, if it works for you, great.

So, where were we? Oh, yeah.

I'm the one that brought you in.
I rearranged whole departments,

I fundraised, I hired Nick and Amelia.

Well, I was never officially hired.

No one asked you to hire Nick.
Nick could've gotten a job anywhere.

Well, that's not the point,
and you know it.

Okay? This is not just about you
and my mom.

I brought you in so that I could be a part
of groundbreaking work.

If it were just you, that would be okay.
But it isn't.

You have no idea
how much you two are alike.

Catherine broke more rules than all of us,
but she was strategic about it.

She understood how to play the game.

I don't have time for games.

Give Amelia, Owen
and Teddy back their jobs.

I'll sell a percentage
of my shares of Grey-Sloan,

and I can pay you back everything.

This isn't about money. Not anymore.

I don't know why her ego
should inhibit this work.

What about you?

You know how many people
are desperately waiting for help,

and progress takes money.

We have it.

What are you suggesting?
You want my firstborn?

Worse. Apologize.

Charlie Scott, 29,
fell headfirst 30 feet into a windshield.

How is he alive?

X-rays show displaced clavicle fracture,
rib fractures,

buckle fracture of the sternum,
bilateral hemothoraxes and a hand injury.

It's like somebody shattered
a crystal vase inside his chest.

All right, Adams, what's our next move?

Bilateral chest tubes and pan-scan him
from head to toe.

You got it.
Let's prep for bilateral thoracostomies.

You... Looks like you have
all your bases covered, okay?

With all due respect,
he has multiple traumatic injuries,

and we're short surgeons.

We need all hands on deck, Chief.

- Where's his right index finger?
- Severed on impact.

Adams, do we have the finger?

I have no idea.

Then find it. As a surgeon, you should
know how important a digit is.

Give me gloves.

Your heart rate's elevated.

Last time I snuck the car out,
I dented the bumper.

I was grounded for two weeks.

They'll never trust me
behind the wheel again,

which means
I'll never pass my driver's test.

Well, there's always rideshares.

You shouldn't be driving
without a license,

but you didn't cause that wreck.

It was an accident.

Happens to the best of us.

Do you have any idea what it's like

to be in your dad's car all by yourself
one moment,

then all of a sudden, bam, someone just
shows up completely blindsiding you?

Have you called your parents?
You have your phone, right?

It's in the car still.
Look, I can't go back in there.

We're so sorry, Miss Gallagher.
Radiology's backed up.

The protest brought
in a surge of patients.

How is your pain?

Oh, barely feel it. Where's Lacey?

On the phone in the waiting room.

She was always closer to her dad.

Hey, I worked at a pipeline company
for 20 years.

It helped get her to college
but the hours were long.

Didn't allow
for a lot of mother-daughter time.

Do you still work there?

No, I quit ten years ago.

Been an activist ever since.
I worked in the PR department.

After the eighth oil leak, I decided
I can't write another press release.

You know, if our hearts were really going
out to the community,

we'd stop spilling the damn stuff.

That's why
I'm on the front lines fighting.

My daughter will never let me meet
my grandbaby if I get arrested again.

Hey, do I have time to go to the bathroom
before my scan?

Sure.

- I'll show you where it is.
- Thank you.

So, you can't imagine doing good things
for people?

Then you don't get to be a doctor.

Now, I'll tell you what you need to get...
Where are the damn urinary cups?

Bed four is all checked in.

Should I tell them you'll be there

after you've taken your anger out
on these gauze pads?

Her philosophy is to "heal with love."

Love does not heal. Science heals.
Medicine and trained doctors heal.

100%. What are we talking about?

Richard replaced me with Sydney Heron.

Sydney Heron.
We were in the same residency class.

She took my interns when I was pregnant
and slowed them down

with positivity and smiles
and-and-and butterflies.

Sounds evil?

I am the one that got those residents
back into shape.

I went on to be chief resident,
and I stayed to be an attending here

while she took a job in Florida.

Florida.

But you've got your clinic
and your research ideas...

Don't throw my words back at me,
Ben Warren.

Ndugu's doing a quick consult.
He'll meet us in CT.

I'm surprised to see you with us, Schmitt.

You've been spending most of your time
with Dr. Beltran.

Uh, right.
I actually might be reassessing peds.

Reassessing?

I might wanna keep my options open
for a bit.

Maybe stay in general surgery like you.

Schmitt, you're a fifth year
and a chief resident.

You need to be clear on what you want
or no one's gonna take you seriously.

Understood. Sir, I just...
I wanna make sure that I...

[machine beeps]

The left chest is full of blood.

He's getting more hypotensive and tachy.

We're gonna take him straight to the OR.
I'll page Ndugu on the way.

Excuse me. There are two police officers
in the exam room.

They want to speak to my mom.

After she's done in the bathroom,
we'll take her to radiology.

- They can speak to her after that.
- Did her results come back?

According to her labs,
her blood is clotting too slowly,

so we would like to admit her
for observation,

and she should really speak
to her primary doctor

- about managing her blood thinners.
- Good luck.

My mom is more concerned with Puget Sound
and its population of zooplankton

than her own health.

Well, she's not wrong.
It's what the salmon eat.

It's like a whole thing. I read about it.

How long has she been in the bathroom?

- Mom? Mom? Are you okay?
- Miss Gallagher?

She couldn't have just disappeared.

Or maybe she could have.

She climbed into the ceiling?

Your assistant isn't at her desk.
I'm sure she'd call security.

I'm here out of respect for Jackson.

Catherine? Catherine.

Damn it! Catherine.

Catherine.

Catherine.

Why aren't you in the OR?

Because I'm looking for
our patient's finger. Index, right hand.

I can't believe the guy who lost a digit
scored higher on the ABSITE than me.

I didn't lose it.

Our patient did when he busted through
the windshield. Help me look.

- Can't. Looking for Ian's phone.
- Finger trumps phone.

I'll give you a finger.

Have you always been an ass
or did it start when that girl left you?

- What are you talking about?
- Your fiancée. Molly, right?

Ex-fiancée, and she didn't leave me.

You know what?
Forget I ever said anything.

Uh-huh.

Bye, loser.

We've tried to track all the different
routes she could have taken,

but security will only allow maintenance
in the ceiling. So, when...

So, are they in the ceiling looking?

What exactly is the protocol?

Patients usually stay on the ground.

Lacey, Lacey, I want... I want you
to try to stay calm, okay?

Mmm.

Okay? Let's keep that baby safe, right?

So what they are trying to say
is there is no protocol

because this has never happened before,

which is strange because odd things
often happen here, but we will find her.

So, take a seat. Deep breaths, yeah?

Yeah. Great.

Okay.

- Now...
- We're gonna keep looking.

- I think I'm gonna go to the roof.
- Wow.

Who else was nervous
about her going into labor?

It's just what we need, right? A baby
in the lobby and Grandma in the ceiling.

So I'm gonna forward you the,
uh, hospital blueprint I received,

and also
I issued a hospital-wide alert. So...

That's it? You're not gonna get mad
or yell at us?

Yell? Oh, how silly. No. Hop to it.

I preferred yelling.

Obviously.

I don't see how gluing yourself to a train

or blocking a bridge will save us
from climate change.

You tell that to the people who marched
across the Edmund Pettus Bridge

for civil rights.

GIA stapler, BokHee.

That is a compelling point,
and I apologize.

Research has shown that
a lot of childhood diseases

could have been caused
by some kind of environmental exposure.

Contaminants, pesticides, solvents.

We have the solution
to prevent pain and loss,

but instead, we just keep making it worse.

I apologize again.

All right,
we've stapled the lung bleeders,

ligated the intercostal artery,
even clamped the hilum.

He's still bleeding.
Where's it coming from?

It must be venous. Coming from above.

- The subclavian?
- No, that's too far north.

The displaced clavicle fracture
could've injured it.

All right, fine. Let's check.

Okay, Schmitt. Let's retract the lung out
of the way, so we can see.

Okay.

Look there. See that break in the pleura?

Then it must be the subclavian vein.

All right.

Um, clamp. Let's ligate.

No, no, you won't get enough access here.

You're gonna have to do
a subclavian incision higher up.

The patient's bleeding out.
I'm not doing another incision.

Clamp. Now.

Damn it. I can't get full visualization.

Like I said.
It's impossible from that approach.

I'll do a subclavian incision,
but we need to move fast.

I need everyone's help
resecting the clavicle.

So, let's pack him and reposition.

Mmm.

Are you in any pain?

What happened?

You collapsed.

CT shows subacute Budd-Chiari syndrome.

You have a blood clot
in your hepatic vein and IVC

due to the hypercoagulable state
of your cancer.

Did you call Jackson or Richard?

Not yet.

Okay then.

I need to start you on anticoagulation.

I wanna start heparin drip.

Then we'll run some tests
and do some more labs

and see if you're a candidate
for a TIPS procedure.

You'll do heparin only. Nothing more.

I'm not pursuing any invasive treatments.

You could go into liver failure.

I know.

What about the tumor on your spine?
Do you know about that?

I saw it on your scans.

I do know about it.

But Richard and Jackson don't.

And you're not going to tell them.

Hey. Heron paged me,

said you needed help
looking for a patient.

It's okay.

I get it.

What?

Chicago.

You should go.

Whatever you and I are or were...

Security thinks she went south.

Not-Bailey said a patient
was in the ceiling.

Please tell me
there's a translation for that.

There is a patient in the ceiling.

I've spent my entire day looking
for people and fingers.

Millin probably digs Heron.

Why would you say that?

Well, she heals with love.
Probably meditates. She's untraditional.

No, she touched my hair.
No one should touch hair.

- I miss Bailey.
- Me too.

Adams got us into this mess.
Bailey was standing up for him, and he...

No way. She was standing up for all of us,
and I never asked anyone to do that.

- Well, Griffith did...
- Can everyone just shut up

and find the patient?

It'll go faster if we split up.

Get brooms.

Griffith, I've worked at this hospital
long enough to know,

hardly anyone uses this closet,
and nothing I'm taking will be missed.

- We lost a patient.
- Well, losses come with the job.

No, no, no. She's not dead.
We literally don't know where she is.

Not my problem anymore.

It should be.

Why aren't you fighting for your job?

Is it that easy to leave after everything
you've been through with us?

Why aren't you banging on doors? Yelling?
I thought you believed in us. I thought...

[banging]

[Wanda] Hello? Excuse me?

- Oh, my God.
- Oh, hell no.

- [Wanda] Hello? Little help, please.
- [banging]

- Security's on their way.
- What'd they say?

They mostly laughed.

[Wanda] I'm so sorry. I just...
I-I saw the police, and I got so nervous

and I thought that vent
would lead straight to the next room,

but then I fell over something in the dark

and I landed trapped between the walls.

Okay. We're getting help, Wanda.
Just hang in tight.

[Wanda] Okay. I just...
I really need to pee.

And it's getting harder to breathe.

- Ooh, are you claustrophobic?
- She could be bleeding.

- Her neck is...
- What?

She sustained blunt trauma to the neck.
She had a small contusion.

She disappeared
before we were able to scan her.

She's on blood thinners
from a history of DVT.

Okay, expanding neck hematoma
could be closing her airway.

- [crashes]
- Wanda? Wanda, say something!

- Oh, my God.
- [Bailey] Damn it.

Hey, Millin, get a crash cart.

- Yasuda, get maintenance. Now.
- Yeah.

- What is... Oh.
- [Griffith] Wanda?

Wanda, can you hear me?

Oh, good, good, good.

Okay. Get out of the way.
Get out of the way.

You know, you really don't have to wait
with me, Dr. Grey.

Okay. Well, then I should just go tell
Jackson to watch your heparin drip.

Richard should know too.

I'll tell them when I'm ready.

When will that be?

When your liver fails?

- [scoffs]
- Or when you need a transplant?

What late-stage cancer patient
gets a new liver, hmm?

Which is why you should consider
letting me do the surgery for this clot.

Could we just let the heparin
have a chance to work, please?

It would not hurt to think ahead.

Do you know how much work
planning for your own death is?

And I'm not just talking about picking out
a casket or making out a will.

I'm talking about taking stock
in your life

and making sure you've done everything
you wanna do with it.

I think about this every day.

And when I do,
there's two things that I know.

My family is perfect,
especially my grandbaby,

and I'm not ready to sit on the sidelines.

Catherine Fox,
you have had an extraordinary career.

What more do you want?

The more surgeries
and invasive procedures I get,

the more they define who I am.

I want people to remember my name

because of the advances I've made
in medicine,

for the risks that I've taken
to save lives,

for the firsts that I have achieved.

I would think you of all people
would understand that.

So keep your mouth shut.

And what if I don't?

Then you and your friends
will never get your jobs back.

You're threatening me over your health?

I've blackmailed people over far less.

[Yasuda] Can you see her yet?

- [Bailey] What the heck.
- I've got the crash cart.

Oh, I see her.

Uh, she's unconscious.
Okay. Okay. We gotta go.

Come on. Come on.

- All right.
- We're coming, Wanda!

Maintenance is here!

Come on. Let's go.

Hi, she's down here.

Is he okay? The guy's... I don't know.

Is his family here yet?

I'm not sure, but I can check.

I just made
the junior varsity tennis team,

and we have a match on Wednesday.

Sophomore formal is on Saturday.

But this guy might not live.

And I... I can't do anything ever again
if he can't.

You can. You'll pick up the racket,

put on the suit
or get behind the wheel again.

And you'll put one foot
in front of the other.

And it'll suck for a while,

but eventually, it'll suck less.

Look, I know it sounds cold,

but it's life.

You really think that?

I... do.

Good. Thank you.

Pulse is weak, but it's there.

Okay, she needs an airway right now.

- Tube, please.
- On it.

- All right. Thank you.
- Here you go.

Good. Good. Good.

Come on. Come on. Damn it.

It's too much compression,
I won't be able to get it in.

We need to decompress the hematoma.
Millin, Betadine.

Griffith, be ready to pack the wound.

Yasuda, oxygen.

Scalpel.

We're ready?

Oh, goodness.

- Okay, let's pack.
- Okay.

[Bailey] We need to get her to an OR.

[Ndugu] He's getting too hypotensive.
We need to move faster.

[Lincoln] All right.
Removing the clavicle.

[Ndugu] All right. All right.
I see the injury. Clamp.

Here we go.

All right. Bleeding stopped.

We've got proximal vascular control.
5-0 Prolene.

Dr. Webber, you caught the bleed.
Why don't you do the honors?

No. Go ahead. You're already there.

No, I insist.

You wanna stay
in general surgery, Schmitt?

It's time to step up.

Let's do it.

I found the finger.

Well, Kwan did, but it's here.

- Keep going, Schmitt.
- It's too late.

Let's go.

Hey, we had to decompress the hematoma.

Her sats have been increasing
over the last three minutes,

but she needs a formal neck exploration
and closure in the OR.

- Okay. We're headed straight there.
- Yep.

Special thanks for helping
my interns, Miranda.

Yeah, you can go now.
Yeah. I got it from here.

I'm sorry about the planet.

Sorry about your ABSITE.

Damn it, Jo.

Kyler Murray.

Ninth overall pick
in the 2018 draft by the A's.

Top left fielder, but also

the number one overall pick
for the Arizona Cardinals.

Cardinals is football.

- Okay.
- Okay, um.

Take quidditch.

Harry. He's the seeker,

but there's no reason
he couldn't also be a chaser.

They all fly brooms.
They all train the same way.

He might not even know yet if he has
the skills to try a different position.

You're gonna be a good dad.

I already am.

That's what I meant.

Hey, were you able to reattach it?

It'd been too long.
Lincoln just closed the wound with a flap.

She saved me.

Molly.

When my mom was sick,
I was drowning in grief,

and she pulled me out of it.

One day we got into an ugly fight,

and before I knew it, she drove away.

Sh-She didn't even make it to the highway
before she was hit by a reckless driver.

And just like that,

I was a stranger.

And I...

I couldn't stay.

I'm sorry.

Yeah.

Me too.

Is she gonna be okay?

She is.

We found the source
of the bleeding and stopped it.

We'll go over her recovery with her
in the morning, if you'd like to join.

Yeah.

You almost got yourself killed again.

You climbed into a ceiling.

I don't wanna talk about this right now.

[Lacey] Of course you don't.

You march on bridges and scream at CEOs
and fight fossil fuels,

but you won't even talk
to your own daughter.

I know you're trying to make up
for what you did in the past,

but that should include me too.

You want a relationship
with your granddaughter.

Well, I wanted a relationship
with my mother.

Wanda's in the ICU.

Her wound exploration was simple.

We irrigated, ligated
and Dr. Heron let me close.

How nice.

[Bailey] And I did fight.

Putting my job on the line for all of you,
that was me fighting.

What happened, it's not your fault.

And you can't carry
everyone else's choices on your shoulders.

Hey,

you always know where to find me.

What's with the urgent text?

Uh, I wanted to go over Charlie's surgery
with you again. Step by step.

Did something happen? Is he okay?

No, he's fine. He's still stable.

Sorry, I should've led with that.

No kidding.

Look, I gave the vascular repair
to Schmitt because I didn't feel up to it.

And I haven't decided anything
about my future in the OR yet.

But I just don't have it in me
to do a skills assessment tonight.

Well, this isn't for you. This is for me.

We both know I was trained by the best,

but I've been taught to operate
within a very specific specialty.

And today, when something outside
of that field went wrong,

I didn't step back to look
at the whole picture.

I want you to take me through it all again

and show me what I missed
and why we fixed it the way we did.

Well, they taught surgery
quite differently when I trained.

This could take a while.

I got all night.

- Show me what you have.
- All right.

Oh, here you all are.

In the best room in the hospital.
The room for improvement.

Get some rest. And I will see you bright
and early tomorrow morning, 6:00 a.m.

The early bird does get the worm.

[both groan]

I need a drink. Anyone?

I need to make a call.

I don't wanna get stuck in a wall.

Is that your way of saying
we need to talk about what happened?

What almost happened.

Okay. What almost happened.

- I think a patient died.
- Mm-hmm.

- We were upset.
- Mm-hmm.

And we had a moment
where we felt terrible,

- and we were just trying to...
- Not feel terrible.

- Exactly.
- Yeah.

Friends?

I almost told him twice today.

You have to tell him.
I'm not raising this baby with you.

Shut up. I've been puking all day.

It's all gone.
All the crackers and fluids and dignity.

It's all down the toilet.

Okay. We need a safe word

for the next nine months
for when you get too graphic or mean.

Like, "jelly beans"
or "disinfectant" or something.

We need to put a limit
on how much you can talk.

Why are you in a good mood?

I need you to be miserable with me.
Think about peds.

No. I'm gonna think about quidditch.

- Hmm?
- I might find a new path. Or not.

For all I know, I might be
some other specialty's secret weapon.

Quidditch. What?

I thought that dude was eyeing Schmitt.

Good for him.

You're turning down fries

and wine...

Are you?

Are we?

Yep.

[laughs] Oh, my God.

[both laugh]

God.

[Grey] If you do the work,
you can train yourself

to hold anything inside
without negative consequences.

My shift is over. If you need something,
the staff can help you inside.

I... I've spent the past few years
putting together memories.

Trying to rebuild my life

so I could know who I am
and who I'm supposed to be.

You know, but after everything,

I've always felt like something
was still missing.

[Kwan stammers]

I mean, this is you.

But most people don't have that discipline

or time.

They just bury it inside
and hope it stays there.

Hey.

You should apply to Grey-Sloan.

Mm-hmm. I built a world-class program,
and you deserve to be in it.

- Even without you?
- No.

'Cause I'm getting my job back.

- Don't do it.
- [knocking]

- Let it out. Be loud.
- [knocking continues]

Yeah, I'm coming.

I swear to God.

Hi.

- Hi.
- Is everything...

I'm staying.

You're not going to Chicago?

I'm not going to Chicago.

Make everyone hear you.

Because if you don't...

How did it go?

Good. Good.

Where the hell were you?

- Did you talk to my mom?
- I did.

- Uh-huh.
- Yeah.

She said you will stop the injunctions
and the cease and desist letters.

And everyone can have their jobs back.

Oh, thank God.

And you'll continue the research?

Yes, I will.

But not here.

Not here?

But I thought you said
we could have our jobs.

You can.

You should take yours in Seattle.

And, uh, the research will just go
in a different direction.

...it will eat you up inside.