All language subtitles for When I Was Five I Killed Myself (2004) 2

You're lucky not to
be in music class,

I always feel stupid
singing this song

"In the clear fountain.
walk my way"

"I found the water so beautiful
I am bathed me."

There has long as I love you
I will never forget.

"On the highest branch
there was a nightingale..."

Enter!

- Hello ma'am.
- Hello dear.

- The director sent me.
- "Madame" Director!

Continue, Gil.

Continue!

All around us
people are jealous

They all blame me
to have eyes for you too sweet.

to love you madly my love!
madly in love night and day!

It's not nice!
But I do not care,

how they behaved
because I think it's normal

to love you madly my love!
madly in love night and day!

I think every moment
anything can happen

but my heart can not change
it will really always for you!

To love you madly my love!
To love you madly night and day!

One day if you want
can be from both

From making fun
those enraged at seeing us,

to love you madly my love!
To love you madly night and day!

Every day the postman comes
but I'd get no letter from Jessica.

And every day I asked Doctor Nevele
if there was a letter for me.

And he replied "NO,"
he is a villain with nose hair!

To hide something from you...

nothing makes me so sick,
it is disgusting...

Mailman! Please!
Give me my letter!

- The letter from Jessica!
- What are you talking about?

Jessica Wilson, she
said she would write.

Yes, but the mail goes
first to the secretary.

- Give me my letters!
- Oh no!

Let me go! Let me go!
I want my letters!

- But wait!
- I want my letters!

Are we done with this here?

Let me go! Let me go!

You're hurting me!

Go away! Let me go!

Give me my letters!

Give me my letters.

- What are you doing here?
- I was waiting for you.

By what right do you
deprive Gil of his letters?

It's none of your business,
but I'll answer.

Sit down.

When I examine him, his refusal
to communicate is total,

Not to mention the violence.

For me it was important once we
decided to keep the child here,

that I establish a classic
system of reward.

That you understand very well.

The mail is a part of this.

There is nothing for
this kid here. Nothing.

This is not about illness;
It is a love story!

But you understand nothing.

Just release him and
he will be cured.

What you just said there has
completely erased my doubts!

You were warned,

a suspension of 10 days,
to give you time to think.

And then if you want to continue your
internship you'll be in another section.

I'm talking to you about a child who's suffering!

And you reply, "temporary suspension?"

That is why Gil will
never talk to you! Never!

Keep him 10 years, 20 years if it
amuses you. He will remain silent.

Leave, Valmont.

Jessica said she would write to me
if we were ever separated.

Let's forget Jessica for a moment.

Speak to me instead about your school.

I will not speak to you.

Yeah! Go Gil!
Defend yourself!

Ah! Just you and me, Dr. Nevele!

Oh no, no!

And your favorite subject, what is it?

Mom? How come Jessica is
not in the directory?

- Who?
- Jessica, a girlfriend.

It only has father's names,
not the children's.

- Hello?
- Hello? Jessica?

It's Gil from the school.

Ah Gil, my Papa died.

[ Gil names his puppet "Thierry le Pantin" ]

I decided to go
to Jessica's house.

I was not alone,
Thierry le Pantin was with me.

It was raining 'cats and dogs,'

as my brother would say.

Tignasse says when it's raining
"God is taking a piss."

I looked in the windows
of Jessica's house.

Telling myself that maybe she saw me.

Perhaps she was looking at me.

I didn't see her.

But maybe she was there, anyway.

So I stayed all day!

And then night fell.

Gil?... Excuse me.

But where have you been?
Your father and I were worried!

We waited for you!
You know what time it is?

So? Where have you been?

Look at you! You're soaked!

Go on, go to your room and
put on your pajamas.

When we returned to school
Jessica was not there.

It's normal, you know. You're allowed
to miss when somebody dies.

and it's a shame.

You go to the back of the classroom and
make me a beautiful table display

with a beautiful blue sky
and small white clouds.

Miss Iris is the successor
to Madam Choltes,

who'd become too old
even to be a teacher.

Everybody in their place?

Yes?

So we will have Show and Tell,
as I told you before the holidays.

Have a seat over there,

We're going to take turns
telling what we did.

Well, Anne, would you like to start?

For the holidays we went
to my aunt's in Toulouse,

a city where there are lots of monuments,
museums, and historical sites.

- "We went to see..."
- Anne Jandrot... I don't like her.

She is the ugliest girl in Europe, man.

You should see her when she smiles!
All happy like an idiot!

I swear it! When she was born
his parents said: "What a treasure!"

So they buried her.

She is so ugly that she strips
the leaves from the trees!

Tignasse! How many times have I told
you not to eat candy in class!

We don't suck candies when
we can't offer one to everyone!

Bon appetit, everyone!

Back to your places!
And you come with me.

Arms folded and heads down, everyone!

Until you have calmed down.

That's enough, Anne. Sit down
and cross your arms like the others.

The other morning
I woke up very early,

and I got a surprise when
I looked out the window.

I discovered that I could
see to Mont Blanc

and I saw my horse Blacky,

his mane blew in the wind...

and dust flew around his hooves.

I went on our porch
which was full of flowers

there was a small boy
on the sidewalk.

Then I said:

"Why do have your raincoat on, boy?
It's not raining!"

He gave me a puppet and
we went for a walk.

We went to a long sidewalk
and slid down a chute

to a place that was full of toys.

There were dolls, models
and 'Bécassines.'

Then we went to a place
where there was a car...

with keys in it, so we drove to
Côte d'Azur for 3 hours.

Afterwards, we were very tired,
we went home to my house.

There, we did magic tricks
until we fell asleep.

When we woke up...'

we were 'grown-up.'

We should go!
We are not covered and it's raining!

We'll get sick!

Hurry, we will be soaked!

- We need coats!
- You said it.

Oh!

It's the truant officer!

He will catch us and
send us to reform school!

What do we do?

It's not! It's a meter reader!

You know when you want
something very much,

you must make a a prayer to the stars.

You put your hands together like that.

Normally you kneel
but I don't always.

It's not required, and you look
at a star and say your prayers.

Star light, star bright

First star I see tonight,

I wish I may, I wish I might,

Have the wish I wish tonight.

I want for Jessica to write me, please.

To know if she is well and
if she still remembers me.

Well, Gil, what are you doing here?

I made a wish upon a star.

You should make one too.

There aren't any stars!

I know.

Good, well, I must get back to my wing.

Good night, Karl.

- Well, well, good night.
- Good night.

I think I'm being fired, Gil.
They asked me to leave.

Mrs. Cochrane? You waited for me
here because I was not in my bed?

- You've looked for me everywhere?
- Yes.

It was you who wrote that?

- Huh?
- Yes.

Seven Mile Road is black
with white stripes,

And Lodi Street here, well, it is gray.

And Marlot street, it has stones in it.

I find it very interesting.

It's like the man there,

the more he walks away,
the more he seems to shrink.

Because the earth is round;
we learned this in science.

What if it's not true,
like when they have fire drills?

Perhaps this man is really
becoming very small!

Can I do something
for you, my boy?

I... I'm shopping for toys
for my children.

I have two son.
Gil and Don Diego.

They are extraordinary boys.

They are first in
everything at school.

Not bad these balloons!

Hello Ma'am. I am the meter reader
for the water company.

Follow me to the basement.

It's a trap! It's a trap!
You'll never take us alive!

This one is a little too light.
I better buy something else.

Hey! I might be buying
one of these kangaroos here.

But I'll keep looking...

because between you and me,
the price is a scandal!

Young man! Unless you have
money to buy something,

I'm obliged to ask you to leave!

Unaccompanied children
are forbidden here.

But he's not unaccompanied.
He is with me.

This is not real Bécassine!
[ doll based on a comic strip ]

She has real button eyes,
not plastic.

Would you not have a real
Bécassine, Madame, please?

I'm sorry, miss.
It is a real Bécassine!

And now your little brother
and you, you must go!

No, I'm sorry!
This is not real!

I had a real one, and she died.

She died in hospital,
same time as my Papa.

And now children:
Goodbye!

You know, Madame,
today is a holiday in our religion,

My brother and I came
here to buy toys.

You know, it is better to give
than to receive.

But because you don't
want us to stay here,

we are not able to buy.

This is very sad for you, Madame.
Very sad!

Adieu Madame.

You better pray!

We've left,
I'm taking you on a trip.

Bécassine did not die alone.

It was I who killed her... in the hospital.

When I went to see my Papa.

He was under a tent,
with plastic tubes everywhere.

His eyes were open
but he said nothing.

I said: "What's wrong, Papa!
It is Contessa!"

But he looked away.

I thought it was
because of the plastic.

That it was why he couldn't see.
So I wanted to tear it.

I pushed it away with my hand.

I was furious at my Papa.
He would not talk to me.

I shouted that he was wicked.

My aunt pulled me back.
She took me out of the room.

I had Bécassine with me.

She made me sit down
on the hard chairs.

Mama came out crying.

She said to my aunt that
it was all over.

And to take me back home.

But I screamed that
I wanted to see Papa.

My aunt held me real hard.

She wouldn't let me go.

She said there were things
that children don't understand.

So I decided I didn't want
to be children anymore.

I took Bécassine...

and I killed her...

in the wastebasket.

By the elevator.

Don't worry, Jessica.

We're heading to the Côte d'Azur.

The policeman had a revolver
but he didn't kill us.

He was a very nice police officer
and he liked children.

He said it was dangerous,
driving cars inside a store,

and he let us go,

if we went straight home.

When we came out I heard
the man in a suit who said:

"Is that all? You're letting
them go just like that?"

And the policeman said,
"I guess you were never a kid."

I'll go in and let you in the back, okay?

You see now the head of the
man who lives in the moon?

Do you see? I have foggy glasses.

This is my mother's bag.

Peter Pan is a girl.

They made her look like a boy
but he is a girl!

They just cut her hair short

and make her wear a tight brassiere.

I'm not old enough to wear a brassiere.

But I have one,
Mom gave it to me, for when I am.

Look! I am a camel!

You don't have to cry, huh?

I'm not.

That's what I say!
There's no reason to cry!

- Well, I don't cry!
- But no! It was a joke!

Jessica! It was a joke!

We'll pretend. I dunno...

Something. So you won't be so sad.

I am fed up with games for children!

I don't want to be
children any more! I don't!

I won't let anyone hurt you!

I am going to do a magic trick
so that we're not children anymore.

You're my friend.

My Mama told me that when
I grow up I would love someone.

It would mean
I would protect them from harm.

I thought it would be Tignasse,
but no, it was Jessica!

Oh no! Oh no! Oh no!

The next day, my father and
mother brought me here.

The Pâquerettes Children's Home,

and they left me.

Jessica's mother made them do it.

I've heard that they could
bring specific charges,

but they also thought it would be best.

Now, I've been here 2 months.

I do not know if you know,
but Edouard is back.

I don't see him because
he doesn't come to my wing.

But this morning...

- Edouard?
- Gil?

I have something for you.

For a week I've been
lugging it around.

Edouard!

Dear Gil, I don't know
if I'll be able to write again,

because my mother's taking
me to a private school tomorrow.

The doctor of the school
advised her to send me there.

He said that what happened
will bother me for a long time.

He gave my mother pills
to make me sleep.

The night I came home from hospital,
she put me to bed in her room.

When she left, I got up and
I went to my own room.

I'd lay there, but I could not sleep,

I was afraid, and I heard a noise.

I really listened,
listened, very hard.

I was afraid.

It was dark,

there was only one little bit of
light coming from the street

and I saw Thierry le Pantin
sitting on the windowsill,

He looked outside,
the noise... it was him.

Thierry le Pantin sang.

I listened forever to the singing,

He sang, he sang, he sang,

it was sweet, and when I was asleep,
I dreamed about rainbows.

Blacky!

Slowly, Blacky.

Go! Sit down!

Sit down, Blacky!

And I galloped on the back of Blacky.

Until the end of houses,
until the end of people

until there was nobody,
no more schools, no more prisons.

Nothing... just Jessica.

Gil took over a year to learn "the rules."

They let him go home.

He thought only of Jessica.

One day he found her.