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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:01,131 --> 00:00:02,002 [brooding music] 2 00:00:04,961 --> 00:00:05,831 [bells ringing] 3 00:00:43,652 --> 00:00:44,479 [insects chirping] 4 00:00:48,657 --> 00:00:49,484 [waves crashing] 5 00:01:04,890 --> 00:01:09,808 [gentle brooding music] [Ben gasping] 6 00:01:13,899 --> 00:01:14,726 [insects chirping] 7 00:01:34,268 --> 00:01:35,095 [Ben coughing] 8 00:01:51,241 --> 00:01:52,808 - [Roommate] What's in the box? 9 00:01:59,815 --> 00:02:01,860 Are you gonna talk today? 10 00:02:07,127 --> 00:02:09,346 - So then you know I switched puddings, 11 00:02:09,520 --> 00:02:11,783 uh like chocolate, butterscotch, unflavored. 12 00:02:11,957 --> 00:02:13,959 So one time I spill this chocolate pudding 13 00:02:14,134 --> 00:02:16,397 on this white shepherd, my friend Kathy's, 14 00:02:16,571 --> 00:02:18,703 and I couldn't get it out, I was scrubbing and scrubbing, 15 00:02:18,877 --> 00:02:21,184 and this, like the fur came off on his head, 16 00:02:21,358 --> 00:02:22,881 and I didn't know what to do, 17 00:02:23,055 --> 00:02:26,363 so uh, I just let him, I just let him out. 18 00:02:26,537 --> 00:02:28,844 Um, and everyone was like freaking out. 19 00:02:29,018 --> 00:02:30,672 Like where'd, where'd Kenzo go? 20 00:02:30,846 --> 00:02:32,239 And like they were looking for weeks, 21 00:02:32,413 --> 00:02:34,502 and they, they put up uh, lost dog signs, 22 00:02:34,676 --> 00:02:37,374 and I would just like, uh like rip 'em down. 23 00:02:37,548 --> 00:02:41,291 And uh, yeah, it's like kinda crazy 24 00:02:41,465 --> 00:02:44,381 'cause I'll still hear the dog barking at night. 25 00:02:49,517 --> 00:02:51,910 [man snoring] 26 00:03:03,052 --> 00:03:05,402 [dog barking] 27 00:03:18,198 --> 00:03:22,114 [birds chirping] [head thuds] 28 00:03:22,289 --> 00:03:24,682 [Ben sighs] 29 00:03:30,688 --> 00:03:31,950 - You're back on the dick? 30 00:03:33,343 --> 00:03:36,216 I don't understand, a month ago you were gonna marry Riley, 31 00:03:42,047 --> 00:03:43,745 and now you're back on the dick. 32 00:03:51,187 --> 00:03:52,101 I love you. 33 00:03:59,891 --> 00:04:00,718 [nose blowing] [phone ringing] 34 00:04:08,248 --> 00:04:12,948 - My goddamn genetic disposition for allergies. 35 00:04:13,122 --> 00:04:15,211 What the hell is there mold in the rafters? 36 00:04:18,519 --> 00:04:20,347 Is there a toxic mold problem here? 37 00:04:21,565 --> 00:04:22,697 You know about it? 38 00:04:22,871 --> 00:04:25,482 Hey, you curlicue, peekaboo. 39 00:04:27,528 --> 00:04:29,312 I'm Theresa, I'm new. 40 00:04:29,486 --> 00:04:31,793 - Hey, I'm Ben. 41 00:04:33,447 --> 00:04:34,274 - Cute Ben. 42 00:04:37,668 --> 00:04:39,888 You look like you've been doing a lot of CrossFit. 43 00:04:43,195 --> 00:04:45,633 I have acting class at seven tonight, 44 00:04:47,504 --> 00:04:50,028 we're working on the classics, 45 00:04:51,160 --> 00:04:54,250 but at eight, I'm as free as a kite. 46 00:04:58,210 --> 00:04:59,081 You got a girlfriend? 47 00:05:01,344 --> 00:05:02,214 [Theresa moaning] 48 00:05:08,395 --> 00:05:09,265 Oh, my god. 49 00:05:11,963 --> 00:05:12,790 Oh, my god. 50 00:05:13,965 --> 00:05:17,229 Oh, my childhood, my innocent childhood. 51 00:05:17,404 --> 00:05:19,188 Happiness awoke with me every morning, 52 00:05:19,362 --> 00:05:21,973 it was just like this all, all white. 53 00:05:22,147 --> 00:05:25,673 After the dark, dismal autumn and the cold, cold winter 54 00:05:25,847 --> 00:05:27,588 you are young again full of happiness, 55 00:05:27,762 --> 00:05:30,330 the angels of heaven have not abandoned you. 56 00:05:30,504 --> 00:05:33,115 [birds chirping] 57 00:05:33,289 --> 00:05:34,159 - Benny. 58 00:05:35,770 --> 00:05:36,553 - [Ben] Ma. 59 00:05:38,120 --> 00:05:40,078 - I want you to know that I love you very much. 60 00:05:42,429 --> 00:05:43,865 - [Ben] You love me? 61 00:05:44,039 --> 00:05:47,608 - And your dad, he loves you very much too, 62 00:05:47,782 --> 00:05:51,089 and your Aunt Cindy, even the people at Panera. 63 00:05:52,352 --> 00:05:53,527 The Obama's love you. 64 00:05:54,441 --> 00:05:56,051 God, he loves you too. 65 00:05:56,225 --> 00:05:57,574 - Ma. - He does. 66 00:05:57,748 --> 00:05:58,575 - [Ben] I get it. 67 00:06:01,578 --> 00:06:02,884 - You know what they say? 68 00:06:04,102 --> 00:06:05,190 A mother always knows. 69 00:06:08,193 --> 00:06:09,107 Your mother did know. 70 00:06:17,202 --> 00:06:18,073 You okay? 71 00:06:21,381 --> 00:06:22,251 - Yeah. 72 00:06:23,687 --> 00:06:24,514 [upbeat music] 73 00:06:27,735 --> 00:06:30,128 [man moaning] 74 00:06:30,302 --> 00:06:33,044 ♪ I'm gonna take a stab at this ♪ 75 00:06:33,218 --> 00:06:34,742 [wings fluttering] 76 00:06:34,916 --> 00:06:39,268 ♪ Sure you will be all right ♪ 77 00:06:39,442 --> 00:06:43,794 ♪ Make a decision with a kiss ♪ 78 00:06:43,968 --> 00:06:47,537 ♪ Baby I have false spite ♪ 79 00:06:47,711 --> 00:06:50,279 - I'm a Aquarius, Gemini new, Gemini rising, 80 00:06:50,453 --> 00:06:53,282 but my personality disorders 81 00:06:53,456 --> 00:06:55,066 would suggest that I'm a Pisces. 82 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:57,852 ♪ Back home ♪ 83 00:06:58,026 --> 00:07:00,811 ♪ I make sure that ♪ 84 00:07:02,247 --> 00:07:06,251 - Oh, oh, I, I'm so sorry. 85 00:07:06,426 --> 00:07:08,993 ♪ Would it fall ♪ 86 00:07:09,907 --> 00:07:11,213 Teabag all on you. 87 00:07:13,041 --> 00:07:13,868 Just, uh. 88 00:07:16,305 --> 00:07:19,090 Whoa, whoa! [laughs] 89 00:07:19,264 --> 00:07:20,178 You, oh, you. 90 00:07:20,352 --> 00:07:23,312 ♪ It was a trick ♪ 91 00:07:23,486 --> 00:07:27,664 ♪ This isn't a gunfight ♪ 92 00:07:27,838 --> 00:07:32,321 ♪ Checking it off my list ♪ 93 00:07:32,495 --> 00:07:37,239 ♪ Unable to rewrite ♪ 94 00:07:37,413 --> 00:07:42,200 ♪ Five years cast once and far alone ♪ 95 00:07:46,727 --> 00:07:47,423 ♪ Hope I'm ♪ 96 00:07:47,597 --> 00:07:49,077 - Mask, mask. 97 00:07:49,251 --> 00:07:50,644 - Me? - Yeah, this is 98 00:07:50,818 --> 00:07:52,646 my murder beard, this is my murder beard. 99 00:07:52,820 --> 00:07:54,517 This is how I pull 'em in. 100 00:07:54,691 --> 00:07:58,347 Lure 'em to dark things, which clearly it worked for you. 101 00:07:58,521 --> 00:08:00,567 - Mm-hmm. - Mm-hmm, mm-hmm. 102 00:08:02,133 --> 00:08:02,960 - No. [grunts] 103 00:08:13,971 --> 00:08:14,798 [man vocalizing] 104 00:08:19,411 --> 00:08:20,282 [group chattering] 105 00:08:28,638 --> 00:08:33,556 ♪ They go, we go, I want you to know what I did, I did ♪ 106 00:08:35,993 --> 00:08:40,868 ♪ They go, we go, I want you to know what I did, I did ♪ 107 00:08:42,739 --> 00:08:47,657 ♪ They go, we go, I want you to know what I did, I did ♪ 108 00:08:49,485 --> 00:08:50,355 [birds chirping] 109 00:09:17,774 --> 00:09:18,601 [traffic humming] 110 00:09:25,913 --> 00:09:26,740 [bell ringing] 111 00:10:02,776 --> 00:10:03,603 It's good. 112 00:10:05,430 --> 00:10:06,867 I honestly couldn't put it down. 113 00:10:08,477 --> 00:10:09,609 Read it in one sitting. 114 00:10:16,703 --> 00:10:18,226 I think it's Nietzsche's best. 115 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:24,101 Maybe he's least accessible, but worth the pain. 116 00:10:29,585 --> 00:10:31,369 He killed himself after writing it. 117 00:10:32,283 --> 00:10:33,110 - Oh, yeah? 118 00:10:35,460 --> 00:10:36,984 Think we ever truly evolve? 119 00:10:38,899 --> 00:10:40,465 - Well, it depends on how hungry you are. 120 00:10:54,479 --> 00:10:57,395 Hey, you wanna grab a drink some time? 121 00:10:58,527 --> 00:10:59,397 - Uh. 122 00:11:02,444 --> 00:11:03,401 Sure. 123 00:11:05,708 --> 00:11:08,493 - Here put your phone number in there. 124 00:11:08,668 --> 00:11:09,538 I'm Ben. 125 00:11:11,627 --> 00:11:12,497 - Sam. 126 00:11:18,721 --> 00:11:19,940 - What are you doing right now? 127 00:11:21,115 --> 00:11:22,638 - I have uh, a friend's thing 128 00:11:22,812 --> 00:11:25,423 and a month's worth of laundry to do so. 129 00:11:30,124 --> 00:11:34,171 But I uh, don't really feel like doing any of it. 130 00:11:40,700 --> 00:11:41,657 [children yelling] 131 00:11:41,831 --> 00:11:42,571 Oh, he about come get his ass, 132 00:11:42,745 --> 00:11:44,355 oh, he about to go, go. 133 00:11:44,529 --> 00:11:46,401 [Ben laughs] 134 00:11:46,575 --> 00:11:48,446 - Oh, that's kid's gonna have PTSD. 135 00:11:50,274 --> 00:11:52,450 In this gay part of town though that means um, 136 00:11:54,626 --> 00:11:58,195 playground's too sandy, daddy. 137 00:11:58,369 --> 00:11:59,327 [Sam laughs] 138 00:11:59,501 --> 00:12:00,763 Playground's too sandy, daddy. 139 00:12:01,982 --> 00:12:04,288 - Back in my day we didn't have playgrounds, 140 00:12:04,462 --> 00:12:06,334 just chat rooms and AOL. 141 00:12:06,508 --> 00:12:07,465 - Mm. 142 00:12:10,555 --> 00:12:11,426 ASL. 143 00:12:13,471 --> 00:12:14,472 - ASL. - Yeah. 144 00:12:15,560 --> 00:12:17,345 - [laughs] Age, sex, location, really? 145 00:12:17,519 --> 00:12:18,476 - Yeah. 146 00:12:20,740 --> 00:12:25,483 - Age, 26, sex, male, location, Bedstar. 147 00:12:30,488 --> 00:12:31,751 - Age, 13 1/2. 148 00:12:33,709 --> 00:12:34,405 [Sam laughs] 149 00:12:34,579 --> 00:12:36,799 Sex, yes. 150 00:12:36,973 --> 00:12:38,496 [Sam laughs] 151 00:12:38,670 --> 00:12:43,066 Location [sighs] dangerously close to a cute boy. 152 00:12:53,947 --> 00:12:54,774 [dog barking] 153 00:13:06,829 --> 00:13:08,439 [hand tapping] 154 00:13:08,613 --> 00:13:09,484 You scared? 155 00:13:10,615 --> 00:13:11,486 - No. 156 00:13:20,930 --> 00:13:22,279 [firework bangs] 157 00:13:22,453 --> 00:13:24,020 [dog barking] 158 00:13:24,194 --> 00:13:25,021 - Fireworks. 159 00:13:26,153 --> 00:13:27,632 - Yeah? 160 00:13:27,807 --> 00:13:28,677 - Yeah, fireworks. 161 00:13:40,297 --> 00:13:41,124 [siren wailing] 162 00:13:46,738 --> 00:13:48,349 - I, I had a surgery. 163 00:13:54,746 --> 00:13:55,835 It's temporary. 164 00:14:04,278 --> 00:14:07,411 Could we uh, I'm sorry. [laughs] 165 00:14:11,938 --> 00:14:13,287 - What's your family like? 166 00:14:18,292 --> 00:14:19,597 - Just me and my dad. 167 00:14:21,251 --> 00:14:23,036 My older brother I never see, Bill. 168 00:14:23,993 --> 00:14:25,429 - [Ben] I got one of those. 169 00:14:26,909 --> 00:14:28,389 - Yeah? - Yeah, we shared a room 170 00:14:28,563 --> 00:14:31,958 for 18 years, then he changed his name to Will. 171 00:14:32,872 --> 00:14:34,134 You think you know a guy. 172 00:14:36,310 --> 00:14:37,877 - [Sam] You have any other siblings? 173 00:14:38,965 --> 00:14:39,966 - Yeah, a sister. 174 00:14:45,710 --> 00:14:46,624 Do they know? 175 00:14:51,978 --> 00:14:53,457 - What about you? 176 00:14:54,981 --> 00:14:55,851 - Yeah. 177 00:14:58,158 --> 00:15:02,553 My mom was like, "Son, you've made your bed now fuck in it." 178 00:15:05,600 --> 00:15:08,211 [Sam laughing] 179 00:15:08,385 --> 00:15:11,432 Well, she wasn't that cool but she was very supportive. 180 00:15:13,042 --> 00:15:13,913 - [Sam] I wish. 181 00:15:16,698 --> 00:15:17,917 - [Ben] You should tell 'em. 182 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:20,789 - Nah. 183 00:15:21,790 --> 00:15:22,660 - [Ben] You should. 184 00:15:33,802 --> 00:15:35,369 - When did you know? 185 00:15:38,763 --> 00:15:40,548 - That I liked boys? 186 00:15:46,728 --> 00:15:49,818 I guess I was eight or nine. 187 00:15:49,992 --> 00:15:52,821 [gentle music] 188 00:15:52,995 --> 00:15:56,694 We had this desk in my room with my mom's old stuff in it, 189 00:15:59,828 --> 00:16:04,354 had this deck of cards from her bachelorette party, 190 00:16:05,703 --> 00:16:07,140 it was all these male strippers, 191 00:16:09,794 --> 00:16:11,622 a royal flush of bottoms. 192 00:16:11,796 --> 00:16:12,667 [Sam laughs] 193 00:16:15,626 --> 00:16:20,457 And uh, I used to sketch this one guy, Brazilian, 194 00:16:26,463 --> 00:16:27,987 I think he was the ace of spades. 195 00:16:31,425 --> 00:16:33,731 Used to sketch him in the middle of the ocean. 196 00:16:38,258 --> 00:16:39,085 What about you? 197 00:16:41,391 --> 00:16:42,653 - I don't know. 198 00:16:45,047 --> 00:16:45,917 - [Ben] Come on. 199 00:16:50,835 --> 00:16:52,837 - It was the boy next door. 200 00:16:56,928 --> 00:16:58,495 We used to have sleepovers. 201 00:17:02,021 --> 00:17:03,239 - [Ben] How old were you? 202 00:17:04,806 --> 00:17:06,199 - Eight or nine. 203 00:17:08,984 --> 00:17:10,855 - [Ben] How old was he? 204 00:17:12,031 --> 00:17:12,901 - My age. 205 00:17:15,947 --> 00:17:17,688 - [Ben] And you guys like did stuff? 206 00:17:17,862 --> 00:17:22,824 - Yeah, I don't know, we, we'd fool around, yeah. 207 00:17:25,000 --> 00:17:26,045 - You little slut. 208 00:17:31,267 --> 00:17:33,139 - Oh, learned my lesson. 209 00:17:34,879 --> 00:17:35,750 [birds chirping] 210 00:17:39,841 --> 00:17:41,756 What were you like? 211 00:17:41,930 --> 00:17:43,801 - [Ben] What was I like when? 212 00:17:43,975 --> 00:17:44,846 - [Sam] Growing up. 213 00:17:46,587 --> 00:17:49,459 - Uh, had a mushroom cut. 214 00:17:49,633 --> 00:17:50,504 [Sam laughs] 215 00:17:50,678 --> 00:17:51,766 And I went to Bible camp. 216 00:17:54,073 --> 00:17:55,552 That's all you need to know. 217 00:17:55,726 --> 00:17:56,553 - Come on. 218 00:18:01,515 --> 00:18:03,778 - All right, uh, stay-at-home dad 219 00:18:04,996 --> 00:18:06,128 and a leave the home mom. 220 00:18:09,044 --> 00:18:11,351 We had two cats the Pinky and the Brain. 221 00:18:11,525 --> 00:18:12,265 [Sam laughs] 222 00:18:12,439 --> 00:18:13,657 Brain killed Pinky. 223 00:18:13,831 --> 00:18:15,833 - [Sam] Naturally. 224 00:18:16,007 --> 00:18:20,795 - And my first cassette tape growing up was Lou Bega. 225 00:18:21,491 --> 00:18:22,884 - "Mambo No. 5"? 226 00:18:23,058 --> 00:18:23,972 - "Mambo No. 5". 227 00:18:26,627 --> 00:18:27,758 All the women in that song 228 00:18:27,932 --> 00:18:30,109 were just people from my childhood, 229 00:18:30,283 --> 00:18:31,762 so it was always just like. 230 00:18:33,112 --> 00:18:35,679 ♪ A little bit of Rita's all I need ♪ 231 00:18:35,853 --> 00:18:36,680 That's my grandma. 232 00:18:38,029 --> 00:18:40,815 ♪ A little bit of Tina's all I see ♪ 233 00:18:40,989 --> 00:18:41,816 That's my neighbor. 234 00:18:44,775 --> 00:18:45,602 - What else? 235 00:18:46,777 --> 00:18:47,952 - [Ben] I can wiggle my ears. 236 00:18:49,954 --> 00:18:52,218 [Sam laughs] 237 00:18:56,918 --> 00:18:58,354 What about you? 238 00:18:58,528 --> 00:19:01,227 - Uh, played a lot of baseball. 239 00:19:02,750 --> 00:19:07,624 I read a lot, sang in the church choir, played the flute. 240 00:19:10,018 --> 00:19:10,932 - Ooh. 241 00:19:12,847 --> 00:19:14,849 Well, everybody plays the flute sometimes. 242 00:19:15,980 --> 00:19:19,636 ♪ There's no exception to the rule ♪ 243 00:19:19,810 --> 00:19:20,724 ♪ Listen ♪ - Yeah, well. 244 00:19:20,898 --> 00:19:21,856 ♪ Baby ♪ 245 00:19:22,030 --> 00:19:24,946 It was Iowa, so not a lot to do. 246 00:19:28,515 --> 00:19:29,472 - Sing me something. 247 00:19:39,743 --> 00:19:44,661 ♪ Take me out to the ball game ♪ 248 00:19:45,619 --> 00:19:48,796 ♪ Take me out with the crowd ♪ 249 00:19:48,970 --> 00:19:53,583 ♪ Buy me some peanuts and Cracker Jacks ♪ 250 00:19:53,757 --> 00:19:56,891 ♪ I don't care if I never come back ♪ 251 00:19:57,065 --> 00:20:01,852 ♪ Let me root, root, root for the home team ♪ 252 00:20:03,071 --> 00:20:06,901 ♪ If they don't win it's a shame ♪ 253 00:20:07,075 --> 00:20:11,210 ♪ For it's one, two, three strikes you're out ♪ 254 00:20:11,384 --> 00:20:14,691 ♪ At the old ball game ♪ 255 00:20:22,569 --> 00:20:24,223 [birds chirping] 256 00:20:24,397 --> 00:20:26,964 - [Reporter] Spend nearly all their lives underground, 257 00:20:27,138 --> 00:20:29,097 feeding off the roots of trees. 258 00:20:29,271 --> 00:20:33,493 Periodicals come out in different broods every 13, 17 years, 259 00:20:33,667 --> 00:20:36,757 so this batch is coming out in a very different world. 260 00:20:36,931 --> 00:20:39,803 It's actually an all male forest. 261 00:20:39,977 --> 00:20:42,197 Occasionally some even have blue eyes. 262 00:20:42,371 --> 00:20:44,025 Sign me up. 263 00:20:44,199 --> 00:20:45,548 I have some reports of folks 264 00:20:45,722 --> 00:20:47,898 finding them under flat rocks over the last week 265 00:20:48,072 --> 00:20:49,857 so they're definitely near the surface, 266 00:20:50,031 --> 00:20:52,425 but it's still not warm enough for them to emerge yet. 267 00:20:52,599 --> 00:20:53,382 [birds chirping] [traffic humming] 268 00:21:02,783 --> 00:21:03,610 [brooding music] 269 00:21:08,049 --> 00:21:10,399 [Ben gasping] 270 00:21:16,362 --> 00:21:17,406 [machine beeping] 271 00:21:17,580 --> 00:21:18,407 [phone ringing] 272 00:21:21,584 --> 00:21:22,890 - Is this the new one? 273 00:21:23,064 --> 00:21:23,978 - Yeah. 274 00:21:25,066 --> 00:21:26,415 You know they say art is never finished 275 00:21:26,589 --> 00:21:27,764 it's just abandoned. 276 00:21:28,939 --> 00:21:30,419 I spent eight months painting this. 277 00:21:31,725 --> 00:21:33,509 My daughter didn't like it so I brought it here. 278 00:21:35,685 --> 00:21:37,208 - Doc, I'm still getting the nausea. 279 00:21:37,383 --> 00:21:41,082 - Mm-hmm. - Last week, I just, 280 00:21:41,256 --> 00:21:42,953 something got stuck in my throat. 281 00:21:43,127 --> 00:21:45,391 Like my throat just locked up. 282 00:21:45,565 --> 00:21:50,396 - Well, that's simple, don't eat. [laughs] 283 00:21:51,701 --> 00:21:54,400 No, no, no, no, eating is important. 284 00:21:54,574 --> 00:21:56,097 It gives us energy to go on dates. 285 00:21:59,535 --> 00:22:01,145 - Listen, Doc, I just- 286 00:22:01,320 --> 00:22:04,235 - [Dr. Dragone] Dysphasia can be serious, Ben. 287 00:22:04,410 --> 00:22:07,630 It can be anything from a mass in your throat to MS. 288 00:22:07,804 --> 00:22:09,023 - How long- - MS? 289 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:13,244 - Stop. 290 00:22:13,419 --> 00:22:15,334 - Come on. - Stop. 291 00:22:16,857 --> 00:22:21,340 - Ooh, I can't wait until we're behind closed doors later. 292 00:22:22,950 --> 00:22:25,126 Just gonna bend you over, pull back your hair, 293 00:22:25,300 --> 00:22:27,346 and hold your hand so good. 294 00:22:27,520 --> 00:22:30,261 - It's not 'cause we're in public, it's just not my thing. 295 00:22:32,307 --> 00:22:33,482 - Holding hands? 296 00:22:35,223 --> 00:22:37,051 So I still don't get it, what do you do? 297 00:22:38,357 --> 00:22:41,011 - Data tech, you sort through big data, 298 00:22:42,273 --> 00:22:44,885 everything from TV networks to government. 299 00:22:46,234 --> 00:22:48,062 Sort of helped take down Osama bin Laden. 300 00:22:52,327 --> 00:22:53,197 - Wait, what? 301 00:22:54,460 --> 00:22:55,330 - Were you a fan? 302 00:22:58,246 --> 00:22:59,334 - Samuel. 303 00:22:59,508 --> 00:23:00,379 - Benjamin. 304 00:23:03,512 --> 00:23:05,514 - I'm just a simple country boy. 305 00:23:05,688 --> 00:23:07,211 I paint apartments for Upper East Side DILFs, 306 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,780 I didn't know I was dating Tomb Raider. 307 00:23:14,218 --> 00:23:15,785 For the record I'm very turned on. 308 00:23:15,959 --> 00:23:16,830 - Oh. 309 00:23:20,877 --> 00:23:23,053 What happened to your arm? 310 00:23:24,838 --> 00:23:27,144 [Ben sighs] 311 00:23:27,318 --> 00:23:28,755 - I get tested every few months. 312 00:23:30,104 --> 00:23:32,585 - Oh, now I'm turned on. 313 00:23:32,759 --> 00:23:33,586 - Oh, yeah? 314 00:23:35,109 --> 00:23:39,722 I get every test in the books, litmus, ultrasound. 315 00:23:40,288 --> 00:23:41,158 - Talk dirty. 316 00:23:43,291 --> 00:23:44,901 - Centrifuge. 317 00:23:45,075 --> 00:23:45,946 - PPO. 318 00:23:47,251 --> 00:23:49,297 - Pre-exposure prophylaxis. 319 00:23:49,471 --> 00:23:50,341 - Negative? 320 00:23:51,342 --> 00:23:52,387 - Negative. 321 00:23:52,561 --> 00:23:54,389 [Sam sighs] 322 00:23:54,563 --> 00:23:55,390 [siren wailing] [sparkler crackling] 323 00:24:00,264 --> 00:24:01,222 - [Sam] I hate fireworks. 324 00:24:01,396 --> 00:24:02,876 - The sound of freedom. 325 00:24:03,050 --> 00:24:03,877 - Whose freedom? 326 00:24:05,008 --> 00:24:06,662 - They're not fireworks, they're sparklers. 327 00:24:06,836 --> 00:24:07,707 - How do I hold it? 328 00:24:08,751 --> 00:24:10,144 - You gotta bend over. 329 00:24:10,318 --> 00:24:12,059 [Sam laughs] 330 00:24:12,233 --> 00:24:13,582 Oh, you got a dud. 331 00:24:13,756 --> 00:24:15,236 - You're a dud. 332 00:24:15,410 --> 00:24:16,455 - You're a dud. 333 00:24:16,629 --> 00:24:17,630 Look at this. - You're a dud. 334 00:24:17,804 --> 00:24:18,761 - You're a dud. - You're a dud. 335 00:24:18,935 --> 00:24:19,980 Ha, you're a dud. 336 00:24:22,330 --> 00:24:24,463 You're a sicky. 337 00:24:41,392 --> 00:24:42,959 - The neighbors are watching. 338 00:24:51,098 --> 00:24:51,925 [lighter clicking] 339 00:24:55,581 --> 00:24:56,451 [wind blowing] 340 00:25:00,063 --> 00:25:00,890 [birds chirping] 341 00:25:09,725 --> 00:25:12,902 [Sam and Ben moaning] 342 00:25:15,383 --> 00:25:16,253 [Sam moaning] 343 00:25:20,344 --> 00:25:21,302 - [Sam] Oh, fuck. 344 00:25:21,476 --> 00:25:22,433 Oh, shit. - What? 345 00:25:22,608 --> 00:25:23,565 - Shit. - Oh. 346 00:25:30,920 --> 00:25:31,747 [Ben grunting] 347 00:25:38,188 --> 00:25:40,060 Mm, mm, taste like cum. 348 00:25:42,497 --> 00:25:44,238 - You're so gross. - Mm, mm, mm. 349 00:25:49,548 --> 00:25:51,680 Hey, have you, have you seen my good underwear? 350 00:25:52,638 --> 00:25:54,335 I can't find my good underwear. 351 00:25:54,509 --> 00:25:56,555 - You only have one pair? 352 00:25:59,688 --> 00:26:01,081 [door bangs] 353 00:26:01,255 --> 00:26:02,517 - [Ben] You know it's funny, 354 00:26:02,691 --> 00:26:05,476 I never had this problem with women. 355 00:26:08,262 --> 00:26:09,089 - What problem? 356 00:26:17,140 --> 00:26:18,402 This is your good underwear? 357 00:26:20,143 --> 00:26:21,014 - Sam. 358 00:26:22,493 --> 00:26:24,539 Uh. 359 00:26:24,713 --> 00:26:27,716 [Sam laughs] 360 00:26:27,890 --> 00:26:28,717 [birds chirping] 361 00:26:32,329 --> 00:26:33,374 - Are you seeing someone? 362 00:26:40,729 --> 00:26:41,600 You're glowing. 363 00:26:43,689 --> 00:26:45,299 You're pregnant with glow. 364 00:26:47,301 --> 00:26:48,650 You're practically dilated. 365 00:26:48,824 --> 00:26:50,783 [Ben laughs] 366 00:26:50,957 --> 00:26:52,045 Are your nipples sore? 367 00:26:53,655 --> 00:26:55,918 Are your nipples sore? [giggles] 368 00:26:56,092 --> 00:26:57,180 What's his name? 369 00:26:57,354 --> 00:26:58,355 What's his name? 370 00:26:58,529 --> 00:27:01,010 - Sam, Sam, he's name's Sam. 371 00:27:01,184 --> 00:27:02,316 Jesus. 372 00:27:05,319 --> 00:27:07,756 - Well, I thought I'd never see you this happy again, 373 00:27:09,845 --> 00:27:11,238 and with a man. 374 00:27:18,724 --> 00:27:20,290 - Hey, Mr. Deperalta. 375 00:27:20,464 --> 00:27:23,511 - Oh, don't be silly, Benjamin, call me Bo. 376 00:27:23,685 --> 00:27:28,647 Benny and Bo, two lonely bees in their tight tees. [laughs] 377 00:27:32,868 --> 00:27:34,478 You know I just got these imported. 378 00:27:35,828 --> 00:27:38,265 Real horse hair, the brushes. 379 00:27:39,483 --> 00:27:43,662 Indigenous Clydesdale from Connecticut. 380 00:27:45,185 --> 00:27:46,055 - Cool. 381 00:27:47,622 --> 00:27:49,885 - I just hope they're thick enough to get the job done. 382 00:27:57,240 --> 00:28:01,244 It's just a shame about this balloon knot color. 383 00:28:01,418 --> 00:28:02,376 I wish it was pinker. 384 00:28:05,901 --> 00:28:06,946 Isn't this fun? 385 00:28:08,382 --> 00:28:12,299 [wind blowing] [birds chirping] 386 00:28:12,473 --> 00:28:14,301 - [Sam] What's your earliest memory? 387 00:28:19,045 --> 00:28:23,266 - One of my earliest memories, I was running, 388 00:28:25,355 --> 00:28:28,489 I was running in my backyard totally naked. 389 00:28:30,578 --> 00:28:31,666 No one could catch me. 390 00:28:36,671 --> 00:28:37,541 What about you? 391 00:28:42,546 --> 00:28:44,418 - I was singing on my grandma's porch, 392 00:28:46,812 --> 00:28:48,683 felt like the whole town could hear me. 393 00:28:56,212 --> 00:28:56,822 [insects chirping] [siren wailing] 394 00:28:56,996 --> 00:28:58,780 [Sam moaning] 395 00:28:58,954 --> 00:29:00,434 [group chattering] 396 00:29:00,608 --> 00:29:02,958 [Sam moaning] 397 00:29:17,973 --> 00:29:19,496 [rain pattering] [siren wailing] 398 00:29:19,670 --> 00:29:20,541 [thunder rumbling] 399 00:29:24,501 --> 00:29:26,808 [dog barking] 400 00:29:29,463 --> 00:29:31,465 When was your first time? 401 00:29:32,771 --> 00:29:33,641 - With a man? 402 00:29:34,642 --> 00:29:35,512 - Yeah. 403 00:29:37,819 --> 00:29:39,255 - I thought I told you this. 404 00:29:40,648 --> 00:29:41,518 - No. 405 00:29:49,135 --> 00:29:51,528 - I was uh, at homecoming, 406 00:29:52,747 --> 00:29:57,491 and I passed out under the bleachers. 407 00:30:03,323 --> 00:30:05,542 Had to take a cab the next morning 'cause- 408 00:30:05,716 --> 00:30:08,502 - You broke curfew, that's the "The Virgin Suicides". 409 00:30:09,677 --> 00:30:10,330 - Tell me about it. 410 00:30:10,504 --> 00:30:11,679 - No, the movie. 411 00:30:13,986 --> 00:30:15,857 - You know "The Virgin Suicides"? 412 00:30:16,031 --> 00:30:17,554 - Well, who was your first man kiss? 413 00:30:19,121 --> 00:30:20,601 Why are you being so coy? 414 00:30:21,907 --> 00:30:23,952 - I don't understand why this is such a big deal? 415 00:30:24,126 --> 00:30:25,301 - You tell me. 416 00:30:29,653 --> 00:30:31,177 - When was yours? 417 00:30:34,093 --> 00:30:35,572 - I was in college. 418 00:30:39,315 --> 00:30:41,361 It happened under a tree. 419 00:30:42,753 --> 00:30:45,234 I, I shit on his dick and cried. 420 00:30:48,759 --> 00:30:49,630 Your turn. 421 00:30:50,457 --> 00:30:51,284 [Ben laughing] 422 00:30:55,723 --> 00:30:56,898 [Sam laughs] 423 00:30:57,072 --> 00:30:58,247 - That's good, 424 00:30:58,421 --> 00:31:00,554 that's real good. - Okay, okay. 425 00:31:02,773 --> 00:31:03,862 What about you? 426 00:31:15,786 --> 00:31:16,657 Ben. 427 00:31:27,711 --> 00:31:28,887 - I was young. 428 00:31:35,545 --> 00:31:36,416 - Oh. 429 00:31:42,770 --> 00:31:46,469 I'm sorry. 430 00:31:46,643 --> 00:31:47,514 I'm sorry. 431 00:31:49,646 --> 00:31:50,691 I'm sorry, I, I didn't- - It's okay. 432 00:31:50,865 --> 00:31:52,867 - Mean to pry. - It's okay. 433 00:31:56,088 --> 00:31:58,220 - Do you wanna talk about? 434 00:32:02,833 --> 00:32:04,661 - When you shit on his dick did you do it on purpose? 435 00:32:04,835 --> 00:32:05,706 - Come on. 436 00:32:06,881 --> 00:32:08,448 - Everything has to be a joke. 437 00:32:09,797 --> 00:32:12,191 [Ben sighs] 438 00:32:14,410 --> 00:32:17,500 You can talk to me, I'll listen. 439 00:32:21,243 --> 00:32:22,157 I'm here for you. 440 00:32:33,038 --> 00:32:33,864 [traffic humming] [birds chirping] 441 00:32:52,840 --> 00:32:56,191 [gentle brooding music] 442 00:33:41,671 --> 00:33:42,498 [waves crashing] 443 00:33:49,418 --> 00:33:51,377 - What'd you do today? 444 00:33:51,551 --> 00:33:52,726 How was school? 445 00:33:53,814 --> 00:33:55,946 Tell me everything. 446 00:33:56,121 --> 00:33:56,991 Ben. 447 00:33:57,948 --> 00:33:58,819 Benjamin. 448 00:33:59,950 --> 00:34:00,821 Benjamin. 449 00:34:02,257 --> 00:34:02,953 Benjamin. 450 00:34:03,128 --> 00:34:03,737 [water splashing] 451 00:34:03,911 --> 00:34:04,781 [Ben gasping] 452 00:34:08,307 --> 00:34:09,134 [traffic humming] 453 00:34:15,357 --> 00:34:18,752 [train engine whirring] 454 00:34:19,883 --> 00:34:23,757 [water splashing] [insects chirping] 455 00:34:23,931 --> 00:34:27,065 [train horn honking] 456 00:34:35,595 --> 00:34:36,683 [birds chirping] 457 00:34:36,857 --> 00:34:38,989 What were you gonna tell me? 458 00:34:43,081 --> 00:34:46,780 [Ben imitating duck quacking] 459 00:34:48,303 --> 00:34:50,697 [Debbie laughs] 460 00:34:50,871 --> 00:34:52,525 Okay. 461 00:34:52,699 --> 00:34:53,569 [water splashing] 462 00:34:57,834 --> 00:34:58,792 [brooding music] 463 00:35:02,317 --> 00:35:03,753 [Ben sighs] 464 00:35:03,927 --> 00:35:04,798 [birds chirping] 465 00:35:07,844 --> 00:35:09,672 We have to take the climbing tree out. 466 00:35:11,544 --> 00:35:13,981 It'll fill in though, and you'll forget all about it. 467 00:35:15,983 --> 00:35:17,854 Nature has a way of erasing. 468 00:35:19,465 --> 00:35:21,031 Amber, please don't fall and break your foot again. 469 00:35:21,206 --> 00:35:22,555 Help, Mommy. 470 00:35:27,212 --> 00:35:28,126 You're doing great. 471 00:35:28,300 --> 00:35:31,085 Oh, okay, all right, all right. 472 00:35:32,217 --> 00:35:33,348 You really wanna start? 473 00:35:35,176 --> 00:35:36,046 [wind blowing] 474 00:36:08,992 --> 00:36:09,819 Do you really have to go? 475 00:36:09,993 --> 00:36:10,994 - Yeah, Mom. 476 00:36:15,085 --> 00:36:16,565 - Let's do the beach next week. 477 00:36:16,739 --> 00:36:19,960 All right, we'll go Robert Moses like the old days. 478 00:36:20,134 --> 00:36:22,049 Don't let get too long, okay? 479 00:36:22,223 --> 00:36:23,659 Don't, don't do that thing 480 00:36:23,833 --> 00:36:25,400 where we don't see each other. 481 00:36:25,574 --> 00:36:27,750 Don't let it get to Christmas, okay? 482 00:36:29,578 --> 00:36:30,405 Okay? 483 00:36:34,061 --> 00:36:34,931 [wind blowing] 484 00:36:48,075 --> 00:36:48,945 [traffic humming] 485 00:36:53,863 --> 00:36:58,172 ♪ Everybody plays the fool sometimes ♪ 486 00:36:58,346 --> 00:37:01,393 ♪ There's no exception to the rule ♪ 487 00:37:01,567 --> 00:37:02,959 [birds chirping] 488 00:37:03,133 --> 00:37:07,007 ♪ Listen, everybody plays the fool ♪ 489 00:37:07,181 --> 00:37:08,051 - [Ben] Sam! 490 00:37:10,184 --> 00:37:11,446 - [Sam] What are you doing here? 491 00:37:13,187 --> 00:37:14,493 - I waited for like an hour, 492 00:37:14,667 --> 00:37:15,972 I thought you were raiding more tombs. 493 00:37:24,981 --> 00:37:25,852 [door banging] 494 00:37:31,074 --> 00:37:31,901 [water splashing] 495 00:37:34,643 --> 00:37:37,603 [fridge door bangs] 496 00:37:38,865 --> 00:37:39,779 - I gotta go to San Francisco 497 00:37:39,953 --> 00:37:41,911 for a couple days, I gotta pack. 498 00:37:42,085 --> 00:37:46,351 - [Ben] Okay, I get it, gotta go to San Francisco. 499 00:37:46,525 --> 00:37:47,613 You gotta escape. 500 00:37:49,223 --> 00:37:52,226 - Listen, I'm the only black guy at work, 501 00:37:52,400 --> 00:37:54,228 and it's hard enough being the only black guy let alone gay 502 00:37:54,402 --> 00:37:55,664 so you can't just show up at my work. 503 00:37:55,838 --> 00:37:58,232 - [Ben] I get it, you're the only black guy 504 00:37:58,406 --> 00:38:00,234 who can't be a faggot in public. 505 00:38:03,368 --> 00:38:04,891 I never should of told you. 506 00:38:05,065 --> 00:38:06,153 - It's not about that. 507 00:38:11,114 --> 00:38:12,899 - Listen, I don't understand. 508 00:38:13,073 --> 00:38:15,075 I don't know why I can't bring my boyfriend flowers at work. 509 00:38:15,249 --> 00:38:16,119 - What? 510 00:38:21,255 --> 00:38:23,605 - Come on. - This is moving too fast. 511 00:38:25,041 --> 00:38:27,000 This is moving too fast. 512 00:38:29,481 --> 00:38:30,308 [traffic humming] 513 00:38:36,226 --> 00:38:39,142 - [Reporter] Every 17 years they come up just to mate, 514 00:38:39,317 --> 00:38:41,493 then they die, then their offspring 515 00:38:41,667 --> 00:38:43,321 bury themselves underground, 516 00:38:43,495 --> 00:38:45,148 and they live off the tree sap and. 517 00:38:45,323 --> 00:38:46,802 [group chattering] 518 00:38:46,976 --> 00:38:48,543 - [Newscaster] Discrepancies in assistant coach 519 00:38:48,717 --> 00:38:51,416 Michael McQueary own testimony have aroused suspicion. 520 00:38:51,590 --> 00:38:52,939 And some believe it may throw a wrench 521 00:38:53,113 --> 00:38:55,158 in the proceedings of the case. 522 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:58,118 Originally McQueary claimed to have witnessed Sandusky 523 00:38:58,292 --> 00:38:59,641 fondling a 10-year-old boy 524 00:38:59,815 --> 00:39:03,906 in an on campus locker room March, 2002, 525 00:39:04,080 --> 00:39:05,647 but prosecutors now claim the abuse 526 00:39:05,821 --> 00:39:08,650 took place in February 2001. 527 00:39:08,824 --> 00:39:10,130 - [Guest] Look McQueary can no longer 528 00:39:10,304 --> 00:39:12,088 be considered a valid witness. 529 00:39:12,262 --> 00:39:13,742 What juror isn't going to question 530 00:39:13,916 --> 00:39:15,222 the memory of a man over a year. 531 00:39:15,396 --> 00:39:16,266 [traffic humming] 532 00:39:23,448 --> 00:39:25,841 [Ben sighs] 533 00:39:29,323 --> 00:39:30,368 - [Ben] What are you doing? 534 00:39:31,717 --> 00:39:32,587 - I got locked out. 535 00:39:40,334 --> 00:39:41,509 - [Ben] You're gonna miss your flight. 536 00:39:43,163 --> 00:39:44,077 - I'm not going. 537 00:39:53,216 --> 00:39:54,087 [foot thuds] 538 00:40:01,877 --> 00:40:04,097 [body thuds] 539 00:40:06,142 --> 00:40:11,060 Told them, "I had an emergency, my boyfriend went missing." 540 00:40:15,108 --> 00:40:17,415 - Your boyfriend went missing. 541 00:40:18,938 --> 00:40:19,765 [man vocalizing] [upbeat music] 542 00:40:24,422 --> 00:40:27,076 [man vocalizing] 543 00:40:27,250 --> 00:40:29,992 [woman vocalizing] 544 00:40:30,166 --> 00:40:32,212 ♪ Pineapples in the morning ♪ 545 00:40:32,386 --> 00:40:35,128 ♪ Sage burning on the lynch ♪ 546 00:40:35,302 --> 00:40:37,086 ♪ Toes touch in the backyard ♪ 547 00:40:37,260 --> 00:40:40,438 ♪ Amen ♪ 548 00:40:40,612 --> 00:40:42,309 ♪ School bus on the corner ♪ 549 00:40:42,483 --> 00:40:43,745 You gotta take me. 550 00:40:43,919 --> 00:40:45,617 - Hold up, you know I can't dribble. 551 00:40:45,791 --> 00:40:48,315 ♪ Wonder where they're gonna touch down and when ♪ 552 00:40:48,489 --> 00:40:49,185 - Why not? 553 00:40:49,359 --> 00:40:50,230 No one's watching. 554 00:40:50,404 --> 00:40:51,274 ♪ I ain't gotta ♪ 555 00:40:51,449 --> 00:40:52,711 - Why you always touching? 556 00:40:52,885 --> 00:40:54,408 I don't understand. 557 00:40:55,801 --> 00:41:00,501 ♪ Might just take me a bath today ♪ 558 00:41:00,675 --> 00:41:05,637 ♪ Soap up till I'm brand new ♪ 559 00:41:06,551 --> 00:41:08,901 ♪ Zone out too, kinda blue ♪ 560 00:41:09,075 --> 00:41:10,946 [girl yelling] 561 00:41:11,120 --> 00:41:15,168 ♪ I feel like I'm really living ♪ 562 00:41:15,342 --> 00:41:20,173 ♪ Ooh, I feel like I'm really giving ♪ 563 00:41:21,261 --> 00:41:26,222 ♪ Making my own decisions ♪ 564 00:41:27,397 --> 00:41:31,314 ♪ Pray to my own religion ♪ 565 00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:36,450 ♪ I feel like I might be dying ♪ 566 00:41:37,495 --> 00:41:39,497 ♪ Still ain't no harm in trying ♪ 567 00:41:39,671 --> 00:41:42,282 ♪ I feel like I'm really giving ♪ 568 00:41:42,456 --> 00:41:47,156 ♪ Making my own decisions ♪ 569 00:41:48,331 --> 00:41:50,856 ♪ Pray to my own religion ♪ 570 00:41:55,469 --> 00:41:57,166 Did she smile when you told her? 571 00:41:59,255 --> 00:42:02,215 - [Ben] I don't know, it was on the phone. 572 00:42:04,870 --> 00:42:05,697 I think so. 573 00:42:10,353 --> 00:42:12,007 - Did you tell her I was black? 574 00:42:15,533 --> 00:42:16,403 - [Ben] Yeah. 575 00:42:26,065 --> 00:42:29,764 - I was coming home from the bar, it was late. 576 00:42:33,202 --> 00:42:34,334 I don't even know why I went to the bar, 577 00:42:34,508 --> 00:42:36,510 I don't like gay bars, 578 00:42:37,816 --> 00:42:42,560 but a few hours go by, and I'm drunk, 579 00:42:44,170 --> 00:42:48,435 and tired of white dudes ignoring me, so I go home. 580 00:42:52,047 --> 00:42:54,049 When I'm at the station I see this dude, 581 00:42:54,223 --> 00:42:57,836 this beautiful Latino dude. 582 00:42:59,533 --> 00:43:04,059 He notices me, and I wink, and he smiles, 583 00:43:04,233 --> 00:43:06,584 and I walk over to him, and I give him my number. 584 00:43:08,586 --> 00:43:11,153 When he leans in he kisses me right there. 585 00:43:12,328 --> 00:43:13,329 This is before I met you. 586 00:43:16,637 --> 00:43:17,943 Now in the corner of my eye 587 00:43:18,117 --> 00:43:21,076 I can see this old white lady frowning, 588 00:43:22,687 --> 00:43:25,298 and so I pull him closer, and we make out hard 589 00:43:25,472 --> 00:43:27,300 right there until my train comes. 590 00:43:29,868 --> 00:43:32,784 [laughs] I was geek the whole way home. 591 00:43:32,958 --> 00:43:34,612 You know I never do stuff like that. 592 00:43:38,354 --> 00:43:41,967 And I'm walking back, and this silver car pulls up, 593 00:43:44,056 --> 00:43:46,058 and he lays down, rolls down his window, 594 00:43:46,232 --> 00:43:50,323 and he, he says, "Where's the party at?" 595 00:43:51,672 --> 00:43:53,369 At first I thought he was trying to hit on me, 596 00:43:53,543 --> 00:43:56,808 you know like I was gonna quip with something funny, 597 00:43:56,982 --> 00:43:59,158 and feeling myself after that kiss, you know. 598 00:44:00,289 --> 00:44:01,160 And um, 599 00:44:07,470 --> 00:44:08,341 he shot me, 600 00:44:12,606 --> 00:44:17,350 he shot me, and I'm just laying there, and he drives off. 601 00:44:18,743 --> 00:44:20,353 And I'm thinking, God, please don't let me go out like this, 602 00:44:20,527 --> 00:44:23,486 like this is the most cliche boys in the hood 603 00:44:23,661 --> 00:44:28,361 way to go out, and I'm thinking about the bar, 604 00:44:29,623 --> 00:44:32,365 and the station, and kissing that dude, 605 00:44:32,539 --> 00:44:35,368 and I just wish none of that shit ever happened, you know. 606 00:44:39,198 --> 00:44:42,941 The craziest part is I actually 607 00:44:43,115 --> 00:44:44,769 thought he was trying to hit on me, 608 00:44:49,599 --> 00:44:50,470 like he wanted me, 609 00:44:58,826 --> 00:45:00,045 somebody wanted me. 610 00:45:16,017 --> 00:45:16,844 [insects chirping] [wind blowing] 611 00:45:59,452 --> 00:46:00,322 [birds chirping] 612 00:46:11,377 --> 00:46:12,508 [ball bouncing] 613 00:46:12,682 --> 00:46:14,249 - You should tell your dad. 614 00:46:14,423 --> 00:46:15,555 - [Sam] Tell him what? 615 00:46:15,729 --> 00:46:16,991 - [Ben] You know. 616 00:46:18,514 --> 00:46:19,515 - [Sam] Nah. 617 00:46:21,909 --> 00:46:23,258 - Ooh. 618 00:46:23,432 --> 00:46:25,913 You'll feel real, trust me. 619 00:46:26,087 --> 00:46:27,393 It feels good. 620 00:46:27,567 --> 00:46:28,611 Transparency feels good. 621 00:46:28,786 --> 00:46:29,699 - Tell his pastor. 622 00:46:33,616 --> 00:46:34,487 - Old people change. 623 00:46:35,749 --> 00:46:37,142 - Ben, I grew up in a church, 624 00:46:37,316 --> 00:46:39,013 I can't just tell my dad, 625 00:46:39,187 --> 00:46:41,102 hey, I'm fucking this dude, he's coming over for dinner. 626 00:46:48,501 --> 00:46:50,633 - [Ben] Whoa, whoa, whoa, easy tiger. 627 00:46:50,808 --> 00:46:53,245 - Hey, listen, just be cool, okay? 628 00:46:53,419 --> 00:46:56,639 Don't look at me like, you know he's very. 629 00:46:56,814 --> 00:46:57,684 - Perceptive. 630 00:46:58,685 --> 00:46:59,729 Obviously not. 631 00:46:59,904 --> 00:47:01,993 - Ben. - Come on, come on. 632 00:47:03,821 --> 00:47:05,126 Listen, bro, let's just get this over with 633 00:47:05,300 --> 00:47:07,215 so we can go pound some puss, all right? 634 00:47:08,303 --> 00:47:09,130 - Thank you. 635 00:47:10,566 --> 00:47:13,569 - Whoa, whoa, whoa, no homo. 636 00:47:13,743 --> 00:47:15,571 Whoa, wait, I'm nervous. 637 00:47:17,747 --> 00:47:19,227 [knuckles tapping] 638 00:47:19,401 --> 00:47:21,751 [dog barking] 639 00:47:25,059 --> 00:47:28,106 [door clicks] 640 00:47:28,280 --> 00:47:30,543 - Sammy Davis Jr in the flesh. - What's up, old man? 641 00:47:30,717 --> 00:47:33,981 - [laughing] Look at you. 642 00:47:34,155 --> 00:47:37,245 Ah, the women at church gonna have to say 10 Hail Mary's. 643 00:47:37,419 --> 00:47:39,639 You know if came back you'd be the second coming. 644 00:47:39,813 --> 00:47:41,162 - [Sam] It's too far, Pops. 645 00:47:41,336 --> 00:47:43,469 - Oh, you'd have to wash a lot of feet. 646 00:47:43,643 --> 00:47:45,471 But you know I hear some people are into that kind of thing. 647 00:47:45,645 --> 00:47:47,168 [Sam laughs] 648 00:47:47,342 --> 00:47:50,084 - All right, Dad, this is Ben. 649 00:47:50,258 --> 00:47:51,738 - [Ben] Hey, good to meet ya. 650 00:47:51,912 --> 00:47:53,958 - Hi, Ben. 651 00:47:54,915 --> 00:47:57,570 - [Ben] How ya doing? [chuckles] 652 00:47:57,744 --> 00:47:58,571 - Uh, uh come on in. 653 00:48:00,921 --> 00:48:03,402 [dog barking] 654 00:48:03,576 --> 00:48:05,621 [door bangs] 655 00:48:05,795 --> 00:48:08,102 No, no, no, you have a seat, Benjamin. 656 00:48:08,276 --> 00:48:09,103 We got this. 657 00:48:15,153 --> 00:48:17,546 So Benjamin, you work with Sam? 658 00:48:18,939 --> 00:48:21,246 - No, we uh, we just live in the same neighborhood. 659 00:48:22,769 --> 00:48:23,596 - Same neighborhood. 660 00:48:25,119 --> 00:48:27,861 Sam, you better watch out, he tried to get you out. 661 00:48:31,778 --> 00:48:34,259 All they need to rape and pillage 662 00:48:34,433 --> 00:48:36,043 these days is a juice bar. 663 00:48:38,785 --> 00:48:40,656 Black man gets thrown out with the pulp. 664 00:48:40,830 --> 00:48:42,571 - Pops. 665 00:48:42,745 --> 00:48:46,488 - My day all they needed was boombox and Captain & Tennille. 666 00:48:46,662 --> 00:48:47,968 [Ben laughs] 667 00:48:48,142 --> 00:48:50,188 Love doesn't keep us together. 668 00:48:50,362 --> 00:48:55,062 Ribs keep us together. [laughs] 669 00:48:55,236 --> 00:48:56,542 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 670 00:48:56,716 --> 00:48:57,456 - Better watch out. - How ya feeling? 671 00:48:57,630 --> 00:48:58,674 How ya feeling? 672 00:48:58,848 --> 00:49:00,502 - Still kicking, still ticking. 673 00:49:00,676 --> 00:49:01,373 - Yeah, come on, come on. - Better than you, old man. 674 00:49:01,547 --> 00:49:03,723 - [Francis] Yeah, yeah. 675 00:49:03,897 --> 00:49:05,855 [Francis and Sam laughing] 676 00:49:06,030 --> 00:49:07,422 - It's so nice that 677 00:49:07,596 --> 00:49:10,338 uh, Captain & Tennille are still together. 678 00:49:11,687 --> 00:49:12,601 - What? 679 00:49:15,430 --> 00:49:18,477 So uh, where'd you grow up, Benjamin? 680 00:49:19,739 --> 00:49:20,609 - Long Island. 681 00:49:21,828 --> 00:49:23,961 Still working with the speech coach. 682 00:49:24,135 --> 00:49:27,747 Sausage and meatballs, sausage and meatballs, 683 00:49:27,921 --> 00:49:30,619 sausage and meatballs. 684 00:49:31,751 --> 00:49:33,971 - Huh, yeah. 685 00:49:35,581 --> 00:49:38,671 Long Island's got some great parishes. 686 00:49:38,845 --> 00:49:40,716 You go church for Sam? 687 00:49:40,890 --> 00:49:41,500 - [Sam] Uh. 688 00:49:41,674 --> 00:49:42,631 - No. 689 00:49:44,546 --> 00:49:47,854 I went to an episcopal church though growing up. 690 00:49:48,028 --> 00:49:49,943 Yeah, Bible camp. 691 00:49:50,117 --> 00:49:52,641 - Huh, that's a great kind of camp. 692 00:49:55,166 --> 00:49:55,993 - Yeah. 693 00:49:57,864 --> 00:50:00,171 For a talent show this one year 694 00:50:00,345 --> 00:50:02,347 "Who Let the Dogs Out" was pretty big. 695 00:50:02,521 --> 00:50:04,218 Remember that song "Who Let the Dogs Out"? 696 00:50:04,392 --> 00:50:08,309 So we did who let the Lord in instead. 697 00:50:08,483 --> 00:50:09,789 So it was like. 698 00:50:09,963 --> 00:50:11,791 ♪ Who let the Lord in ♪ 699 00:50:11,965 --> 00:50:13,619 Me, me, I did it. 700 00:50:13,793 --> 00:50:16,230 [Francis and Sam laughing] 701 00:50:16,404 --> 00:50:17,666 - That's good, that's good. 702 00:50:18,754 --> 00:50:20,713 Who let the Lord in? 703 00:50:20,887 --> 00:50:22,845 ♪ Who let the Lord in me ♪ 704 00:50:23,020 --> 00:50:24,717 - Oh, you got him started. - Me, I did it. 705 00:50:24,891 --> 00:50:27,067 [laughs] That's good, that's good. 706 00:50:29,765 --> 00:50:32,681 This one's a keeper, Sam. [laughs] 707 00:50:36,076 --> 00:50:37,034 - [Newscaster] We begin this half hour 708 00:50:37,208 --> 00:50:38,383 with the sex abuse trial 709 00:50:38,557 --> 00:50:40,037 of Jerry Sandusky. - Who? 710 00:50:40,211 --> 00:50:41,690 - [Sam] He was some guy that was dressed up like- 711 00:50:41,864 --> 00:50:43,475 - [Newscaster] Sandusky's attorney Joe Amendola 712 00:50:43,649 --> 00:50:46,043 has been hammering away at one victim's credibility. 713 00:50:46,217 --> 00:50:48,741 Asking why, "He stayed quiet for so long 714 00:50:48,915 --> 00:50:51,091 while he continued to play on the team." 715 00:50:51,265 --> 00:50:52,571 - [Sam] Extra points. 716 00:50:52,745 --> 00:50:53,659 - [Newscaster] His mother was heard crying 717 00:50:53,833 --> 00:50:55,226 from the back of the courtroom. 718 00:50:55,400 --> 00:50:58,142 [Francis laughing] 719 00:50:58,316 --> 00:50:59,186 - [Francis] Cream. 720 00:50:59,360 --> 00:51:00,144 - No, I'm good, I'm good. 721 00:51:00,318 --> 00:51:01,101 - [Ben] No, thank you. 722 00:51:06,802 --> 00:51:10,937 - You know this whole Jerry Sandusky, 723 00:51:14,027 --> 00:51:15,724 got more kids coming out every day. 724 00:51:20,990 --> 00:51:22,862 And how many of those boys were black? 725 00:51:23,036 --> 00:51:24,342 No one talks about that, Sam. 726 00:51:24,516 --> 00:51:25,952 - Come on, Dad. 727 00:51:26,126 --> 00:51:29,564 - People ask questions what's taking so long. 728 00:51:29,738 --> 00:51:31,740 Principal didn't believe those kids. 729 00:51:31,914 --> 00:51:35,048 Took a half dozen for them to even question Jerry. 730 00:51:36,615 --> 00:51:39,661 Half these kids' fathers didn't believe them. 731 00:51:41,054 --> 00:51:42,099 Can you believe that, Sam? 732 00:51:48,888 --> 00:51:52,979 [woman singing in foreign language] 733 00:51:55,677 --> 00:51:58,376 - Have you ever talked to someone? 734 00:52:00,856 --> 00:52:03,076 - [Ben] What do you mean? 735 00:52:03,250 --> 00:52:04,686 Like a therapist? 736 00:52:05,818 --> 00:52:06,645 - [Sam] Uh, yeah. 737 00:52:08,908 --> 00:52:10,257 - What is that supposed to mean? 738 00:52:12,520 --> 00:52:14,435 [woman singing in foreign language] 739 00:52:14,609 --> 00:52:15,871 I got a headache. 740 00:52:17,177 --> 00:52:21,399 [woman singing in foreign language] 741 00:52:26,839 --> 00:52:31,800 [woman singing in foreign language] 742 00:52:33,106 --> 00:52:34,281 - Therapist don't have all the answers, Ben, 743 00:52:35,108 --> 00:52:38,720 but we certainly do try. [laughs] 744 00:52:38,894 --> 00:52:41,462 Oh, Klonopin, she such a bitch. 745 00:52:41,636 --> 00:52:45,423 I mean she has a penis but her heart is female. 746 00:52:45,597 --> 00:52:46,685 Aren't you? 747 00:52:46,859 --> 00:52:47,816 Aren't you? 748 00:52:48,948 --> 00:52:50,036 I need to, we're gonna work now. 749 00:52:50,210 --> 00:52:51,951 Okay, let's focus. 750 00:52:52,125 --> 00:52:55,781 - I'm so glad I found someone in my network. 751 00:52:55,955 --> 00:52:56,999 You're super affordable. 752 00:52:57,174 --> 00:52:59,785 - Oh, yeah, tell me about it. 753 00:52:59,959 --> 00:53:03,354 The new company fucked me big time. 754 00:53:03,528 --> 00:53:05,878 A real shocker, two in the pink, one in the shrink. 755 00:53:07,445 --> 00:53:08,924 - [Ben] What? 756 00:53:09,098 --> 00:53:11,753 - You know most therapist are so stuffy, Ben. 757 00:53:11,927 --> 00:53:13,929 You know they, they sit there wanking away. 758 00:53:14,103 --> 00:53:15,931 We don't wank, we listen. 759 00:53:16,105 --> 00:53:17,498 Well, she's deaf, she can't hear, 760 00:53:17,672 --> 00:53:20,545 but I am here and listening. 761 00:53:22,024 --> 00:53:24,853 She's just here sending you some love. 762 00:53:26,942 --> 00:53:29,031 So tell us about you. 763 00:53:29,206 --> 00:53:30,381 The floor is yours. 764 00:53:38,780 --> 00:53:39,607 It's a safe space. 765 00:53:44,699 --> 00:53:45,874 You were born. 766 00:53:50,052 --> 00:53:51,532 [Ben sighs] 767 00:53:51,706 --> 00:53:54,753 - I guess it's been a few years 768 00:53:57,103 --> 00:53:58,365 since I tried to tell someone. 769 00:53:59,975 --> 00:54:01,847 [Ben sighs] 770 00:54:02,021 --> 00:54:06,243 And it's like uh, it took forever to get everything out, 771 00:54:07,983 --> 00:54:11,422 and when it finally came it was like uh, 772 00:54:13,685 --> 00:54:16,383 it was like I had cooked this meal, right, 773 00:54:17,993 --> 00:54:22,259 this lifelong meal, and she just shoved it into her mouth, 774 00:54:26,306 --> 00:54:27,916 and shit it out in front of me. 775 00:54:30,179 --> 00:54:31,964 - Shit it out in front of you. 776 00:54:32,138 --> 00:54:32,921 So it wasn't satisfying? 777 00:54:33,095 --> 00:54:34,662 It wasn't ceremonious? 778 00:54:36,142 --> 00:54:37,012 - No. - No. 779 00:54:43,062 --> 00:54:44,846 That's just awful. 780 00:54:45,020 --> 00:54:46,021 It's really awful. 781 00:54:48,241 --> 00:54:50,112 It's really, really awful. 782 00:54:50,287 --> 00:54:52,898 You were just a number, that's how you felt, yes? 783 00:54:54,203 --> 00:54:56,641 Okay, well, tell me more about yourself. 784 00:54:58,469 --> 00:55:00,819 [Ben sighs] 785 00:55:02,211 --> 00:55:06,955 - Well, I guess, uh, I been in New York for three years now. 786 00:55:09,262 --> 00:55:13,222 I was, I think I was made in New Hampshire, 787 00:55:13,397 --> 00:55:14,920 but I was packaged on Long Island. 788 00:55:15,094 --> 00:55:15,921 [Sophie laughing] 789 00:55:24,146 --> 00:55:25,017 - Girlfriend? 790 00:55:26,801 --> 00:55:27,628 Boyfriend? 791 00:55:29,021 --> 00:55:29,848 Yeah, yeah. 792 00:55:33,939 --> 00:55:37,072 - Yeah, he still won't, he still won't kiss me in public 793 00:55:37,246 --> 00:55:41,990 but he's great, it's great. 794 00:55:43,905 --> 00:55:45,385 - Um, how long have you been out? 795 00:55:47,213 --> 00:55:50,999 - Um, couple months. 796 00:55:51,173 --> 00:55:52,653 - Couple months. 797 00:55:52,827 --> 00:55:54,133 - Yeah, I'm a bit of a late bloomer I guess. 798 00:55:54,307 --> 00:55:55,352 - Yeah, late bloomer. 799 00:55:59,268 --> 00:56:01,619 [Ben sighs] 800 00:56:04,491 --> 00:56:05,971 - I guess my relationship with sex 801 00:56:06,145 --> 00:56:08,016 hasn't always been healthy. 802 00:56:10,236 --> 00:56:14,153 Like uh, sometimes I get this intense nausea. 803 00:56:18,723 --> 00:56:23,641 Up until recently I couldn't, I couldn't be intimate 804 00:56:25,207 --> 00:56:29,037 unless I was drinking, unless I was, unless I was drunk. 805 00:56:32,127 --> 00:56:33,041 - [Sophie] Molested? 806 00:56:45,097 --> 00:56:45,967 - What? 807 00:56:47,273 --> 00:56:48,143 - [Sophie] What? 808 00:57:00,199 --> 00:57:01,069 - Yeah. 809 00:57:06,292 --> 00:57:09,991 [gentle pensive music] 810 00:57:10,165 --> 00:57:13,255 [waves crashing] 811 00:57:13,430 --> 00:57:14,735 - [Debbie] How was school? 812 00:57:15,954 --> 00:57:16,911 What'd you do today? 813 00:57:18,783 --> 00:57:21,568 Come one, tell me everything, Ben. 814 00:57:24,223 --> 00:57:25,093 Benjamin. 815 00:57:30,011 --> 00:57:30,838 Benjamin. 816 00:57:38,019 --> 00:57:38,846 Benjamin. 817 00:57:39,673 --> 00:57:40,500 [Ben gasping] [birds chirping] 818 00:57:50,205 --> 00:57:52,120 - Okay, let's see what we got here. 819 00:57:55,384 --> 00:57:56,734 Open your mouth, say ah. 820 00:57:56,908 --> 00:57:58,126 - [Ben] Ah. 821 00:57:58,300 --> 00:57:59,171 - Good boy. 822 00:58:03,262 --> 00:58:05,177 - It's a fever, I can feel it. 823 00:58:05,351 --> 00:58:06,134 101.2, I think. 824 00:58:06,308 --> 00:58:07,658 - You can't feel it. 825 00:58:11,270 --> 00:58:13,054 101.5. 826 00:58:13,228 --> 00:58:15,796 - [sighs] 101.5 Lite F-phlegm. 827 00:58:17,363 --> 00:58:18,059 [both laughing] 828 00:58:18,233 --> 00:58:19,104 - Lite F-phlegm. 829 00:58:20,279 --> 00:58:22,629 Blazing hip hop and R&B classics. 830 00:58:22,803 --> 00:58:24,631 [Ben laughs] 831 00:58:24,805 --> 00:58:26,198 - With all the smooth vomit 832 00:58:26,372 --> 00:58:27,852 to get you through the morning commute. 833 00:58:28,026 --> 00:58:31,072 [Sam laughing] 834 00:58:31,246 --> 00:58:33,161 And all these headaches of commercials. 835 00:58:33,335 --> 00:58:35,424 - And your favorite irregular heartbeats. 836 00:58:37,035 --> 00:58:40,429 - [Ben] Sit back, relax, and get ready to be inflamed. 837 00:58:40,604 --> 00:58:42,344 [Sam laughs] 838 00:58:42,519 --> 00:58:43,389 ♪ Dahlia ♪ 839 00:58:48,612 --> 00:58:50,918 ♪ Diarrhea ♪ 840 00:58:52,267 --> 00:58:53,181 - Hey, Ben. 841 00:58:56,402 --> 00:58:57,272 - [Ben] Yeah. 842 00:58:58,709 --> 00:59:00,188 - How long have you been like this? 843 00:59:02,669 --> 00:59:06,543 - [sighs] Seeing doctors you mean? 844 00:59:12,418 --> 00:59:13,985 I don't know like three years. 845 00:59:20,731 --> 00:59:23,124 [Ben sighs] 846 00:59:24,430 --> 00:59:26,040 Hey, what would you do if you were gonna die in a year? 847 00:59:26,214 --> 00:59:27,085 - Shut up. 848 00:59:29,304 --> 00:59:30,218 - No, come on. 849 00:59:31,655 --> 00:59:33,395 It's gotta be something you've always wanted to do. 850 00:59:34,483 --> 00:59:35,310 You can't say travel. 851 00:59:41,055 --> 00:59:41,882 - Sing. 852 00:59:44,145 --> 00:59:45,494 I'd start a band or something. 853 00:59:48,019 --> 00:59:49,281 Yeah, sing. 854 00:59:52,937 --> 00:59:53,764 - I like that. 855 00:59:55,069 --> 00:59:56,201 - What about you? 856 00:59:56,375 --> 00:59:57,289 - I'd travel. 857 00:59:57,463 --> 01:00:01,423 - [laughs] You're stupid. 858 01:00:01,598 --> 01:00:04,426 Ben, you're gonna wear that? 859 01:00:06,385 --> 01:00:07,647 Didn't you just come out 860 01:00:07,821 --> 01:00:08,343 to your friends? - Okay, okay, okay, 861 01:00:08,517 --> 01:00:09,910 okay, all right. 862 01:00:10,084 --> 01:00:10,694 - You look so beautiful- - Okay, I'll change it. 863 01:00:10,868 --> 01:00:11,695 - Baby. 864 01:00:11,869 --> 01:00:12,652 - My little. - Okay. 865 01:00:12,826 --> 01:00:14,045 - [Sam] Natural Fabio. 866 01:00:14,219 --> 01:00:15,916 - Cheers! - Cheers, cheers. 867 01:00:16,090 --> 01:00:18,049 - Oh, my god, do you remember him in eighth grade? 868 01:00:18,223 --> 01:00:19,616 He was such an ass fug. 869 01:00:19,790 --> 01:00:21,139 [group laughing] 870 01:00:21,313 --> 01:00:22,749 - Yes. - He crashed his mini. 871 01:00:22,923 --> 01:00:25,447 - Guys, wait, honestly, 872 01:00:25,622 --> 01:00:27,798 do you know that I fingered his asshole? 873 01:00:27,972 --> 01:00:28,625 - Oh, my god, what? 874 01:00:28,799 --> 01:00:29,974 [Friend laughs] 875 01:00:30,148 --> 01:00:31,192 What? 876 01:00:31,366 --> 01:00:32,585 - I did. 877 01:00:32,759 --> 01:00:34,152 I told like a couple- - No way. 878 01:00:34,326 --> 01:00:35,675 People, but it really spread like wildfire. 879 01:00:35,849 --> 01:00:37,808 [group chattering] 880 01:00:37,982 --> 01:00:40,724 - Bedroom eyes, right? - Eyes wide open. 881 01:00:40,898 --> 01:00:41,986 [group laughing] 882 01:00:42,160 --> 01:00:43,161 [group chattering] 883 01:00:43,335 --> 01:00:44,771 [group laughing] 884 01:00:44,945 --> 01:00:48,427 - Literally sent us New York, Vietnam, Paris, 885 01:00:48,601 --> 01:00:50,298 Saigon, Saigon, Tempe, Tempe. 886 01:00:52,126 --> 01:00:53,606 Sam, where do you live? 887 01:00:53,780 --> 01:00:54,999 - Brooklyn. 888 01:00:55,173 --> 01:00:56,478 - Oh, cute. 889 01:00:56,653 --> 01:00:58,872 I, it's actually really nice now you guys. 890 01:00:59,046 --> 01:01:00,265 I love going out there. 891 01:01:00,439 --> 01:01:01,440 There's like theater. 892 01:01:01,614 --> 01:01:05,357 - Peter, do you still play piano? 893 01:01:05,531 --> 01:01:06,793 - Me, no. 894 01:01:06,967 --> 01:01:07,925 - What do you mean no? - No. 895 01:01:08,099 --> 01:01:09,143 - Sam sings. - Ew. 896 01:01:09,927 --> 01:01:11,363 - Oh, no, no, no. - Yes, he does, yes, he does. 897 01:01:11,537 --> 01:01:12,277 - I don't. - Sam. 898 01:01:12,451 --> 01:01:13,844 - No, no. - Sam. 899 01:01:14,018 --> 01:01:15,323 - No, no, I don't sing in public. 900 01:01:15,497 --> 01:01:16,368 - Come on. - Please. 901 01:01:16,542 --> 01:01:17,412 - Sam. - Sam. 902 01:01:17,586 --> 01:01:18,370 - [Friend] Sammy. 903 01:01:18,544 --> 01:01:20,720 - [Group] Sammy, Sammy. 904 01:01:20,894 --> 01:01:22,504 - I don't think I can, I can sing something. 905 01:01:22,679 --> 01:01:23,810 - Come on. - Yes, please do. 906 01:01:23,984 --> 01:01:25,029 - It's so good. - Do it. 907 01:01:25,203 --> 01:01:26,595 - It's so good. - Yeah, sure. 908 01:01:26,770 --> 01:01:30,208 - Okay, great. - Oh, my god, what? 909 01:01:30,382 --> 01:01:31,862 What? 910 01:01:32,036 --> 01:01:32,819 [water splashing] [group chattering] 911 01:01:54,928 --> 01:01:57,975 [gentle piano music] 912 01:02:00,891 --> 01:02:03,632 ♪ Love, love me do ♪ 913 01:02:03,807 --> 01:02:06,853 ♪ You know I love you ♪ 914 01:02:07,027 --> 01:02:10,074 ♪ I'll always be true ♪ 915 01:02:10,248 --> 01:02:14,731 ♪ So please ♪ 916 01:02:14,905 --> 01:02:17,342 ♪ Love me do ♪ 917 01:02:17,516 --> 01:02:21,389 ♪ Oh, love me do ♪ 918 01:02:21,563 --> 01:02:24,523 ♪ Love, love me do ♪ 919 01:02:24,697 --> 01:02:27,613 ♪ You know I love you ♪ 920 01:02:33,750 --> 01:02:34,838 [group cheering] [group clapping] 921 01:02:35,012 --> 01:02:36,404 Oh, my god. - Yes. 922 01:02:37,362 --> 01:02:38,189 [group chattering] 923 01:02:41,148 --> 01:02:41,975 [insects chirping] 924 01:02:57,948 --> 01:02:58,775 - What was that? 925 01:03:05,869 --> 01:03:07,435 You already knew I was uncomfortable. 926 01:03:07,609 --> 01:03:08,567 I don't know any of your friends 927 01:03:08,741 --> 01:03:10,177 and you just put me on the spot. 928 01:03:11,700 --> 01:03:13,441 - Sam, you were incredible. 929 01:03:15,487 --> 01:03:16,836 You just told me if you were gonna die you'd sing. 930 01:03:17,010 --> 01:03:17,924 - I'm not dying. 931 01:03:23,060 --> 01:03:24,975 Am I the first black guy you ever dated? 932 01:03:26,803 --> 01:03:28,848 - No, you're not the first black guy I've been with. 933 01:03:29,022 --> 01:03:30,937 - I didn't say been with I said dated. 934 01:03:34,549 --> 01:03:36,769 You have no idea what it's like to be the other. 935 01:03:42,340 --> 01:03:45,299 - I'm sorry you felt like the other. 936 01:03:46,561 --> 01:03:48,476 - It's not how I felt, I am. 937 01:03:49,956 --> 01:03:52,002 Look if I'm some prop you can use to show your friends 938 01:03:52,176 --> 01:03:53,525 how woke you are, 939 01:03:53,699 --> 01:03:55,527 or that interracial relationships are cool, 940 01:03:55,701 --> 01:03:57,398 or that you're so liberal minded, 941 01:03:57,572 --> 01:04:00,662 or that you're just trying to diversify yourself and. 942 01:04:00,837 --> 01:04:04,971 - All right, I'm sorry I wanna hold your hand in public. 943 01:04:05,145 --> 01:04:07,452 I'm sorry I want this relationship to feel real. 944 01:04:07,626 --> 01:04:09,497 - Would you date me if I wasn't black? 945 01:04:11,630 --> 01:04:12,892 [dog barking] 946 01:04:13,066 --> 01:04:15,503 [Ben scoffs] 947 01:04:15,677 --> 01:04:20,508 - All right, I haven't seen my friends in six weeks, okay, 948 01:04:22,728 --> 01:04:23,990 and this was the first time they got to meet 949 01:04:24,164 --> 01:04:25,122 my real boyfriend. - Please don't 950 01:04:25,296 --> 01:04:26,123 play the victim. 951 01:04:29,778 --> 01:04:31,041 [dog barking] 952 01:04:31,215 --> 01:04:32,477 - Okay, all right. 953 01:04:34,740 --> 01:04:35,872 Listen I'm tired, I don't think 954 01:04:36,046 --> 01:04:37,003 we should sleep together tonight. 955 01:04:37,177 --> 01:04:38,135 - [Sam] Ben. 956 01:04:39,832 --> 01:04:40,789 - [Ben] You know why would we? 957 01:04:40,964 --> 01:04:42,922 Like the audience is gone. 958 01:04:43,096 --> 01:04:43,923 - Stop. 959 01:04:46,230 --> 01:04:47,971 - [Ben] The lights are off, the curtains are closed. 960 01:04:48,145 --> 01:04:50,582 You know let's just go back to our dressing rooms. 961 01:04:50,756 --> 01:04:51,626 - Fuck off! 962 01:04:52,758 --> 01:04:53,846 - I need you to keep your voice down 963 01:04:54,020 --> 01:04:55,152 my roommates are sleeping. 964 01:04:55,326 --> 01:04:56,675 - Oh, no, let's wake them up! 965 01:04:56,849 --> 01:04:58,155 I can sing and dance for them too! 966 01:04:58,329 --> 01:04:59,591 You want me to get my symbols? 967 01:05:06,903 --> 01:05:07,773 [birds chirping] 968 01:05:17,739 --> 01:05:18,610 - Hey. 969 01:05:23,789 --> 01:05:24,659 I'm sorry. 970 01:05:38,804 --> 01:05:42,373 You were just trying to tell me how you felt last night 971 01:05:42,547 --> 01:05:45,593 and I should have listen instead of feeling attacked. 972 01:05:48,292 --> 01:05:52,600 And I'm sorry you went through that last night. 973 01:05:56,778 --> 01:05:58,302 Think I, I just got excited 974 01:05:58,476 --> 01:06:02,784 'cause everyone was meeting you for the first time. 975 01:06:03,916 --> 01:06:08,834 And I'm trying to be patient 976 01:06:11,402 --> 01:06:13,882 with you not being out, and I'm sorry. 977 01:06:32,945 --> 01:06:37,645 [group chattering] [birds chirping] 978 01:07:00,712 --> 01:07:01,800 - Wow. 979 01:07:03,367 --> 01:07:04,890 You really outdid yourself. 980 01:07:09,416 --> 01:07:11,375 Look I was doing a lot of thinking 981 01:07:11,549 --> 01:07:13,072 about we talked about last night. 982 01:07:14,943 --> 01:07:15,814 - Yeah. 983 01:07:16,641 --> 01:07:17,946 - I'm sorry. 984 01:07:18,121 --> 01:07:19,470 - No, you don't have to- 985 01:07:19,644 --> 01:07:20,993 - No, I don't want you- - You don't have to. 986 01:07:21,167 --> 01:07:22,038 - To feel like this isn't real you know? 987 01:07:22,908 --> 01:07:24,257 'Cause this is real for me. 988 01:07:26,781 --> 01:07:29,262 Try not to care about what the world thinks about us. 989 01:07:31,003 --> 01:07:35,703 - Hey, the world doesn't think about us. 990 01:07:38,967 --> 01:07:40,621 Listen, I wanna tell you something. 991 01:07:40,795 --> 01:07:41,883 - Yeah, what? 992 01:07:46,410 --> 01:07:47,237 [upbeat music] 993 01:07:51,067 --> 01:07:51,937 [man vocalizing] 994 01:08:13,219 --> 01:08:14,307 Swear to god. 995 01:08:18,833 --> 01:08:19,747 - [Ben] What? 996 01:08:26,798 --> 01:08:29,627 - [laughs] Yes. 997 01:08:38,810 --> 01:08:39,419 [birds chirping] 998 01:08:39,593 --> 01:08:41,160 [laughs] Stop. 999 01:08:41,334 --> 01:08:43,771 - [Ben] My roommate's sleeping we have to whisper. 1000 01:08:44,946 --> 01:08:47,123 - [Sam] Okay, I'll be quiet. 1001 01:08:47,297 --> 01:08:48,254 - [Ben] Okay. 1002 01:08:48,428 --> 01:08:49,908 Hey, I wanna make you breakfast. 1003 01:08:51,083 --> 01:08:52,476 - [Sam] Whatcha gonna make? 1004 01:08:53,738 --> 01:08:55,305 - [Ben] Wanna make you big and strong. 1005 01:08:55,479 --> 01:08:56,915 - [Sam] Oh, yeah. 1006 01:08:57,089 --> 01:09:00,614 - [Ben] I'm gonna make you one apple, two pears, 1007 01:09:00,788 --> 01:09:04,444 three plums, four strawberries, one salami. 1008 01:09:05,750 --> 01:09:08,144 - [Ben and Sam] And one nice green leaf. 1009 01:09:10,320 --> 01:09:12,931 - [Sam] He is one very hungry caterpillar. 1010 01:09:13,105 --> 01:09:14,715 - [Ben] Yes, he is. 1011 01:09:14,889 --> 01:09:17,065 - [Sam] Thank you. 1012 01:09:17,240 --> 01:09:18,241 - You cutie. 1013 01:09:18,415 --> 01:09:19,894 [Sam laughs] 1014 01:09:20,068 --> 01:09:20,939 [waves crashing] 1015 01:09:23,724 --> 01:09:24,595 What? 1016 01:09:47,966 --> 01:09:49,402 Listen, I don't know who you are 1017 01:09:49,576 --> 01:09:51,230 or what you've done with my Samuel. 1018 01:10:03,329 --> 01:10:04,200 I love you. 1019 01:10:09,292 --> 01:10:13,165 - You love me? 1020 01:10:13,339 --> 01:10:18,301 - Do you love me? 1021 01:10:19,650 --> 01:10:20,738 - I love you. 1022 01:10:38,408 --> 01:10:39,800 [upbeat music] 1023 01:10:39,974 --> 01:10:40,801 [woman vocalizing] 1024 01:10:40,975 --> 01:10:44,414 ♪ Six years old ♪ 1025 01:10:44,588 --> 01:10:49,245 ♪ Staring at my nose in the mirror ♪ 1026 01:10:49,419 --> 01:10:53,901 ♪ Trying to dip my toes in the mirror ♪ 1027 01:10:54,075 --> 01:10:56,948 ♪ Thinking who's that girl ♪ 1028 01:10:57,122 --> 01:11:00,908 ♪ And does the mirror world go on forever ♪ 1029 01:11:01,082 --> 01:11:04,738 ♪ Calmly you roll ♪ 1030 01:11:04,912 --> 01:11:09,700 ♪ Sharpening the knives in the attic ♪ 1031 01:11:09,874 --> 01:11:14,270 ♪ Trying to watch cartoons through the static ♪ 1032 01:11:14,444 --> 01:11:16,881 ♪ Thinking where am I gonna be ♪ 1033 01:11:17,055 --> 01:11:20,580 ♪ If I'm ever 23, oh ♪ 1034 01:11:20,754 --> 01:11:23,191 ♪ I'm looking at a life unfold ♪ 1035 01:11:23,366 --> 01:11:25,498 ♪ Dreaming of the green and gold ♪ 1036 01:11:25,672 --> 01:11:28,066 ♪ Just like the ancient stone ♪ 1037 01:11:28,240 --> 01:11:30,677 ♪ Every sunrise I know ♪ 1038 01:11:30,851 --> 01:11:34,028 ♪ Those eyes you gave to me ♪ 1039 01:11:34,202 --> 01:11:36,161 ♪ That let me see ♪ 1040 01:11:36,335 --> 01:11:39,295 ♪ Where I come from ♪ 1041 01:11:41,949 --> 01:11:44,038 - [Newscaster] Know the perpetrator in some way. 1042 01:11:44,212 --> 01:11:47,607 68% are abused by a family remember. 1043 01:11:47,781 --> 01:11:50,610 Here we are last spring with one of the victims. 1044 01:11:50,784 --> 01:11:53,134 - [Victim] I was, I was just really scared, 1045 01:11:53,309 --> 01:11:57,748 uh, and I came home after school one day, 1046 01:11:57,922 --> 01:11:59,315 and I just, I just told her. 1047 01:12:00,316 --> 01:12:02,927 Uh, I didn't know what to do. 1048 01:12:04,189 --> 01:12:05,886 - [Mom] I always knew something was wrong, 1049 01:12:07,148 --> 01:12:09,368 and then I asked him, I asked him. 1050 01:12:11,283 --> 01:12:13,981 I mean I, I had no idea. 1051 01:12:14,155 --> 01:12:16,636 He was like a father figure to my son. 1052 01:12:17,637 --> 01:12:19,944 He was basically a father, 1053 01:12:20,118 --> 01:12:21,206 and he ruined my whole family. 1054 01:12:21,380 --> 01:12:22,555 He's ruined us. 1055 01:13:17,958 --> 01:13:21,005 - [Ben] [crying] All those kids, Sam. 1056 01:13:21,179 --> 01:13:23,268 Those kids. - It's okay. 1057 01:13:23,442 --> 01:13:26,010 - [Ben] You think he's gone, but. 1058 01:13:27,403 --> 01:13:30,754 - [Sam] I got you, I got you, I got you. 1059 01:13:43,680 --> 01:13:47,379 - Okay, let's go back to um, what you were saying earlier. 1060 01:13:47,553 --> 01:13:50,251 Uh, people automatically judge 1061 01:13:50,426 --> 01:13:52,253 when they hear you've been abused. 1062 01:13:52,428 --> 01:13:56,083 They think, oh, this kid is damaged, this kid is a liar, 1063 01:13:56,257 --> 01:14:00,261 this kid um, is probably going to abuse someone themselves. 1064 01:14:02,525 --> 01:14:04,657 But this just isn't the case. 1065 01:14:04,831 --> 01:14:07,181 We are finding out that pedophiles 1066 01:14:07,355 --> 01:14:10,184 have it innately, like an orientation, 1067 01:14:10,358 --> 01:14:12,491 and that children who have been molested 1068 01:14:12,665 --> 01:14:17,583 are just more likely to fuck up our relationship. [chuckles] 1069 01:14:24,938 --> 01:14:25,852 You know what? 1070 01:14:26,026 --> 01:14:29,552 First off fuck child molesters. 1071 01:14:29,726 --> 01:14:31,467 Fuck 'em, skull fuck 'em to death. 1072 01:14:32,511 --> 01:14:34,992 They acted, let them burn. 1073 01:14:37,037 --> 01:14:41,955 You know when you get passed all of the hate and the anger, 1074 01:14:45,916 --> 01:14:50,137 you realize that this is a person who is confused. 1075 01:14:53,053 --> 01:14:55,795 This person was a kid once too, 1076 01:14:55,969 --> 01:14:57,797 and, and, and they need help. 1077 01:14:59,538 --> 01:15:03,194 And the more that we help them get help 1078 01:15:03,368 --> 01:15:06,153 we help children, right? 1079 01:15:08,721 --> 01:15:11,289 Right, right? 1080 01:15:11,463 --> 01:15:14,510 So I think that it would be cathartic 1081 01:15:14,684 --> 01:15:17,469 for you to um, learn a bit. 1082 01:15:17,643 --> 01:15:18,992 Um, listen to this. 1083 01:15:19,166 --> 01:15:20,951 It is a really beautiful piece. 1084 01:15:21,125 --> 01:15:24,302 This teenager's talking about when she discovered 1085 01:15:24,476 --> 01:15:26,130 that she was attracted to children. 1086 01:15:26,304 --> 01:15:28,828 It's really fascinating, it's on NPR. 1087 01:15:29,002 --> 01:15:30,134 We'll talk about it next week. 1088 01:15:30,308 --> 01:15:31,265 [feet tapping] 1089 01:15:31,439 --> 01:15:32,397 Klonopin. 1090 01:15:35,269 --> 01:15:39,360 Okay, well, that is all the time we have this week. 1091 01:15:39,535 --> 01:15:42,886 Um, you really talked my ear off. 1092 01:15:43,060 --> 01:15:45,845 I am not gonna be town for our next session, 1093 01:15:46,019 --> 01:15:48,456 but for the time being 1094 01:15:48,631 --> 01:15:53,113 I would like you to practice being more open, Ben. 1095 01:15:53,287 --> 01:15:56,334 Talk to your friends, talk to strangers, 1096 01:15:56,508 --> 01:15:58,989 just tell the world your story. 1097 01:16:00,512 --> 01:16:02,296 - [Meteorologist] 94 today in Central Park. 1098 01:16:02,470 --> 01:16:05,038 94 or 5 out at Newark International, 1099 01:16:05,212 --> 01:16:07,171 but that front's gonna come through tomorrow night. 1100 01:16:07,345 --> 01:16:09,477 And over the weekend it looks perfect. 1101 01:16:09,652 --> 01:16:11,044 Couple of showers- - I was molested. 1102 01:16:11,218 --> 01:16:12,568 - [Meteorologist] Upstate New York otherwise uh, 1103 01:16:12,742 --> 01:16:14,221 it's just gonna be dry, and cool, and crisp. 1104 01:16:14,395 --> 01:16:17,224 Cleveland 62, Buffalo 61 on Saturday. 1105 01:16:17,398 --> 01:16:18,356 [upbeat music] 1106 01:16:18,530 --> 01:16:19,618 - Yeah, my ex was molested. 1107 01:16:22,752 --> 01:16:25,015 She always played the victim, every argument. 1108 01:16:29,149 --> 01:16:31,151 She was one the worst people I ever knew. 1109 01:16:33,545 --> 01:16:34,415 - I don't wanna ugly cry, 1110 01:16:34,590 --> 01:16:36,156 no one's even here to see. 1111 01:16:41,771 --> 01:16:43,686 I love you, you know that? 1112 01:16:43,860 --> 01:16:45,688 - [Ben] I love you. 1113 01:16:45,862 --> 01:16:46,950 - Why don't we go to Dave & Buster's 1114 01:16:47,124 --> 01:16:49,082 do all the big kid stuff? - Yeah. 1115 01:16:50,127 --> 01:16:51,258 - Okay, cool, we'll tell everyone you got molested, 1116 01:16:51,432 --> 01:16:52,433 we'll get free drinks. - Yeah. 1117 01:16:52,608 --> 01:16:53,478 - Yay. 1118 01:16:55,785 --> 01:17:00,659 ♪ Can't claim to care, never been reluctant to share ♪ 1119 01:17:01,573 --> 01:17:03,401 ♪ Passing out pieces of me ♪ 1120 01:17:03,575 --> 01:17:07,927 ♪ Don't you know nothing comes free ♪ 1121 01:17:09,712 --> 01:17:10,495 - I didn't know what to do. 1122 01:17:10,669 --> 01:17:12,062 I couldn't tell anyone. 1123 01:17:12,236 --> 01:17:16,240 ♪ Don't know has taken its toll on me ♪ 1124 01:17:16,414 --> 01:17:20,070 And when I finally did no one believed me, 1125 01:17:21,549 --> 01:17:24,988 so I kept it as a secret for a really long time, 1126 01:17:25,162 --> 01:17:26,642 and until this day I still do. 1127 01:17:27,904 --> 01:17:31,603 ♪ It's hard to believe what it's made ♪ 1128 01:17:31,777 --> 01:17:33,649 - [Sam] So it was your stepdad. 1129 01:17:39,829 --> 01:17:43,093 - I used to think about him every day, 1130 01:17:44,616 --> 01:17:46,052 then it was every other day. 1131 01:17:48,272 --> 01:17:53,059 Then I'd wake up drenched in sweat and not know why. 1132 01:17:57,760 --> 01:18:02,634 Growing up I'd clean things until my hands were raw. 1133 01:18:08,858 --> 01:18:11,730 I brushed my teeth until they bled. 1134 01:18:16,213 --> 01:18:18,302 The only thing that made me feel good was joke. 1135 01:18:21,131 --> 01:18:23,307 What's the difference between anal and oral? 1136 01:18:25,701 --> 01:18:26,571 - [Sam] What? 1137 01:18:31,141 --> 01:18:35,319 - Oral makes your day, anal makes your whole week. 1138 01:18:35,493 --> 01:18:37,277 [Sam laughing] 1139 01:18:37,451 --> 01:18:38,278 [seagulls squawking] 1140 01:18:43,631 --> 01:18:45,459 I had become such a clown 1141 01:18:45,633 --> 01:18:49,942 when I finally tried to tell someone they laughed. 1142 01:18:57,689 --> 01:19:00,039 It was 13 years inside of me. 1143 01:19:09,222 --> 01:19:11,224 I always thought if I ended up with a man 1144 01:19:18,318 --> 01:19:19,929 it would mean I lost. 1145 01:19:33,899 --> 01:19:35,553 - Hey, you think this shirt's too small? 1146 01:19:37,947 --> 01:19:39,513 I should of worn the black one. 1147 01:19:39,687 --> 01:19:40,732 - You look beautiful. 1148 01:19:42,168 --> 01:19:43,430 - [Sam] Oh, thanks. 1149 01:19:43,604 --> 01:19:44,431 - Hey, sweetie. - Hi. 1150 01:19:44,605 --> 01:19:45,476 This is Sam. 1151 01:19:47,521 --> 01:19:48,871 - Hi, Sam. - Hey, how's it going? 1152 01:19:49,045 --> 01:19:52,048 - Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you. 1153 01:19:52,222 --> 01:19:53,179 [Debbie laughs] 1154 01:19:53,353 --> 01:19:54,572 - I didn't get the, the memo. 1155 01:19:54,746 --> 01:19:57,183 - [Sam] Ah, yeah, good style. 1156 01:19:57,357 --> 01:19:58,141 - What? 1157 01:19:58,315 --> 01:19:59,490 Oh, the shirts. [laughs] 1158 01:19:59,664 --> 01:20:01,709 You're so handsome, my goodness. 1159 01:20:01,884 --> 01:20:03,581 Ben doesn't tell me tell you anything. 1160 01:20:03,755 --> 01:20:05,409 Hun, your new son is handsome. 1161 01:20:06,671 --> 01:20:07,411 [Sam laughs] 1162 01:20:07,585 --> 01:20:08,455 [birds chirping] 1163 01:20:43,273 --> 01:20:45,014 I'm sure he loves you very much. 1164 01:20:45,188 --> 01:20:46,667 He must be proud. 1165 01:20:46,842 --> 01:20:48,234 - Yeah. 1166 01:20:48,408 --> 01:20:50,802 Well, I wanna tell him. 1167 01:20:53,718 --> 01:20:57,374 - Sometimes a parent knows, Sam, and they're waiting. 1168 01:20:58,549 --> 01:21:01,813 You know they, they love their children so much 1169 01:21:01,987 --> 01:21:03,902 but they hate to see them suffer, 1170 01:21:04,076 --> 01:21:06,470 and they're truly afraid of pushing them away. 1171 01:21:08,646 --> 01:21:10,953 If he really thinks in his heart that you're wrong 1172 01:21:11,997 --> 01:21:13,781 it's moments that like this 1173 01:21:13,956 --> 01:21:15,827 that'll make him rethink what's right. 1174 01:21:21,485 --> 01:21:23,835 I don't have the answers for you, hun, 1175 01:21:24,009 --> 01:21:26,316 but I'm so glad you and Benny have each other. 1176 01:21:43,507 --> 01:21:44,595 Bye, Sam. - It was meeting you. 1177 01:21:44,769 --> 01:21:46,466 - So nice to meet you. 1178 01:21:48,599 --> 01:21:50,949 - Bye. - Buh-bye, Ben. 1179 01:21:51,123 --> 01:21:52,124 - Bye. - Okay. 1180 01:21:52,298 --> 01:21:53,299 - Love you. - Love you too. 1181 01:21:53,473 --> 01:21:54,300 [Ben retching] 1182 01:22:05,529 --> 01:22:07,313 - Oh, sorry for the mix up, Ben. 1183 01:22:08,184 --> 01:22:09,446 I had a morning. 1184 01:22:09,620 --> 01:22:12,623 Spilled all the soup into a Coinstar. 1185 01:22:12,797 --> 01:22:13,580 It doesn't want that. 1186 01:22:15,191 --> 01:22:19,325 But uh, you know like that magic coin machine, Ben, 1187 01:22:19,499 --> 01:22:21,762 we need to give our bodies what they want. 1188 01:22:24,635 --> 01:22:26,593 - I'm still having problems like swallowing. 1189 01:22:28,030 --> 01:22:31,424 And sometimes when I run it's like uh, 1190 01:22:31,598 --> 01:22:32,686 I lose the connection with my body. 1191 01:22:32,860 --> 01:22:33,731 - Oh, I see. 1192 01:22:36,603 --> 01:22:39,563 - Like my toe, it's still numb. 1193 01:22:40,999 --> 01:22:42,827 Like it feels dead. 1194 01:22:43,001 --> 01:22:47,310 - Yeah, that's all in the chart, bad throat, dead toe. 1195 01:22:47,484 --> 01:22:48,615 [gentle brooding music] 1196 01:22:48,789 --> 01:22:49,703 You got enough EpiPens? 1197 01:22:56,145 --> 01:22:57,102 [birds chirping] 1198 01:22:57,276 --> 01:22:59,670 - It's gonna be great. 1199 01:22:59,844 --> 01:23:00,714 I'm excited. 1200 01:23:03,239 --> 01:23:05,589 So the, how many are gonna be there? 1201 01:23:06,677 --> 01:23:07,939 - Six. 1202 01:23:08,113 --> 01:23:09,506 - Six, hmm. 1203 01:23:10,986 --> 01:23:13,510 And uh, these are like your closest friends? 1204 01:23:14,772 --> 01:23:15,642 - Yep. 1205 01:23:16,904 --> 01:23:18,602 - And they're like around our age? 1206 01:23:20,560 --> 01:23:22,214 - Look you don't have to go if you don't wanna go. 1207 01:23:22,388 --> 01:23:24,608 - Of course I wanna go, of course I wanna go. 1208 01:23:26,827 --> 01:23:28,612 Okay, this means a lot to me. 1209 01:23:35,793 --> 01:23:36,663 [motorcycle engine roaring] 1210 01:23:36,837 --> 01:23:37,969 [motorcycle engine bangs] 1211 01:23:38,143 --> 01:23:39,014 Jesus. 1212 01:23:41,799 --> 01:23:42,974 Whoo, that scared me. 1213 01:23:44,671 --> 01:23:45,629 Whoa. 1214 01:23:48,501 --> 01:23:49,328 Sam, you okay? 1215 01:23:51,026 --> 01:23:52,288 - Yeah, I'm fine. - You okay, babe? 1216 01:23:52,462 --> 01:23:53,289 - Don't touch me. 1217 01:23:57,684 --> 01:23:58,859 - Babe, babe. - Please. 1218 01:24:11,785 --> 01:24:14,919 [gentle brooding music] 1219 01:24:37,463 --> 01:24:38,290 [fireworks popping] 1220 01:25:13,673 --> 01:25:14,544 - God. 1221 01:25:18,287 --> 01:25:20,115 God, if I don't take a dump on someone's chest 1222 01:25:20,289 --> 01:25:22,769 by the end of the night I don't know what I am worth. 1223 01:25:22,943 --> 01:25:23,814 - I can't right now. 1224 01:25:23,988 --> 01:25:26,425 Okay, give me a minute. 1225 01:25:26,599 --> 01:25:27,731 - [Theresa] Where's Sam? 1226 01:25:29,298 --> 01:25:30,125 At home? 1227 01:25:31,126 --> 01:25:32,431 - He's at work. 1228 01:25:32,605 --> 01:25:35,521 - You two want a little second agenda. 1229 01:25:36,740 --> 01:25:38,742 Little yellow legal pad and some penmanship 1230 01:25:38,916 --> 01:25:40,787 if you know what I mean. 1231 01:25:40,961 --> 01:25:44,487 I got a, I got a bulletin board with dart. 1232 01:25:44,661 --> 01:25:46,097 [Theresa whooshes] [Theresa grunts] 1233 01:25:46,271 --> 01:25:47,794 - Theresa, I'm really not in the mood today. 1234 01:25:47,968 --> 01:25:48,839 - Oh. 1235 01:25:53,887 --> 01:25:55,324 I hope everything works out. 1236 01:25:59,676 --> 01:26:02,809 [train engine whirring] 1237 01:26:05,551 --> 01:26:06,378 [waves crashing] 1238 01:26:17,476 --> 01:26:18,782 - Tell mommy what's going on? 1239 01:26:20,262 --> 01:26:21,132 Come on. 1240 01:26:25,267 --> 01:26:26,137 Benny. 1241 01:26:29,880 --> 01:26:30,750 Ben. 1242 01:26:35,059 --> 01:26:36,103 Ben. 1243 01:26:36,278 --> 01:26:40,804 [phone ringing] [birds chirping] 1244 01:26:48,942 --> 01:26:49,813 - [Ben] Hello. 1245 01:26:54,948 --> 01:26:55,862 Yeah, this is Ben. 1246 01:27:00,867 --> 01:27:01,738 [traffic humming] 1247 01:27:01,912 --> 01:27:02,782 Hey, Doc. 1248 01:27:04,958 --> 01:27:06,699 - Ben, hey. - Hey, hey. 1249 01:27:06,873 --> 01:27:08,266 - So good phone call today, huh? 1250 01:27:08,440 --> 01:27:09,398 I texted you. - Yeah. 1251 01:27:09,572 --> 01:27:10,225 - You talked to Celia, right? 1252 01:27:10,399 --> 01:27:11,835 - Yeah. - Great. 1253 01:27:12,009 --> 01:27:13,663 - Let's go back in though, let's go back in. 1254 01:27:13,837 --> 01:27:14,925 - No, no need, we did all the tests, nothing came up. 1255 01:27:15,099 --> 01:27:16,840 You're good. 1256 01:27:17,014 --> 01:27:18,276 - [Ben] Yeah, but, Doc, you know I still have nausea, okay. 1257 01:27:18,450 --> 01:27:19,973 I still get the headaches. - I understand, 1258 01:27:20,147 --> 01:27:21,584 but you talked to Celia. - This doesn't come 1259 01:27:21,758 --> 01:27:22,889 out of nowhere though. - You talked to Celia. 1260 01:27:23,063 --> 01:27:24,674 - This doesn't come out of nowhere. 1261 01:27:24,848 --> 01:27:25,805 Doc, I had, I had red marks on my arms you saw that, 1262 01:27:25,979 --> 01:27:26,937 I couldn't invent that. 1263 01:27:27,111 --> 01:27:28,373 - I'm not saying you did, Ben. 1264 01:27:28,547 --> 01:27:30,157 I'm just saying that you're fine. 1265 01:27:30,332 --> 01:27:31,811 You should enjoy that news. 1266 01:27:33,204 --> 01:27:34,858 - Okay. 1267 01:27:35,032 --> 01:27:38,514 All right, Monday, Monday, you go home now I understand 1268 01:27:38,688 --> 01:27:41,560 but Monday I'll come back in okay, and we can just talk, 1269 01:27:41,734 --> 01:27:43,823 and we get to the bottom of it, okay? 1270 01:27:43,997 --> 01:27:45,912 - Have you talked to your mother about this? 1271 01:27:56,445 --> 01:27:58,882 I can't tell you why you're feeling the way you feel, 1272 01:28:00,840 --> 01:28:01,885 I'm just a doctor. 1273 01:28:08,631 --> 01:28:09,458 [knuckles tapping] 1274 01:28:12,287 --> 01:28:14,985 [door creaking] 1275 01:28:15,159 --> 01:28:16,291 - Hey. - Hey, how ya doing? 1276 01:28:16,465 --> 01:28:17,814 - [Sam] What's happening, old man? 1277 01:28:17,988 --> 01:28:19,903 - Middle of the week, this is a surprise. 1278 01:28:23,820 --> 01:28:24,647 All right. 1279 01:28:26,692 --> 01:28:28,868 - [Sam] Can I sit down for a second? 1280 01:28:29,042 --> 01:28:30,435 - Sure, come on. 1281 01:28:32,394 --> 01:28:33,133 You all right? 1282 01:28:33,308 --> 01:28:34,134 [door creaking] 1283 01:28:34,309 --> 01:28:35,222 [door bangs] 1284 01:28:35,397 --> 01:28:36,267 [insects chirping] 1285 01:28:45,711 --> 01:28:49,585 [Girl yells] [train engine humming] 1286 01:28:49,759 --> 01:28:50,586 [Girl giggling] 1287 01:28:59,856 --> 01:29:01,945 [insects chirping] 1288 01:29:02,119 --> 01:29:04,948 [train horn honking] 1289 01:29:34,543 --> 01:29:35,979 - [Debbie] I put in extra Tang. 1290 01:29:40,026 --> 01:29:42,289 - Tang doesn't go in Long Island iced tea, Ma. 1291 01:29:43,334 --> 01:29:44,640 - [Debbie] It goes in mine. 1292 01:29:46,424 --> 01:29:47,773 - Cheers. - Cheers. 1293 01:29:53,126 --> 01:29:54,519 Mmm, delicious. 1294 01:29:55,738 --> 01:29:57,914 Long Island ice teas for astronauts. 1295 01:29:59,350 --> 01:30:01,874 It's crazy how everything's grown in, huh, Benny. 1296 01:30:03,572 --> 01:30:04,703 Little paradise. 1297 01:30:07,402 --> 01:30:09,012 You forget there was even a tree over there. 1298 01:30:09,186 --> 01:30:10,056 Look. 1299 01:30:19,065 --> 01:30:21,067 You wouldn't have remembered unless I told you. 1300 01:30:25,289 --> 01:30:27,857 Thanks for coming out and visiting your old momma. 1301 01:30:28,945 --> 01:30:30,555 She loves seeing her boy. 1302 01:30:38,171 --> 01:30:39,042 You hear them? 1303 01:30:41,218 --> 01:30:43,742 We haven't had a brood like this since. 1304 01:30:43,916 --> 01:30:44,743 - '96. 1305 01:30:50,619 --> 01:30:52,142 - Your dad didn't have his hernia. 1306 01:30:53,709 --> 01:30:55,058 I had a beautiful perm. 1307 01:30:58,365 --> 01:31:03,196 Cat was, uh '94, very good memory. 1308 01:31:10,943 --> 01:31:12,858 You know they say this batch is special. 1309 01:31:13,859 --> 01:31:15,034 I watched a "TED Talk". 1310 01:31:16,209 --> 01:31:18,995 They only come out every 17 years, so see, 1311 01:31:19,169 --> 01:31:21,084 yeah, you're right, '96. 1312 01:31:23,260 --> 01:31:25,392 Some think it's a survival mechanism. 1313 01:31:27,177 --> 01:31:30,093 The prime numbers prevent their predators 1314 01:31:30,267 --> 01:31:31,703 from knowing their patterns. 1315 01:31:33,575 --> 01:31:35,185 They live underground all their lives 1316 01:31:35,359 --> 01:31:37,622 and then one day they all come out, 1317 01:31:37,796 --> 01:31:41,626 climb up the big trees, spread their wings, 1318 01:31:41,800 --> 01:31:46,022 and play us their little songs, and we listen. 1319 01:31:59,775 --> 01:32:01,124 I just want you to know 1320 01:32:01,298 --> 01:32:02,995 that I love you and Sam so much, Benny. 1321 01:32:04,344 --> 01:32:05,781 You make me very happy. 1322 01:32:09,524 --> 01:32:10,568 - I love you too, Ma. 1323 01:32:15,442 --> 01:32:17,923 - Hey, how about you and your momma go to the beach tomorrow 1324 01:32:18,097 --> 01:32:19,142 like the old days, huh? 1325 01:32:20,709 --> 01:32:23,886 We'll go to Robert Moses, I'll buy you a snow cone. 1326 01:32:25,061 --> 01:32:26,497 I'll let you pee in the water. 1327 01:32:28,630 --> 01:32:29,979 - [Ben] It's a date. 1328 01:32:30,153 --> 01:32:31,894 - It's a date? 1329 01:32:32,068 --> 01:32:33,025 It's a date. 1330 01:32:53,132 --> 01:32:54,481 - Hey, Ma. 1331 01:32:54,656 --> 01:32:55,526 - Yeah, Benny? 1332 01:33:00,270 --> 01:33:01,140 [Ben whimpering] 1333 01:33:18,331 --> 01:33:19,637 What is it, Ben? 1334 01:33:21,247 --> 01:33:23,423 [wind blowing] 1335 01:33:23,598 --> 01:33:26,035 - I gotta tell you something. 1336 01:33:54,498 --> 01:33:55,368 [waves crashing] 1337 01:35:17,146 --> 01:35:17,973 [gentle music] 85828