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Okay.
So these are the rules.
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You have to get
from here to there
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without touching
the floor or the light.
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All right, Bearbear,
you can do this.
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Just have to go slow,
okay?
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You can do it, Bearbear.
You just have to jump.
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Okay, ready?
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Sometimes I can feel
the sky as it rotates.
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It scatters my thoughts,
creating this...
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sound.
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And it'll grow louder.
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More aggressive.
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Like two people fighting.
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I look up and I know
I can keep my shit together.
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And then it rains.
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It's gonna stop,
baby girl.
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If it doesn't,
I'll be the only kid in class
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with an indoor swimming pool.
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Ooh, que fancy.
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You don't need a flood
to stand out.
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You've got grease
all over your face.
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Oh, yeah.
You, like, totally got it now.
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It looks all bad.
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It will grow louder.
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The lights will turn off.
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The roof will cave in.
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Everything will fall apart.
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And I wonderif you can hear me.
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Don't let go.
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Don't let go.
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Please.
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Hold your hand.
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No, don't let me.
It's my fault. I did it.
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Who's she talking to?
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Jesus.
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Is he listening?
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I don't know, baby girl.
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Is she crazy?
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I don't know, baby girl.
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You're on fire.
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You set it on fire!
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I'm holding your fucking hand,
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fuck you, you fucking
ugly fucker, fucker, fucker...
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Hold your hand.I'm holding your hand.
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You got lost,
Chama, or what?
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Where you going?
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Don't be all nosy, Matias.
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She has a job interview.
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Oh, where at?
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You my PO now or something?
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Look, it's, like,
a good job opportunity, okay?
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Gonna pay real good,
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then you won't be
seeing us no more.
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Who names their kid Chama?
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It's short for Elena.
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-No, it isn't.
-It is, if I say it is.
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Anybody ever tell you
you got spiders in your veins?
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Anyone ever tell you
to put on some shoes?
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Come on, baby,
get your bag.
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That you?
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Yeah, that's me.
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Hey, good luck out there.
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Let me see.
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You're gonna lose everything if
you don't close your backpack.
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Come on.
Got everything you need?
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Mm-hmm.
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I'm gonna be right here,
waiting for you after school.
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Really?
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Yes, really.
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Are you gonna
give me shit today, too?
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Come on.
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-I love you.
-I love you.
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Have fun.
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I remember being her age.
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That's when
I learned how to lie.
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I used to tell teachers
I was sick.
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That's why
I was missing school.
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When I did go,
I tried to blend in.
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I brushed my hair,
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cleaned my nails...
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but inside I felt
ants crawling up my skin.
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I just wanted to grow up,
so everything would be better.
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Give me a chance.
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I can do the work.
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I can!
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I'm sure you can.
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Come on, quiz me.
I know this shit.
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When I was younger
I used to watch
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my abuelo
tear cars apart.
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He taught me
literally everything.
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I got an '85
Buick LeSabre I rebuilt.
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Runs perfectly...
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if it had a fuel pump.
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But I can't get
a new fuel pump
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if I don't got a job
and if I don't got a job...
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Look.
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I'm just trying
to get back on my feet, okay?
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I have a daughter.
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Look, the economy's
kicking my ass.
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I'm just not hiring right now.
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Abuelo used to say that
if you find a black feather...
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it's a warning.
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We made dinner.
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There's some left
in the fridge.
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She's sleeping, Elena.
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She's my daughter.
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I know she's sleeping, okay?
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Don't look at me
like that.
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-You're in my home.
-That the state pays for.
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I was robbed, okay?
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Don't pretend
like you care.
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Because
if you gave two shits,
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you'd drive around
and look for them.
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Oh, I would drive around
and look for your shoes?
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Why would you ever want to
look for the imaginary person
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who stole your shoes,
Elena?
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That's not my name.
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Stop talking to me
like a child.
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You know,
Friday's her birthday.
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I fucking know
Friday's her birthday.
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If you weren't my sister--
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So, what?
You'd go? So fucking go!
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You are just like Mom.
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One of these times...
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they're gonna take her away.
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Get the fuck out
of my house.
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Get the fuck out!
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You know,
I used to have this dream...
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that I got,
like, no face...
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and I'm just a shadow,
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floating over the desert.
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And I got, like,
this bag of hammers
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and I'm just, like,
chucking them at cows.
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What do you think
that means?
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That you need
serious help.
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Toaster alwaysshowed up when I needed her.
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You can't just,
like, open it.
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-Why not?
-You broke it.
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Last year,
Nevaeh loved red.
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I think this year,
she likes the color purple.
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Like that Oprah movie
about racism?
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Balloons.
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You never, like,
look up your dreams
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and find out
what they mean?
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I don't dream.
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Every bitch dreams.
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Come on, you probably
just don't remember it.
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Mm-mm.
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Maybe that's what I'll study
when I go back to school.
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Why Chama don't dream?
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Stupid. Siempre.
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No.
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No, for serious.
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I'm going back.
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Toaster is one of thosebitches from the Heights.
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She actually knew her father.
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He'd buy her things.
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She never worriedabout nothing.
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Toaster was all cool.
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And I wanted to be her.
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She was a dreamer.
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I'm going back.
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My dad's gonna pay.
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It's gonna be
like it used to be, you know?
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He's gonna be proud of me.
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I don't know,
maybe I'll be just, like...
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some counselor, you know?
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Like, help
all these bitches out.
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I could tell 'em what's up.
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Toaster alwaysshowed up when I needed her.
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She'd help me fix everything.
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I can make my daughter happy.
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I can keep my shit together.
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I can make
my daughter happy.
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I can makemy daughter happy.
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I can make
my daughter happy.
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I can make my daughter happy.I can make my daughter happy.
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I can makemy daughter happy.
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I can keep my shit together.I can make my daughter happy.
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I can make
my daughter happy.
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I can keep
my shit together.
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I can make
my daughter happy.
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I can keepmy shit together.
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Hey, baby girl,
what's wrong?
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I don't know.
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Hey.
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Don't let bullshit push you.
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Sometimes I just
want to hide, too.
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Just, like, run away.
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But everybody's already here,
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so you might as well
just take all their presents.
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You were born two months early,
you know why?
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Hmm?
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Because you were
so excited to meet your mama.
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And I was to meet you.
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There she is.
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You're my baby girl,
you're all I got.
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You're all I got.
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I hope that's not true.
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Go on.
Have fun, it's your birthday.
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I can keep my shit.
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Elena?
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Elena, are you in there?
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Come on. Open up.
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Elena.
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I've been looking
for you everywhere.
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You did all right--
good, okay?
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Not out here to talk shit.
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00:26:47,408 --> 00:26:48,709
Hey.
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Let's just
go out and sing.
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Look, you know what?
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You don't get to do this.
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Not today,
this isn't about you.
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You think you're so special
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and that nobody else matters,
but guess what?
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They do.
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Somebody help me!
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Somebody help!
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00:27:59,514 --> 00:28:01,015
Now!
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I know
what you all are thinking.
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Shit gets all fucked.
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00:28:19,200 --> 00:28:20,868
But that's just
the way it goes.
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I had this
one bitch try to tell me,
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"If you just got a real job,
everything would be all right."
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00:28:28,275 --> 00:28:30,477
Bitch! I have a felony.
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00:28:30,512 --> 00:28:32,479
Who's gonna hire me?
Who's gonna teach me?
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00:28:33,280 --> 00:28:35,716
All I know
is selling dope, hustling.
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00:28:36,083 --> 00:28:38,018
That's all anyone
was willing to show me.
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So, with four little brothers
at home, yeah,
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I was gonna hustle
to buy them food and, yeah,
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I was gonna smoke to forget
everything I had done.
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And yeah.
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Shit's gonna get fucked.
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I was once a little girl.
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Trying to keep my sister safe.
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I thoughtit would all work out.
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I used to run to Abuelo's.
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He showed mehow to fix things.
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You showed mehow to break them.
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You fucking took them, huh?
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Let's go.
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You drove aroundwith bottles on the floor.
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Your music turned up.
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You'd smoke a full pack,
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but you stillsmelled like roses.
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We cried as you pulledthe glass out of our skin.
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I am my mother's daughter.
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Elena.
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Can you tell me
what you were doing?
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00:30:38,205 --> 00:30:39,907
You're lucky to be alive.
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If it hadn't been for
the Narcan you'd be dead...
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00:30:46,113 --> 00:30:48,282
you probably
wouldn't be here right now.
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00:30:52,486 --> 00:30:54,188
How much do you normally use?
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00:30:57,525 --> 00:30:59,960
Was it an accident
or was it intentional?
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00:31:19,279 --> 00:31:20,914
It's a selfish act,
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especially
when you're pregnant.
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00:31:40,134 --> 00:31:41,301
You didn't know?
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I was 21.
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00:32:22,109 --> 00:32:24,011
I'd work on cars, because...
260
00:32:24,779 --> 00:32:26,146
what else am I gonna do?
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00:32:39,092 --> 00:32:41,395
It was alsothe last time I used a needle.
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Nobody knew.
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00:32:45,032 --> 00:32:46,233
I was quiet.
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But I alwaysseemed in control.
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You're doing it all wrong.
266
00:32:54,509 --> 00:32:56,176
You should be cranking it
the other way, you know?
267
00:32:58,278 --> 00:32:59,747
I'm tightening the tensioner.
268
00:33:00,113 --> 00:33:03,150
Going clockwise,
so the nut can do its job.
269
00:33:06,053 --> 00:33:07,154
That's what's up.
270
00:33:10,525 --> 00:33:11,626
You know, I see you.
271
00:33:14,328 --> 00:33:16,196
You was down
at Chopay's the other day.
272
00:33:16,798 --> 00:33:18,566
Looking all cool and shit.
273
00:33:21,569 --> 00:33:25,105
I see you and I want to
holler at you, mija.
274
00:33:27,207 --> 00:33:28,308
Why?
275
00:33:30,177 --> 00:33:31,646
Because you look like
you need someone to.
276
00:33:37,317 --> 00:33:38,452
So what it is?
277
00:33:39,554 --> 00:33:41,221
Can I help you
start it or what?
278
00:33:56,671 --> 00:33:59,139
Santi was all bad.
279
00:33:59,172 --> 00:34:01,108
Smelled likehairspray and sweat.
280
00:34:03,745 --> 00:34:05,379
Reminded me of Abuelo.
281
00:34:07,314 --> 00:34:08,516
Know how many times he lost?
282
00:34:10,552 --> 00:34:11,786
Five.
283
00:34:11,819 --> 00:34:13,487
He worshiped boxing
284
00:34:13,521 --> 00:34:15,255
and the boxerswho wouldn't quit.
285
00:34:15,289 --> 00:34:16,691
Know how many times
he's got back up and won?
286
00:34:17,357 --> 00:34:18,660
59, baby!
287
00:34:19,359 --> 00:34:21,663
He just sticks out his tongue
and he knows no matter
288
00:34:21,696 --> 00:34:23,430
where he grow up,
no matter how he grow up,
289
00:34:23,463 --> 00:34:25,065
what he could do,
you know what I mean?
290
00:34:26,768 --> 00:34:28,368
He says,
291
00:34:28,402 --> 00:34:30,505
"Hey, pass me the ball,
pass me the bills.
292
00:34:31,673 --> 00:34:33,473
Albuquerque.
293
00:34:33,508 --> 00:34:36,143
Up to you, champ.
Albuquerque.
294
00:34:36,410 --> 00:34:38,111
I'm still the champ.
295
00:34:38,145 --> 00:34:40,548
Hey, Grandma, Grandpa,
I'm still your champ!"
296
00:34:42,282 --> 00:34:44,084
I'd tattoo him on my body.
297
00:34:45,620 --> 00:34:47,487
And he promisedto never let me get sick.
298
00:34:49,423 --> 00:34:52,125
We'd get a house together.
299
00:34:52,159 --> 00:34:55,863
I'd get pregnant.Stop using.
300
00:34:55,897 --> 00:34:59,433
I'd worship him,because he gave me Nevaeh.
301
00:34:59,466 --> 00:35:03,203
She'd be born at home,just like I was.
302
00:35:03,236 --> 00:35:05,640
He'd play the guitarfor our daughter.
303
00:35:05,673 --> 00:35:07,742
He wasn't very good,but I didn't know any better.
304
00:35:09,911 --> 00:35:11,278
Then he was gone.
305
00:35:12,446 --> 00:35:13,648
I was alone.
306
00:35:14,649 --> 00:35:15,883
And seven years later...
307
00:35:35,536 --> 00:35:36,871
I need you to nod your head
308
00:35:36,904 --> 00:35:38,606
that you understand
what's going on.
309
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:41,776
It's in your best interest.
310
00:35:46,413 --> 00:35:48,750
An investigator from CPS
is gonna sit down
311
00:35:48,783 --> 00:35:50,150
- with your daughter.
- No.
312
00:35:51,351 --> 00:35:52,587
You're going to scare her.
313
00:35:53,121 --> 00:35:54,789
She's already scared.
314
00:36:01,461 --> 00:36:02,797
We've got a house
full of love,
315
00:36:02,830 --> 00:36:04,632
you don't even know.
316
00:36:04,666 --> 00:36:05,967
Do you have a contact
number for her father?
317
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:07,234
What do you think
he's gonna do?
318
00:36:07,869 --> 00:36:09,871
You just want
to take away my baby.
319
00:36:09,904 --> 00:36:12,305
Our intention
is never to remove a child
320
00:36:12,339 --> 00:36:13,407
from their home.
321
00:36:13,941 --> 00:36:16,343
Unless we feel
the child is in danger.
322
00:36:17,444 --> 00:36:18,913
Do I look dangerous?
323
00:36:20,515 --> 00:36:21,949
The situation at the party--
324
00:36:21,983 --> 00:36:23,584
Was an accident!
325
00:36:27,822 --> 00:36:30,625
It was-- it was--
326
00:36:35,997 --> 00:36:37,565
It was an accident.
327
00:36:38,700 --> 00:36:40,568
It's never gonna
happen again.
328
00:36:44,639 --> 00:36:45,973
Do you understand
why we're here?
329
00:36:56,884 --> 00:36:59,352
Hey, baby girl. Hey.
330
00:37:12,867 --> 00:37:14,234
It's okay.
331
00:37:14,836 --> 00:37:15,903
Here.
332
00:37:17,939 --> 00:37:19,372
Hey, Bearbear.
333
00:37:24,912 --> 00:37:27,447
I'm sorry.
I messed up.
334
00:37:28,281 --> 00:37:30,417
Everything's gonna
go back to normal.
335
00:37:32,086 --> 00:37:34,454
Will you stop
writing down everything I say?
336
00:37:47,969 --> 00:37:49,336
Come here.
337
00:38:04,451 --> 00:38:06,687
-I love you.
-I love you.
338
00:38:31,646 --> 00:38:32,880
Fuck them, no?
339
00:38:37,484 --> 00:38:39,520
Fuck them for judging us.
340
00:38:41,155 --> 00:38:42,557
You're a good mother.
341
00:38:43,124 --> 00:38:44,457
I just wanna cry.
342
00:38:45,760 --> 00:38:47,360
But nothing's coming out.
343
00:38:48,129 --> 00:38:49,564
They don't know shit.
344
00:38:53,134 --> 00:38:54,836
What's wrong with me,
Toaster?
345
00:39:00,575 --> 00:39:02,076
What are you doing, Chama?
346
00:39:02,777 --> 00:39:05,445
You think you got,
like, a choice, really?
347
00:39:06,781 --> 00:39:09,817
A la maquina, dummy.
Not even.
348
00:39:11,152 --> 00:39:12,854
Okay, when we was,
like, born...
349
00:39:13,888 --> 00:39:16,991
let's say God,
yeah, God.
350
00:39:17,357 --> 00:39:18,860
You know, God was like...
351
00:39:21,195 --> 00:39:24,165
"I'm gonna make
this child super smart.
352
00:39:24,198 --> 00:39:25,833
And then this one?
353
00:39:25,867 --> 00:39:27,635
This one is gonna be
dumb as crackers.
354
00:39:27,668 --> 00:39:29,804
And then this one?
Oh, you know what?
355
00:39:29,837 --> 00:39:32,439
That one is gonna get
a fucking mental illness,
356
00:39:32,472 --> 00:39:35,442
hell yeah, because
that'll be fucking fun, no?
357
00:39:35,475 --> 00:39:36,911
And this one.
358
00:39:36,944 --> 00:39:40,948
This one's gonna have ADHD,
hell yeah!
359
00:39:40,982 --> 00:39:42,783
And this one,
just for shits and giggles,
360
00:39:42,817 --> 00:39:44,952
let's give it
leukemia, right?
361
00:39:44,986 --> 00:39:47,822
Because, you know,
life needs more hurdles.
362
00:39:48,455 --> 00:39:50,825
And this one?
Yeah, this one.
363
00:39:50,858 --> 00:39:53,393
This one gets
an addictive personality.
364
00:39:54,195 --> 00:39:55,529
And that one doesn't."
365
00:39:59,033 --> 00:40:00,433
This is us.
366
00:40:03,638 --> 00:40:06,741
We gotta fucking fight
until we win.
367
00:40:08,709 --> 00:40:10,511
We're fucking rebels, no?
368
00:40:12,213 --> 00:40:14,414
And we're gonna
take care of all of it.
369
00:40:17,218 --> 00:40:18,552
Just not today.
370
00:41:01,195 --> 00:41:03,064
I want my baby.
371
00:41:08,836 --> 00:41:11,038
- I want my baby.
- It's okay.
372
00:41:11,572 --> 00:41:14,108
-Shh.
-I want my baby.
373
00:41:14,141 --> 00:41:17,111
Shh, can you just,
like, think it
374
00:41:17,144 --> 00:41:19,013
instead of saying it
out loud?
375
00:41:19,046 --> 00:41:20,648
I want my baby!
376
00:41:20,681 --> 00:41:23,084
And I would like her
to shut the fuck up!
377
00:41:24,552 --> 00:41:25,753
What the fuck you say?
378
00:41:29,290 --> 00:41:30,624
No, it's okay.
379
00:41:31,092 --> 00:41:32,960
You can, like,
say that one more time.
380
00:41:33,427 --> 00:41:35,096
Just shut her up.
381
00:41:44,338 --> 00:41:46,741
Do you know what the fuck
my friend has been through?
382
00:41:48,175 --> 00:41:50,077
You want her
to shut the fuck up?
383
00:41:51,145 --> 00:41:52,813
Just go back to your seat.
384
00:41:54,215 --> 00:41:55,716
Go back to my seat?
385
00:41:57,018 --> 00:41:59,020
I'll stand here
if I want to.
386
00:42:04,692 --> 00:42:05,860
You're drunk.
387
00:42:08,062 --> 00:42:09,163
What'd you say?
388
00:42:09,563 --> 00:42:11,766
You fucking stink,
you're drunk.
389
00:42:15,936 --> 00:42:18,606
Fuck!
Get this crazy bitch off me!
390
00:42:18,639 --> 00:42:20,141
Fuck you!
391
00:42:21,375 --> 00:42:22,843
Fuck!
392
00:42:24,845 --> 00:42:26,747
- Fuck!
- Fuck you!
393
00:42:26,781 --> 00:42:28,215
Look at this place, mija.
394
00:42:28,249 --> 00:42:29,950
That's what you dreamed of.
395
00:42:31,385 --> 00:42:33,721
We can put my mother's
papal cross right here.
396
00:42:33,754 --> 00:42:35,222
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah?
397
00:42:35,256 --> 00:42:36,590
Mm-hmm.
398
00:42:39,960 --> 00:42:42,963
Maybe, like,
a painting right there?
399
00:42:42,997 --> 00:42:44,331
You could put up two.
400
00:42:44,365 --> 00:42:45,766
What do you think?
401
00:42:46,333 --> 00:42:47,668
What do you think?
402
00:42:52,373 --> 00:42:56,710
Oh, and-- oh, I have
this doll collection
403
00:42:56,744 --> 00:42:58,846
that my mother found
outside a dumpster in the mall.
404
00:42:58,879 --> 00:43:01,315
- Really?
- It's in perfect condition.
405
00:43:01,348 --> 00:43:03,117
Well, like, perfect condition
for, like, the dumpster,
406
00:43:03,150 --> 00:43:04,852
but I've always
wanted to display it.
407
00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:07,088
Where you gonna put it up?
408
00:43:08,389 --> 00:43:10,257
What do you think?
409
00:43:12,059 --> 00:43:13,260
Are you happy or what?
410
00:43:32,913 --> 00:43:34,348
I wanted a miracle.
411
00:43:35,683 --> 00:43:36,817
And I got one.
412
00:43:39,053 --> 00:43:40,754
I didn't need anything else.
413
00:44:10,117 --> 00:44:12,153
My husband
was at home with my daughter.
414
00:44:13,821 --> 00:44:16,023
I was at the long bar
with my friends.
415
00:44:18,859 --> 00:44:19,994
Boyfriend.
416
00:44:21,495 --> 00:44:23,197
We were all fucked up.
417
00:44:24,965 --> 00:44:26,200
Breaking vows...
418
00:44:27,868 --> 00:44:29,069
and I fell.
419
00:44:29,638 --> 00:44:31,338
Cracked my fucking tailbone.
420
00:44:33,140 --> 00:44:35,409
I put one of those
blue ice packs on it.
421
00:44:36,076 --> 00:44:37,178
It broke.
422
00:44:38,846 --> 00:44:40,281
Dyed my ass blue.
423
00:44:43,484 --> 00:44:46,220
So, I go home
smelling like turpentine...
424
00:44:47,154 --> 00:44:49,356
with a serious fucking injury,
425
00:44:49,390 --> 00:44:50,791
a blue ass...
426
00:44:51,526 --> 00:44:53,194
all the while,
427
00:44:53,227 --> 00:44:54,695
I was just supposed
to be picking up dinner.
428
00:44:57,131 --> 00:45:01,835
♪ Lord take me home,take me home ♪
429
00:45:03,505 --> 00:45:10,144
♪ 'Cause I needsomewhere to go ♪
430
00:45:10,177 --> 00:45:13,447
♪ My pockets are empty ♪
431
00:45:13,480 --> 00:45:16,784
♪ And so is my soul ♪
432
00:45:16,817 --> 00:45:22,223
♪ Oh, Lord, take me home,take me home ♪
433
00:45:40,808 --> 00:45:44,478
♪ Well I got soulcoming out my ears ♪
434
00:45:44,512 --> 00:45:48,482
♪ But I ain't got cashto put gas in my pick up ♪
435
00:45:48,516 --> 00:45:53,287
♪ Pick up, well I got dreamsbut I also got fears ♪
436
00:45:53,320 --> 00:45:55,557
♪ Which one will winI cannot tell ♪
437
00:45:55,590 --> 00:45:58,058
♪ The good King Jesusor the hounds of hell ♪
438
00:45:58,092 --> 00:46:00,494
♪ I saidI ain't got no money... ♪
439
00:46:10,404 --> 00:46:12,773
Look
who finally decided to show up.
440
00:46:13,240 --> 00:46:15,543
I was out looking
for a present for my dad.
441
00:46:15,577 --> 00:46:17,111
I don't know
what to get him.
442
00:46:17,144 --> 00:46:18,912
Maybe another
World War Two book
443
00:46:18,946 --> 00:46:21,081
with the card inside
that says, "Happy birthday.
444
00:46:21,115 --> 00:46:22,483
We got nothing in common."
445
00:46:22,517 --> 00:46:25,052
What?
446
00:46:26,120 --> 00:46:27,988
You know your jacket smells?
447
00:46:28,022 --> 00:46:29,189
You ever wash it?
448
00:46:29,990 --> 00:46:31,526
It's not like
it touches my ass,
449
00:46:31,559 --> 00:46:33,427
I'm not, like,
farting in it...
450
00:46:34,461 --> 00:46:35,796
all the time.
451
00:46:36,997 --> 00:46:38,365
Oh, come on,
that was funny.
452
00:46:39,033 --> 00:46:40,834
You know, you really
should laugh more.
453
00:46:40,868 --> 00:46:41,969
Especially here.
454
00:46:55,282 --> 00:46:57,117
Not sure
if I'm supposed to be here.
455
00:46:57,918 --> 00:47:00,321
If you're standing
there, you probably are.
456
00:47:00,354 --> 00:47:01,955
But we don't detox.
457
00:47:03,090 --> 00:47:04,191
I'm clean.
458
00:47:04,626 --> 00:47:05,926
We're full up.
459
00:47:07,227 --> 00:47:08,596
Plus, it's 3:00 PM.
460
00:47:08,630 --> 00:47:10,565
We don't take
anyone past noon.
461
00:47:16,103 --> 00:47:18,172
This is the third place
I've tried today.
462
00:47:20,207 --> 00:47:22,109
What's worsethan being invisible?
463
00:47:23,277 --> 00:47:25,012
Being seen as disposable.
464
00:47:39,026 --> 00:47:40,595
I go to the hospital.
465
00:47:40,628 --> 00:47:43,197
Be responsible.Get checked.
466
00:47:43,230 --> 00:47:44,365
Dose.
467
00:47:48,135 --> 00:47:50,003
I want to rip off my skin.
468
00:47:52,139 --> 00:47:53,474
The way she looks at me.
469
00:47:56,678 --> 00:47:58,345
Does she need to double up?
470
00:47:58,912 --> 00:48:01,281
The nurse.
The fucking nurse.
471
00:48:02,082 --> 00:48:05,386
I'm dirty. Disgusting.
472
00:48:05,419 --> 00:48:07,454
She doesn't see me.
473
00:48:07,488 --> 00:48:09,691
She'll check my chart.
474
00:48:09,724 --> 00:48:11,358
She'll know what I've done.
475
00:49:22,262 --> 00:49:24,398
I told you last time
I wanted to sell you,
476
00:49:24,431 --> 00:49:25,633
you know what I mean?
477
00:49:26,099 --> 00:49:28,235
I just didn't like the way
y'all went out like that.
478
00:49:28,268 --> 00:49:29,604
I know you got something.
479
00:49:29,637 --> 00:49:31,071
Nah, not this time.
480
00:49:37,612 --> 00:49:39,480
Fuck you up. Fucking kill you.
481
00:49:40,682 --> 00:49:42,149
This shit ain't over.
482
00:49:48,322 --> 00:49:49,958
Santi, what did you do?
483
00:49:54,161 --> 00:49:55,730
Keep your fucking mouth shut.
484
00:51:43,504 --> 00:51:44,606
Who's there?
485
00:51:48,776 --> 00:51:50,612
What are you doing, Chama?
486
00:51:52,179 --> 00:51:53,380
Toaster.
487
00:51:57,417 --> 00:51:59,152
You gotta go away.
488
00:52:04,692 --> 00:52:05,760
Go away!
489
00:52:13,768 --> 00:52:15,202
Toaster.
490
00:52:16,336 --> 00:52:18,606
Toaster!
491
00:52:18,640 --> 00:52:20,173
I thoughtyou wanted me to leave.
492
00:52:23,276 --> 00:52:24,912
No, no.
493
00:52:30,585 --> 00:52:31,853
I'm all alone.
494
00:52:38,960 --> 00:52:41,896
Remember when we first met?
495
00:52:41,929 --> 00:52:44,297
We were workingat some old folks' home
496
00:52:44,331 --> 00:52:45,800
and making food and shit.
497
00:52:48,803 --> 00:52:50,470
Yeah.
498
00:52:50,505 --> 00:52:52,740
We both hated the way
old people were treated.
499
00:52:54,408 --> 00:52:56,276
Like they were a nuisance.
500
00:52:57,645 --> 00:52:59,781
Like they chose
to be old and shit.
501
00:52:59,814 --> 00:53:02,315
You thought I waslike your sister and shit.
502
00:53:02,349 --> 00:53:04,184
You got all mad.
503
00:53:20,768 --> 00:53:22,804
You know whatthe worst part is?
504
00:53:23,705 --> 00:53:25,573
All of it.
505
00:53:25,606 --> 00:53:27,441
When you're out, Chama.
506
00:53:30,310 --> 00:53:32,747
You start smoking the crumbs.
507
00:53:32,780 --> 00:53:34,481
I've seen you do it.
508
00:53:34,515 --> 00:53:35,983
You're a dummy.
509
00:53:36,017 --> 00:53:37,752
You smoke the crumbsand then more.
510
00:53:37,785 --> 00:53:40,822
Then you put Selenaon full blast.
511
00:53:40,855 --> 00:53:45,392
But it's not the sameas when you kiss it.
512
00:53:45,425 --> 00:53:47,461
- Put it in.
- No, shut up!
513
00:53:48,763 --> 00:53:49,997
Open up.
514
00:53:50,031 --> 00:53:52,299
No. No!
515
00:53:54,635 --> 00:53:56,971
I've gotsomething for you, Chama.
516
00:53:58,405 --> 00:53:59,507
No!
517
00:54:11,418 --> 00:54:13,554
I'll do better,I'll do better,
518
00:54:13,588 --> 00:54:15,355
I'll do better,I'll do better,
519
00:54:15,388 --> 00:54:16,657
I promise I'll do better.
520
00:54:19,827 --> 00:54:21,896
You lied. You lied.
521
00:54:31,939 --> 00:54:33,841
No, don't--
don't move, don't move.
522
00:54:33,875 --> 00:54:35,877
Is it cold?
Is it cold down there?
523
00:54:35,910 --> 00:54:39,046
Please hold on to my hand.
Oh, my God.
524
00:54:47,088 --> 00:54:48,388
Toaster.
525
00:54:49,791 --> 00:54:51,291
Are you fucking with me?
526
00:54:52,059 --> 00:54:54,061
What are you doing, Chama?
527
00:54:54,095 --> 00:54:55,897
Hey.
528
00:54:58,833 --> 00:55:00,568
-Don't you?
-No, sorry.
529
00:55:02,103 --> 00:55:03,671
I only got
a couple of bucks.
530
00:55:07,975 --> 00:55:09,744
Come on. Please.
531
00:55:13,446 --> 00:55:16,017
Come on.
Come on. Please.
532
00:55:22,023 --> 00:55:26,627
Come on. Come on.
Come on, please.
533
00:55:34,101 --> 00:55:36,469
I've been talkingto you and not once,
534
00:55:36,504 --> 00:55:39,674
through everything,have you said anything back.
535
00:55:42,442 --> 00:55:43,778
Are you not there?
536
00:55:45,046 --> 00:55:46,581
Can you not hear me?
537
00:56:28,222 --> 00:56:29,523
Nine months.
538
00:56:32,793 --> 00:56:34,061
Clean.
539
00:56:38,766 --> 00:56:39,867
Look at your arms.
540
00:56:40,433 --> 00:56:43,571
You're a worthless fucking...
541
00:56:44,939 --> 00:56:46,007
junkie.
542
00:56:48,209 --> 00:56:50,077
Why don't
you just kill yourself?
543
00:57:00,087 --> 00:57:01,155
Or you could...
544
00:57:02,924 --> 00:57:03,991
go.
545
00:57:05,126 --> 00:57:06,426
Grab your daughter...
546
00:57:08,229 --> 00:57:09,797
and get out of here.
547
00:57:10,231 --> 00:57:11,866
Get the fuck out of here.
548
00:57:14,769 --> 00:57:16,037
Get the fuck out of here.
549
00:57:18,139 --> 00:57:19,540
Police department,
don't move!
550
00:57:19,573 --> 00:57:20,975
Police department!
551
00:57:53,774 --> 00:57:56,243
You wanna know the...
552
00:57:56,277 --> 00:57:59,947
...two worst words
in the English vocabulary?
553
00:58:02,783 --> 00:58:04,986
What if...
554
00:58:05,886 --> 00:58:07,989
...um, what if...
555
00:58:10,024 --> 00:58:11,892
my dad
was the president?
556
00:58:13,627 --> 00:58:14,729
Or what if...
557
00:58:15,963 --> 00:58:17,631
um, my mom...
558
00:58:18,632 --> 00:58:20,500
actually wanted me?
559
00:58:23,004 --> 00:58:24,638
What if...
560
00:58:25,206 --> 00:58:27,174
I was born in London,
561
00:58:27,208 --> 00:58:28,509
or...
562
00:58:29,176 --> 00:58:30,611
or Ireland?
563
00:58:33,047 --> 00:58:35,516
Lived on a farm far away?
564
00:58:41,922 --> 00:58:44,225
What if when I ate food
565
00:58:44,258 --> 00:58:45,926
I could keep it down,
566
00:58:45,960 --> 00:58:49,697
like, that wasn't even
a thought, you know?
567
00:58:56,003 --> 00:58:57,538
What if they didn't say...
568
00:58:58,639 --> 00:58:59,774
it was all my fault?
569
00:59:02,610 --> 00:59:04,178
Make up lies about me?
570
00:59:10,818 --> 00:59:12,920
What if he came to get me?
571
00:59:16,257 --> 00:59:17,725
You know where I'm at?
572
00:59:22,329 --> 00:59:25,032
You know, what if
I didn't have to ask what if?
573
01:00:05,806 --> 01:00:06,907
Can't.
574
01:00:08,976 --> 01:00:11,812
♪ Please don't say anything ♪
575
01:00:11,846 --> 01:00:14,048
♪ Anything at all ♪
576
01:00:14,081 --> 01:00:16,851
Look, I've--
I've been calling
577
01:00:16,884 --> 01:00:20,087
over and over and no--
nobody will tell me nothing!
578
01:00:20,121 --> 01:00:24,125
♪ The silence says it all ♪
579
01:00:26,427 --> 01:00:29,396
♪ Blood runningthrough my veins ♪
580
01:00:29,430 --> 01:00:31,065
Where is she?
581
01:00:37,104 --> 01:00:38,806
Don't worry,
582
01:00:40,074 --> 01:00:41,842
No, don't--
don't hang up.
583
01:00:41,876 --> 01:00:43,844
I just-- I want
to know where she is.
584
01:00:43,878 --> 01:00:46,814
♪ For that call ♪
585
01:00:50,384 --> 01:00:54,855
♪ Ooh ♪
586
01:01:04,465 --> 01:01:05,733
Can't.
587
01:01:06,300 --> 01:01:07,668
Come on!
588
01:01:08,235 --> 01:01:10,771
What the--
what the fuck?
589
01:01:10,804 --> 01:01:12,072
We need help!
590
01:01:12,106 --> 01:01:13,407
Who's gonna help us?
591
01:01:13,741 --> 01:01:15,910
Who? Who, who, who?
592
01:01:15,943 --> 01:01:18,179
- I don't know, I just--
- Say it. What?
593
01:01:18,212 --> 01:01:20,014
-Say it! What are you, dumb?
-I feel like--
594
01:01:20,047 --> 01:01:21,248
Who's gonna help us?
595
01:01:21,916 --> 01:01:24,318
-Who's gonna help us?
-I don't know!
596
01:01:25,252 --> 01:01:26,387
I don't know!
597
01:01:27,888 --> 01:01:29,790
- We need help.
- Who's gonna help us?
598
01:01:29,823 --> 01:01:31,392
I don't know.
I don't know.
599
01:01:31,992 --> 01:01:34,995
I don't--
I feel-- I feel--
600
01:01:35,029 --> 01:01:37,798
I feel like
I wanna rip my hair out.
601
01:01:38,799 --> 01:01:41,168
I wanna tear my skin off
602
01:01:41,202 --> 01:01:43,003
and walk away from this shit
603
01:01:43,037 --> 01:01:44,838
I feel all the time!
604
01:01:47,908 --> 01:01:51,212
♪ Don't leave medon't leave me ♪
605
01:01:51,245 --> 01:01:53,948
♪ Don't leave medon't leave me ♪
606
01:01:55,883 --> 01:01:56,951
What?
607
01:01:57,785 --> 01:01:59,019
Where are you going?
608
01:02:03,857 --> 01:02:05,092
Where are you going?
609
01:02:06,227 --> 01:02:07,828
You just gonna stumble off?
610
01:02:08,563 --> 01:02:10,231
You gonna stumble right back.
611
01:02:15,269 --> 01:02:17,004
No one gives a shit.
612
01:02:18,305 --> 01:02:20,040
We ain't stupid.
613
01:02:20,074 --> 01:02:21,742
We know there's nothing else.
614
01:02:22,544 --> 01:02:24,078
Where are you going?
615
01:02:25,813 --> 01:02:27,815
Where are you going, Chama?
616
01:02:54,475 --> 01:02:57,411
When Abuelo died,I ran away.
617
01:03:01,282 --> 01:03:03,117
Which brought meright back to you.
618
01:03:05,085 --> 01:03:06,588
Do you want them
to think you're loca?
619
01:03:06,621 --> 01:03:08,556
Because that's what
they're gonna say, hm?
620
01:03:08,590 --> 01:03:10,457
Look at that crazy,
going around losing it.
621
01:03:20,602 --> 01:03:23,304
It's not fair.
I don't want Abuelo to go.
622
01:03:23,804 --> 01:03:25,839
You think anyone cares
about what you want?
623
01:03:29,243 --> 01:03:30,978
Your sister's not gonna
live with us anymore.
624
01:03:31,646 --> 01:03:33,447
Her father wants her.
625
01:03:33,480 --> 01:03:34,848
Take her back to Texas
and I'm too fucking tired
626
01:03:34,882 --> 01:03:35,983
to keep fighting him.
627
01:03:38,018 --> 01:03:40,120
Just us now.
628
01:03:47,294 --> 01:03:49,263
Don't be mad at what it is
because we're just paying
629
01:03:49,296 --> 01:03:50,831
for something
we did in another life.
630
01:03:52,466 --> 01:03:53,535
Here, drink this.
631
01:03:54,902 --> 01:03:56,236
Not too much.
632
01:03:56,270 --> 01:03:57,572
Just enough
to make you feel better.
633
01:04:56,964 --> 01:04:58,332
I thought
you looked thirsty, mama.
634
01:05:03,437 --> 01:05:05,272
Chart's looking like
you're eight weeks along.
635
01:05:06,006 --> 01:05:08,041
Someone talk to you
about your options?
636
01:05:11,478 --> 01:05:13,213
It's okay, mama,
take your time.
637
01:05:21,756 --> 01:05:23,023
Thank you.
638
01:05:23,691 --> 01:05:25,159
You think
you gotta keep it yourself,
639
01:05:25,192 --> 01:05:26,561
but you don't.
640
01:05:26,960 --> 01:05:29,129
I don't know what direction you
gonna go with this pregnancy,
641
01:05:29,163 --> 01:05:31,666
but we can help you
safely transition.
642
01:05:31,699 --> 01:05:33,500
Detox that stuff
out your system.
643
01:05:35,169 --> 01:05:36,604
Or you can continue your way.
644
01:05:39,273 --> 01:05:41,008
You got two options here.
645
01:05:41,041 --> 01:05:43,944
First, you leave,
then there's the second one.
646
01:05:51,385 --> 01:05:53,287
I knowI'll see her face again.
647
01:05:59,761 --> 01:06:01,128
The bedpost.
648
01:06:02,196 --> 01:06:03,297
The ceiling.
649
01:06:04,298 --> 01:06:05,399
The mole.
650
01:06:06,200 --> 01:06:07,669
The itch.
651
01:06:07,702 --> 01:06:09,236
Did you hear that?
652
01:06:14,609 --> 01:06:16,578
I knowI'll see her face again.
653
01:06:21,816 --> 01:06:24,351
The bedpost. The ceiling.
654
01:06:25,352 --> 01:06:27,154
The mole. The itch.
655
01:06:39,500 --> 01:06:41,636
I knowI'll see her face again.
656
01:06:48,442 --> 01:06:51,713
The bedpost.The ceiling. The mole.
657
01:06:51,746 --> 01:06:53,046
You're looking better.
658
01:06:56,316 --> 01:06:58,285
I knowI'll see her face again.
659
01:06:58,318 --> 01:06:59,554
I knowI'll see her face again.
660
01:06:59,587 --> 01:07:01,154
You're looking better.
661
01:07:01,188 --> 01:07:02,690
I knowI'll see her face again.
662
01:07:02,724 --> 01:07:04,157
You're looking better.
663
01:07:04,191 --> 01:07:05,325
I know
I'll see her face again!
664
01:07:20,140 --> 01:07:21,241
First time here?
665
01:07:25,479 --> 01:07:27,715
They think we're all crazy.
666
01:07:27,749 --> 01:07:29,684
Kind of makes me
wanna pop their eye out.
667
01:07:30,852 --> 01:07:32,820
I'm Nell.
668
01:07:37,324 --> 01:07:38,458
Chama.
669
01:07:39,259 --> 01:07:40,427
Like the town.
670
01:07:42,764 --> 01:07:44,164
Chama, New Mexico.
671
01:07:51,271 --> 01:07:53,173
Everything is out to beat us,
672
01:07:53,608 --> 01:07:56,276
but I'm just biding my minutes
'til I get into Guadalupe.
673
01:08:02,182 --> 01:08:03,283
Is this your first time?
674
01:08:04,484 --> 01:08:05,520
Sixth.
675
01:08:10,825 --> 01:08:12,060
See you later.
676
01:08:19,734 --> 01:08:20,802
Bedpost.
677
01:08:24,304 --> 01:08:25,405
Ceiling.
678
01:08:34,816 --> 01:08:36,283
Boredom.
679
01:08:44,826 --> 01:08:46,159
Itch.
680
01:08:49,731 --> 01:08:51,899
Not as sick.
681
01:09:02,209 --> 01:09:03,511
I was
in my Grandma's double-wide
682
01:09:03,544 --> 01:09:04,812
playing with her cat.
683
01:09:05,212 --> 01:09:06,714
Her neighbor
stopped over and asked
684
01:09:06,748 --> 01:09:07,882
if I wanted
to try something.
685
01:09:08,650 --> 01:09:10,585
I was like,
"How does it feel?"
686
01:09:10,618 --> 01:09:12,386
He was like, "Don't be a baby.
Just try it."
687
01:09:13,921 --> 01:09:15,623
So I smoked meth
out of a light bulb.
688
01:09:16,456 --> 01:09:18,425
I was like,
"I don't even feel anything."
689
01:09:19,426 --> 01:09:22,229
Then it was days later
690
01:09:22,262 --> 01:09:23,965
and there was no concept
of where time went.
691
01:09:23,998 --> 01:09:26,868
All I know
is Grandma's cat was dead
692
01:09:26,901 --> 01:09:28,670
and I missed
my 16th birthday.
693
01:09:36,878 --> 01:09:40,548
I was just thinking
how fucking awesome life is.
694
01:09:40,581 --> 01:09:43,417
I know.
We have clothes and groceries.
695
01:09:43,450 --> 01:09:45,318
Mom's not snorting
dust off the carpet
696
01:09:45,352 --> 01:09:46,954
and we have college funds.
697
01:09:46,988 --> 01:09:49,356
I'm so glad you're not
fuck ups like Tina's kids.
698
01:09:49,389 --> 01:09:51,291
They smell like garbage.
699
01:09:51,324 --> 01:09:53,293
You're also lucky to have
a house with a working heater.
700
01:09:53,326 --> 01:09:54,962
Do people
live without a heater?
701
01:09:54,996 --> 01:09:56,296
Oh, yes.
702
01:09:56,329 --> 01:09:57,965
Because usually those people
703
01:09:57,999 --> 01:10:00,300
are fucking strangers for coke.
704
01:10:01,602 --> 01:10:03,538
- Hey, Nick.
- Hello.
705
01:10:08,743 --> 01:10:10,277
Bring back a chicharrón?
706
01:10:11,344 --> 01:10:12,446
Huh?
707
01:10:13,447 --> 01:10:15,215
Are you even New Mexican?
708
01:10:16,551 --> 01:10:18,318
Born and raised.
709
01:10:18,351 --> 01:10:19,854
You're as New Mexican
as Taco Bell green chili.
710
01:10:20,555 --> 01:10:22,924
There, you see?
You do have jokes.
711
01:10:22,957 --> 01:10:24,792
They're not
necessarily good, but...
712
01:10:44,846 --> 01:10:48,315
♪ I'm gettin' better,gettin' better all the time ♪
713
01:10:52,486 --> 01:10:54,387
Hey, hey, hold up.
714
01:10:54,421 --> 01:10:55,923
Hold up.
You got a place to go?
715
01:10:57,625 --> 01:10:58,760
Yeah, sure.
716
01:10:59,160 --> 01:11:01,328
There's other
spots you can try.
717
01:11:01,361 --> 01:11:03,263
Yeah, everyone's really rolling
out the red carpet these days.
718
01:11:11,506 --> 01:11:13,473
Francis, don't.
719
01:11:13,875 --> 01:11:15,543
Come on, Francis.
720
01:11:15,576 --> 01:11:17,812
'Cause I ain't got
nothing left!
721
01:11:17,845 --> 01:11:20,047
Please,
will you just go inside?
722
01:11:20,081 --> 01:11:21,348
Francis.
723
01:11:26,521 --> 01:11:27,889
People come and go.
724
01:11:27,922 --> 01:11:29,657
If you want it, you want it.
725
01:11:29,690 --> 01:11:32,593
If you don't,
don't take someone else's bed.
726
01:11:33,194 --> 01:11:35,362
There's a box of donated
clothes in the corner.
727
01:11:41,102 --> 01:11:42,670
Looks like you made it.
728
01:12:10,064 --> 01:12:11,331
Look...
729
01:12:13,568 --> 01:12:14,669
I don't know what I'm doing.
730
01:12:16,671 --> 01:12:17,772
Are you on anything?
731
01:12:19,439 --> 01:12:20,775
No, I'm clean.
732
01:12:23,711 --> 01:12:25,345
Plus, I don't even
got any money.
733
01:12:25,947 --> 01:12:27,582
Has that ever
stopped you before?
734
01:12:31,519 --> 01:12:32,620
Whatever.
735
01:12:45,600 --> 01:12:46,767
I'm not gonna fuck you.
736
01:12:51,873 --> 01:12:52,940
I'm sorry.
737
01:13:00,815 --> 01:13:01,916
Why are you here?
738
01:13:02,415 --> 01:13:05,385
Because I need
to get my daughter back.
739
01:13:13,460 --> 01:13:14,896
Because I need to be normal.
740
01:13:18,766 --> 01:13:20,101
You know
what that word means?
741
01:13:21,202 --> 01:13:23,204
The usual, the average,
742
01:13:23,237 --> 01:13:25,806
the typical state
or condition.
743
01:13:27,541 --> 01:13:28,743
What's normal to you?
744
01:13:31,879 --> 01:13:32,980
I don't know.
745
01:13:33,981 --> 01:13:35,082
Think about it.
746
01:13:43,891 --> 01:13:46,160
Two girls
drinking at a party.
747
01:13:49,897 --> 01:13:51,699
One stops
when it's empty.
748
01:13:52,733 --> 01:13:54,835
For the other,
it never ends.
749
01:13:55,903 --> 01:13:57,538
So you want
to be able to drink--
750
01:13:57,571 --> 01:13:58,673
No!
751
01:14:00,007 --> 01:14:01,742
I don't fucking
need this shit.
752
01:14:08,816 --> 01:14:10,818
Look, it don't
have to be easy,
753
01:14:10,851 --> 01:14:13,754
but just, like,
fair, you know?
754
01:14:13,788 --> 01:14:15,790
Nothing in life is fair.
755
01:14:15,823 --> 01:14:16,924
We'll see.
756
01:14:17,959 --> 01:14:19,492
What do you know about it?
757
01:14:22,129 --> 01:14:24,732
I was diagnosed
with cancer when I was 30.
758
01:14:24,765 --> 01:14:26,067
My parents won't talk to me.
759
01:14:26,100 --> 01:14:28,602
My first boyfriend
ended in assault
760
01:14:28,636 --> 01:14:30,503
and my last one
cheated on me.
761
01:14:30,938 --> 01:14:32,540
I would love a drink,
762
01:14:32,573 --> 01:14:34,141
but I haven't had one
in 12 years.
763
01:14:34,909 --> 01:14:37,611
Nothing in life is fair,
nothing is normal.
764
01:14:38,346 --> 01:14:40,181
But there's beauty
if you fight to see it.
765
01:14:45,820 --> 01:14:48,255
You're gay?
766
01:14:48,289 --> 01:14:49,857
That's what
you took away from that?
767
01:14:54,996 --> 01:14:56,731
You know what I did
when I first got sober?
768
01:14:58,232 --> 01:14:59,667
I'm sure
you're gonna tell me.
769
01:15:03,604 --> 01:15:05,072
I wrote
a moment on each of those.
770
01:15:06,707 --> 01:15:08,809
The moments that got me down,
the ones that kept me going.
771
01:15:08,843 --> 01:15:10,511
Everything,
leading up 'til now.
772
01:15:13,347 --> 01:15:14,949
Sounds like
a lot of triggers.
773
01:15:16,150 --> 01:15:17,985
When you're done,
774
01:15:18,019 --> 01:15:19,220
stick 'em on that wall.
775
01:15:34,969 --> 01:15:36,070
What happened
when you were born?
776
01:15:38,272 --> 01:15:39,707
I tried to kill myself.
777
01:15:40,875 --> 01:15:42,309
There you go.
778
01:15:42,343 --> 01:15:43,611
Start from the beginning.
779
01:15:54,088 --> 01:15:56,891
Cord wrapped around my neck.
780
01:15:56,924 --> 01:15:58,592
It was my first struggle.
781
01:16:05,800 --> 01:16:06,901
This world.
782
01:16:08,369 --> 01:16:09,737
School.
783
01:16:09,770 --> 01:16:11,639
I failed.
784
01:16:11,672 --> 01:16:14,775
If I can fix carsI can fix anything.
785
01:16:18,646 --> 01:16:21,382
My mother's new boyfriend.
786
01:16:21,415 --> 01:16:23,751
My new boyfriend.
787
01:16:23,784 --> 01:16:26,754
He called me beautiful, ugly.
788
01:16:26,787 --> 01:16:28,289
Look at this place, mija.
789
01:16:29,924 --> 01:16:31,325
This is what you dreamed of.
790
01:16:31,358 --> 01:16:32,726
You gave me no fucking choice
791
01:16:32,760 --> 01:16:33,794
and you have to live with it!
792
01:16:33,828 --> 01:16:35,062
You did this, Elena.
793
01:16:35,096 --> 01:16:36,797
Transforming.
794
01:16:37,264 --> 01:16:38,732
Shut your fucking mouth.
795
01:16:39,767 --> 01:16:42,103
Santi. A dealer.
796
01:16:42,970 --> 01:16:44,872
My first kiss.
797
01:16:44,905 --> 01:16:47,274
Curious.
798
01:16:54,849 --> 01:16:57,751
Play the samesong over and over.
799
01:16:57,785 --> 01:16:59,653
I stuck a needle in my veins.
800
01:16:59,687 --> 01:17:01,388
My sister listened to me.
801
01:17:01,422 --> 01:17:03,691
My sisterwouldn't ask if I came home.
802
01:17:03,724 --> 01:17:05,392
Abuelo used to say
803
01:17:05,426 --> 01:17:07,128
that if you finda black feather...
804
01:17:08,229 --> 01:17:09,630
it's a warning.
805
01:17:12,733 --> 01:17:14,735
Come on, come on,
we don't have much time.
806
01:17:20,841 --> 01:17:22,243
I love you.
807
01:17:22,276 --> 01:17:24,812
I love you, I love you.
808
01:17:38,726 --> 01:17:40,794
Where are you going, Chama?
809
01:17:41,228 --> 01:17:42,730
You broke it!
810
01:17:45,299 --> 01:17:47,968
I am my mother'slost sisters.
811
01:17:54,509 --> 01:17:56,677
The dealer.
812
01:18:01,516 --> 01:18:02,816
Scared.
813
01:18:14,395 --> 01:18:15,796
Always felt like home here.
814
01:18:16,497 --> 01:18:18,999
-The river.
-It's dirty.
815
01:18:19,033 --> 01:18:20,768
Half the time
it doesn't even have water.
816
01:18:24,471 --> 01:18:26,240
You find what it is
you were looking for?
817
01:18:26,273 --> 01:18:28,709
-Don't be like that.
-Like what, Chama?
818
01:18:29,376 --> 01:18:30,411
Like your mother?
819
01:18:30,978 --> 01:18:32,279
What else have you got?
820
01:18:41,121 --> 01:18:43,490
Your Abuelo used to say,
"I don't need a watch--
821
01:18:43,525 --> 01:18:44,792
I got the river."
822
01:18:54,101 --> 01:18:55,202
If you leave...
823
01:18:56,470 --> 01:18:58,272
I don't ever
want to see you again.
824
01:19:01,375 --> 01:19:03,444
I wish I would've putmy arms around you.
825
01:19:04,445 --> 01:19:05,746
One last time.
826
01:19:07,281 --> 01:19:10,284
I wish I would have held you,felt you,
827
01:19:10,317 --> 01:19:12,286
smelled that lipstick.
828
01:19:12,319 --> 01:19:15,089
I wish I would have been homewhen they found you.
829
01:19:15,122 --> 01:19:16,991
I hated you.
830
01:19:17,024 --> 01:19:18,792
I blamed you.
831
01:19:18,826 --> 01:19:20,894
I skipped your funeraland Mari hated me.
832
01:19:23,464 --> 01:19:26,133
But I pretendin that last moment...
833
01:19:27,368 --> 01:19:29,803
you saw something beautiful.
834
01:19:56,230 --> 01:19:57,464
I used to be married.
835
01:19:59,199 --> 01:20:01,168
He's famous,
I can't tell you who it was.
836
01:20:02,537 --> 01:20:04,004
Okay.
837
01:20:05,439 --> 01:20:06,907
I was independent though.
838
01:20:07,542 --> 01:20:09,511
Yeah, I loved to work.
839
01:20:09,544 --> 01:20:12,212
I ran five restaurants.
840
01:20:12,246 --> 01:20:15,382
I mean, most people only,
like, oversee one.
841
01:20:15,416 --> 01:20:17,051
Wanna know how many I ran?
842
01:20:18,586 --> 01:20:20,254
- Five?
- Five!
843
01:20:21,155 --> 01:20:23,857
Yeah, they respected me.
844
01:20:23,891 --> 01:20:25,092
You know, like...
845
01:20:25,826 --> 01:20:27,461
I wasn't a bitch
to them or anything
846
01:20:27,494 --> 01:20:29,863
if that's
what you're thinking,
847
01:20:29,897 --> 01:20:31,131
but I was the boss.
848
01:20:32,299 --> 01:20:33,901
You should see
the way they looked at me
849
01:20:33,934 --> 01:20:35,235
when I walked into a Chili's.
850
01:20:36,503 --> 01:20:38,238
Nell likes to talk.
851
01:20:38,272 --> 01:20:40,508
A lot.
852
01:20:40,542 --> 01:20:43,143
She says she firsttried heroin at age ten.
853
01:20:43,177 --> 01:20:45,145
Given to her by a neighbor.
854
01:20:45,179 --> 01:20:48,550
She told her father,who went to her and beat her.
855
01:20:48,583 --> 01:20:50,484
She started cuttingher knuckles in high school,
856
01:20:50,518 --> 01:20:53,020
but her sister found outand threw away the razors.
857
01:20:54,656 --> 01:20:57,391
All her friendsworked at a local Chili's.
858
01:20:57,424 --> 01:20:59,493
Nell claims she did, too.
859
01:20:59,527 --> 01:21:02,963
She goes onand on and on about it.
860
01:21:02,996 --> 01:21:05,199
I just wantto scrub a toilet in peace.
861
01:21:05,232 --> 01:21:07,201
Yeah, I don't really
like Chili's.
862
01:21:09,002 --> 01:21:10,538
Oh, you're one of those...
863
01:21:11,472 --> 01:21:13,173
Applebee's motherfuckers?
864
01:21:19,346 --> 01:21:22,383
Anyways I was doing
really well, you know?
865
01:21:22,416 --> 01:21:23,651
My husband was like...
866
01:22:23,477 --> 01:22:25,547
Okay, let's check in.
867
01:22:27,481 --> 01:22:29,016
It's a cloudy day
out there today.
868
01:22:30,317 --> 01:22:31,653
What's that make
everyone think of?
869
01:22:46,534 --> 01:22:47,602
Rain.
870
01:22:49,503 --> 01:22:51,573
Makes me think of my son
playing in the puddles.
871
01:22:53,106 --> 01:22:54,208
Sweaters.
872
01:22:55,810 --> 01:22:58,278
I hate t-shirts
and short pants.
873
01:23:03,518 --> 01:23:04,985
How about you, Gata?
874
01:23:06,386 --> 01:23:07,522
Go fuck yourself.
875
01:23:10,257 --> 01:23:11,992
That's what my ma
used to always say.
876
01:23:13,828 --> 01:23:15,295
Clouds remind me of her.
877
01:23:17,431 --> 01:23:18,566
Every time I'd mess up...
878
01:23:19,366 --> 01:23:22,002
like, when she'd
catch me slipping.
879
01:23:23,203 --> 01:23:24,271
"Great...
880
01:23:25,105 --> 01:23:26,508
go fuck yourself, Gata."
881
01:23:27,709 --> 01:23:29,476
First time I came here,
882
01:23:29,511 --> 01:23:32,614
-Nick suggested that I say--
-Go love yourself.
883
01:23:33,046 --> 01:23:35,082
Yeah, so now...
884
01:23:36,684 --> 01:23:38,285
when I think about my ma...
885
01:23:39,787 --> 01:23:41,054
it's like...
886
01:23:43,290 --> 01:23:44,659
Go love yourself, Gata.
887
01:23:48,328 --> 01:23:50,030
Go love yourself back.
888
01:24:11,553 --> 01:24:12,620
Ow!
889
01:24:22,764 --> 01:24:25,065
Well, I did it,
because I wanted to.
890
01:24:25,900 --> 01:24:27,200
Um...
891
01:24:28,570 --> 01:24:31,839
I climbed out
of the second story window
892
01:24:31,873 --> 01:24:35,375
at my parents' house
and, um, I jumped.
893
01:24:35,409 --> 01:24:38,078
Probably broke,
like, two bones.
894
01:24:38,746 --> 01:24:41,649
But, you know, he was--
895
01:24:42,750 --> 01:24:44,752
he was older, uh...
896
01:24:46,219 --> 01:24:49,389
he liked me, uh,
everyone liked me.
897
01:24:52,860 --> 01:24:55,697
And, um,
I wanted to see him.
898
01:24:56,229 --> 01:25:00,568
So, yeah, we got
a little strung out...
899
01:25:03,571 --> 01:25:04,672
and, uh...
900
01:25:06,874 --> 01:25:08,241
well, I woke up
in a trailer
901
01:25:08,275 --> 01:25:10,243
with four men...
902
01:25:11,646 --> 01:25:12,780
that I didn't know.
903
01:25:14,716 --> 01:25:16,784
I don't even think
they knew my name.
904
01:25:19,053 --> 01:25:22,657
I had to take Clonazepam,
so I wouldn't get seizures.
905
01:25:23,190 --> 01:25:25,492
But one night
after my husband got rough...
906
01:25:26,628 --> 01:25:28,195
I took too many and OD'd.
907
01:25:29,262 --> 01:25:31,198
This spark plug is fried.
908
01:25:31,933 --> 01:25:33,635
I got arrested
in middle school.
909
01:25:35,335 --> 01:25:36,638
Sent to Las Nunes.
910
01:25:37,105 --> 01:25:38,706
He ordered a youth diagnostic.
911
01:25:39,574 --> 01:25:41,274
I spent Christmas in jail.
912
01:25:41,308 --> 01:25:42,710
When I got
out of the hospital...
913
01:25:43,811 --> 01:25:44,879
the doctor...
914
01:25:45,747 --> 01:25:47,481
prescribed me Clonazepam.
915
01:25:47,882 --> 01:25:49,249
But I liked jail.
916
01:25:49,884 --> 01:25:51,519
No one was gonna
molest me there.
917
01:25:52,954 --> 01:25:55,188
People always ask
what's your favorite number.
918
01:25:55,857 --> 01:25:58,158
I always thought
that was a dumbass question.
919
01:25:58,793 --> 01:25:59,894
Favorite color I get...
920
01:26:00,595 --> 01:26:02,563
but it's not like you're gonna
decorate your house
921
01:26:02,597 --> 01:26:03,698
in multiples of seven.
922
01:26:05,298 --> 01:26:07,234
But I'm a survivor of suicide.
923
01:26:08,703 --> 01:26:10,638
I tried to kill myself
eight times.
924
01:26:12,406 --> 01:26:13,841
I know
I won't live to see nine.
925
01:26:14,942 --> 01:26:16,209
So eight.
926
01:26:16,978 --> 01:26:18,478
That's my favorite.
927
01:26:18,513 --> 01:26:20,748
Okay. Should be good.
928
01:26:24,519 --> 01:26:26,754
Wow, nice.
929
01:26:27,755 --> 01:26:28,823
Thanks.
930
01:26:55,616 --> 01:26:58,351
I've already been
transferred six times.
931
01:26:58,385 --> 01:26:59,954
Does anyone
actually work there?
932
01:27:02,523 --> 01:27:03,624
Hello?
933
01:27:12,365 --> 01:27:13,467
Coke?
934
01:27:16,037 --> 01:27:17,572
Mostly opiates.
935
01:27:19,339 --> 01:27:22,777
Mm, no,
do you want a Coke?
936
01:27:25,680 --> 01:27:27,615
-Yeah, Sprite.
-Okay.
937
01:27:48,102 --> 01:27:49,737
I never worked at Chili's.
938
01:27:54,509 --> 01:27:55,710
They wouldn't hire me.
939
01:28:01,916 --> 01:28:03,751
Maybe you should have
tried Applebee's.
940
01:28:53,968 --> 01:28:55,903
He was a penguin,
but he was cold all the time,
941
01:28:55,937 --> 01:28:57,437
so he wore a hat
942
01:28:57,470 --> 01:28:59,339
and a little muffler
around his neck.
943
01:28:59,807 --> 01:29:01,642
Nobody?
944
01:29:03,410 --> 01:29:04,812
I don't really know what's
going on with my head.
945
01:29:04,846 --> 01:29:06,981
-I don't know.
-Okay.
946
01:29:07,014 --> 01:29:08,415
All right,
we're starting.
947
01:29:10,417 --> 01:29:12,053
Where's Nell at?
948
01:29:12,820 --> 01:29:14,088
She left.
949
01:29:14,822 --> 01:29:16,023
And if she left...
950
01:29:28,102 --> 01:29:30,805
Please hang upand try your call again.
951
01:29:34,075 --> 01:29:35,610
I've called CPS
a million times,
952
01:29:35,643 --> 01:29:37,144
and all I get
is the run around.
953
01:29:37,178 --> 01:29:39,446
- They're busy.
- Whose side you on?
954
01:29:42,049 --> 01:29:43,951
They won't even
let me see her, Nick.
955
01:29:43,985 --> 01:29:45,385
I gotta see her.
956
01:29:46,053 --> 01:29:47,121
You will.
957
01:30:03,871 --> 01:30:06,173
Hey, it's me.
Don't hang up.
958
01:30:06,841 --> 01:30:10,111
If you check out,
you come back by 8:00 PM.
959
01:30:10,144 --> 01:30:12,914
If you come back by 8:00 PM,
you take a test.
960
01:30:12,947 --> 01:30:15,182
Anything you bring back
will be searched.
961
01:30:15,216 --> 01:30:17,484
Anything on the list
will be confiscated.
962
01:30:18,085 --> 01:30:19,620
That includes mouthwash.
963
01:30:20,054 --> 01:30:22,590
Don't think
we're not wise on mouthwash.
964
01:31:11,939 --> 01:31:13,007
We're closed.
965
01:31:13,708 --> 01:31:14,842
That's okay.
966
01:31:16,711 --> 01:31:18,079
I don't got any money.
967
01:31:18,980 --> 01:31:20,081
I have somewhere to be.
968
01:31:20,514 --> 01:31:21,983
Can't get
caught up in you right now.
969
01:31:22,016 --> 01:31:23,617
I'm not in any trouble.
970
01:31:24,719 --> 01:31:27,021
Well, you know what I mean.
971
01:31:30,558 --> 01:31:32,193
I heard you've been
checking up on Nevaeh.
972
01:31:34,195 --> 01:31:36,630
Yeah. I understand.
973
01:31:37,465 --> 01:31:39,266
You're incognizant,
you don't give a shit.
974
01:31:40,167 --> 01:31:42,136
I have enough of my own
problems to worry about.
975
01:31:45,906 --> 01:31:47,508
I can't be your broken record.
976
01:32:04,225 --> 01:32:05,760
Mari.
977
01:32:14,301 --> 01:32:15,636
I got shoes on.
978
01:32:38,793 --> 01:32:40,661
I keepthinking about Toaster.
979
01:32:41,695 --> 01:32:42,797
What she told me.
980
01:32:44,231 --> 01:32:46,634
We gotta fightuntil we fucking win.
981
01:33:14,095 --> 01:33:15,763
Don't look at me like that.
982
01:33:15,796 --> 01:33:17,331
She's taking a shit.
She'll be--
983
01:33:17,364 --> 01:33:19,300
Where are you taking us Nick?
Disneyland?
984
01:33:19,333 --> 01:33:21,402
Yeah, right, I bet he's gonna
take us to an NA meeting.
985
01:33:21,435 --> 01:33:22,937
Yeah,
I'd be down for that.
986
01:33:22,970 --> 01:33:24,105
Come on.
987
01:33:24,573 --> 01:33:26,140
- Let's go to Splash Mountain.
- Yep, yep!
988
01:33:26,173 --> 01:33:28,075
Come on, Gata.
Smile for me.
989
01:33:28,543 --> 01:33:30,678
Here's your smile, Shorty.
990
01:33:30,711 --> 01:33:32,746
Don't be like that.
Just one. Don't be like that!
991
01:33:32,780 --> 01:33:34,381
All right. Everybody in.
992
01:33:34,415 --> 01:33:35,850
Hey, what about Chama?
993
01:33:35,883 --> 01:33:36,984
Yeah, where's Chama at?
994
01:33:44,024 --> 01:33:45,326
It's fucking
hot in here.
995
01:33:47,828 --> 01:33:48,929
Come on, girl.
996
01:33:52,433 --> 01:33:54,368
I like the sun on my face.
997
01:33:57,738 --> 01:34:00,741
It calmsthe pounding in my chest.
998
01:34:01,876 --> 01:34:03,344
I wonder where we're going.
999
01:34:06,180 --> 01:34:08,983
If Nick really gets it.
1000
01:34:09,016 --> 01:34:11,085
I told him the truth.
1001
01:34:11,118 --> 01:34:13,888
About the doctor.That I'm scared.
1002
01:34:25,099 --> 01:34:27,301
The sun feelsbright on my face.
1003
01:34:48,756 --> 01:34:50,724
Take this over Magic Kingdom.
1004
01:34:50,758 --> 01:34:52,726
Damn, this shit's no joke.
1005
01:34:56,363 --> 01:34:57,431
Come on, Lucy.
1006
01:35:36,437 --> 01:35:39,039
There are thousands
of women that can't have kids.
1007
01:35:42,476 --> 01:35:43,978
And God's got jokes.
1008
01:35:48,882 --> 01:35:50,017
You want this baby?
1009
01:35:57,124 --> 01:35:58,993
But I don't deserve
either of them.
1010
01:36:06,267 --> 01:36:08,435
My first boyfriend
ended in assault.
1011
01:36:11,472 --> 01:36:12,773
Yeah, uh...
1012
01:36:14,975 --> 01:36:16,410
I wasn't the victim.
1013
01:36:23,618 --> 01:36:24,918
I was 18.
1014
01:36:25,620 --> 01:36:26,920
High.
1015
01:36:28,956 --> 01:36:30,558
Made a terrible decision,
1016
01:36:30,592 --> 01:36:34,161
ended up hurting the one person
that I truly loved.
1017
01:36:40,200 --> 01:36:42,903
Spent some time locked up,
hating myself.
1018
01:36:44,305 --> 01:36:46,073
Yeah, that never
really goes away.
1019
01:36:49,977 --> 01:36:53,447
But if you can turn guilt,
1020
01:36:53,480 --> 01:36:55,316
hate into something else...
1021
01:37:00,354 --> 01:37:02,557
you can do
something for the world
1022
01:37:02,590 --> 01:37:05,092
that's beyond yourself.
1023
01:37:15,402 --> 01:37:16,904
We're at the bottom of a hill.
1024
01:37:18,640 --> 01:37:19,907
Can you climb?
1025
01:39:32,339 --> 01:39:33,440
The 15th.
1026
01:39:35,476 --> 01:39:36,544
Next Friday.
1027
01:39:39,246 --> 01:39:40,481
You'll get to see
your daughter.
1028
01:40:17,417 --> 01:40:19,486
My name isn't really Chama.
1029
01:40:22,289 --> 01:40:25,425
I saw this postcard
once of a mother and daughter
1030
01:40:25,459 --> 01:40:27,695
standing outside
Chama, New Mexico.
1031
01:40:29,296 --> 01:40:31,265
I wanted to live
in that postcard.
1032
01:40:36,203 --> 01:40:37,304
I talk to my mom.
1033
01:40:39,807 --> 01:40:41,074
And tell her things...
1034
01:40:42,276 --> 01:40:43,410
but not in real life...
1035
01:40:44,144 --> 01:40:46,246
because this reality
took her away.
1036
01:40:50,284 --> 01:40:52,687
I talk to her,
because I got to try
1037
01:40:52,720 --> 01:40:54,454
to understand my scars...
1038
01:40:56,290 --> 01:40:58,158
and not just pick at my scabs.
1039
01:41:06,534 --> 01:41:08,101
I've been through
a lot of shit.
1040
01:41:10,638 --> 01:41:12,507
I've put people through...
1041
01:41:13,808 --> 01:41:15,075
a lot more.
1042
01:41:17,812 --> 01:41:19,079
It's not fair.
1043
01:41:21,849 --> 01:41:23,283
But like Nick says...
1044
01:41:25,252 --> 01:41:26,386
"Nothing is fair...
1045
01:41:27,454 --> 01:41:28,590
nothing is normal."
1046
01:41:33,895 --> 01:41:35,162
What have I done?
1047
01:41:38,766 --> 01:41:39,834
What am I doing?
1048
01:41:42,937 --> 01:41:44,504
If I'm not Chama, then...
1049
01:41:47,508 --> 01:41:48,610
who am I?
1050
01:42:03,524 --> 01:42:04,626
I'm an addict.
1051
01:42:08,930 --> 01:42:10,765
I've slept
on the streets, but...
1052
01:42:12,399 --> 01:42:13,768
I'm not homeless.
1053
01:42:17,672 --> 01:42:18,940
I'm terrified.
1054
01:42:25,847 --> 01:42:27,147
We need help.
1055
01:42:28,950 --> 01:42:30,217
I will help.
1056
01:42:41,829 --> 01:42:42,897
I'm here...
1057
01:42:43,898 --> 01:42:45,198
and I will be a mother.
1058
01:42:47,702 --> 01:42:48,770
I am a mother.
1059
01:45:51,018 --> 01:45:54,889
♪ Flower of the flowersflowers from above ♪
1060
01:45:54,922 --> 01:45:59,426
♪ Today and forever,know you have my love ♪
1061
01:45:59,459 --> 01:46:03,496
♪ Flower of the flowersflowers from above ♪
1062
01:46:03,531 --> 01:46:07,802
♪ Today and forever,know you have my love ♪
1063
01:47:21,208 --> 01:47:23,177
- Love you, Peggy.
- Love you, Mama.
1064
01:47:37,725 --> 01:47:42,797
♪ You came into my life ♪
1065
01:47:50,838 --> 01:47:56,210
♪ Like you've always been ♪
1066
01:47:56,243 --> 01:48:01,481
♪ By my side ♪
1067
01:48:03,751 --> 01:48:10,224
♪ I remember youI remember you ♪
1068
01:48:10,257 --> 01:48:16,030
♪ I remember youI remember you ♪
1069
01:48:16,063 --> 01:48:21,702
♪ All right ♪
1070
01:48:22,703 --> 01:48:27,742
♪ All right ♪
1071
01:48:30,911 --> 01:48:35,216
♪ Came into my life ♪
1072
01:48:36,917 --> 01:48:43,324
♪ And it became clear to me ♪
1073
01:48:43,357 --> 01:48:48,729
♪ Like you've always been ♪
1074
01:48:48,763 --> 01:48:54,135
♪ By my side ♪
1075
01:48:56,604 --> 01:49:03,077
♪ I remember youI remember you ♪
1076
01:49:03,110 --> 01:49:08,883
♪ I remember youI remember you ♪
1077
01:49:08,916 --> 01:49:13,921
♪ All right ♪
1078
01:49:15,689 --> 01:49:19,126
♪ All right ♪
1079
01:49:49,023 --> 01:49:54,695
♪ You came into my life ♪
1080
01:49:55,963 --> 01:50:02,770
♪ And it became clear to me ♪
1081
01:50:02,803 --> 01:50:09,009
♪ That you'd always be ♪
1082
01:50:09,043 --> 01:50:14,615
♪ By my side ♪
1083
01:50:16,884 --> 01:50:23,390
♪ I remember youI remember you ♪
1084
01:50:23,424 --> 01:50:29,230
♪ I remember youI remember you ♪
1085
01:50:29,263 --> 01:50:34,635
♪ All right ♪
1086
01:50:36,337 --> 01:50:40,908
♪ All right ♪
1087
01:50:43,077 --> 01:50:47,982
♪ All right ♪
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